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July 31, 2019
Verse of the Day:
John 1:12-13 (NIV) Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Good morning world! Happy July 31 2019; thank you Lord for allowing me to be a part of it.
Blessed Yesterday; Today and any Tomorrow’s I may receive!
I cannot tell you all what a privilege it was to have my granddaughter to hang out with yesterday and be part of her senior photo ops. My tiny little Jally Rancher has turned into such a beautiful; smart articulate young woman. My first grand; oh how I remember when I would go steal her on the weekends and just cuddle on her never wanting to let go. The time is almost here; that I will have to very soon. Still remembering the days when I would bring her to church with me and she would hide behind me when folks would try to say hi. She has such a beautiful spirit; and filled with so many dreams to be a doctor or something that makes a difference in the medical field. Her kind heart I pray is never broken or hardened in the world we have to live in.
Despite all the difficulties in the journey, the Good Lord has given her to be part of; she still finds her way without begrudging or contempt towards anyone.
I personally am blessed to be part of this young woman’s life.
How I remember as a young mother even before I walked the walk; I would pray God allow me to life long enough to see my children grow and make it in this world. Later when I was walking and in relationship with Jesus; I would pray God allow me to live long enough to see my grandchildren grow and make in life.
He has blessed me through some storms and given me health; and although my journey seems to not really be what I would pick some days. Blessed to see the life and excitement in these beautiful souls. My prayers are God swallow them up my children and grandchildren and just show them what love and protection and life really means.
I pray protection from anything of a world that can be so cruel. However, because of the freedom of will and choice we all have. I will never really know what will happen next, for what has given me purpose and life for so long.
Reminded over these past couple of weeks; I have to let go and truly give them back to God.
He gives and takes away; and being nothing we have is really ours; it is so hard letting go of those we love.
When the unknown takes over and we have to create a new normal for our lives. Because in efforts of trying to help we made it our lives as well.
So very bitter sweet; to let go for growth and allow the baby birds to learn to fly. While leaving that necessary new normal to figure out.
Regardless of what may happen in the world, God owns everything we are and can be.
For me I have to take all that was good; all that was beautiful and put it in that memory box and know not everyone has or will be as blessed as I have been with even moments in time. No matter how short or long; not everyone is allowed such pure love and abundant joy in life’s experiences. In some cases, there will be people who that are unable to know how truly blessed they are; those that will just never feel the love or joy.
For this, I am grateful; no matter what the brokenness today brings; I will never forget where I came from yesterday and all the moments that have made me who I am today.
Thank you Lord for all the good, the bad and the unknown or indifferent moments in the time I am walking this earth.
I pray for not just my own by all who are lost; lonely; prayers for those that preyed upon by the vultures and fakes of this world. I pray justice for all who are in harm’s way; prayers of justice against all that do harm for their own personal moments and gain.
I pray every human being own their choices and be accountable for any results of the choice they make. I pray for the innocence, children and elderly of this world; for safety; protection and care.
I pray every soul on this earth have the blessings of an everlasting love that never leaves them. That deep love from the inside out; that will make them smile no matter what; even for a brief moment in time.
I pray for those looking for that lifetime companion in the flesh; you seek God first and allow Him to decide. Not waste time chasing things that will let you down; break you or damage Gods will in your heart; in your soul.
I pray we all truly understand what it means to be first we must learn to be last. To have life we must die to ourselves; to hold onto all that Jesus sacrificed just so we could live.
May there be no bitterness; filling us up with and for love; may we shine through for those who will experience like pain. May we be just a sliver of hope; shining a glimmer of light on the path of all new beginnings in every tomorrow! May we always remember no matter how much it hurts; how blessed we are.
Thank you Jesus for this new day; thank you for the lessons and messages in every one of them I am given. Many may never understand what it means to let it go; what means to hold on to what feeds the soul with you in love. Many will never experience what it truly means to be broken or empty. Many will! Lord what will be will be; please hold me with all I am connected; by blood; by life steps; by your design. Hold us; Guide us and protect us in and for your will.
I do not know what tomorrow will bring; but for today, I am blessed; hopeful this is not it; prayerfully dedicated for the greater good of harmony; and ready for battle if necessary, to never allow the darkness to overtake what you have blessed.
You know all things Lord. Thank you for allowing me a glimpse and promises for today and any tomorrows I am given. May I never stop dreaming; may I never stop being me. May forever mean forever and truth really be true shining on. For the rest of all my days allowed. Please guide and protect the blessings you have put in my life; lead them through you Jesus. Give us all the strength and courage to know when to stand; when to remain quiet; when to fight and when to walk away.
May your will always prevail!
Meditation Moments:
Colossians 1:27 (NIV) 27 To them God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles: [a]which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
Matthew 28:20 (NIV) 20 teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” [a]Amen.
John 20:19 (NIV)
The Apostles Commissioned
19 Then, the same day at evening, being the first day of the week, when the doors were shut
where the disciples were [a]assembled, for fear of the Jews, Jesus
came and stood in the midst, and said to them, “Peace be with you.”
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Verse of the Day:
Matthew
5:14,16 (AMP)“You are the light of [Christ to] the world. A city set on a hill
cannot be hidden; Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may
see your good deeds and moral excellence, and [recognize and honor and]
glorify your Father who is in heaven.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Wow how time is flying by so quickly, one more day and July 2019 is over already. I am thankful for each moment I am allowed to walk this earth; even on those days where I let too much attach to me and allowed myself to feel heaviness of what was; what didn’t and even what always will be deep inside this heart of mine.
I am off today; to help my high school grand get to her Senior Photo ops and some other errands before she goes back down to her dads. So it is not a coincidence that I woke thinking about heart strings. However one of the first reading plans I stepped into this morning I was reminded no matter what version of the bible I look at it; how we should always guard our hearts.
I use to think I was just too full of lessons in life to get more than arms length to anyone; and most days I still do. As the world and all in it; those that only want to be near or connected to me, you know the ones that have no issues staying close because you can support them or their bad choices in life. Many times never having a problems in hiding the only reasons they stay connected are for what you can do for them.
It is not everyone in this world. There are some really beautiful genuine souls out there. I have some awesome souls I have been blessed to be connected. Where you can be gone for 10 years and when you sit down again it’s like yesterday. No expectations; no judgment; just pure realist care and love.
I am blessed for the lessons and the messages I receive daily. Today's message for instance; as Proverbs 4:23(AMP) reminds us: “Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life.” And the (NIV or NIRV) Proverbs 4:23 23 Above everything else, guard your heart. Everything you do comes from it.
Even the (The Message (MSG) makes it clear in today’s language Proverbs 4:23-27
23-27 Keep vigilant watch over
your heart; that’s where life starts.
Don’t talk out of both sides of your mouth; avoid careless banter, white
lies, and gossip. Keep your eyes
straight ahead; ignore all sideshow distractions. Watch your step, and the road will stretch
out smooth before you. Look neither right nor left; leave evil in the dust.
Powerful stuff to wake up and read; but I am reminded no matter what when I drop my guard in day to day; when I dream; imagine; or even sometimes share out what is deep in my soul. I am reminded God is with us always; there is no sin in loving people for who they are and not what they do.
Yes from experience; sometimes that leads to best intentions.
No matter what the relationship is or is not. Be it you are a parent wanting the best for your children; family member or friend; or even just someone that steps out and helps others.
Never stop loving or change that you are because sometimes we drop our guard and get entangled in others misfortunes or selfish ways.
Do what you can for those you can and leave it at the foot of the cross. Remind yourself how who you are and how everything you have comes from the good Lord and no matter what; He gives and takes away. Pray daily for those who are lost or unjust or even down right evil!
For those who come into your life and stay; love them well. For those who are just passing by pray for their journey and souls and appreciate whatever the moment, season or lesson was that came with them.
Even with our children and blood lines; it so hard only God really knows firstly how that is so; when he gave his only son Jesus. Yet everything in this world is temporary people, places and things.
If we recognize and call it a blessing of our children we are given; at some point we have to accept we need to release them and set free. All we can do is our best as parents; not live in the mistakes we make but be present for the moments we are given. Do our best; teach them self respect; love; loyalty and right from wrong. Teach them not perfection but doing our best as if we are doing it for God. Teach them to how and where to place hope and perseverance.
The rest is up to them with the same freedom of will and choices the same God gave you; gives them. It is not always pretty the choices or the results of the choices we or they make. But in the end; we just have to keep praying through it and love them for who they are not what they do.
The hardest thing of a mother is to let go and watch them flounder in a world that will always have someone to mislead; misguide and sometimes steal them from you.
Just know God is with them every step of the way; even if they do not walk openly with Him.
This world; the choices we make and what we are left with in the end leave you filled with nothingness and empty so often.
Just hold tight with everything you have and never let go of the one who created us to for more. It does not matter who is standing at our side; who we are waiting for; or who will never be. Jesus is; and is to come and always will be.
My mind maze this morning; reminding me and hopefully making sense to any of my young friends or out here. You cannot make what is not meant to be happen; you cannot force anyone to love and want to be with you; you should never stay in any situations just to keep from being alone, especially if it is abusive physically; emotionally or even verbally.
Never let anyone disrespect you. There are places you can go for help to get out of it. There are good souls out there that want nothing in return to see you find your way. However; you may just have to meet Jesus where you are.
More importantly; no matter what you are going through; no matter what has been done to you; taken from you or you are still waiting. Let it go; do not hold anger and bitterness.
Move on~ Do not let negative rent space in your head and rob your spirit or soul.
You are worth more than what anyone can take from you. Find yourself a good bible camp to check out; a small group; a good bible based church. If the one you found is not what you expect or feeding you.
Challenge it! Challenge what they are teaching; challenge the brothers and sisters in the love of Christ. Never feel one experience or a million is the end all be all.
If things are not working and you are not feeling joy in your soul; Change It! You are blessed and have the abilities to let go and do all God has created you for.
If you do not change it; stop complaining. Shine the light in this world; there is already too much darkness.
And for anyone that has caused you pain; forgive yourself for setting expectations and just love them; not for what they do or do not do. But because we are more than anything negative that will ever take place.
Never stop dreaming even if you know something’s truly will be in another time and place; that next life. Never stop believing the good in all people. Just guard your heart; and keep God deep within to help you when you are standing on the edge and slipping. Know He has got you and all that will be.
I am thankful no matter what the spirit allows me this opportunity every day. It is never easy; my heart weeps at times. Sometimes I carry emptiness too long; but on days like to day that my soul is filled with messages from the good Lord and I am blessed another day to acknowledge so. We are all human; we all make mistakes; never give up; never give in to the world of unknown. Always pray about it and dig in to what God has in store. No matter what!
“The length of rope to your soul’s anchor is shortened. You wander only a short distance before feeling that inner tug – telling you to come to me” – Jesus! “Jesus Calling Enjoying Peace in His Presence “Sarah Young”
Meditation Moments:
Psalm 29:2 (KJV)
2 Give unto the Lord the glory due unto his name;
worship the Lord in the beauty of
holiness.
Isaiah 6:3 (NIV) 3 And they were calling to one another:
“Holy, holy, holy is the Lord
Almighty; the whole earth is full of
his glory.”
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July 29, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 119:93 (NIV) I will never forget your precepts, for by them you have preserved my life.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for each new day; each new opportunity to start over and make all the yesterday’s better than before! May I never lose hope in you Jesus!
I am sure I am not the only one that has felt something along those lines in the years we exist walking this earth.
The first thing I must admit as my thoughts in this mind maze this morning led me to thoughts of how we all believe in something; we all have a certain judgmental value within us; we all want something; and even the meek address their wants and needs perhaps not in such a volatile manner as the hustlers of this world.
Nevertheless, we all get ourselves tied up into what we believe in; want or think we are okay to take.
We can say there are givers and takers.
A true statement of the society we live in. However not everyone has the courage enough or strength enough to believe in themselves to step up and step out trying to make it; which trigger those roles. Then there are those who just want to see the good and try to do what is good for others. So they believe and find themselves falling into one or the other categories.
Life no different for anyone of us really; there is always a constant spin; cycle of sorrow and inabilities to believe there is something better out there and use it for a crutch to always be caught up in the moment and not see the future, which God had envisioned for us; for some.
How many at any given moment really find it hard to do what is right for ourselves and others; rather they just do what is easy and ultimately damaging.
Yes then we have those we refer to now of the many who feel entitled and when things are not at their fingertips or they are going through hard times. They protest; kick, scream, become vile and even play out those a little meeker, big hearted and giving.
Welcome to the world and Welcome to the many variations in this jungle and everyone having their own Jungle Law playbook; right! The Good; The Bad; The Indifferent.
It would not be so bad if people did not leave so much selfish destruction behind along the way. Not everyone handles things the same way; and I am a true believer we all need a certain amount of lessons to grow up and out in this world. We all need a good foundation and supporting positive system to allow our survival from all the damage and debris life throws at us daily.
Yes I truly believe we should feel the good and bad for everything that is happening around us.
Yes we should be trying our best to be a contributor to positive vibes in this world.
However, how do we account for all those souls that are self-absorbed and making everything that happens of others about themselves to justify irrational or unacceptable behaviors.
We cannot just ignore it! Is this not what is happening to this world? So much I cannot even start the ramble of the layers out there.
We know that we have those who believe in God entangled in this mess and those who believe n nothing even close. But what about the believers; what about those that really believe walking the best walk they can; doing their best with what they have.
Those that never stop trying to do what is right; those that try to see the good in everyone and everything. No matter what!
Always forgiving; always trying to forget enough to not of what darkness tries to smother out the light they carry within. You know those that give away more than they are stepping up and out. and just taking life as daily lessons of this world. Moving forward or doing their best to do so; all the while never forgetting where they have been. Hoping and praying they never repeat the brokenness of what consumed them during that cycle. So many of lives lessons; that will haunt those with a conscious or who have God in their heart.
There is never a day that goes by that the spirit world or the flesh world does not throw that sucker punch to the gut.
Someone or something always seems to be there to take our breath away, or astounds us. As it leaves us wanting to just quit; struggling with our inner being to convince us not to.
Do we really need something more of ourselves or of this world; to make us real.
Do we really need to be acknowledged in this world to matter?
Why is it people cannot just be who they are; who they were created to be by the maker above?
Why is it every time there is something that seems beautiful; there is always some sort of doubt overshadowing wrecking it and whispering us saying we are not good enough; that we were never really what was intended we were just a pawn; a game; wisp of color in the canvas they are painting.
Why do we feel like we are missing something or someone of this world to be fulfilled? I know there is no answer or there will be many opinions. Just as these thoughts flowing through my mind maze are running full stream this day. I know everyone has their own opinions and thoughts.
But we all know; we all feel the need to chase out the pains and sorrows in our own ways. Shutting down; doing more; trying to be more; numbing the pains that are so real we just can’t breathe at times. Just crawling up and wanting to die; or for some unfortunate they do not get to choose.
We allow ourselves to believe in so much of the world that is seen and unseen. Yet; at what point do we really believe in the creator of all things?
We can be blindly walk through this world and always have an excuse for that pity party.
We can openly remain accountable knowing for every action is a reaction.
For every choice is a result.
However; That still does not account for the steps we take next; when our intentions are pure and good. Yet; we are stained by the less truthful; desirable actions of those we really want to believe in. Those who become added to the list and are masters of the chess game of this universe.
Some of us we allow ourselves to be fired up and really mad; reacting like a volcanic eruption then wonder why so much drama and repercussions take place.
Others cry the blues and stay in the poor me syndrome never able to move forward.
I am sure there are so many varieties or paths that can be chosen how we interact and react when we think we are doing our best and trying to be good souls and we are left feeling empty with that nothingness card of the world card to be filled up by scars and things we cannot even describe. Especially when it comes to playing with people's heart strings.
For me I am my own worse critic and truthfully believe in people until they prove me otherwise. I still most days cannot get out of my own way with my good intentions and well-meaning enabling spirit. I make it easy for others to take advantage of my good intentions and kindness as my weakness has always been how I strive and am filled up; when I am doing what I think is good for others.
However at what point do I realize the difference between helpings for should be good from it really being enabling others to give up on themselves.
Or even allow them to kick the role of the player they take on to go full screen to take advantage. There is always a result for every action no matter who is living it out.
What happens after when that New Normal takes place because everything you think was for a purpose; for the greater good.
Well you pick yourself back up off that floor; that sucker punch well it really winded you; more so, because you have been there before and it reminds you how complacent you became getting caught up trying to play God fixing and helping those who should learn to believe and help themselves. Believing that just because you walk with Jesus; will never keep you from the worlds reality. It will just give you peace if your strong enough to believe; as you walk through the new normal of life.
Especially when you see only what you want to see; hear what you want to hear and all the while never listen to reason . Staying the course; learn tough love and always stay at the distance. So why do we keep trying; because we always see something beautiful in front of us. Until the way of the world and all it has damaged reminds us just what reality is.
No matter what you want to believe the good in everyone and everything.
It does not matter what they do or who they say they are; or even what they look like. Why would you judge someone by the color of the skin or what he or she look like and dress like? Would we not judge by the beauty that comes from the inside out?
We all have our choices of what we will believe in. I believe until something or someone takes that trust; that love that inner being expectations that as long as they do no harm as long as they are pure and truthful.
We all have our own choices and we all have the accountability whether we admit it or not. Eventually everything catches up.
Life that big ole sticky bun; sweet and messy.
On the other hand, more like that big old onion. Where we purpose to peel back one layer at a time holding on to faith in something greater than any stain or hurt. Something more than what this world can give.
When feel violated; like you cannot get out of the way of those master life chess players that are good at pretending and using people up for their own personal gain; never giving anything back.
Chalk it up to it just being one of those days you feel deflated; because we want what we want and it falls short. And know there will always be someone or something to trip us up or even pull that carpet right out from under us. But our creator our God He has better things in store for us.
So what; if we make mistakes, so what if we put all our energy into people places and things and it turns out to all be a waste.
My best advice is to know and continue to convincing myself. Because we all do believe in something. I choose Love; I choose the creator of all things; I choose Jesus.
No, I do not get anything out of me openly sharing my choice if you agree or do not agree. Our choices are our own. My sanity is my writing always has been always will be.
My point here is do not let anything that is or is not happening in this world to you right now.
Take away the fact we are made in the perfect image of our God.
That we are worth more and when we believe and come to terms and own the facts of whom we believe. We have brighter opportunities to get back up; brush off and keep on keeping on.
No matter of any of the worlds What If’s. No matter what emptiness you feel or why.
You will be okay and find pleasure in that new normal without empty promises or worldly direction. For every soul that offends you; lies to you; misleads you; crumbles before you; seriously hurts you. Pray! When life is hard; pray harder!
So Stand up; brush off and move on. Do not waste time trying to make people care about you; do not invest in what is ultimately temporary. Invest in you and your eternal future. Meet Jesus where you are if you really want change.
May the inheritance I continue to chase always be of Love; Peace; Truth; Joy; Harmony. True Agape compassion and physical connection in purity no matter what!
For this I will believe in the Father; Son and Living Holy Spirit~ Anything else if I am blessed is just bonus!
Meditation
Moments:
Hebrews 6:19 (NIV)
19 We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain,
1 John 2:28 (NIV) God’s Children and Sin
28 And now, dear children, continue in him, so that when he appears we may be confident and unashamed before him at his coming
Matthew 22:37 (NIV)
37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind."
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July 28, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Philippians 3:14 (NIV) I press
on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in
Christ Jesus.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Lord thank you for your abundant love and peace you allow me daily.
Though there may be moments of this mind maze where I think I have lost your blessing and the wires short out and I am overwhelmed by what I do not have; what I love and hurt for and even for the stupid things I do in my own day to day.
Jesus, I pray and am thankful for the private places I need you more as the beautiful sound Tori Kelly sings out in “Psalm 42” - https://youtu.be/TEVqGlRcjF4
I will never have even half of the answers Lord; but I know you do and it is no secret I need you more daily. Despite my best efforts trying to help; trying to be that lighted path. You made it perfectly clear to me long ago. We all get there in our own time; and some never will come to you. For this my heart weeps; especially when we feel as if we are out there on that mountain of impossibilities daily or that we have allowed our kindness to lead us through new valley’s.
Lead me through the moments of nothingness and the whispers of stupidity as we make our way through the other-side of choices. For I will always remain accountable but it does never get easier to have even the slightest failures in this world The only saving grace is hope in you Jesus
It
is “Your Love Oh Lord” – Third Day https://youtu.be/QEF7IoQ3eUk
I too will do my best in all the strength I am given and lift my voice and
share my words you allow me from this world I am in no matter
what. It is no one else; there is
none other who has misled me other than what I allow
in.
Truly
if I am wrong and the many brothers and sisters that believe in you as well are
wrong. So be it; at least we have abundant peace and deep hope for all
the tomorrows that may come.
That
in itself when there is so much loneliness, distrust, dishonesty,
devastation in the world we live in; is worth every ounce of being
wrong in you Jesus.
However,
alone or knowing there are others who truly want more of this life and not just
the temporal things. More who just do not go out and give themselves
away; more who stay true and try with all they have to shine on. No
matter what.
Music
feeds my soul from my alarm going off with TobyMac tunes to my text
notification of Jewel “ Who Will Save Your Soul” https://youtu.be/lSRK0np_iEs
to even now a word, something in sight trigger words to write tying back to a
song.
Maybe
I have gone crazy finally after so much self destruction for the life I made it
through in my youth. Doubtful; for you Good Lord; never
allowed those brain cells to burn up no matter how hard I tried early in my
life.
No
matter if it is words; it is a voice or beautiful vocals and instruments coming
together. Dear Jesus. No matter as long as it leads back to
you.
So
in this crazy world I and many others walk in; please Lord “Steady Me” – Hollyn
https://youtu.be/gSKkr4Zs4CE
Thank you for allowing me words; thoughts and courage to share what is entangled in this inner being. Please hear all those unspoken prayers of mine and all I am connected. Please protect the innocent; the children; your children. Guide us Father in your will. Lord Guide my every step; fill me and the voids that come to life as things change so often. Or perhaps are noticed and always have been to come. Fill me with your spirit Father; not anything of my own. For I will make a mess of things. For what is real and what is not in this world.
Life, Death and yes that funny Taxes. Kind of like almost only counts in horse shoes and hand-grenades.
Thank you for each day! May I live what ever I have left serving you. Please be with those healing from cancer and those who have just been told it has spread. Please be with my family members as whatever brokenness has them on the move and at risk. Father God you are the Potter! You have and mold all things in to place. Please let me shine for you and remain at peace as I find my way deeper into you.
Forgive me for all and any offenses. Protect and guide all I am connected.
Meditation
Moments:
Psalms
139:1-4 (NIV)
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely.
1
John 4:18 (AMP)
18 There is no fear in love [dread does not exist]. But perfect (complete,
full-grown) love drives out fear, because fear involves [the expectation of
divine] punishment, so the one who is afraid [of God’s judgment] is not
perfected in love [has not grown into a sufficient understanding of God’s
love].
NLCC - Sunday Worship:
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2347351362024013/
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July 27, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Hebrews 12:1 (NIV)
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Oh a much needed sleep I have acquired; and a brand new day.
Thank you for all that awaits Father God!
Though something’s are the same and others will be so new. May we never forget the blessings and opportunities in every second we are given.
As I wake this morning with the following thoughts flowing fully through this mind maze.
Only life is priceless; every soul to you is precious
Only a relationship with you God; through your son Jesus Christ is forever
May we know the difference what we are chasing
May we choose our happy; while we never forget our worth
May we make each second of every single day count shining brightly
For if we cannot feel the light ourselves; we should never hold back shining love; kindness and giving hope to anyone we cross paths with.
Lord just as the song,
“More Than anything” – Natalie Grant - https://youtu.be/L5YMN3eTPC4
Help me Jesus; as you know all things about each and every one of us. However; may I never lose sight of all you are; all you have done; and all you have in store; May I never lose hope or the ability to see you in everything.
We know this world is dark as are some lost souls of this world.
So many as I think of it as trapped in that giant sticky bun; so very sweet yet sometimes so very good while others destructive and deadly. I know you are “My Defender” – Jeremy Camp https://youtu.be/tZ9yEiZApt0
Lord thank you for music that when we open our minds, allowing the harmonies and lyrics out speaking from the depths of our souls. Not every day is beautiful or even worthy of the story we feel to tell or sing.
However the thankfulness to have a choice at any given second to come is worthy of gratitude even when we cannot see it in our circumstances of the moment.
Lord no matter how we want; desire; dream up; work for; steal from others. No matter how much we celebrate; or wallow in our sorrows.
Joyful or cursing on any given day Father God we know you just want us to bring it all “To The Table” – Zach Williams https://youtu.be/n9N-bGVtKDc
We all must believe in something; we all do believe in something. Be it we are out here to shine and do our best to remain positive vibes; holding tight to that moral compass with respect and hope; no matter what wave is crashing down.
Or we are just out there saying that we are being our best self; whilst chasing love, fame, acceptance, penance. For We are all actors in this grand movie set Jesus. It is you and the Father who are never changing.
We here flip the scripts daily for our own personal desires or needs or whatever we decide to call it. We all “Lose Our Way” – TobyMac https://youtu.be/3Q_-9FyIxQE and it is never too late.
So I pray Lord; you know my heart and what is deep in this soul. No matter what song; word or vision speaks to our current situations of day to day.
We know that You are Love Jesus and You Father God are the only one worthy of judgment and lasting hope.
We cannot put our hopes in our friends or deeds. We are all made more beautiful for so much more than to be gangster and worry about what others think. We are worth more than what we can do; what we can take.
We are called to give and shine hope and love where we go. No matter how broken our path was; is or will be. Just as “I Am They” our “Scars” https://youtu.be/OqjGT9BSyJA
I am thankful for my Scars
I am thankful for the lessons I learn daily
I am thankful for those moments memories and gifts of life are given and shared with me
I am thankful when I feel the pain and sorrow of emptiness when everything changes and I must learn to hold on while walking a new kind of normal
I am thankful you allow me to continue to dream; hope and love even in the storms
I am thankful and blessed to be called your child of God. Thank you for allowing me to daily find myself and learn who you made me to be. Imperfect; flawed but daily learning exactly “Who You Say I Am” HillSong Worship https://youtu.be/lKw6uqtGFfo
Blessed and filled with an abundance of peace, hope and mercies; that can never be explained.
No matter what I allow to disrupt and entangle my being while walking in this world. I pray your will Jesus; fill me; guide me and all I love; all I am connected.
May we all out here trying to live our best life; no matter what direction we take it. Always know we must answer for all choices. As we try to find our inheritance or what we think we are entitled to; may we all be blessed finding our inheritance in love; truth, joy and on ending happiness in all that matters through peace; harmony with and for all we are surrounded.
Meditation Moments:
Romans 12:12(NIV)
12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
1 Thessalonians 5:8 (NIV)
8 But since we belong to the day, let us be sober, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet.
Hebrews 6:18-19 (NIV)
18 God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope set before us may be greatly encouraged. 19 We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain,
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July 26, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Hebrews 11:1 (NIV) [ Faith in Action ] Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for this day
Even if I stayed up all night unable to sleep and feel like crap this day.
Those simple decisions that we allow ourselves to endure; where we let things just get away from us. If only we were so careless with the love and self we give away so freely when it comes to you Jesus.
Lord I know you never give us more than we can handle. And if you do and that day comes; may we have purposed to walk and be in your will daily.
It is times when we find ourselves completely alone that make or break us Jesus; which is why we must cling to you. If we think we have nothing; are nothing than that is what Satan wants from us. To alienate us from you so he can fill us with lies and deception.
Father God; you have made each and every one of us for more. No matter how hard we work for or at something for or with someone(s). We must know we are never alone and every single thing in this life is temporal.
To store up treasures here Jesus; is that not foolish. Those treasures can be the material things of this world; or even chasing people and making them more than just another soul you have blessed with life. People with their own agenda’s not always walking or knowing you.
Those with intentions not of your will; those getting caught up; chasing greed; not caring who they rob and harm; stealing physically in their path or even the path they purpose for all unexpected tragedies.
Yet Lord; isn’t that what all misfortune is. Not mattering if it is physical or even those who stealing, using, abusing trust, respect, loyalty; breaking hearts; breaking spirits; chipping away at one’s soul; for their own personal gains.
Oh Father God; I so pray you take it all away. Just as “We Are Messengers” sing out please be “Magnified” https://youtu.be/Q06Y9X4_DsI in your will and every step this life has left.
If I think back I know I related in truth as “Greg Allman” says “I’m No Angel” https://youtu.be/BEP_dPN3Haw The majority of my days before finding you; walked with no condemnation of anyone; yet never stepped in the relationship with you until I did so to lead the way for others. Sure I found my way in time thanks be to God! However what we see now is so different even if still today we do not condemn others choices;
Wrong or right Jesus; I owe you everything; and everything I am or have is yours.
How can I explain I am in Love; how do I explain to those who just do not want to hear or see. How can I describe what is felt so deep down in my soul. My God; My Savior! To know all things you allow; you fulfill. You have taken this ordinary being; imperfect in every way and allowed me to live and feel life. No matter what those feelings are on any given day; Jesus without you I would know as I do today.
Forgive me for my indiscretions and sometimes foolish whims or lack of attention; forgive me for the things you do not approve. Thank you for this freedom of will; abilities and compassion; love and all the grace I am wrapped in daily.
Jesus; you know all things. The truth; “The way”- Pat Barrett” God I believe you are! https://youtu.be/MOzsJlk8p6I The only way is with and in you Mighty God.
No matter what we chase in this world. Please protect and guide your children to help light the path who truly wants to do what is right; but so often become entangled in the messiness sticky bun of this life.
Lord, I cannot answer logically what this love you fill me up with deep inside; just as the strength all these years you have allowed me. Father God; I can only thank you and ask for your mercy and grace. Each new day you give me; each heartbeat beats in an a love indescribable.
No matter what this flesh does; or fights not to do. You are my everything and all that I can be. Protect me from myself; guide me from all who mean harm in your name Lord; Guide and protect the children and all your children; protect and guide all my connections in your light. Your “Amazing Grace” Jesus “Phil Wickham” https://youtu.be/XFRjr_x-yxU May all your children celebrate you and give thanks; no matter where they are in the day to day journeys or lost paths of this world.
Father God; I pray all that I am all that I know come “In The Light- Dc Talk” https://youtu.be/2WlRt8z5bHA I may not have all the words and borrow so many sentiments of my brothers and sisters out there singing from their souls.
It means more regardless to know such believers who openly admit; and keep trying with what they have stepping in and stepping up to shine on; than those who will continually keep coming stepping all over us.
May who truly believe never forget who “The King Of the World” really is! “Natalie Grant” https://youtu.be/4K7kplxNM48
Bless you Father; thank you Jesus for all you are and ever will be.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 32:8 (NIV) 8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.
Psalms 119:35 (NIV) 35 Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight.
Psalms 143:8 (NIV) 8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life.
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July 25, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 119:60 (NIV) I will hasten and not delay to obey your commands.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Lord
Thank you; despite feeling as if I am in the crossroads of life once more.
Looking around with much time to absorb and much knowledge to know you are the truth and the way. How I aligned these past years maybe perhaps my entire adult life to fulfill and be for my children and others in need.
How empty to see it is time with so much time passed to look around and know if not today very soon is the new kind of normal that I must find myself in and for you alone.
It does not matter if I go left or right; as the choices I or we in this universe make will always have outcomes. Some leave us very alone; some in pain others with so much joy and anticipation to shine and share.
No matter what the choice; no matter what the outcome we must travel this road with a pure heart and do everything we possibly can to keep clean hands. We must own the result as the choices of helping and being for anything or anyone; should always start with you first.
No matter what the impacts of the choices we make or the repercussions of the choices of others that ripple throughout our time and walk here on earth. We must always hold tightly to all you are and ever will be.
Therefore, no matter who we love; no matter who we want to care for; no matter who we do care for; no matter what we think, we are doing as good yet find ourselves enabling and crippling those, we care for. No, matter what we have in the end.
Yes Lord, I am feeling much these past several weeks; No Lord, I do not dwell on what if I did something different. I am good with my choices. However, I do feel the emptiness of reality when we walk with you; but dedicate a life for everyone else we never allow ourselves to shine as you made us for. Leaving us at time to remain empty and lonely.
No matter what I have or am, I am blessed from and with you; this will never change. I have seen so much hurt and heartache in this life of so many I care for. I have seen a and experienced so much deception. I just pray Father you direct my steps in your will.
Through all the “Hills and Valleys” – Tauren Wells - https://youtu.be/EF_UQ0X52Ew
Lord I know it does not matter who cares for me on this earth; no matter what this flesh craves. If you fulfill this desire, I am forever grateful. However if I am to be as I am no matter what I am forever blessed. Please guide and protect me and all I am connected from the darkness and wolves of today’s modern world. For I am; “Who You Say I Am” – Hillsong Worship https://youtu.be/lKw6uqtGFfo
It is far from giving up; it is awaiting your blessings Jesus; it is letting go of what is not meant and holding tightly to all you are.
Meditation Moments:
John 10:27 (AMP) 27 The sheep that are My own hear My voice and listen to Me; I know them, and they follow Me.
Romans 8:28 (AMP) 28 And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose.
Jeremiah 29:13 (AMP) 13 Then [with a deep longing] you will seek Me and require Me [as a vital necessity] and [you will] find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.
Soul Moments:
There is no color; culture or parameters when it comes to Gods love. Why would I put limitations on loving those connections I am blessed with.
There are boundaries in this world and flesh appetite one must maintain; although over and over again we know true love holds no boundaries. In a world so vial with energy vampires that suck the life out of us before we know it. We must always do what is morally right.
Life and love ever lasting cannot be built on pretense; imagination or deception. Always do your best to keep it real and of internally of value you. Do not set yourself up for fakers; takers; soul thieves.
Know yourself before trying to attach anyone to you. If you cannot love yourself and walk the walk; how could you ever expect anyone else to do so.
Avoid the vampires that drain your spirit; drain your soul; leave you in a slow but certain death. Always hold on to God first; and fight for truth or let it go.
Perfection is not the answer or key; Money is not the answer or key.
Truth; Trust; Love; you being you; me being me. If you have love with out trust what do you see; if you have trust but no love. there is nothing more to say; nothing to pretend to be.
My perspectives in this mind maze clearly.
My spirit shutters to think of the things people do; just for fun or be funny.
So all you energy Vampires spirit suckers step off please.
I do not love easily; I do not ask for anything.
I try my best to live right; no matter in view or out of sight.
I am loyal; trusting; full of more than most will ever get to see.
However; I would rather forever be loved by Jesus alone
Than lose my life, my spirit, my energy by the Soul Vampires running this universe so ramp idly; than to ever be broken in a world surrounded by liars, cheaters, thieves in the night. Taken for that ride; for their own gain or just a ha ha funny!
It does not matter what they want or what the purpose to be near me.
It is something I just cannot digest without knowing it would slowly kill me.
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July 24, 2019
Weekly Cruising with Kelly Thoughts along the ride
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2340052406087242/
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 112:5 (NIV) Good will come to those who are generous and lend freely, who conduct their affairs with justice.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for this day!!!!
I thought about what could I write about that is floating in this head. Some mornings it just flows out and does not stop. This morning however I had the overwhelming need to do another cruising with Kelly and say what was in this mind maze.
So some of the things and word triggers I should have written down at the time they occurred; I ignored and just did not write anything for hours.
You see this mind maze is swirling; from thoughts of what next; thoughts of my children and grandchildren; thoughts of adaptation to the new normal that awaits. Thoughts of what it feels like to be spoofed and why people do crazy stupid things; thoughts of our children quitting the world; thoughts of health and well-being; thoughts of will I ever; and the list can go on and on.
Words from a song fill my head at times “Angel” Sara McLachlan – “ Spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay there’s always some reason to feel not good enough and it’s hard at the end of the day I need some distraction oh beautiful release memories seep from my veins let me be empty and weightless and maybe I’ll find some peace to night”
I so relate and I could go on and on with the song but you can listen to it.
We just need that second chance; that deep breath; that one pure everlasting love.
Yet in the world that throws so many things at us; we chase all that is temporary adding to the brokenness of our spirits; our hearts and even in some cases our flesh.
We have to know we cannot serve to masters!
We cannot walk with God and seek all that is good while running in Satan’s sandbox or turning our head hanging out with those that do things that are not of good. We cannot hold the moral compass in our pocket and saying we are walking with God yet run in the dark and doing foolish evil things.
Yes, No, Maybe does not count when you are trying to find direction to what is pure; what is true and what is lasting. Respect, Integrity, Love, Loyalty starts within our individual beings. Yes, we all screw up; yes, we all want to live; to love; to laugh. There is nothing wrong with that. Unless you are freely giving yourself away to the world without even thinking twice. Yes, there is something wrong when you are having fun and building the life at the expense of others.
We all at some point grow weary! Does not matter who you are. It is just the fact we cannot run on empty until we run out of drive. What are you filling up on and what are you using your precious resources of time and life for?
Invest in yourself; build a lasting true relationship with God; that which no one can ever break or take away. A love deeper than anyone on this earth can give. Even if you still desire that physical life. Fill up with God first and purpose all that is humble and true.
At least when things come and break you in between; He will always be there to hold you together.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 100:4 (NIV) 4 Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name.
1 Thessalonians 5:18 (NIV) 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
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July 23, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Matthew 19:14 (NIV)
Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for another new day. Please guide my lips, my steps and the actions as I walk through this daily journey rubbing past so many personalities, situations while purposing to do your will and not lose hope in such a messy world.
I try to put everything into perspective; as yesterday my thoughts summarized.
Life Is!
A huge playground in God’s canvas. So much beauty; so much abstract; so much darkness entangled in one giant sticky bun. Sweet yet so very messy!
However, the elements of this world do not always let you put things in perspective, as we should. So many layers constantly coming at us. The ultimate goal is to know Lord you are in charge.
There is no worry; no anger; or human task that can ever change that.
The layers are constant; I often wonder just how much more I can hold. So even though it bothers me; I must give it all back to you and pray for those I care for and all they are going through.
Lord, you know all the mentioned prayers below and who and what they are, meant.
Please hear all my unspoken words and all the prayers of all those calling out.
I pray for healing physically; emotionally and those struggling with addictions
I pray for family reconciliation, spousal reconciliation
I pray for strength for those wanting to give up feeling as if they have just had enough
I pray for comfort for all left behind and all those lost over this past 12 months even that of the newest fatality here on earth Lord today.
I pray for forgiveness; my own and for those who just do not get it and should
I pray for our nation and unification Father God; not power and prosperity at the hands of suffering and harm
Lord, you know my heart, with all that I am; I am yours. Please guide me in your will and all my connections in your will alone.
None of us know when there is no more worldly today’s. May we walk in peace, love and your will Jesus?
Meditation Moments:
John 8:12 (NIV) Dispute Over Jesus’ Testimony 12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
Matthew 5:14-16 (NIV) 14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
2 Corinthians 3:18 (NIV) 18 And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate[a] the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
Exodus 3:14 (NIV) 14 God said to Moses, “I am who I am.[a] This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I am has sent me to you.’”
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July 22, 2019
Weekly Cruising with Kelly Thoughts along the ride https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2336388656453617/
Verse of the Day:
Matthew 16:15-16 (NIV) “But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?” Simon Peter answered, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
There is so much swirling in this mind maze anymore; back in the day I would just ignore it or find my self-consumed chasing and doing things in this world. However I have always just loved to write and been blessed to have my own litter perspective on life.
Sometimes I am as entangled as everyone else is. Worrying about all that does not matter at the end of the day. Worrying about who really cares about me and who does not. Worrying about what if or why am I alone or displeased with whom I am or what I look like.
Falling backwards wanting to be loved just once; fighting forward, knowing I am loved, more than I have been and filled with abundance because of my Lord and Savior.
I never gave life much thought on it is how we train our mind to think that helps or hurts us through each day. Of course, in my youth I never knew who this God was. Reminded repeatedly we all get there in our own time. Nevertheless, for those who have made the journey it is our duty to share the love and shine the light so others see the path with all the seeds that have been planted; just waiting to blossom and grow; help grow the beauty that awaits.
It does not mean I like everyone else just because I know who I am on most good days; that I do not have dreams and desires. Quite the opposite actually.
My dreams like everyone else that acknowledges their own; are bigger and more beautiful than I could have ever imagined. If God chooses to allow them to come to life than so be it. If he chooses not than I will just continue to pray I am not entangled or lost because the world says we must do things a certain way and I choose to do it with God.
So what! If the world says, I am missing out; my loss for the eternal future that is gained.
I am worth more than chasing ghosts on the coat tails of what the world says we must have to be happy or successful. I am worth far more than giving up or giving in for what is temporal in this world.
I still have much to learn in this life journey; and yes like everyone else struggle with my demons of self confidence and comparison of what the world says we should be, do or even look like.
But I will fight my battles in prayer
My perspectives, my choices are that to which I want to continue to shine on even if the lens of most sees something else.
Even if my own lens is cloudy. I will continue to walk by faith. You do not have to get me or understand me or even agree with me. However, in perspective. You do need to understand yourself and understand why you do what you do; and know you have the power of all the choices you make and the accountability of all the results that come from the choices you make or partake in.
Own your journey!
We are all made in God’s perfect image. Do not believe me find and research yourself. Here is a start with “How Great Is Our God Laminin” Louie Giglio” https://youtu.be/zocnmbd07a4
This is my journey; one thing I have learned along the many miles I have been. Perspective is everything. Be thankful for everything in every second of every day. We all have a timestamp in – Birth and we will all have a timestamp out – Death of our physical bodies. None of us knows when that end stamp will come. We do know that there is no time to waste in-between being lost in this world.
Chasing what does not really matter in the end; giving ourselves away one piece at a time believing in people who do not necessarily believe in what you believe or want the same goals that you may want; places that change and things that in an instant are not worth anything.
Believe in the Creator of all the heavens and earth. Get to know Him personally that you can spend the eternity with. Where will your eternity be?
If I am wrong than me just trying to live with a moral compass directing my path believing in a creator that is more bigger and more beautiful; that fills me with peace that I live with deep inside even when I screw up; or others choices roll across me. Well than it’s my choice. Perhaps, I am living now, missing out on something. Perhaps me awaiting my future in my next life; I may be awaiting that deep agape physical love well my choice. I am okay with that.
I choose not to purpose towards anything that is temporal. So my perspectives on this day; is shine the light you were given and clean off that lens you are given. Dig in, research, and fill your tank with all that is positive and shine brightly with what you have and not worry about what others think.
We are all given freedom of choice and all the results that come with it. Change what is not working and love who you are in the process. Hold tight to your moral compass and know you are forever loved beyond anything this world can give you. No, matter what we have done or will do. Meet Jesus where you are!
Meditation Moments:
Ephesians 5:8-10 (NIV) 8 for you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light 9 (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) 10 and find out what pleases the Lord.
Matthew 23:8 (NIV) 8 “But you are not to be called ‘Rabbi,’ for you have one Teacher, and you are all brothers.
Matthew 6:1 (NIV) Giving to the Needy 6 “Be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
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July 21, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 119:30(NIV) I have chosen the way of faithfulness; I have set my heart on your laws.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Lord how you remind me often to stop trying to do this on my own. No matter how much I love and trust you; this independence is so bitter sweet at times. Keeping the walls up doing it all myself. Coming to you more and more but doing that here you go; oh wait doubt and impatience pulls it back; out the right hand back in the left.
I am so much better than that person so many years ago. Yet still this spiritual tug of war with life matters; financial matters; heart matters; even helping other matters.
Thank you for not giving me that time out any stubborn kid deserves.
So often we entangle ourselves in the weeds of life; filling up with anger; malice; doubts; dangerous reactions. All that should not be in this world if only we give all that we are fighting to you the Prince of Peace.
The struggles are real; for everyone in this universe. Especially when we care and desire to be and do what is good. When our loved one’s falter; when we are lacking that human interaction of what is good; we find ourselves trying to just figure things out on our own.
Sometimes during this process we find ourselves at the end of deception, and painful realization we are all the same when it comes to our choices.
The very freedom of will freedom of choice you Lord have given all of us. At some point we use for our own personal gains.
That is not the sad part of life; what is sad is how many no matter how good or bad; will use up many along the way never having any pure intentions.
The good thing is this same will is what gives us our wings to fly and get out in the world. To grow and become all you have blessed us to be.
If only we all only followed you and take the lead to be examples of those who seek and admire us.
Your love, your promises Jesus hold no boundaries. No one will ever be able to love as you do God. No one will ever go through the fires and pull your children out on touched as you do. No one will ever suffer the way you have Jesus. All for the eternal loving, kindness in relationship and road back to the promise land.
There is no color; there is no size or shape. We all bleed red and for this we are all on level playing ground. We all have the same chance to do what is right, and always work forward the best we can with what we have; not what we take. But walk forward with clean hands, a pure heart and a Godly spirit to lead our way.
Not hate; rummage and rage. The thieves in the night will always be as they have always been. I pray for this nation Lord; that our leaders and those in a place of power; not make choices in haste; make choices because they can; not make choices to line their own pockets.
I pray Father God leadership through you starts coming from the top down. I pray for all who are on the forefront of this physical battle. Do what is right; not what they feel.
You give Father God and you take away. I am forever blessed and loved from the inside out. I am forever blessed to know what is locked deep inside and know your will is what matters.
All I am and all I have belong to you Lord; Tell me what, where and when I am to be. Selfishly I dream, I desire, I fall short of much. Yet all I am, all I have belong to you Christ
I pray you allow the your angels of mercy come walk beside and with every single child in this world; to lead them not astray but protect them from what is dark and can be deadly.
May I cling to you Jesus more and more every day; for all I feel as a loss; all I feel that rob the smile within my soul. May you show me how to get through each new day given.
Here, or anywhere else; alone or surrounded. Father God you know all there is to and about me. Thank you for this day and whatever is next. Please never let me go; as I cannot do this on my own. I am a mess; loved and broken, strong yet so very weak. I am me Father. So very needy; and needing to matter; knowing each day you rise me up I matter to and for you. So very much in love; and loved by you. Thank you Jesus!
May the words that come from this unscripted mind maze I wake with so early each day.
Become more than just letters scribbled on paper; I pray all who come to pass know you Jesus.
Meditation Moments:
Proverbs 3:5 (NIV) 5Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on
your own understanding;
Isaiah 30:25 (NIV) 25 In the day of great slaughter, when the towers fall, streams of water will flow on every high mountain and every lofty hill.
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July 20, 2019
Verse of the Day:
1 John 1:7 (NIV)
But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
As I lay awake thinking what will I do with all the words swirling in this mind maze this morning; thinking what next for me? Truly, I have dedicated and made my life just being what I never had. I would not change one second of any time spent finding love in my family; finding my way in God or being the stability and hope for others to grow. But times are changing again. Here I am; was laying there for hours wondering do I write to I just stop with all the recent events; How, What, Why. What truly is next and then the phone rang and it was time to make my way. Here I am!
First before I get on this word journey sorting out all that swirls today.
Thank you Jesus! Thank you for this day; all that will come and all that has come to pass. If there is one thing I have learned. Perspective no matter how hard it is to stay positive when it seems everything layers up. You Father God; gave all and Jesus gives us life.
If and when. We are allowed another day, to breathe, and function no matter how big or small. Be thankful for many never had a chance. We are given new opportunities each time we are allowed up.
Finding myself coming back to the same thoughts and as I hung up the phone somehow touching something; notes from a few days back popped up.
Summing it up with the song that pops in my head I am just a “Nobody” – Casting Crowns https://youtu.be/Mflekg7ieX0 trying to make it in this world who chased dreams and love for most of my life.
Later meeting Jesus and learning I am fully “Known” – Tauren wells https://youtu.be/gbQ6Lfh5L14
Now I am not sure why I relate so closely to music or how some songs actually bring me to tears. But long ago friends since elementary told me I am just a really deep person and I have to say. What I feel most days comes deep from within. Because of this I can never just turn off my feeling and caring switch. Somedays, I wish I could.
However, just like that joke of my future husband of my next life will always be my future husband in my next life. Whenever that may be, I cannot change what has been deep inside for longer than I can remember. It is the soul that tells the story through one's eyes. If ever my time comes again; it is one with that soul and passion for who God really is.
For all my today's; It is just really cool and an honor to be considered a bride of Christ. Especially being I was robbed of my virtue so young in life and survival was the means to get through.
Clearly no matter what bad I have ever made it through in this journey; there has always been blessings in which is why even today I am allowed to dream and live holding on to hope.
“No matter what we think of others or ourselves we are beautiful creations made for more in the eyes of God”
God May not show us how to know what our value in life is or the value of our time. He may not physically derail any bad choices or time spent to later to feel it meant nothing or was wasted.
He has given us all freedom of choice and freedom of will to think for ourselves. All the while he has given us more than enough opportunity to know and live in and for His will.
He reminds us in Psalms 42:1-2 (NIV) 1 Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers,
And yet again in James 1:19(NIV) Listening and Doing 19 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry,
If only I knew then what I know now!
I use to be such an angry young lady growing up; and quick to fight for everything and anything. Mind you I had to learn to fight to survive and become who I am today. I sometimes wish I could still get angry sometimes; even for those who really deserve it.
Yet I find myself more and more just giving it all to God.
As hard as some days are; as painful as it feels the closer you try to get, the further your pulled away; the more you do for those in need; more and more you find it really never mattered for what is good; the more you do for others you find you harm more than good.
You just at some point give it all up to what is pure; what is sustaining and what truly does fill you with a peace that cannot be described even in the darkest storms when life pounds on you.
I don’t think I could ever say it is courage or strength that gets me up another day. Because truthfully when you get to a certain point in your life nothing surprises you any longer. But there is a deep hope that each day you are given there is reason you are called to be a tiny beacon of light for someone else.
Even if; it just means you plant a seed of positivity in a mile long garden of weeds and destruction.
If you are blessed to be captivated and/or connected physically with other beautiful souls out there planting. Well God has a bigger plan for what is next. Never stop praying for His will to be revealed.
Even if; it is just you never give up, never give in. If he allows you up; even through the tears; through any brokenness. Know you matter and all you do matters.
You do not need to seek more to fulfill you. Yes we all have to survive; but in Christ all things are possible.
I will never understand how I have always had the ability to just freely write for hours on end. I can tell you how many just do not understand it; or how those who I thought mattered in my youth, tormented and made me feel less than for my writing. How I have always been one to just write what I feel.
What I do know just as in Psalms 18:2 (NIV) The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield[a] and the horn[b] of my salvation, my stronghold.
I am far from perfect; really I mess up daily. I put too much trust and confidence in others while lacking my own self worth daily. I try to fix and help without even thinking and on many occasions enable those who really just do not want to get out and do for themselves.
I pray God will continue to bless and protect me; save me from myself; just as I pray for all I love and care for.
Somehow; I know, we have to take time to know who our own true selves are; before we can ever really know anyone else.
We have to love ourselves for all that we were meant to be. And not need to buy into the lie others will give us what we need.
There is no honor pretending to be anything less than what God created us for. Although the darkness and those that walk in it have been in this world for centuries.
We can dare to be different. Surrounding ourselves with what keeps your hands clean and your heart pure. Start with God; find Jesus right where you are.
It has been many years but I can assure I still remember what it feels like to be that “Drifter” out on the dead on road. –December Radio https://youtu.be/xihdayqBo0E
It is never too late; no matter if you have been a child of God your entire life or just finding your way. I am no theologian and far from able to know the verses I write. They just come to me as I am sharing pieces of me and that of my soul. SO WHAT! So “What If I Stumble” – DC Talk https://youtu.be/JOnokwbFH4s Me, You it does not matter. Get back up and shine on.
Purpose for all that is good; hold on tight and know you were created for more than anything this world can ever give. No matter how lonely we may feel; how let down; or broken we feel. Nothing in this world will fill you with the peace, hope and love than that of Jesus Christ. If you fall “Get Back Up" - Toby Mac https://youtu.be/MX5OqyBYKh4
Never stop believing in all that is good; it still exists as do the people of this world; In Christ all things within just are; even if on the outside it seems so dark and painful He is always “Closer Than You Know” – HillSong Empires https://youtu.be/RM_HqEZKtUo When things are hard; pray harder. Believe!
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 42:1-2 (NIV) For the director of music.
A maskil[c] of the Sons of Korah.
1 As
the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?
Psalms 34:5 (NIV) 5 Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.
Philippians 2:15 (NIV) 15 so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.”[a] Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky
Relationship Status: It Is Complicated (AlwaysMeKelly)
Recently thinking about my old bio and updating my relationship status on Facebook. I had to be truthful with my thoughts.
I truly believe it is better to have what we think is to be loved and lost; then never felt anything at all. I have never known a physical love outside of God.
The love that happens from the inside out.
However, as anyone who really cares when it comes to humanity and feeling; also knows relationships and maintaining a loving caring status takes work and can be downright so very complicated.
It does not matter what the relationship is you are trying to maintain. Be it husband & wife, brother or sister, friend or foe.
All relationships, when more than one person in the mix take effort; we have to purpose and want on both sides of that coin.
Yes, sometimes one has to give a little more while the other takes; but truth in the end balances and the relationship is meaningful and lasting.
It is when you do not really know someone but you want to believe people really care; because you are seeking something you cannot find or feel in yourself.
It is that which you jump into and someone is always the giver and the other is always the taker.
There is no real deep trust or relationships without the mutual agreement of working together to maintain all that is good; all that is real; all that is honest. All parties caring to put effort in their day to day; with loyalty, respect, honoring themselves and those they relate with.
Scars and History leave most of this world broken at least once in their lifetime. Sometimes much more; sometimes we just go through the motions and do day to day. Not putting much effort into it; caring at the surface level while all that is within just chases the fillers of the world.
There is no in-depth caring or sharing; maybe at some point as it started out.
Always chasing, what they cannot get enough of, yet they call it love.
Love from the outside in.
Not truth from the inside out; where we take time to really get to know those personally the kind where no God is living.
Eventually that relationship of any sort this way; crumbles and folds, becoming vacant and distant and finally falling apart; to be no more.
One or the other out there becoming the consumer whiles the other constantly the doer.
They get bored with the consumption destroying anything left until is no longer enough.
They lose themselves and invalidate even that little bit of bond and trust; forgetting and losing what truly was setup for the future becomes a distant dream.
So much reality, as strange as it seems.
Unfortunately, by then we are so entangled we forget who we are; who we are meant to be; Love becomes a joke for both you and me.
We start despising all the hurt that has been done and fight to find a way out even if it is walking with nothing but the clothes on your back or just stay away on the go; on the run.
The cost of true love is priceless; Jesus, he paid that price.
In this world where status matters; His is so unaccepted.
His is blurred, blocked and in the world we play where we are molded, tainted and torn into believing we are what we see.
We are not worthy unless we make something of ourselves; having a fat bank account. You get my point making a presence where everyone sees.
Forgetting; in the end it is all that which is temporary which we lose ourselves and create our own misfortunes.
The only relationship Status anyone should really be worried about is that of a relationship with God.
The one and only that loves us unconditionally; no matter how long we are gone for; no matter what we look like; no matter what we sound like; no matter what we are or do in the world.
The only individual being that truly loves us from the inside out and teaches us how to do that; is Jesus Christ.
Yet, we are so lost in this world of expectations and defining who we are and what our status should be. We forget we are in control with the power in our hands that we open and close that door to God, at any given time.
We have the power, the knowledge and the truth to own the relationship destiny we wish to be with. If we choose to think we can walk alone; just know you cannot call out to Jesus to help you in times of trouble or any the self afflicted messes we get ourselves into, if we do not walk with him and his son daily.
That status if you think you can is just plain foolish.
So here we are in this world of classifications; labels; judgmental misguided direction.
If my relationship status must have a classification it is that of being Complicated and Single.
As complicated in this world as we know it to be; especially when we are in love with all that Jesus was, all that He is and all that He has yet to come for you, for me.
We just cannot; we who believe; cannot classify or live by the worlds standards. We do not judge what others do.
We do our best to teach up our children the way they should go in the future. Even if; they with their own freedom of choice and will do what they feel.
We individually keep it real.
For me, I choose not to just go through the motions because of temporary pain or pleasure; loneliness or abilities to fill voids with activities, people places and/or things. This is my choice; my purpose, my life.
Yes I can be single and live it out in the world and go see all the things I have been said to be missing.
But why; when I have been there done that long before I feel in love with Jesus and all that He lived, suffered, and died for; all that He purposed for in a true real love. That of which we learn how to love from the inside out; that of which one day if not in this physical world in my next life will have my Sweet Soul King.
This is who I am that fills my spirit; that fills my status. That allows you to categorize me. As I chuckle for that, truly I do. You see, I am who I am, always as I have been; always as I can be; always me.
Because of who I am; because of who my God is; because of the fires I have walked through; because I am me, not you.
It will take far more than just the ordinary of what is temporary to captivate me.
As it is deep within the soul, how one's true self reflects out over time.
I want nothing temporary in this world; been there done that. Not just for a season; not just for a worldly thought, pleasure or reason.
I am blessed and allowed to love everyone; my heart may be bigger than anything I can afford in this world.
However; when it comes to being in love with one; when it comes to giving oneself away; promising to love, honor and respect the other until eternity.
There are no games; I have no time.
You want to get to me; first you must know what that means.
You must know and reflect truly love, honor and respect.
For yourself and all you connect!
I am full of dreams, always have been always will be.
Staying single; until the day of serving a Sweet Soul; my own physical King. It is more than words; paper or beautiful jewels in a ring.
Do you have what it takes; hmmm I do not know; because most likely I am looking the other way.
This world and the elements allows you to think about the choices you wish to live by; every single day.
Do you have what it takes?
To love and honor and know what it means to love like Jesus
To lead yet never control
To believe and never grow tired or make it old
To make my soul dance
To make me feel warmth on the coldest night; even when he is miles away
To make me Just know without ever putting on a façade or show
To make me laugh so hard over nothing until tears fall out my eyes
To hold me when I cry and feel like I want to die
To love me from the inside out in all my days and find me in eternity after I die
Not perfect but perfect for me
Flawed like a beautiful diamond in the ruff; shining for God then me
True to Gods purpose, he and all that we can be
My future husband; in my next life whenever that will be.
He is the one promised by God, who is my Sweet Soul King; He knows who He is when that time will be.
Until then, my life given back; I will remain a bride of Christ.
https://youtu.be/pV6-QqitjOc "Miracles" Jeremy Riddle & Steffany Gretzinger// Bethel Music
https://youtu.be/fiyYoe678yI "Broken Vessels" (Amazing Grace) HillSong Worship
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July 19, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments
Thank Dear Lord for this day; no matter what!
As I try to reconcile and make sense of this life; far back and even recent. I am trapped in what feels to be a drunken stupor. Looking around wondering is this just another test of faith; allegiance to you Jesus? Should I be angry for this life; I use to be. Should I give up; NO! What is it you want of me Father God?
It is no surprise my girls would be leaving, especially when it has been a topic for some time. Perhaps this last bout with illness was the final straw that was needed to dare to go make it in this darkened world. I get it; I do!
I do not even know at what point I became the official rescue ranger. Everything happens for a reason. Reasons I have no time to chase and wonder about. I just know my heart weeps for this life is never what I expected.
Blessed and pulled out of the pits; protected and healed. The very things I work towards or for. Slowly leave me; alone with you. With nothing but raw emotions; inner fear; feeling like that deer in the headlights. Knowing what I must do; but not sure what to do next.
But as I sit here looking around trying to shake off, being awoke out of a sound sleep in the middle of the night to say goodbye.
Dear God all that I am; all that I have is yours! All I can say painfully is to be with the blood of my blood and bone of my bones. For they too are of you!
Please be with them in their journey protecting them from all that is evil and misguided. You have blessed me with two beautiful intelligent capable loving kind souls to add to this world; then two more another generation later. They are all yours Father God.
I pray you hold them and never let go; just as you never let me go; only with less impacts because of the choices that came before us.
I shall never be ungrateful for the days that have come to pass.
Never for the dreams and hope and all the grace my Sweet Soul King; Prince of Peace has filled me with more love and mercy than this world could ever. Feelings hope and love from the inside out that allowed me to believe deeper in you.
Jesus; you are the first and the last. I am a daughter of the most high. No matter what happens to me; you have already forgiven me and taken the stripes before me.
Please be my strength, courage and purpose in the days to come. No matter what occurs here in this world; you are forever the same; You Father God will always be the truth and the light.
I can be mad, vengeful, breakdown, give up even give in; or I can remain thankful for all I have been allowed to see and come to know, experience and tell about.
I will never stop loving what you have given me Jesus. Although, my heart may weep and the new normal begins with everything changing again. I cannot give up or give in; I must press on.
Lord be with all I am connected; protect and guide my children in your will, please show favor to them and lead them through you.
Show me what is next and where I am to be.
As everything changes you remain the same; show me how to get through this new kind of normal. I need to know.
I am no stranger to being in this world alone. You God have always carried me. Please show me now.
Please be with all who are in need; bring justice to all those who call themselves children of God trying to play both sides; please may your will be done in justice and love to remove the evil in this world.
As I try to shake this numbness away and really see what is next; your will be done Father.
I could pray on to please change these things I am walking through; but Lord as the song says. I still do not want to fit this mold of the world. No matter how bad this hurts I need to be “Different” –Micah Tyler https://youtu.be/XFT0zoKQWaM
Father God you know all things
In you like the Toby's song says We gonna "See The Light" https://youtu.be/gFxLynr1_MY
Guide all who seek you Jesus. Shine brightly for all of us who believe; allow all who believe in you shine for those seeking you.
No matter what is happening in this day Jesus your will be done for all of us!
Meditation moments:
Ephesians 6:16 (NIV) 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
1 John 1:5-7 (NIV) Light and Darkness, Sin and Forgiveness
5 This
is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him
there is no darkness at all. 6 If we claim to have fellowship
with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. 7 But
if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one
another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all[a] sin.
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July 18, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalm 119:7 (NIV) I will praise you with an upright heart as I learn your righteous laws.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments
If you are serving if you are giving to impress God; or impress those around you. Keep it! God wants your heart nothing more. He wants the true you. He wants not what you do; he wants the real you. Not what you do; not what you can do better than someone else can; not what you look like. He wants you to love from the inside out. Anything more or less will cost you more than anyone on this earth can ever fathom. Know the difference of being Selfless and Selfish.
It does not matter what feelings or desires you have. It does not matter I seek to have a physical Agape deep pure love.
For He has already given me this daily.
What matters is asking these questions
Where are your personal values aligned?
Do you know where your moral compass is pointing?
Can you honestly say you walk daily with clean hands and a pure heart?
Do you have a relationship open and honest relationship with the Son Of Man?
When things are hard, do you pray harder?
Guard your heart even if that makes you stand-alone. The road I assure you is never going to be easy. We have people in this world that have more in abundance of worldly items that are miserable. We have those that have barely enough to sustain life and health and are filled with more joy. Then we have those who are constant planning and scheming out there not willing to step up for themselves; but out there to step all over everyone they cross paths with; to take what is not theirs and get places they do not belong. Those who start believing the lies they tell others; that what they do is okay and just because they were born into a God believing family; a family that call themselves Christians.
They believe, because they were born into it.
They are not doing things that are so bad. When they take from others, and they do.
To them it is just business in their mind’s eye view; allowing them to move through this world thinking, they are getting ahead in the world they journey through.
When they do not realize where they are headed for; (“Forgetting that every person you meet is a living soul that will spend eternity somewhere”-Truth)
There is a far bigger difference to be born into a family that believes there is a God or say you believe in God; than that of a soul who fears and really purposes daily to have relationship with Jesus and really get to know who God really is.
Just know Corinthians 9:8 (GNBDC)Good News Bible(Anglicized) God is able to make it up to you by giving you everything you need and more so that there will not only be enough for your own needs but plenty left over to give joyfully to others (TLB).
I am far from ever being the one to know the answer to this jacked up world that we are blessed to live in and what we do. Nevertheless, I can tell you it is never too late to do what is right.
Stop chasing what is on the outside; start making lasting meaningful decisions to know where your soul is going. Stop looking for what someone has and want to be with them for that.
Want to be with that person because of what is deep within their soul and know who they serve. Know we are all imperfect, but you and they are compatible and are willing to give everything you are to live out your days with common interest and believe deeply in what is love, what is pure, what God is given. Not five minute of lust, not flashy material things, not fifteen minutes of fame.
We are all broken people with real demons that haunt us even when we hide them away. God made us for more. We all have a timestamp when we are born in this world and at some point, we will receive our timestamp out.
Life is more than more cash; more status; more flash; more hot bodies; more beautiful externally yet so very ugly on the inside; more than just filling the gap of loneliness or 5 minutes of feel good. Life is worth more that imitation and lies. Life is what it is how you drive your choices and own your results. Good, bad or indifferent. All of which lead you to your final destination.
Make the most of the in-between while you are here. You cannot serve two masters. I choose to serve the creator of all the heavens and earth.
With that, I will continue to own my journey. I will continue to do my best and know where my blessings come from; as I know as I am the bride of Christ; my season of life is blessings beyond all I can desire, try to fix, try to help or believe in this world. I will continue to own the results of my choices; and absorb every lesson even if!
Thank you Lord for the blessings of all storms in this life; thank you Jesus for loving me; thank you Holy Spirit for getting me back up each time I allow myself to fall off that is truth and follow myself what is fake in this world. All that I am or ever will be belongs to you Father God.
I trust you will manage all that is necessary. As I know I am not a superficial Soul, nor will I ever stay where those who are. “The Breakup Song” – Francesca Battistelli - https://youtu.be/H0wpP5o7xpI Fear, liars, pretenders, cheaters, thieves, ungodly souls there is no room in my story for you. Yesterday, today or any of my tomorrows. I need nothing but the good Lord above; if it is not real, trust me when I say there will never be a second glance no matter what you present.
Please protect my family, my friends and my connections from all that is evil, all that is fake, all that robs us from any time in your spirit. Heal us and guide us in your Will Jesus from the inside out. Please give all who make bad decisions in this life; that they are given another chance to serve you alone. Heal and protect my future and my next life with you as I lay here bleeding out in this world with my “Heart Wide Open” – Matt Brock https://youtu.be/nnzEJy4c9FE
I do not have to fit their mold Jesus; I only have to fit what you wish me to be. I am always as I was, always as I can be, always me. Daughter of the most high King. Always me Kelly “I am Loved” Matt Brock https://youtu.be/mpNWNOzcTXM
Meditation moments:
Acts 17:27 (NIV) 27 God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us.
Hebrews 11:1 (NIV) Faith in Action 11 Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
Soul Moments
Faith is confidence; in the world full of serpents; dare to be the butterfly. Knowing you the metamorphosis of life will not always be pleasant; but the result holding onto God leaves you flying high, beautifully colored in Gods abundant grace and love through life. Each new day is a new beginning; forget what has tried to consume you; forget what is only there to poison your mind; your spirit your future for its own personal gain.
Learn to shine bright like the diamond. Staying hidden deep within the surface filled with elements and carbon finally shining brightly when pushed to the surface clinging to who God made you to be; knowing no matter what they do to this vessel your soul with God is indestructible Choose to shine brightly as you are a gem filled perfectly with flaws and unique design. Sometimes those we rub up on make us shine brighter; sometimes they flaw us more. All the time hiding the true worth, we have been created for with and through Jesus Christ.
God may I “Build My Life”-cover Terrian - https://youtu.be/SnpJ8oRQWrc through your will alone; rubbing out the flaws and shining brightly; your beautiful colors or hope, mercy and grace. Carrying through on the strength, you give; as mine will always falter.
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July 17, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Romans 1:6 (NIV) For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Lord as I am reminded this morning rising up; no matter what we try to fill ourselves with in the business of this world; you are one thing is never going to be taken from us. If we choose to walk away and do what is of the world, it is our choice. You have never left us; nor do you change. We in this world and all we allow in.
I want to do the things that are right; I want to maintain a pure heart; I want to believe there is really still more - good than bad out in this world. It seems though Lord; this is a losing battle; ever-changing with one step forward 10 steps back. Let me focus on what really matters to you Jesus; please let me forget all the rest. It is temporal; lonely it may be but so very temporal and meaningless.
It is you Jesus who are omnipresent, never changing and blessed us are we, who choose to walk with you. We are fully “Known” –Tauren Wells https://youtu.be/gbQ6Lfh5L14 even when we never accept or even forget we are children of the Alpha and Omega creator of all things.
Meditation moments:
Song Of Songs 2:13 (NIV) 13 The fig tree forms its early fruit;
the blossoming vines spread their fragrance. Arise, come, my darling; my beautiful one, come with me.”
Luke 10:42 (NIV) 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one.[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”
Soul Moments
When you believe in the goodness of one’s being when you believe in what someone stands for. Only to find out over and over the only thing that ever remains true is the hope and faith in God. Man and the ways of this world based on greed and exploitation. Of course we all wish and want for something. Heartbreak for the souls lost whom purposely step out of obedience putting others at risk. Yet more importantly taking others time for one’s own personal gain.
Time used is never replaced. Time wasted lingers past time used. Purity doing the best we can with what we have not what we can take or use deceptively from others.
Even while you hide in the shadows using those who cannot think for themselves to do the dirty deeds while you smile from the stage in Satans sandbox .
Broken pieces shattered in the floor. While cut wide open you cannot stop what God has in store.
One can not change what is deep in the soul. For this is the lords world and the misdeeds we do leave you forever unchanged.
You own your choices God of all the stars and the moon own your destiny
So my insignificance may at this time matter not. I can assure you it’s not to late to change saving your soul and forget what you have not.
We weep as we truly do not know what will come to pass. Left to live by the experience and expectations of this life we make a mess of in our daily steps.
As the internal combustion trying to crawl out of one’s skin trying to find meaning and purpose. Worthy in the eyes of the beholder. Reminders of wanting to know what it means for agape love. When suddenly the house shakes and windows rattle as the thunder and lightning explode bringing one back to reality it is you and God. As all else is temporary to burn and meaningless.
Branded and alive forever this dream in this next life will see.
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July 16, 2019
Weekly Cruising with Kelly Thoughts along the ride 07/16/2019
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2325510870874729/
Verse of the Day:
Colossians 2:9-10 (NIV) For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Thank you for this new day; may I not miss one opportunity to acknowledge and shine the blessing you give Father God. Please forgive me for making things something they are not and accept my praise and thanks for those that have blessed me beyond words.
Please shine brightly on all that is dark and be with those who need and want you now. You Jesus can and will bring judgment and ultimate justice for any misdeeds in the life.
We are the shining light in the distance if we only open our minds; soften our hearts; and own the freedom of will you have given.
There is so much layering up around and on us; we must continue to “Move” –(Third Day)https://youtu.be/tHeIN1qIE7s?list=PL60DEC501ED294D54 as soldiers in a world where the spiritual war has already been one yet the battles still rage around and within us. Father God may we all learn how to “Move-(Keep Walking) –TobyMac) https://youtu.be/MX1G71WK-FA with and for you Jesus!
I can openly give up all that is on my heart all that is deep within this soul; but what will that do but expose me to the “elements” (TobyMac) https://youtu.be/pIR24ubUf0E to be tormented more than I should deserve
So I do what I do best whilst trying not to get sucked in or forget how far I have come in this life. Truth is there are some actions of people that take place daily that I still today would just like to line them up; just punch them in the head and knock some Godly sense into them. However, our God is a just God and for the human side of me to think that way in the same thought pattern I need “forgiveness”. (Matthew West)- https://youtu.be/oIbCpy0CQEo
While I cling to hope for my own remaining days and all the desires deep within my soul. I know Jesus is the “Captain” – (Hillsong) of this bodily vessel given. https://youtu.be/HEM3FLkTPrI
With that, knowing I am as all are imperfect in this universe created by a perfect God called the Prince of Peace. I submitted to my Lord and Savior my Sweet Soul King, keeper and sustainer long ago.
As I find myself face down, I pray for all that, I am; all that I can be; all that I will be. Always Just Me AlwaysmeKelly I thank you Lord for all who bless us with talents tied to sharing your love and message through music. I thank you for what it does to and for my own soul. As I pray for redemption and healing of all going through the misfortunes of this world. I pray for all those creating the misfortunes to come to the light and always own their choices and be accountable. Even when life does not make sense; may we all come to know “What He Said” – (Group 1 Crew) https://youtu.be/Lmi9IBP209s?list=PL2T65Q94gGMth_rz3nqYcn08l0Dvsp5QU
Thank you for this day
Meditation moments:
Psalms 40:2-3 (NIV) He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. 3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.
Psalms 42:5 (NIV) Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
Psalms 147:11 (NIV) the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.
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July 15, 2019
Verse of the Day:
James 1:21 (NIV) Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.
Meditation moments:
Matthew 6:34 (NIV) 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV) 9But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Psalms 62:8 (NIV) 8Trust in him at all times, you people;
pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for this new day
Yes Lord; I could start this day putting my thoughts of how tired I am this morning because of the lack of sleep again last night. I could talk about the things that are stacking up if I allow them about choices I have made and not looked ahead far enough to see what the impacts could potentially be.
I could write about my weariness from over the past six months or even more. You know those where things are breaking down around me, where family members are struggling with illness physically and/or emotionally. I can write about all the death just over the past year alone. Family, friends, children of friends not forgetting even pets. Sickness; those I have known for years going through cancer even family going through cancer. I could write about the brokenness all around me or even including that which is broke inside me.
I can write about those things we even try to cling on to, trying to find that love, warmth and peace of mind even for just brief moments.
Those things we try to distract ourselves from the worldly stuff. I could write about that or even the passion and love deep down in the soul of mine. You know that feeling of a deep love that you cannot explain, not by vision, not by action but that from the inside out. That So Close; Yet, So Far Away.
We can give all the advice in the world; however until someone actually experiences directly for themselves. We just do not get it!
I cannot explain Jesus just how I can cling to you and all that is unseen and know. No matter what with you all things will be okay. Yet, in the world I cannot hold on to what is unseen. Why? So much that has been tainted, torn and broken so I have become a person who just waits for what is next; and stay at arm’s length because that is as close as I have ever been allowed.
I cannot explain how there are some souls that you just know to stay away from; and others you deeply just love them even when you have never had a second in their world.
There is something to be said; for knowing our own true selves and know we are not what we do; although what we do reflects deeply on the direction and perception we give the world.
Lord, thank you for who I am and all you have allowed me to be. I may never get it right; I may always have this vacant spot screaming and yearning deep inside. I know there is no “Scars (come with livin’)” https://youtu.be/h1minUpD7m0 that cut so deep in which only you can heal.
May all I am; all that I am connected hear your voice; and walk in your will alone.
May no matter what this world says we should do, be or get into; may it all be with you in mind Jesus. As we are “Never Alone” https://youtu.be/ON4xcs9u4KQ
Thank you for this day and those that may come. Please hear all the unspoken prayers on this heart and soul of mine Dear Jesus. Please “Spirit Lead Me” and all I am connected https://youtu.be/1Ko4yroBP0A
Guide me please in the times I just cannot shake my own failures or falling short pain points of this life. May all I cross paths with in this journey keep it real in You Christ. There is no need to be something we are not or hide what we are. Please heal what is broken; connect what is yours and meant to be. For nothing in the journey that lives within the soul is for a season; but for eternity. You God are everything!
Soul Moment:
The Sweetest Soul ever I cannot remember when it began; I just know it will never have an end.
Maybe back in my teens, maybe it was just pretend; who knows now; who knew then
All I know is I am awake; and I will never be who I was back then; and I cannot move past what is deep within this Soul even if others can.
Therefore, I stay safely in a world of mine; with endless thoughts all the time
Dear Jesus please take this I cry as you will not acknowledge how I even got here or why
I will hold true, empty handed or blessed with the stars the moon and sky I will always be me broken beautiful a soul money cannot buy
For this sometimes, it just is what it is and only God really understands why
A need, desire, dream could be? I just know my soul aches knowing you the one imagined who just leaves me be. The one who God connected and meant to be forever my sweet soul king. Even if reality says, you are only a dream. No matter what is or is not. No matter how strange that seems.
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July 14, 2019
Verse of the Day:
John 15:10 (NIV)
If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers and Soul Moments:
Father God I lift all my brothers and sisters in Christ up to you this A.M. Please forgive us for all misdeeds against your will and your way. May we prosper in serving You and you alone. Thank you for this day.
Thank you for this new day and possibilities to give back as you give us. I pray the path I am on is pleasing to you Jesus.
I will always keep moving, wounded maybe even broken always missing what lives deep in my soul to share. I know it is you Father God that allows only the best that will sustain us throughout eternity.
Please be with us in this journey Jesus; over the past several days I have had many conversations around God and day to day. May all I come in connection with; please be blessed with discernment and let go of the judgment, get even mentality.
We do not have to be around anyone who has offended us no matter how big or little the sin. Just as the soul who I once hired for work around this place bit the hand that fed them; by stealing out of the grandchildren’s piggy bank. There can be many excuses why people do what they do for their own personal gain. None are excusable.
However holding on to hate, revenge, or even disrespect is not the answer. As I was reminded; perhaps I am too kind; and do choose to look the other way when those who I try to help take advantage. I pray those who demand justices pray for the soul of the sinner; pray for justice through you.
May we never cast the stones when we all live in glass houses that are just ready to be shattered; and they will in time by our own steps, words, actions or the lack of.
Lord I do not know why this message is here this morning. Perhaps something’s never change only the people we cross paths with. Perhaps only the excuses as to why we do the things we should not do.
I pray forgiveness for all I have done to offend and sin against; as I pray for the souls who walk with daily transgressions and cannot see past to grab your hand and pull them back to doing what is right.
I am far from perfect; but with clean hands, and pure heart, pure soul I am blessed from you Jesus. For this am beyond thankful and blessed.
We do not have to love the sinner; but we are called to love the sinner. May the day come soon we all walk with you, forgiven and free.
Afternoon Thoughts
Thank you Jesus for the message today, on The Mystery of God the King of Love.
There are no perfect people Father; just those who know and walk with you and those who choose not to. There is no sitting on the fence Jesus.
It is never too late to do what is right until you have already taken us home; but then Jesus where would be the service in not making amends or serving in for all the virtues you stand for, before we leave this planet.
Unless we are serving our self and then we do not walk with you Father God.
This universe filled with imperfect people, in this imperfect world trying to find their way to a perfect creator and king. Getting lost trying to prove worldly views making moments that ultimately will disappear and prayerfully the souls will be redeemed back to you before it is too late and too much collateral damage is taken along the way.
Collateral damage of broken hearts, broken lives, broken bones; Leading the future of the nation’s children through chaos and temporal pleasures of the flesh that scream out selfishly.
Where else can we lie, cheat, maim, rob, murder brothers, sisters, babies, elderly. Smile while inserting the knife that is cutting off the hand that feeds us.
Do we no longer need unity; instead of eternity with virtues, morals and respect. It is instant gratification for whatever we can take from the next.
It is not so different Jesus from what Paul writes about in the book of Colossians. Yes, His letters there are for those already in the church and the brothers and sisters at that time. But Dear Jesus, what is so different from today; except not many are stepping out and stepping up to keep what Jesus stands for alive and pure.
Thank you Jesus for your own reminders to me personally in my own daily battles. Trying to keep it together; too quick to believe and help while always putting myself at risk for pieces of me lost when all I ask is just honesty in anything I step up for.
May I have Your discernment and know how to manage and save myself and stop stepping out to save what is truly unknown or not blessed in Your will. Please forgive my misguided ambitions and reckless and foolish heart that jumps in head first and feels broken later; because of the false need; the soul that was truly lost just knew how to play on good intentions or those all good is intended for was blocked by something more than I can ever understand. Jesus, I cannot do this life without you ever. Please guide, and protect me and all I am connected. Please guide the meek; protect the weak; send leaders for our children and our future. Protect those out in the mission fields afar or in our own back yards.
Please help me through this lesson and realignment period of my life. Guard and lead me always in Your will.
Bring evil and all the misdeeds Dear Lord back under your heal; crushed and aligned where it always should have been.
Protect our minds; our souls and lead us in your will now and always.
Meditation moments:
Psalms 37:23(NIV) 23 The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him
Psalms 16:11(NIV) 11 You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
Matthew 6:21(NIV) 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
New Life Christian Church 2nd Service end to end 7/14/2019
Worship: NLCC Worship team
Sermon: Colossians the Mystery of God
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July 13, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Philippians 2:9-11(NIV) Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
Meditation moments:
Ephesians 2:7-8 (NIV) 7 in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. 8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-
Hebrews 3:1 (NIV) Jesus Greater Than Moses 3 Therefore, holy brothers and sisters, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, whom we acknowledge as our apostle and high priest.
Psalms 34:5 (NIV) 5 Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers:
Some days are absolutely smoother; more laughable; more memorable; more promising or even more wanting to forget than others. However, it is o these days that you get us up once again and remind us. No matter what we think of ourselves; no matter what others think of us or even what we think of others. You Father God made us and we are beautiful creations that unless we see through your eyes; the eyes of God we will never acknowledge the power and beauty in love that we truly are.
I know normally my immediate is thank you God for this new day! I am thankful. But doing my devotions this morning and knowing just how far my life has come and been blessed. There are many out there that will never make use of the value of time when in desolation, they will always need to fill the gaps and miss what you are offering; there are many who will appreciate desolation and the harmony of silence too much and never make it back out; and there are those that never feel qualified when they do come out and lean in white knuckled holding on our Father God.
We have allowed experiences to shape our worldview and in some cases because of the lack of relationship with you Jesus. We create or join in the unrest and darkness of this world. Sometimes it is easier to seek sympathy instead of learning empathy and shine on with the light we are given. I still wake with the song as yesterday in my head “Fight My Battles” https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4 My hope of my future is, I wake every day and lay down every evening always remembering who is truly in charge.
As we do things that we think is helping seems to be enabling those who just have not yet reached deep down and found the strength and courage you fill them with Dear Lord. We can plant seeds of morality and moral value saying over and over just what our worth in you Jesus really is. But until they see it; feel it; and act on it for themselves. All we have is prayer and learn patience. (Patience) something no matter how many difficult places I was in and alone working through learning to be with you and waiting, always drove me to the edge.
As I now go back and finish my devotionals and scriptures I just want to say thank you; for the yesterdays, today and any tomorrow’s I am given.
I like the song indicates I thought that I had seen most everything “Edge Of My Seat” https://youtu.be/JT3zhGOQWiY today is a new day and if we choose a new journey is on the “Horizon-A New Day” https://youtu.be/QwPAKN8OEgc With you all things are possible; may all I am connected find you and make you the main connection to appreciate everything and everyone else for the blessings it is.
I do not know what my days will be; I know if I could just give those I love the things and love they need to help them move forward in life safe and secure in you Lord it would be done. Yes, then I would be somewhere other than here. Where I do not know; but you have given me the blessings and responsibilities to be right where I am. Please continue to guide me in your will Father God. Not my own; as I grow weary in of world full of so much temporal nonsense that only keeps us chasing the wind and living with our emotions and not what is deep down forever towards eternity.
Thank you for this day.
Soul Moments:
"I'm Gonna Love you Through It" https://youtu.be/H1WqAU7CzdY
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July 12, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Matthew 4:4 (NIV) Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”
Meditation moments:
Acts 4:12 (NIV) 12 Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.”
John 16:24 (NIV) 24 Until now you have not asked for anything in my
name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Lord, as I rise up again thankful for a new day; questioning how or what in everything. Again my mind maze is swirling with thoughts. I am reminded of so much but one thing is clear. Perspective in everything is what makes or breaks us.
As I do my devotionals seeking wisdom for these things churning around and with me; you direct me to “Perspective In the Valley” PerspectiveInTheValley
Lord thank you for this day; may I never forget where all my strength and blessings to make it through each day, even if I am hanging on by a thread. It is because of you Jesus and for this I am forever blessed.
Here it is Friday and just as Monday I arose with thoughts to share you bring me back. There are and always will be so many elements coming at us from every direction.
The Elements pound us coming from all directions; through Health, well being, protection needs, accidents, broken bodies, broken relationships, broken hearts and broken spirits when all of them get to be too much.
When we are going through it no matter at the hands of the wolves in sheep’s clothing or just things we will never understand. I know for a fact I will never understand how or why things happen. Even with me where I always get too close and believing the good in everything until it reveals the dark truth. Thank you Lord for am not the person I use to be. Just as the song “Fight My Battles” https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4 sticks in my head. I know you have all things for the greater good of all involved.
Please be with all those who walk in my world in deception; guard and protect me and my family and protect the innocence of all from those out there misleading, harming, and not able to stand on their own and do what is right in this world.
We are not defined by this world; Lord, you have given us freedom of choice, freedom of will and more importantly Life. What we choose to do with anything we are given, blessings, lessons or even suffering through the pain. It is a choice you stand by our sides no matter what direction we take. We are the ones who decide if we will walk with you or just play in Satan’s sandbox alone or not. I thank you beyond all things Jesus; You and you alone are what holds me together; and no matter who has gotten into my Soul and for all the unknown reasons of this universe. I can truly say like the song “It Is Well” https://youtu.be/T0dIWJ4t4Jg It is when I try to hold on to all that churns within me that eats me up alive. Thank you for allowing me to not be who I was many years ago; raging, taking everything personally. Father please be with all my connections and allow them the peace that they too can say is well with their souls, through it all; good bad or never knowing but it just keeps coming.
Lord, just as it is sung out may no matter what we are going through; we lean in on you; may we never give up and always know we will “See The Light” https://youtu.be/gFxLynr1_MY
I pray Father no matter how good or bad a person we think we are we give it all to you to drive and carry us. As I am inspired, by so many beautiful souls talents that are shared with us when we seek to find them. I pray we all shine with what you have given us deep within and we always do our best to #Speak Life
Guilty of not just spitting things out and letting it go knowing you Lord are the one who has died for me. Instead I try to make things fit in the little mind of my own at times; trying to make things seem real when all the while never really knowing what is what is not.
What is a fact is you will never do, be or come to harm any who believe in you. As you will never come to do harm to those who do not walk with you; it is known you will not step up to protect and guide those who do not walk with you. And they are left to be consumed by the elements throughout eternity.
Jesus I ask for forgiveness, and pray for all I am connected; I pray for their souls, their next steps, and their well-being. You are a “Good Father” https://youtu.be/OfJrxvVnmkE may they come to you no matter what it is and know you personally.
Thank you for my lessons; blessings and all the in-between. I pray peace, guidance and love upon the Sweet Soul King that lives in my soul. For this journey will never be easy; but with you all things are possible and will prevail as you see fit. Please hear all the unspoken prayers. As I also think of this day; I pray Rocky is celebrating his birthday in heaven with you Jesus. I pray he is looking down smiling and knowing you really were the way and laugh how ridiculous it was when he was fighting to not know you.
Please be with all my connections; all my brothers and sisters in Christ and all my blood line.
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July 11, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Jeremiah 32:17 (NIV) “Ah, Sovereign Lord, you have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you.
Meditation moments:
Exodus 4:5 (NIV) 5 “This,” said the Lord, “is so that they may believe that the Lord, the God of their fathers—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob—has appeared to you.”
2 Samuel 22:29 (NIV) 29 You, Lord, are my lamp; the Lord turns my darkness into light.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Yes Lord you are a lamp to the journey I am on. I pray this light never goes out and you Father God never let me go. With so much going on in this world; so much around those I am blood; those I am connected. I pray the light shines brightly for and with all of them and they come to know and feel the love you and you alone shine.
Many may not understand what that means; as Jesus is all I have to hold onto and He is what sustains the path to keep going. Life fills us at times with abundance. Sometimes the abundance is that of tests, turmoil, heartache and so much misunderstanding and confusion from this world; from us.
Lord it is not about a temporary feeling; a good time or just joy to be filled within one soul. It is the commitment to continue on in hope, in love in Christ; no matter what is or is not happening.
Sometimes the broken pieces do all come back together making something more beautiful than ever before; everlasting; evergreen. However, sometimes they do not; sometimes we just need to clean the pieces up the best we can and hope we do not get cut deeply by something we missed before everything shattered in front of us.
Is it only you Father God you speak to love with all your heart and all your soul in Deuteronomy 6:5 (NIV)5 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. And what of the meaning for Lebab – the binding of two hearts? Jesus I will never understand why or how outside of those things I know I physically contributed to by actions and by choices. But I will never understand why am I here right now; this way and what was the purpose of all that has transpired in this life.
We all want to find the real meaning of life; for our own selfish reasons or desires. But Lord I need you to reveal to me; what your will.
https://youtu.be/egM_jQVsfxI What If I Stumble DC Talk
I am not here to walk in a bubble; I am not here to fight but shall defend and protect what and where I need to. What and where I can.
But what is the reason for all the layers; all the individuality when it is written we are not meant to be alone. Show me the words; the way and the path these remaining days are to be on.
Perhaps it is just this; sharing you and this open view into ones soul exposing pieces of me over time. Perhaps it is something more.
I just know it is nothing without you Jesus. No possessions or what is temporary. There is no amount of riches that sustain more than you.
Thank you for this day; please guide me and all I am, all I am connected in your will for your glory.
Be with all I am connected; all who live deep within this soul; all who share the bloodline you have allowed me; all who I call brothers and sisters in Christ; all who I call family.
Guide us for your purpose not our own.
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July 10, 2019
Verse of the Day: Philippians 1:6 (NIV) being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Meditation moments:
Revelations 17:14 (NIV) 20 14 They will wage war against the Lamb, but the Lamb will triumph over them because he is Lord of lords and King of kings—and with him will be his called, chosen and faithful followers.”
John 15:13-15 (NIV) 13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you..
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Lord you show up at the most needed times reminding us just how blessed we are; reminding us we are never alone. If only we believe and put all our confidence, our hopes and all we are in the maker of all the heavens and earth. Perhaps we can then see even the smallest blessings as they come to life for and around us.
Thank you for the family in Christ I have and that of my blood line you have allowed and blessed me beyond deserving. Upon arising and making my bed before starting my day this morning, I am reminded looking at the life verses; I have hanging over my headboard.
There will be many Elements throughout our life journeys. We need to remember no matter what we all have a timestamp, a beginning and an end. None of us really knows when the end will be or how.
Nevertheless, we do know we do not need to let this world define us. We must remember from whom we are created for and by, remember who has the power of all things. We must always do our best to Speak Life into this dark and temporal world. It is you Father God, Son of God Jesus Christ the Living Spirit. The first and last, who died and came to life again. (Rev 2:8) No matter how hard this life on earth gets we must always seek the blessings we are created to shine unending Love of and for You Father God!
As small group started the new bible study last evening of Revelations again, reminded yet not knowing, not planning, not predicting how you show up and tie things together. I pray for myself and all in group; we all do and learn what is pleasing in your will Jesus; and we are able to absorb and take back what is being digested and coming to life with each soul who participates.
I am thankful my grandchildren were able to be part of small group last night, even though I need you to send your angels of healing and guidance for my daughter. Please give the doctors discernment and may they finally correct the issues making her so physically ill.
My heart and soul prayer is for each seed planted in the children of this world grow into the beauty and perfect will of your desire Jesus.
I am thankful no matter how much worldly anxiety fills me on some days; no matter how lonely or let down I may feel; no matter how much distrust I sometimes feel from the souls, I am connected. It is you Jesus that fills me with abundant love and reminds me of every blessing and allows me to speak into perspective the opportunities that await us.
You know the deep love and passion within this being. It is you Father God that call me openly to be a daughter of the most high king. Thank you for your daily love, mercy and grace. If for nothing else, we will all come before you for judgement. We all now while living have that choice towards our end destiny of eternal life with you or that of the second death. (Rev 20:14 (NIV) Then death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire. The lake of fire is the second death.
Lord, I am far from perfect; you know every single thing about me and all of this world. May I never distrust humanity so much I cannot love; may I never be consumed by the world.
Thank you for this day; please be with all I am connected; please reveal and light my path; please forgive my misdeeds or offenses. In your mighty powerful ending choice to allow life to this world and me. Please accept my thanks and gratitude. Thank you Jesus!
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July 9, 2019
Verse of the Day: Ephesians 3:20-21 (NIV) Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
Meditation moments:
Deuteronomy 30:20 (NIV) 20 and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the Lord is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.
Genesis 1:27 (NIV) 27 So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
Romans 12:2 (NIV) 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will
Weekly Cruising with Kelly Thoughts along the ride
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Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
For all the storms and destruction there is beauty that grows from the midst His perfect will. Solitude of a small piece of land in the middle of the grand ocean with a single tree springing to life with nothing else around to prove how or why it should be.
Growth off the side of a mountain thousands of feet in the air. Is it not the same miracle of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego thrown in the furnace in the book of Daniel where all the kings soldiers died from the heat just outside the furnace. Yet these three believers came out alive, untouched, clean and pure at the hands of God.
We all believe in something; we all see beauty with our own minds eye; we all choose who and what we believe, just as we chose what to defend what to stir up and what to let go.
Every one of us have freedom of will and freedom of choice.
The question is not why we must always defend our choices in this world; but ask yourself what is that you find yourself really wanting in this life, is and what is it that you really believe in?
Why is it so wrong to you if you believe there is a God or the Bible, which was written a couple thousand years ago? We all believe in something, not always good but our choices are our own until we infringe them on those who surround us daily.
I will never be a theologian but with all the darkness, hate and turmoil of this world. I believe in everything Jesus is, was scribed to be, to have done and purposed for. Love, peace, equality. Seeing the beauty in all this world has.
To truly love; whom we are meant to be; to truly love others from the inside out; to be loved from the inside out. Even for a moment in time that peace and comfort in unification to experience the beauty of what God intended before humanity and all the twists and turns came to feed in and distort something of perfect harmony into a world of much noise and confusion causing darkness and the need for deception and hate. With the issues of not even knowing why we hate; sometimes never really knowing why we love or fight for what we think we love at that time and place.
A brief capture digging in wondering what that Agape love is: According to Got Questions.org a snippet of what goes on Question: "What is agape love?"
Answer: The Greek word agape is often translated “love” in the New Testament. How is “agape love” different from other types of love? The essence of agape love is goodwill, benevolence, and willful delight in the object of love. Unlike our English word love, agape is not used in the New Testament to refer to romantic or sexual love. Nor does it refer to close friendship or brotherly love, for which the Greek word philia is used. Agape love involves faithfulness, commitment, and an act of the will. It is distinguished from the other types of love by its lofty moral nature and strong character. Agape love is beautifully described in 1 Corinthians 13.
There is more on this subject if you wish to research and read yourself if you choose by going to the site.
From my perspective and thought process out of this mind maze; is it not as that unconditional love; no matter what, kind of peace and harmony that fills us with so much warmth we can never get enough being around someone or something that shines with the likeness of what God meant for us to be.
Jesus Christ the son of God; is the living proof of this love. Even yet, today beyond all the sacrifice He has given for those who believe; still fills the hearts and souls of many. Seeking the best of everything for all those who believe.
Love is not what you do; it is what you live; it is what you breathe; it is what you purpose for the greater good and harmony of all that is around you. Love is to see all the good and serve in the best of your abilities helping those along the way to be the light, they were meant to be. It is hard to grasp and harder to hold when we are surrounded by the many that only know what this world gives and takes. It entangles us when we taste it wanting so much more all the while, filled with a peace and kindness while things around the world are chaotic and in some cases desperately evil and unkind, while never even knowing if or when it will truly come to life or just disappear.
I could keep going on and on; as my mind maze takes me places that yes I have been called a dreamer lost outside what life really is. It is true; allowing myself to believe and see the good in even those I should not. Loving what I should not and sometimes setting myself up for what should not be failures and strife.
I am who I am; always was, always will be; AlwaysMeKelly So just as the good Lord has gotten me up this day; no matter what is or is not happening; no matter what has blessed you or has crushed your spirit or burdened your health. Know you are worth more than anything or anyone of this world can ever do or take from you. I pray for my own; I pray for illness in my family; I pray for all I am related all I am connected. I pray you come to know Jesus Christ Son of God fill your spirit, and walk with you in His will of love, mercy and grace for you and to others for all your remaining days.
I pray you find your compass and really live with and for respect, loyalty and morality shining from the inside out and not take ever more than you can give back to or from others.
I pray Lord you continue to hold me together. On the days I believe too much in others and forget to put all I am in you. I pray for those days I just want to be invisible because trying to believe I am seen by others just never transpires no matter how much you want to believe.
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July 8, 2019
Verse of the Day: Psalms 138:2 (NIV) I will bow down toward your holy temple and will praise your name for your unfailing love and your faithfulness, for you have so exalted your solemn decree that it surpasses your fame.
Meditation moments:
John 15:11 (NIV) 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.
1 Corinthians 13:12 (NIV) 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for another day.
We know you do not necessarily know what we are to pray for; or even really get what we want on any given day. However you Lord King of Kings; Lord of Lords always give us what we need.
As we are lost for words or misguided in our day-to-day prayers, we know you and the spirit are in one and know what best for our days allowed.
I am far to challenge even though I do; getting upset, holding on; fighting, screaming, crying from within. You God have seen and heard all things before all ever comes to be.
Forgive me for my trespass and allow me to forgive those who trespass against all I am connected.
Life is too short to hold onto what we think we should have; what is like losing everything and starting repeatedly; feeling the pain of betrayal repeatedly.
We know this world reflects bad people getting ahead and good people devastated.
May we all learn to trust and rely in you Jesus Christ; Father God; Creator of all things, Jehovah Jirah. For you are with us regardless if we hold you openly or ignore you walking with us.
This world is hard; we want so badly to achieve, to excel, to be more in the eyes of this world, we want deeper, better, more now!
We do crazy things when we do not feel by the worlds standards and in the process we break ourselves, we break those along the way.
May we Lord recognize who you are in all we live, breathe and experience. There is no God greater than you are Jesus Christ. I pray the blessings to know you and feel your peace for all my days, for all my family, friends and connections. In all that is good. Thank You Father no matter what happens with me. Thank you.
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July 7, 2019
Verse of the Day: Psalms 18:30 (AMP) As for God, His way is blameless. The word of the Lord is tested [it is perfect, it is faultless]; He is a shield to all who take refuge in Him.
Meditation moments:
Psalms 20:7 (NIV) Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.
1 John 1:9 (NIV) If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
Luke 1:79 (NIV) to shine on those living in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the path of peace.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Thank you Lord for this new day you have given me; given those I know. Not everyone has the benefit of rising this day or night.
I pray for the comfort of those who are suffering in loss, brokenness within themselves, within their families or just feeling all that surrounds them.
Jesus, please allow their eyes, hearts to be open while you fill their spirit with your spirit.
Lord I believe in trust in all I know you as; but how well do I really know you or any soul on this earth. I learned that from my second husband. I am not reliving the past. I am however taking some or the lessons life has taught me; has allowed me for use in survival and trying not to be that foolish heart who believes everyone until something bad transpires any longer. You never really know anyone, no matter who they are or how long they are in your lives.
I knew Billy since I was 13 even if I was 30 when we got together and finally married. How crazy to think we could really know someone as we lived together fine four years and when I finally gave in and married him; only two years later his true self came out. Always trying to see the good in everyone; may be not everything but everyone. I get it Father; it was never all his fault. We were never blessed by you and we were two long term friends helping each other that felt we needed to be together. I loved him like a brother and was never in love with him. I knew him too well. No matter how I tried, I never got over the fact my first marriage went so horribly wrong and I swore I would never marry again. How stupid I was back then. I was more upset that I waited so long to get married and it almost killed me and my children.
Knowing the only reason I left was for the safety and wellbeing of the lives you gave me to live.
Devastated even if it turned out so wrong; that the only thing I ever wanted was to have that family; be married once forever. Thinking back now I do not think I even knew what love was back then either. But that timeframe and all you saved me from Father God; is for a different story.
Billy and I got together and he helped me immensely as I helped him. Even if all the while we were pretending to be a family he was out setting up house somewhere else. He broke my children’s hearts by pretending to be something he never had any intentions to live out.
Thankfully through all the hard times; just like me getting up two mornings in a row in a fog, stumbling and bouncing off the tall dresser.
We all with a few marks up and down us made it through some life experiences I will never forget.
Have I held on to these experiences so tightly I will never have the moment in time truly blessed by Jesus? Father God, you are the only one that will ever be able to reveal truly what comes next.
From years of mending, years of mistakes, years walking with you and finding the purpose within me. You know all things deep within my soul. You know my dreams, my quirks, my pet peeves, and my passion.
You alone know where and what you want for the remaining days of this life. As I pray daily for your will not my own.
I am human; my will no matter how much I am love with the man who died for me. Well I am still that gullible foolish heart believing there really is good in everyone
Because of that and many more life experiences of getting caught up, being taken for a ride or many. I try to just stay to myself and fill my hopes and prayers with all you are Jesus.
I am far from perfect and love the good, the bad and what am I thinking.
Father if it takes forever, I will wait on you. Your will and what you have chosen for me. No matter what I feel deep within. Jesus I thank you for all I have been able to become. I thank you for all that I can and will be.
I thank you for the ability to love everyone at arm’s length and not get sucked in and taken for those rides. I thank you for allowing me to feel love from the inside out. Thank you for allowing me to love my family and love my friends. More importantly; thank you Jesus for loving me.
May I never forget who I am in you Father God, may I always be able to help others be the light of you they are meant to be. I ask for guidance, protection and your mercy and grace on those really dark days.
In your perfect will may all I am connected be connected to and with you. For your will, your love and all that is good and light for this world we live.
Thank you Jesus!
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Realities Dream
Thinking of this one’s Realities Dream on 07/7/2019 11:28PM
It is funny how you want to start over yet you freeze and avoid all possibilities. Just so, you never have to fail or ever chance you just do not know even with God. Something real could ever happen.
You live life and just turn the switch to all possibilities off
You set your sites on something beautiful imaginary and just leave it.
You know your worthy but you also know the let downs of life have always weighed heavier with bigger prices you should never have to pay.
Life is good as you acknowledge it to be, as God blesses us all.
When lonely you serve a little more and surround yourself with your sisters and brothers in a Christ.
You work hard and teach your children to work smarter. To keep all emotions out of the equation.
It is not that you are not full of love and passion. In fact, you are so deep and full it is scary at times.
Where God has healed the scars, you still know just how loyal and deep you would take it for your very own Sweet Soul King or Queen
There are no boundaries once unified. For the fierce love, God has filled the dreams to shine. Personally, for true love there is no lack of respect, submissions or s future so bright.
Yet here it is awake alone in the middle of the night; so close but ever so far out of touch out of sight.
You would serve well if only you would give in and freely be open to opportunity when it knocks.
You know God had you and when it comes down to it He is all that matters true sustainer of all you got.
So one can dream imagine toil with what you will never really have.
For mare words on paper really all they are. Just telling you what you want to hear knowing if it were true, it would have been up front and not hiding from the start.
Who knows why the truth cannot be. A wife a husband perhaps just a hustle for free money.
Unfortunately sad how badly you want the real 200% of the real you or me
For a moment in time, it was very real until something changed and now you or I just are not free and neither understand to see.
There is good in everything. Even just a friend you will never allow us to be; it seems for I will forever belong to God. Moreover, reality will press on with or without a Queen or King
Forever in my soul tattoo upon my skin; forever no matter what transpires.
Till The day I die I will see you need you imagine you in Everything.
Perhaps in my next life. There will be no past just an us with no explanation expectations never any unrest scars or strife
Until then you were set free long back with prayers and blessings to be the best you can be. As the good Lord requires you to be.
You have purpose and meaning far more than anything this world will bring. Stay blessed sweet soul. I have felt far more than my words can ever write or your voice sing.
No more worries no more doubts. I love you always no matter what was never really in both our plans to work out.
If you ever do see me; meet me; see me in the distance; be sure to grab my attention; give me a shout out. For the realities of this dream and where I hide beneath. If you do not I am afraid; the noise of the world will always be too loud. Because of that, I will always just be another soul in the crowd.
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July 6, 2019
Verse of the Day: Matthew 24:35 (NIV) Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.
Meditation moments:
Isaiah 9:6 (NIV) For to us a child is born, to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
Zechariah 9:9 (NIV) The Coming of Zion’s King 9 Rejoice greatly, Daughter Zion!
Shout, Daughter Jerusalem! See, your king comes to you, righteous and victorious,
lowly and riding on a donkey, on a colt, the foal of a donkey.
Romans 8:15-16(NIV) 15 The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship.[a] And by him we cry, “Abba,[b] Father.” 16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.
Romans 8:15-16(NIV) 5 “Do not come any closer,” God said. “Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy ground.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Sometimes the card game of life doesn’t give opportunities to really call a bluff or fold. Sometimes you just have to stay and hold. ♦️ ♥️ ♠️ 🤴 👸
Sometimes it’s just easier to become invisible and believe than live up to the worlds standards and wait for your turn.
With God there are no turns needed ❤️✝️🙏🏻🙌🏻
Thank you Father God.
Wow deep reminders this morning of how real the story of Jesus played out. How easy the world will try to suck you in and mold you; yet the spirit is within you to believe and help you walk through day to day in perfect harmony no matter what is or is not happening around us.
How easily our minds, our conscience can be warped and molded as we try to be, try to belong, try to make love come to us. The things we do growing up to seek attention, to fit in. We see it all over the news when the world gets to be too much for so many and evil takes over.
Father, Abba Lord Jesus Christ may your spirit forever be what lives inside me; mind, body and soul.
I know I will hardly ever get it right; but to lose the peace you fill us with; to lose the abilities we find within ourselves when we believe we truly are made for more in the image of God. The courage of purity, loyalty and respect; I pray never leaves your children no matter what is happening in, to or around us.
With all that is and the amount of souls in this world; Dear Lord please be with your children. For those seeking you, those in need and lost.
There are so many lonely, hurting souls out in this universe with so many dressed in sheep’s clothing yet are wolves waiting to devour and destroy for their own personal pleasures and gain. We are not to store up anything we find as treasure but to use all we are all we have for the greater good. However nothing has changed from now through years gone by.
The dark always manages to seep in and around those there on their own.
I pray Lord; you shine brightly for all that is good, all that is pure all that is lasting. Protect the innocent, the disabled, and the children. Guiding those in your will to lead the way for those lost seeking to be found.
The world or any of us in it will never be perfect Father; only the Majestic King of all creation is such. But I pray the world comes to know you and the beauty you place right in front of us. Allowing us to hold on to what is good and letting go of what drives us to do and be of this world.
Thank you for this day of new words and thoughts given.
Please be with all I am connected and all deep within my spirit; for all that is good, all that is pure; all that is loyal. Shine brightly on and around us all leading the way to harmony in and with you alone. Please guard this heart and mind of mine and if I am to lead the way in any form or direction. May it always be with you and your children; my brothers and sisters for all that have clean hands and pure hearts for the good you have given.
Romans 8:15-16(NIV) The light of the righteous shines brightly, but the lamp of the wicked is snuffed out.
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July 5, 2019
Verse of the Day: Isaiah 12:4 (NIV) In that day you will say: “Give praise to the Lord, proclaim his name; make known among the nations what he has done, and proclaim that his name is exalted.
Meditation Moments:
Romans 8:38-39 (NIV) 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,
Psalms 56:3-4 (NIV) 3 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.
4 In God, whose word I praise; in God I trust and am not afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
Isaiah 43:19(NIV) 19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Father God I am not worthy of the love and blessings you give me and my family daily. I will never understand how there can be so much with so little; or even the peace found on the other side of the fires I have walked through. Long before I ever met you the blessings poured upon me and my family. There will never be enough thanks.
Oh yes, I have felt real physical and emotional pain throughout my time from a very young age. I have felt and still feel for a deep love and lacking relationship and what the world calls normal. Surrounded, raised up in a loving family.
I came out of the broken pieces of who knows how far back something once was intended for beauty. Thank you; no matter where I have come from; no matter what I have been through; no matter what I can be for others or will never be. Thank you Jesus for holding on who never gave up on me. Through all the mishaps, mistakes, laughter so hard I cannot breathe to the abundance just being in your presence. Thank you.
Through all of the stains; I may have not purposed but ended up as the scars that molded me to who I am. Thank you.
Teach me Lord How to see clearly in all things. Guide me Father God; in your will alone. Forgive me Jesus; when this misguided foolish girl’s heart does not see things for what it really is and causes brokenness to the soul within. Forever blessed, chosen out of the sand pile this speck. You the Alpha, the Omega; Abba my Prince of Peace who sustains and brings me life; Thank you!
Lord you know my day and the only agenda is to get up and do the needful to make ends meet; live up to the responsibilities you have blessed me with and truly just survive. That may sound lacking, mundane or even too simplistic. Even if it is not; for you have given me the responsibility to lead by example; strength most days to keep going and the persona to hold it together and do my best to reflect all that is good.
All the while sometimes, when trying to believe in some more meaningful on this earth and making a mess of things.
Sometimes I react without breathing sometimes I do not; most times I never pay attention to when I should or should not. Yet I am blessed and you get me through. I never planned to be who I am; or do what I do; or feel the way I feel. If I had my way long back I would have had that unending story book Ozzy and Harriett with a 20 century romantic twists and all that goes with. Yet; I have been exposed, experienced and left to only dream.
I can argue with you Father God all day long; I am not sure that will ever really get me anywhere.
However these things stick in my head:
As I try to figure out why?
- 8/16/2018 - 10 months 20 days
- 9/28/2005 - 13 years 9 months 7 days
- 9/14/2004 - 14 years 9 months 21 days
- 9/07/2004 - 14 years 9 months 28 days
- 5/15/2007 - 12 years 1 month 21 days
Guess if I were a betting soul I would play 14/9/21, 14/9/28, 13/9/7, 12/1/21
In any case you know everything about me already; you know every single flaw, scare, hang-up. You know every desire and dream, need or want. You know my thoughts, good, bad or indifferent. I am ready Father and only you can answer all that is crying out.
May no man ever think they have control or truly know anyone without walking closely with you first Jesus. And even then; may they come to realize; no one will ever know how deep scars go, or what they mean to be loved until they come to know what you truly went through.
We search for the light in this world; forgetting you are the light that is within each and every soul. You are the truth and the way. We can live with everything else as a bonus or as a curse. The choice is ours as we are blessed by freedom of will given.
I pray and give you every single soul I am connected Jesus. Please hear their silent cry, please heal what is broken, ill or stuck. Please protect all of us from ourselves; please protect us from our misguided thoughts and ways against each other.
Lord of all the heavens and earth; please fill us with your abundant will, love, mercy and grace; to love throughout eternity for all the right reasons; to see with your eyes and feel with your heart.
For no matter what I feel; no matter what is what is not; God almighty it is you that has allowed all things be well with this Soul and all that is within. May the love and light you shine within never dim.
May we forgive those who trespass against us. Thank you, Jehovah for this day.
Lord you know all things; I pray that those who know of you; come to know you and realize You hear all prayers; that no one special person need to come to you on the behalf of others. Although when we are in unity our voices are mighty in your name alone. Please be with my niece and her friend that she is concerned for; may the power and blessings of all you are wash over them both. I have seen so many miracles with my family. The power of prayer can never be stopped. In your might precious name now and always. Amen
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July 4, 2019
Verse of the Day: Psalms 33:12 (NIV) Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord, the people he chose for his inheritance.
Meditation Moments:
John 4:23-24 (NIV) 23 Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. 24 God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.”
Psalms 100:4 (NIV) Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name.
Romans 8:6-11 (NIV) The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God. ...
Philippians
4:8 (NIV) Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is
noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is
admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such
things.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Thank you Dear Lord!
Thank you for the world we are given. Thank you for the independence we celebrate and the lives we are given to make something of. Thank you for the freedoms, that many have never been allowed. Thank you for the one who sacrificed everything to bring life to a dark world. Thank you for the gift of life and the son you blessed me with 40 years ago; thank you for the life you have blessed him with.
I pray every soul comes to truly know you Father God and at least
knows the choice to choose life or stay in the dark.
I pray for all the innocence lost by those that stay in the
dark; as I pray each and every one of us to stop looking for the light up ahead
and release the light that lives within us; Jesus Christ the light
that is eternal life; if we allow Him in.
Lord you are everywhere in all creation and within our living
souls if we allow you. May I never lose sight of this as my memory
fades; may I never get caught up as I seek to survive in this world; may I
never do harm to others and become heavy and dark to anyone causing them harm
and pain during my own journey or struggles.
Just as the fireworks will display on this worldly holiday; so shall the lights of your love, mercy and grace within each of us if we lean into you and never let go of your truth and your promises.
Forgive me Father for how my own feelings and emotions sometimes get the best of me. The scars that can be messages of hope that sometime are triggered by misunderstandings or misinterpretations. May all I am be of your will Jesus; nothing more nothing less. I ask that all that you have washed me clean through the blood of Jesus Christ not come out through insecurities; doubt and mistrust towards any who matter through this journey of what is called my life.
Please send a hedge of protection, guidance and will down around all that I am; all that I have and all that you have blessed me with. Please see deep within the souls that I am connected and bring the blessings of love hope and peace.
Please be with each and every brother and sister in need right now and going forward; may they be filled with your discerning spirit and walk through the fires knowing you are with them.
Lord forgive me for making something’s out of nothing; not making things that should be and being so stinking confused sometimes of what should or should not be.
I am reminded again this morning; how I try and see the good in everyone. How I make excuses for everyone. How can that be Father; if I am so mistrusting and sometimes accusing. Actions speak so much louder than words. Please may all that I am; all that I do reflect your love Jesus! All while not becoming a doormat, a victim or darkness added to this cold world we are given.
Thank you for this day. Please forgive me for making such a mess of things in all my paranoid non-trusting scars that haunt me. Please never let anyone I care for be harmed or ruin connections because I so quickly jump and defend what is not and am foolish and do not know most times when I should. Lord please you know my heart and all that is within.
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July 3, 2019
Verse of the Day: Proverbs 14:34 (NIV) Righteousness exalts a nation, but sin condemns any people.
Meditation Moments: Luke 6:37 (NIV) Judging Others 37 “Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.
2 Timothy 4:8 (NIV) 8 Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
Titus 3:5 (NIV) 5 he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit,
Romans 8:1 (NIV) Life Through the Spirit 8 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Thank you for this day and all that have come before the blessings you give me right here right now. There will never be enough thanks Father God for all you have done for me or in me. From the roof, over my head, the food in our refrigerator, the continual extra’s, the pets, the things we get to do. I pray no one in my family ever forget the blessings you have given; and if they do; may they see those who barely have anything and are yet still happy with what they are given daily.
As I write and see different grammar suggestions pop up I wonder just how perfect we are supposed to be for you Lord, in all we do. By the world’s standards, we are all failing miserably; even if many think they have it all together well enough to cast the judgement out on the rest of us.
Even me; I wonder how often I am walking around judging myself too harshly or for that matter never enough. If only we had a pre-check list that came with us at birth that, we could go through daily before stepping out into this big world. Sounds crazy I know but the world has truly gone mad in some directions and not enough in others. Robbing us from the beauty that the good Lord intended.
I am an over thinker without a doubt, but then you have those that do not think at all! On the other hand, how about those who think, plot and scheme for all that is not so good. Oh, the mind mazes we all live within~
This morning I wish I could just write a dear friend that I did know personally to help me with what I want to say to that friend I have not yet met. Moreover, say all the things that we never had the chance to remind them how much they meant to this world and how much they are missed! Rocky we miss you and all the crazy things you use to do. All of the laughter and stupid things you would get into.
They never believed in themselves and despite the abilities and talents, they had. They let the world consume them. For a long time I felt guilty I could not save them, as we were very close. No, matter what I did to try to convince them of their own worth.
They just never seen it; and at one point I was losing ground for myself in their world and had to remove myself from the consequences that could have happened to me. But man could we talk; be open about anything with no expectations. Not to mention what an awesome dance partner. I so hope you are up there in heaven showing off those moves. I guess maybe that I am thinking of you today because your birthday is coming up on the 12th.
I guess maybe that because I wish you were here so I could tell you all about what is going on in this world for me; and all I find myself consumed by these days. In addition, yes God is still at the top of my list.
Rocky I am so very glad you met Jesus and found your way to him long before you left this world. Even if you left far too soon!
I have had the blessing knowing you found God and that you were going to church and was baptized.
I am sorry how you left; sorry that you did leave. However, I am so very blessed to know you were able to get clean before you went home.
How Ironic when a beautiful soul loses their way to drugs; becomes an addict; gets clean and just a simple action of a medical facility trying to help the patient and kills them with something a child could take. We just never know when our timestamp is up and what that passport final stamp will say.
I do know just by those I know; there are So many people lost in this world; masking and covering up the demons they are fighting with drugs, alcohol bad behaviors or just locking themselves away from what God can release them.
When it is too late there is no do overs; wasting time deciding if you want that relationship with God now is not an option.
Me I am no different; I just avoid what I do not want to get entangled with; I so hate confrontations says the girl that fought her way up through life.
I so try to stay away from everything especially that of relationships closer than arm’s length. I can be the best sister in Christ you may ever have but anything outside of that and well I am not good with feelings and trust.
God, thankfully, no matter how lonely or lost I feel or felt at times gave me courage and strength and it gets me through.
Life; it is never easy; I like everyone else deals with all my own personal demons in my own way; dealing with my lack of self-esteem, my loneliness, my imperfections and results from the choices I make.
My inabilities to trust and believe in people. Oh yes; the list I am can go on and on; however, one thing is for sure. No matter what I feel, no matter what I share back out to those I am connected. God sees me through everything.
I hope that is without too much damage left along the way. Thankfully those who really know me and are my friends. Know me and love me for who I am; too transparent; open and honest and sometimes speaks out of turn. However, for this, I am forever blessed.
Despite anything in this human mind, body and soul I may crave; despite the love, desires and needs to love one and be loved. No matter what happens in this life. Nothing can ever measure up to the blessings our Lord and Savior gives me; actually all of us daily.
For now, this morning well this entrée that has been sorted out from in this mind maze and put to view is what I got. Good bad or indifferent; just remember perspective is everything! So until next time; remember if He the good Lord has gotten you up; you have purpose; so have a blessed moment, day, month, and life!
He is with you if you allow Him in.
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July 2, 2019
Verse of the Day: Jeremiah 17:9-10 (NIV) The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? “I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward each person according to their conduct, according to what their deeds deserve.”
Meditation Moments: Psalm 5:2-3 (NIV) 2 Hear my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray. 3 In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning, I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly.
Deuteronomy 33:27 (NIV) 27 The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. He will drive out your enemies before you, saying, ‘Destroy them!’
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for this new day; I deserve nothing yet you give me much. You have been there long before I ever came to know you Father. I pray I never forget who you really are in everything.
So many things that go through this mind daily but only one that remains the same. The love I have come to know for the man that died for me.
I am so very tired today Father; too much on this heart and mind. Nevertheless, you know all things; just as I may dream of a physical love; that agape love; a worldly love. Even that of my own Sweet Soul King love. However, nothing will or can ever be greater than the love of the son of God who died for me; who died for all of humanity so we could live.
It may sound like a broken record; but there is no do over’s in this life. So when truth prevails, and you know where your help and blessings come from. You hold on with everything you have and never let it go. No matter what is or is not working in your day to day.
What is real is our day to day; our aging parents; our lives with no parents; our stack of bills; our brokenness or even our abundant joy at times.
We are all the same somewhat different; we all bleed red for sure. No matter what we allow to get up in our mind maze and thought process. We all have stuff.
Prayerfully for those who have not experienced the darkness of this world; when it does come; I pray you have a deep relationship with Jesus. They will need it.
Everything on this earth is temporary; God and his love is eternal. I could go on and on and say the same old things over; but what will you get from that for those of you reading these words of mine.
You see we all have our good days, and bad; we all have the days we live and breathe in all that good; and those that we struggle to understand. My good may not be your good. And that too is okay.
Me, goodness you do not really want to know what this mind maze journey is like. I can tell you it will scare and confuse you deeply.
I do know I need prayer. I am a dreamer; no really, I not only sometimes daydream. Nevertheless, I also have dreams that on occasion happen. As of late, I am really struggling with why certain things are coming to be.
I cannot go into detail; but I can assure you my dreams are as real as anyone standing next to you could be.
I am internally battling with over this past year pretty close to a year now what I am really supposed to be doing with these dreams. I am weary and not so much doubtful; but truly not understanding. So please just be in prayer for my family and me. Be in prayer for all I am connected as I know and they will know; God’s mercy and love is greater than anything in this life that can ever be.
As I was reminded early this morning and wrote.
Thank you lord for the reminders how blessed we are. Even when things do not go according to what we pray. You draw us close to what is everlasting. Not that which is in the hands of temporal beings.
You God; are the one that sees clearly, with no personal agendas, but that to love and have true relationships with those of us who believe in you.
Be with us Lord. Fill us, guide us and protect us from our foolish hearts and blind eyes to those of a world that so easily can consume us for their own personal gain.
Falling in love with the man that took the nails; that died for us; has set me free. Let it set you free as well.
No matter what deep desires of this human nature I may crave; no matter what my dreams of a sweet soul king to serve of my own may come to be. The Lord God and savior; Jesus Christ is what will always sustain me
May those come to know, love, respect and forever stay blessed by His loyalty.
We all need purpose to move forward in life; what is it that drives you? Never become complacent about your freedoms or where the blessings of this life come from. None of us are promised tomorrow. For today; make it count for all that is good; for all that is true; for all that is meaningful and not just temporal satisfaction that will need to be replaced over and over in the chase to fill a void that only Christ can fill.
He gives and takes away; know the difference of what it is you should be holding tightly to. and it’s okay if you don't; forever cling to the one who does.
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July 1, 2019
Verse of the Day: Romans 12:3 (NIV) [ Humble Service in the Body of Christ ] For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.
Meditation Moments:
Psalms 48:9 (NIV) 9 Within your temple, O God, we meditate on your unfailing love
Deuteronomy 33:12 (NIV) 12 About Benjamin he said: “Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in him, for he shields him all day long, and the one the Lord loves rests between his shoulders.”
Psalm 37:4 (NIV) 4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart
Weekly Cruising with Kelly Thoughts along the ride https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2299385180153965/
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers& amp; Soul Moments:
Thank you Jesus for this new day!
So not every day is the same process flow as the day before. Somedays I jump up, go to the computer, and write before anything else; but lately I have been getting up making that bed; getting ready and heading into my daily world later to put thoughts on paper. Along the way somedays, I do my vocal thoughts and share them out in my Cruising with Kelly.
I try to every day Jesus acknowledge you before my feet of mine ever hit the floor; and oh how bad I feel if I miss that moment. Crazy as it seems; I just cannot do life without acknowledging where my life comes from.
Father; How often I spend time with you and feel your presence; is not nearly enough for the days I jump up and run and forget to acknowledge all the good and blessed things you have in store for me.
It is not just about being thankful each new opportunity; but truly speaking life to myself for all you want me to be.
Trying hard not to allow the world to consume me by all that is not; and proclaim all that is and forever will be because of you Jesus.
It is a hard task to stay positive 24/7. Without a doubt, we need you Father God; we need each other. This world is bitter sweet. So much to offer; so much to gain. Whilst at the same time so much always taken and tattered by the ways of those in the world.
Though the sun is needed to help things flourish and grow; too much heat leaves that which does not keep moving to rot, dry up, blow the unfamiliar smell of decay and lifelessness in its own stench.
Lord abundant life comes from you; no matter how much we want to believe others of this world will give us what we need. For the world to acknowledge and know; desire and wants come with a price. However, everything you are is sustaining and you have already paid the price for each soul in full!
It is okay to want physical love and to be able to love others. Though even for me; may I never be lost or broken for anything in the world that just has not come; cannot come or may never be. Only you Jesus hold the answers; lead me through you in all things.
I am so quick to remind others; yet here I am with the same battles and layers that many others have. Here I am forgetting to speak all that is good over my own being; while out there trying to do what is good for others.
It is you alone Lord God; that can save everyone any anyone in this world; not me even on my best day. Although a kind word and gesture to lead them back to you is necessary. Please guide my steps and never allow me to mislead anyone in the ways of this world.
I can barely save myself in this world day to day; yet without thinking always I am jumping in. Thank you Jesus for always protecting me from myself and giving me the many lessons of this life. May your will always be what leads my steps.
So on those days where I have helped myself into a frenzy. No matter what, no matter who. You Father God are in all things. Good; bad or indifferent; you Jesus are the beginning and the end. Everything else in between is bonus.
So despite any misgivings, I may see myself is known to have; despite any sadness I feel because, I just cannot seem to really connect to some that I wish the I could have really known or shared something of the Good Lord to make a difference ; despite anything this world throws my way.
I know Jesus; unfortunately, it is not about me, or any temporary happiness I may gain by fulfilling the desires of this foolish girl’s heart. It has to be more and it has to be about you. Please keep me strong in you. Please be with me in my moments that are low; as well as those I feel so abundantly blessed. Be with my family; my friends, my connections in healing; protection; guidance and please send your angels of mercy, grace and accountability to help them through. Prayers we all will be given Gods’ light that shines brightly for and with you Jesus in healing and all our future!
