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Date: 06/20/2020 Saturday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
Lord the songs
that pop in this head or the vibes that
keep me moving. Thank you!
https://youtu.be/J3ztZiIFJ40 @ “If You Love Me” @BB King and Van
Morrison
https://youtu.be/k5w7MgTgVVs @ “Breathe/What A Friend I’ve Found” @Hillsong
Worship
https://youtu.be/_fY3l9AKPa0 “Touch
Of Heaven ” @David Funk |Worship Night
https://youtu.be/R-HY6AYdbkI “Heaven Come ” @Worship with Corey Asbury, Lauren Daigle
and Amanda Cook
Biblegateway.com
(DAILY VERSE)
36 For what does it benefit a man to gain the whole world [with
all its pleasures], and forfeit his soul?
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
One thing
is for sure no matter what, or where. I
am so lost without you Jesus. Beyond grateful
for the time I have had. To really
experience family bonds, and watching life grow right before my eyes.
Lord
you did not have to come; but you wanted to!
Changing the dynamics and the world forever. With great compassion for even those of us
who refuse to accept your goodness. No
matter if our eyes remain wide open or wide shut; Father God fill us with your
spirit and truth.
May
we who are given this new day we are allowed up, we have air in our lungs, sight
in our eyes, hearing in our ears and movement in our bodies. May we always give you thanks for even with
limitations we are nothing without you God.
Here
we are Jesus! Here we are. Though so many songs relative to thoughts
flowing as I tap out this morning. Not
this time; right here right now Lord I
lift all I will ever know, ever be ever to you, for you. Please come!
As I am blessed to know you are with all of us. As you are with me.
Thank
you for this day. Love let the heavens
reign down through us all. Heal this land
each and every son or daughter, every woman or man. Heal us all whatever that may be.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version,
NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Psalms 8:1-4 (AMP)
The Lord’s Glory and Man’s Dignity.
To the Chief Musician; set to [a]a Philistine
lute [or perhaps to a particular Hittite tune]. A Psalm of David.
8 O Lord, our Lord,
How majestic and glorious and excellent is Your name in all the
earth!
You have displayed Your splendor above the
heavens.
2 Out
of the mouths of infants and nursing babes You have established strength
Because of Your adversaries, That You might
silence the enemy and make the
revengeful cease.
3 When I see and consider
Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
The moon and the stars, which You have
established,
4 What
is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of [earthborn] man that You
care for him?
How majestic and glorious and excellent is Your name in all the earth!
You have displayed Your splendor above the heavens.
2 Out of the mouths of infants and nursing babes You have established strength
Because of Your adversaries, That You might silence the enemy and make the revengeful cease.
The moon and the stars, which You have established,
4 What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of [earthborn] man that You care for him?
19 The
heavens are telling of the glory of God; And the expanse [of
heaven] is declaring the work of His hands. 2 Day after day pours forth speech, And night after night
reveals knowledge.
19 Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit
who is within you, whom you have [received as a gift] from God, and that you
are not your own [property]?
Jeremiah 29:13 (AMP)
13 Then [with a deep longing] you will seek Me and require Me [as a vital necessity] and [you will] find
Me when you search for Me with all your heart.
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Date: 06/19/2020 Friday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
Lord the songs
that pop in this head or the vibes that
keep me moving. Thank you! Waking my senses up to all genre’s again and
bringing me back through that ride that every song has a story. Although most country just brings that love
and good old days. Been a while where I have been just getting loved on through and with Jesus.
https://youtu.be/gX55kDRVkVo @
“You Look So Good In Love” @George Strait
https://youtu.be/xusH299VCpI @
“Spend Time with God Every Day” @Above Inspiration
https://youtu.be/f1wHqzC6E5A “When We Pray/Change Is Gonna Come ” @Tauren Wells
https://youtu.be/DuZPOVFcFJ4 “Confidence
” @Sanctus Real
Biblegateway.com
(DAILY VERSE)
Ephesians 5:25-26 (TLB)
25 And you husbands, show the same kind of love to your wives as
Christ showed to the Church when he died for her, 26 to make her holy and clean, washed by baptism and God’s Word;[a]
25 And you husbands, show the same kind of love to your wives as Christ showed to the Church when he died for her, 26 to make her holy and clean, washed by baptism and God’s Word;[a]
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version,
NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Psalm 5:11 (TLB)
11 But make everyone
rejoice who puts his trust in you. Keep them shouting for joy because you are
defending them. Fill all who love you with your happiness.
11 But make everyone rejoice who puts his trust in you. Keep them shouting for joy because you are defending them. Fill all who love you with your happiness.
Ephesians 3:20-21 (TLB)
20 Now glory be to God, who by
his mighty power at work within us is able to do far more than we would ever
dare to ask or even dream of—infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires,
thoughts, or hopes. 21 May he be given glory forever and ever
through endless ages because of his master plan of salvation for the Church
through Jesus Christ.
Jude 24-25 (TLB)
24-25 And now—all glory to him who alone is God, who
saves us through Jesus Christ our Lord; yes, splendor and majesty, all power
and authority are his from the beginning; his they are and his they evermore
shall be. And he is able to keep you from slipping and falling away, and to
bring you, sinless and perfect, into his glorious presence with mighty shouts
of everlasting joy. Amen.
Jude
Joshua 1:5 (TLB)
5 No one will be able to oppose you as long as you live, for I
will be with you just as I was with Moses; I will not abandon you or fail to
help you.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you, Lord, For new days and the agility to get out of
the way when this coffee cup went clear across my desk this morning.
I so hate wasting a good cup of coffee. But am so
thankful nothing in this computer area was damaged. And now that sweet smell of coffee in my
office😊
Yes, I could be upset about
this spill but oh my goodness there is so much other stuff happening in this
world.
I can talk about all my
frustrations that are taking place from that which truly sends so much unrest
in my home. To just being stuck home
yet blessed that I am still alive to have a home and not be in harms. Way.
I can talk about allot of
things, dreams, desires, broken hearts, broken people. My struggles with boundaries in helping
others in various ways moving forward in life yet finding myself enabling bad
behaviors and ungrateful results in the end.
Be it my own family, or that of
a stranger. Been there done that. I can talk about believing there is good
in everyone so much I blind myself to the truth because I think somewhere in the
back of this head. What they are doing
for selfish ambitions really is not so; or maybe that God will get them for
being such creeps.
Gosh so much could spill out
into even the bigger world that we live in that so desperately needs us all
including myself to just chill out.
Love looks so good on all of
us! For real.
I am over all the negative
constant slander and nasty vibes that even I lately catch myself spewing out.
Hiding under the headset with
music blasting taking me to places to avoid what is really happening in this
world.
WE ARE ALL going through something. Taking how we feel because of what do or do
not do on others is not fair or going to get us anywhere positive.
But here I am, and I could go
down a list of facts adding to the point fingers of everything that is done wrong
creating that constant unrest from even me.
That unrest building up when speaking not
building each other up but constant daggers of anger and madness. Bad
enough we do that when strangers violate some part of our space. But in
your own blood line, your own family.
Yes, I for these past few weeks have had enough; and
I get this shelter in place from this ugly pandemic is getting to us all.
Those that choose not to cope
are burying themselves further in excuses and thinking no one realizes what they
are doing or why it is making them sick.
Walking around miserable to
everyone; one slight wrong question or word and everything is explosive.
Turning on your own family without
just for once saying I am aware no one in this house is perfect but I am going
to do my best to try and bring positive vibes and not blame how I feel on
everyone else.
Nope instead let us pick apart,
shout, scream, blame point fingers and shame everyone else.
As I remind and have for this
unrest period. Get it together; I do
not have to do what I am doing. This
house was for stability and opportunity for others not me. The hours I burn and churn and put all the
effort in my work for that paycheck to pay for everything in this house so all anyone
has to do is their best and find that peace and be a light when they cannot
find one.
But know; there must be some misguided direction some are picking up from. I will just leave it at that.
You want change; Be the
Change!
It does not matter how broken
we are, how sick we are.
Love, Mercy and Grace which is
the same God that allows each one of us up with every day!
We all need to practice what it
is like to show such without taking everything so darn offensive all the time.
Instead of spending so much
time walking around being hurt and angry.
It does not matter what emotions we are going through. Our kids rebellious, we are dying because of
disease, we are lonely, hurting.
Physically or mentally broken.
We must purpose to speak in
Love daily, guidance daily, and be happy and encouraging.
Leading the way for the youth
of this world.
Our children are not given to
us to be our slaves, our house keepers, our errand boys, or
girls. And even for those in the world that go further.
They are not our buffer to take
all our hurts, habits, and hang-ups out on.
Cursed are those who do
not care for the children they are blessed to procreate! Those who harm, use and abuse children will
burn. Even if I never get to see
it.
We all get to do the best we
can with whatever we have to work with. It does not make us any more
or less than the next person. How we
react and how we treat others does!
My perspective absolutely. I do not need anyone to agree or disagree
with me really does not matter.
In fact, I am at the point in
this life being that I have always been one to not like drama. To be perfectly fine just being done.
So many need to get the fact
that you cannot be selfish and self-righteous and pick and choose when you will
be loving and selfless. You have to choose how and what you
want in return. Because those that are selfish will be very broken
and lonely in the end.
Every choice made is our
own. If you are choosing to play in the dirt walking
around thinking no one knows what you are doing. Realize the dirt is all over you.
Get up brush yourself off and
start growing forward. If someone else is playing in the dirt
or headed that way that you care and love.
Call them out in
love. Do not degrade or shame them.
It is not our job to play God or condemn or condone bad, harmful
behaviors. The choice is up to them
unless they are children and then you dam sure better be the parent.
Exposing your children to
things that they should not doesn’t work.
That whole do as I say not as I do theory is a bunch of hogwash to put
it nicely.
You are leading by example no
matter if you care or not. So, when you
are out there doing things that your kids may pick up and do later. Or you freak out when they are grown up and
finally wanting freedom. Know the
choices belong to them as well.
We All get to choose!
Just because people come from broken homes, does
not mean they will grow up an live broken.
Just because they come from great homes with
much, does not mean they will amount to a hill of beans.
Love people especially our children well. Plant the seeds of positive growth! Always.
We wonder why our relationships are so broken;
yet all anyone can do is take and take and point out all the flaws of
everything around them. Where is
the love really?
If you have to knock someone
down to pick them back up and carry them away from danger. DO
IT. IN LOVE!
I am far from perfect; we all
are. We have to do our best to lead by example.
If you do not want your daughters to think mean abusive men are okay to be
with. Daddy’s show up and do your part showing them how girls
and women should be treated. Mothers if you do not want
your Sons to be one of those; teach them how to love and respect.
So, as I cleaned up this coffee
spill this morning, and just wandering around the house. Knowing
right now is quiet but it has not been these past couple days
Knowing change is
eminent. I will not continue to get up every day and put all
I am into a household that shows little to no gratitude, respect, and love for
me or each other.
I do not demand much, but I
have limits. I can be your biggest fan
and/or advocate. Or I can be nothing and shut down and move on.
Funny how a message I gave last
year popped up and I shared up with the links.
But I have been saying it forever.
Kindness matters. If things are
not working change it.
No lies, no big deals
needed, truth, honesty and putting the
effort in that you expect from someone else.
Because it is not anyone else’s job to make us happy.
Do I believe God has greater
things for all of us? Absolutely with gratitude even as imperfect as I
am, I have been blessed with the grace and everything He has allowed me. The good, the bad, the ugly and even that
which I bring upon myself.
The world is dark enough; Stop dimming even your own light.
Stop poisoning the minds around
you with all the complaining, stop seeking what is wrong with others so you do
not have to deal with your own.
Meet Jesus right where you are
and ask for help and guidance. I am not an authority; but I know the
blessings and peace in him are far greater and worth more to lose than anything
this world will give or take.
Am I still learning and growing
and fighting the good fight forward? Daily! Still sorting out
where I have been, where I want to go and where I am most importantly, still who I am right here
right now.
You do not have to agree with
me, you do not even have to like me; please you do not even have to
pretend. That is for sure. Friend, family,
or foe. I was not put on this earth to
live up to the worldly standards. Nor am
I defined by it. It took me a long time
to find me.
It does not matter how much I
love any soul; I will not lose my blessings
of peace, and harmony over nonsense.
With that I pray you meet our
maker through Jesus and if you already know Him hang out daily several times a
day.
As the good Lord has allowed me
this far and to do what I do when I do it and most importantly learn from
it.
I will continue to dream,
learn, grow, and fight for sustaining peace each day He allows me.
I will continue to be and do what I can for others. But if they
cannot be for themselves. I learned a long time ago it is not my
place to try and save anyone.
Be you and shine bright!
If you cannot find a light when
needed, ask God how to be one. Step up, step out and do
the best you can with what you are given as if God is the one paying that
weekly check. When things are hard pray harder
and know God is with you.
Call upon Him through
Jesus. Learn who they are and why love, mercy,
grace, peace, and all the fruits of the spirit matter while we walk this earth.
Listen to the birds, listen to
baby’s laughter, release all that is causing you angst and pain back to the one
who allows your life, seeking how to heal.
Stop hating, stop the
madness. It is not too late to do so until you are no longer here and
alive for who you were created to be.
Thank you, Jesus, for all that
you have allowed me in this journey. Thank you for the deep
desires, and even working through the doubts and weakness in my own being.
I am blessed and beyond
deserving of anything you have allowed me. Yet you do! THANK YOU.
Hear this heart Lord, hear the
prayers submitted for all who are readying to travel this land and try to get
back some sort of normalcy in this broken world plagued by Covid19, hate and
darkness.
Lead us Father in your will not
our own. Show us how to unify with all our imperfections as your
beautiful mosaic abstract canvas telling the stories where hope and faith come
to life and darkness is losing ground.
Heal us Lord!
Myself, my family, my friends, my connections, and all I may never know.
Heal this land Jesus. Guide and protect all that I am, for
all that I am or will ever connect belongs to you Jesus.
Give us all the faith, the
confidence to conquer the demons claiming victory in life through all you are
Jesus. Hope, Faith, and facing all our giants with you
together, not against each other.
Date: 06/18/2020 Thursday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/5vUvi-A75BU @ “Miracles” @Jesus Culture
https://youtu.be/sXN-Kq-Y60o “God Whispered Your Name ” @ Keith Urban
https://youtu.be/Xdn4Jq8jHhk
@
“Shine The Light” @Sugarland
https://youtu.be/UfkZMnU3Ni8
@
“Be One” @Natalie Grant
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
Ephesians 6:4-8 (MSG)
4 Fathers, don’t exasperate your children by coming down hard on
them. Take them by the hand and lead them in the way of the Master.
4 Fathers, don’t exasperate your children by coming down hard on them. Take them by the hand and lead them in the way of the Master.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord,
For the new days you allow each moment you allow us
all up. We get to choose if we will get
to drink the Kool-Aid that someone says we must be like them and follow the ill
fitted people places and things or we suffer their rules.
I choose to
drink from that living water, not always enough but every breath I am allowed I
hear you God and the whispers of our names you are calling upon to do our best
with everything we are given to work with.
All and especially me far from perfect. But Jesus you do not want those who are already
at your side. You want your soldiers
right here where we are.
Looking at all that is dark and going wrong from the
wrong lens Father. Still learning
without a doubt. Those days of jumping
up and running out the door before the sun even peaks its beautiful smile down
on us are far from over. Even when the travel
starts back, I have finally found the comfort of just waiting to the absolute
last minute with you before hitting that floor running.
Thank you for this new day. Thank you for the songs you put in my head
before getting to the desk. Thank you
for the sound you allow me to hear, the sight I am given, and any movement ever
allowed. May it all flow to, through and/or
with you always.
Last night as I laid so exhausted yet so wide awake, I
found myself capturing thoughts as I normally do. Dreaming eyes wide open thinking how cool
to just float up to the stars hang out for a while. Wondering what it would really be like to see
through God’s eyes looking down.
Then just knowing sometimes it feels like that is just
where I need to be; not necessarily seeing with Gods’ eyes as I know I will
never be able to handle what he must.
Just knowing I am always so close but so far away.
Just to make use of it on any given day, doing galaxy
time. Yes, souring through the
airwaves, not just the dreams lately I let take me away. Knowing being blessed is never a crime.
It is nothing, it is everything, it is complicated!
Anyone who genuinely believes and walks with Christ
gets at least part of these words and messy rhymes.
So exhausted yet so wide awake.
Damned if I say it, damned if I don’t!
Just wanting that Agape love. Just to be forever held.
To have life you must have love, to have love you
must have a life and live. Somewhere along the way sometimes,
always our hearts will break. But is
it not better to have had a taste of that strawberry wine? Knowing before you met Jesus, it was just
the test of times.
Then to have never known how to feel and want that
forever mine is his, his is mine!
Just my luck I am still waiting for that great
intercession; that great divine. As in
today’s world they are either married, gay or straight creeps and wanna be thugs.
Standards, yes as I remember conversations with old
friends and the check list that nothing else will do. Never once thinking if it didn’t work out,
we needed to have some prearranged agreement called a pre-nup.
Who would of thought anyone would be so selfish back
than taking everything they can without out even contributing a moment or dime?
How gullibly to think that type of contract
placed on and with love. Would truly
be something the world needs to remain humble or just survive.
Fortunately for me although I gave everything being
made to start over allowed me to learn over time.
Perhaps that is why these material items of this
world really are only the temporary fix that fills the heart. But nothing to be attached as we know we
cannot take anything with us on that day we say goodbye.
Standards
yes, picky and uncertain be it me or you.
Only the good Lord knows all that is to come.
For now, I pray he allows healing in this world I
have been given moments to be alive.
Knowing I am
loved by the Father, no matter what I will do.
Praying healing, protection, truth for all the men
and women, all the boys and girls!
Knowing at the moment I was writing this, I just
needed sleep.
Just wanted that healing, that sleep, that justice, I
need that leader who submits to the Father first, I too them and them to me.
No more no less, just whatever the time I have left;
whom I am blessed we are able to make a difference and be our best.
Words never stop coming as I try to explain, the
fears, the doubts, the hurts, the peace, and the pains.
Knowing the difference to just let go and accept what
is and wait for my Dear No One.
As I would rather absorb and know the flight through
these veins have had even the slightest meaning. More than just the joke we become at the expense
of others who know nothing about what life can feel like. From the depths of the soul, knowing every
second matters even more so as we are growing old.
Realizing I just needed that sleep. I prayed Healing what is broken, Jesus that
is what we need. We all need you first;
or nothing else can ever do.
We will have spent countless hours repeating the
cycle. That only God Himself will first
fulfill.
I do not want to hide any longer. Knowing I changed when I came out of that
water.
Knowing although my dreams allow me to fly through a
love in space in time. Sometimes
fearing what I am in this world matters to feel it really wanting so from the
outside.
Knowing in the end my soul will always be truth, and
the waves of this ride will just be something in someone’s memory for a split
second in time.
With those last thoughts jotted down; I fell into a
deep sleep until this time.
Thank you, Jesus, for then, for now and for any
future moments.
Be with all who can not be seen, those needing,
wanting you yet stuck between the lines.
Lord, thank you for all you have put in my life,
physically, prayerfully, in words or these airways. Thank you for them all. Thank you for the music that guides me
through life, be it blocking the noise of the world; or truly helping me
through the way. Thank you for the songs
in my heart that will forever be and forever stay.
Thank you for allowing me to understand everyone has
a story. May we all seek you to lead the
way in any steps on any day that we are allowed up to move through.
Being afraid of repeating what scars we have acquired
is healthy. Being paralyzed when your
timing Jesus is here. Will rob us all
from life you promised.
Please never stop healing me Father God. Heal and protect all who call out to you;
with all my brothers and sisters in Christ leading the way for them to find you
day or night.
Thank you for all that I will never be. Thank you for all if only in my dreams. You let me love and they in return love you
and really love me.
May we shine the light! If we cannot find it; we have no issue fighting
forward to be one. https://youtu.be/cKkbIZtqhyQ @
This Little Light Of Mine” @Listener Kids
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6/18/2020 Afternoon Thinking
OH, the things that pop up on this mind that I must jot
down.
From the stress and worries of the day to day and all
those things that just come natural with the love of life, family, and friends.
To OMG did I really put a swim suite on and play in
the pool with the kids; but much less allow photos to get posted. Good Lord clearly Quarantine, and Cookies
are not my friends.
Have I become my own worse enemy losing the motivation
in this not so new normal that I ever want to get used to?
I am always me from the inside out, but I realize I
must get the external to start thinning down.
Not because I care I will never walk around looking 20 again. Heck no; I have earned my wrinkles and
fluff.
But because I have always been athletic, I have that
build which is extremely hard to catch your gaining weight. Because my cloths do not get tight like
that. For years I was a size 5 and years later I
joked and said I finally made that perfect 10.
And let me make one thing perfectly clear. If you are healthy, and comfortable in your
skin. There is someone out there for
everyone and what you look like does not define who God created you to be. Yes, the world is cold, harsh, and very
superficial. But only so they can use
up what you think they have good intentions that you serve up to them.
So here I am at the crossroads. Let me explain. Years ago when I came up out of the water. I warded off all relationships just so one I
could find out who I was. But most
importantly, understand who I was and supposed to be in/with Christ.
I have a strong personality, but I also have somewhat
of an addictive personality. I knew I
had to find my grounding and footing before I could allow anyone else in to
know I would never allow myself to be broken and just another statistic in this
vast world.
So not only did I remove myself socially; I have been on that roller coaster ride of
staying fit nope not happening not ready yet.
I stay busy with cardio always; health that was given
back to me is an absolute necessity.
But physically I need to get on my game. I have no one to impress but me; and I guess
that is why I am writing about this mind maze dump.
If you know it is only you that you need to change
and be anything for. Let me explain. Never start being or doing or even allow anyone
to do anything to or for you thinking your life will be all set and perfect by
the actions or lack of.
If people do not love you for who you are as you are,
it is just a matter of time before they move on to someone else when they get
bored with the fact they really have that power if you will to get you in the
first place.
Life is not supposed to be that way. WE will never be absolutely loved if we do
not find who we are in and with Christ.
Yes, if you want to take Jesus out of the equation that
is your choice. But I can assure you. Everything of this world is temporal; God is not!
I have had allot time my entire existence to learn
who I really am. Somedays I still
forget. I have always had a strong-willed personality.
Absolutely determined to never have to depend on anyone. But as strong as I am when it comes down to
it; I really am very insecure when it does come to relationships and faith in
myself. I would be the first and worst own
critic. First to shoot myself down
before anyone else does.
Actually, with my background, absolutely hate
rejection; so I know there are many opportunities I lost out on.
I am still growing, not just in size because of quarantine
and cookies.
Honestly if we are talking weight; been back and
forth fighting the process since 04.
Breakups, messing up tearing up a knee, ending up on
IV therapy, having a couple big surgeries in a six-year window.
Where it felt every time, I was getting back up and
getting back on track; I would mess up some other way.
I used to joke the only way God could get me to be
still was by the setbacks I was going through.
Guess now we all learned what would keep us still in
2020.
So here is my thoughts for all the single women in
the world. Be it you have never been in
a relationship and/or married. Or even
those like me that were divorced before ever knowing who God really wants us to
be.
First I can tell you how hard it can be. Especially those who know, want and crave to
have that relationship, that husband, that one.
Know this. Do
Not Settle and give any parts of you away just to be with anyone. If they do not walk with God and live with
respect, love, and want better for themselves, for the world we are in and
potential women. Get rid of them. Isaiah
54:5 says the following 5 for your Creator will be your “husband.” The Lord Almighty is
his name; he is your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel, the God of all the earth.
Do not just settle.
Yes, I love people, I have never met a stranger and I
think men are the most beautiful pieces of art God created. Very abstract, matter of fact. They can make or break you. If you let them. Absolutely adore my brothers in Christ. Those who are way and vision makers. Those who really lead their families. Those that are just okay even when they reflect,
they are not okay.
Candy oh they can be. But like everything we Ladies have to know
who we are, and what boundaries we need to set.
Regardless of how or when we figured out who we are or what we want in
life.
Protect and respect the virtues you have been
given. And absolutely those of any
children you have been blessed with.
Even if you realize you are not what you want to look
like as you see the reflection in the mirror.
You are perfectly and wonderfully made in the eyes of God.
If something is not working; change it. Me and my cardio is good but not enough.
Will I stay away from the cookies? Oh please.
I am at the point I want my cake and will breathe it in or eat it too as
I feed my spirit.
We all got to do what we have to do. Do not let the world dictate what makes us whole. Only we know what it is and prayerfully for
all my friends out here. It is never
filling yourself up with chemicals drugs and alcohol or anything that will do
you harm in the end.
Love people right where they are; and never put
yourself in situations that others with different intentions will do you
harm. Physical or emotional.
If you do end up where you least expected. And things are harmful; run, pick up whatever
pieces you have left and run to the cross.
Surround yourself up with positive influence. Grow from them and with them. Knowing anyone that really has your best interest
at heart. They will never put you or
themselves in harms way.
Our choices are our own which may seem fun, happy,
filling and suddenly taking from your spirit rather than feeding it.
Say thank you and move on. It is and can be hard but you know what, God gives us more strength in him than
anything this world can give or take from us.
People, places, and things here and now are all temporary. Truth, His Love all are everlasting and
evergreen. No matter what we do, what we
say, what we look like.
https://youtu.be/TMSIR210mRg
@
“Love Yourself” @Justin Bieber
So then, here I am again with this mind maze
journey. Until next time; prayers and
blessings for the abundant peace and desires of your heart.
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Date: 06/17/2020 Wednesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/msrkhrdQHLU
“Crazy ” @ Gnarls Barkley
https://youtu.be/ixdZFFgfaKA
@ “Making Sense Of
Life’s Disappointments” @Steven Furtick
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
4 Sing praises to God and to his name! Sing loud praises to him who rides the clouds.[a] His name is the Lord— rejoice
in his presence!
5 Father to the fatherless, defender of widows— this is God,
whose dwelling is holy.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Through all the endless prayers, broken moments of
what life really is. Running back to the foot of the cross. Trying to lock out everything and
everyone. Just knowing God has got
this. Heavy moments in what we call
life of the world.
Somehow, Christ alone allows the briefest moments
through the darkness, worry and waste. For
a soul to cry out, and that spirit living within that beating heart to smile.
Maybe I am crazy, as I remember when. Never will I go there not even for family or
friend.
Needing love and truth, be it me or you. With Christ it is life’s glue! As I am working through this day with
reality and feeling some blues. https://youtu.be/iBAs3TGIz7M
@
The Teskey Brothers Live at Gum Gully
I need all of it, or nothing. In Christ I just need you. https://youtu.be/lPE66C7Ty-4
“I
Just Need You ” @ TobyMac
In all these broken pieces, unspoken truths, and
tearful lies. We all get to choose and
know what is wrong and what is right.
For every season, every moment in time. Jesus bled out on the cross; not so we can
call out each other for wrong or right.
He bled out so we will purpose through the pains and accept His Mercy
and Grace and Life!
So where are we now?
As my thinking out loud revealed some vulnerabilities. Oh, the pains of my own people pleasing,
rescue ranging, heart to big even for me.
Not knowing how to choose my happy some days even if
I fully own my own journey.
Borderline https://youtu.be/dfqfC-YJBgo “Borderline ” @ Madonna
, six feet from the edge sometimes. Not sure if I am looking down to see if I
have already arrived or just ready to dive in.
What is factual, is long ago He set me free. So, no matter what twists and turns of my
own desires, misfortunes, or yearning.
No matter what that of family or friends that tears come again and
again. I am no longer a slave https://youtu.be/f8TkUMJtK5k “No Longer Slaves” @ Jonathan David and Melissa Helser
(Bethel Music) to what this status quo mundane.
Even if https://youtu.be/K6B8SjPxo8o
“Even If ” @Mercy
Me, even when my heart strings are stretched so tight,
I do not know if what I have done or will do again. Was ever enough yesterday, tomorrow, or
anytime when! We all get to fill in the
blanks.
Jesus take the wheel, as this drunken misguided
spirit feeling the layers of the world.
Trying to believe, but so much uncertainty I do what I do best going
back to that place in my clam shell like a pick a pearl.
To love and be loved from our head to our toes. https://youtu.be/ZOBIPb-6PTc “Do
It Again” @ Elevation Worship To do it again no matter what goes right or
wrong. No matter who or what knows.
You Lord, died for me so that I could live, breathe,
and see. There is so much more please
never stop reminding me each time I am consumed by this world and fighting to
get back up leading through your open doors.
All I want is all you are!
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New
International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
2 Thessalonians 1(NLT) Greetings
from Paul
1 This
letter is from Paul, Silas,[a] and
Timothy.
Encouragement during Persecution
7 And God will provide rest for you who are being persecuted and also for us when the Lord Jesus appears from heaven. He will come with his mighty angels, 8 in flaming fire, bringing judgment on those who don’t know God and on those who refuse to obey the Good News of our Lord Jesus. 9 They will be punished with eternal destruction, forever separated from the Lord and from his glorious power. 10 When he comes on that day, he will
7 And God will provide rest for you who are being persecuted and also for us when the Lord Jesus appears from heaven. He will come with his mighty angels, 8 in flaming fire, bringing judgment on those who don’t know God and on those who refuse to obey the Good News of our Lord Jesus. 9 They will be punished with eternal destruction, forever separated from the Lord and from his glorious power. 10 When he comes on that day, he will
3 Dear
brothers and sisters,[c] we can’t
help but thank God for you, because your faith is flourishing and your love for
one another is growing. 4 We
proudly tell God’s other churches about your endurance and faithfulness in all
the persecutions and hardships you are suffering. 5 And God will use this
persecution to show his justice and to make you worthy of his Kingdom, for
which you are suffering. 6 In
his justice he will pay back those who persecute you.
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All said and done. No matter what is or is not. Given another day that many never had. Don’t lose focus in the life you are allowed.
Love people well even if they can’t love you back.
Count every blessing even in the storms of life even when the sun comes back out.
Believe in what you will, who you will.
It’s your choice your story your results
o exhausted yet so wide awake.
Dreaming eyes wide open how cool to just float up to the stars
Sometimes it feels like that is where I need to be.
So close but always so far away
Doing galaxy time. Being blessed is never the crime.
It’s nothing it’s everything
It’s complicated
Anyone who truly believes and walks with Christ gets at least part of these words and messy rhymes
So exhausted yet so wide awake
Damned if I say it damned if I don’t.
Just wanting that Agape love. Just to be forever held.
Just my luck they are either married, gay or straight creeps wanna be thugs.
Standards yes picky and uncertain be it me or you.
Lord you know all there is to come. Heal my world and all the boys and girls
I need sleep in truth justice I need a leader who submits to you
No more no less just whatever the time left to make a difference and be our best
Heal what is broken Jesus That is what we need. We all need you.
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All said and done. No matter what is or is not. Given another day that many never had. Don’t lose focus in the life you are allowed.
Love people well even if they can’t love you back.
Count every blessing even in the storms of life even when the sun comes back out.
Believe in what you will, who you will.
It’s your choice your story your results
o exhausted yet so wide awake.
Dreaming eyes wide open how cool to just float up to the stars
Sometimes it feels like that is where I need to be.
So close but always so far away
Doing galaxy time. Being blessed is never the crime.
It’s nothing it’s everything
It’s complicated
Anyone who truly believes and walks with Christ gets at least part of these words and messy rhymes
So exhausted yet so wide awake
Damned if I say it damned if I don’t.
Just wanting that Agape love. Just to be forever held.
Just my luck they are either married, gay or straight creeps wanna be thugs.
Standards yes picky and uncertain be it me or you.
Lord you know all there is to come. Heal my world and all the boys and girls
I need sleep in truth justice I need a leader who submits to you
No more no less just whatever the time left to make a difference and be our best
Heal what is broken Jesus That is what we need. We all need you.
Date: 06/16/2020 Tuesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/O_6DHapifOo “Heal Me Now
” @ David Jenkins
https://youtu.be/ROsdWfK_G0E “You Keep Hope Alive ” @ Jon Reddick
https://youtu.be/XFT0zoKQWaM “Different ” @
Micah Tyler
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
Psalm 103:13(NLT) 24 The father of the righteous shall greatly
rejoice, and he that begetteth a wise child shall have joy in him.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Lord thank you for allowing me up once again; that
which is in the forefront of this mind maze this morning is how much healing we
need in this world.
From the hate or violence, to the unseen virus and
worldly pandemics to the soul trapped with the addictions that they can no
longer hide.
We all crave something which trigger the choices we make. Be it we are fully capable of making the
choice with clear minds and what we think is sound judgement; or that which we
have become so trapped by what now consumes us.
The question no longer matters how do we get here? What matters is what will, what are? What will the next choice be that makes the
difference for any days we have left?
There is never enough that can justify when we do not
honor and respect ourselves and think we got this. To anything we allow to happen to
ourselves. Be it at the hands of those
we thought would love us forever. To
sometimes we do things just to be what they want and before we know it. We are trapped in our own hidden caves that
everyone sees but our self.
The drug addict never started out in life with he
first words of I need a fix. The one
seeking to fill those voids by any means only knew something was missing and turned
to what consumes them stuck on the wheel spinning still unable to fill the gap.
Lord it is you that keeps hope alive when we
believe. Though it will never be easy
and even years later when we live and breathe the blessings you give. We still sometimes stumble.
However, Lord may we never forget who you are? May we never forget our worth in you
alone? May we know that if you allow us to wake up
and inhale another new day. You have
purpose for us and not to hide our brokenness.
Not to think the world does not see even if they pretend it is not their
own issue.
Even for those that do step up and try to help, that
we joke our way off into the distance, those that we deny and run to the
destruction that awaits.
Lord may your chose never run fast enough to ever get
away from your will!
As there is knock at the door; the mother remembers keep
your friends close but the enemy closer.
Not going off on them this time; just startled to
wonder why you here. With the smile, Hi
Mom comes out of their mouth as they look for their once friend.
Life gives you new sight when you are stuck grounded
for so many weeks. Realizing change must
take place.
The choices are our own; and history says we can
never make anyone love us or do the right thing even by force. Especially if we are trying to force someone
to step up and do the absolute best to lead by example in love for the children
they were given.
When we hate ourselves or who we have become, only we
can change that.
When we allow ourselves to be so caught up in filling
that void. Only we can change what we
need to do to not be trapped.
The sadness of it all; is sometimes by the time we
realize what will and does work. All
those other choices have already taken their toll. Even at times taken us out of the world we
are in to be forever trapped in the abyss.
Not with the demons but not with all the love and promise we were
chasing.
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me strong will and a
fight deep inside to not be lost to this world.
Thank you for allowing me to not become a statistic. Even if I traded one addiction chasing the
voids in my life for another. Drug addict,
Alcoholic, Work Alcoholic, retail therapy, gym rat, rescue ranger, hermit so on and on!
You Lord are the way maker leading us if we take your
hand. https://youtu.be/cHoGEDQQ67o “Way Maker ” @ Paul McClure In you the broken
dreams or empty voids that make us want something so bad no longer matter.
The dreams waking fighting for air, or memories of
those things that could have been so deadly no longer haunt and cloud your
vision.
The chase for having that one truth, someone just to
love and want you for you. Although even
now that we are grown washes over you. You are no longer paralyzed as you know in you
God; we have never not been loved or alone.
What next is what we all must choose and live through
swimming towards the shore when the waves try to crush all that we can be.
In you we know if it is too good to be true, IT
IS. Unless it shows up, we get to
choose if we will even slightly entertain whatever we are feeling the need for
here and now.
Sure, people will always come and go; just as
everyone has the right answer. Truth is
Only God Knows. https://youtu.be/Q5cPQg3oq-o
“God Only Knows ” @ For King and Country
We must confide in, through and with Him first always.
Where that leaves us in the end. Here and now no longer matter as we know the
eternal peace that fills us up as we wait.
“Six Feet From The Edge
” https://youtu.be/xxjciv7ZcHI
@
Creed, the rift https://youtu.be/Q5cPQg3oq-o “The Rift ” @ WolfHeart
plays loudly
As I look out and reflect often on the mistakes, I
have been able to look back on knowing how blessed I have been through all His mercy
and grace. Sometimes the days still
come that make you wonder if six feet still is not so bad.
Yet knowing this is not about me as the world is
spinning on that wheel about to break in all the pieces that will never be put
back together again.
Wondering where is all this love we were made to
show, give, and live? https://youtu.be/WpYeekQkAdc “Where Is The Love
” @ The Black-Eyed Peas
Who cares about the bloods, Crypts or KKK when the Latin
Kings are knocking at the door? As
your child is on the floor unable to get up and those you counted on are no where
to be seen and others on that continual run.
Yes, it starts with you and me https://youtu.be/gMtxMBsQGXM “Starts
With Me” @ TobyMac ft. Aaron Cole as this time is
still reflecting all the hate and wrong decisions. Yet where are we if at least we do not try
to make change. If we do not at least
even through the virtual highway try to believe.
Who am I when I came out of that water so long ago sure
I was changed https://youtu.be/lk1bstD4nY8
“Changed” @ Rascal
Flatts But what am I
doing here and now? Human absolutely,
not that skinny little white chick that did not take anything from anyone. Jump up to defend everyone that was in need
or just so mad at the world looking for a way to be taken out.
That rescue
ranger phase took a big part and made this heart too big. Leaving many lonely broken days and nights. Knowing if you come in the world alone, if
you walk each day alone, when all you got is god then God is all that matters.
Wanting that Sweet Soul King is what will always be
in the depths of a soul given a vessel and life to breathe. But unless he shows up there is no worldly
rescue for you or me.
Love wide open, or wide shut. You, me
we all get to choose what each day will bring.
So, take all your brokenness, all your wants all your
needs. Give it all back to the God who
allows us to just be. Otherwise each
day you get up you will never get past that wasted time https://youtu.be/PMqUat-Oqsk “Wasted
Time” @ Keith Urban that use to be.
So, no matter if we think we had it all or do now, or
even find ourselves wishing and wanting.
Getting caught up or face planting in the day to day of life. WE all get to choose. What is wrong, what is right. What we need to feel or hide far away in the
darkness of any night.
One thing will always be. God the Father has and will always be. We do not have to journey alone but we do
have to open our hearts, to see clearly.
This mind maze dumping all over the place not so
strange, not for me. Watching, waiting,
hoping. Just knowing what is can be; as
we all get to choose in what we believe.
Love ever after, to feel it is far beyond me. But greater is what the Lord blesses those
who walk with the Prince of Peace!
It does not have to make sense to you; guaranteed; most days I am still wondering, but no I have
not totally lost it, not yet that crazy.
Jesus forgive my flaws, my short comings or judgement
that should never be. Jesus come magnify
you through and with me! https://youtu.be/NgF4SjdRP3s “Magnify” @
We Are Messengers
Lord you made all of us for so much more; I want to
be different without a doubt no matter what joke that turns into for others.
I pray and lift all I am connected up to you for Your
healing, Your will. Your time with each
and every soul between them and you.
Heal my children for all that is broken or needing
healing. All those I love! Heal me to never feel less than anything you
want me to be. No matter what choices turn
out to be that beautiful dream or broken ashes.
Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP
-Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
Ephesians 2:10 (NLT) 10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has
created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us
long ago.
Micah 6:8 (NLT) 8 No, O people, the Lord has told you what is
good,
and this is what he requires of you: to do what is right, to love mercy,
and to walk humbly with your God.
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Thinking out loudWoke up feeling like when life just has that way in making you feel 😒 even though you know you are blessed.
I try to stay positive and not add to anyone else’s mix. Much less have any drama or just tolerate things that are harmful or flat out disrespectful.
Trust me when I say I am far from perfect.
I am though one of those that put everyone else in front of me and would give away everything if I knew it would help a real cause.
So caught up in making it happen at times I don’t stop look and listen.
I get that. Trust me I know my flaws as well as my achievements.
Every now and again I do stop and dream what would it be like to open up for relationships.
Then as quick as I think and even talk with some really awesome souls. I find myself trying to find excuses or just point blank. Love remaining safe. Not the way your thinking though.
I hate losing people I have grown close to. People that for whatever reason I have learned and gotten close enough to care.
Caring from a distance in great admiration and respect is a beautiful thing. But yes when you allow your soul to connect there is nothing like he freedom and feeling like you are flying.
And it is when you lose that flight because you got too close and the relationship just disappears.
I am picky and yes although talk to everyone where no one is a stranger.
Setting expectations or remotely believing this life has room for that fairy tale romance just can’t happen.
Do I dream of my forever without a doubt. For whatever the reason these past couple years have been pulling me out of the desert.
Where I have been beautifully blessed hanging out with my purest love of all.
Getting to know and growing with Jesus.
Since I came out of that water. I have been blessed without a doubt to learn how to forgive and seek forgiveness for all the times and there were allot.
That I have either had to be put back together or ask for God to step in and forgive me. For leaving scars or just hurting others.
2020 has become lessons in the unexpected.
Learning how to be still. Learning how much hate, anger and deceit still exists in this world.
Learning just how many vile people really exists when it comes to humanity and just the fact they would rather destroy Everything or anyone just for their own personal agenda.
Cities and towns and lives are no longer the same.
So when I pray for healing when I pray for God to come wash this world clean. It is true I cannot take it. I would go first knowing the God of love and mercy I serve would never accept such hate and sorrow.
Take the layers of the world and then just the day to day. Sometimes it’s just okay to know even though we are blessed. That feeling of something good has to happen. Why doesn’t it? Why bother?
Yes. Sometimes I just wake up hearing the birds sing but not feeling the blessings I know are there.
Hormonal maybe. Watching those romance perfect chic flicks don’t help either.
But Outlander has not stated the new season yet so. I’m stuck.
Any way it is what it is. Until it is not. And when it is not I will be in a far better place where this world won’t matter.
Until then I will keep fighting in with prayer and hope I don’t quit when God needs me to show up.
Just thinking out loud.
Lord it is not about me. Protect the children and guide them in your strength during so much on rest.
Everything I have ever had or will have is yours. No matter how much it can change. Forgive me for releasing what I never had to start with. Adding my need just for truth and realness wanting to much this is where I was finally held.
All the while no one can even see the real me as I run to no where! What happened to all my broken pieces did the change in the end dilute my vision thinking out loud.
As this head about to burst my heart broken with my heartstrings about to snap
Alone and weary waiting for you to come. Show up in a mighty way. I said too much not prayed enough.
We need healing hope and love in a mighty way.
What am I doing Lord. I have lost myself not even recognizing what I say.
The pressures of just wanting to live but so out there not recognizing me. I have to just turn and walk away. As the truth is no one is really who they pretend to be much less mean what they say.
You Lord are the one peace and as of late even we are starving for your worship and emotional balance at the end of each given day.
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Lord it is not about me. Protect the children and guide them in your strength during so much on rest.
Everything I have ever had or will have is yours. No matter how much it can change. Forgive me for releasing what I never had to start with. Adding my need just for truth and realness wanting to much this is where I was finally held.
All the while no one can even see the real me as I run to no where! What happened to all my broken pieces did the change in the end dilute my vision thinking out loud.
As this head about to burst my heart broken with my heartstrings about to snap
Alone and weary waiting for you to come. Show up in a mighty way. I said too much not prayed enough.
We need healing hope and love in a mighty way.
What am I doing Lord. I have lost myself not even recognizing what I say.
The pressures of just wanting to live but so out there not recognizing me. I have to just turn and walk away. As the truth is no one is really who they pretend to be much less mean what they say.
You Lord are the one peace and as of late even we are starving for your worship and emotional balance at the end of each given day.
Date: 06/15/2020 Monday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/MiQoz_YYNg8 “Lean
On Me ” @ Music Travel Love
https://youtu.be/v9XyAMnSh6g “City
On Our Knees ” @TobyMac
https://youtu.be/_eQd3K2Fxp4 “Only Jesus ” @Casting Crowns
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
Proverbs 23:24
(KJ21) 24 The father of the righteous shall greatly rejoice, and he
that begetteth a wise child shall have joy in him.
Proverbs 23:24
(NIV) 24 The father of a righteous child
has great joy;
a man who fathers a wise son rejoices in
him..
Proverbs 23:24
(MSG) 22-25 Listen with respect to the
father who raised you, and when your mother grows old, don’t
neglect her.
Buy truth—don’t sell it for
love or money; buy wisdom, buy education, buy
insight. Parents rejoice when their children turn
out well; wise children become proud
parents. So make your father happy! Make your mother proud!
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thank you for another new day Jesus! Thank you for the song reminding me who to
lean in and on. Be with all I am and
all I am connected this day for your will, your purpose your blessings, lessons
and all the strength and courage that we will find our way through when we keep
it real in you.
As I wake rising this morning knowing I am blessed
even with the chaos all around this world.
I am still allowed up.
Far from life being perfect for me for anyone I care
for. I have been given another day. Reminded the one who created all the heavens
all the earth wants me, wants all of us to allow Him in and lean on. Seeking his mercy and grace while being
filled with abundant unexplainable love.
We are all one no matter what we get classified as
Sinners or Saints. We have to know it
is not over until it is over and only God gets to choose when that is.
As I was wrapping my day down yesterday the final
thoughts before falling into a deep sleep from being so tired from that lost
sleep the day before.
Knowing it is not the loss but the impact and meaning
behind anything we are pulled into; choose to walk into or have happening
around our circle of influence that matters.
Sometimes when you care too much but know you have no
answers or control. It can take more
from you than you thought you could ever have.
In that case holding on to Jesus is all I got! Not believing in anything more, new, better,
or old. Just Jesus.
As I pull up my applications and word document readying
to write, seeing the first video pop up about love. https://youtu.be/lpQ5diKPJSY “Love” @Nickleback
Those dreams of Love and how beautiful like in the movies
as I watched it play to the end. Love
What is Love as the song plays in my head; “baby don’t hurt me, don’t hurt me
no more”
No, our real life full of what we think is love yet
how quickly so many just quit.
Something better comes along; something does not fit into our puzzle the
way we think it should and we just replace it.
Yes, we are all replaceable in the eyes of humanity. We truly do not know the value of self-much
less promises made. Or the respect of
loving and protecting one another instead.
Well the stories written over and over reflect the rest.
Nope not even me know what that happy ever after
dream could be. Cause long before Jesus love
broke my heart wide open. Never able
to put those pieces back together again.
https://youtu.be/y_qkYJj5Qzs
“Love Wide Open” @Manafest
I do not care what they think I do not care what they say. I will keep bleeding for love~ https://youtu.be/fGB7-BuOaF4 “Bleeding Love” @Leona Lewis
That is not until that Real Love came and you left the
99 coming back for the one. Even if a second
in time. Be it you or me! https://youtu.be/Sc6SSHuZvQE “Reckless Love” @Cory Asbury
Although those fairy tale moments matter. Mine do, yours should. But nothing will matter most or be ever
lasting as that of knowing how much God loves you for you! I so want that love in real life.
Unable to earn it, never deserving it; yet able to
give and take with that one soul that will forever be with me. Fighting with and for them through the end of
the worldly times. Knowing they too
will be with me on the other side.
Forever in my dreams, forever in the world and the thoughts
that transpire.
Dear no one https://youtu.be/njmCUJ94lUM
“Dear
No One” @Tori Kelly, forever I want and need you. Needing you to be my
habit. Come to me! Come to the cross
know who you are truly meant to be.
Not for what this world makes you out to be. I love you then, I love you now. I love for all Christ allows us to be. For me that Sam Smith song says volumes
outside of Christ Love and wanting to feel what love can be from the outside in
https://youtu.be/91a9XqXar6I “To
Die For Love” @Sam Smith
Tearing
down the walls
Use caution they say.
In truth they will
play you well in this game of chess called life. Some are pawns,
rooks, Kings, or Queens. Check mate any moment of every day.
Nothing you can do
nothing you can say. Will ever count for as much than that of what Jesus has to
say.
So,
no matter for real or games people play.
That
pulse trials fires burning bright. Just remember God knows the hearts of
all that he has given life.
Think
of me if you will if you might.
My
thought of you zip lining throughout these airwaves at the speed of
light.
Avoiding
becoming humanities collateral damage will never be an oversight
Dream
on what you will and when.
We
will always be chatting again. Be it here or in my mind maze tapping out or
pretending
This
world has already done what those in it think they have managed.
Just
remember only God knows what schemes and dreams in the end He what does He
Allows.
So,
take what you are given with a grain of sand.
Forever
I might have went crazy but with God and dreams me and that forever. May
Godspeed forever bless you in truth no matter what script you are in the ending
will never be guaranteed!
Yes, dreams of love unending, and all that goes
with. Riding that highway, taking
chances while now without a doubt always having God first.
Thinking how quick romance without God at the helm
always falls apart. But with Him daily
purposed though the storms may be bitter and harsh, and we may come out
tattered and torn. He will always
sustain what is His and those who believe deeply in the promise and truth of
real love.
Even if sometimes along the way during those storms
we make foolish mistakes hurting others or allowing them to hurt us.
May we always remember even when we cannot, should
not ever go back trying to recapture yesterday. The blessings of what helped us grow and
finding our way forward.
Sinners or Saints we all get to choose. Tomorrow is never promised! If we choose to ignore wise choices, if we
choose to try and do things on our own, if we choose to try to do and take it
all not caring who we step on along the way.
If we choose anything less that the truth. For all things. Then our lives are filled with chaos that
means nothing and, in the end, we are alone anyway.
My thoughts and perspectives. I
will always want what is real, even when it hurts, and they say sometimes the
truth hurts but once you heal. There is
so much more that we are blessed with.
My truth: without my relationship with Jesus, I would
already be dead.
Through all the good, the bad, the OMG and moments I
just did not know. Even before I knew
who God really was. I was blessed that
he was holding me.
Even through
those moments today when I just do not know for others and it hurts. I have to believe He will also hold them.
So here I am on this Monday morning, with the sun
coming up to shine bright. Air in these
lungs one more day. As I do my best with
what I get to work with.
I pray for all I am connected. For a blessed day, evening, week, and any
time allowed ahead.
Still deeply moved needing Jesus to just come and wash
over this land. Despite my fairy tale
dream moments of love.
Knowing Jesus is and forever will be the one and only
love that matters. If things are hard and they will be. Go in prayer before the throne and pray harder. Build that relationship deep with the depths
of the being you are. For and with Christ
alone first. Then seek all that is good all that is His will to lead the way.
Keeping your hands and feet in along the way. Because what comes next is the ride of a lifetime.
Nothing fancy here this day, shaking off the day to
day and seeking the promise if tomorrow brings it.
It is what it is until it is not. I pray I am worthy enough to not just know I
am blessed for eternity. But allowed to
truly live, love and laugh with Him here and now.
No matter what I do right, no matter what I do
wrong. May it be with you?
Thank you, Jesus!
Lord be with all of us out here trying to put the
broken pieces back together with you.
Lead us past all those that cannot get past themselves. Heal all the scars and allow the new colors
of the new mosaic creations you called us to be; to shine brightly onto and
over each new horizon given.
Meditation Opportunities
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Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
2 Corinthians 4:18 (MSG) 16-18 So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even
though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on
the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his
unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming
good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than
meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the
things we can’t see now will last forever.
Psalms 130:5 (MSG) 5-6 I pray to God—my life a prayer— and wait for what he’ll say
and do. My life’s on the line before God, my Lord, waiting and watching till
morning, waiting and watching till morning.
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Date: 06/14/2020 Sunday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/-YxBy3-HdhM “Only
You Can Love Me This Way ” @ Keith Urban
https://youtu.be/0OWj0CiM8WU “Love
Runs Out ” @ One Republic
https://youtu.be/l8d18CgxJpg
“God One and Only ” @ Hillsong
https://youtu.be/It_xQ4NYtDQ
“No
Matter What ” @ Ryan Stevenson
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
Philippians
3:20 (AMPC) 20 But we are citizens of the state (commonwealth, homeland)
which is in heaven, and from it also we [a]earnestly and patiently await [the coming of] the Lord Jesus Christ
(the Messiah) [as] Savior,
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
We all have layers of
stuff. I feel like at 1am this morning
no matter what I do in obedience I am still paying for the debt of all those
before me and what they allowed themselves to get into.
Though I feel this I
will never stop being me.
But the world and
all the collateral families and damage in the right here right now. Need you Jesus! Including those that have the same blood
flowing through the veins you allowed me to help bring in the world.
Lord Please come clean
this worldly mess up. If that means me
too; I will go first!
Reveal yourself
Father God to us all. As I myself spent
so much time swimming around in the world searching for love, hoping for
something better. Feeling so often if only
I could peel this skin away and step out perhaps, I would have significance,
life of my own would have meaning.
Before you yes, I
became the official rescue ranger so I would not have to deal with all that was
lacking and broken in my own being.
Then piece by piece when
I met you, I have been allowed to slowly put the insignificance away. Able to just love without action, without
rescuing anyone. During these many years
that have come and gone. You have allowed
a great healing in me.
For all the judgment
the world layered up over the years.
Never can we go back
but only hold on to all that is good, all that is pure all that even if it hurt
and was love. Forever mold who we should
be in and with you Father.
Raw and wide open so
often knowing it is you Father that keeps me in humiliation and real. For this I am grateful.
Grateful for the
moments of the love that I am washed over with, the dreams that flow like
raging waters. The hope that maybe
someday it will be blessed to be.
Just to be a glimmer
of hope and love even for just one in truth, in pureness. A light drawing out and
away all that was dark. Into your glorious
light!
Always so close; yet
so far away! Jesus, as I am reminded why
I do what I do; and thinking we are almost there and then just maybe it will
really be my turn for what you will.
As you remind me NOT
YET
Here I am ready to
worship you alone Father God. Forever
aware you are the air I breathe. Weary
and worn of doing this on my own.
Weary of the choice’s others make that leave such lasting benign stigmas on the future for their own children.
When Lord? What Lord?
Show me before it is too late!
So much in this
world that you must be feeling the brokenness over and over again for
Jesus.
Why is it when you
clearly outline all that God the father hates.
We still have it all around us and even at times are part of.
Proverbs
6:16-19 (NCV) 16 There are six things the Lord hates. There are seven things he cannot stand: 17 a proud look, a lying tongue, hands that kill innocent
people, 18 a mind that thinks up evil
plans, feet that are quick to do evil, 19 a witness who lies, and someone who starts
arguments among families.
Proverbs 16:20-23 (NCV) 20 Whoever listens to what is
taught will succeed,
and whoever trusts the Lord will be happy. 21 The wise are known for their understanding. Their pleasant words make them better teachers. 22 Understanding is like a fountain which gives life to those who use it, but foolishness brings punishment to fools. 23 Wise people’s minds tell them what to say, and that helps them be better teachers.
and whoever trusts the Lord will be happy. 21 The wise are known for their understanding. Their pleasant words make them better teachers. 22 Understanding is like a fountain which gives life to those who use it, but foolishness brings punishment to fools. 23 Wise people’s minds tell them what to say, and that helps them be better teachers.
Father you know all
that has been in this journey; you know all that will come. For me and every other soul on this
planet. As I rise up and race back to
the foot of the cross holding onto the only truth I can see. You know all that is here in 2020; heal this
land Father God. Jesus did not go to
the cross for this chaos and brokenness.
Lead me, Lead all I
am connected through your will and plans.
Show me what next!
Be with all who are
struggling right now for healing, survival, safety, love. May you be all things for them. Right where they are.
Meditation Opportunities
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-Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
Jeremiah
31:3 (NCV) 3 And from far away the Lord appeared to his people
and said,
“I love you people with a love that will last forever. That
is why I have continued showing you kindness.
1
Corinthians 1:18-28 (TPT)
The True Power of the Cross
18 To preach
the message[a] of
the cross seems like sheer nonsense to those who are on their way to
destruction, but to us who are on our way to salvation, it is the mighty power
of God released within us.[b] 19 For it is
written:
20 So where is
the wise philosopher who understands? Where is the expert scholar who
comprehends? And where is the skilled debater of our time who could win a
debate with God? Hasn’t God demonstrated that the wisdom of this world system
is utter foolishness?
21 For in his
wisdom, God designed that all the world’s wisdom would be
insufficient to lead people to the discovery of himself. He took great delight
in baffling the wisdom of the world by using the simplicity of preaching the
story of the cross[d] in
order to save those who believe it. 22 For the
Jews constantly demand to see miraculous signs, while those who are not Jews[e] constantly
cling to the world’s wisdom,[f] 23 but we
preach the crucified Messiah. The Jews stumble over him and the rest of the
world sees him as foolishness. 24 But for
those who have been chosen to follow him, both Jews and Greeks, he is God’s
mighty power, God’s true wisdom, and our Messiah.[g] 25 For the
“foolish” things of God have proven to be wiser than human wisdom. And the
“feeble” things of God have proven to be far more powerful than any human
ability.[h]
God’s Calling
26 Brothers
and sisters, consider who you were when God called you to salvation. Not
many of you were wise scholars by human standards, nor were many of you in
positions of power. Not many of you were considered the elite when you
answered God’s call. 27 But God
chose those whom the world considers foolish to shame those who think they are
wise, and God chose the puny and powerless to shame[i] the
high and mighty. 28 He chose
the lowly, the laughable[j] in
the world’s eyes—nobodies—so that he would shame the somebodies. For he chose
what is regarded as insignificant in order to supersede what is regarded as
prominent,
Footnotes:
- 1 Corinthians 1:18 Or
“expression [Gr. logos]” or
“the act of proclaiming.”
- 1 Corinthians 1:18 The
“message of the cross” becomes the ignition point where God’s power
becomes operative and actualized with the ability to convert, transform,
and save. The Aramaic can be translated “For he [rather than the message]
is the power of God.”
- 1 Corinthians 1:19 See
Isa. 29:14 (LXX). Paul uses the prophecy
of Isaiah as a warning against leaning upon human wisdom to understand
spiritual matters. True wisdom comes from above and is given by divine
revelation to those who are teachable and humble before God.
- 1 Corinthians 1:21 Or
simply “the foolishness of preaching.” However, it is not the act of
preaching but the content of what is preached that brings salvation to
those who believe.
- 1 Corinthians 1:22 The
Aramaic uses the term Arameans for gentiles. It means “Aramaic-speaking
people.”
- 1 Corinthians 1:22 To
paraphrase, the gentiles seek for success in the world’s eyes, or a wisdom
that leads them to succeed. Christ crucified is both a miracle sign and
the wisdom that will lead one to reign in life.
- 1 Corinthians 1:24 Christ
is the supreme manifestation of God’s power to save us from sin, to work
miracles, and to defeat evil. Christ is the supreme manifestation of
wisdom, for he carries out the eternal plan of God and brings it to
completion.
- 1 Corinthians 1:25 Although
the cross seemed to be the foolishness of God, it reveals his transcendent
wisdom. And though God the Son was crucified in weakness, he has risen
through the divine power that transforms lives today. God has no weakness
or foolishness whatsoever. Yet what looks like weakness is actually his
strength, and what looks like foolishness is actually his wisdom.
- 1 Corinthians 1:27 The
Greek word kataischyunō can
also be translated “embarrass,” “confuse,” “baffle,” or “frustrate.”
- 1 Corinthians 1:28 Or
“despised,” “disgusting,” “outcasts,” “perceived with contempt.”
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Translation (TPT)
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