06-23-2023-JUNE_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Friday June 23^rd , 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Isaiah 40:31 CSB @Biblegateway.com

³¹ but those who trust in the Lord
will renew their strength;
they will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not become weary,
they will walk and not faint.

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Isaiah 40:31 in all English translations

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com / Facebook, Local Worship, or other public venues.

 Jewel - Hands - Lyrics

 Symphony (Official Lyric Video) - Switch

 Jumper-Third Eye Blind Lyrics

 I Thank God (feat. Maverick City Music & UPPERROOM) | TRIBL

 

 

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Well, some days are so much easier than others.  Including when passing thoughts of the lost come to be part of a conversation or even just memory that trickles down my cheek.

 

I think how we are not done yet and the as much as I don’t want to own it, my baby at some point will not be able to continue doing what they do, and time will also be up.

 

How, why, we are all wired differently on how we handle and address the day-to-day we call life.   And when we end up with chronic illness and issues; at some point that stops too.

 

As a parent you pray; or at least I imagine we all do.  But I know that is my fantasy in my own head.  But we pray for the best of everything life can give our children we are blessed with.   Yet, in reality many don’t even think about their kids much less want what is best for them.

 

It is almost like a switch got stuck in me’ism mode and everything like finding nemo; is mine, mine, mine, mine.   All the while the big birds ready to swoop down and still the fish the world is coming in to still, rob, hurt, kill, use our children.

 

That was never God’s intent when he created humanity.    No, I was not there!  I just know that the stories of centuries of good, merciful, abundant love and grace do not allow for such pain and lawlessness and harm for those given as gifts to build and maintain a universal future.

 

But I am a dreamer.  Far from perfect and sometimes short on wit and patience but still deeply blessed to get back up every day and give whatever I have in me to help make memories and laughter.

 

I am running in empty air these days.   My emotional bank account has been over-drawn for some time now.   And tapped out in the loss of family pillars.

 

You know when sometimes you look around at what you do and realize for sure those you do it for are grateful for the few moments you are there but can easily get by with out you even showing up.

 

It is time for me to start to take a step or two back and rest and breathe in and try to remind myself how to know its okay not to be okay.    And not for anything else but just needing something really good to rest in this soul again.

 

More than just the gratefulness and blessing of being allowed back up; or gifts to be able to serve in a community or even acknowledge we are more than what we do.

 

It’s a thing, to really feel that love outside in that Jesus fills us up with from the inside out.

 

There have been so many blessed good times in this journey and even more to come.  While some really painful hard moments in grief and loss.   And even watching those you deeply care for and not be able to fix that switch to see them happy, healthy, prosperous in just what and where they are and not chase  so much that is gone in the blink of an eye.

 

Or worse yet; bury themselves in masks and excuses instead of fighting forward in the way we think they should.

 

God did once tell me; we all get there in our own time.    I just don’t know whose own time that really is.   For me I want what I want, and my timing is never God’s.   For this every day I am given has been a lesson, a blessing or both.

 

Even in the ride back down memory lane

 

Everything changes every day.   We should never wake up and be in worry or panic about what might the day be.  But we should absolutely know that Yesterday is gone, and we cannot get it back.   Tomorrow is never promised.  Therefore, we should be absolutely living in the moment.  Loving those God gave us and removing ourselves that rob us from true peace and joy.

 

Easier said than done; I get it.    This lifetime I have had the ride of my life and not always good.    I learned the hard way that no book is what the external cover reflects.   And that is for those who have added many paragraphs and chapters to my journey as well.

 

Something else I learned the hard way and it finally seeped into my life enough to get.    Not every person out there using the name of Jesus is truly out doing good.    Just like the body we call government works for the people who elect them.

 

The greed, and selfish ambitions of even the best intentions sometimes I guess are put in our path so we can learn and grow from whatever transpires.

 

Yet with the same strength, tenacity, and dreams that you have been blessed; you get back up when you are flattened and brush yourself off and keep moving forward.   Never stop until the day comes that Jesus takes you home.

 

If only I knew then what I knew now 😊  Without a doubt.   And by the way just because we get older, it does not hurt any when the world transforms their thought process and deludes purpose and the meaning of respect and family for themselves and others.

 

Watching my brother and his loss of connection with his own and it not resolved before he was taken home.    To watch my own child lose themselves and not being able to fix the broken pieces.

 

I am reminded that we all are chipped away at every second of every day we are allowed to journey through this world.    We can only be our best selves, share lessons and pray abundantly.  While stepping up and stepping out to be the brightest light we can be even in our own storms.

 

At least that is what I am trying for.

 

I hardly ever get it right, but it doesn’t mean I am gonna stop fighting forward to keep shining even if and when it hurts.   And man, the sting of death has lost its bite for those who are gone; but those left behind it really hurts.

 

For now, all my scattered pieces are just fighting forward.    Hopefully God’s strength will never stop carrying me.   Cause I know for me without Him, well I am a done deal. 

 

That human side that sometimes stops and really looks around and realizes without him none of it matters.     Just keep showing up until he directs these steps not to.   Keep loving others and learning to love yourself as well as you to everyone else.

 

 So weirdly true!

 

No exciting action novel that no one else is not already playing parts in.  No unfortunate huge tearful reunion or exciting surprise that brings us to our knees.    Just the truth the world shares and that endless roller coaster ride that at times we forget to keep our hands, feet, and business in the lines, so we are not derailed or totally destroyed by others attaching on and ripping us apart for their own personal gain.

 

And if the darkness does almost consume you; know almost doesn’t count but in horseshoes and hand grenades;   and know if they even come close; the same power that allows the earth to breathe lives within each and every soul journeying this world.   And the gratitude and acknowledgement for Him alone will be our strength that will allow us back up to just keep trying.    Anyway, that’s my mind-maze pieces falling in and out of place into letters, words and pieces of me this day.   Some may get it, others may not.  In the end nothing really matters until you allow it anyway.   We get to own our feelings and direct them.    We were all given the freedom of choice and will and all got to pick what drives us or means anything at all.   We get to choose kindness and know every single soul is going through something.  Even if sometimes bad behavior is not excused the reasons may be justified.    We all get to believe in something.   For me Jesus!

 

If that alone allows me to get back up and be grateful and love well. So be it...