Saturday, May 27, 2023

5.27.2023_May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Saturday May 27th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Acts 20:24 NIV @Biblegateway.com

24 However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.

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Acts 20:24 in all English translations

 

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com / Facebook, Local Worship, or other public venues.

 

Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace) [Official Lyric Video] - Hillsong Worship

Do It Again | Live | Elevation Worship

 Blessing Offor - Believe (Lyric Video)

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

First, thank you for another day.   As I sit here in NY with family, I have not seen in a long minute with heaviness on my heart I wish on no one.   It has been one hell of a month for May.    As my brother lays in ICU and we pray he is given more time.   Just less than 2 weeks ago visiting and getting one big hug with heartfelt hugs and love as he said goodbye to go back home.    Not even a week later he had a vessel burst during his sleep and he started bleeding to death.    And has been up until yesterday on the ventator.  

 

Love those you care about well and often because no one knows when you will not get a chance to do so again.    They finally took him off the machine and he woke up from the induced sleep loopy as heck and asking for ice-cream and a knife so he could free himself and get out of the hospital.   He is still in harms way.   Fair is not even considered for him and his wife.  Both widowers and found each other.   Here they are with everything in time and Gods hands.

 

Prayer changes everything and I so hope that he is with it enough to say his own prayers and it is for more time.   We know everyone else who knows and loves him have been and were so very blessed to even see a splice of one with him waking again and being taken off the machine.

Thinking about what we do to our bodies and how love is so blind I our youth we put so into our bodies only to not realize when we live hard, we suffer later and sometimes slowly die hard.

 

I watched so many learn those terms and although I am far from an angel, I can assure you being blessed to not endure half of the things other around me end up with is beyond words.

 

I am that kid who riding home from a party 4 days before my 15th birthday was ejected from a van that rolled over because the driver was drunk driving.   Waking up sliding down the pavement and turning around seeing the wheels spinning in the air wondering what happened.    Knowing how lucky I was then looking back today.   There was a boat motor in the van that could have done some major damage.   Not to mention on a highway.   God has always had my back in my ignorant choices and during all the times things were done to me or around me because I existed.

I know my brother has also been blessed, but I am calling out one more time and it has been a rough- couple-weeks, to allow him to make it home with his wife.   But same thing with our children who suffer with addictions and the inability to cope and fight forward always seeing the darkness as their friends.    May Gods will be done because everything that I am everything I am connected belongs to HIM!

May has been that roller coaster that we all get to ride.    And none of it is in my control but that to believe.    He has made so many ways I know He will continue to do it again.   For our daughters, our sons, our brothers, sisters, friends and all those we care in abundance about.

 

No matter how knotted our heart strings get entangled.   No matter how many things we collect to feel like we really have something.    Only God matters to truly know what we were allowed to be created for.

Living life to the fullest in love, with love, for love!     No where were we ever supposed to rob innocence and produce hate.   No never was it written to be easy or free or we allow anyone to be entitled or victims.

 

The victim mentality drives me crazy, and I guess that is why I sometimes find it hard to write.  When I am feeling my heart breaking for people that I adore.  I just cannot.

 

There is no doubt my wild hairs sometimes still come out or my goofy self-laughs over the silliest situations.   But it seems allot more I am crying.   

I had planned this trip to see my son who I have not for almost a year.   And I have been torn to cancel this trip and go sit by the side of an ICU bed with no where to really stay and no be of any use.     Much less not have time off work.   My time will come that I will be back to NC very soon.   For now, I needed to see my first born.  And have been blessed to spend time this round with some very dear friends that it has been a very long time to just sit and laugh.

I am glad they are!!!

I am glad I have been blessed that like yesterday 40 years can go by yet we can pick up where we leave off every single time. 

I don’t know with tomorrow will be.  If it will be.  I can only put my faith in what I do not see or know and believe the same breeze that blows in the wind bringing so much life.    So is the Jesus who bled down that cross and poured into what is now a very angry earth.

My love will always be.  If I have allowed anyone within arm’s reach.  I love and breathe with all I got.   All that they may never see.   It is what it is until it is not.    To be loved from the inside out.   While trying to understand know what that feels like.

 

One day

For now, my prayers and my heart beats for all that I know I do not deserve.   But who really does?

There is nothing anyone can do that deserves the blessing of life that Christ gave.

Is it not better to have loved and lost then never knowing love at all!   I believe, then, now and always.  Nothing will or can change that.   Even when it hurts.

Even when others do not understand.

Jesus, please send your help.  Not just or me and the wave I am riding for my family or even that of me.    For all your creation.    The earth cries out.    Please your will be done.  

Thank you for taking me back and reminding me of days gone by.   Thank you for what I missed and what I will miss.   May the beauty in the moments of life be tattooed on our souls.

 

As you hold and mold it in love, for love, with love. 

Guide and protect us from ourselves.   Guide and protect our children who are the future of what is currently spinning out of control.

Your love breathes life into all it touches.

Thank you!

As I find my footsteps crossing the ocean or spinning in circles.  Thank you, Jesus, for never letting me go and always showing me why I believe.

And while the heaviness tries to drown us out.  Shine brighter than ever before Abba… light our paths or the waves we ride on to what will at some point be just another inch to the short lives of the dash between our stamp in and the post mark back out.

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