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Scripture from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise**** ****Music links and
reference pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ are free for public consumption**** (Disclosure – I am grammatically incorrect most any
day these words flow as a release of this mind maze which gives me my sanity
not to impress the critics or English majors (said with much love and respect)
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Date: 11/23/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 100:45-5 (NIV) ==== Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Romans 8:38-39(NIV) ==== 38 For I am convinced that
neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future,
nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all
creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ
Jesus our Lord.
==== Psalm 4:7-8===(NIV) 7 Fill my heart with joy when their
grain and new wine abound.
8 In peace I will lie down and sleep,
for you alone, Lord, make me dwell
in safety.
==== Romans 5-3-5 (NIV) ==== 5Apostle Paul put it like this,
“we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and
character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been
poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
We are all fighting giants of this world be it, in our minds or in the here and now. Discouragement, guilt, disappointment, lack of confidence pride, loneliness and so many more. All at some point in our lives get heavy and we can all can identify with.
Weighting us down and losing hope as we try to just go through the motions of day to day doing whatever it takes. Knowing the world has so many opportunities to mask and hide the problem. Satan’s greatest lie. Whispers in our heads over and over again and we start to believe one day waking up wondering just how we ended up where we are.
What if we could clearly understand God is for us in all things? What if we truly understand as Paul has written in Romans 5:3 that suffering really does produce perseverance, character and hope? What if we all really do know that God is with us from the East to the West, North to South; Right or Left; Above us and Below us?
What if we really understood that God just wants to live within us; through His son Jesus Christ?
So, what if we are not scholars and there will be many that will challenge all that is written. So, what if no one gets the fact that we, that I would rather be alone in hope, living in faith of all I cannot see then fill up on things that never last and will destroy us.
God’s love is beyond all comprehension and understanding. The peace we are blessed with; even in the crazy chaotic moments in this world; or even just when we think we need to make it clear to those that we find back peddling because we think they have the wrong idea. When really, they could care less. Even though they play the game.
Waking up with tunes in my head; not sure if that is the first sign of crazy, but if so, been doing it most of my life so I guess it is what it is.
I have always held Romans 12:2 as one of my favorite verses
====Romans 12:2 (NIV) ==== 2 Do not conform to the pattern
of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will
be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect
will.
Perhaps growing up without direction and gaining that independence; having
so many along the way force and try to force me into their box or their ways or
madness really was the blessing.
I do not do anything just to do it. If I find myself overwhelmed by
love or maybe emotion; just that which you cannot shake no matter what you do;
no matter how much you pray. Even when you sign after sign and you
fight it all the way. I fight it all the way;
until I cannot any longer.
There is so much none of us will understand; even more I will not try to
figure out. When I finally do something; well it is not just
because everyone else is doing it.
I always have a pure heart with bigger intentions and clean
hands.
Where are these thoughts taking me; Just like David; we all know what we
don’t know but it just does not go away. We fight every step knowing we
can be; or do while so many others have no faith in us; or in some cases they
just want to be in control so they never see what you see; they only see what
their blinders and tunnel vision allow.
I know I am far from perfect; but I know and believe in all that I
am. There is more to life and the God who made the universe just wants us
to live in harmony with us; showing us what real love and beauty is.
Wants to be the one who is always first to help us; hold us and lead us to
greater things.
There is not a day that goes by that things will not be happening; or
that we get stuck in the brokenness that surrounds us; in the doubt thinking we
cannot.
So, what maybe my words mean something maybe they do not. What
matters is they have been given to me as a gift to freely release and continue
with all I am to grow forward. Enjoy the blessings in the
here and now. Just know nothing in this world lasts forever; but that
which is tied to your soul.
Where is your soul bound?
It is okay to not be okay; just do not live there.
Everyone hurts sometimes! “Everybody Hurts” https://youtu.be/Y6yUY7M9yfw @ REM
It’s hard I know this firsthand; I get derailed often forgetting because of
that deep craving to just mean something to someone one special. To just
be held, I get paralyzed in what has happened or I vision to happen yet just
lack the confidence, the knowledge, the support to make it so.
I am just a speck in this vast universe that a God above all Gods, King
above all Kings. Let me know I matter and have purpose.
Perhaps it is these words; it is my off the wall ability to joke and laugh
often at myself. It is the deep love I feel for things I should not, or
even just the ability that even I do not know how; but I just keep getting back
up and fighting the layers off. Knowing it is Jesus that sustains all that
I am and all that I can be in and through His Love!
Does it matter? NO! What matters is if he continues to get me
up; I continue to do my best with whatever I am given and know where my
strength and courage come from. Know I am loved from the inside out and
nothing I or you could do to change the love we are blessed with.
Does not matter if we fight all the way; does not matter if we try to bury
it; or if we have gotten lost in masking all that we could not bear to feel any
longer or understand.
Know this; be careful what you wish for; be careful what you pray
for. I have unfortunately seen those who wished bad things to
people during angry moments. Later for them to regret things
happened that cannot be undone.
I know I myself when I pray often; but not near enough to have sight
to see as Jesus sees; feel for what Jesus feels and well you get it. I
can only tell you my perspectives and feelings that the world is still so
messed up; and yes, I even contribute to it sometimes.
Allot of the times I don’t want to feel anymore; why because I lack the
control that only God can have. No matter what is or
isn’t or what I feel or try to hide. I am forever grateful you God
choose me to be called a daughter of the most high!
I just want to be as
close to you Jesus as I can be; never losing this love you have given me from
the inside out.
Thank you for this day; for all that fills these days given and all who I
come in connection with. No matter what! Please always lead
me to grow forward in you. Please be with all I love and/or
will or am connected in helping them to know you and grow forward as well.
Thank you
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11/22/2019 - Fellowship at
The Park: (DEFY THE LABELS AND RECOVER YOUR LIFE (THANK YOU! @Samantha Lindsey)
Thank you @Samantha Lindsey for sharing pieces of your journey and pushing
through, fighting forward in Christ! Much love and prayers always. https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2583469475078866/
Father God the blessings of this day are abundant. No matter what I always
so much to be thankful for; despite all I have made it through and the scars
that have healed I am hear and healed. So many are still trying to get
back up; find their way to what next; falling over and over.
Thank you for the courage and strength you give each one of your souls here
on earth. May the light shine brighter than ever before for all who
are trapped in the darkness. May the light shine towards you and
all you are. Forgive me as I so often make
it about me; please be with all need healing and comfort that only you can
give. Please reconcile all that you know are not too late to be reconciled
to and with you. Please fill their cups Lord and let your love and
will run over in all who believe in you.
This life is hard and when we are going through it. May we please
reach for you and not try to be filled up by this
world. Thank you for loving me and allowing me to love
others.
Lord may your abundance bless each and every soul I care
about. You know all things and what is needed. Thank
you.
Weekend Services: @New Life Christian Church 11/23/2019 Saturday Night Service @ (Book of James week 10 – Marriage Counseling 101 https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2584319878327159/
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Date: 11/22/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/9ylnx0NA9X4 “Need You Now” @Plumb
https://youtu.be/ce6PT-3sQGg “Beautifully Broken” @Plumb
https://youtu.be/cVHrkYBEgFM “Gods Not Done With You” @Tauren Wells
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Colossians 3:15 (AMP) ==== Let the peace of Christ [the inner calm of one who walks daily with Him] be the controlling factor in your hearts [deciding and settling questions that arise]. To this peace indeed you were called as members in one body [of believers]. And be thankful [to God always].
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Habakkuk 3:17(NIV) ==== 17 Though the fig tree does not
bud
and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
==== Psalm 46:1===(AMP) God the Refuge of His People.
To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of the sons of Korah, set to soprano voices. A Song.
46 God is our refuge and strength [mighty
and impenetrable], A very present and well-proved help in trouble.
==== John 14:27(NIV) ==== 27 Peace I leave with you; my
peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your
hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, I was not sure if I had anything to write this morning. That is at 2am. After drifting back off to sleep for a couple more hours than waking and just knowing how blessed you have allowed me to be. Here are those endless thoughts of this morning.
I hope that today Cathy is up there in heaven and excitedly celebrating her birthday with you Father God. She was always a great hostess for a slip and slide party. It is not the amount of time we have been given here on earth. It is the memories and things we do with the time we are given.
Though I could think of all the losses of those who I allowed myself to truly get close to through the years. From people, pets and even places. Thank you for allowing me to smile even if sometimes tears fall for those who left too soon in my timing.
Through today’s journey and all the pressures, or unknowns of this world. I am far from ever having any answers or taking the right path. However, I do know; no matter how many times I faceplant tripping up; or even just have to stop and sit down not able to go any further. You Jesus will always be with me in spirit and in truth.
No matter if I need one those in your angel army to come in this physical world to help these battles, or just leaning on the remainder of the journey. I know you are always with me.
For this I am aware and filled with only a love from the inside out that you allow.
When, you send someone to in this physical world to walk with me the remainder of our days. We will serve you first and do our best leading by example with whatever you have for us. It will not be about what we can get, what we can achieve for our own personal gain.
Obviously, I could have done many things in this journey; I have made allot of money through my years, and yet my heart has given it all away. Yes, some finally a few years back starting to take vacations or adventures to see what the world is really like. But mostly, stepping up assisting when asked, assisting when no matter what I did to shake it off and said not my problem. Just never went away.
From the unknown; to family, to planned outreach. Remembering my first opportunities of working soup kitchens or going to area’s and handing out food to neighborhoods that had very little. The feeling of peace and nothing else mattered.
If only that peace that fills us when we give could just fill us every day through all things.
Of course, then the world would be like Stepford wife’s version where everyone walked around without emotion or feeling just doing. Not that I have any choice to not accept the good with the bad, the highs and the lows. Being thankful for all the memories you allow in between; when those I have come to love are no longer in the here and now.
When the struggles of trying to work, life and balance. It does not matter where I came from; if I had a loving Ozzy and Harriett family with the white picket fence; or a broken dysfunctional family that did the best they could with what they had to work with. Out there learning along the way and forging through all life with or without loving people leading by example; but instead like an army of ants just all busily going in circles just trying to figure out what next to make and feed the realm they had in their minds eye.
There is no magic formula to life; it’s all factual. You are our refuge, you are my refuge, my strength, my courage and my everlasting peace even when I am not sure how much more this physical being in mind, body and spirt can take.
For this I can only be thankful. No matter what. May I always get back up and always keep my moral compass and direction on you Jesus. No matter how high the mountain or low the valley.
Thank you for this day; for all you put in my life. Good, bad or indifferent! Thank you
May the spirit that fills us with your love, the blood that washed us clean and allows our names to be written into the book of eternal life. Be what sustains and holds all my brothers and sisters in Christ high. Heals all that are broken and what we are going through. Those things we will never get over in the here and now. Be what guides us and those who have not yet met you; shining brightly through your will and direction now and always.
May we learn to always know you are with us no matter what; may we always be thankful even through what knocks us down and we cannot get back up from. May your hand be that what lifts us and directs us. Thank you now and always!
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Afternoon
One thing for sure I have no expectations! I do not expect people to get me; nor do I have any agenda. I love conversation with everyone I can. With that being said. I have people once were friends in low places that I would not dare to even consider. But it does not stop me for checking to see how they are; I have people that are far above me in talents and trades that have become friends. How they look at me; who knows. Does it matter; yeah in the grand scheme of things. To some point yes. But I don’t chase people; stay out of their business and they stay out of mine.
I serve I higher power to walk in obedience and know who I belong to. Keeping it real; can I be easily hurt and turn away. I avoid BS or try to; I avoid liars and people just out there playing games or try to. And truly believe we all bleed red.
Hug on you; heck yeah. Love you for who you are absolutely! Maybe even admire you for your attributes and what your made up as. Your talents Heck yes; I am human.
I may even write in my blogs about that Sweet Soul King I dream sometimes about to love and serve. But let’s get one thing straight. I serve a much higher power than you or I will ever come to be. So, chill out and stop thinking life is all about what you can get from the temporary exterior in the time you are given here on this earth. I may enjoy everything about you or nothing about you. But until God tells me to move; I don’t move; until God lets me know you are here. Everyone else is just helping me grow and learn through this journey.
Besides; it will take allot to put up with my overloaded mind, not stop words and just crazy me on any given day or night. My independence has allowed me to grow and survive since I was 14 years old. My God allows me to continually grow forward. Getting back up every time I trip up; mess up or just sit down to give up. I learned a long time ago to own my mistakes and sometimes others. With that my only mission is to grow forward or try and hopefully feel real and love along the way.
Time to quit for the day have a great Friday night. Wherever you are.
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Date: 11/21/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/LuvfMDhTyMA “Lord I Need You” @Matt Maher
https://youtu.be/QurQEiOAQjA “Everything” @TobyMac
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1 Corinthians 1:4-5 (NIV) ====I always thank my God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. For in him you have been enriched in every way—with all kinds of speech and with all knowledge—
Meditation Moments (Biblegateway.com):
==== Luke 24:36 (NIV) ==== Jesus Appears to the Disciples
36 While they were still talking about this, Jesus himself stood among them and said to them, “Peace be with you.”
==== Matthew 28:20 ==== (NIV) 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
==== Hebrews 13:15 ==== (NIV) 15 Through Jesus, therefore, let us
continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise—the fruit of lips that openly
profess his name.
==== 1 John 4:8==== (NIV) 8 Whoever does not love does not know
God, because God is Love
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Father God, for this new day; thank you for the abilities you allow me. Thank you for allowing me to be me.
Father God please hear the prayers of the hearts and tears many are currently are withholding. Please send the right people to help lead the way to and for our loved ones. Guarding and protecting their steps and actions to allow the freedom of choice and will you have granted; to be used for good and your will.
Please give those of us who are parents, caretakers, guardians, grandparents, loved one’s who have stepped in the strength, courage and wisdom to get through all we have no control over when it comes to others.
Please guard and protect all the littles Lord; bring justice to all that harm children and hold the caretakers of those who fall short and participate in harmful things with children to come before you now.
It is not my will Lord; for we all have opinions and handle things recklessly in our own ways. I know I would make a mess of things managing on emotion and not pure Godliness.
Please be with our adult children, the ones that have it all under control but are surrounding themselves with those doing things they should not; or even making harmful choices.
Please love them all when we as parents get upset and have a hard time looking past their misdeeds forgetting you are also looking at our own.
Lord I remember a time where I loved my mother deeply; but never had a relationship with her. Perhaps this is why I enable my own children too much at times. I remember how angry and withdrawn I was from relationships and trusting even family; starting at a very young age up until I came to know you Jesus.
Thank you for allowing me knowledge and love in you to be able to understand we all fall short from your glory. There is a different of those out there with great intent to use, abuse and harm others and especially unprotected children; including the parents who spawned them.
Then there are those parents who were so young and misguided that when their worlds got to heavy they fell apart not knowing you or having the support of positive influencing souls.
It took me a long time Father God to learn so much about truth and love. I know I am not done yet learning. Thank you that there will never be enough gratitude in this world or from me alone.
Thank you in your timing; I learn a little more each day of who I am, and although forever not enough for this world. Everything to you!
May all I am connected come to know their worth in you, Father God. Even those consumed by darkness they come to the light.
May all that are hurting give it to you and learn to accept the peace and love with you.
Thank you for the ability to get back up even when things are piling on; you allow me just one more breath when I think I cannot.
Be with my own family Lord, those in the hospital, those going through accidents, those trying to heal, those layered up with issues they do not speak of, those suffering heartbreak and loneliness, those trying to get ahead but stumbling over choices and the list goes on and on. Thank you for being with me; even on the days when kindness to my own triggers tears to stream down.
I know no matter what; you are forever with me. Even when, Even if!
As you listen to my own unspoken needs, desires, and prayers Father God. Thank you for allowing me to feel your presence and peace.
I know everything changes minute by minute, day by day. Nothing is promised for tomorrow. For this I am beyond grateful that you knew my destiny long before even coming to this world. Or all I would learn along the way. So, every day you allow me up; no matter what hurts or what does not. I am beyond thankful in every way.
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First: For all my friends and family who have gone ahead; Happy Thanksgiving season. Happy Birthday Cathy, I miss you my friend and sister. I know Bo does too!
Next: I have to get this out.
If only the layers of good flowed through this life like the layers of something always going on not so pleasant for those I am connected.
I woke this morning with a text waiting for me; my mom is in the hospital again. Thinking it was stomach issues again. I swear she and my daughter are twins. Shaking my head!
No, it is something with her heart. I get it; even though I am 1300 miles away and the only one that is still working and supporting multiples.
All the while the flurry of messages from everyone and calls trying to get information throughout the day.
Finally, I did; and gave what I found to my sister; and until I was at home could not do anything more. She is in a good place where they can care for her right now.
We do what we must for our family right?
I am not sure what is coming but the parents; Mom and stepdad Pops are getting up there and a mess. Neither can get out of each other’s way; both are falling apart and the cycle of aging parents with kids’ miles away has begun.
I told my son today as much as I do not want to go back to NY State. If it comes down to it, I will sell out here and find a big place
I will do when it comes time what I must; sell out here and go up rent and put them all in one house.
I don’t want to have to do that, but something has to give besides me. It’s just me and I cannot carry this burden.
If I have to sell out and move back to NY State; Lord I will honor my mother and make sure she is cared for. But I will be so very angry all over again. About so many things and I know it is not about me. I am the youngest of three. I am the one that is still working to support and keep stability.
Dear Lord, please send something real and positive that helps me in this journey and not continual layers of need. I am so tapped out I really cannot breathe.
I am beyond grateful for the blessing of life you have given me; maybe that is the reason I have freely given all I have away.
This every week back and forth between aging parents and my grown daughter and trying to keep stable for these kids.
I have to say this emotional bank account is drained. This financial bank account is drained.
I do not know what employment looks like in 2020. I am very good at what I do; but honestly times and enterprise change all the time and with mergers and acquisitions getting close to being final.
I can only pray in this case who I am; with my dedication and ethics means something. Of course, with my drive to succeed in whatever I do always delivering. Even if I rattle cages along the way.
I so remember growing up really thinking I needed someone to be complete; yet so afraid to get close to anyone because they would either use me up or just be gone. History played over and over.
Here I know I am 110% complete in you Jesus. Yet I need balance; wanting someone to balance this crazy world and whatever is left with. Not someone telling me how to fix things; I can’t only you can. I may have dreams and sometimes things I do not understand transpire in truth. But I am no fool.
I know Lord you saved me from myself long ago, for reasons I will never understand. I am blessed; I am loved by these kids and by my own family.
I just need something real; tangible that means something for more than words, more than 5 seconds. More than hearing on the other end I need.
I want to be selfishly in love Father; knowing I don’t have to go to bed and wake up alone trying to figure this out.
If that means you consume me; please come now and do so!
I am yours God forever. Always have been, you know everything about this being. Please show me what I need to do. Please do not allow me another second of wasting time with things those in this life that have their own agenda’s. Resolve Father God all that needs to be.
I so wish none of us made it about our own selves!
So, consumed by our feelings that we are paralyzed and can’t do anything for anyone else because we are stuck. So out there yet so adamant they do not want to know you to help them through. If only more in this world would step out and step up in faith and do their best with what they are blessed with; maybe the layers would not be so heavy for many others.
Thank you for this reminder https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4 “Surrounded-Fight My Battles” @Michael W. Smith
https://youtu.be/xjvhhC_1QpY “One Thing” @Hillsong Worship
Thank you for this day Jesus!
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Date: 11/20/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/r66g-BvGrhk “You Say” @Lauren Daigle
https://youtu.be/kcBulwQSi3M “Remember” @Lauren Daigle
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalms 95:1-2 (NIV) ====Come, let us sing for joy to the Lord; let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation. Let us come before him with thanksgiving and extol him with music and song.
Meditation Moments (Biblegateway.com):
==== Ephesians 2:8-9 (NIV) ==== 8 For it is by grace you have been
saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9 not
by works, so that no one can boast.
==== Ephesians 3:16-19 ==== (NIV) 16 I pray that out of his
glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your
inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts
through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may
have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and
long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to
know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure
of all the fullness of God.
==== Psalm 62:8 ==== (NIV) 8 Trust in him at all times, you
people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you for this day!
Been here before Jesus; I remember when I once hand painted the entire exterior of my old house and finally after two weeks going and getting a paint sprayer to finish the high marks. I remember how stepping off the deck heading to the ladder and hitting a buried stump that I had no clue; rolling my ankle so bad you heard a pop a block away.
How going to the ER thinking it was broke; when they came in ready to x-ray my knee. I can laugh about that now; even though the ankle gives me some trouble at times.
Not to mention eventually tearing the meniscus in the knee. I can sit here smiling shaking my head with the things you allow me to look back on. While at the same time feeling like I want to cry at times.
Blessed undeservedly! You will renew my strength always. Even when I am weary or hurting for things that should not matter.
Thank you for allowing me to be me; thank you for allowing me to know you are with me. I could not and will not survive without you.
So, although it has been many years since I painted that house and I am knowing I am one step away with my choices to just quit and give up at times. “Truth Be Told” https://youtu.be/lWxI6HRcEz0 @Matthew West Truth be told everything about my life you know; as you know the purpose you have me where you do and allow me to grow forward through the hills and valleys you walk with me in .
I may not be okay on some days where others I am. Today I am blessed regardless of knowing what was, what is and not even caring about what could be; while praying the sadness of what is desired to be if not your will goes away.
May we never forget where we have come from Lord; but always walk forward with our head up and know who sustains us alone or surrounded in abundance of love and those you place in our lives.
All I am has and always be yours.
So, thank you for not giving me that crazy ambition to go climb a ladder and paint this much needed house. But I am going to charge up the battery so I can get the rider out and try to clean up this property.
Tomorrow is a new day it is our destiny; the freedom of will and choices matter. Your promise is forever on the “Horizon (A New Day)” https://youtu.be/IqsDM92oMkM @TobyMac, Aaron Cole
Thank you
https://youtu.be/1dxOdCsK-ac “In The Arms” @Terrian
Truth Is Jesus; Jesus is love; Truth is eternal; love is eternal. No matter your soulmate; child; family member or dear friend. True Love has no beginning or no end. What God allows in the depths of our souls is beyond space and time. Eternal Truth; Eternal Love.
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Date: 11/19/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/7X9d4ubvWH4 “Counting Every Blessing” @Rend Collective
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalms 1:1-2 (NIV) ====Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night..
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalms 27:13-14 (NIV) ==== 13 I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. 14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
==== Exodus 15:13 ==== (NIV) 13 In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.
==== Habakkuk 2 ==== (MSG)
2 What’s God going to say to my questions? I’m braced for the worst. I’ll climb to the lookout tower and scan the horizon. I’ll wait to see what God says, how he’ll answer my complaint.
Full of Self, but Soul-Empty
2-3 And then God answered: “Write this.
Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run.
This vision-message is a witness pointing to what’s coming. It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait! And it doesn’t lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It’s on its way. It will come right on time. 4 “Look at that man, bloated by self-importance— full of himself but soul-empty.
But the person in right standing before God through loyal and steady believing is fully alive, really alive.
5-6 “Note well: Money deceives. The arrogant rich don’t last. They are more hungry for wealth
than the grave is for cadavers. Like death, they always want more, but the ‘more’ they get is dead bodies. They are cemeteries filled with dead nations; graveyards filled with corpses.
Don’t give people like this a second thought. Soon the whole world will be taunting them:
6-8 “‘Who do you think you are— getting rich by stealing and extortion?
How long do you think you can get away with this?’ Indeed, how long before your victims wake up, stand up and make you the victim? You’ve plundered nation after nation. Now you’ll get a taste of your own medicine.
All the survivors are out to plunder you, a payback for all your murders and massacres.
9-11 “Who do you think you are— recklessly grabbing and looting, Living it up, acting like king of the mountain, acting above it all, above trials and troubles? You’ve engineered the ruin of your own house. In ruining others you’ve ruined yourself. You’ve undermined your foundations,
rotted out your own soul. The bricks of your house will speak up and accuse you.
The woodwork will step forward with evidence.
12-14 “Who do you think you are— building a town by murder, a city with crime?
Don’t you know that God-of-the-Angel-Armies makes sure nothing comes of that but ashes,
Makes sure the harder you work at that kind of thing, the less you are? Meanwhile the earth fills up with awareness of God’s glory as the waters cover the sea.
15-17 “Who do you think you are— inviting your neighbors to your drunken parties,
Giving them too much to drink, roping them into your sexual orgies? You thought you were having the time of your life. Wrong! It’s a time of disgrace. All the time you were drinking,
you were drinking from the cup of God’s wrath. You’ll wake up holding your throbbing head, hung over— hung over from Lebanon violence, Hung over from animal massacres, hung over from murder and mayhem, From multiple violations of place and people.
18-19 “What’s the use of a carved god so skillfully carved by its sculptor?
What good is a fancy cast god when all it tells is lies? What sense does it make to be a pious god-maker who makes gods that can’t even talk?
Who do you think you are— saying to a stick of wood, ‘Wake up,’
Or to a dumb stone, ‘Get up’? Can they teach you anything about anything?
There’s nothing to them but surface. There’s nothing on the inside. 20 “But oh! God is in his holy Temple! Quiet everyone—a holy silence. Listen!”
Cruising with Kelly (11/19/2019) I do not own the rights to the content playing in the background of this ride. https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2574197326006081/
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord, for this new day Lord, thank you for safe travels and the well-being you allow me. Thank you for the precious time I am allowed with those you have given in my path for this journey no matter where, when or why.
WOW!
Thank you, Lord, for your “Mercy In The Dirt” https://youtu.be/bvR_cqKjK2U @Ryan Stevenson
So many things can happen at any given time to anyone; no big surprise. Today like any other life happens. Blessed to get up and go; blessed for safe traveling mercies into the office which I live 50 miles from my place of employment. Every day is an adventure on the highways. Work was especially productive.
Then about an hour and half from quitting time I get one of those 911 calls. My daughter who has been suffering with chronic gastric issues these past three years; is on the other end hysterically crying. Someone ran a stop sign and broadsided her van.
First of all, THANK YOU JESUS! Talk about testing my heart these past couple years. But this past month whoa! Yes, am I feeling it; yes, and it takes allot. Being a single parent for 40 years and a grandparent helping raising kids for the last 18. Nope not that old; I had my kids at 18 not that it matters; and worked my way through this life trying to matter. Best way I can describe paying my way through college four times; daring to be different while holding onto all the familiar. Working multiple jobs and making sure my kids were well taken care of.
There was always something happening. From the day I was able to walk I imagine; cause my life as I know it has always had STUFF. My scars go long back and that shattered pieces of me fought their way through life until the day God made it clear I did not have to fight any longer. He was doing it for me from now on. That has been 24 years ago now.
It has never been all sunshine and roses; especially the harder I fight to hold on and give it all to God. More STUFF happens. There will always be stuff happening in this life.
Bad enough last night my granddaughter says she had a minor accident on the way home from her soccer game. No one got hurt but driving home a trash can flew off the back of a truck and was right in her way and she had nowhere to go. Okay, thank you Jesus for looking out for my heart strings.
Although I know anything can and will happen; that image I was left with just is not what I can handle right now. Then today; the call. So very grateful for all my family and I have been blessed with.
The van can be repaired or replaced, and my daughter did not get broken. There is no greater stress than to be rushing to get to one of your family members and not knowing what you are going to walk up on.
So, when I confirmed all will be okay; and when my daughter asked me at the accident scene why bad things keep happening. This year has been horrible for her; all I could do is tell her maybe it is time she fully submits to God.
Yes, we all get there in our own time; and even if we are born into a Christian family there are no guarantees!
Our Choices are our own period.
Good people walk around all day long struggling in the world without knowing God. Even those who walk and love everything about Jesus Christ are tested and tormented.
But hey; what if we were the ones that were beaten and broken and nailed to a cross while Jesus stood on the other side.
Don’t try to rationalize or understand this mind maze. I realized today just in my work email alone items that have not been deleted; I have read over 44 thousand emails just for work.
There are so many crossed circuits and an abundance of data that has been processed over my years. We all believe in something; even if it is swearing, we do not believe in anything.
I said I had my kids young; my sister took care of us until she married young and then we took care of ourselves. So, growing up on my own and learning how to do everything by the school of hard knocks with all that goes with; and the layers of scars upon scars surviving at the hands in Satan’s sandbox.
Life is what it is until it is not; and yes, my stress levels have been tested all my life. I am and have been blessed!
However; even walking in faith I need to remind myself who really has this life. Boundaries!
Which happens to be a class I facilitated about ten years ago and had to find my write up.
So, my release of stress is writing to God and just writing about the pieces of me that are triggered. It’s not perfect and sometimes I am sure anyone who is reading; well you will never run out of words to read.
So, the basis of the Boundaries study was by Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend. Great study and read if you need some self-help in Christ.
The basis of the group I use to lead and now still 10 years later co-lead was an Adult Life Support group. Back then it was co-ed and was doing great things then and still is today. Although we never turn anyone away; we are predominantly a women’s bible study.
Let me say this; there is nothing in this world that you will experience that someone else is now or has or will go through as well. This group does not fix anyone; they do not coddle or cover up the concerns we all feel. And we are far from experts. We are real people with real life, love and circumstances. Trying to make it through life learning who and what we are in Christ along the way.
So back to Boundaries
Boundaries is the first place we need to start, because despite our best efforts even when we think we are doing what is right we are ultimately enabling a damaging cycle. When we could be making change that is for the better for ourselves and those in need.
Another helpful read Setting Boundaries @Charles E Hummel
Worry only about the things under your control; the things that can be influenced and changed by your actions; not about the things that are beyond your capacity to direct or alter!
Once we understand our boundaries and ultimately know who really is in control. Live becomes a bit clearer and there is more peace knowing whom you and everyone in this universe really belongs to.
Attitudes are contagious, is yours worth catching? @quotesvalley.com
Have you ever noticed how attitudes really are contagious? You can catch someone else’s attitude faster than you catch a cold! If you are having a good day and run into Oscar the Grouch, it impacts you and the longer your interaction with the Grouch, the more likely you are to leave the scene a little grumpy yourself.
Same thing if someone is all fired up and excited about something, you tend to catch that too. So, since attitudes are contagious, how is yours?
Are you demonstrating attitudes and attitudes that are positive, encouraging and representation of Christ’s love for us? Or have you been doing your best just to get by and not really noticing you have a great Oscar the Grouch impersonation?
Whatever attitude you carry around will influence all who are around you.
One of the first lessons of knowing boundaries is knowing where you are and what your attitude is shining out there. Today pay it forward just by influencing others with the best you have in remaining positive through all circumstances.
A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort -@Hern Albright, quoted in Readers Digest June 1995
Setting personal boundaries will help protect you and really bless those you care about in the end. When we set boundaries, we let go of the outcome.
Having boundaries is to protect and take care of ourselves. We need to be able to tell other people when they are acting in ways that are not acceptable to us. We need to help encourage them to help themselves with guidance and not get caught up in enabling and doing things for them. I am so guilty even though for years I got better; recently found myself doing it all over again.
So yes, boundaries never have an end time. You must revisit and reclass boundaries daily in life. There are boundaries for every circumstance we encounter.
Another step is starting to know that we have the right to protect and defend ourselves. That we have not only the right, but the duty to take responsibility for how we allow others to treat us.
That being our own family members or people we meet along the way. No one is exempt when it comes to respect and doing what is right. We all have bad moments days even years. But it does not give the right any anytime to take out misfortune out on anyone around us. When it comes down to people being bullies or being mean. None of it is acceptable; in fact, Mean People Suck get away from the situation as fast as you can.
Yes, it is important to state our feelings out loud, in a loving way. Not flipping out; being aggressive, loud and angry. This is hard because we all react; when we should be able to count while coming down then going back to describe we feel “I feel (when this happens).
Emotions do not define us; they are a form of internal communication that help us to understand ourselves. They are a vital part of our being.
Not everyone handles the same situation alike. We may all bleed the same, but we all react differently. Which is one of the reasons so many people are going through life challenges. We must take responsibility for owning ourselves and our reality. Rather the other person rather the other person that can hear us and understand even when it is not as important to them hearing us as it is to hear ourselves.
We must understand we all have a right to our feelings, and it is vitally important to our own voice. Speaking up for ourselves. And encouraging others to help themselves by doing the same.
“Learning how to set boundaries is a necessary step to be a friend to ourselves” God created us for so much more; not to be entangled by all that will transpire in this world. Learn to love ourselves without owning our self and owning our rights and responsibilities as co-creators of our lives helps grow forward.
Lots to think about all the time right; but keep this in mind, things happen all the time to everyone. Including our loved ones. Sometimes we need to pray harder to reveal the reminders or ways to get through.
All the times we should be leaning in on Him alone; and if you have a special person in the hear and now that will lean and help you along the way. You are doubly blessed.
On the days when life is impactful in not in a positive way. Give it to God; pray, write, play music, write music, dance whatever it takes. But do not let it eat you up; and rob you of the spirit and life given.
Always pray for those you love and care for no matter what the outcome; never stop!
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Date: 11/18/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/MGukMchIcDE “It’s You” @TobyMac, Matt Maher, Terrian (Tide Electric Remix)
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== John 17:17(NIV) ====Sanctify them by the truth; your word is truth.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV) 6 Do not be anxious about anything,
but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your
requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which
transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ
Jesus.
==== John 7:38 ==== (NIV) 38 Whoever
believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from
within them.”[a]
==== Ephesians 5:18-20 ==== (NIV) 18 Do not get drunk on
wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit, 19 speaking
to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make
music from your heart to the Lord, 20 always giving thanks to
God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for another day. I get it many who may see these words at some point will never understand just how grateful that you believe there is still something for me to do here on this earth. Giving me another new day in you is a gift no one can ever replace, or out-give.
There are so many times where I just want to disappear from the foolish thoughts or ways of this world. Yet you have blessed me with many new days and so many countless opportunities to push through.
May I never get so full of myself that I may forget where all my strength, courage and even that sometimes wisdom that sinks in; is coming from. Thank you for loving me for me Jesus. One hot mess of a convoluted mind maze that is been filled with endless promises in you.
I pray you will never stop fighting for me; https://youtu.be/u828g2phpew “Fighting For Me” @Riley Clemmons I know you will never give up on me; but our; but my human nature sometimes gets so close to giving up; I just never want to lose you Lord.
Sounds crazy for some who have never felt the love and peace you give from the inside out. Through all things in you, with you all things are so indescribably different. Never in this life have I felt the peace that only comes with you.
With so much darkness, brokenness and unknown in this world; you are the only absolute! Good, bad or indifferent. Through our losses; through the dreams; through all you have put in this soul I will never understand. Through a love, you have given me with no expectation. Want, desire for truth with clean hands and a pure heart. Yes!
Thank you for loving me and allowing me to love you through knowledge and power in your blood and all those you have blessed feed this soul as well. Thank you for allowing me to sort through life in you.
The path of my journey alone that is so filled with all the hills and valleys, never knowing when I would recover for all the times, I have been shattered for caring too much; or revealing just what this soul loves.
Yet you have allowed me one more day up to do my best with what I am allowed to work with.
My prayers Lord; just as I am continually overwhelmed by life; that as I have found and cling to you.
That all your children will do the same. I know that is impractical.
As many will become so entangled and caught up in the empty promises of the world and start burying themselves in what the world can do for them. For the hurts, habits and hang-up’s. For all the things, they never give a second thought when it comes to not what it can do for them but what in the end it will take from them.
Everything I am Lord is yours! Please lead me, and all of my being; be it my children, grandchildren, friends, family all my brothers and sisters known in Christ; all those who are yet to come. All those unknowingly, who will fight all the way to the end not to be loved by you.
For those going through it Lord, please hold them tighter than ever before. May they get up and give praise to you alone and even though it does not make sense by the world’s standards.
As they fight and grow forward, through these weeds and thorns in the valley, they find themselves. Please fill them with your strength and guidance for what is next.
Thank you for my days; for the blessings of music. Thank you for allowing me to see you in the here and now. Lead all I am connected; in blood, in spirit, in hope, in faith, in love. It is because of you Jesus; I am forever blessed. You know all that I am Father God; you know what love is deep within this soul and who I am inside out. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for this new day!
Jesus, I am forever yours; no matter if I am ever able to see you; https://youtu.be/72g8pRwR9mk you will always be the “Heart Of My Beat” @TobyMac
THANK YOU!
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Date: 11/17/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 119:105 (NIV) ==== [ × Nun ] Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Romans 8:1 (NIV) Life in the Spirit 8 So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ
Jesus.
==== Isaiah 30:21 ==== (NIV 21 Whether you turn to the right
or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the
way; walk in it.”
==== John 10:27 ==== (MSG) 27 My sheep listen to my voice; I
know them, and they follow me.
==== Psalm 23:1-3 ==== (NIV) Psalm 23 A psalm of David.
1 The Lord is
my shepherd, I lack nothing. 2 He
makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he
refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s
sake.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
God
Thank you for the words you allow me to learn, see, read, and write.
Even if in so many times and ways; I do not know why me! Why it has come to flow through the eyes you gave me to see or the meaning.
But thank you for all that I have grown through; been stuck in or on; been rescued with or from. Be it something beautiful in front of me; a song at the right time, which we know for me has been a blessing; or even just things I read. Thank you that for the abilities and gifts of life of my own and all that I have been able to grow living through the hope and promise others give.
“The nicest place to be is in someone’s thoughts, the safest place to be is in someone’s prayers, and the best place to be is in God’s hands. (True Facebook author unknown)”
There is much we will hear, see and even that will be experienced; at least for me. That I will never have full understanding. But few and simple words, or things, will always have great meaning and even impact.
Depending on what those thoughts are could make a difference on how meaningful and good they are for us. Every prayer makes a difference and no matter what anyone else believes; truly knowing you are with God and he is with you. Makes every second, we have air in our lungs that allows us to be. The most precious and meaningful opportunity in this human experience.
There is no plan or agenda when you give me triggers or allow what flows
out of this mind maze. I just know without the blessings of life;
great or small I would be nothing at all. Those blessings Jesus
come from you and you alone.
We can all come from luxury with everything handed to us or nothing and we
learn to find our way through the deepest trenches of the valley of this world
and what we call life.
One thing is for sure; nothing happens without you Father
God.
We know those with everything will remain lost unfulfilled and consumed by
darkness; while others who are considered the least of these will find peace
and joy with just you.
Many will know of you; yet never accept your gifts of mercy and grace and
spend their lives on the edge. Twisting, chasing and dealing with the choices
they have made or even just being taunted by those they are surrounded by and
the aunting experiences they cannot shake off.
Prayerfully many more will have seen the lighted path and come to you
knowing where each and every blessing comes from; and do their best on any
given day allowed; with that moral compass in hand through all the heartaches,
lessons and choices to grow forward in you.
What does it all mean? We see, we hear ‘There is no condemnation for those who
are in you, Jesus’. “The law of the Spirit of life has set
you free from the law of sin and death”. “Radical Freedom” @Sarah Young
A birthright given to those who believe and walk day to day knowing and
believing in all the unseen in hope and faith. That Jesus Christ died to
set humanity free to live; for all those who believe and in life, in truth and
in spirit with the Father.
I could find scripture after scripture and still not fully understand any
of it at times.
Yet knowing the mercy and grace you have given me to continue this
journey of my own; that has been so full of hills and
valleys.
So full of doubts and absolutes with even more peace at times allowing
nothing else to really matter. Fully aware of the love in the
depths of this soul; even if I will never understand why; just knowing no
matter what it is and will ever for be.
Love for others; love you Jesus.
No matter what is said, what is done what words are written or
sung. For you, for specifics, for everyone.
Even when, watching so many that are
fighting your will every step of the way God our great divine! You
put on this mind allowing to have lived so many of these battles firsthand; I
know we all get there in our own time.
Knowing, even sum of those who are with you that will not
stay.
To be fed and remain close to you when the temptations of
the world start swallowing them up one by one.
Those who want, need and cry out that will never receive; with only the reasons of their surroundings some choice some fate; but none they escape.
Those the many; who have the opportunities to be with you; that will use every excuse to just not commit! Instead they choose the free spirit and walk away of truth and promise not realizing they can still have the fun. Yet they choose the lies of what is easy; feeding the flesh. Losing purity what is truth. All for what later they will be consumed.
Those others led astray believing the good in everything; never judging until they pick themselves back up off the floor.
Me too! Yes, I am one of these. Believing all I hear all you say. All the needs of the day. Trying to do what this heart says even in prayer. Instead of letting God, letting go; but trying to just be what I sometimes need to feed. Craving to matter and in Gods eyes; by believing the heart and acting on foolish good deeds.
How about the more that are out there to proclaim all you are and all you ever will be.
Thank you, Jesus, for all the uncertainty of this world; and the words you allow me to key. For you alone are the one true God; maker of all things; just wanting our love, our obedience. Not what we can fulfill or dream up or chase to be.
You God alone are and always will be all things.
There will always be so many giving directions of what is right, what is wrong. How to do something; take this, do that.
Yet all you want Jesus; is to keep trying in you; planting all we have firmly in you and knowing that next step no matter what hill or valley. You alone will see us through.
====Romans 8:1-2 ====(MSG) The Solution Is Life on God’s Terms
8 1-2 With the arrival of Jesus, the
Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ’s
being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black
cloud. A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong
wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of
brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.
Thank you, Lord, for
all I do not understand
Thank you for allowing me to be one that needs to cling to you.
Please be with all who are struggling. Please be my strength and what drives my own will.
For there are many days I am just waiting for that knock at the door for those I love and care for; that have not accepted you. You know what it is; I need not say more.
I do not get even half of my days right Lord.
I too sometimes get derailed and stumble; face planting allowing my heart to seep out.
Wanting what I cannot have; broken for what I allow this heart to lead me through.
Loving with great hope in you Jesus it all matters; including me.
Far beyond a sacrifice for stability and giving littles a chance to find the path of life.
Far beyond protection or comforts.
Far beyond just that what comes and goes.
Far beyond what I think really matters, from the depths of what you allowed in this soul.
I will never fully understand me, or all that this life has had transpire. But I do know without you Father God you are my life that you alone sustain and holds.
For I am nothing. Please direct my steps guard my heart and help me always do what is accountable and right remaining pure. No matter what is or is not on the other
side of any opened door.
Help me regain me physically, mentally, in health and in pain. All only in you Jesus!
Not that it matters; for my insignificant self. Not all that, or full of wealth. Not a bad soul, not a bad person not one bone. Just gullible and on many days even knowing you, however still not feeling my own worth.
It is you Father God that even after all these years.
You allow me to believe in others without a second glance or call.
Even when it all should be just you. You, Jesus alone!
Here I am with some of my scars which may never go away. Tapping out of life; tapping out words. Getting up every day you allow. Believing in you even while lost when I cannot see I have really been found.
Here I am asking you that favor day after day~
Needing recovery, needing strength, courage; Your mercy and grace.
Needing to know I am leading by example for you; as long as you allow me here be it what may.
Needing you God almighty; needing no matter what you reveal in my life.
For I know; We are all imperfect pieces to your canvas of hope shining brightly in the darkness of shadows and pain. If only we can learn to read between the lines.
Oh, how we would truly know the love you gave on that sacrificial cross and all the stripes you take over and over again. Giving all, we got over and over to your Son and believing only His promises and truth in him. Walk away from the world’s temptation and sin. Some which is crystal clear. Other we do not know until we are deep within.
Thank you, God, for allowing me this journey. With each and every scar or stain along the way.
As I struggle to get back up and try to take care of this vessel no matter what is weighing me down or derailing me holding me back along the way.
Thank you for allowing me to be one that needs to cling to you.
Please be with all who are struggling. Please be my strength and what drives my own will.
For there are many days I am just waiting for that knock at the door for those I love and care for; that have not accepted you. You know what it is; I need not say more.
I do not get even half of my days right Lord.
I too sometimes get derailed and stumble; face planting allowing my heart to seep out.
Wanting what I cannot have; broken for what I allow this heart to lead me through.
Loving with great hope in you Jesus it all matters; including me.
Far beyond a sacrifice for stability and giving littles a chance to find the path of life.
Far beyond protection or comforts.
Far beyond just that what comes and goes.
Far beyond what I think really matters, from the depths of what you allowed in this soul.
I will never fully understand me, or all that this life has had transpire. But I do know without you Father God you are my life that you alone sustain and holds.
For I am nothing. Please direct my steps guard my heart and help me always do what is accountable and right remaining pure. No matter what is or is not on the other
side of any opened door.
Help me regain me physically, mentally, in health and in pain. All only in you Jesus!
Not that it matters; for my insignificant self. Not all that, or full of wealth. Not a bad soul, not a bad person not one bone. Just gullible and on many days even knowing you, however still not feeling my own worth.
It is you Father God that even after all these years.
You allow me to believe in others without a second glance or call.
Even when it all should be just you. You, Jesus alone!
Here I am with some of my scars which may never go away. Tapping out of life; tapping out words. Getting up every day you allow. Believing in you even while lost when I cannot see I have really been found.
Here I am asking you that favor day after day~
Needing recovery, needing strength, courage; Your mercy and grace.
Needing to know I am leading by example for you; as long as you allow me here be it what may.
Needing you God almighty; needing no matter what you reveal in my life.
For I know; We are all imperfect pieces to your canvas of hope shining brightly in the darkness of shadows and pain. If only we can learn to read between the lines.
Oh, how we would truly know the love you gave on that sacrificial cross and all the stripes you take over and over again. Giving all, we got over and over to your Son and believing only His promises and truth in him. Walk away from the world’s temptation and sin. Some which is crystal clear. Other we do not know until we are deep within.
Thank you, God, for allowing me this journey. With each and every scar or stain along the way.
As I struggle to get back up and try to take care of this vessel no matter what is weighing me down or derailing me holding me back along the way.
Please shine brightly
for all going through dark times Jesus. Please be with all am
connected! You know all things Father God. I do not need to
break anything out or down. I just need you and pray all I love and
care for comes to know the depths of all you are.
I just pray Father God your will not my own; not what I feel; not what I wish or even may fight for. I pray you alone Jesus and all you choose. Fill every single night, every single day. With all that you are Father God. For you are the only truth, in life. No matter what others do or say.
and pray all I love and care for comes to know the depths of all you are.
I just pray Father God your will not my own; not what I feel; not what I wish or even may fight for. I pray you alone Jesus and all you choose. Fill every single night, every single day. With all that you are Father God. For you are the only truth, in life. No matter what others do or say.
I just pray Father God your will not my own; not what I feel; not what I wish or even may fight for. I pray you alone Jesus and all you choose. Fill every single night, every single day. With all that you are Father God. For you are the only truth, in life. No matter what others do or say.
and pray all I love and care for comes to know the depths of all you are.
I just pray Father God your will not my own; not what I feel; not what I wish or even may fight for. I pray you alone Jesus and all you choose. Fill every single night, every single day. With all that you are Father God. For you are the only truth, in life. No matter what others do or say.
Afternoon Music Journey: days like today take me back through a journey helping me openly know I am
not there yet.
https://youtu.be/reWLIs51e2 “Love
Feels Like” @TobyMac ft. dc Talk
https://youtu.be/reWLIs51e2 “Have you ever seen the rain” @Creedence Clearwater Revival
https://youtu.be/HIWY8UyW9bw “The Letter” @BoxTops
https://youtu.be/_eij6Vs7FGo “Strong Enough” @Cher
https://youtu.be/Ayyy-03ITDg “Got to Give It Up” @Marvin Gaye
https://youtu.be/bc0KhhjJP98 “Come and Get Your Love” @Redbone
https://youtu.be/DvLmwskmsGg “Brick House” @The Commodores
https://youtu.be/SGiig82KlF4 “Un-Break My Heart (remix)” @Toni Braxton
https://youtu.be/idFJkZQmN38 “Picture” @Kid Rock ft Sheryl Crow
https://youtu.be/cNqhZ9N3EQw “Gone” @TobyMac
https://youtu.be/eJ80Ug-CkQI “Dream Forever” @Hopsin
https://youtu.be/qF_xZP7Gb3sI “I Can See Clearly Now” @Ed Sheeran
https://youtu.be/qgmXPCX4VzU “Photograph” @Bob Marley
https://youtu.be/dgjTO5eAbZY “A Broken Wing” @Martina McBride
https://youtu.be/reWLIs51e2 “Have you ever seen the rain” @Creedence Clearwater Revival
https://youtu.be/HIWY8UyW9bw “The Letter” @BoxTops
https://youtu.be/_eij6Vs7FGo “Strong Enough” @Cher
https://youtu.be/Ayyy-03ITDg “Got to Give It Up” @Marvin Gaye
https://youtu.be/bc0KhhjJP98 “Come and Get Your Love” @Redbone
https://youtu.be/DvLmwskmsGg “Brick House” @The Commodores
https://youtu.be/SGiig82KlF4 “Un-Break My Heart (remix)” @Toni Braxton
https://youtu.be/idFJkZQmN38 “Picture” @Kid Rock ft Sheryl Crow
https://youtu.be/cNqhZ9N3EQw “Gone” @TobyMac
https://youtu.be/eJ80Ug-CkQI “Dream Forever” @Hopsin
https://youtu.be/qF_xZP7Gb3sI “I Can See Clearly Now” @Ed Sheeran
https://youtu.be/qgmXPCX4VzU “Photograph” @Bob Marley
https://youtu.be/dgjTO5eAbZY “A Broken Wing” @Martina McBride
https://youtu.be/Vzo-EL_62fQ “Bleeding Love” @Leona Lewis
https://youtu.be/fLiRGW31nyk “Grandpa” @The Judds
https://youtu.be/7m1rTU8sqpA “My Next thirty years” @Tim McGraw
https://youtu.be/9picrMS830c “Need You Now” @Lady Antebellum
https://youtu.be/1B60F5anrSo “King of The World” @Natalie Grant
https://youtu.be/L_5ZJyW7srU “Closer to You” @Erica Mason Ft. Clife
https://youtu.be/NYOozdKYtl4 “City on Our Knees” @TobyMac (Golden Snax Remix)
https://youtu.be/kg6HedZ4xGs “What If I Stumble” @Dc Talk
https://youtu.be/H22VGE2_64k “Atmosphere” @DC Talk
https://youtu.be/fE-sXvCDyOc “One Last Breath” @Creed
https://youtu.be/w1Tc0jqDRnQ “Find You Waiting” @December Radio
https://youtu.be/i-9mUDbGsEk “From
the Inside Out” @Hillsong Worship
https://youtu.be/fLiRGW31nyk “Everything” @TobyMac
https://youtu.be/Nnv9eOfIwTk “Reckless Love” @Cory Asbury
https://youtu.be/0B_lnQIITxU “Do It Again” @Elevation Worship
https://youtu.be/zbAYL0a-t1o “Scars” @I Am They
https://youtu.be/2ShowjS22Gg “See the Light” @TobyMac Ft. Jordan Feliz
https://youtu.be/fLiRGW31nyk “Everything” @TobyMac
https://youtu.be/Nnv9eOfIwTk “Reckless Love” @Cory Asbury
https://youtu.be/0B_lnQIITxU “Do It Again” @Elevation Worship
https://youtu.be/zbAYL0a-t1o “Scars” @I Am They
https://youtu.be/2ShowjS22Gg “See the Light” @TobyMac Ft. Jordan Feliz
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Date: 11/16/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/aa3nij927Ig “Almost Home @Mercy Me
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 119:18 (NIV) ==== Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Romans 8:1 (NLT) Life in the Spirit 8 So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.
==== Romans 8:1 (NIV) ==== 5 You prepare a
table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head
with oil; my cup overflows.
==== 1 Corinthians 7:23 (KJV)23 Ye are bought with a price; be not ye the servants of men.
==== 1 Corinthians 7:23 (NIV)23 You were
bought at a price; do not become slaves of human beings.
==== Psalm 73:23-24 ==== (NIV) 23 You were bought at a price; do not become slaves of human
beings.
==== Psalm 73:23-24 ==== (MSG) 23-24 All of you, slave and free both, were once held hostage in
a sinful society. Then a huge sum was paid out for your ransom. So please
don’t, out of old habit, slip back into being or doing what everyone else tells
you. Friends stay where you were called to be. God is there. Hold the high
ground with him at your side.
==== 1 Corinthians 13:12 ==== (NIV) 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we
shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I
am fully known.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Father God; for allowing me a new week to start and a new day of opportunities.
It does not matter what I am feeling.
Your reminders to me alone and others always right on time. Always during those moments when we, when I become my own worst critic and cannot forgive myself for even the simplest mistakes. How could I ever lead the way for anyone else allowing them to see you and all you have for us.
“If you don’t feel loved by God, you’re certainly not going to offer love to anybody else. It is impossible to be loving unless you understand and remember the way God loves you.” @Rick Warren
So often I myself need the reminders to hold on to the faith and hope in the light and even tighter in the dark. “If we desire our faith to be strengthened, we should not shrink from opportunities where our faith may be tried, and therefore, through trial, be strengthened.” @George Mueller
Thank you for the moments you bring me back to reality and remind me of my worth; allowing me to breathe and get back up. As so many times I derail myself and ambitions when this heart gets so far out ahead of me. There is so much good, I will never wish to take away what is good; for everything I do you are already in front of. However, it is when I get tripped up, face planting and feeling paralyzed I just stop and allow the doubt and self-condemnation to consume me.
We cannot ever control what others will choose. We cannot force anyone to be real, to be truthful, to be honest, to be more than what they give self-credit for. I cannot; I assure you I can barely get myself on any given day.
We all have freedom of choice and will; we are
all loved and created for so much more. Yet, if I can barely
convince myself on those days where hurt just comes from everywhere like a
rushing river crested over. So, thank you Jesus for reminding
me in your words; ====
Isaiah 54:10 ==== (NIV) 10 Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be
removed,” says the Lord, who has
compassion on you.
In songs https://youtu.be/IR2T31ZC3JU “Keep Getting Up” @Mandisa
Even in our dreams and vision Lord. May we never forget every cut that allows us to bleed out onto your canvas is creating an even more beautiful story and vision if we never let go of you.
For me no matter what! You God keep getting me back up; for I know I could never be or do anything in this life that is good without you and your angel army behind me.
It does not matter what others think; if it truly did; if what really mattered of this world; there would be far less damage, brokenness or hate.
But here we are; we cannot get along for what we do, what we say, what we look like; who’s right; who’s wrong. Not to mention leveling up with each layer in this world getting more materialistic, and even evil.
There is no exaggeration when it comes to that. Look in the news; look how we turn our heads as babies are thrown into dumpsters; schools once meant for learning are battlefields just to survive guns and bullying. What once was a privilege meant for all becomes segregated to be whoever can pay the most and it does not matter what you were, are or plan to do.
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me the glimpse of know you live within this soul. Allowing me to stop and smile along the way at the simple things of a duck on a sidewalk; or beautiful skyline or vast ocean view. Even when that 100 plus pound dog comes up thinking he is still a puppy wanting to get on my lap for love; or a child’s laughter that just warms through.
Thank you for the storms, and the new days after that you allow me to keep trying to grow forward. Thank you for those you put in my vision; allowing me to see their strength and courage and know; we are not alone in this journey.
Thank you for allowing me to be at times the light ahead for others; even when I feel I have burned out.
Please be with all I love and have great adoration for Jesus; please help me help others and keep others strong as they help me. There is no greater love than that of you God. Thank you, Jesus!
11/15/2019 Cruising with Kelly https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2568276346598179/
Weekend Services: @New Life Christian Church 11/16//2019 Saturday Night Service Rising up Church Saints https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2568894086536405/
Not just because of a great message; not because of things given; purchased; found. Not just because of all that is lost. Personally, or physically. Be it a child that is borderline always in harm’s way or the greatest love of your life.
You are better than all these things; https://youtu.be/xUcvp98UrF4 “Better” @Pat Barrett
The only thing that has ever given me peace and strength when nothing else can. Yes, the human side of me cry’s, hurts, filled with such great desires. Wants, more so than needs. Yet it is you that gives the courage and the fight to just let will be and follow you. I will never really know if I get to see you on the other side Jesus;
I will believe someday I will see you and “See The Light” https://youtu.be/a1fFkPtOojQ @TobyMac
Until then I will hold on with all I have and draw from those who are leading for me.
While I try to lead for those coming up behind me; with prayers and hopes my children and all I come connect. Please keep your Saints close and fill them up Jesus. Please help them through these trying times as we are all be chipped away little by little; sometimes big chunks at a time.
Thank you for this day! https://youtu.be/u828g2phpew “Fighting For Me” @Riley Clemmons
