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Date: 09/12/2020 Saturday

 https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=3262604953849198&extid=IlAvL36tp13WJAWS “Message from one of our elders” @New Life Christian Church

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Gratitude, Perspective If You Cannot See A Light, Be A Light

 Philippians 4:4 (TLB) ⁴ Always be full of joy in the Lord; I say it again, rejoice!

Philippians 4:4 (MSG) ^4-5 Celebrate God all day, every day. I mean, revel in him! Make it as clear as you can to all you meet that you’re on their side, working with them and not against them. Help them see that the Master is about to arrive. He could show up any minute!
 

Know You Are Blessed

 1 Corinthians 10:31 (TLB) ³¹ Well, I’ll tell you why. It is because you must do everything for the glory of God, even your eating and drinking. 
 
1 Corinthians 10:31 (MSG) ^31-33 So eat your meals heartily, not worrying about what others say about you—you’re eating to God’s glory, after all, not to please them. As a matter of fact, do everything that way, heartily and freely to God’s glory. At the same time, don’t be callous in your exercise of freedom, thoughtlessly stepping on the toes of those who aren’t as free as you are. I try my best to be considerate of everyone’s feelings in all these matters; I hope you will be, too.
 
 

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/I2IvHbXZp-I    “Love” @We Are Messengers

 

https://youtu.be/I7vsjQo2NYY      “You’ve Always Been @ Unspoken

 

https://youtu.be/KOcZnQdbDQE     “Fathers House” @Cory Asbury

 

https://youtu.be/kkHo70DeiMM “Yes and Amen” @Pat Barrett | Bethel Music and Housefires

 

https://youtu.be/igbzV0tm2zY      “Feel It” @TobyMac

 

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Your Mercy!   Is new every morning you allow us up Jesus!

We / I am not the only one feeling anything this day.   You created us for so much more and perspective matters how we are going to lean in and take this day or night forward.

We can let the weights of the world hold us down and even take us out.  But why?

We can make the time we are granted and not promised trying to find a light and being let down or even broken and angry.  Or we can say forget it.   I am diving into the one who allows me life itself and know the truth and just be  the light I am allowed to shine.

That may mean nothing to many but even to one every glimmer of hope, love and joy not happiness but joy in truth.   Matters and gives life!

We can buy into what humanity says in this world and all the corrupt governments and people just doing what they do, taking what they can, and discarding bodies without even a second glance.

I personally wish to kick the demons and darkness straight back to wherever they come from.

It does not always work out for me.  Hell No!    Just like everything and everyone, it just keeps coming and I get so consumed spinning thinking I know I am doing, being, or even saying the right things.   I miss the mark.

Yes, I get up every day with Gods word and have for years.   And there have been times long before I met Christ Jesus that I still prayed every night before falling to sleep, or even now days where tears roll down my face praying for whatever.

Yes, tears flow freely; sometimes that I cannot believe I did something, or something hits so close to home or even just pure thanks that something good has come alive.  

Miracles sometimes just work that way when we are in our Fathers house.  Trust me growing up not having an earthly father or anyone to love, guide and protect me.     When I learned who my heavenly father was.   No matter what perspective kicked in and it all mattered.

None of us are promised tomorrow or even today.  There is someone every second of every day where a doctor has said this is it you only have moments to live.  And thankfully even then God shows up and proves them wrong.   While others who never had anything wrong are gone just like that.

Choose your happy!   Own your Journey and secure your destiny in and with Gods eternal love and grace.     He allowed you up, again right.   Are you reading this?   You are breathing in and out even if it hurts, even if you are not well, even if you can barely see because of health or age.   You are blessed beyond what many will never come to know. 

So, I may make a mess of many if not all of my days or at least some parts of them.   I may believe in people that no one else does or that are not what or who they claim to be.   Until they prove differently, and I know I have to let go and let God.

 

Every single soul given passage to this world were blessed with freedom of choice and will and every choice matters.    What is that saying do not bite the hand that feeds you.    That is right do not burn bridges and push away those who genuinely care for your wellbeing.

Be your true authentic self.  Even if sometimes those rough edges expose the imperfect you.

Reading one of my devotionals this morning this truly makes sense.

  @HolyBible App @Dare 2 Share Ministries “6 Words That Will Change Your Life 40 Day Devotional”  “Before the fall of humanity, Adam and Eve were naked and loving it.  They had nothing to hide, literally or figuratively.  They looked at themselves as magnificent creations of an even more magnificent God.  Adam loved Eve.  Eve loved Adam.   Both of them loved God.  Then as it goes on  reminding us just how God created us in truth and pureness further in it reads. “God’s original intent for all of humanity.  They experienced pure, unfiltered conversation from the deepest chamber of each other’s hearts and minds.  (I think we all long for this deepest level of honesty and openness with God and each other.”)

We are so reminded just how authenticity in humanity can and is missing.   Truly although in my youth I could run around in a barely covering two-piece swim suite.  When it came time even with my spouse to be undressed in front of them.  It was just something that I feared.

 

Perhaps from the early scars of childhood traumas or just know really having no self-esteem just a strong will back then to survive and knowing sometimes we must go through the motions.

But what if? What would?      If I and the world had that pure authentic ability to just look past what is on the surface and always just without expectations, worry or doubts would have learned to live as God intended.    Seeing with the eyes of Christ alone.

 

Now I can assure you I am an incredibly open and transparent soul.  But life, and all that the world has pumped through these veins does not always make what comes out of this mind maze logical, or even at times right.   I know I at times offend others even though! 

 

And you can finish that thought for yourself.   Because if we think even those labelled with narcissistic, selfish, and demanding behaviors.     They did not get to where they are today on their own but with the help of generations and surroundings during the journey they have traveled.

It amazes me each day that God allows me up as I glimpse backward for a moment and know there was a lesson or a blessing to keep moving forward.

Even in those moments when my flesh tries to convince me I will never be good enough, or that the truth reminds me everything happens for a reason.

There is truly a reason why you were, you are, and you will be.    No matter what this world says, does or even scares us to death over.

In the middle of the war zones, in the moments when we hunger so badly for life, for food, for health, for love, for some greater understanding than that which is all around us.

Even for those out there plotting and scheming to do what they do because they think they have nothing else.

Though humanity may not always see right through to our authenticity until sometimes it is far to late.    God knows and sees everything.

I am no judge, although sometimes in my flesh moments when I see things that totally without thinking make me voice out OMG, or what are they thinking.     Yet who am I right.

It does not mean I need to turn my head and not see or hear.    It just means that in those prayer moments even if it is something so stinking funny you cannot help but hysterically laugh.    Always Pray!   Yes, pray for the good of no matter what is or is not for every soul you cross paths with.

Speak life and pray that someone also is out there speaking positive vibes for you and all of yours.   It is what I believe even when I fall short.  Which by the way is pretty much daily?

But He, Christ Jesus takes all our flaws, all our brokenness, all our mistakes and makes it beautiful.    

We cannot see the wind, but we know it moves the trees.   Why can we not understand we are all part of God’s beautiful mosaic canvas meant to be something far more beautiful than what we allow ourselves.

It is not about color, size, shape or even the Have’s or Have Not’s!     What and who are our authentic selves and what are we truly living, chasing, hiding or being for?

We all need someone, and we are allowed to connect and go through things for reasons sometimes we will never know.

 

We all get to choose.  I choose to do my best, my happy in letting the same God that allowed me to make it in this world even if it was not your beautiful happy ever after movie but a life full of drama, survival and so much laughter and tears along the way.     I to believe in the one that sustains all things.  And that is to really get to know the Father you must be in relationship privately with Jesus Christ.

You must take time and learn who He really is and what He has done for humanity even if we all daily take bites out of that apple and opening our eyes to what we in the world think it should be and not for what it really was meant for.

There is and can be something beautiful in truth, in love through out all the pain.     It is never to late until your timestamp runs out.

Do you want to risk not at least checking into it?   Dig in deep for your own soul not for what anyone else says or does.

 

Lord, your utterly amaze me each day you allow me up.  Even when I get entangled and lost in my own misconceptions that lead me into places that doubt, fear and truth always take over and not in the dreamy way I would imagine for anyone.

Thank you for allowing me the thoughts to share, thank you for the air in these lungs even during hard times or moments when we are going through stuff.

Please wash through all I am connected and allow their eyes to open with and in love for wand with you.

Wash through this land as we are reminded the war is on-going and the battles are just beginning for some.  That you have already one and you are in charge.

Heal all who are going through it, Jesus.  Whatever IT may be on this very day or night.

Thank you for yesterdays and any tomorrow’s I am allowed.  

 

Lord, we need the fires to stop raging, the floods to recede, the healing to begin.  The corrupt anything be eliminated and hearts to change for all you created Jesus!

How or when; Please make it happen soon.

 

 

 

 

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Date: 09/11/2020 Friday

 

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Direction

 Psalm 121:1-2 (TLB) 121 Shall I look to the mountain gods for help? ² No! My help is from Jehovah who made the mountains! And the heavens too!

Psalm 121:1-2 (MSG) A Pilgrim Song

121 ^1-2 I look up to the mountains; does my strength come from mountains?
No, my strength comes from God, who made heaven, and earth, and mountains.

 

Healing

 Psalm 147:3 (TLB) ³ He heals the brokenhearted, binding up their wounds.

 

Psalm 147:3 (MSG) ^2-6 God’s the one who rebuilds Jerusalem, who regathers Israel’s scattered exiles.     He heals the heartbroken and bandages their wounds.  He counts the stars and assigns each a name.  Our Lord is great, with limitless strength;  we’ll never comprehend what he knows and does.  God puts the fallen on their feet again and pushes the wicked into the ditch.

 

 

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/_ltCS-ve104   “Can You Trust God’s Timing” @Steven Furtick

https://youtu.be/aPavY5p52Fo     “Trenches” @Tauren Wells, Donald Lawrence & Co

https://youtu.be/0hKH6YcHshM    “Exhale” @Plumb

https://youtu.be/d17hi1s6Tgg     “Lights Shine Bright” @TobyMac ft. Hollyn

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you for the blessing of making it through another week, the ability to look back in time knowing how blessed some are and the history when evil and violence came and took so much innocence.   May all the souls lost in 9/11 forever rest in peace.

 

There is a time and place for all things under heave and earth.   Healing is now as we are paused to remember what we are created for.  What we are truly to do that matters.

 

Let go of the hate and wanting to get even with every dark soul that has lost their soul to serve evil.   Be it a suicide mission or just that of someone doing the great hustle so they do not have work for what they want.

Let go of the hate and condemnation against that steal our virtue, steal our lives, steal our very essence and will to live at times.  They have already lost their soul and the only way back is for them to come face to face with Jesus.

 

It has been an exceptionally long day Lord and I am thankful.  Starting work at 5:30 this morning and finishing now at almost 9.

 

Thankful for employment, thankful for opportunities that may be hard, may make me want to scream, kick, and even wish I did not get there.  But I am so blessed to have the opportunity to just breathe in.

 

Prayers for family and all this Covid impacts.    Life will never be the same as we know it.  But we are still blessed to have life.  Especially remembering history and what happened.

 

I just pray Lord no matter what more and more people are finding you Lord.   And living like they mean it.  Not just talking the talk but walking the walk and doing what they can to keep it real and give not take all the time.    I know that is the dreamer coming out.  But Jesus we need you more than ever.

 

This girl is one whipped puppy looking at computer screens Jesus.  With that no matter what is or what is not.  No matter what is to come Your will be done in everything I am and everything I am connected.

 

Lord shine bright here, now, and always.

 

 

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Date: 09/10/2020 Thursday

 

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Promise

 Isaiah 46:4 (TLB) ⁴ I will be your God through all your lifetime, yes, even when your hair is white with age. I made you and I will care for you. I will carry you along and be your Savior.

 

Isaiah 46:4 (MSG) ^3-4 “Listen to me, family of Jacob, everyone that’s left of the family of Israel.
I’ve been carrying you on my back from the day you were born, And I’ll keep on carrying you when you’re old.  I’ll be there, bearing you when you’re old and gray.   I’ve done it and will keep on doing it, carrying you on my back, saving you.

Wisdom

Proverbs 9:10 (TLB) ¹⁰ For the reverence and fear of God are basic to all wisdom. Knowing God results in every other kind of understanding.

 

Proverbs 9:10 (MSG) ^7-12 If you reason with an arrogant cynic, you’ll get slapped in the face;  confront bad behavior and get a kick in the shins. 

 So don’t waste your time on a scoffer; all you’ll get for your pains is abuse.   But if you correct those who care about life, that’s different—they’ll love you for it!   Save your breath for the wise—they’ll be wiser for it;  tell good people what you know—they’ll profit from it.  

Skilled living gets its start in the Fear-of-God, insight into life from knowing a Holy God.  It’s through me, Lady Wisdom, that your life deepens, and the years of your life ripen.   Live wisely and wisdom will permeate your life; mock life and life will mock you.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

 

https://youtu.be/5naa4tiHi-k     “Prayer for a Broken Heart” @Kingdom Lights

 

https://youtu.be/8HznXBBCdBE   “Into the Sea (It’s Gonna Be Okay)” @Tasha Layton

https://youtu.be/Lu-Wgp2GzLQ  “See The Light” @TobyMac – (Separate Altogether Acoustic)

https://youtu.be/lsIpGiz3SfQ “Peace Be Still” @Hope Darst

https://youtu.be/lPE66C7Ty-4  “I Just Need U” @TobyMac – (Separate Altogether Acoustic)

 

 

 

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord, thank you for this new day.  And all that I have been blessed to make it through and all those new challenges that I am up against.  

 One thing for absolute certain I just need you through all the good, the bad and anything in between.   No matter who or what comes to be with, for or against me. 

Each time I realize I need to dive back into you, I do truly come to life no matter what that looks like.     WE ALL have stuff.  We all have those things that are making or breaking us.  Those things that drive us into a spin we cannot understand and sometimes even get out of.       Knowing this, I know you will forever be what has and will sustain me.  

Mountains crumble and storms come washing away what we think make our lives.  Yet it is you Christ Jesus.    Someday those not there yet will get there in their own time; I pray it is not too late.

 

Just as I continually keep washing these hands even more so now in 2020 knowing what we should have known all along.   

The unseen enemies are real.    Always be mindful and protect and guard all that you are with purpose and acknowledgement that the Lord above made each and every soul for more than what this world will ever give or take.    

As you would be putting on that hand lotion to prevent the cracking, and abrasions just from so much friction in the process.    Put on daily the Armor of God from the belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, shoes of the gospel, shield of faith and helmet of salvation which you can find in Ephesians 6:13-17 (TLB)

I am no authority or theologian for that matter.  Just someone who has been through life some more than others and blessed not as much as even more.  However, the lack of scholarly credentials will never stop the fact of the blessings I have been allowed to experience

Life is all about choices and not letting anything from youth or circumstance define you. 

 

Not any incidents of child survival with layers of scars and made to grow up far before your time.   To those who you trust and know that just lose their mind or perhaps they never had. 

No matter what the brokenness or scars you carry, no matter what triggers the flashbacks of when you had to let go and just protect yourself, or even those as the childhood visions come fleeing back as you are walking back from a wilderness that you even as an adult will never understand.   

 

That true escape from  from all the insanity that you numbed or buried finally stopped stinging when you gave it all over when you allowed Jesus into your heart every single day.

 

Even in the here and now when you do your best, but you know it just is not good enough.   We cannot make those we really want to come out and shine accepting the gospel and living with that moral compass and living accountable and not riding on the coattails of others.    To do the right thing.  

  I learned long ago, you can know someone all your life and never really know them. 

Even when they reflect into someone you never could have imagined you still do not know why or who is driving them.     However, you can still pray for the souls even if they hurt you.

Just to be real, you know keeping that real in reality!  Openly we say what we mean and mean what we say.  But how many really live up to the empty promises they make themselves or those to others?

 

If only can be a theme song for many.    But how many of us have our armor on?  How many of us in this world even acknowledge it is a blessing that we are allowed up another day?   No matter what that looks like!   

 

 I do, imperfectly I try to never hit the floor without going to the one who allows me life.  I fail often, as I sometimes rush through to go see the nothingness on social media, or what messages I may have been sent from the pretenders of the world.

It is a humbling experience the day you realize who and what your made of.  Or all the flaws that make who you are.

To know all your good intentions, lead back to what is deep in your being and no matter the reasons how often you step out in faith and try to do the right thing.   Sometimes it is just for the wrong receiver or does not turn out as you expect.

 

Maybe that is just it; those hidden expectations we all have deep within our being.  Nothing planned or put on a vision board.  But we just have them with in and they keep trying to reveal themselves over and over no matter how many different ways we get it right or fail.

Anyway, none of that really matters in the end or the ability I am allowed to just randomly dump so any different thoughts out of this mind maze.

Every day we are allowed to get up and find our way through.  Know we are blessed, and many will never get that opportunity.  

Everything we do for and to or with ourselves is an act of worshiping something or someone.     Even though I am very guilty of taking my own advice until something comes to smack me in the head and remind me.   

 

Love yourselves, worship the temple, the vessel that God has given you.  By what you consume physically, emotionally.  By what you shine out for others to consume.  By how you wish others to see you.

Cloth yourself with loyalty even when others do not remain loyal to you.   Demand respect with everything you say, do, accept, wear.   And always accessorize with that moral compass of knowing right and wrong.   Never just accept what others give you. 

 

Let go of the hate and getting even for anyone that has ever hurt or misled you.    We all own our choices.  God has given every single soul on this heart the ability and gift of freedom to choose and freedom of will.

Own it!    Even if it is gone badly.    For me yes choices matter and I own even those I do not necessarily choose.      It does matter that old cliché Let go Let God!

Or for me I like to think of it with him as Letting go, Letting it hurt and Letting it heal!

 

Forgiveness matters, seeking for what you have done and what others have done, to, for or against you.

 

Though I may find it difficult to believe in humanity unless it is just about smacking me in the head.   I absolutely am a show me person.

 

It is not my job to condemn the souls that are just out there playing games and using and abusing others.     Would I absolutely jump in harms way if I seen a physical act of harm towards others?   I am sure! 

 

However, for all those I once believed in or even those I believe in more than they believe themselves.    Everything I am and am connected belongs to the same God that owns all that I am.

 

I pray the eyes of your hearts open and you build that relationship with Christ Jesus sooner than the later that is running out.

 

Prayerfully blessed and prayerfully seeking blessings for all I am connected, ever was or will be.

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Date: 09/09/2020 Wednesday

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 Titus 2:2 (NIV) ² Teach the older men to be temperate, worthy of respect, self-controlled, and sound in faith, in love and in endurance.

Titus 2:2 (MSG) A God-Filled Life

2 ^1-6 Your job is to speak out on the things that make for solid doctrine. Guide older men into lives of temperance, dignity, and wisdom, into healthy faith, love, and endurance. Guide older women into lives of reverence so they end up as neither gossips nor drunks, but models of goodness. By looking at them, the younger women will know how to love their husbands and children, be virtuous and pure, keep a good house, be good wives. We don’t want anyone looking down on God’s Message because of their behavior. Also, guide the young men to live disciplined lives.

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Psalms 139:23-24 (MSG) ^23-24 Investigate my life, O God, find out everything about me; Cross-examine and test me, get a clear picture of what I’m about; See for yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong—  then guide me on the road to eternal life.

Psalms 139:23-24 (TLB) ²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart; test my thoughts. ²⁴ Point out anything you find in me that makes you sad,  and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/-8cQY_FlZlw  “Is The Devil Messing Up My Relationship” @Steven Furtick

https://youtu.be/MjkQ6G4kbmk     “Nobody” @Casting Crowns (blessed to have been here for this one)

https://youtu.be/9kg6EtcGq0I    One Day” @Cochren & Co.

https://youtu.be/IHoD7glerMY    “O God Forgive Us” @For King & Country

https://youtu.be/0h1IBbs68yE     “Stand Back Up” @Sugarland

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

You know firsthand God some of the biggest choices and actions we take are that for and in or with Love in mind!

Awake for hours just not yet up.  Laying there tapping out in my notes on my iPhone.

  I know I have lost my away.   Knowing the past couple of years something has changed in me.  And although knowing I cannot afford to deeply care for others I have done so anyway.

No not out doing horrible things or even raising hell and becoming that free spirit trying to capture the world and put all the pieces I am allowed to keep in a treasure bottle. 

Just trying to believe in the good of all hearts.   Just being me thinking I got this!

Perhaps this is all that I will ever be, maybe there really is more in the here and now.   

Maybe I will not know as I am busy trying to cleanup and remain accountable and stop being so quick to give away what belongs to the Lord in the first place.

Whatever the outcome for sure 2020 is a year which exposes much sadness, brokenness and loss.

While at the same time of reflection during all the pain the lessons come to life for those who wish to grow past uncertainty

Just because we are not wasting anything given yet pouring it out to those who come in need.   Waste comes in so many forms.   We do not have to be out there buying up what we do not need but to buy just because we can.  We do not have to be a glutton or even blow care to the wind.

Perhaps it is not our duty to always be available.   Perhaps just because everything I am belongs to the one that created me.  Perhaps it is not my place to try and be for others, but for once just be for my own.

Those old cartoons of the rescue rangers were cute and most likely a favorite;  but in real life every soul must bare their burden at foot of the cross and work through.

So aware that by getting caught up in someone else’s mess can, will and has left you laying back on the floor. 

Not for stepping in not for risking all you have physically worked for unknown needs.

I can blame these feelings on allot; never having anyone to raise me up and teach me what I have had to learn in the school of hard knocks each time I survive one more lesson of the world.

Loss of material items although we all need to survive is not what hurts the most in this life.   But it is for the loss of faith in  humanity, and the souls you stepped up for in the first place; the souls you see and feel so much for, but they are lost and never see it for themselves. 

 As they play out their next move and you just wanted The real in reality. 

No fairytale made up story or promise that cannot be kept.

Just a real soul at the other end.  Doing their own best to keep one foot in front of the other  Remaining true to all God created them to be.   Going after their dreams by working and being creative and not using up others.

But not that did not happen, somehow even after all the lessons of life.   You opened the door to this heart far too wide  All I could see was my heart smile that had never been or will ever be again.

Allowing flesh desires to spark, to be seen and come to life taking full advantage of dreaming out loud. 

So what now as you know every soul created was done so, for more than just this moment in time.

You know all too well people are not always who the pretend to be.

Time as 2020 is running out for many and yours never promised.

When all you have left are empty pockets and broken dreams, what next?

Still to strong and young to fully quit even though you want to badly. 

Just once you wanted that something real and not just words.  More than the dependents that you are responsible for.

More than just that meal ticket.

That which you could go together anywhere with nothing yet still have everything.

From the death of what was to rebirth of what can and will be. 

Christ Jesus search this soul direct the steps and change the path I walk if it is not your will.

Seeking no harm but justice and guidance for all I have offended as I seek for those who have offended me.

May I let go of what I never will have, and that which you bless me come to be.

Lord be with all the souls lost, may they rest in peace even if they could not do this on their own and their battles were far more than mine will ever be.

May there be more to this life Jesus!   If 2021 will be.   Lead me In love and mercy with grace.

Most of all please accept my thanks for allowing life even when I forget to close the door.

Be with all I am connected.

  Your will not my own to serve, to love, to prosper reflecting all you are Lord.

Be with every soul I am connected. 

Use the mess we find ourselves as the message of hope and glory reflecting the real you Christ Jesus!

Nothing more nothing less.

Show me how to remain accountable and release me from all evil and sin.

Wash me in truth and the forever agape love you fill me with inside; wash through me from the outside in.


Thank you for the moments and souls you have allowed me in this journey and all the lessons learned or blessed to share.

Amen

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Date: 09/08/2020 Tuesday

Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 Psalm 143:10 (MSG) ^7-10 Hurry with your answer, God!    I’m nearly at the end of my rope.  Don’t turn away; don’t ignore me!  That would be certain death.   If you wake me each morning with the sound of your loving voice,  I’ll go to sleep each night trusting in you.   Point out the road I must travel; I’m all ears, all eyes before you.   Save me from my enemies, God—  you’re my only hope!   Teach me how to live to please you, because you’re my God.

Psalm 143:10 (TLB) ¹⁰ Help me to do your will, for you are my God. Lead me in good paths, for your Spirit is good.

Psalm 143:10 (NIV) ¹⁰ Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cH3-diCOUyI    “On Your Own” @TobyMac – (Separate Altogether Acoustic)

https://youtu.be/1wyZMtFle7g   “Edge Of My Seat” @TobyMac – (Separate Altogether Acoustic)

https://youtu.be/6ZrZLnLkisg   “The Real You” @TobyMac – (Separate Altogether Acoustic)

https://youtu.be/UEzCQBwQkdA “Bleed The Same” @Mandisa ft. TobyMac, Kirk Franklin

https://youtu.be/pslWA2VRmxg    “Starts With Me” @Tim Timmons

https://youtu.be/OEhRucEVzH8  “Wrong Direction” @Casting Crowns

https://youtu.be/D7ab595h0AU     “Battle Symphony” @Linkin Park

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Sometimes we just got to go through what we got to go through.   So absolutely true, nothing in this world has ever been promised to be easy, or free.  Everything has a cost.

Sometimes the cost of truth just means we may find ourselves missing that forever throughout all our days.   The most important thing we could ever do for our future is realize that God will never leave us out here on our own.   

We have never been alone and the sooner we realize that the same God who created day, night, and all of humanity. Is the same God whose son Christ Jesus came down to fill us up from all those things we fill ourselves up with and leave us broken?

We may find ourselves feeling lonely often as we were never created to walk around this vast world by ourselves.  

 But we are never alone and that is the most revitalizing thing we can ever acknowledge. 

   Keeping  on the edge of our seats seeking that new horizon for all that is beautiful.

   Even in the split seconds we are allowed to see, touch, taste or experience it in some way.

The anticipation of all that is good headed our way sometimes leaves those of us that are not meant to be still jumping out there thinking we know that next or what is to come.  

Sometimes jumping in giving that helping hand and allot of the time those pieces of our own being in some way, shape or form.

Later shaking our heads knowing how truly blessed we really are yet just shaking our heads thinking what in the world just happened, or what did I get myself into, or why does this always happen.

Okay not for you, that is okay we all experience things differently.   But for me I am beyond blessed just to have life. 

Unfortunately, because I grew up with nothing, I learned early on to always share especially to those who are down and out.     And that leaves me always shaking my head and even allot of the times wondering if this is it.  Will I recover.

I work far harder than many I know and try foolishly to solve things on my own.   Because I do not surround myself up with just anyone even if, even when.

Every now and again I will let someone in; and forever be changed by the talent, beauty and just the very soul that they are.  Even when they cannot see it for themselves.  Or worse yet still pretend to be what they are not yet cannot let go.

Thankful for every day I am allowed back up, and the days when you realize none of us are promised tomorrow.  We do not get to pick and choose which day a child will be taken from us, or what day something evil will do everlasting damage to our very beings.   Or those storms will wash through and take everything but your very shell.

None of us our promised so why do so many walks around thinking they are entitled to whatever they want when they want it?

Why is it and I wish I had the answers for this one; why is it we are allowed to go so far but not always allowed to finish what we start for what we think is good?

In any case, no matter if we are sick, broken or according to the world fully together and got it going on.    We need to take each day getting off the edge of our seat and give it all we got!

When things keep hitting that brick wall, know it is not meant to be.  

   If you cannot take it to God.  If He does not send a way.  It is not meant to be.    Let it go; Let it hurt and Let it Heal!

I am too transparent for my own well-being at times.   With this comes risks.   However, I have great faith no matter what hurts, or I get hung up in that God will always continue to watch over me.

My family hates when I say this. 

 But if right here right now was all I have left.   I am blessed.   Yes, I get down and out at times because sometimes I count more failures than any achievements.  

But that is because I do not count and hold onto openly the blessings of life and each time I have been given to keep going.   

  Sometimes that is all there is.   Just acknowledging the grace of God and the love and life he breathes into our lungs every moment we are allowed up.

We all bleed the same, we are all going through something.     Praise Christ Jesus in the storm am stop running that 100 miles an hour in the wrong directions.  

  

Worship the one and only that is in control!

Sometimes that hurts really bad because you have to let go and truly let God.

 

Father God, no matter what today or any tomorrow’s you allow brings.   Be with me and all I am connected in mind, body, and spirit for all we do, say and absolutely forgive me when I fall short and react the way I have always known.  Especially if it causes harm in any way to anyone.

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Date: 09/07/2020 Monday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/kZeSRPbhQHs    “Memories” @Maroon 5

https://youtu.be/WClYIFT6Mdg       “Pick Up The Pieces” @Billy Ocean

https://youtu.be/4a1NmwRvIEM     “Delivered” @I Am They

https://youtu.be/6SjDKxzd2xQ      “The Water (Meant For Me)” @I Am They

https://youtu.be/-Gv8VDqc-os   “God, Turn It Around” @Jon Reddick

https://youtu.be/ByyaRrZ73fE     “Glory and Majesty” @Jon Reddick

Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)

Colossians 1:28 (MSG) ^26-29 This mystery has been kept in the dark for a long time, but now it’s out in the open. God wanted everyone, not just Jews, to know this rich and glorious secret inside and out, regardless of their background, regardless of their religious standing. The mystery in a nutshell is just this: Christ is in you, so therefore you can look forward to sharing in God’s glory. It’s that simple. That is the substance of our Message. We preach Christ, warning people not to add to the Message. We teach in a spirit of profound common sense so that we can bring each person to maturity. To be mature is to be basic. Christ! No more, no less. That’s what I’m working so hard at day after day, year after year, doing my best with the energy God so generously gives me.

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Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for the long weekend and all those who step out in true blind faith to allow freedom to have lives.

Though some lives could be better, and some are far worse.  It is because of those with the sacrificial heart for those they will never come to know.  That allow the freedoms of even me just jotting a few notes on the iPhone as I was giving up for the day yesterday.

Simplicity at its best, maybe; maybe not!

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Sunday 9/6/2020 

As I crawl into these freezing cold sheets pulling the blankets of comfort up.  Stretching through the aches and pains of being on the top of a 6-foot ladder for hours this weekend.  Just remembering how blessed I really am no matter how I feel.  No matter physical or emotional I still get to feel.   For this I am beyond grateful.

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Yes, still under the weather with this sinus ear thing and working out in the heat all weekend.   Just doing what I can.   Blessed!

Part of I can still do this, and part of it needs to be done and cannot afford to pay anyone to come so just do it.  Someday before I sell out, I will have those come in and revamp those I cannot do myself and see it before I leave.  

Yes, this was not my forever.  In fact, took this place on so family could and would have stability.   But at some point, we all need to stand on our own feet and do for ourselves.  

Where too next.  Not sure.    But wherever it is I am sure the good Lord has plenty of blessings and lessons awaiting.

Not much into writing these past few days as I just need that time out; So, I did my daily devotional posts and put the technology down.

Taking that rest of not thinking much at all because my wires are fried and just done.

When you are a little under the weather and you still have people, places and things pushing on you.  At some point you finally just hit the off button.

I am a show me person.  I never take kindly to demands.  Demands to me or anyone I am connected.    We are all accountable for what we choose.  And although I will give the shirt off my back for a stranger.    Never do I get excited about people demanding or even at times threatening or trying to guilt me in to do stepping up just one more time.

I do what I do and then when I cannot do anymore, I regroup and when I can take off running again.

I totally despise bully’s in fact it is where my long life before finding who God really was and what I meant to him comes out and I would just like to say and be all the mean things those bully’s are to others they hurt physically or verbally.

Where am I going with this?

Well allot has been going on in this world.  Yours and mine.     As much as I so want to see simplicity and peace with that harmony all around me.

I still at times find myself  looking around and seeing the world up against just strong-willed opportunist that will say and do anything besides being open and honest to get and take what they want from others.    

  Even at times I have found myself among the snake pit of liars and thieves.   Preying upon those with kind hearts, good intentions and just a willingness to help wherever they can.  And truly that is okay they do step up and step out.  

However, when others belittle, and disrespect the same hand that feeds them.

There is no I am sorry until the next time.    That just shuts me down completely.   It does not matter how much I care about a soul.   Ugliness is never tolerated when someone has done all they could.

So, I took this look around after being woke out of a sound sleep recently when I have not be feeling 100%   And realized clearly how close to home my own advice to others was needed.

Unfortunately, when I too am human and step in most likely where God says NO you should not have done that.   No matter how many stars aligned after praying.

You really do see the true colors of what the meaning behind everything really was.

Far from perfect always.  Just doing my best day to day.  Trying to find my way back in His Presence 210%.     As it is not so much about looking up.  But that of not acknowledging those fake smiles.

Judge not.  Not me or anyone else.   None of us know what has made a person to be the way they are and why they do what they do.   However, stay safe and truly stay your distance in this world of so many unseen disasters waiting to happen.  

Do not stand in a bubble, do not live in fear.   Stand your ground and do whatever you must to always protect yourself, your family and those you care for.

To do that the only saving grace I have ever had was that of Jesus Christ.  Do not beat yourself up for not knowing what you just do not know.  

Do not beat yourself up when you figure it out and realize what you should have known before getting started.  But somehow missed it.

It really is okay to not be okay.  But you need not fall into the trap of thinking you need the one is that led you to this moment in the first place.

I know life is not fair.  Big time how bad it hurts at times from losing those you love not even  barely into the world to someone else next to you having healthy babies.

From life of seeing and experiencing being one of those good people and being taken advantage of to seeing those mean, nasty bully’s that do, say and take whatever they want at anytime they want and always seeming to end up on top.

Life is a roller coaster and we must keep our hands and feet in at all times.  Fore sure!

We must find where we are grounded in what we believe in.  Even when we cannot see.

I believe in God and I was blessed enough before my end days to learn and meet and walk with Christ Jesus.     Loving Him for all he stood for, walked for, prayed for, suffered for, died for, and came back for.

I cannot explain any of what is not already written.  Only that He has kept me alive through many things in this journey.  Despite my own misguided and misfortunate directions.

He keeps getting me back up even after some ridiculously hard lessons.

Making me aware I am not there yet.    You cannot and should not put that same blind faith that you have for the creator of this world into any human and think they will not let you down.

Nor that you will not let them down.

It just is something that will break you every time.    We are all human and no matter how much we love and care for anyone.   We were all born into sin, we all have our own thought process, needs, wants desires and sometimes opportunities that were meant to be used for good.  But turned into our own selfish ambitions.

We all want something.

We all make mistakes.

The question I think of right now is what we do with that.

We can stop regroup and take a deep breath and pray for healing.    Or we can be angry, hurt and start robbing everything around us from the light we were given to shine.

Even when you cannot feel at any point and time.  Even if so, many layers have come to weight you down.    Just keep smiling and shine as bright as you can.  No matter what the outcome.

The truth always reveals itself.   Do not let what you do know or anything or anyone trying to prove to you what they cannot physically show make you think judgment and direction will not come.

Shine even the tiniest glimmer of hope that no matter what.  The God of the universe that holds this planet together.  Still allows you up to be all He Created you to be.

In and with love, hope, peace, kindness, and joy.    Do not lose one more second on what is temporal.    If you do not know Christ Jesus.   Find him now right where you are.  He is waiting to lead the way.

Take time and turn it all off.   Heal where you need to heal.  Let go of what is weighting you down.   If it is not adding to your day to day. Ask yourself why you are still holding onto it.

Accidents happen, emotions run high especially in 2020.   No matter what we all mess up.  

  Do not be quick to shut down because those we care for are imperfect.  However, if someone continues to disrespect you and continually tries to manipulate you into things that you just cannot do or do not want to do.   Get rid of them now. 

Because once they are done with you or find a replacement they will be moving on anyway.  Save your peace of mind, save your bank accounts, save the pain in your heart for when you really need it.

Yes, I can say this.   I am the person who spent years trying to fix those who came to me with stories and needs.  Only to watch their selfish bad behaviors and disrespect waste the gifts they were given.

I am grateful for the broken roads I have been allowed on.  I am grateful for all those who have stood up and fought the good fight.   I am beyond grateful for all those especially in my family that served for people in a country that no one will ever know or really appreciate.

I am grateful for the down time and all the lessons that have led me to Christ Jesus.   I pray I never lose sight of my own moral compass.   No matter of worldly love, desires, or pity.   May the God of all the universe forever be the one who owns this soul.

Father God you and your Son Christ Jesus are the only ones that truly know the future of what is.    

I pray for healing of this land, of humanity, of all that I am and all that I am and have been connected.

Guide us in your will!

Please Turn Us around Lord!

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Revelation 3:14-22 (MSG) To Laodicea

¹⁴ Write to Laodicea, to the Angel of the church. God’s Yes, the Faithful and Accurate Witness, the First of God’s creation, says:

^15-17 “I know you inside and out, and find little to my liking. You’re not cold, you’re not hot—far better to be either cold or hot! You’re stale. You’re stagnant. You make me want to vomit. You brag, ‘I’m rich, I’ve got it made, I need nothing from anyone,’ oblivious that in fact you’re a pitiful, blind beggar, threadbare and homeless.

¹⁸ “Here’s what I want you to do: Buy your gold from me, gold that’s been through the refiner’s fire. Then you’ll be rich. Buy your clothes from me, clothes designed in Heaven. You’ve gone around half-naked long enough. And buy medicine for your eyes from me so you can see, really see.

¹⁹ “The people I love, I call to account—prod and correct and guide so that they’ll live at their best. Up on your feet, then! About face! Run after God!

^20-21 “Look at me. I stand at the door. I knock. If you hear me call and open the door, I’ll come right in and sit down to supper with you. Conquerors will sit alongside me at the head table, just as I, having conquered, took the place of honor at the side of my Father. That’s my gift to the conquerors!

²² “Are your ears awake? Listen. Listen to the Wind Words, the Spirit blowing through the churches.”

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