05.11.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Wednesday May 11^th

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Ephesians 4:32 (TLB)

³² Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God has forgiven you because you belong to Christ.

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TobyMac-21 Years with lyrics

Tauren Wells - God's Not Done With You (Official Music Video)

Alicia Keys & John Mayer - If I ain't got you - Gravity

John Mayer with Keith Urban - Don't Let Me down

The Teskey Brothers - Live at Gum Gully

Lyrics~Stand By Me-Ben E. King

Canyon Hills - See Your Face (Lyrics)

Who Am I | Casting Crowns

Ed Sheeran - One life (unreleased) lyrics

John Mayer - Free Fallin' (Live at the Nokia Theatre)

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Well, here we are Wednesday already.  Listening under the headset sorting through things and 21 years came on.   Reminded we are not promised tomorrow, and we cannot force anyone to get it together for ourselves or those we love.

Going through it as a parent knowing the roller coaster ride that can be and reminded how many choices, we all make thinking we got it until the demons come and steal the show.

A beautiful young man robbed of so much promise in our earthly view or maybe the fact when that rainbow so bold and bright shined down the facts of truth is they are with the true father.

Suffering will never compare to what they did to Jesus up to and on that cross.   However, as I watch my daughter tormented by images of a video that was sent to her two years or so back.   Where she unexpectedly opened a video to see the father of her daughter beaten, tied, and set on fire in another place of the country.

No excuses for our choices or how we handle things.   But that image of someone you loved knowing how little but mighty they thought they were.   And the pain and scars that are left on her and his children because they were all unsuspectingly opening the video at the same time.

Some things you get past or around but they never go away.

 

Trauma and the great loss of ourselves and those we love.    Can become the wall that falls in on us or it can be the steppingstones to the one who took it all long before anything every happens in our worldly life.

But no one can fix what is broken inside all we can do is add to it or help others climb over it.

And yes, sometimes those helping do so by offering up Satan’s lies to mask the issue until it too steals all the life from us.  Paralyzed and most times forgetting to breathe the very breath God created and blessed us to keep getting back up with.

At some point we have to believe in all that is good and pure.  

God, Jesus if I Ain’t got you I have nothing.   With that and all the unfortunate circumstances of this world so many of us are stuck in the darkness tossed, hurled or even fallen into.   

Everything I am, everything I have, every single connection I have ever been blessed with good, bad, or indifferent.   Are all a blessing from you.    Covered by the blood poured out into the dust that we are created. 

We can put all our hopes and dreams in the people, places and things of this world or we can deal with reality and not so much give up and not dream.   But know no matter what who we belong to.   Acknowledging everything along the way is a blessing or lesson in the journey.

Tapping into our talents and gifts and sharing them without getting to caught up in the me’ism that consumes us.

Humanity hurts.  One way or another none of us are getting out here without bleeding out and scars along the way.

Music brings life to my soul and yes, I love some blues.    But also, all of it!  Not that it really matters.  But it does for me.   Because when the music stops the soul cannot breathe.    So be it good ole rock n roll to my all-time life support of today’s.  there is nothing like the beating of our hearts in joy and rhythms to what so many share.

Standing by me or seeing your face on my own.   As long as I stand and protect and plant along the way the gifts of love needing to break through along the way.

Warned long ago once I changed careers, I could not do it all.  I needed to stay out of the weeds.   And in this human spirit it was so hard to adjust.   Wanting to be it, do it and fix it all.  

Over time learning who is in control and blessed in the bittersweetness of life that not everyone we are given wants that blessing or knows that blessing in time.

Chasing life in those luxury furnaces as we are burnt up, burnt out and left blowing in the wind.   May we know our souls are yours Jesus.

Who are we, who am I?

Life when as it is fleeting so quickly in the here and now.   Yet we forget to breathe and live our best selves.   Instead, out there forcing the world to accept us or change us to be accepted.

 

The world is cruel.  Our choices matter and no matter where we are we all get to choose what next no matter what is happening.

God you are!

Jesus has given us this day and all that was and any that will be.    Lead me and all I am connected into love and what matters eternally.

Heal us and all our broken pieces that need to be put back together.

Thank you for then, for now and all the strength you allow me for whatever tomorrow brings.

No matter where we free fall to; Jesus please be the hand that catches every single soul I am blessed to connect.  Through blood, through life.   All I am and am given belongs to you.

05.09.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Monday May 9^th

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Romans 8:1-2 (TLB)

8 So there is now no condemnation awaiting those who belong to Christ Jesus. ² For the power of the life-giving Spirit—and this power is mine through Christ Jesus—has freed me from the vicious circle of sin and death.

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Lincoln Brewster ~ While I Wait (Lyrics)

Street Called Mercy - of Dirt and Grace - Hillsong UNITED

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

It has been a challenging couple of days.  This roller coaster of life.   One day I am wrapping up a few days off from work, celebrating in a surprise birthday party my daughter threw with friends and family.   And two days later the same happy loving lady excited and overjoyed is in the hospital and medicated to slow her heart rate that was extremely high and very sick.    However, the medication given to her gave a horrible reaction that she did not even know who or what anything was.

Going into visit and check her visit for chronic illness and shocked and the little were so upset we had to leave.

 

Fortunately going back after church and demanding to talk to the doctor and get some answers if no relief to be found.     Same old thing people burnt out asking a nurse something and whatever she was going through pouring out on all the patients and family members who care to ask.

I get it but something has to give Lord.   Those who serve for you must be given rest so they can regroup and know they are not alone in this mess of a world we are trying to live.

 

So much has happened these past few years, but since the pandemic Lord we need help.

 

I still do not have answers, but my daughter is getting back on track. Slowly!

Life is like swimming with the sharks.  Some days you are way out ahead, others you’re barely breathing.  Mind games of survival.   Hope in Christ, knowing all that I am including those who are tied to my heart strings.  Belong to Christ alone.  Me, you all humanity.   Breathing in knowing but not!

 

I thank God every day that he is my life raft, my vessel, my very breath.

None of us know what tomorrow will bring and just like that the storms come, things happen, people come and go.  But truth and the integrity to hold on and hope in all that God has unseen lasts for eternity.

Life is what it is until its not.  Be it death, suffering or all the glamour and fun we can be in even for a second in time.

I am because the maker of all things allows me to be.   Everything I have, everything I have been given belongs to him.   If he gives honor, it.  If he takes away honor, it and ask what next.     While I wait.   I wait with you Jesus.

There is no room for pretense.  There is nothing more or nothing less than perfection in all you promise.      You are my mercy in this dirty sandbox called life.

05.06.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Friday May 6th^nd

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James 5:16 (TLB)

¹¹⁶ Admit your faults to one another and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous man has great power and wonderful results.

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Ryan Stevenson - I Cry Jesus (Official Lyric Video)

 

Michael W. Smith - Surrounded (Fight My Battles)

 

​Music for Healing Stress, Anxiety and Depression, Remove Inner Anger and Sadness

 

Zach Williams - Slave to Nothing (Official Lyric Video)

 

Less Like Me- Zach Williams

 

NEEDTOBREATHE - "Who Am I" [Official Video]

 

Overcome-Jeremy Camp Lyric Video

 

Sanctus Real - Confidence (Official Lyric Video)

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Time fleeting and crumbling blowing in the wind as another decade blows by and I look back to know how blessed I am yet cannot grab anyone thing that will last beyond tomorrow.     Only you Jesus!

Turned around to God turn it around the battle belongs to you as this soul cries silently for the healing of this land and any days I have left.

Not planning on going anywhere soon; but nothing is ever promised for tomorrow.

 

So many beautiful souls lost and giving up.   Forgetting to be face down for you Jesus.

Nothing else will matter on the other side.  If we have the holy spirit indwelling within, it will be dancing in the streets.  If not, the torment is and forever will be eternally.

 

Jesus as I wake with that phone ringing from an unknown who just does not stop but refuses to be authentic and real.   As I get up for the last day of this vacation and wander through the day with no plans but in great peace.

Surrounded within and to the right, to the left, in front, in back, up above and anywhere below.    Thank you!

I could break down and give up especially during the weary moments that keep coming and the lacking or ability to not balance.  Not having that one to stand back-to-back and know whatever may come whatever may be.  In this human form we are all a mess.

I cannot help but pause and get distracted every time flipping and surfing the web and social media.  Happy for those connected to my heart strings.  Broken for others and the entanglements they find the choices they make have gotten them all twisted up.   The heaviness and sadness and all the inability to shake it off and find joy in just the moment even if it’s less than.

Beyond blessed as my own family and friends decided it was time to surprise me in a birthday gathering.  But not for the fact the gathering took place but the souls that came together to keep it a secret and reflect love, laughter and kindness washing over me.

Though there are things I want; as we all do.  I lack for nothing.   There is and never has been just one reason for me to doubt the truth once that light went on and I found love beyond anything I would and could ever know in you Jesus.

 

Where nothing is everything and everything well just look at the news and all those who have the blessings of so much and then more and their lives are destroyed, broken, and disintegrating in front of the world.    Lies, innuendos, harm and destruction just to be noticed more often than our so-called love of life and/or that what we thought to be soulmate.    As long as we get something out of it and are not required to give, we play the game of this world chess.     Bullies, thieves, liars in our hearts, in our streets.  Taking over our homes our destroying where we once had homes, or we believed to be.

Beautiful souls, beautiful vessels destroyed by the destructive demons that God has already crushed under his feet.

Collectors, grasping onto all that gives us relief even at the cost of what will never be replaced or should never be.

Where is that voice we are; or that voice Jesus that voice you breathe.

How long it took me to find the right channel to hear clearly after so many times of beating myself up or hitting my head against that wall through the school of hard knocks.

How much more of me are there really out there and do we all see?

How

Who

When

Where?

 

Majestically or magically make us believe and fill all the connections by blood, by spirit, by connection, by faith, by destiny to find the peace that only you Jesus keep!

So close, yet so very far away.   Breathing you in; yet missed and lacking the reasons why.

In the beginning, in the end.  Knowing when to hold tight, knowing when to let it go. Picking up the pieces dancing in the night throwing all we are up like a deck of cards flying through the air sparkling embrace throughout journey blinded by what is right.

You are and always will be.   As the love I have for those in the depths of this soul.    Though I may not walk in fear or hold up waiting believing.   It is you beyond all time and space that will forever and then some seeking you to take who I really am.

Mountain tops or river creeks wandering aimlessly in the venture of what will be.

Never letting go as tomorrow is yesterday and I am still here in love with all that comes what may.

 

Who am I?

Who are You?

Don’t answer this is me with what we have, or what we do.   Dead, alive or in-between.  May the tears that flow be joy of all that is known.   May we see with the eyes of Jesus Christ; May we feel through the hands that were nailed to the cross.  May we never doubt we are not here for more than God’s chosen.

May the flesh have created from the bones and blood Christ Jesus poured out.    Know the difference of the world and you God alone!

Show us what matters, show us we are yours and no matter what soap box we get on to agree to disagree be filled with your resolute drive Jesus!

Then, now, or never, eternity awaits us.  North our South. . .   You choose now because before you know it time has run out.

Love and be loved for nothing less than who you are meant to be.

Heal us please, all the death, hurt and destruction towards humanity, towards each other.  Towards the innocence.  You are and always will be worthy.  Thank you for loving me for who I understand I am to be.  Right, wrong, or perfectly in-between.  

May we all overcome in you, with you, for you beyond any confidence we may need or have.

Thank you for all of it.  Then, Now or anything that may come to be.

05.02.2022 May (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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 Monday May 2^nd

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1 John 5:14-15 (TLB)

¹⁴ And we are sure of this, that he will listen to us whenever we ask him for anything in line with his will. ¹⁵ And if we really know he is listening when we talk to him and make our requests, then we can be sure that he will answer us.

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Chris McClarney ~ I'm Listening (Lyrics) Ft. Hollyn

 

Running to the Light Brandon Lake Lyrics

 

I Can’t Get Away & Downpour - Melissa Helser, feat. Naomi Raine (Live)

 

Jon Reddick - God, Turn It Around (Lyrics)

 

Gratitude - Brandon Lake | Moment

 

Even If - Mercy Me

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

All the broken pieces, yours, mine it makes no difference.   When we speak; He listens.  He is always watching, always with us.

Yes, there is always others as well.  Someone is always watching!  Someone is always listening.   But only one is waiting for the depth and truth of you coming into the relationship with hope and blind faith.  That in which He alone will lead you through the valley or across the mountain tops.

No one, not me not anyone else in this world here and now can convince you of anything but of only you and what you choose to believe and act or not act on.

We spend so much time canceling out, so much time trying to prove entitlements to choose.   Yet rarely do we understand when our choices cause so much pain or hate.

Much less do we openly own and remain accountable, getting back up and making the change in love, in life to be our best selves and keep running towards the light.

Much time we fall and vocalize all that we can’t.   paralyzing ourselves in what the world says must happen.  

All our broken pieces; mine are scattered far and wide and prayerfully the cuts my own have left have healed and so much more has been gained to those injured.

As the forgiveness and the ability to learn how to breathe has been a blessing given to me.   Prayers for all my connections towards all that is unseen.

Walking forward in 1995 and the many bridges crossed since then.    Spinning or drowning at times it was only because of the one relationship that allowed my soul to live I am here and beyond deserving most days doing better than alright.

Even in my weariness of watching so much hurt, hate and pain across this nation.   In my own family.

 

Sometimes just catching a glimpse has become too much.   Yet, in Christ alone I am reminded how much we are all loved and no matter what is or what was.   He alone has all of what I cannot fix or plant towards anything good to help grow.

Reminded in prayer last night evil, hurt, uncertainty, and so much more is all around us.  Yet, we are to fear not as Christ alone took it all to the cross with us, so we allow the Holy Spirit to breathe life through every second we are allowed.

 

Never would I have thought 20 years ago I would be called upon to plant seeds of hope and truth that we all matter.   Especially when I chased the lies and demons that I was not something worthy to even exist.

Life is funny like that.  Funny how no matter how many times I believe and see the good, darkness and lies over-shadow those I believe in.    What hurts most is I cannot change or fix the if only~

My own family, my friends, those who pretend because they think I would not love them anyway.   Then I remember even Jesus was denied.     That even those to be closest to him would not be what they pretend to be.

 

To be first we must be last.   Learning what selfish and selfless really mean in our human lives.

Perfection takes time and only God has the answer to what time really is for any of us.

Watching the elderly with early onset dementia and sometimes those wounds resurfacing because of the lack of God in their lives.  Or even those who have walked with Jesus supposedly all their lives and here all they do is gossip and stir the pot with everyone they speak.

 

What about the brother who is ill and counting his days as blessed a little late?  Or the friends that passed when you never even knew they are sick.   The blessed, even during the misfortune.     As we have these pity parties because that one true love that steps out as soon as you walk out the door; or perhaps even brings others that do not belong into your home.

We may not hear or see until its painfully too late.  But Jesus Christ has every strip and cut then, and now.    As he poured out up to and on that cross so we could, we would have the ability to understand and turn it around and not retaliate, not wallow in pity.    But push through the pain and plant and sow growth and beauty in what we have each breath still left.

It is so hard to reflect gratitude during the storms.   Yet, we can have the response of worshiping and giving back acknowledgment to Jesus for all he did long before we find ourselves here and now.

Let downs, will come.   Be it the broken hearts of loss or misfortune of believing in others and them either throw away who they are in front of you; or they were never who they pretend to be all the way through the journey when they are on your path.

I wish I could say my dream of having that Ozzy, Harriet happy little husband, wife, family with the white picket fence came to be.     Instead, I learned in the process of building walls how to put up my own fencing in my youth and how to maintain it now as an adult.

Finding balance with God at the head takes the knowledge of what evenly yoked really means.    Not just liking the same things.    Trust is not given it is earned.   And once it is broken you can live on, but it is never the same.    Because the solve needed for why that person broke it in the first place has to be resolved in and with Christ.

 

Unfortunately, the world even when we are in the depths of best relationship with him.  Well, we forget he is carrying everything we think we cannot get through.

Oh, this mind maze; having a week off to just do whatever comes.   Walking in circles this morning breaking that routine of working 6-6.

Love is another day given.   Unanswered prayers and something better than ever imagined knocking at the door.

I cannot lie, watching an online news clip of a man at an Orlando airport having too much to drink and going after a women and children.  Not sure if they were family of some sort or not.   But when his big self would not stop and the families and people in the airport started evacuating the area and security finally tazored this man to submission.    I crumbled to think how dangerously fallen our world now is.

 

I don’t know why that moment hurt so badly.   Maybe knowing the innocence and brokenness our brothers and sisters who have done nothing to harm others are being disrupted and robbed of life at the hands of the disillusioned demons.

But it does not even have to be across the world where war of one has destroyed so much.    It is right in our own back yards.    Whenever we forget who we created to be.   Selflessly given life from love that no one will ever be able to align or be like.

None of us are promised tomorrow and our choices matter more now than ever.  Love people but from a distance and stop just believing every single thing they say.

 

Stop judging.  You and every single thing you know nothing about.   Give it all back to the God who allowed every one of us to be here in the first place.

I wish I knew

I wish I could

Sometimes I wish I never did, others I wish I still could be more, do more.  All the while forgetting in either case, I am everything even in nothing.  In Christ, with Christ.  Because of Christ every day I am given.

I may not have chosen my destiny; but I am control of what the journey holds for everything in the path of this world I am allowed to be on.

I am beyond blessed and beyond words to describe.   Yet watching the world around me and all those that have my heart strings in knots.   

Just hoping in Christ, that His love pours into every situation, every soul and that flicker lights up all that they are meant to be.    That we shake off this world like the passing of any storm.

My hope through it all is beyond anything I am able to understand or tell.   I can only share what was, what is and pray for what is to be.

In love beyond all space in time or time and space.    That love that no human romance can compare.   Just knowing how much there is as we learn when to hold on and when to let go.

Thank You Jesus!  For this day and all that have come to pass so far.  We need you here and now Lord. Across this globe and vast universe.   So much healing is needed.   May all your children rise up in your strength and courage alone.  Coming together in love through the depths.   Pouring out the love you grow.