Saturday, February 13, 2021

02.13.2021_February(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Saturday, February 13, 2021

 

 

 Meditation Opportunities

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

John 3:16 (NIRV)  16 God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son. Anyone who believes in him will not die but will have eternal life.

John 3:16 (MSG)  16-18 “This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn’t go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person’s failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him.

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com

 

Forgiveness @TobyMac ft Lecrae

Control @Tenth Avenue North

Eggshells @Hawk Nelson (ft. TobyMac) 

Redeemed @Big Daddy Weave 

Greater Than All My Regrets @Tenth Avenue North

 

  

(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

John 20:19,21

On the evening of that first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “ Peace be with you!”…  Again, Jesus said, “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”

 

John 14:27

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.  I do not give to you as the world gives.  Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”

 

Philippians 4:7

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

 

The God Who Sees @The Rock, The Road, and The Rabbi Foundation

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for this new day!   Though in life things just are not fair; nor was it for you who died at the hands of the world tortured and discarded like you did not matter and worse than a criminal’s death  Christ Jesus that you died.

 

We/I often wonder about the unfairness that transpires in my day to day or even all around me.  I often wonder how we always just gravitate to what is negative, wrong at times in so many levels.   Getting caught up like the fuel on any great bon fire; just exploding adding our own personal wants, hurts, hangs-ups or any of those broken pieces we just can’t seem to put back together and move forward without being stuck in the review of what was.  

 

Sometimes the sun shines too bright up ahead and we are just blinded when do not keep our eyes on you Lord.   

 

Thankful and grateful than any regrets I had in yesterday and so much better than anything I will make a mess of in tomorrows.

 

It is not me being that person calling out and speaking what I would like to do with the mean people of the world.   Yet my judgement does that not make me any better than those that have chipped irreplaceable pieces away from this heart, this spirit.

 

The need of forgiveness then, and every now moment I/we have ever existed.  If forgiveness could really just pour out of our spirits in truth and us all; even me get back up and forgive like you have and do.

 

Take accountibility for what we have done and do.  Stop doing our best for what is easy and temporal but dive in and knowing you alone Jesus are in control of the final destination, move or plan.

 

We can talk about the sadness of the so many who lost and never had a chance.   The fathers beaten and groomed from the day the were birthed in this world and died far too soon but at the hands of brutality and evil.     Leaving the true picture in the minds of the babies left behind just how evil the world can be.

 

Yes, RIP Luis as your daughters celebrated your 38th birthday at the grave sight yesterday and all they can do is speak to the earth that hold your ashes.     

 

Or what about that daughter and mother of four that never had any positive loving support and found their courage for each day in a pill bottle since they were barely teens.      

 

Fighting her demons through all the programs society gave yet her support for love and just balance to know to keep fighting forward for herself and the babies she had was by the same drug filled lost friends and lovers she was strangled with.   Until that one day at 28 years old that mother, that daughter, that aunt, that sister that soul no longer woke back up as the drugs won.

 

Never will I understand how some of us have all those scars that still bleed out are here today and blessed to know our worth in you Jesus, while others never got to.    Or even what about the Rocky’s and Tommy’s Jesus.    You know all things.   Rocky how he got that name, wanting so much to lose his past and so smart and talented replacing one addiction for another.   Finding you and believing only to have his physical body shut down as he finally tired that battle the world kept him in entangled.    Tommy a kid raised up in a house of drug addicts in prison by age 10 for bad things and spending his life out as an adult and knowing the right from wrong  with a heart and loyalty so great that he would go back to prison for the family that would feed him to the demons just to get the next fix.

 

Those you have allowed me to connect; some that would easily run you through then pretend to care what you are going through.   As their cuts are far deeper than anyone in the world cares to look and help.

 

Keep your friends close and your enemies closer so they say in the world.    You tried that in this messed up Jesus.   You walked and sat with the least of these longer than anyone could showing mercy and grace despite how they turned on you.

 

It is true, those with a checkered past that just assume cut your throat are better to know than those who pretend you really know them.  Especially when they will never be truthful to themselves and the baggage they carry, and they are too busy destroying to take anything they think of value the world and who they scope out may have.    

 

I can dwell on all those that I have been blessed to be connected and even those who are family that it is what it is no choice just like they say you can pick your friends, but you cannot pick your family.  

 

 I can know how blessed I am to understand the good, the bad and the indifferent and the family you gave me by blood and by spirit Jesus.

 

Every single connection, every single soul that we look in the face, the eyes, the hearts of whatever level we may be allowed.    Has purpose with and for you.   Our lives matter and we are never alone.

None of us have to settle and do or be what the world says we must.  Yes, we all must pay the price of the choices we make or become the collateral damage when we do not; or worse yet live with the demons that slowly eat us alive until our vessels are no more in this world and our souls are lost forever when we do not find you before leaving.

 

Funny how the BIBLE is the Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth.    To know you Jesus; know that you too died too soon for the number of years you walked, within the earth.  Yet had you not; perhaps none of this or the mind that I am allowed to pour out each day would never be.

 

Perhaps my fighting to survive stopped when you allowed me to see and my heart stopped hating what I did not understand.    Even though I walk through this world so insignificant and still trying to matter.   Knowing I will never be enough for those of the world.    You allow me to find comfort knowing you are in control, knowing somehow you love and want me.  When not even those that were vessels to allow me in; never had a clue or want to guide and lead me.

 

Lord, please heal this land and all that is shattered and in broken pieces within every soul we/I come to know.      I am redeemed and free in you and forever craving, desiring that pure love from the outside in as you give and allow me to be forever free from the inside out.

 

Forgiveness Lord, may I never see the good in those you allow me to be on a path and connect.  Though I seek your guidance your protection and not walls but boundaries that I am able to shine through and be that real help and not just another notch of their collection of one over for whatever they are chasing.

 

May I walk in confidence yet not ego.   May I never walk on eggshells walking life with you Jesus and when I am slowly being consumed because my heart is on my sleeve.   Protect me and all you are in me from the shadows, the trolls, the wolves, myself!

 

Reconcile Lord all you choose to be reconciled.   May all the helpers know we cannot fix or many anyone better or anything they do not work for themselves.

 

Wanting, praying and being a light is required; but the best of anyone including our own beings comes from deep within the very souls we are made of and with that very knowledge only you Jesus can and will make the way for each and everyone of us.   May we all call upon you and know justice, harmony, and undeniable peace and love is yours for eternal life in and with you Christ. 

 

When life is too good to be true, give it to God.  Know you too must have boundaries and if you choose to ignore them.    You/me will need to pay the cost of the end result and sometimes that wave that washes out will leave scars if not remove those you were blessed with.

 

The price we pay to live and what we chase will outline the layers we choose to carry any days we are given.   Because when we call upon Jesus to take the wheel of all we are.   Even though we will never always get it right.   He will see us through and bless us with abundant mercy, grace, and ability to get back up and keep trying to grow forward.  To keep trying to shine even a flicker of what is good.   No matter how it hurts when our own choices seem wrong, gullible or in the hands of those who just want no matter who they destroy.

 

Don’t lose faith, find your peace, find your harmony, find your strength in the depths of God the father, Jesus the one and only son of man sent to die so we can live most importantly find what it means to allow the trinity to come live in you.  Invite the Holy Spirit in and guide you. 

 

Thank you, Lord, for allowing me back up and maybe what I tap out helps, maybe others think or even get angry about my thoughts pouring out.   Maybe I am that target for all those pretenders.

 

Whatever the case may be Jesus.   You are, you were, and you always will be!   You are real to me and all my hope and faith no matter how hard it is to get back up or at times it hurts.   You are in control.   May the seeds of faith and hope for greater things be planted in healing and love as I am allowed to continue this journey.    Thank you, Jesus Christ, for preparing the way home to the Fathers house.

 

We will never fully grasp your will and why or how.   But Lord may I always cling to faith in you first and always and grow forward in your will; not my own.   My own selfish thoughts, desires, ambitions may be not as little as some or more than most.  May be with great intentions and poor circumstance leading many into the path of collateral damage repair.    Or maybe what is needed to stay out of harms way.   Only you can lead me to know.  I cannot do this on my own.  I don’t want to do this so-called life without you Jesus!

 

   May we/I trust and lean in on you every moment we are given knowing you have already took all the pain and suffering for all the wrong turns we will and do make.      May we learn how to live while dying to self and with humility grow in abundance and bright for and with you.

 

IN YOUR NAME, YOUR BLOOD THAT POURED OUT, JESUS be with us all.

Friday, February 12, 2021

02.12.2021_February(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)


Date: Friday, February 12, 2021

 

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com

 I Am Home (sleep song)  @Keith Urban @https://www.calm.com   

Not something I normally share, and I see it has hit Youtube.com already. This is ABSOLUTELY PERFECT~ 

Canvas and Clay @Pat Barrett ft. Ben Smith

Defender  @Jesus Culture 

LET You In @Harborside Music   

Take Courage @Kristene DiMarco 

Break Open the Sky @TobyMac Feat. Israel Houghton 

My Hands Are Open @ Bethel Music & Josh Baldwin 

God Turn It Around @Jon Reddick @Church Of The City 

The Proof Of Your Love @for KING & COUNTRY 

 

 

 Meditation Opportunities

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

1 Corinthians 13: 6-7 (NIRV)  Love is not happy with evil. But it is full of joy when the truth is spoken. It always protects. It always trusts. It always hopes. It never gives up.

 

1 Corinthians 13: 6-7 (MSG) 3-7 If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

 

 

(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

Psalm 139:1-2

O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.  You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.

 

Matthew 139:1-2

“The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel” – which means, “ God with us.”

 

Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.

 


 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

I wish I could, I wish I might.  Instead, sometimes I just fight my own self and the battlefield of the minds.    Sometimes we do, sometimes we don’t.   Most times we can and will even if we should not.

 

Yes, says the same one who takes off running spinning around right into those proverbial brick walls and even sometimes real walls not paying attention.    Pieces of me all over the place.   Just doing my best to keep it real, trying to not be what the world says I should be, all the while following the rules.    While remaining pure in heart with clean hands.

 

Living that best life in obedience and running as fast as I can away from all that comes easy, all that is too good to be true.   While sometimes taking that break and looking back and allowing those dreams or desires of a young girl swoop down and consume my every breath.

 

Love eyes wide open, heart sealed shut.     Loving others for who they are deep within and not for what they do or can do.   Yet sometimes that beauty that radiates out from their very core, that talent that makes your heart skip a beat, that very essence of who they are just consumes and feeds our very being.   Without reason, without expectation.

 

Somethings just are what they are.       Same when you know that vibe washes over, and you know to just keep your distance or run.     Trust what your gut says, not thinking you can handle what might come next.

 

Life without truth and love seems to be the topic of devotion from today’s daily verse.     Tough one’s for sure.    No not for everyone; I get it!  Some are so perfect that they can handle everything while they suppress anything that may remotely spark a feeling and they are in control.

 

We all know control is just an illusion, right?    Hope so.  We may manage things that make us feel we are in control.   But if we put all we are into something really turning out as we plan and expect.   If we really believe what has turned out is something that is forever.   Brace yourselves for that roller coaster drop in the ride of life. 

 

Because we may be authors that co-write our story, our songs our scripts.   But in the end, there is only one true master of control at the control board.

 

Everything between Us and Him is and can be the biggest blessings, curses, or illusions as we let that IT whatever IT may be in the middle.

 

Recently chatting with someone and they clearly let me know how I offended them because of how I feel and what I believe.

 

First of all, we all get to choose.   And although that is not my nature or purpose to ever want to offend or hurt anyone.   However, I am a show me person.   And I have lived through experience that I know what I know and absolutely what I do not.

 

Trust is earned and when you have it; once it is violated or chipped away.   Although a love is forever; when it comes to believing just on what people say.

 

Well, I have learned in my life not to place expectations.    Loving and riding the wave of all that is good and working through all that is bad or needs work.   Yet when your try to get me to be, say or do something that is not me; or you place expectations on me.   Well I cannot help the way I feel, and I always speak the truth or shut down and say nothing at all.

 

So yes, I tick people off at times.   And although I am not in a lifelong relationship at this time.   What I can say is for those married.    When you are done fighting and agreeing to disagree.   Make Up.        If two came together and committed and you have not grown apart so much that you need to escape being around each other no matter what the reason.

 

Work through it.  

 

Lie’s and Cheating.   Well infidelity is just that and that is a hard scar to heal from.   No matter which one of you do it.  It does not matter how long you have been together.  In fact, the longer you are together the more effort your relationship takes to absolutely keep it fresh.

 

My perspective (God first, your spouse next and then your family and all that comes after)  Every day until you no longer get back up.

 

When you are just meeting someone, just dating.    Stop putting so many expectations out there for others.

 

Set them for yourself.   Respect yourself.   Honor your vessel.  Really treat others with love, mercy, and kindness; keeping distance from letting that physical attraction and heart strings to be pulled so tight you do what you feel bad or regret later.

 

Growing up kids are cruel, and they are bullies by nature.   I can remember how everyone else always had my reputation laid out for me.   Not one even those closest to me ever really took time to know me.

 

When we get tired of being bullied, we either fight or we take off in flight.    I was a fighter.  I remember my so-called best friend and I who pushed and ran their mouth too far and too long one day walking home from school and just there we were scraping in the middle of a group of kids on the sidewalk.   Proving nothing looking back now but everything then.    We remained friends and still hung out, but it was never the same.

 

We feel, we do, we change or repeat the cycles.     Growing up in the inner city you learn to survive or hide.   Me crazy, stupid young or just proving to myself I never hid.

 

I back in my youth could have cared less if I lived or died.   It just was what it was and some of the biggest lessons to look back on and just know our true worth outside of this world.

 

My stories can go on and on; and not being a stranger to the vultures, thieves and wolves in the world that will always just be.     There is always something new to learn when it comes to survival.

 

Always something you will say or do or not put up with that offends even those that flow through your veins.    

 

But do not change or compromise who you are to appease anyone.    Do not settle just because or take leftovers in the relationships you build.

 

Every connection you are allowed by the grace of God has meaning.   Every soul that lives and breathes on this planet is a creation from God and is loved by God.   Even when, even if!

 

You may be different and have much or little or not at all.   You are still beautifully and wonderfully made and loved by the King of Kings and Lord over all Creation!   Nothing or no one else can ever change that.   No one can ever change or doubt your worth and make it matter, but you!      So, when it comes to signing your life away, jumping into life time commitments, giving up your identity, giving away pieces of yourself thinking its something beautiful forever.      Don’t rush it and make sure you do everything you can to know who you are giving and doing with are on the same page.

 

Never will I say don’t try.   We are not meant to live in bubbles alone without experiencing the blessings and dreams to grow forward alone or with someone.

 

What I am saying.   Be your best self-first, for you with God at the lead.  Let Jesus be the captain of your life and vessel and seek those that are equally yoked with you spiritually and want to grow and learn and dream and love like you.

 

I am no expert, but I know every relationship we have takes work.   And its not about what you can do for the other person, or what they can do for you.    If you constantly have to be giving any piece of you away for the other person and they are not satisfied and wanting to just be with you.    It is never going to be worth what you think; nor will it ever last.   Knowing when it ends there will always be a painful scar left behind.

 

Whew where this all comes from not sure.    But I have seen, done, and lived through allot and seen so many stories unfold.

 

With Love and Valentines coming up It’s okay to be single, it’s okay to love life.  It’s everything to love and know the author of life and who He gave as the ultimate love gift.

 

It’s okay to love and be loved even when you cannot physically touch it or understand it.

 

My perspectives

 

 

Lord, please fill and protect every soul I am blessed to be connected with.   Protect them, heal them, and guide them in love, with love and teach them and me; what real Agape Love is poured out.   May we all be blessed with your mercy and grace daily and may we all cling to you first every breath we are given.

 

Thursday, February 11, 2021

02.11.2021_February(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Thursday, February 11, 2021

 

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com

 

 Blinding Lights @Music Travel Love (The Weekend Cover) 

Soul @Keith Urban 

Less Like Me @Zach Williams

Love Moved First  @Casting Crowns 

 

You Keep Hope Alive @Mandisa, Jon Reddick 

 

 

 Meditation Opportunities

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

1 Corinthians 13:4-5 (NIRV)

Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not want what belongs to others. It does not brag. It is not proud. It does not dishonor other people. It does not look out for its own interests. It does not easily become angry. It does not keep track of other people’s wrongs.

 

1 Corinthians 13:4-5 (MSG)

3-7 If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

 

(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

2 Thessalonians 3:16

Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way.  The Lord be with all of you.

 

John 4:4-5 AMP

In Him was Life, and the Life was the Light of men.  And the Light shines on the darkness, for the darkness has never overpowered it [put it out or absorbed it or appropriated it, and is unreceptive to it].

 

Hebrews 12:3

Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Up and blessed another new day filled with opportunities waiting to happen.  Good, bad, crazy, logical,  or so totally off the charts and confusing it just is what it is.

 

Every single moment we are given is an opportunity waiting to happen, to change, to be.

 

We may not get to pick what or when an opportunity strikes, but we get to absolutely pick how we will respond and react to it.

 

I wish allot I was not blinded so easily by things, lights in peoples dreams or even my own.  I pray more often I am less like me and more like who Jesus died and sacrificed so we could be.     I know He is not done with any of us yet if he allows us up each new day.

 

Sometimes I try way too hard to be, that motherly caretaker make up for what I never had takes over and before I know it, I find myself right smack dab in the middle of someone else’s opportunities.    Which by the way is not a bad thing; but sometimes I set myself up for hurt and heart ache as I believe and see something totally different in those places that what actually is.

 

 Its like a complete smack down of rejection when you have to own that you are just a steppingstone, or object being used for something that is temporary and has no meaning to those other people you step up and give all you are for.

 

I have lost some really beautiful and talented souls to the world completely; or at least it feels like I did when in truth.   They lost themselves and although they were so close in shaking the demons and being who God intended from my minds eye.    They just were not there soon enough and were taken out of this world before what I think was their time.      

 

Yet like anything just as Jesus knew when it was his time to bare the burdens of all the humans in the universe.   Maybe it just is what it is for those who die so young to the elements that consume them.

 

There is a season for everything and a reason in and for every season.  Even when I myself may never get it. 

 

Reasons why we hurt, reasons why we love some deeply in ways that need no explanation and others why we love and wonder how or why it ever came to be.

 

Some of us love ourselves or so we think and do what we do for self, while others thrive when doing or being a little more selfless than others.

 

What is that in-between.  Especially when we just do not know what we do not know.  When we know of the God of the universe who created all things.   Yet we do not know him personally, because we do not know His son Jesus.

 

God is love and He absolutely moved first.  I know I myself I am one stuck and paralyzed with that tunnel vision and lack of trust because of all the layers this journey I have been on from day one have left with me.     From early childhood to that adult deep desired romance novel in living color.

 

Sometimes IT blinds us.

Sometimes IT is washed clean and darkness is put to use for growing forward and other times IT is just something we never look back on or care to try and figure out.

 

What is IT that feeds our souls?  Who lives within yours?   That which you miss so deeply and daily but can never get back to and you chase it by doing, accepting, wanting, needing but so useless as we somehow never get back there again like that which sparks life alive.

 

So thankful for you Jesus and the hope, mercy, grace and a deep passion and love that only you fill without even question.    So thankful you Jesus never gave up on me and made me see.

 

So thankful for all I have been given and I am sure all that has been taken.

 

Thankful for every connection I have been blessed; even those that I miss so much I can feel them flowing through my veins.

 

So thankful for what forever will be even when I do not understand the whole thing of IT.

 

Just knowing if this is what love really feels like; I would not want it with anyone else leading the way.

 

Your Peace Jesus: Is what forever fills my internal space of confidence!

I am lost without you and so very done as I find myself shattered a billion times in a billion pieces and You alone even not fully understanding how or why me.    You Jesus are the glue that keeps me together and allows me to get back up and pour out each and every day.   Even if, even when.

 

Be with all I am connected, please!

Be the courage, strength, love, light the everything for all I am connected and are still here and now and able to know you.

 

Thank you for this day and all that have come to pass.  Thank you for any tomorrow’s I may 

Sunday 5-11-2025_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

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