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May 31, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Holy Spirit for living within me; you daily, each day I am allowed up; blessed and allowing me to see and feel and be one more day.
For this even when I am battling the chaos of my mind the chaos of this world; fighting to hold on to all that is real; when so much is distorted, made up and all is temporary.
You God; live within me through your son and spirit. Thank you.
For there are so many hills in valleys in this journey; so much love and beauty; hidden by all that is dark. I am thankful for the blessings I am given. May all that I do all I try to be; be for your glory God.
As I listen to start; may I always listen when to stop. May I only glorify what you lead me through Jesus with the most important aspect to Be Still and know the real you and not that which takes me over by my personal desires, wishing and wanting.
Guide me Father; protect what is yours in all the days you have given.
For I set myself up for failure often; getting over zealous, wanting to be helpful; believing too much in what should not be. Even when you allow me to know, the truth I entangle myself just to be. If this is wrong, forgive me for my sins. Guide me to you Lord; nothing else will matter in the end.
Most days it really does not now. It is what we allow the minds you gave us to believe.
Your will and purpose be done for you what you call us to be.
Thank you for what is, what was and what is to come.
May strength, courage and wisdom through you dear Lord be what lights the path I am to shine forward with, for myself and all those I love dearly.
May the internal battles upon me be guided by you alone Jesus. For I know your wisdom and wise words and where to find what I need. There is no reason for me to be saddened or depressed. Yet I try to believe in so much of what this world can be for personal gains and just for the promise of what could be. Getting caught up and blocking out truth, never really gaining affirmations of what is and what we know is not. May my heart never harden; may the good intent you have put inside me be directed and protected. May the wishing and wanting sleep.
Bless all I am connected for the good and prosper through you alone Jesus. May those things that break your heart harming others be handled with swift justice.
May all come to know you for unity and harmony in this world of so much.
Thank you for this day and this month you have carried me through.
Meditation moments:
2 Thessalonians 3:16 New International Version (NIV) Final Greetings
16 Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and
in every way. The Lord be with all of you.
Job 22:21 New International Version (NIV)
21 “Submit to God and be at peace with him;
in this way prosperity will come to you.
The valley doesn’t scare those who have been dead and brought back to life.
But the heartbreak never stops hurting each time someone feels the need to lie about who they are or what the really want out of life when they connect with you.
No one owes anyone anything but to just keep it real. The truth may hurt but deceit kills any opportunity of trust and without trust there can never be clean hands pure hearts or anything close to Agape love.
Which makes for s very lonely world when you have to stay at arms length because you never know who to trust. So you don’t put yourself in the situations to never need to trust anyone but God himself.
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May 30, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for allowing this tired soul another new day. Yes tired; feeling more than I should some days; or perhaps I never felt enough in my early days and this just where I am supposed to be.
No matter I am blessed and seek your face in all I do; Lord.
There are times when we feel so close to what we believe needs to happen; to someone we think loves us as much or in a way we love them. We think we are right there going to win that earthly prize. Then suddenly we remember why we were allowed on this earth and we see we are really way off base or so very far away.
There are the times I struggle deeply with that which I dream and believing based on reality.
When all you’ve ever had is the hard truth. Dreams are the distant fantasy which taunt you. No matter what the soul seeks. Our souls may fall in love and that will never go away. But it means nothing without Gods blessings and pure hearts clean hands or His chosen in the flesh.
Sadly this life at times is just one big Faith test.
Sometimes there sadly is no energy left to fight the fight or play the game of life. When we are not sure what we are here for. As everything we thought we knew was so clear; yet we seek and search and the answers to fill that need or desire are empty and leave us with no energy to play the game any longer.
Long ago I asked Jesus to take the wheel of this vessel. Lead my ways; His will within all I think I need to scheme up, or tap into. Be it helping others or thinking I am doing something good for myself.
Though I may never understand; and have deep desires, needs and wants. Though it pains me heavily; oh how I see and hear of so many suffering and losing an unfair game or fight of this world.
I am reminded we may have the blessing of freedom and will to do what we think we need, or best for our futures. But He our God; will give and take away as he sees fit.
Sometimes it makes perfect sense and many times it does not and pretty much destroys who we think we are.
All the time; God allow us to lay down in the fetal position and digress, or get back up and start over in the new normal with everything about Him flowing through our veins.
When He allows significant change; removing those we always loved and trusted from our lives; He either needs them back or He is protecting us from something that will do more harm and damage his purpose.
Forever I ask Jesus to take and keep the wheel of this vessel; directing my every step. It is the only truth I know to survive this day to day journey I am left in this grand universe.
I know the spiritual battle has already been won. I believe in all that is and is yet to come. I know God would not have sacrificed his one and only son to let this world waste away. Not when it is written and been for more time than I will ever fathom.
Jesus is the only truth to survive this day to day.
There is not enough money, enough service enough anything I can do for anyone or anyone can do for me. None of us will ever be enough when it comes to the glory of our great God.
Stop chasing what is temporary and grab hold of what is eternal.
Being a part of this world hurts; it has for at least 47 of the 57 years I have been allowed to travel through.
No matter what our heart desires; if it is not with a pure heart clean hands and God in mind. It will destroy you; and if you are pure but those you surround yourself with are not. You will fill the unfortunate ripple as what is temporary comes to pass.
Remember how to choose the meaningful in your physical and spiritual life and not over what becomes urgent and consumes you.
Not everyone or everything that weighs heavy in our hearts that appear to be truly a blessing are really in your corner. And not every blessing will be easily found or in your sight when we see everything through the eyes of the world. And not for what it really is.
Please Lord; never let me go, no matter what I can or cannot have or experience in this world. Please send your angels of mercy, protection and grace and surround all I love and care for. Guide them through accountability with and through you. In your mighty precious name Lord. Amen
Meditation moments:
Psalm 119:27 New International Version (NIV)
27 Cause me to understand the way of your precepts, that I may
meditate on your wonderful deeds.
2 Chronicles 16:9 New International Version (NIV)
9 For the eyes of the Lord
range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed
to him. You have done a foolish thing, and from now on you will be at war.”
Hebrews 13:15 New International Version (NIV)
15 Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a
sacrifice of praise—the fruit of lips that openly profess his name.
May 29, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus, for this new day!
As I realize time is the most important thing any of us have to give. As we will never be able to get the time we give away or allow others to take.
We build memories or run from painful experiences. No matter the good or bad; time and what we choose to do with it; is the most valuable asset you allow.
We cannot live in regret for what was; what could have or should have been. We cannot chase the future, for only you Father knows what is to come.
Guilty myself; wasting and worrying about what to do with things I do not understand. When Jesus all you want is that our souls to be in perfect peace and harmony with you.
The world and all it has to throw at and around us; layers up easily without even trying. Caught up chasing our own demons; or running from them when we realize where we are in this world. Sometimes we bring things on ourselves; sometimes we trust too much; sometimes we do not trust enough. In any event; we somehow forget to hold you Jesus closer than we hold anything of this world.
You give and take away. I pray your will and understanding; for the light of only what Gods promises hold. For each time I put all I have into what is in this world without you God; well I am tapped out.
Broken, alone; feeling what I miss, feeling what I never had; feeling what is yet to come. It is only you that has kept me when I was in the darkest places and will only be you that the brightest gifts come from. May I or anyone I am connected never forget where our blessings come from and what is truly important in the survival of this world.
For it is not what is on the outside that we strive for; but what God truly designed us to be from the inside out. All the precious moments we create; all the talents we choose to use or throw away; all the peace we should be shining dulled by what this chaotic world says and does.
God has more; is more and wants more for us and from us. Yet his blessing of freedom of will and choice leaves our next steps we are given in our own hands.
As I try to understand my own direction; praying for guidance and blessings for my children and their children; for friends and loved one’s. I can only hope that each time I get it wrong; the door of God’s mercy and grace never closes on what is and what could be for me and all I am connected.
Meditation moments:
Matthew 1:23 New International Version (NIV)
23 “The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and they will
call him Immanuel”[a] (which
means “God with us”).
Colossians 2:6-7 New International Version (NIV) Spiritual Fullness in Christ
6 So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to
live your lives in him, 7 rooted and built up in him,
strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with
thankfulness.
Father forgive me for my lack of trust in this world. As the elements consume even the best intentions leaving unbalanced loyalty. We become selfish and selfless for so many reasons none of which are God Breathed.
We think we are on point as we try to survive pains and situations we find ourselves hurt by or caught up in. Be it a perfect stranger or the love of what we thought to be our lives. Some bury the burdens by doing everything they can to get ahead. Others medicate, while others try to do everything to help their way to you.
Yet the reasons why are not necessary the fact you are and always have been there is what matters. Jesus loyalty and love is you.
So why do we have such lacking of unity and such love when we believe in you Father God.
The willingness to pause and take what you ordained. When I’m a world where everyone wants something. Me my Forever when my forever is you. To trust and obey is all I have had left for a very long time. I fail daily and am easily taken in believing what others tell me until I learn differently. Actions speak louder than words; so true. How else do we affirm and protect those we love and care for.
Forgive me father as I miss the mark. You know all things. You know what next. Please guide and protect all I can be. All I love all I am connected. Please have mercy on this nation. Please bless all I care for. Heal us a Jesus show me the way for what should be next.
May 28, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Something about being 30 thousand miles up in the sky and able to write about it As I am blessed to be flying above the clouds; God puts everything in perspective immediately as you look out those windows and really know whose you are. Be it the first or the next flight or even the last. Gods is in control of all things.
Thank you Jesus for the ability to understand this and know the blessings I am given.
No matter what I hope for no matter what I achieve no matter what happens with or to those I love and adore. You Lord are and always will be what sustains me.
For this I am forever grateful and I know no matter what is or is not. You will forever hold me as one of your chosen. Nothing can or will change this. Please be with all I love and care for.
Meditation moments:
1 Timothy 6:15 New International Version (NIV)
15 which God will bring about in his own time—God, the blessed and
only Ruler, the King of kings and Lord of lords,
James 4:8 New International Version (NIV)
8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands,
you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
Acts 17:28 New International Version (NIV)
28 ‘For in him we live and move and have our being.’[a]
As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’[b]
Psalm 145:3-6 New International Version (NIV)
3 Great is the Lord and
most worthy of praise;
his greatness no one can fathom.
4 One generation commends your works to another;
they tell of your mighty acts.
5 They speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty—
6 They tell of the power of your awesome works—
and I will proclaim your great deeds.
May 27, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for this day.
Lord thank you for allowing the Holy Spirit to live within me; as I could never be who I am today without you.
Wanting so much, yet never giving up or giving in.
Hating goodbyes, painfully torn inside. Be it this visit or deep within my soul. I am barely able not to just break down in tears and cry.
From the relationships worlds apart or those I am here visiting. All are dear to my heart. You have given me so very much; even when in some people’s lives I will never be enough.
Jesus, it is your will and love I seek. I had to give it allowing it, long ago to just be about me.
I pray your will Father God; may your Holy Spirit be what guides my every step. Keep me from reacting, guiding my thoughts, my words and all my steps and actions.
Thank you for the blessings you give me, every day you allow me up and running.
Guide my next steps where it comes to these words to my writing; to my connections. As I hate some of what I feel; as I long for somethings different. May your mercy and grace be what shines through each day you allow me breath in this vast world that consumes me.
Most importantly, please Father be with all those I hold dearest to my heart.
Thank you for the moments I have had. No matter what, they will forever be within my soul. In your precious mighty name. Amen
Meditation moments:
Psalm 27:8 New International Version (NIV)
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, Lord, I will seek.
Romans 13:14 New International Version (NIV)
14 Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.[a]
Colossians 3:12 New International Version (NIV)
12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.
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May 26, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for these moments for this new day you have given.
As I lay here in the fetal position alone in the darkness, there is a comfort knowing you knitted me together in my mother’s womb so long ago. It does not matter if it were in a bound marriage, extra affair or that of someone taking her beyond her will.
I am who I am because of you Jesus. In death, there is life. To be first, one must be last and to remain pure and not caught up in this world; we must sacrifice and do without. Lord you know my boundaries. You know there is much I just cannot do on my own. Please show me the way.
All my days I have always been on the outside looking in; never really knowing why until two years ago when you allowed me to know. No matter what the truth is how I arrived on this planet; no matter what the scars are that I have buried deep; it is you Jesus that give the deep lasting peace within this soul.
For so long you have sustained me. It is you, which allowed my soul to connect; it is you, which allow me to feel and deal with emotions of the future, emotions of the past. It is you that no matter what else ever comes to be and holds true; it will always be you, which brings me through. There is never going to be enough thanks on my part or service I can do to give back to you Father God. Yet, I ask you to show me my path you wish me to take, guiding my words, my ways, and all I come to know. May all I ever come to be pleasing and serve your will.
Father I ask you be with the aging parents of this world; especially mine. I ask for your will, guidance mercy and grace for all I am related and all those I have grown to love. Friends of a lifetime or just those that truly moved me in just moments of time. I pray for your hedge of protection around all of our children in this world; and that all the evil be with swift justice. Even if I may never live to see such a thing. I pray for my Sweet Soul King, Lord no matter who, no matter where. May they have peace and abilities to glorify your name any and everywhere shining brightly, for the remainder of their days; Leading people, leading me letting all know; no matter what; with you all will always be okay.
When you believe; when you envision; when you are true and pure. There is no greater love than that of the Father of who you are, my forever and always; the alpha and omega; the light in the darkness. The comfort that holds me close when no one ever will.
Please heal the broken hearted as you have mine. Please be with those who need you, want you, are lost from you. Please hear all the unspoken cries. Judge all those imposters, building worlds upon lies.
You remind me as this morning as I am reading my “Jesus Calling Enjoying Peace I His Presence “by “Sarah Young” after which I found your comfort knowing no matter what you will always be with me. No matter what my hearts desires or my soul yearns for. All things that come in this life are because of you; and you will never do me harm.
You father let me know again the following. “IN A WORLD of unrelenting changes, I am the One who never changes. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End. Find in Me the stability for which you have yearned. I created a beautifully ordered world; one that reflects My perfection. Now, however, the world is under the bondage of sin and evil. Every person on the planet faces gaping jaws of uncertainty. The only antidote to this poisonous threat is drawing closer to Me. In My Presence you can face uncertainty with perfect Peace.”
Meditation moments:
Revelation 22:13 New International Version (NIV) 13 I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.
John 16:33 New International Version (NIV) 33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
Thank you Father for this day; please be with those I care about and please be with me in whatever is to come next.
May 25, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Father for this day; thank you Jesus for allowing the spirit to dwell within me; within us. I pray all my intentions are pleasing to you God. Though we know good intentions sometimes cause the chaos we live; sometimes the intentions always start out and well meant; however at times turn out to be for the wrong reasons.
Thank you for the freedom of will; freedom of choice and most importantly; a moral compass for no matter what happens I always try to remain accountable and own whatever the outcome.
You have taught me how to adapt to the new normal in my journey. May all I am connected learn their worth and never take you for granted.
Healing of all elements that seek to hurt and destroy us is all in your father Jesus. May we confess to you and turn our eyes on Him.
As I, as we are stepping through the wreckage and walking forward may your love, mercy and grace shine abundantly for all others to see. May we be the lighthouse during the dense fog that clouds our path and vision within the journey we call life.
May we always remember less is more and pain in purity leads not to sorrow but to healing and ever after that, nothing this world will ever be able to give.
For those who judge; let them be judged openly so they may remember who you are as well Father. For we shall not stand by and watch harm take place; but we may never get caught up in the ways this world so easily entangles us.
May the daily thoughts that fill me flow through what must be finished and grow into what is not yet started! May all in need seek you and their hearts and minds be saved before more innocence is lost.
Lord; you are all I know that I am able to trust; you have never left my side even before ever coming to know you. May I never let go of you; may I learn to believe in love for what you have given. May the days this mind fades never lose sight of you and all you are to be for those who seek you. Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice; thank you for the talents and gifts you have given every soul in this world. Thank you for my family, friends, those I love and am connected; and those I have not yet met. May your will and blessing be upon and with them always and throughout eternity!
Forgive me for that which I make things and should not; forgive me for the inability to make things I try and cannot; forgive me for not knowing the difference of what I should understand when torn between the two.
Please guard my heart, guide my steps and give the words I am to write or say. In Jesus, name Amen
The beauty is always in you Father God!
Meditation moments:
Isaiah 41:10 New International Version (NIV)
10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Zephaniah 3:17 New International Version (NIV)
17 The Lord your God is with you,
the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with singing.”
Psalm 34:19 New International Version (NIV)
19 The righteous person may have many troubles,
but the Lord delivers him from them all;
Thank you Father for this day; from caring souls checking in with me; to a beautiful 3.5 mile hike in your plush beauty of Pebbles Island State Park with waterfalls, an eagle, woodchucks and dear all within the trails through the woods we walked. Thank you for the beautiful blessing of my daughter-in-law who loves and cares for my son.
Thank you for the ability to see my mother and the man that has been Pops for a very long time. Thank you for the great conversation and food with friends and family this evening. And even that most wonderful glass of sangria that just added the extra layer to relax and appreciate the moments.
May memories of love and laughter continue to be created in this journey; and as I am now back in writing mode; may your will and not my own be done. As I think how much I miss unity and what it feels like always remaining alone.
In your precious name Lord no matter what; thank you for this day.
May 24, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for this new day. As I find myself so often by the ends of my day sometimes just wore, out or wore down. I know how it really could be if I did not start my days with you. Many may never understand this bound that I cannot live without. Nor does it matter when it comes down to it.
It can be painful at times when we try to communicate with others; or even when we think of our loved ones and them not having a personal relationship with you God. However, on this morning I am thankful for knowing you have chosen me as a daughter to the most high.
As my travels around the area where I am at yesterday reminded me of your vast power and beauty. Watching all the 100-foot plus huge trees, and deep plush greenery with all those beautiful large homes. Some very tattered and aged others so well kept. I think how blessed so many have been to have the talents to create and play with the natural landscape you have given them.
My imagination leads me into what the garden of our hearts would look like walking with you Jesus. Clearly I know physical means will never be the answer to the on-going spiritual battles. May I never forget when things are hard to always pray harder.
What was the Garden of Eden back in the beginning of times was like. Bold and bright full of love radiating your love and abundance. Just as back then how quickly we forget coming out of the beauty when we let the mind’s eye take over leading us into seeing those things that lead us to what sometimes is not enough, or darkness amongst the trees.
Jesus thank you for allowing me to come home and see family; thank you for reminding me why I left where I am and you have placed me where I currently reside. Thank you for all of those I love and care for, even if my inability to just be still and not do anything. I pray you are doing it all around me, with me and I am aware when you are doing it through me.
Your greatness is far beyond my understanding; so much, I will never understand in this walk; just as I will never really be able to have anyone understand me and why I do the things I do at times. I know you are and forever will be in control.
Lord, as I really am here to just pause, with you and regain the strength only you give me. Realign the path of this heart. I thank you for the awareness that our choices and what we do with the lives you give us truly matter.
I like so many others of this world; will always have wants I cannot achieve or have. Yet I am blessed beyond all deserving you have given me a moral compass, you have given me purpose and you Father God have given me love, mercy and grace that only you can.
The desires deep within this soul are pure; this is true; but my Jesus I am nothing and can do nothing without you. Please guide my words, actions and steps. May the times I need to be silent be the light that shines you brightest and may that light direct all I connect back to you Father?
As I go through day or night, how I am reminded “ The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions” just as Heaven is full of good meanings and good works” (Article written about te proverb/aphorsim for the 2009 song by (In Fear and Faith)”
May I never confuse either or be derailed when it comes to you Jesus. May no matter who I speak with or to, may their opinions or beliefs ever cause me to walk away from you just because I care about them.
May I never stop loving and caring about those I am connected be it my blood or those given as a blessing. As I know how easy it is to just deal with my own worldly path. How easy it would be to never get involved or care to listen. May I never be that person. Guard my heart, guard my steps.
Thank you for this day Father. Lord, may your spirit never leave me; always be with me and all those I care for; may your angels of mercy guide me to you no matter the distance or anywhere.
Meditation moments:
Genesis 3:8 (NIV) 8 Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden.
Psalm 89:15 (NIV) 15 Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you,
who walk in the light of your presence, Lord.
Romans 12:10 (NIV) Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves.
05/23/2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Lord thank you for this new day; thank you for the travels that I embark upon. Jesus may no matter where I start out or no matter where I finish in my daily journey; may I always be within your view, will and constant presence.
The thoughts come to mind this morning of how often are we tied to the earthly shackles; how many times we find ourselves chasing people, places and things they cannot have.
Finding ourselves wanting things just to have them becoming collectors; forgetting not to build up treasures for others to try and take. Sometimes even at the expense and harm of others. And for what purpose I wonder. Just because some of us can or just because we want what others have until we actually get it.
Thinking about how much we take, we waste and then we never give back to those in need. Thinking even how our society has turned so quick to judge, filled with hate or anger against things that should not matter. What about our children; I wrote something on long back; and even now times have not changed. Our babies lost to drugs; caught up violent gangs; our families turned against one another. Not all; but enough to count the losses. How many tears must God be shedding for how we treat and harm one another.
Worse yet when we are out here doing harm with such hate because we look different, we speak different, we dress different.
Father you made us all in your image; yet uniquely bound with talents and love. You give us all mercy and grace beyond anything we deserve. Yet we miss the mark when it comes to what it means to prosper and love in you, with you on this planet.
So this heart Lord; this heart that feels much of so many things I have no control over; some that really should not be even on my mind. I pray for the future of our children. I pray that my blood, anyone I am connected or, myself or anyone else never reflects such hate and animosity to do harm in anyway.
Just as I pray protection, guidance mercy and grace for all. Prayers of healing physically, emotionally for all I or those I care for may be going through. Lord may we all learn to just be with you.
Father as I start my journey today, and that which will come over these few days; seeing family and friends of the past or new connections of the future. I pray that if there is anything that I leave behind or reflect lasting, that it be the seeds be planted and something will grow and spark of you.
I ask Jesus that you guide me in this time of clearing away what chokes up this mind at times; guide me and all that I am, all that I can be for what may be ahead.
I will never get it right according to the worlds standards, but I so hope what I am and do will always be pleasing too you alone.
That I myself, never do harm physically or verbally to any I am allowed. I pray restoration, healing and abundant blessings in your name Jesus.
You know me, Heart and Soul; you know me before and after. May I never lose my way in desires of the flesh or chasing anyone or anything that is not of you Lord; please protect all I love. In your mighty precious name Jesus. Amen
Meditation moments:
Colossians 2:2-3 Amplified Bible (AMP)
2 [For my hope is] that their hearts may be encouraged as they
are knit together in [unselfish] [a]love, so that
they may have all the riches that come from the full assurance of understanding
[the joy of salvation], resulting in a true [and more intimate] knowledge of
the [b]mystery of
God, that is, Christ, 3 in whom are hidden all the
treasures of wisdom and knowledge [regarding the word and purposes of God].
Isaiah 33:6 Amplified Bible (AMP)6
And He will be the security and stability of your times,
A treasure of salvation, wisdom and knowledge; The fear of the Lord is your treasure.
Psalm 23:4 (NIV)
4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
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May 22, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Jehovah-Jireh, my faithful provider
Jehovah-Yeshua who saved me long ago.
Thank you for this day; this journey; and new opportunities every moment I am allowed up.
Thank you for allowing me to push through when things are not what I dream up they should be. The world will always have vultures and thieves with intentions of harm and taking for their own personal gain. Yet you Father will judge all things. From children that are harmed to that of just the world and all it brings. Thank you for allowing me to be me.
Thank you for allowing me to be there for so many when I have had enough. Thank you for getting me up and keeping me motivated; when so often I just want to quit and hide in a desert somewhere.
If it were not for you Ever Almighty; so much beauty, and hope of this world; in and for a future of myself and loved ones would have been missed. Thank you for the blessings and the lessons I am given.
I am far from where I need to be; lacking so much. Yet you allowed me gifts to prosper as a woman without sacrificing virtues or beliefs. You allowed me strength when scars of childhood and misdeeds of youth would never let me go. You allowed me superficial love of all; when I could not be near anyone.
Your love father God is beyond all understanding; as are the things you show me.
From a ten year old living under the influence to a soul who is high on you Jesus; is truly beyond anything I will ever know.
Thank you for the faith in me that allows me to love you, love myself and others without expectations or harm. Thank you for allowing me to let go of the hits when others have a way of making you feel like we are not enough. Not enough in who we are; what we can do; and what we mean to them.
I do not and may never understand when things change of this world; I do not comprehend what you put deep within this soul, but I know you have and always will be with me.
From a fearless child walking in the woods with a stranger, to a woman telling you it is good everything was in order take me while it was understandable during a 4 hour surgery.
To a few months after convincing a girlfriend who hated rides to get on that first roller coaster ride to prove there was no fear and knew I was truly alive.
From the beating in my chest full of anguish when those I was allowed to grow close to moved on; or the racing of this heart full of love and dreams for what is stirring within me.
God you are all I have; my hope, my dreams my plans no matter how tough or easy this journey seems on any given day. You have been there! People, places and things will always come and go; but it is your blood that flows and allows this life.
Thank you Father God for allowing Jesus to take the wheel long ago; knowing this broken being would always give it her best shot and always want to help; but always struggle with trusting this world. You have allowed me to never give up the fight.
No matter how much sleep I may lose day or night; no matter what is going on around me or out of sight. You allow me to never no matter how much I want; to give up this fight.
I will never understand the world and all the wrongs or the rights; but I thank you for giving me a life.
Prayers for all the unspoken needs; for all those I am connected, for all that is within me. May your saving grace be the healing, guidance; and only your will in the days to come. Courage and strength for all; their battle will be overcome.
Thank you Jesus for shedding your blood; please be with all I deeply love. No matter if they get you or not; I know these blessings are from you and our God from far above.
Meditation moments:
Galatians 5:13 (NIV)[ Life by the Spirit ] You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love.
1 Peter 5:6 (NIV)6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.
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May 21, 2019
Weekly Cruising with Kelly Thoughts along the ride:
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2229722577120226/?t=1
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for all you are; all you have done and all that is to come.
May my words never seem shallow; may they never seem ungrateful; may they never harm anyone.
For the days that swirl torment around this mind where I am so done with the world; are not from lack of blessings.
But that of matters of the heart and deep within this soul; for those scars that have become part of me forever; for the deepest desires to know what love really feels like in human form. To get caught up doing over and over even for what you think is the good. Yet; never really knowing, never really feeling, never really tasting and seeing what you know can be.
Jesus; your living water sustains those who wish to drink from your cup. Those who wish to die to self to live for you. How can it be one has done this; out of nowhere these matters of the heart come to life? Yes I am human, far from any strength or steadfast being that you have and forever will be.
This battlefield is it not like walking on the fence. Is not being deeply rooted in your father Jesus; knowing all that is and is to come. Yet serving this secular world and doing the balancing act.
Living up to all the expectations of the world; sure good at what you do; respect and superficially loved by many. However, it does not stop the over whelming heaviness as you are walking away feeling so empty at the end of each day.
Sure good things are being done; sure here and there you are allowed to say something that helps. Yet like being on the edge looking six feet down even if you jumped you could not reach what is missing.
It is not supposed to be this way; I was never supposed to think or start dreaming of my forever sweet soul king. I was never supposed to start this internal journey questioning what my eternity will be like. I in my human form in Christ was not supposed to allow my soul to leak out just because of what is or what is not.
I can come up with excuses; attitudes; dive in as I always have working myself under; serving and giving. Yet; it is that what God has the answers for that can only be answered. It is that which in His time shall be set free; it is that which I already have, yet just cannot not see; for all the twists and turns this mind takes when I have too much time to think.
Jesus thank you for this life; thank you for coming and getting me; from that day I jumped up and realized I finally got it; or back in1995 when I cried out dropping to my knees. So long ago; yet still fresh for this mind’s eye to see. What is it you want from me? I am yours there is no doubt, please guide me; direct me send me your angel to watch over and lead me. Stop this madness; this Love beyond all space and time. Where is my keeper; who is my Sweet Soul King? What are these footsteps I am to take Jesus and who with are these next travels to be? For I know as time passed, things changing much done and more to do. I know this is not about me; but the mission is all about you.
May all of who I am, be worthy, be guided, be in your will. Show me, lead me. And please clear this mind; remove me from this torment that at times can be a living hell. I have been here long enough.
Meditation moments:
Romans 8:31 (NIV) More Than Conquerors
31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is
for us, who can be against us?
Micah 7:7 (NIV) 7 But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord,
I wait for God my Savior;
my God will hear me.
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May 20, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for allowing me time and not just jump up; hitting the floor and run as I do daily. Thinking I have it all figured out for the day and just taking off. Thank you for helping me back up each time I crash because I did not take you with me. Thank you for being okay when many times I am not.
Thank you for allowing me the freedom of choice to choose to be with you first before taking on anything in this world daily. Thank you for your forgiveness; when I rarely get it right and things do not go as they should for you Jesus; or that I am connected.
All these things constantly in my head; all the desires of one’s heart can mean nothing Lord if I do not have your blessing and walking with me.
May all I love, all I am to connect with; all I come to know, be in you Jesus. No matter how lonely or hard this world gets; may I never step out of your will and lose your blessings. More importantly may I never be what cause others to fall. May my loyalty always be truth, respect and filled with your love Father God. You are and always will be ever almighty.
Lord you know the various conversations I have had recently; may you give me the words of wisdom and guidance in the coming days. Be with our young hearts that are out here thinking they are ready to conquer this world. Father they have no clue what is ahead.
May they forget the pride we all carry; may they cling and remember whose they are before they make those next decisions.
For all the unspoken prayers Jesus; thank you. Be with us all on this day and always. Amen.
Thank you Lord for getting me through this long day.
Oh how living out faith in this world is so hard. God show me you got this and all I am or can be.
I am not one much for sitting in place and not being able to get up and move; well it weighs heavy on me. My mind does overtime thinking about why do I do what I do. Of course I know right at this moment but the domino effect right.
This mind is like a battlefield at times that just has to be filled and consumed with all that is good. That is so hard when you cannot be productive or turn things off.
I was almost there in my journey; I could have started to plan for a more meaningful productive plan for my future. Now because of who I am; I am starting over under the sledge hammer again.
Will there ever be an end in sight that I can just breathe in and see your beauty for more than a passing moment. Like the butterflies that come and get trapped; I see the release, I see the beauty and it all dies in front of me because I am too trusting; to caring; to giving.
This journey is so torn; like the song feeling naked on the floor; feeling like I am slowly bleeding out. In a world that consumes us and spits us out like rotting flesh. How days like today the mind reminds me how letting our guard down; how easily we are out there on that ledge when you want to do and see the good in everything; everyone. Is it the being alone; is it the just weary for always being the one who has for years stepped up and stepped in no questions asked; What is it that is fighting me so hard on these days my mind is left to twist and tangle.
The deep needed desire to love and feel loved; God you were enough for so very long; what has happened to change that. Why?
I wanna go back where things matter Jesus; I do not know if they ever really did in my life; but I know there is a place out there. Like the songs; I know love changes everything.
I do not get how the day can start out so beautiful with your canvas all around; tunes on the radio to remind us there is a new day on the horizon. And by the end of the day you’re left drained and truly on your own with nothing but the responsibilities you stepped up for and into. Going through the motions is like walking through what started out as a bed of roses; and you awake and realize you are surrounded by cactus. This world is a fallacy; never has it been a bed of roses; in fact there are more thorns than ever before. Leaving you to feel alone and bleeding out. Wishing you could believe the beautiful things you hear are for you, wishing you could just touch pure love instead left coming unglued; wishing and wanting.
I know I should be letting others take care of their own and be truly solely dedicated to you Lord.
Yet; here am I battling this mind. You God know all things that cause this to transpire. When all I need is truth; no excuses or why. Please be with me Father. I know what I need to do; please let me just get through and step up for you. Nothing more, without an end in sight. Nothing that is not pure and true.
Is it just me; I wonder; how many of us are there that are here at this moment in time. Man does it suck to feel like you have no room to breathe; but do you really have a life?
It’s more like no one to share it with that you know you will have in the end. Anyway I am feeling it so I am stopping while I am ahead. Lord you know all things.
Please bring justice and healing for all in need; guide my ways, my steps and my heart. In your precious name and all that you are. May I direct all I am for you now and always.
Meditation moments:
1 John 1:7 (NIV) 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all[a] sin
Isaiah 61:10 (NIV)
10 I delight
greatly in the Lord;
my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of
his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a
bride adorns herself with her jewels.
John 8:12 (NIV) Dispute Over Jesus’ Testimony
12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of
the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the
light of life.”
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May 19, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for this day; thank you for the abilities and the moral compass you have given me in this journey along the way. These waking thoughts; knowing even without in this life; you have guided my path and pulled me from harm; guided my every step. I could have been one of the unfortunate souls; lost in another time and place
I could have been a statistic even with sometimes getting caught up in life’s games. You have truly shielded me from the elements that could have destroyed me. Sometimes I feel like that building still standing after the giant earthquake.
Alone; tattered and gray; but you keep getting me up each and every day.
I truly do not know what I am to do; what is coming next. I just know Jesus there is no greater love than you. I pray for all I cannot say; I pray for all well you know; I do not even need to have words to say.
Lord please heal and protect my brothers and sisters; my children, your children every soul along my way.
Forgive them Father; I swear they really have no clue what they are doing; they are trapped in this world; this game. May all your children shine lights brightly; leading the direction to your promise land; filling them with hope; abundant love only your mercy and grace.
And if not; give us all the right words and lead us; to lead the way. Forgive us; forgive me when I want so badly; and you just want me to be saved.
Meditation moments:
1 Corinthians 13:12 (NIV)
12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see
face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully
known.
Psalm 29:11 (NIV) 11 The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace.
Soul Moments:
Midnight Thoughts
In the land of hopelessness it is God’s love that sees us through. We try deeply to believe in what we cannot see. Yet all we are allowed is that which cannot be. My prayers begged and pleaded; for such a better life for our world and me.
They call that something like eternity; that place I wish to seek. Where there are streets of gold; forever living kings and queens bound by the soul. No more tears of deceit. Never a need to ever leave or go
Sounds so beautiful, truthful, a romance that will never be found growing old. That place where the good Lord’s overwhelming mercy and grace I will someday live in that place; located beyond all space and time.
For this weary, mind on earth; this body growing old has a greater ending which is walking with Jesus as my story will unfolds.
Meditation moments:
James 3:17 -18 (NIV) But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace reap a harvest of righteousness.
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May 18, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for this day; thank you for the lessons in life I am given.
Lord for the one true lesson I have learned over my time and the hard way; is we may love and adore many people places and things of this world. But you Jesus are the only truth and love when it comes to the facts.
As I am guilty of sometimes loving others from the distance unconditionally with deep thoughts and desires to truly know what it would be loved by and with them. Loving my family yet holding expectations; of wanting all that is good for them.
We all have our own reasons for what we call love. This world has become that of which we care not unless there is something to achieve; something tangible in the end. And when that stops or does not come. We just walk away as if it never existed in the first place.
Father it is like one huge chess game of the world. We are all pawns in this walk; but how badly we are taken out; well it depends on what we get ourselves into. It depends if we allow our self to care. Life has made me just an overplayed out of time with no hidden intent or moves chess piece.
I get knocked down and out every time I care; when all I seek is truth. No one has ever owed me anything. For I have always thrived being able to help, love on others and it gave me purpose to continue on.
Father; faith is living and believing in what is unseen.
What happens to when you put all you have into what is unseen and it seems to not be enough. What happens with those who believe faith is what they receive or can see. What happens to those who really try but do not know you and struggle to go on because they have nothing tangible and they are used up or use others up?
I was made for in this world, to serve; yet over time; and perhaps I am feeling my stripes much more this day. I do not know how to manage and maintain and not care. And truthfully I just do not want to feel any more Jesus.
I cannot lock myself away; I still have to survive in this world; I am still trying to lead the way for the blessings of the blood line you have given me. Yet my heart breaks more at times when I realize; it does not matter who we are, what we do, when people want something they will say or do whatever it is until they get it. I don’t have time for catch and release relationships. Either let me know my journey and serve or keep those who are close forever with me.
Be it me or someone else; to watch people pretend to care in life just for own personal gains. Destroys all hope in my path and breaks this heart. Why after all this time it still bothers me; be it in real life or that in a movie.
Lord I so wish you would come. Be with those Father please; going through it. Be with those out there seeking their own sweet soul prince or princesses. May the world know you are the only one true King~
Be with those broken in spirit; broken physically. Forgive me father for my foolish heart and thoughts that lead me misdirected and broken. Forgive me for missing the point, the mark the way for others when my ignorance just is not awakened to know enough or do enough.
May your will be done Jesus; in all things; in all or any connection my walk takes me on.
May your angels of mercy, grace place the wall of protection around all that I am; all that I care about.
May whatever this storm in my own personal being; make me stronger and help others; and not shut me down.
Guide and protect my children; my grandchildren and all your children Father God; no matter who they are and where they are in this world.
May your will, in all those I serve with be exemplified and show the glory of who you are Father God. In all things; please guide and protect all that I am. Amen
Meditation moments:
John 4:24 (NIV)
24 God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and
in truth.”
Isaiah 55:8-9 (NIV)
8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
Hebrews 13:16
And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with
such sacrifices God is pleased.
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May 17, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord, for the waking thoughts you give me this day. May I never forget it is you that always is and will be; in this world that is ever changing.
In a world where we forget often; do much we should not, chasing people, places and things that often turn out broken or discarded; or break us and toss us away as we did not matter.
Remember our God is the only Ever Almighty throughout time and Eternity.
Oh how hearts are break when those we put our trust in, let us down. When we promise ourselves to another forever and years go by and someone quits giving up and moving on. Sometimes they have the decency to talk through the decisions they make others they just do whatever until things are horribly broken.
We put all we have at times into things, places, and people in general. We hold grand expectations without even thinking. We forget even when we walk with you Lord; It is you we should always keep first; always hold everything to. As you always have been and always will be the only everlasting almighty being worthy of anything this universe has to offer.
How we forget; to live simply; appreciate even the smallest anomaly that occurs in our lives as a blessing. How often do we look past the beautiful butterfly or nature? How often as we are getting out of our cars walking in our homes do we have some sort of expectation; thinking everything is a certain way; and feeling deflated when things just are not as we walk in and look around.
Why is it we do not put all of those expectations into the God who has created all things. Why do we crave, want, desire chase so much of this world. Why do we so easily toss things to the wayside when we can no longer find use for them?
Why do we want people in our lives and as soon we find something or someone better; or can no longer get something from them; many are so quick to discard the relationship?
Why is it we cannot figure out the difference in advance of what is really is a relationship and what are just actions of a taker and a giver?
In this land of abundance like children in a candy store with too much. We forget who we are, who we are meant to be. We forget you Jesus; the one true love and sacrifice so we can walk through eternity with our ever almighty Lord, Savior, God, and Creator.
Our forever and Ever Almighty Jehovah-Jireh! The faithful provider and the one true peacemaker; he who fills this world with signs and wonders.
May we remember you; when all others turn their backs on us.
May we never put you second, place, second best. May we never forget when things are at the lowest; you bring us to the highest points of our human lives.
Jesus; May the thanks and praise be yours forever; if not for you; we would not be.
In this world of much; may we always know to walk in the will and obedience of you God; always.
Please guide us; show us our worth without all the frills we are required to display in this mindset.
Thank you for this day; thank you for this journey; please forgive me for all I transgress or let down as I do my best to walk with you.
Meditation moments:
Philippians 4:19 (NIV)
19 And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his
glory in Christ Jesus.
2 Corinthians 5:7 (NIV)
7 For we live by faith, not by sight.
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May 16, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord!
I am up, slightly amused waking to the beast that somehow ended up in my bed all night. I am ready to do what I can with what I am given.
I pray your will throughout this day and every day you allow. I pray guidance for my steps, my words and my actions. I thank you for another opportunity in this world.
As time is flying by I mentally prepare for the up and coming days; plans to visit my family I have not see in what seems forever; plans in my mind playing over various scenarios. You know, the what to expect when I get to my aging parents place.
Those expectations of the weather what to bring as I like to travel light; yet it is still cold even for folks who are use to it; not me. I left freezing and cold a long time ago. Bad enough to have been fighting life’s elements fight alone, until I really came to meet Jesus and continually try and learn and love God; but in freezing temperatures going out and driving on horrible roads back then; well life is 210% different now with God at my side then it ever was and now I just plan for winds and rain as I traded freezing sleet, ice and snow for hurricane seasons. The plus side; the beautiful sky and sunshine even if gets hot; I can jump in a pool, stay in the AC or tough it out and absorb beautiful nature.
So planning ahead; some may consider worry. I can assure you when I lose sleep at night over things I cannot grasp or understand that scare the hell out of me; then I will surely let you know I am worried. I am not worried one bit of my up and coming visit or what I may find. Life is what it is; and I just like to have somewhat plans and know what is ahead. I am far from in control of much; but I do like to keep myself in a safe positive spin and not have unrealistic visions. So when something is going wrong I am not burying myself to get it right again.
We all have our quirks we all have our internal agenda’s that help us tick through the day.
For me there is no worry going home soon; in fact the opportunity to love on family; then get some quiet time back in my room to pick up on that manuscript collecting more dust is what this I am allowed shall be.
Plans; God willing, spending some much needed quiet time with Him. Trying to understand what next; yes even with the Father I do this.
I could say my always thinking and trying to see what is next is this how I ended up as an IT Quality Assurance Tester for my career and then a Project Manager. This nature somehow engrained into me.
That was not planned I assure you. Nor was I ever worried even when in college as to what I would finally end up doing once I learned something;
I just have been blessed with skills as we all have.
But forget the skill for a moment; what plans are you seeking? Who are you taking along? As you’re out there planning for what you think your future holds, are you tied to Jesus and taking God with you in every journey?
It is hard sometimes we forget what is not right in front of us; in our actions and our planning. In the outcomes that transpire. Because even our best lay plans are subject to change and what that of the Father; our Father God maker of all the heavens and earth allows.
Now if you do not believe in Jesus or God; you will just take whatever takes place as it is; or you will go and force your plans. But at what cost to others when you force your plans without God? You may have the temporary pleasures or material things that will disappear. But the cost will be for all who love you and are part of your circle.
Our choices impact everyone we are connected. Some of us really care about the blessings of souls we are given; others not so much.
Like me; daily always try and purpose to have God time and not so much plan what really is tentative until it happens. But ask Jesus into your life and build a foundation with God through him. If you want to find the path to peace no matter what your circumstances may be. Call out and lean in on the maker of all things. Meet with them daily; because it’s going to take the rest of your life to see and really know the real God.
Always remember pains will still come; love will still hurt; sickness will still heal. Even if it is not as we planned or expected. But you will never need to feel or go out into the cold alone, when you have Jesus daily. If we are aware we can see; just as our senses allow sight, hearing, touch, taste, smell. Slow down; breathe in all that is good and pure. Seek the father by your side daily and never let the negative consume what is meant to be for good. Even in the shortest moments or hardest times.
Have a blessed day or evening; shine your light where ever you are; and if you can shine it; find someone who is willing to do it for you.
Meditation moments:
Proverbs 19:21 (NIV)
21 Many are the plans in a person’s heart,
but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.
but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.
Luke 1:79 (NIV)
79 to shine on those living in darkness
and in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet into the path of peace.”
and in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet into the path of peace.”
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May 15, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for the sacrifice you have given daily over and over on the cross.
Thank you Father God; for your love and allowing me to just be.
Love is not what one says or does; Love is not the intimate release during heated moments of passion. Love is not the temptations of what we do not have, should not have. Love is not the shiny diamond in the corner or the gold and silver wrapped around our fingers and neck. Love is not the big fancy house that you sit empty and alone in or the ultimate trophy or sports car you can only look at because to touch it would leave a blemish.
Love is unconditional; truth; pure willingness to be real; to sacrifice and serve during the hardest moments of your life. Love is stepping up and stepping out for what is ever lasting. Sure those sweet gifts with sweet intent you give to replace you when you cannot be there have meaning in our human nature.
But does it last; are there memories that you will have forever. Is there peace that flows through your veins; or desire and need to do all you can that is right; to hold on, honoring through God and with God.
Love is what flows through your veins from deep within; no matter how long or short a time; you know it is forever and will never leave you; even if they do.
So many forms of love there is in this world; but only one pure Agape love. “God's immeasurable, incomparable love for humankind. It is the divine love that comes from God. Agape love is perfect, unconditional, sacrificial, and pure.”
That is the love I seek
For everything in this world is temporary; it come it goes. It leaves joy it leaves sorrow. But that of which God flows with through my veins. That which a passion so deep you could break trying to get that close. That love where you cannot contain the joy or sorrows for you feel and seek with the eyes and heart of Jesus. That love only God puts deep within your soul; desires to be loved from the inside out and knowing everything else is bonus. The love where you know your blessed with a Forever Sweet Soul King or Queen.
Not an obsession, not a trophy or conquest, not a companion, friend or lover. But equally balanced in truth and desire; need and fulfillment that never ends.
Love is, in and with God forever is not long enough; but Love is beyond space and time throughout God’s eternity.
Meditation moments:
Revelation 12:10 (NIV)
10 Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say: “Now have come the
salvation and the power
and the kingdom of our God, and the authority of his Messiah.
For the accuser of our brothers and sisters, who accuses them before our God day and night,
has been hurled down.
and the kingdom of our God, and the authority of his Messiah.
For the accuser of our brothers and sisters, who accuses them before our God day and night,
has been hurled down.
Ephesians 6:16 (NIV)
16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which
you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
James 4:7-8 (NIV)
7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will
flee from you. 8 Come near to God and he will come near to you.
Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
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May 14, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Father for this day and all that will unravel throughout this day’s journey.
I was looking at my bowl of honey nut cheerios and blackberries this morning.
Holding on and tasting that sweet natural crunch that we all sometimes just have to have. Alternatively, maybe that is just me. I at that moment could not imagine a more desirable way to wake my taste buds so early in the morning.
It had me holding off on even taking that first sip of coffee that I have grown to seek out once my feet hit the floor.
Choose Your Happy my new giant coffee cup my girls gave me for mother’s day reads.
Right there in that moment as my pallet was awaking; my mind was racing around how not everyone gets just as those blends we each enjoy. Those moments of recognition that nothing else matters for that split second of our human time.
Then it came to me; just as the blessing of our taste sensory that triggers. None of it would be possible without our creator. God, the 1 and only maker of all people, places. He who has blessed us with freedom of will; freedom of choices and gives all our abilities within humanity and talents to design all the things of this world.
I know; how do blackberries and cheerios lead to God? Just as those flavors that awaken our pallet and truly go together. We must remember all the hopes and dreams go with God. We all must believe in something. Even if that something is nothing; whatever the label for that is. I have never been good with labels. It is what it is.
However; I have always believed in God; never really knew much about Him. I was just one who always prayed allot long before I walked with Jesus. Back then my prayers were so impersonal and to the point. God please keep me alive long enough to see my children grow up. God get me through this. God this God that. Then I would go off on a mission to do whatever it took to make my life at that time happen.
Sure, I would give thanks for the meals I had, especially when you sometimes do not know where your next meal would come from.
It was not until I met Jesus; that I finally really started digging in and learning more and more about the Father and what Love, and Hope really meant and how it all goes together. How without Jesus you will never know the father intimately. Without either the Father or his son Jesus; you will never truly know what love, hope, mercy and grace mean.
None of us on this earth truly does what is required to deserve half of what we are given. Then we have those that deserve even less for always taking from those in the world with evil intent. What I mean are those who purposely take for their own gain. Evil dwellers that purposely take and harm children or the elderly; or in general that harm any living soul; no matter if it is a person or animal. Those that make it their living and get off on hurting and taking from others; whom shall truly be judged even if many will suffer and be taken at the hands of their misdeeds.
I know how one goes from pure love to judgment of evil dwellers. Only God knows how this mind is wired.
My point is; we are all given opportunity in our life cycle to believe, to be a good human, to meet Jesus and come to know the love, honor and sacrifice God has made so we could all be here.
Yes there are legalistic rules we have to follow in this world. But that which rules the heart and soul and what you do with it; will be the only thing that matters for eternity.
I suggest what even I had to do learn to do; is learn you; and start loving and respecting yourself immediately. No matter what you have been through in the journey you have already been on. Learn what Loyalty, moral value and respect truly means.
Yes there is loyalty among our friends and family; but never should it be that for just looking out as a friend when they are doing harm or wrong to someone else.
When you see them doing wrong or harmful to themselves or others; call them out make them listen and if they do not. Do not be a part of it.
It’s hard but especially growing up; how many of us had those best friends that were always there as long as we could do something or be that ride or party with them. And as soon as something happened, or we no longer wanted to party we did not matter any longer.
You want a best friend. Meet Jesus; right where you are. Then start surrounding yourself with no agenda friends. Others who know and love Jesus and can help you tap in. You want to really know the Father; start right now where you are and start building that relationship with His son Jesus Christ.
You need help; tap in to your local non-denominational Bible Based church. That has no problem helping you dig in and confirm for yourself.
You want to really start feeling good. Pay it forward with kindness; and stop expecting anything in return. A kind word, a smile; hold the door; a thank you note; a small gesture or act can give or take someone to a new level of life.
Dare to be different for what will last an eternity. Make a difference in a dark broken world. Step up and step out in doing your best with what you are given. Be the light you are; you have been blessed, shine forth. If you cannot find yours, surround yourself with those who have. It truly is not all you can gain; it is not big and fancy. Appreciate the simple things of life; and adore the big and fancy you get to experience. Do not try to gather as much as you can to hold for yourself. Pay the love and kindness to those less fortunate. Lead by example with words, actions and if you are blessed in abundance. Share it.
Meditation moments:
Luke 1:37 (NIV)
37 For no word from God will ever fail.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV)
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
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May 13, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Lord
Thank you for this day. Thank you for all that has come to be and all that will come to pass.
Dear Jesus; as I lift up all those unspoken needs for all those connected; all those I have not yet met. All those that have undeservingly wavered on this path of life that walk with you; as I lift up all those that need swift justice that only you can bring.
Lord your will be done in my every step, my every thought. In every connection I have. Bless those in need Jesus; bless those need; protect those in harm’s way.
Motivate those who are your children no matter what the circumstance. Motivate them for your work; for the many who are out there and need to see your light.
Show me how to step in and step up. May the only thing I ever fear is you Lord.
Many prayers Lord, of blessings to feed and protect all those in your mission field; for kingdom work.
Prayers of discernment and guidance to lead your lost sheep back home. In your precious name and the mighty blood of Jesus. Give us this day.
1 Peter 5:6-7 (NIV) 6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Thessalonians 5:18 (NIV) 18 give thanks in all circumstances
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Soul Moments:
Dare to be different.
Don't do what everyone else does; don't be whatever one else expects; don't follow the crowed because everyone else is. Don't stop smiling because the world is heavy and can suck sometimes.
Know you belong to the creator of all the heavens and earth. No matter how bad things get on earth; eternity is just around the corner for those who walk with Jesus.
Always pray the best for everyone even when you do not know; if they really have the best intentions for you. Always pray Gods will and swift justice for those you absolutely know mean to do you harm.
Notes from 5/12/2019
Jehovah-Nissi (God is banner over us)
Jehovah-Rapha (God our healer)
Jehovah-Yeshua (God who Saves)
Jehovah-Jireh (God our faithful provider)
Meditation moments:
John 6:37-40 37All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. 38For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. 39And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. 40For my Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day."
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May 12, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Happy Mother’s Day.
Sending Prayers and blessings for all the mom’s, step moms, foster moms, Sisters who stepped in and stepped up. All the Grandmas and single parent dads that play both rolls and all you spiritual moms just stepping up filling the gaps. Thank you!
May the good Lord bless you with your hearts desires and fill your homes with abundant blessings and well being.
May you have that special moment to just pause and appreciate Gods love right where you are. Even when we never say it and just want to be loved just right where we are, for who we are; yet life has us on the move and never a time to breathe.
Know we are loved by the God of all heavens and earth. Master creator and designer. May you be filled with all you need as you exhale.
Prayers of comfort for all who have lost moms. They are forever with you.
Through the precious blood of Jesus. May His love and mercy wash over all of us. Guiding and protecting our paths. Keeping us strong and knowing where our strength will always come from. Amen.
Lord thank you for this day. Thank you for allowing the privilege to worship you. Thank you for the nourishment that feeds my soul as we come together to do so.
Lord forgives me for all that I make it in my panic mode; doubting loneliness. Truly it does not matter what comes to life in this world of desire or not. For you are and always be what sustains the very breath I am allowed to exhale.
Yes you know me Heart and Soul and what is deep within this soul of mine; you know my deepest desires since the day and before I was born. But Lord; if it is only you I am to experience.
In my moments of not understanding why my entire life has been this way; even with my moments of the flesh and selfish ambitions. I will always love you and your son Jesus it will be. For the peace and calmness that fill me when I am allowed to experience and learn all you are. Is and can be so indescribable.
Truth inside that no one can ever see; is like the ocean dried darker than the great sea.
To have something so alive within one’s soul and it not come to life; when it has come from you Lord; I do not understand. I pray for guidance, I pray for well being of all that is connected. I pray for the love to fill and consume all involved. As father you have allowed it to consume me.
For if this is it; thank you; for if there will be more; thank you! For I am nothing compared to the billions of souls in this universe. For you to choose me, and allow me the ability to love; is beyond anything within this world.
For if all I have is a dream; and you have sustained me my entire journey in this world. How could there ever be a love any greater.
I have been given a full life. From bad, to good, scars to laughter. I have been taken as a child; found my way from the woods; lusted, loved; blessed with a son I was able to raise as a man; a beautiful daughter given life and chance I may have never had and those beautiful grandchildren that amaze me more and more ever day.
I am blessed being an Aunt, Sister, Mother, Grandmother, Spiritual Mother; confidant and friend for many. Many days you remind me; there is always someone watching; someone listening to what I may say or do. Many who listen to my so imperfect loose lips talking about my Jesus or owning our own choices daily; no matter what the end result is.
Thank you Father God!
You remind me daily; I cannot give up; I cannot give in; when I so badly want to. In the past just wanting out of this life; and currently in the present; as I struggle with having my Sweet Soul King and a life it could be and bring. No matter how true or a farfetched dream. You Jesus; it is you that is everything! No matter what my emotions try to make anything.
I ask for continued protection and direction in my own choices I make Father. I pray for a way through these decisions I have made and getting through the fall out they may bring.
I pray for forgiveness and relief of beating myself up no matter how strange that seems. For the world and its players has a way of bringing out the best and worse and me.
I pray for all I am connected; be filled with love, grace and all they are meant to be.
In Jesus Name may your angels come and surround all of your children; surround all connected to and me.
Meditation moments:
Exodus 33:14 (NIV) 14 The Lord replied, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”
| Matthew 11:28-29 (NIV) 28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. |
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May 11, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for this day; thank you for the view back in time allowing me to feel and hope even with layers that sometimes are too heavy for any soul on this earth.
Thank you for the promise of tomorrow and the awareness no matter what this life all will be okay, knowing you are have and will be there every step of the way.
I am good at bringing on situations Lord; opening myself up and leaving myself so vulnerable to the world and those who are good at what they do.
My meaningful spirit; wanting to see the good in everything that sometimes allows me caught up in the worldly sneers. For the good heart finishes the race; just unfortunately within this world and it’s standards; alone.
You have blessed me greatly Father God. More than any soul deserves. You have protected me throughout my worldly time and continue to do so. Though I may work and have a need to be out in a virtual world. Guide and protect my steps. Keep me away from all that is a game, keep me close Jesus. Allow me to care and communicate with only what is the will of God.
Though my dreams are real; my heart is full, my hands remain clean and I am pure. As the Lord keeps me; I pray my foolish heart gives no other portion of this mind, body or spirit to anything that is not of purity, and Gods direction.
Guide me Father as I try to pull back in what has consumed me. Trying to understand and believe what is true and pure; and what is just and not the way of this world.
So many Jesus, So many souls out there in this spiritual realm it is so easy to be caught up.
As this mind borrows troubles of tomorrow; constantly worrying what is or what will be.
Even though this may hurt; Jesus please seal whatever this fate should and will be.
Thank you for all I am allowed; for the love I am filled with, even as I struggle to stop giving away so much of what is inside this soul. To have such blessing forever; to love and be loved; there is not anything in this world that would ever do.
Even if a moment in time; here and now; it is forever within my soul. The world just has a way of distorting and breaking down what must remain beautiful. For this I turn to you Jesus.
Clear this mind; seal this soul; guide this heart and the footsteps that move through this world. You Father God know all there is to know about me and what is what will be and what may never. May your will always be what is done in this life.
May I start requiring more of your direction and will Father before I jump in to assist anything or anyone. I have always set the stage for my own misfortune; jumping in and just doing without expectations.
You God have me, this I know. But I am weary and tired and need to know; who is it that will help me? Who is it that will be when I can no longer do what I do? At the hands of the world and this society will not do.
I am not seeking this as a needed answer; I just know if I am here to do this as I have; If I am to continue to step up and step out. As you have everything time I have asked. Guide, protect and show me now.
Thank you for all that you have allowed me. As I try to clear this mind; guard this heart and know what should be a continued beginning or time to depart. You know what is real and what never will be from the start.
Give me the wisdom; seal the love I have deep within. For I cannot take or live in a world that is not setup to be mine; I cannot pretend what I am not; none of it makes sense and never could over time.
The passion, love fire deep inside; belongs to the Lord until His choosing not mine. Bring me back if needed to the desert; if it is not real, if it is not mine.
Bring me back no matter how my soul cries.
Meditation moments:
John 14:27 (NIV)27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
Philippians 4:6 (NIV)6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Isaiah 40:10-11 (NIV)10 See, the Sovereign Lord comes with power,
and he rules with a mighty arm.
See, his reward is with him,
and his recompense accompanies him.
11 He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
he gently leads those that have young.
When you know yourself well; staying away from others is not
because you are better; not because you do not love people. You try
to stay way and avoid being caught up and sucked in.
When you thrive loving and giving; you become an easy
target. Yet you try to not let that happen; yet times there is no
control. When you are on your own you do not have that friend,
accountability that one who will always be in your corner.
Life is full of twists and turns; and when you just want those who
do connect to love you for you; who you are; not what you do; not what you may
have. Just you! In most cases; it doesn’t happen.
Perhaps in my personality growing up on my own and not having allot of trust
skills manages to keep walls up.
But most times because I have always been a doer.
People connect with me for what I can do for them. Be it serve in
some aspect; help them financially; just be there for them.
It works for awhile; but after time you wonder; when it is all
said and done. When will someone really be there for you in the
end. If you are that soul that lays in bed alone at night wondering what
could be different. How could any thing in life
have been different to where you could have had God and that forever sweet soul
mate that never give up on each other; then you realize. When you know
you are truly a good person with good intentions always. God
has you right where He wants you.
Even if it hurts sometimes; when you want to believe in those you
help. You want to believe they really genuinely care about you as a
person and not their own personal needs. You want to believe what
they say is true; yet you cannot see past what is not being said.
Only that at some point, you will either tap out or run dry; or they will just
reveal the truth and it is done.
So as I cry out to my God who knows all things; I pray for those I
care for; I pray for guidance of any next steps I may stumble
through. I pray for all going through it; more than just a lonely
day or two.
Don’t settle; don’t jump into what is not your place to be; just
so you can say look at what I have look at me. Do not step in
when someone is married, not thinking they are yours to play house or
keep. God does not work that way; you will only be the
bigger fool and live eternity in disgrace.
What can you do; when you want your own boo; I so wish I
knew. For me, I do not want just anyone or
anything. Heck no! God knows I will never settle
for anything other than my Sweet Soul King. And for this it’s
all good; no matter if that future transpires or stays tucked away in under
someone else’s hood. For I know the truth; and
nothing with change. Only that I am too old to play around in
someone else’s games. Lonely maybe; hurts allot; But My God is all
I need, if He says this is all I Got!
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May 10, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank You Jesus
You know all things; as you are the blessing that the father sacrificed and you willing gave yourself to be all things for all those of us in humanity that want and believe you.
The father who created each and every soul in this universe; wiring together with such unique detail of twisted molecules and elements. Our brains wired like that of one giant circuit board that constantly has components burning out; giving up; frying all together.
Yet; with just one word, or wave of His hand things can be restored or totally removed from the equation. Always allowing us the choice to be something in or with you; something better.
Who are we Jesus to think we have the right to anything in this world. We are nothing more than a living spec or microorganism feeding or destroying the planet we were given to inhabit. Sadly so many will never understand or get this.
Thank you for all the times and ways you have saved this soul. There will never be anything I can do to repay the love and honor you deserve.
Yet; you let me awake daily and move through this place. You Jesus; continually are filling me with an abundance of so much. Spiritual; Tangible people, things and my own little space.
Daily I am given with words of encouragement and hope; as I journey my overwhelming desire and need deep within this soul to love and be loved.
You have never stopped filling me with energy, dedication and perseverance; excitement even sadness. When I sometimes think my wires have crossed and I finally lost my mind. When out of nowhere, on any given beautiful day; sadness overwhelms this heart and tears stream down.
Questioning and wondering what is wrong with me. I know in this life things happen; always daily. In life there is death; we fall in love, some fall out of love. We believe and some are good at using what we really believe in to their own gain.
Yes, I find those tears of late; when I realize the how much I miss those souls I was so close to; my confidants’ friends and family. Knowing now it is you; which is okay. Yet on any given day out of nowhere tears stream down this face.
I know my blessings this is for sure; there is nothing in this world that can give me more than that of the love of you Jesus.
Yet here we are; with dreams bigger than life; thinking this morning what else can there be. God, Coffee a true Godly man I can care for as my own; my Sweet Soul King in this life; however, here we are pounding the keyboard with a cat on each side.
There is something to be said; God, Coffee, Chocolate that can relieve a worldly strife. Although I am very low maintenance I certainly wish I could live thinking along those lines. Oh yes; I always have such great advice. But deep inside this soul I struggle to hold on to know the difference of what can be truly real; or that of some made up fantasy that I allow others to play me out like some misguided dreamer of a girl.
Later to fight the torment, while praying forever is on its way; and if not Gods got this; no big deal.
In this life where something’s you Jesus allow us to know. Something’s we must listen and let go. Knowing this; I try to stay away, never show. Yet the dreams that seep out and the kindness you have given me sometimes without choice, it just overflows.
Prayers for me and my soul; and all who can relate; Jesus your will where ever we go. May we serve you and you alone! Appreciating every step of the way no matter where we land or how lost we are on any given road. Thank you Father God, for your son Jesus Christ. Thank you for never giving up on me; as I so often have and most likely will do in this human life.
Meditation moments:
John 15:5 (NIV) 5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
2 Corinthians 1:8-9 (NIV) 8 We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers and sisters,[a] about the troubles we experienced in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. 9 Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.
Ephesians 5:20 (NIV) 20 always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Emotionally drained, long day; long many days of wonder and worry in this land of secular presentation and constant perception in a world that really does not care past five minutes of viewing that which catches an eye.
Chasing dreams like a peasant girl who dreams of a the prince who will come to walk into a romance story unending. Yet the evil dwellers and those who surround the prince continue playing out harmful intentions that ultimately dishevel anything pure that may, would or could have been.
In this world for what we see; it is the underlying spiritual forces that we must be guarded and prayed up for and against. For God is eternal and omnipresent. However no dreams of such foolish works come to life at the hands of the father.
Love, and everlasting is not make believe; it is not free and will never be at the expense of someone else's needs. Pure Godly blessing does not have a sacrifice of worldly goods. The cost is you forever in the only Kingdom that matters. That of which is heaven bound and Eternal.
No matter who, no matter what. No matter what twists of fate; or circumstance. God may connect you; but never will he ever allow you to be second chance, second best. Never will he lead you through a broken promise land for anyone's gain. So if this is happening; it is not God and then when things are hard. On your knees and always pray harder.
Know it is not always safer looking from the outside in; but never confuse anything that occurs or what could be given. Respect your soul, respect everyone and where you go. Even if your walk is to eternity physically alone.
For this God is there; and God always knows.
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May 9 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you for this day Father
As I awoke feeling like I have been walking around the edge of the valley for a long time; carrying sadness as I am walking with you. Knowing, so many, I am connected and almost all of my loved one’s are not. Not walking with you Jesus and this on days of like today breaks my heart over and over.
The sadness that started yesterday comes over me as I woke realizing today also is my dear friend who left us suddenly last year’s birthday as well. Thank you for the blessing of my beautiful niece; may she be blessed in abundance on this day and many more to come.
Yet; as I pray for my friend Sharon and her soul; that she is with you Jesus; I pray she is up there with her bright eyes, big heart and on-going laughter.
Imagining and praying she is there happily creating the robes and garments of white; for all who are coming home to be with you in heaven. I miss my friend father; but I know where ever she is; she is loving on and keeping it real with those who she is surrounded. Many miss her Father. Al needs her going through his treatments; her friends love and miss her. But I know she is okay and no longer battling with all that tormented her soul here on this earth.
So forgive me Father as I try to shake this overwhelming heaviness. As I am reminded daily of those I cared deeply for that are no longer here on this earth and how alone things become. But more so the pain of knowing one by one many who believed in you God; but never had the personal relationship with you; never walked with your son Jesus are leaving this earth.
I do not really know what will happen with them; I do not know what will really happen with me; even though I have fallen in love and do all I can to remain in obedience walking with your son. I am okay with that; for if I am wrong like all others I have had peace, moral value and not given myself away to the demons that prowl this world.
Thank you Father for your son; thank you for never giving up on me; for if this is all there is you have filled me with more than I ever deserve.
Even when the heaviness of those I care for sometimes take too long to lift.
Forgive me Lord for the mistakes I make daily; for the too willingness of always helping others when I so often cannot help myself. Please guide and protect all that I am; all that I am connected.
Meditation moments:
Romans 8:28 (NIV)
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who
love him, who[a]
have been called according to his purpose.
Micah 7:7 (NIV)
7 But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear
me.
Romans 8:1-2 (NIV)
[ Life Through the Spirit ] Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.
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Sometimes the reflection of sadness that looks us back in the mirror is just a splinter of Gods pain he suffers daily with; for this fallen world. How we long for what we enjoyed, grew attached and loved. As bit by bit we watch those we care about not accept all Christ means. We tearfully, angrily carry the burdens with us; as some escape down our cheeks.
What torment has our Father endured, or worse yet; Jesus carrying the entire cross; not just that of a splinter.
May we never lose sight of why we were created. May we never harden and be filled with hate, anger, lust or vengeance.
May we always be grateful for He that gives also takes away.
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May 8, 2019
Weekly Cruising with Kelly Thoughts along the ride:
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2208317379260746/
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
As I awake soaked with dreams that flooded my mind during the night; awakened by His gentle kiss affirming all things will be okay; as He lifts me up out of the darkness and into the day.
I give thanks I am allowed another day; thankful the dreams that once haunted me are now sweet saving grace as I climb out into the light.
Thankful for the strength and courage over this journey that I have been given; knowing it is He the Lord above alone that gives me all I need.
What is done is gone; what is in the past we should never forget. Never forget where we come from. But run to the light as fast as you can holding on tightly to Jesus hand.
Don’t let the day to day routines of this world; the activities be your final life destiny. Dig deep within and find who you are in the eyes of God our creator.
Every person, place, and thing in this earth is temporary. Grasp deep within your soul with God to all that is pure and eternal.
Do not ignore the signs that you are given; for a passing glimpse is not the same as that which comes over and over again.
Pure love runs in deep waters; the direction it takes leads back to the souls of the living. Living in purpose, purity with moral value, where wants and needs are still good when directed through Christ who guides us.
Know and go for the more you are meant to be. You are loved with a purpose far beyond anything the human eyes can see.
It will never be just about you; it will never be just about me. The love of the Father is far greater than anything we will ever see; anything we will ever do or ever be.
Appreciate all that you have; as the storms rise with the oceans and sea. He is coming back, Jesus Christ our King.
Meditation moments:
John 16:33 (NIV)
33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.
In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the
world.”
Isaiah 41:13 (NIV)
13 For I am the Lord
your God
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.
Philippians 4:13 (NIV)
13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
Thank you for this day Lord; even though there is an overwhelming sadness that has come over me. Reminding me Life is what it is until it isn't. :(
I know you will see me through all things. I just hate this feeling and where I am at in the moment of my accountability and making my own choices that do not always turn out as this dreamers heart imagines.
This too shall pass!
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May 7, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Thank you for this day father God
I will always do my best to trust in you Lord, for all peace that will come and stay within me. No matter what good or evil surrounds the earthly vessel you have given. I try des
Trust through all people, places, things, situations; by happenstance, plans or the father’s designation.
Seek all that is good, all that is pure; and distance yourself from that which violates purity in contempt, knowingly filled with wrongdoing. Protect us, my family, my friends my connections against those who scheme and plot for their own personal gain. Father bring swift justice upon those who truly I am connected that do any ill willed actions against others.
Father as I try daily to take up your Cross. The Cross Jesus took to death and life. I try to do what I know and learn the rest to die to myself and live for you and purpose for eternity. Knowing I fall short so often; knowing this is the hardest journey of all.
No matter what has transpired against me in my life journey here.
As this vessel you have blessed me with; well humanities mind’s eye the view we were given was given too many opportunities in this world were to get it right when trying to live for the King of the world.
I remember often; but not enough that we must let go of what we want the most; to achieve the most in the end. Show me father how to do that for and with you.
Sometimes nothing in this world makes sense. Other times, I see you in everything and it all falls into place. Jesus Please show me! How to see you and it make sense always.
Over time, I am learning to let go of fear and doubt as it comes to you Lord.
It is not a blessing; when we purposely chase things of the world. You Lord will never fill us with addictions, needs or evil.
May we see with your eyes Jesus; see through all that is fake, and see into the souls of those you dare to stay connected with us? See and walk with those who believe and lift them in times of trouble while they lift us.
So often, we allow ourselves to be the consumption of this world.
Daily no matter the case; God please never stop reminding those of us who listen for and to you.
You Jesus have never let me down; making me understand that we are children of the highest God. Nothing but you can separate us from all He has created us to be.
The world is spinning with so many views, perspectives, and rules, full of nonsense at times. Know the only truth is that of purity which is different from loyalty.
For even evil remains loyal to those, it serves.
May we let the love and blood of Jesus Christ wash over all we are and walk daily within all that we seek? Bless us Father; those who long for eternity with you.
Meditation moments:
Genesis 50:20 (NIV)
20 You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.
Psalm 23:4 (NIV)
4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
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May 6, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Dear Father God; Thank you for your abundant blessings even in the most powerful storms of this life.
Thank you for the celebration and worship we are given when so many others must hide, living in fear because of faith in you.
Deep within the eyes is the passage to our souls. It is there eternity prevails depending
Where you allow your vision to lead you. Do you see love, hope, promise, loyalty, respect?
To believe in something more beautiful then that we can touch. To breathe in the essence of Christ himself. The Lord blesses those who believe taste and feel the sweetness of his power his love. Flowing through their veins. Passion never ending circulating as electric current with just a whisk of air as our hands are held high above our heads. As passion and love washed through and over every breath.
Thank you for this day you have given me and everyone of my connections. May we be guided to seek your face and presence of every moment in every day we are allowed up and breathing!
As I come with thanks for the abundant lessons and blessings I am given daily. I also lift up family for illness; friends for family loss; friends fighting cancer; babies injured, physical and emotional healing.
Lord you know every need each soul has on it.
Praise and thanks as I come upon the 12th year anniversary of having the 35mm helix occluder device planted in the upper chambers of my heart. Today they confirmed my heart is perfect; they say if not for knowing I had the surgery; my heart would have never been known to be broken.
Lord praise and thanks; for hearing the prayers back then and not listening to me. As I was so willing to reconcile; ready to check out.
Telling You Jesus; on that day take me while everything would make sense everything was in order. But if you bring me through it give me purpose.
So many prayed your will be done in my life that day; four hours of surgery and I was up and running the same day. Not stopping since.
So often all my life before you getting my attention; so ready to just be done and check out. Each time you are showing me why I should continue. Thank you Lord; for loving me!
I pray the many that feel their lives have no purpose; knowing it is far more than sadness, or loneliness that this world gives you. I pray more than assistance for those who struggle with depression or heaviness of this world. I pray each and every soul has you in sight knowing to believe they matter and your will transforms and transpires all things for the good when we believe.
It is a hard thing to grasp Lord; especially when this world has so much coming at us.
I am living proof of all the times you saved me as a child; all the times you allowed me to heal through lessons of the life. Daily, even know when I have been hard headed, doubtful; and sometimes overwhelmed of the unknown. You continually guide and protect me and all I am.
Thank you for the worship that feeds my soul; that fills my heart. Thank you for music; for those simple things that just are.
May the songs of your love Jesus harmonize forever through these veins.
Meditation moments:
Isaiah 26:3 (NIV)
3 You will keep in perfect peace
those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.
those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.
2 Corinthians 4:18 (NIV)
18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen,
since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
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May 5, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Lord thank you for another year in this world.
You have blessed me daily, even though I deserve nothing. You shine your mercy and grace upon me to grow with you more and more every passing moment.
I will never fully understand how you pardon us from our youthful reckless ways and decisions. But you do Dear Jesus. For this I am blessed for the children you have given me; the grandchildren you have given me. My siblings and the love and bond we have; no matter how near or far.
In the brokenness of the journey I have walked with all the strains, pains you have filled me with laughter and love every step of the way; every tear I have cried.
Never giving up on me; you never allowed me to give up on you. For this I am eternally blessed and grateful.
No matter what does or does not transpire; no matter what dream or nightmare comes to life; no matter here with you as I am or filled with my heart’s desire. There is nothing that can take the blessings only you give Father God.
I pray with clean hands and a pure heart for the forgiveness of the transgressions I daily walk in or with. As I pray for those against me. You know all things Jesus; all that I am, all that I am connected to belongs to you.
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May 4, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
No more circus
Today is the day; this monkey openly acknowledges and leaves the circus of this world.
The twisted knots, fake lies; schemes or plots.
Those after what they can get for free never happy or fighting to hold on to what they got. Some want it all theirs and theirs that is not.
My dreams may never end; I may never have my forever sweet soul king; my forever worldly friend; but the fun and laughter at my expense is over.
As I end this acknowledgement, this connection to the world that takes and takes; so full of haves and have not’s.
I declare forever, My God the lover of my soul; I know you are the only one true king in this universe. No matter what wolves come; you are and always will be Love beyond all space and time. For I am forever yours as you are forever mine.
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May3, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Forgive me Father for not making enough time for you this morning. The deep thoughts and time spent given over to day to day needs.
Thank you for your reminders that we cannot serve two masters in our lives. For now please guide my steps, may I see with your eyes and guard my tongue this day.
Today is the day this Monkey leaves the circus; my dreams may never end. But the fun and laughter at my expense is over. As I end this connection.
My God Lover of my soul. I know you are the one and only King!
Love beyond all space and time.
Meditation moments:
Matthew 6:24 (NIV)
24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and
love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You
cannot serve both God and money.
Revelation 2:4 (NIV)
4 Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at
first.
Ephesians 3:16-17 (NIV)
16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with
power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that
Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being
rooted and established in love,
Psalm 16:11 New International Version (NIV)
11 You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
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May 2, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Lord, I thank you for this day on earth; to reflect what is pleasing and perfect in your will.
I know my inability of patience and knowledge will often make me fall short.
As these word’s I pen to paper or tap to screen come to life and have impact or significant meaning for what is coming out. I pray that I may a mare child full of curiosity yet ignorant to so much.
The one you Father knew long before even arriving in this world; be allowed to be even the tiniest spec of light within and for the kingdom you have created.
Father
As I watched in fun and full heart, last evening the children excited to receive their trinkets. The little things, which we take for, granted; those, which are given as gifts to the children as special tokens and the memories and the excitement from the children, made just in learning your words.
If only we could all be children again and know what we know now. If only we could, all do what we truly love with meaning and passion; without expectation of gains at the end.
How different the world may be. How different my life may be. Yet, I know I could never change a thing when it comes to the family you gave me Jesus. Any hardship or lesson; without having my children the family you allowed me; without them I truly would have just been another statistic laying on a slab somewhere waiting to be put in the ground.
Sometimes the truth becomes or is brutally cold and true; as it has never left me the journey of just wanting to feel that bond of a family and what it truly meant to be loved. Was the day I had my children hug my neck, feel the warmth of their hugs or little hands touch my face.
Yet; abandonment and loneliness also; has been part of this soul’s journey; however long it has existed. I do know long enough to categorize or label so much as the same when it comes to close relationships in this world. Thus, I try to avoid them. Yet there are times I just cannot ignore, I reach into what is deep within that comes to me; and sometimes the beauty lasts; others it just layers up what deep desire haunts my soul.
I will never know why this side of the universe. However, I do know you have always been with me and will never leave. For this, I am blessed and thankful.
I ask for guidance in what is left of this earthly quest. I may not be planning to go anywhere. However, I know I wish you Jesus to lead my steps and light my path all the day to come.
You are my sustenance and life given. For I have died a thousand times on my own in the error of my ways. Jesus; It is you the air I breathe and what keeps me alive.
God; I never picked this life; I was reckless and foolish chasing dreams thinking I could find what would fill the voids and wash away the pains, sorrows and scars of my younger days. Thankfully, it led me on the path to you Jesus.
As I know, we all get there in our own time; I pray my children are not caught up or suffer at the hands of evil and they make it to you soon. With the beautiful souls, and spirit and huge hearts they have. I pray God you protect them from all that will consume them quickly in this world.
I am not a strong person; Jesus you know this first hand. If I did not have the blessings, you gave me. I would have checked out with so much lost faith long ago. Yet it is you, the beauty, and the blessings that allow this heart to beat.
My desires and dreams for that agape love and that one soulmate; My Sweet Soul King. The one who has kept me, who torments me; or sees me in my dreams and sorrow fills the days, as they are not here in the flesh.
Thankfully, your word, your spirit your will Father is what holds me together!
If this is how it must be; I will continue to dream. I just ask for protection and guidance each day you get me up; to steady me and never let me falter into the wrong hands of this world.
With clean hands and a pure heart Lord, you know what lives deep within this soul. Never let me becoming trapped in the worldly snares; to waste the precious time you have given or worse yet ever put family or myself in harm’s way.
In this world, life is what it is; until it is no more. I never want to lose my soul Jesus. For you know this and all that dwells within.
Guide me, guide all I am connected, and guide my children and grandchildren and all the generations to come.
How quickly the world and all that are in; can twist and turn all that is meant for good and purity. We so often with the actions and words we take or even sometimes just decide not too; how often we turn what is beautiful into brokenness and desolation. I pray no one I know including me; come to know what it is like to be consumed bit by bit; by the wolves and left alone in the pain and sorrows this world brings
Sadly, I know; as the world is full of so many souls that crash like waves in the ocean; with grand impacts of joy and sadness sweeping away all that reality is; if only for a brief moment in time.
As I struggle to find balance in the search of life and maintaining purity and obedience. Of those who are real; and those who are seekers to consume whatever they can along the way of the journey they are on.
May I never make anything or anyone an idol Lord God; may I still see each and every soul just as another beautiful creation you have given this earth. May I never lose hope or my dream to love or lose hope you will fulfill that dream someday while I still live on this earth.
If not may, I still shine for and with you.
Your love granted and blessed to me, in this journey I ask that you now and always please fill your children.
Please hear the echoes of all your children’s hearts, far within the depths of our souls; with only visions of your will dear Father.
May the truth, honor, obedience, respect, loyalty, be the glory of all things through God.
Meditation moments:
Proverbs 29:25 (NIV)
25 Fear of man will prove to be a snare,
but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.
but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.
John 10:10 (NIV)
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come
that they may have life, and have it to the full.
Soul Moments:
The world is full of so many souls that crash like waves in the ocean; with grand impacts of joy and sadness, sweeping away all that reality is or could be.
If only for a brief moment in time; Lord may every soul see the world and future through your mind’s eye.
Healing and caring for humanity and all the beauty surround us; however distorted we have taken it from; due to so many misfortunate circumstances that consume all you designed us to be.
Prayers Father God
Please bless us; healing us from our physical or emotional needs and bondage. Protecting us from an unjust world; protecting us from ourselves and lack or relationship with you.
Guide us Dear Lord; in your will; your way. For all I am connected; all that is pure all that is true.
Your will be with us always Father! Not just for the yesterdays, today’s or tomorrows needs of this world.
Every second of every day for all who seek you. Protecting us from all who do not.
Heal us, lead us; forever be within us.
1 John 5:14-15 NIV
This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.
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May 1, 2019
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Lord thank you for this day; please bless those going through it; also please send a special healing for my friend from all the cancer on this day of his birthday. I know I ask and expect much from you Lord. I also know I forget sometimes just who you are and get lost in my own being selfish worry and doubt.
However, my history and all you have done for me during my brokenness. How many times, even without my relationship with you. You have pulled me out of the pit and saved me.
I realized after the fact in my relationship now, not then; I had to go through things that should have never been. For almost all of my youth and a very long time thereafter I remained an angry hateful spirit towards all around me.
I know with no doubts of this mind, heart or soul it is you; who blessed me with this life.
It is you who heals all my wounds, it was you who softens my heart and shows me it is okay to not get it right in this life.
I am still learning how to love people from the inside out.
Sadly, at times; even as my spirit may be crushed, due to lost dreams or actions of others. Or when I put all my hopes in people, places or things. In addition, my misguided heart, visions or dreams are just in my own imagination.
You daily get me up and show me the way through! Father thank you for oh so much you have taught me over the years; knowingly I still learn daily. Since the day, I answered your call and came up out of that water.
I still dream; and desire and even hurt; when I forget everything I am or do should be directed only to you. Yet I put my hopes in this world and people within.
Most days I do not even care; yet on those that I do when I it is clear I still do not get things even half right. You allow me to fill up with your spirit Father God.
What is it of that which keeps me going, when I just want to quit humanity?
Just wanting to lock myself away and just believe everyone is the same in this world. Only caring when they want or need something for you. So many over so many years’ repeatedly as I get angry with myself because I still knowing the outcome. Try hard to believe all that could be good about people in general. Especially when I care Lord! You know all that I am made of. You will prevail no matter what I allow to transpire or not transpire.
Yes; so many of us are kind giving souls; but more and more there are those that are the takers of the world.
Those that take daily the little pieces of one’s' being; bit by bit. I will never make excuses for my inadequacies or mess ups in this life.
As I often easily sometimes forget, we have all been created in your image.
It is just some truly wish to do their best with pure intentions heart and care; And others just put everything they have into playing out and deceiving others for their own personal gains.
No matter how many times in this world I put everything I have in to trust others or they play me out for assistance. In the end Father God; everything I am, everything I have belongs to you. Protect and guide my family and me. May your justice be swift where and when needed.
I will always do my best to never give up or give in to what the world thinks we should be, even when it hurts.
On those days, as I still see some of the old me come to life quickly; at times. Where I run my mouth without thinking when someone plays me out. Especially when I see those being hurt and others have taken advantage. My heart hurts!
How it hurts for all the lost, abandoned and harmed children at and by hands of society. This world has parents hurting their own creation and children hurting their parents.
However, you know this already it was written, in the Bible long before I was ever thought of. Even though it is not acceptable or should not be. None of us are free of sin.
My sin may not be purposeful or targeting any special hustle, need or such. However, I am sinner when I decide I think I should be judge or executioner.
I know where I fall short daily Lord; with my judgment, needs, wants and desires.
Nevertheless, I also know I am not who I was 20 years ago and never will be. I am blessed to be called the daughter or the most High King; sister to the Prince of Peace. Loved beyond anything this world can do for me.
Thank you, for all you have done, for with and in me Jesus.
You; have never given up on my family or me. This is a fact!
My daily prayer is for all I am connected, that we do our very best to honor you.
Even when the best of the best let us down or we selfishly care not and travel our own path to get what we want and others down.
Jesus you know my intent as you know my spirit, heart and all things that lift me up or chip away taking me down.
You know my heart Father; deep what is in my soul. As I work through this day and try my best to know this is not about me. As I try to let go of what the world offers first and make everything I do or say through you first. Oh how I know I will fail.
Although, I know I cannot control what others do around me; I can only try to continue to do my best for and with you.
I can only pray my children and grandchildren and all my bloodline comes to know your mercy and grace. I pray they too will step out and step up; finding all that is good in every situation.
I pray for those days when good cannot be found anywhere; we seek you Jesus.
I pray we find you and just stay there with you for that time until they are strong enough to be a light in this dark world.
Thank you Father for the strength and courage I have shown as it is all you. Please never leave me; or allow me to give up or give to the world that can be so heavy with elements.
For I alone am speck in this grand universe; but together every grain or spec can shine as bright as all the starts in the sky.
May all my brothers and sisters in Christ unify in your name, your will your mercy and grace.
May we never forget whose we are, and how brightly you wish us all to shine!
Please hear the prayers of all I am connected; all the unspoken needs and prayers of their hearts. Please guide us in your will and only your will!
Please forgive us of any transgressions. For none of us are deserving of any mercy. Yet Jesus; you died on the cross so we could live. May we never forget your sacrifice; or the power you hold within~
Meditation moments:
Luke 12:25-26 (NIV)
25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life[a]? 26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
Luke 1:79 (NIV)
79 to shine on those living in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the path of peace.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers & Soul Moments:
Lord thank you for this day; As this overwhelming needs have come up; please be with me through these next few days of transition while I try to take my breath in silence.
You know all things!
For me Lord I am trying to grasp what next in my life; especially when out of the blue, just out of no where; I get that overwhelming feeling of being abandoned and the rush of emotions consume me.
Something’s I can't explain, something’s I can't control. All I can do is remind myself. My life, My choice.
Soul Moments:
I Choose
To live by choice, not by chance
To make changes, not excuses;
To be motivated, not manipulated;
To be useful; not used;
To excel; not compete.
I choose Self-Esteem, not Self-Pity.
I choose to listen to my inner voice; not the random opinion of others. (Author Unknown)
