08.01.2022 August (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday August 1^st

What Happened Today in History

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Psalm 119:114 (GNT) Good News Translation

¹¹⁴ You are my defender and protector; I put my hope in your promise.

 

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 Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

What beautiful words of truth Psalm 119:114 so very true for me.   All I have is hope and the promises of God and all that transpired with Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit and God himself

 

If I am wrong and all of what was written for thousands of years is just a myth, then along with other believers at least I found harmony in such a very static noisy destructive world we have been given.    But if I am truly on point with trying to hold that moral compass for the respect, love and hope not only for the peace it brings me but what it reflects boldly for the world.   Then I am blessed to know the streets of gold will be nothing compared to the day coming when all believers in Gods big house eternally.

 

Failure does not define me; this world does not define any of us unless we choose to let it.

God knows I have made a ton of mistakes in my lifetime.  From choices, to running on empty creating ill selected choices and outcomes or just burning out to where I am not paying enough attention and getting physically, or emotionally burnt.

No matter how, what, or why we must rest and just turn our minds off and absorb who God wants us to be.

That is a struggle for many, I know it is for me.  When I do so much better helping others thrive forward.  Or at least I used to.  Whenever I never had to not deal with me and poured all I am into everyone else.

Reality and truth does hurt sometimes.  We can easily burn out.  Been there done that and oh so very often could not just say. I cannot be there this day or this week because I was somehow obligated.      

Thank goodness I am slowly learning to heal even what is not broken.    Let it go and if it hurts well, they always say no pain, no gain.  

 

To fall in love with all Jesus is, was and forever will be.   Man 10,0000 reasons would never even count.

I uses to want to be loved from the outside in the way Christ loves us inside out.  But I realize humanity is just not built that way.

Everything happens for a reason and though darkness, pain, hate and all the hurtful angry moments in the world should never be.   The one who fills me up from the inside has given me strength to not give up and quit in the journey I was blessed to have.

No matter what the creator of all things who has given me the very breath from the day He allowed me to come into this world.  Is still in control.  

Anything outside of that when it comes to control is nothing but an illusion.

Yet humanity puts all they are into controlling what changes second by second.

In the darkest moments or the brightness memories what we choose to believe matters for the prisons we allow to be created within our own being.  Nothing changes who Christ is, was or will be!

I had fell in love with a dream with being wide awake a long time ago.   No theology, not person, not secular teaching can change any of it but changing what it is called or diagnosing.

Wide awake in love with all that Jesus has for me.   Wanting more, wanting it all.  Whatever that looks like.

Letting go, of what hurts, letting it heal into the one that took on the pain, sorrow, cruelty of this world long before any of us ever came to be.

What have I been doing?

Why have I not written what swirls in this mind maze daily?

When will something new come out or something exciting that the world finds qualifying?

Laughing out loud as these mind maze thoughts come fourth.  

 

I often wonder what it would be like to just be held in the physical sense and know they will never let go and then I remember that is what our maker has wanted for himself and us all along.

When the passion we have turns to the compassion that feeds our souls everything changes.  It never stops the wanting, or the fact we are all made to desire and love.   Or all the in-betweens of what we do to fill the gap when we do not allow the Holy Spirit to live deep withing our veins.

I am no expert, will never claim to be even if I had all the knowledge in the world.  That is not my spot to blow up.   However, I will give thanks and be grateful even when it hurts, even when I watch others suffer, even when I don’t understand, even when I need to walk away because I disagree yet still love so many.

The world seems to have been on that blanket and those holding the four corners that flipped us up in the air dropped and ran.  Leaving all the broken pieces scattered about.

Cutting many along the way, making others crazy, and just allowing so much hurt and hate to transpire so much more innocence is being destroyed.

Yet he still allows me, maybe you if you are reading this back up to just keep fighting forward to stay in the light and help things grow along the way where you can.

Being in the light is not about the platform or stage.   Its about helping things grow, including remaining nourished yourself along the way.

Don’t burn out trying to achieve or be something that in an instant is gone and you have nothing.   

Know all the gifts in the world we are given are temporal.   Love the life and the people in it that you are given in this journey.  Cause no where is it promised it should be easy or forever.

 

Anyway, blessed with all the broken, shook up, up misplaced, perfect bold, colorful, dull pieces of me along this journey.  Thankful I have been given this thing called life.   I hope anyone that reads this or anything I have dumped out of the short circuits of my mind maze, find their blessings too.

 

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Sinking Deep by Hillsong

Natalie Grant - Held (Lyric Video)

 

 

 

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Thursday  July 28^th

What Happened Today in History

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Philippians 3:14 (ICB)

¹⁴ I keep trying to reach the goal and get the prize. That prize is mine because God called me through Christ to the life above.

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

As the routine starts and the fur babies meow out with me telling them they have to wait till the day light.     Funny how we take for granted just how so many understand what we say or do even without words at times.   

 

When you watch others suffering and that one day, they come to you in redemption and fear you will be angry and turn your back on them.  While all the while you knew what they were going through or doing but it was their own choice they had to admit and own up and dare to want change for themselves.

We may have every right to hate things that people do that cause major discomfort, even tragedy or slow destruction in their very beings.

But nowhere should we hate any soul for who they are.    Yes, we need to maintain our own boundaries and making sure we do not get sucked in.  As it is known if we stay too long, we become what we hang with.

However, that does not mean we turn our backs without doing our best to lead the way even when we are not trying.

There is always someone watching and you, me are leading example no matter if we are teaching others good, bad, or indifferent behavior.

 

It is not our job to demand or force anything on anyone.   If you have ever been a parent anyone knows that even if you force a toddler to do something for their own good, it gets chaotic and loud and not always has a successful outcome that intended.

There is a time and place for everything and everyone.    Just because we want what we want when we want it does not mean we can have it.  And that does not make a difference if we have money and have worked for it ourselves or it is available at our fingertips to take from others.

We are not entitled for anything!  Even if this world in today’s society tells us we are.

As I finally let the cats out on the pool deck once the daylight comes, that way I can see if they get out when the dogs run in and out, I have a good chance to save them before they wander in harm’s way.

As I wander around the deck pulling up the little growths of weeds sprouting between the pavers from all the rain that comes in the afternoon.  Be it I want it or not they will keep coming until I can afford to have the entire deep cleaned, resealed and made new.

New growth good, bad or indifferent happens minute by minute while we want it to or not.

What we do, how we react and who we enable along the way matters.

It matters to our own well-being if we find ourselves caught up thinking that by doing something for others will make them stick around and be real.  Or for that matter, leave when they just stick around because of what you keep doing for them.   Which may not be a bad thing, until you see the true side of who their hearts really allow them to be with disrespect and distain in some cases.

So why do I cling to Jesus

Well, I know I have let down many in my journey.  And man, so many have broken me to the edge I wanted to be dead.

What we do with the next steps matters.

Jesus has never let me down and when I finally got back up from the world and my own ill-educated choices and made it through to the other side even with lumps, bumps scars or bruising.  Well had he not been there I would have never made it  here today.

There will always be the joy vampires out there trying to force their way on you and still the joy given deep inside or far more users and takers than givers without a doubt.

However, the freedom of choice and will has been given to each and every one of us as to what we do next.   The ability to love someone for who they are and not what they do or what they have.

To help plant the seeds of life and growth no matter how the overcast and over shadowing of the world we live tries to convince us differently.

 

We are all made in the image of God

We all have ability to read, or hear the truth written from history and intent God sent his son to earth in form of man so we could know humanity was created in love, for love and harmony for. Even if and when the world does not allow it to be.

Waiting on the morning daylight?

The Son will always rise.  No matter what the storm, what the issue, what the illness, what the crowd is screaming.   Jesus is forever with us if we call upon his name to carry us through.

 

 

 

 

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MercyMe - Even If (Official Lyric Video)

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What If I Gave Everything - Casting Crowns - with Lyrics

 

 

07.26.2022 July (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday July 26^th  

 What Happened Today in History

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Hebrews 11:1 (ICB)

11 Faith means being sure of the things we hope for. And faith means knowing that something is real even if we do not see it.

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Wow can you imagine what it was like to teach about faith 2000 years ago, trying to convince others to hold on and believe in all that is unseen when the world that surrounds you is filled with anything but hope for a future or goodness.

Really no different than today.  In fact, today we are so over stimulated and given so many opportunities we condition ourselves that only seeing is believing so if it is not something tangible that we hold into our hands physically.  It must not be true.

I posted yesterday just saying it must have been my turn that the last couple of days atmosphere had its wires crossed somewhere and any harmony that I sought was being disrupted to the point where even when things passed, and they do.   Even in my own faith that stress crept in and at the end of the day when even the simplest looking for something was right in front of me, but I could not see it.    I had to laugh and thank God for the lesson.

We ought not get caught up trying to change, fix or control situations out of our own circle or control.  For me when it comes to the grandkids I am raising or the leadership roles I step into assisting others when change out of what the norm has been.  It kind of rocks me even though I know 210% who is really in control.

I hate big time and I know that is a strong word.   But I cannot handle watching broken pieces falling to the floor when my family, friends, connections that I know are really trying to heal but all the brokenness they are healing from cuts others along the way.

Yes, it does not help if they do not walk the walk or fully live in with Christ inside.   For crying out loud even when we do it can be harder than we want to ever deal with.

I know I am far from perfect and because I had my kids so young, I made allot of mistakes growing up with them.   But in the end, I never quit on my responsibility or the fact I was given the gift of life and it gave me life.

Been there done that and front row seats to the school of hard knocks and so many lessons trying to find love and what love really was.

If only I knew then what I learned since allow Jesus into my day to day.   It doesn’t stop the sometimes-wrong choices or putting too much hope and absolutely stock in how or what other people are really up to; believing they really do mean what they say yet in the end they prove differently by what they are actually doing.

And that is not the hard part.  The hard part is when people out right lie to themselves and of course lie to you about their real intentions.   

I am beyond grateful the good Lord did not allow my heart to harden over the many let downs, abandonment or outright issues that should have never been in this journey.   I thank God every day that he has allowed me to still hold love deep within this soul even when you have to let go of what belongs to him to deal with.

Sure, somedays I have nothing but the ability to not look so darn tired being my eyes show directly into this weary soul.    And yes, I carry everyone with me no matter how I give it over and when it comes to those entangled heart strings.  Whew derailment happens in 0-60 seconds.

I don’t do drama.   I have lived a lifetime and I use to tell my kids save the drama for someone else’s mamma.    Course that is not how life works and not all kids are the same for sure even if they are raised up in the same standards.

As for me growing up in a broken single parent no parent home.   I grew up hard and broken.

Felt like a throw away all my kid life except when consumed by the vultures that misguide and pick pieces of you away for their own selfish reasons of hurts, habits, and hang-ups.

Even learning to grow through physical brokenness in so many ways I thank God every day I am not some mean, bitter vengeful what do they call them now days (Karen).  And sorry if that offends anyone.  I did not even know what that meant until this past year just learning.

 

So many of us walking around carrying the organized not organized chaos of the world thinking we got it together and what we are doing really is the right thing.

The right thing is different for every living soul on this planet.  However, there should be a collective sense that points, leads and guides us through to the greater good.  

Life is what it is until it is not, and we all believe in something.     I believe in the God of the universe who created all things, that he created and breathed to life his one and only son.

God, Jesus Christ, and the everlasting Holy Spirit and all that was written and still unchanged after more than 2000 years ago.    Galatians 5:22-23 love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, ²³ gentleness, self-control.

 

And all the goodness that can come from even a sliver of any of them we are allowed to choose to carry with us.  But not just carry, purpose daily to put to use, expect, respect and work towards.

Anyway, it is crazy how I can go years at a time and wake in the night and have exciting thoughts flowing through this maze and want to right and just right now not feeling it because I let life consume me and rob my energy of what might be said.   One thing for sure is everything happens when and how for a reason.   I stopped chasing trying to find out what they were a long time ago.   

For now, I am blessed, and it is what it is; until it's not.  

 

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Give Me Faith Acoustic w/ lyrics

NEEDTOBREATHE - Carry Me (Lyrics) Ft. Jon Foreman of Switchfoot

I Have To Believe by Rita Springer

Way Maker- LeeLand

Gnarls Barkley - Crazy Lyrics

Sanctus Real - Lead Me (lyrics)

07.21.2022 July (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Thursday  July 21^st

What Happened Today in History

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Psalm 119:30 (ICB)

³⁰ I have chosen to obey you.       I have obeyed your laws.

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Hozier - Almost (Sweet Music) (Official Video)

NEEDTOBREATHE - "Banks" [Official Video]

The Rolling Stones - Wild Horses (Acoustic / Lyric Video)

TobyMac - Move Keep Walking (Lyrics)

Hozier - Movement

 

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

I am whipped this week.   Too much non-stop thinking.    Work, travel, running up to camp and getting a glimpse of the kid’s lives being changed.   Working around the house, working through things I wish I had the ability to change but all I can do is pray.    Didn’t even run to see Mom this week being I have been around so many other people.  The last thing I need is to carry a virus back to her.

Was really looking forward to seeing an old friend I had not seen in years.   But that was short lived, and their plans changed before the week of them telling me even came to an end.

 

It’s a great thing to span across the musical decades and have a love for music of all kinds.  Even when faith is broken you grow forward and stop living in those crazy moments and in other people’s shadows breathing deep yet still hold the love and abundance for harmony any given place or time.

 

It’s all good though. I am just tired and need to sit on a beach with a little umbrella drink and soak in the rays without a bunch of noise.  And that will feed this soul for a brief moment in time.   Or ten!

 

Movement good bad or indifferent is still a blessing we get to choose.   So many forget that and let the world trap them.

 

Giving in, giving up.   Turning ourselves inside out if not against those who care for us the most.  Our very own being.

 

Life is what it is until it is not.   We can hope for the best and forget the rest and shake off what turns out to be empty or a mess.

Learn from it and create a message that allows others a glimpse to see up around that blind spot and maybe just maybe it will prevent them from a trainwreck and destruction.

 

It is not hard to grow weary.   I was reminded last night where it is written that God will never leave us out there to carry it all on our own.  Philippians 1:6  ⁶ God began doing a good work in you. And he will continue it until it is finished when Jesus Christ comes again. I am sure of that.     Read full chapter      Philippians 1:6 in all English translations

Even when we are so drained and paralyzed may we remember that and always get up and just move.

07.20.2022 July (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

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Wednesday July 20^th

What Happened Today in History

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1 John 1:7 (ICB)

⁷ God is in the light. We should live in the light, too. If we live in the light, we share fellowship with each other. And when we live in the light, the blood of the death of Jesus, God’s Son, is making us clean from every sin.

 

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Micah Tyler - I See Grace (Official Lyric Video)

 

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JUST THINKING OUT LOUD

07.18.2022 July (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday July 18^th

What Happened Today in History

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Psalm 119:7(ICB)

⁷ When I learned that your laws are fair, I praised you with an honest heart.

 

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The Afters - Every Good Thing - Lyric Video

 

TAYA - For All My Life (Official Lyric Video)

 

"I Don't Want To Miss It" | Ellie Holcomb | OFFICIAL AUDIO

 

Pat Barrett - Better (Official Lyric Video)

 

Collective Soul - Shine (Lyrics)

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Blessed another day.    Tired spending my weekend running I was able to get back up and do it again.   Thankful that I went and did all my primary health checks and no anomalies or worries.  Other than I am gracefully aging for the most part.

 

I think about all I want to get done and just don’t know where to start most days in between the running I do and know something has to be working to be so fortunate another day.

Stranger things have been known to happen; but if only!   And I am thankful for that as I nor anyone else I know deservers anything much less to be able to get back up and keep fighting forward.  And maybe fighting forward is not the right term.  Because honestly, I am not out there fighting for anything. 

When things are not working, I go through the roller coaster ride and work through what needs to be changed within my control and give the rest to God.

 

Yeah Yeah! I know how there can be a God when so many are suffering and so much misfortune takes place?    I will never have the answers to that.    Recently it came to me that the level of care or concern I have for those lives I am blessed to be part of all matter.  Yet not to be confused with worry.    Sure, I worry about stuff.  But I don’t lose sleep over much.  Usually, my kids my grands.  People very close to me.  But rarely do I lose sleep over stuff.   Worry does not change a thing it just robs you from your peace.   And that will never mean I care any more or less for anyone when they are going through some thing, and I am sleeping like a baby.   I am just learning to control what I am given within my circle of influence and control is an illusion anyway.  So, no matter what I do or say in the end will only happen if it truly is meant to be.

We all get to choose!  Good, bad or indifferent as the initiator or the result after we are stuck with someone else’s fallout from their choices.    I choose to fight forward!

 I choose to have faith in what I cannot see even sometimes when it is weak.   I choose not to be stuck as a victim or in the victim mentality or static and not being able to try and live every moment I am allowed.

I choose not to be paralyzed with believing all you can do is give up or mask the pain of yesterday’s and try to forget numbing the very breath we have been blessed as we try to run instead of deal head on and change the broken pieces to our path.

Opening my eyes every day I am given is a blessing and opportunity for what we call each today!

Freedom of will and choice that bittersweet gift of life, God gave to all humanity.     As a mother, fried, grandparent, sister, aunt and whatever else anyone chooses to call me.  I as every soul living and breathing a creation from the Master of the Universe. 

If I have been blessed enough to have any part of your journey tied to mine, I am truly a fortunate soul.   Either by direct blessing, lesson, or everything in between.

Why should we not respect God’s promise.  Looking out, looking into all they say about this Jesus person.     Why should we not set boundaries for ourselves while we learn to not only love ourselves without becoming selfish but loving all we are blessed.   Yet learning to not violate or be violated in the freedom of will and choice we all get to make every day we are given.

We all get to choose.  What is it you choose next and why?   How do you really want to be know?

We all have a  story!   A bad choice, a bad day, is not a life sentence unless you choose it to be.  No matter what deceit, selfishness, or any dark misfortune can come.

If the good Lord allowed, you to get back up another day.  Make it count.   Find your freedom in all that is good, all that is love, all that is pure.  All that gives you peace in the darkest storms.  Circle up with those who too have become the hands and feet of shining that light to get there.

 

This is what it is for today~

 

07.15.2022 July (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Friday July 15^th

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James 1:21 (ICB)

²¹ So put out of your life every evil thing and every kind of wrong you do. Don’t be proud but accept God’s teaching that is planted in your hearts. This teaching can save your souls.

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Panic! At The Disco - LA Devotee (Lyrics Video) HD

 

Tauren Wells - God's Not Done with You

 

  

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Anything in this mind-maze to be shared this morning is long gone 😊 its been a crazy long day and God willing tomorrow is a whole new day of opportunity~

Blessed for the old, for the new and all the in-between.