06-26-2023-JUNE_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday June 26th , 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Leviticus 19:18 CSB @Biblegateway.com

¹⁸ Do not take revenge or bear a grudge against members of your community, but love your neighbor as yourself; I am the Lord.

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Leviticus 19:18 in all English translations

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com / Facebook, Local Worship, or other public venues.

 Loui Giglio Talks about Laminin (short)

 Do It Again | Official Lyric Video | Elevation Worship

 TobyMac - Faithfully (Lyric Video)

 Goodness Of God (Lyrics) ~ Bethel Music

 

 

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Thank you for another day.

Even if I am a wee bit stiff from being really productive this weekend; after a week of summer blast with my K-5^th graders.

 

Ready, Set Move with Jesus 😊

 

What a beautiful thought.    And how appropriate for life itself.     We need to always be ready, we should all keep moving and I know that can be hard for some.   Since Covid I have been working from home and blessed to not have a 2-hour commute daily; I find myself in one position for hours at a time.   Though my mind is put to great use.   Not so much physically every day.

 

Sure, I still get my 4-11k steps in a day; it’s not the same at all.

Then I always make up for it on my free evenings jumping into projects and pushing to where when getting up the next morning it takes a bit to take off running.

 

Now let’s talk Jesus!    It does not matter if you are moving or ready or anything in-between.

 

We all believe in something.   Even those who say they don’t believe; truly believe in what they don’t want to believe in.   In fact, they will stand strong and tall against what their beliefs are.

 

Knowing that Jesus has been telling the story of peace, love, harmony, goodness and requesting us to be the light along the path we are given for more than 2000 years.     The fact that a molecular scientist or many identified the glue that holds us together is the very spiritual bond that came from Jesus Christ pouring his life into the very dust that God breathed air into life allowing us to be.

 

I cannot help but need to believe and put all my hope in all he lived, suffered, died, and gave and gives life for.

 

Faithfully I still believe.   Hope for all that is good even when at any given moment I can look around and be overwhelmed and just think how many will never get the chance to really live because of the darkness in this world that will never stop trying to rob the life and light from all the living souls God breathes each new day to be more than anything that the world can give or take.

 

I prayerfully just need Him to do it again over and over and every connection I am ever blessed with a true blessing and lesson of many sorts gets to meet Jesus face to face now before it’s too late.

 

Even if we don’t understand all of what has come to be in this world or life.  The indescribable peace that carries me and can carry every soul who believes.

 

It is hard to explain the strength and peace and sometimes unexplainable joy even during the pain and loss our journey carries us through.

 

 

So no matter how tired or stiff or lost I am feeling there is no doubt how deeply in love with Jesus I am.     How I know we as human beings will absolutely let each other down and at times outright do our best to allow our selfish ambitions, sometimes even destroy others.      And maybe the walls I built years ago have robbed me of some worldly benefits.  

 

But the love in the depths and shadows of every centimeter of this heart and soul will never be loved by anything or anyone better than Jesus Christ.

 

On the highest mountain, or lowest valley.   In the arms of all the prayers of my King, and all his believers knowing exactly what I feel at times.

 

I am beyond grateful to call upon Abba, my father God, Jesus forever – eternally lover the of my soul and the Holy Spirit that carries me.

 

Sometimes I get a human glimpse of Him and get caught up, forgetting there is no other and sometimes it’s just beautiful others it takes pieces of me in the awakening and reminder.

 

Always remember to whom you were created, to whom you belong, to whom breathed life into the dust, and we are formed and to dust we will return.

 

We do not know when checkout time will be.  Those who truly understand, feel never know how or why some must suffer and others do not.   Or why we are left behind long enough to feel the greater loss of what once was.   But always our timestamp in and our timestamp out is and forever will be part of the legacy in, with and through Jesus Christ.

 

Through it all ~ it is what it is, until it is not!   We are for more than just what this world has to offer. 

 

 

Talking To Jesus | Elevation Worship & Maverick City

06-23-2023-JUNE_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Friday June 23^rd , 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Isaiah 40:31 CSB @Biblegateway.com

³¹ but those who trust in the Lord
will renew their strength;
they will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not become weary,
they will walk and not faint.

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Isaiah 40:31 in all English translations

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com / Facebook, Local Worship, or other public venues.

 Jewel - Hands - Lyrics

 Symphony (Official Lyric Video) - Switch

 Jumper-Third Eye Blind Lyrics

 I Thank God (feat. Maverick City Music & UPPERROOM) | TRIBL

 

 

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Well, some days are so much easier than others.  Including when passing thoughts of the lost come to be part of a conversation or even just memory that trickles down my cheek.

 

I think how we are not done yet and the as much as I don’t want to own it, my baby at some point will not be able to continue doing what they do, and time will also be up.

 

How, why, we are all wired differently on how we handle and address the day-to-day we call life.   And when we end up with chronic illness and issues; at some point that stops too.

 

As a parent you pray; or at least I imagine we all do.  But I know that is my fantasy in my own head.  But we pray for the best of everything life can give our children we are blessed with.   Yet, in reality many don’t even think about their kids much less want what is best for them.

 

It is almost like a switch got stuck in me’ism mode and everything like finding nemo; is mine, mine, mine, mine.   All the while the big birds ready to swoop down and still the fish the world is coming in to still, rob, hurt, kill, use our children.

 

That was never God’s intent when he created humanity.    No, I was not there!  I just know that the stories of centuries of good, merciful, abundant love and grace do not allow for such pain and lawlessness and harm for those given as gifts to build and maintain a universal future.

 

But I am a dreamer.  Far from perfect and sometimes short on wit and patience but still deeply blessed to get back up every day and give whatever I have in me to help make memories and laughter.

 

I am running in empty air these days.   My emotional bank account has been over-drawn for some time now.   And tapped out in the loss of family pillars.

 

You know when sometimes you look around at what you do and realize for sure those you do it for are grateful for the few moments you are there but can easily get by with out you even showing up.

 

It is time for me to start to take a step or two back and rest and breathe in and try to remind myself how to know its okay not to be okay.    And not for anything else but just needing something really good to rest in this soul again.

 

More than just the gratefulness and blessing of being allowed back up; or gifts to be able to serve in a community or even acknowledge we are more than what we do.

 

It’s a thing, to really feel that love outside in that Jesus fills us up with from the inside out.

 

There have been so many blessed good times in this journey and even more to come.  While some really painful hard moments in grief and loss.   And even watching those you deeply care for and not be able to fix that switch to see them happy, healthy, prosperous in just what and where they are and not chase  so much that is gone in the blink of an eye.

 

Or worse yet; bury themselves in masks and excuses instead of fighting forward in the way we think they should.

 

God did once tell me; we all get there in our own time.    I just don’t know whose own time that really is.   For me I want what I want, and my timing is never God’s.   For this every day I am given has been a lesson, a blessing or both.

 

Even in the ride back down memory lane

 

Everything changes every day.   We should never wake up and be in worry or panic about what might the day be.  But we should absolutely know that Yesterday is gone, and we cannot get it back.   Tomorrow is never promised.  Therefore, we should be absolutely living in the moment.  Loving those God gave us and removing ourselves that rob us from true peace and joy.

 

Easier said than done; I get it.    This lifetime I have had the ride of my life and not always good.    I learned the hard way that no book is what the external cover reflects.   And that is for those who have added many paragraphs and chapters to my journey as well.

 

Something else I learned the hard way and it finally seeped into my life enough to get.    Not every person out there using the name of Jesus is truly out doing good.    Just like the body we call government works for the people who elect them.

 

The greed, and selfish ambitions of even the best intentions sometimes I guess are put in our path so we can learn and grow from whatever transpires.

 

Yet with the same strength, tenacity, and dreams that you have been blessed; you get back up when you are flattened and brush yourself off and keep moving forward.   Never stop until the day comes that Jesus takes you home.

 

If only I knew then what I knew now 😊  Without a doubt.   And by the way just because we get older, it does not hurt any when the world transforms their thought process and deludes purpose and the meaning of respect and family for themselves and others.

 

Watching my brother and his loss of connection with his own and it not resolved before he was taken home.    To watch my own child lose themselves and not being able to fix the broken pieces.

 

I am reminded that we all are chipped away at every second of every day we are allowed to journey through this world.    We can only be our best selves, share lessons and pray abundantly.  While stepping up and stepping out to be the brightest light we can be even in our own storms.

 

At least that is what I am trying for.

 

I hardly ever get it right, but it doesn’t mean I am gonna stop fighting forward to keep shining even if and when it hurts.   And man, the sting of death has lost its bite for those who are gone; but those left behind it really hurts.

 

For now, all my scattered pieces are just fighting forward.    Hopefully God’s strength will never stop carrying me.   Cause I know for me without Him, well I am a done deal. 

 

That human side that sometimes stops and really looks around and realizes without him none of it matters.     Just keep showing up until he directs these steps not to.   Keep loving others and learning to love yourself as well as you to everyone else.

 

 So weirdly true!

 

No exciting action novel that no one else is not already playing parts in.  No unfortunate huge tearful reunion or exciting surprise that brings us to our knees.    Just the truth the world shares and that endless roller coaster ride that at times we forget to keep our hands, feet, and business in the lines, so we are not derailed or totally destroyed by others attaching on and ripping us apart for their own personal gain.

 

And if the darkness does almost consume you; know almost doesn’t count but in horseshoes and hand grenades;   and know if they even come close; the same power that allows the earth to breathe lives within each and every soul journeying this world.   And the gratitude and acknowledgement for Him alone will be our strength that will allow us back up to just keep trying.    Anyway, that’s my mind-maze pieces falling in and out of place into letters, words and pieces of me this day.   Some may get it, others may not.  In the end nothing really matters until you allow it anyway.   We get to own our feelings and direct them.    We were all given the freedom of choice and will and all got to pick what drives us or means anything at all.   We get to choose kindness and know every single soul is going through something.  Even if sometimes bad behavior is not excused the reasons may be justified.    We all get to believe in something.   For me Jesus!

 

If that alone allows me to get back up and be grateful and love well. So be it...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

06-15-2023-JUNE_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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 Thursday June 15^th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Proverbs 23:24 CSB @Biblegateway.com

²⁴ The father of a righteous son will rejoice greatly,
and one who fathers a wise son will delight in him.

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Proverbs 23:24 in all English translations

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com / Facebook, Local Worship, or other public venues.

 Benjamin William Hastings, Blessing Offor - That's The Thing About Praise (Music Video)

 Cody Carnes - Ain't Nobody (with lyrics)(2022)

 Rod Stewart- Have i told you lately that i love you (HQ)

 Cody Carnes ~ Nothing Else (Lyrics)

 

 

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

 

Forgive me for my distance.

There is not much I can say about the waves that come and go and the great loss of knowing things are as they should be.

 

No worry will add to any gifts of life but in fact take away more precious time that we just do not know if or when.

 

Not surrounded by anyone coming and just being left to be made strong and acknowledge the days the waterfalls just crash the flood gates doing my best with what I have been given to work with.

 

I just want you Jesus, nothing else would do this is beyond truth.

 

The thing about praise never stops the tears that you catch and hold close to your very being of creation.

 

So, no matter how, or who it is always you that holds me together.

 

There are days I miss so much, people, feelings, places.   Even more I pray for peace, comfort, and most of all your arms wrapped tightly around the souls that have allowed me to grow forward in this journey.    All the while at times wondering if they feel it.

 

No matter how far back our minds take us, nothing will change what has come and gone and absolutely impact any moments in hope of possible tomorrows.

 

Be it great or small, good, or bad.    Yesterday is gone and we must get back up and do our best to live for today.

 

Maybe that is pouring all we are out for others to see the light TobyMac/Jordan Feliz - See The Light of hope and dream on into a future we can only obediently purpose for.     Or be the darkness knowing when we live hard, we suffer hard and absolutely die hard over and over again.

 

The time is running out and there is no guarantee my choice to love and proclaim what I feel deep in these bones is what should be.   I only know from my own blessings and where my peace comes from that all that Jesus is proclaimed in life, suffering and death for the greater good unimaginable love is better then any temporal suffering even if in  our best hours at times that darkness consumes seconds, or moments in time that leave us heavy and sometimes barely able to breathe or even paralyzed.   But maybe this is just what it means to be Held Natalie Grant - HELD

 

It is hard getting up each day these past couple weeks and although my days are getting better, I feel the heaviness that is trying to stifle the very breath that allows me life.

 

As  a mother the worry for the child who just does not feel the love you have given.

 

As a grandparent the thoughts of the good old days when excitement and necessity was to just love on the babies and today, we step in, step up and buffer all this world gives.

 

Pouring in, pouring out to the littles you take on each week to see their jagged edges to the sudden noise and fighting of the birds just trying to hold their own ground in survival.

 

If only I had the answers and the knowledge when that heavy blanket of sorrow will truly go and the weight be lifted knowing it is well It Is Well - Kristene DiMarco (Radio Mix) - Lyric Video, as it should be.

 

I am not sure where anything is going, I know where I have been and all those that I have been blessed with along the way in gifts, in lessons in love.

 

You Jesus are the lover of my soul and keeper of all things.    If I am to be held from the outside in; or gifted in love and life as you see fit in will and deed make it so.

 

I am no better or no worse than anyone else for the undeserving favor to just be, is enough.    Please catch the tears of all the broken heart strings I am tied to or tied up in.   Show me, the big God Terrian - "Big God" ( Lyric Video) and purpose towards each new day given.

 

 

Thank you for it all Marvin Sapp - Thank You For It All (Official Lyric Video)

 

 

 

 

06-06-2023-JUNE_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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 Tuesday June 6^th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Ephesians 3:17-19 NIV @Biblegateway.com

    In God, whose word I praise—
in God I trust and am not afraid.
    What can mere mortals do to me?

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Psalm 56:4 in all English translations

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com / Facebook, Local Worship, or other public venues.

 Cochren & Co. - Running Home (Official Lyric Video)

 Michael W. Smith - Surrounded (Fight My Battles) [Lyrics]

 Jireh & Worthy | Elevation Worship

 TobyMac: Get Back Up - Official Lyric Video

Unspoken - God Help Me (Official Music Video)

 Brother-Need To Breathe

 Free Bird LYRICS by Lynyrd Skynyrd ♪

  

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

 

First, I am not a runner; if I need to fight, I will fight till the end.   For what I believe, for those I love, and absolutely to maintain my own integrity and blessings from the powers greater than anything on this earth.   So, if I shut down, or disappear it is because I process the broken pieces of this vessel by pouring into other areas that I can contribute positive growth and abundance in for others.

 

Thank you, Jesus, even when I do not understand it you allow me to fight my battles with you.  More like you do all the fighting and you shield me from what really could transpire without you.

 

Yes, many tears have fallen and oh so many will continue to pour out.   Losing beautiful souls in this life that were gifted to be part of your journey suddenly taken back.   Hurts beyond any wave of emotion I can control at times.

 

Not sure I will ever be able to control that all the time.  And I have to remember I cannot be just matter of fact for what was once day to day process to now I have this moment in time of no tolerance.

 

I am beyond undeserving and grateful in this bittersweet life given.   You Jesus are enough and to get back that hunger you give.   Even through the storms of life.  You are enough breathing life into me.

 

I am trying to not reflect the sadness I feel right now but I guess some things just are more prevalent than anything we see ourselves that just seep out of you when you suffer loss.

 

Looking at the loss of pops last year and my brother this year and all that is all around as the day-to-day struggles of those closest are real.

 

Please Jesus just keep getting me back up as you see fit.  There are always scars and they run deep sometimes, never bleeding out.  Yet, we never need to let them bleed onto anyone else.

 

Only God can help me and for this I am blessed.   Even on the worse day when I cannot breathe, and nothing makes sense or has meaning any longer.

 

So many pieces that have been chipped away and broken.  But this last major piece of my blood line my brother, the one from playing superhero and busting my head open to fighting and whacking him with my cast to sitting on the dock fishing with the memory of that little puppy that came running up and got hooked to being roommates or just catching up with our sister and having our last sleep over just to spend time together.    From disappearing and knowing you were marrying a girl that used to stop in and get her coffee every morning to just being the big brother that I haunted and shadowed everywhere.

 

Through the loss of your first wife and best friend to finding love and leaving your second and all of us suddenly.    Never will I forget running up behind you and putting you in a headlock and you standing up and hugging me for the final hug you gave the day before you took your final ride home.

 

I am blessed to have been your little sister and forever blessed to have you etched into this heart and soul.    I will miss you forever brother. 

 

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing us to know the meaning of love and life, watch over the gentle giant that is forever remembered and missed by many.

 

Fly high my brother!    Ready the slip and slides for when we all meet again and come home.

 

Thank you, Jesus for Love and all these broken pieces that someday will make a beautiful mosaic eternal gem in heaven.   For now, please don’t let go of me!