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Date:
Friday December 10th
Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from
YouTube.com
Win and Woo -
Recognize (feat. Ashe)
I Give You My
Heart | Hillsong (Featuring Holly Dawson)
Raise A Hallelujah
(Lyrics) ~ Bethel Music
Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow
Can I just say it has been another crazy busy week where if all
I have going on mindfully gave me my physical work out, I could try out for the
next Senior Olympic body builder. LOL
No doubt, I took on a new position and slowing fading out
the existing work while trying to capture, keep up and learn all the existing moving
dots. Now I have no trouble falling
asleep in most cases, I just wake up in the wee hours do reading, or quiet
mediations and then fall back to sleep a little bit before my day starts with
everyone else.
Anyway, I went from years of just dealing with computers and
testing out code to becoming a technical project manager and at this time of the
year everything is on fire and all the powers that be way above my pay grade are
needing positive completed updates.
Blessed beyond all deserving, that I have been given soft
skills even if sometimes my writing or body language does not reflect it. But life is what it is right.
It has been relatively quiet outside of staying busy trying
to do one last hurrah for my career in corporate. Hoping to get another great 5-10 years but
ready to go independent in less then so I can pick and choose when I want to
work and for who or what. Maybe switch
over to consulting do a little traveling again or just get it to where I can focus
on writing and finally get my manuscript out.
Until then when not working, I will spend my time getting what
is needed to be a jingle jam elf referee for jingle jams snowball fights or
even just keep playing and working with those who get something to grow forward
from whatever I have to give.
In the meantime, this mind is all over the place today. Thinking in about 3 years I will sell out
and find somewhere new to be. Although
if I knew where that is I would sell out now while I have crazies bombarding me
to sellout today. That’s the thing about
this great sellers’ market; you can sell but still won’t have the means to
really get in something new, and there is no way I am into renting right now.
Too many pets and too many crazy people out there to live in
apartments. Although the maintenance free
would be nice. Maybe just get me a
honey for my honey do list that never ends.
Speaking of which; I finally got a junk man to come out and
take this big old tanning bed off my deck that my daughter brought here and
thought I had the money to have it wired to run here on the property. Everyone
wanted no less than 400 to haul it because of the type of machine it was. Then I found a company willing to take it
for under 200. Great work they did
getting it out was really going to recommend them for the efficient work they
did.
Until I went out
later to find out they ran into and messed up my mailbox. Not sure how maybe cutting too fast while
pulling out. But it was them with the
yellow paint from their trailer all down the side. As I shake my head. So, they work hard but cannot drive.
I cannot either some days with too many distractions or
weariness. But really, I have never
done that; still shaking my head laughing out loud. Because I actually gave them an extra 20 for
the efforts.
It goes without saying pretty much summing up how my life
works. Knowing I am blessed I try not
to take things too personal anymore ever.
Unless I have fallen a fool and allowed people to play me out on my
kindness and deep passion for care and just loving folks for who they are. When I was younger, I never thought about it
until one day I woke up and realized how gullible I really was.
It had been years since I got caught up then somehow in 2017,
I fell into the domino pit where I learned some really valuable lessons even
when your dreaming wide awake.
Still in love with the dream of life. But my outcome is clearly not aligned with
looking up. For now, every beat of
this soul that has been given life only has enough left to keep fighting
forward and if those who wish to walk beside me, with me care to join me
fine. Otherwise, I am still blessed to
just keep going.
Wanting and needing are so very different! And yes, there have been times when I thought
I really needed something to make it (whatever it was) happen. But the truth is there is always something
else to do with the wants we just do not find in reach at the times we want
them.
For me, Dive back in and continue working on whatever
tomorrow’s I have left and leave a memorable legacy of who I am and not what I chased
or had. Even while I try to keep up and
maintain what I am blessed with.
As I finished reading Green Lights by Matthew McConaughey, I
realized how often I hold back. Not only
on my writing but just in life itself. I
did not have any expectations when I got this one; but seeing how successful he
has been, I wanted to check it out. Such
a free spirit doing whatever he felt like it and really being blessed not to
have ended up a statistic in this world.
All the while amazed at some of his gigs that I actually watched not knowing
he had his own anxieties that never showed up on the big screen. Or just when he finally got married and what
really trigged the go button. Kudos Sir! For sure, you with many out there doing your
thing and blessed to be recognized in a positive manner even if the world tries
to steal your space for who you are and what you do.
I guess that goes without saying to all who have been successful
making their mark on the world. Prayerfully
the legacy you leave behind when you leave this planet helps someone else grow forward.
I am not an authority on what that looks like in the planting;
I can only look back on the mercy given to me and watch changes and good to
great things happening to so many I have been blessed to connect with.
If you’re going to do it; whatever your it is; Just do
it. But have mercy on yourself and
those you are consuming along the way.
The goal to just always be and see yourself as God created
us to be. Is uniquely designed but sets us
all free.
What lifts me may take you down, what takes you down may bring
out of control contagious laughter that washes through a room or just my very
own being. It is what it is, it is what it
is not.
What will they say about you on the day the remember who you
were in their moments and time?
Are you the chains that weigh the next steps down or are you
that which lifts them up just remembering who you were to them?
There is power in the pain with purpose of those who want
more on the other side; do not let it consume you. Be it accidental, or purposefully done to or
with you. Smile in the eyes of every storm and the demons that are
stirring it up. Never give in and feed
the demons even when you fall short, are gullible, or just really missed the
mark of whatever desire you were hoping to fill.
Love you more than enough to know who Jesus is. Love you enough to make the changes to heal
and get back up and never stop finding your way into the rays of all that shines
bright and give thanks daily even if just for the ability to open your eyes and
look around.
No matter what the desire tearing into your soul starves to
be fulfilled with. Never stop believing and never discard Jesus will not give
you your every hearts desire for all that is good, all that is lasting.
For me no matter what desires leave me empty, starving wanting
and willing to believe or filled beyond anything I can imagine. I know who I belong to and no matter how right
or wrong I get it. I will keep trying and
acknowledge you Jesus. For the life beyond
anything logic can explain. I am just
that spec blowing in the wind that you put in your universal snow globe of life
and every now and then allow me to play out the game of life or become a pawn
in the chess game of life all the while blessed to keep pulling upward bound.
I pray every single soul does their best and acknowledges who
you are Jesus and who they are in you.
Thank you for moments, seconds or years of memories that I
have been blessed with as gifts or lessons.
Heal all that is broken in and with me. Heal all that are tied tight to this heart
and soul.
Meditation Opportunities coming from
Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse
Deuteronomy 18:15 (MSG) The Message
15-16 God, your God, is going to raise up a prophet for
you. God will raise him up from among
your kinsmen, a prophet like me. Listen obediently to him. This is what you
asked God, your God, for at Horeb on the
day you were all gathered at the mountain and said, “We can’t hear any more
from God, our God; we can’t stand seeing
any more fire. We’ll die!”
Meditation Opportunities coming from Bible.com
Hebrews 11:1 (NIV) New International
Version
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for
and assurance about what we do not see.
