10.WK4_2020_October(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

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Date: 10/31/2020 Saturday

Happy last day of October 2020 and Happy Blessed All Saints Day!  And Happy first full moon on Halloween since 1944  https://news.yahoo.com/first-halloween-full-moon-since-132321907.html

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Last Word

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1 Peter 5:8-9 (TPT) The Passion Translation  ⁸ Be well balanced and always alert, because your enemy,^[a] the devil, roams around incessantly, like a roaring lion looking for its prey to devour.^[b] 9 Take a decisive stand against him and resist his every attack with strong, vigorous faith. For you know that your believing brothers and sisters around the world are experiencing the same kinds of troubles you endure.^[c]

1 Peter 5:8-9 (NIV) New International ⁸ Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. ⁹ Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

 

1 Peter 5:8-9 (ICB) International Children’s Bible ⁸ Control yourselves and be careful! The devil is your enemy. And he goes around like a roaring lion looking for someone to eat. ⁹ Refuse to give in to the devil. Stand strong in your faith. You know that your Christian brothers and sisters all over the world are having the same sufferings you have.

1 Peter 5:8-9 (MSG) The Message He Gets the Last Word

^8-11 Keep a cool head. Stay alert. The Devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. Keep your guard up. You’re not the only ones plunged into these hard times. It’s the same with Christians all over the world. So keep a firm grip on the faith. The suffering won’t last forever. It won’t be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ—eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, he does.

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you for another day of promise opportunity Lord even on this one all saint’s day.  We are still allowed back up.

Who would have thought one tiny bottle of drops would make anything feel better.

I guess that is just like it, that in the world what least surprises you, that which can be non-understanding out of no where gives you temporary pleasure and numbness of the pain that can and would consume us if we let it.     I am on my way in more ways than one; are you?   LOL   https://youtu.be/K4sJMdWVF7g    “On My Way” @Alan Walker ft. Sabrina Carpenter ft. Farruko

 

Interesting how history repeats itself even as far as the first full moon on a Halloween U.S. holiday since 1944.      Little trivial things, but everything always goes full circle, right?

What comes around goes around.  

 Those with a grateful heart see many blessings even in the smallest things.

   Those never having enough, always taking from others will always chase the dragons’ tail.    Eventually to only be consumed by their own selfishness or poison.

I am more than okay for those who do not like a thing about me or anything I say, or do not!   You need not worry about showing up now.    Remembering the day, I had to tell a best friend the ATM was closed it still holds true for all who just reach out because they need something.   Friend, Foe, Family or Unknown.     It is what it is or never will be.    You wanna keep it real; you know how to find me.   Otherwise Don’t start again, still or Now! https://youtu.be/hrSnjNkHLvg   “Don’t Start Now” @Dua Lipa

 

So many getting their timestamp out today, well known names and in the news leaving destination earth.   

Many we will never come to know as well.  That is one thing for sure; we all get a timestamp out.

   We may set our plans, do all kinds of major things or trivial but in the end the maker of this universe and who knows what others.  Well He will have the final calling.

I used to pray before even knowing who Jesus was.  For God to just keep me alive long enough to see my kids grow up.    When they grew up and I prayed to keep me alive to see my grand kids grow up.  

 

Fortunately, I am a young grandmother, a work in progress; so damn smart yet so freaking stupid on any given day.  When it comes to relationships, life, and others.  But I am not supposed to know or be an expert or judge for that matter.

   Lord knows I am far from ready to check out yet, with or without grands and kids.

 However, they have certainly given me purpose and direction in this convoluted world and journey.

So easy to be consumed and taken advantage of just by believing simply in what people say.   Then of course over the years if you believe in actions too even for those that are right in front of you; only for later to find out who they are in front are not the same as who they are when they are not around you.

You learn to pick and choose what matters and what does not. 

If you really enjoy someone being around you, we get to choose to tolerate seeing or  only what we want to believe.   Sometimes after a time though when they deplete your emotional or financial bank account it is our own choice to hold on or let go.  

We can only allow so many withdrawals from our physical, our emotional or financial bank accounts before we go bankrupt.   We must have our spirits and all accounts fed as much if not more daily to remain balanced.

So, if everything has been withdrawn you become empty and when all you get is excuses or someone telling you the check is in the mail, but the mail never comes.   

Or they make endless promises but never show up for one reason or another.   

Let it go!

The spin and turmoil can be never ending. 

Really, what about those that do show up, only to find you had misjudged them and accused them from day one and it was you that was so unbelieving they were really what they said they were.  

Or what about those that never go away but finally see their true colors and you know you were just their game piece in the world game of life chess and what and who they get to use as long as you let them.

If it is too good to be true; IT IS!

 

Do not let the sweet-talking whispers or desires of your heart get you confused.

Do not get angry or trying to get even when you see the truth is exactly what you were saying.   Or even you look like a fool one way or the other.

Do not get stuck in the spin of anxiety when doubt is more real than anything.  God gives us history and intuition for a reason. J

Everyone of us are going through something, we all get to choose what we believe, and we all get at times to go through something.

Everything that takes place in this world physically and spiritually.  It really does not matter who we are.  When it comes to that battlefield of the mind and weighs heavy on our hearts or drives us to do things we normally would not do.

We are all human and while we are here, made in flesh and blood and all bleed red.

We all bleed the same no matter what we look up to or look done at.  More beautiful when we come together; however, not everyone is meant to stay connected.  Some are just passing through and many are just lessons we are learning along the way. https://youtu.be/UEzCQBwQkdA    “Bleed The Same” @Mandisa ft. TobyMac

 

Why we spend more time trying to resolve what we have no control.  Why are we not just doing our best to live life; better yet what about those with no cares in the world that live life no matter what they do, or do not.   https://youtu.be/QEhYXjz-Cxg “Live It Up” @Jennifer Lopez ft. Pitbull

 

Memories of years and time that has passed, memories of yesterday even though it is gone.  What was is no more; we only have today to make it count, whatever IT may be.  We only have the memories until we too fly out of here.  https://youtu.be/o2DXt11SMNI     “Memories” @Maroon 5

 

Crazy thoughts as always, this mind maze has pouring out.    Sure, I guess I could start taking road day trips and write about what I see and experience.   Or I could write about conversations that take place.    Even how some conversations can spark controversy or what about those things we refuse to talk about because of spiritual or political agendas and how every soul in this universe deals with their own.

 

Geeze, right here we are on All Saints not good, not bad; but ALL.   Days away from a major election within the US.     Controversy and propaganda flying high.   In the middle of a pandemic where people are still dying left and right and there is no clear direction down the middle.     Where everyone has their own conspiracy theories about everything government to relationships and the purpose why perfect strangers want to stay in touch with someone.

 

In a world so full of things that can be anything we want them to be.   Why I wonder do we all not just want love, peace, and harmony.    Yes, I could be that hippie of the twentieth century laying out in the middle of a rolling meadow of beautiful flowers just absorbing all that is blissful.   A child of God who fully loves and believes everything Jesus Christ lived for, suffered for, and died for; Jesus Freak all the way! .  https://youtu.be/kbB0QrBIs9k “Jesus Freak” @DC Talk

   I was not always. That is for sure.  At points of my life I could have cared less about anything unless someone got in my face. 

Sometimes I wish I did not feel as much as I do as I grow up and am given.  

But glad I am not that skinny little kid that would jump up any anyone’s face just to prove a point there is nothing anyone could do that has not already been done.  

So, bring it!  Reminded often I do not want to just go through the motions in life or for that matter when I ask God to allow me to feel and see with the heart of Jesus it gets to be too much.  https://youtu.be/FA6lC40Dlf0  “Go Through The Motions” @Matthew West

 

What about this world we have, for some it is all they and even I know?

All those things we do or check off those bucket lists we make.

Travel places

Drive a Harley

Get a Tattoo or many

Get Healthy

Find and Keep love

The lists could go on and on.    From all the accomplishments, accolades, and worldly achievements.   What does any of it get you.  Feels great at the time but it is all temporary.  We cannot take any of it with us.

Those real things that you cannot hold in your hands although the next best thing is the love you feel when in communication with those you really come to care for.   In person or just that weekly call or brief passing’s in time. 

The only thing eternal is the love and blessings of God and where you soul will go when your vessel has had one too many and your number is up.      Be it too many lies, too much one-sided give and take.  One too many negative vibes that only feed one side or the other. https://youtu.be/cy1rAn9MLtQ   “Go Through The Motions” @Matthew West

Never meaning to get out of my mind for sure.  Giving it all to God and sticking with what has blessed me keeping me.  Some how some way.   Man my dreams as a kid was just to survive; as an adult wanted that prince to come rescue me and that little white picket fence and that work it out fight it out  just as long as it was together.

I built my own white picket fence and the only fighting I did was to continue to survive or not give up and check out.  My prince, man I have had allot dreamers in my life and been an even bigger dreamer believing in those who always promised but never delivered.     Believed in those that drained me mind, body, and spirit.    My prince was the Prince of Peace when I was blessed to meet him and want all that He has to give.

It never stops that need of being human.  It never stops the trying and wanting to believe.  It never stops the desires that sometimes take me on a journey that sends me flying high while sometimes taking my breath away all at once.

I can say this in  this life I am given.   The only regret I will ever have is not meeting Jesus sooner than I did and really allowing my children time as babies to grow up with Him.   

 The unknown if they will ever fully commit to and with Jesus will always be their own choice as each and everyone of us.     But the thought to know what is waiting the end of this life’s delivery for every one of us.    I just pray they meet and accept God and Christ before that day comes for them.

Wanting the streets of gold filled with abundant love and peace for all those I love and care for.   Its not big secret.   Our end zone here and now is right now for many and unknown for all.

Our land that is so full of hate, hurt and getting even.  Getting as much as we can whenever we can, wherever we can.  By any means or using anyone we can.      Lord, please come.  Wash over us, wash through this land and show us how to be selfless and show up and stop with the taking and empty and promises or dreams. 

 

Be with all who need you now Father God.  Heal me and all I am connected.  No matter what that looks like.

Lord there is not enough time or space in this planet that would make any thing of this world any more important or worth more than you will ever be.     You Lord are priceless and worth more than any millionaire can offer.

https://youtu.be/axwb8w79kFU    “Millionaire” @Tauren Wells, Kirk Franklin

Show me how and what you want from me next Jesus~ Through your vessels, through your wisdom, through your will.    Show me.   Forgive me, forgive us and lead the way Jesus.  Show us how to finish what we have started, show us how to show up.  Show us how to be selfless in you!

 https://youtu.be/tz4toSf-xQU   “O God Forgive Us” @For King & Country ft. KB

 

 

 

 

 

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  Date: 10/30/2020 Friday

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

By God’s Grace Alone

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Ephesians 2:8-9 (TPT) The Passion Translation  ⁸ For it was only through this wonderful grace that we believed in him. Nothing we did could ever earn this salvation, for it was the gracious gift from God that brought us to Christ! ⁹ So no one will ever be able to boast, for salvation is never a reward for good works or human striving.

Ephesians 2:8-9 (NIV) New International ⁸ For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— ⁹ not by works, so that no one can boast.

 

Ephesians 2:8-9 (ICB) International Children’s Bible ⁸ I mean that you have been saved by grace because you believe. You did not save yourselves. It was a gift from God. ⁹ You cannot brag that you are saved by the work you have done.

 

 

Ephesians 2:8-9 (MSG) The Message ^7-10 Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It’s God’s gift from start to finish! We don’t play the major role. If we did, we’d probably go around bragging that we’d done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.

 

 

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/f85L1VDJPlM     “Met By Love” @United Pursuit

https://youtu.be/9ZX4i3Z_ZyM   “Let There Be Light” @Hillsong Worship

https://youtu.be/pkR33OsvJSs    “Break Every Chain” @Jesus Culture

https://youtu.be/YbGgA2lIDjc      “Inside Out (Everlasting)” @Hillsong United

https://youtu.be/hKBj457ILUo     “God of the Impossible” @Lincoln Brewster

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Yesterday was such a day without words.  Just the anticipation of getting to the specialist and them getting in the ear and seeing what the heck Is going on.    To get a 911 call 15 minutes before that my child caught in an accident and totaled the front of her car and maybe totally unrepairable. Yet, still having to make this appointment and to not feel but just a couple seconds of pain while they were deep in the ear.

To have to laugh at the results from my allergy tests that I am moderately allergic to most everything outside, but highly allergic to dust, mold of many types and dogs.

The laughter came from the dogs.   I have had them all my life.    The not so funny was the fact recently finding mold in my house from an old AC central unit that just got ripped out and replaced and all the right elements that caused this ear thing from allergies in the first place.

It is all fixable; even if I almost had a stroke when they told me this little bit of a bottle of new ear drop medicine was over 200 dollars.

Not complaining, Thankful I am still working and pay for a health spending account that covered it this time.     Because it took them so long to get me an appointment, they sent out to see what type of infection has set in.  So, I am praying and hoping 5 days from now they do not have to change the script and that this one works.

As for family, they walked away.  Very shook up and stiff and sore just from bracing from the impact they seen coming.   But they walked away!

So, on this beautiful morning where temperatures really feel like a fall day and the Good Lord has allowed me and my loved one is back up.

I am thankful no matter what is happening around me.

Maybe ten, fifteen even twenty years ago I would have been losing it and thinking the world is coming to an end.   But you know; even if the worse is to come I have to remember that every single thing on this planet belongs to the Lord.

Even when it hurts!

There is no pain we can go through that He has not already been through.  There is no temptations that would not be presented that He has not already reflected we have control, no matter what.

There is no amount of hate, or hang-ups that people can put on us or at us that He has not already gone through.

Keeping in mind, none of us deserve anything.  Much less the right to life or the right to not suffer.

It is not what we go through in this life, it is not what let downs we cause ourselves or that at the hands, feet or lies of others.    It is what do we do with it when it is done.

Should we stay in the middle of a storm of any kind.    No; if we have the means to get out or ability to find our way out and far away from it.  We need to.  But if we are stuck and have to ride the storm out until it passes and it will.  Call upon Jesus to shield you and give you strength to get through.

We all get to choose; this is my perspective, heart, and life.    What you do with yours is totally up to you.  NO ONE can take and fix me or take my pains.   Sure, I can go and get a bandage here or there or pills or medication to numb and cover life up.

But that which hurts deep within must be worked through and learn from what got us there in the first place.

Sometimes like yesterday, accidents beyond our control just happen.  In this world that has so much it is a wonder any of us can even breathe much less not suffer with more than just environmental allergies.  Though I am not a stranger to Sinus and Ear issues from allergies this is the worse issues I have ever had.    It will pass, this I know.

I am blessed even if 2020 has reminded me just how the world is in the mercy of the Lord and the choices each and every individual makes.    

Lord I do not know what tomorrow will be or even what is going to happen here today that we are given.  Thank you for entrusting me with the ability to get back up and seek life, seek opportunities that will lead by example, that will grow forward and not be stuck in regret of anything good or bad.

My own family, my friends, my connections need you now Lord.  Need healing, need awakening, need the mercy, and grace that only you can give in that everlasting abundance.

This Nation Lord needs you; please have your way.     May your angels come down and show us how to lead, how to change, how to want you first.  How to heal without any expectations of anything in return.

Lord break every chain, even if what I have flowing out sounds so impossible; you are the God who moves mountains, and all things are possible.   

 

Jesus it is no big secret that I have sought you to consume me from the inside out for many years in my here and now journey and onto eternity.

Thank you for the love and strength I am given.   Consume all I am Lord, all I am blessed, all I am connected.

Thank you now and any tomorrows I may be allowed.

Thank you for all you allow me to connect and into this spirit.    May all feel the warmth and love of any sunrise and know any breeze that blows is controlled by the same creator that gives us air in our lungs.

         Protect and guide all those in the path of the storms coming, all seen and unseen. Protect those all at the hands of evil and change the heart of darkness to shine bright with and for you Lord.  In Jesus mighty sacrifice and blood that washes us clean. 

Every soul here on this universe needs compassion; even if!     May hearts soften and lights shine bright.  Even if this sounds like some kind of fairytale.

Freedom of will and choice belongs to each living soul.  A gift you freely gave with  anticipation your creations would turn to you and acknowledge all the good that can be.  Lord I pray for healing of this land, and with my own connections.

No matter what is and 2020 certainly for my little speck of the canvas has been costly and at moments painful.      You Jesus are still in control!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Date: 10/29/2020 Thursday

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

KNOW YOUR WORTH

Become a Living sacrifice through obedience, respect, and virtuous lifestyles

Doing your absolute best efforts in everyday living.  Give everything you are, you do or have not done to God first and always.   Seek tenacity through his strength and mercy in a all you will chase in this world.

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Romans 12:1 (TPT) The Passion Translation  Give Your Lives to God

12 Beloved friends, what should be our proper response to God’s marvelous mercies? I encourage you to surrender yourselves to God to be his sacred, living sacrifices. And live in holiness, experiencing all that delights his heart. For this becomes your genuine expression of worship.

Romans 12:1 (NIV) New International 12 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.

 

Romans 12:1 (ICB) International Children’s Bible Give Your Lives to God

12 So brothers, since God has shown us great mercy, I beg you to offer your lives as a living sacrifice to him. Your offering must be only for God and pleasing to him. This is the spiritual way for you to worship.

 

 

Romans 12:1 (MSG) The Message Place Your Life Before God

12 ^1-2 So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/KUYClC6vqKk    “I’m Sorry (a lament)” @TobyMac

 

 

 

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord thank you for the reminders to always be aware of our choices and the consequences of abandoning focus with you.  

Thank you for the blessing and awareness, there is nothing we cannot bring to your table Jesus.

There is nothing we cannot come and cry out, scream out or talk out through prayer and petition.      It is true, there is no turning back once we have acknowledged you.  However, life only begins when we remain steadfast, seeking to be filled with you Holy Spirit.            https://youtu.be/OKWkYxikygQ  “Fill Me Up” @Tasha Cobbs/Overflow

There is no lukewarm or sitting on the fence on any given day.

No matter what we choose, what we pray for, what is answered and what is not. 

We must always remember greater is he with you Christ Jesus than dead in the world. May we stop forgetting all who put their lives on the line as you did on that cross.   May we learn to be grateful and give thanks for all we have.    Lord may we stop living for ourselves and live for you.  https://youtu.be/xSkgoUAHQPU   “For You” @Keith Urban

May we learn how to be strong and true even when it is harder than we can imagine.   During all those times we cannot breathe thinking we will never get back up off that floor; or even suffering from the missing pieces that are no longer found to put back together. https://youtu.be/tuNeV0fMflw “Standing Strong & True(For Tomorrow)” @WeSaluteOurHeros1

The air you allow us in the lungs we exhale from; no matter how right or wrong the choices are that we make.  Lord Thank You!     For the blessing of life each day to try and find new opportunities to grow forward and make it better with you is priceless compared to fighting all the elements of this world alone as we temporal specks of dust to all those around us.  https://youtu.be/pIR24ubUf0E    “The Elements” @TobyMac

Mere obstacles for some and steppingstones for others; where rarely do two truly unify as one forging forward into forever seeking eternity.

When we are given the strength and courage to know all we have in you is all we will need.  Lord I pray we hold on with everything we have to never forget or let go.  https://youtu.be/y83-vMeWc9E   “Never Let Go” @Matt Redman

Our choices are our own!   No matter what we decide to choose, hold onto or let go.  No matter what we choose to allow our inner beings to be filled with, crave, chase or be fulfilled. Choose wisely.    Deuteronomy 30:19“I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both you and your seed may live.”      https://youtu.be/g63nJjzgDH8  “Jesus Can” @Austin French

Lord for all who are giving all they are away, trying to find what only you can give.  I pray your lights shine bright for them to see you.   https://youtu.be/GmaQeXybres   “Lights Shine Bright” @TobyMac ft. Hollyn

 

For all who are and always will be yours alone.  Those just wanting that piece of your heaven in the here and now in the flesh.

  Lord, may they learn quickly how to not be lost or blinded by the untruths of this world.

When they are distracted, derailed and at times completely flattened.   May they always get back up every time they get knocked down.  No matter if they trip, jump, or have the platform they stand pulled out from under them.  https://youtu.be/UyLnhn-IATk “Get Back Up” @TobyMac

What we do, what we say, what we consume all directs each new step we are allowed to take towards eternal heaven or hell.   The choice is our own, and for some here and now on this earth will be the only heaven as they know it.     

 If only everyone could see the true glimpse into the real heaven, as we are so hardheaded, and most times cannot believe without seeing.  

https://youtu.be/CHRqjcdI7B8   “Glimpse Of Heaven” @Marci Coleman

Jesus, I am sorry for some of the reasons that drive my choices.  I am sorry Lord for not having a voice when I should speak out for those who cannot.   I am sorry for participating when I should be still, for when I am still, and I should be non-stop.

We all are time stamped in and at some point, that great ride will come to timestamp us out.  We are all on loan to this world.

Everything we have belongs to you.  Everyone we are given are at some point taken away.  

Lord may we learn to know all you are; may we learn to live for all we are meant to be in you and stop getting it twisted. 

I know I am unfinished that is for sure https://youtu.be/drkqqCy8emM    “Unfinished” @Mandisa     I am a work in progress, and never will that justify anything good or bad I allow myself to be, get into or have done to me.

You see it all Jesus!

 You see it all before it even comes down to this earth.   So, one day, three weeks or 21 years.    No matter what time we are given.     Thank you, Lord, for allowing me to know and be blessed by those who pass through my life. 

 All those that had so much to offer this world, that are gone too soon.   All those Jesus that we love with all we got, but they never learned to love themselves early enough to make it.  All those that were blessings for a moment in time.    Forever in our hearts.     Be it gone from this world or just our surroundings! 

No matter what is or will be; no matter what has come to pass.   Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me life.

Forgive me and my weakness; Those times I do or even those I do not.    No matter what is or will be.   It is with and because of you I am here and now. May I always do my best in all I am allowed.

Wash over me Lord

Wash over and through this land we have been given with healing and new life.

 Guard my heart, direct my steps, seal my words to all that is good.   Help me choose what is consumed mind, body and spirit knowing your truth.  

So many will come to pass, many will try to do their very best to get as much as they can and destroy all you created without even thinking in the process.

Many will be lost and caught up doing harm to get what they think they need; while others will be consumed thinking there is no other way.     Jesus you are the way and the truth, and you are the ultimate way maker.  https://youtu.be/iJCV_2H9xD0 “Way Maker” @Leeland   Be with us Father!  We/I need you now. https://youtu.be/Y9CjYvQDDIo “Need You Now” @Plumb

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Date: 10/28/2020 Wednesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/kSE06uFlTFc   “Give God Your Heart” @Grace For Purpose

 

https://youtu.be/Fx1JTdz4Ws4   “Glorify” @Jordan Feliz ft. Lecrae & Hulvey

 

https://youtu.be/mKjCd5mx1uQ  “Don’t Lose Hope” @Cochren & Co.

 

 

 

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Life Eternal (BibleGateway.com)

1 Peter 1:24-25 (TPT) The Passion Translation  ²⁴ Human beings^[a] are frail and temporary, like grass, and the glory of man fleeting like blossoms of the field.^[b]       The grass dries and withers and the flowers fall off,  ²⁵ but the Word of the Lord endures forever!^[c]  And this is the Word^[d] that was announced to you!

1 Peter 1:24-25 (NIV) New International ²⁴ For, “All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field;   the grass withers and the flowers fall, ²⁵     but the word of the Lord endures forever.”^[a]   And this is the word that was preached to you.

 

1 Peter 1:24-25 (ICB) International Children’s Bible ²⁴ The Scripture says, “All people are like the grass.  And all their strength is like the flowers of the field.  The grass dies and the flowers fall.   ²⁵ But the word of the Lord will live forever.” Isaiah 40:6-8 And this is the word that was preached to you.

 

1 Peter 1:24-25 (MSG) The Message ^22-25 Now that you’ve cleaned up your lives by following the truth, love one another as if your lives depended on it. Your new life is not like your old life. Your old birth came from mortal sperm; your new birth comes from God’s living Word. Just think: a life conceived by God himself!

 

 That’s why the prophet said,  The old life is a grass life, its beauty as short-lived as wildflowers;  Grass dries up, flowers droop, God’s Word goes on and on forever. This is the Word that conceived the new life in you.

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Although I did not sleep much at all last night, just so many things going through this mind maze.  

From wellness to material things that are the blessings I have been given.   I am thankful even if tomorrow if allowed cannot come soon enough to find out what is happening with what is going on with me physically.   Other than internalizing stress and burn out trying to just push through all I cannot control.

As for today, I am blessed to have made it to a position to allow the repair people come in and take care of this problem of mold in the walls and rip out the old AC unit and replace, repair or whatever they will do.

This all-day effort from hopefully a team of experts who know what they are doing with electrical and all that goes with things as such nature.

Thank you, Jesus, for keeping me employed during this horrible year for so many.

Please be with all who are going through loss and hardships.   I have been there, unemployed not knowing where the next meal for my children will come from. 

 

 Taking on not so pleasant jobs to just get barely through.  From picking dead chickens out of cages on a farm to pealing shrimp to cleaning up nasty houses.  Even those jobs where others who did not have the right choices came in and hold guns to our head to rob the stores we work out.

Beyond blessed for sure.   Knowing a few years later those I worked with were not so lucky when someone else came in and stabbed my co-workers to death over a couple dollars.

No stranger to the darkness and those who make dark choices to think they are filling something great or lasting.

   No matter we all get to do what we choose to do and we all must keep going until we are no longer allowed.   Prayers that all I am connected choose the lighter direction and lead by good examples.

It is so hard not to crave and want more in this world that seems like even when we have it; it just seems to be never enough at that moment.  https://youtu.be/LYq55gv-H2o     “Crave” @For King and Country

 

How we later we find ourselves truly blessed wondering how we ever made it this far when we did not have a close personal relationship with you.  https://youtu.be/VZXRIw5uBuY      “There Was Jesus” @Zach Williams

  Thank you for allowing me  to have tried to have a 401K savings to tap into and fix and help so many needs this year. 

 Thank you for the ability to get back up another day and although things can be stressful, as so many unknowns and reasons why of all that just never comes to be with places, people, and things.   I know I will never understand; nor I am guessing will many understand me.     https://youtu.be/MX5OqyBYKh4  “Get Back Up” @TobyMac

Beyond that, for me to understand why you allow me back up and just to keep trying to find those opportunities in any day given.

 

As I ramble on before tapping into your daily word or motivators.  Lord Thank you!

Here I am today thinking how blessed I was when you had different plans for me; when I said more than six years ago, I was going to by a foreclosure to fix up.

You surprisingly blessed me beyond any expectations I had then and kept me away from what could have been more than I would ever be able to handle.

Knowing even though I have my hands full for where I am, with all the unplanned, unseen, or even unnecessary things in this life barely holding together if not falling apart all together.   You hold me together Jesus.   You are always there when those others just never show up.

Lord, even though things are not where I would have planned.  Even though I have been a bit under the weather and just spinning in circles where I perhaps should not have even came close to.

 Even though I will really never now what any of my tomorrows will bring. 

I am thankful Jesus for the sacrifice and blessings you give for me to have any of my today’s.

We all stumble, we all are tempted.  We all have the ability to choose with the freedom of will and choice that God has given. https://youtu.be/JOnokwbFH4s   “What If I Stumble” @DC Talk

 

Where does this word play go from thankful for the repairs needed taking place on the dwelling, I live to the need of healing physically for unknown reasons that if tomorrow is given, I will finally see a specialist.   

 But even that of so many needing that of healing in our spirit more often than we care to reflect or let others know.

Healing of the let downs we allow others to bring to our table, or just those we let our own selves down with by choices.  https://youtu.be/DX67rHyTdmM   To The Table” @Zach Williams

 

Even those who turn everything off and just keep forging through not feeling one way or the other but just going through the motions.

Lord I pray for myself, my family, my friends, all my connections of healing and that we all openly accept you Jesus.   Filling our spirit with all that the world seems to be.

Show us how to release all that we allow the world of people, places, and things to temp us with what our flesh and heart’s desire or seek at times.  

Lord, we are blessed may we see all our achievements in balance as gifts from you; for whatever or whoever we are given at any moment in time.

May we recognize what was, and how far we have come and not allow, what is not to suffocate and take the very life you bless us with and for?

Even then they are healing through it all.

Father, though this mind maze may seem riddles of words or craziness to some.   May all who walk, want, and love you carry all the burdens of this day.  Be it loss, mistakes, letdowns, health, or any hardships of this world.   May we bring it back to the foot of your cross. 

May we/I seek forgiveness for finding those places where we know we should not be or really lost at times.

May we see you and your hand stretched out waiting for us to take it; and lead us with love, mercy, and grace.   Just for guidance, just for healing, or even just for whatever may be next no matter what, who or why.

Jesus, forgive me; whew!   I am so far from perfect for sure.

But I believe in You!

I believe there is still morally good people, places, and actions to be lived in this world. Even when the news and media will portray all the darkness.

Even when the truth is not many know what respect, integrity or moral values mean.

May you come heal this world, and wash away the hate, and all the destruction.  All the brokenness from the greed and hurt that can be healed with you.

 

I cannot judge why any of us do what we do.

Many are conditioned from early on  while others never really having any exposure to you; just snap.   What about those who thought they knew you that go over the edge.

The balance is so out of control Lord!   Mine and this crazy world I have been given to journey through.

None of us are perfect, yet so many look down, or look past humanity thinking they have rights to, harm and take advantage.

Many looks past or look down at the least of these who are suffering from hardships.   Jesus and I cannot even begin to think of the evil that adults do to, with  and against the littles of this world.

We need you Jesus; I need you now, more and more every day.

  Knowing every one of us are born with sinful nature flowing within it is easy to allow temptations and the things we should not be doing or involved with to consume us. 

You are the only perfect way and saving grace any of us will have.   Not just for a moment Lord.  But for when our souls head off to eternity.

I do not want this whole world or even a portion of it if it means losing my soul to eternal condemnation.    As “We live in a world where sex is free and love costs, where losing a phone is scarier than losing morale, where it is fashionable to get drunk and use drugs, because if you don’t do that, you’re old and lame, where husbands cheat on their wives and wives cheat on their husbands and the children are left to raise themselves, where women are more afraid of getting pregnant than getting AIDS, where pizza delivery is faster than an ambulance, where clothes decide a person’s value and money is the root of all evil and more important than family and friends...    This is not the world God intended when he said, "Let there be light!" @Author Unknown

This 2020 time out has been more costly for so many than anyone will ever be able to repay.     Yet, it is not too late.    Those of us who are given one more tomorrow; have the ability to start the changes for the good now.

I will never know what that looks like.   I cannot even get out of my own way most times.     These past couple years something more changed in this heart and I found myself caring too much about those I should not; giving away what I cannot take with em anyway.  But more importantly of late really finding I do not want to do this life on my own as I always have.    

 

Yet trying to work that out in my own little head has only opened pandora’s box to life and the hard lessons that come with believing in more than just Christ Jesus when you cannot see it directly in front of me.

Jesus I could continue this ramble as you know each and everything thing that has hold of me or is up ahead.

Thank you for loving me and allowing me up this day and any tomorrows.

Please come and heal this land.  As your light shines more and more each day for the rescues of all those babies stolen and sold for human trafficking.

For all those in the path of not just the storms of 2020 be it hurricanes, sickness, loss, let downs. Jesus please send your angel armies to comfort and protect all who call upon your name.

Please shine bright on all those who do not and expose the good in them even when the intentions may not be honorable or healthy.

May every soul I am connected come to know and experience your love and grace firsthand.

More importantly want you in their lives as much as you want life for them.

Forgive me Lord!   Please for forgive all who have trespassed against me.   You Jesus, know all things.     Give me strength, courage, and wisdom to truly know the difference of what is real and what never will be in any days ahead.

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Date: 10/27/2020 Tuesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/bKuAMmTqUbs  “Cast My Cares” @Finding Favour

 

https://youtu.be/D_7XIKVgRGY  “Letting Go” @Steffany Gretzinger | Moment

 

https://youtu.be/NrTv39-lG4M “Yes I Will” @Verticle Worship

 

https://youtu.be/zmNc0L7Ac5c    “Another In the Fire” @Hillsong United

 

Inspirational Thoughts:

Knowledge is knowing what to say.  Wisdom is knowing whether or not to say it. @TobyMac #SPEAKLIFE

 

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Truth and the Way(BibleGateway.com)

Hebrews 4:12 (TPT) The Passion Translation  ¹² For we have the living Word of God, which is full of energy,^[a] and it pierces more sharply than a two-edged sword.^[b] It will even penetrate to the very core of our being where soul and spirit, bone^[c] and marrow meet!^[d] It interprets and reveals the true thoughts and secret motives of our hearts.

Hebrews 4:12 (NIV) New International ¹² For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

Hebrews 4:12 (ICB) International Children’s Bible  ¹² God’s word is alive and working. It is sharper than a sword sharpened on both sides. It cuts all the way into us, where the soul and the spirit are joined. It cuts to the center of our joints and our bones. And God’s word judges the thoughts and feelings in our hearts.

Hebrews 4:12  (MSG) The Message Bible^12-13 God means what he says. What he says goes. His powerful Word is sharp as a surgeon’s scalpel, cutting through everything, whether doubt or defense, laying us open to listen and obey. Nothing and no one is impervious to God’s Word. We can’t get away from it—no matter what.

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for this is my Friday for a few days getting many things done.

Thank you for allowing me up another day.

Thank you for allowing me to plan, even if I do not know how tomorrow will be.

Thank you for giving me the heart to help others.

Thank you for allowing me the end in site no matter what that looks like.

Forgive me for that which I purposely overlook that I should not.  Forgive me for all the misguided moments that should not be.  Forgive me for reacting when I should be praying.    Lord we all lead by example.   May anyone who watches me see you.

As I truly forgive all who have done me wrong in any way shape or form; Lord I pray for the justice and guidance only you can bring that will truly matter in this world we live.

Please hear the prayers of those souls crying out for guidance, protection, and healing Father God.

We all have next steps, show me and those you have designated to lead ours!

 

Nothing fancy, no expectations.  Just letting go and finding you Jesus within me and this spirit you allow me to know.

Thank you!

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Date: 10/26/2020 Monday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/i3i-_VWxOAc     “Creed” @Third Day, Brandon Heath

https://youtu.be/Yc8x33lAnAk  “Tell The World” @Lecrae ft. Mali Music

https://youtu.be/UoOtqAus1YM   “My World Needs You” @Kirk Franklin, ft. Tamela Mann, Tasha Cobbs, and Sarah Reeves

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth

The Bible and the Scripture within

(BibleGateway.com)

2 Timothy 3:16-17 (TPT) The Passion Translation  ¹⁶ Every Scripture^[a] has been written by the Holy Spirit, the breath of God. It will empower you by its instruction and correction, giving you the strength to take the right direction and lead you deeper into the path of godliness. ¹⁷ Then you will be God’s servant, fully mature and perfectly prepared to fulfill any assignment God gives you.

2 Timothy 3:16-17(NIV) New International Version¹⁶ All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, ¹⁷ so that the servant of God^[a] may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

 

2 Timothy 3:16-17 (ICB) International Children’s Bible  ¹⁶ All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful for teaching and for showing people what is wrong in their lives. It is useful for correcting faults and teaching how to live right. ¹⁷ Using the Scriptures, the person who serves God will be ready and will have everything he needs to do every good work.

2 Timothy 3:16-17 (MSG) The Message Bible¹⁶ All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful for teaching and for showing people what is wrong in their lives. It is useful for correcting faults and teaching how to live right. ¹⁷ Using the Scriptures, the person who serves God will be ready and will have everything he needs to do every good work.

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord thank you for allowing me to rest in you!

Thank you for this new day, thank you for allowing each and every one of us to believe in what we believe.  Thank  you for the freedom of will and freedom of choice.   Thank you for allowing me to know who you are Jesus!   https://youtu.be/i3i-_VWxOAc     “Creed” @Third Day, Brandon Heath

To love and never know what love feels like

To breathe in knowing the peace beyond all understanding

To own who you have been given within oneself to be obedient and fight forward in all that could be and not allow what is  or is not dictate the choices we make.

 

Knowing as I sit here and sip this cup of coffee, I know there is no one on this earth that will save us but you Lord.   As nothing comes to be until it goes through your hands first.  As I pray you send your armies to rescue all those who are crying out and show them your light and blessings and that eternal peace.  https://youtu.be/9PugD11k3JU “Rescue” @Lauren Daigle

 

Even in the storms that are pounding on us.  Even as we want so badly for humanity to be as you would be.  While all the way we frustrate ourselves for placing those expectations where they do not need to be.   While we chase all that is supposed to be everything, and we neglect what should be.

So many thinking the grass is greener or just wanting it all to say even to the whispers in their head I did it, I got it and I am done.   Checking that box off.

Oh Lord to truly see the world as we know it feel you and who you really are.

If only we all paid it forward without expectations; if only we spoke kindness and let, go of all the hate and anger.   If only we stopped trying to play out and just stepped up appreciating the right here and now where we stand, sit or even are laying down.

It is you who say Jesus we will have every victory; you show me I am loved when I cannot feel this is true.  No one really knows what we have been through; many will mock and think I am crazy for believing in you.  Yet it is you who gives me life and air in these lungs through all tears and pain on any given day. https://youtu.be/sIaT8Jl2zpI  “You Say” @Lauren Daigle

We have our own journeys to walk with and when those we grow to love, need, want and break over leave us here and now.  They are forever with us deep inside our hearts and sometimes even in spirit.   Yet none will ever lead us, protect us or be for us as Christ Jesus when we allow Him to live deep within.

Knowing Him does not stop our flesh from wanting to be human.  From our own journey through hurts, habits and hang-ups that should not be.  We know that even those who honestly believe in Jesus mess up and think they can walk with Him while they listen to the whispers and play in Satan’s sandbox.

 Only to find out later what the burn really feels like.   Every step we take.  Lord I know Jesus is praying with us, for us and wanting to live through us.   

https://youtu.be/XZNEaTWxG_o   “Prayin For You” @Lecrae

Jesus it is only you that know all things, have felt all the brokenness that we seem to be so consumed with or by.    Father forgive me when I am distracted, when I miss it or more importantly try to fix it.  Show me Jesus, how to remain true to you for your kingdom cause and not get mixed up or taken by those who are good at dwelling in selfishness and pity refusing to step up and be who you meant them to be.  Yet becoming incredibly good at playing out the victim, needing someone else to always do something for them.

 

Even when it may be real, they are starving and thirsting to just live.   Jesus shine in on them and all they need and make them acknowledge you alone.  Direct my steps, words, and actions to shine for you.

Guide and protect those you have blessed me with.

Lord show me!  My world needs you right now!

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Date: 10/25/2020 Sunday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/JhjH5ZrU10w “Cruising With Kelly” @AlwaysMeKelly

 

https://fb.watch/1mojzMV1eq/ “New Life Christian Church – Spring Hill” Pastor Al giving the message, Pastor Rick Leading  worship and AlwaysMeKelly

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Date: 10/24/2020 Saturday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/3MKP3SkzkIA    “Next To Me” @Jordan Feliz

https://youtu.be/aW6nHbyj6TE   “Famous For(I Believe)” @Tauren Wells

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Acquiring Wisdom

(BibleGateway.com)

Proverbs 9:10 (TPT) The Passion Translation 

¹⁰ The starting point for acquiring wisdom is to be consumed with awe as you worship Jehovah-God.   To receive the revelation of the Holy One,^[a]  you must come to the one who has living-understanding.
Proverbs 9:10 (NIV) New International Version

¹⁰ The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.

Proverbs 9:10 (ICB) International Children’s Bible 

¹⁰ “Wisdom begins with respect for the Lord.      And understanding begins with knowing God, the Holy One.

Proverbs 9:10 (MSG) The Message Bible

^7-12 If you reason with an arrogant cynic, you’ll get slapped in the face;
    confront bad behavior and get a kick in the shins.   So don’t waste your time on a scoffer;  all you’ll get for your pains is abuse.  But if you correct those who care about life,
    that’s different—they’ll love you for it!   Save your breath for the wise—they’ll be wiser for it;  tell good people what you know—they’ll profit from it.
Skilled living gets its start in the Fear-of-God, insight into life from knowing a Holy God.  It’s through me, Lady Wisdom, that your life deepens, and the years of your life ripen.   Live wisely and wisdom will permeate your life;  mock life and life will mock you.

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for this busy day!

Up and out working back to rest a few and back on stage to worship you.   I cannot ask for any more than that which  fills me up.

 

https://www.facebook.com/newlifeccspringhill/videos/2526315381000434/   “Fruits Of The Spirit – Self Control” @Pastor Al, New Life Christian Church- Spring Hill

 

Thank you for the ability to finish this estate inventory of dear souls now gone.  Thank you for the laughter and friendship working with family and friends to do this.

Thank you for this day I was given. 

 

I ask Lord all I am connected come to find this peace and blessing through everything, or  nothing but most importantly through and with you!

Lord 2020 is an awakening as so many are being taken from us.  So many are all going through something.    Lord be with the broken, be with those who need you desperately to lead the way and turn things around before they are lost forever.

 

Be with me in every step I miss, and everyone I take.   Thank you for allowing me life, no matter what that looks like or many times feels like.

 

 

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Date: 10/23/2020 Friday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/jjypjYEXZXY   “Who Are We” @Courtnie Ramierz

https://youtu.be/DXDGE_lRI0E  “10,000 Reasons(Bless The Lord)” @Matt Redman

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Love Empowered By The Cross

(BibleGateway.com)

Galatians 6:2 (TPT) The Passion Translation 

² Love empowers us to fulfill the law of the Anointed One as we carry each other’s troubles.

Galatians 6:2 (NIV) New International Version

² Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

 

Galatians 6:2 (ICB) International Children’s Bible 

² Help each other with your troubles. When you do this, you truly obey the law of Christ.

Galatians 6:2 (MSG) The Message Bible

6 ^1-3 Live creatively, friends. If someone falls into sin, forgivingly restore him, saving your critical comments for yourself. You might be needing forgiveness before the day’s out. Stoop down and reach out to those who are oppressed. Share their burdens, and so complete Christ’s law. If you think you are too good for that, you are badly deceived.

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank You for all of it!

Lord if we would just be real, be who we are and never become tired of facing any giants in front of us with the confidence that Christ Jesus had willingly taking the cross and all that tormented, tortured and broke him as a man. 

 

All that took the very flesh off the being you created.

I will never get tired asking for that same confidence, even if I have no clue what that really means.  But only which I know it is you that allows me back up each day and you alone that gives me the ability to brush off and just keep trying. https://youtu.be/KA9kSBv1QrI “Confidence” @Sanctus Real

 

Thank you, Jesus, for loving me enough through the cross and allowing me the ability to take this journey. https://youtu.be/SUvpBphq5og  “At The Cross” @Chris Tomlin

 

 

Despite all that is around us, all the firestorms burning down state by state.  All the electoral corrupt governments that shout out I am better than you while all they do is throw dirt on the people that they should be serving.  https://youtu.be/z1sH196sEXc  “Storm All Around You” @Jon Thurlow

 

 Despite all the death that surrounds and consumes us; Christ is alive, watching and waiting for us to really need Him.    https://youtu.be/e3WesovtpvI “He Is Alive” @Third Day

 

None of us were promised anything, and none of us deserve anything.  

Not one soul from the ends of this earth deserve the blessings you give. 

 

Yet so many of us are given your abundant mercy and grace. https://youtu.be/AAMU68NTVQw  “Call It Grace” @Unspoken

Many of us forget to be thankful for the simple things that truly matter.

 

Many of us forget what it is like to raise up and treat our very own beings much less our neighbors or anyone that connects to us, with love and respect.

 

Where is the honor and loyalty through obedience that you Christ gave?

 

Our identities become what we do or what we have and not who you created us to be.  Out there proving ourselves to those who say we matter today, while tomorrow they act as if they never knew us.

We find security in the power or money and what we have and demand forceful control that have not learned their own strength through you yet. Jesus.

 

We want and want, take, and take and all the while the hoarders and collectors have their piles of unseen, unknown stuff.  

 We cultivate what is right and what is wrong based on the judgements that we demand are what should be.

 

Some give too much, some not at all oh the side effects and results from all or choices Jesus.   https://youtu.be/DkCQx-PJiFk “Side Effects” @The Chainsmokers ft. Emily Warren

Some chasing love and what we can hold in our little hands here and now, while others fighting to finally have drawn boundaries to all that is temporal and untrue.

 

Where am I in this stream of all that flows through the airwaves.    Keeping myself and trying not to be judgmental wanting it all for those I love and care for.   While slowly whispering desires that I seem to well up with and miss of the flesh.

All while others in selfish ambitions spew nonsensical actions, words, and even hateful demeaning matter into the air for all like the unseen virus to absorb.

Where does it all balance Lord?   We forget you Jesus are right here with us always.

 

No, we were not created to do this world on our own. https://youtu.be/srGIp4LO-XM   “Never Alone” @Tori Kelly

 But we were also not created to not acknowledge the truth, the life, and the way in and with you God. 

No one gets to you Father without going through your sacrificial lamb, your Son of man Jesus Christ.

 

What makes it so hard for us to do this?

What makes it so easy to pretend on the exterior we are something we are not, yet on the inside our motives, our day to day truly lacks integrity and moral value.

 

Who am I and why do I even have these thoughts and questions Jesus?

Are we still just wandering through desert of the 20^th century babbling all which no one can understand?  https://youtu.be/f42ykMcndeo  “Love Broke Through” @TobyMac

 

Is it me that who is lost at times I wonder, then quickly knowing the love and grace you have filled me up with in abundant peace with unspoken harmonies, how is that even possible;  I cannot be!

 

The crushing waves of life, in the here and now suffocating us from becoming all we can be.

 

 Jesus please show, me the way of all that was meant to be. https://youtu.be/ZGp3VCKkjaU    “Show Me Your Ways” @Darlene Zschech - Hillsong

 

Jesus please show, all I am and have been connected through the light to shine bright for all you are.

 

Inspirational Thoughts: @TobyMac #SPEAKLIFE

IN A SOCIETY THAT HAS YOU COUNTING MONEY, CALORIES, CARBS AND STEPS.  BE A REBEL AND COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS.

 Afternoon thoughts

When you wanted just that little slice of heaven here on earth.   Pulled in so many different directions, just wanting something real for your own moment in time. 

Yet you stay so busy and listen to everyone eventually you become blind.

Played on, played out.   It will be okay without a doubt.  Yet here I am with overwhelming feelings of why I ever allowed them out.

Easy play, not cheap at all.    If I could just for once understand why  so close, or not at all even when I take the fall.

No doubt on this mind today, the hurt some anger, the unknown with thoughts welling up in these eyes.   Thinking about so much recklessness and even more lies they will never justify.

Be strong I tell them all along.  When here today I just wish 2020 was never in existence just everything about it gone.

 

God you know what this is all about.   Kids testing for Covid, others just manic and down.   Mamma trying to be and do everything.  Just wishing, wanting a little piece of earthly heaven until you take me home.

Yet here I am disappointed, let down.  Not wanting anything or anyone around.   I so pray this will soon pass, as I can never replace no matter what or who is around.

 

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Date: 10/22/2020 Thursday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/VqHe2zrBAyw  “Don’t Lose Hope” @Cochren & Co.

https://youtu.be/MgpaULjZOl8   “Praise You In This Storm” @Casting Crowns

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Congenial Conversation, the right word at the right time!

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Proverbs 15:23 (TPT) The Passion Translation 

²³ Everyone enjoys giving great advice.    But how delightful it is to say the right thing at the right time!

Proverbs 15:23 (NIV) New International Version

²³ A person finds joy in giving an apt reply—   and how good is a timely word!

 

Proverbs 15:23 (ICB) International Children’s Bible 

²³ People enjoy giving good answers!   Saying the right word at the right time is so pleasing!

Proverbs 15:23 (MSG) The Message Bible

²³ Congenial conversation—what a pleasure!   The right word at the right time—beautiful!

Inspirational Thoughts: @TobyMac #SPEAKLIFE

YOU WEREN’T REJECTED.  I HID YOUR VALUE FROM THEM BECAUSE THEY WERE NOT ASSIGNED YOUR DESTINY.

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Father God, for allowing me up once again!

How many times do we feel like this that we listen to this https://youtu.be/Hojn2IAZ9EE    “Lost for Words(A Conversation with God)” @Spoken Word Poetry with loss for words, loss of faith, loss of those around us that we thought held us together.

   What happens when we are consumed by that which is filled with lies and darkness, yet we cannot escape because we look around and no one, no one is there to shine the light out.

Lord I ask you awaken every soul on this universe and shine brightly through all who call out to you.   https://youtu.be/82bfVQ7XbAM   “Awake My Soul” @Tasha Cobs Leonard and Hillsong Worship

    I pray, we who know the truth in you Father God drown out all the darkness.    May no sacrifice be in vein, no loss be just because of some random act of misconception haunted by the demons that think they have one.

Watching a clip yesterday of a young man on the roof of a church in the UK fighting, kicking, and breaking the cross off the house where sanctuary of peace and love is to be.    

Lord this is just the beginning we know.  It is not the first nor will it be the last.    However how amazing that even the demons know you are real and believe enough that you have the power of all that is good.  

 How else, why else would they try to darken and destroy what in peace and love could be beautiful.   Even the atheist believe enough of you Lord that they choose to fight believing in you.

Heartbreaking to think how free we are in most countries, yet we do not walk around giving thanks and gratitude back for any of the blessings we are allowed on any given day.

I just pray for all who truly know and walk with Jesus, never stop shining brightly and be the light.  https://youtu.be/fkBtrPWSKM8   “Be A Light” @Thomas Rhett, ft. Keith Urban, Chris Tomlin, Reba McEntire, and Hillary Scott      Me, you are everywhere and anywhere; no matter how it hurts.   

Awakened this morning as the seven-month pit mix puppy came running in and jumped dead center on top of me when she realized my door was open.  Her first night to stay out all night to wander the house.     Almost if not 50pounds in weight and all that excitement when she found me.    

The whole time she was sleeping right outside my room with her toys.   When she looked up and realized she was not alone and all that excitement that sent her flying to me.

Startling both of us from the landing and my reaction.    Quickly full of lots of love and affection and time for me to get up.  

Then her trying to get her 100pound plus brother of a dog to play.    

Like small children with the emotions or reactions for those who say pets do not have emotions.

All like children, like we are on any given day in how we react, what goes through our minds, and how if we are blessed to know what love feels like are consumed by the love of Christ.

Easily we forget to accept the love that is given to us, from others or our pets.  Often, we react with anger and push things away or watch on the news the destruction of those who have so much hate and anger caught up inside them. 

 

It just comes out destroying anything that looks like peace and harmony to others.   Most cases not even knowing why or even just being the only thing they have ever been taught.

 

I could have reacted with anger for being woke up so rudely when that loving puppy came in to get me out of bed. 

We get to choose.    We all always get to choose how and what we will say or do in any moment or any situation.

Sure, my morning routine was totally thrown off.   I am used to waking up, going to quiet time with the Lord, doing devotionals then hitting the floor before responding to anything or anyone.

I personally find my days, attitude, and reactions to everything are so much better that way.

Instead I took some puppy love, calming the beautiful animal then getting my time in.  It was a choice and not always a decision I would have made.     I can tell you so often the days I just have jumped up and run later wondering why even that which we can never have control gets under my skin and I carry the weight of what should have never been.     Why should it never have been.  

To focus on anything not in our circle of influence and get worked up about it is just an energy drain.    Going back to that image of that young man on the news.

He put so much energy into the destruction, but no one will ever really know what was going through that mind to cause such a waste of time and/or energy that could have been used towards things perhaps he longed for.

I cannot say I would have actually yelled up to him and asked why.  But I certainly would be in prayer to change the heart of what was going on with him and/or the many like them.    For the God is a God of second chances until he takes us home.   A love like this, allowing us to see our true worth, filling us with abundant peace and hope.   

I believe everyone should know and experience a love like this. https://youtu.be/qLYAGzmxdMo    “Love Like This” @Hope Darst | The Belonging Co

 

Crazy sure call me what you will.   Far from perfect and always will be.   Allowed to be broken and pieced back together by the potter’s hands.   https://youtu.be/88X4aVTk2rA    “The Hands of the Potter” @Casting Crowns

 

 Forever grateful for the lessons I have been blessed to live through.   Blessed to feel the overwhelming desires, or hear the messages, even while having my own.

I will never stop wanting that pure truth even when it hurts. As I am sure I to in my inner self will be filled with hurt, anger and feeling destroyed by  things I get into, or people I believe in that are not what they seem or just lost to the world.

 

But I will never hold that white flag above my door and surrender to anyone but the one who hung on that cross for me.   https://youtu.be/j-fWDrZSiZs  “White Flag” @Dido

 

Or on any given day stop writing lame things to those who do not understand who Jesus Christ really is or can be for every soul who calls upon His name, seeking the truth.    Even when I am, we are all undeserving of His blessing and life.

I am in love with the God the Father, blessed by the Holy Spirit and a bride of Christ.  

Imperfect for all created to be.   Dreaming and thinking out loud wanting the impossible, feeling the pains of the world and all the choices I make that go wrong most any day.  Played a fool from afar or near, yet still blessed to get back up and breathe with the air in the lungs the good Lord gives.

Thankful as not everyone good, bad, or indifferent.

 

  Not all believers in Christ or non-believers in Christ will have had another day as me or anyone even reading this today are given.

So, before our days get away from us, before we react in haste, before we destroy, with our actions with our words or even lack of.

Know you can change the outcome for you.  You get to choose what will drone and slowly kill you from the inside out.  Or you can meet Jesus where you are every single day and give it all back to Him on the cross and dive in and start learning through your own meditations and devotional time.  

 

The hits will always keep coming; but having brothers and sisters in your corner praying for you. 

Knowing who has the good and the bad of everything you are.

Knowing you are worth more than anything this world will give or take. 

Knowing no matter who lies, cheats, undermines, steals, breaks anything of you.   Judgement will come.

 

I myself still struggle with turning that other cheek most days.  Without a doubt, but I serve and have been blessed by the maker of all the heavens and earth and for this, with this knowledge.   I will continue to do my best in obedience to Him and all that is give to me on any given day.

 

Even those where memories take be back.  Even when I just want that external love that I know is temporary.  In the end with Christ I know where I will be eternally.

 Do you?

We may not always have the right words to say or be in the right place or time when we do.   But never stop being faithful and grateful for the mercy and grace you are given any given day you are allowed up.

Never stop growing through the pain and always remember.   There is nothing that can hurt of this world as much as the spikes that went through the hands and feet of the one who hung on the cross so we would have life and freedom to choose.  https://youtu.be/Ab6OqQn-PLw   “The Crucifixion of Jesus” @Chris Quinlan post

 

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Date: 10/21/2020 Wednesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/8Q6FTjogqE0 “I ‘Will Run To You” @Hillsong Worship

https://youtu.be/YCRrrP0EhPc  “God’s Will” @Martina McBride

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

The Depths of God’s Will are just the beginning

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Psalm 40:8 (TPT) The Passion Translation 
⁸ I delight to fulfill your will, my God, for your living words are written upon the pages of my heart.”

Psalm 40:8 (NIV) New International Version

⁸ I desire to do your will, my God; your law is within my heart.”

Psalm 40:8 (ICB) International Children’s Bible 

⁸ My God, I want to do what you want.  Your teachings are in my heart.

Psalm 40:8 (MSG) The Message Bible ^7-8 So I answered, “I’m coming.
    I read in your letter what you wrote about me,  And I’m coming to the party
    you’re throwing for me.”   That’s when God’s Word entered my life,
    became part of my very being.

Inspirational Thoughts: @We Are 1

Write your plans in pencil and give God the Pen.

Inspirational Thoughts: @Jarridwilson.com

NEVER HOLD ON TO ANYTHING TIGHTER THAN YOU’RE HOLDIN ON TO GOD.

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord thank you for this day.

Getting right into these thoughts that are pouring forth this morning.

 

Holy Spirit be with me and all I am connected.  https://youtu.be/-h4LTXywFiM   “Come Holy Spirit” @Vertical Worship

 

 

When we want what we want when we want it and we do not care who we step on, who we hurt and many times how we go about getting it.

To know over time that which you want yet in the back of your mind seems impossible, because you just do not know what is really on the other side of what you cannot see.

Knowing, that if God is truly not tied to it through relationship with Christ Jesus.  It is impossible to be lasting and meaningful.

That which is so hard to get hold of, and even harder to let go.

That which the day comes and all along you have predicted and now that day is upon you.

Those days when you know eventually it comes, and you are strong enough to handle it on the outside.    https://youtu.be/knuHDPbE5es   “Strong Enough” @Matthew West

 

All the while you are shattered and screaming in pain on the inside.

Too strong for the world to know you are human as well.  Too weak to ever get back up and really try again.   You did not pick this, plan this or see it coming until you were right in the middle.   Yet all you know is just once; just once!

To really be able to breathe again and know the blessings of God are more than a prayer or hope in the wind. 

Thinking back to Times Square 1995 New Year’s Eve so much fun dancing, laughing, doing all the things we should not have; even all he days right up until my todays.   My Forever still unseen and floating somewhere awaiting to be revealed.   That pit deep within still there yet yesterday so different https://youtu.be/xWg8KXzIRnk  “Breathe Again(Unbreak My Heart)” @Toni Braxton

Where do these thoughts come from Father?  You know all things, as I sit here wondering wiping the moisture from these eyes. https://youtu.be/5anLPw0Efmo “Immortal” @Evanscence

 

Looking around as if I am on the outside looking into the blessings I have been given.  While that which plays out in this mind like a movie I had seen in the middle of the night.  https://youtu.be/he32vwlKQPY  “Where I Belong” @Building 429

 

 

Sometimes, somedays, and when you play a song like this and those who do not know what it means get worried.  When you assure them that even though life cuts you to bits inside out.   It is not your place to choose when Jesus will take us back home even if you wanted to leave months, days or years ago. 

Today the triggers  perhaps are what has always been.

That craving to just have that real love, from the outside in that you have been filled from the inside out by Jesus with.

That never-ending craving of being so close  with hopes so high, you really would do whatever you could when you can.

Maybe it is just this thing that has been troublesome where you ran yourself into the ground and that issue that has grown to be,  still has one week to go before the specialist; maybe it is finally going to your brain. 

Perhaps the weight of all the needs, and things that have piled up here and now are just squeezing the oxygen out and I am not thinking clearly.

Let it go, Let it hurt and Let it heal right?

Great advice I write out even when my own insides at times are twisted and this mind maze dumps out just how human I really am.

 

Perhaps it is a love and what so many will never care to understand that you so wish were swimming within the river of the same blessings that your children are allowed.

Thinking too much, or not enough is the flip of a coin.   Making a way for all those book smart scholars that are out there who specialize in trying to figure out the minds of those walking in the world.

When you Lord already know all there is to know.  https://youtu.be/0DQup4hd1_o  “Only God Knows” @Kid Rock

To be first we must be last and die to this world.   Even if sometimes the reality here and now defies all that we cannot see, touch or ever fully understand.  Yet we just have to hold on through all that we feel, crave, and want.

 

What lessons are they that wash through this soul Lord?

Like a waterfall the painful wisdoms of only what you know firsthand.

Wash healing Jesus to me and all I am connected.   Planting seeds, tripping up in the weeds while thinking we can handle what we just do not know.

That mercy in the dirt that you allow us is such a beautiful thing. https://youtu.be/WwdPFLSWiyY “Mercy In The Dirt” @Ryan Stevenson Even though you truly must be shaking your head as a Father and his child.   Wondering when even after years of being so locked into you I still stepped out with that stubborn defiance just wanting to be rescued from myself and really have that pure love.    https://youtu.be/m1_PiNtdHDM  “The Love Of God”@ MercyMe

We all have that something, those demons in the closet that we are working through life with.  Yet, nowhere will there ever be more pain than that of losing pieces of pure love that we are allowed a glimpse into with the here and now.   Our family, our blood, our friends, our family in Christ, our forever Afters.

 

You Father God know that pain better than anything ever could.   The cost of your son Christ Jesus for a fallen world.    Even though it hurts here and now, we will never come close to what you gave for us to know and find real love in and with you.   Not anything that gives us temporary pleasures or fill those moments when we just want to be held.    Perhaps this pain, this push and pull; this gap filled with the beautiful you, yet still so empty for that one.  Perhaps this is what it means to be held.    https://youtu.be/i-hJ87ApWtw   “Held”@ Natalie Grant

 

 

Lord the pieces of me are all over the place these days.  Fighting hard not to be angry or hurtful in a world that does not think twice to take all you are and not give anything of itself back.   Trying to believe yet the silence is deafening, and I do not know what is next.  Just that it is until the days you take me home.   Wanting so much good and light for all you have given me, no matter what I am feeling may I always remember you Lord have me from the start and throughout eternity. https://youtu.be/NM14VZVu0og   “You Never Let Go”@ Matt Redman

Lord, may I no matter what stop being my authentic self.   May I learn to see through all that is not real and learn to keep my distance. May I never allow my heart to harden or become selfish.  May all that I am come to know what it means to see with your heart.  May I always have love and want the best even for those who do not want it or deserve it.   As none of us deserve anything in this world.

 

Yet, you give us life.

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Date: 10/20/2020 Tuesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/88X4aVTk2rA      “In The Hands Of The Potter” @Casting Crowns

https://youtu.be/3Pw2o79NSuo “This Is A Move” @Brandon Lake & Tasha Cobs-Leonard | Bethel

  

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

David’s Consecration

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Psalm 51:12 (TPT) The Passion Translation 
¹² Let my passion for life be restored, tasting joy^[a] in every breakthrough you bring to me.   Hold me close to you with a willing spirit that obeys whatever you say.

 

 

Psalm 51:12 (NIV) New International Version ¹² Restore to me the joy of your salvation
    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

 

Psalm 51:12 (ICB) International Children’s Bible  ¹² Give me back the joy that comes when you save me.      Keep me strong by giving me a willing spirit.

Psalm 51:12 (MSG) The Message Bible ^7-15 Soak me in your laundry and I’ll come out clean, scrub me and I’ll have a snow-white life.

Tune me in to foot-tapping songs, set these once-broken bones to dancing.
Don’t look too close for blemishes, give me a clean bill of health.
God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life.
Don’t throw me out with the trash, or fail to breathe holiness in me.

Bring me back from gray exile, put a fresh wind in my sails!

Give me a job teaching rebels your ways so the lost can find their way home.
Commute my death sentence, God, my salvation God, and I’ll sing anthems to your life-giving ways.

Unbutton my lips, dear God; I’ll let loose with your praise.

 

Inspirational Thoughts: @Dodinsky @MyPositiveOutlooks.com

ALWAYS REMEMBER, we all have our own opinions and beliefs.  We have different ways of dealing with life’s troubles and joys.  To rise above and survive our differences without hurting each other is what GOODNESS is all about.

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Blessed and awake.

Thank you, Jesus, even if I struggle with just to know, just to be still and know that all things work out for your good.    Every mess I make you show me a way.  If only I knew how to respond and not work harder or even react to those who have their own selfish ambitions in this world.    

Maybe their intentions are just that selfish; or perhaps they just do not know who you are Father God.   Perhaps they think their circumstances are so dire they react without even a thought.     Burning bridges all along the way.

I am no different, am I?   I may internalize and rarely openly vent out in response.   However, I still react. And what about that one time when I get so disgusted, I forget anything about the love you fill me with.   

Jesus over the years you have taught me much if anything reminding me how to reflect you in all things.     Mind, body, and spirit!   https://youtu.be/jPT41DnKVdc     “Know (Be Still)” @Jeremy Riddle

I am not sure I will ever fully let go even when I know it is you that sustain all that I am.      I will and am purposing daily.     Sometimes that looks like nothing to those on the outside looking in.   Other times it looks as if I am doing way to much.

Resting assured, it is all meaningless unless it is not done with you Father God, Holy Spirit and Son of Man Christ Jesus!

 

None of it is ever easy.   The only truth is the peace that fills this soul no matter what is happening in the spin and the storms of the world without you.  

All I want for me, all my family, all my friends, every connection I will ever possibly have or have had.    Redemption through you Christ.  https://youtu.be/ODGbd5QvQwM  “Fall Afresh(Live at the Vineyard Anaheim) @Jeremy Riddle

 

Growing up on my own, living through broken relationships all my youth, and majority of my young adult life.   Making the choice to cling to you years ago and finding you are the one truth that we can never lean in on our own understandings.   You Lord have allowed so many lessons in this life.   Some from a distance, some burning me up as I willingly walked through the fires.

Though no child deserves to come into this world unwanted, or into harm’s way.  It happens every second of every day.

I do not know what the future holds for me or anyone else of this world.   But I do know our children are the future.   Please send your angels down to guide, love and protect them from all the darkness that awaits in everyday life.

May they grow to prosper in you and do great things with and for your will, purpose, and kingdoms future.   May all of us out here leading by example; no matter if we planned or choose it or not.  May we lead well, may we teach all those who look up interested, excited or even far off in the corners.   May we teach your children Jesus well.   Through prayer, obedience, and steadfast love.

https://youtu.be/EkaKwXddT_I    “Teach Your Children” @Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young

Lord may my needs never appear more important than any others and may all I am connected learn to know, to be first we must be last.  To receive we must give.  Many times, that in humility is so ridiculously hard to accept or swallow.    Seen as far away as a river runs deep Jesus.   I am in your hands and this imperfect soul fighting my best fight forward each day allowed up, with you alone.  

  Just to get up, to find purpose to be and give my best self, matters to you alone, Lord.     That in which has more meaning than life here in this world where the spirits of the lost without even trying prove just how insignificant we really can be to all that surrounds us.

https://youtu.be/a8RMKYjTU0E  “To You Alone” @Hillsong Worship

Lord I am broken in so many ways, overwhelmed and beyond repair according to the many that just do not know you.  Crazy by the standards of others.

Even here in 2020 when things seem so hopeless and dark for so many.  When the layers of health, and all the blessings I have been given are struggling to hold on.   You are moving mountains, releasing miracles for so many that will never be seen  or acknowledged.     

Lord never stop moving for us, never give up on us.   Never give up on me, as it is the threads, I hold of your garments that keeps me breathing.     As I have just never fully reached that of anything this world.  

Lord you know all things on every single soul that has been allowed to come.   You know all that I feel and am washed out and over with.    You know all my hurts, all my habits and all the hang-ups that set me off sometimes getting angry over what I do not have control.   

We all have needs, may they be directed through and from you Father God?

We all have wants, may they all be with pure intentions and clean hearts Father God?

We all have desires, may they never become so much that we forget the blessings we have, and we idolize and chase what turns out to be one more break in an ever-broken world.

May we forever know Jesus, you have blessed us with freedom of will and choice and can do much without you; but all things with and through you.

This world needs you Jesus and every miracle that will ever be to shine bright in revival of you and all that you really are.  I need you and a miracle more than ever.

https://youtu.be/WoIAcom2zAk “Revival” @Third Day

 https://youtu.be/bTjimzpyE4k “I Need A Miracle” @Third Day

 

 

Thank you for this day. Lord show me how to breathe again.  

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Date: 10/19/2020 Monday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/1G8KVJBLwtg    “Just Be” @Kim Walker-Smith

https://youtu.be/lEuldF9RQ00  “Build My Life” @Amanda Lindsey Cook | Bethel Music

 

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

 Find your true Joy in life through Jesus

(BibleGateway.com)

Psalm 37:4 (GNT) Good News Translation  ⁴ Seek your happiness in the Lord,
    and he will give you your heart's desire.

 

Psalm 37:4 (MSG) The Message Bible ^3-4 Get insurance with God and do a good deed,
    settle down and stick to your last.    Keep company with God, get in on the best.

 

Psalm 37:4 (NIV) New International Version ⁴ Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

 

Psalm 37:4 (ICB) International Children’s Bible  ⁴ Enjoy serving the Lord.  And he will give you what you want.

 

Inspirational Thoughts: @TobyMac#SpeakLife 

STOP TRYING TO MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY. YOU AREN’T CHOCOLATE.

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for allowing me up this day.

Thank you for allowing me to know what I need and those I want and the differences along the way.

 I so understand that push and pull when we are uncertain stuck in the worldly spin.  To know you, Jesus is truly through the depths of this soul, is all I need. 

Even when I want so much else.    Even when it is not good for me, even when it hurts.  You allow me to know the difference in the choices that I can make.  

The very air I breathe, energy and courage to get back up.

From the North, to the South and East to West.

 You are all I need to be sustained and live in abundance whatever many tomorrow’s I am allowed back up.    To just be Father God with you not many will understand.   https://youtu.be/1G8KVJBLwtg   “Just Be” @Kim Walker-Smith

 

It must be the truth that consumes me with you Lord.   None of us have time for games this world can play with the words, and trickery just because others, choices by the souls we connect are not with you.   

Jesus, please wake us up, shake us up and even in the pain and sorrow in the days when so many beautiful souls are needed back before we are ready. 

Even that when we confuse ourselves and are lost in our own dreamed up thinking we have control choices that we make.   Only You God hold the truth of what is, what will be and anything in between.  https://youtu.be/lXTkJyH4WaU   “Lord Wake Us Up” @Malia Williams

 

Wake me up Jesus, I can fight this all day long. That of what I want and that of you which is all I need.  Show me the way Father.   Not to go through motions, not to lose myself, not to be stuck in that trap of constantly doing so much to fix the balance.

Lord I don’t want to lose my soul, for anything but all that you created me to be.  Gaining anything or everything without you Jesus is temporal pleasures and eternal suffering.    https://youtu.be/bmCfqEoT1yk    “Lose My Soul” @TobyMac ft. Kirk Franklin & Mandisa

Crying out all the silent hearts that are flooding this earth surrounded by all that runs interference or even supporting the truth of you Lord.    All that peace that comes with knowing you, all that fills us up with the Holy Spirit.   Father, Son and Holy Spirit we / I need you now and every day you allow me, allow us back up.  https://youtu.be/qZfsS7r9BDo    “Spirit & Truth | Official Video” @Les Lanphere  

How much truth there is to so many and the euphoria that fills us during those moments of our favorite movie, concert, moment and especially with that one person we share so much intimacy.    Yet how lost we are to think we need a stadium to find the truth in you.   That we need a building to sing out your praises.       When two or more are together     Matthew 18:20 (KJV) King James Version ²⁰ For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.

Oh, it sounds so easy, yet then we must stand up and ask the questions, stand up and challenge what is being shared, talked about, taught.  

 

 Is it truly out of the bible or is it just something else of another opinion of me, of you?  What brings us truly to the throne and protects us from false idols or turning the total opposite direction and we lose ourselves to and with someone in humanity.

The toils of just getting day to day right by some while others have no cares in the world and just go about their business and actions without a care or thought no matter what good or bad comes from it.

How do we worship and what do you worship?

 

Lord, I have very few answers if any.  But what you Say through the Holy Spirit to this being is what truly matters.    I will never be enough for this world.  Nor do I want to be.   Just another speck in the wind blowing from place to place until I am gone just like that.      No matter if I matter to that one forever, or anyone in the depths of this canvas you give us to add color to the world as we know it.   What you say is the truth, the way  and all that I can allow to matter.       Yes, the demons are pounding at the door;  in that tug of war wanting it all.  

Feeling the burns of sorrow watching those who will never have the relationship with you lost and watching those who know who they are in you suffering what the world spins around us.     I only know the peace and strength I have is all God breathed.  

That although I am full, leaves me sometimes so very empty in this world.     Yet I never even for a second can let you go Jesus.    https://youtu.be/sIaT8Jl2zpI “You Say” @Lauren Daigle  

The trials and tests of every day are a blessing to know we are alive.  What we do with them or how we act, and respond is what matters.

If only Father.   So ridiculously hard to hold on to what in the world I do not know, but only have history and truth of what others allow me to see, hear and experience.  

You give us the wisdom and protection to choose Jesus.   If we believed in everything of what man just says but never lives up to.  The mess we would be in will be far more horrifying than what is here and now in 2020.    There would be no purity, no honor, no moral values for human life at all.

We are currently on the brink of extinction now.   Slowly killing ourselves or finding ourselves in the sand pits of hell and allowing that which we once consumed for instant gratification consume us through eternity. 

  Jesus  save me from myself.

I am far more human than what those who surround me give me credit for.  Messing up and wanting, doing, rushing in like a river overflowing the banks.   Rippling through after the storms have passed and forever trying to clean up the mess of my own .

Needing only the Holy Trinity, yet wanting for myself, for my loved ones.

Jesus where are you when I am leading by example and cannot even get out of my own way.  Where are you when the pain or sorrows of this world and the loneliness of what is and what dreams could be.    God, I know I am not the only one.

Come show us where you are right here, right now.   Far more than anything that is missing, anything layering doubts or guilt, far more than all that is whispered, all that is more than what is written.

More than any empty promise or unexpected gift of abundant life You Jesus are and always will be.  The truth, the way and all that is in between. 

To be loved like that all our days remaining.    Just to be consumed and know the truth in what unity with you God the Father, Holy Spirit and Christ Jesus.   

 

As we all can pretend to be anyone we want, we can pretend to be in Tennessee while sitting in an apartment in NY or India, Africa, or Asia.  We can pretend and say all we think matters through the airwaves or directly face to face.

But until we hold that moral compass and walk willingly in obedience hand and hand with you Jesus.   To truly shine forward through all things with and for what you created us to be.   We will forever be in darkness.  There is not almost, there is no lukewarm.

We are either all in, or out there spinning getting caught up in Satan’s sandbox listening to the lies if not creating them ourselves.

You just want the relationship with us with pure hearts, clean hands, doing our best in love, in kindness, in gentleness in you Prince of Peace. 

You just want us to  look up and call upon you every day we are given.   https://youtu.be/-4Nx2hEhVRE  “Where Are You Now” @Lauren Daigle  

Ephesians 1:18 (TPT) The Passion Translation ¹⁸ I pray that the light of God will illuminate the eyes of your imagination,^[a] flooding you with light, until you experience the full revelation of the hope of his calling^[b]—that is, the wealth of God’s glorious inheritances that he finds in us, his holy ones!

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Date: 10/18/2020 Sunday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/hSHI47BXzAA   “Give Me Faith” @Spoken Word Rapoetry @Clayton Jennings @ Blake Whiteley

 

 https://youtu.be/QgwTfi0fCGA   “The More | Seek You | Fountains| We Give You The Highest Praise” @Hannah McClure | Bethel Worship

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

 Wait With The Lord

(BibleGateway.com)

Psalm 27:14 (GNT) Good News Translation  ¹⁴ Trust in the Lord. Have faith, do not despair.   Trust in the Lord.

 

Psalm 27:14 (MSG) The Message Bible ^13-14 I’m sure now I’ll see God’s goodness in the exuberant earth.  Stay with God!   Take heart. Don’t quit.   I’ll say it again: 

 Stay with God.

 

Psalm 27:14 (NIV) New International Version ¹⁴ Wait for the Lord;  be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

 

Psalm 27:14 (ICB) International Children’s Bible  ¹⁴ Wait for the Lord’s help.
    Be strong and brave and wait for the Lord’s help.

 

Inspirational Thoughts: @TobyMac#SpeakLife 

HE TURNS

COAL INTO DIAMONDS

SAND INTO PEARLS

WORMS INTO BUTTERFLIES.

HE CAN TURN YOUR LIFE AROUND, TOO.

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Jesus, for this new day and promise of a new week.

  As my heart hurts for my brother and his family. 

I lift Adrian and his family up to you Father God.  With the entire family catching the virus at a doctor’s office while going for M.S. treatments and Adrian’s father not able to win the battle. 

  Lord, we need you here and now to understand why so many including your children are going through so many fights just to survive.   

Going through so many losses beyond fame, fortune or any material items.

We know if you allow us up each day, no matter if we have movement, if we are hurting, if can or cannot see or hear.  You are Jesus are not done with us.  Please send your angels of mercy and comfort to heal this family.  To keep Adrian strong in his own battle of what is next.

Never in a million years would I myself think I would ever be coming before my days to you Jesus.  Never would a little skinny kid mad at the world for all the hurt done growing up ever think I that once stood with my arms wide open talking to a bully saying if your going to do something make sure I don’t get back up. 

 To standing with my heart and arms wide open for you Jesus.   Never would I have admitted the humility that has brought me face down on so many occasions.

Never would I have imagined I would get up each day and not talk about day to day problems.  But search music that speaks to me, search daily verses and most any day realize they tie back to the harmonies you poured into this soul.  

Not often do I wake up with a script to write about, sometimes linking out loud what ever just washes over, many what you bring forward in this heart of mine.

So often we remain blind to the truth just so we do not have to accept the better days coming.   Others we are so overwhelmed by all that is pouring around us.  Even when we are running.    https://youtu.be/iRiRdWTeJ9Y   “Even When You’re Running” @Casting Crowns

Jesus, please wake us up, shake us up and even in the pain and sorrow in the days when so many beautiful souls are needed back before we are ready.  Even when we do not understand.    Even when we / I just want to quit.    Jesus may we, may I always know you are forever right next to me, to us!  https://youtu.be/3MKP3SkzkIA    “Next To Me” @Jordan Feliz

Lord, I can talk about my ups, my downs.  All that I was so close and missed or had to wake up and know it never was anything but that façade that oasis in our own dreams.

One thing I know for sure though Father God, is we need you here on earth more than ever.  Please hear our calls even when we do not know how to just dare to call out Earth to God~  Jesus none of us deserve a thing, not air in our lungs, not movement, not life.  Much less any of the blessings you give us.  https://youtu.be/fvMQ_xStg9M   “Earth To God” @John Rich

 

We have become collectors, hoarders, thinkers we have control.  When the fact remains only You have the control.  Unlike the puppets and slaves, we become to all that we chase of this world.

 

  Dear Holy Spirit may your truth be what we all come to know and stand on.  

How that will come to be in such a mixed-up world, when we chase everything that is temporary; believe in so much and so many we never see.  Yet we cannot believe in you Jesus.    

 I myself so often thinking I had it together, so often rocked off my feet and filled with so much doubt.  Then I realize I stepped away from you Lord.  

Not necessarily out there doing anything, just forgetting the truth, and remembering where I have been, and the fact you have me and all I am connected.  This is the truth I believe this is the truth I pray everyone, learns to stand on; no matter how or what the world does or thinks of us.   https://youtu.be/vrWdkziEuyA  “Truth I’m Standing On” @Leanna Crawford

You make a way for all of us, even if it is time you take us home. 

Jesus through the hills and valleys, through the sickness, the disabilities, the death and destruction.    May our feet walk in the depths of you alone.   No matter where the oceans may take us, no matter where we have been. https://youtu.be/Nj4_JHHuOls   “Ocean” @Cover by Enni Francis ft Kanann Francis

  No matter if we yesterday were the worst of all things, may today be found in  you and your love and healing.  You are a faithful God Lord; may we all come to know we own our choices no matter come what may.  https://youtu.be/zUaS1Y-jyMk   “Faithful God” @I Am They

  Jesus, may we be filled with your light, strength, and courage, never quitting?  May we never stop hoping in all that is good that will come.   We may never get to choose where our lives start from.  We many never get to choose the brutality and indiscretions of the world and the hands we land in.  However, we get to choose what we do next each day we are allowed to open our eyes, each breath we take, each movement we make, each sound we allow to come into our minds and our hearts.

I choose to wait for all that is good, all that is God breathed Lord.   No matter what that looks like.  No matter what others think or try to force upon us.  

No matter what the world is; it is You Holy Spirit that makes the difference.  No matter what who.  Lord, we know if they are not willing to show up and walk the walk of all the sounds they spew out and talk.  We know that it is not your will.  No matter how crazy it looks or sounds.

When you have been down to nothing, when you have been broken, belittled.  When you have lost it all, given it all away, had it stolen.  Yet you are still filled and rich in hope in love and Your abundant peace Lord!   I do not want it if you are not in it! https://youtu.be/zgxcULY9Nl4    “Just Want You” @Sarah Reeves @ The Belonging Co.

 Lord.  I surrendered to you long back and no matter what temporal excitement, highs, lows, or moments of gratitude or sadness. 

I am not alive without you.  I cannot live on the expectations of this world.  I will never be enough and if I am even for a moment in time. It only lasts until the world tires and moves on.  Never satisfied, never willing to fight forward with what we have, not willing to fight forward with who they blessed. 

  No there is always an excuse, and expectation a reason why things no longer work or do not work for themselves or why they cannot and will not fight forward ourselves.

 

  I cannot go back to wandering in this world so very alone.      How I made it here; is because of you.  No matter what good or acts of kindness this world thinks I may be doing. 

     I am not out here to impress anyone.  Even in the moments I look around and you God are the only one that is always here.      

Where is that happily ever after in a dark world full of imbalance and what seems injustice.   

 

We Lord have made a mess even when we are in our own little spot of the canvas.  Not bothering anyone not stepping out, not stepping out.   Or on the other side when we are so radical.     Where are you Lord in all of this.

Where are you now for every soul I am connected.  Where are you in these moments that I am allowed to just call out to you the one who creates life itself.  The same that can take it at any moment.

I will never understand those that you allow to be put back together, or those that are broken and forever lost.

However, for some reason I do know that nothing we experience will be anything that you have not already seen, already felt. Already suffered already blessed.

You will never cause us pain, but you will suffer with us every second.

Lord

Please hear all the falling tears this day.

Please heal all that are so broken and use them for your light in the remaining journey of this world.

Please comfort your children no matter what that looks like

Please heal this earth you created

Please give me the strength and courage to understand your will.   As I wait for you. https://youtu.be/8C3WQ1G1Uso   “I Will Wait For You(Psalm 130)” @Shane & Shane

 

Lord, I know you hear and know all things, as I know you are always with us.  Even when we choose to fill our lives with so many other things.    Please be with me during whatever steps I have left or roads, hills, or valleys to journey.

You will Lord, as there is no connection ever made without reason.  There is no healing without your touch.  There is no messes without a lesson to be giving in a message.

Your will be done for that balance, that forever.  

No matter what that feels like or looks like in the end.    Things have always been so much better with you Jesus; You have saved me then and will always be my defender.    Have your way with all I am given, all I am connected all I am blessed.  https://youtu.be/bgUiJm5SwPY    “Defender” @Josi Buchanan | Moment

Thank you for this day given.