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James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)
Date: Thursday May 20,
2021
Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers
(YouTube.Com)
Casting
Crowns - Nobody (Official Music Video) ft. Matthew West
Mention
of Your Name - Jenn Johnson | Moment
Ryan
Stevenson - Mosaic
Micah
Tyler - New Today
Ellie
Holcomb - Canyon
IF
by Rudyard Kipling (A Life Changing Poem)
Move
(Keep Walkin') - TobyMac (Music Video) [Captain America: The First Avenger]
Meditation
Opportunities
Romans 15:5-6 @BIBLEGATEWAY.COM
5 May the God who gives endurance and
encouragement give you the same attitude of mind toward each other that
Christ Jesus had, 6 so that with one mind and one voice you may
glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.
@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
“Come close
to Me and let My Light envelop you, driving out darkness and permeating you
with Peace.”
“Man’s tendency is to hide from his sin,
seeking refuge in the darkness. There he
indulges in self-pity, denial, self-righteousness, blaming, and hatred. But I am the Light of the world, and My illumination
decimates the darkness.”
1 John 1:7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the
light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son purifies
us from all sin.
Isaiah 61:10 I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul
rejoices in my God. For he has clothed
me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom
adorns his head-like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
John 8:12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said,
“ I am the light of the world. Whoever
follows me will never walk in darkness but will have the light of life.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (Thinking out loud)
Thank
you for this new day once again allowing me back up.
Just a
nobody finding myself in you Jesus. For
whatever the reasons you faithfully have picked me back up over and over. Led me through fires and healed and changed
the steps to a journey that certainly if was my own choosing would have ended
long ago.
Daring
to be different; daring to be my own yet so caught up over the years wanting to
believe in what is in the world only to be crushed at times or even by my doing
adding misfortune somehow, even if just not taking the time to be present.
I wish
I had that magic wand to wave, and everyone live in that magically care bear land
of CareALot. Yes, Care Bears were once
a morning show my kids use to watch.
Where everything did not have to be so black and white or bright and
bold. The pastels floating around with
love giving kindness and hope of humanity or the care bears working together
for the good of all things.
Here
and now in today’s world is so much different.
People having children and forgetting they are supposed to be parents. No matter how they conceived; well, that is
nothing new. Just seems to be part of
the reality more and more.
I mean
what kind of a jacked-up world is this when the government takes grand parent
rights away. Yet the parents leave their
kids with the grands. Be it they are lost in the world consuming
them, in prison or just who knows what.
That happened many years ago.
Where grandparents no longer have rights to fight for the children in
their blood line when the biologicals are still alive.
But
then the alternative what about those poor babies that are growing up right in
the middle of all the demons. In crack
houses, human trafficking or captured on the nightly news that a mother needed
a fix so badly she gave her baby to death and they found that soul in a garbage
dump mutilated and discarded.
I am
not making this up… The world is vial and we let it. Growing up in a single parent no parent
home is not so bad in my time. Sure, I
have some deep scars at the hands of others with so much I will never understand
how I made it out of even things as a
child that today most don’t. Yet here
I am just a nobody sharing my blessings and telling anyone who will listen the
difference of what life in the world is now since I made it a choice to meet Jesus
and want him in my every day; to bits and pieces of what it once was without
him….
There
will always be those who know something more, are better at many things, look
better, dress better and always think they are better. It took me a long time in my life to stop
taking things personal that everyone else chooses to be, say or do even when it
impacted me or my family directly.
It
took even more time to seek the means and know how to forgive or ask for forgiveness.
I am
not sure when exactly I realized I was never alone in this world; or how I
truly mattered just as I am. But I know
my entire being changed forever when I did.
Maybe
in 1995 when I walked forward in an unknown church surrounded by strangers with
just a friend from work and out the corner of my eye an Aunt that was always
extreme and many times pious; sometimes hypocritical. Which left me very confused until later in
life. When I just realized what
others do in the name of God is between them and God. Never to be stupid really be it with anyone
who says they walk the walk or just talk the talk or those who out right tell
you who they are.
We must
always protect our own beings and those that have been entrusted to us. Be it children, friends, parents.
Believing
the good in others is not wrong. Doing
what they need to do or ruining who you are to impress or give to others
is. Know your boundaries. In finances, in physical action, in your emotional
and heart state.
Does not
mean you cannot love others... Just do not play into the lies, or drama they
themselves sometimes create just to have you do what they need to be doing for
themselves.
I won’t
lie; I love it when people cook for me. I could get in the habit of starving to
death just to play out others cooking for just me. It is no different for any other task or
need to item we in the world have to do or want done in our day to day.
Don’t
get me wrong; I love to cook. I just do
better cooking for a group and not so much just me. In fact, when I was married, I loved it when
my husband cooked, and I did the cleanup.
Or more yet we were on point and
we teamed up and created together.
Somehow along the way due to lack of communication and letting the world
take over we forgot we were a team and suddenly I was doing all of it. Guess after living together for 4 years
then getting married the honeymoon was over.
I can laugh about it now and even back then that part never really bothered
me. It was the shock of knowing someone
my entire life only to find out I never really knew them at all in the end.
We are
not just talking about people changing… If you do not pay attention from day one and
not reading to much in it or being too laid back but balancing the truth or known
expectations one day you wake up and realize you really never knew much.
Anyway,
that is an entirely different story.
We must know ourselves and work on our selves daily and most importantly know whom you
belong to and how you were created in the image of the God of the universe. Now just the mention of your name Jesus
somehow reminds us things will be alright.
Reminding
us of your mosaic canvas and sometimes we have to get messy to release the
beauty within us. When we know who you
are and how you made us. And who we
really are and stop worrying about what we cannot change, or control. What is within our circle of influence. Teaching us to get back up and keep
moving.
You
are not done with us, yet each day given for new opportunities. Good, bad, or indifferent we are extensions
of the beauty and love you created for this universe. If only we learn to guard and protect
without hate, without hiding under a cover, in a corner or never challenging life
that you give.
Nothing
is wasted.
There
is beauty, healing and so much more waiting up ahead once we get past the meism’s
that are in our very depth.
Wants
will always be desires so hot we think we will burn up right where we are. Urges, cravings of the flesh forever will
always be. What we do with them that leads
to a meaningful purpose and growth for what we are given and what we are
allowed to share. Being in awe of you
Jesus is beyond coming to close of that fraction of any hair of my head to
possibly understand how or why I could be, how I could love and want that
love. Knowing the beauty and peace of
what can never fully be understood. WE
just know and truly understand the meaning of not knowing what we do not know.
Riddles
and rhymes; twists, turns like that favorite roller coaster we want to ride
with our bestie throwing the arms way up and screaming in freedom with laughter
so hard we don’t know if we can catch our breath.
So
beautiful yet so indescribably out there.
Bits and pieces yet so unknown like some life changing poem. You never leave us where you find us; Or
is it when we find you as you know all things?
Through
the canyons to the mountain heights be it with our brothers and sisters in
Christ or finding ourselves on our own.
You are always there and what we see is what we allow to flow freely.
Control
of all others is an illusion; yet we have the blessing and freedoms of will and
choice to control who we are, what we say, what we do, how we react. What we want to believe, what we want to
allow to hurt us, what we want to absorb and become.
Someone
is always watching and how we lead by example is up to us. Prayerfully the always me of who I am in
you Jesus is what shines out. Not that
one who becomes what the world says should be.
Not the one that just does because they can.
Not
the one who chases love when they know the blessings to be love are within.
Never
better, just different. Though my
choices are not of others; may we learn to love the souls and not what they do
in this world. May we do our best and
be our best selves with moral values.
May we stop getting in the tug of war with what will be no matter what
the battle around us says it needs to change as.
May we
learn to communicate with care, dignity, and openness, willing to learn what
the power and the name of Jesus really is.
Not
some cult, not some legalistic demand to pay your way into some club that if
you step off your no longer welcome.
Agape
love and willingness to discern and want that love from the outside in that
only God fills from the inside out is crazy mad love. Breaking every bond and chain and knowing
the freedom and power when we are set free in and with Christ alone.
Thank
you for all that I was, all that I can be, all that I am. Thank you for the lessons and finding my own
needed messages in the messes I sometimes create. Thank you for allowing me the ability to
learn and want you more and more each day given. Life is what it is until it is not. May we learn to be life, speak life, and
want life with you Jesus~
I need
you more than ever. May the fight
forward always fill me with compassion and truth while obediently shine for
more than I ever deserve.
