5.30.2023_5.31.2023-May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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 Tuesday May 30th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Psalm 56:4 NIV @Biblegateway.com

    In God, whose word I praise—
in God I trust and am not afraid.
    What can mere mortals do to me?

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Psalm 56:4 in all English translations

 

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 Blessing Offor -Rolling

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Sitting here at the airport waiting for my first flight thinking of reality and the impact of you gone brother. And how it feels like I was supposed to be here in the north while everyone else is somewhere else.    Beyond blessed I was able to be with my son while we got the news of your finding your eternal destiny.   Even if it is heart breaking to know you are no longer a call away.    Or that the fact this year was the last year we will meet up laugh and joke and celebrate one more year together.

 

 

We have been blessed and we know it was just a matter of time and well until we meet again, I pray peace for your soul and healing brother.  Even if it was all so sudden.

 

So, while I sit waiting for my flight I will be on and off with thoughts of this day and hopefully keep it together along the way.    For now, I need to do a couple other things.

 

Wednesday May 31st, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

¹⁶ For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. ¹⁷ After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever.

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 TobyMac - Heart Of My Beat (Audio)

 Evvie McKinney - Satisfied (Lyric Video) ft. Dante Bowe

 Stronghold Lyrics | Chris Tomlin

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

 

Well, I never made it back yesterday, the day at airports traveling was maddening and by the time I got home after getting to my car and having to get jump cause the battery was dead then driving an hour home.   I was beyond spent.   But today I got back up and pushed through.  Not because I must; but because I must.  

 

I am the baby sister of a gentle giant just two years older the me and not that old that suddenly took ill and we lost him.  Every photo I look at every kind word I read I just want to bawl my eyes out.

 

I have learned early on I need to keep pouring out for others to get past my own pain.   Trust me, I melt and barely hold it together when dear souls offer me anything.   I greatly appreciate all my brothers and sisters in this time of sorrow.

 

 

 

And not just by blood but the soul that everyone has a crazy loving story of all he would do for anyone in a heartbeat.

 

I know it’s all in God’s timing and I am grateful he did not suffer.  But this shockwave will have tremors for the rest of my days.

 

Every breath I am allowed is because you give it to me Father of the universe.   It does not matter what anyone else believes in or for.    I know when you say its time to not get back up, we listen.

 

I pray for the remaining days for all who are left behind they know who you are and see the blessings even through the pain.

 

May I always remember to be satisfied and remember if it is not from you, they cannot take it.    May I know the difference as I am dodging and twisting and turning in the shifting hills and valleys we travel.

 

You know all things and I know Karma, Jesus, or whatever anyone wants to label it.  Always comes full cycle.     Father, I am not strong, but I must keep going until you tell me to stop.

 

Please break the strong holds of all I am blessed to connect.   Lead me the way I am supposed to go and if your will is not what I think it should be.    Show me Jesus!

 

It is all your timing.  I cannot force change on anyone good, bad or indifferent.  But you can!

 

All you have allowed to be precious.  Lord, may they know it through you not all the temporal nonsense.

 

I pray everyone loves those they are given and let go of all the little thorns that may prick us along the way of something they say or do that doesn’t fit our mold.

 

Because just like that all we are, all we have, all we are blessed to know can be gone in the blink of an eye and will never be again.

 

I don’t know what tomorrow will be for me; but I know there is a huge, shattered piece of me that is forever lost as I go through these next days.    I know that my brother loved with all he had anyone he let in.   And he will be missed by everyone.     As I think about such a priceless loss; I cannot imagine God what you felt letting the one and only son give all he was for a world that will never fully understand the gravity of sacrifice.

 

Desperately needing you now

5.27.2023_May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Saturday May 27th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Acts 20:24 NIV @Biblegateway.com

²⁴ However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.

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Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace) [Official Lyric Video] - Hillsong Worship

Do It Again | Live | Elevation Worship

 Blessing Offor - Believe (Lyric Video)

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

First, thank you for another day.   As I sit here in NY with family, I have not seen in a long minute with heaviness on my heart I wish on no one.   It has been one hell of a month for May.    As my brother lays in ICU and we pray he is given more time.   Just less than 2 weeks ago visiting and getting one big hug with heartfelt hugs and love as he said goodbye to go back home.    Not even a week later he had a vessel burst during his sleep and he started bleeding to death.    And has been up until yesterday on the ventator.  

 

Love those you care about well and often because no one knows when you will not get a chance to do so again.    They finally took him off the machine and he woke up from the induced sleep loopy as heck and asking for ice-cream and a knife so he could free himself and get out of the hospital.   He is still in harms way.   Fair is not even considered for him and his wife.  Both widowers and found each other.   Here they are with everything in time and Gods hands.

 

Prayer changes everything and I so hope that he is with it enough to say his own prayers and it is for more time.   We know everyone else who knows and loves him have been and were so very blessed to even see a splice of one with him waking again and being taken off the machine.

Thinking about what we do to our bodies and how love is so blind I our youth we put so into our bodies only to not realize when we live hard, we suffer later and sometimes slowly die hard.

 

I watched so many learn those terms and although I am far from an angel, I can assure you being blessed to not endure half of the things other around me end up with is beyond words.

 

I am that kid who riding home from a party 4 days before my 15^th birthday was ejected from a van that rolled over because the driver was drunk driving.   Waking up sliding down the pavement and turning around seeing the wheels spinning in the air wondering what happened.    Knowing how lucky I was then looking back today.   There was a boat motor in the van that could have done some major damage.   Not to mention on a highway.   God has always had my back in my ignorant choices and during all the times things were done to me or around me because I existed.

I know my brother has also been blessed, but I am calling out one more time and it has been a rough- couple-weeks, to allow him to make it home with his wife.   But same thing with our children who suffer with addictions and the inability to cope and fight forward always seeing the darkness as their friends.    May Gods will be done because everything that I am everything I am connected belongs to HIM!

May has been that roller coaster that we all get to ride.    And none of it is in my control but that to believe.    He has made so many ways I know He will continue to do it again.   For our daughters, our sons, our brothers, sisters, friends and all those we care in abundance about.

 

No matter how knotted our heart strings get entangled.   No matter how many things we collect to feel like we really have something.    Only God matters to truly know what we were allowed to be created for.

Living life to the fullest in love, with love, for love!     No where were we ever supposed to rob innocence and produce hate.   No never was it written to be easy or free or we allow anyone to be entitled or victims.

 

The victim mentality drives me crazy, and I guess that is why I sometimes find it hard to write.  When I am feeling my heart breaking for people that I adore.  I just cannot.

 

There is no doubt my wild hairs sometimes still come out or my goofy self-laughs over the silliest situations.   But it seems allot more I am crying.   

I had planned this trip to see my son who I have not for almost a year.   And I have been torn to cancel this trip and go sit by the side of an ICU bed with no where to really stay and no be of any use.     Much less not have time off work.   My time will come that I will be back to NC very soon.   For now, I needed to see my first born.  And have been blessed to spend time this round with some very dear friends that it has been a very long time to just sit and laugh.

I am glad they are!!!

I am glad I have been blessed that like yesterday 40 years can go by yet we can pick up where we leave off every single time. 

I don’t know with tomorrow will be.  If it will be.  I can only put my faith in what I do not see or know and believe the same breeze that blows in the wind bringing so much life.    So is the Jesus who bled down that cross and poured into what is now a very angry earth.

My love will always be.  If I have allowed anyone within arm’s reach.  I love and breathe with all I got.   All that they may never see.   It is what it is until it is not.    To be loved from the inside out.   While trying to understand know what that feels like.

 

One day

For now, my prayers and my heart beats for all that I know I do not deserve.   But who really does?

There is nothing anyone can do that deserves the blessing of life that Christ gave.

Is it not better to have loved and lost then never knowing love at all!   I believe, then, now and always.  Nothing will or can change that.   Even when it hurts.

Even when others do not understand.

Jesus, please send your help.  Not just or me and the wave I am riding for my family or even that of me.    For all your creation.    The earth cries out.    Please your will be done.  

Thank you for taking me back and reminding me of days gone by.   Thank you for what I missed and what I will miss.   May the beauty in the moments of life be tattooed on our souls.

 

As you hold and mold it in love, for love, with love. 

Guide and protect us from ourselves.   Guide and protect our children who are the future of what is currently spinning out of control.

Your love breathes life into all it touches.

Thank you!

As I find my footsteps crossing the ocean or spinning in circles.  Thank you, Jesus, for never letting me go and always showing me why I believe.

And while the heaviness tries to drown us out.  Shine brighter than ever before Abba… light our paths or the waves we ride on to what will at some point be just another inch to the short lives of the dash between our stamp in and the post mark back out.

5.15.2023_May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday May 15th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Ecclesiastes 11:5 NIV @Biblegateway.com

As you do not know the path of the wind,
    or how the body is formed^[a] in a mother’s womb,
so you cannot understand the work of God,
    the Maker of all things.

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Footnotes

1. Ecclesiastes 11:5 Or know how life (or the spirit) / enters the body being formed

Ecclesiastes 11:5 in all English translations

 

 

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Koryn Hawthorne - Broken Pieces (Official Audio) Lyrics

 

Lauren Daigle -You Say

 

TobyMac -Found

 

Ever Be Live - Bethel Music/We Will Not Be Shaken (Lyric Video)

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Good morning and prayerfully a blessed week.  Happy is all relative!

Realizing this morning getting up thinking about my youngest I am reminded as soon as going to the daily devotional.  There will always be something in this world that will make you fail like a failure, but it is all lies.   We don’t know which way the wind will truly blow or give us life and we cannot control the lives of others no matter how much good you want for them.  They have to want it and more importantly believe in themselves first.

When your child or partner or spouse or anyone close to you is going through IT.   And they cannot see the light or reason to purpose changes within and for themselves.     No can change that but them.   No matter how much it hurts.

But that does not stop the lies stating it’s because you were not good enough as a person, as a spouse, as a parent.   We all learn early on watching babies and how stubborn they can be when you tell them no over and over until they finally get it.

As we progress through life sometimes, we never lose that baby like lost don’t understand until it hits us like  a rock hopefully; that we get it.

Sometimes we never get it.    Sometimes it is just easier to stay in the rut because we have no truth to know we are made for so much more.

I myself will never say I get it!   Not when it comes to why things happen the way they do or the whole thing how can that be that is not anything I did.  Or why good people suffer, and evil seems to flourish at times.

 

Father of all the universes you know my heart.   You are how and why I am able to just breathe.  Be with every connection and heart string I am entangled.

May you give your strength to those at their lowest right now.

May you give your healing to the sick and broken.

May you direct our steps and allow the vision we see the future ahead with your promise and hope.  Remove the scales from our hearts, the doubt and lies that the darkness trying to consume us screams.

May the purpose and plan be yours alone and drive the blinding light to all that is good.

We all get lost Lord.  

I know we all get there in our own time and along the way we are the biggest wreck it ralph we could ever be to ourselves, to our loved ones.

 

Lord you too suffered the loss of the one and only you sent to save this fallen world.  

If only we could be like the birds in the sky.  Beautifully floating amongst all the waves of uncertainty yet never stopping until it is your time to do so.

Not a care in the world or am I just dreaming.   Not that it matters Jesus.   I can sit and tap out all that breaks my heart, or all that sends me into such joy and excitement.    All that sends me into being no different than the rest of the world or all that fills this soul.

If only ever extension of me knew you as personally as God intended.  Even I sometimes forget.   Holding on loosely while clinging to all that can or ever will be even if we don’t know it.

Lord, may I stop seeing the fall and may it change the future.  But if I cannot, or if it is not meant to be.  Give me strength to get back up when that fall comes~

5.12.2023_May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Friday May 12th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Proverbs 31:10, 27-28 NIV @Biblegateway.com

Epilogue: The Wife of Noble Character

^10 [a]A wife of noble character who can find?
    She is worth far more than rubies.

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 Proverbs 31:10, 27-28 The Message (MSG) @Biblegateway.com

Hymn to a Good Wife

^10-31 A good woman is hard to find,
    and worth far more than diamonds.
Her husband trusts her without reserve,
    and never has reason to regret it.
Never spiteful, she treats him generously
    all her life long.
She shops around for the best yarns and cottons,
    and enjoys knitting and sewing.
She’s like a trading ship that sails to faraway places
    and brings back exotic surprises.
She’s up before dawn, preparing breakfast
    for her family and organizing her day.
She looks over a field and buys it,
    then, with money she’s put aside, plants a garden.
First thing in the morning, she dresses for work,
    rolls up her sleeves, eager to get started.
She senses the worth of her work,
    is in no hurry to call it quits for the day.
She’s skilled in the crafts of home and hearth,
    diligent in homemaking.
She’s quick to assist anyone in need,
    reaches out to help the poor.
She doesn’t worry about her family when it snows;
    their winter clothes are all mended and ready to wear.
She makes her own clothing,
    and dresses in colorful linens and silks.
Her husband is greatly respected
    when he deliberates with the city fathers.
She designs gowns and sells them,
    brings the sweaters she knits to the dress shops.
Her clothes are well-made and elegant,
    and she always faces tomorrow with a smile.
When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say,
    and she always says it kindly.
She keeps an eye on everyone in her household,
    and keeps them all busy and productive.
Her children respect and bless her;
    her husband joins in with words of praise:
“Many women have done wonderful things,
    but you’ve outclassed them all!”
Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades.
    The woman to be admired and praised
    is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God.
Give her everything she deserves!
    Adorn her life with praises!

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FEAR IS NOT MY FUTURE BY Kirk Franklin and Maverick City Music

 

I Thank God - Maverick City Music x UPPERROOM (Lyrics)

 

Held -Natalie Grant

 

Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) - HillSong United

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Well then, finally broke down and got a laptop and tonight I am trying it out while finally walking away from my desk and being able to do a little mind maze release and triggered who was really writing this information if we think with the 20^th century mindset.    Interpretation is everything and I thank God, he calls me his own, so I don’t drown in the lost expectations that are seen with this reading.

A good women or man is one filled with respect to oneself and others.  One that loves beyond all expectations and stay pure, true and committed even in the hardest felt storms.

This new basic laptop is okay gotta get used to I think its windows 11.   I know I went from serious to squirrel, as I have to laugh when I am calling myself out.   But yeah, been in IT for a very long time and always working off IOS driven windows PCs.   I work off Mac on the weekends I serve in the tech booth for audio and pro presentations.  I was just saying to someone I have old machines from window’s 95 up.   Work we are in windows 16 and my old desktop 8 upgraded to 10   and now 11.  

 

Yeah, now I have a chore to go through and finally wipe them and donate or sell them.   In any case my goal is to be more mobile and really start simplifying and making the ability to just live life and still be connected. 

Life is far to short to live in fear or stay paralyzed in a world that sees you as invisible unless you chase all that is meaningless after 5 minutes.

I so ran out of road a long time ago and with that beyond blessed to know to whom I belong.   Through all the rushing worlds and waters and all that has left me barely breathing.   There will always be an opportunity to look back and see the blessings and all that would of, should of, and could of and that which did.

No one is promised tomorrow so what is the legacy you will leave.   In all honesty I don’t really care what others think.    Do I love many? Oh yeah… some deep down the depths of this soul that I have been blessed to have held tightly by the king of kings, creator or all things.    But when it comes down to all the lessons and messages, I have been allowed to walk away with from infancy to now.  Many I am beyond blessed even on the days I cannot get back up.

Maybe this is what it means to acknowledge being held!   Watching others slow fade into a world they will never come back all the while for some reason God shows favor to you even when it might hurt.    Just drifting away or sitting on that static docking station in the mind-maze defending all the spliced wires while trying to remain alive and have enough spark to shine for others while the days you have come past just about took all you have.

Life Ain’t easy nor was it ever said it would be.  Old school or new innovative Big Gods there is not; only just one who was and always will be.   Jesus Christ son of God, Holy Spirit blood of blood, healer of all things and truth and way of eternity.

Nothing can stop you then or now.

So, as I slow drift in my own world and check out this new toy with a cat stretched across my legs and a dog at my side.   Kids in the other room and my heart strings wandering in the web of what should not be.   I know where I am and where I will be.   Thank you for all who feed this spirit.  May I someday return the blessing.

As for presentation, never judge a book by it’s cover and know interpretation is one of the many choices and freedoms we are blessed to have.   If you don’t understand dive in; ask, challenge and own those that you make.

 

Father God Thank you~

 

 

5.8.2023_May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday May 8th, 2023

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Colossians 4:5-6 NIV @Biblegateway.com

⁵ Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. ⁶ Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.

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New Life Christian Church -Spring Hill 5-7-2023

 

 

Cody Carnes – Nothing Else (Live at Passion Conference)

 

Positioned For A Purpose | Steven Furtick

 

Rebecca Ferguson Teach me How to be Loved lyrics

 

Incubus - Drive (instrumental and lyrics by GoodLyrics)

 

Captain Official lyric Video - Hillsong UNITED

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Lord reading today’s verse of the day and realize without every paying attention just how often we violate the laws of love and speaking to everyone with grace.

 

Getting so caught up flying on assumption day by day until we are carried back to the throne and foot of the cross.   I am sorry Jesus for always just running on empty into the agenda that I think matters any day you allow me back up. 

 

I am Sorry and so very thankful for you and all you have given me every day I am allowed back up~

 

It is true, I do just want all of you which is why I guess I am who I am and where I am allowed to be.    May I be consumed by all you are inside out and outside in Jesus.    I cannot change that and would not if I could.   For the pain and sorrow of yesterday and the darkness up ahead; you alone shine brighter than ever before. 

 

It is written and never unchanged no matter what we erase out of the pages we write out daily.   Lord shine on down and if I am not seeing it; may I at least be reflective of your promise.

 

Tomorrow was never promised and yesterday is gone.   May I never forget just to live right here, right now in and with you.

 

Happy May, yes, I am late even though right on time.   Just not in the mood to just spawn unnecessary letters or anything that pours out of this mind maze just because I can.

 

I am not rushing anything even if I am that person that gets upset if I cannot be 15-minutes early.

Beyond grateful for the worship and messages all my brothers and sisters in Christ share on behalf of helping your kingdom grow or just teach what was written 2000 years plus ago.

 

We all get there in our own time you give Father.

We all have trials, tests, and all the good things.  May we live for the moment right here, right now and be thankful for all that has come to pass and all we are allowed to see up ahead not matter how much it may hurt.

 

Every single mess has a message to learn from and share for others to who may need the strength, courage and love your soul emanates.

 

Teach me how to be loved and shine your light, Jesus!

 

Time is fleeting and there is no hidden secrets about any of what was, or what will be.  It is just the in-betweens of reconciliations and abundance we miss.

 

Father watching all that is around me sometimes hurts beyond the ability to just breathe.  Yet your goodness is more than I deserve.    Thank you for allowing me to know you now and whatever tomorrow brings.   We are all just weeds in someone else’s garden.

 

May you be the gardener, Father God.   May you, the creator of all things potter of all beauty mold me and pull those which you wish to make a way as I am not skilled or equipped.   Father you are and always be. 

 

One more day, one more second, and billions of yesterday molecules trying its best to understand the purpose and plan you allow.

 

You are my very breath no matter who understands, or even cares kindly and as for those who do not.  Yours will be done!   I cannot, not then, not now.

 

All that I am, all that I can be.   Every connection you allow is yours Jesus.    Nothing more nothing less.      Breath into all of me, through me, for me to you…