2008-Who Am I (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Who Am I;
I shall clarify; I am someone who has been there done that and choose not to return to what has no meaning.

When I love, I love with all I have.

When I speak with you; it is because I have opened my heart in trust. For I can hold conversations with everyone willingly or as a must. I am good at it and do it very much. But when we speak in confidence.

I don't expect to hear what was said come out of someone else's mouth or pen.

I have no hidden agenda's I can talk with anyone and shall answer with my own voice. So why would it be right to allow gossip, share information, noise to be accepted and expect me to trust you to be a so called friend.

My life it is what it is. As I have been there done that and choose not to go back again.

If you choose to end my trust you shall never be part of my life or considered a friend. Saying hey in passing is not even a beginning.

If you are concerned I suggest you come to me; and make sure your reasons for concern are nothing more then being involved as a busy bee. As we have all heard misery always loves company.

Don't try pulling me in on that ride. Because I am on a mission to live. No joke no lie!

I will never be rude; or call you out. But I shall not back down either; There is no doubt.

There are some I have known and love for my entire life. May not always see or speak with them for years but they will always tell you I am straight and fear not but appreciate.

So don't over judge or under estimate.

I have been told my heart is too big. Even when it was failing and they didn't know how long I would make it or if I could live.

But all in all I will do my best; Until you try to consume me in your mess. or if you routinely expect my kindness.

I am not perfect; in fact just a mare human.

And no matter how often I conversate or even pray for you. You are a stranger and shall always be.

For anything more will be work; and nothing good in this life is for free. For all good there is sacrafice. I will when I choose always pay my price.

I am far from perfect; doing as much as I can when I can where I can. I love my family, my children,with every breath I receive. MY God has blessed me; no matter who you think you are or what you can give or bring.

So with that said. There is only one Judge I answer too.

I can assure you with all due respect. It is not You.

I may care for you, wishing to be your friend, through to the end. But let's clarify ~ you owe me nothing nor do I you.

So I suggest if you wish to know me ~ no matter what; always be you, always be true, always step up, always treat me with respect, with trust, with the love that I show you. Don't assume there is a reason behind my actions that pertain to anything more then just wanting to share moments with or for you.

I love people, I love places, I love things.

But due to history; I am where I am! And honestly will in the future change but for now just fine with JUST ME.

The world is a messed up place.

sometimes I take it too serious some time can't keep the smile off my face.

But with all of everything thing! I am able to work through it. Thanks to God's Love, God's Mercy; God's Grace. For me just knowing of His word That of God; Jesus, of what for thousands of years He has done, He does and will always bring. You have to be open to hear the words and understand before you can sing.

So for me; People may come people may go. Real physical loving relationships I may or may never know.

You can do allot to me; and try to ruin things right from the start.

But you can never take my blessings or the love with and for what is good, and kind, what is God deep within my heart.

My life; My choices; No hidden agenda's brain washed mystical voices.

Pray for me; AS I for you; wish you abundent blessings of nothing but good.