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Date: Wednesday May 19,
2021
Meditation
Opportunities
James 3:17-18 (NIV) @BIBLEGATEWAY.COM
17 But the wisdom that comes from
heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate,
submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. 18 Peacemakers who sow in peace reap a harvest
of righteousness.
@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
“I WANT YOU
TO KNOW how safe and secure you are in MY Presence. That is a fact, totally independent of your
feelings.”
“Although MY Prescence is a guaranteed
promise, that does not necessarily change your feelings. When you forget I am with you, you may
experience loneliness or fear. Practice
the discipline of walking consciously with Me through each day.”
John 10:28-29 “I give them eternal life, and they shall
never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is
greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand.”
1 Corinthians 13:12 Now we see but a poor reflection as in a
mirror; then we shall see face to face.
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
Psalm 29:11 The Lord gives strength to his people; the
Lord blesses his people with peace.
Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)
The
Temptations - I Wish It Would Rain
JJ
Heller - What Love Really Means - Love Me
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (Thinking out loud)
How
quickly we spin in the world of all things that surround us. Knowing somehow there is deeper meaning in
and for life. Yet we get caught up on
the hurts, habits and hang-ups that transpire on any given day we are allowed
up.
Psalm 29:11 says it best, short sweet to the
point. There is nothing anyone in this
world can say or do that can really make you get, feel within the depths of your
own being; but You!
I can
talk about the one that was almost, the pleasure or pain I feel from any given
thing or person. The knots that have me
tangled and twisted when I watch loved one’s give all they are to a world that
cares maybe for have a second or a couple short breaths. Leaving us scorched and thirsting just
wishing it would rain and allow something new to grow; something beautiful to last for whatever days
we have on this journey.
So
many days we spin wishing, wanting, and sometimes acting on that next
step. Most times locking all we could be
into that box of self and forgetting we are made in the image of God and
although suffering and death of any one thing may seem inevitable, we will live
if only we remember where or freedom of will and purpose comes from.
Not
just my imagination
Good, bad,
or indifferent I have had the pleasure and the pain to see both sides of the
coin so many times in this journey. I
most likely if I really wanted; I could
list out all the bad and every scar that would lead to a journey that would
take us around the world. We do that
in this human form no matter who we think we are or where we think we come
from. We could have 99 awesome great
things that happen between our relationships with others. And that last one making 100 that turns out totally
wrong, we do something to each other, or they do something to us, and we hold
that memory deep inside and it changes us.
Even
when we refuse to admit or see that it does.
One of
the best memories I have during dark times in my life is in the middle of that
NY winter when spring broke and I was able to just go outside and sit at a picnic
table and let the warmth and sun fill me up.
Like a glow in the dark stick needing to be exposed to natural light to
glow again. Even if only during that
time it was very temporal.
Yes,
when you chase love from childhood up in your adult years but never really
knowing what that should mean. You expose
yourself to the wires that cross in every human being of this universe.
Maybe
that is why throughout my young life songs line Stand By Me meant so much. Just wanting to matter and have purpose
for more than an object to be used up or molded into something that was not
meant to be. Or even that venting board
where the only way those other broken souls could manage was taking their hurt
and anger out on who or whatever was around them. Be it forced control or emotional/physical
actions that should never be.
Be it
as easy as that weird mood I woke yesterday in and me not knowing how to
control what I would do with it. Or
something really happening giving us that justification why we do what we do
even when we do not mean or want to do it.
We all
someone to lean on and for years I chased and filled the voids until somehow, I
finally heard Christ voice. Maybe it
was walking into that gas station back in the 90’s and a perfect stranger
walking past me saying Jesus wants me to tell you he loves you.
No kidding: and yeah, my reaction back then
saying thanks and thinking yeah right.
If there was really a God, there would be none of this or that….
Maybe
it was that one invitation before I left NY when I was invited to church by my
co-worker and out of the blue I walked forward. Or maybe it was that 10-year-old kid all
messed up and trying to understand what was wrong with me that hopped on a bus
to go to a church that drove around picking up people from the trailer park that
I lived in temporary with my mother, her boyfriend, and my siblings.
Who
knows, who cares? The fact remains for
me is that everything I had I learned to work for and early on refused to fight
my way forward and not just lay down for others to use up and toss out like a
piece of rotten meat when they were done.
Learning
to get back up each time I broke because I put more than what I had into people,
places, and things only to end up starting over and over and over. Counting
more times than I care to want; all the things I have had, gave way, had
broken, broke or even stolen.
Yet
here I am and fully aware how temporal.
It is whatever seed, no matter how it got planted in me that I was
blessed to come to know and grow and want more and more of who God is. To do that I called upon Jesus and each day
keep learning more of who I am and all that He is.
The
days even early on that I just get back doing life; there is something desperately
missing. Those voids of want or thinking
maybe needs. They no longer exist. I find myself truly starving for the
promise and hope in Jesus Christ. Even
at peace knowing who we all really belong to; knowing who is in charge of when
we will take our last breath. Knowing
no matter what accolades or achievements we can collect and store in a
warehouse or shelf that we hire someone else to organize or clean.
If I
do not seek to talk with the one who took the stripes for me to life. I am starving. Like that spring sun beaming down on my
skin after a long hard winter. It is
Jesus that warms and strengthens my very being.
It
takes effort on my part. More than
daily reads, more than music, more than just practicing being a good human and
watching what comes out of my mouth when someone cuts me off or people you don’t
even know step out and challenge you because they have something to prove for themselves.
More
than drying the tears from loss or all that almost; so close yet never will be
in reach. More than that broken trust
when you want to believe the good in everyone and so many continually prove
they are more of the world and that is the only thing that matters.
No
matter what the reason was or the steps, scars and any hurt, habit or hang up I
may have went through. From rejection to
brokenness and loss. It was not until
I invited Jesus into my heart and refuse to let him leave no matter what I get
into that changed me forever. That
filled me up with peace even if tears flow.
Hard
to explain, yet the mercy and grace.
Filled with knowing and not needing to chase what I may be missing. Yeah, I am still fully human and love each
soul I am blessed to connect with. Who am I?
Just always me. Just like any
other being allowed to walk this earth however uniquely made; same but
different. All chosen if we only hear
the call and answer the door and commit the best we are and can and believe in
something more than what is here and now.
Crazy maybe
I am sure my stability or instability has rubbed off here and there. Yet I am still allowed up and purposed to be,
to do and to never forget what real love truly means and is.
Loving
me for me; loving others for who they really are. Not what they do or have done. Jesus set us free as he hung on that cross
for not greater purpose than that love and obedience of the Father. With hope for all the greater good and not
just collectibles chasing paper and scoring will give.
This is
my mind maze and prayerfully whoever reads it will get to tap into Jesus before
leaving this earth; cause once that exit opens there is no turning back and no
choice you can make that will change where you will end up.
God
has allowed us to be beautiful colors on his mosaic canvas in humanity. May we all learn to shine boldly, brightly
who we were meant to be. In love, in
harmony and no that does not mean tolerate bad behaviors or become a door
mat. Does not mean any get rich quick schemes
or empty promises from the players of the world will change your direction. Only you can choose to be obedient and walk
with calling upon the Lord each day you are given.
Give
thanks even in the storms because eventually they pass and something beautiful
grows.
Love
who you are for you not for what others say you should be; not for what you do. Even when it is really cool to achieve things
that are unbelievable. People, places,
and things are temporal. Love the depths
of who you are and why you are and love the one who allows you to be. Just me thinking out loud.
Much love,
laughter, and peace in and for your soul. AlwaysMeKelly
BTW just because I had a bad day and was in some
sort of funk yesterday or any days previous.
It doesn’t mean I don’t have a chance to be better or do something better
today. Never stay stuck! Let it go; let it hurt and let it heal
growing forward!
