Lord you have given me words all my life; sometimes then I knew not what to do with them, sometimes I did not know what to do with the outcome of someone finding them. There were times that all I have is the words that come that release the pains and problems of my life. Then others where I had become so in love with you the words would never be enough. Thank you for all these years to allow me to always have words. Even now there is not a day that goes by where I don't awake with words, someone will say something and words trigger songs, a memory or even a prayer need for someone or something. I will never fully understand it; but my soul is full of you. On the days as this morning you give me words then a message to share. I pray all that ever is written, shows your love, mercy and grace. Thank you Jesus
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12/31/2018
Lord thank
you for this day; for this year and for all the time that you hold for our
future.
Thank you
for the blessings and sorrows and the many lessons of this past year and life
you have given.
My sincere
prayer for each and every soul Lord is the peace and harmony we all need in
allowance of a blessed full life. Not
just five minutes of happiness; but the deep peace only you can bring now
matter what wave we have upon us. The
good, the bad and the unknown that sometimes is worse than good or bad. We all Lord are made to handle things
differently. Thank you! Please give healing and discernment for
healing to come. In everything, our mind,
body and spirit; be it physical, emotional or that of what we act upon or
should but ignore.
May your
will always be what is done first Lord; and if we are a little slow or miss
it. Forgive us who deeply believe in all
you have been, are and will be. May
we unify in Jesus Christ mighty name in prayer; in courage, in will and shine
brightly for all those seeking your path, your light.
May we shine
for you all that is positive no matter how much darkness surrounds us. Lord you are the alpha and omega.
None of us
are perfect and we lift all we have, all that we are and all that we will be,
up to you Jesus. In thanks and praise,
in need as we are nothing without out you Lord of all heaven and earth. There
is no in-between father this I know; we either serve You or the prince of darkness
no matter how it may not look like so directly in front of us. Serving the world without you is chaos, pain,
and sure temporary stuff and pleasure. None
of which is worth losing our peace and our soul. Father please keep us strong in your guidance,
love and grace. Have mercy on us not just for this day passing; but all that
are ahead.
For
12/31/2018 is not the end, as 01/01/2019 is not the only beginning. May we walk in faith and know every day we
are allowed to breathe, we have purpose and new beginning. For this I thank you the Father, Son and
Holy Spirit. Thank you Jesus.
Isaiah 9:6 New International Version (NIV)
6 For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
2 Corinthians 4:7 New International Version (NIV)
7 But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.
John 14:26-27 New International Version (NIV)
26 But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
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12/30/2018
Thank you for another day Jesus
As I read through Jesus Calling " I AM LEADING YOU along the way that is uniquely right for you. The closer to Me you grow, the more fully you become your true self- the one I designed you are to be. Because you are one of a kind, the path you are traveling with Me diverges increasingly from that of other people. However, in My mysterious wisdom and ways, I enable you to follow this solitary path while staying in close contact with others. In fact, the more completely you devote yourself to me, the more freely you can love people. Marvel at the beauty of a life intertwined with My Presence. Rejoice as we journey together in intimate communication. Enjoy the adventure of finding yourself through losing yourself in Me." with reference to the below verses.
2
Corinthians 17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:a
The old has gone, the new is here!
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Ephesians
2:10 For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good
works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
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1
John 4:7-8 God’s Love and Ours 7
Dear friends, let us love one another, for
love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 8 Whoever
does not love does not know God, because God is love.
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John 15:4 Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear
fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless
you remain in me
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12/30 /2018
Thank you Lord for always being there! Thank you for the love you fill me with; as I know for sure with all of the craziness in this world; all of the crazy mistakes I make. I would rather just go find my own little island and hide away in this weary soul I have. I would at times rather not think, care or deal with anything or anyone. Yet my personality keeps me right smack dab in the middle of much. Always trying to do something Jesus. Father thank you for the sacrifice made and Jesus thank you for taking it for this world.
There is nothing I can do nothing I can say for the gratitude of this undeserving soul. For you took from me when I came up out of that water; For all yo do to allow me and so many like me to be a sliver of light in this dark world. For everyday you get me up Father, I ask your will be done. Not my own. Deep inside I am selfish; I want what most want; that deep love and affection, the life of laughter and opportunities. That special someone; for end of days to share whatever is left. That one true sweet soulmate.
Lord your will be done; and until then guide and protect this soul from the world and the ways that are not in your will. Protect and reconcile all that is broken within this soul and all those she is connected with. If I am to lead by example Lord; please grant me grace and understanding.
There are many times I just don't get it and am tired of moving forward. May I continue learning to know the way and trust in your process. Although I am surrounded by much, I have no need to go anywhere as I am already on this island. Please while I am aware and there fill me with all you are Jesus.
Please bless and give acknowledgement to all my connections, be it family or friends or those I have not met yet. Jesus thank you for everything in 2018. May 2019 be about you and readying for the return. May all your believers unify for all that is good and chase away anything the prince of darkness in this world puts in front of us, our friends and loved ones.
May 2019 be the year all your people step up and step out, shining the light for you Lord. There will always be trouble of sorts; but you never created humanity for suffering. Yet when we do; may we grow closer to you and may we turn all our messes into messages of hope for others.
Lord I may forever be a dreamer of many things. But my hope and faith in all that you Lived, suffered and died for is as real as anything standing or sitting next to me. Your promise of Hope and Love far supersedes anything this world can give me. How to share that, how to explain the peace within no matter what is going on. I do not know. But I pray for your continued favor, guidance ad love. I pray for truth. I pray for any who have connected with me and wronged you. I pray for your promise and understanding with the sweet soulmate you have aligned. I pray for release of all that is not in you. I pray for all the brokenness around me and in me. Most of all I pray for forgiveness, for the smallest or biggest offense I have been part of. Lord yes, if this were my last moments. I have lived a full life of good, bad, sorrow, pain to beauty and joy deep within; I was lost and you allowed me to find myself in you. You allowed me to meet you where you are; and fall in love with Jesus. There may be more you have in store for me; I will always continue to pray I am strong enough for all that is not kind; all that will knock me off my feet, that you never let go of me as I struggle to get back up. For all the blessings I sometimes don't understand yet I hold to your truth and design.
Thank you Abba, Jesus, Jehovah Jira, Yahweh, God of all the heaven's and earth and mankind.
Thank you
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ear Friend---------
As sure as the sun will come up again,
I swear the love and blessings I have to call you my friend are beyond any
words I could ever write.
If you have made you way into my
heart, if you have written into my soul, you forever are a blessing of mine.
It does not matter if I see you every
day or just moments in time. It does not matter if at one point in
our lives we were inseparable or God’s lessons of life.
I am forever grateful to the good Lord
above. He has allowed me to feel your presence and at some point with
this different kind of worldly love.
So no matter what is happening in this
world I just need to say; if I never had the chance to hug you enough, just
show or say thank you for your love. I am sorry for not being
better with our time. I for sure will absolutely come looking for
you on the other side.
For today, I pray to our God for all
of you in Heaven on the other side as I miss those of you always who have left
me behind. Never without a thought and tears on my soul, in my eyes.
For those still here, we are forever
connected. Know I love you, and wish beyond all measure all the
blessings and peace for you and yours throughout the end of time
Dear Friend
No matter where you are, driving down
the road, lying next to your spouse your significant other yet feeling cold.
No matter if you are having the best time of your life or feel pain and
suffering or just bored in life and being bold.
Please know; you are fully loved
and never ever alone.
For I have this friend called Jesus.
If you need to know more; please just pick up the phone, also you know you are
always welcome to my home.
If we have agreed to be friends, tried
and true, I will never stop caring what happens to you.
Dear Friend
No matter what comes next in this
life, no I have been blessed with knowing you. I will always have love for you.
So thank you Dear Friend; forever, or
a glimpse of time. Thank you for being a friend of mine.
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12/29/2018
Father thank you for this day and the awareness of your presence. As I laid awake early this morning after some devotionals; I started to write what I thought to be the right thing to do. Fully honest yet I knew it would impact me going forward. Just as I finished rereading Lord a distraction came; a startling distraction where photographs on my wall for in the same place for the past 4 years came crashing down. As I cleaned up the broken glass and got the girls back off to sleep. I crawled back into bed and started to reread this very heartfelt message. When then my battery back up on the security system alarm went off to find out after shutting it down and redirecting all the power into non surge protectors. At that point Lord I thought before posting my writing I would read one more time from your word,
So I did the Our Daily Bread and the message from Isaiah 25:1 In perfect faithfulness you have done wonderful things, planned long ago. The message was When God Says No. At first it was not what I thought it would be. But to the point I like so many before me. Stall, hide run ruin things by choices we think need to be made. And not wait on you Father.
I at once deleted my message to be posted. Instead, although I did not reflect the instant shut down because I don't understand direction and/or the future path I may or may not end up in my remaining days.
I kept what I had wrote truthful, open and the only way I know how. Just me.
Lord, You sustain me, from the day I was born through all the turbulent unnecessary paths of my youth through young adulthood into my days of becoming a parent and throughout to this day. Through all the grief, pain and happy moments in my life before I openly called to you. You never let go of me. Thank you as I do not deserve anything in this life. Yet even with the journeys being hard most of my early days. You showed me what love, mercy and grace is. There is nothing in this world I can do to repay all you have done for me Jesus.
Thank you for the blessing of my family and all those who are connected. Thank you for the promise I am not doing life on my own.
Forgive me for doubting and trusting you Jesus 24/7-7 days a week. For the trials in humanity that scar me deep within still at times allow Satan's whispers to sneak in my head and lose the confidence and self esteem you have blessed me with.
I ask Lord your will be done in my life; may I have the courage and steadfast abilities to overcome and never make the wrong mistakes and if I don't know if they are wrong or right; may I always wait on you.
Lord by now you have received MS Dolly into heavens gates. Lord take care of that sweet woman. please heal the broken hearts of the family who lost such a beautiful soul this morning. Surround them in love and comfort.
Lord Thank you For loving me and showing me a glimpse of what your Agape love will be like.
Amen
Serenity Prayer
- Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
that I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
forever in the next.
Amen.
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12/28/2018
As I wrap up my morning reading and scan various pray requests. I am thankful Lord as the bible calls out; for you being my refuge. This life could have gone in so many other directions and I could have neve been blessed with life's lessons and scars of survival yet able to talk with you pray with you and know I am with you at all times I choose to be. You are our refuge as you have always been and always will be. Jesus you never change or leave us; when we feel distant it is because we are not feeding the spirit. That could mean many things for many people. I am fed by worship and music. I thank you for all the music you have put in my life and that of what is in my soul.
I thank you for the deep thoughts and that of which comes back out in black in white or even that which comes through me personally.
I pray everyone I cross paths with and those I really connect with; are as blessed and thankful as I feel at times. I am honest Jesus you know I am distracted with that squirrel syndrome easily. I never mean to be. But when life throws changes or challenges I forget whose I am and who is really in charge at times. I ask Lord I continually grow closer and more at ease not to just go with the flow but to really reflect the love and trust I have in all you lived, died and hung on the cross for. Today's Jesus Calling points out you are our refuge. May we cling to your promises and never forget you are always with us.
Psalm 46:1-3 Amplified Bible
(AMP)
God the Refuge of His People. To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of
the sons of Korah, set to soprano voices. A Song.
46 God is our refuge and strength
[mighty and impenetrable],
A very present and well-proved help in trouble.
2
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change
And though the mountains be shaken and slip into the
heart of the seas,
3
Though its waters roar and foam,
Though the mountains tremble at its roaring. Selah.
Psalm 89:15 Amplified Bible
(AMP) 5
Blessed and happy are the people who know the joyful
sound [of the trumpet’s blast]!
They walk, O Lord, in the
light and favor of Your countenance!
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Father please hear the voices of all who need you; may the your angels come down and guide, shine, and lead the way to and for you in all healing, change and blessings of this nation and all your children.
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God I know you are using all the setbacks in our lives for our spiritual growth. I pray you direct me as I can't get past what won't to see what the possibilities of the future with you can be. I find myself wanting to bury myself in the business of what needs to be done; rather than bask in your promise to see myself somewhere else than where you have me right now.
I deserve nothing; maybe Father that is why I see nothing more. I don't know if that is wrong or right. I pray all I have done in this life of lately was truly for the good of your kingdom and not just something I should have investigated further.
I can't take back what is done yesterday; nor would I want to on somethings. The connections I have made. Lord are deep within my soul forever. How the warmth of the love I feel blessed with warms through me. Yet the bitter sweetness of thinking how brief in this life feelings like this have come and gone. How sad to think what if that was it.
Unable to feel the future of what I cannot see. Yet hope in your promise I am holding on with all I have there is more.
Until then Dear Jesus
I need your guidance and will to guide me. As the history in this life have proven so much more differently. I only pray this is the beginning of your blessings and direction for my serving you and your kingdom.
I need you Lord and I need what is in my soul and direction and help if it is not your will. Show me Jesus. Show me. Please take away these feelings of sadness that come and go; No matter what tomorrow brings. Please fill me with all of your love.
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12/27/2018
Lord
Thank you for this day; I as I am slowly waking up here to ready for the routine journey. May nothing about you ever be routine. Lord may I and all who believe in you always purpose to hold tight and shine wherever they can for and with you. Lord though some days I reflect differently. I know the life you have given me is not about me.
May I always show kindness, peace and love you have blessed us all with. May I and all my family and friends draw closer and stay protected in your arms father.
Father as I was searching yesterday in my lock box; I found the rosary that was on a once dear soul when they took their own life. Lord may they have peace; I know all that is said about suicide but father so many have given up on you. May our world change. I never had the chance to know person who I carry the name. But Jesus there has to be more. My heart hurts for all that feel so desperate they just check out. Be it those I have known and those I never will. Lord may your children including me; shine the light of hope.
I know from my own experiences Father in my youth when I tried to leave; and you did not allow it. Why in so many cases you protected me and carried me through. I will never understand. What I do know is all of your chosen must come together and shine the light of hope for all those going through it. For all the children that are leaving so early; for all just given up.
Father forgive me for these serious thoughts on this early morning. You know I don't pick what comes to life in this mind of mine. But Father; in every promise of every new day. There is something we all can shine, show or even just be on your behalf.
May I never become self absorbed and forget it is not about me. May I lead by example and may all I love, know and come to pass with. Be blessed and share the precious gifts we are given. Please hear the cry of all your people father; all who have suffered through out this year all going through things they do not understand. All who are confused and avoiding gifts you have waiting. May I never lose the strength and courage you sustain me with.
In Jesus might name. Thank you Amen
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Rosary-----------
Dear Jesus Thank you for this day and every day we get to wake up and take
a breath.
Father I ask for guidance, mercy and grace for myself, my family, my
friends, and all of my brothers and
sisters as we are all related and we all bleed red.
Lord I ask we unify and shine the light for all those lost and
seeking you.
I pray Lord we all have the courage and strength no matter what is
going on in our life; we eagerly do our best to serve you and your will.
In memory of
Buddy Fairfield and the Rosary, I ended up with; found in his hands as they
took him down from his own self-proclaimed death.
Forgiveness, Anxiety, Suicide Grief
They say it is easier to relate to those who have gone through what you are
going through. In my time; I have seen the good the bad the ugly
and the so very beautiful.
When it comes to this world and the day-to-day and how hard things can be.
There is not a day that goes by I do not ride that roller coaster. In
addition, every single day I think I have this; I have said my prayers, read my
bible, did multiple devotionals. It does not get easier
when the waves come. Nevertheless, nowhere
in the bible that I read ever reflects it was supposed to be.
My heart breaks allot; I am not the tough angry kid I was growing up;
I can’t just turn things off and I don’t do anything to mask them or hide them.
I avoid as much as I can; especially relationships. Which is an
entire different subject and day; for now I will be the first to
say how hard this is with Jesus; and I know what it was without him back in the
day.
Thank you Father and Creator of all things as you never let me go when
daily so many things distract me. Yet you sustain me every second of every day.
No matter how good and happy life seems or how down for the things that
sometimes overwhelm and derail me to do the best of my abilities for you.
Forgiveness and the Rosary
I ask for the forgiveness Lord from you as I am unable to go to the source;
As I was enlightened, just this morning as I know from history and
remembering there is nothing in the world that transpires without a reason.
How in a search for something yesterday; I found the rosary beads I was
given that were pulled from the hands of the man I once thought was my father
and when they found him at 70 years old as he hung himself. He had
recently suffered a heart attack and could no longer take care of the women he
left my mother to be with, many years prior. Now Lord yes
everyone one of us have layers and this is not about the other women or my
broken family even if the impacts on how things went down forever impacted my
life specifically but also everyone in the family.
So much has gone through my mind from how in the beginning I was so angry
of what he had done, to regret of being angry not knowing in 2010 what I
learned in 2017. Yet more importantly none of this was
about me. But forgiveness is necessary for all the anger and hate I grew
inside me for my entire youth and young adult life. For the fact of
no matter what I thought of this man and what he did or did not do. Jesus
no one, young or old should ever take their own life to get out of this world
that can be so very brutal.
So this writing, which started out to be a group prayer as I read more and
more requests finding my way back to the desperate and painful souls I see
or hear about; wanting to leave this world.
I ask why? The stress, the anxiety and pains we feel for
whatever the triggers are in this place. They should never be the
triggers to take our own lives. I could name
names and count on both hands how many I have been close to.
Lord, Suicide is never the answer; yet it picks no special
gender or age. We lose so many to giving up when they are
grief stricken. We have lost so many Jesus, from years
gone by family members, friends, to children I will never know.
I don’t understand any of it; especially when you have pulled me out of
deaths hands in my teens. purposely trying to leave this place to the many
years of just being so reckless and not caring what else happened to me.
I will never forget the feeling or the feelings that led up to
me trying to take my own life and overdosing and waking in the hospital with my
stomach being pumped out.
Lord, why some of us are saved from this fate and others are not.
What I do know is; NO ONE should ever feel that low to take their own lives.
And I pray Jesus that all your children shine as brightly as they can to
prevent the darkness from consuming the souls you created for love and life.
There have been so many lost and so many more in line just waiting or
attempting right now.
Jesus please I ask you hear the cries and the prayers of all the
broken desolate and desperate souls and all the family and friends.
Please send help to those in need and please give all those who
support the suffering strength, courage and your wisdom.
Please calm the
anxieties that we allow in, when we are believers and we just forget how to
hold on and trust. Please start at the beginning where people just
do not know how to deal with life and they get caught up and mask the pains
with things that ultimately lead them to this death.
Forgive those who have scarred many of us in
our youth or still who were non believers and harmful to
many long before they came to know your goodness. May they be served
swift justice for all and any harm they have done yet shine your light for the
mercy and grace you have given them now.
Lord I believe bad harmful people did not start out doing the
things they do to harm others.
I do not believe
people don't just quit people and walk out on the children leaving them in
harms way without something leading up to it long before. So I ask
for all those in harms way; they are protected with your mighty hand and
sword.
Lord I ask you to please help us all to overcome the grief of or losses,
our misguided decisions. May we never lose hold of you! May we
never give in or give up to what is easy.
Forgive us for offending others when those scars that sometimes make
it so hard to trust and believe without seeing. But thank you Jesus
for keeping us aware and ready to keep as much evil out of our and our family
and those we care about; view and lives.
Lord may your
will be done always; may we lift and shine and do whatever it takes to bring
your will to this world and not our own. May we be the kind words that
will prevent and help all those in need. Be it a smile, a glance
the words a hug. Lord may we do it all with your love.
May no one ever have to pick up a set of rosary beads and have a memory of
it being the last thing someone in this world was holding onto when they took
their own lives.
May we know that although in some religions the rosary signifies life with
and for you Lord. May we know the truth is a personal relationship
with you and not some material item no matter how long ago or who created it.
May all the souls that have been lost to suicide be reconciled and given
peace.
As I will never
understand someone who believed so much in the prayers and the life of Jesus
through this Rosary still took their own life.
Prayers of the
Rosary
THE SIGN OF THE CROSS
In the name of the Father, and of the
Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
APOSTLES CREED
I believe in God, the Father almighty,
Creator of heaven and earth, and in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord, who
was conceived by the Holy Spirit, born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under
Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died and was buried; he descended into hell; on
the third day he rose again from the dead; he ascended into heaven, and is
seated at the right hand of God the Father almighty; from there he will come to
judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy catholic
Church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of
the body, and life everlasting. Amen.
OUR FATHER
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be
thy name; thy kingdom come; thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give
us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those
who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from
evil. Amen.
HAIL MARY
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with
thee; blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb,
Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of
our death. Amen.
GLORY BE TO THE FATHER
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and
to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be,
world without end. Amen.
FATIMA PRAYER
O my Jesus, forgive us our sins, save us from
the fires of hell; lead all souls to heaven especially those who are most in
need of your mercy.
HAlL HOLY QUEEN
Hail, Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy, our life,
our sweetness, and our hope. To you do we cry, poor banished children of Eve.
To you do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears.
Turn then, most gracious advocate, your eyes of mercy toward us, and after this
our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of your womb, Jesus. O clement, O
loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Pray for us, O holy Mother of God. That we may be
made worthy of the promises of Christ.
PRAYER AFTER THE ROSARY
O God, whose only-begotten Son, by his life,
death, and resurrection, has purchased for us the rewards of eternal life;
grant, we beseech you, that we who meditate upon these mysteries of the most
holy rosary of the Blessed Virgin Mary, may imitate what they contain and
obtain what they promise. We ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.
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12/26/2018
Thank you for this day and all the many before now. Thank you for the blessings of relationships even those that have come to pass. Lord allowing me to come in from the desert was a lesson well learned. Though I will never understand some things, I do know all I am all I have is yours.
I tried hard to keep this life in perspective and distant from being caught up in things and relationships that do not have you period. I will never be perfect, nor will I ever claim or want to be.
I accept, because I am yours, all that you allow to happen, despite my best efforts. Jesus I will never understand so many things that transpire around me or with me. You lead me through with experiences that some are awesome and some I run to forget or those at some point just put away and keep moving through, as I just don't understand what to do with. While I try to manage here on earth the best I can. I know, I am far too transparent, far too caring and often set myself up for failure. I only ask Lord you always protect my family and keep them safe from all harm and pain. I pray they cling to you as I have needed and desired to for the rest of their lives. As I pray I am allowed to continue to do. As I look around this house with so much clutter, none of this matters. Lord it is the relationships that hold true meaning. It is the loved ones we do life with and the time we have and knowledge of what to do when those relationships come to pass and we are left alone. Lord I surrendered long back. I surround myself with business and your children in service. Please guide me and protect me and my choices when I stop and feel so alone. Please guide me from being that foolish dreamer. I need to be in your desert Lord. I cannot do life on what if's. and refuse to settle and sacrifice my blessings for anything less.
As this year ends Father; Help me purge the unnecessary and pull close to all that is for and you and your kingdom.
Forgive me father for not being knowing what to do in what I cannot see situations; forgive me if I sound like I have given up. Dear Lord; you know me inside out. You know things at times can be rough. I never want to lose your Love. I need all you have to give me from the Heavens above.
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For A Season ---------------
Never for a
season; but till the day have I died; throughout Gods eternity
Although time just now is not
kind or on my side; I need to get back to what is and not what could be
I hope you get
that, I hope you see.
To openly admit
this love so deep inside; thirsting of desire; realities reflection with no end
in sight for quenching the buried hope and fires.
I must remain stronger than anything
in this world; I must keep it all inside.
I must no longer
joke and put everything that was joked about, all that could be in another
life.
Back in God’s
hands; for only he can see the future with His own eyes.
I don’t understand
why this all came to be.
I do know God
always has a reasons only he can see; what has connected this spirit deep
within
is forever
to be eternal; never just a season no matter how much I fight it or
pretend.
I pray daily for
guidance and strength.
I no longer know
how to communicate, as I have never seen his face.
Forever in
this world; wrong time, wrong space; my life story if I show pity
has always been my place.
I need not to do
so; for the love, I have been shown from God himself; not to mention the
abundance of His Mercy and Grace.
For my dreams of a
deep Agape Love; smoldering desire; serving, unity, nothing fake, materialistic
or filled with pride.
In love with my
forever dream; forever in time. The sweetest soul I will ever
know; never for a season but through the end of my time; into eternity will
forever be locked no matter how wrong or right.
Yet here it is
reality day to day. No more words can be written without
communication, I am awake it all seems one sided on me now an absolute slow
death.
So my prayers will
remain daily and ever so real; for what is right as it is not about me.
As my dream,
my sweet soul the future or in my next life; though my soul
is forever connected nothing will ever fill that place; I have to release what
is internally killing me. Forever love until the day I
die. I pray for more; for you for me. No
matter what everyone else sees I will forever be in love with you and
this dream. Till the day I die throughout Gods eternity.
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12/25/2018
Thank you Jesus for this day! Thank you for the sacrifice and life you have given. My prayer today Lord is everyone comes to know you and learns to walk in your will and accept your peace. Please bless and heal the broken hearted and those in need. Please continue to grow me in your will and not my own. And while doing so may I think of the joy I have as is and not as what ever should of -would of -could have in this life of when we are overwhelmed of what we miss out on. Thank you God for your son☦️
Dear Father thank you for this day. Lord this day was given centuries ago. Today we are still blessed to celebrate the sacrifice and love you give us daily. Thank you. As I was blessed to share time with my girls enjoying the experience and later being able to get in the kitchen and cook breakfast and later dinner. Thank you. Thank you for allowing us to take good to those who need a blessing and that will appreciate it. Thank you for the down time. As were going to run. Thank you for no agendas. Lord thank you for those I am able to love. Thank you for those that love me. ☦️☦️
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12/24/2018
Thank you for this day Lord; Merry Christmas eve; forgive me for so much deep thinking and writing yesterday. My mind sometimes just takes over. Thank you for the blessings to put what's inside to words; even though many may not understand. Some of us fill our days buried in work, consumption, avoidance, anger. Just things that may or may not be harmful to the dwelling you gave us to carry through in this world. I stay as busy as I can and sometimes having nothing at all to release and sometimes it does not stop. Thank you for allowing me to cling to you making it through this journey.
Lord though I did my devotionals and reading this morning I felt something more missing; yet I jumped right into work. Thank you for this season; thank you for the sacrifice you have made to allow life here on earth. Thank you for the good, the bad, the indifferent and the unknown. Thank you for giving me the strength to move forward daily. I honestly do not know how anyone with a heart and compassion makes it through this world without you Jesus. I pray those who have not met you and made that relationship with you yet; do it soon! I pray for those I cannot speak with, yet they have an everlasting impact in my soul. Protect, guide and bless them Lord.
Lord you know all the needs be it on my mind for myself family and others; or out there on all the venues. I believe from the depths within me you see, know and have all things. My prayers God are those in need get and have all you have to offer.
I am sure I will be back again today; until then Lord thank you and may your will always be first to consume me in what is left of this worldly life. Yes Lord mind, body, spirit, love, soulmate, friends, Everything Jesus your will! Amen
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12/23/2018
In this season of advent, which should be daily. How aware we become of just how human we are. The love we feel can no where be close to what God felt when he sent his Son to suffer and die on the cross. Though we feel much pain, unrest and torment for things of the life we have living in a fallen world. How it must grieve our God to know even after all he did for humanity to live. So many even acknowledge His existence. For the many who do; I pray they are guided and protected and make only the choices for the Lords will and never their own. That in itself is hard; as human we want to love and feel love. We want what we think is best; and in the end sometimes we destroy or get lost and forget what is right in front of us. We chase material temporal things of this world; we chase feelings. We toss our loved ones to the side for what we think we need or deserve. Yet none of us deserve anything. We leave those we love tattered and tormented sometimes so scarred they cannot get past what was meant to be blessed.
If only, we could daily purpose to remember putting Christ first in all things. If only we remembered God created the heavens and earth for humanity to live in peace. To live in union. None of which was meant for harm or suffering. The world would be a beautiful place. Yet for those who believe it will be in eternity there shall be no more suffering; no more pain. Yes just like the many songs written. Here on earth; the battle is underway for our souls. I pray all my family and friends have accepted Jesus Christ and are in a daily relationship with Him. It hurts burning deep within to know my children and grandchildren, sister, brother and all my nieces and nephews although know of God may never have a close relationship with Jesus. Yet I do not know what is in their hearts. My prayers are their true salvation and relationship with our maker before it is too late. Sometimes the unknown is what we must always have to remain in faith of what we don't know is to come. We are said to have restless souls; Until we lock in with God the father. Chasing what we think is deep within, yet so caught up on what is physical or material. When you fall in love with Jesus, everything changes. It is hard to describe but a peace that consumes you even during the hardest of times. You realize what is may not be what is to come. You realize no matter how good; there will be suffering. But you will never be alone as you are in this world.
You are filled with an indescribable love yet even then it does not mean He will not allow tests, pain, or sorrow in. There will always be tests from the spiritual world; sometimes we find it hard to know at first who is sending them; But our God never created us to suffer. He created us for love and all that is good. So, It is also true there will be many souls that cross your path in this universe. But there will be only one true soulmate connection. If at a point and time you are blessed and allowed to connect. Sometimes you won't have a clue how it happened; you just know it is more than what we see with the minds eye. Sometimes you have signs and connect; sometimes it just happens. Know you are blessed when that occurs. No matter what or what ifs! No matter for a day or many. The day comes when things just make sense, and visions are clearer than anything ever planned. The love is deeper than any physical touch you may or may not ever experience. Just thank God for the moments you were given as they are.
Use that warmth and love you are filled with; for Gods will not your own earthly desires or needs. Do Not dwell on what could have been, do not let what if's destroy the purity that is there; as darkness does they too will come. It is not about me; it is not about you. Even if we struggle with our own human desires and needs or because we want what we can't have to be. If God has put it in front of our vision. If God has filled our sights for more than a brief glimpse. Our God has greater plans for all of us for His purpose. Not our own.
Lord Thank YOU for this day and all that have come to pass. Guide me and keep me Father. Please hear the prayers of the broken and those in need Jesus. Please give rest to the weary, healing to the sick; stop the suffering of those with long term illness, cancer. Please heal the broken hearted Jesus. Please heal the suffering for the parents and loved ones who have lost a child or family member to drug overdose. Please heal the addicted and fill them with your love and peace.
Thank you for all you have given us! Thank you God for all You have given up!
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As I go through this 23rd day of December 2018
Thinking how Christmas is barely a day and a half away. How exciting it use to be filled with so much anticipation gifting planning and always looking forward to so much back in the day.
Now it comes so quickly and at times just so commercialized. With my kids grown and the grandchildren just not reared the way of excitement I thought would have always been a part of what my family what we would do. The specialness seems to have disappeared. Even knowing that this is the day the Lord has made. With my son grown and married on his own, doing his own thing and my daughter out and about, be it work, visiting or hanging in her crowd. Times have changed, I feel it and I feel soon I too must do the same.
My first grand off with her father and working and all they have to do leaving just me and my little sidekick who sticks to me like glue nothing unusual.
No it’s not that bad really, just does not feel like the holiday seasons I once dreamed of or once knew.
Those new kinds of normal every day some things change others remain the same.
Coolness though; teaching my sidekick how to bake cookies, someday she will appreciate out on her own. Oh how I hope this is one o the many lasting seeds that will plant deep in her growth. My Jali Rancher has grown up to be such a beautiful young lady. Although she goes between her mom and dad and has been torn a time or two from things that have nothing to do with anything she would say or do. Just that adult stuff that leaves kids caught in the crossfire.
Beautiful, loving, and quiet dedicated to making something of her life; wanting to be a doctor or a surgeon. I so hope and pray this world never marks her for derailment. Praying God who she is aware of holds my babies tight.
As I sit here and write listening to songs; my sidekick in bakers delights. I think how funny how some of these songs take you back, and some reflect so much change yet so much the same.
It is the day that changes the game; time is not standing still. Eventually my girls will also be gone too. I have done much in this life to make sure they have opportunities of a future. Be it they choose to make it or not is not up to me. Only during the time God allows me to do what I do.
I just pray they are protected, guided and do all that is good and pure. Never allowing the evil dwellers even close. I guess a deep hidden worry the most. But I know my God has this; they are not mine to begin with. Just as me or any other soul in this universe they too will get to their destination in their own time.
Kind of crazy these thoughts of mine, avoiding thoughts of what is deep inside.
Missing what I don’t have; what is different than any other time. Always wanting, wishing dreaming. That is long gone. I had made it for so many years not even thinking like this. Yet 2018 something changed.
Sad but true how even with Jesus Christ the keeper of all my life; here my soul yearns and desires for that connection, the one who somehow captured my attention deep in thoughts, then something deep within my soul. Yet here I sit feeling so very foolish for these thoughts and even more alone. I ask the good Lords will above all; as I know this is not about me.
I must stand true to obedience even if in this world be it alone; Stand Tall and never give up to the world and that cause us to fall.
Oh and then what timing, when Sara McLachlan’s In The Arms of an Angel plays and so much of what I long ago put away comes rushing back. A song I use to sing loudly to, but today just came on and caught me by surprise. Where am I going, where have I been
None of it really matters in the end I continually say over and over.
To be first one must always be last. No matter what, no where or even if you were a broken years past. No matter if you feel to be the maid, the servant, the sitter, the keeper of all no one even really cares about on any given day.
The good Lord will eventually show me the way. Perhaps He has and my stubbornness just didn’t hear what He had to say. For now; suck it up they sayJ just remain obedient and in the end eventually everything works out no matter who appreciates, who goes or who stays.
Until then I hold on to His promise as I know this too shall pass; nothing good or bad will ever last. It’s just the storms inside I really do not need to understand. What will be will be; continue to enjoy the blessings I have in the here and now. Until the day the good Lord lays me down.
I have to far to ever to turn back. The good Lord saved me long ago; even if this world full of so much is overwhelming at times. Lifting my head and my hands up to the sky. For I will always continue my fight for those who can't. On my knees, and with my words and a pen.
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12/22/2018
Thank You father of all heaven and earth for this day. It has been a long one in so many ways. Thank you for the laughter with my family which is few and far between in this busy world. Mostly me father. Always working nonstop making ends meet for my family and staying tapped in to serve to fill my spirit. Always staying busy so the things deep within can stay there; so I never have to deal with anything that I hold far back that lately tries to creep up and come to life no matter how it was triggered. Lord you know everything about me. Lord PLEASE fill me with your will in Jesus precious name. Take away anything that is not from you; nothing else can matter.
Show me, speak to me. Please hear the prayers from deep within. Lord thank you for the love I feel within. Jesus my life is yours.
If tomorrow is not meant to be. May the story of your blessings through all my days given be shared. If my days are long ahead guide me to finish and reflect only you. Jesus nothing about me should matter. May I reflect you. Jesus my prayers for family and friends healing comfort and peace be with them. Monetary needs love and reconciliation Jesus please help those in need.
Keep me close Jesus. Thank you. Amen.
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12/21/2018
Thank you for another new day Jesus
Though I do not full understand what plans you have for me and my family. Thank you
I could write on and on abou. a deep love connection I have been given Lord. But you know all things. I could write about how it is better to have loved and lost it than to have never lived at all. When I first wrote that father so many years ago. I thought I knew what love really was. Yes it hurt. Whenever you connect to someone. Physically and spend time. And build memories be it with or without you at the head. When things fall apart because there was no foundation holding It together. Jesus it still bites hard. Without Christ you think you will never make it. It is not until we find a relationship with you Jesus that our eyes open our restless souls are given peace. Only those who know you father really understand what they cannot fully describe. All my life I just wanted to have someone really care and never leave. I never knew why those feelings haunted me. It was not until heard you the first time many years ago. Letting me know I may have been lonely but I was and neverwill be alone. You changed my life then and still today. Thank you. Lord I ask you will on all the unspoken prayers I have deep within. For all the what if’s for my sweet soul and all the needs and desires of a continued blessings continuing to serve you well. Whatever that may look like. Heal any/all brokenness mend all broken hearts for your Glory. As the storms of life come crashing down. Please may all your children including me have courage and strength to move forward in and for you. May we all feel and share your pure Agape love. May we all have your chosen blessings and soulmate for the reminder if our days. If not may we know how to step up in faith and serve only you. Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice. Please come this world needs you. Thank you God for giving your Son. May His spirit come alive in all your children amen.
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12/20/2018
Jesus; as you
know all things please forgive me, for never keeping you first in
everything. As my mind constantly doing overtime, my imagination
continues, in the depths of madness of humanity we grasp for whatever we
believe is real, and fulfilling. Most days we have you as an
afterthought. As I try to justify I am not the only one who falls short
and undeserving of your mercy and grace. I am thankful for
all I have. Even the unknown paths that we suddenly find
ourselves on out of no where. Jesus to know that all new beginnings no
matter what direction will always be held by you. May I and all I
am connected be guided by Your will; May I not offend you in my struggle to
hope there is purpose and meaning for all that I do not understand.
May I never make something out of nothing without your blessing. May I
never chase away more than something that when I cannot physically see it; it
is there yet I give up to nothing. So desperately Lord I need you
in everything, every moment of every breath and every person I care about
and love deeply. Even of some of them do not understand
this. Is it not like falling in love with what you cannot
see but the feelings are deeply within the soul. Please
fill all those who have not come to call you Lord and Savior and walk
with you. Please fill them with the same connections, sparks and deep
felt love that fills our souls. Lord you know all
things. Bitter/Sweet desires, needs joy and
torment. I thank you for all I am, all I have and all that
I can be. I thank you for allowing me to
be AlwaysMe~Kelly. For the promise of new
days and new beginnings. Lead me Jesus
please!
Please hear
the prayers and the cries of all those suffering Lord; Please heal
the sick and broken needs. Please end what is wrong
and shine the light on all that is good in your will
and sight. Now and Forever may your will be done. Amen
We are the
keepers of our own being with Christ. No matter what unrest: all the
materialistic negative users in this world. Dare to be different and shine with
loyalty, respect and love. No matter what the end result ✝️ No matter what your loss or gain!
#thisworldistemporary
On this anniversary of one of my dearest friends of 30 plus years and sister-in-laws death. I remember like yesterday how loved she was. I pray for my brother and his peace as well as healing for her children and her grandchildren all her extended family.
So often we don’t understand how things change and how badly we want people places or things
We can taste it. Yet we are starving and thirsting so badly it hurts. For healing; For love and the deep soul connection have made or desires to make. For what was. For what could be. For material things. For God to show us. The how when where and even the why. Why must we go through these pains. Why shouldn’t we? What are we to learn or teach? What are we to do besides pray harder in so much time of turmoil or trouble. It’s not easy not even close. It’s like an emotional train wreck on some days. Which then robs all self confidence and courage. Even Joy! But know Jesus knew He would be forsaken and take all the pains for our undeserving humanity. Which includes us. God sent His son so we could live. So if you are like me where you truly believe and love everything Jesus has done. Yet some days you just wish He would come back now. So you don’t have to feel any more the pains or loneliness of this world. Know whatever you are feeling is nothing compared to the sacrifices already made. Know the plans,God plans are greater than anything we can dream of. Even if we cannot see it. Just dive in; do what you must but never give up never give in. Never change who you are. Pray hard and walk in love doing the best you can to shine His life and light. All this in the world will pass. God and Eternity is forever! You matter everything about your current struggles matter don’t ever think they do not. In Christ perfect will one day we will all see and acknowledge all the blessings. Until then know you area child of the most high king. Breathe in all you can of out Lord and savior. Amen.
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12/19/2018
Father thank you
for never giving up on me; when I so often walk around in wonder how will I ever
get through some things. I play that infinite tug of war.
Knowing you are the creator of all things and have sustained me every day of my
life; yet when I can't see something I torment myself and everyone around
me involved, with doubt, fear and wanting to just take control by running back
to what is comfortable in this life. Father thank you for
everyday; not a season, not when I need you. Every single day of my
life!!!! Through the lack of, over achieving, worldly
ways. I know you are the sustainer of all
things. I deserve nothing; but you
have given me life even when I wished to be gone. Forgive me
for any offenses that are unpleasing to you or towards others in this day to
day. Your will in my life father; not that of my own.
Please guide me. Amen
We come in this
world with nothing and we will leave with nothing but what our souls
Acquire along the
journey. Dear Lord let this love come to life.
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12/18/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day; as the this season comes fast approaching Lord. May I
never forget what the season is really about. May I realize any suffering
I may feel while on this earth will never compare to all the emotions at some
point you walked through alone. From the physical to the emotional.
Jesus You have already endured more brokenness than anything this world can
bring.
Thank you for the
blessings you give me and my family daily; I ask for your will in my life; and
if that means Lord as I am, so be it. I pray Lord you sustain me and not
allow my heart to harden or my persona to shut down and retreat from what this
world and all the elements that just never stop. You father know I
never picked this journey; I survived and will continue to do the best I
can while on it. While trying to lead the way in
hope. Thank you for the moments I will
never forget and those even for a time. May all we walk
through be revealed in the glory for you and you alone.
Isaiah 30:20-21
New English Translation (NET Bible)
20 The sovereign master will give you
distress to eat
and suffering to
drink;
but your teachers
will no longer be hidden;
your eyes will
see them.
21 You will hear a word spoken behind
you, saying,
“This is the
correct way, walk in it,”
whether you are
heading to the right or the left.
2 Corinthians
4:17 New English Translation (NET Bible)
17 For our momentary, light suffering is
producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison
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Is this the Beginning or the End
I will never
know:
Why so many souls
have crossed my path
Why some are
immediately connected
Why some I
immediately avoid
Why some you have
a season with
Why some there is
never enough
Why those you
wish never had never appeared
Why when you
think too hard your eyes fill with tears
Why some you have
to distance yourself
For the fear of
what if’s is so strong you can never give in
For to really
believe, and it not be true; Is surely a fine line teetering the edge; of
the beginning or the end.
Imagine yes; all
day long
Pretend; I cannot
play with my soul
Not when it
comes to having that one true soul mate, a lover that forever friend
I ask; was this a distraction; a façade
That temporary hiding place; for whatever your lives balance is working
out
An avoidance of dealing with temporary grief that consumes us within the
pains of this world
Oh Lord, I know
good still does exist; let’s not confuse this meaning of what is to come
You know, this
is not to be confused with our no agenda friends; those that are our
brothers and sisters in Christ with no expectations but to just love you until
the end.
Why was it so
important Lord, of me coming out of the desert?
Is this the first
and last; is this really how it ends?
I don't play with
family; I don't play with love; I don't do catch and release friends!
I have been
obedient, faithful for so long focused on you Lord
Was I yet still
too needy, when I say I can’t do some things on my own
Was I too
assuming; and not dedicated enough to you
So many
questions, I could try and chase all of them down
What is this I am
connected to; now deeply bound?
Why have you brought
me to life?
Why have you
filled me with so many different emotions, feelings or desires?
Why the bitter
sweet thankfulness, yet so much doubt?
I know my Lord of
all Lords, my God, my King; no matter what; you are who sustains me
I would
have never survived on my own; from childhood throughout now that I am grown
Although, I will
never understand why you have awakened my senses.
What am I to see,
what am I to do and be?
I just pray I
know what to do next; as I feel like I am slowly being drowned
My sweet soul
mate, my dream, my prince blessed by the King of peace.
Lord please wake
me, guide me; I ask this shall be; if not Dear Jesus give me strength
direction as I am struggling to hold on in this reality
I am fighting
growing numb; trying to shut down for all that I cannot see
What is it Father
God; you truly want from me?
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12/17/2018
Father as this season which should be
of blessings to all, is fast approaching.
As I speak for myself, my family, my friends and those I have not yet met.
Thank you Jesus for all you have done for me and will do in the future you have
given me. No matter what that may be; may it glorify you.
So many needs; hurts, habits, hang-ups. Emotional and Physical weariness around
me. How it must sadden you for all that takes place here on this earth.
We go about our day-to-day, busy, preoccupied, and sometimes happy with you
sometimes too busy and begrudging.
Lord, how we forget all that we allow to transpire in this world. How we so
often forget everything here is just on loan and temporary. Sometimes no matter
how depressing that sounds father the promise of eternity with you is
everlasting and worth any pain or hardships, we fight our way through.
May we, may cling closer to you and your will more now than ever before. May we
feel your presence no matter what is takes place. Please give us what we need
to keep fighting through. Please allow us to acknowledge what you have given
us.
Father may we learn to celebrate you as the Risen Lord every day not just
during this holiday season. Please steady our families, our friends and all
those we are shining the light of you to, for your glory.
Thank you for all you do for us! Jesus, none of us deserve anything; yet your
good and perfect will and promise fulfills so many blessings to those who
remain faithful.
Guide and heal our brokenness in and for your use Lord; not our own. Please
hear every prayer of your children; please give peace and healing needed; with
protection and wisdom. May we unify in your precious name Jesus. Amen
Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever
12/17
2 Corinthians
4:6 New International Version (NIV)
6 For God, who said, “Let light shine
out of darkness,”[a] made his light shine in our hearts to give
us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ.
Matthew 5:3 New
International Version (NIV)
3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for
theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew 6 New
International Version (NIV)
Giving
to the Needy
6 “Be
careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by
them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
2 “So when you give to the needy, do not
announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the
streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their
reward in full. 3 But when you give to the needy, do not let
your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4 so that
your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in
secret, will reward you.
Colossians
2:9-10 New English Translation (NET Bible)
9 For in him all the fullness of deity
lives in bodily form, 10 and you have been filled in him, who
is the head over every ruler and authority.
Psalm 150:6
New English Translation (NET Bible)
6 Let everything that has breath praise
the Lord!
Praise the Lord !
Thank you Father
for this day; Lord nothing comes to me or through me without your
approval Father. Thank you
Lord may I always
miss you desperately when I get to busy and taking off running. May I
always purpose more and more to slow down and seek you in everything I
see, listen to or experience. May I be thankful no matter what that
may mean in this world we live in.
In your
precious name, Amen
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I
will never know:
Why
so many souls have crossed my path
Why
some are immediately connected
Why
some I immediately avoid
Why
some you have a season with
Why
some there is never enough
Why
those you wish never had never appeared
Why
when you think too hard your eyes fill with tears
Why
some you have to distance yourself
For
the fear of what if’s is so strong you can never give in
For
to really believe, and it not be true; Is surely a fine line teetering
the edge; of the beginning or the end.
Imagine
yes; all day long
Pretend;
I cannot play with my soul
Not
when it comes to having that one true soul mate, a lover
that forever friend
For
this I will not risk my blessings I have been given.
I ask; was this a distraction; a façade
That temporary hiding place; for whatever your lives balance is working
out
An avoidance of dealing with temporary grief that consumes us within the pains
of this world
Oh
Lord, I know good still does exist; let’s not confuse this meaning of what is
to come
You
know, this is not to be confused with our no agenda friends; those that
are our brothers and sisters in Christ with no expectations but to just love
you until the end.
Why
was it so important Lord, of me coming out of the desert?
Is
this the first and last; is this really how it ends?
I
don't play with family; I don't play with love; I don't do catch and release
anything especially friends!
I
have been obedient, faithful for so long focused on you Lord.
Was
I yet still too needy, when I say I can’t do some things on my own?
Was
I too assuming; and not dedicated enough to you?
So
many questions, I could try and chase all of them down.
What
is this I am connected to; now deeply bound?
Why
have you brought me to life?
Why
have you filled me with so many different emotions, feelings or desires?
Why
the bitter sweet thankfulness, yet so much doubt?
I
know my Lord of all Lords, my God, my King; no matter what; you are who
sustains me
I
would have never survived on my own; from childhood throughout now that I am
grown
Although,
I will never understand why you have awakened my senses.
What
am I to see, what am I to do and be?
I
just pray I know what to do next; as I feel like I am slowly being drowned
My
sweet soul mate, my dream, my prince blessed by the King of peace.
Lord
please wake me, guide me; I ask this shall be; if not Dear Jesus give
me strength direction as I am struggling to hold on in this reality
I
am fighting growing numb; trying to shut down for all that I cannot see
What
is it Father God; you truly want from me?
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12/16/2018
Thank you Lord
for this day
May the walk
taken honor you and your perfect will.
No matter
what comes; or does not; may you always be first.
No matter what
heartbreak or what joy and excitement; may you always be first. As in the
end of all times It is only You that truly matters.
Isaiah 50:4 New
International Version (NIV)
4 The Sovereign
LORD has given me a well-instructed tongue,
to know the word
that sustains the weary.
He wakens me
morning by morning,
wakens my ear to
listen like one being instructed.
Revelation 2:4
New International Version (NIV)
4 Yet I hold this
against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.
Isaiah 60:2 New International
Version (NIV)
2 See, darkness
covers the earth
and thick
darkness is over the peoples,
but the LORD
rises upon you
and his glory
appears over you
12/15/2018
Lord this day
like so many others just came and went. Caught up in the day to day
business father; I pray at least a portion of all I have done is worthy of your
blessing. Not just today Jesus but everyday; teach me to guard my
heart; hold my words and do all things in You're will; not my own.
Forgive me for
the offenses I may have caused by actions or by not doing anything at
all. I ask for guidance and protection in all things and those I
encounter. Including myself and some of the things I choose to do.
Lord I want your will and only your will; you know my heart; my desires.
Please reveal your plan. Thank you
Jesus for this day; Thank you for the freedoms of choice and will that allow us
to believe and hope in you. Thank you for the blessings of all things unseen
with those we have right in front of us. May we never forget, may we cling
tightly to you when we feel we are losing grip and hope for all that is good.
Amen
Romans 8:23 New
International Version (NIV)
23 Not only so,
but we ourselves, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we
wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies.
Hebrews 6:18-19
New International Version (NIV)
18 God did this
so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie,
we who have fled to take hold of the hope set before us may be greatly
encouraged. 19 We have this hope as an anchor for the s...oul, firm and secure.
It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain,
Romans 15:13 New
International Version (NIV)
13 May the God of
hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may
overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
12/14/2018
December 14, 2018
Hebrews 13:8
(NIV) 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
Ecclesiastes 1:2
(NIV) 2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher.
“Utterly
meaningless! Everything is meaningless
Proverbs 3:6
(NIV) 6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make
your paths straight.
Thank you Father
for another day!
Thank you for the
message and reminders as we wander into the darkness forgetting you have
everything no matter what directions we go; but everything in control. All we
need to do is remember who to hold onto!
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12/13/2018
Lord thank you
for this day
For the blessings
and the trials. May we always cling to you no matter what father. I
could go on and on; but Jesus you have already done everything on the
cross. Thank you! Amen
2
Thessalonians 1:10 New International Version
(NIV) 10 on the day he comes to
be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have
believed. This includes you, because you believed our testimony to
you.
Psalm 24:4 New
International Version (NIV) 4 The one who has
clean hands and a pure heart,
who does not trust in an idol
or swear by a false god
1 Corinthians
6:19 New International Version (NIV) 19 Do
you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you,
whom you have received from God? You are not your own;
Ephesians 3:20
New International Version (NIV) 20 Now
to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,
according to his power that is at work within us,
Reading through
my devotional for Advent thinking how I often call myself Martha because I feel
like I always have to get things done to make it right.
Not really giving it much thought until now how the business that fills the
spaces for my quiet time; is a what turns into worry about things I should
not. When the quiet comes, there are those days that sometimes the
whispers haunt my mind; of all the things I do not know. With the
What Ifs! What if it does not go accordingly, What if
it does; what will you do; what won't you do. What do others
do. The craziness that rob us from our time with
the Lord even if just finding a serene place to look out and observe the
blessings around us. We cannot do anything about those things
not in our circle of control. So why do we get caught up
worrying. Or filling our self with busyness.
Perhaps just one
more void to deal with. We all chase things to fill us up for what we
thing is missing; Even those of us filled with the holy spirit and
God. Perhaps as He unveils those new voids that have
not been dealt with yet; on a small scale filling our time with positive
business is the answer. Yet to fully surrender to our
Lord and Savior. We will need to come face to face and sit at His feet
and just listen as Mary did!
Including
me! No matter how much I love Jesus, no matter how blessed I
am. I too still struggle at times giving all of me; pulling it
back. No matter how long I walk this walk; Sometimes I
stumble and have to start crawling all over again. Reminding myself none
of it matters. The future is already been written. I
need to just let it go; having Satan get behind me. Let it go and
pray for the belief that I walk with daily fills that void that the demon doubt
whisperers try to fill this world of mine.
No matter what
the future holds, I am and have been forever blessed~
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12/12/2018
Thank you Jesus
for all you have done at the cross! Thank you for this day, these
freedoms no matter what transpires or does not. Thank you for this
journey.
Romans 8:28 New
International Version (NIV)
28 And we know
that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have
been called according to his purpose.
Job 42:1-3 New
International Version (NIV)
42 Then Job
replied to the Lord: 2
“I know that you
can do all things;
no purpose of
yours can be thwarted. 3 You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my plans without
knowledge?’
Surely I spoke of
things I did not understand,
things too
wonderful for me to know.
1 Peter 5:7 New
International Version (NIV) 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for
you.
2 Corinthians 5:7
New International Version (NIV) 7 For we live by faith, not by sight.
What
does Love Look Like
What does love
look like to you?
Riding in this
morning as always blasting music and one of the tunes was singing out this is
what Love feels like.
I started
thinking what does that really mean. Empty never felt so
good. Yes you can probably guess which song it is. But
seriously; What does Love Look like to you.
Me I have always
dreamed of being part of that deeper greater Agape love that Christ had.
Unconditional
No expectations
Every expectation
Everything all in
one!
Just the thought
of knowing someone loves you more than you can ever love yourself
The thoughts of
material items mean nothing when you have someone, that wants and feels all the
God things of life.
That does not
even come close to what physical needs or desires we may have.
I mean really,
think about how you see your significant other and what kind of minds eye
expectations do you see in the vision.
It's not all the
passionate intimate lustful things you envision; although they are part of
unifying with someone.
It is not what
they can do for you or you can do for them; you know that shared honey do list;
although you need to be willing and available
It is not about
being attached at the hip to prove you like being around each other; although
how else do you make memories and grow; but to spend quality time together.
It is not about
being with someone for what they have; as we know all the material items
in this world will go away. Some sooner than others.
What is deep in
your soul when you think of that person?
Are your souls
connected?
Is there
something on the inside that connects you or is it all about what you see
outside?
The big question;
Is God part of the vison?
Yesterday, Today
and all the tomorrows?
Do you talk, or
are you just together because you made a commitment years prior; but really
can't stand the fact of letting go and being alone. Not to mention your
religion says you cannot change things?
Love to me is a
union and unfortunately before I started walking the walk with Christ, I had my
share of failures. I did my thing they did theirs. if
there were any conversations it was about an up and coming day or event we had
to attend. There were never any dreams, aspirations, goals whatever you
want to call them. It was all based on assumption. You know
what they say about Assuming right?
Eventually
without communication, without desire, without unconditional love; there is and
was no more Love. And that deep rooted lust or intimate desire you
need to fill; well you can't stand to be around that person.
Because somewhere down the line you no longer trust them or know who they
really are. Much less beat yourself up because you really don't know
if you ever really did.
What does Love
look like for you? Everything and Nothing as long as God is
the focus in everything that is done. Freely given, not
controlled, not demanding, not demeaning not with any expectation that person
must be a certain way. A partnership, a unification, a
promise to never give up, never give in for all the elements that will pound
you both down trying to destroy what God deems as beautiful yet at
times adding turmoil to your day today. Love is
not what you can't do; it is not what you should do. It is every single
day; no matter what, no matter when.
I pray I some day
have even just a sliver of the Agape love that Christ had for humanity and this
world. For there is nothing greater. That
is what love looks like to me and more!
More than words;
more than temporary pleasures; something so deep inside only God could pull it
out.
What that means
when it flows to the outside. I pray will always be what serves that
special someone once you finally are blessed; serves them well until the
end of time. As my soulmate, my lover, my friend, my guide. my forever
Prince of the most high King. That is what Love looks like to me.
Maybe I will,
Maybe I won't every really get that chance to see; but I will always be
AlwaysMeKelly
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12/11/2018
Thank you father
for this day and the message you shared with me out of the daily devotional
this morning.
Yes Father when
it comes to uncertainty it leads me back to you; although as of late I don't
feel I have been spending enough time with you. I see your
reassuring messages and signs throughout various scriptures in songs in
devotionals. But at times I still doubt why things happen the way they
do. My life and all that I am all that I am connected to Jesus; Is
yours! I made that choice many years ago and even though my path has
been full of twists, turns hills and valleys that will never
change. I hold you Father to your promises as you hold me for your
will.
Nothing else
matters in the end Jesus. There is nothing I can say or do to be
worthy enough that you saved me from myself; from the world. I pray
the same blessing upon my family, my children and grandchildren; all my
family and friends. Lord I pray for the peace of
salvation that fills me to fill all of them. Your light shine
brightly in this world that can be so dark and gray.
So
much brokenness Lord; you have carried me through; while at the same
time of bitter sweet the moments of beauty, love and laughter.
I will never
proclaim to even be relatively understanding of you Jesus; I can only say for
all the love you lived and died for. Let me see with your eyes
and serve you well.
For the desires
of my heart deep in my soul Lord; If it is your will so shall it
be mine when you reveal that time. If not Lord; Please
guide me what ever direction my remaining days call for here in
this earth. You know every thing
about all of me. Forgive me for any lack of trust;
any offenses and all I quickly jump in without you for.
Please lift up
those who are suffering from loss of their children, from illness, from loneliness.
May they feel your healing comforting arms wrapped around
them. Lord we know this world is far from nice, far from
easy. In your precious name. May your children unify
and do what they can to make it just a little better one spec at a time.
Amen
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12/10/2018
Forgive me father
for making things about me and this world and not about you; forgive me for
allowing the business seep in and take words that should be for you and given
to and for many others.
Thank you for
yesterday and today; May the air you fill my lungs with be used in your will
and for those in need as you direct. Not my own uneducated sometimes
misdirected paths. Lord I ask first to protect me from myself. As I
have always been a head first diving in trying to do what is right trying to
help where I can. Jesus you know my heart, you know my
desires. Thank you for always being there and catching me when I
fall. You know I can't do this alone; and I also will continue to do as
much as I can where ever I go.
Please lift up my
dear friend in the hospital; Please lift up my other dear friend who just lost
her son to death. Jesus be with the entire
family. Be with my friend going through crises; and all
those Lord be it my friends or family going through the heaviness of his
world. I believe in you Father and all you
are; and I am weighted down. I cannot imagine for those who have no
hope. May your children unify and shine the light. Now and
always. For you have died on that cross for so much
more. Please guide me and your children to be the light in this
dark world.
Amen
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12/08/2018
Thank you Father
for this day; and the abilities to meet with you where ever we are!
Philippians
4:19 New International Version (NIV)
19 And my God will meet all your needs
according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Colossians
2:2-3 New International Version (NIV)
2 My goal is that they may be encouraged
in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete
understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, 3 in
whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.
Dear Jesus
the word all
through out scripture speak of a just, loving soul that has sacrificed all for
really at times is nothing. We in the world don't all always give you the
respect, desire and devotion if ever you so righteously should have.
Yet we call upon
you for everything. Forgive me father, forgive me for the
sins I carry and live out even if I do not understand at times what they
are. Forgive me for not staying 200% next, with in
you. It is your will I seek and my prayers for such are never
ending.
Jesus please hear
the unspoken prayers from within and all that is written.
I lift up
- our church
for vision and direction
- our
leadership within the church within our nation
- spiritual
growth to explode and our county be filled with evangelism and
discipleship
- reaching
the unsaved and those in need all throughout.
- Father
please hear the calls of healing for our brothers and sisters for those
that are saved and those that are not.
May we all hunger
and thirst for your word and your will. May I and all I am connected
shine the light for you. May the deepest desires be to over
come what is not seen and shine in faith, hope and love reflecting all you
are. In Jesus name.
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12/07/2018
Matthew
10:29 New International Version (NIV)
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?
Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.[a]
Hebrews
11:27 New International Version (NIV)
27 By faith he left Egypt, not fearing
the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible.
1 Corinthians
4:18 New International Version (NIV)
18 Some of you have become arrogant, as
if I were not coming to you.
Lord
Thank you for
this day
My prayers are of
healing and well being Lord for my friends, my family and all those who I have
not yet connected with. Please bring them healing, comfort and they
find your Mercy and Grace.
Lord the needs
are big and many; for all those I know and don't know please hear
the prayers. Lord you know my heart, and all I pray for.
Please guide me in your will. Keep me from discouragement in this
world. Give me strength and courage to continue on in the unknown
that only you can guide. In Love, In Christ for all
things Amen
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12/06/2018
Thank you for
this day and all layers that came with it.
I lift up Tammy
in the hospital and my children and their safety. Bring them home every
day to be with their families. Guide and protect them.
Prayers for all the friends I have been blessed with. Guide and protect
them always.
No matter where I
am. May I serve you and shine for you. No matter what! Thank you.
Jesus.
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12/05/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day! Lord Thank, you for always showing me you are
there. Even when this world is so twisted up in the gray matter of
things. I seek only truth father. No matter how
painful. I wish to live in your will the black or white not
stuck in the world of unknown, chasing things that are temporary; in constant
turmoil. I know Lord it is a hard fine line to stay here on
some days. I just pray Your will in my life and all those I am connected
with. None of us are perfect father. Far from it; only You
can fill those sandals. Jesus, you know I cannot do
this without you on my own. I can only take so many layers before I just
shut down. You have carried me all my life. I
hold you to continuing the remainder of my days. Father you
did not sacrifice you son for your believers to suffer. Although we
need constant reminders of just what Jesus went through to appreciate and
acknowledge daily. I ask on behalf of all your children
to please lift us up; heal what is broken; give understanding where is
needed and let us all acknowledge the love, mercy and grace we are
given. May we all hold tightly on you now and always.
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit Amen
-------------------Are You In or Not
If only for a day
Would you love me any way
If only my timeline had run its course
No beauty no mind left
Would you stay with me or file the divorce
What is beautiful young vibrant in our youth
Will turn suddenly one day you look in the mirror everything is
gone you once knew
What promise is it that you make
For in the end it seems all that is left are the broken lies
And the heartache you must take
So when I say I am in love with the one and only
Don’t come at me unless your 200 percent real
Cause I know where my help comes from
No matter what
No matter when
No matter where
No matter why
I am forever a sold out in love Jesus girl
This will never be a lie
You can talk all day
Make promises with all the pretty things you say
In the end I know where my help comes from
Don’t doubt me I won’t doubt you
Just show me your intentions are you
Just show me your intentions are true
I will always be a friend no matter what you do
Don’t mistake my kindness for being weak
Don’t mistake my desires and sometimes tears;
for anything if it is nothing you don’t intend to be near
and want to keep
For I know where my help comes from in love I might be
My Jesus will get me trough, soon allow rest in my soul, and
mind to sleep
So if you must go just do it already no words are necessary this
you know
But if your in for the long haul a ride of our lives
Hand and hand let’s find what Agape love means
And shine the light throughout forever in this world so cold
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12/04/2018
Thank you Father for the constant reminder you are here whenever
we call out. May we hear your voice in the wind that blows
and may we see the signs in all you do. May this world never cloud us so
badly we forget who you are and how we came to be.
Thank you for
this new day; May I serve you well for your will in the time I am given.
Thank you for the blessings you have entrusted me with.
Thank you
for the words you fill me with! Thank you for the abundance of Love
I feel; yet cannot freely express. Thank you for the
awakening; please guide me with should be next. Father if tomorrow never
comes. Thank you so much for the moments up to
today.
I am so very
thankful for my Sweet Soul no matter how long or short. I am so
very thankful for you Jesus and all the blessings you have given me. I
will never understand why, how or how long. But am Thankful for
today.
Forgive me Father for any sins or offenses I may caused to anyone
I am connected with or will connect to. Please guide me in your will and
not my own. I lift up those in need Jesus; there are so many.
Please heal and comfort them. Please bring the lost back into the light;
please fill the lonely up during these times we all wish we had someone to
share your celebration with.
Please calm the
storms that come within. Please
guide me always. To the right people, for the right reasons. In
your mighty precious name Jesus! Amen
Random
Thoughts
Random thoughts
so early each morning
Today is no
different than any other.
The
thoughts just keep coming along this path of my life this wave; Some
spot on others totally off. Not making any sense.
Lost in this abyss, how in the world did I get here I can't pretend.
These random
thoughts keep coming; some days my head hurts not able to make them go
away.
Some are so
awesomely beautiful, no words can I say; others become frightening, full
of what if's I can't deal with; I just want to stop and run away.
I have never been
a quitter; my heart keeps telling me there is no other way. Follow
through, no matter what you do. Do not let the unknowns paralyze
you or chase true possibilities a stray.
No matter what
you are a survivor; no matter what comes your way.
Random Thoughts
Triggers of
the struggle for Radio Silence or just putting pencil to paper is as real
as night or day.
Sometimes my head
feels like it is ready to explode; or is it everything from my head to my toes.
In any
case: Sometimes the fine line we need of true meaning is in actions
of what we don't say.
AlwaysMeKelly
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Isaiah 55:8-9
(NIV)
8 “For my thoughts are not your
thoughts,
neither
are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the
earth,
so
are my ways higher than your ways
and
my thoughts than your thoughts.
Colossians 4:3
(NIV)
3 And pray for us, too, that God may
open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for
which I am in chains
Psalm 116:17
(NIV)
17 I will sacrifice a thank offering to
you
and
call on the name of the Lord.
Ephesians 6:12 (NIV)
12 For our struggle is not
against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the
authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the
spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Genesis
28:11-16 (NIV)
11 When he reached a certain place, he
stopped for the night because the sun had set. Taking one of the stones there,
he put it under his head and lay down to sleep. 12 He had a
dream in which he saw a stairway resting on the earth, with its top reaching to
heaven, and the angels of God were ascending and descending on it. 13 There
above it[a] stood the Lord,
and he said: “I am the Lord, the
God of your father Abraham and the God of Isaac. I will give you and your
descendants the land on which you are lying. 14 Your
descendants will be like the dust of the earth, and you will spread out to the
west and to the east, to the north and to the south. All peoples on earth will
be blessed through you and your offspring.[b] 15 I am with you and will
watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will
not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”
16 When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he
thought, “Surely the Lord is in
this place, and I was not aware of it.”
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12/03/2018
Lord
as I go through this day; I thank you Jesus for all you have done to make it
possible I exist.
Father
we are at war, we have battlefields in our minds, we are at war with the flesh
and in some cases we do not even know why. We know this is a
spiritual war that you already have under control.
I
pray for peace and guidance during our storms; that we rest in you and you
only. We know there is nothing wrong in wanting nice
things; having nice things and doing nice things. May we
always give the thanks back to you why we have them. For those
who wish for and do not yet have.
Lord;
please reveal your purpose for them. For those suffering and
here are many Lord with illness and horrible disease. Please wrap
them in your comforting arms and see them through all that is to come next.
Jesus;
Father, Abba, Jehovah, brother and friend; this list could go on and
on. Guide us please. May your will be done in
all of our plans and desires. May you see us through as
we just do not understand when things are not going our way. May you
send your angels down for all the needs to those calling
you. We are not meant to do this life on our
own. Fill us up Lord so we may overflow for your
kingdom. Thank you for this day. Amen
Ephesians 6:12
12 For our struggle is not against flesh
and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against
the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in
the heavenly realms.
1st Samuel 17:47
And
everyone assembled here will know hat the Lord rescues his people, but not with
sword and spear. This is the the Lord’s battle and he will give you to
us!
Philippians 2:9-10
9 Therefore God exalted him to the
highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
1 Peter 1:8-9
8 Though you have not seen him, you love
him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled
with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving
the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
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12/02/2018
Thank you Lord
for this day; may your will be done. Lord there is always
something we fear; always something that gets under our skin, into our
heads. Always some sort of sadness we cannot shake when we are
trying to manage this journey on our own.
Guide us Father; give us all the moments to absorb your peace and
knowledge. We have all been made uniquely for your purpose of
love and harmony. Lord guide each of us to the place that fills us up
with you; so we may spill over and pay it forward in this world we are
in.
I deserve nothing
Father, yet you sent your son Jesus Christ to take all the worlds indiscretions
including mine. He freely went!
I am blessed Lord
beyond all deserving; I ask that you may consume me Jesus, Lord fill
me up and break my heart and move me in purpose, with as much love as
Jesus!
Lord, May we all;
start finding the good in everything and drown out what consumes us in what
tends to be a very dark world at times. May we remember, the spiritual
battle has already been won. We just need to believe all that is
good and pure in you, from you and with you! Amen
Isaiah
9:6 (NIV)
6 For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
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John 20:19-21
(NIV)
Jesus
Appears to His Disciples
19 On the evening of that first day of
the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of
the Jewish leaders, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with
you!” 20 After he said this, he showed them his hands and side.
The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord.
21 Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you!
As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”
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Psalm 25:4
(NIV)
4 Show me your ways, Lord,
teach me your paths
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12/01/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day. Please guide my steps keeping me close to you and
only you. As I walk through this world that fills us with so much
stuff~ Please help me to never lose site of you in any situation, never
stop seeing you in all that is out there, never stop hearing your
will. Thank you for all that I am; without you I am
nothing. Bless all those Lord that connect with and through
me. In your precious name. Amen
Jeremiah
31: (NIV)
3 The Lord
appeared to us in the past,[a] saying: “I have loved you with an
everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
Lamentations
3:22-26 (NIV)
22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great
is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore
I will wait for him.”
25 The Lord
is good to those whose hope is in him,
to
the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for
the salvation of the Lord.
/2018
Jesus; as you
know all things please forgive me, for never keeping you first in
everything. As my mind constantly doing overtime, my imagination
continues, in the depths of madness of humanity we grasp for whatever we
believe is real, and fulfilling. Most days we have you as an
afterthought. As I try to justify I am not the only one who falls short
and undeserving of your mercy and grace. I am thankful for
all I have. Even the unknown paths that we suddenly find
ourselves on out of no where. Jesus to know that all new beginnings no
matter what direction will always be held by you. May I and all I
am connected be guided by Your will; May I not offend you in my struggle to
hope there is purpose and meaning for all that I do not understand.
May I never make something out of nothing without your blessing. May I
never chase away more than something that when I cannot physically see it; it
is there yet I give up to nothing. So desperately Lord I need you
in everything, every moment of every breath and every person I care about
and love deeply. Even of some of them do not understand
this. Is it not like falling in love with what you cannot
see but the feelings are deeply within the soul. Please
fill all those who have not come to call you Lord and Savior and walk
with you. Please fill them with the same connections, sparks and deep
felt love that fills our souls. Lord you know all
things. Bitter/Sweet desires, needs joy and
torment. I thank you for all I am, all I have and all that
I can be. I thank you for allowing me to
be AlwaysMe~Kelly. For the promise of new
days and new beginnings. Lead me Jesus
please!
Please hear
the prayers and the cries of all those suffering Lord; Please heal
the sick and broken needs. Please end what is wrong
and shine the light on all that is good in your will
and sight. Now and Forevesr may your will be done. Amen
We are the
keepers of our own being with Christ. No matter what unrest: all the
materialistic negative users in this world. Dare to be different and shine with
loyalty, respect and love. No matter what the end result ✝️ No matter what your loss or gain!
#thisworldistemporary
12/19/2018
Father thank you
for never giving up on me; when I so often walk around in wonder how will I ever
get through some things. I play that infinite tug of war.
Knowing you are the creator of all things and have sustained me every day of my
life; yet when I can't see something I torment myself and everyone around
me involved, with doubt, fear and wanting to just take control by running back
to what is comfortable in this life. Father thank you for
everyday; not a season, not when I need you. Every single day of my
life!!!! Through the lack of, over achieving, worldly
ways. I know you are the sustainer of all
things. I deserve nothing; but you
have given me life even when I wished to be gone. Forgive me
for any offenses that are unpleasing to you or towards others in this day to day.
Your will in my life father; not that of my own. Please guide
me. Amen
We come in this
world with nothing and we will leave with nothing but what our souls
Acquire along the
journey. Dear Lord let this love come to life.
12/18/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day; as the this season comes fast approaching Lord. May I
never forget what the season is really about. May I realize any suffering
I may feel while on this earth will never compare to all the emotions at some
point you walked through alone. From the physical to the emotional.
Jesus You have already endured more brokenness than anything this world can
bring.
Thank you for the
blessings you give me and my family daily; I ask for your will in my life; and
if that means Lord as I am, so be it. I pray Lord you sustain me and not
allow my heart to harden or my persona to shut down and retreat from what this
world and all the elements that just never stop. You father know I
never picked this journey; I survived and will continue to do the best I
can while on it. While trying to lead the way in
hope. Thank you for the moments I will
never forget and those even for a time. May all we walk
through be revealed in the glory for you and you alone.
Isaiah 30:20-21
New English Translation (NET Bible)
20 The sovereign master will give you distress
to eat
and suffering to
drink;
but your teachers
will no longer be hidden;
your eyes will
see them.
21 You will hear a word spoken behind
you, saying,
“This is the
correct way, walk in it,”
whether you are
heading to the right or the left.
2 Corinthians
4:17 New English Translation (NET Bible)
17 For our momentary, light suffering is
producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison
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Is this the Beginning or the End
I will never
know:
Why so many souls
have crossed my path
Why some are
immediately connected
Why some I
immediately avoid
Why some you have
a season with
Why some there is
never enough
Why those you
wish never had never appeared
Why when you
think too hard your eyes fill with tears
Why some you have
to distance yourself
For the fear of
what if’s is so strong you can never give in
For to really
believe, and it not be true; Is surely a fine line teetering the edge; of
the beginning or the end.
Imagine yes; all
day long
Pretend; I cannot
play with my soul
Not when it
comes to having that one true soul mate, a lover that forever
friend
I ask; was this a distraction; a façade
That temporary hiding place; for whatever your lives balance is working
out
An avoidance of dealing with temporary grief that consumes us within the
pains of this world
Oh Lord, I know
good still does exist; let’s not confuse this meaning of what is to come
You know, this
is not to be confused with our no agenda friends; those that are our
brothers and sisters in Christ with no expectations but to just love you until
the end.
Why was it so
important Lord, of me coming out of the desert?
Is this the first
and last; is this really how it ends?
I don't play with
family; I don't play with love; I don't do catch and release friends!
I have been
obedient, faithful for so long focused on you Lord
Was I yet still
too needy, when I say I can’t do some things on my own
Was I too
assuming; and not dedicated enough to you
So many
questions, I could try and chase all of them down
What is this I am
connected to; now deeply bound?
Why have you
brought me to life?
Why have you
filled me with so many different emotions, feelings or desires?
Why the bitter
sweet thankfulness, yet so much doubt?
I know my Lord of
all Lords, my God, my King; no matter what; you are who sustains me
I would
have never survived on my own; from childhood throughout now that I am grown
Although, I will
never understand why you have awakened my senses.
What am I to see,
what am I to do and be?
I just pray I
know what to do next; as I feel like I am slowly being drowned
My sweet soul
mate, my dream, my prince blessed by the King of peace.
Lord please wake
me, guide me; I ask this shall be; if not Dear Jesus give me strength
direction as I am struggling to hold on in this reality
I am fighting
growing numb; trying to shut down for all that I cannot see
What is it Father
God; you truly want from me?
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12/17/2018
Father as this season which should be
of blessings to all, is fast approaching.
As I speak for myself, my family, my friends and those I have not yet met.
Thank you Jesus for all you have done for me and will do in the future you have
given me. No matter what that may be; may it glorify you.
So many needs; hurts, habits, hang-ups. Emotional and Physical weariness around
me. How it must sadden you for all that takes place here on this earth.
We go about our day-to-day, busy, preoccupied, and sometimes happy with you
sometimes too busy and begrudging.
Lord, how we forget all that we allow to transpire in this world. How we so
often forget everything here is just on loan and temporary. Sometimes no matter
how depressing that sounds father the promise of eternity with you is
everlasting and worth any pain or hardships, we fight our way through.
May we, may cling closer to you and your will more now than ever before. May we
feel your presence no matter what is takes place. Please give us what we need
to keep fighting through. Please allow us to acknowledge what you have given
us.
Father may we learn to celebrate you as the Risen Lord every day not just
during this holiday season. Please steady our families, our friends and all
those we are shining the light of you to, for your glory.
Thank you for all you do for us! Jesus, none of us deserve anything; yet your
good and perfect will and promise fulfills so many blessings to those who
remain faithful.
Guide and heal our brokenness in and for your use Lord; not our own. Please
hear every prayer of your children; please give peace and healing needed; with
protection and wisdom. May we unify in your precious name Jesus. Amen
Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever
12/17
2 Corinthians
4:6 New International Version (NIV)
6 For God, who said, “Let light shine
out of darkness,”[a] made his light shine in our hearts to give
us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ.
Matthew 5:3
New International Version (NIV)
3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for
theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew 6 New
International Version (NIV)
Giving
to the Needy
6 “Be
careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by
them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
2 “So when you give to the needy, do not
announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the
streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their
reward in full. 3 But when you give to the needy, do not let
your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4 so that
your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in
secret, will reward you.
Colossians
2:9-10 New English Translation (NET Bible)
9 For in him all the fullness of deity
lives in bodily form, 10 and you have been filled in him, who
is the head over every ruler and authority.
Psalm 150:6
New English Translation (NET Bible)
6 Let everything that has breath praise
the Lord!
Praise the Lord !
Thank you Father
for this day; Lord nothing comes to me or through me without your
approval Father. Thank you
Lord may I always
miss you desperately when I get to busy and taking off running. May I
always purpose more and more to slow down and seek you in everything I
see, listen to or experience. May I be thankful no matter what that
may mean in this world we live in.
In your
precious name, Amen
12/16/2018
Thank you Lord
for this day
May the walk
taken honor you and your perfect will.
No matter
what comes; or does not; may you always be first.
No matter what
heartbreak or what joy and excitement; may you always be first. As in the
end of all times It is only You that truly matters.
Isaiah 50:4 New
International Version (NIV)
4 The Sovereign
LORD has given me a well-instructed tongue,
to know the word
that sustains the weary.
He wakens me
morning by morning,
wakens my ear to
listen like one being instructed.
Revelation 2:4
New International Version (NIV)
4 Yet I hold this
against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.
Isaiah 60:2 New
International Version (NIV)
2 See, darkness
covers the earth
and thick
darkness is over the peoples,
but the LORD
rises upon you
and his glory
appears over you
12/15/2018
Lord this day
like so many others just came and went. Caught up in the day to day
business father; I pray at least a portion of all I have done is worthy of your
blessing. Not just today Jesus but everyday; teach me to guard my
heart; hold my words and do all things in You're will; not my own.
Forgive me for
the offenses I may have caused by actions or by not doing anything at
all. I ask for guidance and protection in all things and those I
encounter. Including myself and some of the things I choose to do.
Lord I want your will and only your will; you know my heart; my desires.
Please reveal your plan. Thank you
Jesus for this day; Thank you for the freedoms of choice and will that allow us
to believe and hope in you. Thank you for the blessings of all things unseen
with those we have right in front of us. May we never forget, may we cling
tightly to you when we feel we are losing grip and hope for all that is good.
Amen
Romans 8:23 New
International Version (NIV)
23 Not only so,
but we ourselves, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we
wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies.
Hebrews 6:18-19
New International Version (NIV)
18 God did this
so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie,
we who have fled to take hold of the hope set before us may be greatly
encouraged. 19 We have this hope as an anchor for the s...oul, firm and secure.
It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain,
Romans 15:13 New
International Version (NIV)
13 May the God of
hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may
overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
12/14/2018
December 14, 2018
Hebrews 13:8
(NIV) 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
Ecclesiastes 1:2
(NIV) 2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher.
“Utterly
meaningless! Everything is meaningless
Proverbs 3:6
(NIV) 6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make
your paths straight.
Thank you Father
for another day!
Thank you for the
message and reminders as we wander into the darkness forgetting you have
everything no matter what directions we go; but everything in control. All we
need to do is remember who to hold onto!
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12/13/2018
Lord thank you
for this day
For the blessings
and the trials. May we always cling to you no matter what father. I
could go on and on; but Jesus you have already done everything on the
cross. Thank you! Amen
2
Thessalonians 1:10 New International Version
(NIV) 10 on the day he comes to
be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have
believed. This includes you, because you believed our testimony to
you.
Psalm 24:4 New
International Version (NIV) 4 The one who has
clean hands and a pure heart,
who does not trust in an idol
or swear by a false god
1 Corinthians
6:19 New International Version (NIV) 19 Do
you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you,
whom you have received from God? You are not your own;
Ephesians 3:20
New International Version (NIV) 20 Now
to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,
according to his power that is at work within us,
Reading through
my devotional for Advent thinking how I often call myself Martha because I feel
like I always have to get things done to make it right.
Not really giving it much thought until now how the business that fills the
spaces for my quiet time; is a what turns into worry about things I should
not. When the quiet comes, there are those days that sometimes the
whispers haunt my mind; of all the things I do not know. With the
What Ifs! What if it does not go accordingly, What if
it does; what will you do; what won't you do. What do others
do. The craziness that rob us from our time with
the Lord even if just finding a serene place to look out and observe the
blessings around us. We cannot do anything about those things
not in our circle of control. So why do we get caught up
worrying. Or filling our self with busyness.
Perhaps just one
more void to deal with. We all chase things to fill us up for what we
thing is missing; Even those of us filled with the holy spirit and
God. Perhaps as He unveils those new voids that have
not been dealt with yet; on a small scale filling our time with positive
business is the answer. Yet to fully surrender to our
Lord and Savior. We will need to come face to face and sit at His feet
and just listen as Mary did!
Including
me! No matter how much I love Jesus, no matter how blessed I
am. I too still struggle at times giving all of me; pulling it
back. No matter how long I walk this walk; Sometimes I
stumble and have to start crawling all over again. Reminding myself none
of it matters. The future is already been written. I
need to just let it go; having Satan get behind me. Let it go and
pray for the belief that I walk with daily fills that void that the demon doubt
whisperers try to fill this world of mine.
No matter what
the future holds, I am and have been forever blessed~
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12/12/2018
Thank you Jesus
for all you have done at the cross! Thank you for this day, these
freedoms no matter what transpires or does not. Thank you for this
journey.
Romans 8:28 New
International Version (NIV)
28 And we know
that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have
been called according to his purpose.
Job 42:1-3 New
International Version (NIV)
42 Then Job replied
to the Lord: 2
“I know that you
can do all things;
no purpose of
yours can be thwarted. 3 You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my plans without
knowledge?’
Surely I spoke of
things I did not understand,
things too
wonderful for me to know.
1 Peter 5:7 New
International Version (NIV) 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for
you.
2 Corinthians 5:7
New International Version (NIV) 7 For we live by faith, not by sight.
What
does Love Look Like
What does love
look like to you?
Riding in this
morning as always blasting music and one of the tunes was singing out this is
what Love feels like.
I started
thinking what does that really mean. Empty never felt so
good. Yes you can probably guess which song it is. But
seriously; What does Love Look like to you.
Me I have always
dreamed of being part of that deeper greater Agape love that Christ had.
Unconditional
No expectations
Every expectation
Everything all in
one!
Just the thought
of knowing someone loves you more than you can ever love yourself
The thoughts of
material items mean nothing when you have someone, that wants and feels all the
God things of life.
That does not
even come close to what physical needs or desires we may have.
I mean really,
think about how you see your significant other and what kind of minds eye
expectations do you see in the vision.
It's not all the
passionate intimate lustful things you envision; although they are part of
unifying with someone.
It is not what
they can do for you or you can do for them; you know that shared honey do list;
although you need to be willing and available
It is not about
being attached at the hip to prove you like being around each other; although
how else do you make memories and grow; but to spend quality time together.
It is not about
being with someone for what they have; as we know all the material items
in this world will go away. Some sooner than others.
What is deep in
your soul when you think of that person?
Are your souls
connected?
Is there
something on the inside that connects you or is it all about what you see
outside?
The big question;
Is God part of the vison?
Yesterday, Today
and all the tomorrows?
Do you talk, or
are you just together because you made a commitment years prior; but really
can't stand the fact of letting go and being alone. Not to mention your
religion says you cannot change things?
Love to me is a
union and unfortunately before I started walking the walk with Christ, I had my
share of failures. I did my thing they did theirs. if
there were any conversations it was about an up and coming day or event we had
to attend. There were never any dreams, aspirations, goals whatever you
want to call them. It was all based on assumption. You know
what they say about Assuming right?
Eventually
without communication, without desire, without unconditional love; there is and
was no more Love. And that deep rooted lust or intimate desire you
need to fill; well you can't stand to be around that person.
Because somewhere down the line you no longer trust them or know who they
really are. Much less beat yourself up because you really don't know
if you ever really did.
What does Love
look like for you? Everything and Nothing as long as God is
the focus in everything that is done. Freely given, not
controlled, not demanding, not demeaning not with any expectation that person
must be a certain way. A partnership, a unification, a
promise to never give up, never give in for all the elements that will pound
you both down trying to destroy what God deems as beautiful yet at
times adding turmoil to your day today. Love is
not what you can't do; it is not what you should do. It is every single
day; no matter what, no matter when.
I pray I some day
have even just a sliver of the Agape love that Christ had for humanity and this
world. For there is nothing greater. That
is what love looks like to me and more!
More than words;
more than temporary pleasures; something so deep inside only God could pull it
out.
What that means
when it flows to the outside. I pray will always be what serves that
special someone once you finally are blessed; serves them well until the
end of time. As my soulmate, my lover, my friend, my guide. my forever
Prince of the most high King. That is what Love looks like to me.
Maybe I will,
Maybe I won't every really get that chance to see; but I will always be
AlwaysMeKelly
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12/11/2018
Thank you father
for this day and the message you shared with me out of the daily devotional
this morning.
Yes Father when
it comes to uncertainty it leads me back to you; although as of late I don't
feel I have been spending enough time with you. I see your
reassuring messages and signs throughout various scriptures in songs in
devotionals. But at times I still doubt why things happen the way they
do. My life and all that I am all that I am connected to Jesus; Is
yours! I made that choice many years ago and even though my path has
been full of twists, turns hills and valleys that will never
change. I hold you Father to your promises as you hold me for your
will.
Nothing else
matters in the end Jesus. There is nothing I can say or do to be
worthy enough that you saved me from myself; from the world. I pray
the same blessing upon my family, my children and grandchildren; all my
family and friends. Lord I pray for the peace of
salvation that fills me to fill all of them. Your light shine
brightly in this world that can be so dark and gray.
So
much brokenness Lord; you have carried me through; while at the same
time of bitter sweet the moments of beauty, love and laughter.
I will never
proclaim to even be relatively understanding of you Jesus; I can only say for
all the love you lived and died for. Let me see with your eyes
and serve you well.
For the desires
of my heart deep in my soul Lord; If it is your will so shall it
be mine when you reveal that time. If not Lord; Please
guide me what ever direction my remaining days call for here in
this earth. You know every thing
about all of me. Forgive me for any lack of trust;
any offenses and all I quickly jump in without you for.
Please lift up
those who are suffering from loss of their children, from illness, from
loneliness. May they feel your healing comforting arms wrapped
around them. Lord we know this world is far from nice, far
from easy. In your precious name. May your children
unify and do what they can to make it just a little better one spec at a
time. Amen
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12/10/2018
Forgive me father
for making things about me and this world and not about you; forgive me for
allowing the business seep in and take words that should be for you and given
to and for many others.
Thank you for
yesterday and today; May the air you fill my lungs with be used in your will
and for those in need as you direct. Not my own uneducated sometimes
misdirected paths. Lord I ask first to protect me from myself. As I
have always been a head first diving in trying to do what is right trying to
help where I can. Jesus you know my heart, you know my
desires. Thank you for always being there and catching me when I
fall. You know I can't do this alone; and I also will continue to do as
much as I can where ever I go.
Please lift up my
dear friend in the hospital; Please lift up my other dear friend who just lost
her son to death. Jesus be with the entire
family. Be with my friend going through crises; and all
those Lord be it my friends or family going through the heaviness of his
world. I believe in you Father and all you are;
and I am weighted down. I cannot imagine for those who have no
hope. May your children unify and shine the light. Now and
always. For you have died on that cross for so much
more. Please guide me and your children to be the light in this
dark world.
Amen
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12/08/2018
Thank you Father
for this day; and the abilities to meet with you where ever we are!
Philippians
4:19 New International Version (NIV)
19 And my God will meet all your needs
according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Colossians
2:2-3 New International Version (NIV)
2 My goal is that they may be encouraged
in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete
understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, 3 in
whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.
Dear Jesus
the word all
through out scripture speak of a just, loving soul that has sacrificed all for
really at times is nothing. We in the world don't all always give you the
respect, desire and devotion if ever you so righteously should have.
Yet we call upon
you for everything. Forgive me father, forgive me for the
sins I carry and live out even if I do not understand at times what they
are. Forgive me for not staying 200% next, with in
you. It is your will I seek and my prayers for such are never
ending.
Jesus please hear
the unspoken prayers from within and all that is written.
I lift up
- our church
for vision and direction
- our leadership
within the church within our nation
- spiritual
growth to explode and our county be filled with evangelism and
discipleship
- reaching
the unsaved and those in need all throughout.
- Father
please hear the calls of healing for our brothers and sisters for those
that are saved and those that are not.
May we all hunger
and thirst for your word and your will. May I and all I am connected
shine the light for you. May the deepest desires be to over
come what is not seen and shine in faith, hope and love reflecting all you
are. In Jesus name.
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12/07/2018
Matthew
10:29 New International Version (NIV)
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?
Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.[a]
Hebrews
11:27 New International Version (NIV)
27 By faith he left Egypt, not fearing
the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible.
1 Corinthians
4:18 New International Version (NIV)
18 Some of you have become arrogant, as
if I were not coming to you.
Lord
Thank you for
this day
My prayers are of
healing and well being Lord for my friends, my family and all those who I have
not yet connected with. Please bring them healing, comfort and they
find your Mercy and Grace.
Lord the needs
are big and many; for all those I know and don't know please hear
the prayers. Lord you know my heart, and all I pray for.
Please guide me in your will. Keep me from discouragement in this
world. Give me strength and courage to continue on in the unknown
that only you can guide. In Love, In Christ for all
things Amen
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12/06/2018
Thank you for
this day and all layers that came with it.
I lift up Tammy
in the hospital and my children and their safety. Bring them home every
day to be with their families. Guide and protect them.
Prayers for all the friends I have been blessed with. Guide and protect
them always.
No matter where I
am. May I serve you and shine for you. No matter what! Thank you.
Jesus.
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12/05/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day! Lord Thank, you for always showing me you are
there. Even when this world is so twisted up in the gray matter of
things. I seek only truth father. No matter how
painful. I wish to live in your will the black or white not stuck
in the world of unknown, chasing things that are temporary; in constant
turmoil. I know Lord it is a hard fine line to stay here on
some days. I just pray Your will in my life and all those I am
connected with. None of us are perfect father. Far from it;
only You can fill those sandals. Jesus, you know I
cannot do this without you on my own. I can only take so many layers
before I just shut down. You have carried me all my
life. I hold you to continuing the remainder of my
days. Father you did not sacrifice you son for your believers
to suffer. Although we need constant reminders of just what Jesus
went through to appreciate and acknowledge daily. I ask
on behalf of all your children to please lift us up; heal what is broken;
give understanding where is needed and let us all acknowledge the love, mercy
and grace we are given. May we all hold tightly on you now and
always. In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit Amen
Are
You In Or Not
If only for a day
Would you love me
anyway
If only my
timeline had run its course
No beauty no mind
left
Would you stay
with me or file the divorce
What is beautiful
young vibrant in our youth
Will turn
suddenly one day you look in the mirror everything is gone you once knew
What promise is
it that you make
For in the end it
seems all that is left are the broken lies
And the heartache
you must take
So when I say I
am in love with the one and only
Don’t come at me
unless your 200 percent real
Cause I know
where my help comes from
No matter what
No matter when
No matter where
No matter why
I am forever a
sold out in love Jesus girl
This will never
be a lie
You can talk all
day
Make promises
with all the pretty things you say
In the end I know
where my help comes from
Don’t doubt me I
won’t doubt you
Just show me your
intentions are you
Just show me your
intentions are true
I will always be
a friend no matter what you do
Don’t mistake my
kindness for being weak
Don’t mistake my
desires and sometimes tears;
for
anything if it is nothing you don’t intend to be near and want to keep
For I know where
my help comes from in love I might be
My Jesus will get
me trough and soon allow rest in my soul and mind to sleep
So if you must go
just do it already no words are necessary this you know
But if your in
for the long haul a ride of our lives
Hand and hand
let’s find what Agape love means
And shine the
light through out forever in this world so cold
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12/04/2018
Thank you Father for the constant reminder you are here whenever
we call out. May we hear your voice in the wind that blows
and may we see the signs in all you do. May this world never cloud us so
badly we forget who you are and how we came to be.
Thank you for
this new day; May I serve you well for your will in the time I am given.
Thank you for the blessings you have entrusted me with.
Thank you
for the words you fill me with! Thank you for the abundance of Love
I feel; yet cannot freely express. Thank you for the
awakening; please guide me with should be next. Father if tomorrow never
comes. Thank you so much for the moments up to
today.
I am so very
thankful for my Sweet Soul no matter how long or short. I am so very
thankful for you Jesus and all the blessings you have given me. I will
never understand why, how or how long. But am Thankful for today.
Forgive me Father for any sins or offenses I may caused to anyone
I am connected with or will connect to. Please guide me in your will and
not my own. I lift up those in need Jesus; there are so many.
Please heal and comfort them. Please bring the lost back into the light;
please fill the lonely up during these times we all wish we had someone to
share your celebration with.
Please calm the
storms that come within. Please
guide me always. To the right people, for the right reasons. In
your mighty precious name Jesus! Amen
-----------------Random Thoughts
Random
thoughts so early each morning
Today
is no different from any other.
The
thoughts just keep coming along this path of my life this wave; Some
spot on others totally off. Not making any sense.
Lost in this abyss, how in the world did I get here I can't pretend.
These
random thoughts keep coming; some days my head hurts not able to make
them go away.
Some
are so awesomely beautiful, no words can I say; others become
frightening, full of what if's I can't deal with; I just want to stop and run
away.
I
have never been a quitter; my heart keeps telling me there is no other
way. Follow through, no matter what you do. Do not let the
unknowns paralyze you or chase true possibilities a stray.
No
matter what you are a survivor; no matter what comes your way.
Random
Thoughts
Triggers
of the struggle for Radio Silence or just putting pencil to paper is as
real as night or day.
Sometimes
my head feels like it is ready to explode; or is it everything from my head to
my toes.
In
any case: Sometimes the fine line we need of true meaning is in
actions of what we don't say.
AlwaysMeKelly
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Isaiah 55:8-9
(NIV)
8 “For my thoughts are not your
thoughts,
neither
are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the
earth,
so
are my ways higher than your ways
and
my thoughts than your thoughts.
Colossians 4:3
(NIV)
3 And pray for us, too, that God may
open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for
which I am in chains
Psalm 116:17
(NIV)
17 I will sacrifice a thank offering to
you
and
call on the name of the Lord.
Ephesians 6:12 (NIV)
12 For our struggle is not
against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the
authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the
spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Genesis
28:11-16 (NIV)
11 When he reached a certain place, he
stopped for the night because the sun had set. Taking one of the stones there,
he put it under his head and lay down to sleep. 12 He had a
dream in which he saw a stairway resting on the earth, with its top reaching to
heaven, and the angels of God were ascending and descending on it. 13 There
above it[a] stood the Lord,
and he said: “I am the Lord, the
God of your father Abraham and the God of Isaac. I will give you and your
descendants the land on which you are lying. 14 Your
descendants will be like the dust of the earth, and you will spread out to the
west and to the east, to the north and to the south. All peoples on earth will
be blessed through you and your offspring.[b] 15 I am with you and will
watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will
not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”
16 When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he
thought, “Surely the Lord is in
this place, and I was not aware of it.”
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12/03/2018
Lord
as I go through this day; I thank you Jesus for all you have done to make it
possible I exist.
Father
we are at war, we have battlefields in our minds, we are at war with the flesh
and in some cases we do not even know why. We know this is a
spiritual war that you already have under control.
I
pray for peace and guidance during our storms; that we rest in you and you
only. We know there is nothing wrong in wanting nice
things; having nice things and doing nice things. May we
always give the thanks back to you why we have them. For those
who wish for and do not yet have.
Lord;
please reveal your purpose for them. For those suffering and
here are many Lord with illness and horrible disease. Please wrap
them in your comforting arms and see them through all that is to come next.
Jesus;
Father, Abba, Jehovah, brother and friend; this list could go on and
on. Guide us please. May your will be done in
all of our plans and desires. May you see us through as
we just do not understand when things are not going our way. May you
send your angels down for all the needs to those calling
you. We are not meant to do this life on our
own. Fill us up Lord so we may overflow for your
kingdom. Thank you for this day. Amen
Ephesians 6:12
12 For our struggle is not against flesh
and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against
the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in
the heavenly realms.
1st Samuel 17:47
And
everyone assembled here will know hat the Lord rescues his people, but not with
sword and spear. This is the the Lord’s battle and he will give you to
us!
Philippians 2:9-10
9 Therefore God exalted him to the
highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
1 Peter 1:8-9
8 Though you have not seen him, you love
him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled
with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving
the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
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12/02/2018
Thank you Lord
for this day; may your will be done. Lord there is always
something we fear; always something that gets under our skin, into our
heads. Always some sort of sadness we cannot shake when we are
trying to manage this journey on our own.
Guide us Father; give us all the moments to absorb your peace and
knowledge. We have all been made uniquely for your purpose of
love and harmony. Lord guide each of us to the place that fills us up
with you; so we may spill over and pay it forward in this world we are
in.
I deserve nothing
Father, yet you sent your son Jesus Christ to take all the worlds indiscretions
including mine. He freely went!
I am blessed Lord
beyond all deserving; I ask that you may consume me Jesus, Lord fill
me up and break my heart and move me in purpose, with as much love as
Jesus!
Lord, May we all;
start finding the good in everything and drown out what consumes us in what
tends to be a very dark world at times. May we remember, the spiritual
battle has already been won. We just need to believe all that is
good and pure in you, from you and with you! Amen
Isaiah
9:6 (NIV)
6 For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
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John 20:19-21
(NIV)
Jesus
Appears to His Disciples
19 On the evening of that first day of
the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of
the Jewish leaders, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with
you!” 20 After he said this, he showed them his hands and side.
The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord.
21 Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you!
As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”
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Psalm 25:4
(NIV)
4 Show me your ways, Lord,
teach me your paths
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12/01/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day. Please guide my steps keeping me close to you and
only you. As I walk through this world that fills us with so much
stuff~ Please help me to never lose site of you in any situation, never
stop seeing you in all that is out there, never stop hearing your
will. Thank you for all that I am; without you I am
nothing. Bless all those Lord that connect with and through
me. In your precious name. Amen
Jeremiah
31: (NIV)
3 The Lord
appeared to us in the past,[a] saying: “I have loved you with an
everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
Lamentations
3:22-26 (NIV)
22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great
is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore
I will wait for him.”
25 The Lord
is good to those whose hope is in him,
to
the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for
the salvation of the Lord.
12/2012/20/2018
Jesus; as you
know all things please forgive me, for never keeping you first in
everything. As my mind constantly doing overtime, my imagination
continues, in the depths of madness of humanity we grasp for whatever we
believe is real, and fulfilling. Most days we have you as an
afterthought. As I try to justify I am not the only one who falls short
and undeserving of your mercy and grace. I am thankful for
all I have. Even the unknown paths that we suddenly find
ourselves on out of no where. Jesus to know that all new beginnings no
matter what direction will always be held by you. May I and all I
am connected be guided by Your will; May I not offend you in my struggle to
hope there is purpose and meaning for all that I do not understand.
May I never make something out of nothing without your blessing. May I
never chase away more than something that when I cannot physically see it; it
is there yet I give up to nothing. So desperately Lord I need you
in everything, every moment of every breath and every person I care about
and love deeply. Even of some of them do not understand
this. Is it not like falling in love with what you cannot
see but the feelings are deeply within the soul. Please
fill all those who have not come to call you Lord and Savior and walk
with you. Please fill them with the same connections, sparks and deep
felt love that fills our souls. Lord you know all
things. Bitter/Sweet desires, needs joy and
torment. I thank you for all I am, all I have and all that
I can be. I thank you for allowing me to
be AlwaysMe~Kelly. For the promise of new
days and new beginnings. Lead me Jesus
please!
Please hear
the prayers and the cries of all those suffering Lord; Please heal
the sick and broken needs. Please end what is wrong
and shine the light on all that is good in your will
and sight. Now and Forevesr may your will be done. Amen
We are the
keepers of our own being with Christ. No matter what unrest: all the
materialistic negative users in this world. Dare to be different and shine with
loyalty, respect and love. No matter what the end result ✝️ No matter what your loss or gain!
#thisworldistemporary
12/19/2018
Father thank you
for never giving up on me; when I so often walk around in wonder how will I ever
get through some things. I play that infinite tug of war.
Knowing you are the creator of all things and have sustained me every day of my
life; yet when I can't see something I torment myself and everyone around
me involved, with doubt, fear and wanting to just take control by running back
to what is comfortable in this life. Father thank you for
everyday; not a season, not when I need you. Every single day of my
life!!!! Through the lack of, over achieving, worldly
ways. I know you are the sustainer of all
things. I deserve nothing; but you
have given me life even when I wished to be gone. Forgive me
for any offenses that are unpleasing to you or towards others in this day to
day. Your will in my life father; not that of my own.
Please guide me. Amen
We come in this
world with nothing and we will leave with nothing but what our souls
Acquire along the
journey. Dear Lord let this love come to life.
12/18/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day; as the this season comes fast approaching Lord. May I
never forget what the season is really about. May I realize any suffering
I may feel while on this earth will never compare to all the emotions at some
point you walked through alone. From the physical to the emotional.
Jesus You have already endured more brokenness than anything this world can
bring.
Thank you for the
blessings you give me and my family daily; I ask for your will in my life; and
if that means Lord as I am, so be it. I pray Lord you sustain me and not
allow my heart to harden or my persona to shut down and retreat from what this
world and all the elements that just never stop. You father know I
never picked this journey; I survived and will continue to do the best I
can while on it. While trying to lead the way in
hope. Thank you for the moments I will
never forget and those even for a time. May all we walk
through be revealed in the glory for you and you alone.
Isaiah 30:20-21
New English Translation (NET Bible)
20 The sovereign master will give you
distress to eat
and suffering to
drink;
but your teachers
will no longer be hidden;
your eyes will
see them.
21 You will hear a word spoken behind
you, saying,
“This is the
correct way, walk in it,”
whether you are
heading to the right or the left.
2 Corinthians
4:17 New English Translation (NET Bible)
17 For our momentary, light suffering is
producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison
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Is this the Beginning or the End
I will never
know:
Why so many souls
have crossed my path
Why some are
immediately connected
Why some I
immediately avoid
Why some you have
a season with
Why some there is
never enough
Why those you
wish never had never appeared
Why when you
think too hard your eyes fill with tears
Why some you have
to distance yourself
For the fear of
what if’s is so strong you can never give in
For to really
believe, and it not be true; Is surely a fine line teetering the edge; of
the beginning or the end.
Imagine yes; all
day long
Pretend; I cannot
play with my soul
Not when it
comes to having that one true soul mate, a lover that forever friend
I ask; was this a distraction; a façade
That temporary hiding place; for whatever your lives balance is working
out
An avoidance of dealing with temporary grief that consumes us within the
pains of this world
Oh Lord, I know
good still does exist; let’s not confuse this meaning of what is to come
You know, this
is not to be confused with our no agenda friends; those that are our
brothers and sisters in Christ with no expectations but to just love you until
the end.
Why was it so
important Lord, of me coming out of the desert?
Is this the first
and last; is this really how it ends?
I don't play with
family; I don't play with love; I don't do catch and release friends!
I have been
obedient, faithful for so long focused on you Lord
Was I yet still
too needy, when I say I can’t do some things on my own
Was I too
assuming; and not dedicated enough to you
So many
questions, I could try and chase all of them down
What is this I am
connected to; now deeply bound?
Why have you brought
me to life?
Why have you
filled me with so many different emotions, feelings or desires?
Why the bitter
sweet thankfulness, yet so much doubt?
I know my Lord of
all Lords, my God, my King; no matter what; you are who sustains me
I would
have never survived on my own; from childhood throughout now that I am grown
Although, I will
never understand why you have awakened my senses.
What am I to see,
what am I to do and be?
I just pray I
know what to do next; as I feel like I am slowly being drowned
My sweet soul
mate, my dream, my prince blessed by the King of peace.
Lord please wake
me, guide me; I ask this shall be; if not Dear Jesus give me strength
direction as I am struggling to hold on in this reality
I am fighting
growing numb; trying to shut down for all that I cannot see
What is it Father
God; you truly want from me?
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12/17/2018
Father as this season which should be
of blessings to all, is fast approaching.
As I speak for myself, my family, my friends and those I have not yet met.
Thank you Jesus for all you have done for me and will do in the future you have
given me. No matter what that may be; may it glorify you.
So many needs; hurts, habits, hang-ups. Emotional and Physical weariness around
me. How it must sadden you for all that takes place here on this earth.
We go about our day-to-day, busy, preoccupied, and sometimes happy with you
sometimes too busy and begrudging.
Lord, how we forget all that we allow to transpire in this world. How we so
often forget everything here is just on loan and temporary. Sometimes no matter
how depressing that sounds father the promise of eternity with you is
everlasting and worth any pain or hardships, we fight our way through.
May we, may cling closer to you and your will more now than ever before. May we
feel your presence no matter what is takes place. Please give us what we need
to keep fighting through. Please allow us to acknowledge what you have given
us.
Father may we learn to celebrate you as the Risen Lord every day not just
during this holiday season. Please steady our families, our friends and all
those we are shining the light of you to, for your glory.
Thank you for all you do for us! Jesus, none of us deserve anything; yet your
good and perfect will and promise fulfills so many blessings to those who
remain faithful.
Guide and heal our brokenness in and for your use Lord; not our own. Please
hear every prayer of your children; please give peace and healing needed; with
protection and wisdom. May we unify in your precious name Jesus. Amen
Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever
12/17
2 Corinthians
4:6 New International Version (NIV)
6 For God, who said, “Let light shine
out of darkness,”[a] made his light shine in our hearts to give
us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ.
Matthew 5:3 New
International Version (NIV)
3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for
theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew 6 New
International Version (NIV)
Giving
to the Needy
6 “Be
careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by
them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
2 “So when you give to the needy, do not
announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the
streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their
reward in full. 3 But when you give to the needy, do not let
your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4 so that
your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in
secret, will reward you.
Colossians
2:9-10 New English Translation (NET Bible)
9 For in him all the fullness of deity
lives in bodily form, 10 and you have been filled in him, who
is the head over every ruler and authority.
Psalm 150:6
New English Translation (NET Bible)
6 Let everything that has breath praise
the Lord!
Praise the Lord !
Thank you Father
for this day; Lord nothing comes to me or through me without your
approval Father. Thank you
Lord may I always
miss you desperately when I get to busy and taking off running. May I
always purpose more and more to slow down and seek you in everything I
see, listen to or experience. May I be thankful no matter what that
may mean in this world we live in.
In your
precious name, Amen
12/16/2018
Thank you Lord
for this day
May the walk
taken honor you and your perfect will.
No matter
what comes; or does not; may you always be first.
No matter what
heartbreak or what joy and excitement; may you always be first. As in the
end of all times It is only You that truly matters.
Isaiah 50:4 New
International Version (NIV)
4 The Sovereign
LORD has given me a well-instructed tongue,
to know the word
that sustains the weary.
He wakens me
morning by morning,
wakens my ear to
listen like one being instructed.
Revelation 2:4
New International Version (NIV)
4 Yet I hold this
against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.
Isaiah 60:2 New International
Version (NIV)
2 See, darkness
covers the earth
and thick
darkness is over the peoples,
but the LORD
rises upon you
and his glory
appears over you
12/15/2018
Lord this day
like so many others just came and went. Caught up in the day to day
business father; I pray at least a portion of all I have done is worthy of your
blessing. Not just today Jesus but everyday; teach me to guard my
heart; hold my words and do all things in You're will; not my own.
Forgive me for
the offenses I may have caused by actions or by not doing anything at
all. I ask for guidance and protection in all things and those I
encounter. Including myself and some of the things I choose to do.
Lord I want your will and only your will; you know my heart; my desires.
Please reveal your plan. Thank you
Jesus for this day; Thank you for the freedoms of choice and will that allow us
to believe and hope in you. Thank you for the blessings of all things unseen
with those we have right in front of us. May we never forget, may we cling
tightly to you when we feel we are losing grip and hope for all that is good.
Amen
Romans 8:23 New
International Version (NIV)
23 Not only so,
but we ourselves, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we
wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies.
Hebrews 6:18-19
New International Version (NIV)
18 God did this
so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie,
we who have fled to take hold of the hope set before us may be greatly
encouraged. 19 We have this hope as an anchor for the s...oul, firm and secure.
It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain,
Romans 15:13 New
International Version (NIV)
13 May the God of
hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may
overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
12/14/2018
December 14, 2018
Hebrews 13:8
(NIV) 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
Ecclesiastes 1:2
(NIV) 2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher.
“Utterly
meaningless! Everything is meaningless
Proverbs 3:6
(NIV) 6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make
your paths straight.
Thank you Father
for another day!
Thank you for the
message and reminders as we wander into the darkness forgetting you have
everything no matter what directions we go; but everything in control. All we
need to do is remember who to hold onto!
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12/13/2018
Lord thank you
for this day
For the blessings
and the trials. May we always cling to you no matter what father. I
could go on and on; but Jesus you have already done everything on the
cross. Thank you! Amen
2
Thessalonians 1:10 New International Version
(NIV) 10 on the day he comes to
be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have
believed. This includes you, because you believed our testimony to
you.
Psalm 24:4 New
International Version (NIV) 4 The one who has
clean hands and a pure heart,
who does not trust in an idol
or swear by a false god
1 Corinthians
6:19 New International Version (NIV) 19 Do
you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you,
whom you have received from God? You are not your own;
Ephesians 3:20
New International Version (NIV) 20 Now
to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,
according to his power that is at work within us,
Reading through
my devotional for Advent thinking how I often call myself Martha because I feel
like I always have to get things done to make it right.
Not really giving it much thought until now how the business that fills the
spaces for my quiet time; is a what turns into worry about things I should
not. When the quiet comes, there are those days that sometimes the
whispers haunt my mind; of all the things I do not know. With the
What Ifs! What if it does not go accordingly, What if
it does; what will you do; what won't you do. What do others
do. The craziness that rob us from our time with
the Lord even if just finding a serene place to look out and observe the
blessings around us. We cannot do anything about those things
not in our circle of control. So why do we get caught up
worrying. Or filling our self with busyness.
Perhaps just one
more void to deal with. We all chase things to fill us up for what we
thing is missing; Even those of us filled with the holy spirit and
God. Perhaps as He unveils those new voids that have
not been dealt with yet; on a small scale filling our time with positive
business is the answer. Yet to fully surrender to our
Lord and Savior. We will need to come face to face and sit at His feet
and just listen as Mary did!
Including
me! No matter how much I love Jesus, no matter how blessed I
am. I too still struggle at times giving all of me; pulling it
back. No matter how long I walk this walk; Sometimes I
stumble and have to start crawling all over again. Reminding myself none
of it matters. The future is already been written. I
need to just let it go; having Satan get behind me. Let it go and
pray for the belief that I walk with daily fills that void that the demon doubt
whisperers try to fill this world of mine.
No matter what
the future holds, I am and have been forever blessed~
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12/12/2018
Thank you Jesus
for all you have done at the cross! Thank you for this day, these
freedoms no matter what transpires or does not. Thank you for this
journey.
Romans 8:28 New
International Version (NIV)
28 And we know
that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have
been called according to his purpose.
Job 42:1-3 New
International Version (NIV)
42 Then Job
replied to the Lord: 2
“I know that you
can do all things;
no purpose of
yours can be thwarted. 3 You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my plans without
knowledge?’
Surely I spoke of
things I did not understand,
things too
wonderful for me to know.
1 Peter 5:7 New
International Version (NIV) 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for
you.
2 Corinthians 5:7
New International Version (NIV) 7 For we live by faith, not by sight.
----------------What does love look
like to you-------------------
Riding in this morning as always blasting music
and one of the tunes was singing out this is what Love feels like.
I started thinking what does that really
mean. Empty never felt so good. Yes you can probably
guess which song it is. But seriously; What does Love Look
like to you.
Me I have always dreamed of being part of that
deeper greater Agape love that Christ had.
Unconditional
No expectations
Every expectation
Everything all in one!
Just the thought of knowing someone loves you
more than you can ever love yourself
The thoughts of material items mean nothing when
you have someone, that wants and feels all the God things of life.
That does not even come close to what physical
needs or desires we may have.
I mean really, think about how you see your
significant other and what kind of minds eye expectations do you see in the
vision.
It's not all the passionate intimate lustful
things you envision; although they are part of unifying with someone.
It is not what they can do for you or you can do
for them; you know that shared honey do list; although you need to be willing
and available
It is not about being attached at the hip to
prove you like being around each other; although how else do you make memories
and grow; but to spend quality time together.
It is not about being with someone for what they
have; as we know all the material items in this world will go away.
Some sooner than others.
What is deep in your soul when you think of that
person?
Are your souls connected?
Is there something on the inside that connects
you or is it all about what you see outside?
The big question; Is God part of the vison?
Yesterday, Today and all the tomorrows?
Do you talk, or are you just together because
you made a commitment years prior; but really can't stand the fact of letting
go and being alone. Not to mention your religion says you cannot change
things?
Love to me is a union and unfortunately before I
started walking the walk with Christ, I had my share of failures. I
did my thing they did theirs. if there were any conversations it
was about an up and coming day or event we had to attend. There were
never any dreams, aspirations, goals whatever you want to call
them. It was all based on assumption. You know what they say
about Assuming right?
Eventually without communication, without
desire, without unconditional love; there is and was no more Love.
And that deep rooted lust or intimate desire you need to fill; well you can't
stand to be around that person. Because somewhere down the
line you no longer trust them or know who they really are. Much less
beat yourself up because you really don't know if you ever really did.
What does Love look like for
you? Everything and Nothing as long as God is the focus in
everything that is done. Freely given, not controlled,
not demanding, not demeaning not with any expectation that person must be a
certain way. A partnership, a unification, a promise to never
give up, never give in for all the elements that will pound you both down
trying to destroy what God deems as beautiful yet at times adding
turmoil to your day today. Love is not what you can't
do; it is not what you should do. It is every single day; no matter what,
no matter when.
I pray I some day have even just a sliver of the
Agape love that Christ had for humanity and this world.
For there is nothing greater. That is what love looks like to me
and more!
More than words; more than temporary pleasures;
something so deep inside only God could pull it out.
What that means when it flows to the
outside. I pray will always be what serves that special someone once you
finally are blessed; serves them well until the end of time. As my
soulmate, my lover, my friend, my guide. my forever Prince of the most high
King. That is what Love looks like to me.
Maybe I will, Maybe I won't every really get
that chance to see; but I will always be AlwaysMeKelly
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12/11/2018
Thank you father
for this day and the message you shared with me out of the daily devotional
this morning.
Yes Father when
it comes to uncertainty it leads me back to you; although as of late I don't
feel I have been spending enough time with you. I see your
reassuring messages and signs throughout various scriptures in songs in
devotionals. But at times I still doubt why things happen the way they
do. My life and all that I am all that I am connected to Jesus; Is
yours! I made that choice many years ago and even though my path has
been full of twists, turns hills and valleys that will never
change. I hold you Father to your promises as you hold me for your
will.
Nothing else
matters in the end Jesus. There is nothing I can say or do to be
worthy enough that you saved me from myself; from the world. I pray
the same blessing upon my family, my children and grandchildren; all my
family and friends. Lord I pray for the peace of
salvation that fills me to fill all of them. Your light shine
brightly in this world that can be so dark and gray.
So
much brokenness Lord; you have carried me through; while at the same
time of bitter sweet the moments of beauty, love and laughter.
I will never
proclaim to even be relatively understanding of you Jesus; I can only say for
all the love you lived and died for. Let me see with your eyes
and serve you well.
For the desires
of my heart deep in my soul Lord; If it is your will so shall it
be mine when you reveal that time. If not Lord; Please
guide me what ever direction my remaining days call for here in
this earth. You know every thing
about all of me. Forgive me for any lack of trust;
any offenses and all I quickly jump in without you for.
Please lift up
those who are suffering from loss of their children, from illness, from loneliness.
May they feel your healing comforting arms wrapped around
them. Lord we know this world is far from nice, far from
easy. In your precious name. May your children unify
and do what they can to make it just a little better one spec at a time.
Amen
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12/10/2018
Forgive me father
for making things about me and this world and not about you; forgive me for
allowing the business seep in and take words that should be for you and given
to and for many others.
Thank you for
yesterday and today; May the air you fill my lungs with be used in your will
and for those in need as you direct. Not my own uneducated sometimes
misdirected paths. Lord I ask first to protect me from myself. As I
have always been a head first diving in trying to do what is right trying to
help where I can. Jesus you know my heart, you know my
desires. Thank you for always being there and catching me when I
fall. You know I can't do this alone; and I also will continue to do as
much as I can where ever I go.
Please lift up my
dear friend in the hospital; Please lift up my other dear friend who just lost
her son to death. Jesus be with the entire
family. Be with my friend going through crises; and all
those Lord be it my friends or family going through the heaviness of his
world. I believe in you Father and all you
are; and I am weighted down. I cannot imagine for those who have no
hope. May your children unify and shine the light. Now and
always. For you have died on that cross for so much
more. Please guide me and your children to be the light in this
dark world.
Amen
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12/08/2018
Thank you Father
for this day; and the abilities to meet with you where ever we are!
Philippians
4:19 New International Version (NIV)
19 And my God will meet all your needs
according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Colossians
2:2-3 New International Version (NIV)
2 My goal is that they may be encouraged
in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete
understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, 3 in
whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.
Dear Jesus
the word all
through out scripture speak of a just, loving soul that has sacrificed all for
really at times is nothing. We in the world don't all always give you the
respect, desire and devotion if ever you so righteously should have.
Yet we call upon
you for everything. Forgive me father, forgive me for the
sins I carry and live out even if I do not understand at times what they
are. Forgive me for not staying 200% next, with in
you. It is your will I seek and my prayers for such are never
ending.
Jesus please hear
the unspoken prayers from within and all that is written.
I lift up
- our church
for vision and direction
- our
leadership within the church within our nation
- spiritual
growth to explode and our county be filled with evangelism and
discipleship
- reaching
the unsaved and those in need all throughout.
- Father
please hear the calls of healing for our brothers and sisters for those
that are saved and those that are not.
May we all hunger
and thirst for your word and your will. May I and all I am connected
shine the light for you. May the deepest desires be to over
come what is not seen and shine in faith, hope and love reflecting all you
are. In Jesus name.
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12/07/2018
Matthew
10:29 New International Version (NIV)
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?
Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.[a]
Hebrews
11:27 New International Version (NIV)
27 By faith he left Egypt, not fearing
the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible.
1 Corinthians
4:18 New International Version (NIV)
18 Some of you have become arrogant, as
if I were not coming to you.
Lord
Thank you for
this day
My prayers are of
healing and well being Lord for my friends, my family and all those who I have
not yet connected with. Please bring them healing, comfort and they
find your Mercy and Grace.
Lord the needs
are big and many; for all those I know and don't know please hear
the prayers. Lord you know my heart, and all I pray for.
Please guide me in your will. Keep me from discouragement in this
world. Give me strength and courage to continue on in the unknown
that only you can guide. In Love, In Christ for all
things Amen
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12/06/2018
Thank you for
this day and all layers that came with it.
I lift up Tammy
in the hospital and my children and their safety. Bring them home every
day to be with their families. Guide and protect them.
Prayers for all the friends I have been blessed with. Guide and protect
them always.
No matter where I
am. May I serve you and shine for you. No matter what! Thank you.
Jesus.
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12/05/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day! Lord Thank, you for always showing me you are
there. Even when this world is so twisted up in the gray matter of
things. I seek only truth father. No matter how
painful. I wish to live in your will the black or white not
stuck in the world of unknown, chasing things that are temporary; in constant
turmoil. I know Lord it is a hard fine line to stay here on
some days. I just pray Your will in my life and all those I am connected
with. None of us are perfect father. Far from it; only You
can fill those sandals. Jesus, you know I cannot do
this without you on my own. I can only take so many layers before I just
shut down. You have carried me all my life. I
hold you to continuing the remainder of my days. Father you
did not sacrifice you son for your believers to suffer. Although we
need constant reminders of just what Jesus went through to appreciate and
acknowledge daily. I ask on behalf of all your children
to please lift us up; heal what is broken; give understanding where is
needed and let us all acknowledge the love, mercy and grace we are
given. May we all hold tightly on you now and always.
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit Amen
Are
You In Or Not
If only for a day
Would you love me
anyway
If only my
timeline had run its course
No beauty no mind
left
Would you stay
with me or file the divorce
What is beautiful
young vibrant in our youth
Will turn
suddenly one day you look in the mirror everything is gone you once knew
What promise is
it that you make
For in the end it
seems all that is left are the broken lies
And the heartache
you must take
So when I say I
am in love with the one and only
Don’t come at me
unless your 200 percent real
Cause I know
where my help comes from
No matter what
No matter when
No matter where
No matter why
I am forever a
sold out in love Jesus girl
This will never
be a lie
You can talk all
day
Make promises
with all the pretty things you say
In the end I know
where my help comes from
Don’t doubt me I
won’t doubt you
Just show me your
intentions are you
Just show me your
intentions are true
I will always be
a friend no matter what you do
Don’t mistake my
kindness for being weak
Don’t mistake my
desires and sometimes tears;
for
anything if it is nothing you don’t intend to be near and want to keep
For I know where
my help comes from in love I might be
My Jesus will get
me trough and soon allow rest in my soul and mind to sleep
So if you must go
just do it already no words are necessary this you know
But if your in
for the long haul a ride of our lives
Hand and hand
let’s find what Agape love means
And shine the
light through out forever in this world so cold
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12/04/2018
Thank you Father for the constant reminder you are here whenever
we call out. May we hear your voice in the wind that blows
and may we see the signs in all you do. May this world never cloud us so
badly we forget who you are and how we came to be.
Thank you for
this new day; May I serve you well for your will in the time I am given.
Thank you for the blessings you have entrusted me with.
Thank you
for the words you fill me with! Thank you for the abundance of Love
I feel; yet cannot freely express. Thank you for the
awakening; please guide me with should be next. Father if tomorrow never
comes. Thank you so much for the moments up to
today.
I am so very
thankful for my Sweet Soul no matter how long or short. I am so
very thankful for you Jesus and all the blessings you have given me. I
will never understand why, how or how long. But am Thankful for
today.
Forgive me Father for any sins or offenses I may caused to anyone
I am connected with or will connect to. Please guide me in your will and
not my own. I lift up those in need Jesus; there are so many.
Please heal and comfort them. Please bring the lost back into the light;
please fill the lonely up during these times we all wish we had someone to
share your celebration with.
Please calm the
storms that come within. Please
guide me always. To the right people, for the right reasons. In
your mighty precious name Jesus! Amen
Random
Thoughts
Random thoughts
so early each morning
Today is no
different than any other.
The
thoughts just keep coming along this path of my life this wave; Some
spot on others totally off. Not making any sense.
Lost in this abyss, how in the world did I get here I can't pretend.
These random
thoughts keep coming; some days my head hurts not able to make them go
away.
Some are so
awesomely beautiful, no words can I say; others become frightening, full
of what if's I can't deal with; I just want to stop and run away.
I have never been
a quitter; my heart keeps telling me there is no other way. Follow
through, no matter what you do. Do not let the unknowns paralyze
you or chase true possibilities a stray.
No matter what
you are a survivor; no matter what comes your way.
Random Thoughts
Triggers of
the struggle for Radio Silence or just putting pencil to paper is as real
as night or day.
Sometimes my head
feels like it is ready to explode; or is it everything from my head to my toes.
In any
case: Sometimes the fine line we need of true meaning is in actions
of what we don't say.
AlwaysMeKelly
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Isaiah 55:8-9
(NIV)
8 “For my thoughts are not your
thoughts,
neither
are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the
earth,
so
are my ways higher than your ways
and
my thoughts than your thoughts.
Colossians 4:3
(NIV)
3 And pray for us, too, that God may
open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for
which I am in chains
Psalm 116:17
(NIV)
17 I will sacrifice a thank offering to
you
and
call on the name of the Lord.
Ephesians 6:12 (NIV)
12 For our struggle is not
against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the
authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the
spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Genesis
28:11-16 (NIV)
11 When he reached a certain place, he
stopped for the night because the sun had set. Taking one of the stones there,
he put it under his head and lay down to sleep. 12 He had a
dream in which he saw a stairway resting on the earth, with its top reaching to
heaven, and the angels of God were ascending and descending on it. 13 There
above it[a] stood the Lord,
and he said: “I am the Lord, the
God of your father Abraham and the God of Isaac. I will give you and your
descendants the land on which you are lying. 14 Your
descendants will be like the dust of the earth, and you will spread out to the
west and to the east, to the north and to the south. All peoples on earth will
be blessed through you and your offspring.[b] 15 I am with you and will
watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will
not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”
16 When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he
thought, “Surely the Lord is in
this place, and I was not aware of it.”
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12/03/2018
Lord
as I go through this day; I thank you Jesus for all you have done to make it
possible I exist.
Father
we are at war, we have battlefields in our minds, we are at war with the flesh
and in some cases we do not even know why. We know this is a
spiritual war that you already have under control.
I
pray for peace and guidance during our storms; that we rest in you and you
only. We know there is nothing wrong in wanting nice
things; having nice things and doing nice things. May we
always give the thanks back to you why we have them. For those
who wish for and do not yet have.
Lord;
please reveal your purpose for them. For those suffering and
here are many Lord with illness and horrible disease. Please wrap
them in your comforting arms and see them through all that is to come next.
Jesus;
Father, Abba, Jehovah, brother and friend; this list could go on and
on. Guide us please. May your will be done in
all of our plans and desires. May you see us through as
we just do not understand when things are not going our way. May you
send your angels down for all the needs to those calling
you. We are not meant to do this life on our
own. Fill us up Lord so we may overflow for your
kingdom. Thank you for this day. Amen
Ephesians 6:12
12 For our struggle is not against flesh
and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against
the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in
the heavenly realms.
1st Samuel 17:47
And
everyone assembled here will know hat the Lord rescues his people, but not with
sword and spear. This is the the Lord’s battle and he will give you to
us!
Philippians 2:9-10
9 Therefore God exalted him to the
highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
1 Peter 1:8-9
8 Though you have not seen him, you love
him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled
with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving
the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
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12/02/2018
Thank you Lord
for this day; may your will be done. Lord there is always
something we fear; always something that gets under our skin, into our
heads. Always some sort of sadness we cannot shake when we are
trying to manage this journey on our own.
Guide us Father; give us all the moments to absorb your peace and
knowledge. We have all been made uniquely for your purpose of
love and harmony. Lord guide each of us to the place that fills us up
with you; so we may spill over and pay it forward in this world we are
in.
I deserve nothing
Father, yet you sent your son Jesus Christ to take all the worlds indiscretions
including mine. He freely went!
I am blessed Lord
beyond all deserving; I ask that you may consume me Jesus, Lord fill
me up and break my heart and move me in purpose, with as much love as
Jesus!
Lord, May we all;
start finding the good in everything and drown out what consumes us in what
tends to be a very dark world at times. May we remember, the spiritual
battle has already been won. We just need to believe all that is
good and pure in you, from you and with you! Amen
Isaiah
9:6 (NIV)
6 For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
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John 20:19-21
(NIV)
Jesus
Appears to His Disciples
19 On the evening of that first day of
the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of
the Jewish leaders, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with
you!” 20 After he said this, he showed them his hands and side.
The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord.
21 Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you!
As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”
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Psalm 25:4
(NIV)
4 Show me your ways, Lord,
teach me your paths
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12/01/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day. Please guide my steps keeping me close to you and
only you. As I walk through this world that fills us with so much
stuff~ Please help me to never lose site of you in any situation, never
stop seeing you in all that is out there, never stop hearing your
will. Thank you for all that I am; without you I am
nothing. Bless all those Lord that connect with and through
me. In your precious name. Amen
Jeremiah
31: (NIV)
3 The Lord
appeared to us in the past,[a] saying: “I have loved you with an
everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
Lamentations
3:22-26 (NIV)
22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great
is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore
I will wait for him.”
25 The Lord
is good to those whose hope is in him,
to
the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for
the salvation of the Lord.
/2018
Jesus; as you
know all things please forgive me, for never keeping you first in
everything. As my mind constantly doing overtime, my imagination
continues, in the depths of madness of humanity we grasp for whatever we
believe is real, and fulfilling. Most days we have you as an
afterthought. As I try to justify I am not the only one who falls short
and undeserving of your mercy and grace. I am thankful for
all I have. Even the unknown paths that we suddenly find
ourselves on out of no where. Jesus to know that all new beginnings no
matter what direction will always be held by you. May I and all I
am connected be guided by Your will; May I not offend you in my struggle to
hope there is purpose and meaning for all that I do not understand.
May I never make something out of nothing without your blessing. May I
never chase away more than something that when I cannot physically see it; it
is there yet I give up to nothing. So desperately Lord I need you
in everything, every moment of every breath and every person I care about
and love deeply. Even of some of them do not understand
this. Is it not like falling in love with what you cannot
see but the feelings are deeply within the soul. Please
fill all those who have not come to call you Lord and Savior and walk
with you. Please fill them with the same connections, sparks and deep
felt love that fills our souls. Lord you know all
things. Bitter/Sweet desires, needs joy and
torment. I thank you for all I am, all I have and all that
I can be. I thank you for allowing me to
be AlwaysMe~Kelly. For the promise of new
days and new beginnings. Lead me Jesus
please!
Please hear
the prayers and the cries of all those suffering Lord; Please heal
the sick and broken needs. Please end what is wrong
and shine the light on all that is good in your will
and sight. Now and Forevesr may your will be done. Amen
We are the
keepers of our own being with Christ. No matter what unrest: all the
materialistic negative users in this world. Dare to be different and shine with
loyalty, respect and love. No matter what the end result ✝️ No matter what your loss or gain!
#thisworldistemporary
12/19/2018
Father thank you
for never giving up on me; when I so often walk around in wonder how will I ever
get through some things. I play that infinite tug of war.
Knowing you are the creator of all things and have sustained me every day of my
life; yet when I can't see something I torment myself and everyone around
me involved, with doubt, fear and wanting to just take control by running back
to what is comfortable in this life. Father thank you for
everyday; not a season, not when I need you. Every single day of my
life!!!! Through the lack of, over achieving, worldly
ways. I know you are the sustainer of all
things. I deserve nothing; but you
have given me life even when I wished to be gone. Forgive me
for any offenses that are unpleasing to you or towards others in this day to day.
Your will in my life father; not that of my own. Please guide
me. Amen
We come in this
world with nothing and we will leave with nothing but what our souls
Acquire along the
journey. Dear Lord let this love come to life.
12/18/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day; as the this season comes fast approaching Lord. May I
never forget what the season is really about. May I realize any suffering
I may feel while on this earth will never compare to all the emotions at some
point you walked through alone. From the physical to the emotional.
Jesus You have already endured more brokenness than anything this world can
bring.
Thank you for the
blessings you give me and my family daily; I ask for your will in my life; and
if that means Lord as I am, so be it. I pray Lord you sustain me and not
allow my heart to harden or my persona to shut down and retreat from what this
world and all the elements that just never stop. You father know I
never picked this journey; I survived and will continue to do the best I
can while on it. While trying to lead the way in
hope. Thank you for the moments I will
never forget and those even for a time. May all we walk
through be revealed in the glory for you and you alone.
Isaiah 30:20-21
New English Translation (NET Bible)
20 The sovereign master will give you distress
to eat
and suffering to
drink;
but your teachers
will no longer be hidden;
your eyes will
see them.
21 You will hear a word spoken behind
you, saying,
“This is the
correct way, walk in it,”
whether you are
heading to the right or the left.
2 Corinthians
4:17 New English Translation (NET Bible)
17 For our momentary, light suffering is
producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison
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Is this the Beginning or the End
I will never
know:
Why so many souls
have crossed my path
Why some are
immediately connected
Why some I
immediately avoid
Why some you have
a season with
Why some there is
never enough
Why those you
wish never had never appeared
Why when you
think too hard your eyes fill with tears
Why some you have
to distance yourself
For the fear of
what if’s is so strong you can never give in
For to really
believe, and it not be true; Is surely a fine line teetering the edge; of
the beginning or the end.
Imagine yes; all
day long
Pretend; I cannot
play with my soul
Not when it
comes to having that one true soul mate, a lover that forever
friend
I ask; was this a distraction; a façade
That temporary hiding place; for whatever your lives balance is working
out
An avoidance of dealing with temporary grief that consumes us within the
pains of this world
Oh Lord, I know
good still does exist; let’s not confuse this meaning of what is to come
You know, this
is not to be confused with our no agenda friends; those that are our
brothers and sisters in Christ with no expectations but to just love you until
the end.
Why was it so
important Lord, of me coming out of the desert?
Is this the first
and last; is this really how it ends?
I don't play with
family; I don't play with love; I don't do catch and release friends!
I have been
obedient, faithful for so long focused on you Lord
Was I yet still
too needy, when I say I can’t do some things on my own
Was I too
assuming; and not dedicated enough to you
So many
questions, I could try and chase all of them down
What is this I am
connected to; now deeply bound?
Why have you
brought me to life?
Why have you
filled me with so many different emotions, feelings or desires?
Why the bitter
sweet thankfulness, yet so much doubt?
I know my Lord of
all Lords, my God, my King; no matter what; you are who sustains me
I would
have never survived on my own; from childhood throughout now that I am grown
Although, I will
never understand why you have awakened my senses.
What am I to see,
what am I to do and be?
I just pray I
know what to do next; as I feel like I am slowly being drowned
My sweet soul
mate, my dream, my prince blessed by the King of peace.
Lord please wake
me, guide me; I ask this shall be; if not Dear Jesus give me strength
direction as I am struggling to hold on in this reality
I am fighting
growing numb; trying to shut down for all that I cannot see
What is it Father
God; you truly want from me?
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12/17/2018
Father as this season which should be
of blessings to all, is fast approaching.
As I speak for myself, my family, my friends and those I have not yet met.
Thank you Jesus for all you have done for me and will do in the future you have
given me. No matter what that may be; may it glorify you.
So many needs; hurts, habits, hang-ups. Emotional and Physical weariness around
me. How it must sadden you for all that takes place here on this earth.
We go about our day-to-day, busy, preoccupied, and sometimes happy with you
sometimes too busy and begrudging.
Lord, how we forget all that we allow to transpire in this world. How we so
often forget everything here is just on loan and temporary. Sometimes no matter
how depressing that sounds father the promise of eternity with you is
everlasting and worth any pain or hardships, we fight our way through.
May we, may cling closer to you and your will more now than ever before. May we
feel your presence no matter what is takes place. Please give us what we need
to keep fighting through. Please allow us to acknowledge what you have given
us.
Father may we learn to celebrate you as the Risen Lord every day not just
during this holiday season. Please steady our families, our friends and all
those we are shining the light of you to, for your glory.
Thank you for all you do for us! Jesus, none of us deserve anything; yet your
good and perfect will and promise fulfills so many blessings to those who
remain faithful.
Guide and heal our brokenness in and for your use Lord; not our own. Please
hear every prayer of your children; please give peace and healing needed; with
protection and wisdom. May we unify in your precious name Jesus. Amen
Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever
12/17
2 Corinthians
4:6 New International Version (NIV)
6 For God, who said, “Let light shine
out of darkness,”[a] made his light shine in our hearts to give
us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ.
Matthew 5:3
New International Version (NIV)
3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for
theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew 6 New
International Version (NIV)
Giving
to the Needy
6 “Be
careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by
them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
2 “So when you give to the needy, do not
announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the
streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their
reward in full. 3 But when you give to the needy, do not let
your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4 so that
your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in
secret, will reward you.
Colossians
2:9-10 New English Translation (NET Bible)
9 For in him all the fullness of deity
lives in bodily form, 10 and you have been filled in him, who
is the head over every ruler and authority.
Psalm 150:6
New English Translation (NET Bible)
6 Let everything that has breath praise
the Lord!
Praise the Lord !
Thank you Father
for this day; Lord nothing comes to me or through me without your
approval Father. Thank you
Lord may I always
miss you desperately when I get to busy and taking off running. May I
always purpose more and more to slow down and seek you in everything I
see, listen to or experience. May I be thankful no matter what that
may mean in this world we live in.
In your
precious name, Amen
12/16/2018
Thank you Lord
for this day
May the walk
taken honor you and your perfect will.
No matter
what comes; or does not; may you always be first.
No matter what
heartbreak or what joy and excitement; may you always be first. As in the
end of all times It is only You that truly matters.
Isaiah 50:4 New
International Version (NIV)
4 The Sovereign
LORD has given me a well-instructed tongue,
to know the word
that sustains the weary.
He wakens me
morning by morning,
wakens my ear to
listen like one being instructed.
Revelation 2:4
New International Version (NIV)
4 Yet I hold this
against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.
Isaiah 60:2 New
International Version (NIV)
2 See, darkness
covers the earth
and thick
darkness is over the peoples,
but the LORD
rises upon you
and his glory
appears over you
12/15/2018
Lord this day
like so many others just came and went. Caught up in the day to day
business father; I pray at least a portion of all I have done is worthy of your
blessing. Not just today Jesus but everyday; teach me to guard my
heart; hold my words and do all things in You're will; not my own.
Forgive me for
the offenses I may have caused by actions or by not doing anything at
all. I ask for guidance and protection in all things and those I
encounter. Including myself and some of the things I choose to do.
Lord I want your will and only your will; you know my heart; my desires.
Please reveal your plan. Thank you
Jesus for this day; Thank you for the freedoms of choice and will that allow us
to believe and hope in you. Thank you for the blessings of all things unseen
with those we have right in front of us. May we never forget, may we cling
tightly to you when we feel we are losing grip and hope for all that is good.
Amen
Romans 8:23 New
International Version (NIV)
23 Not only so,
but we ourselves, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we
wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies.
Hebrews 6:18-19
New International Version (NIV)
18 God did this
so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie,
we who have fled to take hold of the hope set before us may be greatly
encouraged. 19 We have this hope as an anchor for the s...oul, firm and secure.
It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain,
Romans 15:13 New
International Version (NIV)
13 May the God of
hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may
overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
12/14/2018
December 14, 2018
Hebrews 13:8
(NIV) 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
Ecclesiastes 1:2
(NIV) 2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher.
“Utterly
meaningless! Everything is meaningless
Proverbs 3:6
(NIV) 6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make
your paths straight.
Thank you Father
for another day!
Thank you for the
message and reminders as we wander into the darkness forgetting you have
everything no matter what directions we go; but everything in control. All we
need to do is remember who to hold onto!
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12/13/2018
Lord thank you
for this day
For the blessings
and the trials. May we always cling to you no matter what father. I
could go on and on; but Jesus you have already done everything on the
cross. Thank you! Amen
2
Thessalonians 1:10 New International Version
(NIV) 10 on the day he comes to
be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have
believed. This includes you, because you believed our testimony to
you.
Psalm 24:4 New
International Version (NIV) 4 The one who has
clean hands and a pure heart,
who does not trust in an idol
or swear by a false god
1 Corinthians
6:19 New International Version (NIV) 19 Do
you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you,
whom you have received from God? You are not your own;
Ephesians 3:20
New International Version (NIV) 20 Now
to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,
according to his power that is at work within us,
Reading through
my devotional for Advent thinking how I often call myself Martha because I feel
like I always have to get things done to make it right.
Not really giving it much thought until now how the business that fills the
spaces for my quiet time; is a what turns into worry about things I should
not. When the quiet comes, there are those days that sometimes the
whispers haunt my mind; of all the things I do not know. With the
What Ifs! What if it does not go accordingly, What if
it does; what will you do; what won't you do. What do others
do. The craziness that rob us from our time with
the Lord even if just finding a serene place to look out and observe the
blessings around us. We cannot do anything about those things
not in our circle of control. So why do we get caught up
worrying. Or filling our self with busyness.
Perhaps just one
more void to deal with. We all chase things to fill us up for what we
thing is missing; Even those of us filled with the holy spirit and
God. Perhaps as He unveils those new voids that have
not been dealt with yet; on a small scale filling our time with positive
business is the answer. Yet to fully surrender to our
Lord and Savior. We will need to come face to face and sit at His feet
and just listen as Mary did!
Including
me! No matter how much I love Jesus, no matter how blessed I
am. I too still struggle at times giving all of me; pulling it
back. No matter how long I walk this walk; Sometimes I
stumble and have to start crawling all over again. Reminding myself none
of it matters. The future is already been written. I
need to just let it go; having Satan get behind me. Let it go and
pray for the belief that I walk with daily fills that void that the demon doubt
whisperers try to fill this world of mine.
No matter what
the future holds, I am and have been forever blessed~
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12/12/2018
Thank you Jesus
for all you have done at the cross! Thank you for this day, these
freedoms no matter what transpires or does not. Thank you for this
journey.
Romans 8:28 New
International Version (NIV)
28 And we know
that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have
been called according to his purpose.
Job 42:1-3 New
International Version (NIV)
42 Then Job replied
to the Lord: 2
“I know that you
can do all things;
no purpose of
yours can be thwarted. 3 You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my plans without
knowledge?’
Surely I spoke of
things I did not understand,
things too
wonderful for me to know.
1 Peter 5:7 New
International Version (NIV) 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for
you.
2 Corinthians 5:7
New International Version (NIV) 7 For we live by faith, not by sight.
What
does Love Look Like
What does love
look like to you?
Riding in this
morning as always blasting music and one of the tunes was singing out this is
what Love feels like.
I started
thinking what does that really mean. Empty never felt so
good. Yes you can probably guess which song it is. But
seriously; What does Love Look like to you.
Me I have always
dreamed of being part of that deeper greater Agape love that Christ had.
Unconditional
No expectations
Every expectation
Everything all in
one!
Just the thought
of knowing someone loves you more than you can ever love yourself
The thoughts of
material items mean nothing when you have someone, that wants and feels all the
God things of life.
That does not
even come close to what physical needs or desires we may have.
I mean really,
think about how you see your significant other and what kind of minds eye
expectations do you see in the vision.
It's not all the
passionate intimate lustful things you envision; although they are part of
unifying with someone.
It is not what
they can do for you or you can do for them; you know that shared honey do list;
although you need to be willing and available
It is not about
being attached at the hip to prove you like being around each other; although
how else do you make memories and grow; but to spend quality time together.
It is not about
being with someone for what they have; as we know all the material items
in this world will go away. Some sooner than others.
What is deep in
your soul when you think of that person?
Are your souls
connected?
Is there
something on the inside that connects you or is it all about what you see
outside?
The big question;
Is God part of the vison?
Yesterday, Today
and all the tomorrows?
Do you talk, or
are you just together because you made a commitment years prior; but really
can't stand the fact of letting go and being alone. Not to mention your
religion says you cannot change things?
Love to me is a
union and unfortunately before I started walking the walk with Christ, I had my
share of failures. I did my thing they did theirs. if
there were any conversations it was about an up and coming day or event we had
to attend. There were never any dreams, aspirations, goals whatever you
want to call them. It was all based on assumption. You know
what they say about Assuming right?
Eventually
without communication, without desire, without unconditional love; there is and
was no more Love. And that deep rooted lust or intimate desire you
need to fill; well you can't stand to be around that person.
Because somewhere down the line you no longer trust them or know who they
really are. Much less beat yourself up because you really don't know
if you ever really did.
What does Love
look like for you? Everything and Nothing as long as God is
the focus in everything that is done. Freely given, not
controlled, not demanding, not demeaning not with any expectation that person
must be a certain way. A partnership, a unification, a
promise to never give up, never give in for all the elements that will pound
you both down trying to destroy what God deems as beautiful yet at
times adding turmoil to your day today. Love is
not what you can't do; it is not what you should do. It is every single
day; no matter what, no matter when.
I pray I some day
have even just a sliver of the Agape love that Christ had for humanity and this
world. For there is nothing greater. That
is what love looks like to me and more!
More than words;
more than temporary pleasures; something so deep inside only God could pull it
out.
What that means
when it flows to the outside. I pray will always be what serves that
special someone once you finally are blessed; serves them well until the
end of time. As my soulmate, my lover, my friend, my guide. my forever
Prince of the most high King. That is what Love looks like to me.
Maybe I will,
Maybe I won't every really get that chance to see; but I will always be
AlwaysMeKelly
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12/11/2018
Thank you father
for this day and the message you shared with me out of the daily devotional
this morning.
Yes Father when
it comes to uncertainty it leads me back to you; although as of late I don't
feel I have been spending enough time with you. I see your
reassuring messages and signs throughout various scriptures in songs in
devotionals. But at times I still doubt why things happen the way they
do. My life and all that I am all that I am connected to Jesus; Is
yours! I made that choice many years ago and even though my path has
been full of twists, turns hills and valleys that will never
change. I hold you Father to your promises as you hold me for your
will.
Nothing else
matters in the end Jesus. There is nothing I can say or do to be
worthy enough that you saved me from myself; from the world. I pray
the same blessing upon my family, my children and grandchildren; all my
family and friends. Lord I pray for the peace of
salvation that fills me to fill all of them. Your light shine
brightly in this world that can be so dark and gray.
So
much brokenness Lord; you have carried me through; while at the same
time of bitter sweet the moments of beauty, love and laughter.
I will never
proclaim to even be relatively understanding of you Jesus; I can only say for
all the love you lived and died for. Let me see with your eyes
and serve you well.
For the desires
of my heart deep in my soul Lord; If it is your will so shall it
be mine when you reveal that time. If not Lord; Please
guide me what ever direction my remaining days call for here in
this earth. You know every thing
about all of me. Forgive me for any lack of trust;
any offenses and all I quickly jump in without you for.
Please lift up
those who are suffering from loss of their children, from illness, from
loneliness. May they feel your healing comforting arms wrapped
around them. Lord we know this world is far from nice, far
from easy. In your precious name. May your children
unify and do what they can to make it just a little better one spec at a
time. Amen
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12/10/2018
Forgive me father
for making things about me and this world and not about you; forgive me for
allowing the business seep in and take words that should be for you and given
to and for many others.
Thank you for
yesterday and today; May the air you fill my lungs with be used in your will
and for those in need as you direct. Not my own uneducated sometimes
misdirected paths. Lord I ask first to protect me from myself. As I
have always been a head first diving in trying to do what is right trying to
help where I can. Jesus you know my heart, you know my
desires. Thank you for always being there and catching me when I
fall. You know I can't do this alone; and I also will continue to do as
much as I can where ever I go.
Please lift up my
dear friend in the hospital; Please lift up my other dear friend who just lost
her son to death. Jesus be with the entire
family. Be with my friend going through crises; and all
those Lord be it my friends or family going through the heaviness of his
world. I believe in you Father and all you are;
and I am weighted down. I cannot imagine for those who have no
hope. May your children unify and shine the light. Now and
always. For you have died on that cross for so much
more. Please guide me and your children to be the light in this
dark world.
Amen
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12/08/2018
Thank you Father
for this day; and the abilities to meet with you where ever we are!
Philippians
4:19 New International Version (NIV)
19 And my God will meet all your needs
according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Colossians
2:2-3 New International Version (NIV)
2 My goal is that they may be encouraged
in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete
understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, 3 in
whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.
Dear Jesus
the word all
through out scripture speak of a just, loving soul that has sacrificed all for
really at times is nothing. We in the world don't all always give you the
respect, desire and devotion if ever you so righteously should have.
Yet we call upon
you for everything. Forgive me father, forgive me for the
sins I carry and live out even if I do not understand at times what they
are. Forgive me for not staying 200% next, with in
you. It is your will I seek and my prayers for such are never
ending.
Jesus please hear
the unspoken prayers from within and all that is written.
I lift up
- our church
for vision and direction
- our leadership
within the church within our nation
- spiritual
growth to explode and our county be filled with evangelism and
discipleship
- reaching
the unsaved and those in need all throughout.
- Father
please hear the calls of healing for our brothers and sisters for those
that are saved and those that are not.
May we all hunger
and thirst for your word and your will. May I and all I am connected
shine the light for you. May the deepest desires be to over
come what is not seen and shine in faith, hope and love reflecting all you
are. In Jesus name.
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12/07/2018
Matthew
10:29 New International Version (NIV)
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?
Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.[a]
Hebrews
11:27 New International Version (NIV)
27 By faith he left Egypt, not fearing
the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible.
1 Corinthians
4:18 New International Version (NIV)
18 Some of you have become arrogant, as
if I were not coming to you.
Lord
Thank you for
this day
My prayers are of
healing and well being Lord for my friends, my family and all those who I have
not yet connected with. Please bring them healing, comfort and they
find your Mercy and Grace.
Lord the needs
are big and many; for all those I know and don't know please hear
the prayers. Lord you know my heart, and all I pray for.
Please guide me in your will. Keep me from discouragement in this
world. Give me strength and courage to continue on in the unknown
that only you can guide. In Love, In Christ for all
things Amen
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12/06/2018
Thank you for
this day and all layers that came with it.
I lift up Tammy
in the hospital and my children and their safety. Bring them home every
day to be with their families. Guide and protect them.
Prayers for all the friends I have been blessed with. Guide and protect
them always.
No matter where I
am. May I serve you and shine for you. No matter what! Thank you.
Jesus.
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12/05/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day! Lord Thank, you for always showing me you are
there. Even when this world is so twisted up in the gray matter of
things. I seek only truth father. No matter how
painful. I wish to live in your will the black or white not stuck
in the world of unknown, chasing things that are temporary; in constant
turmoil. I know Lord it is a hard fine line to stay here on
some days. I just pray Your will in my life and all those I am
connected with. None of us are perfect father. Far from it;
only You can fill those sandals. Jesus, you know I
cannot do this without you on my own. I can only take so many layers
before I just shut down. You have carried me all my
life. I hold you to continuing the remainder of my
days. Father you did not sacrifice you son for your believers
to suffer. Although we need constant reminders of just what Jesus
went through to appreciate and acknowledge daily. I ask
on behalf of all your children to please lift us up; heal what is broken;
give understanding where is needed and let us all acknowledge the love, mercy
and grace we are given. May we all hold tightly on you now and
always. In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit Amen
Are
You In Or Not
If only for a day
Would you love me
anyway
If only my
timeline had run its course
No beauty no mind
left
Would you stay
with me or file the divorce
What is beautiful
young vibrant in our youth
Will turn
suddenly one day you look in the mirror everything is gone you once knew
What promise is
it that you make
For in the end it
seems all that is left are the broken lies
And the heartache
you must take
So when I say I
am in love with the one and only
Don’t come at me
unless your 200 percent real
Cause I know
where my help comes from
No matter what
No matter when
No matter where
No matter why
I am forever a
sold out in love Jesus girl
This will never
be a lie
You can talk all
day
Make promises
with all the pretty things you say
In the end I know
where my help comes from
Don’t doubt me I
won’t doubt you
Just show me your
intentions are you
Just show me your
intentions are true
I will always be
a friend no matter what you do
Don’t mistake my
kindness for being weak
Don’t mistake my
desires and sometimes tears;
for
anything if it is nothing you don’t intend to be near and want to keep
For I know where
my help comes from in love I might be
My Jesus will get
me trough and soon allow rest in my soul and mind to sleep
So if you must go
just do it already no words are necessary this you know
But if your in
for the long haul a ride of our lives
Hand and hand
let’s find what Agape love means
And shine the
light through out forever in this world so cold
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12/04/2018
Thank you Father for the constant reminder you are here whenever
we call out. May we hear your voice in the wind that blows
and may we see the signs in all you do. May this world never cloud us so
badly we forget who you are and how we came to be.
Thank you for
this new day; May I serve you well for your will in the time I am given.
Thank you for the blessings you have entrusted me with.
Thank you
for the words you fill me with! Thank you for the abundance of Love
I feel; yet cannot freely express. Thank you for the
awakening; please guide me with should be next. Father if tomorrow never
comes. Thank you so much for the moments up to
today.
I am so very
thankful for my Sweet Soul no matter how long or short. I am so very
thankful for you Jesus and all the blessings you have given me. I will
never understand why, how or how long. But am Thankful for today.
Forgive me Father for any sins or offenses I may caused to anyone
I am connected with or will connect to. Please guide me in your will and
not my own. I lift up those in need Jesus; there are so many.
Please heal and comfort them. Please bring the lost back into the light;
please fill the lonely up during these times we all wish we had someone to
share your celebration with.
Please calm the
storms that come within. Please
guide me always. To the right people, for the right reasons. In
your mighty precious name Jesus! Amen
Random
Thoughts
Random thoughts
so early each morning
Today is no
different than any other.
The
thoughts just keep coming along this path of my life this wave; Some
spot on others totally off. Not making any sense.
Lost in this abyss, how in the world did I get here I can't pretend.
These random
thoughts keep coming; some days my head hurts not able to make them go
away.
Some are so
awesomely beautiful, no words can I say; others become frightening, full
of what if's I can't deal with; I just want to stop and run away.
I have never been
a quitter; my heart keeps telling me there is no other way. Follow
through, no matter what you do. Do not let the unknowns paralyze
you or chase true possibilities a stray.
No matter what
you are a survivor; no matter what comes your way.
Random Thoughts
Triggers of
the struggle for Radio Silence or just putting pencil to paper is as real
as night or day.
Sometimes my head
feels like it is ready to explode; or is it everything from my head to my toes.
In any
case: Sometimes the fine line we need of true meaning is in actions
of what we don't say.
AlwaysMeKelly
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Isaiah 55:8-9
(NIV)
8 “For my thoughts are not your
thoughts,
neither
are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the
earth,
so
are my ways higher than your ways
and
my thoughts than your thoughts.
Colossians 4:3
(NIV)
3 And pray for us, too, that God may
open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for
which I am in chains
Psalm 116:17
(NIV)
17 I will sacrifice a thank offering to
you
and
call on the name of the Lord.
Ephesians 6:12 (NIV)
12 For our struggle is not
against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the
authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the
spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Genesis
28:11-16 (NIV)
11 When he reached a certain place, he
stopped for the night because the sun had set. Taking one of the stones there,
he put it under his head and lay down to sleep. 12 He had a
dream in which he saw a stairway resting on the earth, with its top reaching to
heaven, and the angels of God were ascending and descending on it. 13 There
above it[a] stood the Lord,
and he said: “I am the Lord, the
God of your father Abraham and the God of Isaac. I will give you and your
descendants the land on which you are lying. 14 Your
descendants will be like the dust of the earth, and you will spread out to the
west and to the east, to the north and to the south. All peoples on earth will
be blessed through you and your offspring.[b] 15 I am with you and will
watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will
not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”
16 When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he
thought, “Surely the Lord is in
this place, and I was not aware of it.”
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12/03/2018
Lord
as I go through this day; I thank you Jesus for all you have done to make it
possible I exist.
Father
we are at war, we have battlefields in our minds, we are at war with the flesh
and in some cases we do not even know why. We know this is a
spiritual war that you already have under control.
I
pray for peace and guidance during our storms; that we rest in you and you
only. We know there is nothing wrong in wanting nice
things; having nice things and doing nice things. May we
always give the thanks back to you why we have them. For those
who wish for and do not yet have.
Lord;
please reveal your purpose for them. For those suffering and
here are many Lord with illness and horrible disease. Please wrap
them in your comforting arms and see them through all that is to come next.
Jesus;
Father, Abba, Jehovah, brother and friend; this list could go on and
on. Guide us please. May your will be done in
all of our plans and desires. May you see us through as
we just do not understand when things are not going our way. May you
send your angels down for all the needs to those calling
you. We are not meant to do this life on our
own. Fill us up Lord so we may overflow for your
kingdom. Thank you for this day. Amen
Ephesians 6:12
12 For our struggle is not against flesh
and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against
the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in
the heavenly realms.
1st Samuel 17:47
And
everyone assembled here will know hat the Lord rescues his people, but not with
sword and spear. This is the the Lord’s battle and he will give you to
us!
Philippians 2:9-10
9 Therefore God exalted him to the
highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
1 Peter 1:8-9
8 Though you have not seen him, you love
him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled
with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving
the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
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12/02/2018
Thank you Lord
for this day; may your will be done. Lord there is always
something we fear; always something that gets under our skin, into our
heads. Always some sort of sadness we cannot shake when we are
trying to manage this journey on our own.
Guide us Father; give us all the moments to absorb your peace and
knowledge. We have all been made uniquely for your purpose of
love and harmony. Lord guide each of us to the place that fills us up
with you; so we may spill over and pay it forward in this world we are
in.
I deserve nothing
Father, yet you sent your son Jesus Christ to take all the worlds indiscretions
including mine. He freely went!
I am blessed Lord
beyond all deserving; I ask that you may consume me Jesus, Lord fill
me up and break my heart and move me in purpose, with as much love as
Jesus!
Lord, May we all;
start finding the good in everything and drown out what consumes us in what
tends to be a very dark world at times. May we remember, the spiritual
battle has already been won. We just need to believe all that is
good and pure in you, from you and with you! Amen
Isaiah
9:6 (NIV)
6 For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
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John 20:19-21
(NIV)
Jesus
Appears to His Disciples
19 On the evening of that first day of
the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of
the Jewish leaders, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with
you!” 20 After he said this, he showed them his hands and side.
The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord.
21 Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you!
As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”
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Psalm 25:4
(NIV)
4 Show me your ways, Lord,
teach me your paths
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12/01/2018
Thank you Jesus
for this day. Please guide my steps keeping me close to you and
only you. As I walk through this world that fills us with so much
stuff~ Please help me to never lose site of you in any situation, never
stop seeing you in all that is out there, never stop hearing your
will. Thank you for all that I am; without you I am
nothing. Bless all those Lord that connect with and through
me. In your precious name. Amen
Jeremiah
31: (NIV)
3 The Lord
appeared to us in the past,[a] saying: “I have loved you with an
everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
Lamentations
3:22-26 (NIV)
22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great
is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore
I will wait for him.”
25 The Lord
is good to those whose hope is in him,
to
the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for
the salvation of the Lord.
