03.31.2021_March(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Wednesday, March 31, 2021 

Meditation Opportunities

Isaiah 53:5-6 (MSG)    

^2-6 The servant grew up before God—a scrawny seedling,
    a scrubby plant in a parched field.    There was nothing attractive about him, nothing to cause us to take a second look.  He was looked down on and passed over,  a man who suffered, who knew pain firsthand.

One look at him and people turned away.   We looked down on him, thought he was scum.
But the fact is, it was our pains he carried—    our disfigurements, all the things wrong with us.
We thought he brought it on himself,  that God was punishing him for his own failures.

But it was our sins that did that to him, that ripped and tore and crushed him—our sins!

He took the punishment, and that made us whole.  Through his bruises we get healed.
We’re all like sheep who’ve wandered off and gotten lost.  We’ve all done our own thing, gone our own way.  And God has piled all our sins, everything we’ve done wrong, on him, on him.

 

Isaiah 53:5-6 (NIV)    

⁵ But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
⁶ We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to our own way;
and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.

 

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

“The more intimately you experience Me, the more convinced you become of My goodness.”

Psalm 34:8  Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

Genesis 16:13-14 AMP  So she called the name of the Lord who spoke to her…[the Living one Who sees me]

John 20:19  “On the evening of the first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!”

Colossians 3:15  Let the peace of Christ rule your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace.  And be thankful.

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

 

Well March you have come and gone already.  Here we are blessed up and running already 3 months out of the year is gone and everything is the same but different.

 

Here we are with many lessons of each new day and the ability of getting back up because of you alone Lord, and the knowledge of so much more to learn, do, be or even seize in the moments of opportunity for each second, we are given.   Thank you for this day and all that have come to pass.   Thank you for allowing me riches of connection and abilities to understand it is not about me.  All The Riches Of You @Christ For The Nations Worship

 

Never knowing what is up next, just trusting in you Jesus.   I would be a hot mess and am most days even knowing you have me.   If I did not know you, I would be a psychotic minion always trying to have things worked out and freaking out because they just do not always work out how we think they should.

 

First of all, Lord forgive me for those offenses small or big I have done inadvertently or directly to anyone I have connected.    More so, forgive those and lead them to your will and guidance in doing what is right not for their own selfish needs or ploys and schemes.   But your will alone.    May they pay forward the kindness and love that has been showered on them even if it was not to their substantial requirements.

Some time back I prayed all the bad fruit be removed and you are true to your children Lord and with that some of the least expected moments and memories are forever deep within.  

Heal my connections through you and your will Jesus!  Heal this nation, this world.

It is no different in our inadequacies from day one to now.   We have just gotten louder in force and still all are abundantly selfish getting it consumed and confused in releasing all we are and are to be in your creation.  Image of God @We Are Messengers

 

 As we are working our way to Resurrection Sunday.  Even when we do not realize our good person lacking Jesus persona’s God forgive us please; just one more time while we are still here to choose.

Protecting the innocent, the babies, the future, and the elders and all the wise who have found you and have lived through more than anyone ever gives credit or talks about.

 

I could pour out all the things that weigh heavy on my heart and being.  But Jesus you already know these things.   You know the who, the what, the when.   As I faithfully remain holding on to you Jesus you are and always will stand true to your promises.  Even if we cannot see or hear the truth coming to life.    Even if I never have a chance to see you face to face I will always believe in, with and for all you were Jesus, all you are and all you will be throughout eternity.     Promises (feat. Joe L Barnes & Naomi Raine) - Maverick City | TRIBL

 

Search me and all I am connected and for each day you allow us back up Father God.  Direct every step, every breath and every second of any days allowed.   Hidden Places @Veritical Worship

Gratitude is just a small portion of worship and thankfulness within even the smallest spaces of life we know things could be so much different.   Being a productive member of society, working towards being smarter and not working harder for all that is temporal.   Living beyond more than what is temporal.   Loving in the depths outside in as you love us all inside out.  May every soul experience being in the middle of thousands praising and singing to you Jesus where your life flows moving the electricity of love, truth, and abundant peace.   Consume me Jesus; and all I ever will be.    From The Inside Out @Hillsong UNITED

 

None of us really know if a tomorrow will come and if it does; how will it really turn out?  We can plan, we can panic, we can fight, we can hustle, we can do everything right or we can set the stage doing whatever we feel like it to no matter who we feel like.  In the end we all pay the price for all the deeds we do and even when all those deeds are good, and we cannot see the blessing; we know it will come.    May that hope, that faith of it will come! Shine brighter than ever before for all those really feeling the world this day, no matter what the cause.   You are a God of miracles    Miracle @Tauren Wells

No matter what is, what was or what will be.  Show me how to lead those you put in my path.  Leading by example, reflecting we are just humans.  Believing in what we believe and seeking the greater good, the something better and sometimes spinning out of control as our heart strings get caught up on the edges of life.        May only you Jesus be what unravels me, unravels all I connect and touch.   Unraveling @Cory Asbury  No longer a slave as I cling to your freedom.    Thank you for all the days I have been given.  All the heartbreaks, pains to grow through, and life of blessings to know I am up again this day with no one to thank but you Jesus!    I am a child you called out of the darkness as I look back so early on.

   As so many moments I could have been that statistic and gone from this world.    You called me out of the darkness, and I am no longer a slave of what the world says we should be.    Yet I am glued together in your promise and light of light awaiting to be set free. May every soul come to know the choice of freedom and be set free from the darkness lurking.  Spiritually, physically bind every connection in love, in hope, in all that is good.  Thank you Jesus!  No Longer Slaves @Bethel Music

03.30.2021_March(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Tuesday, March 30, 2021 

Meditation Opportunities

Isaiah 53:3-4 (MSG)     

^2-6 The servant grew up before God—a scrawny seedling,
    a scrubby plant in a parched field.    There was nothing attractive about him, nothing to cause us to take a second look.  He was looked down on and passed over,  a man who suffered, who knew pain firsthand.

One look at him and people turned away.   We looked down on him, thought he was scum.
But the fact is, it was our pains he carried—    our disfigurements, all the things wrong with us.
We thought he brought it on himself,  that God was punishing him for his own failures.

But it was our sins that did that to him, that ripped and tore and crushed him—our sins!

He took the punishment, and that made us whole.  Through his bruises we get healed.
We’re all like sheep who’ve wandered off and gotten lost.  We’ve all done our own thing, gone our own way.  And God has piled all our sins, everything we’ve done wrong, on him, on him.

 

Isaiah 53:3-4 (NIV)     

³ He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

⁴ Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God,
    stricken by him, and afflicted.

 

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

Trust Me at all times!

Proverbs 3:5  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

Deuteronomy 33:27  The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.  He will drive out your enemy before you, saying, “Destroy him!”

Jeremiah 29:13-14  “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you, “ declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity.  I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exhile.”

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

 

Life is what it is until it is not; period…

Make it count now and get it right with the maker and creator of all things.  We do not get any do overs once our post mark to exit this planet is stamped and we leave the vessels we were given and are at the crossroads waiting to meet Jesus’ face to face.

Do you know what changes you have to go north or south eternally?    Have you purposed in life of the here and now to meet Jesus while living?   

If you have denied him here, you have no chance in the thereafter to reconcile and ask for forgiveness and change your ways.

If you are holding back because your friends will not understand or may even laugh at you.   Well, you are not acknowledging your own self worth or that of what matters most.

Real friends will always be friends for the best of life and the worst of life. 

Real friends will always want to just be your friend no matter what crazy you plug into.   So if they think you are crazy for believing in all that is true, all that has been written for centuries, all that will always be.    Then ask them to ride that train with you.  Hallelujah Train @Kay Morris

 

 

 

I have to admit as I am writing and things trigger, I search out music and it makes it allot of fun with some of the tunes I am able to tap into.  All the while stories unfold or are just being written.

 

So, one thing is for sure.  I am not perfect or 100% pure in worth for God to even give me the time of day.  But I am 210% pure in intentions and love for the savior who gave it all so I can live.    That alone and the peace I have been given since I openly stop worrying what others think when it comes to who I call my best friend.  Is worth every second of those that couldn’t hang for what may never be seen here and now but will always be pure and abundant eternally.

I do not have to prove anything to the King of Kings, Sweetest Soul maker and keeper ever.  I do not have to have it all together, I do not have to have millions or even a dollar.  I do not have to be a super model.   To know I am enough for the one who gives me life itself.

Jireh @Elevation Worship & Maverick City

 

Thankful for this day and any others given; even when I miss the mark. 

Lord for all those who cling to these so-called friends who within a second of them not getting what they want; turn on a dime.   Talking negative and trash at times trying to make others look bad so the light does not shine on their own being.   For all those who lie, cheat, steal and use up; taking advantage of those who believe in them.   Lord bring their darkness into the light and cleave and put them in the fire them until they are clean.

May they deal with their own demons and stop trying to hide in others. 

 

There will always be those days when someone has something to point out that we are doing wrong, or looking wrong, or just not fitting in the mold they think and sometimes insist we belong.

 

Lord give all those in need, even the one’s that cannot be truthful with their own self, much less anyone else.   The knowledge who you really are and the forgiveness and chance to just be who you created them to be.  

Who You Say I Am @Hillsong Worship   

As I walk through events of days past and maybe even going forward.   Lifting all that is in my heart up to you Jesus.   Lifting the healing needs of family, and friends to you and the foot of the cross.   Seeking wisdom and guidance for even my own day to day.   It is you alone Lord that knows everything thing before it ever happens.  It's You @TobyMac, Matt Maher, Terrian

Be with me and all I am connected especially on those days we just are floored and unable to get back up without your hand.

Those days when we watch those, we love in the spin of all that is temporal yet life itself seems to be coming to an end for them and nothing we can do to make them understand or just breathe.    Just Breathe @Jonny Diaz

 

The players keep playing, those who choose to not want to dare to be different but just follow for whatever reason.     At some point we all have to pick and choose what we will allow to keep putting up with, doing or accepting.    

 Living in a world of daily hard lessons, even the best intentions go for bad reasons that we just do not pay attention as they were there all along.     Never say never and for all those who tell you trust them they will never.      Run! 

 

Yesterday I myself had to ask someone to leave my property just because they are not healthy for themselves and especially not for my family members that I allow to share life with.    It is not always easy, but boundaries are necessary.    

What I can say is I pray they do not come back because I do not like the ugly me that triggers choices some may regret.     I wish everyone I have ever crossed paths with; good, bad or those I should have run from.  Nothing but what God allows them to have.

He gives and takes away. Praise You In the Storm @Casting Crowns

 God  calls us to be good stewards of our lives and those that are precious to us.   Not just for money but he calls us to be good stewards for everything he gives us.   Our very own beings, and all the gifts of housing, material items, money, and people.

If we do not stand for our own beings, and what has been given; who really will?

 

Jesus gave all He was in human form and more so that we all could have abundant life.   And as hard as it gets at times.   I am going to keep fighting forward to hold onto what good I am allowed in this life.   I don’t care who is with me and who is not.

Sadly, yes it does bring tears to my eyes at times that I think this way.   But I cannot control what others choose to do.  I can only pick up the pieces of the choices I have made and just keep fighting forward until I am able to see the maker face to face and at least beg if needed that I am enough to make it to the big house in the heavens  Big House @Audio Adrenaline

With that Jesus, Come heal us and this land!

You know all things, may that same sweet voice that called me out, call every soul I am connected and better yet; may they answer your calling.   If not; please give me strength for the heartbreak that will happen, for the healing that will always be needed; and your direction and will alone and limit my own.   As you know I can make a mess of things quick and easy believing so much in the world and those in it.    May I always seek and follow you first!

 

Thank you for this day and all the spin of my own mind maze. 

03.29.2021_March(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

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 Daily Journal/ Prayers & just Thinking Out Loud 3/28/2021

A beautiful Sunday service @ New Life Christian Church – Spring Hill  https://fb.watch/4xtnS8lEz6/

 

Just passing thoughts 3-28-2021 Perspectives cruising with AlwaysMeKelly

My Sunday was a day of rest from social media including writing.   So here I am today up and blessed another day.   Sharing yesterday’s service and just those passing perspectives LOL.  Always have some.  WE all do, right?  

Date: Monday, March 29, 2021 

 

 Daily Journal/ Prayers & just Thinking Out Loud

Interesting but true we all believe in something right.  

So today touching in my controversial side that I sometimes read about, listen to here today I am tapping into a couple of speakers that absolutely hit that nail with their freedom of speech and saying what most people would not dear even let you know they are thinking.

 

First of all, I am not here to force anyone’s opinion on anyone.  Just like my perspectives shared.  We all get to choose what we want to feed our minds, body, and spirits.    This morning I happened to be intrigued enough to share the following two speakers if for nothing else but to challenge every living soul to stand up and think for themselves.   To stand up even if you are standing alone.  And to stop stereotyping every single thing and yes acknowledge across the world humanity has a huge heart issue.  

Thus, allowing what we feed on, to create beliefs and actions upon so in whatever next steps we take. In this clip from Facebook Graham Allen although I cannot justify one way or the other of his facts around all of the information he is speaking on.  He is passionate and speaking facts when it comes to the lack of discipline and lack of heart for what is good, what believes America was found on and that it is not a color issue.  As we all bleed red; the heart and the actions that pour out are the true    Daily Rant: We have no heart @Graham Allen  

 

 

My thoughts out loud.    There may be many ways that lead us to a sort of temporal peace or excitement, or we think blessing.  And maybe it is at that time and place of where we are at in life.  

However, there is and always has been only one true God, and the only way to get to him is through Jesus Christ!  

Starting out and the first thing I see is interesting and just another moment of truth as I listened to this first public post.   We all believe in something right.  

 There may be many ways that lead us to a sort of temporal peace or excitement, or we think are blessings.  Maybe it is at that time and place of where we are at in life and us what we choose. We all get there in our own time.  Where there is; what we choose to believe for lasting joy or finding peace.   There is only and always has been only true God, and the only way to get to him is through Jesus Christ!

 

Interestingly God allows the unqualified to do his bidding and allows their voice, their writing, their passion to reflect no big surprises.  However maybe just that nudge needed to wake us up in a sleeping world.    A Shocking Message to Anyone Who Calls Themselves Christians @OffTheKirbMinistries  

 

How true it is that the world is known for so many misdeeds to those preaching Christianity.  Those who are raising up Jesus’ name are still being killed and tortured around the world.   Just at times for believing in the greater good, hoping for peace and love and something brighter than the negative or even evil that overshadows all we can be in this journey we are allowed.

 

Yes, the  But why? Sits with me wondering if there is no God, if things that are pure, good, and bright are wrong, why does the darkness and all it consumes fight so hard to eradicate or eliminate before it feeds into others and grows something beautiful.

 If he our God and his son Christ Jesus;  is not real.  Why must we eliminate those who preach hope?  

 If it is not real than why do, we not just leave it and let those who try and speak on it go.

  Like all the other things that this world freely challenges, broadcasts, fights, or tries to sell to anyone that will listen.

Why do we not just turn our heads and have one big hopeful love fest?

Because darkness is seeping into our hearts, our vision, our minds.  Darkness always tries to force it’s cover over all the light.   

Do we not know though, even if some collateral damage leaves irreversible damage, the light will never be blocked, closed, or covered when it comes to what is true, what is pure what is real!   I choose to hold onto Jesus as my light house, light in the darkness my very breath and meaning for life.  Light In the darkness @Hillsong  

 

No matter what we believe, no matter what the storm.  The above-mentioned speakers in the links shared have some truth of their own towards the awareness we as a nation, as a people have a huge heart issue.   Even for those who believe in the same things most days.  We have an issue when we feel, something better fit for us comes along. 

Or even just following through being real and true to our own beings and then of course our family, our children, our friends and so on.

 

The world is so dangerous, so vast and so necessary for survival.   I pray I may never lose confidence or lose my strength while facing whatever may come and not turn it into what it should never be.  Lord give all I am connected all that reads this heart your will, your confidence! Confidence @Sanctus Real

 

We should always know and have enough confidence without our own beings to create conditions to allow people comfortable to hear and respond truthfully as well.    It does not mean although we are doing what we do, and it is truthful, pure and with clean and clear intent.  The receptor on the other end will be truthful or even kind in however they are responding.   Not everyone has no agenda’s when they are connecting to you.

 

Some have true intentions, while others have their hidden agenda’s and although that is the most truthful about them; they will put up a façade and run the game on you or whoever they are trying to achieve something from.    Those people do not deeply care what happens to anyone but themselves.        

Like a drug addict does not care while they are stealing a dying persons drugs that will keep them alive, nor care at the moment it could even keep them alive.   They will only care for the moment they are in and do or say whatever it takes to find their way in and to that vault that the drugs are stored.    Now I know that is an extreme scenario but a truthful one.  Especially knowing most drug addicts are and will never be the clear mind pure heart that we once knew before darkness consumed them.

 

We all have a voice; we all have a choice and both of them matter!  Voice Of God @Dante Bowe ft Steffany & Chandler Moore  

Whatever you are finding yourself in, whatever you believe in, whatever you are standing or even falling apart for.   Give it to Jesus; call upon his amazing grace, his name that will never turn you away.   Amazing Grace @Gary Downey @youtube.com

 

There is nothing I can say, I can do to make you believe.  I can share the voices that make common sense, I can share the louder voices not afraid of speaking out and getting us thinking.  Or hopefully thinking and not reacting and finding we are burning at the end.

Easter Sunday is coming, and He has risen then and will rise again.    No matter what we believe or react to; nothing will change the hands and purpose of Gods will. 

Until then love yourself, love others and do not assume its always about you.  Do not assume those you love that cannot freely accept you is because of you.  Kindness matters, we are all toppled up and falling over with the weights of the world and the collection of particles are all carrying.

Be a good human to yourself and know your worth!  Be good to others even if their actions and deeds do not deserve it.

None of us deserve to be here; yet Jesus died so we can have life.    Show your gratitude in all you do and light it up everywhere you go. Light It Up @Terrian

More importantly dare to be different, dare to make a difference for all that is good all that is lasting.   One change at a time, one soul at a time together can make the world a beautiful place.  While we are trying to get there love the reason, we are here in the first place.  Without Jesus we would not exist. 

 

 Romans 12:2 (MSG)  Place Your Life Before God

12 ^1-2 So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.

 

Meditation Opportunities

2 Corinthians 5:21 (NIV)     

²¹ God made him who had no sin to be sin^[a] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

Stop trying to know the future, stop trying to work things out before their time is ready.  Accept limitations of living one day at a time.   Find blessings right where you are! 

 

Ecclesiastes 3:1  There is a time fore everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.

Ecclesiastes 8:6:7  For there is a proper time and procedure for every matter, though a man’s misery weighs heavily upon him.  Since no man knows the future, who can tell him what is to come?

John 16:33  “I have told you these things, so that you in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble

03.27.2021_March(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Saturday, March 27, 2021 

 

 Daily Journal/ Prayers & just Thinking Out Loud

Good morning and happy blessed Saturday wherever it may be for you. 

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me up another day.   Be with me and all I connect with, to, through on this journey you allow me to take. 

 

So that infamous question that has been shadowing my thoughts all weeks had a lesson about to pour out for me.   Why do we do what we do?    Yet, You Love us; Love me no matter what Jesus!  You Still Love Me @Tasha Cobbs  

Running back to you Jesus each and every day giving you me; is all I have to give.  Wishing I was more like you, knowing I will all fall short but fighting forward in all I am, all I do.   Aaron Cole - LIKE YOU (feat. Tauren Wells & TobyMac)

 

So what about it?  That IT? That question: Do we really even think about why we do what we do; or do we think about in advance how we plan to react when what we choose and what we do reflects an end result.   Good, bad, or indifferent!  

We will react when we find out what we are doing; even when we are doing it for something better, the greater good or well you get my drift hopefully.  We are not just doing something because we can.  But some of us do.  

Anyway, there is no lie that despite my lifelong journey through brokenness, lost pieces, illness, and recovery of many scars. 

I have and am blessed with abundance to have known what it feels like to have loved and lost.  The pain is far greater to have never known love at all! 

I know what it is like to have it all that filled my spirit; to fill my needs or desires and lost it all.  To have the biggest heart giving all I got and be flattened and never be enough, do enough or have enough and have to fight to get back up; more times than I care to share.  

Sure, at my own hands and choices and many times through others.

  I will never say any different.    Even on the moments where before truly diving in to meet Jesus; I know I had blessings and especially as I look back at history and see the world around me.

Adults put their trust or assumptions in the hands of other adults and leave their children for safe keeping, or even get into messes themselves and the children/gifts of life and legacy are bumped, bruised, and sometimes harmed if not destroyed along the way.

The demons and darkness of everyone always comes to light.   Sometimes just not before loss and suffering picks its collateral damaged pieces. Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace) @Hillsong Worship  

 

But that is neither here nor there.    Still blessed to have the choice to decide how will I react to what happens next. What if those choices I make do not turn out as I hoped for?  

I still get to choose what I will do next.  And nope I do not always react or get it right! 

     Everyone knows I work hard, most times harder than I need to.  But I have been out here on my own for a long time.     Over the years this college graduate who was once very street smart and educated forgets the lessons and just dives in helping others without question.

It is part of my DNA and that is why it is so easy for trolls and users to sometimes spot me in a crowd.

There is nothing I would not do for those that manage to get hold of my heart strings.    People, organizations, pets.   

We all have different things that feed our energy, our spirit, our want to get up and go.  And although I will never understand why the beat of my heart never stopped and hardened before I met Jesus.  I know now He is with me it never will.   He is the strength, courage, and life in these lungs where I will never deserve why I am still allowed the Heart of the beat in this life. Heart Of My Beat @TobyMac  

Anyway, the roller coaster ride of life has hit my road and  many close to me, my entire existence.  Thinking now if I am honest.   I grow from helping others and feeling of being filled up being needed and wanted.   Played a big part over the years.    It was a few years ago I finally sat down and looked at my future DNA, my finances and well I have always been one to know.

It means nothing unless you work for it yourself and You CANNOT take any of it with you.

I unfortunately did not come from a well-grounded family or even one that had stability and parents in the home to help guide and direct those thoughts or to have you think before acting.

 

I pretty much raised myself once my sister moved out.  Trial by fire and the school of hard knocks all the way.   When I became a parent.  I made it perfectly clear along the way choices matter. 

Who you associate with matters, especially because guilt by association is to me one of the number one driver of what happens next in anyone’s life!

Just because you are not doing, acting, or speaking what those others you surround yourself with are doing. 

Does not mean you are not opening the door to the repercussions of the results that flow out just by being with or around them.    No, it does not necessarily need to be partying, it could just as easy just be sitting around and always being lazy, putting things off or stuck on some video game whilst you should be working on studies or doing something productive to grow forward.

Anyway, like always this could go on forever.   You may not know what the end result will be from the choices you allow to happen, or you are about to make.  But you damn sure better be accountable no matter what you do or do not do for allowing it to happen in your life.   

 

When you are not responsible for the choice itself and I get we all sometimes are just in the path of others.    You need to be strong enough to step in and take over what you need to do for you after the fact.   If God willing you make it out the others side.

 

So, as I always take the long scenic sometimes colorful route to where I am going.    So, though I will always tell you about my Jesus and the wind that fills these lungs and He alone carrying me through all the journey I take.    I will always be the first to acknowledge that no matter what is or is not.   My freedom and joy that I can never lose is through Christ Jesus.    I will never get it right or be worthy.     But I am free in him and nothing or no one will ever take that.  Found My Freedom @Found My Freedom  

 

 

I have also found the lessons are daily and recently the lesson I have learned from the choices I make or have made surrounding finances is up ahead.

What I will say first though; Is this I am Always Me!  Broken pieces all along the way put together living life like being a kaleidoscope.

Finding beauty and abundant colors and designs along the journey I am given no matter what direction I choose, walk, or try.

I will not stop doing what I do or being who I am.   Love it, leave it doesn’t really matter in the grand scheme of things.     If I am stuck working harder than I ever had to.  Well hopefully I will be enjoying pieces colors of this worlds journey along the way.

So over time and all my helping this one, helping that one.  Doing this or OH NO; the transmission went out; the AC went out the something major absolutely cannot be ignored.    Life happened!   

 

One day in 2019 I sat down to deal with my crazy world and yes was slapped head on with all the good I was thinking I was doing just about was ready to take me out.

I had things all over the place and to get a handle on them.  So, listening to the professionals, I decided to go with a consolidation loan.  

 

Regardless of the unknown outcome I thought my choice to make things better and maintaining my responsibility to align and pay for what I get into.    Having one bundled payment and not 20 all over the place was a great thing.   Great sounds wonderful; people do it all the time, right?

    So, listening to the experts I followed their guidance.   And although my credit scoring did not go to the depths of the abyss as it sits on the edge.     Letting the professionals negotiate with the financial institutions.    

What I just found out that no one knows until tax time is this.  And this is FACTS:  Every dollar over 600 dollars any consolidation company negotiates with any institution or any amount any financial institution waves, releases you from paying. 

**You are required to pay taxes on  as if it were earned cash into your paycheck**  Let me say it again.   Any $$ over 600.00 any credit card, or financial institution even health care facilities release you from paying is reported to the IRS by them and you are required to pay taxes on to the IRS!    Yes, taxes like it the debt you were released from was like cash earned in your weekly paycheck.     Legally yes it happens but it is never talked about.  

And no, I am no finance major and yes, I am a train wreck where I have always no matter the details always jumped in and helped wherever I could whenever I could. 

So, when I was just a mess and needed to get everything in one place, I jumped at the chance to just get it together.   One bundled payment; consolidation and never doing a deeper dive or analysis when the company said part of the program now that we have everything consolidated is to work with the debtors and see if they will agree to a reduced pay off which will lower the interest and life of the payments.   

  Thankfully, I have not filed my taxes yet because I did have allot of big-ticket items the past couple years come to life and 2020 was no exception; so, I did what I did to make sure I could manage and keep my investments worth the time and money.

There is always a catch, even with the professionals and big-name companies. 

 NOTHING in this life is free and there is always hidden rules or really fine print you just do not see.

 Even if I am still paying, I could have been paying everything in full to the companies I was working with.

Now all that consolidation did was take from the companies I do business with and hand it over to the government and I have to pay all taxes on every dollar above 600 to the IRS.

I will always to my best and it has nothing to do with God or anything else; but just doing my best to be a decent responsible human in society.

If my best is not good enough and sometimes it’s not, sometimes it is easier, sometimes there are grand lessons.   But one thing is for sure.  All the time I will keep trusting and trying to grow forward.

But since we are on the topic of God. 

LOL, well my help is not on the way; HE has always been with me.

 He is always with you! He Is Always With You (Jesus) @Rich Moore

  It maybe midnight or morning light or right here and now when you realize you have never been alone, and Jesus has always and will always be with each and everyone of us who call upon his name.  As your help is not on the way but right here, right now when you call his name.  Help Is On The Way (Maybe Midnight) @DC Talk   He is right in front of you, right next to you, behind you and honestly just want you to allow him to come live within your spirit.

 

I know sounds like I am one of those Bible, thumping crazy Jesus Freaks!        Well Jesus Freak yes! Jesus Freak @DC Talk

 

I am beyond in love with the spirit and being and person of Jesus and who he was, who he is and who he came for us to be.    Nothing will change that.   Will I tell you to learn and read for yourselves? 

 

Absolutely!  Just like working for what we really want to appreciate it and have lasting meaning.   You have to want the love, mercy and grace and abundant peace to live within your own being.  You have to want to believe there is abundant blessings in everything that is or will be when you allow Jesus to be the captain of your journey.     Captain @Hillsong UNITED

No one else can do it for you; and even if they convince you of any choice.  Unless you own your choices, you will never find peace or direction and always have chaos.    Even if sometimes we choose knowing what we are choosing matters but we did not fully understand what the result may be.    Harder does not even begin to explain the journey ahead.   But I know who holds me close and pulls me, carries me and will never leave me. 

Bottom line we all trust in what we do, we trust in others and things will always turn out as we least expect it.   However, one thing I know I will always trust in and I know will never let me down, always be as He was, is and will always be.   That is trusting in God and in Christ in Jesus!!!! Power  @Chris Tomlin ft. Bear Rinehart of NEEDTOBREATHE

Learning to be still in His presence!  An absolute work in progress for me but learning so much along the way.

Meditation Opportunities

Psalm 62:7 (NIV)⁷ My salvation and my honor depend on God^[a]; he is my mighty rock, my refuge.

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

“I do my best work within you, transforming you by the renewing of your mind.  If you skimp on this time with Me, you may plunge headlong into the wrong activities, missing the richness of what I have planned for you.”

Romans 12:2  Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his  good, pleasing, and perfect will.

Revelation 2:4  “Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love.”

Colossians 1:27  To them God has chosen to make know among the Gentiles the glories riches of his master which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.