02.Wk3_2020_February(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 
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FEBRUARY Verse of the Month @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):

¹⁶ For the Holy Spirit makes God’s fatherhood real to us as he whispers into our innermost being, “You are God’s beloved child!” == Romans== 8:16== (TPT)

  

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Date: 02/22/2020 Saturday

Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):   

 ==1 John 4:18 == (NIV)  

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

 

 Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/NdJz_mB1f_I      “Just Want You” @ Sarah Reeves

https://youtu.be/yHZBRKQHOWE  “I Have to Believe” @Rita Springer

https://youtu.be/drkqqCy8emM   “Unfinished” @Mandisa

https://youtu.be/1B60F5anrSo   “King Of The World” @Natalie Grant

https://youtu.be/BzQtnKNAk88    “Perfectly Loved” @Courtnie Ramirez

https://youtu.be/tH6sNNJ4u8o     “Hope Now” @Addison Road

https://youtu.be/b-q_EAx8JBo    “Let Love Lead” @Terrian

 

 

 

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation) 

 == Ephesians 3:14-19== (NIV) A Prayer for the Ephesians

¹⁴ For this reason I kneel before the Father, ¹⁵ from whom every family^[a] in heaven and on earth derives its name. ¹⁶ I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, ¹⁷ so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, ¹⁸ may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, ¹⁹ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Happy Saturday all.  Today as we get started or if we are ending our days.  If you are here reading, listening or just looking out and about and stumbling upon these words.  Know you are blessed.

Many will never come to experience the moments in time no matter how long or short that we have been blessed with.

I get that not everyone can be feeling thankful for the brokenness or unfortunate struggles they are going through.

 I understand when the noise of the manic soul screaming over every little thing that you cannot get away from or the secular demands of the world or even the loud whispers of Satan telling me I will never be good enough or have significance.

   The echo’s of tears hitting the floor or the loneliness that pains shoot through the very being as you know how loved you are from the inside out; yet are made for something more something different that does not allow you to just give yourself away to find love from the outside in.

Hope now in faith and all things unseen.  To put all that is happening in any person, place or thing of this world that is temporary.   Only to find ourselves broken, bitter, lost or even constantly chasing things that the world offers and eventually destroys us.

Blessings of all we have in deep appreciation knowing what we do; is not who we are even when the world screams loudly demanding we remain that entity.   Having much or having little does not truly signify who we are; yes having the ability to ride the roller coaster of life and talk about or boast of all the places we can go in the drop of one phone call or even have what some refer to as a luxury furnace.  The glamourous, most expensive empty shell we call homes.  We can hope or even talk ourselves out of what God can do for us with or without all those things of the world.   Even Abraham had struggles with hope yet eventually in God’s time  became the father of many nations. 

 == Romans 4:18-21== (NIV) ¹⁸ Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, “So shall your offspring be.”^{[a] 19} Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead—since he was about a hundred years old—and that Sarah’s womb was also dead. ²⁰ Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, ²¹ being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.

What is it that you are hoping for; what is it that you are trying to convince yourself of or why is it you are really trying to connect and convince others that you do not even know what they should hope and believe in?

None of us are getting out of here alive!  As I think about my yesterdays, thinking about old friends back in the old hometown; and the loss of their mother who was best friends with my grandmother, and then my mother.  What a long life this woman lived to be 90 years old.   Right up until this year was spunky and driven and blessed a couple years ago met Jesus.

None of us know until we get there; so, let’s get that straight right now.   It does not matter if we are 20 or 200.  We all have to willingly choose for ourselves to make Jesus our Lord and Savior and our best friend; our go to daily 24/7.

We all have to believe in something, and I personally would rather spend my days learning what it means to let love lead me with Jesus leading my way.  Then chasing or running from the demons the world provides.

I can tell you God is real; Jesus is real and until you accept and believe for yourself no one can convince you of the blessings that will come; no matter what you have or do not.    It does not matter what you have done in the past.  You have to believe enough to know just as the wind that blows the leaves; Jesus is in control and is for you waiting for you to invite him in to share His abundance right where you are.

I will never forget when a dear friend and his wife came to me years back and asked for me to get him baptized.    My first reaction is I will connect you with those who are righteous enough to do so but I am not qualified.      What a lie first of all.   You do not need the pope to baptize you or lead anyone to the foot of the cross.   However, you must be willing to walk away from loving the world and what is in it and repent of any wrongdoing you are caught up in; while walking with Jesus Christ.    I am no theologian nor will I ever be. 

I can tell you just as that day that Gary got out of is sick bed, twelve days before he passed on.  Made it to be baptized; and the rainbow that was over head when we all walked out of the building where it took place.    Just as the same rainbow that was above his house the day he closed his eyes for the final time with a smile on his face like he was met by God himself.  Is and was more real than anything this world can promise.    There is something to be said for the truth and the way when we know our vessels here and now will not last, but our souls will live either with God or in eternal hell.   I choose and pray you have or will as well believe in the what is written for more than 2000 years. == John 14:6== (NIV) ⁶ Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

I only know the battles I deal with myself and sometimes I even at peace have tears fall from my soul.     Dreams, oh my goodness more real and later given understanding to those desires that sometimes haunt me more than I care to deal with.         Being connected is never the issue; for me I have to truly know and see what and who is real and stay as far away from who and what is not.

Unlike my fearless youth I would just take on whatever and deal with the fall out even if I ended up hurt physically and emotionally.

I guess the school of hard knocks comes fast and furious to those who never anyone by their side  leading the way.    Let’s face it we all get to a point that even if we do have parental units or someone to lean and turn to growing up; our choices are our own.

 I will be the first to tell you doing, giving and being for my own children to make sure they never had to go through anything I did. Had and still has its lessons alone.   We cannot make anyone do anything and they will ride their own roller coaster. 

As a parent who grew up with her children I have been blessed in many ways; while fight the demons of the world more than I care to for and with them even today.   But one sure thing I know God is not finished with me yet or any of you.

Despite any good, bad or indifferent in this world; I am perfectly loved.  Just as me having that tug of war trying to put the King of the world in a box playing that tug of war giving something to him to manage while finding myself spending way to much time trying to solve will be my weakness.

That will never make me any less or any more than anyone in this world.  For I know I am blessed and will forever have to believe in Love in Hope and know it is His Mercy and Grace that allows me life.

No matter if I am picking myself off the floor or seeing the world through His eyes.    There is no dream, no let down, no anything that will ever be more true than that of what God fills us.   The truth and the light for us to shine on is with and through Him alone.

Don’t spend your days trying to figure out why when things do not make sense.   It will make you sick if not kill you.    Be thankful and learn from those who have gone ahead.   Love yourself and those you are blessed to connect just where you are.  For who they are; no for what they do or even become annoyingly discouraged for what they try to take from you.

Remember we all bleed red; but God made us all unique and beautiful and he is working things out for each and every one of us.

If you have been blessed with a spirit to live deep within your soul along with Jesus.    No matter what smile every second you think of it.

Life is short and it is not worth allowing the what if’s or let downs of this world to rob God’s glory.      Shine on and step up in prayer in faith for the war has begun long before we even made it to this planet.

Whose side are you on!   There is no in the middle;  it is either God’s glory doing our best shining forward; stuck in the middle letting the world of meism’s eat us alive and rob us from any blessings; or it is a life of hell and darkness that eventually will consume who we were meant to be.    We cannot serve two masters nor can we sit on the fence and be lukewarm.   

We however can choose!  We have to, we have all been given freedom of will and choice and no matter what we choose we will deal with what comes next.

Choose life; choose light choose all that Jesus loved us for.

Thank you, Jesus, for this new day and all I am allowed to be or do.  Thank you for your promise and the opportunities in the here and now.    Thank you for my yesterday’s, here and now and any tomorrow’s you allow me.

Thank you for allowing me to keep it real.  For the love you allow me to feel and the promise of eternity.

Please be with all who are hurting and all who are in need this day.

Saturday Service @NewLifeChristian Church 

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Date: 02/21/2020 Friday

Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):   

 ==Romans 13:9-10== (NIV)  

The commandments, “You shall not commit adultery,” “You shall not murder,” “You shall not steal,” “You shall not covet,” and whatever other command there may be, are summed up in this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” Love does no harm to a neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/kV5iZBTNYrk     “The Stand” @ HillSong

https://youtu.be/NgF4SjdRP3s “Be Magnified” @We Are Messengers

 

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation) 

 == Colossians 2:6-7== (NIV) Spiritual Fullness in Christ

⁶ So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, ⁷ rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.

==Psalm 141:8== (NIV)   ⁸ But my eyes are fixed on you, Sovereign Lord;
    in you I take refuge—do not give me over to death.

==1 Peter 5:7== (NIV)  ⁷ Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord thank you for this new day and thank you for Friday’s.   To know I do not have to play in traffic and still get done what is needed is a blessing in itself.

Blessed another day of opportunities no matter what comes this way; many will never get the chance.

 So, may I never forget when times get hard, painful or downright unbearable just what you sacrificed so I could have life.   No matter how it starts or ends in the here and now.

Loyal to a fault; committed and consistent.  Seems some may even have conversation thinking that they can predict what I am about, what I will do next.  As I step up and step out feeding this soul and thriving doing what I do.   Trying not to be judgmental while somewhat looking the other way unless it is right within my circle of control.

Despite all that has been given away, taken or destroyed the fact remains the same.

 I am blessed and a chosen spirit.     Learning not to take things personal and absolutely not allow people to reflect disrespect or contempt through me.   

So, as I have been so boldly reminded when people hurt you or your feelings; you do not have to give up your own happiness.    How true that is!  Perhaps happiness is just that deep peace and gratitude knowing how far you have come and how blessed you really are.

Happiness does not ever have to be having it all; having much or having someone right next to you 24/7.  

I have lived a full life of good, bad and indifferent.     I can agree with those who truly spend allot of time with me and know me. 

Yes, I give up me looking out for others all the time.   However, just because I have that reputation understand one thing.   When it comes to relationships.     I don’t have to be connected to you to help you; I do not have to let you in my life to love you.

But if I have and you burned that bridge.  That is on you!    I am blessed but far from endless when it comes to enough of me to waste time or truth on those who truly only care about what they can get or take from someone else.

Love wide open does not mean accepting everything anyone or everyone throws your way.

Like a sweet sun shower love and life is bittersweet; just like a big old sticky bun life is sweet but even more messy and we all get to work through our day to days.  We all have a choice what and how we will deal with the good, the bad and all of what we are given that truly belongs only by the grace of God.

So, I may reference often my go to line that I have since 1995; I am waiting for my future husband in my next life.  Even on the days I am calling out to Jesus, the one and only one that will sustain and keep all my secrets and desires.  It is not joke; the spirit that has been placed in this soul is more real than you or I that reads these words.    My soul belongs to something more than I can ever be.

Life is what it is until it is not.  Being loyal to a fault when I care that does not go away; my door is not wide open.   Respect and moral values are just a prerequisite.   Actions speak louder than words and as I have been burned helping those who really were just robbing those truly in need.

I need not judge you; for I have faith in God, Karma or whatever you wish to call it in your world.      I have seen and tasted the mercy and redemption of God’s grace.

So, shall you!

Being the show me girl I am the day God puts who He wants me to be with in front of me.  Only then will my rejections stop.  As for those who get what it is when Jesus flows through the very veins that pump the blood through each day of life.    Those that do not will always swear they understand and diagnose even getting angry when you do not acknowledge their ploys as nothing more than trying to engage one into the games of life.

Be thankful no matter what or where or the unknown timing of when.    Give thanks because many do not even get a glimpse of pain.    Some only get daily pains while others are chosen to step out and lead the way out for the promise land to eternity.

Love those for who they are; not what they can do for you.   Love those even if they are lost and confused.    After all God loved each one of us just a we are.   

Be who you are but find that moral compass and even if you are already using it; far beyond just doing what is right or wrong.    Shine bright for someone is always watching and they need your light.

Thank you, Lord, for this mind maze and all I am allowed.   Be with all who call upon you right where they are; and protect us from all who choose to defile themselves and who you are.

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Date: 02/20/2020 Thursday

Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):   

 ==Proverbs==17:9 (NIV)  

Whoever would foster love covers over an offense, but whoever repeats the matter separates close friends.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/-Ae2alazjHU    “Sanctified” @Joshua Grey

https://youtu.be/MjVi0CDicEQ    “Fathers House” @ Cory Asbury

https://youtu.be/DuZPOVFcFJ4     “Confidence” @ Sanctus Real

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation) 

                                 


 == Colossians==3:15== (NIV) ¹⁵ Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.  

==Colossians==1:27== (NIV)  ²⁷ To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you Father for this new day. Thank you for the beautiful canvas you put in front of me reflecting the eternal promise on those days that just are long and draining. 

Thank you for having 12 hours to put forth into a career and the blessings that come from them.

Thank you for the mistakes you allow me to make and get back up when I am flattened by untruths and unexpected let downs.

Thank you for allowing me to care for those I do not even know; and those I should have never known.

Thank you for knowing what it feels like to hurt for someone else.

Thank you for all the places you have put me this misfit of a puzzle piece allowing my colors to rub off on others and even when I will never understand, learn and know so much about others I will never really connect.

Thank you for keeping me strong when I am so very broken inside.

Thank you for allowing me to want to grow forward in you Jesus; even when I have no clue what that means.

Jesus so many are hurting and broken; desperately needing your healing, mercy and grace.  Near or far; blood or spirit.   Jesus be with all I connect with and all that is within this being.

Show me in your will and way how to continue moving forward; please show me direction and favor in cleaning up and leading the way in all things.

Thank you for all my yesterdays; and the hope and faith I have for all you bless me. 

Jesus thank you for this day I have been given.  Even if at one point today I felt my body was just going to explode sitting for three days listening and consuming this training required.

So many things going on; I am beyond blessed to have my life.  But Lord it has come to reality as I was reminded today by even those who do not really know me personally.

I have for all my life lived fully by always taking care of everyone else.    I honestly do not know how to just do me.     The transition reality is getting closer as my daughter is making plans to just go again with the little one.  And my number one getting closer to graduation and going off to college.

Here I am pure heart, clean hands, career built with just enough crazy from my youth to keep me moving; but even a whole lot more of Jesus flowing through me for the ride into eternity.

Riding home today as blessed as I am; surreal reality slammed me straight on knowing I will finally have to face the me that and figure out what life means alone.

I thrive doing!   But I cannot keep doing forever; I know this.  I cannot just go jump into some relationship just because.  Never have never will.   Even the bad relationships I have had in my days meant something or at least they did for me.

Lord, you know Your will be done in my life.  It’s all good.  Take me; make me stay; keep me busy.  Fill me up; leave me out here in this vast world.    But please have mercy, grace and protection for my children and grandchildren.   I have raised and covered these kids for all these years.  Things are changing I get that; just as I get, I have to figure out who I am all over again.

I pray with all I am Jesus for your angels to hold them all tight in accountability and purity from the heart deep within their souls and protect them from this ugly world that can be.  This road is always been hard.  But so getting harder for whatever the reality you need me to be, see or feel.

I need you, even on the edge of my seat!  I deeply; desperately need you.  Not some fake; player toying with worldly games.  Not some fly by knight just needing another fix and taking from those who would give for the greater good no matter what.

Forever yours; that will never change.   But Jesus; I need you to show up in a mighty way to help me through this new horizon that allows me to see your beauty and reflect while shredding me to know if I cannot do something worthwhile; if I cannot be accountable and faithful in true in all things.  If I do not have love to give; what is the purpose I even exist?

That day I dropped to my knees screaming at you what do you want from me!   You heard me then and you hear me now.   Love wide open seeping out.   Show me the way, show me a sign.  I cannot do this without you. 

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Date: 02/19/2020 Wednesday

Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):   

 ==1 John==4:11-12== (NIV)  

Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us..

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/eRUM70CPYls   “Whole Heart (Hold Me Now)” @ Hillsong United


https://youtu.be/rMTfj4xOjZk   “Lion and the Lamb” @Big Daddy Weave

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation) 

                                      

 == Exodus==3:14== (NIV) ¹⁴ God said to Moses, “I am who I am.^[a] This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I am has sent me to you.’”

==Habakkuk==3:17-19== (NIV)  

¹⁷ Though the fig tree does not bud
    and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls,
¹⁸ yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.

¹⁹ The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
    he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
    he enables me to tread on the heights.

For the director of music. On my stringed instruments

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord thank you for this day and the safe travels.

Thank you for the little voice at bible study last night asking if the book of Matthew we were reading through was the same where the people were healed from leprosy.   The blessing to know the seeds are being planted and the good it does to allow the little ladies of this world join occasionally into grown ladies bible studies.

Though they may not have that self-control to stop wiggling, the enlightening shine that come from an eight year old talking about something they remembered to an 80 year old is amazing.

I pray the seed of Jesus blooms and the branches grow wide and deep throughout my blood line then, now and whatever in the future.     As well as for all I am connected.

As I am on the run again for this busy day Lord, may I not forget to check in with you often?   Thank you for the words you gave me this morning; may they be meaningful.

Unclean, disobedience friend or foe.   Those who claim to walk with Jesus yet act on their own will ultimately pay the price.    When God says do not look back; don’t Look Back!

When God says love who he has blessed you with; and if there is a question of what is that love supposed to look like with this one?

It does not mean giving oneself away chasing imaginary dreams in movie lines.

When God places love in your soul; never stop being thankful.

Love your sisters, friends, brothers, fathers and mothers.  No matter what!

Though, they may be sitting across from you now; but soon everything will change.

Forgive what you feel hurt or angry about; stand guard and protect what comes out of your mouth and out of your heart.     Those you care deeply for; need not know.  Especially if you know they will never understand; or they will make you a fool and pretend in this worldly show.

The only truth is that of He; the only truth is the light, the way with Jesus in me.

So as this sun rises; the tires spin and the noise hums throughout this day like a busy bee hive.

Your soul and eternity cries out; to trust and understand; love and obey.   Seek God in all things; and meet Jesus here and now and walk with him even if alone all your remaining days.

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Date: 02/18/2020 Tuesday

Cruising with Kelly

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Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):   

 ==Romans==8:38-39== (NIV)   For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

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Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/3CRhzF5PunM   “You Must Learn Not To Let Emotions Over Power Your Faith ” @ Grace for Purpose


https://youtu.be/3CRhzF5PunM  “See The Light ” @TobyMac ft. Jordan Feliz (Ruslan Remix)

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation) 

                                      

 == Zephaniah==3:17== (NIV) The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves.  He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.”

==Psalm==73:23-26== (NIV) ²³ Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.
²⁴ You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory.
²⁵ Whom have I in heaven but you?  And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
²⁶ My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart
    and my portion forever.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you Jesus for this day given.  I am kind of spent today Lord; just from up and out early and sitting in a classroom all day then working my way home and running to bible study

 

Thank you for my limited words this night.   Please be with all I care for.   Thank you for your promise!

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Date: 02/17/2020 Monday

Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):   

 ==Romans==8:35,37 == (NIV)   Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/cFJ5qCmvPkY  “Made to Love” @ TobyMac


https://youtu.be/0B_lnQIITxU “Do It Again” @ Elevation Worship



https://youtu.be/XFT0zoKQWaM  “Different” @ Micah Tyler



https://youtu.be/1Ko4yroBP0A  “Spirit Lead Me” @ Michael Ketterer |Influence Music

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation) 

  == Matthew==28:5-7== (NIV) ⁵ The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. ⁶ He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. ⁷ Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.”

==2 Corinthians==5:17== (NIV) ¹⁷ Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:^[a] The old has gone, the new is here!

 
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you Jesus for this day given.   So easily, we can jump into our days and not pace and appreciate every moment we are given. 

Treating the seconds like a fire drill where everything is managed; while we work towards the next thing that awaits us.

For that brief 30-60 minutes, before we get out of bed, consumed with what you have to say; and how we will keep you in every moment of every part of the day.  Just knowing without you the world turns upside down and chaotic.

Then we find ourselves from feeding the pets, taking our showers and readying to hit the road for that hour-long drive into the office and once in the office like a runaway freight train where the conductor knows the pace but somehow paralyzed in just getting it done.

As the waves of day-to-day keep coming as we breathe sometimes forgetting to exhale.

Thank you Lord for every second of every day!   None of us deserves a thing but you allow us up repeatedly. 

What is our impact, what is our mission?    What are we giving back for all that you give to us?

In the chaos of day today; meeting the plans we make or chasing them.  Delivering more good works, better jobs done, one more of whatever you blessed the talents we carry.

During this process all with more than just good intentions; do we stop and breathe deeply knowing it is you that allows all things to transpire.

We quickly come to you often when we find ourselves in that place.   Where we are being annoyed; stuck; or hurting bad.   Yet rarely can we stay in touch with you 24/7 in and through everything.

It does not matter what you have blessed us with or for; all you want is just the daily acknowledgement in relationships with Jesus Christ.

How is it that we can wake up thinking about what needs to be done on any given weekend first thing Monday morning?   Yet we cannot put as much time, prayer or effort in to thinking and thanking the one who sustains us.

Thank you Jesus for the air I am allowed to breathe.  Thank you for the moments when I fail miserably being consumed by and with you.  Yet you love and remind me anyway just how much I am to you.

Thank you for allowing me to recognize my imperfections that matter even when I let the world dictate more than not those that should not.

Lord, you know all things; forever may I be held by you?  May I forever be at your feet learning and listening intently.     May I always learn and remain be strong in you; consistent in what I do reflecting you.

Lord, though this earthly vessel has desires, I so will forever be whatever you call me to be.  I am not out here looking; nor do I need these playa’s that perhaps have good intentions more so for themselves.     I am not looking for anything short-term and temporal Father.   I want that forever throughout any remaining days I have here and on into eternity.

    Surround me daily with only those that are blessed by and with your character and heart, Jesus!     Those souls that are deeply moved by all you are; adding value in this world daily.

  Those that may not have the answers but work forever towards solutions in any problem.

 Thank you Jesus, for today, yesterday and any tomorrow you allow me.    Jesus you alone help me to stay on my feet-standing firm and know my value in you.

Help me stand in knowledge and action for all you have blessed me with and what next steps should be; it does not matter house, family, career, personal.

It is all you allow me to be Jesus.  Thank you for your word and all those who shine brightly through the storms in life.     Do not let anything mind, body or spirit flow from this vessel unless it is what you want from me Jesus.   Your will be done; no matter how painful or beautiful.  Either end of the spectrum must be you that transpires for any steps given.

No matter what feels good, what is lonely, what seeps out of this soul; may your love and countenance be what this fun loving once lost soul reflects daily.

Thank you for this day, the lessons, the blessings the hurts, habits and sometimes hang-ups.    Flow through me to all the young women I am contact with and to your angel army and men of God to show us how to be led and grown in you.

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Date: 02/16/2020 Sunday

Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):   

 ==1 John==3:11== (NIV)   [ More on Love and Hatred ] For this is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another.

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/2GiLWogTBio  “When I Lost My Heart To You” @ Hillsong United



https://youtu.be/AAIHWfYNkMg  “I Know” @ Big Daddy Weave



https://youtu.be/6mAvt3CxEQM  “In Over My Head” @ Bethel



https://youtu.be/7drEyGsF-Vo   “With Lifted Hands” @ Ryan Stevenson

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation) 

 == Zechariah==2:13== (NIV) ¹³ Be still before the Lord, all mankind, because he has roused himself from his holy dwelling.”

==Isaiah==30:15== (NIV) ¹⁵ This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says:

“In repentance and rest is your salvation,  in quietness and trust is your strength,  but you would have none of it.

 ==2 Corinthians== 12:9== (AMP)

⁹ but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord just as in life we can jump up and run down that road of emptiness and living in reaction that to purpose for all that is good and pure.    I can easily forget who I am and why you allow me to place thoughts out here in black in white.

 

As my day starts may I always put you first and always Jesus do whatever it takes to feed this spirit rather than be that being that can give a million reasons, examples or advise of why or why not we should do anything.

May my scars direct the path reflected by your light.    May all who seek to connect be led to the waters you stand upon with hands way out saying trust me.

 

Though this physical being crave, desire and want forever that love from the inside out side by side 24/7.    Lord I am yours and I have went under long back when you called me by name.

This world and its games like the wild and a cheetah on the hunt for its prey.  So is the evil that seeks to steal and consume the souls who do not hold firm with you.

Lord may I not be tainted to your love and purity; seeing and living through so much in this life may I reflect and be love you call me to be.

As this mind maze wakes and has its roller coaster of emotions during any given conversation or even of what I see based on what I have already experienced.   Lord I have given you all that I am and need you beyond anything this world can temp or offer.

I know you hear every unspoken prayer and hold ever tear that ever flows before they hit the floor.  I pray this new day thanks and gratitude for all you have waiting for me.

 

The truth of us in the world comes with the freedom of choice and will you allow each one of us.  Our goals and desires matter only when they are led by you alone Jesus.    I pray forgiveness for all I have wronged as I forgive all who have wronged me.    It will never be about the material things; but that Jesus of the time and truth that one can never get back when we invest with kindness and love; it is nothing new for those even you God put forth and the people turned on you just for their own personal gains that they really never understood.

 

I am just a speck in this vast atmosphere praying I am worthy to reflect who you are each day I am allowed back up.    For this day and any to come.  Thank you!

 

Even in the moments of this world proving my insignificance or anyone of my own; I am overwhelmed knowing  you carry all that I am and all that will ever be.

Dedicated and faithful to a fault according to this world and how it can swallow what is good up.  Forever a bride of Christ; in love with a dream and a sweet soul king that the world will never allow me to touch in this life.     Fill me up Jesus with or without that soul that loves you more than that I could ever.  That soul ready to serve you shining the light for all seeking and giving back.  

For it is you alone that calls us to be still, or when to move.     Lord hear my heart; protect, guide and heal all I am connected.

Thank you for this day lead me Jesus!

 

Lord be with all my brothers and sisters serving you.  Protect, guide, refresh and renew all they are in every day you allow each of us.   Heal what is broken and shine brighter than ever before.   We all bleed red at the end of the day Jesus.   But nothing will flow and matter as it does with that which you poured out.

 

Protect us through all that does not walk with you!