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Tuesday April 25th, 2023

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Colossians 1:27-28 Gods Word Translation Biblegateway.com

²⁷ God wanted his people throughout the world to know the glorious riches of this mystery—which is Christ living in you, giving you the hope of glory.

²⁸ We spread the message about Christ as we instruct and teach everyone with all the wisdom there is. We want to present everyone as mature Christian people.

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tobyMac - I just need U. (Lyrics)

 

King of Kings - Jenn Johnson | Moment

 

Graves Into Gardens ft. Brandon Lake | Live | Elevation Worship

 

I Thank God (feat. Maverick City Music & UPPERROOM) | TRIBL

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me to know you are my only hope.  There is no doubt that I just need you for the air I breathe and the beat to this heart is all because of you,  With all the close calls, all the fragments and shards of glass of my own and all those that knot up those heart strings of mine.

 

Funny how someone asked me today what my favorite TMac song was, and I could only say all of them.    Somehow, I can relate at some level to every song he has been blessed to preach your word Father.   For this for him and his talent and heart and all those filled with your glory  that you have allowed me to live, learn and laugh through the tears with.  Thank you.  Thank you for allowing me to know who I am in you.

 

You are and always be the one who allow these lungs to breathe in and exhale just at the right moments in these days at times can be so hard for me to see the other side.

 

For my family, for my just doing what needs to be done to take care of living another day and even on those days there is just not enough of me to go around.

 

WE ALL get there in our own time and I know when you say move I move and my time will be for all that you are reading through this heart father.

 

This world is a big ole sticky bun that we call life.   I won’t deny that as I look in the mirror, I realize how blessed I am and have been.   Even when it hurts to see I lost myself and hope before I was trying to climb up into that pedestal believing those false prophets.   Believe in those wolves in sheep’s clothing and not even being upset about all that can be meaningless.  But believing in lost hearts only harms the believer because then he walls are built and the quit button gets pushed.   For the imitators and false identity that deceives you does not know what it really means to love, to care for more than what is to be gained and taken away ten-fold.

 

It is never too late to get back up and knowing and seeing you Jesus.  Knowing all the pain and hurt this world gave to you did to you all long before I was ever anything more than another thought to live breathed out.

 

Please be with me to get it back and not quit.   For beyond everything may I never lose my purpose in you.  May I never lose your energy, your direction.

 

May I take that energy you give me to be wide awake and be used for all you have in store?

May this life take it back and get back before it started pouring out?

May your will consume all that I am and all that I am connected?

 

May your beauty and grace pour through this world boldly so there will never be anyone that has an excuse?

May humanity stop suffering with their addictions and the scales fall off their hearts and eyes.

 

Jesus Close don’t count!    You know what that means and thank you for allowing me too as well.

 

We seen you on the move this past week, so why do I feel so overwhelmed at times when I cannot just drop what I am doing and be able to do it all?

 

Anyway

I wish I could do it all but that is not the plans you have.

I wish I didn’t feel like an outsider at times with my own family, but yet because of my lifestyle in and with you when I take that once a month moment and treat myself out of everything else I give away.   Well sadly it is the only thing that helps me light the spark and know there is still  more to this life selfishly than given all I have or do for temporary needs or well whatever they classify it.

 

May this life that you allow me to put in front of anyone else leave the mark of all your spirit is to be Jesus.

 

But for now, as Thank you Jesus ~ No matter what. 

4.13.2023_April_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Thursday April 13th, 2023

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Romans 3:23-24 Gods Word Translation Biblegateway.com

²³ Because all people have sinned, they have fallen short of God’s glory. ²⁴ They receive God’s approval freely by an act of his kindness ^[a] through the price Christ Jesus paid to set us free ⌞from sin⌟.

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Footnotes

1. 3:24 Or “grace.”

 

 

MercyMe - Even If (lyrics)

 

Strong Enough -Matthew West

 

Matthew West - Hard Season (Official Music Video)

 

NEEDTOBREATHE - Survival (feat. Drew & Ellie Holcomb) Lyrics

 

Jeremy Camp - Anxious Heart (Lyric Video)

 

Jamie Kimmett - Prize Worth Fighting For (Live)

 

Rick Pino - The Altar Sessions (Volume 1) [Live Full Album]

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

 

10 steps closure to have one wrong attitude kicking you back in the progress being made 50!

With that you just cannot take watching what is happening and make the stupid out loud comment. Dear Jesus, I cannot just walk away from everything here to fix it; can you please just take me home.   I am so better off being out of this world and just dead.   It would fix so many things all around.

 

And the borderline manic hears you and all hell breaks loose causing more drama, more layers to the already overflowing life of what was being given by my stepping up and staying in.  Stability and opportunity to grow.   Into shattered pieces of lives that will never be mended.

 

How can you tell them yes you need help and so do I.   To learn how to help you grow without it always being something because of what you feel or do.

 

As a mom you either throw them in the deep or enable them to have the best opportunities in life so much you disable them.    Absolutely I handled my kids so much differently than my grands are being raised.    Yes, I am the 75% factor of their stability.   As the other 25% I am learning I am chasing wind trying to not enable but be stability to allow all the hurt, brokenness, and opportunities for parent(s) to do their best.    

 

No parent that  is all in wants to see any misfortune for their children.   Yet we all get to choose. Sometimes people cannot see past things and will always have room to blame, be so upset it disrupts everyone or take it all on themselves so badly they just want to make everyone around them suffer as they think they are at that very moment; even when they can see it.

 

After a long day at work, then volunteering and working with 25 elementary kids for 2 hours coming home ready for bed; and just exhausted.   Anything that drags out undisturbed rest is a blessing.   But nope, hours later listening to the fuss and finally jumping in and bam just like that.

 

I could sell out and disappear, but I would never do that to my  babies.    As long as He gets me back up it is a blessing and there are reasons I am placed where I am.  

 

But it doesn’t mean you don’t get tired of not being able to fix what is broken.  Nor that you just don’t want to fly high with Jesus and be done of all the responsibilities and constant issues or hearing kids upset because they just want what they want and parents demand without thought or reason what they want even if or when.

 

Kind of like when you show up to bring lunch to your young child and you have so much happen delaying your arrival from traffic jams to rain when you walk in your child is red faced and upset because they think you forgot about them.    Letting you feel so small and failing.  Though that was not me I got it!     So many ways we can easily be made to feel by our words, actions or that of others how much of a failure we can easily become.

 

If only!    Those moments of when things go wrong with or in our loving family that is your life.

 

It is not up to us to be perfect.  All we can do is our best with our God given love, time, and talents.    It is about calling upon the name of the Lord in our best selves in obedience to all that is morally productively good.

 

Mom, dad, aunt, uncle, foster, step in step up… none of it matters when we step in to own the responsibilities put before us even if they belong to anyone else.   It is our due diligence to keep getting back up or taking those deep breaths when all the air has been sucked out and life just does not work without feeling our heads are exploding, our hearts are breaking and all the in-betweens.

 

What wave are you riding on?   If none you will be for sure.   We are all either coming down off one or just starting.    We all have demons in the closets of our souls that either have been rectified with Jesus or they are beating the hell out of us from the inside out and we are reacting pouring out all over everything and every choice we make and most times not even realizing what we are doing until something even randomly close happens to us and knows the wind out of us.

 

It does not matter if it is your blood, your soul mate, or just a passing by connection.   Everything we think, everything we do matters.     Words will be the life and breath of all a child has to lead their future.   An adult from having enough of this world before they quit and are consumed by the darkness.

 

I cannot fix all that is broken, not for anyone including myself.   And even when it hurts, I can choose differently and not give in to the darkness.

 

For this I am beyond grateful to the Lord God,  Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit that lives within.

 

You Jesus are the ultimate prize worth fighting for.  Never will I or anything in this world be worth the value of all you are and forever will be.

 

Though the gifts of life you give and take away from all the people, places and things will forever drive us.   You Lord I pray never leave the depths of this soul.

 

Please give me the works and words to see no evil, say no evil and speak no evil to myself or anyone else in this world.

 

Please forgive me for allowing my weariness to leak out and bleed out around me sometimes.

 

All that I am, all that I was, always just me everything; every single bit from laughter to tears, work to play that dash.  Is all yours!    Every single connection, tie or whatever it is that linked me to it or them.   All yours, Jesus~   Show your way, through all it all! 

4.10.2023_April_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday April 10th, 2023

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 Romans 5:6-8 Gods Word Translation Biblegateway.com

⁶ Look at it this way: At the right time, while we were still helpless, Christ died for ungodly people. ⁷ Finding someone who would die for a godly person is rare. Maybe someone would have the courage to die for a good person. ⁸ Christ died for us while we were still sinners. This demonstrates God’s love for us.

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Casting Crowns - If We Are The Body (Official Lyric Video)

 

So Will I (100 Billion X) Lyric Video - Hillsong Worship

 

The Gregg Allman Band - I'm No Angel (HD/Lyrics)

 

I'm so blessed ~ CAIN (lyrics)

 

TobyMac - The Elements (Live In Denver)

 

Imagine Dragons - Bleeding Out (Lyric Video)

 

Phil Wickham - Living Hope (Lyrics)

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

 

I have to say working my way through Holy week this year and really focusing on Jesus and trying to be my best self.   I failed miserably.     The layers of life, work life and unbalance being the sole supporter of my household and feeling the layers of the grown adults that live within who are constant with all that is going wrong and rarely proactively just doing their best to put a solution in place even if it is wrong.

 

 I don’t even think that part bothers me as much as the foul disrespectful things that come out of people’s mouths.  Not only not caring about who is around them but what it reflects for their own being.      We all have layers of stuff we carry with us.  We all have demons in our closets.   Be it we admit it openly or not.

 

But truly what is it that we allow to bleed out on others around us?  

 

Our choices matter.    Jesus chose to freely give himself up to allow life for humanity and we cannot get through any given day without drama, hate, the needs of pouring out all into everything or everyone around us because of what we feel.

 

I am no angel by far.   I still struggle with those unexpected things that come up; like finally putting my wheels in the shop because the AC was broken for a year and my elderly mother cannot ride in the Florida heat without it working.    And when they tell me the bill without thought things in not such nice tone like son of a biscuit eater come out of my mouth.   Even though I am madly, deeply in  love with Jesus and know I shouldn’t.

 

Can I justify and say well I am way better than I used to be.  Cause I used to curse like a sailor.  Sure.  But it does not make it right.

 

Can I use excuses that it was a very hard Easter week knowing I did not have all my kids or could not even talk to all of them.   Sure, but why make excuses.     Could I tell you how hard it was knowing this is the first year I did not volunteer and serve all services.  In fact, this year I have stepped back from serving around the clock.   I am still adjusting and trying to find myself when I remove myself from all the things that spiritually ground me.

 

Partly due to workload, partly due to having my aging parent now that Pops died last year.  But also, it’s just time to start allowing others to step up as I won’t always be around.

 

 

 I am beyond blessed then, now, and always to know our redeeming God filled with so much love, mercy, and abundant grace.  Loves and gives me life no matter how or what I feel.   Or how or what others say or do around, to, for or against me.  Or those I care deeply about and the world or some in it show little to no respect for innocence or elderly.

 

When I finally had five minutes to myself last night, I allowed what I was feeling to finally flow or should I say seep out.  And although it does not change the circumstances in the circle I spin.   I am a better person for it today.

 

 

This mind maze like trying to find the way out of a corn field from the movie children of the corn.   No life is not that drastic here in my little spec, but I sure wish that every connection I ever have knows how truly blessed they really are and can be with every given day there is an abundance of opportunities just waiting to shine through.

 

So often we hold on to all that is going wrong and bleed out around us all the while God’s got this!   He knows every single thing and reaction and if I must think of the sense of humor, he has even knows all the little or big words I tap out over time.

There is no greater blessing to not ignore the issues of life but to work towards solutions.   Not stay heaped up spinning and beating ourselves and everyone around us up over what is not working to the good as we think the good should be.

 

Yes, I get there are other issues such as abuse, addictions and so on that come at the hands and feet of the demons in the world we have.    And that cuts like no other.    Sure, we can mask it all.  But until we own the fact the truth always comes to light.   And we; every single soul walking or that has walked this earth were created in the image of something for so much more.  By the one God of the universe, stars, planets an everything else through Jesus Christ.  The one whose blood poured down that cross into the dust that forms all of humanity.

 

May we never give up, never give in and when we go down because the world’s layers are too heavy.  May we know that Christ carries us.   Reach out for his hand.  Talk to him right where we are.

 

What is your true reflection telling you?  Do you even see yourself?  What is it that you circle yourself up or with?    Do you and the circle you surround yourself with put expectations on anything you do for others?

 

Are you truly resurrected to new life if you call yourself a child of God?

Do you truly believe in redemption or are you suffocating yourself for lack of forgiveness for yourself or others?    Jesus died on the cross taking everything we could have done, all we need to do is give our lives over to him and purpose to be a light, love, and harmony for all that is good to grow.    That may mean sacrifice in some many adjustments.   But we are not meant to live in the darkness, and we are absolutely meant to be the judge or pour out all over anyone else adding darkness to a world once blessed.

 

Dear Jesus

Please forgive me and all I make it out to be when it is nothing or all that I cannot let go of that you already have taken.   Please accept my gratitude for this day and all that have come previously.  Even when I flew through the days on feelings or emotions of my own or those around me.

 

Thank you for allowing me up one more day.   May I never stop seeking opportunities to live in and with you.

 

You will be done for all that I am, or every will be.  May it be your will be done on everything that I connect. People, places, or things.  It is all yours!

4.6.2023_April_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Thursday April 6th, 2023

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1 John 3 Gods Word Translation Biblegateway.com

3 Consider this: The Father has given us his love. He loves us so much that we are actually called God’s dear children. And that’s what we are. For this reason the world doesn’t recognize us, and it didn’t recognize him either. ² Dear friends, now we are God’s children. What we will be isn’t completely clear yet. We do know that when Christ appears we will be like him because we will see him as he is. ³ So all people who have this confidence in Christ keep themselves pure, as Christ is pure.

⁴ Those who live sinful lives are disobeying God. Sin is disobedience. ⁵ You know that Christ appeared in order to take away our sins. He isn’t sinful. ⁶ Those who live in Christ don’t go on sinning. Those who go on sinning haven’t seen or known Christ.

⁷ Dear children, don’t let anyone deceive you. Whoever does what God approves of has God’s approval as Christ has God’s approval. ⁸ The person who lives a sinful life belongs to the devil, because the devil has been committing sin since the beginning. The reason that the Son of God appeared was to destroy what the devil does. ⁹ Those who have been born from God don’t live sinful lives. What God has said lives in them, and they can’t live sinful lives. They have been born from God. ¹⁰ This is the way God’s children are distinguished from the devil’s children. Everyone who doesn’t do what is right or love other believers isn’t God’s child.

Love One Another

¹¹ The message that you have heard from the beginning is to love each other. ¹² Don’t be like Cain. He was a child of the evil one and murdered his brother. And why did Cain murder his brother? Because the things Cain did were evil and the things his brother did had God’s approval. ¹³ Brothers and sisters, don’t be surprised if the world hates you.

¹⁴ We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love other believers. The person who doesn’t grow in love remains in death. ¹⁵ Everyone who hates another believer is a murderer, and you know that a murderer doesn’t have eternal life.

¹⁶ We understand what love is when we realize that Christ gave his life for us. That means we must give our lives for other believers. ¹⁷ Now, suppose a person has enough to live on and notices another believer in need. How can God’s love be in that person if he doesn’t bother to help the other believer? ¹⁸ Dear children, we must show love through actions that are sincere, not through empty words.

¹⁹ This is how we will know that we belong to the truth and how we will be reassured in his presence. ²⁰ Whenever our conscience condemns us, we will be reassured that God is greater than our conscience and knows everything. ²¹ Dear friends, if our conscience doesn’t condemn us, we can boldly look to God ²² and receive from him anything we ask. We receive it because we obey his commandments and do what pleases him. ²³ This is his commandment: to believe in his Son, the one named Jesus Christ, and to love each other as he commanded us. ²⁴ Those who obey Christ’s commandments live in God, and God lives in them. We know that he lives in us because he has given us the Spirit.

Guide to Holy Week

Passion Song - The Story Of Holy Week (Lyric Video) by @scartermusic

 

 Jon Reddick - I Believe It (The Life Of Jesus) [Official Lyric Video]

 

Do It Again - Elevation Worship

 

The Goodness Of God-Bethel Music

 

Your Word (Lyrics) - Awakening Music ft. Daniel Hagen & Ally Dowling

 

TobyMac - Cornerstone ft. Zach Williams

 

Holy Spirit // Jesus Culture | Kim Walker-Smith // Lyrics

 

Terrian - Big God (Official Music Video)

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

 

I will never really know what man has made up or just expanding in truth, but I know from my experience and all the blessings that have allowed me to be still here sharing day-to-day in some form or fashion I believe in the life of Jesus Christ whose spirit will forever be the lover of my soul and keeper of this heart.

 

Even in my moments of humanity when my actions or even words do not flow in his reflection.   His abundant grace and daily mercy for not just me but every living soul in this universe.

 

There have been many moments beyond my time and more to come that will eternally allow this life to always be grateful for it all.

 

Work, life and so much unbalance he still directs my steps and lights my path every breath and every second I am allowed to be.    For all I am allowed to connect, for all the laughter, tears and everything in between.  

 

Thank you, God!

Thank you, Jesus!

Thank you, Holy Spirit!

 

For all the worry that robs our life.

For all the unknown facts that pit us against one another just because we follow the most popular and do not know better.

For all the hurt and anger, we bleed out on all the unknown because we can.

 

None of us will ever suffer as God the Father has!

No one will ever suffer as Jesus who came to earth from the Father and was pierced, torn, tormented, broken in every possible way.  Yet, still chose to love even the least of us.

 

Do we need to be careful and mind our own.  Absolutely there are so many tormented souls and unbalanced minds in this world, and I am not just talking about the ones that are out there getting a free ride wherever they can trick, rob or hustling the meek.    Those who when you look in their eyes if you have that chance, you can see the pit of darkness and hell within them.  

 

We must protect our own mind, body and souls and those we have been given to call family. 

We cannot live anyone’s life for them nor no matter how hard they try to ride on our coat tails can live ours.   But we can speak truth living in obedience to and for all that is good, all that is love an all that reflects the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ and Christ the Father.

 

We will never be perfect only God can and will be.     But to know we can reflect and give light to help grow forward and not be that one taking it.

 

I have always been just me.  That will never change.   Am I blessed to grow forward a little wiser.  I like to think so.  And Pray even so more.

 

Will I never fall into the IT that makes me love animals a whole lot more than people on any given day.  Laughing out loud now I am sure not.     I am who I am as each and every soul allowed life in this universe.   Given the blessing of freedom of choice and will and only each one of us can choose what we will say, do or strive for next.

 

My choices to work harder and clean up messes from the choices of believing in man leaving me broken in so many ways.   Has given me so much more than just cleaning up.  Or picking myself off the floor.   For every day I am given I have been given a lesson or message to grow and plant from.    Every day we are allowed, no matter how painful it may be is full of opportunities that non one can take away.

 

I say that with everything in me as I have had my moments when I thought the losses incurred would never allow me to breathe again, much less get back up.

 

If only I too could remember during the storms the depths and God’s love for all of us and that he has his hands on every single thing.     More importantly. If only, during all the darkness, pain and sorry and misdirected spinning the world seems to be in.   Jesus would come wake us all up and bring us back to the foot of the cross before it is too late.

 

If only the universe were in harmony and like the butterfly morphing into so much beauty~

 

What beauty we would all find in every day we are all given and we would let go of all the nonsense, all the hate, all the power struggles.  Yet, your word can never be broken and you allow us the freedom to live, love and laugh, finding out way planting the seeds of light as we grow from others.      All the while we trip up or just happen by our choices of where we are, what we say, what we do or don’t.   That sometimes allow us to be our own worst enemies bleeding out on everything around us; be it unknowingly or purposely to follow something to prove ourselves in power and damnation.  

 

Man if only we could all be loved from the inside out, but more importantly love others deeply in truth with best intentions even through the hard times, and not just for the moments when things are going well and running to the next once things become a little hard.

 

If only unity, humanity, love and life mattered to the world the way and for the reasons it matters to God.   If only we could love like Jesus!

 

Forgive us, forgive me Jesus.   For all that wells up in my own spirit.  Sometimes self-doubt, sometimes frustration, sometimes judgement towards people, places and things.  Including my own self-destructive ways of worry, when we know control is just an illusion and though we may gain followers, although we may put plans into action.   You in the end will prevail.   We may not see it in our time, but you will wake us up, shake us up, clean us up in pure hearts with clean hands.  Or you will place judgement on the other side.

 

Lord, I do miss waking in the wee hours and being so full of life, and words and love.  As we once were.   Direct my steps and if it is your will allow that ability to wake up so full of you to come back again.     Thank you for allowing me the strength and courage to keep fighting forward each day you allow me back up.

 

Thank you for your sacrifice so this world and my little spec of real estate you give me to travel within to be alive.

 

You are a big God, Jesus.   No matter what we can see or not.  Yours will be done.  If only we stop the madness, protect the innocence, your children.  If only we heal within and cling to you for all that is around.

 

Thank you for this day, all that have been and any you allow to come in what we know as tomorrow.

 

Thank you!