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=====May Verse of the month for the Mandisa Word Warriors found @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020.=====

Ephesians 1:5-6 (TBT)

^5–6For it was always in his perfect plan^[^a^] to adopt^[^b^] us as his delightful children, through our union with Jesus, the Anointed One, so that his tremendous love that cascades over us would glorify his grace^[^c^]—for the same love he has for his Beloved One, Jesus, he has for us. And this unfolding plan brings him great pleasure!

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Date: 05/31//2020 Sunday

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

2 Thessalonians 3:16 (TLB) ¹⁶May the Lord of peace himself give you his peace no matter what happens. The Lord be with you all.

Job 32:21 (TLB)^21-22Don’t insist that I be cautious lest I insult someone, and don’t make me flatter anyone. Let me be frank lest God should strike me dead.

1 Thessalonians 4:16-17 (TLB)¹⁶For the Lord himself will come down from heaven with a mighty shout and with the soul-stirring cry of the archangel and the great trumpet-call of God. And the believers who are dead will be the first to rise to meet the Lord. ¹⁷Then we who are still alive and remain on the earth will be caught up with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air and remain with him forever.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/AFiwZow4d2E “Wake Up Sleeper” @Austin French

https://youtu.be/uZ55mDL7dA0 “The Blessing” @Kari Jobe and Cody Carnes – Elevation Worship

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Jesus, for this new day and all that have come to pass. Thank you for any you have up ahead. No matter what I feel as I slowly starve from lack of what I have grown so accustomed to. Surrounding up with my brothers and sisters. Lifting others up as they lift me up and me steadfast in and with you. No matter if I am the strength, the positive the hopeful in this house. I thank you for all the gadgets and gizmos. That I am able to come out and dig into worship and sermons. Be it my local church home or that of some really great shakers and movers around the country available out online.

Thank you for all the blessings that we have not become a 3^rd world country yet or that where our government takes full control and locks us away when we violate their rules.

We do not have to prove anything; however, in this world we have always had to protect ourselves! More than just trying to survive and stay out of the way of other peoples anger, or just trying to be seen and the vial actions they are taken when they do not fully get why they feel destruction and even death to the beauty and innocence that God sacrificed to be.

Justice is needed Lord, YOUR justice. I will never understand why so much hate can be bottled up in any one being you allowed to have life here and now.

It does not matter if they are labeled a Unabomber, Charles Manson, David Koresh, Jim Jones or today’s modern day KKK demons in uniform employed to serve and protect with all that bottled up hatred that becomes released upon those least suspecting.

Are they no better than the Las Vegas shooter opening fire, or all the other of so many injustices across the land that God allowed us to have?

Oh yes Satan will take the easiest direct root, straight through all those that are not paying attention or grounded in the true Christ and what the intent of his death on that cross truly was to mean.

We all bleed red, there is no way around it. At what point did our parents stop teaching and showing families stay connected and help grow forward and not getting caught up or allowing those they care, and love get caught up becoming injustice.

Not all people are good, not all people are bad. Not all men cheat on their wives, not all women cheat on their husbands. Not all tough looking people are hard as we label the book cover.

We can assume allot things in this world. We can react and move in positive or negative directions. We can speak life, or we can speak out and stir up the bees hive and those that cannot truly dive in and learn and think for themselves will react accordingly.

The fact is if we do not stand for something why are we here. Right?

Even if we do not fully know why we run out that door to join a protest; but just to be part of something to make us feel better than if we did not.

Do not get me wrong. Be careful what you see, be careful what you hear. Truly.

Be careful who you surround yourself with and why. If you cannot speak life and reflect what you are speaking. You will not have a future to make the difference of why you are doing what your doing in the first place.

It is easy to get caught up; it is easy to get on the band wagon be it today’s protests and violence and /or especially political agendas.

We do not always have reasons why people do the things we do; no matter if they feed or kill the meaning of life and imperfect souls in this imperfect world.

Do I believe in justice? I believe our justice system has been flawed and broken for a very long time. As is our government. But what are we really doing about it. Are we acting on the rights we have been given and voting out and creating new laws that are meaningful and help the land grow? NO, we are not.

Instead we are using politics as the scenario are just out there talking trash digging up everyone’s dirt and still allowing what was 50 years ago tearing one nation under God lose the liberty it was created to be blessed with.

Term limits absolutely; Equality across the land absolutely; In all things, not just a few chosen.

2020 brings a unique time that will always be remembered in the history books. That 100^th year came to be and another plague even if man made and released came to be killing millions or more in the lands. Those who are broken, violent, and filled with hate and contempt are unleashed upon those who trusted them to protect and serve. Are suffering and dying at the hands of evil.

You do not have to be a Christ follower to see we are allowing the darkness to run this land.

What do I get being a Christ follower and placing all my hope in God; Peace knowing I AM NOT DEFINDED BY THIS WORLD. I believe in someone and something greater that has always been there through the good and bad; to know WE GET TO CHOOSE!

We can allow ourselves to be stuck right in the middle of this big old sticky bun and take the easy route of being and doing what everyone else does. Or we can dare to stand alone if that is what it takes and speak life, find the truth and in love with our brothers and sisters stand firm and speak life no matter how hard it becomes.

This world is broken, as are all the vessels that are allowed to walk, crawl, run within it!

Turn back to the one who allowed its creation and before you act in anything, especially that which will do harm to others. And seek truth and God’s will.

I do not have the answers I can only pray and wipe the tears away each time I see injustice. Be it human trafficking and rape or murder of babies, children or those that cannot protect themselves. The injustice of George Floyd or Archie Williams or story after story of those children used and abused by the parents that birthed them.

Horrific stories of elder abuse, animal abuse. Even when it comes to capital those in power who abuse their power and prove in this world there are not enough who will openly stand firm in faith and speak up when wrongs are done allowing unnecessary loss and betrayals.

It is no wonder those who have what we think is all invest in their secret getaways because they do not want to get the dirt and pain on them. What happened to standing up and speaking out for our brothers and sisters.

No matter what we all bleed the same. You do not have to believe in what in what I believe, like what I like or even care what I care about.

You too have been blessed to think and choose as I do or even if you are in one of those situations where someone is always bullying you and forcing you into things you do not want to do.

Meet Jesus and speak to Him right where you are through your heart if you cannot speak your words and ask Him in to fill you up, give you strength, give you escape, give you direction.

If you are one just sitting by and watching any injustices. I don’t have to judge you. We will all be judged the day we take our last breath. You can believe what you wish. I believe in Karma and it is called Gods Will.

The same judgment that has been written for more than 2000 years. I have been blessed to live through some pretty scary situations and that which should not have allowed me here and now.

I have believed in prayer long before I knew who the God I was praying to was. I have been blessed to see other prayers and tears turn in to praise.

So, no matter what day gets me up, or what I feel when I do. Be it sad from what the world has going on, or that of what I am struggling with personally. Never will I stop hoping the God who gave His son so we can live. I will never stop believing in Jesus Christ and all that was written, all that he walked, talked, lived, suffered, died, and now lives within my spirit.

I just pray that more of us that call ourselves children of God will pray harder, louder, and stand firm for a future that soon will be no more if we do not.

I pray we stop the madness and how that will happen I do not know. I know if it was my son or daughter no matter how grown they become if it were mine out there on the news disrespecting those just trying to do their jobs. Be it working in a store, on the back of a garbage truck or to serve and protect. I would be snatching them up and reminding them what respect and moral values for life really means.

There is no reason we should be where we are today people. But we are so caught up in taking the freedoms we have been given to change what has meaning into something, so we never have to be accountable. Then we release rage against rage. Not caring what is pure, what is good, what is or was once beautiful be destroyed.

Anyway. I still am blessed beyond all deserving. I live in even if it is a broken humanity. I live in a country where humanity has freedoms that many others do not.

I have been given another new day here the last day in May 2020. How many more I will get. I do not know. But I know this. I know that the same peace that fills me here and now even if it is a mixed-up mess. Is the same peace and then some that I will be blessed with on the other side? That does not mean I do not feel or hurt or even get anxious about family, friends and even sometimes choices I have made.

But I know who is in control and believe in the same Mercy and Grace He has given me. Just because things are going not according to my expectations in this world. I am not jumping ship because others think I should. God has been and always will be my healer. He sustains me and it is His will alone that gives me the abilities to keep getting up and trying make it in this life.

And I am this is true. Just as I pray you find God to and who you are in Him and find your peace, direction, and next steps as well.

No matter what if things are hard always pray harder until you see change. There is nothing in this world that can be given or taken that means more to the maker of all the universe than you do right here right now.

Peace and love always be with you. May you find what you are looking for and it be filled through and with Jesus. Amen

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Date: 05/30//2020 Saturday

https://www.facebook.com/newlifeccspringhill/videos/607328389885365/. Weekend services

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Hebrews 13:15 (NKJV)¹⁵Therefore by Him let us continually offer the sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of our lips, ^[a]giving thanks to His name.

Psalm 56:4 (NIV) ⁴In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?

Psalm 119:27 (NIV)²⁷Cause me to understand the way of your precepts, that I may meditate on your wonderful deeds.

2 Chronicles 16:9 (NIV)⁹For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him. You have done a foolish thing, and from now on you will be at war.”

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/PJbtWOSYjBM “God With Us” @Terrian

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for one more day up.   Even with chaos of puppy craziness and noise before even being awake.

As I start getting things settled and finding my coffee so, I can truly wake up; I sit listening to your beautiful nature singing in the dark.

Finally calming the crazy for few minutes and finding my way to my words waiting to come. Good or bad what was is somewhere in the mix of that rush that woke and the calm now upon me.

Taken back in time reminiscing in the time determination that no one or nothing would destroy what was left of me.    Remembering many times putting on that CD and cruising down the road singing loud no matter who would be thinking of me; I had enough. https://youtu.be/2en4ofkt1eo “You’ll Think Of Me” @Keith Urban

As I journey back even to when I was just a kid, and my favorite tunes of Fleetwood Mac https://youtu.be/k4M53xndqiU “Landslide” @Fleetwood Mac, and loving the blues listening to Eric Clapton https://youtu.be/l4hv_8TXFWg “Bell Bottom Blues” @Eric Clapton
brings me to so many places I once was.

To all the places I had no clue who I was talking to or what would come. But knowing there were Angels of a God that I would pray to and for my future, my children’s future. https://youtu.be/y-EeeUKrFAQ “She Talks To Angels” @The Black Crows

Lord I may not have been walking the walk with you back then; but what beautiful memories come to life.    Even with the waves of crazy that came through those years.

Long before even having kids to during the times trying to make it hard with my sons’ father.

One thing is for sure even still today. You can never make anyone love you.   What is love anyway when you are a misguided teenager. https://youtu.be/3YxaaGgTQYM   “Bring Me To Life” @Evanescence Times were so hard yet so much simpler back then.

No in between.   That love hate relationship; break up make up break up until there was nothing to break. The pounding base, or rhythm of the blues that played out in any day back then.

Not knowing who God really was you tend to just do things and the only time you have waves of emotion is when you are in the thick of intimacy or when what you thought was love was falling apart and the unspoken expectations are totally not what you would have imagined.

But even back then you God would allowed me up to turn the page to another day.
Thanks Bob Segar you rock even if Metallica put a new twist on your originality. https://youtu.be/sMqNFAU0tOw “Turn The Page” @Metallica

Here I am flying through those times where now I see my son jamming to Metallica in the backroom. Learning to play guitar and not really getting that music at the time it was in progress; but seeing today what talent he has been blessed with.

Very blessed to know how much music does for us in each phase of our lives.

Imagine that musical rollercoaster taking you through time looking back, looking forward and here I am today. Going back to even becoming a teen and all our friends sitting around getting high rocking out and singing out to Janice still smiling how much fun ignorance was and you kept us Father God. https://youtu.be/CQ-QfMv7Fzw “Me and Bobby McGee” @Janis Joplin I cannot answer for what anyone else knew back then, but how crazy we loved all that music and things that went with it; but never did we understand when Janice and Jimmy pass on just what a waste of opportunity and talent that went with them.

In my own uneducated appreciation for all that rock and roll and concerts I would get to.

Even just those times when I escaped my own misfortunes cranking the music as loud as I could get it and being absorbed Be it dancing around or even as time changed and I would find myself out singing during those karaoke moments.

Yes, even those times I should not have been after too many shooters. Yes, that was me; on the pool league, dart league even hiring myself at the pub. My sassy and bold tiny self-back then. Did not need the job but could not deal with what season I was in. At one point putting the pool table in the living room as the primary furniture and when I was not working or at the pub, I was shooting pool and hanging.

I had given up on that white picket fence and a caring loving husband way back. It seemed all I would get was those that just wanted to have fun; and I learned to put all that had broken me way in the back while out dancing, singing carrying on with friends that well; you get it. The circle of influence changes as time goes on. If you are not doing what they are doing, life just changes.

I was divorced, broken, fighting forward, and trying to find my purpose all over again. Looking back now I was just masking all that was slowly taking me under even though I was doing the best I ever had during those times. Where what was not being said was screaming in the silence. https://youtu.be/c8uAnqwWERM “The Sound Of Silence” @Disturbed

As I am riding this track this morning so many songs take me through the journey.

Is it you Jesus telling me my story in flashbacks bits and pieces; I learned at some point I could not do this life on my own and getting fillers along the way just was not working but adding to the already heavy broken layers.

I am today very thankful for every broken moment, spirit, bone, story line, dream, relationship and on and on! Walking forward in 1995 I had no clue what was about to happen, but I knew changes were in the wind.

Right up to 2005 the shaking was evident and painful. Taking me to the moments when I was dealing with all of me. https://youtu.be/xihdayqBo0E “The Drifter” @December Radio

Against so many odds, not knowing where I was going, not understanding how I got to where I was; yet clearly remembering all the times I wanted to check out. Not fully understanding why even as a child the life I had. Yet when the transition started You gave me so much peace even if I had no understanding. Just knowing songs singing about how far from heaven meant the world to me. https://youtu.be/FnmQfKOtpf4 “Heaven” @Salvador

As crazy as any of this may seem. I spent my youth and young adult life chasing just wanting to be loved; then working my way out of and through responsibilities and jams my choices got me in. We all got a story. Mine in summary I am blonde by choice.

I learned early on not to get attached, and never believe anything lasts forever. Unfortunately, even when I stepped out of bounds, I learned lessons on how to build up that wall. And you know its really not that bad.

That wall got me closer to Jesus, and it was every stone or pillar I built up that allowed me to fall in love with myself and truly know what life and love from the inside out feels like. Even if I do not understand it even half the time. But it is when you just know you know you want and need everything God has https://youtu.be/lw4WvZIBpFw “My Hearts Desire” @Newsboys

I could go on and on, now that the key that triggered pandora’s box started leaking out all those stops along this ride. I can assure there has been a pretty good balance of peaks and valleys.

Tears of joy, and that of what hurt so bad I somedays do not know if I can move again.

I stopped chasing love a long time ago; and every now and again I allow myself to get a little bit closer to anyone I connect. You see when I stay distance never will I have those invisible expectations. But when I do the only rule I keep remaining in touch, is just always keep it real. Unfortunately, life is never easy nor are people are what they seem to be.

We all got a story and reason for why we do the things we do; or do not! We all flip the switch at any given time.

We all get to choose!

On any given day we can take the ride we are on and choose how it will direct our go forward steps; or just spin in place and let the world cover us filling us up with stress, anger, bitterness, hurt even getting even; or we can shake it off and know give it all back to the maker who gives us live and freedom of choice.

We can get back up, brush off and know God is and always has been with us! Letting Jesus carry the burdens he took on that cross so we can keep shining on. Doing the best, we can, with what we are given.

So, my journey is still teaching me who I am; and that if I am going to see the good in people to do so from a distance. Stop giving pieces of me away. To let everything that comes to me, it must go through Christ first.

Even the lack of understanding in today’s world and all the brokenness that has created so much open hate and destruction in a world we were given to have life in.

I have no real answers for myself most days; but for many going through it. Whatever It may be! When times are hard; pray harder. If you do not have a relationship with Jesus Christ. Start one here and now. To get really connected and to the Father. It is written you must go through His son Jesus.

I may not have any sensible answers for all of you that know everything or even have been trained up and got it. But I know this. It is not what we do, what we say, what we are that gives us eternal peace. It is Jesus alone.

Dig in and challenge yourself and the world. Find out who Jesus really is yourself.

Surround yourself when you can with positive influence and fellow believers in the book written unchanged and the story of Jesus for more than 2000 years.

No matter who you know will think of you or what they think of you. It is only what the creator of all things that truly matters.

That does not mean you stop living; it actually allows you to start living!

Stay blessed, stay real and keep growing forward. Even in such uncertain times.

By the way, those of you out there and you know who you are that are in my business, and even trying to steal my identity. Yes, phishing for anything you can thinking you are going to get somewhere with what has already been stolen. Get your own life please. I gave all I am and have away a long time ago. All I have is me and that and a cup of coffee may get you a smile for a while.

Regardless of your motives for doing what you do. I wish you blessings and that you find in humility the blessings that only which God can truly give you. Just as I pray justice sand peace for whatever days you have left.

Till next time. Know you are worth more than any scheme, or anything anyone in this earth can give or take from you. Just be the real you!

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Date: 05/29/2020 Friday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/4Q9itF7tx0o “You Keep Hope Alive” @Mandisa, Jon Reddick

https://youtu.be/DyzbpBR1KOI “Heal Our Land” @Kari Jobe

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Jesus, for giving me this new day; and for all who are even reading this right now. Thank you for giving them air in their lungs and the ability to get back up and make, take and be opportunity on behalf of your blessings.

Lord in a world full of hate can we not be a light. Jesus no matter what the heart is saying for those who believe and love you; their souls can only see the darkness in the world full of what is lost.   Show us Jesus what to do next, beyond face down praying for the floods to come and stop the madness. Washing away the darkness did not work the first time; and oh, how we need you know Lord. But in this world full of misguided hate. Lead your people to be the light. https://youtu.be/fkBtrPWSKM8 “Be A Light” @Thomas Rhett ft. Keith Urban, Chris Tomlin, Hillary Scott, and Reba McEntire

All your People Jesus, https://youtu.be/QATpIMDTtt8 “All My People” @GabeReal ft. DJ. Maj not mine but all your people need to come together but it starts with me.   https://youtu.be/xiYWfpjeiQw “Starts With Me” @TobyMac ft. Aaron Cole

Lord you have a purpose and plan greater than we will ever be.   We have lost sight of what that is.   Forgetting all the blessings you give us in our talents and abilities. All the flash and cash that surround us even in the darkness.   We have forgotten where it all comes from and stop to give you praise seeking mercy and grace.    Please Lord bring the rain whatever that may be.   Protect your children, guide the innocent that need and want you. Banish all that is not your will.
https://youtu.be/JtjxCx-7Hps “Bring The Rain” @MercyMe

Your Love Father!   Your love is the reason we even exist. There will always be something that distracts and derails us. But Jesus we must find hope again and come to see you.   As the vail was torn, and all you have proven we must keep believing. https://youtu.be/n3vTmjcv1fk
“Reason” @Unspoken

There is nothing of even our deepest desires or wildest dreams that you cannot fulfill. https://youtu.be/5SLlXvYZ_g8 “Wildest dreams” @Ryan Stevenson
In your time Jesus. Not mine or any of our own. Even with what has transpired, and you have allowed. Just look where it has gotten us today. Yes, there are many great souls out there, not doing bad things just genuinely good, but not enough Father.   Just not enough in this messed up world we have been given Jesus.

I know wherever I go https://youtu.be/S15mk_5nTdY “Wherever I Go” @Dan Bremnes
you will always be with me or any of us that call upon your name.   So why is it we are so lost?

Why is it that we are still dealing with hate and racism when we have all be created as one?
Why is it when people say they want to make a difference; yet so misguided they end up out in the middle of what is making a bigger mess than that of the injustice done in the first place.

Yes, in the middle of a pandemic and world crises; we still have hate crimes taking place against humanity.   I just cannot get it; and watching the news where more destructive and brokenness destroying innocence and hope.    WE ALL BLEED RED, WE ALL BLEED THE SAME! https://youtu.be/HVKuA1s5I3o   “Bleed The Same” @Mandisa ft. TobyMac and Kirk Franklin Jesus we so need you here and now.     It is not about the speaking out and stepping up.   But why the violence and just taking and making things that have nothing to do with the cause of what a soul lost for no valid reason.

Yes, our crimes all need to be punished; but it is not that of anyone in this world to openly be a vigilante releasing all their hate, hurts or hang-ups on any one soul.

Everyone of us are guilty of something. Be it an action, deed, word what whatever we are purposing for.   Some getting caught up not realizing and others it is their mission to do what the can in deception because they do not have the courage to stand for themselves and who they are truly meant to be.

Yes, these are my thoughts flowing through this mind maze and I know deep inside I don’t need to worry. I know that Jesus will be right on time. Even in our suffering and pain. Jesus himself suffered more than we will ever understand or feel. https://youtu.be/2SVRCZog5Z4    “Right On Time” @Aaron Cole ft. TobyMac   We must pray harder even when we smile and find our way through whatever will come.    Doing nothing at all speaks louder than that of what those are guilty of doing in the dark or wide open.   It is more than going out and looting and taking what is not ours.   Making the same brothers and sisters that once helped you suffer because your anger is unleashed.

I do not have the answers at all; so am I feeling the disgust and disappointment that repeatedly pops up due to the behaviors of others in this world we share.

Do I mean it when I cry out asking Jesus to come flood this world and wash away the sickness, the virus and all that is evil? Absolutely.

Even if that means I am take with it; I know where I will forever be on the other side of eternity. Do You?

I smile https://youtu.be/mjurY5mR2hs “Smile” @Sidewalk Prophets because I know who I belong to; even in the days it hurts really bad.   I wish I could smile more often.   Lately like for many it has been a challenge. But my fears, my doubts, my pains are irrelevant to what the bigger picture is.

Do I think far to long and too hard many days? I sure do and blessed to have that ability. Even if it does not get me far some days.

So, as I closed out my day yesterday and reminded again this morning where I have been and what life was before I started walking with God.   Even if I would never have been the person in the crowd doing vile things just because I wanted to release my feelings and everyone else is there doing it too.

No, I have always dared to be different. Yes, I have been forgiven for many things and even in my youth, caught up with the lost children of this world.     I know that God is with Us and He alone keeps hope alive when we allow Him to live within us.

Beyond and through all the injustices, brokenness, suffering and even personal losses.    It is You Jesus that gave up your physical life to come live within us and allow mare mortals to foolishly be misguided in a world that God holds within His very hands.

What If God lets go of it and us? What then? Will this world that we think is spiraling out of control with what we call Humanity truly start free falling and we all like in a theme park ride free fall to our demise?

Are we already there and we just have not caught on yet?

What will it take Jesus to have Your will wash through this land?   May justice be served and guidance be in led by your light alone.

May we stand even if alone against all that is morally valuable and sanctify, preserving the world for future generations. Learning to truly be one here and now!

https://youtu.be/j2W88vWt30A “Healer” @Kari Jobe

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Colossians 2:6-8 (NIV) Spiritual Fullness in Christ

⁶So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, ⁷rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. ⁸See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forces^[a] of this world rather than on Christ.

Psalm 103:17-18 (NIV)¹⁷But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord’s love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children’s children— ¹⁸with those who keep his covenant and remember to obey his precepts.

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Date: 05/28/2020 Thursday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/DtA6GdsdTs0
“Higher Love” @Keith Urban | One World: Together at Home

https://youtu.be/VZXRIw5uBuY
“There Was Jesus” @Zach Williams | Dolly Parton

https://youtu.be/0Ec6xT9ixGE
“Lose My Soul” @TobyMac

https://youtu.be/ABWnLjXer10
“Spirit Lead Me” @Michael Ketterer and Influence Music

https://youtu.be/qgsmx5BIG0E
“Indestructible Soul” @Jeremy Camp

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

There are not enough times I can repeat myself in saying thank you Lord for this new day you have allowed me back up again.

Lord first, please show this land what we need to do. How do we become the loving humans that you gave your life to be?

This world has so much unnecessary hate, hidden agendas and hurt in in it.

We say we believe in you and many even call themselves Christians, many go to church every week and say they got this and know they are blessed because they have a relationship with you.

All the while they are casting judgments on others and what others are doing and not working on themselves.

Always looking around with contempt or wondering why others are looking at them.

And they you have those Father, those that think they are above all else and that they can do and say whatever they wish to others. No matter if it hurts them or kills them. Those that team up with their band of brothers or sisters in their days work, their gang, their posse, there click, their family, their band.

You know who Jesus.   Those that are out there doing things because they think they have a right to demand respect and good treatment while all the while they are doing injustice to anyone they come near for their own personal gains.

Those gains may be in their bank account, or their own emotional ego accounts.   Either way while the world of humanity breaks more and more each day.   Never becoming what you died for.

Lord, This pandemic was not enough to get the attention and bring us all to the foot of the cross.

It in fact is only adding more sadness and broken hearts, broken homes, and in even in many cases broken bodies to the pile.   Those who care still care, those who refuse to get help or even want to know you. Are becoming more vile each day.

How can one stay positive in you Father if they cannot even find you? Yes, I get it; we all want something in this world right~

Who am I to even think of so much? Just knowing we are in a day when we cannot even trust our own family and we those we call friends in some cases one minute are for you and the next doing whatever and whoever they can behind your back just so they can feed the demons they carry.

For all those that do not purpose after what others do or have, but continually put themselves in harms way just to feel some sort of attention. A surgery here a surgery there.   Always something wrong. Always needing or something going on.

How did we get something so beautiful that you intended for all mankind Lord, so lost and wrong?

How did we become a society where we watch, we see, we hear? How do we do nothing for all that is good, all that is pure, all that is equal, all that is for you and with you Jesus?

How is it the least expected step up and step out reflecting your light and faith; while those you believe in just stay in the walls of their swim lanes playing it safe so no one can find anything out that my blemish they too are human.

This morning Father God: it appears I have more questions of why and why not?   Why must it be that way or this way?   Why not step up and step out and fear only you Jesus?

Who am I in this world, that I am not doing more or should I even question what I am doing or not doing?

Who am I that I see those who teach your gospel Lord in one room and are talking about the character and deeds of another?   What does this all mean in this really messed up world we live in when you cannot even walk down the street without being profiled, you cannot log on to the computer for connections without liars and thieves stealing your identity to be someone else and not who you create us each to be.   I remember way back the questions were why me and now here today; I understand just this of why not. Why not in a world where what was once predicted hopes of humanity; those you allow into the world are doing their absolute best to make it to suite their own choices and free will.    Changing gender, picking what is wrong what is right or justifying always with an excuse why something horrible has happened.

Romans 7:15-20 (NIV) ¹⁵I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. ¹⁶And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. ¹⁷As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. ¹⁸For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.^[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. ¹⁹For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. ²⁰Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

Does what I think out loud really matter anyway Jesus?

All my life chasing dreams, chasing love. Dealing with the end results of my own choices. Never wanting someone for what they do or have.   Although many times wishing I could have been that mean nasty person that took someone for all they had. Instead of taking and moving past the pieces of me they have taken from this spirit, this bank account and this physical being.

I am gratefully thankful you Jesus knew so much better than I ever will.   Just as you know the answer to all those open-ended questions.    Allowing growth in the spirit through pure hearts, music, and feel good hopeful movies. Friends that want the good you provide until they too wander for their changed agendas.    Or even just me wandering in this lost state of enough is enough.

In all the wisdom I may acquire from anything or anyone. One thing stands true. “Man has tended to make himself the measure of all things. But man’s measure is too tiny to comprehend My (Your (Lord) majestic vastness. King of Kings and Lord of Lords” snippet from Jesus Calling@ Sarah Young

So, despite all these open-ended questions and mayhem this world seems to spin and even at times thrive in.   Lord I do not know how I really know or understand but YOU got this!

Father you alone know all things, and blessed are those who work through all things with you in all steps being it climbing on that fence to look around and see which way to go or day to day on the path that can be filled with Your light or just running through the woods that sometimes seem so confusing and we lose our way.

The world and every city, state, borough, hill, and valley belongs to You alone Jesus.    May your will be done.

For my own and all that need and want you.   Jesus lead and protect us through your will.   Show me what next that gives to your kingdom and purpose not my own.    Wash away all that brings harm and pain to this world.

Heal us Lord make us see how much we truly need each other and not this continual battle of power doing harm and death to innocence.

Protect us be it in person, online, or even from ourselves. Your will be done Jesus!

So, no matter what it seems to others of this world or even myself as I have so many unanswered questions of this world in it.   Sadness for the lack of humanity that transpires on any given day. I know Lord you who are with me and in me will forever be my guide, breath, and purpose throughout eternity.

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

James 4:10 (NIV)¹⁰Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

Romans 5:19(NIV) ¹⁹For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made

1 Timothy 6:15-16 (NIV)¹⁵which God will bring about in his own time—God, the blessed and only Ruler, the King of kings and Lord of lords, ¹⁶who alone is immortal and who lives in unapproachable light, whom no one has seen or can see. To him be honor and might forever. Amen.

James 4:8 (NIV) ⁸Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

Proverbs 30:8 (NIV) ⁸Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches but give me only my daily bread.

Acts 17:28 (NIV) ²⁸‘For in him we live and move and have our being.’^[a] As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’^[b]

Psalms 145:3-6(NIV) ³Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise; his greatness no one can fathom. ⁴One generation commends your works to another; they tell of your mighty acts. ⁵They speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty— and I will meditate on your wonderful works.^[a] ⁶They tell of the power of your awesome works—
and I will proclaim your great deeds.

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Date: 05/27/2020 Wednesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/ide_fl8fY1U
“Fight The Darkness” @Christian Trap Sammy Lemon and Efra Harder

https://youtu.be/7A28rL_2X6A
“Only You” @Aaron Cole ft. Terrian

https://youtu.be/3TOPBr8k8xY
“Never Lost @Tauren Wells | live| Elevation Worship

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for this new day!

Thank you for the lessons and reminders of when, where or how it could have been; even if it is not what we think.

In 1^st Samuel 15:22 it tells us about obedience and is it not better to sacrifice in obedience than live through the sacrifice of our own poor choices.

I get that now, but in my youth, there is no way when I was able to stand up able to take anyone telling me what to do. Even if it was for the better.     Literally growing up with no guidance or anyone to lean on one my sister moved on.   Yes, I had extended family here and there that would chime in and pass judgment. But there was no home life or anyone to go home and learn and grow with.

It is all good now as I made it fine with a few bumps, bruises, lots of scars and still somewhat of a clear mind and that only depends on who you ask.

Knowing now that being told or being asked what to do, is the greatest opportunity and teachable moments one could ever experience.   And that truly depends on the who and why you are being asked or told.

I see in my own blood, how that stubborn rebellious attitude creeps in more often than not the first times I step up and speak up to something that should not be.

So Lord how do we teach others to help condition their spirit without just being that thumbs down bully do as I say or else?

Those are some passing thoughts this morning. But not the only ones.

Conditioning of our spirit, of our being, of what drives us all comes from obedience and the end results ultimately tell allot about us, when it comes to what we do, how we do it and react to others when they step into our circle of influence.

Even those out there hustling someone.   It all comes from obedience and what we think of ourselves, what we choose to leave as a legacy. How we will be remembered and unfortunately the why does not count in the end.

It is what we get or lose, and what we do with it.    It is a known fact the world has more selective memory of that superstar and all the great things they did but the misfortune in the end truly sticks.   If we allow them to!

What others have done to us, do to us or take from us. Does not make us who God intended for us to be.

Everything in this world is temporary. Even all that is really good that fills us up.    Eventually has to move on so that something more to help us grow can come along.

I myself have enough stories of my life from incredibly young onward and even today how or why I do somethings.

But I am not alone in this world.    There are those out there that lack obedience, any type of conscious or sensitivity that do and allow cruel things to the innocence and beauty of this world. Every day is a new opportunity to shine the light in an extremely hard dark world.

Everyday a new headline with the same cruel hate that fills this universe.   What Jesus can we do? How can we truly step up and make a difference?   Show us Father God how to stop this madness.     Life is not about the color of our skin, or what one has or does not have. Lord there has to be a way that we can make a difference.   There has to be a way to help those at the end of their wits from whatever it is they serve ready to break and just take out all their hate and pain on humanity and robbing innocence from life.      There was no reason for the for the violence that transpires on any give day but again history repeating itself.     How can we truly protect ourselves when the vial go untouched and innocence is robbed from this world? Because of where, who or what they look like.

I know we must never give up hope if we are in those dark places and we must dive into all who Jesus He is and meet with him daily.    We must use our freedom of speech, choice and will today and do what is right.

Even if we have no positive influence around us; if we get even two seconds a day just call out his name. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!    It sounds crazy but we cannot do this world and what we call life on our own.   We must start reaching up and for all that is positive and pure allowing us to be filled in love so we can be love.     No that is not the kumbaya around the campfire. Or long-haired hippy freaks just doing love and whatever or whoever.    Jesus this land needs you back!

I need you every day I am allowed to breathe but this darkness is everywhere, and this world needs you.

We have to have something much bigger and better than we will ever be.

In the thick of it; in the realities of this journey.   If we were not raised up in the church or have been exposed to Jesus himself.     We just take whatever the world gives, or we start burying ourselves but shutting down, building walls, fighting everything, filling ourselves up with whatever we can do to really hide the pain and loss we are feeling for what consumes us. Even when we are tied to you Lord early on; we get consumed.   Who knows but you Jesus if those that break, and hurt others truly have ever been at the foot of the cross with you?   If they have what has changed? What has made them so hard and so quick to judge harmfully to others?

Father I know there are vial souls in this world; those that come to do all the unkind things to pure innocence and take whatever they can get away with.   Those that when you look into their eyes you truly see they are dark and empty.   Lord may your Justice come for all; please come!

We can easily and truly just go through the motions and to the next and the next or each thing or even person that gives us even five seconds of something other than what we have been running from or trying to forget.    Satan is good at what He does, but Jesus we all know even those who do not walk with you know; Satan is a liar!

We cannot be fixed by anything we put into our bodies, even if it feels good to be numb. We cannot release what we are feeling and be fixed by harming others in anger and try to justify it with excuses.

We cannot remove the scars that allow us to be here and now.

We cannot erase yesterdays from our own minds, but they are all gone.

Be it good or bad memories we cannot go back ever!   We can however choose to condition ourselves just as we would be hitting the gym to condition our bodies, or our minds with taking some college or technical courses.

We must purpose to condition our spirit and our drive by diving in and as my Motion kids learned chewing on Gods Word, digesting and memorizing all that is good. I cannot lie; reading the bible without those who have studied it and know the meanings and history behind what is written can be difficult to understand.    In fact, God first destroyed humanity because of the vial things that he could not bare back then.    Yet here we are again.

He allowed His son to come and take the punishment for all that will happen then so we could live with Him now.     Yes Jesus the living God for all who calls upon Him in word, deed and daily relationship.

Now I will be the first to tell you; I have always had that squirrel syndrome and even with all my youth I had a mind like a steal trap.    But as time goes on, I can remember 30 years ago but it takes me a day or two to remember five minutes ago.

I thrive by staying busy and tapped in and sometimes I would just get too ahead and take on too much.

However, it takes effort, in fact anything worth while in the end takes dedication, loyalty, respect and to get there from here we must have obedience and conditioning even if it is our own.

If it sounds to good to be true; IT IS! If you get that gut feeling, LISTEN TO IT!

Do not get caught up in thinking that of the world is going to save you.    The world has much that can make us comfortable and give enjoyment. But also, for every beautiful thing out there will always be that Gollum out there looking to steal what is precious to you.

Sometimes that is just what is deep inside your heart, which is why the bible tells us to protect our hearts. Proverbs 4:23 (NIV)²³Above all else, guard your heart,     for everything you do flows from it.

From experience and who I am, I can assure you it hurts a hell of lot worse when someone breaks your spirit and heart when they break truth of who they really are and why they are even connected to you in the first place than any object that can be replaced.

Deep so early in the morning, yes sometimes well even in my early poetry days my friends use to tell me I go too deep.

If only then I knew now! If I really knew what I have now in Christ back then, it only proves that I never went deep enough.

Yes, still that craving as young lovers to be quenched and that euphoria when your spirits touch.   But the mundane day to day never eliminates the thirst we just consume more and more or allow the world to consume more and more of us. It is not the lack of cravings the drug addict or lonely person has that fills the gaps and they become brand new. Like smoking cigarettes no matter how many packs you throw out the window driving down the highway saying this is it.

We find ourselves going back in the store to replace what was let go until we ask God to take it from us.

Yes, I smoked from the age of 10 well up until 2004. Trying to quit on my own now looking back was comical.    Rolling my own tops tobacco just so I would have the most disgusting taste in my mouth I would not want to smoke.    Switching from my favorite brands to those that well it did not work.

Not until I truly prayed please take this from me. Please if I am to smoke again make me so sick I cannot.

Be careful what you pray for!

September 2004, I quit, and it was July of 2005 I was at a neighborhood BBQ having a great time with friends and neighbors drinking wine coolers and got the cravings for a smoke.   Just one will not hurt me.     Well let me tell you I got halfway through the cigarette and had to excuse myself almost running back around the corner to my house and yes puking my brains out along the way.   I have never picked up another after that.

And although it may sound coincidental or whatever to some.   That was just one minor but pure fact that God Listens and is with you when you need him.

I have prayed and wrote to God for many years and there has been much that He alone has answered for me.   Then there are those times that I allowed the world to become too much for me and just wanted to escape and leave and He said not yet.

So, I guess on the topic of obedience.     And even today some say I am too good never having any fun. Others I know tell their friends when introducing me as this is my friend Kelly, she is a good girl.   As I laugh thinking about it now.   I used to get ticked off because everyone always has a label.

Miss Kelly you are such a Saint; Do What???

I have earned my strips I can assure you and no I will never be any better or worse than anyone out there doing the most evil things. Including myself.    I am who I am, lacking every step of the way from my own hurts, habits, hang-ups and many scars.

I am just dedicated to holding on to purity and that is Jesus Christ.    It is not because of anything I do for others; it is not because what I do not allow myself to do. I fall short daily!   But I hold tight to Jesus Christ and the God who allowed me to come into this world.    Even when I feel life sometimes just sucks.

Because of that I am able to get back up, and just keep pushing forward seeking the light and blessings for all I am connected. That in itself may consist of prayers, actions or conversation or perhaps just being true and staying away from what can consume us.

It does not mean I get it; there are days I start out in love and full of God’s peace and by the end of the night before laying my head back on that pillow; life of those around me that I am consumed just bring me to the edge and I am broken and ready to just go.

Is it hard when you see the world and all the violence and hate that spins around us? For me it is much harder for what I can see than being locked down and protected from the unknown unseen enemy of Covid19.

So, Lord this was not the path of what was to be tapped out this day; but like any other when you allow me up and give me something to share. I do it.

I lift all who need healing from loss and brokenness at the hands of that which is evil to come to you Jesus and be filled with your will, your love, and your comfort.

All that have been harmed and taken out of this world at the hands of violence, hate and at times pure evil.   Jesus bring justice!   Lord, for all that are suffering at the hands of the abusers, traffickers.

Release them from the bondage and pain the evil that has them right here right now. Protect the innocent Lord, give your children courage to be more than just a show, more than just a brief relief in any temporal thing we can do or be consumed by.

Jesus give us strength to fight the darkness no matter what that may be. The hurts, the losses, the habits we just cannot break without you.   The hang-ups or walls that we build up because of what was.   Release all who come to you into the light with peace, healing, and protection from ourselves.

Use your children, use me; to shine bright for all seeking you, needing you.

Give continued strength and gifts for all who feed this world for you in what is good, helping others to grow forward with you.   Protect and be the love for all in your kingdom Jesus!

Accept my thanks this day, and all that have come to pass, all that will come to be.     For the air in the lungs given to breathe, the movement in the vessels we have.   Even if it is limited, even if they hurt.    Use us for your will Father God and not our own.

May we give thanks knowing that someone beautiful, someone innocent, someone who never did anything to deserve such cruelty from humanity is suffering and need to find the foot of the cross here and now.

Thank you for all that I was, all that am, and all that I will ever be. Thank you for allowing me to be always me.
Come wash over this universe Father; fill us with your love, your beauty your hope.

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Proverbs 5:6 (NIV)⁶She gives no thought to the way of life; her paths wander aimlessly, but she does not know it. Proverbs 6-7 (NIV) leads us to conditioning in obedience.

Romans 5:19(NIV) ¹⁹For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.

Hebrews 5:8 (NIV)⁸Son though he was, he learned obedience from what he suffered

Romans 13:14 (NIV)¹⁴Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.^[^a^]

Colossians 3:12 (NIV)¹²Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

Psalm 35:18 (NIV)¹⁸I will give you thanks in the great assembly; among the throngs I will praise you.

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Date: 05/26/2020 Tuesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/Xiu6hbz0iDk

“You Keep Hope Alive” @Jon Reddick

https://youtu.be/Y43Z0WJLDS4

“The Garden” @Kari Jobe

https://youtu.be/OKUAr1GGLa8

“Proverbs 3 (Tablet Of Your Heart)” @Todd Dulaney

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you for this new day Jesus. Thank you for all I can be in your eyes and creation. May I and all others in this world that have life and air in our lungs.   Find purpose and will through you.   In this world that is ever changing. Your never do.

As I was taking through wise council and Proverbs this morning; I think it best to share what enlightened this soul.

No matter who goes to you or reads through any of what I put out is irrelevant.   As the unknowns belong to you and each soul and the choices we make.

However, these words just more than helping me maintain sanity; but that as well to shine your light Jesus and speak truth while sharing life, perspectives, and you Father God.

Life is what it is until it no longer can be. May we all who are given another day be thankful and reflect as much grace for others as we are given by you Lord on any given day.

Perfectly imperfect in this vast universe with so many layers, cycles, opportunities!   You Lord are in control from beginning to the end and nothing will ever change that.

Even if we choose to ignore you and walk in darkness. You blessed us with freedom of choice and will.

You suffered so we could live. Yet sometimes we just in our rebellious ways.   Want what we want when we want it.   However, none of that changes who you are and the power you have for all things.

Revelation 22:13 (NIV)¹³I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End. John 16:33(NIV)³³“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

Where I am going Jesus only you know.   Where I have been is blessed here on the other side.

May we all be filled daily with joy, and peace everlasting. May we choose to be filled with Your Holy Spirit God.

When we lose our way when uncertainty consumes us. May you alone fill us up with hope and love.    When we cannot and there are those days. When we cannot, may we just be still in, with and for you?

May we be filled with Your wise council above all else.   How or what that looks like may be different for every soul you allow life.   So, when I look out and see the world and all the craziness in the media, in my own circle of contacts.    May I always come back to you for truth and guidance.

You Jesus have allowed me a strength through the years that allows me to remain true and unmoved.    It is not from lacking, nor from uncertainty.   It is by choice that I need nothing outside of you God.   So, on those moments when I am calling out to you Father.   It is not to have a quick fix or fill.   But to truly guide and protect whatever will come next.

If you choose to allow anything outside of you Jesus; then you alone know what will and should be.     But never will I ever just do or be because I find myself feeling blue, overwhelmed, or just needing something of a quick fix.   That will not happen.

No matter what yesterday was, or tomorrow will or will not be. Your teaching and wisdom is being written in this heart. No matter what is or is not said or written from this mind maze.

If it is not pure in truth, passion, compassion, charging forward for morality and life.   Why would anyone want it or anything less?

So as these days of late feel burdensome and making me age and want to just quit. Many I never give up, never give in for all you call me to be or do.

May I always know the difference and never stop leading by example even in the change.

May I do my best for those who follow, while being steadfast and true to what should and should not be.

Thank you for this day Father God. Thank you for all that feed and challenge this spirit.   Be with all my connections no matter what that looks like.

In your mighty and precious name. Amen

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

John 3:17 (MSG)^16-18“This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn’t go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person’s failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him.

Proverbs 1-4 (NIV)Purpose and Theme

1 The proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel:

²for gaining wisdom and instruction;
    for understanding words of insight;
³for receiving instruction in prudent behavior,
    doing what is right and just and fair;
⁴for giving prudence to those who are simple,^[a]
    knowledge and discretion to the young—
⁵let the wise listen and add to their learning,
    and let the discerning get guidance—
⁶for understanding proverbs and parables,
    the sayings and riddles of the wise.^[b]

⁷The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge,
    but fools^[c] despise wisdom and instruction.

Prologue: Exhortations to Embrace Wisdom

Warning Against the Invitation of Sinful Men

⁸Listen, my son, to your father’s instruction
    and do not forsake your mother’s teaching.
⁹They are a garland to grace your head
    and a chain to adorn your neck.

¹⁰My son, if sinful men entice you,
    do not give in to them.
¹¹If they say, “Come along with us;
    let’s lie in wait for innocent blood,
    let’s ambush some harmless soul;
¹²let’s swallow them alive, like the grave,
    and whole, like those who go down to the pit;
¹³we will get all sorts of valuable things
    and fill our houses with plunder;
¹⁴cast lots with us;
    we will all share the loot”—
¹⁵my son, do not go along with them,
    do not set foot on their paths;
¹⁶for their feet rush into evil,
    they are swift to shed blood.
¹⁷How useless to spread a net
    where every bird can see it!
¹⁸These men lie in wait for their own blood;
    they ambush only themselves!
¹⁹Such are the paths of all who go after ill-gotten gain;
    it takes away the life of those who get it.

Wisdom’s Rebuke

²⁰Out in the open wisdom calls aloud,
    she raises her voice in the public square;
²¹on top of the wall^[d] she cries out,
    at the city gate she makes her speech:

²²“How long will you who are simple love your simple ways?
    How long will mockers delight in mockery
    and fools hate knowledge?
²³Repent at my rebuke!
    Then I will pour out my thoughts to you,
    I will make known to you my teachings.
²⁴But since you refuse to listen when I call
    and no one pays attention when I stretch out my hand,
²⁵since you disregard all my advice
    and do not accept my rebuke,
²⁶I in turn will laugh when disaster strikes you;
    I will mock when calamity overtakes you—
²⁷when calamity overtakes you like a storm,
    when disaster sweeps over you like a whirlwind,
    when distress and trouble overwhelm you.

²⁸“Then they will call to me but I will not answer;
    they will look for me but will not find me,
²⁹since they hated knowledge
    and did not choose to fear the Lord.
³⁰Since they would not accept my advice
    and spurned my rebuke,
³¹they will eat the fruit of their ways
    and be filled with the fruit of their schemes.
³²For the waywardness of the simple will kill them,
    and the complacency of fools will destroy them;
³³but whoever listens to me will live in safety
    and be at ease, without fear of harm.”

Moral Benefits of Wisdom

2 My son, if you accept my words
    and store up my commands within you,
²turning your ear to wisdom
    and applying your heart to understanding—
³indeed, if you call out for insight
    and cry aloud for understanding,
⁴and if you look for it as for silver
    and search for it as for hidden treasure,
⁵then you will understand the fear of the Lord
    and find the knowledge of God.
⁶For the Lord gives wisdom;
    from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
⁷He holds success in store for the upright,
    he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
⁸for he guards the course of the just
    and protects the way of his faithful ones.

⁹Then you will understand what is right and just
    and fair—every good path.
¹⁰For wisdom will enter your heart,
    and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
¹¹Discretion will protect you,
    and understanding will guard you.

¹²Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men,
    from men whose words are perverse,
¹³who have left the straight paths
    to walk in dark ways,
¹⁴who delight in doing wrong
    and rejoice in the perverseness of evil,
¹⁵whose paths are crooked
    and who are devious in their ways.

¹⁶Wisdom will save you also from the adulterous woman,
    from the wayward woman with her seductive words,
¹⁷who has left the partner of her youth
    and ignored the covenant she made before God.^[e]
¹⁸Surely her house leads down to death
    and her paths to the spirits of the dead.
¹⁹None who go to her return
    or attain the paths of life.

²⁰Thus you will walk in the ways of the good
    and keep to the paths of the righteous.
²¹For the upright will live in the land,
    and the blameless will remain in it;
²²but the wicked will be cut off from the land,
    and the unfaithful will be torn from it.

Wisdom Bestows Well-Being

3 My son, do not forget my teaching,
    but keep my commands in your heart,
²for they will prolong your life many years
    and bring you peace and prosperity.

³Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
    bind them around your neck,
    write them on the tablet of your heart.
⁴Then you will win favor and a good name
    in the sight of God and man.

⁵Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
⁶in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.^[f]

⁷Do not be wise in your own eyes;
    fear the Lord and shun evil.
⁸This will bring health to your body
    and nourishment to your bones.

⁹Honor the Lord with your wealth,
    with the firstfruits of all your crops;
¹⁰then your barns will be filled to overflowing,
    and your vats will brim over with new wine.

¹¹My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline,
    and do not resent his rebuke,
¹²because the Lord disciplines those he loves,
    as a father the son he delights in.^[g]

¹³Blessed are those who find wisdom,
    those who gain understanding,
¹⁴for she is more profitable than silver
    and yields better returns than gold.
¹⁵She is more precious than rubies;
    nothing you desire can compare with her.
¹⁶Long life is in her right hand;
    in her left hand are riches and honor.
¹⁷Her ways are pleasant ways,
    and all her paths are peace.
¹⁸She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her;
    those who hold her fast will be blessed.

¹⁹By wisdom the Lord laid the earth’s foundations,
    by understanding he set the heavens in place;
²⁰by his knowledge the watery depths were divided,
    and the clouds let drop the dew.

²¹My son, do not let wisdom and understanding out of your sight,
    preserve sound judgment and discretion;
²²they will be life for you,
    an ornament to grace your neck.
²³Then you will go on your way in safety,
    and your foot will not stumble.
²⁴When you lie down, you will not be afraid;
    when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
²⁵Have no fear of sudden disaster
    or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,
²⁶for the Lord will be at your side
    and will keep your foot from being snared.

²⁷Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due,
    when it is in your power to act.
²⁸Do not say to your neighbor,
    “Come back tomorrow and I’ll give it to you”—
    when you already have it with you.
²⁹Do not plot harm against your neighbor,
    who lives trustfully near you.
³⁰Do not accuse anyone for no reason—
    when they have done you no harm.

³¹Do not envy the violent
    or choose any of their ways.

³²For the Lord detests the perverse
    but takes the upright into his confidence.
³³The Lord’s curse is on the house of the wicked,
    but he blesses the home of the righteous.
³⁴He mocks proud mockers
    but shows favor to the humble and oppressed.
³⁵The wise inherit honor,
    but fools get only shame.

Get Wisdom at Any Cost

4 Listen, my sons, to a father’s instruction;
    pay attention and gain understanding.
²I give you sound learning,
    so do not forsake my teaching.
³For I too was a son to my father,
    still tender, and cherished by my mother.
⁴Then he taught me, and he said to me,
    “Take hold of my words with all your heart;
    keep my commands, and you will live.
⁵Get wisdom, get understanding;
    do not forget my words or turn away from them.
⁶Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you;
    love her, and she will watch over you.
⁷The beginning of wisdom is this: Get^[h] wisdom.
    Though it cost all you have,^[i] get understanding.
⁸Cherish her, and she will exalt you;
    embrace her, and she will honor you.
⁹She will give you a garland to grace your head
    and present you with a glorious crown.”

¹⁰Listen, my son, accept what I say,
    and the years of your life will be many.
¹¹I instruct you in the way of wisdom
    and lead you along straight paths.
¹²When you walk, your steps will not be hampered;
    when you run, you will not stumble.
¹³Hold on to instruction, do not let it go;
    guard it well, for it is your life.
¹⁴Do not set foot on the path of the wicked
    or walk in the way of evildoers.
¹⁵Avoid it, do not travel on it;
    turn from it and go on your way.
¹⁶For they cannot rest until they do evil;
    they are robbed of sleep till they make someone stumble.
¹⁷They eat the bread of wickedness
    and drink the wine of violence.

¹⁸The path of the righteous is like the morning sun,
    shining ever brighter till the full light of day.
¹⁹But the way of the wicked is like deep darkness;
    they do not know what makes them stumble.

²⁰My son, pay attention to what I say;
    turn your ear to my words.
²¹Do not let them out of your sight,
    keep them within your heart;
²²for they are life to those who find them
    and health to one’s whole body.
²³Above all else, guard your heart,
    for everything you do flows from it.
²⁴Keep your mouth free of perversity;
    keep corrupt talk far from your lips.
²⁵Let your eyes look straight ahead;
    fix your gaze directly before you.
²⁶Give careful thought to the^[j] paths for your feet
    and be steadfast in all your ways.
²⁷Do not turn to the right or the left;
    keep your foot from evil.

https://youtu.be/wnhe-3PjDjc
“I found a Love (Tablet Of Your Heart)” @Ed Sheeran

I imagine the greatest love of all was when I answered His call. Thank you, no matter, what that looks like. Never before did I ever see my future before that. It was always the fight of how to survive. Even in the darkest moments I know you are still there with your hand out waiting for me. For this even for the briefest moment of reality, truth, and the world I know I am loved.

Just thinking out loud that I tend to do. https://youtu.be/TWPPpalgnDw
“Thinking Out Loud” @Ed Sheeran

Sometimes it just is what it is, and all comes flooding through. Finding that place of peace in Him; knowing nothing lasts forever.

But until eternity comes every now and again all my senses come back to life and I am washed in love as the movie plays over and over in my head; and then in one moment reality comes back knowing how blessed to have a love everlasting. https://youtu.be/32Z4NJ3KbSA “EVERLASTING” @Kanjii Mbugua

https://youtu.be/FM7MFYoylVs “Something Just Like This” @The Chainsmokers and Coldplay

If you need to figure me out in this mind maze; find God only He has the answers to all of us. Good, bad, or indifferent, no matter if we are together, apart, friend or foe. Life is what it is until it is not; what legacy are you leaving.

What lies will surface, what truths have you buried. Who is it you really think has your back and will be there through out eternity with you? Not looking for answer; honestly just thinking out loud tonight.

Is all that you put everything in truly sustain the love feeding the depths of the soul flowing like lava erupting running red? Washing through you in purity where all you want to do is just breathe in ever ounce of the being. Always giving peace.

https://youtu.be/4ONVG8DaREA “At the Cross” @Chris Tomlin

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Date: 05/25/2020 Monday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/3B-udGxwLV0 “Whatever You’re Doing” @Sanctus Real

https://youtu.be/pnN-4JcXoDs “Change Me” @Sanctus Real

https://youtu.be/JGYjKR69M6U “Chain Breaker” @Zach Williams

https://www.facebook.com/newlifeccspringhill/videos/253234129098011/

“God Working Within Us ” @Pastor Al New Life Christian Church

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Happy Birthday my nephew; I pray you have an awesome blessed day full of all your heart’s desires.

Thank you to all those who died for America and the freedoms we take for granted! Happy Memorial day for all the fallen and thank you for all those who still today serve freely for those you will never know.

Peace be with all you who have come home and are lost, broken and lonely.   May God hear your heart and fill you up with His peace.

May we know the things that you take to mask the hurts and pain causing addiction and losing oneself just trying to deal.   Can and will be replaced if on you fight forward for Jesus to fill you up.

No matter what you do; thank you!

Because of the fallen; because of Jesus sacrifice we have life each day we get back up. No matter how good or bad we think it may be.     I pray you find redemption through Christ alone first before trying to settle up; take on the next big thing or just react without even really knowing why.

This world can be too much for any of us, too much distracting us, overwhelming us, driving us in words or actions that are harmful to others. Even when we do not plan for any of it to be.

Find what is driving your spirit, find what is feeding the demons or fighting them with you.

No one deserves anything in this world; and by all means we all get to choose to find and live in peace and love or add to the anger, hate, and darkness that will eventually take us out for the same thing we feed.

When you turn from the problems, when you turn from that what hurts and give it all to the foot of the cross, calling upon Jesus Christ. Your world will change long before you physically see or do anything significant.

That is just the thing. You have to give it to God.     I am no expert I only know that which kept me spinning for years before I gave my life 110% to God through Jesus.

As I sit and watch those I love go through their own spin and filled more times than not with anger reacting with anger at the drop of a dime.

All I can do is advise what I do not approve of, give ultimatums, and pray that at some point they will find their way to Jesus.    Learning how to find peace even in the storms.    It is hard Oh I get that; as some days I too react and have allowed the world to consume the better of me.

James 1:19 (NIV) Listening and Doing

¹⁹My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry,

Thinking this morning how I wish I had a writing tool each time I got into that shower. As the thoughts and mind maps start pouring out as that hot water showers over me.

Laughing but today writing down some of those thoughts in my journal; yet on most days they just get washed away as I step out and life starts happening each new day I am given.

Thankful and beyond blessed for this new day of opportunities. Because of the sacrifices that are made by others, but more importantly that of Jesus going to the cross. I have been given a new day with air in my lungs and movement in this vessel. Many will never get back up this day.    Leaving so much undone, so much unsaid.

So, no matter if I am writing in a journal, on a blog or speaking to someone.   I am blessed and favored.   With everything, with nothing. It does not matter.

I find it a blessing to hide behind, next to and within my Jesus, trust me on that!

So, the thoughts this morning around protecting our investments. And yes, they could be monetary, physical, people, material things we think we could die with out or life would just not be worth anything without.

I get it as I was up and out with the puppy early this morning and the rain started. I seen the building to be my workshop windows were open.

So, I went and got the key shutting them preventing moisture, mold possibly rot to get into the building. Even if it is supposed to be my workshop and turned into a kid’s storage after a storm came through and left damage to be cleared and cleaned up. And even now still supposed to be the craft, office, work out place. That has not made it yet.

Nevertheless, I still want to protect the investment. Just as if it were the main house and all the work during this quarantine has been done.

Tapped out, tapped on from repairing just weathered and damaged structures, appliances, and necessities.

How easy would it be if we could just hire a contractor and throw some money and fix our loved one is those people we are invested in and are showing signs of cracking or broken according to our beliefs. Or just downright total opposite living the world.   Allowing the world to get the best of them.     Brining that anger or hostility with everything said.   Or what about those prodigal children or we pray they will be. That spun so fast, they lost control and no matter what we say or do we cannot get them back up right.

We do what we think is right at the time we are going through it to protect our investments, our bloodlines, bone of our bones.

Not ever intending to become hurt or hurt anyone else. But unable to remain fully faithful in hope of God who is the only one that can and will fix things no matter how it turns out.   We sometimes do what we must, or we think we must; making messes along the way sometimes hurting the very one we are trying to save.

What about even those of us that have spun so long out of control we are now fighting and chasing the demons that were sent to keep us from Jesus.

We are all created to love and be loved. Yet due to generational curses, or just being part of a vicious cycle that we are left in, born in, or end up in.    We become the darkness that Jesus sacrificed so much to not happen.

Protecting our investments: we all want to find that which feeds that spirit within us making us feel alive.   We all want to keep that which others are trying to steal from us.   We all just want to live and sometimes the world gets us so twisted and self-absorbed that which was a blessing is now being used for selfish pride while we harm and hurt the very things we are given to help grow forward.

We all have reasons; the hackers have reasons why they steal from others and pretend to be something other than their real selves.    The abuser who cannot let go of the deep hidden secrets that once was them being abused. Just do it not ever facing the truth it does not have to be.

We just protect what we think is a blessing at all costs; including hiding the demons that drive us to that which keeps us craving and feeding it.

I get it; sometimes along the way no matter how faithful and good we are or can be.       We leave collateral damage along the way; never looking back.   Never seeking forgiveness or healing that led us there in the first place.   If we avoid it, well then it will never damage even the slightest anything of our lives.    Hell, in some cases we cannot even remember how we got there in the first place.

This world has no surprises that the innocent are caught in a crossfire used as pawns for those that play the worldly games really well.     Sometimes on purpose and sometimes those playing do not even know how they got there in the first place.

They just wanted to hold on to what they have worked so hard for and towards. Be it family, monetary values, status even all the material things they can collect. All with good intentions that something in the world just happened and it was not noticed until it was time to do what it takes to try and fix it.

Others sometimes just do not even know how they got to where they are; or even why the do what they do.

What about those who only know how to hurt, lie, steal, and become the very thing they do not know anything different from.   Oh yes, the world has many reasons, many personalities and many that do what they do for whatever they feel.

Along the way trying to take, make or protect what they find a good investment that will continue to give life.

But what about God?   What about the investment he made for and with His son Jesus?

What about the fact that no matter what evil, or darkness happened to Him? He never stops wanting what is good, what is pure, what is light.   Never stops forgiving humanity for its injustice that has killed billions of human lives for no reasons but worldly selfish ambitions.

Be it with violence, hate, destructive behaviors and the list can go on and on.

In any case my question would be do you know God? Really know him through a relationship with Jesus Christ.

He knows everything you are saying, everything you have done and will do and are doing.

He knows every single reason and thought that flows through the mind that He alone allowed to be created.   However, because he allows us freedom of choice and will; He allows us to choose to learn and walk with Him or out on our own.

He just wants us all to invite him into our hearts to live.   Every single person on this universe has that ability to do so.     He knows every current motivation and the reasons we justify what we did, what we do to protect our so-called investments.   Our families, our material things; every bit of it all given by Christ alone.

All of it from end to end in this universe belongs to Christ already.     Yet he allows us the blessing to choose what and how we will serve and live.

So why do we take advantage of others for our own personal gains?   Why is it that we do not turn back to Jesus and ask him daily for guidance and favor to grow forward and truly enjoy the blessings of everything that we can achieve with and in Him alone.   That which will never be taken.    That which will never have more meaning than anything in this world.

Forgiveness matters.    Relationship with Christ and accepting the lessons of humility and not take things in our own hands to fix, cover up or let others think differently of us.

Humble ourselves to have just enough but never to much that we forget who it all belongs to anyway.    Some of my favorite reminders I use as my closing tag for email communications.

" Say no to anything that is not a high-value use of your time and your life. ~ Brian Tracy"

“I wish you enough of everything to get through! But never too much to forget how to humble ourselves!” ~AlwaysMeKelly

What that means to me; is never forget where you came from; always remember we are not what we do; we are not what we buy or collect; we are not the talents that Jesus allows us to have.   We are not the mistakes we have made.   Forgiveness has washed away all that intent, pain and sorrow on the cross.   Have you truly sought forgiveness for those who have done injustice to you, or that which you have done or continually do to others?

Not just that Hey I am sorry.    Have you called upon the one that gives you life to guide you through the process? Are you ready and willing to be freed even if it means you have to be willing to accept things will be different?   We can be forgiven but that does not mean we will be as we were. We are not supposed to be.

Sometimes true forgiveness means praying daily and letting go of all that was and letting God drive what will be.    True peace and abundance is just that.   Letting go, letting God!

So today I did capture my thoughts in that journal and slightly different from all that flows as I write into Pieces Of Me Over Time.

Why it comes when it comes or for who it touches; I cannot answer. I just know from the depths of this being and soul given. I am blessed to have met Jesus right where I was and let him in to this being.   Every day I am allowed up I seek Him in all that I do; and even when I fall short and I do often; I feel, I spin, I love.

Because He breathes life into me every day first.

No matter who may have me on their collateral damage list or I have on mine.   No matter any of the physical, emotional, or spiritual healing I am still in need of.

I know God is bigger than all of it. And I never want to be without the one that created all there is, was or will ever be.

If that means it allows me the biggest dude in the room to hide behind so I do not have to get caught up with what this world says it should be. Or just wasting time and going through the motions. Well that cannot happen.

I am His and He is mine; and while I wait for what is next or who he will connect me with next.   He knows all that is deep within.

I have no time left in this world if life cannot be real.   So, it is not just about dreams, investments, any of the physical suffering we see or experience.   More like what will we do with all of it when our time comes.

Will we truly turn to Jesus for direction or will we just be like everyone else in the world and just sweep all the collateral damage we create out of the way and keep moving forward like it is or should be all about us?

Never forget where you came from; where you started; knowing you are not in control even though you think so right now.

Be it you build a relationship or not with God.   He knows all that is coming. I would much rather have God in my corner than alone.

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Sweet Jesus, long days and layers that do not belong to me; sudden outbursts and well you know all things.

None of know what the other is going though I am reminded and perhaps I am feeling it allot more because of this lock down.   But I raised my kids and I cannot continue to do things as they are.

The saddest thing for a parent is to see their child broken; No its not; the saddest thing is to see the grandchildren broken when you put so much out to give them a fighting chance and they have been so desensitized already by this vial world.

When you are shown the video that the mother received and the daughter received of the father being brutally murdered, beaten and set on fire.   I try Lord to be sensitive yet to the point about life choices. I try allow life and keep stability so kids can have half a chance in a world that gives none.

I am happy that things are not how they use to be but just not where they should be.    These eruptions Lord, we are not in Hawaii knowing the lava that takes everything will created something more beautiful

This house needs you 210%      Healing for the souls that live here and all that come through the doors. That which I cannot give or carry the weight of.

Everything I am is yours Jesus.     Show me your way in peace and love that helps their growth and not allow them to spin even close to Satan’s sandbox.

Your will Jesus. None of us know what is churning in another.   I pray Lord for the blood of veins and all those on the edge where 6 feet does not look so bad.   I pray Lord the children of this world get a chance. Get to know you.

Lord I honestly do not know how much more I got.   I was hit hard when the carpet pulled out from under me just before this virus and got through.    Then this; it is making me old Lord.   I am not sure just what or how much I got left.

Your word, your promise never returns void Jesus.   Make me see, Make me hear, Make a way in your will for me to feel life.   All those things that were once normal are no more.   But I need something Jesus. Not just being an enabler that gives shelter to those just learning what it means to have it.

“Let him or glories glory in this, that he understands and knows Me, that I am the Lord, exercising lovingkindness, judgement, and righteousness in the earth. For in these I delight.” Says the LORD – Jeremiah 9:24 (NKJV)

Lord You are my everything; please give me something to fix me in this situation and what I now am being overwhelmed by.

Not a band aid fix or fly by filler.    Help me lead by example in you, with you, for you and your will for all that walk through the doors of this shelter. Bring wise counsel to those in need here and in this world.

But here Lord for what is tugging on these heart strings. Truth is I just cannot do this anymore on my own.   I need you Jesus! Nothing else, will do.

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)¹⁰So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand

Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)¹⁷The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with singing.”

Psalm 34:19-22 (NIV)¹⁹The righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all; ²⁰he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.

²¹Evil will slay the wicked; the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
²²The Lord will rescue his servants; no one who takes refuge in him will be condemned.

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Date: 05/24/2020 Sunday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/FA6lC40Dlf0

“The Motions” @Matthew West

https://youtu.be/GzfPHnoT0-0

“How He Loves Us” @David Crowder Band

https://youtu.be/Sc6SSHuZvQE

“Reckless Love” @Cory Ashbury

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me up. Even if it were to jump and run for pets and kids.

As I tried finding my quiet moments to really connect with you, while keeping the crew calm long before 7am.

I realize how blessed I truly am.   Things will not always be this way when puppies are howling to go out and those that wanted the puppy are sleeping; or cats that want to be fed actually were what woke the puppy.   Or even that energetic morning soul that is nine years old that cannot contain her excitement or noise level whenever she and that new puppy meetup first thing every morning.

As we try to find the volume to the inside voice to keep those still sleeping from waking up more cranky than usual.       While we find ourselves fidgeting around, cleaning up, cleaning up spills because neither the puppy nor nine-year-old can slow down.

Blessed another day even before my eyes were truly open and the noise and crazy started.

Looking up at that map of the world and thinking how unfortunate many will not be waking up this day and they never knew you; or worse yet they are in those hostile environments where before they are even waking to make their own noise someone that is full of hate and anger will torment and torture them for nothing.

It is not fair the way this world cycles Lord.   Thinking of virtual reality and how many are being taken advantage of; even those who are trying to defend their own social networking page because someone is sending vial things to others on their page using their names.

How unfair so many things of this world; yet how unfair it was for you, pure in love and truth to be so harshly tormented, treated and killed at the hands of even those God created.

No where though was it ever written that this life would be fair or easy.

We all at some time or another will experience unfairness, injustice, and even unfortunately great loss.    Loss in beliefs in what is good, trust, people.    There is no doubt we will ride the roller coaster of life and depending on what we allow to stick and seep into our own beings. Will depend how or if we get on that next ride.

Even if we fall out of the seat; we must know we all get to choose to get back up and move growing forward.

To do this is never an easy task.   Minute by minute or day by day.    We all must find what drives us and really know why it does.

For me Lord, It is you!    Long before I openly started walking the walk. I truly chased and tried everything else trying to find my place in this world.

You know everything and all the whys, how’s and what ifs allowing me to still be here and like today get back up and find the opportunities in each new day given.

Those opportunities no matter how we take them or make them for good or bad will hold true to one fact there is no injustice when it comes to you Father.

2 Chronicles 19:7 (NIV) ⁷Now let the fear of the Lord be on you. Judge carefully, for with the Lord our God there is no injustice or partiality or bribery.”

Sadly, life and all that is in it happens. Just like with this unfortunate new normal that has been forced upon the world.

There will always be unfairness and things we just do not like but can never or will never do anything about.

I spent my entire life hating my smile. Wanting braces from a very young age thanks to being in the front of an old Ford Falcon going to the movie theater with one of the few times in my young life my mamma was taking us to do a family outing.    Unfortunately, just seconds before she was ready to park a drunk driver come around the corner and hit us head on.   I ate the dashboard and all those old-time radio knobs.     Laying all my bottom teeth on my tongue. When I could have gotten the braces after the healing of putting me back together again.   The dentist that my family could afford said absolutely not; I would lose all my bottom front teeth by the time I was a teen.

Well blessed even today I still have that those teeth that never went anywhere. Why over time did I not get them taken care of.      Oh, like everyone who must pick and choose in life.

Either I had no time, or no money and by the time I got myself through school and was raising my family.   It was all about my responsibilities not me.

Here and now years later, I flip the coin any given day it shows up and messes with me that I so dislike who I am.

I justify things by saying I made it this far and it is too late to change or why waste the money.    To why do I want to undo all the other work that over the years I had to have done because of medications that did a number after a heart surgery.

It kind of goes along with not being that skinny little kid anymore.   Allowing somedays the vessel I see to dictate who I have never been.

Life is unfair; I could tell you story after story of how things should have never been.   From an incredibly young age to even those things I choose to allow today, or they just turn out because of choices I roll with.

Or even that of what are we doing during this shelter in place time, this worldly pandemic.

Even as a child we find things so unfair more often than not; sometimes even throwing melt down temper tantrums because we do not get our own way.   Even when later if we find are lucky and choose to acknowledge our blessings.   How fortunate those things that were not allowed truly were the best for us.

It does not matter where we come from, what we look like, what or where we think we are going.

Life can be what we make it even past the unfairness and/or misfortunes at the hands of others.

I am beyond blessed beyond all the unfairness or any emotions that try to overwhelm me any given day.

I thankfully found my way to open the door when Jesus continued knocking over and over.   And have been able to realize that God’s justice will never pick favorites.   Wrong is wrong, right is right.   Having faith in one who suffered the most cruel and inhumane justice of all.

Just so he could give a world that does not acknowledge him even a portion of the time. What we refer to as life.

“Therefore, there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.” “Perfect Trust” @Bible.Com

That may or may not make sense to anyone who reads my thoughts or the blessings that I have come to know in and with Jesus.     In fact, the unfair unfortunate truth is those who hate and are filled with darkness will even get more fired up to do more injustice without even a reason why.

Just like that user and abuser that gets up every day with no feeling in their soul. Just reacting without a single thought of what they are doing or why.   Some even start unfortunately thriving on the power they feel when hurting and destroying other people, places, or things.

Satan is the biggest liar ever and how I even made it through this life even with the brokenness and misguided paths I ended up on many times.

Truly by the grace God and all the misfortune I have seen or even experienced and all the unfairness of this world, that made me so crazy at times that I tried so hard to be gone to leave.

Jesus saved me for something far greater than I will ever be worthy or comprehend.

Knowing this makes me no better or worse in the world. Just fully aware of my blessings and choices when life gets heavy and is unfair. And it does more often than not or at least to my liken.

No matter what anything or anyone of this world thinks of my thought process for the past many years now.   Even before I openly confessed and walked with Jesus.

One thing is for sure; even if I am wrong and all my obedience, all my peace on any given day; all my strength and courage.   Turn out to be just a mare coincidence.   Which will not be the case!

Holding on to that moral compass daily, trying to remain whole, and always grateful for any given day, time, or circumstance.    Talking about my Jesus and all that he has and will do for me and all that I am connected.

Well I can assure you that before I even came out of my mother’s womb, I should have been dead.   Making it through indescribable, hurts, and not getting hung up, even if I seem a little weird to those I am not like.

Being used as a human Guinee pig and allowed to live wide awake in some horror flick.     Having it all and either having it taken from me, given away, or lost.

Believing so much in others the pain and sorrow of let down when you forget they are just real like me or anyone else.

Being pumped out just in time, put back together and not crushed by life.

I have said on many occasions and it is God’s will not my own.   Even when I had it going on; I was never your Barbie doll type.

I do not mind getting my hands dirty or absolutely never want to be known for being just a piece of meat on the butchers table. It is what comes from the inside and not just waiting for the highest bidder or fed for scraps for what you have as a cover.

Boys, Girls, young women, or men we should never allow the world to dictate our worth by what they see on the outside.

We should never judge who someone really is by the cover.        Everyone of us has a story.   Some are more sensitive and easy to make cry others become cold and hard trying to put all the pains behind us just to what we think is survival.

No matter what you or I choose to do, say, or think.     May we never do it without calling upon Jesus and praying he show us the way.

We may be required to follow the rules; but we are not puppets and no matter how bad the pain; give it to the cross where Christ took it all so we would not have to.

I will never really understand why me for many things.    And there will be times that I can barely get back up.    But until he takes the last breath of air out of these lungs; I will keep fighting forward.

Holding on to love that I may never really feel physically. Perhaps truth is I am not supposed to.   God allows lessons and blessings in this life for himself. He is a jealous God.

The best gift I have ever been given is that to connect and grow in love with Him and my spiritual family.     Even when sometimes my adoration and love is far deeper than any valley of this earth.    I trust Jesus far more and higher than any mountain top I will never climb.

I know He loves me and will never turn His back on me. In fact, it is I who gets caught up in the world and allow things, people, and places to push Him to the side.

Just as this morning and the noise I spoke about comes; or me trying to do my devotionals with my little sitting next to me wanting to read my writings or do the Bible quiz and how it may not be the routine I like to wake up and quietly take on.   God will use every moment of every circumstance for His glory.

As I keep tapping out and my sidekick starts doing bible quiz and diving into their own bible to find the answers.    WOW!

   So, what if I did pushed everything away and just started cleaning and allowed the feeling of unfairness take over my day. Because I did not have my hour upon first waking up to just be with you Jesus?

Life is real and things happen every second we are up and living.    Breathe it in; give thanks for the moments you are a part of and pray that what you take forward breeds love and truth in Christ.

Far from perfect, far from deserving to earn anything.   God’s reckless love is waiting in every second of every day.     Go to Him and ask Him to be with you through Jesus Christ.

Let go of all that was not; let go of what you do not understand.

I am a work in progress growing daily; never give up, never give in to this world without first seeking Jesus.

He has been so kind and good to me long before I could see it.

Even today I still purpose to and with Him, otherwise I easily get distracted, lost and consumed by the world and then things that hurt and leave me just wanting to add a new brick to the wall of all that has built up so much distrust and at times unhappiness in my spirit than I care to think about.

Here is the deal; being unsettled in your spirit, holding on to what is wrong, what hurts, what you can just not understand always robs us from a life that we are meant to have.

Smile as often as you can, even if it is just to keep them wondering.

Find what fills your heart with cheer and good vibes. You will find your days, nights, health and well-being will improve greatly by doing so.

Learn to give thanks and praise to God even in the darkness, even in the storms.

By all means you / we are not alone.

We all go through stuff. There is no shame if you have to reach out to professionals for help.   Be it for physical, emotional, or chemical healing.

Just do it and do it with God and in prayer first.

Lord the world always has been chaotic, unfair, and sometimes more painful than any of us should be a part of.

Heal us Jesus by the stripes you have already taken.

As your word In John 16:33 states Lord, may we all meet you where we are to overcome and live in love and harmony through and with you.   Live in your perfect peace, even if it is only in the depths of our souls.

You God are just and nothing or no one will escape any evil they have done without your judgement.   Me or anyone in this world ever living.   You pick no favorites; but you created us all for your perfect love and life. Thank you!

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

John 16:33 (AMP)³³I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace. In the world you have tribulation and distress and suffering, but be courageous [be confident, be undaunted, be filled with joy]; I have overcome the world.” [My conquest is accomplished, My victory abiding.]

Psalm 89:15 (NIV)¹⁵Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you,
who walk in the light of your presence, Lord.

Romans 12:10 (NIV)²¹⁰Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves.

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Sunday, May 24, 2020

05.Wk5_2020_May(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

2 Thessalonians 3:16 (TLB) 16 May the Lord of peace himself give you his peace no matter what happens. The Lord be with you all.

Job 32:21 (TLB) 21-22 Don’t insist that I be cautious lest I insult someone, and don’t make me flatter anyone. Let me be frank lest God should strike me dead.

https://youtu.be/AFiwZow4d2E “Wake Up Sleeper” @Austin French

https://youtu.be/uZ55mDL7dA0 “The Blessing” @Kari Jobe and Cody Carnes – Elevation Worship

Thank you for all the blessings that we have not become a 3rd world country yet or that where our government takes full control and locks us away when we violate their rules.

Justice is needed Lord, YOUR justice. I will never understand why so much hate can be bottled up in any one being you allowed to have life here and now.

It does not matter if they are labeled a Unabomber, Charles Manson, David Koresh, Jim Jones or today’s modern day KKK demons in uniform employed to serve and protect with all that bottled up hatred that becomes released upon those least suspecting.

Are they no better than the Las Vegas shooter opening fire, or all the other of so many injustices across the land that God allowed us to have?

Oh yes Satan will take the easiest direct root, straight through all those that are not paying attention or grounded in the true Christ and what the intent of his death on that cross truly was to mean.

We all bleed red, there is no way around it. At what point did our parents stop teaching and showing families stay connected and help grow forward and not getting caught up or allowing those they care, and love get caught up becoming injustice.

Not all people are good, not all people are bad. Not all men cheat on their wives, not all women cheat on their husbands. Not all tough looking people are hard as we label the book cover.

We can assume allot things in this world. We can react and move in positive or negative directions. We can speak life, or we can speak out and stir up the bees hive and those that cannot truly dive in and learn and think for themselves will react accordingly.

The fact is if we do not stand for something why are we here. Right?

Even if we do not fully know why we run out that door to join a protest; but just to be part of something to make us feel better than if we did not.

Do not get me wrong. Be careful what you see, be careful what you hear. Truly.

Be careful who you surround yourself with and why. If you cannot speak life and reflect what you are speaking. You will not have a future to make the difference of why you are doing what your doing in the first place.

It is easy to get caught up; it is easy to get on the band wagon be it today’s protests and violence and /or especially political agendas.

We do not always have reasons why people do the things we do; no matter if they feed or kill the meaning of life and imperfect souls in this imperfect world.

Instead we are using politics as the scenario are just out there talking trash digging up everyone’s dirt and still allowing what was 50 years ago tearing one nation under God lose the liberty it was created to be blessed with.

Term limits absolutely; Equality across the land absolutely; In all things, not just a few chosen.

You do not have to be a Christ follower to see we are allowing the darkness to run this land.

What do I get being a Christ follower and placing all my hope in God; Peace knowing I AM NOT DEFINDED BY THIS WORLD. I believe in someone and something greater that has always been there through the good and bad; to know WE GET TO CHOOSE!

This world is broken, as are all the vessels that are allowed to walk, crawl, run within it!

Turn back to the one who allowed its creation and before you act in anything, especially that which will do harm to others. And seek truth and God’s will.

Horrific stories of elder abuse, animal abuse. Even when it comes to capital those in power who abuse their power and prove in this world there are not enough who will openly stand firm in faith and speak up when wrongs are done allowing unnecessary loss and betrayals.

It is no wonder those who have what we think is all invest in their secret getaways because they do not want to get the dirt and pain on them. What happened to standing up and speaking out for our brothers and sisters.

No matter what we all bleed the same. You do not have to believe in what in what I believe, like what I like or even care what I care about.

You too have been blessed to think and choose as I do or even if you are in one of those situations where someone is always bullying you and forcing you into things you do not want to do.

Meet Jesus and speak to Him right where you are through your heart if you cannot speak your words and ask Him in to fill you up, give you strength, give you escape, give you direction.

If you are one just sitting by and watching any injustices. I don’t have to judge you. We will all be judged the day we take our last breath. You can believe what you wish. I believe in Karma and it is called Gods Will.

The same judgment that has been written for more than 2000 years. I have been blessed to live through some pretty scary situations and that which should not have allowed me here and now.

I have believed in prayer long before I knew who the God I was praying to was. I have been blessed to see other prayers and tears turn in to praise.

I just pray that more of us that call ourselves children of God will pray harder, louder, and stand firm for a future that soon will be no more if we do not.

Anyway. I still am blessed beyond all deserving. I live in even if it is a broken humanity. I live in a country where humanity has freedoms that many others do not.

And I am this is true. Just as I pray you find God to and who you are in Him and find your peace, direction, and next steps as well.

No matter what if things are hard always pray harder until you see change. There is nothing in this world that can be given or taken that means more to the maker of all the universe than you do right here right now.

Peace and love always be with you. May you find what you are looking for and it be filled through and with Jesus. Amen

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Hebrews 13:15 (NKJV) 15 Therefore by Him let us continually offer the sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of our lips, [a]giving thanks to His name.

Psalm 56:4 (NIV) 4 In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?

Psalm 119:27 (NIV) 27 Cause me to understand the way of your precepts, that I may meditate on your wonderful deeds.

2 Chronicles 16:9 (NIV) 9 For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him. You have done a foolish thing, and from now on you will be at war.”

https://youtu.be/PJbtWOSYjBM “God With Us” @Terrian

Here I am flying through those times where now I see my son jamming to Metallica in the backroom. Learning to play guitar and not really getting that music at the time it was in progress; but seeing today what talent he has been blessed with.

Very blessed to know how much music does for us in each phase of our lives.

In my own uneducated appreciation for all that rock and roll and concerts I would get to.

Even just those times when I escaped my own misfortunes cranking the music as loud as I could get it and being absorbed Be it dancing around or even as time changed and I would find myself out singing during those karaoke moments.

As I am riding this track this morning so many songs take me through the journey.

Is it you Jesus telling me my story in flashbacks bits and pieces; I learned at some point I could not do this life on my own and getting fillers along the way just was not working but adding to the already heavy broken layers.

I am today very thankful for every broken moment, spirit, bone, story line, dream, relationship and on and on! Walking forward in 1995 I had no clue what was about to happen, but I knew changes were in the wind.

Right up to 2005 the shaking was evident and painful. Taking me to the moments when I was dealing with all of me. https://youtu.be/xihdayqBo0E “The Drifter” @December Radio

As crazy as any of this may seem. I spent my youth and young adult life chasing just wanting to be loved; then working my way out of and through responsibilities and jams my choices got me in. We all got a story. Mine in summary I am blonde by choice.

I learned early on not to get attached, and never believe anything lasts forever. Unfortunately, even when I stepped out of bounds, I learned lessons on how to build up that wall. And you know its really not that bad.

I could go on and on, now that the key that triggered pandora’s box started leaking out all those stops along this ride. I can assure there has been a pretty good balance of peaks and valleys.

Tears of joy, and that of what hurt so bad I somedays do not know if I can move again.

We all got a story and reason for why we do the things we do; or do not! We all flip the switch at any given time.

We all get to choose!

We can get back up, brush off and know God is and always has been with us! Letting Jesus carry the burdens he took on that cross so we can keep shining on. Doing the best, we can, with what we are given.

So, my journey is still teaching me who I am; and that if I am going to see the good in people to do so from a distance. Stop giving pieces of me away. To let everything that comes to me, it must go through Christ first.

Even the lack of understanding in today’s world and all the brokenness that has created so much open hate and destruction in a world we were given to have life in.

I have no real answers for myself most days; but for many going through it. Whatever It may be! When times are hard; pray harder. If you do not have a relationship with Jesus Christ. Start one here and now. To get really connected and to the Father. It is written you must go through His son Jesus.

I may not have any sensible answers for all of you that know everything or even have been trained up and got it. But I know this. It is not what we do, what we say, what we are that gives us eternal peace. It is Jesus alone.

Dig in and challenge yourself and the world. Find out who Jesus really is yourself.

Surround yourself when you can with positive influence and fellow believers in the book written unchanged and the story of Jesus for more than 2000 years.

No matter who you know will think of you or what they think of you. It is only what the creator of all things that truly matters.

That does not mean you stop living; it actually allows you to start living!

Stay blessed, stay real and keep growing forward. Even in such uncertain times.

Regardless of your motives for doing what you do. I wish you blessings and that you find in humility the blessings that only which God can truly give you. Just as I pray justice sand peace for whatever days you have left.

Till next time. Know you are worth more than any scheme, or anything anyone in this earth can give or take from you. Just be the real you!

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Colossians 2:6-8 (NIV) Spiritual Fullness in Christ

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Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Proverbs 1-4 (NIV) Purpose and Theme

Prologue: Exhortations to Embrace Wisdom

Warning Against the Invitation of Sinful Men

2 Thessalonians 3:16 (TLB) ¹⁶May the Lord of peace himself give you his peace no matter what happens. The Lord be with you all.

Job 32:21 (TLB)^21-22Don’t insist that I be cautious lest I insult someone, and don’t make me flatter anyone. Let me be frank lest God should strike me dead.

Thank you for all the blessings that we have not become a 3^rd world country yet or that where our government takes full control and locks us away when we violate their rules.

Hebrews 13:15 (NKJV)¹⁵Therefore by Him let us continually offer the sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of our lips, ^[a]giving thanks to His name.

Psalm 56:4 (NIV) ⁴In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?

Psalm 119:27 (NIV)²⁷Cause me to understand the way of your precepts, that I may meditate on your wonderful deeds.

2 Chronicles 16:9 (NIV)⁹For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him. You have done a foolish thing, and from now on you will be at war.”

Proverbs 1-4 (NIV)Purpose and Theme