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Date: 10/17/2020 Saturday
https://www.facebook.com/groups/729118077596340/wp/3381942175364416/?ext=1603238775&hash=AeQpE9pGBo0O7bU2Gnw Saturday night worship
Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV
-New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP
-Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
We have a true friend in and with Jesus
(BibleGateway.com)
Psalm 25:14-15 (GNT) Good News Translation 14 The Lord is
the friend of those who obey him and he affirms his covenant with them. 15 I look to the Lord for help at all times, and he
rescues me from danger.
Psalm 25:14-15 (MSG) The Message Bible 14 God-friendship is for
God-worshipers;
They are the ones he confides in. 15 If
I keep my eyes on God, I
won’t trip over my own feet.
Psalm 25:14-15 (NIV) New International Version 14 The Lord confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant
known to them. 15 My
eyes are ever on the Lord, for only he will release my feet from the snare.
Psalm 25:14-15 (ICB) International
Children’s Bible 14 The Lord tells
his secrets to those who respect him. He
tells them about his agreement. 15 My
eyes are always looking to the Lord for help.
He will keep me from any traps.
Inspirational Thoughts:
WE COUL LEARN A LOT FROM CRAYONS: @TobyMac#SpeakLife
Some are Sharpe
Some are pretty
Some are dull, while others bright
Some have weird names
But they all have learned to live
together in the same box
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/JF2a_XM_Mug
“What Scars Are For” @Mandisa
https://youtu.be/kd2hTEYg00g
“Head To Heart” @United Pursuit
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Happy blessed
Saturday with much gratitude another day is given and a list of gonna try to
get done this beautiful 67-degree morning.
Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me up another day and letting this mind maze
roller coaster wonder why I jumped up in the wee hours readying for work then
realizing it was Saturday. Or why I came
back to an age-old question of just why we choose or think we cannot choose to
be friends with you. https://youtu.be/W5FfJ89rGPc
“Why Can’t We Be Friends” @WAR
Yes, it
is Saturday and although many will not find peace or joy in this day here and
now in all the muck of physical,
financial burdens and unknowns I have in front of me. Though I could be drowning; you assure me not
to worry and be joyful in you the Lord.
A peace
I will never understand but can smile as I hear don’t worry be happy. We have to breathe in and acknowledge you
Father God every second you allow us to get back up. https://youtu.be/d-diB65scQU “Don’t Worry Be Happy” @Bobby McFerrin
I may
never really understand my place in this vast world, but I am learning day by
day my worth with you Jesus. My place
in the right here and now and all you have allowed me to be for some and remove
me from others. You Lord have and always
will be the strength that allows me to get back up and often laugh at myself
for the things I let derail, distracted, and even face plant along the
way. Thank you for loving me enough to
have this peace. https://youtu.be/NTcT8qt_auk “My Place In This World” @Michale W Smith
My
worth in knowing it is okay when we just
are not okay. Yet we smile because we know it is what it is and will pass. https://youtu.be/hl5GcRrJLyw “Maybe It’s Okay” @We Are Messengers
Many
will never even give a split second to understand. Others will cry out, while those who look to
you Jesus will know every storm runs out of rain https://youtu.be/zIbuXTgextU “Every Storm (Runs Out Of Rain)” @Gary
Allan
Even when
the sun comes out in this world, we are given there is nothing but you to start
again. We know all in this world is temporary,
all given to us on loan. All belonging
to the one that created the heavens and earth.
No matter what the storm, from people, places
or nature and the spiritual war that is and always will be. Fight with Jesus the elements!
It
hurts, oh so unbelievably bad when those you have given your all are lost or
never really were at all. It hurts when
you spend your days and nights working to make the here and now a better place
for yourself and/or anyone you have been blessed to be part of their
world.
It does
not matter if those wolves in sheep’s clothing do their best to consume all we
may have. Get up, smile, brush off and
start again.
If the
abundance of the world is too heavy in sorrow, loss and pains we never ask for
are too much. Put on your Armor of God
and know who truly has your back in and with prayer. lace up those boots fitted with the
readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
Standing
firm, with the belt of truth around your waist, putting on that breastplate of
righteousness and know you rightfully wear the helmet of salvation when you
walk with God. Stand humbly proud with
the sword of the spirit standing firm in truth. Fill your circles in prayer, with no agenda
brothers and sisters called to the kingdom listening, reading and singing out
the truth of God and all the gospels for what they are not what we think https://youtu.be/-hDJNGK0MiQ “The Elements” @TobyMac ft. Ledger
God will
allow you enough transparency and always protect you even when it hurts, even
when we never understand why we have had to go through so much. No matter when we do not understand why people
even when they know you know. Still cannot
step up and do the right thing. We need
not know why others do what they do; we must stand tall and faithful to who we
are and what we were created for in Christ.
https://youtu.be/hrSJwO5dJXg
“Even When It Hurts (Praise Song)” @Hillsong United
God’s
strength and courage to keep moving and growing forward is all I have. I could dwell on my earliest memories of that
which was broken, all the times I believed and was clearly corrected to know
the truth of what never was. I can dwell
on the broken bones, scars and words that still scream in the distance for
others I wish I could save.
I could
curl up and die to the world or I could die to myself and live my best
life. So much of anyone who has not
turned to Jesus and allowed Him to live within will understand.
To die to self now and allow Christ to direct
my faulty misguided humanism that craves out wishing and wanting just that
balance of one like me. Perfectly placed
in this imperfect canvas of the world. https://youtu.be/Uk8RAckojJk “Order My Steps (Dear Lord)” @Bone thugs~n~harmony
All the
smiles, all the tears. All the abundance
to just know how blessed another day is no matter what. Or all the fears and hurt of the unknown that
spiral around us like a tornado. What
are you grounded in; what do you believe.
Have you put all your faith into other human beings; only to be let down
because none of us are perfect.
Have you
lifted the blinders to know if it is real it will clearly show up and reflect
and reveal who and when in the right here and now?
Why do
we put expectations on others?
Why do
we allow ourselves to be trolled by the dark spirits of what wants to take any
joy we may have?
Much
less anything else they can gain just with their sweet-talking pretentious stories
told all the while they laugh with their crew making it a business for them.
Lord you
found me; https://youtu.be/IKvRUnUe7EU “You Found Me” @Canyon Worship
You knew
me before I was ever a speck in this world.
Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for the stories I can tell. Thank
you for the moments of confusion. Thank
you for the ability to help those even those who really were just being lazy
and self-serving taking from others that could really use your blessings.
Protect
all of those who believe in love from the enemy that preys upon kind hearts and
soul seekers just wanting to feel the love outside in that you give inside out.
Jesus
forgive me! For what was, what is what
I block from possibility, from what should never be. You know me. Lead me Jesus. For all that is brighter, all that sines
even in the darkness. Not better, not
before, not more, not less! For all
that you alone say should be. Lord if
this is it. Thank you!
If it is
more, Thank you! If there must be more
taken as I truly pray not in this lifetime; but if so, Thank you!
Be with
all I am connected
Heal
this land
Guide
and protect all my brothers and sisters through it all.
May we
all see who you are Christ Jesus~
https://youtu.be/5-ic5_VWqzc “See Who You Are” @Wells
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Date: 10/16/2020 Friday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/QurQEiOAQjA
“Everything” @TobyMac
https://youtu.be/jE-Krlqi4fk
“Dare You To Move ” @Switchfoot
https://youtu.be/0FB9i7P9Zs4
@Denzel Washington’s Life Advice @Grow Successful
Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Lamb of God who washes us clean in truth, holding us steady being
our Rock, our Redeemer, and our Firm Foundation
(BibleGateway.com)
Psalm 19:14 (MSG) The
Message Bible 11-14 There’s more:
God’s Word warns us of danger
and directs us to
hidden treasure. Otherwise how will we
find our way?
Or know when we
play the fool? Clean the slate, God, so
we can start the day fresh!
Keep me from
stupid sins, from thinking I can take over your work; Then I can start this day
sun-washed, scrubbed clean of the grime of sin.
These are the words in my mouth; these
are what I chew on and pray.
Accept them when I place them on
the morning altar, O God, my Altar-Rock,
God, Priest-of-My-Altar.
Psalm 19:14 (NIV) New
International Version 14 May these words
of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and
my Redeemer.
Psalm 19:14 (ICB) International
Children’s Bible 14 I hope
my words and thoughts please you.
Lord, you are my Rock, the one who saves me.
Inspirational Thoughts:
When God gives you a new beginning often
it starts with an ending @TobyMac#SpeakLife
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you,
Lord, for this week that has come and gone so quickly. Thank you for this new day I am here
again. https://youtu.be/zfLcdBuB7NY “Here Again” @Elevation Worship
Thank
you for the awareness and you being my balance and direction.
For all the release in Love, with Love, for Love. Jesus no matter what I imagine, pretend, or even try living out. Without truth, without showing up, without pure hearts and clean hands none of it ever matters for the good and lasting to what we refer to as worldly forever.
Besides the fact I want eternity with you Christ, to soar up into the stars and
planets and shine wherever I can until you alone say rest well and dimly stay
at your side. https://youtu.be/x9_vhYpR9xo “All We Need Is Love” @The Beatles
As I sit
at this desk this morning with soft rock and thoughts flowing through the atmosphere. No matter what was yesterday. Today is always a new day when given.
Please Lord
give me strength to stay healthy and get things where they need to be.
You know
all things for my being and all I am connected. Family, dear friends loved ones and many
connections through you, with you for you.
Then those I will never understand why we are connected. Yet so very thankful for the blessings and
lessons in all things you allow me to see.
Remembering
how I felt when I sat three plus hours for the artwork created knowing You allowed
me Jesus to get a glimpse of what a Sweet Soul King may be; with you Love beyond
all time and space.
Here
again forever knowing your presence Lord; purify me melting and molding as you breathe
life into these lungs.
As you
allow me to feel a love of you even when I cannot physically touch what the
human eye can see.
Wanting
that pure unconditional agape love that flows within to pour out all around.
I so
must be dreaming as I raise my eyes, looking into this vast world like a
battlefield.
Knowing survival of the fittest says keep your friends close and enemies closer. Never say die and always be on guard to do whatever it takes.
Smooth operators,
some playing out the part so well other needing much more practice. Yet in the end somewhere, somehow, they make
their way to achieve what they are after. https://youtu.be/JMMKSa8DBME “Smooth Operator” @Sade
Where is
the future in so much death, destruction
and more importantly denial there is such differences here in the world?
Denial of
you Father God. As the world and many
in it will do their absolute best to convince you of things that just are not.
Where is
the good old days Father? https://youtu.be/dt6-ZtOL_gY “Grandpa(The Good Ole Days)” @The Judds
Man, how
I felt this when I would step singing in Karaoke. Even when it was years ago. Even when I would
never really know what it meant personally.
I would know and see how it truly meant what was said and put effort towards goals and dreams that we had seen forever in.
Now we just say the words in a million different
ways just to get what we think we want and once we get it, let it go away and just
walk away.
Where is
it when lovers fell in love to stay, instead now most are just sitting
somewhere broken because the binding that was once honorable no longer matters.
Even
many that are so close to me just keep giving themselves away and there is
nothing I can say or do to change that. ? https://youtu.be/OEhRucEVzH8 “She Is Running” @Casting Crowns
What is wrong with the world Lord that we cannot fix what is so broken.
That we cannot
fix where love is so misunderstood and broken.
Yes, these riddles of this mind maze. Which have been around long before I myself. https://youtu.be/EICNm-Ow0ms “Where Is The Love” @Black Eyed Peas
Can
anyone really make a difference while they walk around with blinders that this
world has went crazy long ago.
Can we
not all just do our best to find you Jesus and be and do as you would?
Far beyond
any thoughts of the good old days; although back then I never let so much touch
my spirit as I do now.
Hope
tucked away, that needs to be unleashed and wash through this land from nation
to nation. Burning those who purposely corrupt and destroy
with the just of God alone.
The many
needs and abundant faith in all we know you are but cannot see.
Hearing the voice of truth and in unity we
work together while listening https://youtu.be/KwsvqVmFV6Y “The Voice of Truth” @Casting Crowns
Before
this maze spins out of control this morning.
Lord may we all come to know You?
Please be in the healing of those that need
you.
Please
be the light that shows the lost the way out.
Lord I
need you and this world needs you. As
I sit on the edge of my seat Father God, I am trying. https://youtu.be/1mF1UwbA7zU “Edge Of My Seat” @TobyMac
Yet you know all that is going on with this
being. Show me what is and should
be. Show me how to keep getting back
up if I must fall. Scars come with
living; may we all get back up. https://youtu.be/yVj8DogtbVY “Scars (come with Livin’)” @TobyMac
I just
need to keep seeing you in everything Father!
I just pray the world can too! As
you are the beginning and end.
May we
realize who we are in you and not think we are what we do, what we have? May we love like you love us, even when it
hurts. Even when we have to let go to
allow love to grow.
Thank you, Jesus, for all the crazy thoughts I
am allowed to tap out. Thank you for
this new day and any tomorrows I may be blessed with. May I serve you wisely with every breath I
am given.
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Date: 10/15/2020 Thursday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/6B_iXPaoTD4
“Out Of My Hands” @Jeremy Camp
https://youtu.be/1Ko4yroBP0A
“Spirit Lead Me ” @Michael Ketterer – Influence Music
Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
(BibleGateway.com)
None Like You God!
2 Samuel 7:22(MSG) The
Message Bible 22-24 “This is what makes
you so great, Master God! There is none like you, no God but you, nothing to compare
with what we’ve heard with our own ears. And who is like your people, like
Israel, a nation unique in the earth, whom God set out to redeem for himself
(and became most famous for it), performing great and fearsome acts, throwing
out nations and their gods left and right as you saved your people from Egypt?
You established for yourself a people—your very own Israel!—your people
permanently. And you, God, became their God.
2 Samuel 7:22 (NIV) New
International Version 22 “How great you are, Sovereign Lord! There is no one
like you, and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears.
2 Samuel 7:22 (ICB) International
Children’s Bible 22 This is why you are
great, Lord God! There is no one like you. There is no God except you. We have
heard all this ourselves!
Inspirational Thoughts:
How people treat you says nothing about
you, but everything about them. @TobyMac#SpeakLife
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you,
Jesus, for another new day of opportunities.
Lord may
each soul opening their eyes again another new day; feel and see the newness
and all that can be. Letting go of what
was, letting go of all the hurts, the hang-ups, and any wrong doings they have
guilt over or have had done to them. https://youtu.be/SPAWurVRBxE “Awake” @Beckah Shae
Thank
you Even if every second of every day we/ I just want to live and sometimes
miss the mark spinning in all that should never be. Thank you for allowing me to see past what
is right in front of me and always have the curiosity to try to keep seeing the
good everywhere. Even when I know that
which can destroy us within just a split second or choice always remains
directly in front.
Thank
you for allowing me to know through pain, through sorrow, I am alive. Thank you for giving me the courage and
ambition to keep getting back up.
Lord may
all I am be through you first always.
Lord may
all living souls open their eyes to your glory and majesty. Seeing the truth through your will.
Knowing
we cannot fix everything in that microwave minute; but we can make a difference
starting with me, with each and every soul and the choices they make.
May we
be on our knees and feel mother earth and ground our being inviting Christ
Jesus in. Grounding our future steps
for all that was intended to be beautiful.
All my
unspoken or cried out prayers, all that are broken and even more of mine and so
many others I have seen, heard, prayed.
You know all of them Jesus. https://youtu.be/vjfdHtOJxJc “Broken Prayers ” @Riley Clemmons
If only
during the days I would have made the interactive newsletter instead of just
that weekly prayer newsletter. If only I
would have had the time to tie back all the answered prayers for all the souls
who believe in, you.
Thank you for those you do not answer, thank you for the protection and guidance and thank you for allowing me all those years to see deep inside all what your children go through.
Thank you for allowing me
to step away when I did as it got to hard to know so many beautiful beings
going through so much.
Thank
you for never stop fighting for your children and all who are just calling upon
you. https://youtu.be/rR3DsGJ5QVQ “Fighting For Me ” @Riley Clemmons
No
matter what false, fake, misguided crazy schemes and choices we make. You always hold us closer than we will ever know.
Lord you
know all things, hear my heart, hear all that is happening in this physical
being. Guide me, heal me as you see
fit. What will be will be, show me my
next steps as I continue to seek what to do with each new day.
You Lord
are not done with your children. https://youtu.be/cVHrkYBEgFM “God’s Not Done With You ” @Tauren Wells
Though things are changing as you are aligning
your frontlines. You children are
called in unity to lift the lanterns of light and hope high above all their own
pains or sorrows. You choose me, https://youtu.be/QUU0g_RnM34 “You Choose Me” @Riley Clemmons
You choose those who call out to you!
There is light at the end of the tunnel, there
is light in the abyss. No matter what
the pain, or darkness that will always try to consume every soul breathing you
Lord. Your light will always be more. We must believe and never stop seeking all
you are Jesus. https://youtu.be/2WlRt8z5bHA
“Into The Light ” @DC Talk
Lord I
will never answer for anyone else; well that is not true. Sometimes I speak out of turn when I should
not.
You know
all things about me and all your creation Jesus. Forgive me in advance for this curious,
needy soul always trying sometimes makes a mess. Lead me to show and be all you want me to
be.
Give me strength
to let go when you say let go. Give me
courage to hold on even when I cannot see, and it stings or hurts so badly I
only wish to curl up and disappear.
Most of
all Jesus, may I love and reflect the love you call for.
As I
fall short daily, opening doors that should not be holding those you are
pounding to be open closed.
May you
hear my thanks each time you pick me back up.
Tomorrow
is not promised. May your children
strengthen in unity, in the healing
through prayer, through obedience, through your will. Not that of their own opinions and thought
process.
Thank
you for all you have been and will be for me and all I am connected. This global canvas aligned with so many
brush strokes ever changing, though you the creator never will.
I am
sorry Lord for what I fall short on; I am sorry for how many calls upon your
name and say they walk with you yet fall so short making it all about our own
beings. Jesus forgive me, forgive us. https://youtu.be/KUYClC6vqKk “I’m Sorry (a lament) ” @TobyMac
Show us
Lord
Show us!
As I am
readying for this day and what is up ahead.
Lead Me Lord and all I am connected.
Your will not our own.
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Date: 10/14/2020 Wednesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/etMHy-Q3J78
“God Created Us Very Unique” @Steve Harvey
https://youtu.be/6iQwv8KgzCo “Be You ” @Inspirational & Motivational Video @Above Inspiration
Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
(BibleGateway.com)
Place Your Life Before God
Romans 12:2(MSG) The
Message Bible
12 1-2 So here’s what I
want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your
sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before
God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can
do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it
without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed
from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly
respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its
level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed
maturity in you.
Romans 12:2 (NIV) New
International Version 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be
transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s
will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Romans 12:2(ICB) International
Children’s Bible 2 Do not be shaped by
this world. Instead be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will
be able to decide what God wants for you. And you will be able to know what is
good and pleasing to God and what is perfect.
Inspirational Thoughts:
How people treat you says nothing about you,
but everything about them. @TobyMac#SpeakLife
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Waking
up and seeing those bloodshot eyes in the mirror after the morning shower.
Trying to
remember the days whey they glowed, and energy just flows out of every moment
then.
Then
when we never paid attention and just get up and go to nowhere. Never thinking about just getting up is
truly a blessing to be alive and have one more day to breathe and breathe out.
Wondering
when I stopped running to nowhere and stop trying to prove anything to anyone
and just acknowledging it is what it is and someday it will be all gone.
I remember
those tough times, hitting the floor even screaming at God. Demanding he tell me what he wanted from me.
The torment
that had me twisted all my life wanting purpose; wanting to be wanted; wanting
to be loved.
Just
wanting to matter and not picked apart for what I was not living up to with all
those who knew best or just knew how to control the situation.
We all
have demons; do not judge anyone. It
just may be yours have not been exposed in the light yet, not to mention we are
all still unfinished. https://youtu.be/drkqqCy8emM “Unfinished” @Mandisa
We have
those brief seconds until we are time stamped out.
The only
thing I suggest is you give them all to Jesus Christ and start walking with Him. As he alone has already carried the weight of
the world then, now, and whatever will be with him to the cross.
No one
can make you see. Trust me I have always been one since the ability to fight
back have done just that when anyone tries to force anything on me.
Growing
up in a single parent no parent environment; not having that support system or
anyone to lean in on for understanding.
You
learn things the hard way.
I have
no regrets. The more people said I was
going to be nothing, the more I became obsessed becoming something the world
said had worth.
College,
business, family, meeting every challenge or bucket list item. All the while not because of who I am. But Who God allows us to be with the freedom
of will and choice.
Not sure
exactly when I no longer tried to fit into the world and stopped forcing myself
to believe in things that just were not.
But I
know we all get too choose, and someday the scales come off the eyes of our
heart and we realize truth always shows up.
Even when it hurts.
God did
not create us to just be objects to show off for the world; although it is
funny how we in the world make humanity famous for just that. https://youtu.be/aW6nHbyj6TE “Famous For” @Tauren Wells
Thankful for all the beautiful talents and
gifts of those who have it. Yet how
often we in the world spend our money, time and efforts making them the idols they should not be.
Robbing
them from life and simple treasures to just be what God calls them forth to be.
Maybe that
is it how it should be. Lord knows this
mind maze just thinks out loud with feelings or experience I have seen. Nothing to make me an expert. Just some thoughts around the facts that we
take so much from others and never thinking what it is like or knowledge of
pure harmony without expectations.
Thinking
of those so famous that most days cannot ever have a moment to themselves. Unable to just get up and go, just breathe in
and out. Always surrounded by those
that have their backs, their pocketbooks, their very souls in the palms of
their hands.
We all
get to choose right. All those things
that we do because they make us feel really good; that eventually control who
we could have been.
Oh,
these crazy thoughts, maybe because of todays verse. I have always dared to not be anyone but
myself. The fact everyone always has
something to say but when it comes time to stand by your side and really be
there. Those times are few and far
between.
I cannot
remember when God allowed me to see the reflection of who I was in the mirror
to him. I remember allot of things,
but that day of transformation knowing what our lives worth is to Him is what
matters. Knowing no matter what, we are
not alone. God is with us! https://youtu.be/PJbtWOSYjBM “God With Us” @Terrian
We just have to call out to him and yes
mean it when you want to know what he wants.
It took
me some really deep valleys and extremely high mountains to get through,
around, over. I could not have done
any of them even just to find who I am today and recognize he is not done
yet. Not with me, not with anyone I am
connected to, not with anyone of this world who cries out to Jesus. https://youtu.be/fZdFd2KJtKA “Cry Out To Jesus” @Third day
I get it; so, Cliché
But there is truth in every letter as you hear it over and over.
We all get
to choose what we want to believe in.
Including we own it when it comes to believing in who God says we are
and were created to be. You are beautiful, you are kind, you are priceless. You just have to believe in what is
sometimes so hard to grasp.
It does
not mean we are all that the world says we are. You will always have critics, fixers,
liars, thieves. All those that try to
change and mold you into what they want you to be. Taking what they will never have intentions
of giving back or even can give back.
Only the living God; Christ Jesus, has the ability to show you who and
what you made for. https://youtu.be/bdSfpcJehu0 “You Were Made For More” @Ginny Owens
And you
and your worth were made for far more than this world or anyone in it will ever
give or take. Even if; Even when we
cannot see it, hold it, or feel it.
I will really
know why me or why my journey has been.
I will never have the words right at the time when those we love and
care about are falling apart of things that really should not matter. I will never always get it right even by a portion
of my days I am given or choices I have made or will make.
But I know
this. No matter what is or is not. No matter who is whispering in the dark or
standing next to me talking. No matter
what so badly I would like, or all those things wish never. We all have to show up and deal with the
truth.
Whatever
that may be for you at this place and time.
https://youtu.be/6nW7lyO6jHA
“Whatever May Come” @Jeremy Camp, Adrienne Camp
We all
have stuff, so when someone is freaking out and in your face. Downplaying you or degrading you. Taking so much from you all the while they
say how much they love you yet giving nothing back.
No
matter what is, what could be what will be is how you choose to deal with
whatever is going on around and with you.
BE KIND
Walk
away and do not feed the demons of reaction.
We cannot take back any of those hateful things we say or do. I will be the first to tell you how hard
life can be.
Loss of
those you love, having no one while in the grips of all that wants to suck the
very life out of you. Demons hurting
children; grave diggers and energy vampires.
Gold
diggers that are good at never even holding a shovel much less a spoon.
I can
assure you what was once a 98-pound white chick that had no problem standing up
to a 6foot whatever to make them stop abusing someone or even my own.
Well I
will never just lay down and look the
other way. But I am beyond blessed to
know the same God of the universe who placed the stars and moon is the same
creator allows me and every other human up each new day.
I have
done my and been through my shares of battling, freaking out and dealing with
let downs.
Just
because I pray and call needing Jesus in my life every second I am given. Well, it does not stop bad stuff or layers
coming through the journey I am on.
In fact,
the more I call out for Jesus to not let go of me; the more I am pounded
on. That is okay.
What
will be will be. I do not need empty
promises from anything or anyone in this world to see me through. I do not need fame or fortune. In fact, knowing I cannot take anything
with me when I need to leave. I am sure
is why over my lifetime I have always worked harder and not smarter; always
giving it away.
Still
learning every day, I am allowed up.
Learning what it is like to truly help those who are really in need and just
how and what it feels like to be played out by those wolves in sheep’s
clothing. It is all okay because each
day is a lesson. Each day I am given I
am more blessed with the ability to know there is more in me than what anything
I give away.
Yes, the
cravings sometimes of being human still bring me to tears. . https://youtu.be/8LvC_57vnOo “Crave” @For King & Country For
this I am grateful that my heart never turned to stone. Even if it will forever be guarded by Christ
Jesus.
If there
is anything, I wish anyone to understand reading this mind maze coming
out.
Always
know you are made for more than anything the world can make you, anything money
can buy, anything anyone can give or take.
There is purpose in the pain, and if you really care about your
future. Absolutely invite Jesus Christ
to come live within you. Seeking Him
alone to teach you what it means for love.
Integrity
picking up that moral compass in all you think, all you do and all that you
lead by example by; even when you are not signed up.
We all
get to choose.
Breathe
God in and ask Jesus to teach, lead and reflect in you all that eternity and
the promise of God is. Dive in and learn
how to find the fruits of the spirit and filling your soul to never hunger
again.
Even in
the darkness, even in all that needs healing.
May the Prince of Peace forever fill and guide your days and
nights. No matter what was yesterday;
it is gone. Tomorrow is never promised. If you cannot find the light just be
one. One word can and will make or
break some one’s soul, someone’s life.
Allow
God to come in and realize what to be loved through the storms, to be still yet
feel his love like thunder flowing through your very veins. https://youtu.be/6VUewj9rRoI “Love Like Thunder” @RICHLIN ft. Ryan
Stevenson Circle up and fill your days and nights in
prayer, circled up with no agenda friends.
With those who truly love you for all you are not what you do or can be.
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Date: 10/13/2020 Tuesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/hNYnO0TTnqY
“Let It Rain” @Crowder ft. Mandisa
https://youtu.be/JtjxCx-7Hps
“Bring The Rain ” @MercyMe
https://youtu.be/BEqin3JPyBg
“In The Presence of Angels” @Laura Hackett
Park
https://youtu.be/ghi1pVtJ5zs
“Dive” @Steven Curtis Chapman
Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Gods Promise
(BibleGateway.com)
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) New
International Version 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not
to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11(ICB) International
Children’s Bible 11 I say this because
I know what I have planned for you,” says the Lord. “I have good plans for you.
I don’t plan to hurt you. I plan to give you hope and a good future.
Jeremiah 29:11(MSG) The Message
Bible 10-11 This is God’s Word on the
subject: “As soon as Babylon’s seventy years are up and not a day before, I’ll
show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what
I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon
you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
Inspirational Thoughts:
How people treat you says nothing about
you, but everything about them. @TobyMac#SpeakLife
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you,
Lord, for another day of opportunity to swim through the depths of a world and
all that are in it; that so easily can consume us.
Thank
you for the ability and desire to want to dare to be like no one else, even
when the world tries to consume us all just the same.
Thank
you for the wonder, if all the walls of every dwelling, trees, skies or stars
that we have been given in our journeys; if they could talk and we would listen
and grow forward from all we learn.
Bring me
back to the days Father when all the uncertainty was in your hands and no
matter what was spiraling around me; it was always you I turned to.
If our
steps echoed and the louder, they called out the brighter your light shined,
and sadness was washed away.
If truth
was not so hard to hold onto or let, go.
One to
many or not enough. If the chess masters
of this universe trained up those they play out and not just take advantage. Showing the rule book up front and allowing
choice to play. Yet in the darkness, consumption
has already begun.
May the
songs of logic harmonize with the rhythms to every pure heart. Dancing in the melody setting the soul free as
new life is flying high. Not as a bird
that crashes into a glass wall because they cannot see the barrier.
Falling
to its demise or just stunned. Either
way the flight is never the same.
No
matter what is, no matter what will be.
Jesus no words are necessary.
The
question remain if we were not made to be alone, why do we find it so hard to do
right by one another and stop hopping that fence for something better.
Why does
humanity have so many conditions and stipulations of all that is temporal?
Something
I most likely will never find the answer.
As in life it is what it is until it is not.
Try not
to commit suicide in the games people play or be consumed with shining a beacon
of light of any sort for anyone, while your own is running out.
Without
You Jesus, I have been nor ever will be anything but a vapor, a speck that
sometimes passes by landing yet never sticking.
Just
enough but not enough.
Lord pour
down and rain down on me and all I am and ever will be connected.
Bring me
all that brings you Glory Jesus. I do
not and will not understand oh so much.
I will fight the flesh and my human side to just believe and yet I know
destruction by not listening will be more harm than I can bare.
It is
not about me. It is about what you have
entrusted me with which I struggle learning this walk so alone.
You are
my only saving grace on any giving day as you are the air in the lungs, I am
given every second I am allowed to exhale.
Thank
you for all I am, all I have been, all I can be. Thank you for every connection, every
blessing, every lesson.
May I
never stop learning with you Christ Jesus.
No matter what that looks like.
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Date: 10/12/2020 Monday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/xUPgzd3nwMo
“When We Fall Apart” @Ryan Stevenson
https://youtu.be/vrWdkziEuyA
“Truth I’m Standing On” @Leanna Crawford
https://youtu.be/VZXRIw5uBuY
“There Was Jesus” @Zack Williams ft. Dolly
Parton
Pieces of me
Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Warnings Against Evil
(BibleGateway.com)
Proverbs 1:8-9 (NIV) New
International Version
8 Listen, my son, to your
father’s instruction and do not forsake your mother’s teaching.
9 They are a garland to grace your head and a
chain to adorn your neck.
Proverbs 1:8-9 (ICB) International
Children’s Bible
8 My child, listen
to your father’s teaching. And do
not forget your mother’s advice.
9 Their teaching will beautify your life. It will be like flowers in your hair or a
chain around your neck.
Proverbs 1:8-9 (MSG) The
Message Bible
8-9 Pay close
attention, friend, to what your father tells you; never forget what you
learned at your mother’s knee.
Wear their counsel like flowers in your hair,
like rings on your fingers.
Dear friend, if bad companions tempt you, don’t go along with them.
If they say—“Let’s go out and raise some hell. Let’s beat up some old man, mug some old
woman. Let’s pick them clean
and get them ready for their funerals.
We’ll load up on top-quality loot.
We’ll haul it
home by the truckload. Join
us for the time of your life! With us,
it’s share and share alike!”—
Oh, friend, don’t give them a second look; don’t listen to them for a minute.
They’re racing to a very bad end, hurrying to ruin everything they lay hands
on.
Nobody robs a bank with everyone watching,
Yet that’s what these people are doing—
they’re doing themselves in.
When you grab all you can get, that’s what happens: the more you get, the less
you are.
Inspirational Thoughts:
Talk about your blessings more than your
burdens. @TobyMac#SpeakLife
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Grateful
for the silence and downtime yesterday Lord.
Though I still fiddled around taking care of somethings; to silence the
rush of what this mind needed to just give back to you fully.
To silence
all that never turns off, never stops trying to come out.
Thank
you for the day of rest and this new day full of opportunity no matter what we
see or do not see.
Like a child’s
mind full of imagination, hope and fairytale
dreams. With you nothing is out of reach
or as strange as it may seem.
When we
reach for the moon if we miss and fall you allowed billions of stars to land
on.
Just
like the verses of the day above, interpretation and perspective of all we are
varies from one to another. Perspective
can be nothing or everything. Yet the
truth will always be true.
No
matter how you read, how you choose and we all; every living soul on this planet
gets to choose.
No matter what anything or anyone on this
world thinks; Jesus yours alone is the truth I must stand on. Good, bad, laughter or tears. It is you
Father
God who has given me life and strength when no one else could show up or
remain.
Forever faithful, shining through all the
darkness reflecting all the grace and beauty in learning to simplify and make beauty
out of what many seem to think is nothing.
https://youtu.be/rjkoAStoJjQ
“Forever Faithful Camporee Theme Song” @asabbathblog
That childlike
perspective wishing we all still had it, yet innocence is taken so early and
what we see becomes the endless spin chasing what never fills or brings truth
to sustain us. The more we have the
more we seem to want to keep in the back of our minds what we have that just
sits collecting dust and never put to use for anyone in need.
All the
while in the waiting, on the mountain or lonely roads. There is and always will only be Jesus who
was, is and is to come always remaining unchanged. Always remaining sovereign.
We can pick apart any giving day, we can let
those endless, and sleepless nights or the dreams that rehearse through our
minds that never turn off over and over.
We can numb, with drugs, alcohol.
We can give ourselves away chasing what we
just want to feel for just a moment in time then feeling destroyed when just as
quick a we think we have hold it slips away as it never was.
However,
the same truth written in a book more than
2000 years ago, no matter what interpretation we choose to believe in; through
you and your word. The one book in truth that will never change is the Bible.
Those
moments when you just cannot breathe, and we are broken and torn.
Knowing as you lay naked on the floor broken
and bleeding out. https://youtu.be/2hlgClEQodQ
“Torn” @Natalie Imbruglia Struggling for the air to just sustain one
more day for those you love. Those you
wanted to life, but it turned out to be something so vastly different than what
you would had in any dreams.
Yet, why
do we stay frozen; why do we not remember in thanks, in conversation in truth
with Christ as he was on that cross struggling to breathe. Taking a world of sin, pain and forever
hurt to allow humanity a chance to live.
Lord Breathe on me! https://youtu.be/u1WrZNdTLDU
“Breathe On Me” @Hillsong Worship
To be
more like You Jesus, in strength, in prayer to the Father, in hope and so much
more love.
If we
all could just be as merciful and resourceful as you are when it comes to
believing Lord.
May you
heal this world Lord, may we take courage in you Jesus? https://youtu.be/4fq8ffjcEcU “Heal This Land” @Kari Jobe
Heal
this land Jesus, show us how to light the way and let go of what should not be loving
as you would along the way. No matter what is, or what we try to be, try to
make happen. Jesus may we see the reflection
we are leading by example and want more of you?
I myself
just need you . https://youtu.be/W52g2kyI8gQ
“I Just Need U” @TobyMac
showing me the way to live, to love, to be all
you want me to be.
Not change
who you made me for something temporary that others toss out when they find
that something better or something that does not have room for the here and
now.
All the
pretending, lies, schemes for selfish ambitions. You know all things Lord of all that can and
will be.
Heal us, guide us; fill me up Jesus with so
much of you nothing else can get in from this world. https://youtu.be/PmJUjUbonxY “I Just Need U” @TobyMac
Life
full of abundant mercy and grace and never-ending love. https://youtu.be/Sc6SSHuZvQE
“Reckless Love” @Cory Asbury | Bethel Music
With one look, one whisper, one breath
beyond any climatic movie or romance story.
As we call upon you Lord; you show us what life truly is and can be.
You are
always just waiting; Father God, for us to call out to Jesus. No matter what you are and always will be. https://youtu.be/w1Tc0jqDRnQ “Find You Waiting” @December Radio
Lord,
thank you for loving me. Thank you for
allowing humanity to have minds to think and choose with. Thank you for allowing us to have perspective
and own the results of the choices we make.
Thank you for leveling the field and allowing your children to know; no
matter what. You have got us!
May in
unity you Father God wash over this land and show us how to light up your world
not our own.
May the
dreamer in me, be filled with only what you bless. Letting Go, Letting it hurt, healing in and
with you Christ Jesus.
Thank
you as you know all things before, they ever come to be.
Thank
you for loving me.
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