05.31.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday May  31^st  

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1 Thessalonians 4:16-17 (TLB)

¹⁶ For the Lord himself will come down from heaven with a mighty shout and with the soul-stirring cry of the archangel and the great trumpet-call of God. And the believers who are dead will be the first to rise to meet the Lord. ¹⁷ Then we who are still alive and remain on the earth will be caught up with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air and remain with him forever.

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The Chainsmokers & Coldplay - Something Just Like This (Lyric)

Do It Again - Elevation Worship (Lyrics)

Pay It Forward - A Song for a Better World

Fighting For Me

Top TRIBL | Maverick City Worship Compilation | Light of the World

I Wish God Would Tell Me What To Do | Steven Furtick

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

And just like that we made it through all that seemed to be trying to take us out and here we are on the other side of it.  Already the last day of May 2022 and if we are reading this or even getting up one more day.  We made it!

I cannot deny it has been a roller coaster of a ride with so many down hill spirals for so many that I love.  And just looking out into the world the brokenness and barely able to breathe twists and turns of humanity.

Laughingly but in all seriousness how I sometimes love animals so much better than humans. And I know they can say the same for me at times.   Especially those when I come as standoffish.  But in our own realities or speaking of mine just trying to maintain and get through the day with what this mind maze spins.

Beyond grateful for the beautiful uncles and family I have but all my uncles many who have left this planet now but served in the military for freedoms that made them prisoners upon returning in their own minds or physical health due to the exposure of what God never created us to be part of.

Gratitude does not even come close to the sacrifice of love and life given so we were allowed to live.

Every day God has allowed us back up and it does not matter if we can barely breathe, barely move he his allowing us to do it again.    Let go of what we cannot understand or sorrow and call upon him through the name of Jesus and live the life you are given.

We all have purpose, and it means nothing the shade of our skin or size of our temple given or even the language we speak.    What matters is love.  Loving ourselves enough to know who gives us life and loving those around us.

No, we do not have to accept bad behavior or disrespect anywhere in this journey.   But to show love for humanity matters.    

We all have a story not better or worse as it is not a competition.    Truly if we spent half as much time for all that is good as we do for all that goes wrong.  What a beautiful place the world would become.

No, we cannot stop demons from hurting and hating.   But we can try in love our best and fight forward every step we get in love and in and with the spirit of Jesus Christ.

 

No matter what I feel, no matter what good I do or what mistakes I make.  God is always for us and we have to really get to know him through His one and own unchangeable and indescribable love he gave through the sacrifice of his son Jesus.

Our vessels given to travel this journey will fade, will break, and will turn back to the dust that it once came.   But your soul will live through out eternity and where yours ends up matters.

It matters here and now as it will throughout eternity.

Get back up, physically, mentally.   Get back up and step out in faith for all that is good, all that is life, all that is love.

We cannot do this on our own.  But we cannot put all we are into that person you want next to you or is next to you.  You cannot put your future in what someone gives you or does not give you or even that which they take.

Get back up and fight forward holding tight to that moral compass and drive faster and harder than you ever had to in your storm that is pounding on you right here or now.

Just finishing the study STUCK by Jennie Allen and now working on the Book of John by Dr. David Jerimiah.   All I can do is keep diving in and challenging what I learn. Challenge those who preach the gospel and those who I am affiliated teaching others.

So can you.    Find what makes you grow and feed your soul.  And challenge it and just because you may end up disagreeing don’t hate.   Move past it to find what the purpose of that knowledge is and use it to shine on for others who need your reflection.

Thank you, Jesus, for then, for now and for whatever else you allow.   Heal us Lord and show hos how love really is and should be.

05.26.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Thursday May  26th

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John 3:17 (TLB)

¹⁷ God did not send his Son into the world to condemn it, but to save it.

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John 3:17 (AKJV)

¹⁷ For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.

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John 3:17 (MSG)

^16-18 “This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn’t go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person’s failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him.

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UB40 Red Red Wine Lyrics

Is This Love - Bob Marley

Metallica - "Nothing Else Matters" Lyrics (HD)

 

LION (feat. Chris Brown & Brandon Lake) | Elevation Worship

Matt Maher - Lord, I Need You (Official Lyric Video)

Apocalyptica ~ Broken Pieces (lyrics) ft. Lacey Sturm from Flyleaf

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Is this love how can we forget?

We claim to love with words and material things.  Yet when we do not get our own way, we sometimes in life throw each other under a train not a bus.

We want what we want until we have it then it forgets to be enough or reasons why we were there to start.   Only to turn something so deep and wide when we come up for air, we realize just how much we put everything else in front of what we should truly be love and honoring.

The very life and maker of such who gives us breath every moment we are allowed to be.

Almost as if we fell fast asleep in a deep comfortable breath and all of a sudden, we are wide awake wondering what happened in that almost.

 

I have no words about the most recent events where someone so broken be it by scars they endured or just some chemical imbalance due to genetics or something they got caught up in.   It really does not matter because we know Satan was present during however long it took this lost soul to disregard life of heritage and innocence all in one motion.

There is much controversy and none of that matters what you think, or I think.   But I will say as long as you keep cancelling out moral values and teaching your children there are consequences for every action they take or do not take.   Be it a good butt whipping or time out.   That we must work for everything and deserve nothing.

As long as we keep believing that everyone is a winner even if they do nothing to contribute.  We will continually be broken.    Deeper and wider than any issues we have seen in any wars where some bully has some mind control to invade another country.   When people think they get famous or get their 15 minutes of fame by doing some distasteful, dark acts against humanity.    When we cancel out those who are broken people just like me or you who are on the line to protect us.  Then later expect them to show up.

Well, the list goes on and on.  America land of the free; breeding ground for anything being possible.  Good bad or indifferent.     None of it matters without God at the center of all things.

 

Is this love

No, those temporal feelings that we find to try and make us forget.   Then fall apart privately or on the big screen.   When we dream with our eyes wide open and know the truth, live the truth, want the truth.  It does not make us any better than anyone else.  It makes us grateful and purposeful to shine the light wherever we go in and with the truth who is Jesus Christ.

You do not have to agree to disagree or disagree to agree.   This is my mind maze pouring out.

Togetherness in unity for all mankind.   Why does it have to take death and destruction to step up and just do the right thing every day we are given.   Why do we not at least try to purpose to be and do the right thing.   

The blessing and curse of freedom of will and freedom of choice.  Where we all dive in the extreme just to be heard. 

My broken pieces always all over the place as so many others in this vast world who have the opportunity to be something so beautiful even if, even when!

Cutting like a knife knowing the day before I sat at my granddaughter’s 5^th grade graduation.  And to think my baby could have been on the other end of the phone and I heard the panic, chaos and evil consume so much life.

My heart will never be the same

I thought the hardships I lived and grew threw were unexplainable but this day and age. 

Lord, we need your presence to consume all of the darkness.  

We need your strength and courage to roar in compassion and life for life!

Nothing else matters in the end.   Every single thing we are given as a gift in the here and now constantly under siege from trying to hold on to what does not belong to us or just giving the gifts of life our children the best possible opportunities to help them grow forward.

Without God we will and forever are condemned to the darkness and all that goes with it.  Sure, a pandemic, monkey pox, wars, and destructive evil behaviors.   Chaos organized or breath-taking irrevocable danger.   Separate or together without Jesus we have no hope, no life, no promise.  No eternal beginning filled now and then with indescribable peace even during the heartbreaking actions of all others.  Or perhaps even that which we cause ourselves by trying to be something, trying to want something we are not and should not.

Forgiveness Jesus ☹

Forgive me even in the trials of my own life and how I respond.

Please show us your will, your way and heal this world of so many broken pieces.

What will

What was

Only you Jesus Help us!

05.24.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday May 24th

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Romans 12:10 (TLB)

¹⁰ Love each other with brotherly affection and take delight in honoring each other.

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Romans 12:10 (AKJV)

¹⁰ Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another;

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Romans 12:10 (MSG)

^9-10 Love from the center of who you are; don’t fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply; practice playing second fiddle.

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Truth Be Told - Matthew West

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TobyMac - Til The Day I Die (Lyric Video) ft. NF

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Authenticity matters!

But we first have to love ourselves to know who we really are in order to truly love anyone else ever.

 

Each day is a journey, each day has purpose for the pain we either travel through, watch others go through or we just get stuck in until we find our way out.  If Ever!

The darkness overshadows and will always be the first to whisper doubt, not good enough, what you did, what you didn’t do.

 

I recently read something so true.  And although I won’t go back and dig it up to quote word for word the theory in truth is.     The same things we battle with others over is the same thing we should battling against together.     Especially when it comes to couples, husband & Wives etc.

 

How often do we lose ground in the relationship we build and fell in love with to build against things of this world to later even sometimes hating the same person we committed to love in sickness, health, and all things.    And not for nothing I have known people that barely knew each other come together and years later still purposing together.  While others wait with long term engagements, living together and years later getting married to hate each other and divorce if not worse.

If we are not evenly yoked even with our plans and dreams and spiritual beliefs and all those little things in awareness that annoy any moment of our days, how in the world can we expect to be balanced and have any hope in any relationships we think we have.

It takes purpose.   No matter if it is brother, sister, husband, wife. Business or personal.    We all have to purpose to really know ourselves and be authentic in every respect to have any lasting quality relationship of any kind.

 

Sometimes life does hurt.  Sometimes people do leave scars, or we leave scars and/or thorns in them.

But when we really care to have something work out, when we really want it.  We commit and purpose through no matter what comes next.

That does not mean it will be easy or painless.

 

Let’s face it.  The more we try it seems the more layers pile up and try to block us, bury us or just paralyze us from the gift of love, life and the freedoms we are all blessed to choose to have.

Stop fighting with everyone around you.   Dig deep and really understand who you are and why they are such a thorn to you.    Change what matters and let go of what does not.  And in the end if they really do not align in partnership without expectations then why or what is your purpose for holding on and being miserable?

 

I am no authority, but we cannot be physically drained, emotionally drained, or financially drained and every expect any kind of harmony or quality of life.

And yes, I am going there,  you cannot do nothing but take and expect it to run out.  You cannot do nothing but party and have a good time and not expect to burn out or get addicted and waste the moments you will never get back.    Work life balance matters in every aspect of the lives we are given.

There is no liability if neither party agree to disagree and continue to work through together no matter what the outcome of any circumstances, they take the steps within any journey.    So, what is the purpose but self-infliction, self-gratification, selfishness and at no point will we ever be enough, do enough of selfishly bare fruit for anything next until it is far too late to reflect and correct.

Thus, proving the only thing, we truly need to learn, find and maintain balance is the passion and purpose of something far greater than anything we will ever be in creation for and by Jesus Christ.

 

May we find ourselves in the maker far sooner than any other yesterday, today and every tomorrow we are given.   In Christ, with Christ, for Christ. 

Though I am far from a theologian, far perfect from adding to, being part of or falling into. Any choices that rob us from pure peace, joy and love so deep will I ever understand how He calls me His own and allows this mind maze to flow.    Although I am and will forever be blessed in love even if only a dream with the yearning of wanting the depths of something so great that nothing on this earth will ever be worth the temporal lies just for temporal gain.    To be my best self and always trying to see for what it or who it really is and not just for what anything can give or be.

Where does that leave me in this journey.   So very weary and bleeding out at times with hurts, habits, and hang-ups even if not my own.   It is and never was my job to fix anyone or give anything for others who cannot get up and authentically do for themselves for the sole purpose of abundant life.   In Christ alone though I give myself away.   I am beyond blessed and no matter if I ever see those streets of gold.  I know I have been gifted to dance with Jesus here and now and will until the day I die and, on that day, run even if into an abyss searching for all my family in Christ to go have the ultimate dance in heaven for eternity.   If I am blessed to see my family, my friends, my loved one’s in the here and now to have even just a moment in time of the peace and mercy  I have been given.   If I am blessed to have that someone keeping me accountable and balancing as we stand through all things awesome.  If not, I am held and beyond blessed for all I am known to be.     For I need nothing, and through out my life perhaps has been the worldly issue.  That when I choose to love it is because I want to.    As even in nothing, there is everything!

 

 

05.23.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday May  23^rd

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Romans 15:2 (TLB)

15 ^1-2 Even if we believe that it makes no difference to the Lord whether we do these things, still we cannot just go ahead and do them to please ourselves; for we must bear the “burden” of being considerate of the doubts and fears of others—of those who feel these things are wrong. Let’s please the other fellow, not ourselves, and do what is for his good and thus build him up in the Lord.

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OneRepublic - Counting Stars (Lyrics)

 

Less Like Me - Zach Williams (Lyrics)

I AM THEY - Scars (Official Music Video)

Thomas Rhett - Be a Light ( lyrics ) ft. Keith Urban, Chris Tomlin, Hillary Scott & Reba McEntire

NEEDTOBREATHE - "Bottom Of A Heartbreak" [Official Audio]

OneRepublic - I Lived (Lyrics)

Goodness of God - Bethel (Lyric Video)

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

As I read today’s daily verse I wonder where was this instilled in the 21-year-old Russian man, someone’s son who has been now charged with war crimes against humanity.     Yes, it could be anybody or anywhere.  But unfortunately, it is in the here and now and across the globe.    But if we look long enough, we can see the crimes in every corner of every nation.     Souls so filled with hate and animosity just striking out to take and harm whatever they feel at the time they feel it.

Innocence of children and wisdom of elderly being stomped out in the blink of an eye.   Be it with a purpose they think is just or just the self-infliction the darkness has impaled the very lives of all where purposed and created to live.

There is so much good as the lining of those dark clouds we just have to want to see the beauty.

It is hard to not just crawl up and disappear.   We can grow so tired and weary.  But instead of quitting why do we not redirect.     When we cannot see the light, when we cannot find the light in any person, place, or thing.  Why do we not just become a light even if just a flicker of hope.

We can do and be allot of things.   But everything in this here and now is temporal.     Yesterday getting ready for worshipping Jesus in hope and love I am reminded not everyone has met Jesus yet.   They may know of him; it may see everyone knows of God.  But few in the grand scheme of so many souls truly have invited Jesus in and want him to live and teach us how to live.

Not in perfection although he will fill us with perfect peace along the journey.    As I said yesterday but not just for Sunday services.   

Will you if not for a minute or 60 minutes lay all your burdens down at the foot of the cross and ask Jesus to come live within and meet him right where you are.

Learning how to let go and know its not about me.     Putting that handout not to see what we can take or receive.  But to give whatever we can in love, mercy and so much grace as it is given to us each day we are allowed back up.

Even when we know you wished you fit into their mold, but the importance of life is not what the right or left thinks or even speaks.   But what you do with the spirit of God for the greater good.

Keeping up with the Jones really does not matter when the storms and floods come and everything you think you had that made life is washed away in the blink of an eye.

I have done allot of crazy in my lifetime, I have seen allot more being done even stuff no one ever should have had to see long before I was even old enough know what it meant.

In a sense it’s a blessing that when I look back now.  There is no bitterness.  Forever lacking understanding but fully aware no matter what the scars we are given.   There is so much good on the other side.

If you are not going through something, if you are on the other side of your something, we know we can be grateful because so many were not able to make it.

Heart and Soul, pieces of me or even all of us all over this universe.    Breathing in and wishing, wanting chasing, or just quitting.   When you get to that bottom of your heartbreak look up and never stop.  Knowing the universe is in the hands of the creator who gives us all freedom of choice and freedom of will.   

No matter what it is!    WE get to choose.   You can choose to meet Jesus wherever you are over and over and call him to live within you.  Or you can choose whatever you want to believe in and live like.     We get to own the choices we make in reaction to all that happens in our day to day and what we see around the world.

We get to choose to live!

Selflessly

Crossing over knowing the difference between it and selfishness.

Being your best self even if the world says its not according to their standards.    Knowing every living being were breathed life into by the Lord of all creation the same who said let there be light unto the universe.   

We matter for s much more than what hurts or gets us all tangled up trying to fill voids that only Jesus can.

Spirit catch us when we are free falling into the abyss.    You alone maker of all the heavenlies!!!

The battle of good and evil may rage on and the hurt raging like the flood waters that wash through the unsuspecting.    But the war has already been won eternally with you Father.

As we count the days, count the minutes, or count the stars may we know it is you that have given the blessing to be so alive to do so.

 

Each day I allowed to get back up I thank you for I am allowed to be part of.   Be it taking off running or talking all those times falling and now moving slower.  I know every heart pounding blood pumping effort is a blessing that will forever be the pieces you allow me to be.

Wash through this universe Lord and heal our hearts.  Thank you for all that is, was and will be in you.

05.19.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Thursday May 19th

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James 3:17-18 (TLB)

¹⁷ But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure and full of quiet gentleness. Then it is peace-loving and courteous. It allows discussion and is willing to yield to others; it is full of mercy and good deeds. It is wholehearted and straightforward and sincere. ¹⁸ And those who are peacemakers will plant seeds of peace and reap a harvest of goodness.

 

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7eventh Time Down - God Is on the Move (Lyrics)

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Blanca & Dante Bowe - The Healing (Official Music Video)

Plumb - Lord I'm Ready Now (Lyrics)

NEEDTOBREATHE - "Banks" [Official Video]

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Thank you, Jesus, for another day as I wake and hear God is on the move and realizing how often I jump up even with my time with you but take off running.   Missing the brightness when that which stirs deep within has been answered.  At least until I turn and look back and know that is who you are.

 

Perfection takes time and you hold all time in those hands as the potter which created something more than a dark void so that life could be abundant. No one else has to get it; even as I sit sipping this coffee slowly waking to the world that awaits another day.   Another day filled with so many opportunities and choices that each one allowed back up are given to make.   Even if we make the wrong turn, wrong choice we get to fix it and not let the plague of darkness and naysayers, or just pure evil think they have one.   We get to choose because of the blessing of freedom and will from you Jesus!  

 

Though I may not carry it daily I believe in your healing Jesus.  Knowing there is more in the unseen to hope for than ever which just temporally sits in front of us.  As we grow forward if we still long enough to truly stop and appreciate the beauty that surrounds us.  In the people, in the places, in the things.   Even if they will not last, they shine through the memories engraining the good, the bad and the ugly that we are left to give to God at the foot of the cross or carry it around until we cannot carry no more.  Never really knowing who I am.  Yet blessed to walk in confidence with you Father.  Not always and still some days so damn insecure as to the why or when.    I am ready for whatever you have for me father.    If only all I care, and love was ready now too.    Your will be done in all that is as I know it.   Everything in this world belongs to you.  All the massive broken pieces to the little shards floating getting stuck here and there.    Thank you for this journey.  As I know it is not done yet.  Show me, heal me, be within all I could ever imagine and beam through all your children even in the storms.  Be through all those who just do not know you yet.  It is time.

 

May we bow down even if and when it hurts to acknowledge your blessing, healing and abundance that comes after.

You Jesus hold us so close but in that blessing of freedom never hold us back.  Yet your hand always stretched out waiting for us to grasp on to you as we find ourselves flailing in the vast ocean of life.

Thank you!

Show us

Heal us

Be within us

Even when we just do not understand it is you that hold us all together and help us grow through the pain into the beauty of abundance in mercy, grace, and undying eternal love.

 

For the good for all creation Jesus, you poured out and still do every bit of love for life that we will never fully grasp, appreciate, or even care for as you intended.  Yet you love us unconditionally and just want that personal relationship with every soul ever allowed to breathe.

Thank you for all the flaws and flexibility to bend, twist and spin yet still remain focused on whose I am.

 

 

05.17.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday May 17th

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Romans 11:33 (TLB)

³³ Oh, what a wonderful God we have! How great are his wisdom and knowledge and riches! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his methods!

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Romans 11:33 (MSG)

^33-36 Have you ever come on anything quite like this extravagant generosity of God, this deep, deep wisdom? It’s way over our heads. We’ll never figure it out.

Is there anyone around who can explain God?

Anyone smart enough to tell him what to do?
Anyone who has done him such a huge favor
    that God has to ask his advice?
Everything happens through him;
Everything ends up in him.
Always glory! Always praise!
    Yes. Yes. Yes.

Everything comes from him;

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Gratitude (Chosen Performance) - Brandon Lake

John Mayer - Waiting On the World to Change (Official Video)

Maddie Poppe - Wildflowers (Lyrics)

Courtnie Ramirez - Perfectly Loved [Remix] (Feat. Wande)

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

God Almighty, how I need you.   As these past couple of years have allowed my mind to derail and forget what to do in keeping my body from failing.   As I look around and seem so caught up.   Even when I know Jesus gave it all and that is the only reason, I am still each day allowed back up.  My body is fleeting my mind sometimes seems so deceiving.  Oh, how I need you Jesus.  

There is no shame in my game to call upon the Lord.   There is no shame in admitting in the end without you Father God.   I am nothing.    Just another broken edge in this world’s sword leaving marks along the way.  

No matter if I am trying or just trying to understand come what may.  

If only for a moment in time the love, we pretend to share was as selfless of you Christ.  All we were meant to be we pour into everything and everyone hoping that deep passion that bursts forth will never go away.  Then for the one second, we blinked the truth is it was never really meant to stay. 

 If only!   We understand you are the alpha, the omega.  Abba the only Father I have ever really known.   If only the love that bursts forth of and from or with you poured out and into every life walking this earth.  You speak to the mountains, to the oceans wide. 

To all of us, yet we choose to distractions and bury or hide within the depths of the worlds lies.  I do not know what tomorrow will be, if at all.  I do not know if I will pull it together since that last fall.   

Giving you all of me is all I know. Even then I won’t deny or pretend I am weak and fading fast.  Just once to feel truth and love from the outside in as you fill up with such abundance.  So, as I may never be frail you will always hear my weeping silent from the heart or wailing in agony for all that never was, all that is burning up and lost.     You Jesus may I never forget your pain taken for us or the ultimate paid cost.  May we, may I never lose my focus on you and the gratitude you deserve Father God.   As the world is at odds and we each day try or even wait on the change so needed.   

May we pay it forward with kindness, respect, loyalty, a listening ear, help for those that least expect it, help for those who can do nothing for us.    Never selecting who, when  or why based on color or what they can do for us.   Jesus if we all planted your seeds what a beautiful garden would transpire once again.    

May we grow like wildflowers on every path in any journey we are allowed to travel.   Jesus thank you!   I am the daughter of the Lord most high and for this forever blessed.   No matter what faces, places or powers that be.  Jesus your will forever to be done in all I am connected and deep within me.