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Date: 01/31/2020 Friday
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
As I
wake this day reaching for what message will I wear on my T Shirt being I am
not in the office. It is that bright
orange Speak Life kind of day overwhelming me.
Knowing
we hope, desire and even chase so many things walking in our journey that we
all must own ourselves.
We
can choose our happiness so true; reminded by the story of JOB even as everything
was torn and taken from him. His family,
his riches, even those who were supposedly close and caring at one time had
turned on him. Believing he must have done
so many things wrong to be treated so unkind.
Which does not describe what he went through. However, his faith is fully blessed in JOB 42
where not only did the good Lord bless Him for never giving up and believing in
what is good but JOB was blessed with abundance.
I
have read through the bible a couple times over the years; fully knowing the
story of faith and hope coming to life is not new; however for whatever the reasons
this day it really sets in the need to hold to truth and cling to Jesus through
all the storms of life.
For
as long as God gives you breath and you are allowed up; He has great purpose
for you and your stories to shine the light for the many that are in need on
any given day.
The
trials and temptations will slam us like that tsunami wave that comes with
every action there is a reaction for every choice there is a result.
What
is good for us may not be lasting and absolutely not for those that we are
surrounded by who may or may not be those who love and care for you deeply.
Sometimes
there will be souls that care deeply for you clear across the universe that
will never stop loving and praying for all that is good mind, body and spirit. The key is knowing the one that should be
first in all things is Jesus Christ and He is right there waiting, seeing,
hearing and feeling all, you are and are going through.
If
you do not currently walk with the deep relationship with God through Jesus Christ
this concept will be very hard for you make that step and understand.
I
can assure you I myself would have never thought I would be blogging daily
although always a writer; never did I plan to be on a public site for all to
see pieces of me and talking about my ups and downs; feelings and desires;
talking about my hurts and those I care about.
Or even the love I have for my Jesus.
https://youtu.be/OnJFGtAXxGs
“Loving My Jesus” @ Casting Crowns
The King
of the World the one I battle with in that spiritual tug of war even today;
giving it all to him for I have no control nor do you. Yet later in any given day find myself
taking something back trying to make sense of it or fixing it; doing what I
think is how it is supposed to be to make it right here right now. https://youtu.be/4K7kplxNM48 “King of the World” @ Natalie Grant
Trust
me when I say I know to whom I belong to!
It takes a journey and hindsight to really understand who we are in this
grand universe and the sacrifice of giving away meism’s and asking daily what it
is God your will calls for me to be or do.
Even
more so it takes really seeing where you have been and how much God has carried
you out of to know what is real. I get
it there are still people out there that have not been exposed to the harsh
reality of this world.
The
truth is no one is better no one is lesser than the next soul on this
earth. There will be some who are
blessed with two loving parents all their lives and given all the right things
and still make self-destructive choices.
There will be others that will be in families that are raised in cruelty
and daily harm and if they make it to adult hood will either fight the demons
not to be as such or will be scarred for life and limited without any wrong
doing of their own.
Then
you have those who the parents are far too young or lost to know what the heck
to do and the kids raise themselves once they awake from the demons they were sacrificed
to.
Those
who will never understand why things happened or why they survived at all; while
as time goes on, they see so many others who did not.
WE ALL
have to choose what is our next step even if that is just crying out and
praying to the one who has created all things. But know this; always be careful what you
ask for and always God is for us; He did not create us or allow all things with
Jesus coming to earth in the form of Man to be tortured, broken and hung the
cross. To watch us suffer.
He
wants us to be at peace in harmony with Him and to do so the sacrifice of love
on that cross with Jesus Christ is the gateway drug you will never ever have to
swallow, snort or shoot up.
Jesus
our Father, Spirit and Son is right there waiting for everyone of us to just
call out and seek Him daily.
Will
you still have pains and sorrows. Will
you still be tripped up in our humanly choices and the outcomes there of. Absolutely.
But
the peace that fills us deeply the longer we walk with becoming the Bride of
Christ and he is becoming our best friend first and foremost. Is something you have to experience
yourself.
When
I walked forward in 1995 I was fighting hard to do what was right and just
survive; knowing God allowed me life through my children and though I did not
get it right I was far from what I felt my parents were at the time. Where I had nothing or no one; I
unfortunately overcompensated to give and be everything they never had.
I
have no regrets I can assure you. Do I
want more for my children and grandchildren; absolutely. More importantly I want them to know Jesus firsthand
themselves. To experience the healing
and peace only He can give is indescribable. But it took me 10 years before I really came
to know who I was in Jesus and honestly, I am still learning.
I
was never one just out doing things purposely to steam roll over anyone; I have
never been a user or abuser of anything.
But over time my choices mattered not only who I thought I had to have
in my life because of what I never did.
And what I allowed because of just wanting to matter.
I
still want that; and yes, sometimes I really still believe deep within relationships
I do until even still this world proves to me; I only matter in Christ alone.
But
that is okay; because He has given me a love from the inside out with some days
eyes I see clearly with through all he sees and wants me to see. Others I am no different than you or anyone
else.
For
this I know I still have a long way to grow forward in Him; and truly know as @TobyMac SpeakLife “Consider that maybe God closed that
door because he knew you were worth so much more”
I have been blessed and allowed to keep some brain cells and work into a
career that I am blessed by even on days it gets hard; have traveled the world
some, perhaps not as much as others but seen more than this kid out of the
projects ever imagined. Have road a
Harley and not on it; road horses and road the walk of shame. I have started my writing public journey as a
kid learning humility from those I thought cared and taking the 1996 NE Taekwondo
New York State gold medal out of the heavyweight division when I was middle
weight in what; yes knowing how to be a fighter in sparring.
I have went in for surgery and felt like I was in a horror movie where they
never did the surgery and kept me medicated and paralyzed just enough to be
aware I was gagging and wrenching all over the place while they scoped me to
look at my heart; to years later giving in and having a four hour surgery to
put a 35 mm patch in my heart to stop the bleeding into my lungs.
Yes, I am joker and the one to get things going always laughing and loving
to have that good time. I am that one who
has had a gun held to my head just as I am the one that knows how to shoot. Broken, battered, humbled and humiliated. My stories go on and on; to tell you what it
is like to be awakened as a ten year old fighting for life while some fat
drunken well you get it; to fight for my entire youth to survive at the hands
of unknowns will drug your children and use them up in a heart beat if you as a
parent do not stand tall for all that is good and protect the blessings you are
given.
I can go on and on with the stories of life that I have journeyed
through. Over time I will; as the names
and places for most are still like yesterday.
Just as those gaps in time that only God has protected me from are still
just where they need to be. I can
tell you about giving it all and craving to matter deeply; to have someone who
really feels and grows forward together in Christ. I can tell you who has been by my side even
in the distance and who has quickly thrown me under a bus.
I can tell you what it is like to have abundance and nothing all at
once. No matter what I write or say;
only you can make the decisions and the steps of your own life given. We all must choose something. We are all responsible for our own choices
once we make it to the point that we understand what choices are.
I can tell you this for this day; let all that is dark go; do not let
negative rent space up in your being. If
God has allowed you up another day, He needs you and has purpose.
If you do not know how to reach out to Jesus; start right where you
are. Pray, pray for you, pray for those
you care the most about; and pray with authority and know God is real. Pray that Jesus comes into your life and
protects and guides all you are going forward.
Pray to be the light in the dark places and pray for those who are out there
in shining brightly through all their pains, sorrows and difficulties.
For my journey not yet over even though this month end is now upon us. Through all that the only thing that really
matters is I am no longer anything that has happened with, to or for me. I am a child of God. https://youtu.be/f8TkUMJtK5k “No Longer Slaves” @ Jonathan David and Melissa Helser
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
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==== Psalm 86:5==== (NIV) You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to you.
Verse of the Month @Mandisa
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==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
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==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
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====Psalm 39:7====
(NIV) 7 “But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you.
==== Matthew 6:34 ====
(NIV) 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry
about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
==== Psalm
56:3-4 ==== (NIV) 3 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.
4 In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?
4 In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?
==== Genesis 28:15
==== (NIV) 15 I am with you and will watch over you wherever
you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I
have done what I have promised you.”
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Date: 01/30/2020 Thursday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Lord
thank you for this day, although I do not understand why I was awake at 2am
this morning praying for strength and healing for those, I am connected.
Praying for your will to hold the broken
hearted together and up, Lord.
I am
seeking direction from you alone in my life and all I am connected.
Jesus
you know who they are.
Each
day they are given; we are given. Is a
new normal for the changes that have come-to-pass and left huge gaps and loss
of will and resilience; your chosen need you now.
Lord may your spirit move in a mighty way in
love, mercy and grace. Direct their steps if they are to step out
and work behind the scenes or keep forging forward reflecting you in either
direction.
You
know all things; lift the heaviness from all who are going through it; keep the
unity and love once promised. For time
does not matter; but all you are does.
I am
not sure if that even makes sense, Jesus.
Nevertheless, you alone know all things.
Wrap around your children, those who rely on you in your precious
name.
Guide them, guide me!
Sometimes
somethings we will never understand.
We
are not to spend our lives chasing reasons why; however, we are to grasp on
tighter, longer with whatever we have in us to you Jesus.
We ruin relationships; destroy our children by
teaching them to do as I say not as I do.
On the other hand, even that of turning the other way and letting the
world manage them. Later to wonder why
something worldly transpired
When
all the while we should be fighting forward with you God. Holding tight, and waiting with and for
you. Listening and learning!
Instead,
we react thinking we really hear what is or should be and we react and cause so
much misfortune with our relationships, with our finances with our own internal
peace.
Be it
turning to those we have worked closely with and by for years because our
relationships with our spouse have turned bitter and one or both are turning
outward and against what once unified to others. Ruining what was once God blessed.
Creating
chaos and turmoil physically, emotionally and financially. Sometimes even in those that we think do not
know the misdeeds we have done.
Someone
is always watching. More importantly,
God of all things is fully aware weeping.
Sometimes
to fix what is broken he must save us from ourselves by removing us from
situations that we are not strong enough in human form to understand and get
what he alone wants from us.
The
new normal in this worldly life are hard but Gods Love of His son’s sacrifice
when Jesus Christ took that cross. Is
beyond anything this world will ever give or take.
If
only!
If
only we remain steadfast in and with Jesus being first every second of every
day.
His
forgiveness from hurt, habits and hang-ups is truly, what matters in the end.
Through
all the hills and valleys it is His blood that flows through our veins that has
greater purpose and need than anything this world shall offer.
Never
lose sight no matter how hard the healing is or how deep the knife cuts. The sting has already been absorbed just
read between the stripes that Jesus bore long before what we can or cannot get
right.
Give
yourself and all you are back to Jesus.
It is His command we seek redemption through God’s love and Jesus mercy
will guide the path to eternal peace.
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
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Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
==== Ephesians 4:2==== (NIV) Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
Verse of the Month @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ====And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
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==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ====And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
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====Psalm 112:7==== (NIV) 7 They will have no fear of bad news;
their
hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.
==== 1 Corinthians 13:11 ==== (NIV) 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I
thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the
ways of childhood behind me.
==== Isaiah 40:28-31 ==== (NIV) Do you not
know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the
everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can
fathom. 29 He gives
strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired
and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those
who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they
will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
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Date: 01/29/2020 Wednesday
https://youtu.be/Dy1vjNWnDlM “This is Not a
Test” @ TobyMac
https://youtu.be/QVmaLtyOSao “Everlasting God” @ Chris Tomlin
I
can never have enough gratitude or give thanks for all the blessings this
life. The good the bad, the ugly and
the beautiful moments. All the scars that
run deep to all those who have made me who I am today.
We
are all going through something; and we will all suffer losses and pain. Some will make it through and suffer what
seems to be their entire existence on this earth and others once in a lifetime
and that will be all it takes to send them over the edge.
Life
is not a test; though we may have many people, places and things that do test our
abilities to remain strong and steadfast.
There
will be many things that hit those trigger buttons; where we just do not want
to care about anything or anyone anymore.
Even
that which triggers us to give up on ourselves.
It
will not matter if we are rich and famous, poor and starving. It will not matter of our status in the worldview.
For
what is a wealthy man, who has lost all his monetary valuables?
What
would the world be like if the greed and actions that chase all the status,
fame and fortune causing hate was no more?
What
would it be like if all those who had much; always considered the least of
these first?
It
is not about me in the eyes of Jesus!
He has made us all to be something more in abundance with and for
love. We should never allow what is
done for good, intended for a blessing of God; to be overshadowed by those who
use and abuse kindness for their own greed and worldly gain.
For Me,
and I know it is not about me but it is about all of us in the end and where
our souls will go; and how to live with peace here and now until our time to go
has come. We all believe in something.
I
choose to continue to learn and try to grow forward in and with Jesus Christ
and all His promises. Far from perfect
I mess up daily. I lose my way
allowing desires and feeling sometimes to overshadow my choices. I listen too much to a certain point than
bury myself when I do not understand the outcome; or fully understand the
outcome and it hurts.
Be
it for what is deep in this soul; or losses and pain of others. One thing is certain, which is that we will
be tested and the keys of what is next
is how we will respond daily.
We can
give up and give in or we can continue forward for doing the best we can with
whatever we are given to work with. We
can choose to hate; feel sorry for ourselves; retaliate or just stand firm in
faith and know in the end God will shake it all out and the truth of what is or
should be will transpire. That
proverbial turning the other cheek in the ways of the world is a difficult
choice daily. What and who to believe
in; what and what not to do or say.
Just
know when God is involved you see it in the soul of his kingdom. Humanity will never be perfect but I look
forward to glory on the other side in eternity; and am blessed for the peace I
am allowed day to day I am given in the here and now.
For
that; yes I am considered crazy, weird, and who knows what. However it may seem; it beats the feeling
of being a throw away kid; discarded and lost to the world because of the
adults that had me could not handle life.
It
beats the heaviness of what I never had a choice at the hands of darkness the
world would label and never give one a chance to grow and be all that God
wanted when He alone knows the circumstances how I got here; and what I was
pulled through until I personally met Jesus
We
are all broken people; some just need to fall and land harder than others to
feel it; and when they do sometimes it takes even more if ever for them to meet
Jesus in love and redemption for the everlasting peace and eternal life.
So thank
you Lord, for this mind maze and where all this comes from. It is truly beyond me. I pray I never ever lose grip of you and
your promises now that you have my full attention.
Be
with all my brothers and sisters in Christ; shaking them up if necessary;
leading them where your will has the greatest needs and desires. Lead me!
For
those who want to know more about Gods 7 promises; you can start by going here.
1. Philippians 4:19 (Gods promise He will supply all our
needs)
2. 2 Corinthians
12:9, Ephesians 2:8 and Romans 5:2 (Gods
promise that His Grace is sufficient for us)
3. 1 Corinthians
10:13, Jude 24 and Daniel 6:16 (Gods
promise that we will not be overtaken by temptation; God will deliver us)
4. Acts 2:32, 1
Corinthians 15:3-4 and 1 Corinthians 15:57 (Gods proof and promise of Victory
over death)
5. Romans 8:28
(God promises all things work together for good for those who love and serve
Him faithfully)
6. Mark 16:16
and Acts 2:38 (Gods promise that those who believe in Jesus and are baptized
for the forgiveness of sins will be saved)
7. John 10:27,28
(God’s promise of eternal life)
For me I will continue to be the soul He has
always allowed me to be. I will forever
love those I love without reason or expectation. I will forever need and desire and I will
forever always be me whatever that means for AlwaysMeKelly
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
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==== Mark 9:35==== (NIV) Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, “Anyone who wants to be first must be the very last, and the servant of all.”
Verse of the Month @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
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==== Psalm 8:5 ==== (NIV) 5 You have made them[a] a little lower than the angels[b]
and
crowned them[c] with glory and honor.
==== Genesis 1:26-27 ====
(NIV) 26 Then
God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may
rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and
all the wild animals,[a] and over all the creatures that move along
the ground.” 27 So
God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created
them; male and female he created them.
==== 2 Corinthians 10:5 ==== (NIV) 5 We demolish arguments and every
pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take
captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
==== Isaiah 26:3 ==== (AMP) 3 “You will keep in [a]perfect and constant peace the one
whose mind is steadfast [that is, committed and focused on You—in both [b]inclination and character], Because he
trusts and takes refuge in You [with hope and confident expectation].
==== Isaiah 26:3 ==== (MSG) Stretch the Borders of Life
26 1-6 At that time, this song will be sung in the country of Judah:
We have a strong city, Salvation City, built and fortified
with salvation.
Throw wide the gates so good and true people can enter.
People with their minds set on you, you keep completely whole,
Steady on their feet, because they keep at it and don’t quit.
Depend on God and keep at
it because in the Lord
God you have a sure thing.
Those who lived high and mighty he knocked off their
high horse. He used the city built on
the hill as fill for the marshes. All
the exploited and outcast peoples build their lives on the reclaimed land.
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Date: 01/28/2020
Tuesday
Cruising with Kelly
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank
you Lord for this new day; thank you for the ability to get back up. Even after humbly walking in humility. Be it self-inflicted or at the hands, feet
and words of others.
Be
it fun heartwarming fun live streaming a concert not realizing until after just
how loud you were singing; to those times when we are taken down to our knees
in crises and turmoil.
I am
thankful for you Jesus; the one, the way, who sustains me in strength and
courage to just keep trying to do the best I can and shake off what really does
not matter. Who picks me back up
setting me upright when I start going sideways and hold onto what this world
says or does according to their beliefs or expertise.
Lord,
as I was reading prayer requests this morning again; I realize as a parent for
those struggling with needs and assistance that only you can give. Just how much we are in common yet so very
different.
We
all can so eagerly give advice; and some can justify being leaders of support
groups for many different things; or even certified and recognized
academically. Noting even though all
that is very important and all the advice can be helpful one way or the
other.
The best thing I can do; is to just let our
brothers and sisters know. They are not
alone in their journey.
No
matter how hard we battle with whatever is occurring with, for or to our
children young or old. We must grasp
onto the faith we say we have and know it is not if God will intervene; but it
is when!
That
when may not be with the result we ever imagined; or even in our timing. However, nothing goes through your hands;
knowing in the end, you Father God already have the result in mind.
That
can be a bittersweet pill to swallow; especially when everything others and we
do that are near us have such huge impacts.
We are not given life to live as if we are dying. We were not created to just be here
reflecting suffering.
So
what my grammar is improper; my words have misspellings at times; I sing to
loud and embarrass myself.
Lord
may it be your words that flow from our souls; your will that reveals our steps
and actions. May we cling to you with
authority knowing you are the way, the will and the purpose that gives true
life.
Be
with those who are suffering from the loss of loved one’s always!
It
does not matter if it is from misfortune; bad choices or even suicide. Be with all of us in the here and now who
believe in you. Be our strength revealing
all the mercy and grace you bless us daily through this life. Be with our loved ones in desperate need of
you.
Thank
you for this day Lord; may we truly seek you in everything we are allowed to
encounter. May we truly understand who
we are in you; for you and with you!
May we be even the smallest glimmer of hope and light even when we are
surrounded by things hard and breaking us down; far beyond our control. May we truly understand you are beyond
beyond! There is none greater.
No matter
where it makes sense or does not. You
Jesus are what matters to live.
Thank
you for this day; thank you for this mind maze and the ability to even in
humility sometimes just laugh at myself.
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
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==== John 4:24==== (NIV) God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.”
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==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
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==== Matthew 28:20 ==== (NIV) 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I
am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
==== Psalm
139:1-4 ==== (NIV)
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 You have searched me, Lord, and you
know me. 2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways. 4 Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely.
you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways. 4 Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely.
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Date: 01/27/2020 Monday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/u1yVCeXYya4 “Someone You Loved” @ Lewis Capaldi
https://youtu.be/R0PCblOjOxg “You’re Gonna Be Ok” @ Jen Johnson
https://youtu.be/SZ-fghqc8Oo “From the Inside Out” @ Hillsong
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank
you, Father, for this day
I will never be able to really explain how this mind is wired and the tunes
that come to life or those that have a story to tell. However, As I get up and run out the door, please be with me in all my
thoughts all my actions and all that I speak. Reflecting all that you
really are not just some image of this iron hand ready to slam down on those
who foolishly cannot get out of their own way of troubles.
For me for awhile I thought I was
someone loved; remembering the safest way to move forward in life is put those
pictures back in the vault where they belong.
You’re gonna be okay no matter what.
As my main goal in whatever life I have left is to be consumed from the
inside out. For this and all that is
good; there are sacrifices that will always have a sting leading the way to
glory. So, unless the good Lord ever changes life; it
is what it is. No matter what.
As I in my flurry jump up run around run
out the door, do what I do come back and try to give as much as me as I can; hoping
to make a difference and forgetting me.
You are with me even then; when I make a mess getting caught up in fallacies. I will never stop dreaming; never stop loving
never stop all that you connect me with Jesus.
Guide all my steps, through your will,
with all the new changes upon this new company acquisition and us and all that
is to come and me.
Protect and heal all I am connected;
reflect the light out of all the darkness this world is over-shadowed; in which
the darkness consumes more and more.
Thank you for my yesterday’s and any tomorrows
I may have. Thank you for right here and now.
Please heal and
bring comfort to all those left behind with the sudden crash in California
leaving the families of Kobe Bryant, Gianna Bryant, John Antobelli, Keri Antobelli,
Alyssa Altobelli, Christina Hauser, Sarah Chester, Payton Chester, and Ara
Zobayan.
May their souls
rest in peace with you Lord.
While on the subject of resting here is a link to a worthy cause for
families that are what many consider the least of these.
People have no beds no furniture they have a building that they called her
home if they’re lucky but the one positive thing is that they’re trying to make
and grow forward to trying to make their way. But this SHP is an organization
that builds beds for the most needy and it’s kind of like a lotto I guess who
gets them; but you can check it out it’s nationwide.
Do you want to do something good for the community tap in volunteer or
donate do what you can for sleep in heavenly peace. https://www.shpbeds.org/
This is a nationwide and local
outreach that desperately needs awareness, volunteers, donations and
prayers. Our children or the future of
this country.
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
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==== Ephesians 6:12-13==== (NIV) For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
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==== John 14:1-2 ==== (NIV) Jesus Comforts His Disciples
14 “Do not
let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe
also in me. 2 My Father’s house has many rooms; if that
were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for
you?
==== Proverbs 3:5-6 ==== (NIV) 5 Trust
in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in
all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.[a]
==== Matthew 24 ==== (NIV)
The Destruction of the Temple and Signs of the End Times
24 Jesus left the temple and was walking away when his disciples came up to him to call his attention to its buildings. 2 “Do you see all these things?” he asked. “Truly I tell you, not one stone here will be left on another; every one will be thrown down.”
3 As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. “Tell us,” they said, “when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?”
4 Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. 5 For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many. 6 You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7 Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8 All these are the beginning of birth pains.
9 “Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10 At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11 and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12 Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13 but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.
15 “So when you see standing in the holy place ‘the abomination that causes desolation,’[a] spoken of through the prophet Daniel—let the reader understand— 16 then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. 17 Let no one on the housetop go down to take anything out of the house. 18 Let no one in the field go back to get their cloak. 19 How dreadful it will be in those days for pregnant women and nursing mothers! 20 Pray that your flight will not take place in winter or on the Sabbath. 21 For then there will be great distress, unequaled from the beginning of the world until now—and never to be equaled again.
22 “If those days had not been cut short, no one would survive, but for the sake of the elect those days will be shortened. 23 At that time if anyone says to you, ‘Look, here is the Messiah!’ or, ‘There he is!’ do not believe it. 24 For false messiahs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect. 25 See, I have told you ahead of time.
26 “So if anyone tells you, ‘There he is, out in the wilderness,’ do not go out; or, ‘Here he is, in the inner rooms,’ do not believe it. 27 For as lightning that comes from the east is visible even in the west, so will be the coming of the Son of Man. 28 Wherever there is a carcass, there the vultures will gather.
29 “Immediately after the distress of those days
“‘the sun will be darkened,
and the moon will not give its light;
the stars will fall from the sky,
and the heavenly bodies will be shaken.’[b]
30 “Then will appear the sign of the Son of Man in heaven. And then all the peoples of the earth[c] will mourn when they see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven, with power and great glory.[d] 31 And he will send his angels with a loud trumpet call, and they will gather his elect from the four winds, from one end of the heavens to the other.
32 “Now learn this lesson from the fig tree: As soon as its twigs get tender and its leaves come out, you know that summer is near. 33 Even so, when you see all these things, you know that it[e] is near, right at the door. 34 Truly I tell you, this generation will certainly not pass away until all these things have happened. 35 Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.
The Day and Hour Unknown
36 “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son,[f] but only the Father. 37 As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. 38 For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark; 39 and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. 40 Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left. 41 Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left.
42 “Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. 43 But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. 44 So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.
45 “Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom the
master has put in charge of the servants in his household to give them their
food at the proper time? 46 It will be good for that servant
whose master finds him doing so when he returns. 47 Truly I
tell you, he will put him in charge of all his possessions. 48 But
suppose that servant is wicked and says to himself, ‘My master is staying away
a long time,’ 49 and he then begins to beat his fellow servants
and to eat and drink with drunkards. 50 The master of that
servant will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour he is not
aware of. 51 He will cut him to pieces and assign him a place
with the hypocrites, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.
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Date: 01/26/2020 Sunday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/WpYeekQkAdc “Where Is The Love?” @ The Black-Eyed Peas
https://youtu.be/CPKyTY71iRM “There Will Be A Day” @ Jeremy Camp
https://youtu.be/m0GFRRbve1g “Starts With Me” @ TobyMac ft. Aaron Cole
https://youtu.be/qLn5r4aCz8s “Speak Life” @ TobyMac
https://youtu.be/44l9PRI4c2M “Love Broke Thru” @ TobyMac
https://youtu.be/nzBFv3Bzn3o “I Will Rise” @ Chris Tomlin
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for this day and for safe travels with the girls running to Orlando and back yesterday. Not that I have any doubts; however, we know lately there have been more than enough vehicle issues not to mention just traveling on the roads now days here well; too many out nowhere accidents have occurred.
Thank you for this day allowing me back up.
Thank you for all the other days you have blessed me with traveling mercies.
Thank you for the smiles on the little one’s face as we road the rides together or the memory where she was going to squeeze my arm off on the mummy roller coaster at the park yesterday and even me going back and riding the transformers ride with her because she could not get enough.
For those brief seconds in time; where such little hearts are able to forget about the sting of life. It is not easy for anyone Jesus. For the smile erasing the inner struggle, this baby has knowing her father was murdered months ago and her mother lives with high anxiety. Such a sweet gift you give of life; yet so often, the layers and brokenness come so early.
Me trying to be stability and love even on my most weary days that are sometimes so very hard to keep going. With my own journey of struggles for purpose and just to matter.
It is the moments we are gifted with, as today that truly matter; It truly is the little things that matter.
Lord thank you for giving our brothers and sisters in Christ the courage and strength for your promise to get back up again. Shining that light of hope in the darkest of times.
Through all the torment and brokenness of this world; you did not bring us life to be lost in what is temporary. May we always boldly draw from your strength Jesus!
Even when we know that those, we love the most are distracted and lost; when we know no amount of money, fighting, or love from our within, can change those who are losing their way or lost.
They have to want it; they have to fight it with you. We are just the extra allowed to help make even a little bit of difference for love.
Jesus, because you know our souls and our hearts better than anything else; no amount of anything here will change what you have predestined for your greatness.
May we learn to love, forgive and live in your justice; but more importantly, your healing.
We are not defined by this world Lord!
If only we could understand our worth through you alone.
I think of the many beautiful beings Father that you have allowed me to be come part their journey and they mine. Even my own blood caught up struggling with a place in this world. I will never get why some can go through the storms and live in straight hell and back and make it to the other side with you Jesus; and others well just can’t.
Please be deep within all I care for all I am connected; giving them strength and courage to find your light and if they cannot; teach them how to be the light for those they circle up with.
The power of your blood alone Jesus; is the only cleanser that will ever purify all that is stained and built up with layers of this world.
Be with me; be with us, to our right; to our left; above and below and may your spirit live deeply within us.
Guard and protect us and our children from the liars, abusers and users of this world. Teach our up and comings to find the strength within and not from what this world says it will take.
We all have a story; we all have dreams and desire. Use us Lord surrounding us up by the love and guidance of your will not our own.
Thank you for the blessings and lessons of this world and humanity Jesus. May all the roads I ever travel be with you by my side; leading back to the eternal promise land in hope and love.
Author Unknown “You don’t fall in love with a body; you fall in love with a soul. And once in love with a soul, everything about that body becomes beautiful.”
I wish I had originally wrote this as it is deep within my being. Perhaps that is why there are just some you will connect in the distance in the wind through the atmosphere of Gods promise that you will ever have enough gratitude or love for.
As the light that shines brightly through their soul alone is the love that flows through the veins that sustain you. There is never a need greater that the well being for that soul and abundant faith God will bless them for who they are and never by what they do, or the world tries to make them. To just breathe in the essence of Jesus they carry you can never get enough fulfilled, so you give it all back to the Father in faith of the love that bled in Calvary. Knowing greater things are yet to come but the best is what has been that will never be relived or taken away from that which is deep within.
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==== JAMES 4:10==== (NIV) Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
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16 Just then a man came up to Jesus and asked, “Teacher,
what good thing must I do to get eternal life?” 17 “Why
do you ask me about what is good?” Jesus replied. “There is only One who is
good. If you want to enter life, keep the commandments.”
18 “Which
ones?” he inquired.
Jesus
replied, “‘You shall not murder, you shall not commit adultery, you shall not
steal, you shall not give false testimony, 19 honor your
father and mother,’[a] and
‘love your neighbor as yourself.’[b]”
20 “All
these I have kept,” the young man said. “What do I still lack?”
21 Jesus
answered, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the
poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” 22 When the young man heard this, he went away sad, because
he had great wealth.
23 Then
Jesus said to his disciples, “Truly I tell you, it is hard for someone who is
rich to enter the kingdom of heaven. 24 Again I tell
you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for
someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.”
25 When
the disciples heard this, they were greatly astonished and asked, “Who then can
be saved?” 26 Jesus
looked at them and said, “With man
this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
27 Peter
answered him, “We have left everything to follow you! What then will there be
for us?”
28 Jesus
said to them, “Truly I tell you, at the renewal of all things, when the Son of
Man sits on his glorious throne, you who have followed me will also sit on
twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel.
29 And
everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife[c] or
children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will
inherit eternal life. 30 But
many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.
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So besides the distractions of this day to day I cannot believe I never posted about my adventure over to Rock The Universe. Partly because I was so dang tired; Up at 4am as most days and did the shuffle of getting things done. Then a two hour ride over only because of traffic. We got in about 4pm and wandered for about an hour.
Somehow, I volunteered to try to do a Diverse Citizens Fan club meet up for anyone that wanted to do a group photo. I was able to meet with a super nice couple and their son. Then we my daughter and sidekick took off for some rides. I think I mentioned it the best memory of my kiddo holding on to my arm for dear life.
It was a bit chilly once the sun went down; but so worth it to see TobyMac and the Diverse City band come out on stage. I really was not sure what to expect. After such a great lost of his first born child that passed recently. However, I was beyond blessed, humbled and encouraged by Toby’s strength and faith in God. So many of us would be a mess; start masking the pain using even if we are walking the walk.
So many are praying for the McKeehan family. It is never easy to lose loved ones or even deal with the choices others make. Much less when you truly have to sneak around just to have a piece of normalcy. So when your life is on display well you either dig in or fight hard for what you believe and all the years you are out there or quit.
I like the many that were able to be there for his show to see the realness, willingness to fight keeping what living in faith means fully alive; even when it means the elements are beyond this world of life and death.
One of the many blessings since I started taking my walk in faith in 95 was when I was introduced to Toby’s music through fellow believers from DC Talk to my number one Toby and the Diverse City Band.
My prayers for eternity that they all be blessed beyond this world and their families no matter where they are what they do are covered by the blood and promise of Jesus Christ. Just as I would and do for my own family and connections.
Anyway, my nonstop running distracted me from actually sharing a refreshing night of Gods promise and all we are meant to be on display. While jumping around because I cannot be still when music plays. I did live feed a little bit before my hands froze and my battery died out.
ROCK THE UNIVERSE 2020 TobyMac & the Diverse City Band a couple of snippets enjoy!
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2720822891343523/?t=2
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2720864418006037/?t=5
