08.18.2022 August (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Thursday August 18th

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

Philippians 1:21 (GNT) Good News Translation

²¹ For what is life? To me, it is Christ. Death, then, will bring more.

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Though I will always wonder what the purpose is that so many good and caring souls must go through pain to find their purpose.    I know one thing is for sure.   There is nothing we as humans will ever go through that Jesus Christ did not endure already.   

 

And the beauty that comes out of the refinement of who we were before whatever the tragic circumstances that occurred took place.

 

We get to choose!

Who we will be on the other side of it.

 

We can quit, give up, give in and be angry, bitter, mad or paralyzed from growing through whatever it may be to have life and be life and even shine a little flicker of hope in life for our own or others.

 

We are not alone, when we are suffering, we can be sure someone else has been where we are that had the blessings of the good Lord to keep fighting forward and not with each other.

 

So yes, yesterday I revisited the past perhaps triggered by recent planning of what happens to the whatever I won’t take with me when my time is up here on this earth.

 

Perhaps watching, hearing, and knowing so many beautiful souls in this universe leaving.

 

Perhaps it's just reality

We make allot of assumptions and never put things into place because we assume.

 

I have learned a lot getting a free trust and will class recently; that just because you have family does not mean your estate of what you may have won’t go to probate for years or even worse yet; tossed out on the driveway of the place you called home so everyone from everywhere won’t come to fight over it.

Well, the part about your stuff ending up in a driveway or on the curb or where someone stranger is picking through all you leave behind to sell, take or fight over.  That is just unfortunate life that I have either had to help with or watched.

 

I just know; love me know while I am here and anyone that knows me, knows I give everything I got to those who are real and tied to my soul.

 

The here and now matters every second of every day we are given.

 

The yesterdays are significant of how we will grow forward but absolutely not anything that can hold us back from change and sharing the blessings we are given abundantly.

 

Everything in this world is temporary.   Sadly, even the beautiful lives we were allowed to contribute to their birth.    

 

Break the cycles from all the yesterdays.    When you cannot find the light, you need become the light so that you feed others and their growth feeds your soul

 

 

Leverage every bit of Jesus wherever you go and watch the influence you have in life change beyond recognition.

 

The stripes we carry will never be what Jesus paid.  And not everyone will walk with him.  In fact, falling in love with Jesus was the hardest relationships I have ever been in.   Knowing how many people hate even the mention of His name because they never took time to learn and build upon who God really is to start.

 

 

I am not ever going to be an authority, but I can the one day I looked around and realized how much had changed in my life and the true abundance of peace that flows through these veins just to be alive no matter what has been given, taken or the torment at times in the waiting with all we do not understand.

 

Like wildflowers blowing in the wind, we blow along planting behind us.    What is it that you are leaving behind?

 

Hopefully, prayerfully HOPE, strength, courage, Gods wisdom.

Just keep doing and running to the light.  Don’t let the darkness hold you down when you are tripped up.  And if you are the one doing the tripping. By all means change and give the helping hand that Christ has allowed you to grasp on every day you are allowed up.

 

Beyond thankful for all who continue to shine and acknowledge; God is not done with them yet!

 

It may feel like the moment we are at here and now is a lifetime but truly the goodness is yet to come if you just get back up.

 

I am no authority and damn there will be days I can’t breathe and others that I just don’t get.  But those seconds of love beyond anything else tied to forgiveness, hope and unending want of Jesus Christ in all my days.   Or the emptiness when I get so caught up and think I can get by without talking to him just once throughout the day.

He is, He was and always will be the reason I am allowed to be for the great I AM is He and I want all of that love He has yet in me, for me with me now and on the other side...

 

 

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Psalm 23 (I Am Not Alone) Lyrics ~ People & Songs ft. Josh Sherman

House of Miracles Live - Album Release Show

TobyMac, Blessing Offor - The Goodness (Lyric Video)

Chris Tomlin - Always (Lyrics)

08.17.2022 August (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Wednesday August 17th

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2 Corinthians 10:17-18 (GNT) Good News Translation

¹⁷ But as the scripture says, “Whoever wants to boast must boast about what the Lord has done.” ¹⁸ For it is when the Lord thinks well of us that we are really approved, and not when we think well of ourselves.

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

As the rumbles of thunder move closer and the very beating of my heart know the blessings of being given one more day.   I think of all that has been lost, taken, given away or destroyed in the fits of overwhelming life at times.

 

Waking from a very deep sleep as I had that much needed really good glass of Sangria at dinner last night with a fabulous meal and great friendships that have all went their own ways but blessed again to come back together even for a brief moment in time.

 

Wondering if I myself will be allowed to have the longevity in life as my biological father lived up into his 80s and Mamma just turning 81; flashing back to Grampa 97 when he passed on.   Physically ridden by arthritis and could not get around but his mind as fresh as a 20-year-old.

 

Do I even want to live that long sometimes I wonder too much.   Afterall what do I have once the kids are grown and gone, and I finally stop working.  You know that stage where I cannot drive anymore and well I won’t go to no nursing home for sure.

 

No lifetime companion

It just worked out that way.   I just loved too well and when you do that people take advantage and for granted that you do not value your own well being and you have to remind them by letting go.

 

We can talk about monogamous relationships, I guess.   I don’t know if they even exist in  this world today unless you are fully devoted living a life with what God .  It seems both men and women always have this idea or reason or excuse why it is okay to have more than one lover, one partner, or multiple intimate moments all the while forgetting the blessed temple given that we are allowed to travel this journey with.

 

Trust me I don’t get stuck on the wasted time.

I learned from my ex-husband I was truly just a dreamer thinking that a couple could fight forward together and have and do great things “together”      Instead well it was not wasted, I truly learned some valuable lessons about life during my 20s and 30s.

 

Not to mention people.

 

We so often think our partners can hear the conversations in our heads and when one or the other don’t get it and do not openly lovingly communicate well you do not have that intended necessary unity to make it to the end.

 

Married the first time at 27 yes having children prior to; thinking the empty promises given to me that I had really found my forever prince and we were rescued into that ever after fairytale.

 

I was going to be married at 17 and had my son at 18 but my son’s father just in his 20s was a spoiled good looking bad mamma’s boy who didn’t get his own way and ripped up the paperwork.   God knew!

 

No kidding I found out thinking I was his first love and my son was his first that I was one of many and my son was his only boy out of a handful.

 

 

The joys of growing up in a single parent no parent home.  The school of hard knocks.  “No Regrets”

 

My son at 18 gave me purpose and life.   Even if I failed miserably at so many things back then but learned to keep growing forward.

 

The fact remains I would have stuck with my first husband had he not been so abusive to me or my children.    Just because I wanted to really be loved so badly it hurt in more ways than I can explain.

 

It was when it hurt the kids I had to protect and fight for life.

 

Going back in time even for a moment knowing it’s okay to not be okay even if I did not know it back then.

 

Funny I paid for my own wedding, gave up everything and then paid for my divorce. 

Later to listen to one of my childhood buds and although loved him like a brother later thought I could convince myself to be in love with him.    Married again but after 6 years he left looking for love he wanted from someone else.

 

I am not sure how arranged marriages ever work.  I guess when you have families to answer to you make it work.  Even though it’s never easy.

 

Shoot it's never easy even when you are fighting forward together.

 

Yes, this mind maze has me wondering what all the bad just does not disappear forever.  You know all that stuff that you know you made it past.   Or what about those relationships that destroy your very being, but you cannot let go.

 

Watching people, I love do this over and over again.  All I can do is pray Jesus intervenes and fill those I love up so much they really honestly and truly know how much they are worth and to whom they belong and not the demons of this cold world war.

 

Allowing themselves a little more mercy and grace and turn to Jesus to gain the way forward.

 

Imperfect but perfectly placed through all the steppingstones I had to get up and over as is every single soul that fights for light, life, and abundant love.

 

Learning to love those given for who they are and not what they give or take or can do.  Or absolutely what they portray in the vast world they have as audience.

 

 

Yeah, it has been a few days since this mind maze has dumped out.   Been super busy with work.   Working 630-5 M through F  volunteering W, Th, nights and almost all Sunday while in between trying to serve my family being present and support a path for their best life; all the while watching the spin of the world disregard all of the potential they could have while they chase the I can’t filled with bitter lame excuses because they mask their own hurts and habits.

 

Or even just giving one more person a much-needed break from what now invades their tranquil quiet time.

 

Somehow a brief moment of where all this will get me in the end.   When all said in done the contentment of making it.   While knowing with out love there is no life and without life there is no love.   With that journey along the way over hills or down in the valleys.   Knowing the one absolute truth of it all then, now, and always.

Where would I be without Jesus?    Be it the picture that is filled my soul of all that the proclamation of Jesus in love with love for love is told.  Or the blind faith of all he has been and will be that gives me daily strength, courage, and continual wisdom as I keep trying in growth forward.

 

I know he has a grand plan from the broken pieces to the wholesome purity in the end.

 

And all the in-between moments where I thought I knew some to find out they are even alien to their own beings.   Or just the journey back to the desert waiting for what God says should be next.

 

When it is time to write he fills my fingers with movement and mind flowing like a river of what may or may not make any sense.   When it is meant to be in all things it will.

 

After all it is what it is until it is not.     So be it 3, 30, 97 or right here right now.

Beyond thankful for all the messages and lessons in this journey.    In love with the dream and my Sweet Soul King.   Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me all of it.

 

Your will be done in every single connection I may have.  You know all things, the good, the bad, the rotten fruit that you prune away and the beautiful life yet to come.   Not one second of any day is wasted unless it is without you.

 

May I never be caught up in what is not your will father.    All I am belongs to you.  Lead and protect all I am given.

 

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Eagles Wasted Time

Drift Away - Dobie Gray

Zach Williams - Less Like Me (Official Music Video)

Matthew West - Truth Be Told

Phil Wickham ~ Song In My Soul (Lyrics) ft. Hollyn

08.09.2022 August (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday August 9th

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

Luke 12:6-7 (GNT) Good News Translation

⁶ “Aren't five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one sparrow is forgotten by God. ⁷ Even the hairs of your head have all been counted. So do not be afraid; you are worth much more than many sparrows!

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OneRepublic - I Ain't Worried

Show Up Choose Love - Tobymac & Jon Reddick | lyrics video

Building 429 - Not Finished Yet (Official Lyric Video)

Building 429 - Fear No More (Official Music Video)

King of Kings - Jenn Johnson | Moment

Citizen Soldier - Still Breathing (Official Lyric Video)

In the Light DC TALK Lyric Video

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

 

We may be drown out by the static and noise of this world but don’t be worried cause truly this world Ain’t where we belong, and God is never finished with us until we finally check out and even then if we heard his call before our leaving we are eternally in His grace and mercy but if we did not at that point there will be no more hope or peace because although the exit door is wide and we go right or left.  Once we are locked in to live in hell for eternity not even Jesus can come pull us back out.   

 

Harsh is beyond explanation and we have had however many seconds, moments, hours, years, or decades to choose love, to be, to share, to want, to shine.

If we, instead no matter what the circumstances choose hate and alienation unfortunately we truly do reap what we have planted and sown!

 

Why do we wait anyway to be kind, to be a light, to believe in all that is good even without redemption we still know good or bad.  Light or darkness?

 

Why must we remain caught in the riptide of the worlds spin?

 

I can’t lie for sure somedays are far better for me to get up to motivate than others.  And some I just keep staying beyond busy to push through.    Helping others keeps me alive with purpose.  Lord knows it is not about me anyway or at least it should not be.  But on somedays yeah it is!

 

What do we want to be when we grow up?  😊 to know my family, friends and connections found their blessings and gratefully in abundant gratitude paid it forward in love, for love, with love.

 

Letting love lead us and to do that only Jesus knows.  And to truly know God you must know Jesus.   Yeah, I get it many with their judgmental condescending response.  Or even those who are starting to setup the plan to prove something against anyone who calls upon the name of Jesus.   Well, I pray you find the truth and the goodness even in the empty tomb we build around ourselves in this thing called life.

 

Everything happens for a reason

Everything is temporary in this world

 

We live, we love even if we are not loved back, we chase the demons thinking they will fill the voids, or we put all our happiness to what brings us life in people, places and things.   And that one day when they are gone, we are left with that bitter taste that we no longer can swallow and take it out on anyone who tries to be without expectation around us.

 

No doubt we need to learn boundaries early in life and stick to them in all things.

Food

Drink

Play time

Relationship time

 

Yet, nowhere has it ever been wrong to want the peace and harmony and all the beauty of what that looks like 24/4-365

 

None of us know what tomorrow will be, if at all.

So many of us chemically imbalanced and no longer who God created us to be.  Others just so angry at life and all that they were given without anything or anyone to help get them through while keeping the heart soften yet protected

 

While others think entitlement is something they deserve and even take when they cannot have it given

 

All the while the hamster wheel spins those with everything burning up because they are made nothing but the material things that consume them while all they want is to just be held beyond the ages of faith.

 

This mind maze fighting back the darkness where like a void for a brief moment in time I go through the motions of still trying yet failing.  All the while know true failure really is not trying at all.   All the while trying to love as many and as long as I am given them or myself the gift of life.

 

The history proves there is nothing you can do to change fate with the exception of choosing day to day as we get up to be the light or run deep in the darkness and take all that you think no one else can see to eat you alive

 

We are not meant to see up ahead in the future and no matter what our best plans are all we can do is hold tight to the reins of hope and call upon the universe and our creator to lead us through.

 

May we put all we are in Jesus who sustains the very wind that blows as the very breath that feeds our very lungs.

 

It is not because of who we are born into, from.  Or where we are.

For those who have nothing have everything and those with everything tend to burn in the luxury of what they are fighting to have life within.

 

Lessons are the very blessings of every new day given.   Share them, teach them, learn from them.   Hope in Christ alone is far better than anything I can ever be.

 

Thankful for no matter what piece of me is broken and put back out of alignment I am forever blessed and breathing.

 

For all the illness, all the broken pieces, all the empty promises or lies that someone may have given or taken.   No one knows your story more than you and Jesus.   Call upon him to fill you up with the beauty of what hope flows and means in the shining the light growing forward.    Don’t give up, don’t give in to what really in the end does not matter anyway.

 

Let it hurt, Let it Go and Let it Heal; But know you are not alone or meant to be on your own.  Circle up with your brothers and sisters and all God's children.   Pray out, call out right where you are.  God knows you.   Do you really know Him?

 

I am never a theologian and most days this scattered mind that never stops cannot even spell the word without thinking on it.  Do I have story, oh yeah!   Everyone does each day we are allowed back up.  The opportunities of what next are abundant for the time we are given.   Make them count.   Not for what you can get or take or have taken from you.  But all that is good, all that is kind, all that is love!   Even if; Even When!

08.03.2022 August (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Wednesday August 3rd

What Happened Today in History

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1 Samuel 16:7 (GNT) Good News Translation

⁷ But the Lord said to him, “Pay no attention to how tall and handsome he is. I have rejected him, because I do not judge as people judge. They look at the outward appearance, but I look at the heart.”

 

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

If there is one thing this is my on-going life lesson in life. Patience and the need to slow down. Fortunately, and unfortunately over the years I have had some powerful wakeup calls by not doing so. But thankfully I lean in and learn what I can and move forward. Yup, I am that one that if there is something to be done, I tackle it head on and have a heck of a time waiting for someone else to do it for me.

 

Guess that is what happens when you grow up with strong independence. No matter what the reason.

 

The good thing is; whether it be a quick catch of something falling while it was hot and burning my hand without thought or some lifelong maybe not so thought-out decisions when it came to people, places and things that forever will be with me. Each day the good Lord allows me up; He breathes life in me to allow me, allowing all of us in fact to still choose what next.

 

Yes, it was not good even if it was not planned that my natural reaction like that of the automatic seatbelt in the front seat of a car when the breaks have to go on quickly. Just did not get out of the way for the pan as it slid down and would break something in its landing within the sink. But it is what it is and even at this stage of the game. Not sure why I even posted the pic of my hand last evening, I am always doing something while in my day to day. In any case it's one of those things in life's lessons. Let it hurt, let it heal, let it go! And always be held by the one that allows you back up each day.

 

I am beyond grateful for all the love and care and reminders to take care. Prayerfully I hope no matter what is burning in your day to day you are as well. Everything is temporary in this world.

 

Including the scars, we sometimes carry from moments of things we did not think would be or happen that do. Time will heal and we hopefully don't stop living along the way while it does. But we also heed to the things that can be prevented by just looking both ways and all around us before we act.

 

Anyway, it is what it is until it's not and I am thankful to all my friends and family out here. Prayers and good vibes of healing for you in whatever it is you are going through. May the Holy Spirit fill you with abundance of love, comfort, and the strength to always get back up no matter what transpires. Live your best life knowing to where you came from and who you belong! With all the lessons and blessings along the way.

 

 

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Blanca & Dante Bowe - The Healing (Official Lyric Video)

Let it Hurt- Rascal Flatts Lyrics

To The One - UPPERROOM (Lyrics + Scripture)