Thursday, November 1, 2018

2018_November(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Lord you have given me words all my life;  sometimes then I knew not what to do with them,  sometimes I did not know what to do with the outcome of someone finding them.    There were times that all I have is the words that come that release the pains and problems of my life.   Then others where I had become so in love with you the words would never be enough.      Thank you for all these years to allow me to always have words.    Even now there is not a day that goes by where I don't awake with words,  someone will say something and words trigger songs, a memory or even a prayer need for someone or something.    I will never fully understand it; but my soul is full of you.     On the days as this morning you give me words then a message to share.    I pray all that ever is written, shows your love, mercy and grace.   Thank you Jesus
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11/30/2018

Psalm 32:8 (NIV)

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
    I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.

Luke 10:41-42 Version (NIV)


41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one.[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”

Philippians 3:20-21 (NIV)


20 But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21 who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.


Thank you, Jesus

For this day and for you’re ever consistent reminders.  Each time I am out there in that zone;    trying to push through and not spending enough time with you.    Thank you for your abundant love and mercy.   My your will and only your will be done.   Remind us Father who is in control and what we should be doing.     Lord as this month comes to a close and the new starts.   May we wake with you in mind, walk through out each day with you in mind and conversation; and never rest our heads without your word and council.      Please shine the light to those in need, lifting them for healing, stability, resolve, most importantly fill them with your heart Jesus not that of this world.   Amen

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11/29/2018
Dear Jesus
Thank you for this journey; it has not always been easy if ever.  It has not always been kind and you have taught me to show kindness.  It has not always been clear and I will always need you Father.     You have picked me up and carried me when I do not deserve anything.   Jesus Thank you for loving me, and all you came to save.    Please heal those including my own family members ill and hospitalized.   Heal the broken hearted and fill them with your peace and love.
Guide us all Father; Your will be done!  Please show us the way and allow your light to shine for all your children.   Amen
Isaiah 58:11 (NIV)   11 The Lord will guide you always;
    he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
    and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
    like a spring whose waters never fail.

Isaiah 40:11 (NIV)    

11 He tends his flock like a shepherd:
    He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
    he gently leads those that have young.
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11/28/2018
 
1 Peter 5:7 (NIV)7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Ephesians 3:16-19 (NIV)16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Psalm 107:21-22 (NIV)21 Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love
    and his wonderful deeds for mankind.
22 Let them sacrifice thank offerings
    and tell of his works with songs of joy
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Thank you Lord for this day;  Thank you for all I have been blessed with to date and all that may come in the future.   Forgive me father for my selfish reckless ways of life.    I ask for protection and guidance for myself and all those I am connected with.    Lord as I awoke today I remember the blessing you gave me back in 07.   You know the one where you fixed my heart from bleeding out into my lungs.  That I finally had to have fixed.   You know the one where I had everything in order and made arrangements and openly had the conversations with you; how it would be okay if you took me home then.   How it would all make sense to everyone else if I moved on once on that table.  How I came to terms that if you did not you fill me with purpose to continue your will and your mission.

Well Jesus Thank you for all the moments I have had since that day.    Thank you for all the prayer partners and warriors that never even knew me then and prayed me up through a 4 hour surgery and you had me back up hitting the floor 6 hours later.    Thank you for the laughter by the doctors when they said I tried to get up during the procedures.   Thank you for the spirit you fill me with that almost always keeps me fighting to not give up and not give in.      I am weary on some days Lord.  You know this.  Because like in 07 I daily still openly talk with you.   Or write you as now.    I have been truly blessed with minimal to no side effects.  Even though I know in your time like everything else I will need to be adjusted again.     I know Lord I do not look forward to what the doctors predict.  But I leave all that up to you.     You have carried me through so much brokenness in my life time, in so many ways.     I know you have this and me.  I know they say there is nothing anyone can ever do to separate us from your love and hold.  But Lord I pray I never ever lose site of you.   Since I found you or opened the door and let you in.    My life has never been the same.   Jesus you have filled me up with so much.  Even on my days that are a little rougher than others.    I never want to lose you or the peace you fill me with.

I know when it comes to humanity and me getting close Lord;  oh how I struggle.   You know my heart, my will, and what is deep in my soul.    Father your will be done.  Not my own.  You know I will be running fast just to avoid any potential failures.    Guide me and allow me to shine for all those I connect with in your will.      Lord for all the unspoken prayers today I lift them all to you.   In your mighty powerful beautiful name Jesus  Amen

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11/27/2018
Thank you Jesus for another new day;  No matter what I will always thank you!     I say this as there are moments in my life that my mind battles the unknown; where I seek growth, change and all that is good.   And the doubt, lack of trust which leads to faith of sorts to keep me awake at night.   Lord, it is your will not my own.  And when my own which is strong torments me with all the What If's of this world Lord.  Please come, Please calm me.   You and you alone are in charge.      Lord grant me rest in you and you alone.

Father I come before you lifting up those in need; need of survival; need to be released from their demons, need of peace and hope.   Surround them and all their loved one's in healing and your abundant favor.    I pray all your children come face down father; to you and you alone.   For I am no better or worse than any of my brothers and sisters.   May I be the first to bow at your feet and hear your will.   In Jesus mighty name I pray your favor on all I am connected with.  Swift justice for any doing harm and promise for all that are lost.  Amen


Colossians 3:15 New International Version (NIV)
15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.
Acts 9:18 New International Version (NIV)
18 Immediately, something like scales fell from Saul’s eyes, and he could see again. He got up and was baptized,
Revelation 19:3-6 New International Version (NIV)
3 And again they shouted:
“Hallelujah!
The smoke from her goes up for ever and ever.”
4 The twenty-four elders and the four living creatures fell down and worshiped God, who was seated on the throne. And they cried:
“Amen, Hallelujah!”
5 Then a voice came from the throne, saying:
“Praise our God,
all you his servants,
you who fear him,
both great and small!”
6 Then I heard what sounded like a great multitude, like the roar of rushing waters and like loud peals of thunder, shouting:
“Hallelujah!
For our Lord God Almighty reigns.
Psalm 100:4-5 New International Version (NIV)
4
Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
5
For the Lord is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.

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If only - is the world greatest mirage ever stuck between the oasis and desert of this thing called life~


We all want and need to believe in something. 

Even with the deepest faith there is a battle field of the mind while trying to build and hold onto all that is unseen

The longer you cannot grasp touch or physically lay eyes onto the dream you pray for

The more layers time fills the space of hope need and promises; with the reality of this unfair world. 


Clinging to Jesus and knowing the end result breeds Peace.  Acknowledgement and light!      All that is safe and tangible filling one with living water

Whilst you want so badly to do, all there is to fill and feed the blessed promise from the soul.

Yet the miles between and lack of communication filled with so much unknown; creating this chaos of the soul.

 Romance deeper than any king or queen has ever known; doing all one can do, and still not enough to make it come to life and see you.

This spiritual war and world so cruel; I could say what about me; what about you

Right now I’m just barely holding on to the lines that are trying to fill the atmosphere full of ruins


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11/26/2018
Psalm 118:24 New International Version (NIV)
24 The Lord has done it this very day;
let us rejoice today and be glad.
Psalm 116:17 New International Version (NIV)
17 will sacrifice a thank offering to you
and call on the name of the Lord.
Lord may we all come to know there is something to be thankful for in every moment of every day. May we never lose hope and those that have; may they be surrounded by love mercy and grace, chasing out any darkness they carry.
Lord it is not about us; but what you have already done for us long ago; and continue to do daily.
Many will not get that, many will feel there is nothing to smile about or feel joy about. Father this world is hard; sometimes we don't know how to get out of our own way and we become entangled forgetting who you are and the purpose you created each and everyone of us for.
There is always something to be thankful for Jesus and that is you. May we all see the world through your eyes, standing tall and steadfast with mercy and grace, shining brightly in the Love you so created humanity for.
As I cling to you; Jesus, Abba, Lord of all    Thank you~


Lord
may the power that created the world, the power that wakes us up another day, the power that fills us with the blessings, emotions, and life each day.   Fill us and guide us with obedience, kindness and the never ending desire to cling tightly to you.

I lift all who have pulled away from you Jesus to be overwhelmed with the need to give it all up and come back to you.    I lift all who have not surrendered Father; Salvation wash over them and they come to you.   I call out for all our brothers and sisters in Christ to shine brightly, love fiercely and be the hands and feet to all Jesus; not just those that fit the mold of their mind;    Protection and guidance for me as you know who I am, what I am made of, all that layers and all that you have washed away.    Lord thank you;  in Jesus might name Amen


Lord thank you.   Father just stop please.  I can’t do this on my own and certainly cannot in silence.
I am not sure what I was thinking.  Please heal all that is broken. Please lift all who are in need.  Please forgive me for any offense I have caused.  Lord you know I never wish any harm on anyone.
Lord as the song Do it again.  You have never failed me yet.  Please guide me as I am not sure what I need to do for the next steps in life.


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11/25/2018
Thank you Jesus for this day!   May I walk with you and never stray, and if I do forgive me father.   Your will be done in Your light, your path and most Importantly Your love!    

In this crazy world we live in where everything seems to matter and we forget you Abba are the Alpha the Omega; you are all things possible.  Jesus guide us.   Guide me.  During the storms, during the beauty; guide me Father.    

As I let the things that really do not matter under my skin;  as I look around for every thing the Marth in me tries to achieve and something or someone else is pulling it apart behind me.   Guide me father for what things truly matter for and with you.   For me, for my family, for all my connections and friends near and far.  Guide us!

For all that overwhelms us, ME~  Jesus thank you for allowing us so much to have such issues.   Help us get through; help me not continually be the Martha trying to make sure everything is in its place.  Yes, Lord it needs to be done; you allow us to have beautiful things.    But show me how to manage the messes of life that I become entangled with in all areas.  Not just the piles of things so disorganized that seem to never stay straight.  May the angels of accountability come walk side by side each being in my home that they step up and care for every single thing they are blessed with.   If not Lord seriously may it be removed from my home.      The simple things Lord you know overwhelm me at times as they do so many others.   I do not want to waste my blessings by letting things go;  I also do not want to spend my prayer time or quiet time in everyone else's mess Lord. 

Forgive me if that is selfish.   Lord I want to sit at your feet!


I lift those father who are suffering father.  The turmoil we carry within as we are so caught up in this world at times forgetting you have already taken this burden.    From the simplest of being Martha to the demons we think we need to fight on our own.    Jesus; please may all your children come together and shine brightly for those who just do not know how yet!  May those souls giving up; know they matter and know you.   Jesus as I spoke last night to my young sister in Christ.   We will never know how some souls are released to suicide and some are saved.

I get the pain Lord as I remember the day I tried to leave this earth as a child; and you sent my sister as I woke up in the hospital.     I get the pain Lord where people we thought we would be with once in life take their own life, or family take their life.  I know what it is like to learn one family member took another and then themselves.     Jesus I don't get why some can be saved and some cannot.    I pray no matter what for the families left behind.  I pray for peace for the souls of those that are gone. May they no longer be tormented.

Jesus Judgement is yours and only yours.

May the God that gets every single one of us up in the morning; fill us with His desires and love.  May Jesus Your will and salvation fill all of our loved one's.  May we all know and acknowledge your Mercy and Grace.

Lord I know not what this day ultimately will bring; but I pray for it to never be without your signs and wonders.   I thank you for the beauty and love you have filled me with; I thank you for never letting my heart turn to stone as so many things have taken pieces from me.   I thank you for the promise of new days with hope and love and more of you to shine.  Jesus thank you for loving me and allowing me to fall in love with you.
Amen




1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (NIV)
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
James 4:8 (NIV)
8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
Romans 15:13 (NIV)
13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Thank you father for this  Bless those who are  your hands and feet Jesus;  raise up salvation for all that are lost; protect all from the evil, plotters, and schemers that wish harm to many.   Jesus your will be doe

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11/24/2018
Dear Jesus Thank you for this day;  Thank you for the moments in time where I am so consumed by your beauty and love; I fight that I am awake.  Thank you for the endless possibilities and the visions of Hope in and with you!   Lord I lift all that are broken up to you;  Please father heal them;  No matter what Jesus your will be done.      without you Lord, we are nothing but a spec of dust waiting to be consumed by all that is dirty and made to think unworthy.     Father you are within us, beside us, above, below and side to side.    May all humanity feel you and your will!


Father you know my heart for all who are near and dear to me.    Please protect and guide the lost, please bring salvation, please heal the sick, please allow those who may become sick because of their own actions;  awaken and take care in you.   Please fill the lonely Lord.   They matter more than ever.  Please expose any evil intent and protect your children father.   

Lord I will never be able to do this on my own.   Thank you for not giving up on me.

Please fill our leaders of the nation and of the churches with your discernment.  Guide them in the right decisions for growth and prosperity in you and humanity.

Please lift, guide and protect my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ out there serving you, putting on shows to some but spreading your word.    Protect and guide all that are tied to them from any harm, or getting lost in the performances that the world consumes.   

Love on them all father; as you have loved on me and even more!
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Ephesians 5:20 Amplified Bible (AMP)
20 always giving thanks to God the Father for all things, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;
Psalm 118:1 Amplified Bible (AMP)
Thanksgiving for the Lord’s Saving Goodness.
118 O give thanks to the Lord, for He is good;
For His lovingkindness endures forever.
Psalm 89:15 Amplified Bible (AMP)
15 Blessed and happy are the people who know the joyful sound [of the trumpet’s blast]!
They walk, O Lord, in the light and favor of Your countenance!
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Thank you Jesus!

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Lord thank you for this day.  I as you Lord only your will be done in my life.
Father may salvation come upon my children and grandchildren and all who come into my home.
Father I thank you for all my opportunities you have given me.
I pray you set my sweet soul free of me.  Unless truly you will is to be done.
Lord too many years have come and gone to become secondary or a filler.  Father I do not settle no matter what unless you call it.   Jesus not because of lacked desire but for the greater good of all involved.  Your will be done and only your will.

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11/23/2018
Thank you lord for this day; May all I do once up and moving be honorable to you Father and no one else.

Lord what's up with the dream last night.   Please don't allow me to go back in time.   Please don't allow my dreams of the past and present co mingle.       Father you know it's not about me.    Protect those who may be in danger.    Release those that cling to me that have done me harm.  I have forgiven them and need not know what your justice will be.

Father you know the dreams when they come; if they are just a brief glimpse and never return we get through.   But I pray the visions or dreams you set ahead are for the better and future of you will.

Not the repeating dreams that I at times have had over and over later to have something related come to life.    The dreams of me in a plan crash over and over, and a small plan crashed in the parking lot across from our apartment.    The dreams even as a child visiting family and friends and later it coming to life almost exact.    Lord the dreams of someone being attacked over and over and the horrible reality of Nicole Simpson and Ron Goldberg;  Lord the repeated dreams of my old home town up in flames and so many places even now burnt down to the ground.     The dreams of me digging a grave and I buried my 3.5 year old dog that was severely sick and had to be put down.  Lord those are just the one's I remember.    But father when the dreams as last night were so real and I awoke shook.    Please I need not know.  I know I have to take the bad with the good. 

Lord I will never say any of this is related; but please guide and protect this mind of mine;  please let no one be harmed.    I banish the evil thoughts that sometimes sneak in;  protect my loved one's, those I hold close and those from a distance.


Thank you Lord and if I must have these as I have all my life; please guide me with meaning and what I should do with them.

May your will be done in my life now and forever.   Amen

Cruising the highway with Kelly
https://www.facebook.com/justalwaysmekelly/videos/1963894037036416/?t=36


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11/22/2018

Happy birthday in heaven Cathy.  We love and miss you down here.  But we know you are up there making way when our time comes.   Miss you my dear friend.




Happy thanksgiving Sharron I pray your spirit fills your home today for Al so he is not so alone with you gone.

Thank You Jesus!   There is not enough space to list out for every single reason.  So just THANK YOU!

Random thoughts 
Well the good thing in being a realist & a daughter of the most High King. No matter what you always know the truth and are fine just being who God blessed you to be.   No fillers needed.  Love people where they are at with no agendas.   If your blessed with love back. Thank God


As I found myself up every couple hours during the night, like a child hungering for something but unable to address it.   I realize this morning when I finally hit the ground how much like Martha I really am; when I should have just found that quiet spot and really poured out to the father.    He knows all that goes on in my little head and in my heart.    So why don't I more often then I do?  

It is not the holiday;  although my feelings are with so many including my family for lost loved one's.   With those who are going through trials and brokenness.     It is so hard to always find those thankful moments in this life when so much comes at us.   Especially for so many who do not have the personal relationship with Jesus and filled with love in their spirit and giving them peace.

I am madly in Love with JC and although I am at peace; it does not stop my human side for wanting something more, something different at times for myself and especially for those hurting.

All I know is I get knocked down and you continually allow me to get back up.  Even back when I was just done; even when I sometimes today just want you to come and let me go home.   We all grow weary.    But it's your will Father.  So until that day and none of us know when.  May I just keep filling up with you and doing your will no matter what is or isn't happening according to my feelings or human desires. 

Please may all my connections feel your blessing today and every day!   May healing wherever it is needed take place and they glorify you. 

Please forgive me for all I do or say that offends, or is not your will.  

Thank you Jesus!!!!

Habakkuk 3:17 New International Version (NIV)
17
Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
Psalm 46:1 Amplified Bible (AMP)
God the Refuge of His People. To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of the sons of Korah, set to soprano voices. A Song.
46 God is our refuge and strength [mighty and impenetrable],
A very present and well-proved help in trouble.


---------------Continuum of time

In the continuum of time, with the elements of this world

And all the spiritual connections

All wash over us as a scolding hot shower

All wash over us freezing us in moments of time like a frozen water fall or Eiffel Tower

The waves of good and bad crash over us

If we are grounded in that is good and pure  

We are not exempt, but we are able to get back up as we are knocked down

The pain or joy is real at any given time, sometimes being so full of joy and happiness; others we just want to crawl away and die

As the spiritual warfare already around us, above, below, side to side – within

Never forget who went before us, suffered taking all our deserved stripes, and died for you and me

His name is Jesus Christ

No matter how good and faithful or evil we allow ourselves to become

The light and darkness are waiting for you, for me

You can face them down head on; or pretend you just don’t believe

The waves are there and will keep coming

Don’t think the grass is greener on the other side, or you can out run them.

When you least expect anything; trust me even when you are obedient, dedicated and minding your own personal space

The connections show up, some overwhelmingly beautiful, some like a punch in the face

The waves of life, worldly elements, connections some filled with so much promise and love

Hope, peace; making you crave you desire as one

Is this true, is this God

Why is this happening, what you cannot see you cannot run

Did Satan finally find a way in; to distort, disrupt

Triggering lack of trust, belief in oneself and so much self doubt

In this when it comes, oh and it does; never deny you may just as I, will fall down and cry out

When things are hard, confusing, temptation of giving up, giving in

It is all hitting so hard you feel the spiritual bruising

Cry out to Jesus,

When things are hard, pray harder

Stand tall in Him; fight the darkness, you mean so much more

 Stand tall, don’t give in, and don’t give up; God has opened His door

Never run to what is easy; never run to what is temporary

Never run to what feels for the moment pain free; no matter how weary

1 Timothy 6:20

guard what has been entrusted to your care. Turn away from godless chatter and the opposing ideas of what is falsely called knowledge,

Nothing is free, nothing is easy

Dig in and build your foundation and trust all that is good, even when you cannot see

God will never just leave you to be picked apart by the vultures of the dark sea

There is so much more for us, if we give up, we will never see

Be thankful for the moments, never have any regrets

Do what God is calling you to

Not acting on the feelings deep down in our chests

Time is not promised, it just comes and goes

Remember you are loved, worth more have purpose

It’s not about me, not about you;   it is what talents God has blessed upon us

To shine the light no matter where you are in this life

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11/21/2018.
We see what we want to, even when we see nothing at all to hold on to hope and dream the possibilities of what our imagination feeds us.


11/21/2018


Thank you Jesus for hanging on that cross! Thank you for all the suffering and pain you took for us, so we could live. May we never forget your sacrafice daily. Thank you for allowing another day.
May our days be filled with your will and purpose even in the smallest need. I lift each and every soul seeking you Jesus and each and every soul reading this morning devotional up to you. You know exactly what each and every soul living on this earth needs father. Please be with the broken hearted Jesus during this holiday upon us. Surround those so desperate to check out with all your love and mercy and let them feel how much they are needed. Fill those who are celebrating the loss of who they love. Comfort them Jesus; we know you needed them back.
Lord; May we be serving your mission field father; near or far. Not our own needs and wants. Thank you for this day.

New International Version (NIV)
Luke 24:36 Jesus Appears to the Disciples
36 While they were still talking about this, Jesus himself stood among them and said to them, “Peace be with you.”
Matthew 28:10 )
10 Then Jesus said to them, “Do not be afraid. Go and tell my brothers to go to Galilee; there they will see me.”
Hebrews 13:15
15 Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise—the fruit of lips that openly profess his name.


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11/20/2018

Ephesians 2:8-9 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9 not by works, so that no one can boast.

Ephesians 3:16-19 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Psalm 62:8 Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge

 Lord as I came before you this morning, so much was coming to life. My understanding with my own struggles of dealing with the unknown that take me back to that window long ago.  Where I have a before, the beginning and I have the after; but Lord, there is a blank portion of those moments in time that you have removed.    Which haunt me when dealing with the unknown of my today's.     Jesus, you and only you know this torment that I have dealt with well for years.      Please guide me.     

No matter what Father, even when I don’t not understand; even with all the requests I rise up for myself for others;  Even all the praise and words I proclaim, there will never be enough to  equate what you have done for me!  For all of us!

 In our mare humanity Jesus, we struggle deeply and never even realize we are doing so. Father I do not want to minimize anything for anyone. The struggles here on earth are real. You know this best; yet you without hesitation stood still and honored the Father. Lord may we have the strength courage and honor and the knowledge to know, when to use each. I thank you Jesus for this new day; May whatever comes our way; may your will be done.

 Lord as I lift up all the broken hearts during this season; please show comfort and mercy. I lift up all who are out there putting their lives on the line around this nation and right in our own cities and towns. Protect them Jesus from all that is dark, all that makes them weary and from themselves as the heaviness of this world weighs them down.

 Lord I lift up all the lonely souls that cry out and cannot be heard; Jesus let them know, let them feel THEY MATTER! Your will be done father, give them purpose and hope they shine brightly for all to see.


Lord, we know we are a blessed people; we know your blessings to have all that is good. May the good be in you and you alone. May we never fill ourselves with so much that there is no room for you!

 Lord may we be on our knees before you, for ourselves no matter how long it takes.

 I give thanks for all those who lift me up, as I need them in this world on the days the craziness, hurts or just unknowns I struggle with feel overwhelming.


 May none of what I love and care for on earth come in the way of you being first Jesus; as you are everything! May every soul that reads these words, come to know the mercy, grace and love you turn into peace within in us.

  In Jesus name

Genesis 12:3 I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you.”





Thoughts to Ponder (Never Give Up, Cry out to Jesus)
Where in those moments when what should be uplifting for others.  Opens the door pouring out those hidden broken pieces of your own.   Is where, the evil dwellers and Satan stir and prods doubt and unworthiness.

Matthew 16:23Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns



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 Thoughts of my Sweet Soul King
My words may not all make sense when they land
But my God knows they bleed out from these hands
My words if only they could heal
I know the first places I would go, for real
My words not always elegant soft or meaningful to you
My words are the stories from this world, its pain, its pleasures and all that we choose, that we cannot undo
My words, my dreams, my whispers touch
For when I cannot, my words are prayers that can never be too much
My words of praise no matter what in life always release the blame
My words coming out of me, who knew
My words of the given mercy, grace and the love I never understood shared with you
My words of joyous moments, tragic pains
My words since you, Sweet Soul a gift from somewhere out there somewhere above,
My words from the blessings of Jesus, filled with all that is in me are and will never be the same



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11/19/2018
Cruising the highway with Kelly
https://www.facebook.com/justalwaysmekelly/videos/1958272584265228/?t=7






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11/18/2018
Lord thank you for another day.  I ask for mercy and forgiveness in any and all things I have done or will do this day to offend you firstly. But  any offense I have caused against others.

Thank you Jesus for giving me and my family.   I ask for the blessings needed for all I will cross paths with father.

 May they know and bow to you in worship. May they feel the peace only you give.    Father I only know where I have been. Please hold me tight and guide me where I need to be.  Please quiet the storms I carry within.  You Jesus are the air I breathe without you I do not exist.

 Please fill me with your spirit to shine your light where I am needed.    Please protect my family and guide my choices wisely, and guide theirs towards you.

 Father please cast judgement on all purposely out there doing harm with intent.   Please guide those as myself that sometimes just don’t see it and cause harm. 

    Please have mercy and send your angels for and with my family.   You know my heart Jesus.   Bless and show favors to all I have come to care for.   In your will.  Amen


Thoughts to Ponder (Never Give Up, Cry out to Jesus)
Where in those moments when what should be uplifting for others. Opens the door pouring out those hidden broken pieces of your own. Is where, the evil dwellers and Satan stir and prods doubt and unworthiness. Jesus calls out in Matthew 16:23 Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns

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11/18/2018  Thank you Father for this day, and new opportunities that await.     May everything that transpires be with, in and blessed by you and you only Father, Son and Holy spirit.     Lord as I was doing early morning recollections;  thinking about the kids of this world and how so many never have the chance to meet you to make the decision if they want to live with and for you.     I pray you can show those of us who have those heart strings; how to make a difference Lord.     Children do not ask to be born; Children cannot protect themselves; Children sometimes only know what has been put right in front of them their entire existence and many cases they end up in prisons, or victims of the evil dwellers of this earth.   My prayers are always many Father.   I am in awe that you bless me as well as you do, for all that I constantly bring you.    But children Father are sacred to you, are they not?     Please show those of us who have been blessed with you the way and the will to plant the seeds in the many drifting in harms way.    None of us deserve anything.    Yet I pray every child has the opportunity to choose and walk in You.   Including my own blood line.   They are not mine; they and everything I have belongs to You Jesus.    Please just hold me tight the day comes I have to give them back.    Please guide me and all I connect with to serve you for the future of eternity.

I am thankful for you loving me and all you have given me.  And although scared of the unknown.  Lord I cried out long ago for you to consume me;  that I could be part of the hands and feet for you.  I will never change that.    For I love life, which you have given me more times then I can count.    It is not about me;  I just pray for my loved one's protection, guidance and Godly course.     Your will be done for all suffering of lost one's and those on their way to you.   In Jesus precious name;   Thank you! Amen



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11/16/2018

Thank you Jesus for another day.   Lord please hear the prayers of all I am connected with on all social media and in person.   Hear the cries of the hearts breaking and the joy and praise that often gets drown out.   Father Lead me in you spirit and your will.   Father you know my heart and you know all that is in my soul;  Guide and protect all I care about.   Jesus I do become overwhelmed by feelings, good bad indifferent;  I do not want to finish the rest of my days based on what I feel.   I need what is spirit led and real.   There is no time for what is temporary in this world not for me not any longer.    You know I love deeply and fierce;  may all the passion I carry deep within be for your purpose and your will.  Not my own.     Please heal those suffering with comfort, discernment and strength.   Let us not rely on our own understanding.  Please guide us.  Hold us close when we are falling,  Lift those up so who are so lost and alone that are trying to check out.  Father they matter.  Protect and love on our children.        I won't deny this morning was a bit rough.     Thinking about the holidays upon us,  thinking about friends who have gone on and their birthday coming, friends that just recently left.    Thinking about the 13 year old boy that took his own life or the story of the wife finding the husband who took his life.      Lord please come.  We need you.    For all the family and/or friends that took their lives, for all those who passed on due to illness.   For all left behind.  We need you.

Jesus I need you; I need your Agape love; I need to be surrounded in you.   Thank you for all I have been blessed with;  thank you for the sweet soul.   Bless them father.   Protect all and their families; Reconcile where you need to;  may none of our connections be lost.

In your mighty and precious name.   AMEN


Cruising the highway with Kelly
https://www.facebook.com/justalwaysmekelly/videos/1954129881346165/?t=0

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11/15/2018
Lord please hear the prayers of your children crying out.   Jesus you know the needs at hand as you know the souls in question.  I lift it all to you Jesus; please guide and protect us. In your will.  Amen.

Lord you know my heart and you know me inside out.   No matter what others think they are doing, no matter what they think they may get.   You know I have given everything I have to you..  We need money to sustain our bills and necessities in life and yes because I have my family to care for, you look out for me; as you know if someone needs what I have; I will give it away.    I can not take anything with me Lord.  And although I am not ready to go anywhere;  I cannot wait to be in your presence.         This life has had allot of twists and turns.   I have seen so much, experienced so much and been blessed to share just a little portion back.    Everything I have is yours Father.  I pray my for my children and grandchildren's accountability, protection and guidance.  I pray they are able to make it out of harms way and do the right thing in their time on earth.   I pray all that are seeking to play the game father;  They get burned up front and light up so bright with you and from you they can never do harm anywhere.     I pray for leadership they be face down with you before trying to lead anything Jesus.   I pray your light shine bright Jesus.    No one else.    Lord I am who I am; You made me.   you know what makes me tick, what makes me motivate and what makes me run.   I am not running from this world Lord;   I am going head on and leaving all the stuff up to you.   I will always hold true to my promise even when I don't understand a thing.     Calm this heart Lord;  Holy Spirit Come live in me so strongly nothing gets past without being shined upon.    Guide me in my day to day; Guide me in the choices circling in my mind; Guide me with the spirit of my soul.     Fill me Lord with only that of which you provide and release all else.    Protect and Reconcile  those I care about;  I ask for the same spirit to fill and protect and guide them and their families.     I ask all truths be revealed and all our children of the future learn who you are.   Nothing more nothing less.   Heal the broken, allow rest in the weary souls.   Please accept thanks for Everything;  as I am nothing, my words are nothing, my being is meaningless without you!     In Jesus name ~ YOUR WILL BE DONE!

Cruising the highway with Kelly
https://www.facebook.com/justalwaysmekelly/videos/1952808961478257/?t=0

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11/14/2018
https://youtu.be/ABWnLjXer10

Spirit Lead Me

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11/14/2018
Thank you Jesus for this day;  I pray I make it meaningful and for your will and not my own.
Lord I have been bad about capturing all the prayers and thoughts in one place;  a simple task yet never still long enough to do so.  Lord you know my heart;  no matter where these prayers are being placed.  Jesus you know I lift them to you for intercession.     Jesus:  There is so much need, Please Lord calm the storms.  The storms deep within my own being.  Lord you know what they are.  And it really is not about me as I pray for the safety and the end of the fire storms that have ravaged so many out in California.   Jesus please let it rain. Please help your children.   The storms that come in waves and rain the storms that come with fire.  Lord maybe not all but your children cry out to you.  Please all the innocent souls.   Please guide and protect them.   The storms that are within so many of this world I cannot compare.  Lord please fill us with what we need to shine your light and lift your children up.   May you will be done Father.  Not humanity.    Forgive me for all the turmoil I add to this world in my own little ways;  Forgive those who want to do what is right but struggle.  Give them the power, strength and courage for YOU with YOU and about YOU Jesus!

Thank you for this day; May it be your will  Amen


Cruising the highway with Kelly
https://www.facebook.com/justalwaysmekelly/videos/1951842924908194/?t=0
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11/13/2018
Kelly thinking out loud
https://youtu.be/hLvE94GxHs4

 
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11/10/2018   Once again Father I thank you for this time I have here.   None of us know when. But you Jesus!   Some nights I sleep hard many I barely sleep at.  Others I fall off then I am wide awake. Tonight is one of those.   Lord you know who I am. You know all the things all the scars all the needs or desires.  Lord you know how my heart feels with all that is in the news.

All this stuff that keeps me awake.  All the craziness I allow in to my world. That world that was quite and safe with  You for so long.    Perhaps not what I fully desired but with no fear.   No needs except of what did not matter unless I made it matter.  Oh Jesus where are you now?

I have not lost any faith it is just a season of understanding what is real and what should be. What to do next.      Lord its not about me,  so why now am alive and hopeful it will be?

I need your direction more than ever father.   This world is under spiritual attack.   We as your children are not exempt.    If they cannot get to your believing souls they will attack our family and friends.   Jesus this nation that is burning to the ground with the earth shaking.   Humanity tossed aside like a piece of unwanted trash.   Lord we need you.   I need you my family needs you.

Lord thank for the ability to have dialogue with you.  Jesus please hear the prayers of your broken hearts of  so many in need Jesus.   Please send your angels.   Lift up those so far down they cannot did the way up.   Please heal and give discernment to all physically and emotionally ill right now.    Jesus May your angels come in force and crush the demons of use and abuse for those fighting drug and alcohol desires.   Please lift up the broken hearted as the holidays come up upon us.   Love on all of us who have lost people close to our hearts as we celebrate birthdays and holidays without them. May their souls Rest In Peace.    Jesus many know the waves come and go.  May we be filled with your courage and love to ride them as they do; shining for you.    May all your children unify and love Well paying it forward in you for you wit you.   A hug, kind words, listening ear, spiritual mentor, to deeds for those in need.   May they do so knowing works will not get them closer to heaven; but they do it with love in their hearts.   May your children never grow weary.  In Jesus name. Amen
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11/09/2018
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Oh my gosh Jesus called me out with this today. Enjoy and no matter whatever is going on always remember who is in charge. God Bless

         

I pray you realize no matter where you are. You are never alone. And yes this was a great reminder I was called out on this morning. Even as deep as my faith gets. I still try to plan and manage and own. What He already has under control if only I back off.

I think too much, thinking planning and such.   I dig in imagining all the possibilities, and just as quickly shut down and say not real, can't be not me.    

Foolish chatter, foolish actions I believe yet ready to run as fast as I can.

Because I cannot see what I am blessed with; right in front of me.     

The turmoil; so misunderstood.   If only dominating this morning if only I could~

Get up, brush off do what God has Called.   I pick up to study;  and how He set me straight.

It's okay to feel this flowing deep in my veins;  When God is involved in this world and you believe.  Things will be in his name.   Don't freak out like me and chase dismay.

There is not a day that goes by, that I see something in that mirror that Satan has not filled my head to dislike.     Yet my courage and strength comes from deep within.   My God, My Father, My Friend, The Lover of My Soul!  Jesus Christ~

It can be a struggle, but I know whose I am!

This battle like an unknown love flowing deep within your veins that you have just not yet experienced, yet burning deep with the flame.        The spiritual speed of light, you just want to control but you cannot so you try and run away.     No where to go so let's just take this ride  no matter how fast or slow in the end we know who is in control.



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11/08/2018 Lord thank you for this day;  for the words you give me, the love you fill me with, the blessings of beauty and life.    I gave you my family long ago father; please guide and heal them where it is needed.    I call your angels to walk with and guide them in your will and obedience and heel them physically and emotionally where needed.   Lord that goes for me as well; I will never be exempt.  In fact it most likely should have started with me.    Guide me Lord and please forgive me for any sin I am part of.   Lord I lift your warriors up to you for replenishment and protection.  I lift the leaders of this world up to you for guidance.     Jesus your will be done; keep me strong no matter what the outcome.    Thank you


11/07/2018
Thank you Lord for this day of abundance;  laughter, smiles, people having a good time.  The sun shining brightly,   a brief moment at the ocean.   All so beautiful to forget the day to day.

Lord you have seen my prayers in other places and you know my heart.  Father please show me what am I to learn about this sweet soul.   What is it in this season should and should not be blessed.   Thank you for everything this day.  For this is my last moments.   May all I care about be blessed.  If you wake me again; please may your will be done.  Amen

11/06/2018
Father what would you have us learn during season taking place.   Please make it relevant for all to see in their personal space and time.     Jesus Thank you!   Thank you for the love you gave and still fill us with today.      Lord Your WILL be done not ours.     There is so much going on this world;  despite those who are shining brightly, despite all the good that is being done.  We are over cast with the shadow of darkness.   Lord Come; step into this place and let your children shine so brightly the evil dwellers are removed permanently.      I ask special prayers father for all those serving you be protected, replenished, lifted up in times of trouble.   Yes Lord we get it; just because we may love Jesus we are not exempt from unfortunate circumstances in this world.    In fact we know as a child of God we are hit more often then those who play in the sandbox of darkness.     I ask for your grace, courage, guidance and a mighty hedge of protection around all going through it.   Someone Father is in desperate need and does not know you but wants to.  Father may they come to you this night.   I ask for healing for friends and family who have lost loved one's.   As they would be my friends and family as well.   It never goes away Jesus we get through but there are triggers with all loss that send us to unhealthy places if we stay too long.    We know you Jesus King of Kings.  You also never change and are there for us always.    Please may we bow at your feet and sing your name high!    Thank you for all I have been blessed with.  In your mighty name.   Amen
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11/04/2018
  Lord reading today's Jesus calling I feel I am being called out.   Thank you!   I continually think I have it all figured out.  Somedays I do;  Most not even close.   I serve with no expectations and try not to bother anyone.  I serve because if fills me up and brings me closer to you and I never want to lose the peace I have gained with you.     Lately things have been a little chaotic.   Unexpected contacts, unexpected spiritual connections.    Things I will never understand that have put me in preservation mode.   Afraid yet unable to shut the door of possibilities, allowing my history of scars eliminate the ability to trust fully in the unknown.      Perhaps it is you, perhaps it is not.    Lord I ask for forgiveness and healing for anyone I may have offended and hurt by my quick retreats.        Forgive me for loving you with all that I am; yet not able to know the difference of you and what is real and what is not.     You know me from the inside out and never do I wish to idolize anything, nor do I wish to offend what I do not know.     

I ask only for truth and your harmony father.    

I pray Lord for my brothers and sisters in Christ; for my friends, old and new.  Prayers for my like minded believers that we may unify in truth and trust your will Jesus.     Prayers of healing emotionally, physically.   Prayers to heal families Lord.   So much is breaking.    WE are all going through it.     Lord may I dive into you and know how to shine for you.   Please God let me now shut down the possibilities to serve and love your goodness.  

Thank you Jesus for allowing your spirit to move in the house today in all services;  Thank you for healing me and this cold to bring your doorway.     I pray each and every soul has been blessed to grow in you.   May they reach out with their needs to our brothers and sisters.

Lord we know the brokenness will never go away.   I pray we are filled up with you enough to never grow so weary we lose ourselves . 

Thank you for loving me no matter what..  Please keep those I connect with close to you teaching them your will and bless them with healing and the desires of their heart.     Please guide me and not allow me to make it a thing.

Thank you Jesus.

Lord one more thing.   When asked today at church should they be praying for a husband for me.  Well my witty answer as always was I don’t know how to respond.  I am so darn independent and........ yes I deferred this is a scary question for me.  So unless it’s my next life joking about my gut husband qualities. Truth is whenever I am too scared I always set my goals to the almost impossible.  When it’s so far out of reach you never worry of anything going wrong.  Father you know the desires of my heart.    I love you for taking me through my desert time.   I believe this season are changing .  Please let it only be for you.   With all the recent awakening and awareness.  Please Lord guide me!






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11/02/2018
Have a blessed day or evening~    
Philippians 4:19 and this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from His glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus
 Romans 8:33 Who dares accuse us who God has chosen for his own? No one- for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God's right hand, pleading for us.  




Hebrews 4:14-16 So then, since we have a great High Priest of ours who has entered heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to what we believe. This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same testing's we do, yet he did not sin. So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy and we will find grace to help us when we need it the most. 


(Sweet Soul)
 Jesus I thank you for these moments in time when we can have a friend in Christ to pray with, to  and for you.   I ask for blessings Lord on this sweet soul and all they are going through.  Lift them and all their hearts desires up to you.  I ask forgiveness for any thing any of us purpose that is not in your will God.  May we shine the light of hope and joy where ever we are in this life.      Jesus may your love fill us in abundance and break our hearts for what breaks yours.   Amen

11/02/2018 twitter
I am filled with thankfulness and love. Thank you Jesus. May you Bless & guide every soul that in this world father. May they always know your perfect love as well. No Matter if they choose your ways or not. May they always know the choice is there own.



Lord thank you for the angel that watches over me. Thank you for your love and grace. For I am yours and your kingdom please guide me in trust, truth to shine for you and you only Jesus.


My prayer




Lord  I just lift up all my brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, children.  Those born and not yet here.  May your will be done and we crush the head of all evil.    That does not mean we don't live father;  but we live with Love, Peace and Harmony to share the blessings and thankfulness of your love, mercy and grace.  As this world grows darker with more and more people giving up and not believing.   May this place be filled with all that is good.    Keep it real and positive father and see us through when it is not.

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 Dear Lord. There is always so much going on with or around us. Thank you for reminding us we are never alone Thank you for our kingdom family. You are in Everything!

May each and every soul be lifted up Lord. Protect all of your children for they have a testimony for your good news.

Be it death of loved ones, life falling apart around us, traveling mercies, employment, Jesus brokenness and pain. Our health emotionally physically. None compares to what you already bare for us.

Your will father give us the power the strength to see it all through! Guide us in your will. Thank you for loving us enough to care.

I love you, We love and need you.

Please send your soldiers unified to fight all the elements in your precious name. And we know the difference of where our help comes from 🙏🏻✝️🙏🏻 Thank you Jesus!

Thank you for this venue Toby and Jesus thank you for your servants coming together. Amen



  Dear Lord. Satan has turned this world into a giants sandbox. Please send your angels to snatch our children, brothers, sisters, mothers and fathers back from him and this deception.
May they be healed clean and fly high in Christ and together we crush the addiction and the head of Satan. In Jesus name. Bring them out if it.


11/01/2018
Isaiah 30:15 This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says: Only in returning to me and resting in me will you be saved. In quietness and confidence is your strength. But you would have none of it.


11/01/2018 -  (6am)
Lord as the day's anxieties build up for many, I pray they feel the closeness as I did to you this morning; lying in the quiet stillness.   It is not often Lord I feel the way I did today.    As if your arms were wrapped around me with the calming love.    I pray no matter what transpires today Lord I may reflect through your eyes and not be consumed in this crazy world.   I ask for health and well being and guidance.   I say it often please father never let go of my hand.    I cannot do this alone!

Lord you know the prayers for my own household;  for my grandchildren, for my daughter.  They need to acknowledge your goodness father.  Please protect and guide all the children of this world.  Please bring justice that only you can where evil has touched.  

Please be with all your messengers;  lifting them to new heights for your glory.

Thank you Jesus for the words I am given this day.  In your precious name Amen


11/01/2018 -  (twitter 4:45am)
Just lying still in the quiet melting into the silent promise of this new day.    Thank you God.  May all I do be pleasing to your will and not my own this day.


11/01/2018 -  (twitter 4:45am)evening
Lord thank you for the angel that watches over me. Thank you for your love and grace. For I am yours and your kingdom please guide me in trust, truth to shine for you and you only Jesus.



11/01/2018 -  (twitter) somewhere during the night  (was this for me or who I do not know)
Doesn't really matter what is written.  Actions always speak louder than words.  So say what you mean and mean what your ay and let the world see by your actions.

Saturday, October 27, 2018

2018_October(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Lord I am one of your many tiny specs of this universe you created;   I call out from deep within only you know only you understand.  I first must ask Lord Forgive me for all my sin.    Since I took that dip, I was never the same again.    Although I fail daily; so I ask to please bare with me hold me close and forgive me again.  Please forgive what you say is a sin; Please forgive me in my weakness when I offend others.   

Lord you know my heart, you know my life start So I beg for continued mercy and grace.  Allowing every day to reflect your place.

There are many words that will never come to view; many you already know because you are you.
The many while on my knees;  or just the conversations in those moments.   Jesus whatever will be will be.  But I ask for you to hear these prayers as I will post and show those in need immediately the most.    When I am stuck in the grey zone. May I be on my knees in time with you alone.   For humanity fails daily but you never will.

Although I can't Lord go back and pull all I have written off of Facebook, Twitter, Instagram or anywhere else please intercede for all that be.  I lift them high lord as the day grows long.  You know my history on this matter of prayer from day one.  I wish to start today father and continue this journey.  Please Hear each and every soul and the needs of the heart.   Please give them the miracle.    
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10/31/2018
Lord
thank you for this day;  thank you for the focus.  Jesus, you know I am transparent and wear my heart on my sleeve;  And when I have in my head something will never come to be; I pretty much shut down and sometimes become offensive to that of what I care about the most.     I first ask for forgiveness Lord if I have done this lately.   I would or could never purposely issue contempt or harm knowingly to anyone or anything I care about.    These days even if it is something I detest it takes much to get to that point.   Lord it was Pandora's box opened as a game and I had the ability to what I thought was controlling how things were going.     Even the simplest actions and openness with such disbelief.    Oh father, please guide me and keep me in your will;  there is not a day that doesn't go by that my will is trying to take over.  When I do I become reckless, uncertain and just all around feeling  foolishness.    Father I was okay in the desert,  I know it is not my choice when you say it is time to move.  But Lord almighty.  How could one ever belief such a thing!   I will always be okay for I have you Jesus;   I am good at shutting down, dodging or making a fool diving right in.  

I ask please father; you know my heart and my hearts desires.  Your will be done father.      It is not about the world;  it is about serving your kingdom.    It is about staying in you safely until you move me to where it is I should be.   It is about me not being able to do it on my own.   I can't!    I am strong, but for whatever has come to light in these recent months;  whatever the triggers of insecurity, need and YOU.    Please hold me in your will with You're strength and mercy.   Lord I ask for protection and guidance of all being consumed by the things unseen, of what is not you and your kingdom.  Guide us all; protect us and please never stop showing your children guidance mercy and grace.  Protect us from all the false witness all the impersonators be it being impersonated or receiving lies and disruptions to your will.


10/31/2018 (fb)
Jesus thank you for getting us all through the month of October. Lord you know every single thing all of your children have been going through. The great and happy moments, those filled with unknown filled with sorrow or anxiety for some. Or for those who have to say goodbye to loved ones. Those trying to help and fix family and friends. It has been bitter sweet for so many. Yet Lord if we remember all you went through and still feel every day when your children lose hope and faith. Please forgive me, please forgive us. Lord when are feeling weak. May we dive in directly to you and surround ourselves with your warriors. Lord I may say we but I speak for me and pray for all the needs and desires for our family in Christ and all those that are coming to faith because of the good works of TobyMac and all other messengers singing to our souls. Keep them safe and filled up with and for you Lord. Thank you for all you give us. If you wake us another day. May we give it all to you. In Jesus precious name. Amen

10/30/2018 evening

Lord thank you for this day.  Thank you for humbling me and thank you for continue to work on me.  It is not about me father.  Yet like everyone at times, I get caught up and I make so.    Lord I know forgiveness in all things is a journey;  I pray father for forgiveness of all I have showed contempt or harm;  As I forgive all who have harmed me or offended me in someway.   Lord I would like to think that there are none;  But that would be my human self and untrue.   Please Lord guide me and keep my heart pure.    You washed it clean long ago;  Please father guide me and keep it pure no matter what the pursuit is I should follow.   Lord you know I never want to be that Catch and Release person.   My entire life I have lived and seen how others build relationships just to let them go or throw them away.  I try to keep my circle of close personal souls lord of what some refer to as keepers.   Lord although I fail miserably; I try to be open, transparent and loving.   Forgive me when I should allow someone in and I cannot without physical tangible evidence.     While I thank you Lord for allowing me to survive.      Lord I want to be the Love you reflect;  Show me how to give and receive this father.  While keeping me from the bottom feeders and dwellers.    I don't want to give up on this world;  Yet it is hard Jesus.  Then I remember all you did trying to make a difference.   And even then humanity did not get it.     Lord I ask for your favor;  may I continue to be blessed, grown up and protected by your angels of mercy and grace.    May I never become the receiver or taker of a catch and release relationship that jeopardizes all you are to me and my life. No matter how significant I ever feel Lord when it comes to those you put on my path; Please hear my prayers to lift all my brothers and sisters up to you in Christ for healing, protection and guidance with special mercies for the missions you have them on.   I lift my biological family and friends up to you for salvation and peace to come to know your blessings.   In Jesus Mighty Lord;  I am yours there is nothing that can ever change this.  Be it interference or choices of what I think at times.   You flow through my veins.  Always as I was Always As I can be Always Just Me~  Kelly

10/30/2018
There can always be so much said, so many opinions, so much good and even more bad.
I will never have it perfect; EVER.    I can dwell on the what if's or why.    I can reach out and occasionally I do.  Most often I keep to myself.   I in the past 20 years have learned to give it to God in Prayer.    Then work hard staying busy.   So yes those that know me;  I talk to God all the time, and am never still.   I am blessed to have those I am very close with and be it in our Small group time or one on one in prayer and petition we gather do uplifting bible based study and remind each other;  the burdens we carry are not ours to keep. It is hard,  give away pull it back.  Sometimes all day every day.     Did I say,  I will never have it perfect; EVER!   I will never understand life,  never understand the hurt and the pain that so many face.  Never understand why some really innocent, good souls suffer and others walk all day in the valley at the expense of others.     I have trust issues,  I am a show me person.   Usually it takes one time until something happens to where I can't trust again.   Even then if we connected I still love that person but from a distance.   Perhaps it is the blessing God gave me for survival.   Do I go through things.   Oh yeah;  Daily.    I have my ups, my downs, my self image, insecurities.  My pity party as to why me or why not me.    Then I am reminded of all I have been given, not what I have lost or given away.   I have been reminded of keeping it simple you can't take it with you.    I get the can't take it;  but simple for crying out loud.   I was a software Quality Assurance tester for 29 years.   How do you turn off just keep it simple;  My nature is to dig deep in and show proof.    Even though I currently am not in that field;  It still comes out in life.   It has to make sense, it has to flow.  I have to pray on it.   Yes I do get signs when I am hanging close to the word.   Then there are times things just happen and those that they don't.     I really try not to stress over any of it anymore.    My point with all of this;  We all need a relationship with God.  Be it you want to believe in Him or not.  Your life will change forever.    You have to start by prayer, every day and sometimes all day long.    You have to believe that He will show you the way and the reasons, In His own time not ours.      We all need relationships;  Find someone who believes in Jesus even if you don't.  Find someone you know you can trust and ask them into your circle and start sharing your world with them, and ask them to prayerfully share their Jesus with you.    Things will never be the same.        There is an indescribably peace that fills you and stays with you through all storms.     The storms will always come;  you will lose loved one's, you will face suffering,  you will be lonely more in life then not.    Things will continue to happen that you don't understand.   But with the peace and surrounding of souls that Love and seek the beauty that is left on this earth.   You will be a light for those that are at the mercy of evil and you will help get them to safety.    I am who I am; Always as I was, Always as I can be, Always Me Just Kelly!    I a child of God, filled with more Mercy and Grace than I will ever deserve.   It is not my place to judge you, It is not my place to turn my head. It is my place to do whatever I can to lead the way in positive ambitions, and seek fellow believers to lift me up as I am sinking;  As I will always be here for those who call upon me.

10/30/2018 (fb) Jeremiah 29:12 In those days when you pray, I will listen. John 10:14 I am the good Shepard; I know my own sheep and they know me.
(Father as each soul awakes this day, with so much on their minds; fill them with your peace. Let someone who believes shine a light of hope into the world they are struggling with. Father protect those who will travel, give healing to those in a crises or going into a crises, Guide us all, and for all who are weary, Father please lift them up, in love, mercy so they may rest their head upon you and be filled with new grace and wisdom. We call your presence Lord to come! Be with us, save us from ourselves. Fill your people to shine brightly for all those who are in the dark. Unify us Father; Let us be the change of Peace and love in Harmony. Amen)

10/29/2018 (fb)
Thank you Lord for another day.   With all the distractions of this world, I ask for guidance to make it count.  As It’s not about me.

Set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. 1 Peter 1:13 NIV

Lord thank you please continue to protect us from the darkness in this world.  With so many gamers, users and abuses out there. Father guide and protect our youth our children and grandchildren.   Our future.

Even wen I walk through the darkest valley, I shall not be afraid, for you are close beside me.  Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.  Psalm 3:4 NLT

10/28/2018 5:30am (fb)
As I lay here feeling the coolness that has come.  Thinking of the days events.  I am blessed and thankful for another day.    Reminded there have been good and bad in this journey yet I am here to decide how will I choose today.    We see the world shaking and crumbling before us. Humanity gone mad.  Innocent harmless creatures of God discarded or snatched right before our eyes.   Yet we look the other way bury our heads.  Just keep keeping on.   We complain about all we disagree with and fight if triggered yet never step out in positive faith and action in unity to make a lasting change.    Stop the hate.  None of us deserve anything even if we have kind hearts.  Be thankful for where you are in this moment.  You want change dare to be different and be positive be proactive be love.    Let some you know you care. ❤️❤️


10/27/2018 11:46am
Dear Lord you know each and every hair on all the human race.   I lift up or road warriors, missionaries, Men and Women of God out being messengers for your kingdom.    Lord the ones I find as go to and those I have not yet heard.  Please Lord guide them, lift them up protecting and loving on them as they do you work.  Father keep them close and let nothing but your will transpire changing souls and hearts.  For now into eternity Lord.  You will be done.

10/27/2018 7:19 am (twitter)
Thank you Lord for this awakening.  AS I spend time with you waiting for daylight.  Thank you for loving me.  Lord whatever it takes help me make and keep it about you.  Thank you for all the beautiful souls I cross paths with along this journey.

10/27/2018 5:30am (FB)
Have a blessed Saturday. Say a prayer of thankfulness you are alive because some else’s sacrifices. Jesus 1st then our military men and women who die daily so you can live!


10/26/2018 (FB & Instagram)

Prayer request to make the final words coming out on paper for Blonde By Choice  be about the blessings of GOD and not what was.


-------------Caught Off Guard

10/25/2018

Only the Lord knows my deepest desires.  He knows what this life journey has put me through; and what he pulled me out of.   He knows I have to have to be close to anyone not just someone who loves Jesus.  But all of my expectations, someone that is true,  Someone that has a mission heart and wants to be side by side while leading the way.     Someone that values and respects and grows through the pain, not adds to or runs.  And if that is not meant to be;  That the Lord pull me back together and place me where I need to be.      

I know this is not over yet;   I have grown more comfortable and the turmoil is subsiding.   

I am not settling ever,  but I have to trust God has a purpose for all that is exposed in my world.

  I will remain in love with my dream my sweet soul.    When the day comes to life; I know God has a plan greater than anything I am.    Until then I will continue to do my best connecting Him through prayer. 

If tomorrow never comes for a moment time I experienced promise of a sweet friend of  Jesus, the sweetest of souls;  Agape Love, freedom no holds.   I will wait until I don't.   I am not looking;  I wasn't when this occurred.

 For now I ask for forgiveness in my child like spirit; please lift me up for all I do I pray;;  I am all in for Jesus;  not me or ever again in this life to waste and feel shame.

If I dream, I try not to;  but some day, one day I will lie close again;  be able to share love and laughter and work concerns through together.  Ride on holding tight;  or chilling,  cooking or go out fishing before daylight.    For now the keeper of my soul will forever be the lover of my soul and the dream  of my unknown destiny for my sweet soul and me.  For I am always me, who will forever dream and love you for you!

    Forever I am and will be a Jesus girl. As I daily pray I may serve His kingdom.     Always as I have been, Always as I will be, always just me Kelly~



 

-----------------Jesus I need You


10/24/2018

In this world of nothingness

Where you can dream big

Chase the good Chase the bad

Where you can choose to be happy or Choose to remain sad

Without Christ what would I be

Just another insignificant spec on the universe

Alone and weary

The heart is controlled

you can keep it open or shut down

But you never really know where it is at until the truth comes around

When you realize being in Love with Jesus you have substantial known proof

Yet when you start slipping for someone in humanity that you will never touch

All because you got a little too chatty and such

Was this another test

Was this Gods test to see if I am done with this rest

Imagine when that spark is lit into the glowing flame

You try to play along with the game

Realizing there is no way you are qualified

Then you realize it is burning to close to the soul

You need to hurry and put out the flame.

So you panic before you confirm the truth

The hustle so real.   Only God really knows what to say, see, look and feel.

Then what if

What if it really was you

Will my God really allow such thing,  Why is this life so cruel?

Thirteen plus years You survive for years

Managing with Gods team and maybe a few tears

So why this, why now

You know you want to;  but absolutely don't know how.

How did this ever come to be.

All because you stumbled upon Everything~

What sense of humor our God has

Not saying it is good or bad.

Just know deep in side was fine when all was in reality and closed.

Now what; what do I say, what do I do.

Oh Lord I really need you.

In love

Jesus I need you and your love so much.

Jesus I need your Godly touch.

Father when we think we have it all figured out

Then someone reminds us of the loss, the pain and so much doubt.

Your heart just beats out of your chest and you want to scream and shout.

Jesus I need you and your love so much

Please bless me with your Agape love, spirit, mercy and grace

Please give me the courage, the blessings face to face

Please if it is your will; may my voice be heard in harmony of your messenger

A gift from far above

Jesus I need you and your AGAPE love


--------------------Direction
10/24/2018

Thank you Lord for getting me up another day
May whatever comes through my path or I through it's this day.  May the spirit of God be deep within me, may the obedience of love and grace outpour.   May I be a reflection of hope and what is good.  On those moments I cannot;  Please surround me and all I am blessed with those pure hearts you have placed in my journeys path.
There is so much brokenness and pain for so many.   Those I don't even know and those that share the same blood flows through my veins
Loss and confusion, anger and bitterness, suffering
Lord so much is being wasted so much life that is out there now
As I go through my devotionals and study this morning, I find myself digging deep.
Digging in seeking something that will touch the broken hearted.   Something that makes clear sense and will change how one feels about God.
I have never been a theologian never will be.  I look and depend on others to lead me there; and then dig in to see what or where it is coming from.
I have always been able to speak with people, feel what they feel hurt for what they hurt for but always hated I could not fix what was broken for them.
Then again I was reminded,  I could never fix myself that it was the seed of God that got planted in me over time that one day it sprouted and I thirsted to know more and I grew
There are still days that my brokenness just as everyone else's shines through.
Be it with my career, with my home, with my children
With the losses of loved ones that took place, or ending up in places and loving on people that most would consider the least of these and unworthy to be around
The suddenness of the unexpected that triggers a new kind of normal every single day, sometimes even within each day
I don't know where I am going, I know where I have been
My prayers are pure, my heart is wide open and my soul is cleansed.
Lord for all I am blessed to be part of; May they feel the spirit of God and get to know you
May they be filled up with healing and comfort, may they come to know all that is good in this worldly path and may they stopped being robbed from all that is broken.
May the FAITH of Daniel fill them, the HOPE of Moses guide them and the strength of David push them through to you
May they live and love for the days they have looking out over the horizon and see the beauty that is placed before them.   If in dark places may the a light so bright lead them to peace and tranquility giving them the new day and new normal to love where they are at
Heal the brokenness,  fill the lonely,  May we all give thanks back to you Lord for the sacrifice of you son Jesus Christ and all the suffering and pain that took place to allow humanity in relation with you.
As we have failed you miserably on this earth, may you forgive us.  In Jesus precious name Thank you for this day Amen   

----------------My God waking thoughts


10/22/2018


My God has a funny sense of humor with me most days

But I will never doubt the Love he carried through his journey on this earth

Nor will I ever want anything more but the Real Love in Christ for my life

My journey on this land since the day I have been placed here, has been!

There are twists and turns I will never know how I survived as they were taking place.

There are reasons I will never know

Sure there are days when I wonder, more than I should

Those days I cry wondering why things go down the way they would

Those days when I think I know I should,  All those if only's

I never Picked where I would be in this destiny;  In fact so far from it.  One thing that was always the same.   I always wanted that forever.   Forever one true love, forever together someone, forever through anything.

I never got what that really meant Until I met Jesus

Sure my human side goes through emotions

But one thing is for sure

The day My God got through to me

The day My God washed away all the stains that burned in my soul

The day My God shows me time and time again He has this not me

Those will be the days I will forever need

I speak about my soul bleeding on the floor

I am torn at times when I long for that deep physical relationship in Christ

Not lust or sex,  yes that comes with being human  

Love, honor, respect with that deep oneness mind body and soul

The torment knowing for whatever the reason

I before Christ learned all about the demons of this world

Yet my God pulled me out and holds me dear

I can sit and feel ripped off

But when I look back during the days of chasing the void

There is no great peace I have with Jesus Christ

Some may get it, some may not

I can again testify everything with Christ, He is all I want.

As I get ready to start my days and pray out;  Lord your will be done.

For you know the desires of my heart of my soul

Protect me from the enemies who know I am your servant

Guide me through what will be;  I am I always will be forever yours In Christ.

Thank you father.   for all you have given me.  Good, bad and so very unknown.  Without you; there is nothing.

always as I was, always as I am always just me Kelly




------------Bleeding Soul---------------


10/20/2018




As my soul bleeds on the floor before you
There is nothing more to be done.

For this war that is spiritual is far from over
Even though ours has just begun

For this world has no hold on me
In Jesus I am forever free

Though no matter how many seeds are planted
There will also be the weeds

The fight and struggles are so very real
Always trying to surround oneself
With the love unconditionally
Never allowing hate or doubt to prevail
Players of this world
With all their Chaos and turmoil

As my soul bleeds on the floor
Who can I trust in this lonely cruel world
My spirit cries out on this journey
My spirit of Tierney

Knowing where I have been
Knowing how far I have come in Him

For there must be a bigger plan
Everything is far beyond anything that I am

As

For this war that is spiritual is far from over
Even though ours has just begun

For this world has no hold on me
In Jesus I am forever free

Though no matter how many seeds are planted
There will also be the weeds

The fight and struggles are so very real
Strangulating if not grounded deep within

Always trying to surround oneself
With the love unconditionally
Always trying to never  allowing hate or doubt to prevail


Please have mercy on me Jesus Mercy in this world
As my soul bleeds on the floor before you
There is nothing more to be done  
For you have sacrificed your only begotten son

What is human agape love father please tell me this
Jesus show me what is to be done, what should it be next
For my soul bleeds on the floor before you,  All I can do is hold tight and try not to run

With all that I am, All that I was always then, always
now, always me  Kelly



 

------- RAW


10/18/2018


Have you ever had the day where your mind is on a roller coaster

I have had a few the past several days; wondering what is going on with me,    this mind hardly ever shuts down.   If I am lucky I will only have one dream.   Some nights I know I am dreaming waking exhausted yet can't remember what is

Others I dream so real it scares me.    I remember the dreams I had in my youth that as time went on I was walking into a rewind.    Sometimes everything makes sense, others I think I am going crazy.

I am thankful for the dreams when I would wake screaming and fighting to breath are very rare.   Although at times I sometimes still jump up.

I am blessed and I no longer wonder why my past was the way it flowed,  I am blessed and thankful I have been given a strong spirit.  I am thankful I did not burn up too many brain cells and was able to fight my way through.   Not a physical fight;  but that of not giving up to be like everyone else with an excuse.

I am thankful my God got through to me and I know where all my blessings come from.

Even on the days I am worn out and frustrated;  wishing I could keep up.  Praying someday it will be my turn.   I have been working since I was 14,  I have supported myself and my children, and everyone else that had needed help along the way, or those I was trying to fix.

I am thankful I finally learned even though it is hard,  it is not my job to fix anyone.   I am learning how to push the baby bird out of the nest and just pray fast and furious she flies high with the angels and stays out of Satan’s playground.

That is hard when she has baby birds of her own.   I have been blessed 17 years to help guide the way even when it was not what it should have been.    Maybe that is what the inability to sleep and feeling it these days.    It won't be long that the 17 year old will be on her own;    And the 7 year old will need guidance.     I know what it was like when my grandmother died at age 9 and I had no one.

So how do I get those images out of my mind and just let go and let God.   Every time we are so close there is something.     These are God's children not mine.     I know the time is getting near;  I don't move unless he moves me.    When I got this home so stability had a place it was His doing.   Yet anymore I wonder when can I feel rest,  will I ever feel half of what I put out.

Then I feel guilty for making it about me;  It is not about me,  It never has been.

 I wonder how long I can keep going,  My prayers are constant for Jesus to never let me go;  He has been holding me up and close all my life and closer when I finally met him where he was at.

I am blessed spending time with these kids the little one learning to read the bible with me.   The older one has such a great head on her shoulders.    Yet I cry inside knowing, at some point they will be gone as well.

That brings flashbacks from long ago, how I would cry when everything I ever got close to; ended up dying or leaving.   I became a master at loving from a distance.    It has worked, it has been my safety net for years.    Never having any issues even if sometimes I got the blues.

Yet lately feeling things so differently;    I ask you Jesus as I say you have such a funny sense of humor.     I ask you,  What do you want from me?  What should I be doing?   Show me Lord;  Send someone to teach me your ways for this world.

Father,  I can laugh, cry, scream out, sing out.    I need you Jesus.   I need you on the outside;  I need you through my veins.     Lord I need to learn how to trust,  Not over think and worry what if's.

I thank you I have been blessed with my son, with my daughter with my grandchildren.   With all the material things and all those that matter most.  When looking up in your sky father,  I need love looking back at the same exact time.     You placed every star, the sun and the moon.   Your beauty is beyond explanation.   How I melt as I look off into the distance.  It is all about you.  Yet when I am unable to look away.   Please help me to stop being consumed;  Please help me do your will and move forward and not feel like I am frozen in retreat.  calling out every single flaw.  

Jesus as what will become some of the most famous and memorable lyrics go.   "I see you in everything".    Please may I never stop feeling or remembering this.

I know what will be will be.  Keep me focused Lord I pray; until you reveal what next.

Thank you Lord for the strength you have given me through out time.   Please guide me through the doubtful moments.   Reveal your love Jesus.   You know my heart, You know my desires.   I am broken.   Please keep me from running away.   Please guide me deeper  into your arms.  Your will; your mission, your message.

Thank you Lord for the power of prayer;  for the blessing of messages you give me to share.  Please hear my raw emotion.  Me from the inside out.

In your mighty precious name.   I love you Lord.  With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me  Kelly




----------------REASONS

10/13/2018

 

I can look back and find a million things that can justify the faults I have today and feel justified.

I can look ahead and find the same million why what some think am frozen. 

There is a fine line between good and evil.  Sometimes we must get stuck in that gray matter face down to realize only God is the one true thing in this world.   Then and only then may we gain the confidence to let it go. Those things that torment our heart and soul and find peace in HIS presence

Yet, I can say quickly brief reference why I fell in love with God and His Son Jesus.

 SACRAFICE

John 3:16 New International Version (NIV)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

 HONOR

Deuteronomy 5:16  Honor your father and your mother, as the Lord your God has commanded you, so that you may live long and that it may go well with you in the land the Lord your God is giving you.

 HUMANITY

Hebrews 2:14 Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might break the power of him who holds the power of death—that is, the devil—

LOVE 

Psalm6:4 Turn, Lord, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love.

John 3:16 New International Version (NIV)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

 BEAUTY

 1Peter 3:3-4Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

Isaiah 33:17 Your eyes will see the king in his beauty and view a land that stretches afar.

PEACE

Psalm 4:8 In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety.

ABUNDANCE

Genesis 27:28  May God give you heaven’s dew and earth’s richness— an abundance of grain and new wine.

Jeremiah 2:22Although you wash yourself with soap and use an abundance of cleansing powder, the stain of your guilt is still before me,” declares the Sovereign Lord.

 GRACE

Ephesians 2:8-9 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.

 PROTECTION

Psalm 91 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” Surely he will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. …

HOPE

Job11:18  You will be secure, because there is hope; you will look about you and take your rest in safety.

FAITHFULNESS

Genesis 24:27 saying, “Praise be to the Lord, the God of my master Abraham, who has not abandoned his kindness and faithfulness to my master. As for me, the Lord has led me on the journey to the house of my master’s relatives.”

Palm 40:11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, Lord; may your love and faithfulness always protect me.

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With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me  Kelly







----------------Dear Lord



10/10/2019



Dear Lord

Lord we know it is written all these things will come to be; yet none of us know when the end time will be.   I pray Lord that your Mercy and Grace send your angels Lord to Lift us up, Hold us up and give us the courage and strength to fight all of the elements coming at us.   We do all matter Lord; Each and every soul has a mission and need for and with you.     It doesn’t mean we all go out stand on corners yelling the world is coming to the end.   Or become vigilantes.    But Lord; Dear Jesus, you know where each and every soul stands.   Your will be done father, not our own.   May humanity come together before, during and after all storms for whatever life is left while we are in this world!

Lord

We praise you for allowing your chosen one’s to come together.  Allowing us like minded brothers and sisters in Christ to keep us strong, aware and allow us to know we are and never have been alone.    We know as time goes on we will need you and all of your soldiers, angels and messengers more than ever.   

   We thank you for the messages you send through music , there are so many hearts for Jesus singing out sometimes it is hard to know which is the right one of the day.     Then you remind us in your timing.     We thank you Lord especially during this season, that you have called from a young age and still today Toby Mac and all the brothers and sisters who work together in your mission field blessing us.    

        I pray a special thanks that eyes are opening and ears are hearing how your works are alive and breathing.   Lifting up special prayers of protection and thanks in acknowledgment for the leadership with and for your people and the creativity bringing relevant impacting messages with his music.  For the talent you have imposed on this soul and the heart he carries for you and your people, out into this world.         Thanks of praise and abundant prayers of protections, physical, emotional, spiritual nourishment for all our Prayer warriors and partners in your Name.     For those who feel everything they are praying for and those walking in the trenches blessing in your Name.    May you’re will Jesus fill us each day.

As I  see no greater alignment at this time Lord that you are showing us what you say is true;  As we in the world  watch the news listen to the radio.  If we look around in our own families and friends and people we know.   All they are being impacted by.    So many people father giving up, struggling.  So many good souls experiencing tragic devastation.    We must believe Lord in you and all you lived and died for.   That no pain is greater than that of which you were pierced, beat, broken and hung on a cross.   So we could live.      May we never forget; May we continue to fight in and with you through the Elements.   May you continue to use us; those as Toby Mac and all who have been called forward!       The Elements have never been seen so openly painful and chaotic as they are these days.


Environmentally the world that you created, that we in humanity truly do not really appreciate the way you intended.            This world is going through so much destruction and pain, from the volcanic eruptions in beautiful Hawaii to the continuous earth quakes, and storms.    Lord we know you have your hand on all things.          From the environmental storms straight to the storms we carry deep within.


   Lord please give us the strength and the right message at the right time to keep us focused on you.    Year over Year there is so much heartbreak around us, death, destruction, physically, emotionally, environmentally.      How discouraging and angry we can become watching beauty and innocence destroyed without reason.   Humanity so much Humanity lost for no reason.        

Lord I love You, I thank you.  I know there are so many more out there that get you even more then I ever could; please guide us; and allow us to shine the light and as ours is dimming our brothers and sisters align with us for your mission.      May all on the front lines have you're special blessing!

In Jesus name AMEN 

With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me  Kelly
 




----------CREEPS UP

10/08/2018

 

 

Even  those of us with the best of intentions daily;  wake up some mornings feeling a little off.

Feeling like you don't want to motivate

Thinking how nice would it be to:

                    Just stay snuggled in bed

                   Just have that special person to chill with all day

                   Do something  worthy and memorable with someone special with no expectations

Not often do these moments catch me off guard

I guess knowing I have dedicated my last several years to my girls and to serving the Lord

Knowing I was leading them so close keeps me accountable

I will never stop serving

As I have far to much to be grateful for and no way do I ever want to lose my blessings because of stupid dishonoring actions

But I know there will be an emptiness outside of my working and serving.

I never planned to be where I am today.   Absolutely never expected to be so blessed.

The Lord has walked with me in all my life;     For all the evil I have seen, all the struggles I have battled through.  All the wrong choices and lessons learned.

I dove in head first to try and make sure my kids were not impacted;  When they were grown and I could no more.   I took over to protect the granddaughters.

Knowing once I lost my own grandmother at age 9 never having anyone else to look out for me.

Even though I am young,  I am feeling it with the oldest grand just turned 17 and the youngest 10

I am finally seeing the blessings that I did not screw my kids up to terribly.

We all get there in our own time.   I certainly did once I got past all the hate, and hurt.

all the chasing everything trying to fill the lifetime of voids.

And now here I am years later with a career, healthy, blessed single as it gets for the past 13.5 years.

and about to go through another round of empty nesting.

So even in my best intentions when you least expect it.  Some mornings you wake up wondering about the would of should could of.     The moments of if ever?   

I have always been good moving forward when I can dedicate to someone or something else.   I don't handle me well at all.   

I do know if ever the day comes where I am given a companion;  I want the love I feel towards JC.

Nothing more Nothing less.   If it never happens at that level.    I just want to serve and surround myself with those who get it and those who love all that Christ lived and died for without all that domination bs, hateful agendas.

But me independent as all get out;  in the school of life hard knocks and by the wolves of this world.   Trusting is the balance when it comes to others agenda's why they would want to connect.

Needing but not needy.     In fact so self sufficient,  that now I think why would I need a honey for my do list, that thought makes me think crazy.    I have had it all, lost it, had it stolen, gave it away.   I take nothing without giving more.   I never want anyone to try to control me.    Only that of equality and trust, Agape Love!    No expectations.   Deep unconditional Love.

Until that day comes;  I will continue to admire those who walk the walk, those who serve.

those who create the harmonies that sing to my soul.    Music is the passion that nothing can replace.

I will be here; until I see Jesus face to face~

Crazy thoughts I woke with this day.        In Him my life is possible

With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me  Kelly










Friday, October 5, 2018

2018-Most Recent Music Relevant Music ReleaseTMac

Oh my goodness this is so Real!    Relating in so many ways;  A few that go deep fast.

I pray; for this beautiful soul no matter when; no matter what.  He will always remain faithful and humble to the Lords calling.   That his entire support system rise up.   No matter when no matter what is going on.   The world and all the unseen elements are actively gnawing to chew us up and throw away and erase all that is good and pure.    May all you have achieved all you will lose never define you.   May the will of God forever hold you tight;  even when you want to just run and hide.

May you and all who are on this great commission; have health, wellbeing mentally and physically.  And abundance of true Agape love.   Not just for what you do; not just for who your public persona has made you.     In his precious name.   Thank you Jesus for your soldiers and their message!  With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me  Kelly



The Elements    @Officialtobymac
https://tobymac.lnk.to/theelements


Scars
https://youtu.be/MnSXYmn-YvY


I Just Need You

https://youtu.be/skeRPKygTkk


Everything
https://youtu.be/QurQEiOAQjA


Thursday, August 30, 2018

2018-A BBC Glimpse (PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)


Forward


“A decision is a choice about something that you want to do or believe.  It is drawing a conclusion while considering the options.  Your statement that you are going to make the decision means that you admit that you are the one making the choice.  By definition then, you are freely choosing to do something.  Therefore, to later say that you have no choice in what you are doing is a contradiction of your statement in the beginning, present or future”.     We can prove the Bible has been around for thousands of years;  But nowhere can it be found written as doctrine “Life would be easy; A walk in the park; That we all will be blessed  for all our days, with the knowledge and grace to make the right decisions and choices throughout our entire lifetime.

I can attest from my own personal walk in this life; and form many will always feel as such.  Just how hard it is to believe and fathom anything when we believe in what is unseen.   That is until that day comes we build a personal relationship with our maker through biblical standards and His son Jesus Christ for themselves.

There is no way to describe at least for me;   Just how peaceful and blessed we become when we submit to all that is unseen and start learning what is in the bible and building a relationship with God.    I am no theologian by far, nor will I ever be.  But we are blessed with his mercy and Grace, and no matter what the circumstance, we are never alone to walk through the valley. Yes, there will be valleys!   Therefore the best advice anyone could have ever given me, was forget what everyone else is telling you when your decisions need to be made.   But instead make a list of all the particulars that surround it and Pray to God daily that he reveal what decisions should be made.   For you may be lonely in this world even when surrounded by people.  But with God; you will never be alone.  He is our creator, our Alpha and Omega the maker of Heaven and Earth!        I invite you to take this journey with me to show how He showed up for me.   And urge you to think of it as if everything they say about Jesus is true, you will have a front row pass to grow in his kingdom for eternity.  And if it is all a farce, well then what do you have to lose.   Time that you spend doing and believing in positive loving ways.   Time saved from darkness and those that would like to just harm anyone because they can.   The choices are up to you.  Just as I am blonde by choice; it is just that simple!

But to qualify; I don’t take it just because someone said so.   I have been walking in grace for 13 years now in this journey.   I mean really walking.  I have taking courses, met with like minded people from all over the place and do small group studies.    Been blessed to soften my heart and fill it with the spirit worshiping through music.  And I have been truly blessed to see and hear so many talented beautiful messengers bring the story of Jesus Christ to life.    Not only that; but I am a living testimony of HIS saving grace.     My story is my own; although I have learned that there are many friends, neighbors’ family and unknowns that surround us daily.   Going through things that we ourselves have survived or been blessed with.    So if you feel lost, alone and helpless.   Know you are not alone in this journey.    I urge you to find a good bible based church as you hear so often on TV or the radio.   And get to know the people, and challenge any message given for biblical truths.     Just as Lee Strobel did to prove there wasn’t a God later to prove A Case for Christ.   You will be amazed just how much truth exists in our and for our God.   And even more on how much you really need to stop what you’re doing and make that decision right now to build the relationship, get baptized and do everything you can to walk the walk.   I would much rather live in peace even at my end times.   Then live in uncertainty, fear, anger and loneliness always chasing things to fill a void I once had in my soul. 







Friday, August 24, 2018

2018- (Soul Message -TobyMac - Everything (PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)




You who are planting for the Harvest.    Vibing beats planting the seeds of HIS Love, Grace, Mercy, and Unity that only the soul understands.   Feeding the Spirit while moving the heart.     We all bleed red.      We all need Godly leadership.     Not all will get it, want it, and feel it.    However, those that do.    Are blessed to be filled and in that agape love harmony.    Indescribable connections without reason, expectations or doubt.    Just knowing deep down the purpose comes from the Son, who created all the heavens, stars and moon.  You are a chosen one; sitting high with all Gods angels.   Never lose site, never give up, never give in; Never stop leading the way for us, In HIM~

Sunday 5-11-2025_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

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