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Date: 06/06/2020 Saturday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/jdDa1wv22o0
“Something Just Like This” @The Chainsmokers -
Coldplay
https://youtu.be/yVjjuOqMQIw
“Wake Me Up” @AVICII
https://youtu.be/0wjXM8K10fI
“Counting
Stars” @OneRepublic
https://youtu.be/0mo8OxWgk8k
“Wanna
Be Happy” @Kirk
Franklin
https://youtu.be/LzguGPYYeTY
“Let It
Rain” @Crowder
ft. Mandisa
https://youtu.be/X2FqFLKisys
“Eye Of
The Storm” @Ryan
Stevenson
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you
for this new day of opportunities, the air in my lungs and the choices you
allow me to make and own.
Be
it this lazy day where going back under
the covers seemed the best option or running around finding things to get busy
with.
As the
rain comes down, birds singing loud, kids running around in the rain playing laughing
with the puppy. All the chaos of the
world is silenced knowing right here right now is what matters in the hearts that
are pumping.
No matter
what this or any mind maze while trying to understand and have the best life we
possibly can.
No matter
if who has done what, which dreams were crushed or stolen they are not, you are
not done yet.
Rise up
even if just for the space you are in; rise up and know you matter.
Be it for
a brief smile across someone’s lips as they hear your name, think of your
spirit your soul. Be it for all God has
created for you to be and do, be it for
who is right next to you.
Rise up
with no fear, letting the tears of strength and courage wash through all that
ever was. As I am at His feet or at the
cross. I know who sustains me, who
will never stop loving me for me. For
this I will do what I can, when I can, where I can with or without who I can.
Waving at
the yesterdays, the dreams that once allowed me to make someone, something more
than what it should have been, smiling for the lessons along the way.
In love
with the promise, dreaming every step of the way.
Knowing
the truth, as I know who I am; do you really know you. Not who you pretend to be, absolutely not
what you do.
I have
let you inside this mind, this spirit is flying high. Now it is up to God and you. Not for me. No expectations, never really ever. Just one key factor. Truth!
You are
beautiful, if it is not working, no one can fix that but you.
In this
bubble, or unrest. The choices are yours;
the choices are mine. Thoughts run
wild, as we evaluate what it is that brings out the best. There is no mistake we are, we should be,
should do everything in love. That is by
our creator’s design.
What is
it that brings you to the brink, releasing all you are, releasing your mind,
releasing your spirit flying high?
In the
arms of who you feel an angel, children, them park rides. Running as fast as you can that last
mile. Strumming the strings, feeling
the beat, feeling the base. How about just
looking into someone’s soul while seeing their face.
Love that
we have so under rated, over acted and thrown away according to what we think
we know as we walk our own created lines.
Love is
all of it, sacrificial, never changing despite the circumstances, happenstances,
or time.
God is love,
and when we find ourselves seeking His promises, we cannot be consumed by the
lies.
But no
matter what we allow ourselves to give, no matter what we take. Finding peace, calming the addictions,
avoiding those empty promises allowing our thoughts to take us solely to who
could be our kryptonite.
I want
something just like this. I do not need a
superhero or with superhero gifts. Just
someone I can miss, someone wanting to take the risk. Blessed another day, blessed all my life
even when I took some pretty hard hits. Life can be what you make it, life is what it
is. UNTIL IT IS NOT!
We all
have a time stamp in and a stamp out, that magical dash in the middle no matter
how short or long in between. Wake
me up; oh, if I could be 20 years younger and know all I know now. Feel all I feel now, handle things now that I
am found then when I did not know I was lost.
Recycle
save the planet or just ourselves.
Careful what your next step is when you walk away from what is not working
in purity, and how you dreamed. Sometimes just jumping into filling in that
gap means we find that someone with commonalties and we run with it only to
find one of you did not really openly communicate what your vision board of
your heart, your mind your dreams looked
like.
Sometimes
when you look past what is right in front of you, We just forget to breathe. Missing you, missing me. Time stands still for no one! Tomorrow is never promised, so do your best
with what you are given to work with.
Make it happen, make it count for even when you are losing sleep
counting stars. Being thankful for
the lessons you learn.
People, places,
and things can all be replaced; we, it is all temporary. Where is your soul going, who will it
forever be connected with as you go there?
Thinking out
loud, sometimes in Cruising with Kelly, sometimes just here in black and white. Blessed for a gift that almost broke a 12-year-old
girl. When those she ran and hung out
with found writings, publicly broadcasting to the group we were part of.
Oh, how
even back then just wanting someone to love me. Over time the world was filled with this or
that, those thinking flattery and gifts were what gives the right to take for
granted, use and abuse what God meant for eternity.
Life once
maybe even twice. None of it matters as
we say goodbye to yesterday’s dreams, smiling and thanking God for the lessons.
Love with
all you are in your music, in your writing, in your acting, in your
relationships. Without
expectations. If someone cannot just be true
if they cannot just be or want, you for you.
It truly is their loss. Not a
reflection of you.
Yes, that
is a hard pill to swallow and move on. But
that soul that once was that friend, that go to for advice or just hanging
out. Unfortunately, they and their
children are lost to the darkness of this world. Consumed and dysfunctional just waiting for
time to check out.
I am
guessing as I know not; waiting for the misdeeds to be called out at
judgement. Not just for the path they
took so long ago; but every step of every way they harmed or hurt others.
Me, here
I am never saying I do not care about what others think. I am far more that anything in this world. As I have learned we are not defined by this
world or even the mistakes we make. No
matter the reason we make them.
We are
blessed children of God if we open that door and allow peace to pour in and all
that is broken all that hurts all that can drive us crazy go back to the cross.
Hard to
explain and not it does not stop the dreams from coming. It does however allow your heart to smile and
warm you through with a peace that nothing can take unless you let it.
You see,
I just want to be happy. If things are
not allowing me to find it; I need to change it. If I keep give my heart to those who only want
to use it up and tear it apart. It is
my mistake I need to learn from and change it.
We cannot
allow the world or anything happening to harden who we are meant to be; we need
to find peace and love in all things and never hate. It takes work, even just for us. But what you do not step out, step up and purpose
to grow forward. You will never know.
So, in my
brief moments of promise, thoughts of bliss.
Tracing the lines or connecting the dots. No matter what is or is not. Jesus is everything if you dive in and allow
life in truth through John 3:16.
No matter
what is, no matter what is not, no matter what may be.
Thank You! As I smile because I
know to whom I belong. Forever Blessed!
https://youtu.be/rGKfrgqWcv0 “I Will Wait” @Mumford and Sons
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version,
TBT-The Passion Translation)
Ecclesiastes 7:1-13 (NIV) Wisdom 7 A good name is better than fine perfume, and the
day of death better than the day of birth. 2 It is better to go to a house of mourning than to go
to a house of feasting, for death is
the destiny of everyone; the living should take this to heart.
3 Frustration is better than laughter, because a
sad face is good for the heart.
4 The heart of the wise is in the house of
mourning, but the heart of fools is in the house of pleasure. 5 It is better to heed the rebuke of a wise
person
than to listen to the song of fools. 6 Like the crackling of thorns under the pot,
so is the laughter of fools.
This
too is meaningless. 7 Extortion turns a wise
person into a fool,
and a bribe corrupts the heart. 8 The end of a matter is better than its beginning,
and patience is better than pride. 9 Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit,
for anger resides in the lap of fools.
and a bribe corrupts the heart. 8 The end of a matter is better than its beginning,
and patience is better than pride. 9 Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit,
for anger resides in the lap of fools.
10 Do not say, “Why were
the old days better than these?”
For it is not wise to ask such questions. 11 Wisdom, like an inheritance, is a good thing and benefits those who see the sun. 12 Wisdom is a shelter as money is a shelter,
but the advantage of knowledge is this: Wisdom preserves those who have it.
For it is not wise to ask such questions. 11 Wisdom, like an inheritance, is a good thing and benefits those who see the sun. 12 Wisdom is a shelter as money is a shelter,
but the advantage of knowledge is this: Wisdom preserves those who have it.
13 Consider what God has
done: Who
can straighten what
he has made crooked?
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Date: 06/05/2020 Friday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/WpYeekQkAdc “Where
Is The Love” @The Black-Eyed Peas
https://youtu.be/dJvLE3jJq20 “Killing Me Softly” @Fugees
https://youtu.be/swHSPEDtnho “No
Woman, No Cry” @Bob Marley and the
Wailers
https://youtu.be/a1fFkPtOojQ “See The Light” @TobyMac
https://youtu.be/Gdu8M2val_w “John Cougar, John Deer, John 3:16” @Keith Urban
https://youtu.be/CxBniX1MUi0 “Habit Of You @Keith Urban
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Up
another day, birds singing, life moving about.
Blessed to have the opportunity to choose.
Many do
not get that choice. So many in this
overflowing world of personalities, dreams, schemes, and visions. So many do not get to choose. Babies and children harmed, tortured,
murdered without a second thought.
Elders
that gave everything now abused in nursing homes or even by their own family
members that stepped in to care for them.
Everyone
chasing the almighty dollar and not caring who they put in harm’s way to get
there. Stealing identities, stealing
life not even caring who they harm or getup in their face.
Under the
influence of something absolutely. Not
necessarily the chemicals we pump into our bodies as we think are harmless
socialization or just in that empty building tying off shooting up.
What is
it that we are trying so hard to find and why are we allowing ourselves to be
so angry to take it out on what cannot defend itself or talk reason to us?
We have
everything at times and all the time to many.
But it is never enough.
Where is
your love God, we have been singing this for so exceedingly long?
Where is
the love of those, we fall desperately for to wake up one day and no one or the
other just do not, cannot work our way through?
Things
change all the time. People
appreciate and will spend time with you as they need you or feed their
curiosity or demons. When something
better comes, or they just get bored you roll over alone.
Far from
perfect as the only thing that makes it so is the fact that God gave his
Perfect son for us to meet and walk with through all the storms. His love alone reflects light through the
darkest moments. Filling us with hope
allowing us the mercy and grace we will never deserve.
So be it the
wealthy rich wife having the affair with the husband’s best friend, lawyer or
next-door neighbor. Or the husband
being the collector and collecting broken hearts along the way for their own
satisfaction. Few and far between are
we ever what we truly start out to be.
Even
those who walk with Jesus morning noon and night fall from the darkened vision
that cracks allowing pieces of them, pieces of me to seep through. Grasping for the better. Grasping to just make that which went
wrong so long ago right throughout eternity.
For me
that which is that Agape love: selfless love of one person for another
without sexual implications (especially love that is spiritual in nature) agape
love - a strong positive emotion of regard and affection.
That love that never changes no matter what we say, what we
do, what we look like. God’s love filled
with passion, compassion and never ending wanting that monogamous
adventure. Held together by the one
that allows us air in our lungs any day we get up. Where everything else is the icing to any
cake. Just knowing the pulse that
races each thought, each look each moment you know that you may get mad, but
never will you get even for the wrong doings weak minded actions transpire.
Dreamer absolutely, even my mean spirited ex-husband use to
tell me to quit reading books that I lived in a fantasy land just to want that
one in agreement to always work it out no matter how many wrestling matches it
takes to figure out the next best step and position.
Not cruel, not constantly finding the faults because of our
own inadequacies. Oh yes, wanting that
white picket fence and that good-looking bad boy husband of mine to be so into
me as I was in him. But brokenness
that consumed him long before I met who he really was. The demons just would not release him. His pain and anger maybe from the
military, maybe just bad juju flowing in his veins. Although I was a young hopeful kid
believing all that anyone said, and he was going to change my world and always
be there.
I should have seen
the signs, even after the divorce years after marrying my friend that I
knew since I was 13 years old. How
foolish without God and real conversation and relationship things can turn out.
Some friends are just friends forever and despite either of
your best intentions should never marry if you are not in love and have that
same desire and common goals. No matter
how much you want to repay kindness and help as friends. Do not marry and think it will work
out.
Yes, it was the least I could do back then marrying my
friend for all he helped put me back together again when I was so broken from
my divorce. I loved him and we did
awesome things together. But we never
loved each other. In fact, as we had our
home, he was setting up another with his lover. No do not feel bad, what does not kill us
only teaches us lessons and grows us forward.
Here today thinking of friendships that make you want so
badly that never-ending story. Taking
me back old-school through some times that will forever be a part of who has
allowed me to know why it is okay to stand in obedience and want pure truth and
love even if it means you find it only through spirituality.
Despite any broken dreams, good friends we had and good friends
we lost. Just keep sipping on God’s red
wind. That which flows from the blood His son Jesus pours out for us even
today. Imagination tracing the lines,
far beyond being out rhythmed or rhymed.
Leaving no room to hate and when we ask to see through the
eyes of Jesus. Know the tears will flow
without even trying. But in Him
everything will always be alright.
I myself can only pray all that I have ever been even for
that season, split second all my good intentions. Have planted at least something in the
depths of God’s promise that life that is imperfect will and can grow something
good, something better.
That which God himself allows and reveals and that which I
learn along the way. Nothing ever just
happens without a reason. So, no matter
if I am fully aware and see the light and am spiritually fed by something far
greater than any human on this earth.
Through all or any brokenness that brings us to our
knees. On those days when we just do not
know if we can pick ourselves back up.
To Ripcord and The Grace of God.
The spirit fighting forward for a love of laughter, tears madness,
touch, taste ability to just inhale who you really are. Running the strings or the keys lifting
the voice as we deeply breathe in as our hearts racing through time with
desires of all that is forever in such urgency pushing the world so far behind
as Jesus Himself reaches down from the sky.
Breathing in rhythm never allowing the world to make us
grow old. Knowing who, when even if we
do not know really fully understand why He chose us.
Bride of Christ so be it; filled by the Prince of Peace all
waiting to serve my own Sweet Soul King.
The spirits above, the spirits below; they all know what is wrong and
right. No matter who is trying to get a
piece of what will never be. Through
the eyes of God. I see forever you and
me.
From the Eagles to Bob Marley, to Yanni crossing the world
of Santana. Hip Hop, funk, rocking on
in sweet melodies to rhythm and blues.
That which plays out in this dream this song. Will always be blessed far greater than any
me or you.
It all matters even
the wasted time. Life, love lost;
forever is nailed on that cross.
Heal us Father God far more than we can see!
Thank you for the whispers to this heart through the blood
that flows in each of our souls. Jesus
if it means to come down for us now.
Make it real, make it happen. Be
with each of us.
May the suffering of this nation heal the darkness. Show me how to be all that is needed. Show me how to lead.
Thank you for this day and all that will come or go away.
Jesus, we acknowledge this is a fallen world we have been given
to live in. Abnormal, tainted, colored
in with so many choices that can lead us to and through sin. Getting dirty in Satan’s sandbox Lord is not
our problem. Staying in there and not
allowing you to purify and wash us clean; and walk in the light with you. Is what corrupts our hearts, stealing our
soul. Stealing our opportunity to
believe and hope. Turning our
perfections and peace given by you.
Turned into chasing the same demons that destroy all the beauty you
created in us.
May I never put anything above you God. No idol, no person, nothing. May I be blessed with a love so deep from
the outside in that leads me and comes from you. Submitting only to your will Father God. Growing deep in the dance of every lasting
promises to shine even the glimmer of who you are and what you do. As we, as I exhale.
Thank you for this day no matter how it turns out. Thank you for my dreams no matter how I am
awakened.
Thank you for the versatility of music that feeds my soul,
my spirit, my hopes, and dreams.
Thank you for all who have been blessed with talents who
make it possible to go back or grow forward.
Thank you for your son Jesus, above it all!
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version,
TBT-The Passion Translation)
Psalm 37:4 (NIV) 4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.
1 Thessalonians 5:11(NRSV) 11 Therefore encourage
one another and build up each other, as indeed you are doing.
1 Thessalonians 5:11(MSG) 9-11 God didn’t set us
up for an angry rejection but for salvation by our Master, Jesus Christ. He
died for us, a death that triggered life. Whether we’re awake with the living
or asleep with the dead, we’re alive with him! So
speak encouraging words to one another. Build up hope so you’ll all be together
in this, no one left out, no one left behind. I know you’re already doing this;
just keep on doing it.
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Date: 06/04/2020 Thursday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/zABLecsR5UE “Someone
You Loved” @Lewis Capaldi
https://youtu.be/pwTMz6Nfhjg “Piece By Piece” @Kelly Clarkson
https://youtu.be/Q5cPQg3oq-o “God
Only Knows” @forKingandCountry
https://youtu.be/idD1C2-ISlo “Parallel Line” @Keith Urban
https://youtu.be/4iw9_01xrEA “Through
It All” @Ryan Stevenson
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you for this day.
God you have revealed to me how I had to release my brokenness
in this life for all that was never felt, all that was lost all that those
broken before me could never step up and be or do. For all the
tears when I just wanted to feel someone love me. All those moments in time of pain, insignificance
and even those times going back to my youth when I could think for myself running,
you never allowed the door to close as I was trying to run out of this world.
Thank you for giving me this heart where today I do care
what happens to even those who have let me down. As I forgave them as I pray all the mistakes
and misses that I myself struggled through in this journey would be forgiven.
Though I have scars and many broken pieces and every now
an again you allow me a connection to reveal parts of something that only you can
fill as I dream. Thank you for those
times, thank you for those connections.
Thank you for how a word, or a song can bring to a moment. Thank you for allowing the smile when I know
some will think of me.
Be it in my words over the years, in person or just the
life you allowed us to cross paths.
Thank you for the small things and whispers that allow my heart to
smile.
Be it foolish pride and knockdown absolutes, or toying
with the games some try to play with you.
Or even those that you are just connected. Thank you then, thank you now.
Even in the moment’s sadness of this world where I just
cannot stop my soul from leaking out and down my cheeks. There is a great peace in the depths of
me. Through all the unrest and sorrow
that has surrounded us in this world.
Praying for healing, for peace for every need crying out
to you, to be filled Jesus. Even those
that are going about it all wrong. Fill
them and guide them to use the hands and feet of Jesus for you first and allow
them to watch the blessings that come later.
We are all suppressed in this world. There will always be something someone is
going through. The loss of a child,
broken relationships, our lively hood shut down, homelessness, physical, emotional
brokenness.
Time and time again we are shattered getting use to being
important or someone needs or loves.
Only later to find out it was never enough, or never the intent of one or
the other involved.
For all those Jesus, who give freely, care easily, and love
regardless. Protect us without shutting
us off or down.
Heal us Lord. If
you could come today it would not be soon enough. Yes, I pray my blood, my bone, my
connections all know you personally. And
not from lack of trying to always remain open and sharing your blessings.
I learned by the time I could walk. We cannot make anyone love us; and we cannot
force anyone to love and know you Jesus.
Forgive me for all the wrong things I will do, Forgive,
and bless all those who have done me wrong.
Even if that blessing is taking them out of the equation to not suffer
and harm anyone else every again.
No one should suffer for the misdeeds and brokenness this
world allows Jesus. You took all that
pain, all that hurt and then some when you took the cross, so humanity would
not have to. Yet, God here we are!
Show me how to continue to grow forward in you no matter
what and reflect even the smallest light of hope in peace that you allow in me
for and toward others. More importantly
help others understand your will, your way and why hope in you truly is the
blessing this world can never give.
Show me as I continue to do my best with what I get to
work with in the circumstances I am led to step into or up for.
Give those who are weak and find themselves running
standing firm in truth and finding you and the way to be for themselves, for
their families.
Guide and protect me and all I am connected in truth, in
life, in harmony. Allowing us to make
change where we must and can; and understand when to walk away from what we
cannot.
It will never be what we do, what we have, that shall
bless the souls of man. Until we all
realize it is what we love with our hearts, what we lead with our faith, what
we respond and shelter with pure intentions.
We will always be fighting the demons that you already slayed Jesus!
All that I am, all that I ever will be, even when the
music moves me, or it has gone silent.
Is yours first and always!
Anything there after is blessings in what we make it.
Lord may your children, and their children and their
children always know how blessed we are in and through you. Heal us Jesus!
https://youtu.be/uZ55mDL7dA0 “The
Blessing” @Elevation Worship
https://youtu.be/in1uxSpvsw0 “Fighting
For Me” @Riley Clemmons
for all you out there
trying to be something. Just be a simple
kind of soul that finds love and gives love!
And know who the one up above really is and wants you to be.
https://youtu.be/fx4qXtdaNpE “Simple Man” @Lynyrd Skynyrd
https://youtu.be/Fla44P09xnQ Freebird” @Lynyrd Skynyrd
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version,
TBT-The Passion Translation)
I’m waiting for God to make things right. I’m counting on God to listen to me.
Hebrews 12:14 (MSG) 14-17 Work
at getting along with each other and with God. Otherwise you’ll never get so
much as a glimpse of God. Make sure no one gets left out of God’s generosity.
Keep a sharp eye out for weeds of bitter discontent. A thistle or two gone to
seed can ruin a whole garden in no time. Watch out for the Esau syndrome:
trading away God’s lifelong gift in order to satisfy a short-term appetite. You
well know how Esau later regretted that impulsive act and wanted God’s
blessing—but by then it was too late, tears or no tears.
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Date: 06/03/2020 Wednesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/ZeBv9r92VQ0
“Speak Life” @TobyMac
https://youtu.be/QYE2lYuxHww
“We Speak Life” @Planet Shakers
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
More than shaking hands, bowing a knee, Lord you are more
than able, please see and hear our hearts.
There are more of us out here wanting peace and abundant harmony in
love; than those that are not.
No one on this earth Father deserves anything; but neither did Jesus
Christ when He went to the cross in that unspoken obedience for you and the
vision you have for humanity.
Show us Father, send us the Moses of 2020 to lead us out of these
heartbreaking desperate times.
If they are, we, lead us through the cross to find your will. https://youtu.be/oPuDAQxKG5g “I Came For You” @Planet Shakers
Lord I am nothing special to this world but made and allowed to breathe
another day because you have created me perfectly together. Long before any of us ever reach destination
earth. You alone know exactly what will
be.
Show us with our freedom of will and choice how to work together and
remain blessed. How to be the light in a
world that is grown dark but not totally lost yet.
As we stand around the globe in prayer hand to hand arm to arm. We rise up Jesus in your mighty name and all
the blood that was spilled here and now.
Heal this land Father; far beyond healing physical sickness of those suffering. Heal the spirits that are so broken all they
can see is the violence and destruction of the same blessings that have given
them all the comfort life to this date.
So be it some have more some have less.
Lord in you we are all equal.
Protect all stepping up and protecting or trying to protect and serve
and preserve the hopes and dreams of many who have worked their entire lives to
give back and have a portion of the American dream now shook by the ripples of
spiritual injustice and war. Lives
unjustly taken starting with one bad spirit still spilling over. Babies dying because those that think they
are doing something to make change have now just become the same evil that
started this war. Burning down and destroying
innocent blood just because they want to be heard and the ignorance they have
as the blinders will never come off.
Father, we know it is just a glimpse of the unrest to come before you
do. I pray if it takes you coming. Come now!
If this is just a sliver of what is to come. None of us know when this will really be
over. Be it by undo hate and violence,
by sickness that some others unleashed in the world, or by natural causes.
What we do know is that we all get to choose life or death Lord in
you! I lift all I am connected all that
I have not yet met up to you for all that is changing, all that is broken, all
that is uncertain. Fill us with your
will and guidance Jesus, give us the
forgiveness for what we have done to others as I ask forgiveness to all that has
been done to us.
Let Justice be served Lord; remove all the rotten fruit, and dead
branches. The world will never be
that perfect rose garden. Jesus places
within so as we brush up against those thorns we can care in humility, with
love and work together for all new growth.
You know everything about all that churns in this mind maze Jesus. Be it in the depths of what I do not want to
see, or that which I will. All the desires,
holding true to your promise of life and not just quitting, giving up giving
in. No fear, there is no fear in you Jesus. For anyone that truly has the relationship
with you. No matter if this is it, or
100 more years will be consumed in our vision.
With you all things are possible, all things are eternal. Be it here or on the other side. We will rise up to be better than the
darkness that has consumed so many.
Please lead the children of whatever future we may be given. Protect those that cannot protect themselves
from wrong harmful misguided deeds and those who spawn darkness. Let us all come to know your ways, your will
and hate what you hate and know to work and do our best with what we are given.
Long ago, I wrote What About The Children, Lord. Here and now I ask what about your
creation, all of us who were created to be your children even if many will
choose to look and walk the other way.
Prayers we all Rise Up in Love and learn to reason, and not agree or
become puppets but Fear No more. But
work together. It is far bigger than
anything I am. More than just playing with
the rich and famous or trying out that new drug someone is always willing to
share. Far more than masking any pain
or hiding anything already done wrong.
You alone Jesus know all things.
May we fear no more and seek your face! https://youtu.be/3cJFAGw3OaQ “Fear No More” @Building 429
I do not have the answers, I do not even know what my next steps
are. I know change is upon us. I do know you did not bring me all the way
here to be tossed aside. Although we
walk through the valley or even get caught up as pawns in this giant life size
worldly chess game. You are in control
Jesus!
Wash all that is good and speaks life through this land. It is not the color or our skin that should
make or break anything. All Life matters
today as if it is the day you were nailed to that cross.
May we learn in peace how to appreciate, respect ourselves and all
others. May we love without
judgment. May we protect and be protected. May nothing that is happening be in vain
Jesus.
We will see the victory as long as we continue to fight forward in
Christ, with Christ for all things. In
Life or Death! https://youtu.be/YNd-PbVhnvA
“See A Victory” @Elevation Worship
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version,
TBT-The Passion Translation)
Proverbs 15:1 (MSG) God Doesn’t Miss a Thing 15 A gentle response defuses anger, but a
sharp tongue kindles a temper-fire.
2 Thessalonians 3:16 (MSG) 16 May the Master of Peace himself give you the gift of getting
along with each other at all times, in all ways. May the Master be truly among
you!
1 John 4:18 (MSG) To Love, to Be Loved 17-18 God is love. When we take up permanent
residence in a life of love, we live in God and God lives in us. This way, love
has the run of the house, becomes at home and mature in us, so that we’re free
of worry on Judgment Day—our standing in the world is identical with Christ’s.
There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear
is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet
fully formed in love.
Afternoon Thoughts
Taking a break looking away from work a
few. Listening to some Urban. Wondering why I ever stopped listening to
country so long ago. Staying so caught
up in Rock and Roll and that upbeat Christian pop that brings me to worship any
day I need it.
Then I realized falling in love with Jesus and knowing
God loves me; keeping me grounded even when nothing else but peace of mind and
a musical harmony transpires takes place.
Leaves me okay. Yet listening
to tunes remembering days gone by like You’ll Think of me. Brings reality of what is in front of us full
circle.
Bringing it all together in this mind maze I go
full circle knowing nothing is happenstance!
Fate!
Everything good, bad, indifferent happens for a
reason. Never being the Barbie doll
type even when I could have been. I
refuse to allow others to see me for more than what is inside. If that over the years left me indefinitely
cute. So be it. Especially in today’s world.
How I would much rather laugh, smile, and warm
someone’s heart when they think of me or something I have said or done. Rather than just be that one that man she
was beautiful but so jacked up. Or all that
extra baggage that slips out when life gets too hard. Or worse yet, put up on that top shelf and
when we are no longer needed and replaced.
We are just stuck devastated unable to move on in life no matter how
that looks.
Falling in love with Jesus was a love that will
never be topped or replaced. Playing
around and dreaming in the world we live.
In words, in dreams. Safety first
as strange as that seems.
2020 has done a number on all of us. So many broken people, lashing out with the
emotions they have not figured out yet.
Wrong is wrong, right is right. When it comes to humanity when it comes to
love. There is no color. In fact, more colors the more beautiful the
sunrise or sunset glows.
In love with a dream that plays out in the
music that I tap into or hide from.
When it comes down to it, we all bleed the same, we all hurt the
same. What we do with that hurt
matters. If we make it past the broken
pieces, we have a new puzzle to put together and along that way. Man, oh man can we absolutely be blessed with
soulful, spiritual, beautiful beings.
Just as we better be on guard for all those that are really kings and
queens at the game where they get over on you or me.
From my spiritual kryptonite to rock and roll
rushing through our veins. Corn bread
fed, blue, brown, funk and soul. Music
forever and all that goes with it in this soul.
Where does that leave me, where do I go. I will always remember where I been and
come from. But that which awaits Jesus is
the only guess.
Chit chats believe this not that. None of it matters anyway in the end. Lift me up, I’ll be your best friend. Burn
me, and you never was.
No expectations, even when I dream again. All I can tell you is I will always grow forward
with abundant hopes in Christ to just be blessed enough to live. If that is alone, what is twenty more when I
have already come over and burned that bridge. You want to make a difference in my
life. I am not asking for anything you
have to give. Just be real, show up,
let go of the past and forgive.
Music takes me in circles, two step or bip bopity!
Just keep moving and find your ride on the
soul train. Make it count and if it does
not. Change the station. Frank Zappa, Neil Young, J Geils, John Cougar. Time is not in a bottle it keeps on going and
someday you will think of me and smile.
While I am just a nobody trying to tell somebody about my Jesus or riding
that imaginary Harley with my knight carrying me away on the dreams of all that
was and all that could be.
Until then Music feeds the soul and triggers
the mind maze. Bury me deep in love no
matter where it takes me as long as I am never without.
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Evening June Thoughts to Digest
No matter how you slice it!
Proverbs
6:16-19(CEB) There are
six things that the Lord hates, seven things detestable to
him:17 snobbish eyes, a lying tongue,
hands that spill innocent blood, 18 a heart set on wicked plans, feet
that run quickly to evil, 19 a false witness who breathes lies, and
one who causes conflicts among relatives.
Date: 06/02/2020 Tuesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/X5L44RmHY9s “The Broken Pieces” @Matthew West
https://youtu.be/FaP8fKAR2Og
“Great Are
You Lord” @Casting Crowns
https://youtu.be/LxqHo2Pvfm0
“Listen To Our Hearts” @Casting Crowns
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord, for the ability to get up once again and have this day
to do my very best even in my own home to make a difference in how I react, how
I speak, how I listen. How I can take
time to not just surf the net and find something to laugh at because this world
has too many reasons to cry.
But truly dive in and find out what we the people of this still right here
and now is free. Using the rights that
so many died to preserve so we can live and choose.
More than what is in the news, more than what is in our own little headspace.
Lord, for every soul you allow up this day wash over them in healing
and guidance to make an ever-lasting positive change. Please no more lost innocent souls! Our world has been a falling for an awfully
long time. Biblically speaking it is no
surprise we are going through this. But
what is will be the true colors that come out of so many that could do so many
great things to lead the way that will just stuff their pockets and sit back
and watch the agitation and broken pieces flying all over around them.
Heal and guide us now Lord. May
justice in Your will make us clean and whole again.
Because right now we are all twisted and caught up in Satan’s sandbox
and we are all dirty even just by the dust blowing from all the fall out.
May healing fill this land in peace and working together for harmony. Multiple and Sanctify us Jesus. Let Your sacrifice in and for love and life
ever lasting not be wasted in vein.
The howling cries of innocence suffering as the wolves have your people
cowering in their safe places. Jesus
rise up and may all those you call your chosen sing over all that is darkness. May none of your children be lost because
they were consumed and became the darkness.
But as the war is raging may we all stand with and for all that is good,
all that is pure all that is blessed pouring out our praise to you alone Jesus.
Standing up for all who are different, all who are oppressed, all who
cannot stand for themselves. We do not
have to destroy and desolate this earth or anything you have given in it,
Jesus. We just have to be your voice,
your light here and now.
What that looks like I do not know.
But I do know the souls of all taken in violence, in hate are crying out
and we must silence the evil for all you are Father God!
Please hear our hearts for all that cry out needing, wanting you and
all you are Jesus. Show us the way and how
to make a difference through all the tools you give us in this world. Violence and destruction, hate is never the
answer or acceptable.
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version,
TBT-The Passion Translation)
Hebrews 9:28 (KJV) 28 So Christ was once offered to bear the sins of many; and unto
them that look for him shall he appear the second time without sin unto
salvation.
Psalm 18:30 (KJV) 30 As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in
him.
Isaiah 41:13 (KJV) 13 For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee,
Fear not; I will help thee.
Psalm 46:10 (KJV) 10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the
heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.
1 John 3:2 (KJV) 2 Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet
appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be
like him; for we shall see him as he is.
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Date: 06/01/2020 Monday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/lydBPm2KRaU “Jesus Take The Wheel” @Carrie Underwood
https://youtu.be/8SbUC-UaAxE
“But For The Grace Of
God” @Keith Urban
https://youtu.be/mPAfj2WIsCc
“Cry Out To Jesus” @Third Day
https://youtu.be/pIR24ubUf0E “The Elements” @TobyMachttps://youtu.be/eSzD0opaCwE “Children Of God” @Phil Wickham
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for this new day and the beautiful view I see when I look up so early in the morning.
Reminders you are with us, then now and always as long as we allow you in. Your will Father God not my own. Take that wheel Jesus. I need you more than ever before even before I came to the foot of the cross. For now, I see so many of the elements at play and just do not know what next, or what I should be doing. Just being, sitting here. You know I have never had patience.
Watching, hearing, being in the middle of all that cycles and spins in this world even right at home.
It is You Lord, https://youtu.be/MGukMchIcDE “It’s You” @TobyMac that we all need to grasp tightly through all the storms wreaking havoc and destruction all around us.
Broken souls, broken bodies, broken hopes, dreams, and all that surrounds us. How Father is it that we cannot get better at this. None of this makes sense to me Jesus. Yes, it is written that this will all happen, but why must it. Why can we not turn things around Father. Why can we not learn to lead in love and shine and grow in what is good.
Why must the world become more selfish. Far beyond broken relationships, even if it starts there when we betray our friends, our spouse, our partners. Getting caught up not thinking what we committed to is enough and stepping out and all over that which was once pure.
Blood money feeding the demons. Because humanity could not grasp your blood that flood would be more than enough. How easy is it for us to be caught up in depression and the blues? https://youtu.be/4zAThXFOy2c “Tennessee Whiskey” @Chris Stapleton Doing whatever we could whenever we could to mask the pain or just push through. Even at times finding that special someone that we think is what it will forever be to carry us through leaving the past behind and finding that new future.
Oh, how confused our journeys become; when even that which we put our hopes, our dreams, our hearts into. And just doing our day to day later to find out it would have never been enough. https://youtu.be/9OmYhgvwQa8 “I Am Loved” @Mack Brock It is you Jesus. Only you that is and always will be. You never fail us, never let us down. There is no distance leaving us twisting in the wind and confused. Because we are loved by you. You Jesus, clearly show the way to right or wrong, truth and lies and all that is light. What is in the dark with you Jesus always comes to light.
Jesus, it does not matter truly what others think of me. I learned long back if I put all my hope and drive in people to be anything in this world; I will never be enough. Even those with everything, find themselves feeling nothing. I believe in you Jesus, the God of miracles. We need you here and now in this vast universe. https://youtu.be/5vUvi-A75BU “Miracles” @Jesus Culture
Lord as you look down upon this earth; please have mercy in showing us grace and leading us into peace and unification for growth and hope of a future for all our children and children’s children.
No there will be some that are good at pretending and still out with their own agenda’s Father. But the time is now. The earth is shaking, hearts are broken. Life will never be what it once was. This is beyond the wars, beyond the crimes against humanity, against you Jesus!
Show us the way. I need you to show me the way. https://youtu.be/gIRqMTg1GVc “Show Me The Way” @Peter Frampton As I continually defer to music and keeping a light on within this soul. Jesus I just need you. Nothing else will do.
Some may get how a song or words can trigger life of a song in the soul of one being. Others may never. We all have that which brings peace, movement, and sanctification in any moment we are allowed.
That which keeps us buried away form pains and sorrows, that which help us grow forward. That which allows us to choose life or contribute to death.
Many of us are blessed enough to know the difference. While others are still learning to think for themselves.
My prayer Lord is we choose the life you died so we could have. The unrest finds peace, justice is served and we as one become one nation under God once again. Perhaps I am a dreamer, I am wrong. But times seemed so much more peaceful then, life happened but violence and contempt around every corner where real vultures and thieves were not picking humanity apart every second of every day.
No matter in a song, a deed or just hopeful prayer. Jesus come. I know this world is not my final destination. This world is not our home; while we are here can we please find and display your love and beauty and if we cannot find the light learn how to be the light.
Redemption is taken for granted; may those who choose to acknowledge, walk and hope in you be protected and blessed beyond all that can ever be here and now. Wash over this land with justice and peace.
I am at a loss for words we need for healing this land Father God. Please hear our hearts, healing all that is broken.
Reconcile marriages, bonds, relationships, this world to you Father. This world to you!
For there is no greater love than that which you gave on the
cross. Never let me forget that no
matter what I feel.
Because on a personal note some days I get it. People places things make you just want to
quit and disappear. I turned off the
news long back, hardly even watch it in hurricane season which is here
again. But somethings you cannot simply
escape. Which is why I am beyond
grateful for you Lord. Even if, even
when!
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version,
TBT-The Passion Translation)
Isaiah 41:13 (TLB) 13 I am holding you by your right hand—I, the Lord your God—and
I say to you, Don’t be afraid; I am here to help you.
Isaiah 41:13 (KJV) 13 For I the Lord thy
God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.
Isaiah 41:13 (MSG) 11-13 “Count on it: Everyone who had it in for
you will end up out in the cold— real losers. Those who worked against you will
end up empty-handed— nothing to show for their
lives. When you go out looking for your old adversaries you
won’t find them— Not a
trace of your old enemies, not even a memory. That’s right. Because I, your God, have a firm grip on
you and I’m not letting go.
I’m telling you, ‘Don’t panic. I’m right here to help you.’
Psalm 18:30 (KJV) 30 As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him.
------------------ As I wrap the day up after many long hours laying here in the dark. With tears streaming down my face. I am trying to understand why these waves of emotions just keep coming. Barely able to see on this little eye phone and just the salty burn. Is it for all the injustice? Is it for the battles I have had when my children were growing up and I taught them we were all equal just some had different talents and ambitions?
Just be good and happy in
all you do; own it! It did not matter
or should not have in a world that our families, my family is diverse. Be it my immediate family blood line or extended
onto close friends. People are going
to make excuses and use hate for whatever they want. before my time, in my time and even today and
beyond. People will always hate and do
harm to what they do not understand.
And they do not want peace and love.
It may be the excuse of our skin tone or we are different from the
next. but truly it is just because mean
people suck no matter what century! Grant it I am guilty of not having a
filter and even times not thinking before speaking. But never would I
want to destroy even my enemies to prove a point.
Would I defend my home yes? I would shoot if I had to. But I pray no time soon would or should I. We are all guilty of allowing so many think they deserve to be entitled. No one deserves a damn thing. If you singed on to serve and protect JUST DO YIUR DAMN JOB. And all you inciting violence because you feel the need to get even for all the wrong this world has allowed. It starts with you and me right where we are. Getting even does nothing. Make change. Get it together make your count. Make your voice be remembered and not bundled in the pile of disgrace and misfortune.
No, I am not black. I am a child survivor of broken people to find out I was conceived by a rape that destroyed a family. But God allows things to be for reasons we will never understand.
Living through years of self-torment destruction and trying to find out why.
God led me right where I am. I know what it is like to lose, hurt be broken in more ways than I care to count. But I also know God never Hardened my hear towards love and respect of humanity.
Yes, I know the good, the bad the very unfair. I fought my way through life and am still daily struggling to hold on to a world full of hate, greed and so many with their selfish ambitions.
I don’t get it right even half the time, but I don’t stop trying and I don’t make excuses.
Step up make the change. #LetItHurt #LeItGo#LetItHeal.
Be the light if you cannot find one.
Father God we all are emotionally damaged in 2020. Please be with our nation show us how in unity we can make a difference and heal helping one another and stop hurting and hating. We all have scars. None as lasting as your own Jesus. We need you now. I need you.
