Lord
as I lay out the pieces of me in which, You have given me words in this
life to drop to black and white; sometimes then I knew not what to do
with them, sometimes I did not know what to do with the outcome by writing them; or most times what would
happen of someone finding them.
There are times , that all I have are these words that come and release the pains, concerns, love and joy within this journey, called life.
Thank you for never giving up on me; thank you for getting my attention where, I have become so in love with you any of the words I shall ever write; would or could be enough.
Thank you for all these years to allow me life! Good bad or indifferent.
There is not a day that goes by, where I don’t awake with words; or hear or see; something or someone speak where a word cannot lead back to a song or stories within my soul.
This may or may not mean a thing to anyone else in this world. But, You, Lord as it and you are what is carried deep within my soul. You know every journey good or bad that I have been on; You are the keep that allows what is penned out. You are the sustenance holding me together in this world or when awakened within dreams.
I will never fully understand the blessings you allow; and there is that will ever be enough to prove thankfulness of the love you have allowed me.
So I ask Lord, on the days you give me words then a message to share. You accept what little I can give back as a speck in this giant globe.
I pray all that ever is written here or anywhere else I am at; I always show your love and mercy shining brightly of hope and promise. As it has and always been.
I pray it will always only be; the blessing of God’s will and grace for me, my family, my friends, my connections and this human race.
Thank you Jesus
There are times , that all I have are these words that come and release the pains, concerns, love and joy within this journey, called life.
Thank you for never giving up on me; thank you for getting my attention where, I have become so in love with you any of the words I shall ever write; would or could be enough.
Thank you for all these years to allow me life! Good bad or indifferent.
There is not a day that goes by, where I don’t awake with words; or hear or see; something or someone speak where a word cannot lead back to a song or stories within my soul.
This may or may not mean a thing to anyone else in this world. But, You, Lord as it and you are what is carried deep within my soul. You know every journey good or bad that I have been on; You are the keep that allows what is penned out. You are the sustenance holding me together in this world or when awakened within dreams.
I will never fully understand the blessings you allow; and there is that will ever be enough to prove thankfulness of the love you have allowed me.
So I ask Lord, on the days you give me words then a message to share. You accept what little I can give back as a speck in this giant globe.
I pray all that ever is written here or anywhere else I am at; I always show your love and mercy shining brightly of hope and promise. As it has and always been.
I pray it will always only be; the blessing of God’s will and grace for me, my family, my friends, my connections and this human race.
Thank you Jesus
1/30/2019
Thank you for this new day and all the blessings you surround me with Father
Thank you for allowing me to get my head on straight Lord when this world sometimes often fills me with doubt.
Although many times I think it should be about me. I know it really should not. I deserve nothing yet you bless me with so much life. May your will be what guides me. May I never grow cold and hurtful no matter how many times I would wish I could be that mean person in some situations. Thank you for allowing me this journey. May I gave courageous and strength for whatever comes next. ❤️✝️❤️
May I always see it for what it is.
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1/29/2019
Lord thank you for these past couple days traveling and keeping us safe. From breaking down and kept safe in Grand Turk to just seeing beautiful Puerto Rico without incident. Thank you for sharing your beauty. Please forgive me for any offense I may have done towards you Lord. Please bless your children and all the prayers they have. I deserve nothing nor do anyone else of this world yet you are faithful to us Jesus . May we all acknowledge your presence.
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1/27/2019 Thank you Lord for this day. Thank you for the beauty you have given me a glimpse of. I can only imagine what heaven will be like. The beau the abundant love with no more sadness. No heaviness of any kind. For all who are your children all of that they struggled is no more. Replace by greater joy and promise you give. Yet while here on this earth Lord please guide and protect us. We need you more than ever. I need you more than ever. For you have pulled me back to life. Yet I do not know what direction it will go. I just know it will always be with you. Thank you Jesus!!!
Father thank you for this day and all the fun. Now let me get focused please. Forgive me Lord for me making things what I should not have. Please guide and protect those I care for.
1/26/2019
Thank you Lord for safe travels and blessings undeserved. For myself and friends meeting up. I ask for wellness and protection of all on this cruise ship. And again thank you. Protect my family and loved ones not with me.
e Lord I am very tired in many ways. Please hear my heart.
Amen
1/25/2019
Forgive me father for not having faith and trust in humanity unless it is right in front of me. Sometimes when life opens opportunities, that your realize you want so badly it sometimes hurts really bad. You know it's time to have a really good cry, remove everything and all the layers from the equation; but God and pray for His continued direction and favor for and with you; whilst He allows you to walk in this world. Most importantly, He allows you to see what He sees to protect and know when it is a blessing or just part of what the world brings.
Please guide and protect all that I am and all my family and loved ones I am connected with. I don't believe for one second relationships of any kind are happenstance. But I do know not all are meant to be what we would like or desire. Some are for a season, some are for a lesson few are for a lifetime. Please Lord give myself and my children and grandchildren the wisdom to know the difference and stay out of harms way. Teaching us what is lessons and what we should fight to hold onto.
Lord you know just like the song; all I know is I'm not home yet; take this world and give me Jesus. Father I feel this passionately; yet I hurt when I think I could easily be gone and those I love are left behind.
I pray for salvation and mercy for all I am connected with. I pray for your love fill the lives and they encounter the peace only you can fill them with.
I pray no matter when my time is up; even on days I sometimes feel now would be nice because I just have too many layers over time that I forgot to shake off or really understand. I pray blessings on all I will someday leave behind.
May a hedge of protection go up around them all Jesus; protect them from the evil in this world; and may they make a difference in your world not this. May they step into the light and shine for all you sacrificed for.
Lord I never planned on coming out of the desert, yet you have removed me. Please guide me and direct me for your will and your kingdom. Not ever of my own earthly wants and desires. I get it; to have beautiful things places and people in your life is a true blessing in abundance. But only if it maintains the closeness I have found in you. You know everything in my mind, my heart and deep within my soul. Guide and protect them, it and me.
Thank you for this day and the promise of life in abundance.
Amen (Alwaysme Just Kelly) on one of these days where I am blessed beyond all measure; yet struggle for significance to matter.
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01/24/2019
Lord may there never be a more intimate relationship with any of your children than that of what between You and me, You and them.
May nothing ever get in the way of being in your presence.
Thank you for this day; thank you for your healing from the inside out, thank you for allowing me to learn and love others from the inside out. May all I connect with learn to do this as well.
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01/23/2019 Thank you Father for another day. To the point; may your spirit and only yours lead me as we are never alone!
https://youtu.be/1Ko4yroBP0A. spirit lead me!
https://youtu.be/WdpAfLPxrUY Never alone Tori Kelly
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In the world of dreams where we are never too young or old. imagination can be a beautiful opportunity or what becomes a lifetime of heartbreak. It is only when you release your dreams to uncertainty that heartbreak becomes the opportunity of any lifetime.
Not everyone is out for your benefit. Not everyone is against who you are or what you do. Although if opportunities present themselves they will absolutely take advantage.
Choose wisely when you engage; be willing and ready to be humbled. The only thing that matters in this world, no matter how hard life gets. Is doing the right thing for the right reasons and never stop believing in God. His will and all he sacrificed is what matters most.
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Dear Lord you know my mind and how I wake up and what my triggers are. Not many will get what is written or at least the why. But Father I know you do.
Something that was said in conversations this evening that makes perfect sense. That I wish I had the understanding to say myself. But I will expound upon what I heard. Even though it was a very short sentence.
"We may never see what is coming"; we may doubt all the way, until we look back in the place, the position, the life we doubted could never transpire in our own minds eye. We may never see ourselves doing things or others can do something. "Just remember, we are God's vessels" anything can occur. "Be bold to fight for the things that are Gods"!
So Lord, as I apply how many times I doubt my qualifications, my true opportunity that what I have been working through, experiencing, or just trying to keep it together because it is way beyond me. Please show me; what I must see, make in view what is the truth; and give me the wisdom to survive the things I totally misdirect, misunderstand, or fail to acknowledge for what they really are.
Reveal the truth Lord in all situations; let it be whatever you want it to be.
Lord I want to see the good in everything; I want to believe so badly; yet some of history and the worldly views make it so hard to just let go fully. All that I am, all that I have belong to you Father. If I am to continue on this journey, only you can sustain me. For this foolish girl inside this women's body still dreams to much even in this life. That of Agape Love, lifetime companionship, Hope for the future in your kingdom. As the tears of humility roll down my cheeks at times; I thank you for all the blessings and life I have been given. Thank you Jesus for always lighting the path; no matter how I got on it; You bring me back to hope, grace and abundant love.
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01/22/2019
Lord each day I read your word and devotions; it is like you are speaking right to me. "Strive to trust me in more areas of your life. Anything that tens to make you anxious is a growth opportunity . Instead of running away from these challenges, embrace them, eager to gain all the blessings I have hidden in the difficulties." The word and devotion goes on but Lord I get it!
I will never grasp why somethings happen and somethings do not. But yes, there are somethings I guess too good to be true and instead of just letting it be and watch what unfolds; I tend to beat myself up, thinking of ways to not be worthy enough. None of us know what the future holds Lord. If they do they may not be walking with you. Noting yes there are some of us that have dreams, some intuitions some visions that do not use them for future telling. In some cases they say nothing at all until the dream is a reality.
Guide me Father in your will to be still and await your blessings. I have had to figure things out for so long in this life; I forget how to just be still and wait upon you.
Psalm 52:8 New International Version (NIV)
8 But I am like an olive tree
flourishing in the house of God;
I trust in God’s unfailing love
for ever and ever.
flourishing in the house of God;
I trust in God’s unfailing love
for ever and ever.
Proverbs 3:5-6 New International Version (NIV)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight
As I woke this morning as each day; I have been given thoughts and words. Lord for years since the day I openly committed to you and have walked the walk the best I can. Life has changed immensely in a positive blessed way.
Throughout time because I have remained dedicated to you; many times over the years I have been blessed with maybe good maybe not so good suitors. Even this morning; I the first time in a long time had a message for a dinner date.
Lord, you know I did not pick the path I ended up on; I clearly early in life had no direction or knowledge and though I will never have any regrets as I have survived and been blessed over time. Never did I plan to be single more than not over the years.
Everything happens for a reason; I am far from complaining; over this past decade plus; I have learned much about myself and you.
But none of this is what came to mined Jesus first thing this morning. What came to mind was a dream a 20ish year old girl woke up having that back then she never understood. What came to mind is for years the joke I respond with of My Future Husband In My Next Life. What came to mind was even in 2018 out of no where dreams I will never understand; but only to gain a glimpse of only what you could be wanting me to know.
So Father; forgive me for making light of what I do not understand. But here is what came to mind Jesus that I must declare.
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Dear Future Husband of my next life; I have been waiting for you my entire existence; even when I did not know it. I have loved you more than I loved anything in this world. However, I never seen you in front of me. I have dreamed of you and the promise of everlasting love. Never believing anything in this lifetime will ever transpire; even though I know I am a Bride of our one true God; Christ throughout the heavens and all above. That will never stop me from dreaming of your love.
Dear Sweet Soul; man of God; blessed beyond all beliefs. You are and have been forever throughout eternity the soul’s key. For our God of all the heavens and earth; had to show me first what in life was my worth. Now and always, I am HIS to be. Nevertheless, I have been granted; permission for you to be my forever-earthly King.
Dear Future Husband of my next life:
I know not what you are doing, or where you might be. I can only imagine you are closer than I will ever realize or see.
I do know; even for a
moment in time; even for this poetic rhyme. Even if only in my dreams.
I have loved you from the beginning and I will
love you forever throughout eternity no matter how crazy this may seem.
So as just as the thoughts awoke with me, as did the dreams I have once seen.
I have now come to realize all joking aside. You are my future husband in my next life; and I will forever be your faithful, loving wife. All I need now; is Gods fulfilled promise of you and only you by my side.
So be it; no matter what. Dreams of any time, space, gender or race. In this world or the next. My God has changed and saved me for my Dear Future Husband Of My Next Life.
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We All Fall Down
At some point in our lives, we all fall down.
If we have strong will and drive, we will always get back up
and move forward.
I hope that we do not repeat the same process steps that tripped us up in the first place.
Nevertheless, we are all human and sometimes we do a few
times before we get it.
Regardless, we are all human; and it is not the fall that
should concern us, but that of what do we do when it happens.
Get back up and brush off, take a deep breath, exclaim damn
that hurt and move forward
Stay down and feel bad for ourselves
Let the fall consume us and mask it with anything we can get
our hands on
I prefer getting back up and I am sure I have said a few things outside of damn that hurt.
Life is what it is; you try your best to not be caught-up,
or knocked off your feet for any reason.
But, there are many times when it just happens so quickly,
you are already down looking up when you realize you are there.
My term for knocked off our feet could have literal meaning or just a paraphrase when things just happen and they shake your world.
In any sense, the point being is when you are in a place
that you are derailed, disrupted or knocked down, and knocked out for the count.
Do not let it win, don’t give up don’t give in. Get back up and if it is hard pray
harder. Keep in mind even with prayer things
may not seem to have an end in sight or the turn out you really wanted. Know that when God does not deliver your
requests He has something far greater for the good of your future.
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1/21/2019 Thank you Jesus for this day; Thank you MLK for all you stood and died for, trying to make this world a better place.
Some things just take time to work through and process an understanding. We are in the battle of our lives in this world. We are either serving in obedience our Father maker of all things spiritually or That of what is in darkness which allot of the time when in darkness has us believe we are are to serve the here and now flesh that is given to walk in this universe with.
Once we figure that out, it can and may be one of the hardest battles of our human lives.
When you die yo yourself and live in faith you must purpose daily to maintain.
If you are blessed, lucky or whatever you wish to label it.
You will have a lifetime partner companion lover friend to serve one another and hold each other accountable and in strength. That someone to share all good, bad and irritating moments of this worldly life with, all that makes you laugh or sadness.
But if it is not yet your time. Don’t get caught up in the tests that will derail you and make you question all the good that lives within your soul.
If God is keeping you for himself count it as greater blessings are yet to come. Yes, it is so easy to get caught up and want to rush towards and into, all of what the flesh was made to crave and enjoy.
But when you have died to live, although the blessings and beauty outside and within grow in abundance. The struggles are still there. Sometimes you are pounded on even harder when you live for what is right. Especially when you feel so much of everything that passes through us; and even more so when you have openly acknowledged to live for Christ and no longer chase things that will fill or mask what you are feeling deep within.
It does not matter how long you have been walking the walk; while trying to remain on point and in pure mind body and spirit.
Sometimes we end up in a places that we think we have it all figured out and are living in obedience and loving life.
Never thinking about what the flesh has to offer or may be missing; much less knowing how to handle things when something comes out of no where. Awakening what had been safely stored away without thought or consideration in the future.
For me, I don't easily let things in. Once I allow something in close; I cannot just turn that off. I can remember at one point in my youth; thinking everything I ever get close to either dies or goes away. So somewhere over time, I just stopped allowing myself to get close to anything, but perhaps the pets I acquired.
I have had many lessons in this life and many well learned. Because of my own uneducated choices or well known, my needs or all the confusion while trying to ascertain what I was doing over time. I even today still have a very hard time letting people close to me. Many have told me I am very guarded. Sometimes I think I am not guarded enough, as I do not handle when those I do move on and I am left behind triggering a lifetime of loneliness that I had finally overcome.
The spiritual realm exists and there is good and evil; then there is the flesh that can be in the continuous vicious cycle where some of us finally were relieved of how to deal with what we do not understand within our own feelings from our our lives journey.
Where we spent so much wasted time chasing and masking feelings. Filling ourselves with addictive behaviors and never being satisfied; allowing ourselves to be caught up in the world that is no joke.
I am blessed; God has a greater purpose for me that he allowed me not to be a statistic a write off in this planet yet.
Noting: Although I may need to step back and peel back another layer and then step out every so often.
I may have a way of survival and what some perceive as strength within. My struggles will never be over where I am always trying to do what is right; always concerned if it is Gods will or just that of my own thinking. There is a difference so and I try hard not to get them confused.
You can only serve one master in this universe spiritually and Satan is fully alive and walking this earth. With evil and darkness trying to destroy what is living inside of us once we acknowledge Gods calling of the Holy trinity.
Father, Son and Holy Spirit that can and will live within us if we confess our faith in all that Jesus Christ lived, suffered and died for; then sealing it being washed clean with baptism. The battle then becomes of the spirit world that can reach far within tormenting our mind at times.
Know which side your flesh will walk with. Know the desires of the flesh will always be.
But eternity for your soul has only one path. The darkness will tempt and torment the flesh, as Satan will put things and people in your path that will mess with your family, mess with those you care about, mess with your mind making you doubt what is real what is not.
Making you want to retreat back to the comfort of the thinking you although surrounded by brothers and sisters in Christ family; that you can manage those things hidden deep within alone.
Making you question when you finally do have been blessed with a soul connection not of the flesh; regardless of the love and faith you have in Christ. Satan will make you doubt who you are, what you do and why you do it. Or even that you will never be good enough to have something that comes from truth as all the while He is trying to rob you of the joy that is locked deep within.
No matter how faithful you are. Never give in, Never give up to all these things that at times overwhelm you. Don't let the unknowns rob you of Gods promise being filled with love and joy deep within. You are already written in the book of eternal life with the Lambs blood.
Nothing can take that away now. Unless you let it~ We are made for more than what if's in this world. Keeping it real and peeling back this next layer is only the beginning of what God has instore. There is no shame in wanting love and be loved or having the desires of the flesh and within one's heart to be filled.
There is no shame, thinking no one else gets some of the twists and turns that our lives hold. But the fact is; God already has everything we are going through or about to experience. He has given us freedom of will and choice of our own accord to do what we want with them. He will not show us the outcome of our choices in advance; He gave us a mind to use while diving into His word and staying connected with Him.
For me; My choices well; Good, bad or indifferent; I have never been much for retreat; and I never run! Though some of the challenges I allow myself to get into. Well take me places I would have never thought I could be. My God is an awesome God and he will always prevail even if I struggle and cannot.
Live Love and Laugh with Him no matter what! Smile and know who you will always belong to; even if you have not taken that step of faith with Christ. It is not to late.
For days, weeks, months that have led up to here today, with God all make sense and I am filled with peace. Without Him; I am nothing and will forever flounder in this dry earth until I finally am blown away like a wilted petal.
I will never expect anyone to understand what I write or what these feelings come from. I just know, we are not alone in our journey. There is always someone out there that has been through the same or worse. There is always someone that understands what it is like to want to be loved by God and all he gives us in the human form. Yet trust not for what the world has already layered up before you refused to let go of the hand of God. There is no greater peace that of what He fills us with. There is no greater hearts desire to feel His love in the flesh. There is no lack of turmoil if you desire such and it has not presented itself clearly.
Know only God and his purpose should be what matters. All else will eventually come to pass; be it a fulfillment or just something better to what never takes place. In God with God your struggles, your time is never wasted or in vein.
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Prov.3 Verses 5 to 6. [5] Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. [6] In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
Romans 8:38 -- Romans 8:39. 39 Nor height nor depth nor any other creature will be able to separate us from the 1alove of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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1/20/2019
Thank You Father for this new day. Lord please guide me and forgive me for making something out of things I should not. Please guide and forgive me when I miss the mark and do not take action and do something where something should be acted upon.
Your will be done in my life Lord. In and for my household. I am nothing without you Jesus. Thank you for carrying me daily.
Father I ask you calm the storms within us; as you calm the storms that are hitting our nation today and many days lately. Be it environmental or emotional Father we know you are in all things. Please protect us from the elements, please protect us from those that mean to do misdeeds or harm, please protect us from ourselves.
I personally so often take off running even when spending time with you once those feet hit the floor and so often hit the fire and get caught up. Guide me in all things Jesus. I am sure I am not the only one that jumps into the world head on and thinks about choices later even when for good causes. I just know Lord I need you in all things every minute of every day. Thank you for all you allow of me.
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For even in the world we know we are blessed walking with the one most high; there are still times you just wish you could peel your skin away step out and keep walking never looking back to all the unknown. When nothing is wrong but sometimes it is the things you want and you think are so close. Yet they are so very far away overwhelmingly where you remember before you walked with God how you struggled wondering what was the purpose of life and had the same feeling of just peeling away and walking forward until you found the truth.
At some point then I found the truth in Christ. Yet here I am all of sudden feeling like the skin needs to be peeled back; yet wondering so deeply what is this all about. Why so much of me has been given away over time for things that really in the end don't matter and then those; those that are just hanging in radio silence never knowing if God really has this or was it just many moments in time that merged together or the oasis in the desert I once served. What is this I ask you God; Why; What was and is the purpose of the changes that came and what are the changes to be. Yes the good that came from you the last time I felt this way. You Jesus know me best; better than I know my own self. Why do you put me in passing connections within humanity. I need the right frequency to stop this silence Lord; If I must peel the layers back again; Show me! You maker of all heavens and earth. Why must there be such an abundance of unknown visions. Lead me Father as this path is so very gray and silent
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01/19/2019
Thank you Lord for this new morning and day ahead.
As I lay here awake taking in the silence letting this mind be still even for a brief moment. Not jumping up and doing anything. I thank you. For the blessings you have given never caring who we are, and the choices of what we do with the time given to us in this world.
We all have choices. I guess my prayers today would start with everyone own their choices and be accountable for the outcome of which they choose. It’s not always what we expect or easy. But in love and kindness with You God. We can get through all things.
Just as the coolness of the winter snowfall melts away, Jesus your promise for all that is good and pure will live on.
The process in some cases may be fast and furious as an avalanche or so very subtle never seen yet we know it’s there. Just as the air we breathe we cannot see it.
We must know all that is good we are connected if we believe and even the sometimes when you place them there.
For all things in this world and life will come to pass. Although, You and all the beauty of Everything we can imagine shall be through out eternity.
I ask please Lord in this busy chaotic day to day that I never forget what you have destined for me and all of us in the here and now. We may not know its coming or even know it is here but whatever the case, please Jesus never allow me to give up, or given in but that I will always feel the need to step out and step up in faith. Please keep me from making things that are not and acknowledge what should be. Please guard and protect me from the wolves and negative people, places and things of this world.
Lord none of us need catch and release friends and although none of us deserve anything. I pray all that is good and lasting and pure in my life and those I am connected.
I also, pray and hope none of whom I am related or connected purposely take what they cannot give or steal what the cannot work for. None purpose to harm or let anger, lust or greed drive their ambitions. But if they do Lord please deal with it.
Father please heal those hurting mind body and spirit; please guide and protect us all from elements of this world as well ourselves.
Be with family, friends and connections at the bedside of those readying to be with you.
May your will fill me and the household you have blessed me with. May the lives of my children and grandchildren come to peace and walk with you Father. For all that I have, all that I am. Is yours Lord.
May I continue to learn to serve you and do it with all that I am. May the unspoken words of mine or all I am connected; may those unspoken prayers of the heart and soul always be heard; My I continue in your favor and guided with your wisdom and be allowed to know the difference of what should and should not be.
For me, my family, my friends and all my family in Christ. Guide and protect us please.
Thank you Father Son and Holy Spirit. ✝️✝️✝️✝️
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I am blessed; No matter what I am blessed and Jesus I am not enough unless You come! Thank you for this day.
————————————-We all have choices. I guess my prayers today would start with everyone own their choices and be accountable for the outcome of which they choose. It’s not always what we expect or easy. But in love and kindness with You God. We can get through all things.
Just as the coolness of the winter snowfall melts away, Jesus your promise for all that is good and pure will live on.
The process in some cases may be fast and furious as an avalanche or so very subtle never seen yet we know it’s there. Just as the air we breathe we cannot see it.
We must know all that is good we are connected if we believe and even the sometimes when you place them there.
For all things in this world and life will come to pass. Although, You and all the beauty of Everything we can imagine shall be through out eternity.
I ask please Lord in this busy chaotic day to day that I never forget what you have destined for me and all of us in the here and now. We may not know its coming or even know it is here but whatever the case, please Jesus never allow me to give up, or given in but that I will always feel the need to step out and step up in faith. Please keep me from making things that are not and acknowledge what should be. Please guard and protect me from the wolves and negative people, places and things of this world.
Lord none of us need catch and release friends and although none of us deserve anything. I pray all that is good and lasting and pure in my life and those I am connected.
I also, pray and hope none of whom I am related or connected purposely take what they cannot give or steal what the cannot work for. None purpose to harm or let anger, lust or greed drive their ambitions. But if they do Lord please deal with it.
Father please heal those hurting mind body and spirit; please guide and protect us all from elements of this world as well ourselves.
Be with family, friends and connections at the bedside of those readying to be with you.
May your will fill me and the household you have blessed me with. May the lives of my children and grandchildren come to peace and walk with you Father. For all that I have, all that I am. Is yours Lord.
May I continue to learn to serve you and do it with all that I am. May the unspoken words of mine or all I am connected; may those unspoken prayers of the heart and soul always be heard; My I continue in your favor and guided with your wisdom and be allowed to know the difference of what should and should not be.
For me, my family, my friends and all my family in Christ. Guide and protect us please.
Thank you Father Son and Holy Spirit. ✝️✝️✝️✝️
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I am blessed; No matter what I am blessed and Jesus I am not enough unless You come! Thank you for this day.
01/18/2019
Thank you for another new day; each I am blessed with is far more than I ever expected to have in this life. I remember so clearly back in my childhood and young adult life; I wished to gone. Over time just adapting to all that made me want to leave this place. Reckless and carefree hanging with those that believed the only way to live was dangerously. So it did not matter how badly we hurt or destroyed ourselves. I am beyond blessed in this life. For all the times my mother would tell me I will never be able to move when I hit 40 with all the brokenness I would end up with in this body.
You Lord have been so so good to me! You have healed my mind, my body and given me love and hope deep within my soul. If even for a moment in time; never have I ever felt deep within the peace I have with and from your blessings. There is no way or words to ever describe the grace you have showed me father over the years even when I did not recognize it. As I would pray after having my children to please allow me to live long enough to see them grown; then later long enough to see my grandchildren grown. Thank you as this journey has continued. I ask Lord your will be done. But if I should pray for myself; I ask may I serve you well Father. May my mind, body and soul serve you and the love you have for humanity. May all who are connected to me; come to live in salvation and know you personally to experience the grace and mercy and abundance of love you have allowed me. May they be healed through you with you and for you; May I continue to receive the favor you have blessed me with. Even when I do not deserve it. May I continue getting up and moving and doing every moment of every day. May I be blessed to love that sweet soul that you have waiting for me. Whatever you will Father; May I learn how to work through this day to day, when my trust and understanding is so very small compared to all you Father of Creations has in store. Thank you for this day. Amen
Thank you for another new day; each I am blessed with is far more than I ever expected to have in this life. I remember so clearly back in my childhood and young adult life; I wished to gone. Over time just adapting to all that made me want to leave this place. Reckless and carefree hanging with those that believed the only way to live was dangerously. So it did not matter how badly we hurt or destroyed ourselves. I am beyond blessed in this life. For all the times my mother would tell me I will never be able to move when I hit 40 with all the brokenness I would end up with in this body.
You Lord have been so so good to me! You have healed my mind, my body and given me love and hope deep within my soul. If even for a moment in time; never have I ever felt deep within the peace I have with and from your blessings. There is no way or words to ever describe the grace you have showed me father over the years even when I did not recognize it. As I would pray after having my children to please allow me to live long enough to see them grown; then later long enough to see my grandchildren grown. Thank you as this journey has continued. I ask Lord your will be done. But if I should pray for myself; I ask may I serve you well Father. May my mind, body and soul serve you and the love you have for humanity. May all who are connected to me; come to live in salvation and know you personally to experience the grace and mercy and abundance of love you have allowed me. May they be healed through you with you and for you; May I continue to receive the favor you have blessed me with. Even when I do not deserve it. May I continue getting up and moving and doing every moment of every day. May I be blessed to love that sweet soul that you have waiting for me. Whatever you will Father; May I learn how to work through this day to day, when my trust and understanding is so very small compared to all you Father of Creations has in store. Thank you for this day. Amen
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01/17/2019
Father thank you for this day; please show me where I should be today; what I should be doing; and forgive me for anything I make it that just is not pleasing to you.
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In the days of business with constant jumping up and running. Putting out fires or directing folks where they should be when things are down to the wire. Delivery Management so they say just another form of my worlds organized chaos on any day.
Blessed forever I will be; Blessed this world is not about me. What would I do if it was though? I can not really imagine, but I am sure I have many times before. Its like everything else; once you try it; the addiction becomes real and you want more.
More of this and more of that; fads, diets believe them all; or look past the lies. Yes this mind is slowly unwinding by His design. So when you read this mixed content. There is nothing to read between the lines.
How are you? How am I. Weary, the easiest way to describe. Been doing this life for awhile in time. Most days I rock it; these lately I am reevaluating all the time. Yes there is reason of course there is. God's timing is perfect and this is all His.
But for awhile I have been doing what's right; but ready to quit certain aspects of this worldly fight.
I can't do it on my own. Yes; God is with me 24/7 this I know. But my life is not my own; my standards are far to high nothing like before I met God when I was still young and not grown.
Its not just me; I have to plan for family. So is it easier to give up and pretend this promise is just an unseen dream. Give it all to our God the creator of all things. For He alone allows me life; and I will accept whatever he brings.
Prayerfully every second of every day; Just that sweet soul. For its either real and spot on. Or this dream must be forever put away and really see what I have got. For so long I just did what is necessary day in day out always spot on. Never before thinking about anything much allot.
For I know, The cost is high; this no lie. But all that I am or ever will go through. God has forever already paid the price.
I just know I need this down time coming soon; just shut myself away in a room. Silence from the world to be. Even if I know it doesn't solve the unknown days to come or that forever You and me.
Dear Lord; please give me Your eyes to see. Please help me through what ever will be.
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01/16/2019
Thank you for another day here on this earth Lord; Whatever I do; Wherever I end up. May it be pleasing to You and Your will. We know I am not always the best at choices I make and end up in sometimes in over my head. Be it trying to help; caring, or just being goofy and not paying attention. May I learn and grow in and for you; may I go where you are and may I never stop learning to love and see the good in all that is around me. Somedays this world and the unknowns make it hard not to want to give up. But then you remind me just how blessed I truly am. Remembering the unrest and chaos before I came to you. Remembering how it really feels to hurt and not have hope for a new day. Thank you for always sustaining me Lord in this life that I will never understand. Lord please bless and guide all I am connected. May they be filled with love and hope. May they be guided in salvation with mercy and grace. May they remain true and well. Father in your precious name may I and they be forgiven for any injustice or misdeeds. Protect and guide us in this world as we find our way. Thank you!
As I read my morning devotionals and listen to the daily reading plans. I think how blessed we really are. Yet most times we don’t let go of what robs us from the peace we could have in this life. We hold onto what should be forgiven and moved past or we spend every moment we have trying to make things work for what we think should be. Take time to always be thankful for where you have been and where you are at right now.
Take what wasn’t so good as lessons and grow from them not repeating it over and over. Most of all forgive. Forgive yourself and release any regrets and what if’s that could’ve if you done it differently.
Take what wasn’t so good as lessons and grow from them not repeating it over and over. Most of all forgive. Forgive yourself and release any regrets and what if’s that could’ve if you done it differently.
Let it go and start today brand new. Forgive those who have let you down, hurt you directly or because they can’t love themselves enough they are self destructive and you just hurt for them.
You, me all of us are worth more than anything this world can throw our way. When times are heavy and hard. Pray harder. Find a positive no agenda friend and get connected to a good bible based church that helps you grow your own relationship with God. Learn who Jesus really was and is and how He gave up everything for those of us who will never accept the blessings He offers.
You, me all of us are worth more than anything this world can throw our way. When times are heavy and hard. Pray harder. Find a positive no agenda friend and get connected to a good bible based church that helps you grow your own relationship with God. Learn who Jesus really was and is and how He gave up everything for those of us who will never accept the blessings He offers.
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01/15/2019
Thank you for this day Lord and all you allow me to learn from.
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01/14/2019
Thank you Lord for this new day
As I read through your word; I realize how blessed I truly have been over the years. Lord I take nothing in this life for granted. Every moment of everyday; Every tear of sadness or that of fits of laughter. Thank you Jesus. Please hear those on my heart and soul Lord; please calm the storms and guide us all. Your will be done father. Not that of my own stubborn thoughts or ambitions. May we serve you and your direction. Thank you
1 Samuel 16:7 New International Version (NIV)
7 But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
7 But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
Romans 8:38-39 New International Version (NIV)
38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
No matter what transpires in this world; Lord we are never alone. You are always with us.
May we learn and move on every single day and move on. If it is good may we share it; if it is a lesson; no matter what.
May we present it all at the foot of the cross; giving it all to you god request what we are to take away from the lesson and just keep moving forward and never look back.
Lord I do pray all is okay on this evening where sudden change has a dynamic impact. Although feeling like a fool and just kinda hanging. I can’t even express what you know Jesus. If I could erase caring so much from my life I would and then become invisible.
As the world says Whatever is meant to be; Will Be! Whatever is not; give us the strength, courage and wisdom to keep going.
Most of all forgive the foolishness I and others set ourselves up with when we try to believe the good in everyone.
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As I think back over the years, of how lonely I was in this big world. Before I came to Christ. It was a disaster. Never having anyone always feeling insignificant. Always trying to find that one true love that would be with me, love me and work through all things with me forever.
Yes, I lived life and did everything I could as a child, as young adult and even into my adulthood.
Finding myself masking an inner pain and demons that haunted me throughout time.
Settling until it would get to dangerous and put my children at risk.
What I can tell you is life is never fair or easy. Moreover, no amount of alcohol or drugs will make the pains we do not understand go away.
The last conversation I had was with my older sister that day; she was married and doing life but always took my calls. On that day, I did not call her to tell her what I had done; but she had guess something was up.
Loneliness can be devastating! Especially if you have no one and never had the relationship with God.
As time goes on the battles rage inside of us. When life changes hit us like a ton of bricks. Knocking us off our feet and making us question our significance and abilities.
Nevertheless, the day comes when we know we know we are a child of God and we will never be alone as God the Father and Jesus His son and the Holy Spirit forever bound in us.
Even though the world’s loneliness rocks us; we have a peace and promise that fills our days and nights until God reveals what next.
It is never easy; far from it and the tears are more real than ever. As we question why if we are blessed, why we were chosen to go through the wave of uncertainty and pain that feels like it is swallowing us whole at times.
I will never understand life; I over the years have been blessed and filled with a peace in the times that lonely insignificance consumed me. From the day in 2004, I jumped up in my living room like a crazy person talking to God unexpectedly. Stating I get it; I finally get it. I have never been alone; you God have always been with me. That being alone and loneliness are so very different. What a huge impact that has made on my life when was finally able to understand that.
For years, I tried to fill every void I had with people, places and things. Yes from being a workaholic to college getting smarter, to all the bad choices. I thank the Lord every day for opening my eyes and filling me with a greater, peace I will never be able understand or describe.
However, loneliness in this world is real and even still today I deal with the dreams and desires of my human nature. Sure, I surround myself with my loving family and keep them close; as I fill my life with my spiritual family all my brothers and sisters in Christ. Staying deeply rooted serving wherever I can; not for any points or expectations. For the love and feelings that fill any void of loneliness, I may be experiencing still today.
The facts are I never planned my life the way it turned out. I never planned to have a broken childhood or broken family of my own or end up single. Life happens and if we do not have God within every second of every day. We really do feel alone and not just lonely. For some they struggle and give up never having the opportunities to see they matter and before we know it life is over.
So if there is anything I can say about being lonely in this world. We can be surrounded with the wrong people or wrong things and still be very lonely. However, unless you do not have a personal relationship with God. You will always be alone. If you do not have that relationship, make one. If things are hard, pray harder. Surround yourself with good no agenda friends that believe in Jesus and all he lived, suffered and died to save us!
For those of us who have not been blessed with that forever; we will continue to have those lonely days and struggles to know boundaries in this life. Remaining accountable for our own actions when we forget.
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01/13/2019
Thank you Lord for this new day
Please guide my steps, caution my words and guard
my heart. Your will be done in this household.
Lord
As the thoughts come to mind this day; I think
how the world loves and sees us for what we can do. Not for truly that of which you
created. There always has to be some
sort of expectation on that what we call love.
I will never fully understand what the meaning of
life should be; nor will I understand or come to know fully what You Father God
meant of love. But I do know it has to be more than
words; more that what we can do; more that what we say.
Especially when in one sentence we love, in
another we need something. In one word
and action we love; in another we show condemnation and hateful ways. The world seems to be more clouded; truths
easily painted over, leaving us to doubt and lose sight of your truth.
What I do know; is that of which each day you
allow me up. Each day I am reminded of
the love you Father showed this world when you sacrificed your only begotten
son Jesus. What I do know is the Love
and Peace that fills me for all I believe that is written, taught and the
personal relationship I have with the Trinity.
I have
been in this world awhile now; from a very young age seen and done things that humanity
imposed. None of my life made sense or
had purpose until your blessings came to life.
Before I knew what a relationship with Jesus was; you cared. You hear ever cry, every whisper, every tear
to fall or fit of laughter.
It is you Lord in everything; beginning to end
and whatever is in between.
So Lord as I am still tied up in this world, I
know you hear every prayer; you know every fear. You know every single flaw within. Yet you allow me life; passion; eyes to see
the beauty in this world and people. No
matter what darkness surrounds us.
Please show me what next Jesus.
As these words are all I have; I wish to retreat
back where life just was. Having a
life no matter how wrong or right; giving stability to the blood from my
veins. Trying to lead by example with the new life
you gave me. No matter how tiring or lack of sometimes respects and
gratification was not occurring.
What has happened Father and why? Reveal to me what you wish; that in 2018 life
internal changed. Why Lord; do I now
feel doubt and unsure of myself when with you I had gotten past all that. Lord
I learned to love myself as you fill my cup daily. Reveal to me the truth Lord and the plans you
have set forth. For whatever dreams may
be; if they are not of, with and for You; Release me and let me find my way
back to your stability and graces.
Whatever you are working on within me Father; you
know I do very well from a distance.
Believing in you Jesus is easy when we are surrounded with the beauty of
all creation and the unexplainable sustenance from a heartbeat to the wind
blowing. Believing in humanity when you
cannot see; believing in one-self that each step we take each word we write is
blessed.
Lord Thank you for this day; Your will be done
all throughout every bit of my life; and those I am connected. Reveal to me Jesus what it is you want
next. May I have the confidence back that once
overflowed within me? For I know who’s I
am. May all that churns within be revealed?
----------------------------------------------------------------Lord; long back you helped me find who I am and who's I am. Yet in everything we do in this world we worry about what the world defines; based on time, beauty, language or cultural differences. No matter what we do to know we belong to you; and know we are defined and created for something far more than what this world says we should. We still get caught up with worry, doubt, self esteem always trying to do better in this world. Make sure we look better and have better things. We all have layers of some kind. Some of us mask and hide the insecurities well. Others where them on their sleeve. Some like myself; know who they belong to and work hard to maintain the passion and simplicity not caring with the unknowns think. Yet when it comes close to those we care about we are rocked easily when we cannot live up to whatever we are trying to do; or are let down by them because they don't accept what makes logical lasting choices.
Father, Son and Holy Spirit Author of all things and all time. We were made for you; not this world. You did put time in our hearts; yet we take it too far by never spending that time with you for the things of love and humanity you created us for. Guide us in your will and your purpose. Let us not grow weak and worry what the world thinks. May we love and respect one another in unity. May we stop the madness in this world of all that is unjust and uncalled for.
May we purpose for you first always Lord and follow the guidance of your will Elohim - Yahweh Father God, Jesus the risen Son and living Spirit of all truth
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01/12/2019
As I find myself outside
looking up at the beautiful blue sky with wisp of white stroked clouds like a
feather pen; I find myself looking through the view behind a palm tree.
The silence of the morning
surrounds me; with nothing more than the birds flying high above. I think
to myself; if only I knew how this day and the days to come are going to turn
out. How I could preplan; on those moments I find myself
yearning for some desire deep within. Or find more a more
productive path if I find what I am doing doesn’t feel like enough.
Or find a better way to help who or whatever I find myself trying to assist.
How or what would I do; if I knew in advance just what
will take place in my personal
life, my career life; my family and friends lives. But
I have not once question or lose confidence when it comes to you Lord. I
know where I have been, long before I found the door to you.
Knowing no matter what happens going forward in or with my life; You and all
you Lived, suffered and died for will always be with me, Jesus.
With the promise of Agape love throughout eternity and a peace deep within that
no words can ever explain.
Lord; I know I am not always holding
you close enough every second of every day. I do know; it is you’re
saving mercy and grace that has and always will carry and sustain me, no
matter what does or does not transpire in this worldly journey.
I only pray that the so many others that do not understand this
peace, I have been blessed with. That they too find the relationship,
forgiveness and blessings that I have been given.
Be it making breakfast, sipping coffee, looking up to the sky
knowing where my life comes from or down in the unfortunate trials and trenches
of this world. You are real as the peace even in the moments
when I forget who you are and have been. The chaos is temporary.
May the strength you feed me; be given to all that are seeking.
Father God; Abba! Lord of all Lords; King of
the highest Kings. Father God; Son known as Jesus and the
Holy Spirit I am blessed within.
Thank you for the view and knowledge of your love
mercy and grace. May I continue to learn how to adapt
and as I learn how to see with your eyes.
May I never grow weak in you; May I be a light wherever I
am; May I be blessed with your light from others. May I never give in and
give up; becoming disobedient because sometimes it could just be easier to quit.
On those days or moments I am out of bounds and just do not realize; May I
please be forgiven.
As I walk through this day Lord please guide my footsteps
and words, guarding my thoughts and heart along the way. Thank you
for this day and the promise of all that is good; all that is pure all that is
blessed by you. Amen
John 15:4-7 New International
Version (NIV) 4 Remain in me, as I also remain in
you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither
can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. 5 “I am the vine; you are the
branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart
from me you can do nothing. 6 If you do not remain in me, you
are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up,
thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my
words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.
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01/11/2019
Thankful for another day; as I get up working the routine once my feet hit the floor.
Yet, just because I know I am blessed and loved. It does not stop the thoughts as I look in the mirror mornings, wondering what next.
First let me say there were times years ago; I did not know who I was or recognize the person looking back at me. It is far from those days that I lived without purpose. Now as I look in the reflection looks back wondering where did all those years go and how blessed I am now to know I made it through. When I start wondering where did the young girl go that had so much fight and drive go. I realize over time in relationship with Christ the things that really matter worth fighting for. Are best served in prayer.
When I feel lost, or alone. I look at the smiles on the beautiful grandchildren I have been blessed with. Even if the sibling rivalry sometimes get loud with the ten year span between the two sisters most times get annoying. The crazy chaos and constant running. Gets tiring or the continuing education needed to sustain the employment I have been blessed with that gets overwhelming.
I know where my help comes from this is true; even when I was unemployed and losing everything I thought was important with two small children back in the day. In hindsight I know where all the help came from to allow us to stay together and survive.
During any of the trials then or of this decade.
I am blessed.
So on those days that I look in the mirror in wonder; on those days when I am just too weary. In those days that after all this time I really do get lonely and wish I had that life time partner-companion or wonder what about me. Lord: I Thank you for your son Jesus and for all you did so someone like me; can keep getting up and finding your favor. And do the best I can with what I am given to make life happen in a positive meaningful way.
May I never forget where my blessings come from no matter how good or bad this life gives or takes. Amen.
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Lord may I have the right words to express these thoughts.
To have experienced some form of love; is a privilege
To have a relationship where love once lived; but now is sleeping; is a gift that those involved must decide they wish to keep or be done with.
To have a living daily love between beings; is a gift from God that those who have it truly appreciate and wish to never let go. Doing whatever it takes to remain in union; never giving up, never giving in.
To have the love from you Lord; knowing and feeling and acknowledging it everyday. No matter what the worldly life tells you that is missing. is the love beyond all eternity that will forever last; even when we mortals get tired, bored or give up because things are what we think they should be. The loyalty you have given; when you gave your only son; Jesus deserves more respect, obedience and time. Than anything this world can give.
If someone is blessed and allowed to experience both a faithful partner, that walks and is in love with you as they are. There are no boundaries in shining the light for all that is good.
Unfortunately; the world has so many different views; many have physical partners that they fall in and out of love with because of actions or lack of. Many are in love with you and all that Jesus has done; Few; have the pure Agape unconditional love and respect. Only you can bless us with.
For myself; I will never stop dreaming; although I don't react to this world and jump on things just because. Perhaps I will miss that opportunity. What will be will be. And although I may step back into the shadows out of the unknown and harms way. I will never stop trying to help as I am able; love and see the good in as much as possible and always knowing You Christ in the end are all that is needed no matter what happens in this world.
May I never forget who's I am! May I never get caught up in the games this world plays! May your will Jesus fill my life; my household, my children and grandchildren and all my family and friends, including contacts I come in touch with.
May they know the love you have shown and filled me with. May they too Love and honor all you are and ever will be.
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When dreams become desire Then desire become need
When need becomes an addiction You must turn to God and let him
set you free
When you want something; or to be around someone so badly
When lost track and do not even now how something like this
could ever be.
Not all desires, needs or dreams are bad you see
Yet you must turn to God and let him direct you and set you
free
Sometimes we get so caught up In what we have been missing
In theory or communication there is nothing that could ever
be worth more or so refreshing
We forget to stay tuned with our Father, King of Kings; Son
of Man Mighty Jehovah of all blessings
Somehow we forget
letting our days fill with turmoil sometimes tears sometimes regret
Then we remember who should have been first, and last every
second of every day even those that have not occurred yet.
Live for today so I hear you say With God in hand; there is no other way
So what is it; what do we feel Oh I can assure you this is deep this
is far beyond real
Problems yes; bad timing, location; cultural or just no
other way to explain where you feel ripped off on this deal
I can let you in, what is the harm from the distance Oh Father God; what now as I know not
what to do with this imagination
What is, what was, what will be or what has been Thank you Jesus for those I am close to; those
you have allowed in.
For now Lord God; I
must confess; When I think of love and
how badly I want it; think of the one Sweet Soul of this universe you one day
will release and say I am truly blessed.
For now Dear Lord; I am on again off again just one hot mess. This is when I must dream and forget
desire; and stay addicted to what you and only you give. For the Holy Spirit; Jesus Christ; Father God
without you I would never make it; I could not live. With that, no matter good or bad; happy or
sad; left or right, north or south.
Not matter what words come out of my fingers or out of my
mouth. The only truth is the
blessings of Jesus Christ who will carry me throughout this life into the next. Only some will understand; just what this
means; just what God Says. Protect me father; from falling into sin. Bless us father to make this dream live.
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01/10/2019
Thank you Jesus
for all the sacrifices you have made years ago; so we today could have life. Thank you Father God for the love and fulfillment of humanity; even when we fall short daily.
Please forgive me of my weariness. Even when I spend time with you, at times I am overwhelmed by the needs and demands of this world. Of the wants and desires of this girls soul. And trying to balance everything doing it in obedience, trust and purity for the one whom I belong.
Guide me please with strength and wisdom. Most importantly please guide the girls you have left in my care. Give peace to the little ones so they are calm and can deal with this world ahead. Guidance and obedience to the older ones. Lord I know life is not easy. I know it is not easy when you don't have a mother and father. I know I don't have the words or right actions at times to help these little one's balance, love and believe. Please take this burden and help me do so protecting them and leading them in your will.
Thank you Father. Amen
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01/09/2019
Lord thank you
As I wander through this early morning, just waking up. I wonder how often I really am rushing through to get up and get the day started. Even with no real agenda, but to do the needful that meets the guidelines of sustaining the blessings you have given.
Forgive me Father for all I do in haste, all I do with uncertainty. The continual grasping for something tangible to hold and feel it in my hands. None of which would need to be you.
I ask no matter what I do; I do it with and for you in mind Jesus. Pleasing and for something more meaningful than a weekly paycheck, a flattering word, or any material items that come in go in this journey. May whatever I do; be pleasing and shine a light even if only a glimmer for a split second. May I plant the seeds of your love that were once planted in me. May those in need who do not really know you, come to meet you where you are. Right in front of each and everyone of us.
Lord, please let this never be about me; let those moments of self pity or feeling I have had enough. Remind me who's I am and how I got here. Thank you for this day.
Please hear what is in my heart Lord; Please for the needs, the healing of sickness physical, emotional. For those lonely and broken; For those needing protection. For the Cities taking back their streets trying to make a difference and break the addictions. Lord Come!
May they too know You are there.
I ask for salvation, guidance mercy and grace for all of my family Lord. I ask for protection and the Love that only you can describe for and with all my family and friends.
Most of all again; I thank you for all you are in, with and for me. Amen
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01/08/2019
Thank you Lord for this day; please guide me and keep me close to you; please give me the courage and strength for all that is unknown. please show me the way through these remaining days.
Faith in the unseen with you is easy Father; as I look back and see all you have protected me from and all you have pulled me out of. You have allowed me purpose and hope in all things with you.
May I never lose that sight of you and all you are. May all you wish me to be, all you wish me to be part of be revealed as you guide me through the what next in this life. I am weary, yet I know I will rest when it is your time. Protect me from myself and some of the radical choices I make; protect me and my family and friends from those that wish to do harm or misdeeds to us. In Jesus mighty name, thank you for all you are and all you do; all you have done.
Thank you lord for allowing me to serve and assist those in need. Please guide my steps and keep me and my family safe
Reveal all truth.
Psalm 46: (NIV)
For
the director of music. Of the Sons of Korah. According to alamoth.[b] A song.
1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
an ever-present help in trouble.
12 Be joyful in hope,
patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
13 May
the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that
you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit
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Lord The love that is buried within me shall never go away. It is what you have given me. It is what you reveal when and where I am able to share. If the day are to come I shall feel love as you give it; I am blessed. If the day comes I am to be more somewhere to someone than just care for my brothers and sisters. I am blessed. If it will be eternity before I ever feel the Agape love you are. For what is given this day alone; I am still forever blessed.
No weariness, no worldly distractions, No false or fake imposters, users or evil dwellers of this world. Can ever take what you have given inside this heart, inside this soul. No matter how I may falter in weariness. You are the Alpha the Omega, the directions for all around. You are above, below, side to side and far deep inside me. Thank you Jesus for Your love, mercy and grace. May all I do; be pleasing to you. Yet if I fail; may I never do intentional harm in the mistakes I may make.
I am not enough if anything without you Jesus.
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01/06/2019 Thank you Jesus for this day! Guide and protect us through your will. May we be obedient and serve for all that is and that brings good and light into this world.
01/06/2019 Thank you Jesus for this day! Guide and protect us through your will. May we be obedient and serve for all that is and that brings good and light into this world.
Scripture is from Biblegateway.com NIV version, please refer to scriptures specifically mentioned in today’s devotional from the Jesus Calling(Enjoying Peace in His Presence) for additional interpretations.
20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
6 The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.
Isaiah 40:30-31 (NIV)30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Revelation 5:13 (NIV)
“To him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb
be praise and honor and glory and power,
for ever and ever!”
Lord as I am working through my manuscript and I look at this portion of what was written so long ago. Please show me where things are different. Please guide me into what is your will and not of the world. " Choices, not those of everything that was done
to me before I even understood what a choice meant. I managed my choices and deal with the
outcomes no matter how good bad or indifferent I just can’t figure out why I am always in the
situation that everyone still just keeps taking from me."
Some things never change in a world full of wolves.
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01/05/2019
Thank you Lord, for another day. May all I do be pleasing to you. Guide me in Your will and not my own. Thank you for the Buhda Bears 15 years today Lord. I know my little buddy has been a good and faithful friend. I also know he is showing his time. Being was almost lost 4 years ago. Thank you.
Lord
I could throw out so many prayer needs, and I do not want to minimalize anything. From those that are ill readying to fight the battle of their lives. To those who serve you I pray for safety, guidance and protection. To those just broken. Lord you know all the prayers on my heart. Please send your angels to guide, heal and protect us all.
I want to say thank you Jesus. Thank you for this day; for the simple things no matter what is or is not going right or according to my plan.
Things could be so very different in so many ways. Please forgive me for know keeping you primary in every second of every day I am allowed to get up. May your will surround me and my family. Lead me Father for your love and Light.
With all that is coming up this week, this month. Thank you please may I do the best I can with what I am given for you.
May the moments that wash over us, leaving so much uncertainty and sometimes panic. Stop coming.. No matter what Father; I am the daughter of the most high king. Nothing that will ever take place or not take place will change that. Thank you for never giving up on me in my journey.
Amen
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01/04/2019
Thank you Lord for this day; may I do all things as if I am serving you and only you.
Forgive me for the feelings I cannot seem to shake; waking up with a beautiful spirit yesterday; yet a day in the world and all that transpires, has a way of making you go to bed feeling defeated and insignificant.
Where you do what is needed for day to day , for employment that you are paid to do; to survive and maintain what you have.
Which in some cases thinking you are doing the right thing, you obtained for others. Leaving you to feel obligated especially when children are in the mix. Or you genuinely care about what happens to and for souls.
Even still on some days it just leaves you feeling done. No other way to describe it; I just want to quit everything and everyone and just go wander. Be the nobody that we sometimes are left to feel. At least then it would all be justified. When you get to the point people only are connected with you because of something they need; and not mutual care or reciprocation. One sided relationships no matter who they are with; in this busy unforgiving world can weigh heavy on a kind soul.
Then it leads me to the cross; how Christ must feel every day for the time he was obedient and gave himself over.
How he must feel daily and how he felt in the human form.
When everything else is always more important then walking in love, peace, harmony. When everything is more important than walking with the maker of heaven and earth daily in relationship with Jesus Christ.
When you put all you have out there on the line; when you want the best of ever intention and blessing for all those around you and especially those you really care about. Yet, on someday' s you know those that surround you, connected or distant would never even be in your life if it were not what you could do or have done for them if they are not family. And if they are family or very close family like members. Well, we know family and friends sometimes will just take as much as you allow them; until you cut it off. Sometimes by trying to help and give stability all we do is enable folks to not push through and persevere.
So yes my life has a mix of feelings around those I know well and those I do not. But again; How Jesus must feel when we only call out and want Him around; when we need something or are having a hard day or are scared or in really bad situations. Yet when things in the world seem to be going well for us. We don't seem to remember or give the time of day.
I will never understand the pain and sorrow of Christ; I don't think I could ever be worthy or strong enough.
I do know what it is like to be used, only when someone stays connected for what you do for them. Some are really good at making you think you matter, but if you cut off what you are doing; like that it now becomes a choice made and a circumstance you don't want to repeat. Yes history leaves scars and makes you aware. They say we do not meet anyone for no reason. I wonder though really what those reasons are. Tests; Did Jesus not already prove how the world is. Satan has a way of manipulating all that is good into tearful doubt.
How intensified is that heartbreak of Jesus Christ and Father God. When it hurts us in this world. To think how much we hurt them daily!
We are all keepers of our own choices, for the things we do and any reasons we do them. Even if we do things by accident; we are keepers of our choices but we forget that we also should be keepers of the consequences.
Don't leave unfinished business or messes for others to clean up. Deal with what you have gotten yourself into. Don't try to fix what is not yours's to fix.
When you step up; own it! When you make promises to yourself or anyone else; live up to them! Don't take more than you can give! Don't cry out to God for Help and think you deserve anything; None of us deserve a speck in this huge globe; Most importantly if you do not have a relationship personally with God the father, Jesus Christ, His only begotten son and the Holy Spirit living inside of you. Build the relationships!
Some lessons in this life will repeat themselves when you want to believe the best in everyone you cross paths with. Perhaps that is just the spirit some of us are blessed to have. We need to learn how to work with it, while staying out of harms way. Some of us have many talents, some of us can speak, some of us are the best sales and marketing souls ever. Some of us can make people hear and believe things without ever having any physical evidence ever. Those are the one's we pray are working fast and furious for and in the Kingdom of God for all that is good and never for their own personal gain.
In any case. It all comes full circle. If you do not have a relationship and are bound to the cross. You will reap what you sow. Prayerfully the collateral damage along the way does not scar or devastate what or how is in that path as it all takes place.
I myself, am empathetic that feels too much; believes even more and thinks I can always help and fix. When the truth is; I can't get out of my own way and am drowning alone each time I turn my eyes off of God and God only. So easily to help; which is okay. Just know what it is all about up front and never assume or read too much into what is or is not.
Why must we make somethings out of nothings and never make the nothings into some things?
May the God of all creation direct my steps, guard my heart, mind my words. And hold me and all I am that belongs to Him; closer than ever before through out eternity.
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01/03/2019
Lord as I keep it as real as I can; Thank you for not giving up on me ever. Thank you for a new day. Thank you for the coffee I am drinking as my mind is waking for this new journey of 1/3/2019 a Thursday sitting at my desk at 5 am in the USA. With freedoms to write, read and say pretty much anything.
My prayers go out to and for those who do not have a voice. A voice to speak to you, a voice to speak of you, or even just speak at all. Jesus be with those in need of your comfort guidance and protection. Be with the children in harms way. Be with those who are filled with so much hate they do evil. Guide them bring justice. Be with the nations leaders; as all humanity journeys forward in the days to come. As it seems everyone wants what they want, yet no one wants the consequences of their actions. Lord may this land be filled back with moral respected obligations that people are eager to stand up for.
Please protect and guide the children you allowed is to have; guide them in Your will.
Thank you Jesus for your unconditional love and devotion.
I lift Al up to you Father; 2018 was a rough year for my friend Lord. Only you know His heart as you knew my dear friend Sharron. Father you know Sharron left us May 18, after Al had made it into remission for his cancer. Too young and gone to soon. Lord Al's cancer is back and what is ahead of him only You Jesus can help him through. Please be with my friend during this time comfort will be needed.
In Jesus Mighty name. Amen
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Lord
Thank you for this long productive active day. It seems to be coming from all directions sometimes and I know they say you only give what we can handle. But like most; somethings I just don't want to handle. Father guide me through these moments. Days like today feel like everyone just keeps taking everything I have and even though it is not about me. I feel done. I am ready just quit and I don't want to do that. Lord you know my heart you know me. Please guide me; I can't do this running on empty; I can continue in the unknown and really not even know where is it all leading me to. I am ready for a change. I been doing things for a long time for many. I am ready to just step away.
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01/02/2019
Lord thank you for this day; and the moments you allow me to open my eyes and breathe in the newness and promise given for each moment you allow us to rise.
As thoughts wander through my mind so early in the morning and referring back to the old newspaper clippings on what Love Is ....
Lord, Love is having that very moment we are awake in conversation and prayer with you before we roll over and hit the floor. Giving thanks for each new moment. As well as anything, we need to discuss with you. Thank you for allowing me to learn and experience this. Thank you for allowing me to learn what love feels like; and what it feels like when I get caught up in day to day and do not spend enough time with you.
Forgive me father on the days that I sometimes rush through devotionals, or just do not spend that quiet time, as I should. On those days when I realize it after the fact because of the weight that overwhelms me being consumed by the lies of doubt and inability to see things for what they can be in you. Not for what the world thinks or desires. Including myself.
Father; YOUR WILL BE DONE. Please allow me the teachable spirit. No only to learn and serve you and all of your desires. However, to shine and teach others it is okay to accept the peace that only you can give. None of us is too broken, dirty or off reach from you God. May we never forget the love you gave us, with the sacrifice of your son Jesus Christ so we could have abundant life. May we understand our beings you have given us; are for your glory and blessing. That we love and care for ourselves for all that we can be, thanks to you. In addition, not get caught in the trap of being, doing or acting for someone else and what they promise if we can just look, or be what he or she wants us to be. Lord may we acknowledge the blessings we are given; knowing we are enough for you.
Lord as yesterday is a memory; forgive me for allowing the business and needs of all around me; and not spending more time with you, for me and the future of leading by example with you.
In Jesus Calling for January 1, it reads “COME TO ME with a teachable spirit, eager to be changed. A close walk with Me is a life of continual newness. Do not cling to old ways as you step into a new year. Instead, seek My Face with an open mind, knowing that your journey with Me involves being transformed by the renewing of your mind. As you focus your thoughts on Me, be aware that I am fully attentive to you. I see you with a steady eye because My attention span is infinite. I know and understand you completely; My thoughts embrace you in everlasting Love. I also know the plans I have for you; plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Give yourself fully to this adventure of increasing attentiveness to MY Presence.
Romans 12:2 (NIV)2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
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In
Jesus Calling for January 2, it
reads “RELAX IN MY HEALING PRESENCE. As
you spend time with Me, your thoughts tend to jump ahead to today’s plans and
problems. Bring your mind back to Me for
refreshment and renewal. Let the Light
of My presence soak into you as you focus on your thoughts on Me. Thus I equip you to face whatever the day
brings. This sacrifice of time pleases
Me and strengthens you. Do not skimp on
our time together. Resist the clamor of
tasks waiting to be done. You have chosen what tis better, and it will
not be taken away from you.”
Psalm 105:4 (NIV) 4 Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.
Luke
10:39-42 (NIV)39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to
what he said. 40 But
Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to
him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work
by myself? Tell her to help me!” 41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and
upset about many things, 42 but
few things are needed—or indeed only one.[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will
not be taken away from her.”
Psalm 105:4 (NIV) 4 Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.
Thank you Jesus for all you have done to give abundant life for those who want to talk with you.
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01/01/2019
Lord, Thank You for the abilities of sharing truth, kindness, and love.
What I do is far from perfect. But, If just one seed of hope in promise of you is allowed to grow in this world. Use me for your will; as you protect me from myself as I constantly dive right in with good intentions unguarded unguided. Always jumping in and charting off without direction just to do. Yes, Father after Prayer with you, yet I still manage to prove I will always need you!
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No matter what humanity does or does not. Whatever happens or does not to those you care about; that builds happiness or that breaks our hearts because of the choices or relationships we allow ourselves to get caught up in.
Wanting to believe, trust and always see the good in people. Remember the Lord of all the heavens, earth, stars or moon. Will never let you down.
Find the balance and feed into Gods mercy and grace and it will sustain you. It is when you forget and put expectations and hope in to humanity that sometimes has the tendency to break your heart or cause sorts of pain that God would never.
It is a fine line; as we want to love and be loved when we put our hopes into people. Yet everyone has their own agenda and no matter how well you do or don't know people. Only actions speak louder than any words spoke or written. Only in Christ will one ever truly find and receive pure Agape unconditional love.
Father
please send your angels to those who had been in remission for cancer and it is now back in the bones. Please heal the broken hearted that find this time of the season hard to deal with. Please show direction mercy and grace for those who wish to change and walk with you. Please no matter what happens in this new year; May I and all I know cling tightly to you. In your mighty name now and always. Lord I do not need to name names, you know who all these prayers are for. Thank you Amen
