03.12.2021_March(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Friday, March 12, 2021

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)

Never judge a book by the cover and never get stuck in one chapter thinking that is how the end game is.  It’s not over until it’s over and we are called home.  It is never too late to be our best selves or do the right thing. We can quit, we can give up getting stuck and licking our wounds, but it is not over, and God wants us to finish what we start.  Wants us to be our best selves no matter how much the struggle becomes or is, it is not over until we are no longer and even then, when we are children of God it is never over. It's Not Over @Mandisa -ft. Jasmine Murray & Rita Springer

 

Judgement we all have it, do it and run from it.  Forgive us Jesus for that which we never really understand until it is too late.  Forgive us for sometimes not living with blind faith when it comes to everything with and in you God.  Be it we spit on the belief of you with our actions or lack of.  Or just run through the world like the wind blowing not holding true to anyone thing or value.   Yet we do not realize without the wind, without the air which comes from you; we would never exist in humanity as we know it here and now.  Forgive Us Lyrics @for KING & COUNTRY (ft. KB)

There is never anything that I could say or do to truly repay in the gratitude I owe for life I am given.  Good, bad, or indifferent.   Sometimes beautiful and chaotic yet brilliant with the flow of love in so many colors with none understood.  Or that black and white matter of fact there is no way around anything to every know anything different.   And what about those times I try something out of the box, out of the swim lane?  Trying with hope and trust that what gives that abundant rush of forever and always wanting it to let go, then suddenly all that you know as too good to be true is laid out clear as day and night.  All of it feeding the growth and choices of what we can and will do next when we believe in all that we cannot see or see yet.  Thank you Jesus for allowing life to be and freedom of will to allow every soul to get back up and take off in any direction.  Never will I have enough worthiness to repay all you have been or will be. All My Words Fall Short  @Brandon Lake

The triggers we setoff or are setoff by like songs in our hearts. A word, an item, a person just hearing their name.  Or those places we reminisce in our minds eye.  Even where certain tunes, smells, or even words take us back in time where that special memory rises up and warms us for even a brief second.  What about all those that which triggered our change from where we never planned on being apart.  Or that of which we finally made it. 

Jesus I never want to let you go, and yes, I am never going to be worthy enough to know for sure.  I can only continue to do my best with what I am given.  Lover of all I can ever be, all I ever was no matter lost or found.  Jesus that song in my soul that fills me up through all the turbulence or even wreckage of the collateral damage that flew past and through us.  Taking and rearranging so many pieces of me along the way. May my soul never stop dancing with you Lord.    Song In My Soul @Phil Wickham ft. Hollyn

Each day we are given we have the ability to choose. Even if only in our minds in our hearts we get to choose where we allow our mind to take us.  We get to choose how to react, what to pray about, what to stay for, what to let go and move on for.  We are blessed with the ability to create, or be the change we want, even when others do not.  We get to choose if we will shine on, no matter how glim or dark those we care about around us continually pour out what ends up too heavy to carry or too dark to look through or past.  No matter how much we hurt, how much we want, how often we are beaten down or taken advantage of.   No matter how much we have, or the greatness of the moment is.   The right here and right now can and will change always.    People will be everything you want to see or hear until they are not.  Places and all the surroundings within change in the blink of a windstorm.   Things its all temporal; we cannot take any of it with us.   Yet your love Christ Jesus, your mercy and grace that bled out for us is eternal; not just forever.    Your peace even as we can go under will forever be more than anything of this world.    Any pain we may feel; physically, emotionally, or mentally and yes, I keep them separate even if they go hand in hand.      Any pain will never come close to what you took for our sins so we could have a life and be our best selves.     That which I fall short, and the world too is not exempt.

You alone Lord set the planets in motion; breathing us into life and then there was Jesus.   Father God; come show us; lead us.  Be with us.   There Was Jesus @ Zach Williams ft. Dolly Parton

 

As I look around, as I am consumed and stuck beating my own self up for that which will never be known.   For all the moments wasted, and all the new given.  For all the abilities of so many lost, or so many unexpected damning circumstances in anyone living soul’s life.   For all it can be, all it will be, all we want, all we run from.   May the truth prevail and bless all your children Lord?  No matter where we have been, no matter where we are going.    Jesus with every breath we are given may we surrender; may I surrender and give you all I am.   Jesus’ wreck all I am connected in your love.  Pour through every living being.  Give us the strength to stand with you in all we do.  I lift my eyes; I lift my spirit I lift my hands Jesus hear all that we are.  Your will be for love, your life and all that may come in between.  With Lifted Hands @Ryan Stevenson

Thank you for this new day and all that have come to pass or all that will come to be. As you wash us in new mercies each day given. New Today  @Micah Tyler  Together with you we will see the light.  See The Light @TobyMac (Separate Altogether Acoustic)

Meditation Opportunities

2 Peter 1:4 (NIV) 

⁴ Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

“Because you are Mine, you don’t just pass time in your waiting.  You can wait expectantly, in hopeful trust.”

John 14:1  “Do not let your hearts be troubled.  Trust in God; trust also in me.”

Psalm27:14  Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

Hebrews 6:18-20    God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope offered to us may be greatly encouraged.  We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.  It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where Jesus , who went before us, has entered on our behalf.  He has become a high priest forever, in order of Melchizedek.

 

Jesus Freaks @dc Talk and The Voice of the Martyrs Revised and updated addition True  (Stories of Those who Stood for Jesus, the Ultimate Jesus Freaks)

 

“Everyone who acknowledges me publicly here on earth, I will also acknowledge before my Father in heaven.  But everyone who denies me here on earth, I will also deny before my Father in heaven.”  @Jesus Matthew 10:32-33) @Her Last Prayer (Girl 16 or 17 years old, Asia 1970s)

03.11.2021_March(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

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Date: Thursday, March 11, 2021

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)

Thank you, Jesus, for this new day.   No, I cannot go back.   You have carried me so far throughout all the days I would just quit and bury myself.   I am nothing; not just,  not enough but I am nothing without you Lord.    No matter what is, what is not.  No matter any yesterday or all the tomorrows.    Please never stop meeting me right where I am!   You are and always will be the life I am allowed.  Good, bad, or indifferent.  It just is what it is until the day it is no longer here and now and then my faith my hope will be in your heaven kingdom.  Here Again (Spontaneous - I Want More)  @Rheva Henry

 

To say I am always paying attention, I am always listening would be a lie.  So often I hear but I really never grasp what it really means until after the fact.  Thank you for all the lessons and ability to keep learning through even what cannot be seen until it is wiped cleaned and seen with our hearts and not that of what we allow to pour in through our eyes or ears.  I want to always listen never missing one breath I am given. Show me Father, lead me, drive me.  Carrying me where I cannot get up.  I'm Listening  @Chris McClarney Ft. Hollyn

Quiet this mind, this heart and rise up the faith that it takes to move the mountains of this world that get in our way; distracting, derailing, and breaking us down.   Trusting in all you say even when I cannot hear it with these ears that day by day are blocked from hearing with all the noise and static that comes in such a vast world.   I need you then, I need you now and I need you always Jesus.  May I never forget who you are and who I am to you. For all the days I get up and run, may I run to you always first and when I forget as time fades me out; keep giving me the faith and the heart to reflect all you are, all that is kind, all that is pure and all that is truth. Give Me Faith  @Elevation Worship

You alone make me different Jesus.  All the storms, all the illness, all the heartbreak.  All that we see coming and all that what knocks the breath out of us.  All that I never understood and never will and all that is yet to come.  The truth is the change in me is only because of you Lord.   The hate, the anger, the self-conflicts, the fighting for what only adds darkness to all that is around and within me.  Though I may  never fully understand or deserve I am grateful to give all I am to you first and if that is first and only so be it.  But I want so much more Lord.  That which only you can give even when this imperfect spirt messes up, falls apart and drives people crazy sometimes.  Or even allows a reach to allow others in and mix up what you have set in motion.  Different @Michah Tyler

No matter how good, how bad.  How happy in the day today or broken I may become you will forever love me anyway and all your creation.  There is nothing that can compare or be understood clearly enough that humanity or even myself will ever fully get.  There is just that indescribable peace and drive that when we finally taste the unseen and want more, we truly know you are real, and nothing can change that.  Nor would I want anything less.  In fact, I so want more of you and all you have to give.  No matter when I am running in the opposite direction even when I stand still you Jesus love me beyond anything or anyone could ever do.  You Love Me Anyway @Sidewalk Prophets

Each day we get back up and are so torn and broken; forgetting to give thanks just to be alive much less forgetting to look around and see the shelter and blessings we have when so many do not have.  When torn and twisted and reminded all that we have been through forgetting how far we have come.  Knowing the pure free will and desire of our own hearts allow us to realize we were never alone.   There has always been another called Christ Jesus walking side by side through it all just waiting for us to lean in, call out, scream out, break down, or peacefully just hold those conversations that we would never have with anyone else. I was beyond lost in my own need to live long before ever finding my way to opening that door and now I can never get enough of anything he allows to travel through, with or for me.   Another In The Fire @Hillsong UNITED

Lord I pray always that all I am connected is washed over, washed through with your love and the ability to come to know this which you bless those who know you.  Call it indescribable peace, a love that we know but never really understand.  More importantly Father God, may I always be blessed that you never leave me and that all I am is yours; all I am connected belongs to you.  Show up in a real way for every soul.  Light us up Jesus, show the victories in the big in the small!  You will never leave those who come to you and genuinely want the blessing of eternal life.  May we come before you at that foot of the cross and know even when we just do not know what it is, we do not know That you are forever and beyond.  Never leave me Father, never leave this world when you have every right to eliminate what you created out of love to just start over again.   Never leave but fill us with the power of your blood, your heart, your vision your deep healing!  Your love now, then, and always. Never Leave @Red Rocks Worship 

 Thank you for each day given Jesus.   Though I walk through the valleys and shadows of sometimes my own confusion and trials of believing in others or wanting more where it should not be.  You have never failed me in strength, courage, and abundant love.

 

May I always lean in on you, with you, and for you to get back up!   Get Back Up @TobyMac

Meditation Opportunities

Deuteronomy 7:9 (NIV) 

⁹ Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments.

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

“Walk by faith and not by sight.  As you take steps of faith, depending on me.”

2 Corinthians  For we walk by faith, not by sight.

Galatians 5:25  Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep ins step with the Spirit.

Psalm 59:16-17    But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.  O my Strength, I sing praise to you; you, O God, are my fortress, my loving God.

 

Jesus Freaks @dc Talk and The Voice of the Martyrs Revised and updated addition True  (Stories of Those who Stood for Jesus, the Ultimate Jesus Freaks)

 

“A Slave is greater than the master.  Since they persecuted me, naturally they will persecute you.  And if they had listened to me, they would listen to you.  They will do all this to you because of me, for they have rejected the one who sent me.”  @Jesus (John 15:20-21) @Simon  the Zealot

03.10.2021_March(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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  (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Wednesday, March 10, 2021

Meditation Opportunities

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

1 Peter 3:15 (NIV) 

¹⁵ But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect,

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

1 chronicle 16:11  Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.

Proverbs 19:21 NKJV  There are many plans in a man’s heart, nevertheless the Lord’s counsel-that will stand.

Matthew 6:33    “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”

 

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)

1979 I Can’t Tell You Why Remastered @Eagles

Smooth @Carlos Santana @Rob Thomas

Stairway To Heaven @Led Zeppelin

Between You & Me @DC Talk

Gravity @John Mayer

Is He Worthy  @Chris Tomlin

You Make Me Brave  @Amanda Cook

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)

Thank you, Lord, for those days and this day.  There is something to be said for when looking back at the beauty and ashes of everything in the past and or any current day.  Talent and blessings given to so many with so many choices that led to what each soul involved called life while they had it.

No different today, even if the hair has changed and how we dress in most scenes.    No way do I have answers to tell why I am drawn in so many different directions.  But facts are music feeds my soul, my spirit, and my abilities most any day.

You Lord are the air I breathe, giving me so much courage and strength to just keep fighting forward.

Gravity always working against us, yet we have these unseen superpowers to defy it and when you get someone like John Mayer playing it out; we go to a whole new dimension just listening to the rifts and story being told.

So many in this world, so exceptionally smooth and that which need not be right in front of you yet feeling every second of every breath spoken or every moment spent.  Crashing over us and allowing us to just breathe in and hold what needs to be forever.

We all believe in something, we all think we know what stairway, tasks, deeds, and actions will take us to heaven. 

Yet the truth is we all will really find out on that judgement day for sure.  Best thing about it is the fact no matter if I have been wrong and turning my life over you Jesus all these years.   I sleep well and have more meaning in any  days I am given than I ever had before I fell in love with all you are and all you make me want to be.  Though the world may be watching closely, it really is only between you and me.   Nothing stands close than that which lives in the depths of our souls.

We all believe in something.  Someone!   Sometimes we see it come to life others are just awakened from the dreams or nightmares that come to pass.

You are beyond worthy Father God, as your Son Christ Jesus never deserved to suffer and go to that cross.  Yet He did so we could have life.    For me to even have a glimpse of his love is beyond anything I could ever deserve.

Thank you.

Thank you, for opening my heart, my wonder, and allowing me to see so much more in all things, all people. 

There are no words, no deeds Jesus.  Other than to please just consume me and all I am connected.    Touch of Heaven @David Funk | Worship Night

Meditation Opportunities

 

1 Peter 3:15 (NIV) 

¹⁵ But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect,

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

1 Peter 1:3-4  Praise be to God and father of our Lord Jesus Christ!  In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never peris, spoil or fade-kept in heaven for you.

Psalm 37:23-24  If the Lord delights in a man’s way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds  him with his hand.

Psalm 18:30    As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless.  He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.

 

Jesus Freaks @dc Talk and The Voice of the Martyrs Revised and updated addition True  (Stories of Those who Stood for Jesus, the Ultimate Jesus Freaks)

 

Awesome history of all who gave their lives for the belief in one true God and Son of Man Jesus Christ.    Here are just some of those who gave all they were.

Ø  Miriam 31 years old  - Syria 2014

Ø  Abu Fadi - Iraq 2014

Ø  Joseph (sold into slavery and later imprisoned circa 1689 B.C.(Genesis 50:20 CSB)

Ø  Yang and Mee – Laos 2008

Ø  John Penry (Martyred in Wales, 1593)

Ø  Paul the Apostle (Martyred in Rome, A.D. 65 (Ephesians 4:4-6)

03.09.2021_March(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Tuesday, March 9, 2021

Meditation Opportunities

 

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)

 DESPERADO  @Eagles

Lead Me  @Sanctus Real

When We Fall Apart @Ryan Stevenson ft. Amy Grant & Vince Gill

Ruins @Joe L Barnes & Nate Moore @Maverick City

Just Wanna Be Happy @Kirk Franklin

Reckless Love (Live with story) @Cory Asbury

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)

I will be the first to admit I do not understand fully how a God of the Universe allows innocence to be robbed, hate, and hurt to go on and evil dwellers to suck the life out of so many beautiful souls.

How so many that never really even had a chance to fully understand and accept the blessing of peace that making Jesus their one and only; before they were taken out by means of addictions, self-inflictions and even that at the hands and feet of those who just are who they are and do what they do.   Much less those that purposely have become Satan’s soldiers and hunt and stalk to take whatever life from anything or anyone they can at any time.

 

What I do know is we all get to choose how or if we will cope with whatever is going on.    Certainly, a baby, a toddler or even an adolescent may not understand the choices they make when they become that rebellious spirit but the make the choice.

 

But as we get older, we get to know more and still have that same blessing of freedom of will. We get to act and choose what we will do and how we will react.

 

That same blessing or curse depending how reckless our choices become is ours until we give it away.   Give it away because we dabble in the sandbox and played with drugs and now, we no longer can think for ourselves and give our will away to the demons the drugs possess.    Give it away because that once wild crazy choice that would be the rush of a lifetime has put us in prisons and in the hands of others to now tell us when we can and cannot do anything.   Or even that one split second we thought we had this.    And our lives are over, not even mattering how or why because now there is no more.

 

We get to choose if we want to dive deep and fight forward and be our authentic self the best way we can and know; we all get to believe in something, and goodness starts right within.

Knowing that the God of the universe even though we cannot see Him we can touch and breathe in all the beauty that surrounds us.  

  There is a sense of freedom knowing that everyone single person you connect with in this world will have opinion and sometimes even a judgement.   But even the captives of any prisoner have no hold on the mind and what we truly allow to be.

 

It is extremely hard to explain but the day you finally understand you are worth more to the creator and for who your authentic self is than anything or anyone in a universe of beings that turn on each other, toss out babies or sell them for their own sick twisted pleasures.

Mothers and Fathers choosing to pretend and collect off the benefits of what is lies and temporal rather than dig in and teach kindness, love and self-reliance or protection through moral values and who and what it means to know choices matter.

Burning in our own luxury furnaces be it the evidence of what should have never been or entire lives that are suffocating and paralyzing those who do not want an image ruined.

 

I do not understand how a God so big that has destroyed humanity once has promised never to be so again.   Yet, how it must hurt over and over as if those spikes are running through his own sons’ hands and feet again and again because now, he must watch what he created for good destroy itself one soul at a time.

 

We say we love yet we easily turn our backs.  Ready to point fingers and find fault as long as we do not have it blamed on us.    But wait! What about those who proudly take ownership; what about those who really do not care and always have something negative to say.

 

Is it really true that God will judge us at the gates?  Is it true that everyone comes full circle with their misdeeds and even when those that have hurt, broken even destroyed will never see justice  The God of all things will direct our steps because we did not choose to even want to know who Jesus really came for, suffered for, and relived the stripes of all injustices over and over again?

 

Stepping up and stepping in; caring, sharing just being even the smallest glimmer of hope, of peace when a loving arm wraps around you and you cannot remember the last time someone really held you.

More that that 5 or 15 minutes of seductive pleasures or even the drugs you allow to take over your body.

That deeper meaning that we do not fully understand until that one day you just know something has changed.

No longer needing to prove anything to anyone; fearful and never really knowing what next.   Just knowing that you are created in the image of a God who is jealous for all our focus yet blesses us with even the willingness to meet His son Christ Jesus and want more every day we are given air in our lungs.

Sure, we can go to seminary, or any other bible teaching or secular college that teaches us what the bible is meant to be.

Yet no amount of knowledge will take the place of truly knowing who you belong to, and who you really are and that your worth is far more priceless than anything anyone can give, promise, or dress you up in.

Advocating for all that is good and authentic will always have controversy.    Those we love will always feel the stick of the thorns; yet we remember the most beautiful colors and flowers of the world sometimes have the sharpest thorns as they continue to grow.

What is happiness?

I know for me I have many moments of heart felt bliss, but I am not sure that temporary happiness of some of my favorite anything really counts.    That deep joy that flows through our veins that is what is hard to balance.

 

I think having the peace and a love for the one who tried so hard in the brief time He was allowed to walk the earth.  Wanting everyone to know and have the best of what was right within their own being.

That great peace that consumes me knowing if I live or if I die; I finally know who I belong to and that it is not my fault that the adults that were blessed to bring me in this world did not know themselves or understand what the world would do because they were too busy fighting their own demons trying to grow up.

Yes, my story allows me the right in my mind that I could have hated people and those who were supposed to be for me my entire existence.     Family oh yes, my immediate was a mom with 3 kids me one.   But surrounded by a dozen of her own brothers and sisters and not one of them having it together to do anything but cast judgement as they went on to do their own lives.     What about the on the other side of the family 8 more relatives and although loving when we seen them.  None stepping up.

Almost as if you were damned if you did and damned if you did not.   Never really knowing why a man who was to be your father hated you so much.  Never really having full attention of anyone being who genuinely cared.   But so many judges to show how to do this or do that or chastise and never lead by example.

It all made so much sense the day on my 50^th birthday when I learned through AncestryDNA that the household of what I only knew was just broken pieces of what really was.

Maybe that is why that same God that did love the world so much and gave His only son; gave me a sister and brother by a mother who was so lost and broken she struggled to just stay alive.

Everyone has a story; every single one of us.   Good, bad, or colorful or sanctified and thankful.

So, who am I to try and convince anyone of anything?

I am not, I can only suggest that when you feel so alone, when you feel you do not know what next.   Meet Jesus where you are.     Under the influence, straight as a fine line.  It does not matter if you are face down or screaming at him to show you what, why and how.

What matters is that you do.

Life is not easier without day-to-day layers.   For sure!   Life does not stop with all the chaos and pain that flows through, around or in us.     But as you come to know the one true King the Messiah of all that is good, all that is pure all that is for others.     This indescribable lift and shift takes place within your own being.

I believe and what I believe may not matter or maybe it does.  We all get to choose.

But when it comes down to it.  We all get to find ourselves and really know our value when the world casts us out with such condemnation and contempt more often than just seeing a soul and its worth for who they are and not what they do or look like.

 

It all starts with me, all with you and we all bleed the same.    So, before you judge and I have to stop myself sometimes as well, in keeping it real.  Somethings and some people just have me thinking way too much and believing there really must be something for what the world says if we cannot justify what we cannot understand.

However, the truth is and always will be between each and every soul and Christ Jesus sitting at the right hand of God.

Instead of celebrating and trying to prove who we are trying to be.  Why are we not just celebrating life and being our best selves and lifting up anyone who is in need?

Trust me I am a parent and with my own hurts, habits, and hang-ups I am sure I added to the layers of my beautiful children.

Yet blessed and hopeful they know right from wrong, and the freedom of the choices they get to make also must be accountable for the results and impacts of the choices.  Even if and especially when they do not go according to what we plan.

I love them unconditionally and all that I am belongs back in the hands of the one that allowed me to come in this world to start.  

I have tried allot, I have been through allot believing here, believing there.  But nothing has filled the gaps and voids and put me at ease as that of the son of man.

If there was a way to pour that into every single being, I connect and give them the fullness and peace and vision to see the mercy, grace and abundant love and need to get back up.   I would over and over again.

Instead, I am given the love to just tap out things I have never scripted even if sometimes I am kept awake at night wondering if I should reach out to this one or that one.

We are all given our place in this world.  We are all given talents and abilities.    We are all given that which washes through us with abundant peace and love that you want to explode.

That if anything in all that is good; all that is pure; all that is lasting, is what I pray for every soul I have been blessed to feel, touch, know, connect.

You are more beautiful and priceless than anything in this world or anything that has ever been done to you or taken from you.     Never doubt the meaning and purpose why you are here.  Dive in and even when your want, you desire, you feel.  Give it all and call upon His name to see you through.    It will surprise you how life really just begins.

It does not change the fact you could be a badass anything.  Or that you can talk or write about something so beautiful, so powerful and sometimes use bad words all in the same breath or even get up with great intentions and make pure hot messes of any day given.

However, it does mean as time goes on; one day you wake up and realize the same power that rose Jesus from the grave is the same power you called upon when calling his name.  Now lives within you and all that you are.   Give it back to God and ask him to lead you then, now, and always.

 

Lord reck me and all I am connected with your love.  That which you leave the 99 and come to show me my worth and love.   Wash through all I will ever come to know all I will ever connect.  Fill us up Jesus!

Lord surround me with those who know you best.   May I listen, learn, respect, and grow in you and all that is true.   Protect and guide me and all I am connected from those that are good at pretending.  May I live in truth and be as you call me to be.  Not that will of my own.  May I never stop loving, may I always try and fight forward.  Getting back up even if only to crawl where every you send me.

 

Thank you for this day.

 

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

2 Timothy 1:9 (NIV) 

⁹ He has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time,

 

 (@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

1 Peter 1:3-4  Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ!  In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade—kept in heaven for you.

 

Psalm 34:23-24  If the Lord delights in a man’s way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.

Psalm 18:30    As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless, He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.

Jesus Freaks @dc Talk and The Voice of the Martyrs Revised and updated addition True  (Stories of Those who Stood for Jesus, the Ultimate Jesus Freaks)

“I am no longer my own, but Yours. 

Put me to what You will, rank me with whom You will; put me to doing, put me to suffering; let me be employed for You, or laid aside for You, exalted for You, or brought low for You;  let me be full, let me be empty, let me have all things, let me have nothing: 

I freely and whole heartedly yield all things to Your pleasure and disposal.

 And now, glorious, and blessed God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, You are mine and I am Yours.  So be it.  And the covenant now made on earth, let it be ratified in heaven.  Amen.  @Covenant Prayer of John Wesley (1709-1791)