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August 31, 2019
Verse
of the Day:
Psalms 95:6-7(NIV)
Come, let us bow down in worship, let us
kneel before the Lord
our Maker; for he is our God and we are the people of his pasture, the flock
under his care. Today, if only you would hear his voice,
Meditation Moments:
James 4:13-15 (NIV) Boasting About Tomorrow
13 Now listen, you who say,
“Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry
on business and make money.” 14 Why,
you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a
mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15 Instead, you ought to
say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”
Proverbs 3:5 (AMP)
5
Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart
And
do not rely on your own insight or
understanding.
Isaiah 40:28-31 (NIV)
28 Do you not know? Have
you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the
earth. He will not grow
tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of
the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and
fall; 31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings
like eagles;
they
will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Early
morning thoughts shared out with those who really follow me on my Facebook
page. You know how it is; for me I know
every single one of the connections; I either grew up with them; they are
family or somewhere along the line I have done life with them. However, we do not necessarily talk nor have
I seen many in many years.
But
life does that; I have never met a stranger which is a blessing and a curse.
Loving
everyone and generally freely give my time; and anything I have; until
something happens that I am violated, taken advantage of or even lied to.
No one
owes me anything when it comes to truthful relationships of any kind. I am probably the least judgmental or most
forgiving soul there is when it comes to people being people.
Over the years I have purposed to stay at a
distance from anyone not in my close circle just so I do not get caught up or
off guard. But the past few years my
circle has taken heavy losses and those where my best friends and confidants
have passed on and left this world.
Thus
over time finding myself in situations; allowing more opportunities to be
sucked in by those who violate the very things that make life meaningful.
It is
bad enough that before walking with Jesus and taking years to really understand
and being allowed to find myself and my worth that I ran from and never
understood. To have so many stories of deception,
saving grace and moments remembered when you should have been dead.
However; it is when we forget just because
we walk obediently with Christ and openly love with everything He lived; suffered
and died for. We allow ourselves to openly be available to
those who have other plans. Not everyone
is bad, know this; but not everyone is good or has good intentions either.
None of
us are perfect; even those who purpose to do what is right. Although we may be filled with the Godly intentions
and even an indescribable peace through any storm even on the days you sometime
forget letting life take over and we become excitable.
Even on
those days we remain doing your best living with hope and faith of all that is
unseen; believing in people with no expectations whilst forgetting those out
there that wish to be fake; for their own misguided hearts will find you most
attractive and easy prey.
Despite
our best efforts we all at some time or another experience let downs; deception
or just things that can be heart breaking.
No it does not have to have some big ponzi scheme
or elaborate misfortune.
You know
those that you read or hear about on social media. It does not have to be something that
dramatic but it can.
It can anything from something that totally
rocks your world and how you need to live for awhile to just that of someone being
human and you are let down.
For me
I don’t think it is any amount of money, places or things that people can take
from you. I think when you genuinely
care about a person from the depths of their soul. I guess in a sense I care about what they
do; I do not just openly walk up into Satan’s sandbox and try to save anyone;
however if I have crossed paths with someone and they are openly lost. I do
not just shut them off or down if they are seeking connection. I try to always stay a distance; but if and when they get close I find myself
hurting in their misguided ways like a parent of the prodigal son.
Something
about my spirit that is a blessing in a curse that allows me to love people
right where they are. The curse is usually
my common sense filter is clogged and I trust many when I should never have
even known them. I have been told too
many times my heart is just too big.
No I am
not talking about that really liking someone as a life time partner type thing
where things didn’t work out; although that when it comes to matters of the
heart that that cuts deep and scars
sometimes never go away.
However;
I believe it is there you have to remind yourself of your own worth and know
God has something better and more meaningful.
If you are holding for that sweet soul king or queen of your life
desires.
I am talking
about that deep care for who others are.
As life
is not what someone does; unless they do not have a life because they are so
caught up trying and chasing what in the end will consume and destroy them.
I could
go on and on trying to describe the lifelong compassion I am filled with that
has been used, abused; marred and mucked up over time. Real love; real life doing and loving as
God intended; trusting and filling each other up instead of always seeing what
next can be taken.
However,
today I am blessed and thankful the good Lord again gives me new opportunities and
allows me to learn from mistakes I have made and in time the new ones that will
come.
That is the beauty of life; each day we are
given; we are blessed to keep trying and living. Prayerfully we are doing our best to do so in
obedience with a moral compass in hand and Jesus within.
For me
and so many daily reminders for those of us who forget and stress over things
we should not. Just like the storms in any storm season.
Whatever
will be will be!
I will
continue to do my best to stay morally grounded in Him. While following dreams
and desires without idolizing and/or chasing things that are temporary in this
world and life.
Sure we
are all going through something; and on some days you are happier than others;
whilst others you just want to check out.
I have
to say it over and over; Do not give up!
We must
do our best to remaining accountable for all we are responsible for. Even
at the expense of others; even if we have someone next to us or we are alone;
even if we have the best most exciting things going on; or we are going through
the worse let down and tragedy of our own choices or at the hands of fate or
anyone else.
We must
always, Love and respect ourselves and those who we entangle our day to day by
any kind of communication.
And if
those we are surrounded with are into foolish things or consumed by things they
cannot change and refuse to get help to change.
Remove
yourself from the situation.
Especially
if you are a parent and have children; we must do our best to put God first, if
we have a spouse be a slug or considered up there next to God.
God should always be first; your spouse next
and then rise up your children with honor and respect and ability to survive in
this crazy cold world.
Nevertheless, if you are not blessed with a
life partner and you are doing it yourself.
You just remove that layer and go directly to God yourself.
Teach
your children moral values; respect and loyalty. Teach them the meaning of love is more than
giving themselves away chasing the world.
Teach them they are not any bank account or flashy anything; yes those
things are awesome when we can live extravagant. But to what expense and what happens when it
is all gone. Trust me when I say; you
cannot take it with you; and if you think you are what you make or create. You will feel the nothingness quick and hard
when that is gone.
Teach
your children by living by examples and purpose of doing what is morally right
in life. It does not guarantee they will
walk a path with clean hands and a pure heart; but do everything you can to
allow them to know the value of life and who Jesus was and why he came to this
earth.
No it
is not easy by far; we all make decisions for reasons of our own. Most of us want the absolute best for our
families and sometimes we try to save them from their own mistakes which in the
end only enable them and sometimes destroy them and those around them.
That
old saying, you can lead a horse to water but you cannot make them drink. You can do everything in your power to let
those you care about know how much you love them and that you want what is
best. But you cannot make anyone
change their ways.
Each and every one of us has to choose what is
next. And if they choose a life chasing
what is temporal and deadly in this world.
It is their choice.
Just as
I have so many times in this lifetime chose to believe in many and help many and
all I have done is enabled them into bad behavior and my own self into unnecessary
debt; hardships and brokenness.
We must
learn to love and know ourselves building a relationship in and with Christ learning
who He made us to be.
Physically,
before we ever give any of ourselves away to the empty promises of yesterday. We must acknowledge and count our worth;
which is far greater a price than anything this world can ever give or take
from us.
I am no authorities on relationships; I am a
single women divorced twice long before I ever met God.
But I
know this; if you are in a relationship and things are hard. Pray harder and
work harder together to make it work. If you are married, unless it is an abusive
relationship; do everything you can; being creative to make it work. If it is broken beyond repair and you have
just grown apart. Everything happens
for a reason; do not run out trying to replace it or fill the gap of what
caused it to break in the first place.
If you go through boyfriend or girlfriends
like water, stop!
Stop hoping
by changing to the next version of the love of your life that just did not work;
will ever make a difference by getting a different size, shape or color.
Know
who you are meant to be and that you are made for more and are worth far more
than anything or anyone in this world can ever give or take from you.
Immerse
yourself in what is good; what is pure and what is truth. It does not matter if you do not want to be
alone or you crave and are addicted to things that you must have that human
touch 24/7.
We are
all given mind with freedom of choice and a strong will. Yes we all have strong will; think about what
we do in our day to day and all those things we never thought we could achieve
or get done. So there is reason we
cannot make it through a day just because something was one way or the other
prior. If things are not what you want
them to be.
Change them for yourself! You do not need anyone else to do this. It just may take some time and planning to
fix whatever; do whatever. But if you
are doing it with clean hands a pure heart and for the right reasons; knowing
nothing on this earth last forever and everything we are allowed is a blessing. From the moment we inhale to the time we
leave this planet.
Know this;
it is not about me; it is not about just you.
Step up and step out in faith and never stop helping and loving on those
who the world considers the least of these by the social status or amount of
their bank account. Lead by example;
someone is always watching. From experience, it will most likely be a
child that you least pay attention to; that in time will mimic everything you
say and do.
So brothers and fathers, would you want
someone treating your daughter or sister the way you treat the girl or lady you
are with. Mothers, Aunts, Sisters
would you want your daughter, niece, or even nephew out there giving themselves
away; being used and abused by the world.
Teach them their own value; know yours!
If you
find yourself in a mess today; yes we are all going through something. Just keep it in the forefront in God’s
hands. From your prayers to him and
start planning; and making efforts to correct whatever the bleeding is that is
happening.
No it
won’t be easy; especially when or if you are alone. But never give up; never give in because it
is easy.
Love
yourself deeply and love others with boundaries. Know the reason why you love
them; do your best without being crazy as to why they are in your life; never
assume or guess. Be educated without
expectations. Never use anyone to fill a
gap in your own life that Jesus is waiting to fill and help you through.
Cry as often as you have to; and know just
because something did not work out yesterday; does not mean if Gods will is for
us to have tomorrow that He will bless us with what we feel is everlasting
now. While ultimately knowing and
living with Christ and for what will be eternal!
From
every broken piece of me laying shattered on a floor; from every deep breath or
tear that has streamed from my soul.
There is nothing greater in loving a God that fills you with peace and
being okay even when you are not; with not knowing what you just do not
know. I am who I am; always as I was;
always as I can be; always me just Kelly.
Working harder any given day and far from
smarter.
Riding
that roller coaster; seemingly alone most days; while knowing the battles that
are ahead of me; because of my inability to maintain boundaries yesterday and
believing in what is classified as humanity and allowing myself to be well on
what some days feels as failures and indignity.
Cause yes even on my best days; I let the those in the world sometimes
get the best of me; and am left holding the bag to once again clean up and be
set free.
And
this I shall; this with God I will cleave.
While waiting my time be it here or the other side of eternity. For now today; prayers and blessings of life; love and laughter. Safety and Gods provision and know if he has brought you this far. No matter how much it hurts or feels good. There is a reason in Christ for you to be here. Love yourself; stay true; guard your hearts; guard your families. Work towards fixing anything that may at this point and time be broken. Giving every single bit of who you are back to the God that created you. In the end it will all work out.
We can never make anyone love us; but we can love ourselves and purpose forward not letting anything rob us from the blessings waiting ahead.
Saturday
6PM Service - 08/31/2019 - New Life Christian Church – Spring Hill
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Verse
of the Day:
Ephesians 2:19 (NKJV)
[ Christ Our
Cornerstone ] Now,
therefore, you are no longer strangers and foreigners, but fellow citizens with
the saints and members of the household of God,
Meditation Moments:
Genesis 16:7-14 (AMP)
7 But [a]the Angel
of the Lord
found her by a spring of water in the wilderness, on the road to [Egypt by way
of] Shur. 8 And He said, “Hagar, Sarai’s maid, where did
you come from and where are you going?” And she said, “I am running away from
my mistress Sarai.” 9 The Angel of the Lord said to her, “Go back to your mistress,
and submit [b]humbly to
her authority.” 10 Then the Angel of the Lord said to her, “I will greatly multiply
your descendants so that they will be too many to count.” 11 The
Angel of the Lord continued, “Behold, you are with child,
And you will bear a son; And you shall name him Ishmael (God
hears),
Because the Lord has heard and
paid attention to your persecution (suffering).
12
“He (Ishmael) will be a wild donkey of a man;
His hand will be against every man [continually
fighting]
And every man’s hand against him;
And he will dwell in defiance of all his brothers.”
13 Then she
called the name of the Lord who spoke to her, “You are [c]God Who
Sees”; for she said, “Have I not even here [in the wilderness] remained alive
after [d]seeing
Him [who sees me with understanding and compassion]?” 14 Therefore
the well was called Beer-lahai-roi (Well of the Living One Who Sees Me); it is [e]between
Kadesh and Bered.
Psalms 139:7-10 (NIV)
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where
can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are
there;
if
I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I
settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me, your
right hand will hold me fast.
Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)
17 The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great
delight in you; in his love he will no longer
rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with
singing.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives
and/or feelings)
Lord,
you give another full day of opportunity and chances to see and live your
blessings.
Reminding
me through devotionals and just somehow knowing. As you were with
Hagar as she in her time fled the storms of life and persecution of her
mistress.
You
are with us in all the storms we will experience our time as Ryan reminds us of
in the “Eye Of The Storm” https://youtu.be/BTonhOA5lDs
– (Ryan Stevenson)
I
fully believe it is not if we will experience unrest; it will be when.
Life is never promised to be problem free; storm free
or free for that matter.
For
me this is why it is so important I cling to the one who gave everything so I
can have peace as I walk through the valley’s and storms in this life.
There
is no other that has or will do such a great sacrifice or act of love.
For this no matter what
I understand or do not; no matter what I physically call out for and receive or
do not.
You have given all you are Jesus; so I may know what
love truly is.
For this each new day I
am allowed up; I am grateful.
I
often think about what if I fall down; what if I do something so crazy, wrong,
and stupid. Then you remind me of the valley I walked through
before I came to know you; where you never let me go. So “What If I Stumble” – (DC Talk) https://youtu.be/kg6HedZ4xGs
You see it is not the falling down or messing
up I really hold on to; it is will I ever get back up or will I be found lost
in alone; angry and hurting. That place
I stood where I was “Six Feet From
the Edge” https://youtu.be/5vNJwR2vVOk -(Creed) you
know that place I so openly would sing about without thinking twice of anything
different could ever be. That place I
never want to feel or go back to before I was saved by you Father.
No matter what popularity you have to know what it is like to
be totally alone and no one at the top of that mountain we climb. It is you Jesus that has kept me alive all
my days. For I am broken; you allow me
love from the inside out. For this I
never what to lose and time has shown all the “Great Things” – (Phil Wickham) https://youtu.be/y4CY3nf1Mvw
you have done and all you will continue to do for and with us.
If there is one solid fear it would be
what happens if you Jesus are no more.
There is nothing more real or painful than such a loss. For the world has never been mine to start
with.
Drifting through this world my soul is all I have with you
Jesus and all you allow in it; nothing of this world.
So many beautiful souls that I could relate with gone
somewhere; and I will never really know where they ended up. I will never know if they were gone before
they truly met you.
Here I am when I get
past myself taking off running; just being the best I can and trying to show
and hold love and lead my family.
So much has been broken before it even was created and no
matter what my obedience is. No matter
what I try to do or no matter what the reasons; things just seem to not be what
they should be with more broken pieces to put back together or more distance
between those I am here for. Yes annoyed
we cannot force anyone to really do what is right. And we do not know if our choice will really
be for the good in some cases until it is made.
A tsunami full of end results to wash over all that is in its path good
bad or indifferent.
Yet; you Lord have allowed me to openly expose so much; given
me so many words; leading me to healing with music and strength that I will
never know where it comes from. It is
not my own for sure.
We all believe in something and I Jesus believe in you. So thank you Father God!
No matter what is ahead, thank you for believing in me to allow this life to
exist even on the dark days.
Even on those, which I so wish I could give up and quit as I just
do not want to feel anymore when I cannot see if I matter or am making a
difference.
Doing things right or wrong matter but really it is not the
tie breaker.
You allow me to keep getting back up despite any fear,
doubts or lack of ambition; any sadness that overcomes me or any of the other
negative things trying to consume me.
You allow me to keep trying; even when I have no clue at times what my
next steps are or should be.
How
I wish I had that someone to lean on; for me; for them. Then you remind
me always “Lean On Me” https://youtu.be/7Cj5uYlwp6o
- (Kirk Franklin (feat. Mary J Blige, R Kell, Bono, Crystal Lewis & the
Family)
So
like everything in this crazy life of me. My words just come; relating
back to music and you Jesus. No way can I explain it ever.
I just know I have been beyond blessed to hear so many beautiful different
messages for even more talent over the years.
More
so, from those who love you as I do; for this I ask for you to protect each and
every one of your messengers.
Lord
may your will be what gets me up and lays me down; may your will be shared; protected
and renewed each and every new day we all are given. Please guard
our hearts; give us the direction and the way through all of this worlds
mission fields. For our own beings and all of our family and connections we
care for.
However,
on those days we cannot feel you; may we always remember it is us and we need
to go that extra whatever; to dive in and feel your spirit that lives within us.
May we love as you love; see as you see; and never give up on the people and
places we dream for.
For every emotion; every trial; everything I beat myself up for over and over
about. Everything I hold myself accountable for; even that which at times
I had nothing to do with.
For every
imperfection on my not so perfect days highlight. You Jesus are; no
matter what laughter comes or tears flow. Or battles I fight daily as today
sitting I just sit here thinking with tears streaming just from watching a
video of fathers crying seeing their daughters in their wedding dresses.
Those simple things that I see but will know I will
never experience allowing gaps for unnecessary feelings to creep in on me. For it is not being married; it is the
bitter sweet of never having an earthly father and Father God awakening me.
It is not the bitter sweet of earthly desires, actions and
mess ups and knowing who I belong to in the end.
Jesus thank you for never giving up on me; thank you for allowing
me to fall in love with you and believe with all I am, You are “The Way” https://youtu.be/MOzsJlk8p6I - (Pat
Barrett)
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August 29, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Galatians 3:28 (NIV)
There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male
and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus
Meditation
Moments:
Luke
12:22-26 (NIV)
Do Not
Worry
22 Then
Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore
I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your
body, what you will wear. 23 For
life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider
the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God
feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to
your life[a]? 26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do
you worry about the rest?
Ephesians 6:12 (NKJV)
12 For
we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against
powers, against the rulers of [a]the
darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the
heavenly places.
Proverbs 16:3 (NIV)
3 Commit
to the Lord
whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives
and/or feelings)
Lord, you never stop amazing me
every day!
The powers of darkness in spirit
and life are more than true obstacles we must get through, past, over
daily.
I could allow myself to get caught
up and stumble over and over again when it comes to Whom I shall fear; however, if you Lord Creator of all the
heavens and earth are for me? No one
can do anything lasting against me!
From the moment, I am awake
throughout each day onto when I rest my head on a pillow and fall back to
sleep; you Jesus are with me.
In all I see, in what I read, in all I touch; you continually remind me
just whose I am.
Blessed that I know all I must work
through moment by moment.
The good bad or indifferent and
even the abundant surprises from things of my own mistakes or those things at
the hands of others; and even just day-to-day life.
You are with me Jesus in Spirit and word.
Even on the days, I just do not
think I cannot take anymore; times I just want to be done.
I am who I am; being kind caring and generous almost
seems to be my DNA; even as I struggle to understand what is my true DNA. Even when I purpose to stay in my swim lane and
not be available, to even be exposed and feel for anyone else’s needs or
concerns. I am at a point in my life I
do not want to feel; however somehow, someway I am hooked.
You Lord, have allowed me to find
myself over time; which I think at times is when I most wish to hide and become
invisible.
Even on those days when saddened by
life that transpires around me; with those and me even that I feel no worth and
just really wish to hide somewhere.
You know that worth of more than
just being a mom, just being a grandmother, just being a friend and on and on. Life is more than a title or role.
To belong to someone here and now
in Christ; not the controlling you belong to me thing. Just that bond, love, desire and growth as
it is in you Jesus.
Funny how somedays trigger that
more than others do; or conversations that come up unexpectedly with many. Yesterday, for instance when in conversation
my dear mother stated I am just too self-sufficient to have any type of
relationship.
If that is true, it is
heartbreaking. However, I know better
and again I know whom I belong to and in God’s timing if He chooses to share me
and feels I am ready. He will allow such
a change to come to life. I have standards and am daily given blessings
to be self-sufficiently independent.
That was never a plan in my life; clearly,
I never had a choice in the matter; I have been blessed with strong will to
survive. Ironically, I guess there really is something to
being a child and having someone or many over time force you to grow up; being
entangled with so much at the hands of those who we are supposed to trust. To have survived and now walking with
layers of scars but not lost and more importantly knowing I walk with God.
It will never stop me from being
human; making mistakes; caring for those, I should not; stepping up; stepping out
and working through the clean up after.
Nevertheless, it does give me peace every step of the way.
Loyalty runs through these veins to
a fault; thankfully, I learned what it meant to be loyal to me first before I
could anyone else. Even if; at times I forget,
my boundaries and get caught up making my life harder.
However, it is these days the Lord
reminds me it is okay to be human and feel discouraged at times; it is okay to
make mistakes and learn from them; it is okay to love even those, who do not
know how to love themselves.
You remind me when I ask to see through
your eyes; you show me the beauty in everything. “TobyMac “Everything” (Ft. JONATHAN MCREYNOLDS)
Capital Kings Remix) https://youtu.be/XOlGap4wOxc
You remind me often as
written in “Luke 12:7 Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all
numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.”
For this, I am beyond thankful for
all the reminders even if somedays haunt me with doubt, worth, and even that of
life itself. For those when I just want
to be connected you remind me I am. “Who You Say I Am – HillSong” https://youtu.be/lKw6uqtGFfo
I will not deny I fell in love for
the man who died for me so I could live, Jesus Christ!
Nor will I compartmentalize the day-to-day
real world and the many suffering in so many ways.
Just as I know, I have so much more
to learn; so much more to overcome. In
addition, there will be so many more days where I think I am in control and
forget who the “King of the World” Natalie Grant https://youtu.be/4K7kplxNM48
really is.
If it turns out I am wrong; oh well
I prolonged my worldly existence by staying clean, pure and out of the sandpits
that consume so many so young.
I do not for one second think I am
wrong about my God though; if I were, I would not have such peace within. I know that young, angry ready to fight soul
was before I started my walk. My God is not dead and for this, we are
blessed to sing about the “Greatness Of Our God” Newsboys - https://youtu.be/Gf8qQLGZ3o8
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August 28, 2019
Verse of the Day:
John 6:29 (NIV)
Jesus answered, “The work of God is this: to believe
in the one he has sent.”
Meditation
Moments:
Psalms 4:6-8
(NIV)
6 Many, Lord, are asking, “Who will bring us prosperity?”
Let the light of your face shine on us. 7 Fill my heart with joy
when their grain and new wine abound. 8 In peace I will lie down
and sleep,
for you alone, Lord,
make me dwell in safety.
Revelation 21:23 (NIV)
23 The
city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God
gives it light, and the Lamb is its lamp.
Deuteronomy
31:6 (NIV)
6 Be
strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord
your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
2 Corinthians 6:4 -10 (NIV)
4 Rather,
as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in
troubles, hardships and distresses;
5 in
beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger;
6 in purity, understanding, patience and kindness;
in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love;
7 in
truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the
right hand and in the left;
8 through
glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as
impostors; 9 known,
yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed;
10 sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet
making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything
Psalms 73:23-24 (NIV)
23 Yet I am always with you; you hold
me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel, and
afterward you will take me into glory.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives
and/or feelings)
Dear Lord thank you!
Thank you for blessing me with the spirit of
Self-Control. Over the years even when
I myself did not think I was doing well; you Jesus gave me Self Control to walk
in obedience and to never give in or give up to just be part or belong to the
world. For this, I am blessed as I am
reflecting today understanding more of who I am in you.
Today I awoke feeling like I could weep over anything; yet filled with determination and trust no matter what is, what is not; no matter what could have been or still may be. No matter, you Jesus are always in control. I do not understand the path I have been on; or what comes next. But I do know I belong to you Father God.
I believe I will never be the correct person for the
edification of others in this world; I know you Lord have pulled me out of many
situations and given me an abundance of words, thoughts and abilities to write
and speak from experience; from the heart and from the knowledge that Love from
the inside out is priceless. No matter
what we think we are gaining and/or losing.
The love of God is beyond measure and priceless. So when we encounter those moments in time
when we are connected and we feel the abundance just in thought of souls in the
kingdom of God’s glory, it is beyond space and time.
Lord, I do not stand half of the relationship we have; but I
am standing firm in my faith. All that
unseen, and everything that is good; pure and you Jesus. For this, I know; I must do better than my
best in daily putting on God’s full Amor if I wish to do more than just survive
in this world, as we know it. Ephesians 6:10-11(NIV) 10 finally, be strong in the
Lord and in his mighty power.
11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you
can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.
Standing firm in Christ is the only option and
that does not mean once I am finally back on track I will not falter. For it is my nature despite my best efforts
to give more of me than I will ever have or be. So each time I see someone I care about
struggling or hating their life; caught up in the world and not giving all of
who they are to God. It breaks my
heart.
Not
only for the lack of peace and guidance acquired. Nevertheless, the fact remains, images of
God’s Wrath in end times is frightening. Perhaps studying the book of
Revelations has brought clarity around our choices are a matter of life and
death. Nowhere is it written in the
Bible; anything about life being easy or we will know how many tomorrow is we
may have. We are all given our
timestamp in our data of birth and we are ultimately given the timestamp out
our death. What we do with our lives
in-between matters!
Perhaps
I am naïve and wasting my life walking with a moral compass in hand.
Perhaps saving myself for my future husband of
my next life really is a joke; and the
joke is on me. Perhaps we should all
just turn a blind eye and just go have fun at the expense and pain of everyone
or anyone. Is that justifiable or
written anywhere. Not when you came
from the world and pulled from so many life or death situations, you can no
longer keep track. Why would God
have allowed me to live through what even today portions I do not remember but
that frightful night being awoke out of a sound sleep with some big fat drunk
nasty man at 10 years old changing me forever?
Why would he have kept me alive
after being taking into the middle of the woods by a stranger and leaving me
there as a child? Why would he have kept
me alive when guns put to my head; or being thrown out of a van that rolled
over several times? Why through all the
years of bad choices would the good Lord have finally gotten my attention in
1995 or even prior to that have strangers out of nowhere approach me at gas
stations just to tell me You know, Jesus loves you? The stories can go on and on with broken
relationships, broken bones, broken spirits.
All the while, Jesus gave me fruits of the spirit that never even knew
what they meant until later in life; that kept me alive.
Never the less, my
point is, no matter what you are going through; no matter what you do; no
matter what you have done. That does
not define who you are meant to be for in and in the spirit of Christ.
We all believe in
something; we all contribute to this world in either a positive way or a
negative way. I have had negative
all my growing up; I know what it is to be without; to live broken and alone;
hungry, freezing, and starving for love and just to belong.
In Christ no
matter what, I no longer starve for truth; as He has blessed me to know what
love is from the inside out. He knows
what it would be like to serve a Forever Sweet Soul King. Moreover, reading through Revelations
last night as you can see below for yourself I would rather die with that moral
compass and dream of ever after beauty, peace and perfection. Than ever be left
behind in the final harvest among those who choose not to believe in Love,
Truth, Light and harmony. My forever prayer
is everyone I am connected meets Jesus and does their best to walk with Him now
before it is too late.
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August 27, 2019
08/27/2019
Cruising with Kelly https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2405867746172374/
Verse of the Day:
Isaiah 26:3 (NIV)
You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they
trust in you.
Meditation
Moments:
Psalms 63:7 – 8(NIV)
7 Because you are my help, I sing in
the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you; your right hand upholds me.
Psalms 119:105 (NIV)
105 Your word is a lamp for my feet, a
light on my path.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives and/or
feelings)
Thank you Jesus for another new day and world of adventure;
promise; chances; life and most importantly the ability to reflect and
experience abundant love wherever we are or wherever we go.
May we have the ability to laugh at ourselves and grow from
the imperfect steps we take in the perfectly placed journey of what you God
created to be eternally beautiful.
However, time and
humanity is reflecting more and more the imperfections and gross misconduct
that eventually try to consume us all.
What we do with it; is what will ultimately matter in the end.
Waking at 2am often when most evenings I do not fall asleep
before 11pm and during the week I am up and out of the house by 5:30am can turn
out to be annoying and not so fun.
However, you Lord never surprise me when I awake with so many words or
thoughts. I will say sometimes it is
what I have gotten into, or am thinking of getting into.
In most cases and it may be all relatable. Nevertheless, usually it is thoughts to
pander or share in wonderment.
This morning, filled with the questions and thoughts of, how
many times has it been in our lives when we just do not like something or
someone and we just cannot justify or put a reason for it? We just cannot explain one reason of conflict
or injustice or even know one thing about something or someone. Yet our spirit has us heading as far away as
possible because there is just something we cannot get past.
More so and this has happened a couple times to me since my
walking with Christ. What about when you
love everything about something or someone and again; you just cannot pinpoint
or explain one logical reason why.
Not like the family, friend sibling love. Something about that dangerous love where
you know no matter what they did eventually you would always forgive them. You do not know why they became a
connection in your spirit in the first place.
Even if you never met them; yet there is just something about the real
them that draws you in.
I think it is that love you do not understand you need to run
as fast as you can from; and those that feel like enemy’s force yourself to
love them.
What is the old saying love your friends but keep your enemy’s
closer. Something like that.
It is so hard to understand the what, why, when or who really.
Sometimes it is just everything you see, everything you hear
that something connects. I have to
believe I am not the only one out there in this world that has like
connections, attractions or unknown vibes for or from.
However, I do wonder back in Jesus day when he walked the
earth. What did he ever truly
experience and what would he have done?
More so, I wonder how God feels for us; his children when we
do things that are called out as detestable in the bible.
How unexplainable and heartbreaking; when we are so lost in
humanity and have no understanding.
Living in the world
with all our imperfections and misdeeds and never trying to change to make
things better or right. Those who are
repeating actions of wrong doings repeatedly; not just simple mistakes that
convict and haunt us until we ask forgiveness and change our ways.
I will always wonder and pray for reason for those that for no
reason at all, nothing by personal action or deed. That I just absolutely adore
and have that dangerous love for who they really are and not what they could be
or do.
Is that where Jesus is finally not just living on the inside
of me; but allowing me to feel more and more of who He really was?
So many swirling questions of why these thoughts came to be in
this mind maze today. Wondering how
Jesus must have felt back in the day when he seen all the good in some; and all
that was being wasted, stolen or lost in others.
How that ties to me and why I am not sure I will ever really
know.
Who knows, maybe it was this song that I fell off to sleep
with last night that triggered things. “In The
Arms” https://youtu.be/1dxOdCsK-ac by Terrian that has made me more aware who I am in
Christ.
Perhaps I will never really get the answer to those questions
of why we feel what we feel, or do what we do; for no good justifiable human
answer. Perhaps it is just the
deepening awareness of “God With Us “ https://youtu.be/PJbtWOSYjBM - Terrian
What I do know is that I am thankful for all I have come to
be. Blessed through all the trials; forever
learning and growing. Doing my best not because of any expectations
or pipedreams. Nevertheless, genuinely
desiring to hold on to that moral compass and pushing through all I know; while
purposing to push through so much that will forever be unknown.
I am okay with who I am today. Flawed imperfectly, and as Plumb sings
“Beautifully Broken” https://youtu.be/ce6PT-3sQGg and allowed to shine forth. “For the God who made
the stars is the God who made your heart”
There is nothing in or of the world; that can give or take
from us worth more than that of what our Lord and Savior has created us
for.
Never forget that;
meet Jesus right where you are. He is
there waiting and will walk with you throughout eternity if you allow him to
walk with you through the fires. Who
can stand against us if God stands with us; as one of many Bible stories
written throughout the bible; check out the book of Daniel 3.
Know you are not alone unless you choose to be; you are loved
and you have purpose to shine on and be there for those who still need that
helping hand guiding them out of the darkness into a brighter tomorrow. Do not let the negative rent space in your
being; do not let experiences rob you of the love; rob you of life we are meant
to live and share.
One thing is for sure; you will never understand the “Madness” of this world unless you,
yourself digs in “Here Now” HillSong UNITED https://youtu.be/Sz_IuYUdNR4 purposing and meditating on all meant for
good and purity. I mean what can it
hurt diving into Jesus; compared to all the other things we do or try?
Have a blessed day or
evening.
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August 26, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Romans
12:4-5 (NKJV)
For
as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same
function, so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually
members of one another.
Meditation Moments:
John
16:33 (NKJV)
33 These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the
world you [a]will have
tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
Psalms
105:4 (NKJV)
4 Seek the Lord and His
strength; Seek His face evermore!
John
14:27 (NKJV)
27 Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives
do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives
and/or feelings)
I
am blessed another day for new opportunities; thank you Jesus.
However
today is one of those days I pray I am not just going through the motions for
wasted time. Am I repeating the necessary just to stay
afloat; while this deep feeling of so much needs to change. Truly
with moments of discouragement even in the moments of so many blessings seems
so surreal yet chaotic and ridiculous all at the same time.
I
cannot control anything or anyone in this world and yet I have created my
growth and inner joy at times on seeing the best in others come
out.
Feeling
this day with the pressure like the allergy induced sinus headache from weather
changes. You just want to clear it all.
I
know not where my tomorrows will be or if they will ever be. I only know
where I have been. I have no regrets in anything I have been blessed to
work through. However; I do have this great need for change.
I
know only I can make the best of this; not anyone else I am ever connected.
So what does one do when we thrive by serving and loving others; and those
others care not to even be true to themselves or confuse love and growth with
enabling and misguided choices of their own.
This
is my everlasting riddle of all times; especially for parents or those who care
about the future of others.
The
beauty of it all is you Jesus!
Be
it in the end I just disappear does not matter; for I am already invisible to
many. So many years trying to find myself and
understand all the what, why, how and who.
Chasing
goals to be something; only to learn in you I was always everything I needed to
be.
It
is a blessing to come to terms in life; and know so many things while all the
others I will never understand.
A
blessing to know I am not chasing anything any longer and have not been for a
long time.
However;
will I ever get over this feeling deep inside?
That which is so deep within my soul; that was put away and over the past
couple years you Father God allowed me to pull it out; feel it; think deeply
and know what it is like to feel love from the inside out.
Yet
still feel the push and pull of what always was and the unknown of what will
be.
Knowing
I have choices and living with a clear conscious, clean hands and pure heart is
a bigger blessing than anything anyone can ever say or do for me.
For this Lord, no matter how long it takes. No matter how often I wish,
dream, look up at the sky in deep thoughts of what it would be like; or just
feel frustrated because something is gnawing at me to change. Questioning
why I do what I do when it seems like a losing battle sometimes.
I
will always be eternally blessed and grateful to know who I am and what you
saved me from; including myself on so many occasions.
I
have to believe; no matter how many seeds grow; I just need to keep planting
and being me.
Thank
you for the love and filling my heart and soul over these years. With all that
is everlasting even if for only a moment in time; or those who are forever
until my time is done.
To
be in love with what you cannot see or touch physically.
To
be validated by someone you believe in all they do is a powerful
blessing.
Unconditional
love beyond all errors of what humanity calls for. Not many stand
true; stand in faith and stand to fight for that ability to save what is been
called familiar yet work together to make each new day an opportunity of
newness together.
“Evergreen” https://youtu.be/Bc-sq7cJGho -Will Young
To
want more in abundance of all that is good; not just fun; not just
materialistic. But pure growth in love and all that is good.
For those you were blessed with in this life.
To
be a child of God; and know what you do not really know.
Life
is what it is; until it is not and then prayerfully we are praising in the
abundant glory on the other side.
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August 25, 2019
08/25/2019 New Life
Christian Church – Spring Hill Welcome to New Life Christian Church Springhill
we will be starting our 9:45am service shortly. Pastor
Al is taking us through James for the message this week.
We do not own rights to the worship we are covering but
hope you enjoy it.
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2402102499882232/
Thank you my brother in Christ for showing me some love and sending me an up
close https://www.facebook.com/adrianlisnapparel/videos/2975567575818690/
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 119:165 (NKJV)
Great peace have those who love Your law, And
nothing causes them to stumble.
Meditation Moments:
Exodus 3:14 (NIV)
14 And God said to Moses, “I
AM WHO I AM.” And He said, “Thus you shall say to the children of Israel, ‘I AM
has sent me to you.’ ”
1 Corinthians 3:16 (NIV)
16 Do you not know that you
are the temple of God and that the
Spirit of God dwells in you?
Psalms 25:14-15 (NIV
The secret
of the Lord is with those
who fear Him, And He will show them His covenant.
15 My eyes are
ever toward the Lord, For He shall [a]pluck
my feet out of the net.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Dear Lord,
Thank you!
As you
remind me this morning; we just need to keep coming back to you.
The love
you have allowed me and others this morning to feel during worship.
We are
beyond blessing be it in a church building or arena; to openly worship with and
for you.
There are so many that do not have the freedoms we are allowed.
Some day
this may change; but on this day you allowed us to experience you love through
worship once again.
Thank
you!
Jesus Thank you for the
sacrifice you did not have to make. Many of us would have never been here
without you. You did not have to take it to the cross but you did.
Please forgive me to the
things I miss sometimes as I am caught up in my own little world; forgive me
for the offense I cause when I shut down. Forgive me for not being
more aware or believing in things that I will never know if they should have or
not.
Thank you for the love
from the inside out and all who have been connected with me at some point in
this journey. I will forever miss some and love all.
Your blessings of love from the inside out; having compassion even after so
many years and a journey that according to the world’s ways; I should be numb
and want to feel nothing.
Openly knowing I struggle
when it comes to relationships; and more with trust I will always be in love. I
will always have that gap. So I thank you Jesus for allowing me to know
who I am in you. For this I will forever do the best I can with
what I have to work with and forever be faithful to who you call me to
be. Lead me Jesus; in your love; in your will; in your name.
I am forever grateful even
for just moments in time. Jesus, you know my heart and
soul. You know what burns deep inside this being. I am yours no
matter what; your will be done. For there is no greater love than
that of a Forever Sweet Soul King that is a Love beyond all space and
time. No matter what I dream, desire, wish or
want. Nothing will ever compare or shake what I can never explain
or why I feel this way. Even in my worst moments of the world; or
best blessing of your will Father God. I cannot say it or reflect it
enough ever Jesus.
“It’s You” https://youtu.be/cFvjpRyJU1o TobyMac, Matt Maher, Terrian (Tide Electric Remix/Audio)
It is you and all you allow me that gives me peace beyond
comprehension. Perhaps because in the end; I know
who I belong to; perhaps in the end I know where I am
going. If it is wrong; I cannot change what I will
never fully understand.
However, it has been this way along time. Moreover, until you
release me; showing me I should be somewhere else; with someone else; doing
life as someone else.
My obedience with that moral compass you have allowed me.
Will be out here doing what I can when I can; picking up the pieces like those
shattered pieces of glass we find in places we never can understand how or what
the world it is there for.
I pray those that I miss dearly from the depths of my soul; are truly
blessed and at least once and awhile they are looking down on me and smiling
and praying in spirit the love of you Jesus.
Thank you for this day.
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August
24, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms
116:1-2 (NIV)
I love the Lord, for he
heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I
will call on him as long as I live.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms
139:1-4 (NIV) For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive
my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you
are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely
Ephesians
2:13 (NIV)
13 But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far
away have been brought near by the blood of Christ.
2
Corinthians 5:21 (NIV)
21 God made him who had no sin to be sin[a] for us, so that in him we might become the
righteousness of God.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives
and/or feelings)
Thank you for another day Jesus.
You know all that is twisting and turning within this mind, body and
soul.
Thank you for loving me unconditionally and more than that. Thank
you for allowing me more time with this new day for new opportunities.
Reminded over and over; from as far back to my childhood to even recent
days. We never really know anyone we come in contact
with. Each and every soul out there in this world has their
own agenda why they do or do not do things.
From the parents that abandon you; to the friend, lover, spouse you knew
since a child that just no longer exists and in some instances just disappear
never to be seen again. It is no different than those you just want
to know the real them and love on them for the real them.
It is you Jesus who never changes; you are then, now and forever.
The only agenda you have ever had was to die so we could live in abundant joy,
health and well-being; and more over love one another.
The world is beautiful yet in so many ways unfortunate for all who are
in it; have so much mystery.
Why do we do the things we do?
How do we become so good at walking away from our real self’s?
How do we allow ourselves to believe in anything outside of you Jesus?
John 17:23 (NIV) I in them and you in me—so that they may be
brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent me and have
loved them even as you have loved me.
It is more than what we feel, what we go through, what we
desire. It is and always was about you Lord. But we
make it something more than what it should be.
We are here to allow you to live through us; to shine in the darkness no
matter what has occurred.
Forgive us when we lose our way; forgive us for those who know of you
yet refuse to believe. The world has so many
twists and turns from all the souls that are within. Protect those
who love and walk with you for all that is good; all that pure; all that is
with clean hands and pure hearts; from all that is filled with evil, hate and
darkness. I pray Jesus you like the (Sanctus Real) song cries out that you
will ”Lead
Me” https://youtu.be/yLr6G8Xy5uc
I need you to lead me Father; be it you alone or who you
send. I only want what is real not what we do; not what we dream up
or take from others; the truth where nothing else matters; when we know what it
feels like to love from the inside out; no façade we paint around us nothing after
can ever matter.
I pray for all of my blood; all that I am connected.
We are not consumed or tainted by the mystery and misfortunes of this
world. We cling to you Jesus; through all the beautiful
opportunities and blessings and more so through the darkness and painful
misgivings we cause or are entangled with believing in others.
For you Lord, You are “The God Who Stays” https://youtu.be/QPwd_TQpsHY - (Matthew
West)
Matthew
6:9-13 (NKJV)
9 In this manner, therefore, pray:
Our Father in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
10 Your kingdom come.
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
11 Give us this day our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts,
As we forgive our debtors.
13 And do not lead us into temptation,
But deliver us from the evil one.
[a]For
Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.
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August 23, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms
94:18-19 (NIV)
When I said, “My foot is slipping,” your unfailing love, Lord, supported me. When anxiety was
great within me, your consolation brought me joy.
Meditation Moments:
Genesis
37:3-4 (NIV)
3 Now Israel loved Joseph more than any of his other sons, because he had
been born to him in his old age; and he made an ornate[a] robe for him. 4 When his brothers saw that their father loved him more than any of them,
they hated him and could not speak a kind word to him.
Ephesians
3:20 (NIV)
20 Now
to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,
according to his power that is at work within us,
Exodus
33:14 (NIV)
20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more
than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,
Thinking Out Loud
Kudos and Thanks
@TobyMac and all for the efforts on “The St Nemele”
Remix Released Hot! Hot! Hot! in love all over again
with some of these. https://www.youtube.com/redirect?redir_token=SdUqXAJlTzZ6ceB9xeW50_AUeGR8MTU2NjY1NTY5OEAxNTY2NTY5Mjk4&q=https%3A%2F%2FTobyMac.lnk.to%2Fstnemele%2Fyoutube&event=backstage_event
Also loving the new “Heart of My Beat”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives
and/or feelings)
“For I desire mercy, not sacrifice and acknowledgement of God rather
than burnt offerings. Hosea 6:6 (NIV) Lord,
thank you for this day and all those that have come before.
Sometimes it is just hard to pray; yet others when I am circled up and blessed to
lead in prayer; it just flows with no agenda, no script.
I believe that is how it is supposed to be; although I know I could sit
and rehearse and talk to you calling it prayer 24/7. All the things I
see, I hear, I experience. So when it comes time to really honestly
pray I have to let you hear my heart and what is deep within.
Asking forgiveness for all the goofy messed up things I get into, I say
or even offend others with. It is never my intention, and
there is no excuse just being part of humanity no matter what has happened in
my life.
For this Lord I ask your will be done; lead me guiding and guarding my
heart; my words; my actions.
As I try to work through the day to day and correct the mistakes I have
made; I learned a long time ago even though it is hard on many days to not be
concerned with those I care for; those I want the best for; those I pray will
have the loving relationship with you that I have been blessed
with. And so often I am reminded to release all I care for back to you
Lord. Everything I am; everything I have and everything
I have been blessed with belongs to you Jesus.
I will never apologize for falling in love; I will never apologize for
being in love; no matter what the outcome. I am nothing without your mercy
and grace and each day through so many you fill me up with indescribable
love. You have placed what is deep down in my soul that I will
never understand. Allowing me to know what love is from the inside
out. No matter how cold or lonely this world gets; no matter
who or what; is or is not. No matter how painful it is trying
not to jump up and fix things or help. I pray you guide me in
and with my boundaries Father.
So just as the story of Jacob and his son Joseph was painful as a parent
and siblings that transgressed against their own blood. In the end all
were blessed with your favor Lord.
I will admit; I hate admitting at times I need to just give up and let
what will be just being!
My nature is to fix it and make it happen even when in the end it costs
far too much.
There is that need for control and knowledge just what to
expect. That deep desire to have fulfillment of dreams will
always be a part of me.
Yet I know I would not be who I am today or even alive if
you were not the truth, and the way; Jesus.
So all I am belongs to you Father God. Every line of my
story; from being violated, used; abused; treated like a piece of meat being
broken; giving up and believing at points of my life before you I needed to die
and was nothing.
It does not matter if it was physical, emotional or at the hands
of those who were supposed to protect and help to those with profane evil
intentions.
It does not matter if there were hands involved; material things and
weapons or even just the point of me shutting down and wanting out.
It does not matter that I will never really know my true bloodline; for I am a
child of the most high King; Lord and Savior.
How you have kept me alive all these years through much that
should have taken me out as child. Slowly giving me the pieces to
be a child rape victim and 40 years later find out I was conceived in a
rape. All the layers feeling of not belonging throughout
this journey in this crazy messed up world.
I could be angry and be and do as the world calls for.
However, You Lord have saved this soul and taken me from beyond
brokenness; to redemption in love, filled with hope there truly is more than
what this world will ever give or take away.
I will never regret what I have lived through; I pray truly I am able to
help someone else with what I can never fully understand.
But what I do know is that we are all truly worth more than anything
this world can give or take. And no matter who is
by our side and what wrongs are done. It is you that will always be
by our side in the valley or on the mountain top. Everything else that
brings us pleasure and joy with positive results is all
bonuses.
So thank you Jesus, for loving me; and choosing me; or never
giving up on me.
Just like the song from TobyMac brings to my life the realization “It’s
You” https://youtu.be/MGukMchIcDE I may
no longer truly be purposing to find a way out; and I daily see everything
falling in line. You Jesus beyond anything will always hold
this heart of mine and I thank you for a love from the inside
out.
Late
night thoughts
We
love because he first loved us; God gave the ultimate sacrifice. To bring
life he gave life a piece of himself that will never be returned. There
is not enough service or thanks that could ever be returned to pay back what He
has done for humanity. No matter what we sacrifice, lose or give away
will never come close to that of our God.
With
that no matter what I think I give in obedience; in kindness or anything
else. It makes me no one special. However I have learned when you
love something; truly love something; you let it go if that is what is needed
for truth and balance to move forward.
There
is nothing greater to have known love and carry it deep within; and do all you
can to reflect the light that is left within.
It is
when we allow the world and those who just don't get it; those who are not
kind; those who wish to use, abuse and try to riddle the promise of eternal
life and love.
We
have a choice to choose the perspective and path we will take when people
bulldoze us over.
That
does not mean lay down and become a door mat; it does not mean to stop living
or seeking that forever.
It
just means if you make it through; pick yourself up; brush off and keep moving
forward. Protect yourself and do whatever it takes to protect those that
surround you from anything or anyone that is a threat. But never stop
believing in hope and the promise of tomorrow. It never has to mean you
have to stop loving and believing. God has better and bigger
plans. Do not let the world tell you any different. You got
this; for all the right reasons. Not for anything temporal that will be
tossed aside once something else is shiny enough to catch one's attention.
You
have a stake in the destiny you choose to walk towards. Forgive; and
move on. Never forget because those who crave misdeeds will always be
there to offend you of you are not on guard.
Love
and respect YOU. What comes after that may or may not matter.
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August 22, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Romans 8:32 (NIV)
He who did not spare his own Son,
but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously
give us all things?
Meditation Moments:
James 4:7(NIV)
7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist
the devil, and he will flee from you.
Romans 8:1 (NIV)
Life Through the Spirit
8 Therefore, there is now no
condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,
Isaiah 12:2 (NIV)
2 Surely God is my salvation; I will trust
and not be afraid.
The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my
defense; he has become my salvation.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you Jesus for this day; you make it perfectly clear we should “Trust
In You” as Lauren Daigle sings about https://youtu.be/qv-SXz_exKE and
you Lord show us daily and we are reminded in scripture.
Although the day to day and the entire world makes it so much harder
than to do so most days. As we are layered up with trials, tragedy’s and
spiritual battles of current day and even that which sometimes comeback to
remind us. Speaking and writing from my own experiences in life of
what I have lived through or seen so many connections near or far
experience. I think if we remind ourselves as “TobyMac sings about
in “See The Light” https://youtu.be/h3msQ1xv59k
I think if we remind ourselves to keep on keeping on; cause no matter
where you come from we can get through” .
In my perspective summarizing it up as we reflect back to Luke 8:16 (NIV) A
Lamp on a Stand
16 “No one lights a lamp and hides it in a clay jar or puts it under a bed.
Instead, they put it on a stand, so that those who come in can see the light.”
Toby’s song “See The
Light” reminds me / us in to today’s worldly chaos which Jesus knew would be,
we need to hold on and not be afraid to lift our hands up to where our help
comes from; and letting go of the burdens.
Believing in why Jesus
died on that cross for us; so we could live. Which brings everything back
full circle.
If you believe we
(you and me), need to dig deep-pull everything we have out from our clay jars
or under our beds; from within us and not giving up (keep on keepin on)
for ourselves to be all that God created us to be; but also shine on for
others.
We are meant for more than
anything this world has to give or take; as it reminds us from the beginning in
Genesis 1:27 (NIV) So God created mankind in his own image,
in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
In Isaiah 60 (NIV) we are called to shine [ The Glory of Zion ] “Arise, shine, for your light
has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you. See, darkness covers the
earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the Lord rises upon you and
his glory appears over you. Nations will come to your light, and kings to the
brightness of your dawn.
Again, in a song as TobyMac reminds us and sings about “Lights
Shine Bright” https://youtu.be/Uqj08rN0hpo the
world has enough negativity and darkness. We need to make the best of
what we have “ This is the only world we know And for now this rental’s our
home If we gon’ be a reflection Gotta make this third rock glow just so you
know”
We are all given freedom of choice to live love and laugh, shining
brightly as we can; or to live be miserable and die a slow painful existence
and bring more negativity to what was meant to be fulfilling and beautiful.
Me I stumble allot; but I choose to own the results even if they are not fully
mine when I make a bad choice and just keep on trying. I am
thankfully blessed the Good Lord never gave up on me and never allowed me to
harden my heart or become that person from the hurts habits and hatefulness I
have experienced or seen in my lifetime.
Anyway, I am grateful for the opportunities given and the blessings of
music that can remind us and lead us back to paths that are more meaningful
while we travel through our journey while we are visiting here. Moreover,
for the various triggers that allow my mind maze new words to share.
For now Father God; please have your way and your will in all I lift up.
Ø I lift up Eva and family; you know all the needs
in pending healing and discernment
Ø I lift up pops and healing of his cancer that has
returned and mom for all that is to come
Ø I lift up Lisa for the health issues she is going
through pending healing
Ø I lift up all who have just lost someone dear to
him or her or celebrating the anniversary of those who have gone ahead.
For those I personally miss and all their families left behind (Cathy, Chaz,
Bruce, Uncle Denny, Uncle Tom, Aunt Pricilla and the so many of a list that
goes on and on)
Ø I lift up Jennifer and family for all the needs
in pending healing and discernment
Ø I lift up Uncle Bernie for all his needs in
pending your healing
Ø I lift up our Sister in Christ going through the
all the needs in pending healing
Ø I lift up my family; my children; my blood; my
family in Christ and all who have become like family for all the unspoken needs
that you are fully aware of Jesus.
Ø I lift up the doctors for discernment during today’s
procedure for Nancy for all the needs in pending diagnosis healing
Ø I lift up traveling mercies for all those out in
the mission field trying to bring your light to those who need it most.
Ø There are just so many; Father May all come to
pray to you long before it is too late; may they build that relationship only
you and they may know.
I lift up and pray for all growing weary; getting consumed by what they
do and falter in the world. I pray if they do Lord forgiveness and they
come back to you and all that you intended the mission to be.
Lord may you will be done in us in all things for all people; places and
even the things that we falter in.
Unfortunately yes Father God, those thoughts I woke with in the middle
of the night came back around so here I am to share them. Not as
sweet as the love and harmony above; but so very true and someone needs to be
reminded.
Lord even those who are humble servants to you; still fall and forget
how to walk daily in humility with and for you.
Kind of like those that almost run you over getting out of the
church parking lot after Sunday services Father.
Yes even the humble lack humility; masquerading around while in the
public eye; yet behind the scenes leading or participating in selfish
ambitions.
You Lord; say the sin does not matter; be it lying, cheating, adultery,
theft in today’s world impersonation, murder; drugs.
The List goes on and on that rob us the fruits of the spirit from this
world. Noting who am I to call out sin when I daily make mistakes and do
stupid things. However, although all sin is equal no matter who
becomes the judge in the end some have far more consequences than others will.
Therefore, for those of us who are hiding behind the mask thinking you
can get away with behavior that lacks a moral compass; or think you can show up
and serve your way through. Showing up to church a few times a week will never
save you in the end.
Even those who truly, madly love Jesus Christ; fall short and forget not
to judge and label what is not their place. Where is the love;
where is God in the true actions you take daily when you think no one is
watching.
There is always someone watching.
Therefore, if you are going to be so pious thinking you are getting away
with anything while trying label and draw attention to others misdeeds. I
strongly suggest you look closely at yourself and know those caught in the
crossfire may never see it you come to justice or even care in the end that you
do.
However, you too will come to judgment! It does not matter how
high you sit; there is just more space to fall to the bottom; does not matter
if you can justify indecent immoral behavior towards others.
Just as the example written long back in the Bible within Proverbs 6:16 -21 (NIV)
There are six things the Lord hates,
seven that are
detestable to him: 17 haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that
shed innocent blood, 18 a heart that devises wicked
schemes, feet that are quick to rush into evil, 19 a false
witness who pours out lies and a person who stirs up conflict in the community.
And though I am not here as judge and juror the truth is and always has
been known as outlined here in Romans 3:23(NIV) for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, no matter what you do for
personal gain remember this.
Romans
6:23(NIV) for the
wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our
Lord.
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August 21, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 42:8 (NIV)
By day the Lord directs his love, at night his song is with me— a prayer
to the God of my life
Meditation Moments:
1 Kings 8:23
23 and said: “Lord, the God of Israel, there is no God
like you in heaven above or on earth below—you who keep your covenant of love
with your servants who continue wholeheartedly in your way
Galatians 5:22-23 (NIV)
22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace,
forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness
and self-control. Against such things, there is no law.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you
Lord for a sound sleep even if it was my coffee and Baily’s. I
could have slept hours this morning had my alarm not started singing to me.
I am
grateful for the opportunity to acknowledge and feel the blessing when they
come.
Thoughts
this morning around what exactly are we chasing; who do we become when we
continue to get more and more of whatever that is?
How often
do we lose ourselves, and our identity in who we started out being?
How often
does the good we chase, become the drug we become consumed with; making bad
choices becoming so entangled we start to believe that is the good that was
meant all along; even when we leave roadkill and injuries all along the
journey?
At what
point do we acknowledge the truth in humility and realize we need to take the
façade down and reflect who we really are?
At what
point do we stop living what everyone else says we are; and show our truth and
who we really were trying to be.
Life is
hard with so many things that lead us in so many directions and in some cases,
even our best-intended choices take us to places we never should have been.
In some
situations making us feel trapped so instead of dealing with it head on; we keep
playing the part until one day we realize just how much we really need that one
on one with God and his direction to undo all the damage we have caused along
the way.
Trapped
and alone smiling through for all those who direct our steps because they have
a claim and stake in what we do and the money we make for them.
Sure,
this can be for all with fame and fortune; but even the day-to-day average
soul. Just out there trying to make a living; chasing dreams and
just wanting the more of life.
We know
it is happening; the concern is what do we do to fix it and when?
So my
thoughts and memories or historical experiences leave me with more questions
than answers this morning. Not so much for me; as I never sit on
anything for long. I try to keep things moving. However, I
guess most of this morning is just to get the thought process
flowing. Teaching, learning or just observing; the changes we need
to find that place we really need and are meant to be.
Whatever
the case on any given day or evening; thank you Jesus for allowing me life to
make the choices that can be right or wrong. Thank you for
allowing me up and out for more opportunities.
Be happy;
release what we are not and be fully what we really are. Love those
you care about; respect those who love you. Hold tight to your moral
compass and always remain loyal to those God puts in your path just be being
real.
Wow as this day progresses I am reminded when seeing a
post about healing and the first thing that came to mind; reminding me of
one of the misfortunate circumstances I have lived through in this life
“Author unknown” –Healing is layers, Healing is
time. Healing is excruciating. Once you think it’s done, it’s not.
It takes time. Trust the process. You’re healing.”
My response was from a time in 2002 where I had to go in for
tests to be procedure scoped because my heart was bleeding into my lungs and I
was drowning in my own blood. The facility did not want to
use the test results from the week prior; they I found out a week later were a
learning facility. Nevertheless, they
knocked me out just enough so that I was aware but paralyzed while they shoved
a scope down my throat; the entire time my eyes open tears running down my face;
gagging and wrenching urinating all over myself. I do not even know
how long it was. Before they I guess shot me with oxygen and
brought me out of it. My sister waiting; on the outside of
the procedure room door and when they opened the door she knew something was
not right. She was a scope tech for many
years.
I would never be the same after that day looking at life;
just how it can be a real living horror film at times.
I remember just asking my sister to get me out of there as fast as I could;
and for a week straight I stayed by myself and just floated on my back in
my pool looking up at the sky talking to God.
Trying to get an understanding what had happened; what should
have happened and what I should do next.
I never had the surgery in 2002 that was to close the 35 mm
size hole in the upper chambers of my heart. In fact, I immediately
wrote my specialist and told them what happened and that I would never go back
to Tampa General Hospital for anything. To date I have not and I will
risk dying before I do.
It would be 2007 that I finally had to choose life or death
and have the surgery, which put the patch in known as the Helix Occluder
patch. Thankfully a four hour surgery has been a blessing ever
since. Six hours after the surgery I was up and running and pretty much
not stopped yet.
Truly healing is like that sedition that medication that just
numbs you enough through the process to where you are at points paralyzed and
cannot get out of there; get through it; get over it. All you can do is
silently cry and wait for it to pass. However, once it does pass
you come out hopefully a better person. Taking all that you go through
and using it for the better. But guaranteed a different person.
So many times my life was in the hands of others that almost
destroyed me.
All I can say is Thank You Jesus for always being with
me; especially coming out the other side.
Thank you for never allowing my heart to harden and fill with
hate for all that has offended and hurt me over the
years. Thank you for now allowing me to hurt others.
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August 20, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 16:8 (NIV)
I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With him at
my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 103:3 (NIV) (God is a God who heals bodies, minds, broken hearts,
broken lives and broken relationships)
3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,
James 4:2 (KJV)
2 Ye lust, and have not: ye kill, and desire to have, and
cannot obtain: ye fight and war, yet ye have not, because ye ask not.
Or in English
James 4:2 (MSG)
2 You want what you don’t have, so you kill to get it. You
long for what others have, and can’t afford it, so you start a fight to take it
away from them. And yet the reason you don’t have what you want is that you
don’t ask God for it.
2 Corinthians 12:7 (NIV) (Rarely does God heal all brokenness in a person’s life;
Paul always had that thorn) 7 or because of these surpassingly great revelations.
Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in
my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.
Matthew 7:7 (NIV) (Much healing is always available; we only have to ask, to
believe and receive) Ask, Seek, Knock 7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened to you.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you Father for allowing me
another day; allowing me direction; allowing me life.
By the end of the day yesterday I
was just done. Reminded strongly no matter how blessed I am, that every
day seems a bit more overflowing of things we just do not need to see; say or
hear.
Made aware of more and more
animosity problems and in some cases real contempt against fellow humanity.
By the end of my day after an
afternoon of meeting marathons where so much took place. I was just ready
to fade off into a corner somewhere and just be quiet and alone.
Knowing how grand would it be if
I could just write 24/7 and not deal with life and the personalities including
my own in it.
Realizing how ridiculous that
sounds because without interaction; without human contact and all that goes
with; how in the world does anyone have anything to write for someone to read.
Alternatively, even for music messages.
Therefore, conceding
I knew, and still know. There is different answer to God’s unending
love Where we must just keep diving right into whatever is
happening to us; through us and reflect hope; determination and acknowledgement
none in this world deserve anything. Yet our merciful God gives us
mercy ad grace daily.
Called to keep pushing forward
and upward all the while looking up knowing where our blessings, our help and
the air we breathe comes from.
However even in the wee hours
this morning, reminded he was not done with the message I was to
share. Shared with my family always; sometimes those closest
to us just do not see or hear what you are saying.
Nevertheless, someone else may need reminding of this as well.
It starts with you it starts with
me. We must believe in ourselves. One thing
is for sure, you or I will never fill what we are searching for through or by
others validation.
Yes there will be allot of
praise; flattery and even true emotional bonding or bondage. We
ultimately must believe in the real you; as I must believe in myself the real
me.
We can chase people, places and
things all day long. We should never freely give pieces of who we
are away that we can never have replaced. We are worth more
than this world or anyone in it can ever give or take.
It is okay to be imperfect and
even crave love; even be in love with what we can or should not have.
However, we should be in
council and walking with God and reflect all we were created for daily; not
just what others need you to be; tell you should be or even take from you
because they have no faith or purpose and self-esteem to be who they are meant
to be.
All of us are lost and trying to
find the direction and purpose at some points in our lives.
Oh yes, I get it; I have had much time in my journey with many hills and
valleys trenches and oceans of haunting brokenness to find who I was really
meant to be.
Even today, I have that love hate
relationship with me and what I do at times.
The whispers of doubt
always come to tease us and try to spark a fire of dislike to make you
think you are that person of yesterday who did something not so smart all the
while it steals your drive for today with new opportunities; getting you hung
up on why you did something when you did it. Even if it was very clear
back then.
One thing I can assure; I have
never done anything in this life just to do it. When I care I always,
care; even in bad situations when I have to force myself to cut things off to
survive. Be it today or 30 years ago.
The good thing is; it is not 30
years ago for me as my reactive state and self-sufficiency would absolutely
have destroyed me by now.
I thank God daily for every new
day full of opportunities and ask him to reveal the purpose and direction of
any given day and even those that are seasonal testing.
What will the good Lord have me do; I may never know as there are still some
days I am awaiting the unveiling.
One thing is for sure; there will
be people places and things we want more of; there will be people places and
things that we think have destroyed us.
Our journey
given to us with knowledge Jesus is ready to take the wheel any time we turn it
over to him. There is power in the blood that cleanses us as those
who believe; we are forever written in the book for eternity.
We cannot earn salvation mercy or
grace; it is a blessing given when we live in obedience a sanctification of
daily purposing to be more and more the soul with and in Christ that we are
created for.
Each time we give ourselves away;
it is something we never get back So make sure the
connections you are responding are for the right reasons; not something
temporary that take pieces of us if it does not last and those connections were
just users.
Know your worth; stop giving
yourself away; stop chasing love. Build the relationship with
Jesus and be filled with an abundance of love that you will find it hard to
describe even when you are going through the storms of life and you still
do.
You have a peace just knowing all
things will be all right. They just may have a new kind of normal
we need to adjust in and through Christ with.
Human love comes in all shapes,
sizes and colors. Take your blinders off; dare to be you and love
the one who allows you to be. Do not get locked in by the ways of
this world.
Remember we are made for
so much more and are needed to shine on and plant the seeds of everlasting hope
and love. We are made in the image of God; check out what Louie
Giglio has to say with scientific facts with Laminin https://youtu.be/zocnmbd07a4
For me; I believe that greater
things are yet to come and that He is not finished with me yet.
I am who I am; yesterday today
and any tomorrows I am given.
In love; hungry for more
steadfast and true to not just freely giving away the blessings of what Jesus
suffered, died and was buried for us.
In love from the inside out and
knowing no matter what; some things are meant to be; some are true deep
forever within the soul and others are lessons along the way.
Through it all; my eyes will stay
fixed on Him even if!
No matter how broken or healed I
become. The love I have deep inside; to be shared with those He
tells me to share with; nothing temporary but for me; forever beyond space and
time.
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August 19, 2019
Verse of the Day:
1 John 5:12 (NIV)
Whoever has the Son has life;
whoever does not have the Son of God does not have life.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 131: 2 (NIV)
2 But I have calmed and quieted myself, I am like a weaned
child with its mother;
like a
weaned child I am content.
Psalms 21:6 (NIV)
6 Surely you have granted him unending blessings and made him
glad with the joy of your presence.
Psalms 37:7 (NIV)
7 Be still before the Lord
and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked
schemes.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you
for this Day!
As I wake
with the thoughts of life that crashes down around us; on us and sometimes even
in us.
I think
how blessed we truly are and can be; if only we set our thoughts to a higher
perspective
How none
of us are deserving of anything; yet we all walk around with the entitlement
card in our hands even when we choose not to work for anything in this
life. Not material things; relationships; life and the air we
breathe even.
We just
assume we deserve to have it.
Choices
our choices are our own; be it the Good Lord allows anything to transpire from
them or not depending the direction, we go in well that is a different
story.
Nevertheless,
today my thoughts lead to the choice of being single and for how long.
I am not
sure how long I will remain where I am. Single, Sassy and for most days
satisfied.
I have
standards I guess you could say. Besides the fact; it is pretty hard to top a
relationship when you know what walking without God is like and you have
already experienced the brokenness. Then that day you fell in love
with the Son of God.
Yes, that
too; I never want to repeat the mistakes I made before I started walking the
walk. I am not about temporary or just settling.
I refuse
to be with anyone to fill a gap or desire; I refuse to give any pieces of me
away that you are never able to get back.
Before my
walk I was ignorant and well my journey starting out as a child my choices were
not my own.
My
rebirth and journey to find out who I really am and who I can be as well, as
how I tick. Well that last portion will be an ongoing effort with this
mind maze I have been given.
Today
though my thoughts are for all of those out there thinking they have no life
because they are alone or feel alone in this world
Singleness Is My Choice
I will never
say I cannot live without someone by my side
I will never
say I have no life without someone to validate me
Blessed to
live through finding myself and all the mistakes hurts habits and
hang-ups.
I am okay
with the labels society puts on me because of my choices
As I know
just how blessed every day I am as well as I know to whom I belong.
Blessed to
know the one I want to travel this journey with and to for is forever
you.
Blessed to
fall in love with the one who has died for me
Blessed no
matter what the world entangles my days with; no matter how I feel confused
My King I am
forever awaiting my days with you.
If that is
not in this side of eternity. So be it. As I will continue to do
what I must do until my days are done and at some point, I will find you.
My choices
are my own; yes with some help from day to day elements of course
However, I
choose to walk with the one who showed me what love was from the inside
out. That love that no one can take away; turn off; or even
erase.
I do not
have to try the product before and keep trying until I find someone that fits
my image; my personality; my space; my style; my interests; my needs or even
fits me.
Forever
gives us a lifetime to figure out exactly what works and what does not
Forever
gives us the ability to know who we really are in Christ
Forever if
not this here and now, it is beyond all space and time
So if you
are struggling and desperate for love and all those physical elements that go
with that intimacy know this: It is a choice to love ourselves
first and honor in respect and loyalty towards the vessel the good Lord gave us
first
When we
finally know who we are, we will finally realize it is okay to be single
whether we are satisfied at this moment in time or not.
Human nature
says we have all these urges; desires wants or needs
That is
okay; but value every bit of you before you throw yourself out there
Knowing it
is okay to have expectations for yourself and for you the one you want to be
with the rest of your physical days
Never
settle; never give up; never give in
Humanity is
for more than anyone or anything this world can give and take away.
Embrace who
you are with God and know you are loved and created for more than any temporary
pleasure of this world and when it comes your turn you have it blessed with God
and all He wants for it and you.
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August 18, 2019
08/182019 New Life
Christian Church – Spring Hill https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2388458364579979/
Verse of the Day:
Philippians 1:21(NIV)
For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.
Meditation Moments:
Revelation 19:01 (NIV)
Threefold Hallelujah Over
Babylon’s Fall
19 After this I heard what sounded like the roar of
a great multitude in heaven shouting:
“Hallelujah! Salvation and glory and power
belong to our God,
Psalms 91:1 (NIV)
Whoever
dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Oh my word; if I had read my final morning devotion before running off to serve
this morning; I may have been looking for an excuse of what adversity may be
awaiting and I suddenly become sick and stay home.
Yet; I got right to it after my morning of service and all things do happen for
a reason. “Anticipate coming face-to-face with impossibilities;
situations totally beyond your ability to handle.”
Oh, could I have not had this warning and message months ago?
I so could have just avoided all that I stepped out trying to be me being
helpful and caring. However, I know better than anyone else; I
would never stop caring and my steps have allowed me to get closer to you in
this fallen world full of so many fallen relationships and trusting souls.
As for this weekend; letting go of what we cannot control and doing our best
with what we can.
Jesus thank you today and for these life lessons; thank you for holding my
heart and guiding my being in your will Father.
Thirty years ago I would have fallen apart; and it’s not that I cannot
at any time now. I just have faith no matter what good, bad, unfinished;
You God will always be with me as long as I do not walk away.
There are so many unspoken prayers; for those in my blood line; for those I am
connected; those I adore; those I have not yet come to know. Those that I
have had to let go; those Father that I so badly wanted to get to know; and
those you have protected me from. Jesus, you have the
keys to this life and I need you as my captain taking the wheel.
For you are my accountability and all I do have. For this I am nothing
without you.
Thank you for the blessing of life and all I walk with and through.
------Letter to my Sweet
Soul King------8/18/2019AlwaysMeKelly
To die a thousand deaths
daily
Love from the inside out.
My Sweet Soul; where are
you forever in my dreams
Forever not so long as it
may seem.
Forever my Sweet Soul King
For you are my Sweet Soul
and I belong to the one and only true King
Love beyond space and time
There is no beginning; no
end throughout the abyss
This is far from a riddle;
a joke; a child’s nursery rhyme
For my King; my Lord; my
Prince of Peace
Saved me from myself; and
showed me there would be days like these
Life you toy with
Life you I hope are
enjoying
For the truth; a love from
the inside out
Need not be confronted;
when you know who our God is really all about
So in this world of
temptation and temporal pleasure
This I know is more than
words or bebop’s in a tune or a letter
Crazy far from it; I can
assure this
For the God of all the
heavens and earth; pulled me from death and showed me there is something far
greater
My prayers you know this as
well; sooner than later
Where are you the Sweetest
Soul this side of eternity?
Why has the good Lord not
revealed your true colors; the mission and what you really are to me?
Your story is waiting to be
told; not just the glitter and gold
Your story of God’s
acknowledgement and key to your soul; your story is waiting this is guaranteed.
In this life whatever will
be; will be
Only if you allow it; says
the Queen of the forever Sweet Soul King.
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August 17, 2019
Verse of the Day:
2 Corinthians 10:17-8 (NIV)
But, “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.” For it is not the one
who commends himself who is approved, but the one whom the Lord commends.
Meditation Moments:
Philippians 2:9-11 (NIV)
9 Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10 that
at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11 and
every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.
Isaiah 43:1 (NIV)
Israel’s Only Savior
43 But now, this is what the Lord says—
he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you,
Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are
mine.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Lord
Thank you for this day; please guard my heart, and my words.
As I go do what I need to do; please sort out the things to make sense and will
be beneficial for others to read.
If I am to leave things alone this day; Your will be done.
Well I knew there was a reason with all my running around and my day not
being done yet I needed to hold on thoughts.
Sometimes you just know when the busyness of the world has plans to try
an derail thoughts of positivity. You know as you reminded me
in my reading today the events that will whirl around us. We
must always hold on to you Jesus. Even when it is out of our
control and we want to fix it so desperately.
So with all our techies out this week I went in early to get set
up. Nothing out of the norm; except our live stream camera computer first
we had to find it. Then get it turned on; then had everything setup and
ready to go when we realized the stream just would not work.
No think of our tech booth as every paper manual that gets put into it
disappearing and the only walking end to end knowledge who rocks; away on
vacation.
So of course quick cheat sheets hit list to run down for our
applications well just of course glitches out and I was the lucky duck who
knows enough to be dangerous but not enough for quick turn around and keep
stress levels down.
We got through the services with nonsensical things happening but we got
through.
Does not help when I am a little more tired today than I have been, in
awhile that is. I think having my sidekick sleeping with me I
didn’t get as much in as I would have liked.
Then just stuff on my mind. But hey; I am here to tell
you. It’s all good~ REALLY!
I do like many have tons on my mind; some days more than others and feel
like I am carrying the weight of the world. But I know who I belong to;
and I know no matter what stuff will always keep happening; people will always
be people no matter what title or façade they are out there pretending to
be. And well; life just happens.
Do I wish more than I pray things would be different; oh I am sure of
it.
Thank goodness I do not have to rate myself for survival on how good my
prayer life is on some days compared to others. I would have
to beg for forgiveness.
Pray for others always and my heart never stops; not sure if that makes
sense to anyone.
Just as God has blessed me since I can remember maybe back in 5th
or 6th grade that I could go on and on just writing about anything
or nothing. I have had this deep inner communication even
when I just never understood it.
Now that I know more of Jesus I just do not understand why He loves me;
and allows me so much grace. But He does!
So on these things that glitch out throughout the day; where the world
spins and consumes too much of me; and my thoughts are entangled on the things;
even when I pray for change for the better.
I know if the Good Lord got me up; no matter what I want to say unkind;
no matter how often I want to quit running off; just go find someone and get
consumed forgetting everything. And yes I am human and I mess up
and yearn more often than not. Well; that is not the good Lord’s
plan for me. I know this. I can’t
explain how I know but I do. And half the time I do not understand
it; but there is a peace when I stick close to what is not so easy and not
understood and know it is pure and good. Even on those days I want
to throw in a towel and do what comes easy in the world.
Quit!
That’s right so easy to allow ourselves to get stuck believing
how terrible things are and life is not anything for that matter.
Our life sucks etc.
Truth is; Life is tough and everything that comes at us; people, places
and things can chew us up and spit us out like a big hairball.
Gross and messy and really disgusting or feeling disgusted.
We get to choose; what we do with it. Clean our thoughts up;
clean our actions up; change what is not working.
Choose to shake it off and keep going with or without what we
really would like to be.
If we get even a sliver of what we desire that’s just bonus. If we
don’t know matter what transpires. Use it; shine on and do our best
to head for tomorrow; because the Son is going to rise again. And
if He allows us a new day; we need to get out there and use everything that
didn’t work as the canvas of all those who need strength, courage, and hope.
So with that; God is with us no matter what else is working right; no
matter who is or is not with us or for us; no matter what we have or what we do
not.
Thank you Jesus for allowing me reason; understanding to not take things
so personal and for being human.
May your peace fill each and every soul I am connected; may all that I
am reflect all that you wish me to be. No matter what!
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August 16, 2019
Verse of the Day:
2
Corinthians 7:1 (NIV)
Therefore, since we
have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that
contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God..
Meditation
Moments:
Psalms 31:24 (NKJV)
24 Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen
your heart, All you who hope in the Lord.
Isaiah
40:31 (NIV)
31 but those who hope in
the Lord will renew their
strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run
and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be
faint.
Psalms
27:4 (NIV)
4 One thing I ask from
the Lord, this only do I
seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
and to seek him in his
temple.
Philippians
4:8 (NIV)
8 Finally,
brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right,
whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is
excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Lord
We know we cannot take
anything you give us here on earth when we leave. However; we can shine
and share the blessings we have along the way while we are
here. Just as we are to plant the seeds of good fortune and
blessings to all we connect. We may never see the bounty of what
grows; but we trust in you that all that is true and meant to be takes growth
for what is good.
That we know is hard to
trust in a world that has so much corrupt and dark ploys within humanity
itself. But for me; all I am; all I have belongs to
you. I trust when things stick with me and appear in many instances
out of nowhere I am on the right track with and for you.
I know I hardly ever get
it right; and sometimes I jump right into the fire. My reward is knowing
when I walk out the other side all my good intentions; love and loyalty in you
has kept me safe and blessed me with wisdom and grace.
Hard for many to
understand how things fire up and spark in this mind maze I am given.
Sometimes even for me; and perhaps it is turning the other cheek on those
moments that truly turn into life lessons. But knowing all I am
when I had nothing and lay broken and not even knowing who I was; you were
there. Just as you allow me to grow daily with you in the moments of each
new day given.
I love every soul I have
ever been blessed to connect; in so many different ways. From those
which are my blood; those which I serve and walk in Christ with; those whom I
have given a piece of me over time.
Those who are deep
in my soul, that I have never met loving from the inside
out. Those whom I will forever care and have memories
that are now the only thing left. And those you Lord allow me to still
come to know.
One thing is for sure; I
cherish each and everyone. Blessed when I do see the seed grow for
you and all that is good giving hope in this world that can reflect
hopelessness at times.
Knowing when the rains
come; we can choose to dance in the storm; wash ourselves clean knowing no
matter what; this is not the end. Or we can hide and bury ourselves with
the nonsense and lies that we get consumed with.
I get the fine line of
life in this world just as in Deuteronomy 25:16 it says “For the Lord
your God detests anyone who does these things, anyone who deals dishonestly.”
I see how many
in this world are spoofed and taken advantage of those who purposely live this
way. Even those who have no hope and think the only way
to happiness to having a life is when they join up and become engaged
with these easy quick fixes getting involved in things that hurt; take; even
create tragedy for others.
The world
classifies those who do not have much if anything as the least of these.
Yet Jesus, you call them your own. Brothers, sisters, sons and daughters
all equally loved and created for relations for and with you and all the purity
you being stand for.
I pray all
those unspoken needs Jesus; for myself, blood line, friends, family in Christ,
all my connections future and past. For all that has come and
is yet to come; may it be your will that leads us in Love and
Grace. None of which we deserve but you gave freely.
May we shine
on no matter where we are in life and add to the light and hope of all that is
good even on our darkest moments. May we all be blessed with
truth; and abundant pure Agape love from the inside out and if it is meant to
be share that with our worldly life partner from now through
eternity. Please see and hear all needs for
reconciliation; healing; guidance; strength and courage in you for all
things. Amen
Thank you for
this new day.
It is not the loss or the gain
It is the love that you share in the process
We are made for more than just what is give and take
Yes, many may argue that point; many may think we need to respond more or
less
However, the bottom line is what do you want to consume your inner self
with.
Agitation; Sadness; Loneliness; Anger; Hurt; Sorrow as the list can go on
and on.
I prefer to quiet my storm; quiet my soul and know it is better to have had
love and it moved on for someone else than never having any connections ever.
I may get lonely; I may forever love; I may do allot of things. One
thing is for sure! I will always try to maintain a smile knowing whose I
am. Knowing who allowed me in this world and gives me each new day.
I imagine and sometimes that is more than enough. If things
are meant to be, the Lord knows He has my attention. I will always be
who I am; and why I am does not really matter to those in this world.
But does to the one who means most.
Some of the sweetest souls on this planet are those who just cannot connect;
because they do not know how. So treat everyone with love and respect
and take nothing less.
Its fine to be at the top of your game; but in the end truly selfless love
from the inside out not only drives you insane; but allows pleasures and life
to never be seen the same.
Seeing the world as God's canvas and we are the colors all ready to
blend. Is forever and eternal my friends.
As for me; I am forever in love with my dream. Crazy maybe but never
as strange as it seems.
One thing is for sure; I will never let go of my Jesus; and from
experience. You may be filled with all kinds of love along the way; even
hate. Whenever you are connected; be careful; be cautious. Because
everyone is going through something. And those sweet souls that may need
to be connected at the moment for their selfish reason or Gods purpose.
Not all will remain in your life and not all will come without a cost.
Never give yourself away; never give away anything that won't be
missed. You can replace material things. You can never get back
pieces of yourself or what they take when you give your heart.
Know which kind of connection and love you are willing to have. Know
which kind you can live without when they move on through their journey and
they are no longer part of yours. It all matters how we
blend.
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August 15, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Romans 14:8 (NIV)
If we
live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we
live or die, we belong to the Lord.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 55:17 (NIV)
17 Evening, morning and
noon I cry out in distress, and he hears my voice.
Psalms 32:6 (NIV)
Therefore
let all the faithful pray to you while you may be found;
surely the rising of the mighty waters will not reach them.
Psalms 62:8 (NIV)
Trust in
him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our
refuge.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Lord
How often do we feel like we are stuck out here on our own
misinterpreting life and becoming defensive and ready to fight for what we
think is right.
Even those of us who do not react publically carry the
burdens of heaviness thinking we have to solve the issues that are in front of
us.
Those of us that just cannot say no to many who come through us; or even
how to deal with what so many do that have lasting impacts around and on us.
May we all come to realize?
You God are the great Healer Jehovah Rapha will bring healing
to all who believe!
You God are the one whose power and protection is a banner
that surrounds and keeps us close Jehovah Nissi.
You God are the great Provider – Jehovah Jireh.
Not only may we all come to realize but also live and let go
and walk in faith and hope of all good things of and for you Jesus?
As much as I would like to make that a statement; I know it
will always be a question; for no matter who knows of the good Lord; many will
choose to ignore all that is not materially direct in front of them.
For this much suffering has, is and will continue to
contaminate this world; leaving us missing out and tied up on the little things
that turn into misfortune mole hills turned into mountains instead of living
day to day experience peace and harmony.
Lord please guide us in your will and not our own.
Direct our steps when we think it is what you approve; give us a clear word,
view or roadblock and when you cannot. Give us the ability to pick
ourselves up and keep going for you with you in you.
Always forever blessed. Thank you
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I want to be
“Different” https://youtu.be/XFT0zoKQWaM (Micah Tyler)
I need
to; “I’m Gonna Let Go” https://youtu.be/yJY83Hbduvg(Jason Gray
I have
to “Fight My Battles” on my knees https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4?list=RDYBl84oZxnJ4 (MW Smith) No matter
what happens or does not in this life.
I never
planned to be where I am today; I never planned to be alone or even be in love
with Jesus Christ. But despite any of my best laid plans; or dreams
chased or even jumping through hoops to impress or feel accepted by those that
in the end are selfish and would never accept the real
me. I learned long ago none of it matters when it comes
time for eternity.
It matters to
my God and this is and always will be how it is.
I am
far from perfect; “I’m No Angel” https://youtu.be/t5MvrlvTuWQ (Greg Allman)
when it comes the good Lord “I am you say I am” a Child of God https://youtu.be/lKw6uqtGFfo (HillSong)
I will forever
know who is for me and who is not. And if he connects us; there is a
reason; a blessing or a lesson never to be taken lightly.
This world is
hard; in unity we should all be shining out for those trying to find the
path. He is the everlasting “This I believe” https://youtu.be/VRzI_FbWTkg (HillSong) and “What a
beautiful Name” to believe in https://youtu.be/nQWFzMvCfLE (HillSong)
You see I
would rather suck it up and walk around trying to “Speak Life” https://youtu.be/7rK6O0YtBRY(TobyMac) and have
peace rather than be out there trying to prove anything to anyone.
Judgment is best left for the maker. I may trip up
often and feel the hardships with the joy; but I will do whatever I must even
if alone to not “Lose Myself” https://youtu.be/o113pk2cC9I (TobyMac)
In all that is
good; all that is beautiful and even the other side of darkness I see you Lord
in “Everything” https://youtu.be/QurQEiOAQjA (TobyMac) without
you where would I ever be?
For I am
“Fully Known” by you https://youtu.be/gbQ6Lfh5L14 (Tauren Wells) and
blessed despite what chaos; brokenness; this world and all we cling do leaves
us as.
All we have to
do is call out to you God and you clearly say “Look Up Child” https://youtu.be/FgKfi0G4OFI (Lauren Daigle)
“You Say” https://youtu.be/g_49NQI3XTQ (Lauren Daigle) we
are; I am everything you want me to be; if only I/ we let go and believe in
what is pure; what is true; what loyal; what is forever.
Anything else
that comes to pass; is at the hands of so many others who struggle to really
grasp what they want. Filling their selves with chaos and
chasing demons giving into them most of the time.
So
count it all as a blessing when you have been attacked by the “Elements” https://youtu.be/rDVtUY0cNO8 (TobyMac) of this
world and all that is called humanity within it. Take a
deep breath and look up “ With Lifted Hands” https://youtu.be/7drEyGsF-Vo(Ryan Stephenson) and
know it will be more than okay as long as you surrender to the one who has gave
it all for you.
The good Lords
promise is alive and He is not done with us yet; we are just right here right
now ”Unfinished” https://youtu.be/Ejycllx5iwA (Mandisa) This I
will forever believe and hold onto no matter what “He knows my name” https://youtu.be/g_kmsIfQoqQ (Terrian - Cover)
I pray you
find the peace in Him that I have; “God Only Knows” what we go through or have
been through https://youtu.be/Q5cPQg3oq-o (King& amp;
Country)
Life has
“Scars” that cut deep https://youtu.be/yNavV76cpdQ (TobyMac) that’s okay
because those “Scars” https://youtu.be/It1XzDf-pFo define who you can be
once on the other side.
We all
struggle but I am here to tell you when things are hard pray harder and “Take
Me Back” https://youtu.be/ns8lIG6cLc8 Cochran& amp; Co
“Hope Now” https://youtu.be/tH6sNNJ4u8o (Addison Road) is in
something far bigger than I can explain and my faith no matter what I have
going on cannot be shaken.
I am loved and
have been given love to give! So “What If I Stumble” https://youtu.be/kg6HedZ4xGs (DC Talk)
I know “Gods Not Dead” https://youtu.be/S_OTz-lpDjw (News
Boys) and neither are we.
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August 14, 2019
08/14/2019
Cruising with Kelly don’t let negativity rent space
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2380782872014195/
Verse of the Day:
Revelations
3:14, 20 (NIV)
[To the Church in Laodicea ] “To the angel of the church in
Laodicea write: These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness,
the ruler of God’s creation. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If
anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that
person, and they with me.
Meditation Moments:
Revelations
1:8 (NIV)
8 “I am the Alpha
and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is, and who was, and who is to come,
the Almighty.
Hebrews
13:8 (NIV)
8 Jesus Christ is
the same yesterday and today and forever.
Psalms
102:25-27 (NIV)
25 In the beginning you
laid the foundations of the earth, and the heavens are the work of your
hands. 26 They will perish, but you remain; they
will all wear out like a garment.
Like clothing you will change them and they will be
discarded.
27 But you remain the same, and your years will never end.
Psalms
48:14 (NIV)
14 For this God is our God
forever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Dear
Lord, Thank you for this day!
What a
weird, long, productive, full of awareness and full of thoughts to process.
Thank you for the love and guidance in your will I am allowed.
Because we know if I take over; my matter of fact train wreck acknowledging
what should not be and missing what should. This could be one for the
books; I am beyond grateful for you never leaving my side Jesus.
May we
never forget where we have been; but always purpose to move forward for what is
good; what is true; what is pure and what is clean.
May we
treat respect and loyalty as absolutes and never just settle out of kindness,
need to assist and/or loneliness.
May we
always remember when God answers prayers; no matter how many years have come
and gone; that we never try to revisit what has been blessed and freed to find
true life.
Dear
Jesus,
May the
words that I write on my pages that come out of this mind maze of mind; never
offend anyone and if they do; may they dig in and determine why for
themselves. Prayers nothing leads to misguided actions of others
thinking anything is about them.
Just as I
talk; I talk to everyone and no one; as I write, father God I write to everyone
and no one. With the thoughts that sometimes wake me and sometimes just
trigger from a song or word.
Lord I
will never forget where I came from; where I have been or most likely many
other things I have journeyed through. However as I am determined
to press forward I have only one relationship in my life and it is you Jesus.
I can only
recall one relationship in my years that I tried to fix and retry every time
and not matter how bad things got; no matter how much I couldn’t fix. I
never stopped until my son was an adult. That was with my son’s
father; be it 1 day, 1 week; 10 years. That was son’s father; may God
rest his soul as he died and left this world.
I do not return once I leave; and if I have
prayed for change; and what is good; what is life. I never
purposely repeat history. It took me years to even realizing
I had a type; so even though I would get away from bad decisions; bad
relationships and replace them with a better looking; better styled; better
something version. I do not repeat history not for years and
years.
This day
has become an all day full of weirdness blowing through; ending my day with
someone reaching out getting this mind maze to churn for a reason.
It has been about 16 years since we last connected and I am glad to see them
still alive.
But Lord
and you know this; everything has a reason; and everything falls into place; I
have no intentions of ever going back in time.
So as
simple as songs popping up on my social media account; I find it so fitting for
all the yesterdays; today and any tomorrows. Nothing but love
from a distance for all I have parted ways with in this life time; but
for real!
“I don’t
Think We Can be Friends” - Hollyn
https://youtu.be/IUwzM2oyZkY?list=RDIUwzM2oyZkY
“I Feel
Bad For You” – Hollyn https://youtu.be/tWRXl2MGVtM?list=RDtWRXl2MGVtM
I do not
live with regrets ever; I make choices in my life and I hold accountable
sometimes for everyone even if I do not deserve to hold all the
burdens. When I love; I love and when I serve it’s for my heart
strings and depths of what fills me.
My God is
“The Way” New Horizon” Pat Barrett https://youtu.be/MOzsJlk8p6I and who I
will always stay connected to
But for
anyone who has touched my heart and even gotten deep into my soul.
Nothing compares to what the Lord has given me. For this I can only pray
for the many that have weird days like I have today; and they address it head
on and keep moving forward.
Maybe
this is why I couldn’t get my system booted up because of updates this morning;
I had to go through this day of weirdness and allow the words of this maze to
flow regarding the unknown; unexpected stuff life sometimes gives us.
Don’t let
negativity rent space in your spirit of any kind. Pick your battles and
keep moving forward. It does not matter if you are having a
good day or a bad day. If you did everything right or things went wrong.
Life is
short; acknowledge your blessings and shine on. Love the
lessons you learned and let go of what changed for a reason.
Love those you must leave behind from a distance and always pray for them if
you feel the need. Most importantly hold on tight to the father.
Do not
let anything steal the peace he gives you; Do not give away the blessings he
has filled your life with.
Do not
repeat history; read and learn about it.
My weird
day! Yet here I am still blessed. Thank you Jesus
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August 13, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Ephesians
2:10 (NIV)
For we are God’s
handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in
advance for us to do.
Meditation Moments:
Matthew 1:23 (NIV)
23 “The virgin will conceive and give
birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel”[a] (which means “God with us”).
John 10:10-11 NIV)
10 The thief comes only to steal and
kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
11 “I am the good shepherd. The good
shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you
Jesus for all the suffering and sacrifice you willingly made so someone like me
could have a life on this earth. Were most days I remain so
caught up in what they refer to as day-to-day I forget just how big the
blessings are.
We never
really know and appreciate what we have until it is gone. We never
know when we have even lost ourselves until something sparks a memory; a tinge
of sadness; a smell wafting through the air that brings us back to days gone by
when things were full of love; laughter and never-ending
promise. A song or word that triggers songs in our soul that
feed our fuel with peace and abundance.
What
happens when we just wake up and realized what we were chasing for the good
really ended up consuming us. Not all that is glitter
is necessarily gold; all that shines brightly sometimes is just a façade for
what hides underneath.
You know
this was a possibility Lord of the facts not every human being on this earth
would seek and walk with you; in fact, you knew from day one giving the
ultimate sacrifice of you one and only son for so much hate and evil in the
world. Yet you did; and he willingly took everything to the cross.
To what
do we owe anything we are given; yet all we do is chase for more and carry on
most days ungrateful and even throwing those childish temper tantrums when we
do not get what we want.
Some take
from others; whilst others work themselves into the ground trying to do for
everyone else. Is it not insanity how the more we want the more
troubles we bring upon ourselves?
What is
it that we are teaching our children in this season of entitlement; where so
many live, in expectation and not many any longer are
willingly stepping out appreciating and work for what they
obtain. Running wild on the coattails of those before
them who have done the work.
Where did
we lose ourselves? How do we find
ourselves? What about all those broken hearted who truly
believed in something that was all just some sad misguided game at the hands of
others.
Is it not
true that if you are worried about losing what you have become; then that of
what you have become is not the real you; and will not matter in eternity!
As I wake
with these thoughts to share Jesus. There will never be enough thanks for
the love, mercy and abundant grace you show my family and me daily!
Thank you
Father God https://youtu.be/ZiuvKo-7Me4 - Bryan &
Katie Torwalt “Prophesy” Your Promise”
Father I will never stop being thankful for the lessons and blessings of this
life. You give and take away. I am blessed with those who truly
are loving kind souls that I am allowed to have in my life. Those who
stick around and help me grow through the process and those who just come to
teach lessons of what I do not want to be like as I make my way in this
journey. For the love I am given from the inside out that only you Jesus
could understand.
Forgive me from the depths of my soul; for all I offend; purposely have enough
and finally just forget who I am in you and revert to who the world wants me to
be in how I respond when life just is not understanding, kind or reflecting
what I wish to be in you.
Thank you Jesus; for allowing me to be that foolish heart seeking the best in
everyone; ready to go down and burn if necessary to keep those I care about
warm. Thank you for leading me out of the fire when the world just does
not care one way or the other. When I forget whose will I
am trying to walk in may I always remember; whom I belong.
Dear real
you,
I love
and miss you always. Why you could not stay? Sadly, I will never
understand and until you return, there are no meaningful lasting memories in
this place you have left me.
Forever
is not long enough to show what you mean to me.
I am not
sure we will ever really know how life would have been. For your choice
of stepping out and staying distant, was the one to change everything.
No matter
what you do; no matter what you think; always know YOU are in control; please
never forget that. I will always be here waiting for the real you to come
back.
That may
be soon or that may be never. Only you are the one that can respond in
truth, in love in Christ. For your worth’s value, is so much
more than anything this world has put in front of you. For you are
not what you do; and who you are deep inside is worth so much more now and
after. Look deep inside your soul; not in what others fill you up
with; as the release of truth and ever after awaits screaming out for freedom;
for release. There is no greater love than that
of the Father God the creator of all things.
No
temporal moments of any day; when a love so deep from the inside out has driven
such powerful connections; bind and reflect whom you really are to be.
The
reflection in the mirror is the stranger looking back. Who once
shined brightly with hope and promise in humanity and the heart like
Christ! Sometimes still peaks out; as you push through all
the worldly commitments and binding contracts for these worldly ways that
consume us.
Please
just know; it is never too late! I am forever and a day praying and
waiting for your return. I am forever still here just waiting and needed
the real you to know how much you are loved; needed and missed every second of
every day you stay away and are gone.
It is
never too late to come back to the real you; never too late to turn away from
all that consumes you of this world and just to be held tighter in truth; in
love; in Christ than anything can ever release. The King above all
kings; God of all creation has made us for so much more. Believe in
yourself that you are not what you do; you are not empty; not alone.
You are
love; you are a child of the most high; you are needed from deep within.
Passions
so great that burn throughout eternity as you hold the hand of the one who
gives life. You hold the keys to be set free,
with all your unspoken ways and words; shine for the passion of life not of all
that can fill temporal desires and dreams.
You are
everything and nothing beautifully broken and pieced back together by the hands
of the potter.
You are
forever deep within my soul.
Until
then, until you come back, I am here and it will never be too late.
Signed Lost without You!
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August 12, 2019
Verse of the Day:
1
Corinthians 6:19-20 (NIV)
Do you not know that your
bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received
from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God
with your bodies.
Meditation Moments:
Isaiah 42:3 (NIV)
3 A bruised reed he will not break,
and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out.
In faithfulness he will bring forth justice;
Isaiah 54:10 (NIV)
10 Though the mountains be shaken and
the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my
covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.
Romans 8:26 (NIV)
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps
us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit
himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you
Lord for this day!
Awakenings
of many kinds; with so many different levels. None matter unless they are
truly that of the Father.
So how do
we know; or do we? Do we not just go through life the majority of us that
is; doing the best we can with whatever we get to work with. Believing
and hoping in all that is good; that is lasting that is filled with
love. Do we not become heartbroken for the negativity and brokenness
that fills this land in the space of our universe given?
Somedays
this mind maze has more questions than answers. Not sure about
yours or not; but I can only speak for myself.
I am
thankful every given day I exhale and see the promise of each new sunrise.
Even on
the cloudy stormy days, the creator of all heavens and earth awaits our praise
and connections.
I could
stay in the weeds and choke myself out; on all that I desire in my human nature
that seems so far away and out of reach.
I miss those who are gone Father. Every moment of every day. I
miss them.
Stuck in
hate or self-doubt or the why I am here and things I want are over there.
Nevertheless,
why?
No matter
what love is lost; no matter what sickness within us; no matter what brokenness
causes our movement much more cautious and slower. It does
not change the fact every day we are allowed up; we have opportunities to live.
Some of
us can chase all that the world has to give; chasing material items no matter
how we achieve them; some can chase people. Even as we chase the
physical and verbal affirmations that help us to keep going.
We are all chasing something. Losing our way; losing precious time of
just breathing and doing life the best we can. In appreciation of what we
have. Not that or desire.
Does it
get lonely sometimes when we stop chasing love; laughter and life?
Absolutely.
However, for every second we let ourselves down trying to force the elements to
sway in our favor. Well, there is one more missed opportunity to know our
creator and trust all that was ever written and told about his promise of
everlasting love, mercy, grace and a peace that is so grand nothing can
compare.
Life is
and can be with riddles; how we respond the choices belong to us; even when the
results of our choices make or break everything around us at that time and
place.
I
personally laugh and say God always has a sense of humor when it comes to
me. First just knowing he choose me to be called a child of God after all
these years and life’s journey has seen me through.
Far from
perfect; or having anything together. Yet the passion and love I feel
even to this day is even beyond anything I could have
fathomed. To just know! Even when you do not know, what you
do not know!
This day
has so many directions it can go for anyone of us. For me I do not
want to add darkness to this world; all that is already here and even all that
can never be erased.
I may
live as some have said in my dream world; my imaginary places where I still
believe in love every lasting with promise of new days. At
peace; while I get up every day like most and just go do the best I can with
what I am given. With or without does not matter. It
cannot; for if I make my life on all that can be temporary I have died a thousand
deaths over and over; each time those people; places or things are removed from
my path.
Instead,
I will dream and know if any of what I dream truly comes to life; I will still
love with all that I am in abundance for the time that I am allowed to do
so. Doing my best for what is pure; what is meaningful. What is
filled with the heart of Jesus or what I know of him. All the while, I
continue to grow and learn in the promise of eternity.
Does this
make me lesser of a person; I am sure in some people’s eyes it makes me crazy;
it can be lonely; and it can be foolish. However, I would
rather be in the world’s perspective lonely, foolish and crazy.
Than ever being anything, less than who I am even if that is nothing.
For this
each day I am given; I am thankful to know who I am; and have the opportunities
to choose for what is good; and lead by example no matter who is watching as
long as I have Christ in me; I have everything.
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August 11, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms
46:1 (NKJV) I have rejoiced in the way of Your testimonies, As much as in all riches.
Meditation Moments:
Revelation 22:17 (NIV)
17 The Spirit and the
bride say, “Come!” And let the one who hears say, “Come!” Let the one who is
thirsty come; and let the one who wishes take the free gift of the water of
life.
John 6:37 (NIV)
37 All those the
Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive
away.
Ephesians 3:16-19 (NIV)
16 I pray that out of his
glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your
inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray
that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power,
together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high
and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be
filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
8/11/2019 11:15 am - New Life Christian Church Saturday 6PM
service (Colossians week 6 of 6) Start to finish public link
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2375691572523325/
a few extra
minutes before starting being I was up with the praise team this
week. Blessed worship all four services; blessed message and
blessed to see so many more hearts open to live for Jesus.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
I wish I could
say this morning the first thing on my mind father God was giving you
thanks. I am fully aware and so very thankful of every second
you give me to walk this earth.
But this mind
maze of mine had me up early thinking about the day’s events.
Thinking about
some of the things that went wrong while trying to bring others to you last
evening; thinking about how no matter what we do in this life.
We must always
own our own choices. Even more so how I wish there were a way to make people be
accountable for their actions and stop walking around in pity parties and using
it for an excuse to use up others kindness.
I am very
thankful, I have been blessed with an awareness of who I am; despite any
misgivings or anything I have went through in this life. Be it from
a violated neglected child as so many. To brokenness at the hands
of others to even the crazy stupid things I had done over the years to myself.
You Jesus long
before I ever met you; gave me strength and sometimes not so much courage to
just put that one foot in front of the other and keep going.
Always trying
to do the best I can with what I do or do not have.
For this I am
thankful.
How many times
have I had so much and had it stolen; broken; thrown out; given
away. Material things mean nothing unless we make
them mean something.
Yet, here I am
the person that cannot part with any gift someone gives me. Because the
reminders of kindness and good will help me remember this world does have much
love in it.
We are all
just different in how we show it; give it or take it.
Yes
This mind of
mine so active in so many ways this morning; always on the move wondering;
staying too long in places I have no control over and wish I could forget and
others I wish were different.
I am blessed
for the wisdom and an ability to journey through what was; what is and know in
you all the possibilities that can and will be.
For this I am
forever grateful.
So Lord I lift
all my connections up to you; blood; friends; family those that are; those that
will be; those that should be; those that could be. Those I really want
to be. I ask forgiveness for myself and all I am connected for any
offenses.
First, I ask forgiveness for anything that saddens you Jesus; or violate your
will. Please forgive us! Then of course Father God; for all
the misdeeds we do to each other in humanity.
I pray for
healing physically; emotionally and for all those who have been taken
home. I pray in Jesus name for comfort abundant peace; love and
everlasting mercy and grace for all who are left behind. For all
who know you; and all who are so broken they cannot see you yet.
May every soul
on this planet own their journey; own their own choices. As for those of
us who do; may we guard our hearts; our words and our actions and stop
enabling; stop being angry for what we cannot change; and never hate because of
what others do or have done.
And if this is
all a façade may we wake up and do our very best with what we have to work with
loving all we cross paths with in this journey we call life.
Lord; please
fill all who need you right now with truth; and that love from the inside out;
allowing us to smile knowing just how blessed we really are. No matter what!
For me as I
ready to serve not because I expect anything; but I am blessed to believe in
what is good; what is pure; what is clean and what gives me every lasting hope
and an indescribable peace. I believe in you Jesus. May
all I do all I say all I can be matter for all the right reasons in this
life. Thank you
Sometimes you need to
slowly wander in the weeds to find just what is good and what will strangle
growth. Not getting confused if you lose your step; but holding on to
God's hand every step of the way. The only perfect plan is what
he allows. If it is meant to be; He will allow new growth to happen!
Never stop dreaming of the future; never give up. Hold on even if
you seem to be holding alone. The Lord of all Creations has great plans
for all who believe. We just may not see over the horizon just yet.
But we will.
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August 10, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 46:1 (NIV) For
the director of music. Of the Sons of Korah. According to alamoth. A song. ] God
is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Meditation
Moments:
Ephesians 5:15-16 (NKJV)
Walk in
Wisdom 15 See then that you walk [a]circumspectly, not as fools but as wise, 16 redeeming the time, because the
days are evil.
Psalms 119:105 (NKJV)
105 Your word is a lamp to
my feet
And a light to my path.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul
Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank You for
the right here and right now Jesus!
Thank you for
all you put on my heart daily; be it heavy, joyful or truly unknown.
Thank you!
For this day
you remind me as we should always remind others how we exist for more
than just taking up space. Tomorrow is gone and the remnants of
shattered pieces may still be hidden in the places they fell. It is
up to us to stop the bleeding and reflect the healing that must take
place.
This
world is full of hate and anger; complications, and deception; racism and
judgment.
It is not
too late to ever stop the bleeding. Yes I often use the phrase it
is all good until it is not. Or even Life is what it is until it is not.
Change is
needed
Change is
inevitable
Change is
what you purpose to make it
We need
to start yesterday!
Do not
wait for others to prove something or do something to make you feel your worth.
Be the
greatness you already are
Be the
Love you Desire
Be the
one you are meant to be.
Here and
now ~ appreciate everything you are right now. Celebrate all your
flaws; imperfections and all the things that make you the jewel of Gods eye
that he created you to be.
There
will always be that something or someone taking more than ever giving back.
Dare to
be the encouraging motivation; pushing through any hurts; habits or hang-ups
that rob your spirit and are constantly withdrawing from your emotional bank
account.
Keep
smiling, know you are here for more than anything given to you or taken from
you.
When life
feels too hard; PRAY HARDER in a relationship with God, not just to Him.
Live;
Love and Laugh just keep moving; smiling; being the love you desire from
others; being YOU!
Be okay
perfectly beautiful for who you are; not what the world says you must be to fit
in this imperfect world.
Father
God; may we truly have the abilities to love from the inside out; not for what one
does; but who they are meant to be from the depths in the soul drives them.
May the
release from all that should not have been; into bold, beautiful new beginnings
forever enduring the mystery of Jesus and why one would sacrifice forever to so
many who will never acknowledge any goodness. Fill us up with the
love, mercy and abundant grace we are blessed with; and we are given to share
and show for all others.
To be in
love for whom one really is
To know
there is nothing more physically or emotionally
Is Eternal
Is God
Is Forever
Is For you and me
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August 9, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Luke 12:6-7 (NIV) Are
not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by
God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you
are worth more than many sparrows.
Meditation Moments:
Isaiah 61:10 (NIV)
10 I delight greatly in
the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of
his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as
a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
2 Corinthians 5:21 (NIV)
21 God made him who
had no sin to be sin[a] for us, so that
in him we might become the righteousness of God.
Ephesians 4:22-24 (NIV)
22 You were taught, with
regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being
corrupted by its deceitful desires;
23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24 and to
put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Father God
Please forgive me for reverting back being point blank in my words and
no longer available to temporary nonsense in a world that finds it easy to lie,
steal, cheat, hurt, and throw blessings away like nothing else matters.
Forgive me if I want forever and remain accountable for my choices and
cannot let my heart guide me any further.
Thank you Lord; for this
feeling of a weight lifted; ready to go; ready to jump up and work out or get
back to taking care of me. Thank you for allowing me to find my way back
to you that somehow metaphorically maybe even spiritually I somehow stepped
away from even though I am purposing to walk with you daily.
Maybe it was the fact knowing
when I woke my normal time this morning; I realized I do not have to jump up
and run; I do not have to drive anywhere. That and the sound of the
pouring rain allowed me to fall back off into a deep sleep awaking two hours
later very refreshed.
Thank you Jesus for the
blessings to get back up; for the rains in this life; for the moments of
realization and reminders of knowing who I am in you; and who we are all meant
to be.
Thank you for your
Indestructible Love; Song of Songs 8:7 Many waters cannot quench love;
rivers cannot sweep it away.
Thank you for making me
see even when I think I have it all together somehow someway I squirm
underneath this skin you have blessed me with. Holding on for the
mistakes I have made or just worrying as a parent; friend or family member for
others.
You Jesus are in
control. No matter what is or is not; No matter what can or cannot;
No matter what we feel or do not. Nothing changes when it
comes to you.
May all that I am; all
that I can be always be, in your will now and forever!
Hear the calls and cries
from all I am connected Jesus; Please! May the angels of Mercy,
Grace; Accountability; Motivation; Protection and Healing come down and walk
with each and every soul I am connected. May all your children
shine brightly in the dark days ahead?
When they cannot; Lord
please fill them up and give them the peace to help them through shining
brightly again. Thank you for this
day.
If there is one thing I have learned in this life.
When you hide and
lie from the little things in life; especially when someone is willing to give
everything they have to believe in you and walk that walk with you.
It may never change how they ultimately feel for you; but it
absolutely blocks any prospects of ever allowing any big things to transpire.
No relationship can ever be considered a relationship; when you do not know
what is real and what is made up.
The best advice I live by and try to make clear for everyone I know.
Always be true to yourself and anyone you cross paths with. You have
nothing to lose by being the real you. If something does not work; if
someone does not connect because you are real. You are blessed!
Not being true; everyone losses and you can never get back the pieces that are
gone forever.
So unless you stand in the light whatever it is we pretend to be; lie about or
just withhold. Well it is just some empty nothingness in the shadows of
some dark corner waiting to be revealed.
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August 8, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 149:4 (NIV)
For the Lord takes delight in his people; he crowns the humble with
victory.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 42:7 (NIV)
7 Deep calls to deep in the roar of your
waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me
Psalms 95:1-2 (NIV)
1 Come, let us sing for joy to the Lord; let us shout aloud to the Rock of
our salvation.
2 Let us come before him with thanksgiving
and extol him with music and song.
Matthew 7:24-25 (NIV)
The Wise and Foolish Builders
24 “Therefore everyone who hears these words
of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on
the rock. 25 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the
winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its
foundation on the rock.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my perspectives and/or
feelings)
Guide me. Give me life, as I have never known it. A
love everlasting; As I look back and see knowing all that, which
does not make sense most days to me.
I know I need not waste time to figure things out; all I am Jesus is
yours; All I can be is yours.
To love abundantly does not mean; I need not be physically loved, to
feel your love unconditionally.
To believe in what is unseen; is to know you. Even If; I
choose to desire, I do not have to act. Not until you Lord move me;
for your will; your glory; your blessed soul and promise.
Show me Father. Undo this riddle. Undo this riddle in life I
am tired and tangled within of this world. Show me all that truly
matters that is to be reflected outward. For a love so deep,
from the inside out must always shine for others to see.
Jesus, you say deep calls unto deep!
You have revealed so much of others and myself in this walk with you.
Please show me all I am me to be; for and with you.
Please show me father God all that I am meant to be connected and remove
all that is unworthy of your love and will Jesus.
I see you in everything; hearing your words; your calls your directions
in every song the wind blows; every creator that flies or crawls that never
worries what should be next. Show me how to be like those.
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August 7, 2019
(Understanding will never bring us peace:
but it leads us to trust in what we believe in that fills us with peace we
cannot describe)
Verse of the Day:
Isaiah 33:22 (NIV)
For the Lord
is our judge, the Lord is our lawgiver, the Lord is our king; it is he who will
save us.
Meditation Moments:
Proverbs
3:-5-6
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on
your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths
straight.[a]
Romans 5:1 (NIV) Peace and Hope
5 Therefore,
since we have been justified through faith, we[a] have peace with God
through our Lord Jesus Christ,
2 Thessalonians 3:16 (NIV) Final Greetings
16 Now may the Lord of
peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with
all of you
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you Lord; for this new day! No matter what is to or what is
not; I pray for all I am connected; all I come to know. I pray; we all
know what a blessing it is to have given life; no matter what.
That with all the darkness that fills up the space in this world; that
we will seek what is shining bright; loving; pure; kind; helpful and grow for
you; with you and in you.
None of us has the answers; in life and what we live through and how we
deal with the layers of scars that we acquire day after day. We just know
we want more; want better; want something that many will never be able to find
as we fill ourselves up with all that is temporary. Daily trapped
like a wild animal in the worldly snares.
Struggling for more; struggling for freedom; struggling for you even when we do
not know you are.
I pray Lord; we never forget we are all imperfect humans in an in
perfect world; made to be more beautiful; useful and worthy for your design
then we will ever understand. That everything in this world
is temporary; even if it will rob our souls and our lives from forever; if we
allow it.
The how; the why; the when. Is there a one-size fits all answer
for every individual Father God. I do not think so; I just
know that we must lean in, and trust and learn who you are Jesus.
In order for us to trust you Lord; we must like anything or
anyone else we come to believe in. Get to know you! To
do that; we need to understand we can meet you right where we are here and
now.
For we know we have been given a time stamp in and we will have a
time stamp out.
I pray we think about all the choices we ready to make; praying we
understand that each choice has a storm of results.
Good, bad or indifferent a tsunami from our choices that ripples
out day to day be that of peace; loving kindness; courage and strength; I pray
they all be filled with you helping us along the way; Father God.
Life is not easy; as there are so many directions, our lives can go in;
you Lord know everything even when we will never understand.
Please guide us and show us your love; your will and your
light. For when the darkness over comes us we fight to just
breathe; much less have abilities to see through to the other side.
May we find our purpose in you; for you to shine forth? This
is only something you and each individual can come to know.
I am a dreamer Jesus; Oh always have been; always prayerfully will
be. Always since as early as I can remember in my days been playing
with words; and dreaming. Despite where I physically stand today.
I am blessed,
with so many opportunities to die; physically; emotionally you Lord kept me alive.
Even when what has been hard life lessons you have shown me peace, love mercy
and abundant grace.
Lord many may never choose to know you personally; that is okay. I
pray they find their way the best they can without harm; without discord to
anyone they cross.
I pray justice through you in all things that deem
necessary. Though the human side tells me for those who do great
misdeeds to others; line them up and let me pull the trigger.
It is not my place or righteous to play judge and juror.
So I ask for all my loved ones and myself; forgiveness; guidance and
direction in your will. Most of all we see life through your eyes; feel
love with your heart; hear all that is truth and walk the path of obedience if
it means we are to walk alone.
This path Lord can be very lonely and hard; but to be first we must be
last; and may ever step I take; be that of your will when you say move.
Do so! No, matter what I am feeling. When things are
extremely hard; may each day be the new opportunity I am to learn how to pray
through it. No matter what the result never losing faith in
you Christ.
Thank you for this day; Lord, as that day comes I crumble and it will as
I have. Please surround me with your will and those who will help me back
up; for you; with you and stay in you.
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August 6, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 119:160 (NIV)
All your words are true; all your
righteous laws are eternal.
Meditation Moments:
Job 13:15 (NKJV)
15 Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. Even so, I will
defend my own ways before Him
Psalms 18:33 (NIV)
33 He makes my feet like
the feet of a deer; he causes me to stand on the heights.
Habakkuk 3:17-19 (AMP)
17 Though the fig tree does not blossom And there is no
fruit on the vines, Though the yield of the olive fails, And the fields produce
no food, Though the flock is cut off from the fold
And there are no cattle in the stalls, 18 Yet I will [choose to] rejoice in the Lord; I will [choose to] shout in
exultation in the [victorious] God of my salvation! 19 The Lord God
is my strength [my source of courage, my invincible army]; He has made my feet
[steady and sure] like hinds’ feet And makes me walk [forward with spiritual
confidence] on my [a]high places [of challenge and responsibility]. For the choir director, on my stringed instruments.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul
Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Father how often we are reminded; we do
live in such a noisy busy world; continuously bombarded, with the negative
news; social media; people; places and things.
It is a wonder anyone has any common
sense or peace of mind on any given day.
We are all out here trying to do the
best even if it is wrong; we try to move forward with what we are
given. Sometimes the overzealous or even greedy try to take
what is not theirs to move in the direction they seek; and yes hurting others
along the way.
Yet, in a world we live, the majority
that have not just given up are trying.
We all find ourselves at times
unrecognizable stuck in the onions of the universe trying to peel away the
layers for survival one layer at a time from the inside out.
Getting slimed and stinky; leaving us
crying.
Sure, there are some days; we just
let things roll off our back. Others we are stuck spinning in the
mishaps; extra was not expecting or those things that just should have never
been.
Through this all; the good; the bad; the
indifferent you Jesus never leave us!
There will always be times; no matter
how hard we try to remain focused, the battle consumes our worldly ways; things
or us within the worldly challenges. Leaving us at times forgetting you
are right here with us.
Sometimes, we just stumble and end up
avoiding; other times we try to drive because we have history or
experience. Then there are those days when we go completely out of our
comfort zone. On any day; I pray we never forget
no matter what direction we think we should go; you, Lord always remind us that
you are faithful and good and with us every step of the way.
We need you now more than ever; this
darkened world of so many lost souls. Those of us who are pushing
forward to believe and shine on; Jesus give us the continued strength and
courage in your will to shine on.
May we find the blessings in every
mishap we are called to journey through in you alone Father God.
May we never just assume anything for
anyone; as we know everyone one of us has something going on!
We are, perfectly placed imperfect
people in this universe for your perfect plan.
Forgive us for our transgressions, and
all offenses towards each other and even what we do to ourselves.
Give us the logic and common sense to
not weaken and falter into evil people; places or things, no matter how kind or
hardened we are. Protect our families in all things including your
guidance.
Jesus, may our eyes see through your
eyes; may our hearts feel with your love; may our mission forever be for the
peace and love you sacrificed everything for humanity to have life.
In these dark days; may we unify in
love; in peace; in truth; in you Jesus.
No matter how many broken pieces are
scattered. I know you hold every single broken shard and sliver in the
palms of your hands. As the potter of my life; I
pray all I can be; all I have; all I am is pleasing to you.
Thank you for this day Lord. If you have
brought us here today, we have a purpose. What was yesterday is no more
today. We must change it; share it and own it. Walk
like a boss that you created us to be. There is no shame in
weakness; mistakes; or growing weary. We know our God helps
those who seek and step out in faith with Him!
Prayers we never lose hope and faith in
the one who made all things possible. That we never stop believing and
envisioning our next beautiful destiny, made to shine with and in, sharing
along the way. In your mighty name; may the lost be
found; the broken be healed; the unloved feel you like they have never
before. The darkness be removed and all God’s children unify for
the future ahead and the Lord’s kingdom now.
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August 5, 2019
Cruising with Kelly https://www.facebook.com/100002475163076/posts/2363552617070554/
What a better way to reinforce we just don’t know when our time is up.
Just like this video stopped in mid-sentence so can Life just stop; no notice
nothing. Make it count while you are blessed. Perspective is
everything. Pay it forward. (The thought that was cut
off) when was the last time you; with nothing in your pockets; no agenda;
no expectations Just stepped out and did anything kind or anyone? A small
gesture; kind word; action. It all
matters!!!
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 119: 130 (NIV) The unfolding of your words gives light; it gives
understanding to the simple.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 37:7 (NIV)
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked
schemes.
Romans 8:16-17 (NIV)
16 The
Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17 Now if
we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if
indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
1 Peter 2:9 (NIV)
9 But
you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special
possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of
darkness into his wonderful light.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
In this world of give and take; whatever you do; do it with all your
heart as if you were doing it working for the maker of all things.
My quick thoughts. Clearly Colossians 3:23-24 does not
state it that way 23 Whatever
you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human
masters, 24 since you know that you will receive an
inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are
serving..
Yes; I can go dig up scripture and relate to many portions of it.
But honestly you need to seek what is on your heart and find your way and
relationship with Christ yourself.
What I can say and flows through my veins. Living life in
obedience on your own terms with God. Is a blessing and a freedom
no one will ever understand until they get it for themselves!
Until you experience it personally; it’s very hard to explain and even
harder to convince people to believe and live it.
We all regardless of our so-called status or label of being a Christian
and walking in obedience with God.
We will always get through. It does not matter what
anyone does or does not do; it does not matter what any thing is or is
not! We will always get through if we
choose to!
Wonderfully made; wired for so much more and all have been given the
blessing of freedom of will and choice.
Each one of us have the abilities to choose. Unless we are a
child; elder or disabled. There is no amount of guilt; empty
promises or bullying that can change the fact we own our choices of what is
next. We may not all come remotely close to being
accountable for the results of our choices or what we go along
with. But when it comes down to it; the choices belong to us
and rippling effect like a tsunami of good and bad is what either shine
and adds beauty to this planet or joins in with the darkness thinking it can
hide and reap rewards of whatever they were after to make that negative choice
to start with.
Sometimes our choices are well thought out and methodical other times
they are flying by the seat of our pants.
In any case, what you choose is up to you; what you choose to believe in
is up to you. In a world, full of darkness and everyone
trying to get something for nothing. In a world where people have no
value for life; no value of himself or herself; no love or respect for the more
God created us to be.
There is nothing wrong with having a great time in life; not a good time
but a great time. Living; laughing and enjoying oneself.
There is nothing wrong with being abundantly blessed and having much.
But when the day comes that you feel life is over because something
temporary has been taken away; there is a problem! The day comes
that you do not work for what you want; or you sacrifice yourself for something
or someone there is a problem.
Sure, this is my perspective; that we are all created to be more than
just a pawn in this worldly game of chess. To be more than a piece of
meat for the vultures and wolves in this world to chew up and spit out if
anything is left to us.
Everlasting beauty is what is on the inside; no matter what we try to
hide or let go. Everything on the outside changes.
Who is it that you see in that mirror when you are looking
in? Know no matter what mistake; what thing; you did or did
not do well. No matter what you look like; no matter who anyone told you
should be. No matter what you do. None of that is who you are
from the inside out.
Love yourself; forgive yourself; be kind to yourself; respect
yourself. Pick up your moral compass and direct yourself to shine
no matter what is happening around you. Even if no one else catches
your light. You will be a light and force to be reckoned with and you are
loved beyond all space and time. Never let anyone try
to convince you of anything any different.
“Maybe It’s okay” to not be okay https://youtu.be/hl5GcRrJLyw as We
Are Messengers sing about. I believe so; just as it is okay
to love; want and desire what you may never have. Do not let
anyone take the purity in your heart and make it something it is
not. Do not give you virtue away believing in forever in this
world. Because the only forever is eternal and to have
that; you must be in relationship with and have Christ deep down in your soul!
Have a blessed day or night and just know you are loved more than
anything this world can give or take. If you have someone that loves
you as well; you will know it and that is bonus. If not; maybe God
wants you all for himself.
For me; my choices are my own. I live my life with what
fills me up. Yes there are times when I allow others to take far more
than they will ever give, this I know. None of that defines
me as who I am meant to be.
My prayers for anyone who does not understand acting on their intentions
and making choices that put them in a place of brokenness and
misfortune. I pray you get it now. I pray whatever misdeeds
were done to you; justice steps in and stops the bleeding from anyone else.
Nevertheless, I pray more that God heals you and you find peace through
and with him. And whatever that love; that need; that choice was that
lead you to the brokenness; well I pray healing and growth.
As I pray abundant blessings now and the rest of all your days.
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August 4, 2019
In life of this world there will always be something or someone that
replaces you. Don’t sacrifice who you are in eternity with Christ;
chasing what is temporary for the people places and things of this world.
Live life to the fullest in obedience for the one that matters ❤️
Verse of the Day:
Jeremiah 33:2-3(NIV) This is what the Lord says, he who made the earth, the Lord who formed it and established
it—the Lord is his name: ‘Call to
me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not
know.’
Meditation Moments:
John 14:6 NIV)
6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and
the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Colossians 4:2 (NIV)
2 Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and
thankful.
New Life Christian Church Saturday 6PM service (Colossians
week 5 of 6) Start to finish public link :
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2359687414123741/
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you Lord for another new day; this never get’s old to give
thanks. If you continue to allow air in these lungs to breathe; despite
any misgivings I may falter with. I at the minimum owe you thanks for all
that I am; all that I can be and all that you shall have me be; every single
moment of every single day I am allowed to inhale.
I Lord have never had issues knowing you are the truth the way and there
is no other. This mind maze reminds me how early in life actually
coming to know you yes; instead of knowing of you. Huge
difference! So many blessings I missed out on; but we are
past that thankfully.
As I am reminded of the turmoil we all go through when we live life
thinking we are out there on our own; looking towards those who physically surround
us to have the answers; to guide us; to have someone to hold to the fire when
we follow what everyone else says and do not council with you first and
daily. When we are so shaped by the world we are angry and
frustrated over things we really just to let be.
I as a parent; I am broken to see anything negative happen to or for the
children you blessed me with in this bloodline. More so to know there is
a distance between the blood that flowed from my veins into theirs when it
comes to knowing how much I love and want Gods best for both. It just is
the way it is sometimes; no big surprise.
As a mother I will always support any positive decisions my children or
grandchildren will make for better tomorrows. I never have and
never will hold anyone back. The one piece of advice I shared with my
daughter and I will say to everyone. There will be many throughout our
every day walk on this earth. That we turn to; or they just have great
suggestions; words of wisdom; and meaningful feedback for the choices we will
make.
Just always know 24/7 the one we should always be in council with is the
one who fills our lungs daily with the breath to
live. We all have a time in this world and a time
going out. It is what is in the middle that counts. It
is leading those who look up to us; leading by example. We are and
were created for more than anything this world will give or
take. We may need others to help reassure us; hold us and
love us in this human world. But ultimately all we are should go through
Father God, first and last; owning our own journey.
Does that leave a new normal to figure out daily for many?
Absolutely; with many painful moments at that from all the change we
must adapt to.
Some handle change well; some not so much! However,
no matter what we are adapting to. Great new things with
people and places; or even the brokenness this world sometimes shows
us. Face it in confidence and commitment remembering who
gives us living water; the breath of life and indescribable peace once we are
past the blows the world bumps up against us with. Jesus yesterday;
today and all the tomorrows we may have.
It does not matter what we have done right or wrong. It does
not matter what we have right here right now.
For everyone single soul in this world we live; those who are really
struggling with things of this world. I truly am sorry for all that
you are going through; all you are lacking; all you feel the need to do things
that should not be or even those that could be doing more that choose not to.
My prayers are you find peace within; just as I seek the inner peace I
am given to never leave me. We are all meant for more; we are all
meant in unification of a greater peace, love and life blessed in
abundance.
So if you are just not feeling it; as you know there are many days me
either. But do not lose hope. Do not give up or give into the ways
of this world. We are one when it comes to being made for
more. Jesus did not suffer and die so we could treat ourselves for
anything less than that of a priceless jewel that is supposed to shine for all
to find their way out of the darkness to Him.
Even if we love and are not loved back; even if we think we give our all
and it is never acknowledged; even if we are beaten; broken; battered
physically or emotionally. The Father; Our Father, who
is in heaven; loves us and wants more joy and peace for us than we will ever
give ourselves.
I cannot even tell you how I know or what I could do to convince anyone
of that. I just do and knowing where my life came from and what I have in
front of me today. There just is no greater peace no matter what is or
what is not as we are doing our best to live with a pure heart; clean hands and
acknowledging where our help really comes from.
Anyway; thanks for sharing your time and these moments with me.
You are not alone and we are to never give up; never give in. When
it comes to Jesus! “ Your Love Never Fails” https://youtu.be/SgQ6vWEhH5E
The Newsboys”
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August 3, 2019
Verse of the Day:
1 Samuel 16:7 (NKJV)
But the Lord said to
Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him.
The Lord does not look at the
things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
Meditation Moments:
Proverbs 12:18 (NIV)
18 The words of the reckless pierce like swords,
but the tongue of the wise brings healing.
James 1:19 (NIV)
6 Surely you have granted him unending
Ephesians 4:29 (NIV)
29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your
mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their
needs, that it may benefit those who listen.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments: (my
perspectives and/or feelings)
Oh Dear Lord forgive me please in advance as here I am given words of
wisdom of what I say and what I do; what I write.
And how since I wrote the all of the below this area was written
with all good intent. But sometimes the layers of people, places
and things are even too heavy for me. My writing is my
therapist; my God is my Savior. I am far from perfect; nor is anyone
else in this world. If I write or respond to something you can relate to
and it helps; thank you! If I write and you dislike anything I put
out here; trust me on two things.
(1. I do not release every single feeling or detail which
leads me to this; as I am walking myself through and staying on track to what I
believe is pure and true. (JESUS CHRIST) and all that has ever been
written about him; and all I have fallen in love with Him
for. 2. Like anything else in my life; family; friend;
connections. If you do not like what you see; Do Not Look. If
you do not like what you read; Stop Following Me and Stop
Reading.
In other words (Excuse me; Pardon me; Get the F out of my way) that
simple.)
Not very Godly but the day comes you no longer live in a glass
house; come convince me. Your feelings your opinions
are your own. I do not love anyone any less because of what they
do. But for my own sanity; I cannot be caught up in negativity and
seeing loss of life; loss of love; loss of one’s self respect.
As a parent; I have done the best I could with what I ever
had. I screwed up royally and I knew of a God back then; but did not know
Him or Jesus. I cannot change the past; I cannot change anyone’s
future; connected or unknown. I can share logic; share love and share
pieces of me. I can stay in faith my choice; as I can try to convince all
I know to do the same. I cannot change anyone’s choices of what
they do in life even when I feel the pain for what may or may not happen.
Just as I cannot make someone feel worth in anything. I
can only continue to believe and living and fighting to hold on to my little
bit of peace and harmony in this messed up world. Where we
love; we hate; we are best friends one moment and the next we are out spreading
lies and trying to bring misery. Even if we have personal gain what gives us
that right. I choose to do the best I can with what I get to work
with and use my writing as my therapy to share the blessings; the light through
all the darkness and just get by day to day. Whatever that means to
you; I am blessed you consider even looking at anything of mine.
But those who really know me and how I came to be here; know truly; if anything
I am brings you down or makes you angry. Then please see yourself
out and have a nice life. If anything I am saying resonates
and helps you in anyway; I pray you grow and find your way through and with
Christ love.
Now if I may get back to my goal and peace for this day.
It’s time to start “Your Personal Rescue” https://youtu.be/Jhlh3i_HB3I Pam
Mark Hall
Lord how I forget that you have always been the “King of the World” https://youtu.be/4K7kplxNM48
Natalie Grant
Oh this crazy life you have given us Lord; thank you!
The subtle reminders you give us we rarely pay attention until
something or someone cuts us. Meaning to do so or not; protecting
ourselves or thinking we are being kind and real while guarding ourselves from
others. It is so very sad what we do to others or they do to
us. Words actions or lack of; is it not the same.
We are all so much the same but so different for the path we journey on.
Our wires may cross; our paths may cross; we may
even become connected.
For a time; or forever; only you Jesus have the answers of the
why.
Most importantly! No matter what you allow us so much Father God
and in the end; be it our good intentions; selfish ways or self preservation;
we must always watch the words we say.
What comes out of our mouth can wound or heal someone for the life they
have on this earth.
It is a privilege to be blessed with abilities to
communicate. No matter if that communication is a two second
introduction; life-time relationship or just a look in the
distance. What we say or do if we do not guard ourselves.
Well careless or negative visual or verbal displays can hurt everyone including
ourselves. There is something to be said for say
what you mean and mean what you say.
For me Lord; I ask for forgiveness for all I have offended; for the pain
Lord I have even caused you. Not holding myself up with more loyalty and
respect that I write and speak about often.
I allow myself to feel and believe at times what others say good or bad
weigh on me. I believe people and all the good I guess; well I
believe them to be. Based on the persona they carry and the reputation
that follows as I learn them. Based on what I see on the
outside. For myself; I try to stay attached to loving; kind
souls who are leading me closer to you Jesus.
During this entire walk; I have never been a gold digger; fame chaser or
I hope user, trying to ride the coat tails of others to make my way in this
world. I have been blessed to be unique.
Although, even though I do try to absorb myself
in positive and beautiful blessings such as listening to others speak; watching
what is beautiful and truly admiring so many talented abilities in
and out of your kingdom Lord.
I have blessed abundantly even during times I am in the
valley. So if I know this; why does it bother me so;
why do I feel when others speak or act carelessly or negatively.
These thoughts Jesus! As I pray daily to have eyes to see
like you. Perhaps this is just a glimpse of what you see
daily. Where I am only catching pieces of it over time through all
the various souls and levels this world has to offer. Your
word God reminds us to be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become
angry.
James 1:9 (NIV) [ Listening and Doing ] My dear brothers
and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to
speak and slow to become angry,
Well Lord you blessed me with the ability years back to never stay angry
at anyone or anything. This is true; I may say I want to punch
someone all the time; but I am far from who I ever was.
The memories, some skinny little girl with a big attitude! Always ready
to jump up; being recklessly abandoned in anger and malice; foolish behavior
with and for so many others. Yes, times were so
different back then not having purpose; not caring or more over because of what
or who I did not have in my life; it did not matter if I lived or
died. What was the difference of having someone put a gun to
one’s head or physically battling over meaningless chatter or actions of
others; no I am not asking just reminding myself.
I am not who I once was; I am beyond blessed and the answer is both
situations could have been disastrous however the good Lord looked out and
protected and guides his children allowing them to see the blessings and the
ways of their behavior to correct it.
When we seek him we are blessed; and
although I may have changed along this path of what I do and do not do; what I
say and do not say. What I mean from the inside out or what just comes
naturally with this vessel I am given. Many do not purpose to
change or seek what is pure; good; clean; loyal; respected.
Many have their own rules of such and no matter what or where they will do what
they do and say whatever they feel they want.
Shake it off; do not hold on to what you cannot
control. Control and be in prayer to keep walking be it with your arm
around the shoulder of Jesus as your best friend; or holding his hand as a
child needing that security.
Do not let the misguided destroy who you are meant to be. Do not
let the greed and malice of this world and others who have become lost or
always were. Do not let them change why you believed and started walking
with God in the first place. Do not let them ever make you
believe there is no greater love than that of what Father God fills you up with
from the inside out; even if you can never feel it; touch it; or even breathe
it in. Do not let the world and the temporal layers rob you
from what you know is real and forever will be. Jesus is; was and
always will be. As are all his messages; signs and
wonders. Know you are loved; wanted; needed and forever His no
matter what foolish things we do in this world we are given.
Life is and can be so full of twists and turns. I thank you every day
Jesus! No matter what; who; why or when.
Especially knowing; I may get caught up still believing in people or
things that I never will be allowed to understand.
However, I do understand this; to see the good and beauty in all things
is far better any second of any day then to feel the pain of constantly trying
to find who we are supposed to be. I try not to chase ghosts; even if I
will never forget the path that led me to you Jesus.
There is pain and joy over time of
our journey where we just want to unzip the tent we wander this earth in; just
to peal your skin off climbing out and matter to anything in this world.
To have purpose; yet repeating the cycle over and over getting caught up
in some misguided adventure; or pleasures to fill needs at the hands of what
later will be regret; sorrow and emptiness; that ultimately is our own
choice how we got there; yet we become puppets with our emotions from the hands
of what others feed you.
Crazy thoughts I am allowed to pen to paper; where they come from; Lord
Spark that fire for you is all I can say.
Because it does not matter what good intentions were; are or will
be. It does not matter if we made the mistake and crossed that line
when we are the president of anything; the world famous leader of something or
a backup or a service person in the far corners of the earth.
We all bleed red; we all fall short and we all get to pick and choose
our next steps and the words we will say; read or write. In the end
we all must live with the choices we make and the results that come from
them. We can hide away all and every misdeed we ever say or
do. But you Jesus; know all things.
There are many that purposely mean harm and malice; more that are just
lost and those that truly started out with intentions of a choice that the
result well cause and effect kicked in.
Life is what it is and we are truly all human. Regardless we
are all accountable to do what is right no matter what our actions; no matter
what the cause and effect of life we create. Yes, we are allowed freedom
of choice and we create what we do next; who we bless or hurt along the
way. May we never bite the hand that feeds us or take for granted
for one second any blessings we are given.
I only Pray Father God; that I continue to see the good and
continue to help where I can and that I am truly forgiven for anyone that my
words, my actions may have offended others. I pray that
those who know me; truly know the love and care I really have for them, only a
moment in earthly time. As we know when it comes to your time Lord; well there
are no boundaries.
I pray that all I say; all I act on in a moment of pain; heaviness and
layers that come in waves; never become the words that break anyone’s
spirit. I do pray for justice and healing father for all who are
out there playing games with people’s lives.
I pray for all of the yesterday’s and any tomorrows that we are given;
that you Lord will guide and protect the human chess pieces that are being
played out.
Please lead all who are lost back to you; please show me and all I am
connected your Love Jesus; your will and fill us that abundant mercy and grace
that allows us to know we are loved and worth more than anything we can work
for or towards on this earth.
We all sometimes feel like we have all been in the place where we
need someone to love or feel the bleeding from someone or something we have
loved; that pulls the rug of reality out from under us and our misguided
intentions when we put or faith in people places and things of this world; at
least once in our lifetime for something. “Someone You Loved”
https://youtu.be/54n52zBb2gU- Lewis
Capaldi”
That human life and all we do or say to each other truly matters.
That when we love from the inside out for no reasons at all or we can explain;
it is blessing alone that Jesus has that has allowed!
May we forever know we own the choices for our own personal desires and
what we find worthy; what we find fulfilling?
What we decide to hold onto or discard be a reminder of the freedom
choice and will we all have to live with. For every second we are
blessed from you and all you died for Jesus; may we not let you down Father God
in our moments caught up in this world.
No words; no actions can change what was. In you; with
you; for you Lord God! You allow us to know even when nothing makes
sense. May we never just toss the blessings aside no matter what
the world says we should or should not be able to afford. No matter
what you choose in life; Just keep fighting the “Good Fight” https://youtu.be/K0M3X3_pFD4
Unspoken”
Thank you God; for all I am given and all I am protected from in this
journey. You know everything about each and every soul here.
Please help us shine and be in your will for your purpose.
May we never lose the connections in you; through you and all
that inspire us to you! May we never discard the love you have allowed
us to grow towards you and for your kingdom.
God~ “I Will Leave the Light on” https://youtu.be/glfTU-LjE50 Tom
Walker”
The most important thing, Dear Lord of all I want to be changed
and not another soul that met you and still lived in this world; I want to be
“Different” https://youtu.be/XFT0zoKQWaM Micah
Tyler”
I want to be one of your children Lord that in the end prayerfully with
others you allow that allow “Forgiveness” https://youtu.be/xfkhqpl81NA TobyMac
- Forgiveness -[Lyrics] ft. Lecrae
Help us to find our way father; help us to “Breathe” https://youtu.be/fVBA-EZXIWY Tom
Howard” when we are standing “Six Feet From The Edge” https://youtu.be/xxjciv7ZcHI
Creed” That place I stood for so many years not so long
ago. May you lead all who need and come to you; to “no
matter how hard to “See The Light” https://youtu.be/gFxLynr1_MY TobyMac
For I made a vow to come to know you Father the day I decided to change
completely and get in that water coming up totally different. There
is nothing I can do to change the fact I fell deep in love with Jesus and I
will spend the rest of my life loving others; learning to show my scars and
always and forever love those you give me and “Loving My Jesus” https://youtu.be/OnJFGtAXxGs Casting
Crowns” May all I am blessed see you and never forget the love you
allow.
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August 2, 2019
Verse of the Day:
James 1:22 (NKJV)
But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 21:6 (NIV)
6 Surely you have granted him unending blessings
and made him glad with the joy of your presence.
You
John 7:38 (NIV)
38 Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of
living water will flow from within them.”[a]
Psalms 103:11 (NIV)
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul
Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you for this new day!
Thank you for the insights and the
things we just do not always if ever understand; but we know; there is a
reason. Even those who do not walk with you know there is something
more; even when they choose what is less desirable or healthy and conducive to
move forward.
We are suppose to live in the land of
freedom in “The Home of the Brave” https://youtu.be/F57zotXjZmk - Andy Pratt
Yet in this world we live there is so
much waste and senseless loss. Today more so than ever before we forget
what promise; what blessings are; what commitment; value in loyalty and respect
really means.
We forget to appreciate
what is right in front of us; and those committed find themselves stepping out
for something more to fill something they promised to which they are committed.
We are at war with nations, at war
within ourselves. What happened to standing true and holding
together no matter what the battle in this physical world?
We find ourselves fighting for the wrong things in this
material world. Not valuing what we are given but what we can get;
quitting when things go wrong; stepping out and breaking hearts; spirits each
other. Yes it is written in the bible how we will turn on
each other. But I truly wish I knew the answer to some
of the reasons and what they really mean. Has it
always been this way Father God; or only with those who do not Love and Value
you and the life you gave so we could have life, purpose and love ever after?
No matter what is or what is not “Thank
you For Loving Me” Tommy Walker: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDvfLAWvQ0U
I am committed too you Lord; and I have
been yours longer than I know. I will never have the answers not
for my life or any other. Yes more often than not like
the “Tori Kelly song “Dear No One” https://youtu.be/D9UCZSFmPoU can tell my deep soul
desires.
Until, if in this life or my next I
believe my season will come “Seasons” HillSong Worship https://youtu.be/j6AjsQpPKtU
You Dear Jesus; you give and you take
away. You have allowed me to step up and step in so many places for so
many reasons. You have blessed me with so many opportunities
and loving souls I have connected.
Nothing is ever to be fully understood;
especially when somehow we just know. You Lord Chose me and never
gave up on me; when I had no self worth. You allowed me to share
and give all that I am to help lead by example even in my darkest hours.
It is you I must trust and always know;
no matter what! You have carried me through my darkest, loneliest
times. Healing me, through all my broken bones; injuries; health and even
spirit that have should have removed me from this planet long ago.
You Jesus have always carried me
and the day I finally met you.
I pray all I know; all I love; all I
connect with come to know your goodness Father.
No stranger to pain from my earliest
recollections; stitches in the head; thrown from a van that rolled;
eating a dashboard where a drunk driver ran my mother off the road; broken arm;
broken leg; broken foot; run over; run through what difference does it
make.
The list goes on and on and when I
wanted so badly to leave this place; you did not allow it. Hurt; oh how
when I see innocence taken it crushing me over and over to wonder why I am here
and so many others are not.
I prayed to take me during the surgery;
where they were fixing the hole in my heart. Praying how it would all
make sense and everything was in order. But if you chose not to;
give me purpose to serve you and your will.
Four hours later Dr. Joe had my broken
heart all patched up. As funny as that sounds, yet so true and here I am
still going strong 12 years later.
Sometimes still forgetting I am not who
I was; knowing no matter what I feel; no matter what I dream. It is the
dreams that you place deep inside of me.
Everything comes down to your love
Jesus; just as I forget and the song “Hope Now” – Addison Road https://youtu.be/rJb5dM99r3k everything
rides on faith and you are my shelter from the storms.
Thank You Jesus; as you are and always will
be.
No matter what this world brings; I pray
all that I am in your will alone; I pray for all those I love and care for; for
all those that I know and do not.
Please protect; guide and allow your light to shine brightly chasing out the
darkness that consumes so many.
Thank you for this day and all I am.
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August 1, 2019
Cruising with Kelly- (I do not own rights to the content
playing during this ride) I do own rights to my own opinions, thoughts and
ideas) Have a blessed day or evening (yes sometimes I get excited Step up
always be accountible)
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2354235784668904/
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 119: 114 (NIV) You are my refuge and my shield; I
have put my hope in your word.
Meditation
Moments:
John 7:38 (NIV) 38 Whoever believes in me, as
Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.”[a]
Romans 8:38 (NIV) 38 For I am convinced that neither
death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the
future, nor any powers,
Joshua 1: 5 (NIV) 5 No one will be able to stand
against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with
you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.
Isaiah 49:15-16 (NIV) 15 “Can a mother forget the baby at
her breast
and have no compassion on the child she has
borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!
16 See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your
walls are ever before me.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul
Moments: (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Dear Lord; thank you for getting me up and giving me
another day to just keep trying. Thank you for the blessings; thank you
for the lessons; thank you for my health and thank you for those I love and the
well-being you allow us.
Lord you know this life is not easy for anyone and I know
there is more to it than the feeling of being broken pieces scattered all over
the floor. Or having your heart ripped wide open and just exposed
to the nothingness this world can really feel like.
Thank you for giving me courage to not live my life based
on feelings. Cause right now I just need you to fill me up and
overflow in every area of my life.
Knowing change can be good; change can be positive and if
it allows growth. I cannot hold anyone back. But these next
several months are not going to be easy.
For years I poured everything I am into making a way for
the next generation of my family; and went in over my head so many times
for those I love and care about and even those I have never
met. I have been honored and blessed to do
so. Truly I am.
I get life; the good; the bad; and sometimes the very
ugly. Most importantly I get You Jesus and the fact that you have
me.
I am blessed that I have had the abilities I have; even
in the rough patches.
Lately; it hurts reminding my own self how when those you
grow attached; those you get use to; let go; move on; pass on.
Love comes in all kinds and places.
But the deep love from the inside out; when you know you feel like your
starving and will never be fed.
Once you experience that feeling you just never can turn
it off; you just ignore that hunger because you know something’s that deep
within can only be filled by you Jesus. For years you were
able to hide in the desert and joke here and there. Then one day somehow
you Lord made what is deep inside feel alive.
I have to depend on you; Father God,
I am a train wreck and will never get it right on
my own. I can only be thankful and await the promise of
your being when the hunger is no more.
Until then share the experiences, share the blessings you
have given me through the fires.
Please continue to guide me through the brokenness;
through the changes. Through picking up the pieces shattered
and mixed up. Jesus may your will be what guides and puts this mess
of a puzzle back together again.
Change is no surprise; just not
expected. You know all things Father God.
You know the different
love I have for and from my friends; family; children; grandchildren;
babies; pets; you get what I am saying.
I am just grateful; and
need you for all these changes that have happened this past year; all at
once. The bitter sweet gratefulness yet feeling like you’re
bleeding out on the floor. When all you want is that Agape
Love for yourself; your family; your friends; keeping everyone safe filled with
love and healthy in harmony.
Fill my life with your
will and your direction Jesus.
I have no shame or care
who knows this is my desire.
Thank you for the
experiences, the lessons and all the blessings.
Today I am standing; but I am looking around knowing the
motivation that kept me going is now moving on. And truly Lord I do
not know what or if I can keep this going. Yet somehow I do.
People say I am strong; strong in hope in you Christ. Because every time
I try to put so much into anything of this world my battles become real and
reality sometimes is just unfair; unkind and very lonely; despite your best
efforts and who you are in love with. Especially when loving you
Jesus.
But unless you fill my life Lord; this is just how my
life has been and will be.
Sharing the fact that we
can be broken; sometimes suffering for the world and those around
us. And still do our best to shine on. That is
what you Father God have called us to do.
Doing our best and then
some daily to just keep filling up with you; for you and in
you.
Getting into a good bible
based church; no big surprise half of what I say over and over.
Find and hold onto your no agenda friends. Get into a small
group. Tap into online sermons; messages; stories. Tap into
positive influences; Tap into music as it sings to your soul and releases all
your burdens.
Truly surround yourself with good positive souls
with no agenda’s and if you are blessed to become a friend or they are a friend
to you. What a blessing.
Find a good bible based church and challenge everything
you are learning by digging in and asking questions yourself if it does not
make sense.
As human beings we tend to
make as we have for decades; our own set of
legalistic rules. Those rules seem to change to accommodate people,
places and things of the time. Know and never forget; God’s
word is never changing.
God is Love, Mercy, Grace, Salvation, Strength, Courage,
Wisdom; the only power that is ever lasting. We will
never be God; and we all have been created in His image to be the light and
love; shining positive light and vibes along our journey for those who really
seek and need Hope!
God fills us with a peace that is beyond any pain or
sorrow and when you finally meet Jesus and call him friend.
Talking about him; jumping into his word; grabbing as many devotionals
every day or night. It comes easy even in this messed up world that
leaves us feeling layered up and weighted down.
No matter what we are suffering; brokenness; loss;
health issues so on and so forth in this world.
I choose to fight a good fight daily and hold on to hope in
Christ; no matter what; no matter whom; no matter how sometimes the tears just
come.
I can assure you the struggle is real; there are many
days I just want to quit; many days I just want to matter to someone in this world.
Not family love of parent child or sibling. Just have that deep forever
love and matter to someone. Live the life with my Sweet Soul King;
likeminded, in love with Jesus and purpose towards peace, love and
harmony.
Yes, then I wake up realizing the only one I have is the
one who sustains me and no matter what stupid mistakes or thing I do. He.
Will never leave me or forsake His promises.
Yes God the Father, Jesus the Son and of
course filled up with the Holy Spirit and all that courage to keep moving
forward. Well it ultimately is what sustains my journey to keep on
keeping on.
So many layers making you peel back like that onion daily
just to maintain that work life balance. That inner peace when life all
around you is so sticky and painful. Scary at times; more than I
care to admit.
Yes, wonder and worry about my children, my
grandchildren. People I love going through it; be it just coming out of a
long battle or illness or just going in. Not to mention those we
love including our pets that they play a big part of our lives and just one day
they are no more.
Like a song talks about the vapor in the wind. “Who Am I”
Casting Crowns https://youtu.be/mBcqria2wmg
Just like that, it is all gone; all changed all
unknown into finding your way in a new kind of normal all over again.
Here today gone tomorrow.
It seems like nothing in this world is lasting; and we
know everything is temporal and the short time we are given to
experience, live, love, laugh and have some little piece of this
world.
Truly, we should be contributing to be a positive
experience within the forces we walk through daily.
We know it is not always, if ever easy; our society says
we should never lay down; we should always cast judgment and we should always
get even or make those pay that do us wrong.
In the spiritual sense, Satan wants us to believe
the lie and fear; and hate and alienate ourselves from all that is good, pure,
clean and positive. Wanting us to compare ourselves to others; when
we all bleed red is ridicules yet we do it. We judge without even
thinking how someone looks; what they do even before knowing them.
We put people through our own personal tests. To see if they
withstand our standards before we truly let them know us. Even when they
have no expectations but loyalty; respect and love.
Then when we are tying anything back to God; Satan
and the evil dwellers of this world do overtime. To derail, disrupt
and destroy. When they cannot get to you; they go after those close to
your heart strings.
I am thankful I am a child of God no matter who is and
who is not that I am attached to.
Just as like any other day I am filled with Gods messages
and even today; how it makes allot of sense for hearing the message from
“Uplifting Mind” this morning.
In summary, The Devil Operates by Fear.
Yet; biblically speaking even back in the Old Testament days King Hezekiah wrote in Isaiah 28: 16 (NIV) 16 So
this is what the Sovereign Lord
says: “See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious
cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who relies on it will never be
stricken with panic.”
One of the things that stuck with me this morning also;
is how often we want to avoid what is scaring us; bothering us.
Alternatively, we do the opposite and we go hastily and want to eliminate and
destroy what has hurt us or has some sort of control over our next steps.
That is what evil hopes for; to break us away from
those that we are or at onetime been unified in harmony with to give us unrest;
drama; pain and destruction. Where is God in all of that? God
does not give us a spirit of fear. We should be doing just the
opposite, clinging, and running with Him directly towards what is trying to
pull you away from what is meaningful.
We struggle and we want to bail; quit and just take the
quick and easy. But hold on tight and Run as fast as you can
towards and with God!
When things are hard always, pray harder. Even
when it seems like your words are meaningless; Jesus knows our heart; knows our
soul and all that is deep within. Nothing will ever change that.
Something’s God allows in that deep; are never for a season. Even if you
do not understand or have reasons to believe; just hold on tightly and never
doubt what God has in the works.
It may never be what you expect; it will be I am sure
better than the human mind can imagine. No matter
what; if not in this life your crown awaits the faithful and obedient in the
next.
Live life; do your best to not let the world strangle
you. Despite anything you may do. You know; the good or ah oh I did
not mean for that to happen or even look what I have done now.
Stand tall in hope and faith and never sell yourself short for God’s love,
mercy and grace.
No, you do not have to broadcast your prayers to prove to
anyone anything. But you should pray for those in need.
Fight your battles on your knees and surround yourself with those who purpose
in hope and faith.
Do not buy into the world of must have this or that to
mean something; do not buy into the world that you must look a certain way to
be beautiful or accepted; do not buy into the fact if you are single there is
something wrong with you.
We are all created uniquely and more beautiful than we
will ever understand. Beauty is from the inside out.
Stop chasing what the world says we must have and start believing
in the fact God created and designed each soul living in His image.
Yes, it is okay to have nice things; want nice things;
live in and with beautiful treasures. Just know when you have that; it is
temporary and should never be what breaks your peace.
There will always be worldly vultures and thieves trying
to come into the night; and many other times and many other ways.
This is nothing new; even back in the Old Testament times
Matthew writes in 6:19 this version is (NIV) “Do not store up for
you treasures on this earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves
break in and steal.”
We are warned of such things that can occur and as
time goes on the thieves just come in different forms and fashions not
necessarily breaking into our homes physically. Think about it. We
have all sorts of Identity theft, fraud, swindles and schemes.
Therefore, we must live in faith with a clear mind;
loving spirit and guarded heart. Using common sense and own
the choices that we make.
Remain accountable and not blame anyone else for
what we ultimately choose to do.
So what if we make mistakes. Pick yourself back up;
due diligence recover and learn from the lesson and hold on to the blessings
that come from it. Every single thing good, bad or
indifferent has something to teach us or bless us.
No, do not ignore when someone does you wrong.
Clean up your portion of the mess; seek council; seek support to help you
through the painful moments and give it all to God.
Do what you must to protect yourself; your loved
ones. Always do everything as if you are doing it for God and
lead by example. It will never be easy; there will be days you just
do not want. Days you wish, you checked out long back.
Nevertheless, if the Good Lord got you up and you
are sucking wind in those lungs and have your wits. Purpose to be
loving and kind; purpose to be forgiving; purpose to hold on and by all means
pay it forward anyway you possibly can. A kind word; a kind
gesture; big or small it all matters.
As for me; AlwaysMeKelly; Always as I was; Always as I
am; Always as I can be. Just me; Imperfect with a sweet spirit most
days; bigger dreams then common sense that I hold quietly onto and in
this big world, which I like you live in.
Most days in my little pieces of this dream world I
imagine many things; but I too being human. I do not always get it right;
I react; I get mad; I want to hurt and pay back. I jump in running; help
without caring and get tangled up and trip over my own demons I fight with.
Most importantly; I choose to own my journey and
find the blessings where I can. No matter how hard or lonely this life is
or can be.
No matter what is truth or what is a façade.
No matter how much I let someone down or I am let down. I
will never stop hoping; loving or seeing the goodness in
people.
I will not become a part of their misguided journey and
if I get entangled I will do everything I can to keep moving forward and always
give all that I am all that I have to God and hold on for the ride of my
life. I finally learned at some point I can choose my
happy.
I am forever thankful for the "Scars" I am They
- https://youtu.be/It1XzDf-pFo without them I would not know the Lord or the beautiful souls I have
come to connect with; good, bad or indifferent. Something’s, some
connections just stick with you forever. On this day; I
am given as you. The blessing of life; opportunity and the power to know God
and truly feel what love is.
John 3:16(NIV) 16 For
God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever
believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
