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Scripture from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise**** ****Music links and
reference pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ are free for public consumption**** (Disclosure – I am grammatically incorrect most any
day these words flow as a release of this mind maze which gives me my sanity
not to impress the critics or English majors (said with much love and respect)
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Date: 11/15/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/ST56ATKfgfs “Native American Flute Music” @Medication Music for Shamanic Astral Projection, Healing Music
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 119:143 (NIV) ====
Trouble and distress have come upon me, but your commands give me delight.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 89:15 (NIV) ==== 15 Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you,
who walk in the light of your presence, Lord.
==== John 16:33 (NIV) ==== 33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for this new day; thank you for all you allowed me through this week.
May your spirit live and be within all who are suffering this day.
May those full of anger, hurt and spinning out of control because they do not know you feel your blessings.
May all who are out living deceitful ways, taking advantage and hurting others no matter if in China, Africa, Tennessee; from a stage or out at sea; it does not matter be it any other country or states. Lord may your will shine brightly exposing them and helping them change their ways.
May all our children suffering feel your safety and peace Jesus. Be it those in true harm’s way; or just those under fire with battlefields of the mind. The father of all lies is consuming us, one by one and it should never be.
So many smiles as they are barely holding on; so many parents on the floor where the blessings given for love have been cut short; so many exposed or exposing to vial, chemical, or damaging ways.
The times are not the same; the children seem to not be as strong to push through as they did years ago. Turning to rage, hate and anger taking all they do not understand out on so many unsuspecting souls.
Lord if you could come here and now; not just living in the believer’s souls and spirit. We need you Jesus more now than ever.
We need a that new day to be whole in you. Thank you for all you have allowed me. Thank you for allowing me to get back up over and over and over again.
Be it from my own personal let downs; or that of those I love. This is the month of Thanksgiving, though we should be thankful always. The spirit of the season, the reason for the season Jesus is you.
Not the fun colorful lights and happy music. Yes, how beautiful it is to know someone cares enough about you and wants to gift you something; and all the laughter and smiles for many.
Lord may we never lose sight of the truth in you. May all suffering from loss and feeling the impact of those not being there. May they be filled with you given peace and released from the bondage that is destroying so many.
May the souls of all who have been taken that I am connected come to you Jesus. Healed, finally at peace filled with the love only you can allow.
May all here and now; know you are with us all. Please forgive me for all my misdeeds in words or actions; as I forgive those who have done so to me. Please guard and protect all I am connected and fill us with all you are Jesus.
There is no time but now; to know who I am in you. For this I am beyond thankful and always aware you are with me and those who wish and allow by freedom of will and choices to be.
Thank you for the awareness; as you know my story as all others. You love us and want us to walk with you; no matter what. Your will in this life Lord and all I am connected.
No matter what is, what is not; no matter if the world no longer exists or lasts for billions of more years. May your spirit forever be with all I am connected be it blood, friends, bonds, connections.
Simple truths; nothing that any amount of money; expensive material things can burn us up in. Simple truths; Life really is and always has been learning to walk and trust in you.
Thank you God the father; Jesus his one and only son; and Holy Spirit, for allowing me to be found in you; for allowing me your presence and to stop my worldly chase and running.
For it is no fun having the wind knocked out of your sails you no longer even want to exist.
For it is no reason in the world when you walk with God you cannot get back up and forget about quitting
So, what you lose your momentum and even your footing and you are hanging over that edge, that cliff.
Know this, there is no amount of anything in this world; that God has not already dealt with.
So, what if you are continually taking the hits; that you have trouble believing anything anyone says to you; no matter if you just met or have known them your entire life since being a kid.
The only simple truth that we need to grasp; God is the reason why we even exist.
He alone has more for us; no matter what has been done to you; or what you went and did!
Love yourself more and reflect all as God calls for
Forgive often; yourself and all you connect
Know you are worth more than anything this world can give and take
Know others out there doing misdeeds to you and others; they have issues and needs that this world has them entangled and feeds
You are not made for any part of that or them to be. Let God shake it out and let them alone see.
Do not take it personal if they cannot be real; there is so much better just let it be!
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Date: 11/14/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/-hSyfGuDtgY “Hold On” @Jamie Grace
https://youtu.be/iA1Lxro67V8 “Grace Got You” @Mercy Me
Verse of the
Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1Peter 3:18 (NIV) ====
For Christ also suffered once for sins, the
righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the
body but made alive in the Spirit
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 34:5 (NIV) ==== 5 Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.
==== 2 Corinthians 5:21 (NIV) ==== 21 God made him who had no sin to be sin[a] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.
==== 2 Corinthians 3:18 ==== (NKJV) 18 But we all,
with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being
transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as [a]by the Spirit of the Lord.
==== Galatians 5:25 ==== (NIV) 25 Since we live by the Spirit,
let us keep in step with the Spirit.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Lord your spirit is what
blesses and keeps this wanderer from harm and being lost to this vast world.
You allowed me such things in
time and space and even when I was in harm’s way still protected me enough to
carry me through; allowing me to meet you right where you are.
We all get there in our own
time; just as those who have been there the entire existence you allow on this
earth will sometimes forget that connection with you and get lost in this
world.
You do not love or care for
us any less or more; no matter what side of the coin it lands on.
One thing is for sure at some
point for all of us as we are going through portions of our journey our walks;
or perhaps our entire existence.
Our worlds are flipping
upside down, inside out into things we just cannot handle.
Maybe we never have gotten to know you; maybe we have just met you or maybe we
have known you all our existence and we somehow; someway got lost.
Lost and forgot you were our best friend, our keeper, our protector our go to
first.
Instead, we made those of the
world our primary, started listening to the whispers of this world, and allowed
things to seep in consuming us.
Lord, now that I have found
you even if it has been several years; I pray you never allow me to lose my
grip of you. I just keep holding on to the promise and faith in all
things you are.
For this, the world can be a
very lonely place even when surrounded by so many.
When my heart breaks, as I
believe in so much more of people and things that are temporary in this world;
you alone are forever my sustenance.
I will never deny love; the
variations of love you have exposed me to and allowed me to feel.
Those I love from a distance; that which warms my heart; that which I would lay
my life down for.
Just as most parents Lord;
you lay your life down daily as you continue to take all that we fall short
with; all that we are in pain and suffering with over- and-over to that
sacrificial cross.
It makes sense when a parent
would do whatever they can to protect and guard their children.
Some by
entitlement; some by covering up; some by enabling; some by letting them go.
May all have comfort in you
Jesus; may we all, always remember you God and the ultimate choice of giving
your only son so we could have life.
====John 3:16==== 16 For
God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes
in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
We all fall short God; none of us willingly will
ever do for the right reasons in purity or choice; do what you have done so
humanity could live.
Yet you love us anyway! You want more for
us anyway!
Thank you for allowing me
another new day; full of opportunities even in the darkness. Even when I
am impacted, be it by choices or life and choices of others. Even while I
hurt or watch those, I love hurting in pain.
Thank you for all the pieces
that we are getting dropped; shattered and thrown across this earth floor; and
slowly being put back together in your beautiful mosaic canvas of
life.
It does not matter who we
are; what we are; the color of our skin; the sound of our voice; the size of
our being.
What matters is that we belong to the one who
created this universe and that all you want is a personal relationship with us in
our highs and our lows. What matters is we know you
love us; and we reflect love in you along our journey no matter how far or
timely it is to be.
God please come!
Please fill the hearts, reflect, and shine for all to see. If you choose to wave your hand and bless in abundance or you choose to let us find you deeper. May all that you are be all that any of us come to lean on! Thank you for these moments. Please guard and protect all that I am and am connected.
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Date: 11/13/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/ctn7d9EDSHQ “YOU ARE MOVING TO A PLACE THAT GOD HAS PROMISED YOU| God Has Given You” @UpLifting Mind
Verse of the
Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1Peter 2:15-16 (NIV) ====
For it is God’s will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish people. Live as free people, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as God’s slaves.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Colossians 1:27 (NIV) ==== 27 To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
==== Isaiah 42:6 (NIV)==== 6 “I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness;
I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles,
==== Nehemiah 8:10 ==== (NIV) 10 Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks,
and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord.
Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord
is your strength.”
==== Romans 15:13 ==== (AMP) 13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in
believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy
Spirit you will abound in hope and overflow with confidence in His
promises.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me to know; good, bad or indifferent it is and always will be you who sustains me. Thank you for the battles I have been placed in and carried through; no matter if I won; lost or am still in the midst.
For your glorious riches will come to those as we enter the gates of heaven that are embroidered in pearls and jewels where the streets of gold shine so brightly it will be like a mirror or sea of golden glass.
Where we no longer struggle in the darkness for sleep or rest from what breaks us here in this earth and peace will be the only thing that forever is inhaled.
Everything we have fought so hard for here on this earth; our children, our partners, our friends and even strangers. Matters to you Jesus; thank you for allowing us to grow forward in you; and please send your angels for all who are lost and grow weak and just do not get it.
May they be lifted up in strength and power to find you once again.
Forgive those who do not know what they do! Forgive those and send guidance for those who truly do!
Today, tomorrow, yesterday, always or never; You Father are and will always be here.
The Elements; will always be, the spiritual battle will always be; pain, and sorrow, happiness and laughter are only a midst; temporary.
You are eternal! Thank you, for all I do not understand but you are teaching me; thank you for the lessons I have grasped head on.
This world is what it is; until you come Jesus! Then everyone will have to see and know and it all changes. I pray we all get it before that time; I pray we all step up and step out and not just for what we pick and choose; but for what you call us to be and do.
I pray for my children and grandchildren; I pray for the children to come and all who have been lost to this world.
I pray for the scars and am thankful for those you allow me to survive through.
Many will not make it; many will never understand. They do not have to Lord; for it is you that forever matters in the end. It is you that will give the peace that no one can explain or fathom.
Thank you for all you allow to swirl in this mind maze and tap out on paper, this screen, or anywhere you want it to be seen.
Yes, thank you for allowing us to walk through the entire book of Revelations over these past several weeks; and all we have come to know. May all you have given us; be used to honor you.
Guide my mouth, my steps and my actions for your will and not that for my personal gratification, no matter what the cause or effect. In your precious name now and always. Thank you, Jesus.
https://youtu.be/NgF4SjdRP3s “Magnify” @We Are Messengers
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Date: 11/12/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/o113pk2cC9I “Lose Myself” @TobyMac
Verse of the
Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Colossians 1:9 (NIV) ====
For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 23:5 (NIV) ==== 5 You prepare a
table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head
with oil; my cup overflows.
==== John 3:16 (NIV)==== 16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
==== Luke 11:9-10 ==== (NIV) 9 “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and
you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds;
and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
==== Romans 8:32 ==== (NIV) 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us
all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Life is a gift that we all take for granted. We waste our time casting judgement; chasing all that will bring us happiness, make us look better, give us a better status.
They say the universe takes care of itself. Life full of harsh realities reminding me of our outside cat that is always bringing back gifts of what it has caught.
So many good intentions; so many meaningful purposed ideologists. Yet very few realize the gift is just being real, being true to oneself; doing our best to shine the light for positive growth wherever we are.
Here the Lord gives us the gift of life; and in the world we spend our time chasing what we can take, collect, build our empires with; we spend our time losing ourselves to find what really?
Building our kingdoms or truly serving the kingdom the Lord has already laid before us.
Thankful for another new day of opportunity that no matter what I can add to or take from.
For each day, he allows us up; no matter what is or is not according to circumstances we end up.
In addition, no, it does not matter how we got there. We are all suffering loss and heartbreak of some sort.
Even those who are out there trying to one up and be ahead of everyone else; plotting and scheming playing people out for the fake self you are pretending to be in the here and now; will be revealed in God’s timing. Especially come judgement day.
My prayer for you is that you find yourself and fix all you have broken. You may not believe in God’s karma. His wrath, but I do.
The universe if it takes care of you is unjust full of evil and will rip what really is to shreds and like that outside cat leave it at the feet of what should be humanity to clean up; step over and for all you spent a lifetime trying to achieve will be discarded never again to be.
God loves us all; no matter what we look like; what we sound like or what we do or do not do.
We all are blessed and worth more than we will ever give, ourselves credit to be.
Dare to step up, step out in faith, find yourselves at the foot of the cross, and give it all to the one who has allowed us to be https://youtu.be/xUcvp98UrF4 “Better” @Pat Barrett
11/11/2019 Cruising with Kelly
https://www.facebook.com/100002475163076/posts/2559080134184467?d=n&sfns=mo
https://youtu.be/R9LSain-Bk0 "Every
Little Thing” @Young and Free Hillsong
Every little thing we think, we say,
we do; all matters to us in who we are in Christ!
Oh,
how I wish and pray for you.
As
I wish I may; I wish I might.
Oh,
how I wish and pray for you day and night.
Random
thoughts that flow though this head
From
the time I get up until the time I lay back down in bed
We
cannot fix what is broken by others;
We
can only give it to God asking for mercy, grace strength and love
That
never stops what is deep within the soul
For
when love is unconditional; the heart forgets the rules.
So,
no matter what has been done; what cannot be taken back that once was said
We
can choose to love and let it be
Or
allow the world to chew us up and never come to terms going crazy
There
is nothing fair about this journey; nothing easy or free
There
is a price no matter how wrong or right
God
will make us pay up eventually
Oh,
how I wish and pray for you
Oh,
how I wish you were praying for me
I
wish you knew just how much you are loved; beyond all space and time
Beyond
what anyone can ever be
I
love you today, I love you tonight
I
love you even when you are nowhere in sight
No
matter who is wishing; who is praying
No
matter anything or everything
You
are God’s gift, stuck in these prayers and wishes from dusk to daylight
I
wish I could hate you
I
wish I could fight
I
wish I never knew what this world was really like
Yet
all I can do is say Thank you, Jesus, for handling this plight
Thank
you for allowing me riddles and rhymes and knowing love far beyond sight
Oh,
how I wish and pray for you.
As
I wish I may; I wish I might.
Oh,
how I wish and pray for you day and night.
(@AlwaysMeKelly)
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Date: 11/11/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/lk1bstD4nY8 “Changed” @Rascal Flatts
The only Rest I ever find; is that “In The Arms” your Arms Jesus! https://youtu.be/1dxOdCsK-ac @Terrian
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1 John 2:15-16 (NIV) ====
[ On Not Loving the World ] Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them. For everything in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—comes not from the Father but from the world.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Ephesians 1:18 (NIV) ==== 18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people,
==== Psalm 105:4 (NIV)==== 4 Look to the Lord and his strength;
seek his face always.
seek his face always.
==== Deuteronomy 33:25 ==== (NKJV) 25 Your
sandals shall be iron and bronze;
As your days, so shall your strength be.
As your days, so shall your strength be.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord! For this new day of possibilities. Please, be with all who travel today.
May the journey we are on; the highways so congested in life repeating the same thing over and over getting now where or even the road less traveled. May it always shine with your directions and be protected guiding us all, by your favor.
Lord, if those who are lost getting paralyzed and spinning in a world that can be chaotic and damaging. May they come to know your mercy, grace, and cling to all you offer; accepting the blessings of peace and unconditional love all their remaining days!
Thank you, Lord, even if sometimes, many times I miss the mark. Thank you for allowing me the blessings and abilities to be me.
I am blessed no matter what is broken or any missing pieces; and because of this there is never going to be enough gratitude to repay what you have done for me.
The truth when I am lost and do not really know how; is all I desire is that which is of you Jesus. I pray May all you are Jesus is what reflects from this heart; from these eyes and all the love in this soul, which is yours alone.
If I had my way, I would have quit long ago. Reveal in me what you want, where you want, and how you want.
No matter how I try; no matter how much I know that it is not about me. Even after all this time. I still am lost and consumed, then broken.
May the same love that you gave me coming up out of that water Father. May it flow from all that I am; forgive constantly not just when I think I can and stand tall in all you want for me?
Your will for all that I am, all I am connected. Good, bad or indifferent.
Forgive me for making things something they are not; or should not be. Be with all that I love and adore for as long as you allow this life to be in the here and now.
Please reflect your peace, mercy and grace so that others desire see you alone.
If you have gotten us up; if you have given us life. May we learn how to be gracious even we are hanging on by a single thread. May that thread bind us to all that you are and all that you have created us to be for you!
There is nothing fancy on this mind this morning Jesus. You know I have felt very broken over the past several months; discouraged and struggling with just disappearing. Not understanding many things.
Thank you for filling me up and getting me through. No matter what in the end; it is you alone that allows us to “See The Light” https://youtu.be/a1fFkPtOojQ @TobyMac
You Jesus have a way of bringing people together; reflecting pure love from the depths; giving strength that we would never know what next, what we will need.
You give us the words and visions; even we do not understand them or sometimes question them. Yet as we look back. You knew what was to come and gave us purpose and courage to keep getting back up.
Thank you for allowing me to be broken with so many others. You Father God; you are always “Right On Time” https://youtu.be/2SVRCZog5Z4 @Aaron Cole (feat. TobyMac)
I do not have to understand. I know as long as you get me up each day; you are not done with me yet. Because of this, the love you have buried deep within will forever be what you have given
I pray my blood, my babies, your babies and all you adore Father Come to know what this is that consumes me in you. Nevertheless, if not I am thankful for you and how you have allowed me to be called your child!
Please guard my heart; guide my steps and allow me to know when to speak up and when to remain silent in you alone.
Jesus only you know what to do to “Steady Me” https://youtu.be/gSKkr4Zs4CE @Hollyn (feat. Aaron Cole)
Romans 8:1-9 New International Version (NIV)
Life Through the Spirit
8 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death. 3 For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh,[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering.[c] And so he condemned sin in the flesh, 4 in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.
5 Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. 6 The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. 7 The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. 8 Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.
9 You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ.
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We all fall short of the glory of God but it is Jesus that will set us free. We will never be perfect; but we will be fulfilled by God's promises.
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Date: 11/10/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
It is kind of hard after a beautiful night of worship not to wake with what played out so late.
Thank you to all who allowed so many of us in Tampa last night to worship our awesome God!
https://youtu.be/Mflekg7ieX0 “Nobody” @Casting Crowns
https://youtu.be/lKw6uqtGFfo “Who You Say I Am” @Hillsong Worship
https://youtu.be/YNd-PbVhnvA “See A Victory” @Elevation Worship
https://youtu.be/-6BD2z6ue90 “Do It Again” @Elevation Worship
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== JOB 37:5-6 (NIV) ====
God’s voice thunders in marvelous ways; he does great things beyond our understanding. He says to the snow, ‘Fall on the earth,’ and to the rain shower, ‘Be a mighty downpour.’
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 89:15-16 (NIV) ==== 15 Blessed are
those who have learned to acclaim you,
who walk in the light of your presence, Lord. 16 They rejoice in your name all day long;
they celebrate your righteousness.
who walk in the light of your presence, Lord. 16 They rejoice in your name all day long;
they celebrate your righteousness.
==== 1 John 3:19-20 (NIV)==== 19 This is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence: 20 If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.
==== Jude 24-25 ==== (NIV) Doxology
24 To him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to
present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy— 25 to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and
authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore!
Amen.
==== Psalm 41:12 ==== (NLT) 12 Because of my
integrity you uphold me
and set me in your presence forever.
and set me in your presence forever.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Before I can do anything, I thank you Jesus. Nothing in this world has to be! None of us have to exist. Yet you breathed life into each one of us. No matter what our circumstances. No matter how far ahead we get or how far behind we remain. As long as we know you are with us and all that is in this world is temporal before we are taken home with the God of the universe.
https://youtu.be/YzkRjangfp8 “Defender” @Francesca Battistelli & Steffany Gretzinger
Smart technology makes us dumb sometimes; and others is a saving grace. For me this morning I did not have to roll out of bed where you held me allowing me to tap out thoughts on the smart phone. After some meditation and just truly feeling your comfort all around my spirit.
Nothing Lord happens in this world without it going through your hands first; the same hands that hold this universe.
Not everyone will get you; want you; live for you; or love as you do.
Thank you, Father God, Son of man - Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit you have allowed to come live within.
I ask in advance; please guide and protect all I am, all I am connected and all you have blessed in this blood line. For all that I am belongs to you Jesus; including the air that flows in these lungs.
Technology a blessing or a curse. It can fill you up with the best of days or make you wish you were not alive and feel cursed.
So, forgive me if I do not respond back; acknowledge you that tap on this network’s window or respond to your words. Forgive me when I rudely shut you down as you do not even know me, and you speak words of love!
This world is full of words and even more games. On a network or right in front of one’s face.
For all this may touch, in Christ I pray you receive all your hearts desires for you and yours. These are words I merely just type or say.
My truthful intent not seeking anything, but if I did only that something that is real.
Truth good bad or indifferent; yet in return to find all that time I being so transparent you could see right through me and you did what you did for whatever your own self-gratification plans.
A bitter pill to swallow the truth can be in the end; Oh, but how blessed I really am, to know I am still alive and able to fall in humanity.
Not just forging through the wilderness of this universe ignoring all who come near. Reminding me I am a true believer everything does happen for a reason.
We dream dreams feel love, laughter, pain and sorrow for more than we will ever know.
Heeding warnings for later the pains this world shall feel; as they suffer in mourning.
Jesus is alive as that final rainbow in the sky reflecting through the tears as your hearts silently forever cry.
No one deserves anything that may or may not be a lie.
What is for sure Jesus did not ever have to suffer and die!
So these moments of being gullible living in this life through imagination or played out lies.
Though some scars run deep. For this I will be forever grateful to know I am held in Christ and allowed to love others through him without expectation. No matter if my own heart breaks or soul leaks. That of the blood of Christ has me when I allowed God to wash me clean.
Even if only;
Wanting something real was all I need in this life to feel.
Perhaps knowing a glimpse of His pain is all that really is needed; to find the Strength in Him alone is what will sustain us. For He alone took the pain to allow us to pursue truth and love.
For the deception, greed being tripped up by others in this world that changed sons’ daughters’ mothers’ fathers’ sisters and brothers. His alone is a love like no other.
Still for what in the end of what is temporary seeking our own personal pleasures.
Know this as it will be your ultimate price in the end. Each time you sin against someone, be it foe, family or a so-called friend. You too are not exempt for your deeds in foolishness or pretense.
So forgive me as I wasn’t intentionally seeking here or now even if I got caught up believing for a while even then.
One thing Is for sure, I’ll stand before ten enemies in truth before allowing that knife to cut so deep all over from a fake friend ever again.
Actions will always speak louder than words and I do pray blessings and I have forgiveness for all now and back then. Even for myself and the moments I have caused distance from the great I Am!
If you want to know the real me, if you want my unconditional love. You need to truly know God and walk even closer to his son. No expectations; no lies just all you got for all He gave.
For in and through Him. God the father the son and Holy Spirit three in one.
Will forever hold this chosen child’s heart with all the strength power and love far beneath the depths of this soul and from the inside out.
It is true within these depths is a love for so long that will always belong to that of my Forever Sweet Soul King.
Where that leads; I do not know. However, what matters in this world is that of what is fierce, what is truth, and what is meant to be. Is not based on words, pretense, actions or all that may be. What will be will be; yet proof of just how you cherish life and who you truly are not that of what you pretend to be.
For the riddles of the heart that guard who we are; walk around powering up; or taking us down.
On the highest of high or the lowest depths; God is not finished with any of us yet!
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Ending my day knowing this https://youtu.be/UyLnhn-IATk “Get Back Up Again” @TobyMac
No matter what derails us or throws us off guard; God is with us. No matter how much pain; struggle; wrong or right. He will carry you when you cannot move. You just have to allow him in and purpose with him daily and believe.
Life is hard; so much harder at times than I can every imagine and I have been through allot in my time on this earth.
Never would I have thought I would have felt some of the pain for those I love, for myself or even at times for those I will never meet. But I don’t have to have this. Neither do you; Jesus took everything to the cross so we could live; so, we could love and so we could heal and know we are all broken people and we all lose our way and make mistakes.
Never let temporary setbacks; misfortune or even loss of anything that you really care for paralyze you from the future God has waiting. Get back up; wipe off; and reflect the light that God created you to shine. It’s hard I know; try being the only immersed believer in a family of the world. Not judge as I laugh out loud.
Let’s just say; you’re a teen; you bite the bullet and learn out to get back up; but I will try to detour you. A child; I will do whatever I can to raise the flag to protect innocence of this world.
Within reason; we all have to learn from our mistakes. But we as adults; it’s our duty to lead the way by example. Not turn our heads; not cover up and absolutely never take advantage.
But even after if we are allowed to grow up; we will still lose our way in this world. So, grasp on to God and all he is. Meet Jesus where you are. And get back up knowing he is right there with you.
Never stop loving those that inspire you! If you lose your way; if you get knocked down. Call out to Jesus and get back up! No matter what. Just keep smiling wherever you can; even if you have tears in your eyes.
Turn the music up drowning out the father of all lies; Satan and all his schemes and helpers have already been defeated. Know that! “One Day” https://youtu.be/So94m-Lp6Pw @Cochren & Co
We will see the promise land.
Stay blessed and if things are hard; pray harder most of all; never stop trying
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Date: 11/09/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/dXmaE0041Y0 “True Colors” @ Cyndi Lauper (MattyBRaps cover ft Olivia Kay)
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Isaiah 1:18 (NIV) ====
“Come
now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord. “Though
your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red
as crimson, they shall be like wool.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Luke 12:22-26 (NIV) ==== At that
moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth
shook, the rocks split
==== Deuteronomy 31:6 (NIV)==== 10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
==== 2 Corinthians 10:5 ==== (NIV) 27 But you remain the same, and your years will never end.
==== Isaiah 1:17-19 ==== (NLT) 16 Wash
yourselves and be clean!
Get your sins out of my sight. Give up your evil ways.
17 Learn to do good. Seek justice. Help the oppressed.
Defend the cause of orphans. Fight for the rights of widows.
Get your sins out of my sight. Give up your evil ways.
17 Learn to do good. Seek justice. Help the oppressed.
Defend the cause of orphans. Fight for the rights of widows.
18 “Come now, let’s settle this,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like
scarlet,
I will make them as white as snow. Though they are red like crimson,
I will make them as white as wool. 19 If you will only obey me,
you will have plenty to eat. 20 But if you turn away and refuse to listen,
you will be devoured by the sword of your enemies. I, the Lord, have spoken!”
I will make them as white as snow. Though they are red like crimson,
I will make them as white as wool. 19 If you will only obey me,
you will have plenty to eat. 20 But if you turn away and refuse to listen,
you will be devoured by the sword of your enemies. I, the Lord, have spoken!”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Lord thank you for the song you put in my heart and allow to come out of this mind maze so early in the morning. Thank you for the message last night and again this morning out of the book of Isaiah.
As this past week is ending and I was relaxing just thinking and jotting down thoughts and finding passage for the things weighing heavy on me.
How, I can find myself giving all I make away; leaving myself to start from the beginning time and time again.
The weight heavy on my being as I look around and realize, even though the here and now seems to not be what I would like to see transpire.
I cannot take anything with me when I leave; Yet knowing, I am getting too damn old for this. As everything in my here and now is falling down around me and my immediate concerns even with some reminding me, I should always be only focused on what is right in front of me.
This week the weight of life around me shook me to the core. From family illness, necessity impacts, and just getting pounded with one thing after the other. What felt like no reprieve even though I know Jesus it is you I must be confiding in.
I tend to carry it not so much trying to figure it out; or even not the fact I am not talking, praying and leaning on you. But just so unclear where or why.
Then it was you Lord, as I climbed into your word. You took me directly to the book of Isaiah last night and then again first thing this morning.
That weight of how I can continue to put myself out there trusting and helping all that I do not know; getting burnt at least a quarter of the time and on this occasion losing hope in humanity.
It is not secret people in this world, want what they want when they want it and some do not care who they use, what they use to get it. Those who are not in obedience and walking with you Father God end up paying the ultimate price.
As the weight of my world to what feels like this week is crashing down on me not around me. You took me to the book of Isaiah and all I could do for the first five minutes was just sit staring at “Help the oppressed”. You did not take me through the entire book then; you did not say make sure they are really oppressed; that they are really in need. You did not say even though common sense lets us know to be cautious; that we must go justify every single reason why someone is in desperate need.
I get that I have to pull myself together; and know that no one is promised tomorrow so make sure I do not set myself up for harm and discomfort. Especially being you have blessed me with others life to look after.
So, no matter this weight I sometimes carry that I did not have to; thank you for allowing me to be me. Thank you for being with me; when I sometimes lose myself and want to run and give up. Thank you for even the songs and the words that no one else may ever understand.
Such as waking with the song True Colors and as I go to listen and try to understand what meaning it has on me and my life. Or even what meaning or message that comes to be as I awake with and tap out.
You allow me to find a beautiful new version outlining how beautiful and uniquely made we all are. We are all our own unique individuals; beautifully broken all with purpose and meaning; laughter and pain; fears and courage.
We are all your children and none of us; are exempt from you. Even if there will be many that use the freedom of will that you allow; to not walk closely and really get to know you Jesus.
We are all made for a purpose in you Christ; we all have shortcomings; we are all beautiful and worth more than this world can give or take.
How anyone really gets to know you or when. I will never really know that, nor do I want to.
It took me years to really not know of you but really come to know you; When I fell in love with you Jesus I am not sure; but even though I have, even though I rely on you, even now I do that tug of war. Handing it over then pulling it back.
So, Holy Spirit, thank you, for being with me always, for allowing me to rest quietly in you after the storms rage within and I beat myself up for things I do not see happen or unfortunately those that I do that are not as they really could have been in a positive light.
I will never claim to be perfect; in fact, I am far from.
However; I am a true child of God. For this I know, no matter what shakes me, or can be taken from me, or breaks down I will always be filled with you.
No matter what is given here and now; it will never compare to the peace in the presence of Jesus that fills those who believe.
Nature in this world will take its course; all living things will no longer walk this earth at the time you destine. Unfortunately, some will be tragic, some will be evil, and many will go far too soon according to the world. But all will stand before you when it is time.
So, no matter what I do or do not understand or even why or how I am pulling these words for today’s message.
I just know you gave me who I am AlwaysMe long back; and I cannot change who I am; trying to mask or pretend or even letting any hurt or anger I have felt over my years to consume me. It is what it is! Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is not promised.
I never planned my life as it is; but you Lord, sustain me every step of the way. Even when I am sometimes excitable trying to make the day to day work.
Corralling up my day to day for delivery in my job or even just day to day. Smiling much or even sometimes with tears streaming for my life; for others.
You Jesus fill me with a peace that only those who have that relationship with you understand.
So, what is this message about Jesus. AlwaysMeKelly being just a nobody trying to tell somebody about you. https://youtu.be/1yBzIt_z8oY “Nobody” @ Casting Crowns
The fact is; I may not consider myself to wanting to be a hero; for crying out loud most days I cannot even get out of my own way. Many times, silently crying for the need of someone to just take care and be with and for me. But here I am no hero of any sort but that more of a rescue ranger.
Out thinking I am doing good and trying to fix those that came to me; getting burned time and time again. Admirable at times for what I can do; sure, for everyone! I know where I came from; what path I have climbed and who I belong to.
I will never understand why I do the things I do at times and may constantly ask why I am still here; or what is my purpose; never will I be the hero for you are Jesus! And “What If I Gave Everything” https://youtu.be/tP27ySgbYLU @ Casting Crowns
What if; am I not already; No! I am still learning and growing with you Jesus.
To have a strong awareness of what oneself in you Jesus; well it can be very dangerous.
It gives you just enough confidence that if you are not careful; you just do without thinking and then like climbing up on a rooftop with no one around just to check out where water was getting in; even if the building is only ten feet up.
You have no plan; you have no spotters or accountability supporting you; helping you work out the what ifs something goes wrong.
You just put yourself out there and even when common sense does kick in sometimes even if after the fact when you have a mess to clean up.
Jesus knows our hearts, and the love and desires he puts deep within the soul.
He knows who is out there just doing because that is how they are wired; and who is out there purposely plotting and scheming.
So, no matter what mess you find yourself in; or how heavy the world and all that comes with it may seem.
In the end we should never change who we are that is good, that is pure and that is love.
We should learn and if given more time to correct and carry on; choose wisely with who you entangle your being with; who you decide you will help, support, be that rescue ranger for.
Always, keeping in mind only God is the final hero that can save us. Because no matter what our good intentions are. For me I do know it is “In Christ Alone- I Stand” https://youtu.be/gMixnWehee0 @Kristian Stanfill
For this no matter how much time I am given I am forever thankful.
Lord, please be with all who call upon you; showing them the way to grow through this world in you finding peace, healing and what is next for you. Shining onward, perfectly broken in all the shattered pieces of this world beautiful as your mosaic canvas. Allowing us to realize we all bleed the same; and all fall short of the true glory of God that was intended.
May your will be done on my life and all I am connected. Hold me and all who are reaching out as this ride will be the ride of our worldly lives, but nothing will ever compare to what is awaiting in eternity.
Thank you for this new day of opportunity and promise in you.
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Date: 11/08/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/U0EW0s1fN-8 “Crazy” @Gnarls Barkley
https://youtu.be/JGfawtmZBbk “Dear Me” @ Nichole Nordeman
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Joshua 24:15 (NIV) ====
But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Matthew 27:51 (NIV) ==== At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top
to bottom. The earth shook, the rocks split
==== Isaiah 41:10 (NIV) 10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
==== Psalm 102:27 ==== (NIV) 27 But you
remain the same, and your years will never end.
==== Acts 17:28 ==== (NIV) 28 ‘For in him we
live and move and have our being.’[a] As
some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’[b]
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you for this day Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
Thank you for all you allow me to get through and start again with promise and hope in you.
As I literally shook yesterday; I realized no one is exempt. There will always be things out of our control. There will always be lessons that make lasting impressions. For some they will use it to their advantage for others they will just keep on the path not listening, not feeling the need to acknowledge change is needed.
May I learn even in the moments that shake me how to hold true to you alone Jesus. For this world is temporary and although this heart wishes nothing to harm anyone especially in which I am connected.
May I know it is you that the earth trembled and shook when that veil was torn. You are in control; no matter if strangers, broken things, illness of loved one’s or just being stuck and not understanding.
Maybe, I am crazy and if so; I made it there a long time ago. Please be with me to serve the best I can with what I am allowed. To know and be carried by you Jesus is worth more that what this world can give or take. Even when it hurts badly, even when you allow the memories to come back and smile in our hearts.
Thank you for this day and any that are to come. Please guide my steps, lead my actions, guarding my mouth along each path.
