06.Wk2_2020_June(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: 06/13/2020 Saturday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/b-q_EAx8JBo   “Let Love Lead ” @ Terrian  2020

https://youtu.be/aPgeaiaKHkg    “You Still Do ” @ Terrian  2020

 

BIBLEGATE.COM Daily Verse

Luke 11:13 (NIV)     ¹³ If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

We made it to Saturday, and I am blessed to be up and at it again.  So funny the songs that pop in this head so early, yet I believe this brings me to the days long before I found my peace in greater things that we are all created for.

https://youtu.be/bPkK1CNPtjk “Too Much Too Little ” @Johnny Mathis and Deniece Williams

Lord hear the prayers of my heart for all who have been lost.  All that which is unreconcilable.  Be it those in marriage, friends and even those who sold themselves out and short to the world of darkness. 

Giving the very last breath, those opportunities that allow them to grow forward, or even just take care of the basic day to day of themselves or for those they were blessed to have in their lives.

 Given away for that fix of popularity, fame, or even what will numb them as they find all of what they have without you Jesus.   Leaves them empty with that void that just keeps them chasing what will never be enough.    Until that one day the chase is no more.

Here as I listen to this song allowing me to reflect on all those dear sweet talented family and friends that have went away.

For all those empty promises of that which you think you have it covered and it will be alright, to that which you tell others just because.

Oh, this morning as I look back behind the curtain of days looking out of that third-floor brownstone apartment down on the street. 

Knowing then that image would always be with me.   

Yet who would of thought even now so many years later I would awake with that song I would crank up and sing out with Mariah blasting as I would dance around and pretend to sing to someone that could only be imagined.  https://youtu.be/DZNTDSiqA4U “Dream Lover ” @Mariah Carey

Even now that dream is not so unthought of.   I never planned to be where I am in a relationship status.   This is for sure.

 Growing up always just wanting to be real and love me for me.  It was not until I started walking with Jesus daily that I finally found rest and peace within the depths of this being.   For all that I thought I needed to be whole, only to find out nothing in this world can do that for you, at least not for any length of time.   That void is something only God can help you remove and fill with His abundance.  

Crazy and I could come with allot of labels to call what that abundance can be.  But really, I cannot.   I just know what is filled up now with peace, love and hope can never be washed away, thrown away or taken away.   I can only give it away and even then God will never take back what he created to be shared.

 Only I could try to turn it off if I wanted to.   Please do not misread this because it is not something I could ever do; that of denying who my God is or what he has done for me.

However, even now with all that is going on and this new normal so called world of 2020.    I find myself never getting enough of seeking all that God has and in fact now this new normal keeps people apart, and we are not in large groups worshiping or even small group bible study.   I thought I was hungry before well now I am starving for this spirit to be fed.  

Missing my music and music has always been what flows without skipping a beat in this girl’s heart and veins.    Be it those days of clubs, to live bands to worship teams.   Just let the music play  and play out the stories of our lives.

The days I stopped going to pubs, clubs and just anywhere that played live music. To finding my way taking a sabbatical in and with God that has changed my life for ever.

I really should not even call it that; being He is with me now and always and I will do what I must to make sure I never lose his blessings or being filled up even on the days I am hungry for more.

The day when I came up out of the water and learning what me’ism and my journey and  necessity to retro fit some of those broken pieces back into the new mosaic me that God has allowed.

Even these past couple years learning we can never have it all together where we cannot learn some valuable lessons. 

  Be it me allowing network friendships, man the fact remains it does not matter if they are in front of you or through the airways.   

When the loss is great there is no replacing it.  

Once we find ourselves losing boundaries and even, I have and do every now and again.   Thanks to that rescue ranger inside of me always in the past trying to save or found myself saving what was not my place to do so.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, that which fed my spirit played out a need by me being available to fix others I would thrive and never really address my own needs to be fixed.

Thankfully, I am blessed, and I get, but God has different plans for every single one of us.   God will not let those who need, want and believe in him fight the demons and battles alone.  Sometimes being fixed or finding peace removes us from this world all together.

So, when that rainbow shines bright for someone you find to be a loss you will never get over; know God has allowed peace and rest that so many can never find here and now.

So just like that with those old crazy tunes playing in this mind maze this morning I am triggered with the days and memories from  this journey when I came out of the water.   No it is not everything,  but I am reminded each one of these songs played a significant part in my growth through some very challenging life moments.  Music man be it secular or Christian all plays such huge impacts on our lives.    Just as every choice we are part of or make.  Not sure why like most days why I am even sharing.  But I hope you are as blessed in your journey as I have found and am in mine.

Just that little glimpse of those top 20s we stepped through life through and with for many of us.

My journey and some of the popular tunes back in my journey. https://youtu.be/cQhZr7DYe5c  “Top 100 Most Popular Songs ” @1995-2005@Cox Content

As I keep looking back and be it reminiscing  always triggers those visions of laughter, dreams, and just soulful impacting moments.  

  Music has always carried me through dreams  be it those unanswered or broken.  Even answered even when they did not last.

I will apologize in advance for anyone that does not relate to music and how it feeds the spirit.

 I wish nothing but peace and love for all that has come to pass and abundance in and with all we do through Jesus Christ.

Early moments or any steps allowed moving forward in any tomorrows allowed.

Let me not stop with that journey through the world with so many impacts. 

There is still so much more from 1997 forward and thankfully so; because if God ever gave up on me and I would not be here today. 

He allowed me to grow up hard and make it through some pretty difficult moments always wanting to be more, wanting to be different.  He allowed me to stop chasing all the broken things and people of the world.  All those things I was trying to fill the voids of my own and I  surely going to die.

From the days I would dream so hard and felt like I could just unzip my skin step out and finally know my worth and purpose  or just keep bleeding out on that floor wanting to truly just leave this place myself.

   It was only with Jesus  that life really started talking to me so here are some moments that really had a way to speak to this soul.

 https://youtu.be/6kXJdshVNq0   “Between You and Me ” @DC Talk 1997

   Since then, there has been an abundance of reality changes in life and growth in understanding and learning that is forever ongoing.

Learning first of all to never hold anyone or anything higher than that of God himself.

Even those that you crave so much love and they feed your spirit so much you can never get enough.  

Only to later see them stumble because they too are in and of the same world leaving you broken for even, they have caused scars that God has used for lessons.

 Never put anyone or anything so far up above of Jesus in any given day that you are shattered and cannot function when you no longer have that connection any longer and you are paralyzed.

Okay before I too far off this mind maze journey today.   And the perspectives that swirl about.    Facts remain always keep God first! And know that everything of this world is temporary.  People, places, and things.  Know that it is okay to be not no matter the what, the who or any other storms of life that come through leaving confusion and brokenness.

Talking in riddle or incomplete visions.   Somethings are simply better to be left with God.

 

To let go and keep moving I tap into and through music.   And here of some really moving messages through some beautifully blessed messengers.

Through all the messes this imperfect soul has been allowed to come out the other side.   I am forever blessed to know it was when that life really started when God started talking to me and has taken me on this beautiful journey.

https://youtu.be/6kXJdshVNq0   “Between You and Me ” @DC Talk 1997

https://youtu.be/NFzHpHN6_7c  “Awesome God ” @Michael W. Smith 1998

https://youtu.be/DsKjL2nSIYA   “She Sings In Riddles ” @Third Day 1999

https://youtu.be/sVYdDLEdBGk    “I’ve Always Loved You ” @Third Day 2000

https://youtu.be/R9q2Ix7A6dM    “Spoken For ” @MercyMe 2001

https://youtu.be/oqLa4EWyuhA    “You Are My King (Amazing Love) ” @Newsboys 2002

https://youtu.be/QBpe_8zkyKs     “God Of Wonders” @Mac Powell 2003

https://youtu.be/FnmQfKOtpf4    “Heaven ” @Salvador 2004

https://youtu.be/oqLa4EWyuhA    “You Are My King (Amazing Love) ” @Newsboys 2005

https://youtu.be/NokRCW_oFec    “Drifter” @December Radio 2006

https://youtu.be/V_J34QyY0Pk     “East to the West  ” @Casting Crowns  2007

https://youtu.be/dsiDukXIeVY “Revelation Song ” @Phillips, Craig, and Dean 2008

https://youtu.be/h4F9CctSBoc     “Open The Eyes Of My Heart ” @Paul Baloche 2009

https://youtu.be/yLr6G8Xy5uc     “Lead Me ” @Sanctus Real 2010

https://youtu.be/knuHDPbE5es     “Strong Enough ” @Matthew West 2011

https://youtu.be/he32vwlKQPY     “Where I Belong ” @Building 429 2012

https://youtu.be/8C-povr7b6k     “Wanted ” @Dara Maclean 2013

https://youtu.be/D7JTx1ScD-w     “Voice Of Truth ” @Casting Crowns 2014

https://youtu.be/WjZ01FcK0yk     “We Believe ” @Newsboys 2015

https://youtu.be/II1JKBuz-AY     “Fierce ” @Jesus Culture Ft. Chris Quilala 2016

https://youtu.be/B6fA35Ved-Y     “Even If ” @ 2017

https://youtu.be/QurQEiOAQjA     “Everything ” @TobyMac 2018

https://youtu.be/gYR0xP1j4PY      “Rescue” @Lauren Daigle  2019

 

So, these songs are just a sliver of moments that God has allowed me to work on me, or allowed me to take journeys I will never be able to repay.   2020 well I am like many still trying to figure out what is next and there is not just one song.  I still struggle more now that I am grounded with why when it comes to my journey or even still missing that one soul that I am forever connected next to me.   But knowing this journey has made me stronger than many, independent more so than I should be and the inability to not love others too well.

More importantly knowing no matter what, who, when, where in this world and any days I have left.   I believe with all that I am in the same Jesus that poured His blood out on that cross, taking on all the sins and brokenness of this world.   So, we can continue to get up and exercise our freedoms of will and choice for all that is to give life somehow somewhere.

 

We are all here one step away from the tsunami wave that will destroy us forever.    We must let love lead.  We must stop looking at the world for what it can do for us, or what it has done to us.   We must forgive all those that have went before us and more importantly teach our children forgiveness in love and how to change without being of the world and all the darkness consuming it.

How that looks or what that means for each and every soul is the choice we all make.

It starts with each one of us every single moment we are allowed air and what we consider life.  Every choice matters especially if we are not making our own.

 

Much love and peace in the God who has created all things.   Find Jesus right where you are and know you are worth more than anything this world will ever give or take.

Let Love Lead!

 Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

John 3:8 (NIV)  ⁸ The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”^[a]

Galatians 5:22 (NIV)  ²² But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,

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Date: 06/12/2020 Friday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/e5Jz-KVF_mI  “Overflow ” @ Church of the City

 

BIBLEGATE.COM Daily Verse

Psalm 19:1-2 (NIV)   ¹ The heavens declare the glory of God;  the skies proclaim the work of his hands. ² Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they reveal knowledge.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Father, for another day you allow me up.   As we know nothing is promised or noted how long we will have on this earth.

May we never forget the blessings of life need not be big or fancy.  May we know even the smallest things be the most meaningful.   Walking out in the early morning dawn looking up and just breathing in whatever may be.   You allowed me one more day.

 

Acknowledging there will be much time in this journey we will go it alone, where we will have no others next to us; may we always know our interdependence on each other with you has always been meant for the greater things to come in your perfect will Father.     

Walking through the shadows, well what that looks like for each of us I will never really know or even try to figure out.

But it is love, mercy, grace and together working in harmony I crave for me personally and for this land.           Hebrews 11:40 (NIV)  ⁴⁰ since God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

Thankful as I am up and rising, tired but blessed as I care for the pets starting this day so early.    Sipping coffee thinking of what was long ago and conversations of days gone by.    Knowing how flawed I truly am when it comes to who you created us all to be Jesus.

This mind has me thinking of those empty promises we do not start out to be empty but in the end because it is not you will turn into worldly emptiness.

Thinking how different we all are in what we consider important or what even myself  allow or allow to take up space in the limited time we are allowed.

Thinking how these last several weeks have impacted the earth.  From death and destruction to healing of the land’s natural resources.  To so much violence changing normal from what it used to be.

Thinking about the groups that are finding their way through towns and cities stirring up so much hate and violence while purposely working at that great divide in a nation that has always stood strong in time of crises.   Stood together in time of crises.

How much love and harmony the depths of this being craves; yet knowing the earth is shaking and how we are allowing this once blessed nation to turn everything into such political agendas, chaos, and deadly mayhem.

 Innocence robbed, murdered, and tormented.   All we work for trying to make a life burning down around us.     Thinking I myself never planned to be here in this world surrounded by so very alone.   What else can I do but believe in you Lord.  Wrong as that may sound; I have no answers as my heart hurts thinking about those even in the six-block radius that was in the news yesterday. 

Thinking how those families that are just trying to live the best they can are trapped in others misguided ugliness.

I will never take away from anyone and the drive they have to make a change somehow someway. 

But I will never accept the fact that anything has to be done by violence and destruction of lives, and what we as a nation have been allowed to build up in property and material things.

Change will always happen; darkness will always be in battle with the light.   But I pray this nation rises up and sends it right back to where it belongs.

 

How misguided and broken we truly are.  I get it even I am in my own thought process on any given day is lacking for all that you Jesus bled out for.

I pray Jesus you come and wash over this land before too much innocence is stolen and we truly end up in a dictated third world country. 

Everyone in this world and where I consider home in America are no better or different when it comes to any special treatments.  

 We all across this world were meant to work together finding love and making peace and harmony.

Yet here we are as the battles and wars rage and the noise can no longer be hidden; it is in our streets or hoods and much closer to home than ever before.

So much unrest Jesus, in our homes full of brokenness and deceptions.    Parents selling off, giving away their babies for that one thing they think will numb the pains they do not want to deal with.    Spousal abuse and deceptions,  families broken where elders are abused by the ones, they gave everything.

No different soon than that of innocence in countries we cannot bare to see on the news being bombed and burned left broken and in the hands of evil.   

 Are we really that far off Father God?

Oh, how my heart hurts.   Father please show us how to over come this season of violence and death in our time here and now.   

Please show us to purposely work together and seek truth and justice as you would have it. 

 Everything in the dark will always come to light.   Lord you are the God of the impossible https://youtu.be/BghnBZZq0Y0 “God Of The Impossible ” @Lincoln Brewster; you have created the heavens and earth and all that is in this universe. 

You have created the beings we are.

  Even if you allowed our freedom of choice and will to drive where and how we go.  

Soften these hardened hearts Jesus; shine brightly on all the injustice happening and remove all that is vial and poisoning humanity.

Nothing will ever be too hard for you.    God Turn this around!   https://youtu.be/Ndb7kein1Es   “God Turn It around ” @ft. Jon Reddick | Church of the City

You alone keep the hope alive that we all need to believe and make a difference.    Thank you for bringing me to the foot of the cross where you gave your everlasting promise of tomorrow. https://youtu.be/ROsdWfK_G0E    “God Turn It around ” @ft. Jon Reddick | Church of the City

 

Jesus I can cry out for all that I am, I am not.  All those things I so have desired for as long as I can remember.   I can share what I do without expectation or even talk about any wrongs I have done, or others have done to me. 

  It is not about me Father it is about what is far greater than any of us can do or imagine on our own.

May we all come to the cross in truth, in spirit and pray far outside the walls of what we think is safe and secure.

May we pray for the peace only you Holy Spirit can wash through the airwaves and into the hearts and souls of mankind.  Come have your way Jesus!  https://youtu.be/e5Jz-KVF_mI   “Overflow ” @ft. Jon Reddick | Church of the City

Lord are worthy of so much more than we in this world ever give back.  Forgive us Father.    https://youtu.be/QYhap63b-kw   “Eyes On You ” @Dante Bowe and Lyle Phillips | Legacy Nashville Prayer room

 

Forgive me for falling short and always making something out of nothing, or not moving and making nothing when something should be.   For all those times I get that feeling deep in my bones and I just do not know how, or why. 

 For all the times that I play that spiritual tug of war game with you.   Giving it all to you yet tugging on that spiritual rope for things I think maybe I need to take back and forget about, or even try to manage and it should be left up to you.   Or even those times Father that I let my desires get the best of me when you would never violate and call anyone to lust after or even be caught up in that which you detest.

I pray I never make anyone or anything above all that you are.   Remind me Jesus I am at your feet.   Keep me until you find someone in this world worthy of who you are and who walks with you.   No matter how I churn and burn.  Father God I submit to you then, now, and always.

Through the pains and sorrows, through the laughter and abundance.  May I forever remain faithful to you first.  May I love those you allow me, and when that day finally comes Jesus.   May all that is pure of heart, hope and deep in faith lead in love.

So here I am Jesus sitting on the hill looking out, looking up!   Here I am with all the dreams or movie scenes of a dreamer playing through my mind.    Lord you are the hero in this story of life.  You are my way maker now and always.  https://youtu.be/yNAAVPxjxbY “Way Maker ” @Mandisa

 

 If you choose to allow someone to physically lead, protect and guide me Father.   In your will alone so it shall be.     All others are sinking sand.       https://youtu.be/AbOckYNPlSw “Sinking Sand ” @Destine

 

Hear the cries of your people’s hearts Lord.   Come we/I need you now.

https://youtu.be/9tivseVZbnY  “Need You Now ” @Plumb

Lord show us how to heal, how to love as you loved us!  May the tears that flow be that of joy and harmony with you!

Lord may we remember with you we will always get through each day one way or the other.   May we keep looking up even when we are in pain and rightful to moan.  May we find your blessings every step we are given.   May we be washed in your peace and hold it tightly every day we are allowed up.

 Father God be with all who are standing first in line responding to our freedoms, our protections, our healing.

Be with all the dark souls that need you desperately.   Heal what ever has been broken so this madness stops.      

 Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

1 Corinthians 10:10 -11 (NIV)  ¹⁰ And do not grumble, as some of them did—and were killed by the destroying angel.  ¹¹ These things happened to them as examples and were written down as warnings for us, on whom the culmination of the ages has come.

Luke 1: 78-79 (NIV) ⁷⁸ because of the tender mercy of our God, by which the rising sun will come to us from heaven  ⁷⁹ to shine on those living in darkness
    and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the path of peace.” 

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06/12 Afternoon tunes that just touched me today

https://youtu.be/LiM7QGy0BSI  “Dive” @Ed Sheeran

https://youtu.be/aIIfx_UbnHI   “Reason” @Tracy Chapman

https://youtu.be/_ZAzvxsDOUU “Storyteller” @Morgan Harper Nichols

https://youtu.be/mzIoGwWG1Zc   “Street Called Mercy (of dirt and grace)” @Hillsong United

https://youtu.be/HNRJ_uaUCAk   “King Of My Heart” @Amanda Lindsey Cook

https://youtu.be/Y1HRcoHGmi4   “I Can See Clearly Now” @Hothouse Flowers

https://youtu.be/HRrKfflJLnE   “Before You Go” @Lewis Capaldi

https://youtu.be/kg6HedZ4xGs   “What If I Stumble” @DC Talk

https://youtu.be/6ZrZLnLkisg   “The Real You” @TobyMac

https://youtu.be/Nf4ufekHjeg   “Dead Man Walking” @Jeremy Camp

https://youtu.be/MpjPCzdiUEQ    “Habit Of You” @Keith Urban

https://youtu.be/bTjimzpyE4k     “I Need A Miracle” @Third Day

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Date: 06/11/2020 Thursday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/eOigUnIUWIY  “Rebel Heart ” @Lauren Daigle

 

 

BIBLEGATE.COM Daily Verse

Psalm 46:10 (NIV)   ¹⁰ He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
    I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Good morning and thank you Lord for another day awaiting to be full of opportunities.

Yes, as I am reminded in my early morning devotional. Perspectives be it everything or nothing.  We all have our own just like those opinions that may interrelated.  

 

My own perspective  in starting a day off right in the here and now that I have.

Never do anything, or hit that floor running even if it is to the bathroom upon first getting up.  Without giving thanks for the new day you have been allowed.  As soon as your mind is awake, and eyes are open.

It matters truly!

So here with another new day full of opportunities ahead. Be it a child bored to tears because they do not know how to use the imagination God has given; or those that have that nonstop imagination that someone is always after them because they are always into something with their creativity and staying entertained.

Opportunities await each and every soul allowed up each new day.   As we get older and we lose that child like drifting.   We as we are older and more touched by what the world has rubbed around or on us.   Well we get to choose if we seek the song of the birds in the morning and look up for the colors in the sky or across God’s creations.

Or if we just allow something out of what could be nothing to transpire.  Even nothing into something.  Either way depending how we use our perspective, next steps, words doing the best we can with what we have will lead to what kind of a day we will allow ourselves or anyone around us.

Just my thoughts and perspectives anyway!

This mind maze is reminding me how our true selves without thinking, without trying sometimes just get pulled so far out of reach even when we are grounded.

When life is smooth https://youtu.be/Ce1r05SSbwA “Smooth” @Santana ft. Rob Thomas

 and those things that never last are what matter; to the moments when we wonder if someone, anyone will ever remember me. https://youtu.be/WvA9d6n7Jzg   “Do You Remember Me ” @Santana

 

Turning up the music to help us when me as I am lost on this wave that can either crush the day or wash over so refreshing it is too good to be true that we made it.

We sometimes get lost in it all and get caught up in all the unknown spinning not knowing what to do.  Allowing all that we let into our minds, through our sight, through our hearing to just consume us.

Yes, absolutely the world is in a spin right now that anyone old enough to remember will never forget the year 2020.  The wars we once only heard about over seas has come to the America, we once knew to never be the same.

Silent death, mass hate and violence, with so many souls clashing on any given day.   I have to think that those who hate and hurt so much never have that relationship or even know Jesus Christ or all that he sacrificed for!   Hope, love, peace, helping those in need, having that blind faith in all that is unseen for the greater good in which peace fills us up.

Their true selves so far out of reach, so lost that not even they remember a glimpse of joy or happiness from within.

Only you Jesus can save them now, save us.  Including all I am, all I will ever be, always just me.      Some days it all makes sense and flows and many I am at a loss unsure, uncertain.

Father come show us how to be more of you.  Healing this land, we are given.   Allowing every soul that is opening their eyes to seek you first.   That is not even a question.  You alone Father God have given the opportunities to every being in the planet.      But may you soften hearts and the souls willfully reach out and up to you every day before anything or anyone.     Even in a brief moment in time.  May they choose to be filled with your peace and love.  So that they will have it to share wherever they go.

 

  Yes, the dreamer I am, as the Beetles song all we need is love pops into this head.  Legends forever spreading a message that needs more of us to share more now than ever before.  https://youtu.be/4EGczv7iiEk “All You Need Is Love” @The Beetles

 

Thank you for this day Father and allowing me to come to you before anything or anyone.   As I smile and think sometimes to just sit looking out into your beauty where it is quiet and pure.   Well as this day starts and the noise the blessings in my space given take over.   Sometimes your beauty and the love acknowledged is all I dream.

Yet here I am, with nothing but the balance I am trying to regain as I look around at the world fully marked with and as collateral damage.

It is it isn’t!  Where everyone is a star.   So close yet always so far out or reach we can never touch them.  Many times, even as we find who we truly are we find over time we too were so far out of touch, we can never know just why we settle, why we are angry, why we let things hurt.  

Sometimes what feels to be worse yet is the day we wake up acknowledging how change is needed but we feel trapped not wanting to lose what we are connected.  Not wanting to lose those we think are our friends, those we think love and care for us.

Yet we know once we are true to ourselves, true to what Christ blessed us to be.  We realize all that once was is still, and what truly matters will and does and what never should have is removed.

 

Dreams with our eyes wide open or closed.  We get to choose just how much we let in.  Just how or what we allow that what drives us to impact for the good; or even what the impact would and can be to others we connect along the way.   

Many times, humanity just does not think along they way.  They want what they want when they want it.  We are all great actors and actresses.  Playing out the scripts that suite our immediate wants or temporal desires.      Filling the gaps until it just isn’t working any longer.    

Sometimes those things we are filling with, we think through and put all we are into it; to allow pieces chipped away when those we once were connected toss us out like old newspapers ready to be burned.   As we are left feeling the heat before the fire ever starts.

Other times we just do not feel at all and keep moving along the collector’s highway.  

Lord, thank you for this new day and allowing me to even in the brief moments of each day to look up for whatever is ahead.   Not being caught up and strangled by looking back at all that is gone faster than it comes.

Even in our wildest dreams, https://youtu.be/5SLlXvYZ_g8 “Wildest Dreams” @Ryan Stevenson that which some may think we are crazy or those that we can taste but find so hard to really believe.    

Be it any person place or thing; that love can creep in and  that we crave so deep, when those brief seconds through the airwaves you feel it flow tears just come that you cannot control.

Wanting so much more, at times just out of no where walking along or closing one more door.   Those dreams where reality and that which we live vicariously through others as strange as it that seems.    Wanting it all, yet no one around to pick up the pieces that fall.  It is you Father God that allows me each new day to see, looking past all that causes us to fall.  Sustains me behind this wall.

Thank you for allowing me the wanting and needing what is truth, to feel the burn as long as it is from you.   But how do we ever really know without just walking on that blind faith and know the book so old yet each time we read it so very new.     Is the key to life and the eternal grace.   That which saves us long before we will come face to face.

That which gives us the courage to keep moving forward never looking back.  Just knowing how it is all gone faster than it came.  

 We need not point out the fallacies that break our hearts, the dreams that vanish long before they truly get started.  https://youtu.be/41X7eLDGIjY “To Die For ” @Sam Smith

That which is true love never dies even when you cannot see it, touch it, breathe in the very essence of that one special someone or something.   It forever stays riding with you throughout the waves of all that is, all that could be, all that forever will be in the depths of our very soul connections.

 Here I am Lord!   All that I was, all that I am, all that I ever can or will be.   Pieces of me over this journey, over time. 

My arms, my heart wide open for you who will never leave or forsake me.    Never will you stop holding me when all others do. https://youtu.be/v5_QOGx-IUs  “Heart Wide Open ” @Matt Brock

Here I am even in those moments not so graceful.  Sometimes more beautiful where I never want to forget.  Others tainted and painful where I just cannot breathe just wanting to be freed.    You Jesus no matter who, what, where or how.  You are holding nothing back all I am or ever will be.  All I am connected, all these eyes you have allowed me to see.    Are Yours first for your glory alone and then whatever you allow thereafter.

Thank you for allowing me to dream, for me the freedom in peace.  Thank you for all you allow this heart to feel.  Father your will, for all that is good, all that is love all that is truth.    No matter how lonely some days become.   The beauty of the release forever that flows through these veins.  I am forever yours to be gracefully broken.

 https://youtu.be/IJNR0lxbIP4  “Gracefully Broken” @Matt Redman ft. Tasha Cobbs Leonard

 

 

 

 Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Isaiah 12:2 (NIV)  ² Surely God is my salvation;   I will trust and not be afraid.

The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense^[a]; he has become my salvation.”,  



Romans 8:6 (NIV) ⁶ The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.

@Jesus Calling @ Sarah Young THANK YOU  06/11 – TRUST ME and don’t be afraid, for I am your Strength and Song.  Do not let fear dissipate your energy.  Instead, invest your energy in trusting Me and singing My Song.  The battle for control of your mind is fierce, and years for worry have made you vulnerable to the enemy.  Therefore, you need to be vigilant in guarding your thoughts. Do not despise this weakness in yourself since I am using it to draw you closer to Me.  Your constant need for Me creates an intimacy that is well worth the effort.  You are not alone in this struggle for your mind.  My Spirit living within you is ever ready to help this striving.  Ask Him to control your mind; He will bless  you with Life and Peace.

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Date: 06/10/2020 Wednesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/QRnFFTxnuCo “Oceans (Where My Feet May Fail) ” @Hillsong United

https://youtu.be/AikZQJ_iBIg   “That’s How You Change The world” @Newsboys

 

BIBLEGATE.COM Daily Verse

Colossians 3:13 (NIV)   ¹³ Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Good morning Lord, and thank you for another day, movement in this body, hearing in these ears, sight for visions of all things seen and unseen.

No one knows when our time will be up.  The doom and gloom and people giving up, giving in allowing darkness to overshadow all that has been meant for so much more.

 

No one is exempt Father we know this; everyone of us fall short!   Everyone of us hold misdeeds that should not be forgiven or at least justice served.

So, where and when did the world start turning on humanity to realize judgement should be served by throwing every individual into one big pot.

Our world is so jacked up, but Jesus knew this before trying to make it better.

We may all bleed the same, but when it comes to matters of the heart, we are all so vastly different in what we believe, what we follow, what we act upon.

Lord, who will this world have to serve and protect those in need and in harm’s way, if we allow those that are stirring this pot to achieve the lawlessness they are pushing for?

There are no real superhero’s in this world, no Batman and Robin, Wonder Women or Thor.

 

My favorite topic these thoughts lead me to.  TRUST ISSUES!

How easy it is to just follow the crowd then have faith and trust and support and believe in all that is good, all that will help grow a future for all of our children.

 

When it comes to government;  I am just a mare little speck in this universe but because of the power and dirty money and all they have done and achieved by doing so; unfortunately, I do not trust any of them with our lives.

   Yes, there are many newbies trying to make it in and they have really good souls.  But my perspective thinking out loud,  there is allot of cleaning house that needs to be done and justice served for all the dirt that those in power right now have done.

 

When it comes to our first responders and those who lay their life down on the line for people they do not even know.   Our Law Enforcement.   Yes, people are people and the pressures are real for the lack of pay and peace they may get on any given day. 

   Yes, the corrupted and bad must be weeded out before it is too late.   But we so need to stand together and step up for our brothers and sisters doing their best for those in need.

When it comes to our military that will never be repaid for the lives, they lay down just to fight battles I will never understand.  Even those that make it back are never given the help and respect they deserve for laying their entirety on the line.  Coming back broken without trust clinging to all that eventually destroys the soul they once were.

Trust.   Man, how I got here today, maybe a news article triggered this or just day to day.

I am the last person to really trust and believe in humanity.   I too am broken.   Perhaps is why I cling to God so tightly.  As he never has nor ever will let me down.   But I can assure from an incredibly young age I learned what trust was not.

Relationships of any kind take an abundance of truth, trust, and even more effort daily.  It seems here lately our world is quick and easy to take the fast path and just join the hate bus and bundling what was truly an injustice into one big ball to be kicked around until there is no one left.

Something that passed through this mind as I was falling off to sleep and I wrote last night.   Thinking, how did I get picked.   Although it was just the tip when thinking about love.    

I ask myself daily how or why Jesus allowed me to be chosen.    How or why I am who I am, see what I see, am able to be, yet question and call out that I just need realness, guidance, leading me in His will.   

Knowing I am just human and am learning daily.   But love.  Needing it, Wanting it, Being it.     Even in my own short comings.

Nothing is ever promised for any tomorrows for any of us.

 Why you ever picked me I will never understand.  As I am thinking now of some life conversations through my time I will or have had.

Always referring to God having a sense of humor when he thinks of me. 

 Referring to the world at times  that we must love and live well and enjoy the gifts we are given. Knowing if something is not working, we work to change it. 

We are loved by something far greater than what humanity classifies love.  Starting with you it starting with me.

For I am just a soul riding the airwaves silently seeking someone to finally show me when I do not have to ride any longer.

Somehow in spirit every now and again someone hears my cries; even though I am silent.

As they become interested enough, curious needing to tease their senses.  Just enough, but not really chance stepping in and drinking in the full essence of the real you, the real me.

Knowing it is there, but time, truth and what if all stand in the way.

As I lay on that wave rider, through the ocean of elements love seeping out, tears flow to the rhythms and beats just wanting that harmony.  

Just wanting that real you, and humanity says find the real me.  

    I cling to the music, of the beats worshiping as the door is open wide and the stage has no end in sight as it goes on and on.     

My soul caught up Father God lifted high as I imagine being played out on the strings, keys and voices singing out, voices lifted high.

When all of a sudden reality has slammed us and Father Time passes us quietly and quickly by.    Reminders of only in truth such passion flows as the tears I cry.

How can I trust what is to come in this world,  I ask without a doubt to ever lie?

For once he shared those split seconds of peace, love, and harmony.   I am blessed, beyond all deserving with or without this now life!

But alone as I awake from these dreams in the night. Letting go of what was, dreaming of what could be.

Imagining just the dreams, for reality that is so tainted as the world surrounds us with so many players, so much unnecessary injustice.  

Just to achieve what would be temporary.

So as those words that rang in my head during the night in my bed.   Awake dear soul lifting your head high, lifting those eyes.

Knowing no matter what! You (I) will forever be a daughter of the King held up above all things most high.

Seek truth, seek Justice, seek Gods will and peace.

Love you for you and me for me. 

 It will never matter if your name is Bartholomew, Bo, Kevin, or Keith, known as the least of these, the Pope, POTUS or top celebrity of the day.   The flavor does not matter in the end.     Just keeping it real in truth, in Christ, for the world for me.

Someday you will understand  perhaps a creature of habit with certain guidelines.     We cannot outrun God, nor Father Time.

So be well, no games, remain thankful for all things.     

As I ride this wave through the darkened skies.   As I ride this truth.    It will be that which God allows, that which is pure in heart, pure in action that avoids all lies.

In the meantime, in reality.   Here we are a speck in this world so vast filled with so much contempt, so much hate, so much divide.       God, I need the key to be released, unto the streets of gold, where no one ever hides.

Father God you know all things, of the how, the why and anything with me that transpires.

As today in silent pain I die to self again and again.   Holding on to you is the only truth that has ever been.  It does not matter what I desire or think.  What matters is the truth that sets us free.    The question why?  Why can I not have it all.  You God know the answer to those questions, you sustain all I am, and always pick me up when I fall.

Your Will Be Done

Be with all my connections, healing, and leading them through your will directing their sight.     Thank you for this day and thank you for the words throughout some nights.

 

Lord may we open our mouths for those who cannot speak.  Rescue the disadvantaged and stop tolerating the oppression or violence against anyone.  You Jesus did not shed your blood for this.  May we stand up, speak up and rise up in your peace, love leading in the same mercy and grace you allow me and all those who believe in you!

Please come Jesus and stop the madness, the hate the anger.   Heal us now we do not have time!

 

 Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Jeremiah 9:24 (NIV) ²⁴ but let the one who boasts boast about this:  that they have the understanding to know me, that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight,”  declares the Lord.


Psalms 146:7-9 (NIV)  ⁷ He upholds the cause of the oppressed and gives food to the hungry.  The Lord sets prisoners free, ⁸     the Lord gives sight to the blind, the Lord lifts up those who are bowed down, the Lord loves the righteous.   ⁹ The Lord watches over the foreigner and sustains the fatherless and the widow, but he frustrates the ways of the wicked.



1 Thessalonians 5:17(NIV) ¹⁷ pray continually,  


Psalms 62:5 (NIV) ⁵ Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him.  

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Date: 06/09/2020 Tuesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/0B_lnQIITxU   “Do It Again ” @Elevation Worship

https://youtu.be/3BSKdSdwHSg  “The Heart Of The Matter” @Don Henley @Eagles

https://youtu.be/IcC1Bp13n_4 “Who You Say I Am” @Hillsong Worship

https://youtu.be/lPE66C7Ty-4?t=70  “I Just Need You” @TobyMac (Separate AltogetherAcoustic)

BIBLEGATE.COM Daily Verse

Matthew 7:13-15 (NIV)   ⁷ The Narrow and Wide Gates

¹³ “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. ¹⁴ But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

True and False Prophets

¹⁵ “Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Saying goodbye to those we care about is never easy.  Be it a vacation that has ended, a great loss where we know they are never coming back.  Or even that which we never planned, and it just happened.  https://youtu.be/7ZhyJuVJm_w   “Saying Goodbye” @J.S. Ondara

 

Trying to find and maintain that peace, that harmony and laughter that carries us through.  Has never been an easy task in such a vast world with so many things always happening around us, to us, for us, against us.  https://youtu.be/A98A0Kb-1ng   “Find Peace” @Khaled Siddiq

 

But as sure as the sun rises, as sure as the good Lord allows us up another day.  No matter what it is we need to put away, stuff down, put in a closet or run as fast as we can from.

We have to know that the pain will subside, and there is more yet to come in this life.  God has created us all with a greater purpose than what is and always will be temporary.

Everything in this world is temporary.  What is not are the matters of the heart that go deep down into one’s soul.  https://youtu.be/RH3uGSzh4Dc  “Birds ” @Imagine Dragons

Your soul and the connections that lock in are forever.   They will be there on the other side in the joy of making it on the streets of gold; or forever broken for you in the depths of hell.

Every second of every moment you are allowed up to live, to breathe, to move about.  Even if its slowly, or in some physical or emotional pain.

You have to know you are worth more than what anything or anyone can do, give, or take from you.  https://youtu.be/4u_TcXJIbcA  “Gold ” @Britt Nicole

 

I will never say not to believe in love.   In fact, there are many beautiful souls that have been truly blessed in this world that have their worldly life partner that together they fight forward through no matter what.

I used to laugh when my mother would ask me when I would settle down.  Telling her love is like the lotto;  you have to play to win. After two failed marriages and no solid ground to even know what the heck I should have done differently.    I just was not into games. 

My video perspectives on opinions I shared yesterday, speaks volumes about my heart.   It is not that I never wanted that fairy tale love never ending. 

My life like others in this world, just became like bits and pieces of that that Eagles song wasted time, loving too well. too deep to fast, too easy.  Man, I use to nail this song in those days of youth gone by.   Even still sometimes you just know how real life can be. https://youtu.be/hfD3YVJrlt8   “Wasted Time” @Eagles 

   So, I avoid  and absolutely no way will I risk breaking and losing the gifts and blessings that God has given me when I came up out of that water.   Not to feel like one moment is wasted again.   Sometimes to keep it together I just leave it behind, I leave it alone.    Maybe Someday!

 

Yeah’ so what if I am a dreamer or a weirdo. 

 I am not defined by this world.

Only those that allow us to be, are!  What does that mean?  

 We become what we allow ourselves to be!    We become who we hang with, what we do, what we watch others do if we do not stop and own who God created us to be for our own individual purpose and growth.

Just as we have total control of how we will act or react to any circumstance or happenstance that occurs in our daily walks.

It is easy to just react without thinking.  Trust me I catch myself more often than not.  I can say I am beyond grateful that God changed my heart.  Because I was for a long time a young lady with so much hurt and anger that I always reacted ready to fight and hurt back.

Even now in any given day situation I still have my pet peeves.    If I am working on something and someone steps in and sidelines me or gets into an ongoing project effort that I am coordinating and meeting etc. with.   

Then I find out they have done the work after but never came to me when I had things flowing and setup.    It fluffs me up a bit.    Not that I do not appreciate the effort; but in today’s world with life being so short.   I just believe if someone wants to do something and makes it a point to step in.  They should just do it.  

Not step in and out as they see fit because of any reason.  The bottom line: communication is key.     In that scenario, if someone reached out and says hey, I was asked to help where are you in this process.   That is cool.  But when others just take it upon themselves to do whatever.   Which many of us do in life daily.     It just adds discontentment and frustration to the layers of whatever is going on.

Just as communication is key when we are doing things that impact others; so is it even more important those times we need to just know when not to react, not to speak up and not even be part of a process that should not be occurring.   

Life, choices, day to day or even the moments when we have to say goodbye, is and never will be easy.   It is what it is, and we get to choose how to respond or react during those hard moments.   Because it has never been written or promised I am creating you to be a life form and everything will be just as you want it, and all will be free and easy.     In fact, that is the most ridiculous thing ever coming out of my mouth or fingers.

I cannot tell you why any of us do what we do, other than we are driven by the opinions of others. 

We worry about who is real, who is not. Perhaps some of us would not like the word or term worry used; but we respond and do things that questions the classifications of realness at any given time that will at some moment in our lives to  even come down to impacting what next we say or what we do.

In much of the time in this world we blindly keep up with the jones just to be connected to someone with this or that or look like that supermodel or the one that looks like they have it all.    Even at times we are driven by the title we acquire no matter who we backbite or blatantly rob with purpose.

Even those who walk with God, still falling short and casting judgment in how we speak, how we react or act.    This is no surprise the world is what it is until we change it.    Look at us, really look at the battles we fight in 2020.    Look at what really matters and should have a war raged and look at the things we allow to manipulate us, or we use to manipulate others.

No surprise:  Life has been going on like this for centuries.   It has been a hostile world long before I got here and will only grow worse after I go.

I am an avid lover of watching movies made of and around back in the day of Kings and Queens.   How they were, what they did, how even decades ago they were deceitful and did what they did to gain whatever it was they wanted.

Corrupt government, fake friends, darkness with always that one gallant nobleman that everyone wants to fall in love with.     Hardships with the superhero’s or Outlanders of this world through the big screen. 

Where is this all coming from?   Well I am guessing those who have their doctrine in psychology would love to dissect this mind maze.

But the fact is when I wake in the morning and the wires start firing; from the time I get out of bed to sitting in front of this keyboard a million opportunities come and go.

What happens when I get here is all up to the blessings I am allowed.

Sure, I could write that love story that this heart has craved for as long as I can remember.  Or I could write the truths of how life really can be and what some of the things that molded me to who I am.

The let downs and pains of those closest to us, or those we think we want closest to us.    Well they have always been the thorns to all the beautiful garden of life we find ourselves allowed to walk in.

So here it is for me, the one who never planned to be writing day after day, have published a book, sitting on a manuscript, weekly releasing my verbal thoughts and perspectives.     Falling in love with Jesus Christ or those souls/spirits that just paint this world so many beautiful colors in what they themselves are able to do and share.

In love with the dreams I carry while doing my best to carry on making them come true; or just sidestepping and watching it playout around me, even if it is just on that big screen.

No matter what we choose, no matter what I choose.  https://youtu.be/DzZ4a-RFKJw    “Eye of the Beholder” @Metallica 

  All or nothing; I am, we are blessed for the freedom of choices we are allowed.

https://youtu.be/f3f5dVlfMPY?t=7     “Freedom” @Jesus Culture 

 

What is it that drives you?

What seeds will you plant?

What is it that you do today that will help that that one always watching you grow into the future, or be filled with hate and darkness?

 

Someone is always watching what we do; that is a fact.  

Not everyone is ever on the same page in perspective or beliefs as we are.  As we should not be.    The question is why we hop on any train to be part of a group that steps up and moves.

Why do we promote hate, violence and stealing life?

What has triggered us to those behaviors that we become followers and not leaders holding the light up ahead?

More importantly why do we waste our blessings of freedoms on things that ultimately cause death and destruction?

We are all allowed our freedoms, until we give them away.

We are all allowed to dream, all allowed to jump in or run out. 

Just know everything we do.   That tsunami wave of end results will always leave the impact on everything within the circle of life.

Be it your day-to-day, your home, your family, your friends. 

If you are constantly making choices that leave you empty.

 Who are you going to first and seeking guidance before making it?

Who and what is driving you?

Are you in relationship with Jesus first, and everything else after? 

What are you really doing if you are?   Do you really believe in God and the greater good that He created the world to be?

All I can say is dig in, find your brothers and sisters that are doing their best keeping it real and learn as much as they can and share out who God is according to the Bible first.  

Not that of what anyone may think.  Not even me.   I never get down into the meat and potatoes.   I share verses and truths. 

But we must learn, read, want, and repeat daily who God is through His son Jesus Christ every moment of every day.

And those that get that and are the teachers and leaders we all can benefit from.

Find a good bible-based church even if it is now online.  It is not the walls of the building it is the lessons those blessed within are sharing.

Dig into those out there doing their best and sharing love, hope and light through their music.    Dig in and find the hope and support through their podcasts and bible studies.

Do not assume just because someone goes to church or can quote scripture, they really are following Jesus and /or have your best interest in mind.

Do not be knocked off your feet when those that really follow Jesus who have been out there on their own and trying to be the hands and feet end up falling short and broken for a period.   Because they were out on their own.

We all need each other, we all need to keep it real and we all need to know who God is in love, harmony, peace and so much blessings of mercy and grace.

If we cannot be a light to all that is good, if we cannot find a light or anyone we are connected.  We must even when it is hard.  Say goodbye, no matter how much it may hurt.  https://youtu.be/sARlnKk23xw  “Kiss and Say Goodbye” @Manhattan

 

We must stop trying to prove what does not matter and start getting back to basics.  

 Teach our families our children what love really is.  Which is not giving them anything they want or chasing and filling our worlds with fake and material things.

If every adult on this earth were to vanish right here right now.  Would the children be able to keep going?  

Do they know how to grow food, make things, cook, maintain things they cannot replace for a long time.

Do they appreciate what they have and respect the facts of everything that comes will also be taken away?

It is every adults job on this earth to lead the way; and although I have been blessed by technology my entire career.      When the lights go out, it will not feed or grow anything good.  https://youtu.be/vst1Z76gIY4   “One More Light” @Linkin Park

 

Dear Father, you know this heart better than anything or anyone in this earth.   You know every inch of how ever scar I ever accumulated ever came to be.

Jesus, the love of my soul, holding my dreams tight and secrets of my soul even tighter.

Be with all my connections Jesus!  Everything I am, ever will have is yours Father God.  That is no secret.

No matter what anyone thinks may they think of you first.      May the choices we make banish the hate and vile actions of that darkness that has been forever be banished and condemned from the day it came to life.

We all need a great healing Father, Me, and all I am connected are going through only what you know.     Please protect those in need, the children, the elderly, the broken hearted.    May the shaking that has been uprooting this land, now turn brighter than ever before.    May no life be taken in hate; may your justification wash over and through all of.     White, brown, black, yellow, or even purple Father God.    We were all created in the image of you and all made to bleed red! 

No hate, or love will ever change what Jesus locked in.

Thank you, Father God, for the new sunrise, and day of opportunities ahead.  No matter if it is filled with tears or laughter or even both.   We are, I am beyond deserving blessed.

Thank you

For God alone has always and will always be the one and only that means it when He said Come back to me!   https://youtu.be/cnpscf5vkb0   “Come Back To Me” @Keith Urban

 

 

 

 Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

@Jesus Calling @Sarah Young “SEEK TO LIVE IN MY LOVE, which covers a multitude of sins: both yours and others’.  Wear MY Love like a cloak of Light, covering from head to toe.  Have no fear, for perfect Love decimates fear.  Look at other people through lenses of love; see them from My perspective.  This is how you walk in the Light, and it pleases Me.  I want MY body of believers to be radiant with the Light of My Presence.  How I grieve when pockets of darkness increasingly dim the Love-Light.  Return to Me, your First Love! Gaze at Me in the splendor of holiness, and My Love will once again envelop you in Light. 

1 Peter 4:8 (NIV) ⁸ Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.    

1 John 4:18 (NIV) ¹⁸ There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.  

Revelation 2:4 (NIV)  ⁴ Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.

Revelation 2:4 (MSG)  ^4-5 “But you walked away from your first love—why? What’s going on with you, anyway? Do you have any idea how far you’ve fallen? A Lucifer fall!
“Turn back! Recover your dear early love. No time to waste, for I’m well on my way to removing your light from the golden circle.

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Date: 06/08/2020 Monday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/81LexOwf4Xo  “Even If” @MercyMe

https://youtu.be/cH3-diCOUyI    “On Your Own” @TobyMac and the Diverse City Band

https://youtu.be/NswPPVgMaPE   “While I Wait” @Lincoln Brewster

Verse of the Day

Habakkuk 3:19 (NIV) ¹⁹ The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to tread on the heights.  For the director of music. On my stringed instruments.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

As I look up with the sky so clear, listening to your birds sing.  Knowing new days are ahead.  Thank you, Jesus, for all that has been and all that will come.

It is nothing new we hear, I write, Be kind no matter what.  Everyone is going through something.

Today we must look up no matter what that something is.  Look up in respect, dignity, knowing the power of God’s blood spilled for everyone who will never deserver it.  Look up in love and if you cannot see it; be it!

Do not be angry for those that come at you with such contempt of any kind.   Be who you were created to be.    In love, reaching deep and believing for the justice that will come.

As this day reveals such promise, we all must dig in and reflect freely where our strength comes from.     Mine even on the hard days is eternal and only from Christ himself

I pray no matter what physical or spiritual war that has you surrounded we must fight our battles with Christ  https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4   “Surrounded (Fight My Battles) ” @Michael W Smith all the while we do our very best to let love lead https://youtu.be/b-q_EAx8JBo       “Let Love Lead ” @Terrian

I could pick up and continue telling you pieces of me, but you have to know  God has made us for more than anything this world will ever give or take.  Never forget that and do not  ever allow yourself to get lost in what does not matter.

He knows every single thing about us, our names, every hair on our head.   All the reasons in our hearts why we do the things we do even when we do not want to do them.

No matter what you started,  lift your eyes up, opening your soul to the one who allows you to be.     If you are angry for the situations you are in.   Scream out to Him alone calling upon Jesus.  Demand he show you why and heal all that has been broken.   Demand Him to show you if not this way.  Which way are we supposed to take?

God did not allow creation to come just to suffer in hate, anger and so much pain.

No matter if it is the one that you adored and loved so dearly and one day it was all taken away.  The loss of  loved ones, our own blood.  Why would he allow us to be part of a family and take some so special, so soon?  Others that are in our life doing harm without regard still stay.

No matter if it is a health issue, broken spirit.  Take it up with God first through His son before taking any steps anytime anywhere.

I can assure you through Jesus Christ, God will help you work through all that is stealing your joy, your peace.   

You are loved and worth so much more than being entangled in the messes this world and the billions of souls out here struggling to be are going through.

I am personally even when I do not sometimes deserve them, expect them, or even want them, I am incredibly grateful for my scars.   It has allowed me to do just as I recommend you do and led me to a greater peace and healing than I could have ever imagined.   https://youtu.be/It1XzDf-pFo “Scars” @I Am They

Others may not never agree with anything I say or do; or anything you say or do. 

I just know no matter what I mess up with or walk in bad habits or feel not enough; You, Jesus always remind me whose I am and the blessings of what can be.  https://youtu.be/OcDRp0zWGIw  “Canvas and Clay” @Pat Barrett ft. Ben Smith

 

I can write about a ton of things this morning as this mind is bouncing off the walls of all those electrical currents flowing through the gift of life I have been given.

But the fact remains it is not about me, it is not about you.   It is about what we do with what we are given in the good, in the heart wrenching devastation that occurs and is occurring.  In just the mundane that really does not matter but we make it so.

The choices we make, or those we are tied to through others and what they make; absolutely lead to results that shape us in some way.

I could list twenty reasons daily of why I should hate people or just turn life off.   But I am not what others get over on me for; or how I let someone down.   Or something that we should have no part of because it is only going to lead us into temptation and doing things, we may feel those layers later.

Is life easy?   Stupid question, nothing is easy, nothing is free.   For every breath we are given there is and was a cost.  For every action we make someone pays somehow some way.

All I can do is hold onto faith and know I cannot stop or quit.  If He never let me in the past, I cannot give up now. I am all in till the day I die, beyond all space and time Forever My Sweet Soul King https://youtu.be/GkRvztxpook   “Till The Day I Day” @TobyMac

For the light on the hill will always wash away any darkness or city on their knees.    Submission in truth, in love, in Christ always reveals what is greater to come.

We are all broken people in some way, shape or form.   Be it the world has access to see your scars; or you keep them hidden.

None of us as babies asked to be here; many never got the chance to stay.  But I believe if you are still here no matter what you have been given to work through.   God has a purpose and needs you to step up in faith and cling tightly to His promises and robe.  As he will wash you clean and protect you from even yourself when needed.

 

Father God much of who I am does not make sense; as I have never been a planner, more of a dreamer.  When I set my eyes to something, I have always achieved it; yet there are times that I just cannot look to even set a flight in motion.   There are those times that I a walk with you but me on one side of the stream and you on the other.   Those days when I just cannot let go of you and others where I think I am all grown up and got this.

In either case, may I truly always allow your love to lead, your eyes to see and think before engaging, or speaking so that I am never adding to the darkness of this world.     Not for anything more Lord than to just always remain humbly in your presence.

Show me your will, your way in leading others when they are breaking me and your heart.  No special favors Lord,  I like everyone else want life abundantly with love in love for love.

All the temporal things of this world will never matter in the end.   Heal me, heal this land please Jesus.  

Be with all my brothers and sisters; be with your chosen.    Forgive us all for what we have or will do.   May it always be in your will.    Forgive me, for letting go when I should hold on; or holding on when I should let go.

 

Lead all who are fighting to be someone other than you have created them to be Jesus.

Heal all who have been broken

Be with all my connections in forgiveness, love and mercy.

 

May we all pray harder when things seem so out of control and unworthy of being any truth you would want for us Jesus!   May we see your promise of life and light in this darkened world.

In your precious name and sacrifice I am reminded daily.  Without out love, without your son I would never be here today.   Thank you

 

While I wait for the real you, I will worship the God I serve before anything that could ever be given or taken away.  He who is sacrificed and gave everything before ever even allowing to know the real me with real needs, dreams in everything no matter how strange it seems.     

Love near or far, as I came out of that water like yesterday.   Still I trust you all the same.   If my wait is not until my eternal path so be it.  

 Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Psalm 11:7 (NIV)   ⁷ For the Lord is righteous, he loves justice; the upright will see his face.

Ephesians 4:29-32 (NIV)   ²⁹ Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. ³⁰ And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. ³¹ Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. ³² Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Psalm 103.6 (NIV)   ⁶ The Lord works righteousness and justice for all the oppressed.

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Date: 06/07/2020 Sunday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/GzT4p-OaJ5c  “The Fighter” @Keith Urban ft. Carrie Underwood

https://youtu.be/3frQkfgejDk   “Best Is Yet To Come” @Ryan Stevenson

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Things are always as real as we believe in.   Something like life is what it is until it is not!

We all believe in something or we should.  No matter if it is good or bad.    What is good or bad, right and or wrong in today’s world and the minds of 7.66 billion plus souls alive and walking this earth, and that number was a guestimate of just the year 2018.

Not including anything else living on this earth such as those really smart pets we had, have or will have.

What is it that feeds your spirit and keeps getting you back up each day making you want to grow forward?    Not just go through the motions of existence and no not that which churns and burns us so bad that we want to stir up drama, hate, pain wherever they go.

 

Kind of like the unrest that has a grip on our world right now today in 2020.     From the day to day hardships that were already holding tight to humanity.   The great division from wealth, cultural and yes color.     Even among our own places and spaces if some were not like us, look like us, talk like us, have what we have.  The great divide is always there.

 

Over the years from going out and hanging with friends listening to bands and listening to people making fun of others right down to the shoes they had on.  Because they were not like them.     To even myself as I have went into certain big chain grocery marketplaces and had to shake my head for what some allow the world to see them as.

Judgement at its best.    God’s experiment allowing all of us to have our own freedoms in the choices we make.    Yet, what about the accountibility portion of those choices.     We take our freedoms too far and stop in many cases and sprint the other direction when it comes to the accountibility portion.

Or even when we remain accountable, but we make everyone else suffer because of our attitude.     Or those that react, screaming, hurting others because they are hurting and do not know what to do or how to handle it. Taking it out on loved ones or even perfect strangers.

We all believe everything we believe from me and the power of prayer, and a God who created this entirety to His son Jesus Christ that for love, in love with love came to this earth to create a humanity that would be filled with hope, good things, love and kindness.

But like everything from those freedoms also given.  Have went somewhere else with all the ideology and thought processes the billions of people this earth has.

No, it would be a horrible place although a great reality show if we all looked the same, talked the same, thought the same.     Just watching some of the shows that actually have been created about the future or even those about cults or even experiments being played out.

We are too far off, are we?   What is it that we believe in that drives us?   Experiments or games whatever the driver considers it.  Be it from pretending to be something or someone we are not; to seeing how many text messages to a celebrity’s phone line.    To even those that are really good making others believe they care truly for the future and well being of others.   Yet when they walk into another room, they reveal it is truly for their own personal gains.

Some of us in this world are truly bold and pull no punches, some will point blank say or do whatever they feel like it right then, right there.   While others creep around and pretend to be what they are not. 

No, it does not always start out that way; I believe although are all born a world where sin and bad, harmful choices are easy to transpire.  Not many if any are truly born in with evil on their mind and purposely want to do the things that cause harm and breakage to anything or anyone around us. 

Yes, there are deficits in many of this chemically imbalanced world.  In you, in me.   Some from the poisons that have been put in the vessels we have been given to journey through this world.

Some just waiting for our hands to come off the pin before they exploded and the torment and chaos inside our lack of healing is released for a world to see.

I have been writing for years and even sitting on a manuscript most likely just as long.  About the fact we all get to choose!  

We get to choose no matter who things the result is right or wrong of who we want to believe, or what we want to believe.  We get to choose to put those drugs in our bodies and then stop when we realize they are not doing anything good to or for us.

We get to choose who we find utterly amazing or who we cringe and cannot run fast enough away.

So why do we tend to fall short when our choices do not have the results we were expecting.

Why is it when we allow ourselves to fall in love and commit to that one being; so many instead of being real as time grows forward.   Would rather sidestep, lie, cheat, or even have external affairs of the heart, emotions and physical intimacy that was once promised.

Why is little sacred any longer in this world.   Yes, speaking from experience and coming from the dream world and going through my own divorces.       Let us just say I was going to marry my son’s father when I was a kid.   But we never made it.   What started out as a hang out friend turning into sex, by 17 becoming pregnant and thinking I knew what love was.     To the same one I spent day in and day out with trying to convince me I ruined their lives.

We lived together, we fought together, we would make up and break up and repeat the cycle over and over.    I worked, he would just hang out and party.       We had allot of young fun for sure, and the thrills were real.       The day I walked away when my son was 18 months old sleeping in the crib in the other room me in the shower.   And he came home wasted and playing games, so he said it was a game.    Turning the bathroom light off while I showered and he trying to stab me with an ice pick through the shower curtain.

One of the many times God was with me.  You have to understand back then,  I was a scrapper growing up in a single parent no parent home.  I had my many opportunities to fight my way through life and protect what was given to me.     I ripped back that shower curtain seeing who it was.   And just went off.   When I was done,  getting dressed and packing up my son and our clothes.   That was it.    Life changed forever.    To no surprise though even before I started showing in my pregnancy it was clear he did not want a relationship.      My words still echo as I was laying in the hospital in an exceedingly long and lonely delivery.    If you cannot be with me while I am pregnant, if you cannot be with me while I am having him, then you will never be with me in life.

Laying on a hospital gurney in a hallway in Tampa General Hospital in pain and so very alone was just one of the many layers built in this soul to know that physically some of us will be blessed with a forever soul to walk by their side.  Some of us just are meant for something different.

 

So, the first three years of my son’s life we did this on again off again nonsense always coming back to what kept us together in the first place.  What was on my part love, only later to understand just human nature and sex that drove us.    Still growing through all of my mountains I was climbing as a broken individual from the start.   There was never any doubts I was fully responsible for making sure my son had a home and food and basic necessities.    But I was not perfect.  I was fighting to have a life and make a life for the one thing that was finally mine, so I thought.

It was 4.5 years later I finally gave in to my daughter’s father, who use to come and sit on the counter of the convenience store I worked at.  Every day for a couple months trying to get me to date him.   Yes,  I did and after a month of dating again we started sleeping together.

It was different but the same.   I had my own place where me and my son lived and even friends that I hung out with and was even pursued by someone that who knows could have really given us a better not so hard life.    But they came from money, and a family that had it all.   And although I wanted that dream never fit it.   Never seen me fitting in with the friends like that or even having the ability to be what they would need.   They were awesome, they owned their business and I would do book work for them for extra money on the side.   They were always kind and allowing me my independence and it was me who finally just moved away without a word.

Yet here I am now dating my daughters’ father, going through the motions.    Me in my place them in theirs and the truth came out.   We could never be more than what we were because they were already married and just going through a separation or divorce.

I learned young people will take what they want and give little or sometimes they give much.  Just depends where you fall on the spectrum of their hearts. 

I will never be perfect; I was a skinny little scrappy girl fighting my way forward and never backing down.     Attracted to the empty promises they would want me and love me forever.   While fighting my own demons from the days of a child.

I had back and forth between Florida and NY from 1980 through 1983.    Trying to make it and working and owning every choice I ever made.   Far from perfect and more battles with people, with my own spirit and with the demons.

It was in 1983 when I split with my that so called great guy that had to really mean what he was saying if he would day after day no matter who was around come sit on that counter top until I promised I would date him.   The father of my daughter that revealed he just was not with me.

I spent a long time in the hospital again alone the end of 83 into 84.  Right up until I had my daughter.   Allowing my choices to make a mess and who knows what damage to my already beautiful son.     Blessed that I had family and my aunt and uncle allowed my son to stay with them until I got out of the hospital.      How broken I was that I failed and was failing them and putting them in harms way just as those who were responsible for me had done to me.

My son would come in to visit with my mom once a week and cry that he wanted me.  One day I noticed his ear had been split open I realized something had to be different for them.    I had to do something different.

There were allot of emotions and motions that life allowed.   I had so much time to know what it was like to really be alone and what was I doing to and for these kids.      When I had my daughter, I went right back to work.  As a maid for Ramada in in NY, managed my own apartment and took care of my children while I enrolled in school and finished high school, then my first round of college.

My independence every now again would step aside trying to trust others for what I was responsible.    But never would I let anyone fill my head with such untruths.

My story goes on with so many different choices I had made throughout time.   So many layers of scars that I ended up with and even those because of my choices my children I am sure of it ended up with.        I did marry the first time when I was 27.    Met my husband who was the owner of the store I worked at.  Who promised me the world, that he was going to be my knight in shining armor, here to rescue me so I imagined in 1989!

I was a dreamer, diving in giving everything I had.    Married, even a cool honeymoon.  I should have known when the video of the wedding picked up the sound but everything else was all static.       I should have known moving in to his house a week before the wedding and he made it clear we needed nothing that we once had and he created a burn pile of everything we owned and burned my entire life in front of my eyes.      The marriage was not even close.   I can tell you this, the divorce papers read dissolution for cruel and in humane treatment.    Not once did we even consummate or have what any marriage should have.      

His kids, my kids, chaos, and so much unnecessary pain.   He had control of any of my legal documents, my paycheck all of anything.

It was not until the day I snapped and had enough; and refused any more hurt or damage be done to my children or myself.    Finally getting his attention and clearing off the kitchen counter saying I had enough.   I had enough mental abuse, but my kids were enduring physical.    When I cleared off the counter and said you want to beat someone beat me.   Screaming at the top of my lungs and swiping my arm sending everything to the floor.    Sending all the kids outside.     It worked!   I became a human rag doll that was slammed through a table, sent flying into the next room and all of sudden the beatings stopped and as I stood up crying just said.   I hope you feel like the man you really are.     Barely able to get up as he left the house, I called my stepdad and mom and just asked them to come get us.     Writing a letter and putting it into his dresser top drawer.   We took the clothes we could carry I broke into the safe and got our important papers and never looked back.

Choices matter!     I knew when I would come home from working two jobs and my children were not who they once were.   Something was wrong.   But like many just wanting something real, lasting, and loving.   We hope the newness is just adjustment and it will pass.

I can never give back any hope, or time to my children for the choices I made.  I can never make up any damage that was done to my ex’s kids.       But long ago I begged for forgiveness and even before finding my way to walk with Christ would pray God have mercy on the children, he allowed me.

Here I was almost thirty, everything I worked for gone, back living in my mother’s apartment sleeping on her cot.   Having her tell me how much I looked like crap get up and do something.   I had nothing.  All those years working and getting established to give life; I allowed taken away in one choice to chase love.

I was there for a few months and was finally able to buy my mother’s car from her and eventually even starting to talk with friends.    It was one of my crazy dear friends at the time that convinced me life would be okay let him help.

I knew my second husband since I was 13 years old.     Let me say we never really know anyone be it blood, friend, or foe.   You never know what is driving someone’s heart, choices, or actions.

 We ended up living together four years and finally I was so grateful that he helped me get back on track.  I finally gave in when he was not feeling well and said let’s get married so you can be on my health insurance.     Sounds messed up doesn’t it?      We were never in love, but we loved each other’s just because we knew each other for so long and respected who we were trying to be at the time.   My kids loved him; he was a big kid himself.    Things were great and he chose to help us setup from nothing to what we thought was everything.     I was working bills were being paid, were doing family trips and life was good.   I was in college again to grow my career, but life got the better of us.  Instead of growing together and trying to fall in love; we both grew apart even as friends.  He found himself setting up house with someone else leaving us behind. 

The worse thing was the entire time I would tell him stop buying my children.    Just be real with and for them.  They absolutely adored him.    Then he just stopped coming home.  

That was some tough times again for them, for me.   It was in that same year that cold snowy winter, the great job I had laid me off.  Here I was broken all over again.   Learning how buried in debt I was from the marriage and now being discarded from the place I served for years even though highly qualified.  They just no longer needed some of us.

I crashed hard.   Started making really bad choices and just could not deal.  Moved from the house into a big old brownstone in the inner city.

 

Our choices of what we do no matter how we came to be.  They all matter.   What we believe in and why we believe in it matters.

So, as I sit and think back and share even what is really just brief seconds of what was and how I came to be here and now.     Every choice we make matters, and what we do with the result be it to our benefit and blessing or ridiculously hard cold lessons leaving scars.    We all need to be accountable for what we have done, what we have started and what we will do next.

I never planned to grow up in a single parent no parent home,  I never planned to be a single parent home.  In fact, if I had my way and could have seen the future I would have absolutely still be married to the father of my children.    But life does not always work the way we want; when we are constantly surrounded and allow the chaos of the world thinking we can manage through it alone drive us.

What I can say is:

We are not what happens to us!

We are not what we do!

We are not any mistakes we make!

We are not the money we make or the fancy houses we live in or cars we drive!

We are all children of God, created for something greater and more everlasting than anything this world will ever give or take.

You see, even long before me coming to know who Jesus Christ was.  Even before anything I could ever make my own decisions for.   Someone out there must have said a prayer for God to hold me tight.    And through the years of me praying to a God I did not know even while chasing what I had no clue only Jesus could fill.    

He alone had me from the start.     From being victimized as a child to making broken wrong choices trying not to be alone; from me running to get out and He is saying not yet.   To right here and now knowing it is okay to feel lonely, but know we are never truly alone.

God is with us, for us and all we need to do is dig deep and seek Him first in everything we do and hold strong to the choices we make even when they do not always turn out as we predict or would like.      But still allow us to grow forward in and with Him.

Jesus Christ did not suffer and die so we could be caught up repeating the wrong choice cycles over and over again.  He did not die so we could suffer at all.   He took everything so we would live.  No matter how long or short a life we have.

He gives us blessings and lessons of others to help us grow.    No, it will not always be sunshine and roses.     Some of us have to go through the thorn fields a long time until we get just how much we really need to find Jesus right where we are.     Others never will and just take the pain to give pain to anyone or anything they can get over on.

It does not matter if we make mistakes that we plan and scheme never thinking we will get caught or we just end up as collateral damage or even just trying to make each new day better and we find our selves building walls up to keep all that which could cause doubt and mistrust out.     Even if occasionally we peek around the corner and just do it knowing it is not what the outcome is in the end.  But if it helps one soul and God allows us another new day.   We are far more blessed than any wolves in this vast world.

With that and all that I have been able to release from today’s mind maze.   Know if you are up and have life.  You are blessed.

Keep going and growing forward.  No matter what it looks like up ahead.      Be love and be light no matter who tries to steal it from you.  No matter who toys with your reality, your emotions, your future.    We all get to choose!  

I can never say do not get mad or even.     But use the madness others stir in you to learn who you really are and what you are really made of.   I can assure you God created you in His image and you are beautiful with so much purpose and a future ahead to live, love and be a light in this world growing darker each day.

Do not beat yourself up too badly if you want to love, be loved, and want to trust even those that you know just have not found the real them yet; to be real for you now.

Use common sense and never change to be something someone else wants.     I can assure you the greatest love anyone will ever give you.  Will come from God himself through Jesus Christ.

If that leaves us alone in this world standing.   It is truly all worth it in the end when we get to the other side.

Yes, there is a spiritual battle that is and has been going on for longer than we ever will.    CHOOSE LIGHT!    Fight daily to not get trapped in the darkness and all the lies this world or those in it will feed you.     Love people for who they are and not what they do.   No matter what that looks like.

If you fall get back up; never stop believing things are always going to get better each day you are given.  Never stop believing and holding that deep feeling of love that you can feel flow through your veins even if only in your dreams.

Truly all you need is God and to get Him you need to meet Jesus right where you.  I will never be one to force my beliefs on anyone.  As I still work through all my ups and downs.  Dreams and desires and get really close to the fire and pull back.   Still just wanting that what is real.  Fortunately, I have figured out that starts with being grounded in truth.   For this has blessed me  even beyond some hard lessons.  If the Good Lord continues to get me up; I will continue to hope, pray harder and hold on to even the smallest slices of love when and where I can.  

Thanks for reading today; may the Good Lord bless you and all you are connected.  In what is good, what is love, what is light.    Healing us all from the inside out.     May we all find and be blessed with that Agape love and life soul connection that will never leave us.  

Know you are worth more than anything this world will give or take, label, or truly try to break.   It only happens if you allow yourself to stay in the brokenness.  Much love and peace in Him!

 

 

 

 Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Ecclesiastes 12 (NIV)   12 Remember your Creator
    in the days of your youth, before the days of trouble come
    and the years approach when you will say, “I find no pleasure in them”—
² before the sun and the light and the moon and the stars grow dark,
    and the clouds return after the rain; ³ when the keepers of the house tremble,
    and the strong men stoop, when the grinders cease because they are few,
    and those looking through the windows grow dim; ⁴ when the doors to the street are closed and the sound of grinding fades; when people rise up at the sound of birds,
    but all their songs grow faint; ⁵ when people are afraid of heights
    and of dangers in the streets; when the almond tree blossoms and the grasshopper drags itself along and desire no longer is stirred.

Then people go to their eternal home and mourners go about the streets.

⁶ Remember him—before the silver cord is severed, and the golden bowl is broken;
before the pitcher is shattered at the spring, and the wheel broken at the well,
⁷ and the dust returns to the ground it came from, and the spirit returns to God who gave it.

⁸ “Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher.^[a]  “Everything is meaningless!”

The Conclusion of the Matter

⁹ Not only was the Teacher wise, but he also imparted knowledge to the people. He pondered and searched out and set in order many proverbs. ¹⁰ The Teacher searched to find just the right words, and what he wrote was upright and true.

¹¹ The words of the wise are like goads, their collected sayings like firmly embedded nails—given by one shepherd.^[b] 12 Be warned, my son, of anything in addition to them.

Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body.

¹³ Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter:

Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the duty of all mankind.
¹⁴ For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing,
    whether it is good or evil.



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Life will come and go.  Many will try to convince you of things that will never be relevant or proven.      

Never quit life even when you find yourself struggling to loosen up a bit and just believe in others.   

Love all you are connected and especially yourself well!