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Date: 08/21/2020 Friday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this
head or the vibes that keep me moving. Thank you!
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
Psalm 42:8 (NLV) 8 The Lord will send His loving-kindness in the day. And His
song will be with me in the night, a prayer to the God of my life.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
As any next steps
will make or break us completely in you there is not an in-between!
Even the most
personal inner struggles are the battle of the Lords so why do we fight, when
we can come to the foot of the cross where Jesus awaits our invitation to
accept all he is and what he can be within and for us?
So as I remind
myself this day we just do not know what we do not know! Whatever will be will be and we have to give
and take away where the balance is requiring extra help to just keep moving forward.
No matter when we do
nothing or do something radical. No
matter if we know why or we are just who we are.
Where there is love
but no action there is no life; where there is life but no love what will there
ever be but worldly strife.
Those days gone by
where memories flash or hanging with friends at the old swimming hole of
crystal blue waters and friends riding their horses while everyone was free and
unweighted.
To that of seeing
the most beautiful canvas of nature that Gods creation allows; while it lasts
before humanity just does not get the precious and priceless moments of raw
beauty. That of that contagious hysterical
laughter a child’s laugh brings.
Into the dark Jesus
is faithful lifting us up. Like the Mayan
ruins once devastation and darkness for their time; now beautiful history allowing
something for the ancestors of the future to purpose for.
God of hope, God of
healing, God of protection, God of all creation!
If all there is this;
may it and I be worthy of speaking your praise, for all that was and is to
come.
Forgive me for
missing the mark with you and all you Jesus give. Wash over me, and this land Father. As the emotions run high this day, no
different then some other days. If it is
your will, Lord just show me how.
May I finish what I
start, may I remain obedient and always stand true to my obligations and accountability.
May you hear this
heart and all that is connected through this spirit.
If they have not yet found you Father God wash through all that I am and
could ever be connected.
You are the way
maker that lights every darkness. May I never forget that; no matter how
emotional or uncertain my life becomes.
Never have I been on
my own never will I be. Even if, even
when! Cause right now I am on the edge
and right now I just cannot believe in some things and knowing this flame hurts
really bad just not having a handle on what really will be.
So where is that little faith in the world
Lord that I have in you, just knowing no matter what! I will be okay with and
in you. Yet why can I not see such promise
with humanity?
Thank you for this
day and all that have allowed me here and now.
Meditation Opportunities
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King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Isaiah
55:1-2 (NLV) A Great Full Life
55 “Listen! Everyone
who is thirsty, come to the waters. And you who have no money, come, buy, and
eat. Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. 2 Why
do you spend money for what is not bread? Why spend your pay for what you do
not enjoy? Listen well to Me and eat what is good. Find joy in the best food.
1 Peter 5:9 (NLV) 9 Stand against him
and be strong in your faith. Remember, other Christians over all the world are
suffering the same as you are.
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Date: 08/20/2020 Thursday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this
head or the vibes that keep me moving. Thank you!
https://youtu.be/uynHOojNR_c
“Who Can ” @Cochren and CO.
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
Psalm 16:8 (NLV) 8 I have placed the Lord always in front of me. Because He is
at my right hand, I will not be moved.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
After several hours
and doing one of my famous wipe outs.
Climbing, moving
heavy stuff you would think that is where I need to make a mess of things. But know between my house at any given time
being one big fort full of stuff to keep a quarantined kid mind occupied it has
become one big fort; not to mention the dogs are treated like kids and have
toys all over.
Yes, coming out
after I found the remote, I was looking for rounded the corner too quickly as I
was far too tired and should not have been working and wham there I found
myself out on the floor. Legs all
twisted, and man did it hurt where one leg slammed into something the other up behind
me.
Humiliation!
Oh Lord, thank you for the lessons and
thank you for the blessings of this life.
Be it simply not breaking or that of the patience we are to learn to
have, courage to dig into, or strength to be found in our own free will.
I am no stranger to
owning issues or concerns everyone else brings me. Burning up so much energy and resources always in panic
mode most times when it comes to others.
Until there are
those moments that I find myself in crises and realize I should always be
taking the same care and effort for me as I do everyone else; but because I do
not when things go unexpectedly wrong or not as I thought I seen up ahead. The urgency kicks in and like a crazy in the
middle of the night I try resolving what should just wait when you need to be
in bed sleeping.
Craziness first
thing this morning common sense had everything fixed within the hour. However, my pride still hurts.
Not sure how many
others in this world go through the roller coaster ride and forget to keep the
hands and feet in along life’s way.
Periodically wiping out. But me the
more that layers up the more determined no matter if its me, you or anyone else
to just resolve it then and there and move on.
Then there comes
those things that you appear to have taken ownership and unfortunately just
cannot bring to the end.
Like those long
running projects that have so many dependencies. Just as you get through one and feel good
and almost there something else jumps up.
Just like those ten
steps forward 3 steps back. Inching
along and the customer is just not satisfied on the other end, because it is
just not moving fast enough.
Oh, do not get me
wrong everything is significantly important!
However, its like trying to find that money tree to pick from or that
old saying; you cannot get blood from a turnup.
You take
it as far as you can and then have to keep waiting to work through the
surprises. But it is not even near
close enough, soon enough or even good enough!
Welcome to my
world. I spent 30 years in Information technology
researching, Testing out software
finding things not exactly to the requirements given or expectations of those
business partners and customer’s needs.
Good at what I did
for sure and yes blessed to be recognized for what I do. In the quality assurance world, you are
always damned if you do and damned if you do not.
Always going back to
the customer and saying this is how it is; I did not create it I am just
pointing it out. We can go forward and
know the fix is coming or we can hold
and wait for things to be fixed.
In most cases even
through all the frustrations eventually acceptance comes.
Thankfully in my
career doing that role, I was blessed to never mess up where I missed
something, and it shut down production.
Taking on this new
path being the Project Manager well it gives its whole new role of
frustrations. Now instead of one
deliverable over and over. It is many
with even many more frustrated, let down personalities trying to do what they
do yet dependent on so many others to make it happen.
Where does that
leave me? Wishing at times I did not
feel no matter what the situation at times.
You want to fix
things and make them right, get them delivered, get on with the next item. But after so many demands, needs, or just
not enough you get burned out.
Weary and
tired! That is one way to put it, even
in my personal life. Where everything
comes up short lately even knowing it is enough. Even knowing that God never truly gives what
we cannot handle. It is just what do I
do with that here and now?
How do you peel the
layers back and find that new innovative way to meet the demands and still feel
like you are okay to keep going?
Wiping out twisting
up feeling the bumps and bruising of life.
Feeling the humility of just not good enough all the time if at any
time!
All that work life
balance where there is always something to give and always something to take
and always something to let go of completely.
It is true don’t
sweat the small stuff because there is always something bigger coming around
that corner. Something good, something
bad, something unknown.
However, if the Good
Lord brings you to it, and shows you ways to go through it. Just do
it~
That is my thought
process anyway. Maybe having no fear as
a younger person and all I have been through in life made the difference and
just knowing the fires I had made it to the other side.
If we have not figured it out already, we need to
look around and know life is really short.
And there are no promises or guarantees of the world that can make it
last longer, better, or even problem free.
There will always be
something, that which we are impacting to our day to day. Be it loss, brokenness of spirit, bones, or
any material thing around us.
Perspective is
everything even when we do not have it together, even when we do not have the
control, or the answers.
I could cry about
the fact my pops has been diagnosed with cancer again; I could cry my aunt is
in ICU up in NY State, I could cry about all the headlines in the news and how
close so many misfortunes are to home.
I could cry that I wish I could be enough but will always just know I
will not be for many people, places or things.
I could cry how I
make a mess of my life all the time with good intentions, or about how alone
sometimes loving Jesus can leave you feeling.
Sometimes I do,
sometimes even those that I will never know that I see or read about in the
headlines have impact on me. Whatever
the case may be, I will wipe away the tears at any given time and keep pushing
through.
Hoping there will
not come that day anytime soon when I find myself laid out, broken, where I
cannot get back up and work things through.
Would it be a great
thing to have that balance, that one forever one; that you know you can lean
back to back with no matter what and they have you and you have them.
That one that loves
you from the outside in as Jesus fills you from the inside out. Absolutely!
Please be with the
children of this nation and across the world.
No child asks to be in this world; please protect them from the darkness
and pain. May the humility in this worldly life bring
us all closer to you Jesus.
May the strength and courage that we cannot
see carry us to lead by example that is pleasing and leading the way to all
that is good and bright.
Thank you for all
the times I know I cannot, but you just keep getting me back up!
Meditation Opportunities
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King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
1 Timothy 2:5-6 (NLV) 5 There is one God. There is one Man standing
between God and men. That Man is Christ Jesus. 6 He
gave His life for all men so they could go free and not be held by the power of
sin. God made this known to the world at the right time.
James 1:1-4 (NLV) 1 This
letter is from James. I am a servant owned by God and the Lord Jesus Christ. I
greet the twelve family groups of the Jewish nation living in many parts of the
world.
Take Hope When Tests Come
2 My Christian brothers, you should be happy when you
have all kinds of tests. 3 You know these prove
your faith. It helps you not to give up. 4 Learn
well how to wait so you will be strong and complete and in need of nothing.
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Date: 08/19/2020 Wednesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this
head or the vibes that keep me moving. Thank you!
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
1 John 5:12(NLV) 12 He that has the Son has life. He that does not have the Son
of God does not have life.
Waking up to think
and feel how true love is truly blind.
God you may have
been able to foresee the future and know exactly how your creations would act,
be, and even let you down. Yet you loved
us anyway enough to allow your one and only son to come to earth take on all
the sin of this world, suffer and be tormented; murdered and hung for all to
see.
With great love, and
trust in a humanity that is lost more than ever found.
Thank you, Jesus,
for loving me! Thank you for allowing me
to feel love from the inside out, Thank
you for not only loving me but allowing me to love and desire love even from
what is unknown or sometimes so convoluted we cannot understand it fully.
Even when it breaks us
or feels like it has ripped our lives apart.
Only you truly know what that means or is.
I think about when I
realized Love broke thru with you Jesus and how even today, I just want you to
take all of me.
Learning to put all
of my hope in you alone Jesus and not allow that of the world or man to distract
or derail me from the love you have allowed me to give.
It is so hard; to
want, need and even desire. Wanting the
flesh to be fulfilled as deeply as the soul.
Yet so often we find ourselves coming up short because of some expectations
we do not even realize we place out there.
We give ourselves
away to what we do not fully know.
Sometimes what we have never even seen.
Just to fill that deep void from the outside in which only you satisfy
from the inside out.
Lord may my heart
never harden yet you keep me protected and wise from all that is selfishly
harmful by others.
Be with all I am
connected and may they lead by example to shine and grow forward in things that
are pure, things that are morally valuable,
things that are everlasting with and through you and the sacrifice you
have made for humanity.
Thank you for this
day, thank you for all the lessons, blessings up until now and all that may
come to be in any future I am given.
Guide and direct my
steps, guard my heart, protect, and heal my loved one’s from this crazy world
and all that is unseen.
May we live learning
and using morality, respect, and loyalty for all that is eternal.
Meditation Opportunities
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King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Psalms 131:2 (NLV) 2 For sure I have made my soul quiet like a child who no longer
nurses while he is with his mother. My soul within me is like a child who no
longer nurses.
Psalms 21:6 (NLV) 6 You have given him
honor and respect forever. And You make him glad with the joy of being with You.
Psalms 37:7 (NLV) 7 Rest in the Lord
and be willing to wait for Him. Do not trouble yourself when all goes well with
the one who carries out his sinful plans.
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Date: 08/18/2020 Tuesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this
head or the vibes that keep me moving. Thank you!
https://youtu.be/xckDgX8xNfg “Known” @Tauren Wells
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this
head or the vibes that keep me moving. Thank you!
https://youtu.be/xckDgX8xNfg “Known” @Tauren Wells
https://youtu.be/LuvfMDhTyMA “Lord I Need You” @Matt Maher
https://youtu.be/8Ud66_ciLtU “Face To Face” @Natalie Grant
https://youtu.be/4cgFKQRPegg “Details” @Sarah Reeves
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
Philippians 1:21(NLV) 21 To me, living means
having Christ. To die means that I would have more of Him.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
So glad that if there is not but
one good thing, I do throughout my days that it is starting my day in the word
and devotions and ending it; and oh, how yesterday’s message should have been
telling me something. But even more so
starting with today’s reminding me “EPEXCT TO ENCOUNTER ADVERSITY IN YOUR LIVE”
a snippet out of my Jesus Calling
today.
For all who have and
walk in the faith of God and purpose to know Jesus; or even those who are just trying
to be good humans but have not met Him yet or the peace that he allows during
all the storms.
Life is full of
adversity; that which we could be minding our own business and something or
someone is just in our face. Or even
that we bring within our own beings.
Allowing what just should not be to twist us all up in knots and such.
If life were easy,
we would have no need for God, right? I
mean really, we put all our faith in people and what they can do for us. Or even myself, I tend to put my doing things
for other in what makes they happy or helps give them life.
Then I stress when they
are still fretting or just not happy and cannot get out of their own way.
I think over the
years I became the enabler. Where I
have helped many with good intentions.
Yet for example I wanted to make sure and yes, it is admirable. But seriously. I wanted to make sure my family had stability
after a few hurdles my kid found themselves not getting over.
So instead of making
them go out and stand up to the world; I bought a house so they would have somewhere
to live.
Yet they really
could care less about all that goes into maintaining a house. In fact there are days when they actually
come out like they rent the place when something is happening with that
demanding tone it needs to be fixed.
Even if they do not raise a finger to come up with a resolution
themselves.
Or even that stranger
on the street corner holding the sign when they are advertising, they need
food, money homeless etc. So, you run
up the road buy a big meal and drink; keeping it untouched go back to give it to
them and they refuse the food they actually just wanted money.
Do not get me wrong
these are a reference that lead to extreme ungratefulness that many truly are
thankful with whatever you do for them.
However, I will say when it comes to our kids until they grow up and hit
that magical age, they will always have expectations from their parents to just
do. Especially if they have been coddled
for far too long.
I am guilty of my
own suggestions; I do not eat right all the time; I don’t rest as much as I should. I do not let go of that what is unknown I
actually spin trying to make sense while envisioning the future picture.
Even at times shoot
something down and totally go another direction whey I fell it is just full of
too many impossibilities.
Then beat me up after
the fact for going there in the first place.
Who am I to judge,
and why do I allow myself to get twisted over things instead of keeping my head
straight ahead and being like many who just forge forward doing what they do?
However, here it is;
none of us deserve anything and the God that created all things knows
everything.
What I do know is
that those feelings that are real even for a moment in time are.
My thoughts are even
for myself to learn how. If we make a
choice and its called enabling; once you realize what you are doing. Change it.
I will not say do not go and do what makes you happy.
God intended for us
all to live happy, whole lives in and with the spirit.
Especially when I
find myself cutting people off or out of my life because I just cannot see the
other side and there is a risk that you give who you are and they take advantage
your feelings.
Although this mind is
very convoluted and cumbersome looking at my resume in career life and going
back to anything I have ever written. I
am just blessed. Blessed I have been
given this day; blessed that I am able to tap out and release some of what many
would never openly want anyone to know.
Sure, I could write
about a romance; If I did it would be
called the day, I lived the love of my sweet soul king; or I could publish my autobiography which is
blond by choice.
I could get out
there and do and write much. Yet here
all I do is share bits and piece of me over time. Good, bad, indifferent, or crazy. I am blessed with each new day I am given
and any thought process I am allowed.
We are all made for
so much more than what material things are given or taken away. In fact, it is unfortunate that we grow so
attached to so many that even they are taken from us.
But life is what it
is until it is not. We will all think
many things that just should not be do many things that should have not be done
or even quit things we should have kept going with.
No matter if the
storms that blow through wipe out everything, or just enough to leave you out
of control. No matter if every day is
perfect or you find the kids put the box of cereal in the pantry upside down or
left the lid off something you go to pick up and it goes everywhere.
Do your best to purpose
to be face to face with the maker and spiritual being that fills you with indescribable
peace no matter what is happening.
I know me better
than anything in this life; and my list of inadequacies are unending. Yes, I do not give myself credit when it is
due; and I know my worth in and with the one who allows me life.
I could boast about my
career, or my educational background or even how far and much I have achieved
when I came from nothing. But why
would or should I?
None of us in this
world are perfect. But I honestly
believe we all need to bring our positive energy and prayers together and pray
for a healing across this world. For peace
and opportunity as we help pick up the shattered pieces with no expectations of
other peoples lives if they have entrusted you.
If they are not on
the up and up and you have proof walk away, if you need help, reach out to
someone who can help get you out of dangerous situations. You are never alone even though it seems
like it.
There is nothing any
of us can do that would make God stop loving the beings he created us to be.
Sure, many may
disagree, laugh or say that is crazy.
But going back to the book that has been unchanged and the story of
Jesus more than 2000 years old. The fact that God sent his only son to walk
this earth, suffer and die and be resurrected again and knowing the peace of which
that even on my crazy days. Lives in
me! Well it really does not matter
what others think.
I do not see anyone ever
in my life knocking on my doors saying let me take care of you. If they did, I would have to find out what
the cost in the end is. Anyway, this
mind maze needs to drink this second cup of coffee and get it together with hopes
of a good productive day. Not that of
panic because a big storm came through and wiped out the day before and
technology that allows one to make a living.
Lord I need you,
more than ever and I pray all I am connected for guidance, comfort, healing and
direction for all and through all things anyone I hold dear is going through.
Guidance and control
when lightening comes and strikes my panic button. Father show me how through your ways.
Be with those who feel like giving up and
allow them the same strength and courage to just keep getting back up when they
feel weak and weary. Protect us from ourselves, and the wolves in
sheep’s clothing. Those imitators and imposters
walking around like they have it all together all the while they are sucking
joy from the lives keeping it real.
Thank you for this
day and all the lessons and blessings that have been so far. Not worthy of favor Jesus; but I thank you
and ask that I may have it myself.
With
and in your will.
Thank you for this
day; in Jesus Name, Amen!
Meditation Opportunities
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King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
19 After this I heard what sounded
like the voices of many people in heaven, saying, “Thanks to our God, the One
Who saves. Honor and power belong to Him.
91 He who lives in the safe place of
the Most High will be in the shadow of the All-powerful.
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Philippians 1:21(NLV) 21 To me, living means
having Christ. To die means that I would have more of Him.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thankful for another
day, and so extremely glad it is not a ground hog day or Monday’s over and
over.
So glad that if there is not but
one good thing, I do throughout my days that it is starting my day in the word
and devotions and ending it; and oh, how yesterday’s message should have been
telling me something. But even more so
starting with today’s reminding me “EPEXCT TO ENCOUNTER ADVERSITY IN YOUR LIVE”
a snippet out of my Jesus Calling
today.
For all who have and
walk in the faith of God and purpose to know Jesus; or even those who are just trying
to be good humans but have not met Him yet or the peace that he allows during
all the storms.
Life is full of
adversity; that which we could be minding our own business and something or
someone is just in our face. Or even
that we bring within our own beings.
Allowing what just should not be to twist us all up in knots and such.
If life were easy,
we would have no need for God, right? I
mean really, we put all our faith in people and what they can do for us. Or even myself, I tend to put my doing things
for other in what makes they happy or helps give them life.
Then I stress when they
are still fretting or just not happy and cannot get out of their own way.
I think over the
years I became the enabler. Where I
have helped many with good intentions.
Yet for example I wanted to make sure and yes, it is admirable. But seriously. I wanted to make sure my family had stability
after a few hurdles my kid found themselves not getting over.
So instead of making
them go out and stand up to the world; I bought a house so they would have somewhere
to live.
Yet they really
could care less about all that goes into maintaining a house. In fact there are days when they actually
come out like they rent the place when something is happening with that
demanding tone it needs to be fixed.
Even if they do not raise a finger to come up with a resolution
themselves.
Or even that stranger
on the street corner holding the sign when they are advertising, they need
food, money homeless etc. So, you run
up the road buy a big meal and drink; keeping it untouched go back to give it to
them and they refuse the food they actually just wanted money.
Do not get me wrong
these are a reference that lead to extreme ungratefulness that many truly are
thankful with whatever you do for them.
However, I will say when it comes to our kids until they grow up and hit
that magical age, they will always have expectations from their parents to just
do. Especially if they have been coddled
for far too long.
Loving your family
well is not an easy task, tough love and absolutes are a must.
But that goes for loving yourself well also.
I am guilty of my
own suggestions; I do not eat right all the time; I don’t rest as much as I should. I do not let go of that what is unknown I
actually spin trying to make sense while envisioning the future picture.
Even at times shoot
something down and totally go another direction whey I fell it is just full of
too many impossibilities.
Then beat me up after
the fact for going there in the first place.
Do I believe in fairy tales, absolutely!
Do I believe we can do and be anything we put all we are in to,
absolutely!
Who am I to judge,
and why do I allow myself to get twisted over things instead of keeping my head
straight ahead and being like many who just forge forward doing what they do?
Not a question
anyone can answer although many who do their works in counseling and psychiatry
would absolutely have some answers, I am sure.
However, here it is;
none of us deserve anything and the God that created all things knows
everything.
What I do know is
that those feelings that are real even for a moment in time are.
Those desires that
we feel or seek after are real. We
have all been given the ability to feel, love and learn and live with the fruit
of the spirit within us.
My thoughts are even
for myself to learn how. If we make a
choice and its called enabling; once you realize what you are doing. Change it.
I will not say do not go and do what makes you happy.
God intended for us
all to live happy, whole lives in and with the spirit.
For me in those
situations where you feel damned if you do and damned if you do not. Man, that tears me up.
Especially when I
find myself cutting people off or out of my life because I just cannot see the
other side and there is a risk that you give who you are and they take advantage
your feelings.
That is where some
of the scars that leave one crazy come out.
Especially putting it in black and white as I smile thinking out loud.
Although this mind is
very convoluted and cumbersome looking at my resume in career life and going
back to anything I have ever written. I
am just blessed. Blessed I have been
given this day; blessed that I am able to tap out and release some of what many
would never openly want anyone to know.
Sure, I could write
about a romance; If I did it would be
called the day, I lived the love of my sweet soul king; or I could publish my autobiography which is
blond by choice.
I could get out
there and do and write much. Yet here
all I do is share bits and piece of me over time. Good, bad, indifferent, or crazy. I am blessed with each new day I am given
and any thought process I am allowed.
We are all made for
so much more than what material things are given or taken away. In fact, it is unfortunate that we grow so
attached to so many that even they are taken from us.
But life is what it
is until it is not. We will all think
many things that just should not be do many things that should have not be done
or even quit things we should have kept going with.
No matter if the
storms that blow through wipe out everything, or just enough to leave you out
of control. No matter if every day is
perfect or you find the kids put the box of cereal in the pantry upside down or
left the lid off something you go to pick up and it goes everywhere.
Do your best to purpose
to be face to face with the maker and spiritual being that fills you with indescribable
peace no matter what is happening.
Meet Jesus right
where you are.
I know me better
than anything in this life; and my list of inadequacies are unending. Yes, I do not give myself credit when it is
due; and I know my worth in and with the one who allows me life.
I could boast about my
career, or my educational background or even how far and much I have achieved
when I came from nothing. But why
would or should I?
We all have to live
with the demons that torment us. We
all have to come to terms to be who we say we are or await the time when
everything in the dark comes to light.
And it always does. We are all
fully known and loved by God~
None of us in this
world are perfect. But I honestly
believe we all need to bring our positive energy and prayers together and pray
for a healing across this world. For peace
and opportunity as we help pick up the shattered pieces with no expectations of
other peoples lives if they have entrusted you.
If they are not on
the up and up and you have proof walk away, if you need help, reach out to
someone who can help get you out of dangerous situations. You are never alone even though it seems
like it.
There is nothing any
of us can do that would make God stop loving the beings he created us to be.
Sure, many may
disagree, laugh or say that is crazy.
But going back to the book that has been unchanged and the story of
Jesus more than 2000 years old. The fact that God sent his only son to walk
this earth, suffer and die and be resurrected again and knowing the peace of which
that even on my crazy days. Lives in
me! Well it really does not matter
what others think.
I do not see anyone ever
in my life knocking on my doors saying let me take care of you. If they did, I would have to find out what
the cost in the end is. Anyway, this
mind maze needs to drink this second cup of coffee and get it together with hopes
of a good productive day. Not that of
panic because a big storm came through and wiped out the day before and
technology that allows one to make a living.
Lord I need you,
more than ever and I pray all I am connected for guidance, comfort, healing and
direction for all and through all things anyone I hold dear is going through.
Guidance and control
when lightening comes and strikes my panic button. Father show me how through your ways.
Be with those who feel like giving up and
allow them the same strength and courage to just keep getting back up when they
feel weak and weary. Protect us from ourselves, and the wolves in
sheep’s clothing. Those imitators and imposters
walking around like they have it all together all the while they are sucking
joy from the lives keeping it real.
Thank you for this
day and all the lessons and blessings that have been so far. Not worthy of favor Jesus; but I thank you
and ask that I may have it myself.
With
and in your will.
Direct our steps,
guard our hearts, hold our tongues and words we type. May we never purposely hurt or try to hurt
anyone or anything for our own personal gain.
Thank you for this
day; in Jesus Name, Amen!
Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
19 After this I heard what sounded
like the voices of many people in heaven, saying, “Thanks to our God, the One
Who saves. Honor and power belong to Him.
91 He who lives in the safe place of
the Most High will be in the shadow of the All-powerful.
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Date: 08/17/2020 Monday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this
head or the vibes that keep me moving. Thank you!
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
2 Corinthians 10:17-18 (NLV)
17 If anyone wants
to be proud, he should be proud of what the Lord has done. 18 It is not what a man thinks and says of
himself that is important. It is what God thinks of him.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Just trying to hang
on while letting go and stop playing with that which drains from the emotional,
spiritual, physical, and financial bank accounts.
So crazy how hard I
have worked my existence just to survive yet I am always so quick to even make
eye contact and more than willing to give away what I do not have wondering
what happens next when I am in need.
How do we take back
what is not ours to begin with; kind of like how you know when that dream has
come to life. I guess you just hope and
pray holding on to all that is good and know everything takes time.
Disappointed with
myself; absolutely. Not for being selfless
but to become the one that thrives by stepping into the unseen fires.
I can get mad at me
all day long and lose my words when people just do not hear what I am saying in
truth.
Yet as long as I do
not step away, block, run, hide, nothing changes. Everyone knows just because you change geographic
no matter what the situation; nothing changes until you change the situation. At least I hope especially parents with kids
having troubles hanging with the wrong crowds understand.
We all gravitate
back to the same flavor in a different location or relationship if we truly do
not resolve the issues and /or change or stop the situation completely.
No big
secret loved having fun and loved those good-looking bad boys that had fun. Let’s face it raised up in a no parent home
the school of hard knocks teaches you lasting lessons.
The crowds as teens
we ran with had the motto if you did not live dangerously you were not living.
I thank God every
day each time that flashback of something foolish that should have taken us out
and like the rewind of a movie where the van is flipping over and over, and you
are being thrown plays on.
At some point if you
make it after the sliding down the pavement where you landed stops; you just change the danger if you are not
held accountable. Or you realize you
cannot take anything with you and especially walking with God and all those
hits to the head beating it against the wall growing up. Just leaves you with lacking common sense in
some situations.
Not so much being invincible
as you know that will never be the case, just as you do care and are not really
ready to check out yet. Something about your
DNA that just keeps you in that zone helping where you can, even when you know
some are just playing the life game of chess to take whatever they can get
until they get caught.
Not really caring
what the collateral damage they leave behind may be. All the while you pray not to lose what
sanity you have left while wondering how the hell did I get here?
I am beyond blessed
without a doubt, those good intentions that are more like almost not bad, not
good, just almost leaving you hanging off that cliff wondering just why do you
keep believing in what you have never seen in people.
So desperately
trying to still fill that void of forever when only God can do so. He gave His life so we could live and even
those of us who get that and believe, still at times by habit, by desire of the
human flesh given want to feel more. In
doing so sometimes do things we think are right later to question when still in
that same spot you have always found yourself.
Not from not praying
hard enough, not from not trying hard enough, not from not caring enough or too
much. Sometimes our hearts just don’t have answers
to why we do what we do even if part of it hopes someday the love and care we
put out for others forever comes back.
This mind maze so
early on a busy ahead Monday. Clouded,
rushed, absolutes! As the good Lord
has breathed life in the lungs of every soul, He alone allows up again this
day. May we be grateful no matter what
spins, feels, toils, or takes advantage.
Thankful for all the opportunities we can make or give.
It is a privilege to
rise up and rise up I will; no matter with that firm foundation of another
physical soul helping me balance, helping me up. Or that of just the God who created me. But until the day is no more never give up,
never give in; and never stop believing and learning why this world and
humanity was created in the first place.
Even If; Even When!
Riddles to many who
many read any day that this mind dumps out; or spot on for others. Life is what it is until it is not.
Shine bright in all you do no matter what
it feels like and never let anyone rob the joy of what God has given you.
We are all worth
more than anything anyone can give or take.
Father forgive me
for spinning where I need not be, making something out of nothing or missing the
mark and not seeing what really is. Lead
me and all I am connected to serve and be all you and your will created us to
be. Heal this land Father and all
within.
Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Philippians 2:9-11 (NLV) 9 Because of this,
God lifted Jesus high above everything else. He gave Him a name that is greater
than any other name. 10 So
when the name of Jesus is spoken, everyone in heaven and on earth and under the
earth will bow down before Him. 11 And
every tongue will say Jesus Christ is Lord. Everyone will give honor to God the
Father.
Isaiah 43:1(NLV) God Promises to Save Israel
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Father forgive me
for spinning where I need not be, making something out of nothing or missing the
mark and not seeing what really is. Lead
me and all I am connected to serve and be all you and your will created us to
be. Heal this land Father and all
within.
Date: 08/16/2020 Sunday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this
head or the vibes that keep me moving. Thank you!
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/3213550308737443/0
“New
Life Christian Church (Worship on the lawn) 😊
https://youtu.be/y6WnMuoZYOg
“Stones” @Kim Walker-Smith
https://youtu.be/btItj9RxRYQ
“Crashing In | To Love A Fool” @Cory Asbury
Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)
2 Corinthians 7:1 (NLV) 7 Since we
have these great promises, dear friends, let us turn away from every sin of the
body or of the spirit. Let us honor God with love and fear by giving ourselves
to Him in every way.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus,
for allowing another day to get back up and keep pushing forward. No matter what that looks like. Thank you for the message from our guest
speaker out in the 90-degree heat and the beautiful sound of your nature. Thank you for the message out of Romans today,
not only from our guest speaker but also in the morning devotionals.
No matter what the
situation any of us find ourselves in; Lord your will guide us please. Guide me; not to lay down but stop stepping
in unless you absolute send that bolt of lightning to move me.
Just weary, in life
as so many; beyond blessed even in my own messes or that of others I allow
myself to be entangled.
Never is it helping
others. It is when people take advantage
of others that drives me crazy. Yet,
you Jesus as the butterflies pass by or dragon flies soar past on any given
day. You are having nothing to prove
to me or anyone else walking this earth.
Yet your love freely pours out and over us washing away the weight of
the world and all we get twisted within.
Father you know all
things for all people that live and breathe.
Good, bad or even really uncertain and indifferent.
We love because you love
us; yet at times our hearts become hardened with all the distractions this
world has. As we get lost thinking we need
to step out and do this on our own. No
matter what the result. We do not; we have
you if we choose.
I will never get it
right; not by the world’s standards, nor by how I should be in your will.
Yet you give me strength
to just keep getting back up and trying my best.
Please guide and
protect my loved one’s and all I am connected from any of those tsunami waves
that will be coming to pound down.
Forgive me for all I
fall short, which is almost everything.
Guard and protect
the future Jesus; please give live into the children of this world to lead them
to be and do great things through and with you.
I never know where I
am going but where it is; I cannot go without you Father God!
Hear the cries of
our ancient warriors and all who new the great spirits better than they knew
themselves.
Be with all who have
unspoken prayers and all whose tears are flooding this world. Show us how to shine bright for you
Jesus. Remove the darkness; expose all
that is harmful shine bright Jesus.
Come wash over this
land.
Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Romans 12:20 (NLV)
20 “If the one who hates you is hungry, feed him. If he is
thirsty, give him water. If you do that, you will be making him more ashamed of
himself.”
Romans 1 (NLV) 1 This letter is from Paul. I am a servant owned by Jesus Christ and
a missionary chosen by God to preach His Good News.
2 The Good News was promised long ago by God’s early preachers in His Holy Writings.
3 It tells of His Son, our Lord Jesus Christ, Who was born as a person in the flesh through the family of King David.
4 The Holy Spirit proved by a powerful act that Jesus our Lord is the Son of God because He was raised from the dead.
5 Jesus has given us His loving-favor and has made us His missionaries. We are to preach to the people of all nations that they should obey Him and put their trust in Him.
6 You have been chosen to belong to Jesus Christ also.
7 So I write to all of you in the city of Rome. God loves you and has chosen you to be set apart for Himself. May God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ give you His loving-favor and peace.
2 The Good News was promised long ago by God’s early preachers in His Holy Writings.
3 It tells of His Son, our Lord Jesus Christ, Who was born as a person in the flesh through the family of King David.
4 The Holy Spirit proved by a powerful act that Jesus our Lord is the Son of God because He was raised from the dead.
5 Jesus has given us His loving-favor and has made us His missionaries. We are to preach to the people of all nations that they should obey Him and put their trust in Him.
6 You have been chosen to belong to Jesus Christ also.
7 So I write to all of you in the city of Rome. God loves you and has chosen you to be set apart for Himself. May God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ give you His loving-favor and peace.
8 First
of all, I keep thanking my God, through Jesus Christ, for all of you. This is
because the whole world knows of your faith in Christ.
9 God knows how I work for Him. He knows how I preach with all my heart the Good News about His Son. He knows how I always pray for you.
10 I pray that I might be able to visit you, if God wants me to.
11 I want to see you so I can share some special gift of the Holy Spirit with you. It will make you strong.
12 Both of us need help. I can help make your faith strong and you can do the same for me. We need each other.
9 God knows how I work for Him. He knows how I preach with all my heart the Good News about His Son. He knows how I always pray for you.
10 I pray that I might be able to visit you, if God wants me to.
11 I want to see you so I can share some special gift of the Holy Spirit with you. It will make you strong.
12 Both of us need help. I can help make your faith strong and you can do the same for me. We need each other.
13 Christian
brothers, many times I have wanted to visit you. Something has kept me from
going until now. I have wanted to lead some of you to Christ also, as I have
done in other places where they did not know God.
14 I must help the people who have had a chance to hear the Good News and those who have not. I must help those with much learning and those who have never learned from books.
15 So I want to preach the Good News to you who live in Rome also.
14 I must help the people who have had a chance to hear the Good News and those who have not. I must help those with much learning and those who have never learned from books.
15 So I want to preach the Good News to you who live in Rome also.
16 I
am not ashamed of the Good News. It is the power of God. It is the way He saves
men from the punishment of their sins if they put their trust in Him. It is for
the Jew first and for all other people also. 17 The
Good News tells us we are made right with God by faith in Him. Then, by faith
we live that new life through Him. The Holy Writings say, “A man right with God
lives by faith.”
18 We
see the anger of God coming down from heaven against all the sins of men. These
sinful men keep the truth from being known.
19 Men know about God. He has made it plain to them.
20 Men cannot say they do not know about God. From the beginning of the world, men could see what God is like through the things He has made. This shows His power that lasts forever. It shows that He is God.
21 They did know God, but they did not honor Him as God. They were not thankful to Him and thought only of foolish things. Their foolish minds became dark.
22 They said that they were wise, but they showed how foolish they were.
23 They gave honor to false gods that looked like people who can die and to birds and animals and snakes. This honor belongs to God Who can never die.
19 Men know about God. He has made it plain to them.
20 Men cannot say they do not know about God. From the beginning of the world, men could see what God is like through the things He has made. This shows His power that lasts forever. It shows that He is God.
21 They did know God, but they did not honor Him as God. They were not thankful to Him and thought only of foolish things. Their foolish minds became dark.
22 They said that they were wise, but they showed how foolish they were.
23 They gave honor to false gods that looked like people who can die and to birds and animals and snakes. This honor belongs to God Who can never die.
24 So
God let them follow the desires of their sinful hearts. They did sinful things
among themselves with their bodies.
25 They traded the truth of God for a lie. They worshiped and cared for what God made instead of worshiping the God Who made it. He is the One Who is to receive honor and thanks forever. Let it be so.
25 They traded the truth of God for a lie. They worshiped and cared for what God made instead of worshiping the God Who made it. He is the One Who is to receive honor and thanks forever. Let it be so.
26 Because
of this, God let them follow their sinful desires which lead to shame. Women
used their bodies in ways God had not planned.
27 In the same way, men left the right use of women’s bodies. They did sex sins with other men. They received for themselves the punishment that was coming to them for their sin.
27 In the same way, men left the right use of women’s bodies. They did sex sins with other men. They received for themselves the punishment that was coming to them for their sin.
28 Because
they would not keep God in their thoughts anymore, He gave them up. Their minds
were sinful and they wanted only to do things they should not do.
29 They are full of everything that is sinful and want things that belong to others. They hate people and are jealous. They kill other people. They fight and lie. They do not like other people and talk against them.
30 They talk about people, and they hate God. They are filled with pride and tell of all the good they do. They think of new ways to sin. They do not obey their parents.
31 They are not able to understand. They do not do what they say they will do. They have no love and no loving-pity.
32 They know God has said that all who do such things should die. But they keep on doing these things and are happy when others do them also.
29 They are full of everything that is sinful and want things that belong to others. They hate people and are jealous. They kill other people. They fight and lie. They do not like other people and talk against them.
30 They talk about people, and they hate God. They are filled with pride and tell of all the good they do. They think of new ways to sin. They do not obey their parents.
31 They are not able to understand. They do not do what they say they will do. They have no love and no loving-pity.
32 They know God has said that all who do such things should die. But they keep on doing these things and are happy when others do them also.
