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==== 1 Peter 5:8-9 (NIV) ==== Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
==== Exodus 3:5 (NIV) ==== 5 “Do not come any closer,” God said. “Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy ground.”
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Corinthians 6:19 (NIV) ==== 19 Do you not know that
your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have
received from God? You are not your own;
==== John
7:39-39 (NIV) ==== 39 By this he meant the Spirit,
whom those who believed in him were later to receive. Up to that time the
Spirit had not been given, since Jesus had not yet been glorified.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for this new day of opportunities; as we forge through with so much on our minds and in celebrations of what many celebrate as Halloween or all Saints Eve. Jesus be with the littles. Please give us all awareness, guidance and protection in you alone on this day and all going forward.
Lord may we all learn to listen to you always in the quiet times and the madness. Even in the times, we follow you yet forget what we give only later to pull back and think we got this. That continual spiritual power struggle tug of war game.
Lord, when we know that they know, that we know. It was and is more than just that few messages or life speak notations; however, it does not matter. We know that there are /were more involved that knew end to end as well.
When your circle of influence will do anything it can and does to protect your circle; steam rolling and moving forward no matter if it is good, bad to those they roll over. Even for what they deem legitimate reasoning. What is left in the end; what next Jesus?
Talking what runs through the riddles of this mind; requires a response that would in a perfect world be necessary.
Some will take everything out of context from what was meant for pure heart and truth and of great a adoration with so much respect. To never be understood. Somethings just are and we know that God was aware, and it was allowed to transpire. It is what it is, until it is not!
More than ever walking in spirit and truth; from the depths of our soul prayers for all our brothers and sisters in reconciliation and what is best growing forward God will ordain. Regardless of what bitterness or evil intentions towards those who stepped up without question.
God, you allow all the pieces to come together in your time, and no matter what started with great heartfelt of admiration and light feeding this spirit.
Later to realize it was just some sort of life chess move that helped some move forward, while leaving the others in brief ruins and unfortunate others in sadness and sometimes pity.
I know Lord all the while any of my days are allowed it is you Christ that lives within the souls you have connected to the body.
Nothing in the mind’s eye of humanism that goes wrong or ends in sorrow was ever supposed to be this way. We never fully understand your plan God; but we know you are part of it; or at least we hope all involved are truly believers and know it all will work out in the end with you.
Lord, we all fall short of what you have created us for; we want especially for our children the best opportunities in health and well-being. We all do what we think is truth and good. Sometimes we do what we must to safe our babies even when sometimes the only redeeming quality, is when you take them back.
I have been through so many hills and valleys as a parent.
Even today never really sure did we finally make it over or have they just gotten really good at masquerading saying and doing in front of us just what we want to hear; while as they walk away they forget you see everything and even then cannot convince them of their true worth.
So I do what I do because of what I have lived through; and although it is stability and good with truly pure heart and clean hands. It is not always, what is best or in the end worth anything outside of the here and now.
The love Jesus you have put in this soul, can never be taken away no matter what moments of uncertainty, pity, hurt, or distain for bad behaviors of others when it comes down to it. A love from the inside out only comes from truth no matter who gets that or who does not.
What you ordain alone is what in the end ultimately matters.
Many do not understand the depths of what you give me to tell; in fact, I am sure many thing sometimes like the world I too have gone mad. Maybe so, maybe not. In the end it is the truth and the way and love in Christ alone that will matter.
No matter what good or bad in this world takes place what truly matters is in eternity that will forever be.
It is each time one of yours God that we think could not make it, flashes that huge rainbow for us to know you are with them and with us. That gives us hope and a new day to keep fighting forward.
Lord, while we are here and now; no matter what we think we are doing good to raise up the littles or be an example for the littles. May your will, your promise and your protection always. May we know what we do leads by example. Someone is always looking up to us, someone is always watching. Someone is always absorbing what we do.
Help us protect the innocence and teach them life in you is not just about the cut and dry the black and white of good and evil. Sometimes it is limiting exposure or allowing exposure. Sometimes it is bringing the privileged to the least of these hands on and seeing what life could be. It is always more than words, more than deeds; more than anything this world gives or takes.
So, on this all Saints day or eve; Lord be with us all in truth, justice and your abundant love now and always.
Thank you for allowing me to be who I am and trying my best and giving me the blessings of children and grandchildren. Thank you in advance for guiding me through all my responsibilities in the here and now and the future you ordain. Jesus please show all I am connected and me how to know your will, your direction, and how to love growing forward.
Please be with all who are suffering Jesus; as I know you always are. Please open their minds and their hearts to you and all you have promised ahead. Help us all with the healer so we can find true healing.
Thank you, Father God, for this day and all that have come-to-pass and all you will allow forward.
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Date: October 30, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Ephesians 2:8-91 (NIV) ==== For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Jeremiah 29:12 NIV) ==== 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
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John 10:14 (NIV) ==== 14 “I am the
good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me—
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John 10:27-28 (NIV) ==== 27 My sheep
listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. 28 I give
them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of
my hand.
In
addition, from last night’s bible study as we walk through Revelations chapter
18 & 19
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Romans 11:25-29 (NIV) ====All Israel Will Be Saved
25 I do not want you to be ignorant of this mystery, brothers and sisters, so that you may not be conceited: Israel has experienced a hardening in part until the full number of the Gentiles has come in, 26 and in this way[a] all Israel will be saved. As it is written:
“The deliverer will come from Zion; he will turn godlessness away from Jacob.
27 And this is[b] my covenant with them when I take away their sins.”[c]
28 As far as the gospel is concerned, they are enemies for your sake; but as far as election is concerned, they are loved on account of the patriarchs, 29 for God’s gifts and his call are irrevocable.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for allowing this life to get up and do it again today. May your will be what drives and sustains me alone.
Lord I know we all should find those quiet times, when we step back and just listen for you. Place our hope and trust in what is unseen and stand in awe for the beauty you reveal at times we least expect it.
We all must purpose to be grateful even in the times of hurts, hang-up’s and the bad habits that perhaps got us there.
Always so much easier said than done
When we watch, our parents fall apart and step out on each other all the while we pretend to be a loving happy couple yet see and hear the truth behind the closed doors.
When we see the adults, who are supposed to be our shelter and guidance filling themselves up with drugs, and alcohol and sometimes become the monsters we even must hide away from.
When we have no one because those we were given and entrusted to have lost themselves and are nowhere around leaving us as babies in Satan’s sandbox to find our own way.
If we survive and are able to find you Lord; we do all that we must to grow forward day after day. All the while the cursed still find us and try to cling, steal and take all that we are.
Even for those that came from that perfect having everything and parents that never seemed to have any issues life. That somehow just never knew their identity and just kept trying and doing everything until nothing of them was left to do.
How do we justify all this craziness Jesus? How I know we should not; but How is it justified? When bad happens to good and good is given to evil?
Perhaps these past several weeks in the book of Revelations has gotten to me; but truly in faith I know where I am going; but how do we maintain strength and courage or will to just keep going forward even with you. When the world leaves us so alone and broken at times?
Holding on to you with all I have got while in the “Arms of the Angels” https://youtu.be/1SiylvmFI_8 @Sarah McLachlan yes as I look around and still experience the game losses of this world game of chess that we all get to be part of.
So many of us trying to find our way; some trying to find their own and not be like their parents others just wishing and praying they had that love and abundance others take for granted.
It gets to be so tiring Jesus. I will never stop begging for your will, strength mercy and grace.
I know our God is jealous for us, for me. I know “He Loves Us” https://youtu.be/GzfPHnoT0-0 @David Crowder Band
I do not know how or why; I know He alone has sustained me from all the misfortunate places of this walk from day one. I know he will be what walks with me to the end of my days in this world. However, it does not make it easier; some days are darker than ever before even when the sun is bright and sunny.
Talking through study last night we here in our 20th century are in modern day Babylon.
In just a matter of time, you will come and destroy all that is evil. However, what do we do in the meantime as we wait for you Jesus? We cannot hide; we cannot stay quiet we must use all our talents and gifts and do our best with what we are given to work with for you.
Show us; show me the way.
Show me the way to correct the wrongs I have made; to remain accountable for the choices I made. Show me the way how to not choose and be entangled with what is fake and not really of you.
Show me the way out of this trap of human torture watching what is so broken and running from you how to protect and guide what innocence is left, to and for you.
Heal what is broken in me and use what you will for your mercy and grace. Not of my own stubborn will and human desires.
Protect and guide all that is part of me; bringing justice where needed, loving correction in all things and spirit and truth till the days we all leave this place.
Let us know the difference and own up to the choices we alone must make.
Cruising with Kelly: 10/30/2019
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2530989716993509/
Let all know it is not all doom and gloom in a world that can chew us up and throw us away at the blink of an eye. Our choices sometimes lead us to great places, sometimes not. Lead us with and to beautiful souls and sometimes to those that are more lost than we are. Your light in the darkness Jesus is what we need to reach for. May all I am connected; including that of myself when at the low points of my days, be blessed as written in Romans 15:5 (NIV) May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you the same attitude of mind toward each other that Jesus had,
May we know our choices matter; we matter and that we, are made for more than anything this world can give or take. That while we are trying figure it out and maintain our worth and live up to our responsibilities. Our worth in you is more than anything this world can give or take from us.
That everyone is going through something and no matter if we are at the top of our game and have it all according to the world’s standards or we are coming out of nothing. None of it matters in eternity. We cannot take any of what is in the world with us when it is our time to go.
We can be hateful, be little, be nasty and change our plans at the drop of a dime leaving those who love us behind without a second glance back. We can use up anything in our way to meet the needs of our selfishness. On the other hand, we can do our best to sustain in you Jesus and always willingly help those that many consider the least of these. Along the way with light and abundance of love to and for you.
Give me strength Father God; please be with me in the remainder of my journey; please be with my bloodline and all I am connected. It is all about choices! Lord I need you for the choices I make and for all that surrounds my family and me.
Lord, may I never stop wanting the music that sings to my soul; help me through this wave of what next in life, in spirit in truth.
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Date: October 29, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Romans 12:1 (NIV) ==== [ A Living Sacrifice ] Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Ephesians 3:10 NIV) ==== 10 His intent was that now, through the church, the manifold wisdom of God should be made known to the rulers and authorities in the heavenly realms,
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Hebrews 12:3 (NIV) ==== 3 Consider him who endured
such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
I could go on and on with
scriptures that speak to me on any given day. Sometimes I share more than
others do. From the book of Job recently, as I learned of the
heartbreaking pains the McKeehan family is walking through.
To even our own everyday life.
Let me talk
about TobyMac briefly and the current situation. No one is exempt
from heartbreak, trials and sorrow. Even those that are
blessed and gifted to lift us up in the world with talent and
music. So many have been blessed to shine brighter than most whose
purpose to only shine; Toby and many like him have been gifted without even
trying. It is heart wrenching to lose a child or anyone
you love as it breaks my heart when any young soul is taken from us in this
cruel world.
As we watch the news or
just ask any parent; the struggles are real as we try to raise our babies up to
be the future all while balancing and finding themselves in the here and
now.
The heart wrenching
facts, when that cry in the night comes and you know nothing will ever be the same,
but you have to keep going for those who are still
here. Be it a parent or a grandparent
that has stepped in. Be it the final exit from the vessel that we
are given to walk this earth, or our babies are lost to the world.
None of us is exempt from
the pain or sorrow that comes with living.
I think in the McKeehan
family’s loss it is much harder because of the blessings that Toby has
sacrificed his family for the world to be blessed per say.
The world will
continually remind him to relive over and over the reminders of what he
lost.
They will fight for
growing forward together; they will fight for understanding and they will live
the end of the days knowing the same gift God allowed them 21 years ago he
needed back. Living through the unfairness, as they were not ready to
release him; even if they did not plan this.
The pain of loss never
goes away; it dulls at times and we find our ability to smile from our hearts again.
Then there are other times that we find ourselves shattered all over again.
The only thing we can do is remember the maker of all the heavens and earth is the same one who created us and gave our entrance and exit. To find peace in all things and not allow yourself to fall apart as you grow weary and give up in this world. Bury yourself taking the time to prepare each day with Jesus. Just as a great musician practices over-and-over, the athletes take time to prepare themselves
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Date: October 29, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Romans 12:1 (NIV) ==== [ A Living Sacrifice ] Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Ephesians 3:10 NIV) ==== 10 His intent was that now, through the church, the manifold wisdom of God should be made known to the rulers and authorities in the heavenly realms,
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Hebrews 12:3 (NIV) ==== 3 Consider him
who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and
lose heart.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
I could go on and on with scriptures that speak to me on any given
day. Sometimes I share more than others do. From the book of
Job recently, as I learned of the heartbreaking pains the McKeehan family is
walking through. To even our own everyday life.
Let me talk about TobyMac briefly and the current
situation. No one is exempt from heartbreak, trials and
sorrow. Even those that are blessed and gifted to lift us up
in the world with talent and music. So many have been blessed to
shine brighter than most whose purpose to only shine; Toby and many like him
have been gifted without even trying. It is heart
wrenching to lose a child or anyone you love as it breaks my heart when any
young soul is taken from us in this cruel world.
As we watch the news or just ask any parent; the struggles are real as we
try to raise our babies up to be the future all while balancing and finding
themselves in the here and now.
The heart wrenching facts, when that cry in the night comes and you know
nothing will ever be the same, but you have to keep going for those who are
still here. Be it a parent or a
grandparent that has stepped in. Be it the final exit from the
vessel that we are given to walk this earth, or our babies are lost to the
world.
None of us is exempt from the pain or sorrow that comes with
living.
I think in the McKeehan family’s loss it is much harder because of the
blessings that Toby has sacrificed his family for the world to be blessed per
say.
The world will continually remind this family to relive over and over the
reminders of what has been lost.
Never will I purpose to be one to take away from anyone his or her pain or
sorrow, or the mourning those suffering from loss will go through in a life
that beats us down so badly at times.
We never get over the loss of those we had with in the here and now.
Nor do I think we should try to. We learn a new kind of
normal to grow through; and prayerfully it does not destroy what anyone or what
is left. As we fight to and for growing forward together with those that matter
most still here.
We must fight for understanding and they as all suffering loss of loved ones,
will live till the end of the days knowing the same gift God allowed many
families to have our children, God wanted back.
Living through the unfairness, as they were not ready to release him, even
if they (anyone suffering loss) did not plan the departure.
The pain of loss never goes away; it dulls at times and we find our ability
to smile from our hearts again. Then there are other times
that we find ourselves shattered all over again.
The only thing we can do is remember the maker of all the heavens and earth
is the same one who created us and gave our entrance and
exit. To find peace in all things and not allow
yourself to fall apart as you grow weary and give up in this world.
Bury yourself taking the time to prepare each day with Jesus. Just as a
great musician practices over-and-over, the athletes take time to prepare
themselves.
You matter; you are worth more than anything we can have given or taken
from us in this world. Even when it is those, we are blessed to call
descendants, our children from our own bloodline.
Before you get up and get lost the day; take time to meet Jesus right where
you are. If you are seeking change, set a goal to spend time
with God. To do so meet Jesus right where you are 7/24 He is
waiting.
It is not ever going to change the things that are ultimately out of our
control to happen. Even when we are doing our best and walking the walk
heartbreak happens. Nevertheless, it will allow you a peace
in the end that becomes your strength and fortitude helping you through each
day.
No matter what you do, do it through conversations with Jesus Christ.
Matthew 9 “Then he touched their eyes and said, According to
your faith let it be done to you”;
If I am wrong about Jesus, I wasted my time missing worldly adventures of
what, parties, temporary material things, hangovers, hurts, habits and
hang-up’s; while I am allowed here. If you are wrong about Jesus,
you miss eternity and the ability to see your loved one’s on the other
side. I will take my chances and remain holding tight to Christ.
Getting closer to God is built upon faith, hope and trust in him and
growing forward with Him doing our best daily to walk in obedience without any
expectations.
More than the ten commandments of the bible. It is pushing
through the daily temptations and challenges of all that is steamrolled over at
us during any given day.
It is more than that one day you wake up and realize you are
stronger than you realized. It is that moment your truly find yourself and you
are okay with not being who you thought you once were and it is okay, it is
that moment when you know God is truly with you and you without trying just try
to be the best self you can possibly be even in the brokenness.
Just remember our exhortations of obedience presented; that where we are
doing the best we can with what we get to work with. Is our response to
the grace of God we receive in salvation; we do not earn salvation, we do not
become children of God just by a few good works, conversations or not reliving
that bad habit.
Obedience is our way to show our love and gratitude back toward God in
acknowledgment for the sacrifice he made so we could have life. Now I
know earlier in the week I spoke on what could classified as negative about
love. If you missed it here, it is
What is
that we call love that is so overstated and under rated here in a world we
live.
When we think physical love is what gives us life; all it really brings is pain and sorrow in the end. To spend our days dreaming of desires that never live up to the imagination spawned. Or to think you are there and all is perfect to wake up one day and realize you are so far from the truth. That what you imagined never was.
You realize the only pain worth taking is that from the one true God. That of God is the only thing that will be everlasting with purpose with meaning.
Love kind of like control when we think we have it; yet it is only an illusion.
Love in Christ is all that will forever matter not that of the material empty promises.
When we think physical love is what gives us life; all it really brings is pain and sorrow in the end. To spend our days dreaming of desires that never live up to the imagination spawned. Or to think you are there and all is perfect to wake up one day and realize you are so far from the truth. That what you imagined never was.
You realize the only pain worth taking is that from the one true God. That of God is the only thing that will be everlasting with purpose with meaning.
Love kind of like control when we think we have it; yet it is only an illusion.
Love in Christ is all that will forever matter not that of the material empty promises.
I cannot explain what it feels like to know what love is from the inside
out; but it is not the temporary satisfactions of our human
nature. What I can tell you is once you start the
relationship in Jesus; start surrounding yourself with other believers; who are
imperfect beings placed in a huge puzzle called this universe waiting for God’s
perfect bounty.
You start to purpose focusing on the Gospel and the more you
focus the more obedient you become. The more you live in the power of
faith the more you fill up from the inside out. John 14:23(NIV)
Jesus replied,” Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will
love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.
What does this all mean?
I am far from being a theologian. I just know you cannot sit on
the fence and say I love God, I know Jesus and you are out there playing in
Satan’s sandbox. No, matter how big or small the sin. It is the
same in the eyes of God. As parents yes we are to judge and
lead by example doing our best to be that good Shepard for our
children. When they stray wait patiently for them to be the
prodigal child to return. Never losing hope in Christ no matter if
they return to us; or they return directly to God himself.
No matter what the battle is; God and His angel, armies with Jesus at his
right hand are fighting forward ahead of us. Remember they
have your back when life seems to heavy and dark. Yes, I too say
this as a reminder for myself daily. For this life is
hard and broken, and when all we want is to just be held.
Seek council as we need it; God has ordained many that can help us through the
unbearable. Find a good bible-based church; find a Pastor that will
teach directly out of the bible who will keep it real with you as they are
doing their best just like you. Ladies find your girls, circle up,
and dig in. Men find your brothers and learn how to lead the way.
We all need God’s peace; love mercy and grace. No one is
exempt. My prayer today for all I am connected that we find all we need
through the love of Christ and learn His will purposing growing forward in and
with him until we are taken home. Have a blessed day or evening and
below are the commandments I mentioned earlier.
As for all suffering brokenness and loss right now, I pray God’s abundant
healing and direction for all you are going through. That you do not lose
that love from the inside out and you are filled with wisdom and hope until
hour comes you are with your loved ones once again.
That each time a memory, a thought causes your heart to leak out; no matter
how much we miss those who have left us behind. We know they are in God’s
hands now working for the greater good and we will reunite when God’s will call
it to be so.
You can find them in Exodus 20:2-17 below is a list in the (NKJV) but here
they are for those if you do not have a Bible.
“I am the Lord your
God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.
You shall have no other gods before Me.
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“You shall not make
for yourself a carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven
above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the
earth; you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the Lord your
God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children
to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, but showing mercy
to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My Commandments.
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“You shall not take
the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him
guiltless who takes His name in vain.
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“Remember the
Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work,
but the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord your God. In it you shall do
no work: you, nor your son, nor your daughter, nor your male servant, nor
your female servant, nor your cattle, nor your stranger who is within your
gates. For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and
all that is in them, and rested the seventh day. Therefore, the Lord blessed
the Sabbath day and hallowed it.
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“Honor your father
and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the Lord your
God is giving you.
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“You shall not
murder.
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“You shall not
commit adultery.
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“You shall not
steal.
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“You shall not bear
false witness against your neighbor.
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“You shall not covet
your neighbor's house; you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, nor his male
servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything
that is your neighbor's.”
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Know this all; Life is hard for everyone. We are all going through things, losses, and struggles. Always pay it forward with kindness. Always know we are worth more to God than anything this world can give or take away. And always know He is there waiting in our praise and in our storms. We need not fill up and chase the world for what is temporary. Having great things is beautiful. Having crazy friends, we can cut up with is beautiful. Nevertheless, never sacrifice who you were truly meant to be in eternity for something that will destroy you here in the world. Love yourself and find and put God first in everything!
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Date: October 28, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1 Peter 1:24-25 (NIV) ====
For, “All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord endures forever.” And this is the word that was preached to you.to
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
I have to be honest Lord, being very exhausted from a beyond full day yesterday. Not being able to sleep well. When I got up this morning the first thoughts that came to my mind was that I am really going to have to work at this day.
I also had this stuck and wrote; “life is like being thrown through that van windshield as it rolls over and over. When you finally stop sliding on the pavement floor you et up trying to find your bearings and realize how much has been taken of you as you stand there bleeding out in the pile of wreckage and shattered glass left behind.”
Constantly walking up to people seeking solace, seeking help, when all they can do is sugar coat and let you know they are sorry for what happened everything would be okay as help is on the way.
Yes, real life comes back around to remind us how life and connections are so meaningful as time goes on.
These thoughts driving in to work, driving me crazy as the whispers telling me I should take everything I have ever written and pull it down find somewhere else for it to be. Go hide somewhere away from reality. Truly relocate as I nurse my worldly wounds of the choices in life, we all make. As I use that one last second wind given to just exist in this world; take care of my responsibilities and settle for it is what it is until it is not.
Oh Lord how you have such a great sense of humor and even better timing. As I read into my meditation moments and you are there allowing whoever else needs to know this reality.
“DO NOT EXPECT to be treated fairly in this life. People will say and do hurtful things to you, things that you don’t deserve. When someone mistreats you, try to view it as an opportunity to grow in grace.” @Sarah Young “Jesus Calling” Enjoying Peace in His Presence”
So what happens when we mistreat ourselves enough, lack of faith filled with doubts; taking those shattered pieces of glass off the ground and making them personal. Mind you I have been through allot in my time he in this journey. Nevertheless, I am not better or worse than anyone else is. None of us gets out of this world alive and no one is exempt.
In fact, those who struggle to maintain the most in Christ are beat up the hardest; or at least we recognize it allot sooner and feel the pains deeper at times.
No that does not mean there is a comparison here when it comes to brokenness; because the fact remains when are put through the fires, thrown from those rolling vehicles; have to deal with all the broken pieces of this worldly life we are in. No matter if we walk with God or think we can deal with life on our own. It hurts beyond any pain we thought we would ever endure.
When our families are broken; when we are let down; when we suffer the pains of accidents, bad choices, tragedy, loss of our children, watching them crumble before us and not being able to do anything to change what could come. When we curl up in the fetal position balling our eyes out because it hurts so badly and there is nothing that can be done to, change it; and we do not know what is next.
When we do not even know what is next for our families and all that we thought we were doing the right things for only to know we have nothing to control or do but hope and pray. When physically fighting to save ourselves; save our children our grandchildren. Challenging all the obstacles, putting ourselves up in front of magistrate’s judges and authorities and fighting with the facts and truth. When we lose everything repeatedly just to try to give stability and opportunity for the children coming up as everyone else and everything else is falling down around us. Setting the record straight, defending what we do not even know how it come to be; or maybe we do. All we can do is look back and forgive those who hurt us; forgive ourselves for all we do not fully understand but try so desperately to fix.
Letting go of what others will say, think or do. Just trying to do our best in healing and growing forward in you Jesus. It really does not matter of the others just as long as we do not fall prey to their quick fixes or hurt them in our hurt and anger “concentrate on relating to Me, remember that I have clothed you in righteousness and holiness. I see you attired in these radiant garments, which I bought for you with My blood. This also is not fair; it is pure gift. When others treat you unfairly, remember that My ways with you are much better than fair. My ways are Peace and Love, which I have poured out into your heart by my spirit.” @Sarah Young “Jesus Calling” Enjoying Peace in His Presence”
Thank you Jesus for this reminder and for pulling me back reminding me who I am; who we are all meant to be in you. We are all going through something. Some of the pains of this world will be unbearable and many times, we will falter dealing with them. Many will come to take advantage of us and treat us poorly. Even those we love the most or want to be the closest to will remind us just how imperfect they are but more importantly how we are and how we fall short in the world’s eyes.
Nothing we go through; that you Father God are not already aware. So when we acknowledge who you are, and we ask to empty ourselves out for you to fill up; when we ask for eyes to see as you have or feel as you felt. The world becomes far clearer but more painful at times than ever before.
Would the pain come anyway; at some point, yes we all will feel those unending breath-taking moments we just want to change, fix or get through.
May we never forget who you are Jesus; May we never forget what you went through; May we cling to you to lead us out of our valleys when they come. May all that we are never grow weary and give up. May we lean in on you and you alone? May we be blessed even in the moments of time for those no agenda God loving God fearing souls that truly only want the best for us who will be there no matter what with no expectations. May we know you and your will be done in my life and all I am connected.
Thank you for this day; guide my steps, fill me up with all that carries you Jesus. Guide and protect my family; my friends and all my connections. Thank you for all I am and all I will be.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Colossians 3:13 NIV) ==== 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.
====
Isaiah 61:10 (NIV) ==== 10 I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness,
as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness,
as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
====
Ephesians 1:7-8 NIV) ==== 7 In him we have
redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the
riches of God’s grace 8 that he lavished on us. With all wisdom
and understanding,
==== Romans 5: 5 NIV) ==== 5 And hope does not
put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through
the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.
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Date: October 27, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Hebrews 4:12 (NIV) ====
For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 32:8 NIV) ====
8 I will instruct you and
teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on
you.
====
Genesis 1:1 (NIV) ====
1 In the
beginning God created the heavens and the earth.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord, for another new morning I am up. Thank you for allowing me to feel the physical and emotional pains of this life. Each new day full of opportunity of choice and will and direction in choices of which way I have control to take it.
Fighting forward despite anything that is made easy to just roll with the world or maintain faith in you and just keep moving knowing you are with me.
Please be with all your people Jesus. No matter if they know you, no matter if they have walked away, no matter if they are sitting next to Satan himself right now. Please let them feel your presence even for a moment in time to know they too still have a choice.
Guide those that choose to walk with you in their steps, that which will transpire and those that are struggling to hold on right now.
Father it says you are with the broken hearted; please may your will, your way be with all of us. Those that started out so strong and on fire that now are smoldering and lost. Those that think they know what it means to be a Christian in the world full of so much trial and temptations.
We all need you Today Jesus!
There is much I could ramble about, as I am readying to go serve. However, for me and all you allow to call my own, my blood, my friends or my family. Everything I am belongs to you Jesus.
Thank you; please guard my steps, show me the boundaries where needed, help me through the fires of this world and the choices I myself have made; or those at the hands of others.
====
Psalm 84:3 (NIV) ====
Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young— a place near your altar, Lord Almighty, my King and my God
We can’t add a single day you are not in control of; thank you God. I often refer to who will be with me physically when I am finally on the floor for such pain and loss. I have seen and experienced much that I never thought I could recover. Yet you Jesus carried me so many times. For this I am forever grateful. Please be there with all my brothers and sisters in Christ that desperately need you now and may I never forget even the sparrows do not worry for what tomorrow will bring.
I will
never doubt where my faith stands. For I know where I have been and where
only God has led me and carried out of. What I question
this afternoon that is heavy on this mind is the understanding of why I am
connected to some or even why I am given dreams.
I am a
dreamer for sure; figuratively and literally.
I
do not talk about some dreams but when I do usually there is reason to just get
them off me or when the reoccur to raise the awareness.
No, I do
not dream all the time of things that would say I can predict the future.
I am just connected sometimes more than others and with some that I will never
understand.
Thankfully
gone are the nightly over and over nightmares I from childhood through most of
my adult life I would wake up screaming and fighting to get away in my
sleep.
Sometimes in my world my subconscious still takes me back to talking and yes
been known for walking in my sleep. Crazy sure I own
it!
I have had dreams years ago as a child that I walked into a friend’s house that
was thousands of miles away and years later it happened exactly as my dream.
I wish I
could say my dreams were all that exciting; sometimes more than often they are
almost like warning’s and I wake with my heart pounding out of my chest and
soaked in sweat as if I was in the dream itself.
I
have had dreams years ago where I kept dreaming of a plane crash and back then
I didn’t travel. It was in the early 90s Christmas eve
when a charter plane made it over my apartment complex and crashed into a
parking lot on the other side in Latham NY.
Dreams
of someone getting stabbed after which the OJ / Nicole Simpson case came to
be. I would have dreams that my
neighborhood went up in flames and this one I do not know as it was around the
Rodney King era.
A couple
years ago I would be woke out of a sound sleep with a dream of a giant fireball
and I could not understand at all; During that time I also started having
repeated dreams I could not make sense of someone I had grown to truly love and
admire.
Later
the fires in California destroyed and killed so much. As for
my admiration I blew it off only later to somehow connect with someone that I
chatted with for a year or so.
Over
various things all genuine limited conversation none of which was
inappropriate, although I did not really figure out who they were they were
impersonating and pretended the soul I had a deep admiration for. There
is only been a couple of people in my walk I have had that genuine admiration
for. So, it was different than any other. Will
I ever know who it was if the feds let me know sure?
But
really it does not matter because the unfortunate part is no matter who I
connect if not in passing I always grow attached. Thus, one of my
reasons I do not stay still or try not to.
Anyway,
during this time which was a time of growth for me; I started having horrible
nightmare’s again. With that one shook me so badly one
night I half a sleep rolled over and started texting asking if they were okay
and something was going to happen to be careful.
Trying
to explain the entire dream; well when you try to explain to people, they
pretty much just think you are crazy. It did not matter I had to
raise this awareness, I had to say something.
Now
since these dreams that started almost two years ago so much has happened.
However,
months after the disconnect the dreams I was shook to the core with truly did
come true impacting life of so many.
I will
never question why God allows some things and not others; I will never
understand why I can connect or be put in front of some or removed from those I
feel a need for.
I will
never understand why I dream yet I cannot see myself progressing in some life
moments.
Driving
home today my heart hurt, never knowing who it was that tied me to this dream
and how they were connected. Heartbroken why so many must be lost,
why so much hurt must happen.
Maybe
I am an empath; maybe He has got grander plans for me; maybe
not. Maybe he allows me to be knocked off my feet and allows
me to tap this life out in black and white because someone needs to hear words
of hope.
I have
no answers for any of the overwhelming connections or dreams that come in
waves. What I do know is whatever the good Lord puts on you; do
it! Nothing just happens for a reason.
It is
okay to love and know you will never be loved. It is okay to see and
never touch, it is okay to hear and never speak and it is okay to believe and
speak the words of hope and faith in Christ and never have one soul believe
you.
For we
all will stand before the maker in the end and only He will cast the final
judgement.
So,
wherever you are; whoever you are; whatever you did with the dream I shared; I
pray you know that God has a plan and you need to stay faithful.
You are loved, you are needed, you are chosen. No
matter what you have done or have not done; make it right. Only you and
God hold the keys to change.
I do not
know why I have been pushed to share this; I do not know who reads what I write
or who does not.
My
prayers, love and belief in the creator are in the end all that really
matters. Prayers we all make it while we are here; prayers
you feel Him the maker of all the heavens picking you up off the floor when you
have the wind knocked out of you.
Prayers
till the day I die; our Sweet Soul King forever holds all who believe tighter
than ever before. For it is only His love beyond all space and time
from the depths of a soul that can never be fully explained; it is in Him that
all things are justified and all things he ultimately controls.
I am
always here, in truth, in love and in Christ.
What is that we call love that is so overstated and under rated here in this world we live.
When we think physical love is what gives us life; all it really brings is pain and sorrow in the end. To spend our days dreaming of desires that never live up to the imagination spawned. Or to think you are there and all is perfect to wake up one day and realize you are so far from the truth. That what you imagined never was.
You realize the only pain worth taking is that from the one true God.
That of God is the only thing that will be everlasting with purpose with
meaning.
Love
kind of like control when we think we have it; yet it is only an
illusion.
Love in
Christ is all that will forever matter not that of the material empty promises.
Those in
which you can communicate without a cell or technology or even needing a being
near you.
Through
Prayer. Prayer which makes a difference even when we are losing
hope for what we cannot see, touch or hear come to be.
Just
remember perhaps when we are praying for someone to be saved, or changed or in
a better place. God decides to take them home for that one on one time.
Perhaps they have greater missions to fulfill in their sickness than
fully healed. Sometimes our healing is by growing strength and
courage to keep going in all of our brokenness and accepting the blessings of
right where we are.
Not
everyone will agree; that is okay. I am not here to debate. We all
believe in something. I believe everything happens for a reason and that
Jesus is real and there is only one God. I believe in the power of
prayer and all I have seen and made it through in this journey.
Yes
sometimes life really hurts bad. But sometimes it is beyond beautiful or
explanations. In between I choose to hold tight for the love I have
found for the one who died for me.
No
matter what in between what is good what is bad. Just keep praying forward.
Just know your not alone and that there are greater things waiting for us to
shine on for. People need the love only Jesus can fill us with that is
real. People need that kind word, kind gesture, that listening ear
or story of what you have made it through. We are all in this
together and none of us are getting out alive.
Everyone
is broken and trying to make it in this world. You do not have to like
anything but we are all called to love as Jesus did. Do not confuse that
with chasing what is temporary in this world that can destroy you before you
ever even really see what life has ahead.
Stay
blessed all and never stop praying.
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Date: October 26, 2019
Weekend Services: @New Life Christian Church 10/26/2019
Tonight, we are doing the book of James and the message on Faith. We do not own rights to the worship we are covering but hope you are blessed by the service
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2523775054381642/?t=17
One thing is for sure in this world is that no one is exempt from having faith tested. I get it for those who quit. Man, alive I get it. God knows everything no matter how fair, right or justified we here on earth feel it is. Our hearts are broken, and the cuts sometimes just leave us lingering praying for death. But if God has got other plans cling to him for understanding. Pray to him for courage, for strength because none of us can change what was yesterday. We can hold onto all the brokenness and rob those around us and ourselves of so much more.
Where does your faith really stand? None of what we get is easy; if so, we would not care. This month is just hard. This year is hard. But Lord I am grateful for the little bits and pieces of light you have shined through.
It is hard watching our loved ones taken from us; it is hard watching our children crumble; it is hard knowing you are where you are and it’s not where we want to be. It is hard when we are doing our best and we are beat down and broken through our family and those we are close to.
No matter what and Lord I have been broken long before I was even allowed to speak. I can talk about what it is like being suffocated and awakened from a sound sleep being raped as a ten year old flat chested skinny kid; or still today your keeping me safe Lord by not letting me remember that period of time that is missing; what it is like to be a kid at 10 years old through my teens under the influence and all the things that go with that lifestyle or the people and what they do.
I can talk about being broken over and over; physically, emotionally, trying to race through death's door. Yet you carried me through all of it. and allow me to feel the pains of those I care for lost and taken; those that adore you Jesus also suffering from the darkest places on this earth. But Lord I have to say this I have to "Raise a Hallelujah" https://youtu.be/FRo7kFl7hBw @Bethel
I could go on and on and try to justify the extreme need for me to cling to Jesus but the bottom line is; He alone is the only one that sustains us and we have to fight forward in him daily or we lose ground and are consumed and spit out as nothing matters. If you have not met him yet or if you’re missing him. Just come to the alter he is waiting for you. “Oh Come to the Alter” https://youtu.be/PtFdQofPyfU @ Elevation Worship Only His “Reckless Love” https://youtu.be/42Z3rGYnsp4 @Cory Asbury can give you peace during the storms that come to each and every soul in this universe.
May the God of all things be with all who have left us; may you Come Jesus. This world is hard so very hard. Please protect our children because we know if Satan cannot get to us He goes after all that are not clinging to you. Even sometimes just those that need that extra hedge of protection.
Be with the four children that Tammy left behind, be with the four children Tommy left behind, be with the siblings that are left behind, the parents that are broken and lost. Be it drugs, cancer, reckless accidents or reckless abandonment. Lord this world needs you more than ever.
I need you; my family needs you. Even if they do not realize it. Thank you for always making me aware.
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 2 Timothy 3:16-17 (NIV) ====
All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== John 15:5 (NIV) ====
5 “I am the vine; you are
the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart
from me you can do nothing.
====
James 1:4 (NIV) ====
4 Let perseverance finish its
work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
====
Colossians 2:7, 1:19 (NIV) ====
2:7 rooted and built up in
him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with
thankfulness.
1:19 For God was
pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him,
Jeremiah 29:13 says, “When you
get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make
sure you won’t be disappointed” (MSG).
Our story is still being written so let’s refuse to allow unmet expectations to rob us of our joy because the best is yet to come. “Move on” @Jennifer MCalister
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Our story is still being written so let’s refuse to allow unmet expectations to rob us of our joy because the best is yet to come. “Move on” @Jennifer MCalister
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Sometimes more than not in this world we find ourselves having to fight to just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Through so many storms there is so much pain and sorrow. So much we will never understand and all of which is so unfair and kind.
Only Jesus and all he Lived, Suffered, Died and hung on that Sacrificial Cross knows all the reasons why. “Only Jesus” https://youtu.be/VXIBP2BdYR8 @Casting Crowns was the one who was put to death to come back to live in, with and for us three days later.
None of it will ever make sense to me on any given day; but I thank you Father God and the Jesus who lives deep within my heart and the depths of this soul.
Thank you through all the shattered pieces of my own life you allow me to keep fighting and growing forward in you. Thank you for allowing me to feel for those I love; those I know those I know of and all my connections.
Jesus please give them all the strength and drive to keep going in you. For those who do not yet know you; may they find you now. For those who have stepped away from you; may they come back. For those dearly loved fighting to just hold on; please be with them most.
I wish I had some magically powers or even understanding or even the understanding why I am where I am or why dream the things I dream and well. The sweetest thing I will ever know for sure is that of the love I have forever for you Jesus my Sweet Soul King. You alone have given everything beyond all space and time and no matter who gets that or who does not. I know this story for me or all who believe in you is far from over.
Sadly, you give and take away; and so be it you do not necessarily do the taking but you allow it. Just as I have been reading through JOB and the questioning of suffering. This battle has been going on long before we were ever thought of. But fighting forward and holding fast to the truth of God and all its integrity matters.
JOB 2:1-3 (NIV)
On another day the angels[a] came to present
themselves before the Lord, and
Satan also came with them to present himself before him. 2 And
the Lord said to Satan, “Where
have you come from?” Satan answered the Lord,
“From roaming throughout the earth, going back and forth on it.”
3 Then the Lord
said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth
like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil. And
he still maintains his integrity, though you incited me against him to ruin him
without any reason.”
So many will never hold on; so many are going through the unfairness of this world and all we can do is fight forward or give up and let the world count it as another one added to the mountain high of statics lost.
No
matter how hard it is we must have faith and hold on. No matter if what we hope
for comes to be or not. No matter what is given or taken there will never
be anything worth more than that of a life in Christ. I do
not know how I know this; I can only tell you the broken pieces of what it is
like before and after finding the love of God is meant for me and all of
us. “Broken Things” https://youtu.be/WdUu6ZsdVfM @ Matthew West
I
can only tell you for the more we trust and believe in Christ; more brokenness
reveals itself. But someone somewhere needs the strength of
those who can hold on and keep going towards the son.
Never
will it be easy; but life without faith, life without God in the depths of your
being is not something anyone can survive. Life is what it is until it’s
not. If life is so hard here and now; I do not want to have to worry
where I am going when I get to the other side. I may be far from
perfect, but I will never stop trying to do all that is right walking with that
moral compass. I have done my wrong in this life and I have come back up
out of that water with His promise and I am and always will be carried by the
grace of God.
Hebrews 11:1-3(NIV) Faith in Action Now faith is confidence in what we hope
for and assurance about what we do not see. 2 This is
what the ancients were commended for. 3 By
faith we understand that the universe was formed at God’s command, so that what
is seen was not made out of what was visible.
Prayers for all going through it; prayers for
those that have given away so much of everything they are that are left to
battle harder than ever for reason to go forward. Prayers for the
McKeehan family and all the servants of God that sacrifice daily and suffer
losses along everyone else. Lord your will be done
alone; show us who you really are. In Jesus might name and sacrifice for
the blood that has washed us clean. It is only you that can heal
the brokenness and use it for your Glory.
Be with all who are holding on by that thread; be
with all who have given up and be with trying to shine the light for others to
find you.
May we all dare to be
“Different” https://youtu.be/XFT0zoKQWaM @Micha Tyler in
you alone Father God!
Romans 12:2 (NIV) 2 Do
not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of
your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve
what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
There are no words or deeds that I could ever say
or do to make the pain go away that those that have touched my
life.
There will
never be any understanding why bad things happen to good people or good things
seem to thrive in those always doing bad things. What I do
know there are some that come in my life that have given me life without even a
single action; just their spirit. There are those who I wish my
prayers could change time and give them back all the good they had before
darkness set in.
Only our God can heal all
wounds; my prayer and love for all my beloved is that you feel His healing here
and now and know you are not alone in this storm.
Never forget who you are in Christ Alone and he
is everywhere in this “Atmosphere” https://youtu.be/H22VGE2_64k @Toby Mac Feat DC Talk
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Date: October 25, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Ephesians 5:19-20 (NIV) ====
speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Matthew 1:21, 23 (NIV) ====
21 She will give birth to
a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus,[a] because he will save his
people from their sins.” 23 “The virgin will
conceive and give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel”[a] (which means “God with
us”).
====
Acts 2:28 (NIV) ====
28 You have made known to me
the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence.’[a]
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Lord, though I am not finding any energy or light in today’s verses knowing the heaviness in this world continues to leave its mark. I do know it is more than just knowing you are the god of all things.
Your name alone; Jesus, the Lord saves; and Immanuel, God with us. The word, the life the truth and the way. Even on days when you just get tired of the heaviness in this world. We will never feel what you did; giving up your own son; but on days when we experience the loss of one of our own it comes beyond reality we can bare, and the sting never goes away.
For this for Jesus and what He took to that cross so I could have another day of opportunity using the freedom of will and choice each day we are given. For this I am thankful.
No matter what Jesus, “Blessed Be Your Name” https://youtu.be/heRHeX23r70 @Chris Tomlin
As I woke this morning at two A.M. then going back to bed at least ten times. I just could not get the words you remind me that You give and take away. Knowing no matter what my heart will choose to stay.
I just pray all those that are in that valley have your strength and courage to not give up and give in.
There is no comfort or reason we can tell anyone how to hold on when the loss or the cuts leave us on the floor; we only know it is you that is always there to pick us back up; when we allow you to.
Be with my brothers and sisters going through the fires Father; today, tomorrow and all the days you allow to keep coming. Be with me and my own. My blood, my connections all those I have grown to love all those I have let in.
“10000 Reasons” https://youtu.be/DXDGE_lRI0E @Matt Redman “Bless The Lord” I worship your Holy Name.
I wish I could understand or even give reason why I am feeling this way this morning; I just know all I have been led through you have always been with me. My emotions will never stop for what I go through or feel for others.
My prayers Lord; please hear my heart and all those who are calling you this day. Lord we want healing and peace; but if you need to get our attention, if you need us to see something that is next. Father “Bring the Rain” https://youtu.be/JtjxCx-7Hps @Mercy Me
Please forgive all who have transgressed upon me and my life and done harm; forgive me for doing any such thing to anyone. Most importantly, please forgive me and all I am connected that have ever done anything in offense or transgressed against you Jesus.
Thank you for all you are in the good, the bad and indifferent.
Lord
what a mess this worldly life can be for anyone of us. Jesus, I pray for
your peace and comfort in all the storms; in all the fires and all the
unforeseen losses. I pray we lean into you for whatever it takes and not
be sucked in by the world as we are going through this. I pray for all I
know; all I do not know all I love. I pray your will Father God and
sometimes we will never understand; but we know you have your hands all over
it. I pray for our children and their souls. I don't want to just
exist father.
Consume me and all I know from the “Inside Out" https://youtu.be/i-9mUDbGsEk @HillSong.
Consume me and all I know from the “Inside Out" https://youtu.be/i-9mUDbGsEk @HillSong.
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Date: October 24, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
It has been a weird kind of couple days. First of all, I want to say thank you Jesus for allowing me up and giving me the opportunities to do what I do and keep on pushing through.
Last night I came home from serving at kid’s ministry and man it was a beautiful time. Love those littles and all I serve with. But as I crawled into bed stretching out between the sheets, I had this peacefulness I could not explain but also just a sudden sadness over me. I could not explain it so I had to write about it. But as my heart was leaking out, I just could not think of anything but the losses I have personally known and all those yet to come.
I am thankful father for each new day you allow me up. For this I will always be grateful as I know the alternative and I know where I have been and what I have in you. Ever slight breath I get is because of you. Nothing will change where my help comes from or who sustains me.
However, no matter how grateful I am especially last night I know there will be so many that never get to feel your peace and love because of their own choices or just where they are, and no one has shined your light yet.
There will be many that once walked with you pretty much their entire existence and they will fall away because of that freedom of will and choice and there will be others that will never have the chance to meet you.
I think about the beautiful souls that I have personally known and lost; those I did battle for those even before I walked with you that I tried so hard to save; those that I have known since know where my help comes from.
All those beautiful souls lost that I loved and adored or barely knew. None of it mattered when it came to the pains you feel of that shattered glass piercing your soul.
Oh, how I wish things could have been different; so much beauty and talent; so much promise of all that could have been for them.
Perhaps God needed them back in his time is what really saved them in the end; something I will never know or understand!
Last night was just a reality check for what has been and the way it works here on earth. It does not mean I do not miss them. Oh, if only I knew then what I know now maybe I could of helped differently and not been so enabling. Maybe things are just how they were going to be no matter what.
These feelings of how I miss all who have went ahead and all the simple things we use to share just sitting next to each other, the laughter, the tears oh those tears that last night I do not know why were just silently streaming down my cheeks.
I feel like it was yesterday the last time laughed, talked, danced did stupid crazy fun stuff. Like you are right next to me but as I look around you are nowhere near to be found.
My family, my friends, my connections all those I grew attached with and here I am but where are you. I still pray and wish you are somewhere at peace; somewhere good wherever you ended up.
I hope to see you again someday; but because I know some of you left before I could tell you about Jesus; others did not want to hear and those of you that did I will see you on the other side.
I wish I could just sit next to you all and reminisce right here right now; sharing all the wonders and blessings I have been allowed. Share all the love that God has for everyone. I wish you knew how much you are worth and loved before you gave up and this world and the life you choose took you.
Saddened, but so full of peace last night; that unexplainable peace and love that fills me up when it is so dark and weary around me.
What are these feelings trying to warn me of Father God; what are the dreams that come to pass; these connections that come and steal more of my soul and leave me here. What is supposed to be I wonder.
If wishes were horses; nevertheless, God has things just the way they should be; he never said we would not experience tragedy and losses. Especially when our own free will takes us out in the world and not doing all we can to live obediently in faith.
What does that really mean in the end anyway sometimes I wonder? Truly I never want to lose the blessings I have found; but sometimes it hurts so bad to remember who you are and what life was like when you were here and how you left. None of us really know until we get there if we will see you again.
I believe in you Jesus, I believe there is a heaven just as I remembered that day my dear friend was baptized and the rainbow was above and again the day you took him home and he had a huge smile on his face.
I pray always my sweet loves; and I miss you all more. I have no one that I can just hang with anymore since you have left. But know this; I am in a better place. I will always keep fighting forward no matter what or where; I know God is not done making me over even if I may never understand His plans then or now.
What I do know is today it was a busy slammed day with work and productivity. Taking care of things when I finally took a break and looked at my phone and seen the news a sword just cut through me all over again.
Reading the heartbreaking news that another beautiful soul and His family of God have lost their child far too soon.
The admiration and adoration I have for this artist and all he has done for the world with his faith and perseverance. Love from the inside out that only God knows and understands. Had to cancel his current tour and get back to the rest of the family because his baby, his first born has been taken from this world.
Lord be with Toby Mac and the entire McKeehan family; please hear the crying out and prayers from all who love and appreciate this family and hold them closer than ever before. Father there is nothing in this world that could ever be done for anyone to deserve a loss of their child.
Yet; you gave your own so this world could have life. The truth hurts even when we know we deserve nothing.
Father this world is hard, and it is beyond the scars. I do not know why I felt as I did last night but I know how heart breaking this news is.
I know even when life is not what we dream, desire imagine or write about. Each new day you allow us up; we are blessed! I know the darkness does not get a chance to win in the end, unless we allow it to.
Even when it seems it already has, and the pain and sorrow are suffocating us.
We are blessed with freedoms of will and choices to lean in and take our days head on knowing it is you that sustains us; and nothing happens that you have not already known. It is you that will sustain us in the good times and in the tragic losses.
We can choose to push forward and keep seeking new opportunities to reflect you; or on the other hand we can bury our abilities, potential opportunities in that proverbial sand hiding behind what was, and allow ourselves to be paralyzed allowing darkness to think it has won. Or we can get face down and know we need to pray harder and fight are way forward in and with you.
In the end the darkness will lose, and the Son will shine as dawn arises. But we must hold tight to you; and pray for our brothers and sisters when they have the wind knocked out of them.
We need to shine on for and with you God and at least try to make our own sunshine to share with all we connect; even if we are the only one’s who appreciate the light.
Lord, my life oh it has had so many scars and shattered pieces; and my life has nothing to do with my family of Christ; Yet it has everything to do with all this spiritual warfare and what it is doing to our families.
Those silent tears and today’s tragic news and all the memories of watching my own losses even the times where I came so close to losing my babies.
Life is not fair, but the war has already been won; nowhere is it written does it say life will not hurt.
Jesus! Jesus! Jesus!
My heart aches for all who have gone before me; for all those suffering losses; for all the good that we try to do along the way and something dark and terrible overshadows you father.
Please hear my prayers and all our family in Christ; Lord my heartfelt condolences and calls for comfort, peace and you wrapping around this family and the loss of the their first born.
Never will there be any amount of anything that can ever remove the pain we feel at the loss of those we love; those that are bone of our bone and blood of our blood.
Please comfort, heal and protect Toby, Amanda and the siblings to the Truett. Please enable them to adjust and know you are with them always in this new normal the world has brought to them.
May the same God of Abraham, the same God of all we are; carry the McKeehan family and all those suffering losses that will never stop hurting. May that same God hold this family and all those in need close than we have ever known.
Dear God, I know all in the world need you more than ever; nothing hurts more than what you give only to take away.
This world is getting darker; please Lord may this family never close the door to you. Sometimes you save us by allowing us to go; those that are left behind will never understand but the faith in you is all there is to keep us going. Lord “I Need You” we all need you. Please come! https://youtu.be/LuvfMDhTyMA @Matt Maher
I know this is what it means to be “Held” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJhsexd8Qqg @Natalie Grant
Thank you, Jesus, for all you give; thank you for what you take; please be with all of us helping us to know you and understand. Please be with your minister of peace and hope in the world of music; please be with all that love and adore him to allow him his space to mourn and heal but not too much that he and the family lose the way in the desert away from all that matters with and for you; in Jesus name alone.
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Proverbs 9:10 (NIV) ====
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.
==== Proverbs 9:10 (MSG) ==== If you reason with an arrogant cynic, you’ll get slapped in the face; confront bad behavior and get a kick in the shins. So don’t waste your time on a scoffer; all you’ll get for your pains is abuse. But if you correct those who care about life, that’s different—they’ll love you for it! Save your breath for the wise—they’ll be wiser for it; tell good people what you know—they’ll profit from it. Skilled living gets its start in the Fear-of-God, insight into life from knowing a Holy God. It’s through me, Lady Wisdom, that your life deepens, and the years of your life ripen. Live wisely and wisdom will permeate your life; mock life and life will mock you.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 23:1-3 (NIV) ====
A psalm of David.
1 The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.2 He
makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
==== Psalm 23:1-3 (MSG) ==== A David Psalm
23 1-3 God, my shepherd! I don’t need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
you find me quiet pools to drink from. True to your word, you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.
you find me quiet pools to drink from. True to your word, you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.
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Genesis 2:2-3 (NIV) ====
2 By the seventh day God had
finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all
his work. 3 Then God blessed the seventh day and made it holy,
because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done.
==== Genesis
2:2-3 (MSG) ==== 2-4 By the seventh day
God
had finished his work. On the seventh day he rested from all his work.
God blessed the seventh
day. He made it a Holy Day Because on that day he rested from his
work, all the creating God had done.
This is the story of how it all started, of Heaven
and Earth when they were created.
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Luke 1:79 (NIV) ====
79 to shine on those living in
darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the path of peace.”
====
Luke 1:79 (MSG) ==== 67-79 Then Zachariah was filled
with the Holy Spirit and prophesied, Blessed be the Lord, the God of
Israel; he came and set his people free.
He set the power of salvation in the center of our
lives, and in the very house of David his servant, Just as he promised
long ago through the preaching of his holy prophets:
Deliverance from our enemies and every hateful
hand; Mercy to our fathers,
as he remembers to do what
he said he’d do, What he swore to our father Abraham—
a clean rescue from the
enemy camp, So we can worship him without a care in the world,
made holy before him as
long as we live. And you, my child, “Prophet of the Highest,” will go
ahead of the Master to prepare his ways, Present the offer of salvation to his
people,
the forgiveness of their
sins. Through the heartfelt mercies of our God,
God’s Sunrise will break in
upon us, Shining on those in the darkness,
those sitting in the shadow
of death, Then showing us the way, one foot at a time,
down the path of peace.
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2 Thessalonians 3:16 (NIV) ====
Final Greetings
16 Now may the Lord of peace
himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of
you.
====
2 Thessalonians 3:16 (MSG) ==== 16 May the Master of
Peace himself give you the gift of getting along with each other at all times,
in all ways. May the Master be truly among you! you’ll get for your pains is
abuse. But if you correct those who care about life, that’s different—they’ll
love you for it! Save your breath for the wise—they’ll be wiser for it; tell
good people what you know—they’ll profit from it. Skilled living gets its start
in the Fear-of-God, insight into life from knowing a Holy God. It’s through me,
Lady Wisdom, that your life deepens, and the years of your life ripen. Live
wisely and wisdom will permeate your life; mock life and life will mock you.
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Date: October 23, 2019
10/23/2019 Cruising with Kelly: https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2516632001762614/
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Galatians 6:2 (NIV) ====
Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ
===== Galatians 6:2 (MSG) ==== Nothing but the Cross
6 1-3 Live creatively, friends. If someone falls into sin, forgivingly restore him, saving your critical comments for yourself. You might be needing forgiveness before the day’s out. Stoop down and reach out to those who are oppressed. Share their burdens, and so complete Christ’s law. If you think you are too good for that, you are badly deceived.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====John 17:20-23 (NIV) ==== Jesus Prays for All Believers
20 “My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, 21 that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. 22 I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one— 23 I in them and you in me—so that they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.
====John 17:20-23 (MSG) ==== 20-23 I’m praying not only for them
But also for those who will believe in me. Because of them and their witness about me.
The goal is for all of them to become one heart and mind—
Just as you, Father, are in me and I in you, So they might be one heart and mind with us.
Then the world might believe that you, in fact, sent me.
The same glory you gave me, I gave them, So they’ll be as unified and together as we are—
I in them and you in me. Then they’ll be mature in this oneness,
And give the godless world evidence That you’ve sent me and loved them
In the same way you’ve loved me.
====Psalm 16:11 (NIV) ==== 11 You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
====Psalm 16:11 (NKJV) ==== 11 You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
====Psalm 16:11 (MSG) ==== 11 Now you’ve got my feet on the life path, all radiant from the shining of your face. Ever since you took my hand, I’m on the right way.
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Perspective and interpretation can make or break your motivation, your will, and your spirit. Find what is good, what is pure, what is truth and grow forward.
Do not let negative consume you! Every day you are given a new start there is an abundance of opportunities to go out and make life happen.
Thanks @TobyMac https://youtu.be/T--uwuhMju4
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Date: October 22, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Proverbs 15:23 (NIV) ====
A person finds joy in giving an apt reply— and how good is a timely word!
===== Proverbs 15:23 (MSG) ====
23 Congenial conversation—what a pleasure!
The right word at the right time—beautiful!
===== Proverbs 15:23 (NKJV) ====
23 A man has joy by the answer of his
mouth, And a word spoken [a]in due season, how good it is!
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Psalm 21: 6 (NIV)
6 Surely you have granted him unending blessings and made him glad with the joy of your presence.
===== Psalm 21: 6 (MSG) A David Psalm ====
21 1-7 Your strength, God, is the king’s strength. Helped, he’s hollering Hosannas.
You gave him exactly what he wanted; you didn’t hold back.
You filled his arms with gifts; you gave him a right royal welcome.
He wanted a good life; you gave it to him, and then made it a long life as a bonus.
You lifted him high and bright as a cumulus cloud, then dressed him in rainbow colors.
You pile blessings on him; you make him glad when you smile.
Is it any wonder the king loves God? that he’s sticking with the Best?
=====Proverbs 2:4 (NIV) ====
4 and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure,
=====Proverbs 2:4 (MSG) Make Insight Your Priority ====
2 1-5 Good friend take to heart what I’m telling you; collect my counsels and guard them with your life. Tune your ears to the world of Wisdom; set your heart on a life of Understanding.
That’s right—if you make Insight your priority, and won’t take no for an answer, Searching for it like a prospector panning for gold, like an adventurer on a treasure hunt, Believe me, before you know it Fear-of-God will be yours; you’ll have come upon the Knowledge of God.
==== Luke 12:22-28 (NIV) Do Not Worry ====
22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life[a]? 26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
==== Luke 12:22-28 (MSG) Steep Yourself in God-Reality ====
22-24 He continued this subject with his disciples. “Don’t fuss about what’s on the table at mealtimes or if the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your inner life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the ravens, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, carefree in the care of God. And you count far more.
25-28 “Has anyone by fussing before the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? If fussing can’t even do that, why fuss at all? Walk into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They don’t fuss with their appearance—but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them. If God gives such attention to the wildflowers, most of them never even seen, don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you?
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Each new day you get me up Lord, you remind me just how much this day; another new day that is filled with so many new opportunities.
Thank you! Yes, interpretation is everything when it comes to directing our steps. We must purpose to grow forward and let go of what was, what is, what is not what never should be.
We need to allow all the pains and sorrows of let downs, mishaps, humiliation, our ill feelings being sickness, brokenness or just unable to get out of our own way. Hang on that sacrificial cross with you as you intended, Jesus~
Finding ourselves for the better of what you have created us to be in you alone Christ.
No is it easy; I know for me absolutely not!
With all the elements of the world, the people, places and things beating on us day in and day out.
We must always purpose to be that lighthouse that stands tall and weathers the storms even when we are being chipped away tattered and broken.
Not everyone will ever come close to see the beauty and purpose that that lighthouse stands for. Nor will they see what we stand for with you.
However, it is not up to them to decide what you have already ordained for each one of our futures. It is up to us to choose what we want to do with any given day you allow us.
It is up to each individual, (us) how we use the freedom of will and choice that you allow.
How what we choose, will determine if we push through or paralyze ourselves in that, which can steal our life.
It will never be easy, we know just like trying to be healthy and selecting all that is organic and real, not filled with chemicals, poisons preservatives. That as there is much rotten fruit even in the most current garden to pick from; we know that not everything is meant to be consumed and part of our being.
There are no doubts that we may become weary trying to stay clear and not rub up on what can damage us.
No matter how we plan, and even pray sometimes we try to get things done in a hurry, so things are not wasted.
However, you remind me daily; what was yesterday has to be tossed out today and we should not try to store it up any what was not nourishing for our mind, body and soul. As much like a garden it only breeds weeds to entangle us and strangles any new promises for that new dawn and beginning of tomorrows when you allow us to awaken one more day.
Thank you, Jesus, for never growing weary on me!
Thank you as you never give up or give in against your children Father. You are always there to sustain us.
I cannot prove to anyone anything when it comes to you Lord.
I can only share my experiences, my blessings, my opportunities, and my lessons in this life. In addition, that it is you who daily allows me to keep on sucking air in these lungs.
Moreover, seeing first-hand the many blessings and true responses to so much of what this life could have been.
I know that on the day you no longer allow air in these lungs here on earth I have truly made it to the other side and will be with you throughout eternity.
I pray Father God; that it is you alone that I always remember; you alone guide and protect my steps and hold me up as so many times I get myself caught up, or lose myself. More importantly you that provides the will and the way that I never lose my soul to this world.
Please Guard my lips, my heart, and my steps. Allow me to step up where needed and sit down until you call me to do so. Wash out, shake out and hang out all that is truth in me, with me and for me in your will not my own.
Thank you for this day; thank you for allowing the knowledge to grow forward in you; to know perspective, purpose, perception of all things that teeters on the edge of choices we allow our self to act upon.
Thank you for carrying me when I fall all over myself not knowing but still trusting in you no matter what.
Be with all I am connected and all those that I will come to know. In your precious will, name and the blood that has washed me clean. Thank you.
I'm reading the @www.bible.com A plan named “Move On”
===========I said a Prayer (@AlwaysMeKelly)============
I said a prayer for you deep down from the depths of my soul
I said a
prayer for you fill with much love and prayers to fill you up too
I said a
prayer for you, no matter what you know you matter most
I said a
prayer for you, you may not be present, but you are alive and not a ghost
I said a
prayer that you that you find your peace within
I said a
prayer for you, that you alone know what it means to be loved and alive with
Him
I said a
prayer for you, that you never forget, but you always forgive
I said a
prayer for you, forever in my soul you with God shall always live
I said a
prayer for you, no matter what is not, you know first-hand to be loved by the
hands of God
NOT-- Cruising with Kelly: 10/22/2019
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