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Date: 09/26/2020
Saturday
Soul Vibes and
Starters (YouTube.Com)
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Judgement Belongs to God
Inspirational
Thoughts: @TobyMac@SPEAKLIFE
“IF YOU WANT MORE KINDNESS IN THE WORLD, PUT IT THERE.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
And just like that here we are on Saturday again. Thank you, Lord, for allowing me up and
through another week with all that is happening in this world to and with all of
our loved ones.
I know it does not have to be, yet despite all the
muddied waters and ripples that we get over, get around or get twisted in. You allowed another day of opportunities to do
and be at our best for, and with you.
May no matter what happens, me or my family never lose
grip and spin adding to the chaos. May
we, may I learn resolutions and next steps through your will alone Lord?
Knowing these past few days, weeks, months have been
heavy on so many Lord; including myself.
So many times, I have taken on things just to be busy and distracted
trying to focus my energy on things with positive outcomes.
Some have turned out beautiful, others have just added to
the almost, or piles of messes that I am already struggling to figure out.
Yet each day you let me know with random devotionals, especially
of late when under the weather a bit; just letting me to hold on, not to
quit. That you have control, and todays
issues or concerns are no different than those when we first come to know you.
You guide us through the storms and lead us to the calm
still waters. No matter how many
different ways we jump into that life raft of give and take thinking we got
this on our own. With you we are always
sustained.
Yes, the world as we have said day after day; will always
hold judgements, criticisms or even those that promise to forever be and make
this world a brighter place if you stick
with it or them. But look where things
are now.
What does the message say in today’s Biblegateway.com
bible verse; no matter what way we pull
it up the fact remains.
Christ alone is in control and judgement and justice is
His alone. Do not give up, do not let
go of even that thread of my garment you are holding. God will never let go of you or me; but if we
feel His distance we need to reevaluate where we are, and what we are doing and
run as fast as we can back to the foot of the cross acknowledging why it even
exists and stay there until Christ has made his living spirit back into and
with our own.
How easy it is to forget things will work out; but do not
lose hope. Looking at the book of JOB
who was an honest, hardworking faithful servant. That God allowed Satan to test him; and unfortunately,
JOB lost everything. Everything but his
steadfast love, faith, and hope in Christ Jesus, even while he suffered great
loss and pain.
I myself wish none of that heartache on anyone. But perhaps as we know and have seen all the
suffering the cross put on one being who did nothing wrong and God never gave
up on the world as Christ never gave up hope for brighter loving tomorrows
allowed.
JOB showed that perseverance and in the end all that
faith holding on to the one truth will bring.
Though we can speculate even in trying to understand what
really happened to JOB in the end as none of us really know what our final
ending will be until we get there. Some
speculate that like many of us in the world; He just accepted the misfortunes
and kept doing the best he could with whatever he is allowed next.
While others who
believe in Christ want to believe that although JOB lost everything; again,
like so many of us in this world. He
was rewarded greatly as a good and faithful servant by God in the end.
Interpretations of anything is left up to each individual
mind’s eye. I personally like to
believe that anyone that has gone through so much, and still has the ability to
just keep getting back up. Well it is a
true leader by example to keep pressing through no matter what comes next.
However, from my own personal experience and truthfully the
great peace that just overwhelms me at times when I am fully dedicated to
believing in everything of, with, for Christ Jesus.
I have to believe fully in the spiritual war has been
never ending, the battles within the worlds we live here and now. We get to choose what we will hold onto;
what we allow to drive us forward and even who we believe in.
I believe in Jesus Christ and everything that has been
unchanged for thousands of years. Despite
the many physical wars or even suffering at the hands of real-life dark lords
and satanic sufferings that take place in this world.
There is only one true God, and the only way to get to Him
is through Jesus Christ.
So how does this all fit in this mind maze coming out
today. Everyone of us are going through
things where we have to make choices.
Some of us are feeling the weight and are so bogged down we cannot
breathe. While others are riding freely
on the coattails and taking advantage of whatever, we can because we can.
All of us are souls that have been created in the form of
the fleshly being that vessel we walk around with. None of us are perfect!
Some of us acknowledge our talents and shine brightly
becoming highly visible and remain true to our beliefs; while others who never
really picked what they believed lose themselves becoming nothing but the image
the world says they are.
In fact, that happens be it rich or poor, black, white,
purple, yellow. You get the point.
There are givers, there are takers, there are highly
driven and motivated individuals out here int his world, and then some that cannot
or will not do a thing for themselves.
Sometimes even when driven some just do not care about
anything but their own self. While others
sometimes care too much in good and bad ways for everyone else forgetting their
own self.
Finding that balance of letting go of Me’ism, you know
that selfish ambitions but not becoming too selfless.
Well ties back to that same dash from the time we enter
this world to the time we are called to leave.
What we do matters!
Our choices every single one matter.
And truly no matter what in the results from those choices of good, bad,
or indifferent. We get to live with any
remaining time we have left.
We can remain accountable and just keep fighting forward working
harder through suffering accepting the hardships and not take it personal. Clinging with a vice grip to God and His
promises and bear hug Jesus Christ so he cannot leave you with the peace of what
fills you.
Or we can curse the land, the grounds, the choices, ourselves,
and others and just keep feeding the demons that are out there trying to rob us
from peace or life itself.
The war has already been won in the spiritual war; we
know the ending. The battle rages on
here and now within humanity and even within our own selves on any given day.
Never lay down your arms or be ready do defend that is
necessary to stay healthy and alive as long as we can in this world so full of
many opportunities.
However, lean in and not trust your own understandings,
but dive in and gain the facts and truth of what is real, what is ready to show
up, including anyone that is willing to sit, stand, lean with and by you.
Actions speak louder than words. Procrastinators truly are good intention
people, but for whatever the reason just cannot live up to the say what you
mean or mean what you say immediately as they randomly say they will.
Those that jump in the fire and take off running even
without facts, process, plans but just bits and pieces; well they too are good
intention souls.
However, they should not procrastinate but perhaps
absolutely spend more time locking in the end to end vision on even the mental
board. For the most part things work
out great and they just keep chugging along; others they end up in messes continually
swimming with the sharks and trying not to drown.
I know I have always just dove headfirst in and delt with
the many questions later that should been taken care of up front. Leaving me to sometimes swim hard and fast
recovering; others losing everything and trying to find the way to get back to
shore.
What about those that seem to have it all together;
educated, kindhearted ready and willing to share the guidance and shine a light
of hope no matter who they spiritually believe in.
Anyway, this maze seems to want to just keep putting all
the random thoughts out there and it can go in a million ways today.
However, no matter what you believe, no matter what your
going through or have been through. No
matter what I seem to need to release from this mind, heart, and fingers of mine.
The fact remains.
If you have been given a new day; if you have air in your lungs,
movement in your body, sight in your vision and hearing or a way to communicate
in your being.
Know you are blessed with a little more time to make a
difference. Dive in and know your
worth, and that no matter what your choices no matter how they turned out
matter; and what you do with today matters.
Your worth is far more than anything this world or anyone
in it can give or take.
Know your worth. It
is not what you can do for others, it is not what you get or have taken from others.
It truly is unfortunate when we are not okay, but do not
give up. Everything this world is
temporary. What once was does not
always remain. What can be are all the
possibilities waiting.
With a pure heart, clean hands, and the love deep inside
of all that Christ Jesus went to that cross to allow us here and now. Dive in and find what it takes to let go and
let God in.
Find what it takes for you to call upon the Lord and fill
your spirit with abundant peace and learn to reflect the same mercy and grace
He has, He does.
Find what it takes to be educated, and make choices for
yourself, walk the walk for yourself accept who you were truly meant to be in
the eyes of Christ.
You are worth more than any temporal, lies, promises,
actions, of this world and those in it.
It is a hard balance.
It is hard to believe in many that walk in this world. But that does not mean you have to stop
trying. It does not mean you cannot live
life even though the good times or the bad.
I pray you know your worth, you find your balance and you
lean on Christ Jesus and all the cross and the blood that runs through that
wood means and why we are even in existence.
I myself am still doing my best to learn, to fight forward,
holding onto hope and picking up whatever little pieces I have left each time I
do not guard my own heart and find broken pieces bleeding out as I continue
this journey.
Have a blessed day and week ahead. Know if you have been allowed up; there is
so much more through the hills and valleys waiting for you to see, be and
share.
Much peace in love through all you are going through.
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Date: 09/25/2020
Friday
Soul Vibes and
Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/jlB9-PsCNfs
“Why Didn’t God Stop It” @Steven Furtick
https://youtu.be/LLrk_pkSeI8
“Death Has No Power @Jeremy Camp,
Adrienne Camp
https://youtu.be/cKkbIZtqhyQ
“This Little Light Of Mine” @Listener
Kids
https://youtu.be/iRiRdWTeJ9Y
“Even When Your Running” @Casting
Crowns
https://youtu.be/XQan9L3yXjc
“Blessing” @Laura Story
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV
-New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP
-Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
1 John 2:1 (TLB)The Living Bible 2 My little children, I am telling you this so that you will stay away from sin. But if you sin, there is someone to plead for you before the Father. His name is Jesus Christ, the one who is all that is good and who pleases God completely.
1 John 2:1 (AMPC) Amplified Classic Addition 2 My little children, I write you these things so that you may not violate God’s law and sin. But if anyone should sin, we have an Advocate (One Who will intercede for us) with the Father—[it is] Jesus Christ [the all] righteous [upright, just, Who conforms to the Father’s will in every purpose, thought, and action].
Inspirational
Thoughts:
@TobyMac#SPEAKLIFE
“YOU NEVER LOOK GOOD TRYING TO MAKE SOMEONE ELSE LOOK BAD.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me to remember I am a work
in progress. Oh, how I can beat myself
up for making mistakes of any kind. Oh,
how I can point out allot, for me for anyone.
Yes, poor planning on someone else’s part is not my problem,
or poor habits and caring for things and knowing where they are is no one’s
fault but the one who has been blessed to have them.
Big or little as I am reminded this morning as a child is
melting down because they cannot find a pair of van sneakers they wanted to wear. All said in done had they been doing their
chores and putting their stuff away they would know where things are. And yes, they were right on the shelf where
they were left.
How often do we melt down and cry out and feel the pain and
sound pitiful even if not necessarily wanting pity? But sometimes we just want someone or
everyone else to do it for us, yet we put nothing into it.
Reading todays bible verse, it reminds me that clearly
through out the bible, God lets us know he will never leave us, but to get to
Him, with Him we must go through Christ Jesus. And there is nothing we can do when we are
doing our best to walk in obedience with Jesus within that He would not forgive.
I am reminded from this verse and just life and people I
am connected or read about. How often we
want God to fix us, fix things, give us everything. But we do not want to put anything into
it. We do not want to accept the fact of
how simple it is to ask Jesus into our lives and purpose forward with Him no
matter what.
Life is going to be hard regardless, there was never any
promise anywhere that we would be pain free or not have to put effort into life
itself.
Yet, we get in this spin perhaps starting out as a child, you know that baby pointing and grunting and
wanting something but not using our words.
And most times it is given to us.
As we get older, we start using our words but not necessarily
all positive or respectful; more importantly even when we are kind or in one of
those whining moments. Our actions
never kick in and we wait with a million excuses why we cannot do it for
ourselves. And later just use that
anger to direct at those that would not either do it for you, or not be able to
finish what is started for whatever the reason.
But the point is what should have been our own to manage,
we blame everyone else for. Not by
coming right out and saying its your fault but in many cases yes that too
happens.
But by just allowing the negative feelings we are carrying
and the lack of want to step up and just do it. We blame that outcome that did not work out
as we wanted on everyone else.
Be it the foul mood, negative things coming out of our mouths,
the hurtful actions or even times with extreme manipulation and hateful actions
or words.
In some cases, we have those that some how learn by not
just doing it and fighting all the way with every excuse possible. And even at times beating them-selves up or
down. They achieve
a brief result to get someone’s attention that steps in does whatever it is that
caused the drama.
Sure, it silences the moment, enables the soul who has
not stepped up for themselves and set the stage not only for them to keep
coming back every time they want something done. But also, for their behavior to become acceptable
in their own minds eye.
At what point to we learn to be grateful, and thankful for
all things and become a contributor and productive member to society, and when
did it happen so many have grown up feeling so much entitlement. That in some cases they can no longer even
think for themselves.
Just thinking out loud with this crazy mind maze.
How we can have a family raised up the exact same way and
the actions and choices all differ.
Hey, I have personal friends where three sons turned out
totally different. One is a preacher;
one is a businessman and one is in and out of jail constantly and constant bad
behavior.
And yes, all three believe in God, all have met Jesus,
but not all walk the walk daily with him
Same anywhere we look.
Knowing that just because you believe and walk with God does not mean you
are not going to stumble or make good decisions especially when you step away
from His light and purpose with that moral compass in hand every day.
It also does not mean just because you are not walking the walk. You are a bad person; however, you do set yourself up at risk for any negative opportunity to hit you hard. And when they do because they come even when you are face down.
You
cannot expect God to respond to you if you have not kept Him an active part of
your day to day.
Anyway, I am no expert, my writing is based on what I am
learning through my journey, the truth written in the bible and just day-to-day.
I am not out here judging; I just write what God lets
flow out. Trust me I could start a hundred
times get almost done and suddenly scrap it and wait and start again.
The facts remain for me and as written up above; no one
looks good trying to judge and make others look bad. No matter what the hurt, or issue.
If things are so important, why are we not doing our best
to work with God on a solution and working through with all we are first,
before reaching out with expectations or beating ourselves up when we need
something done, when we cannot find something and so on.
Yes, we cannot do it on our own. That is far from what these thoughts are
pouring out.
We must at least try to help ourselves first with true
effort, before freaking out over things.
Before we start getting angry or judgmental at everything and everyone around us; did we do
our absolute best.
And when those others have done their best for you. No matter how it turns out, be thankful for
even a slice of almost; that they genuinely cared, even if you do not see or
feel it.
If you are okay with burning bridges and truly in the end
okay knowing you will be burning totally alone.
Keep up with the negative entitlement behaviors of not even caring about
the true authentic soul that God created you to be.
However, nowhere does it ever do any good but adding more
negativity and darkness to an already dark world.
Seriously knowing we all have our bad days, with
sickness, loss and tragedy already taking its toll. So, there are those moments when we just
respond when we cannot take anymore.
However, what are we doing to lighten the load?
Do you have that relationship with God where Jesus is welcome
and living deep in your spirit and are you asking Him first and always daily
before trying to solve anything and everything yourself?
As the scripture states above Jesus is the one that
intercedes for us and with us. God will
not give us the time of day if we do not have time to believe in His sacrificial
lamb, His one and only son Christ Jesus.
Anyway, no matter how many times I falter, I will
continue to do my best and let this little light of mine shine on. No matter who gets me and who thinks I am
crazy or just does not like any thing about me at all.
I get that I have been allowed to journey and learn how
to survive and given the strength, and courage to want to dare to be different
and not give up on life. But it took
me a long time and allot of healing to get there. I will be the first to tell you my load
is far too heavy, and I am far from strong as everyone continually says.
I get the fact when I go through things, all I have is
God and that is what it is, and I am perfectly okay.
In fact I am better than okay thinking where I was in the
world years ago surrounded by those that were always there for me and totally
alone when I could no longer do what needed to be done, or I needed
something. And now filled with
abundant peace with Christ who sustains me.
Even in every mess up I make.
If nothing else works and you have not gotten back to
God, call out to Jesus now. Invite Him
in to show and lead the way.
It is between you and him. When you are finally there; start surrounding
yourself with no agenda friends that also believe in learning and walking through
the bible and allowing you to know your true worth from God and who God truly
is.
No matter what; I thank anyone that reads my crazy imperfect messed up mind maze
dumps on any given day.
It is never easy for anyone; we are going through
something. You do not have to go it alone;
Jesus is waiting.
Life is short, do not waste it. Shine bright, smile, and keep them wondering
even as you are moving on out of this world in Christ there is so much more up
ahead.
“Time is like a river.
You cannot touch the same water twice because the flow that has passed
will never pass again. Enjoy every
moment in life. @Positive Outlooks
Everything in this world is temporary. Don’t chase what should never be yours, what
you are not willing to work for yourself, or what belongs to others. Don’t waste your life on what will be gone
in the blink of an eye or fool yourself that it really is, when everything
prevents you knowing it just should not be.
Guard your heart, mind your words, know your worth, pay
it forward and always reach out to Jesus!
Thanks for reading, have a blessed and happy Friday.
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Date: 09/24/2020
Thursday
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV
-New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP
-Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
DON’T GIVE UP
Hebrews 10:35-36 (TLB) 35 Do not let this happy trust in the Lord die away, no
matter what happens. Remember your reward! 36 You
need to keep on patiently doing God’s will if you want him to do for you all
that he has promised.
.
Hebrews 10:35-36(MSG) 32-39 Remember those early days after you first saw the light? Those
were the hard times! Kicked around in public, targets of every kind of
abuse—some days it was you, other days your friends. If some friends went to
prison, you stuck by them. If some enemies broke in and seized your goods, you
let them go with a smile, knowing they couldn’t touch your real treasure.
Nothing they did bothered you, nothing set you back. So don’t throw it all away
now. You were sure of yourselves then. It’s still a sure
thing! But you need to stick it out, staying with God’s plan so you’ll be there
for the promised completion. It won’t
be long now, he’s on the way; he’ll show up most any minute. But anyone who is right with me thrives on
loyal trust; if he cuts and runs, I won’t be very happy. But we’re not quitters who lose out. Oh, no!
We’ll stay with it and survive, trusting all the way.
Hebrews 10:35-36 (AMPC) 35 Do not, therefore, fling away your fearless confidence,
for it carries a great and glorious compensation of reward.
36 For you have need of steadfast patience and endurance,
so that you may perform and fully accomplish the will of God,
and thus receive and [a]carry away [and enjoy to the full] what is promised.
Soul
Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/mBcqria2wmg “Vapor In The Wind” @Casting Crowns
https://youtu.be/BU6SnucpeIo “Defender” @Jesus Culture
https://youtu.be/i0osZfoQM0M “Keep Me In The
Moment” @Jeremy Camp
https://youtu.be/8IFoutAn9w0 “You’ve Always
Been” @Unspoken
https://youtu.be/S0LZ74fryo0 “No Other Love”
@Red Rocks Worship
https://youtu.be/TBS6w_VsnDk “Your Mistakes Don’t Define You” @Pastor
Steven Furtick
https://youtu.be/gkZaDP0xCdg “Stop Letting Your Mind Drive” @Pastor Steven Furtick
Inspirational
Thoughts:
@TobyMac#SPEAKLIFE
“YOU ARE NOT REQUIRED TO SET YOURELF ON FIRE TO KEEP OTHER PEOPLE WARM.”
Facebook Memory that I shared with friends that popped up.
Have I always been
trying to motivate others or just myself?!?
Life rarely goes according to plan as we get caught up day to day, we lose hope in what is unseen and just keep going along planning. #Don'tStopBelieving #YourNotAlone #KeepPrayingOnIt and know your life matters.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thank you for the reminders Lord, no matter what is going on.
We must not give in and allow it to consume us. Life is hard no matter what that IT is!
So hard, knowing every single soul in this world is going
through something.
Every single soul is doing what they do for reasons only you and they know, Lord.
Sometimes as we wander
in this journey, we find ourselves as just being a lift to the steps taken, a stone that gets stepped all
over, or become part of the muck that gets us all twisted and stuck for a while.
I am a bit tired this day, but nothing unusual. Different though why my sleep was disrupted last night.
First woke up when that a family member had to dial 911 and my phone alerted me it happened.
Thank you Jesus everything is okay.
But then as I tried to fall back asleep the little woke from a bad dream
and was hysterically crying until I laid with them and rubbed their back until
they fell back to sleep.
Was this all Lord proving I cannot quit yet. That no matter how weary I get those that are the most important still need me. Even if this life is not what I would have expected or planned out.
As I laid there thinking trying to g back to sleep.
Thinking at that moment when that soothing back rub and just being available to make the little feel safe; how long has it been if ever.
Then I realized at that moment just those
simple moments, to just be and have those quiet precious moments, knowing someone
is there. Not doing anything at all but
just being there. Just how much they really mean.
Thinking as that mind never turns off once it is started.
Oh how yesterday turned out to have some very unnecessary moments.
Where I hit my limit and truly just quit. Is it because I have been out on my own and making my way since 13. Even though beyond thankful that I had my siblings no matter where we were or what we were doing, or even if we got upset with one another, we knew we always have each other. Even for nothing and nothing became everything. Near or far!
I lost myself when I was told to stop being a victim; as I was truly for some stupid reason justifying why I could not be available to do something.
Never do I seek sympathy. Life just is what it is and knowing this I just reached my limit of doing my best and it never being enough.
I truly quit and was working in my head how can I move on and let everyone do for themselves. Even those family members that have no idea I have so much going on in life and this ungrateful conversation was not with family.
But I just had enough and wanted to be done. Not thinking twice until that feeling washed over me when seeing that 911 call just hoping it was not time to deal with what eventually comes.
Why did I think the worst; why would I not what else is 911 for and when it is tied to the account you mange you are impacted.
It was the point of my little beautiful heart needing me, when I realized I cannot quit on everything. Not yet!
Even though I feel I have suffocated myself with choices I have made. I have let myself down by believing in those who really do not care one way or the other if I even exist. Just as long as they can get what they need or want.
At that moment when I went to jump up and realized that 100 pound beast of a dog who thinks he is a puppy has to be up on me and I cannot move.
At that moment where cries in the night for those who at
such a young age are already being filled with dark dreams that scare and wake
them in the night needing me.
As the night progressed I beat myself up pretty good. Yes, I am my own worse critic and that wall of mine surely has just gotten ten feet taller.
No matter how much I believe the best in others or even myself. Something always happens.
Believing is not the issue.
We should all want and encourage every soul we are blessed to connect with.
Just as we should encourage them to cling to you Father God.
To not give up depending directly on you Jesus all the while we
are encouraging them to be their best, as you created all to be.
Yet who am I, but just this mare speck in a vast world, a
dust particle or vapor in the wind.
I know there are moments I truly forget my place in this
world, truly show out to not be my best self or reflection of all I have worked
so hard trying to be my authentic self; while still getting caught up in worldly
messes.
Then reacting when I just cannot close a door and walk
back to the desert, where I was deep in your presence Lord.
I know the lessons have been powerful these past couple years learning about humanity and humility, in this vast world we have that I am blessed to journey through.
More importantly learning more and more of
myself.
That feeling when you do your best, and it is not good enough for this world or some in it.
Knowing not a surprise, that Takers will always take and do everything they can to manipulate those they are taking from, rarely giving anything in return but great excuses and never showing up.
Also knowing, Givers eventually run out of anything to give. including anything they have left in them.
Oh we are such unique but predictable creatures in this world.
Never doubting there is some heart or even true caring, but when it comes down to it the mission is what must be accomplished no matter what the end result.
Truth is we can talk the talk all day long. Even for other souls filling encouragement and ideas, and referring to scripture. Yet how many takers truly seek the fruits of the spirit. Can there really be God fearing souls that beat others down with manipulation taking and taking but rarely showing up if at all?
Instead of twisting facts to gain what they were after in the first place.
This mind maze, thinking if each and every soul given life on this planet does not walk the walk, they talk themselves.
Everything just becomes silent noise and like the silent virus that we cannot see; eventually lands with those who give even one second to care.
Slamming the doors of all that could be open and closed; all that should never be that we know better but we do not, and try to help and allow it to be anyway.
Finally just allowing the weight of everything that should never be just breaking us; wearing us down, wearing us out.
As I try to make sense of these thoughts flowing this morning, not all is bad nor am I focused on just givers and takers or anything that ran through this mind.
Clearly, not ever soul that is not walking the walk or a Christ follower, is a bad person.
Just as we know not every soul who walks the walk and calls themselves Christ followers or Christians are genuinely good. Humanity like that old Forrest Gump movie; “Life is like a box of chocolates you never know what you are gonna get.”
Bottom line is we just need to keep the real in reality and absolutely know He will shake all things out at judgement day if not before.
With that and all those thoughts.
Lord, thank you for allowing me another day to try again.
To find myself
To learn to stop stepping up or being available to hear when someone calls out; unless it is those littles needing just someone to be there.
You know everything Lord, you know exactly what all that twist and spins in this maze and all that it means.
For me;
I think, just too much time, to not be in a tech booth, to not be in rotation out singing your praises.
Too
much scar tissue that has always made me fast to jump in the fire and help;
because I know what it was like to be, to feel, to have not.
Knowing none of us here and now are perfect.
No matter how we seek perfection in
everything and everyone.
Knowing lasting victory is only with you Jesus.
Everything in this world is temporary; the storms even they run out of rain.
Surely, we may have to change things, move, put things away and never revisit what breaks us.
Lord I just Pray you never
give up on me, when it takes me so long to realize things. I pray you teach me and keep me living in you in the moments given.
The lessons of lives past are valuable, and though we should never forget where we have been; we must stay in the here and now and live in the moment.
The past is gone,
and tomorrow is never promised.
No matter how much or how little, no matter what we want
or have. None of it matters in the
end.
May I never become that angry soul filled with hate for
what others say or do; to me or anyone in this world. May I always remember to hate the sin purposing to be that better person making a difference and not just adding to the spin and darkness.
May I never stop loving the soul but hate the actions and learn to always circle up and back with you Jesus.
You have always sustained me.
Through any broken relationships, dreams,
or spirits. Through the journey finding my
way back out of the dark places, the woods or even that should have never been
in the hands of others.
As I pick myself up, knowing I will never be the victim
when I allow myself to believe in people, places and things that were not meant
for me connect. That is my choice and with all choices may I learn how and what to do.
As I wipe the tears of weariness and brush the dirt seeking
your mercy right where I am. For me,
and for all who call out to you themselves. Restore us Jesus!
Life can feel and be like the scent of freshly bloomed blossoms, wafting through the air and so v very beautiful to see.
Fragrant and lifting to just inhale bringing so much promise into our spirit.
Or life can can be like an infection slowly seeping out day
by day taking just a little more until we have nothing left including life.
May we know with you; Our mistakes that we make, do not define who we truly are or what our future will be.
Not for any second, minute, day, month year given.
Any mistake that has been made by us, to us, against us; none of them define what tomorrow will and can be.
God has created us, and he is the only one that will hold us back defining what is or what is not. Unless we just do not allow ourselves that blessing, and let Jesus in. Then we are the masters of our own fate even when we just cannot see it.
So, as I am talking to myself just as much anyone else
feeling the heaviness and the spin, we allow ourselves to not understand just what it means at times, or the fact we are borderline and we must purpose in one direction or the next. There is no lukewarm, there is no playing in Satans sand box then making up later. Yes we all have to reconcile the injustices we create or have done to us.
We deserve nothing from this world, but we deserve
everything from ourselves and all that Jesus went to that cross to allow us to
live, grow and be.
I can assure my own emotions, and feelings I battle to
not feel. Are real and meaningful and
drive me over the edge any given day.
Just as yours whatever they are for you alone drive you.
Though desire sometimes get the best of me, though the
heaviness of others words, or truly I am not exempt beyond all my best
intentions to be told by those you have given your all for, and they tell you its
not enough and when you cannot do anymore they tell you to go um off.
In the moments that cut you; in the moments when a response is given; and you have told them the same.
As you are tired of defending any good intentions, and deep seeded feelings of all that could be beautiful.
Knowing serving others allows me to thrive. When the flesh takes over what the spirit works hard not to be. Yet you wake up flailing feeling like your drowning in a bad dream.
Once again, the
journey has taken that far left turn, that will never allow things to ever be
what you alone started out thinking you seen.
Reminders how mistakes happen, if we repeat them, if we allow them to continue.
They are choices.
Either way, we all must choose.
We all must choose who will ultimately be our sustainer our forever always true and pure and available.
The one true God, Son of Man Christ Jesus.
Or those that we keep hidden in
the dark corners of our lives along with the reasons we do what we do. Or allow to be done!
No matter what if we get knocked down we know getting back up is hard, holding on to purpose when we hold onto all that the world allows, gives, and takes.
Makes it near impossible.
For me knowing I will never be enough in this world if nothing at all for many.
For some just enough, and others somewhere out there
amazing. In truth all that matters for
me or you, is what we mean to the one that gave His all to allow us to
experience this journey.
Our vessels may be tattered, torn and eventually no longer even be.
However, our souls will forever
fly high either in Christ earning the wings or above the flames of that enteral
rotisserie of hell, to never escape the torments that we should have never been.
My mind maze and all those wires firing off; knowing how
much peace I have when I cling to Jesus and all that God meant by sending Him
to live, to suffer, to die for you for me and all that could be so much more
when with him..
I will never be perfect, no one will. But it does not mean I will ever stop trying to see the best in any day given or for anyone I am allowed to connect.
Even when I am steam rolled over. I will never stop trying to be my best and
always authentic self. Or so darn transparent
it makes it easy to fall short.
I will never stop or change the fact of what hurts the
most is when reality of this world slaps us hard and hurts our loved one’s or
connections. Or shows us that talk can
be expensive but meaningless, while actions and truth sometimes the hurt that
are lasting towards the promise and acknowledgement of all we choose to be.
It is what it is until it is not. Sometimes all we can do is Let it Go, Let it Hurt, Let it Heal!
For God is above, below, east, and west. Will you allow him to live within your spirit
no matter how crazy, broken, beautiful or uncertain that is to you?
It is not rocket science.
You have to do it, see it, and feel it for yourself. No one can do it for you. Wherever you are, whatever you are going
through with anyone or alone.
Make time and invite Jesus into your life and ask him to
show you the way. As He is the ultimate
way maker.
Tell Him, Scream at Him, Cry out to Him, Pray to and with Him.
But do it every day you are given.
It will never stop the pains of living in a broken world that even you contribute at times to.
But you will find greater peace when you dive in and find who God really
is and what He ultimately sees for you.
Father God, Forgive anyone who has offended me as I seek and recommend every soul seek forgiveness
from Christ Jesus alone.
May all I am connected learn to dive into Your truth Jesus?
There are so many ways available in today’s world.
May we learn to never stop loving the beings you created us to truly be. No matter who else does not.
May we learn what the fruits of the spirit are and truly mean , as we purpose daily
to be our best selves with Christ Jesus.
May blessings be abundant and we shine bright for all to find their way.
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Date: 09/23/2020 Wednesday
Bible
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New
International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified
Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
Perseverance - Character – Hope (all allow growing forward)
Romans 5:3-4 (TLB) 3 We can rejoice,
too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they are good for
us—they help us learn to be patient. 4 And patience
develops strength of character in us and helps us trust God more each time we
use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady.
Romans 5:3-4 (MSG) 3-5 There’s more to
come: We continue to shout our praise even when we’re hemmed in with troubles,
because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how
that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for
whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we’re never left
feeling shortchanged. Quite the contrary—we can’t round up enough containers to
hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit!
Romans 5:3-4 (AMPC)
Moreover [let us also be full of
joy now!] let us exult and triumph in our troubles and rejoice
in our sufferings, knowing that pressure and affliction and hardship
produce patient and unswerving endurance.
4 And endurance (fortitude) develops maturity of [a]character
(approved faith and [b]tried
integrity). And character [of this sort] produces [the habit of] [c]joyful
and confident hope of eternal salvation.
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/5Ii7KcYeEDA
“Held” @Natalie Grant
https://youtu.be/4fo0A7jpLsk
“Praise You In
This Storm” @Natalie Grant
https://youtu.be/XQBvMob3YOE
“Hold On” @Wilson
Phillips
https://youtu.be/8-vZlrBYLSU
“God Bless The
Broken Road” @Rascal Flatts
https://youtu.be/YpjteORODyA
“Better Than I
Am” @Keith Urban
https://youtu.be/Q5cPQg3oq-o
“God Only Knows” @For King &
Country
https://youtu.be/u1JBSQMkQEo
“What Faith Can
Do” @Kutless
Inspirational Thoughts: @TobyMac#SPEAKLIFE (John 13:7)
“JESUS REPLIED:
YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND NOW WHAT I AM DOING, BUT SOMEDAY YOU WILL.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord,
for this day and every day you have given me.
Thank you for allowing me to keep getting back up. Knowing it is never easy, knowing we all
have that something that makes us fall.
Fall for, fall in,
fall over! It is all the same when the
landing is soft sometimes it still hurts like crazy.
As we look around
to see what we broke this time. While
others it hits us so hard, we just cannot breathe. Wondering if we ever will get back up.
Sometimes we find
that last bit of strength, pull ourselves up stop the bleeding and prayerfully
put one step in front of the other and just keep going.
Trying to persevere
is never easy. We cannot do this life on our own, and only
God knows the real you, the real me.
Sometimes it takes years just to find our own selves. Sometimes we run from what we really do not
want to deal with. Sometimes we just
embed ourselves into the crowd we run with.
Sometimes we try
things we think we can handle, and sometimes we do, sometimes we lose ourselves
to all the lies and garbage we have been caught up in.
If I knew then,
what I know now!
Mind you I came
from the school of hard knocks. My parents
were divorced when my mother was pregnant for me. I grew up in a single parent no parent
home. And although I have a ton of
battle scars. I am thankful to know today
exactly what it means to be held but Christ Jesus himself, even long before I
ever met him.
We do not get to
choose how we come into this world, we do not get to choose what happens as
babies, children and even young adults and really sometimes even grown adults. But we always get to chose what we do with
whatever is going on with us.
So many stories
of how people have been unjustly incarcerated for the majority of their lives
for something they never did. And the
only hope they had was holding onto Jesus.
And one day they are released and have to learn how to start over. They never lose hope and persevere through
no matter what happened, happens or they know could happen.
We all have to
believe in something. God says put no
other idols before Him. People, places,
or things. And man, that can be hard
right. When it comes to loving your
spouse, your significant other, your children or family and friends.
What about when
we keep God first and love everyone but forget to love ourselves?
Yes, that happens
too!
There is no easy
balance, there will always be waves pounding down in this life we are
given. If you are not in one now, maybe
you just came out of something. Maybe
you see something up ahead and your filled with anxiety wondering what to do.
Well worry does
nothing trust me on that. Except take
from your lifespan.
Yes, we must
plan, work, and have goals how to make things happen. Always purpose to grow forward. Always work for what you want. Always be your best self for your authentic
self. Not for what others say you
should do or be.
Always remember, nothing in this world lasts
forever.
But with God and His
promise, through Christ Jesus our eternity does.
Wanting the best
of forever; whatever our earthly forever may be. That is never the issue; it is what we do to
ourselves, or allow others to do to us, or even what we do to others to get it.
If only, right?
No matter these
crazy thoughts pouring out once again.
I praise the God of all the heavens and earth for the good and the bad. For all the moments of learning something
new and the growing pains getting through, away, or beyond.
Be it swimming in
the sea of sharks or running.
Who are we today
and what change do we want to make any tomorrows we may be allowed?
Hoping for the
better that I deserve, letting go of who I use to be. You need not pour out all you are to the soul
in front of you or on the phone line.
But you need to meet Jesus right where you are every moment you are
allowed to breathe.
He alone will
never use you, never forget about you, never fill your hopes with empty promises
of what can never be. He will hold you
and never forsake you in the bright lights, or in the pits or all that we just
find ourselves.
Remain steadfast
in your course putting Him alone first and then love those you are blessed with. For whom they are and never for what they
do. Knowing what they do is just bonus
good or bad.
God created
nothing but the best in mind for every soul he allows to journey in this
world. Even if not everyone believes,
lives or we could ever get near because of what consumes them.
Darkness does not
get to win, unless we let it. If we get
knocked down or are feeling hopeless. Remember
there is nothing in this world that Christ Jesus has not already felt. Yet, He is still willing to take all your
pain, all your mistakes, all your sorrow and help you grow forward in and with
him in the light.
Invite the living
God into your being. Dive in and hold
on tight. He already knows everything
about you. There is nothing that would
ever stop him from loving you. The
question is will you love yourself enough to try everlasting and stop with temporary
fixes. No matter what that looks like!
Thank you, Jesus,
for shining the light into my being even on my days where it is far from easy
but even farther from over.
Life is what it
is until it is no more. Please allow every
soul I am connected to be their best selves through and with you. May we all do our best to SpeakLife and avoid
all that is robbing us to shine for those we lead by example even when we do
not know who is watching.
We know someone
is always watching.
Lord, heal all
that I am and all that I love. Lead us!
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Date: 09/22/2020 Tuesday
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Receive One Another
Romans 15:7 (NIV) 7 So warmly welcome
each other into the church, just as Christ has warmly welcomed you; then God
will be glorified.
Romans 15:7 (NIRV) 7 Christ has accepted
you. So accept one another in order to bring praise to God.
Romans 15:7 (ICB) 7 So warmly welcome
each other into the church, just as Christ has warmly welcomed you; then God
will be glorified.
Romans 15:7 (MSG)7-13 So reach out and welcome one another to God’s glory. Jesus did it; now you do it! Jesus, staying true to God’s purposes, reached out in a special way to the Jewish insiders so that the old ancestral promises would come true for them. As a result, the non-Jewish outsiders have been able to experience mercy and to show appreciation to God. Just think of all the Scriptures that will come true in what we do! For instance:
Then I’ll join outsiders in a hymn-sing;
I’ll sing to your name!
And this one:
Outsiders and insiders, rejoice together!
And again:
People of all nations, celebrate God!
All colors and races, give hearty praise!
And Isaiah’s word:
There’s the root of our ancestor Jesse,
breaking through the earth and growing tree tall,
Tall enough for everyone everywhere to see and take hope!
Oh! May the God of green hope fill you up with joy,
fill you up with peace, so that your believing lives, filled with the
life-giving energy of the Holy Spirit, will brim over with hope!
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/WyoVJfADlwo
“East To West” @Casting
Crowns
https://youtu.be/FNOX9fFyLQI
“Battle Belongs” @Phil Wickham
https://youtu.be/k3W_wH0rq3E
“Still Believe”
@Kim Walker-Smith |Jesus Culture
https://youtu.be/ffBG7JAvBiw
“Lead Me” @Sanctus Real
https://youtu.be/MEGGVmSSr-I
“Confidence” @Sanctus
Real
Inspirational Thoughts: @TobyMac#SPEAKLIFE
“When you finally learn that a person’s behavior has more to do with their
internal struggle than it ever did with you… you learn grace.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you for this day Lord. Come what may.
Knowing the battle, no matter what I am feeling belongs
to you!
Forgive me for my reactions and lack of trust or
know how when I become overwhelmed.
Forgive those who react and cause anything that takes away the peace you
want us all to have.
It is not about me, and I cannot make it about
them!
As I reach up to you Father, I realize I must live
like I believe it will be. Knowing the
peace, love, mercy, and grace you allow me each day. Knowing all things through you are possible.
I know you
without a shadow of doubt will seem me and mine through as it should be.
May I have the same grace and mercy for those who
show up. May I let go of just the words
and be the same person that knows actions always speak louder than words.
May I regroup, mind, body, spirit and continue to
lead by the example you will and not what my human nature tends to wander off
to.
May I always remember you are right there at all
times. With pure truth and well-being
for all who call upon you.
Lord, even though I falter often tripping over
my own feet daily. I still believe in
all that your blood which washed me clean so many years ago. I needed you then, and I need you now.
I am nothing without you and will never be to
this world. Just a pawn, in their the
great chess master’s games that are played out. So good at what they do, yet I just want to
live in love, peace, and harmony. Yet
continually keep going through that forest of curiosity, think I can which even
when I know never fully lock in to stay off the beaten path. Leaving me entangled in the worldly weeds
that I try so hard to hope and love enough to mean something in that here and
now.
Yet, in the world, just never enough even after
giving it all. With the tears washing
over knowing with you I am everything. So,
wiping the tears, taking the lessons, still I believe someday I will get it. It for what matters to you and let go of what
never will be.
You are always there with me, with us who call
upon you Father. No matter where we are in
this world. No matter who walks the
walk, not just words written or spoken.
Wanting the best for those you blessed to be from
the blood that flows from this being and all you allow me to connect and take
in.
Jesus you changed me then, change me still all
for the better of what and who reflects
your being.
Forgive me, for looking past, or thinking I can
do anything on my own. Forgive me for
being available when I should not be.
And missing it when I truly should have.
Lead me!
Lead me Father!
Give me the faith, the courage, the hope, the confidence
to make my way back on your lighted path and reflect all that you are during
this season of whatever 2020 is supposed to be.
So much loss
So much pain
So much deceit
So much unforgiven
All that leads us here in this world filling up
with unnecessary anxiety, reaching out into places we should not be, not
stepping in where we should. Dreaming
of the rolling meadows and beautiful canvas only you will allow Father
God.
Many will never care, never understand, or even make
it to decide what choice they will actually make or understand how they got on
the path they are on.
Somedays even though I know everyone of my faults. When it comes to this world, I may keep
taking the challenge trying to do my part to make it better when it comes
before me.
Those
days when I step up, but it is never enough yet I just keep trying all the
while knowing I cannot. Lord, Let my
no be no; my yes be yes and never spin in the middle
All that I am, all that I have been given, all
that I am blessed comes from you, Jesus!
You give and take away. If you
choose to allow it; be it person, place, or things. So be it.
If you choose to remove all that ever was. So be it; show me the way of
where to be next.
Thank you for all that I have been given. May all I am connected come to find the peace,
acknowledging the mercy and grace you allow every day. Even in the perfect storms that come.
Hear this heart, and all the unspoken
prayers. Hear all that call out to you
with the megaphone or just in silence.
Come Lord be with this land, show us, heal us and
wash over us making change for the new world and washing away all the hate, and
unrest.
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Date: 09/21/2020 Monday
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com) Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Future Sighted
Blessed is the one who does not
walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in
the company of mockers,
1 Blessed is the
person who obeys the law of the Lord. They don’t follow
the advice of evil people. They
don’t make a habit of doing what sinners do. They don’t join those who make fun of
the Lord and his law.
or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers,
Blessing from Paul
14 May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all. May God’s
love and the Holy Spirit’s friendship be yours.
Paul
2 Corinthians 13:14 (MSG)
14 The amazing grace of the Master, Jesus Christ, the
extravagant love of God, the intimate friendship of the Holy Spirit, be with
all of you.
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/jNFgynmVmx0
“Bleeding Out” @Imagine
Dragon
https://youtu.be/6GGFb6LcX3U
“Oceans (Where Feet May Fail” @Hillsong
United
https://youtu.be/mkObVIj-BY8
“Love Won’t Give
Up” @At Midnight | Elevation Worship
Inspirational Thoughts:
“LOVE IS NOT WHAT YOU SAY. LOVE IS
WHAT YOU DO” @TobyMac#SPEAKLIFE
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank You Jesus~
Please and Thank You!
Love covers a multitude of sins, abrasions, failures,
injuries of all kinds.
We can forgive all day long but if we do not walk
in love, during those moments of forgiveness.
What is the point?
That does not mean we condemn or condone, even if
it hurts. But we love the souls for who
they truly are in the eyes of Christ.
We find the message out of every mess; we learn
the lesson and like that old saying, Once Bitten Twice Shy.
That does not mean you will not repeat the same
mistake no matter believing in others or just doing something yourself a second
time.
In fact most of us that are driven
will continue to repeat the process in different ways to try to achieve the
ultimate goal and many times come up short and end up in messes because things just
do not work out the way we would plan.
However, like in relationships.
You can not thrive in toxic relationships.
You can choose to be in one sided relationship and always be the one stepping
in, stepping up. However eventually you
get burnt out.
We all get to choose; but we must really
weigh out the end result we are looking for.
Facts remain the same with any relationship, or
issue. We can change our Geographic's all
day long.
We can change what we do, what
we look like.
But if we do not change our behavior, and those people
and things that we find ourselves caught up in we just spin in the same
direction, in the same messes just in a different location.
But even when we do that; we need not just
quit. If we really want that end goal;
we must learn to love ourselves first.
Diving in to find out who we truly are and were created to be by the
Lord above.
To do so we must find out who God is; and to do
that we truly must build a relationship with Jesus.
That will not stop us from allowing trouble in
our lives, but it will over time show us our worth and allow our choices and
directions to be much brighter.
It will allow us, especially we seek God’s counsel
through Christ Jesus the ability to grow forward with less self-destruction or
endless chasing of things or people to fill the voids that consume our flesh.
It will allow us to learn what love really is,
and the ultimate sacrifice of love to know what it is not. Just as the different ways we can show love
without giving ourselves away that leave us scarred and broken.
There will always be the challenge when we have
desires. We all do have them for
sure. We all want that something.
But to know everything in this earth is temporary
and be taken away just as it was blessed and given in the blink of an eye.
Helps us truly know just what we are willing to
try over and over.
Some say if we are not out in the field and
playing the game to find love, we are simply scared, and we are losing out. However, when you want what is pure, what is
lasting, what is true. Not just
something to fill that gap, that desire of 5 minutes, that 15 minutes of fame.
You learn to love yourself more digging deep and
holding on with all you have. Knowing
you have had more than enough fake, temporary brokenness.
I have always purposed to be my own self, not doing
what others do because they are friends or part of anything. Sometimes the lessons and messes along the way
have caused me to dig deep just to get the next breath out. Other times I have been allowed to fly high
and remember the laughter and all that is good filling this heart.
I may over the years have really hated things I
have contributed to messes and especially messes that others helped me get
into. But never will I hate the souls
even those that broke me.
I truly just seek forgiveness and healing for
them; and protection for anyone else that may ever cross their paths.
Harm comes in all different ways, sizes, shapes,
and colors. Even those you have love and live life with or
for sometimes harm you. Sometimes by their
own choices or sometimes just by accident.
Reminded myself
loving on this beautiful puppy that was brought into my home. Most loving and affectionate animal I have
ever had. Yet when she gets playing,
she is a psycho just running and jumping and it does not matter who is in her
way.
Sitting in a recliner looking at something and
out of nowhere this girl playing tug of war with her big dog brother, she
managed to get the toy and ran like crazy.
Flying over the chair briefly in my lap unexpectedly and in the process
somehow slicing my arm open.
The shock of impact showing up out of no where
was enough to say enough is enough. But
then when I looked down and blood is running down my arm, I knew it was time to
separate them from playing and remind the owners that if we did not teach this
puppy obedience and what not to do.
She would not be able to continue living in the house.
It is too dangerous for us to continually just assume
she will do what is right as an animal.
But this is also true with our human connections.
God created every living thing. And those who we interact with; we cannot
just assume they have the same standards, or knowledge that we do. That their way of life, their way of playing,
their way of getting ahead is like ours.
We cannot
assume they have the same regard for the well being of others or what is around
them at all.
We can only love them for who they are and seek
Jesus to understand what the connection is all about.
If we don’t, we will find ourselves sometimes
bleeding out for those unseen wounds that could have been prevented if only like
a defensive driver could have avoided.
Absolutely we can never take any of our connections
and try to change them. EVER
Think about it, we can raise up our children and
give them all the direction, and even material needs to be successful, productive
happy adults in life to contribute to the world and not just take up space or
take from it.
But
because of the freedom of choice and freedom of will we all have been blessed
with. It allows them to choose what
they will do and sometimes that hurts parents and grandparents. Why because
we want the best for them and all they have for a future in the time they are
given.
It never means we love them any less. In fact, I believe even when we read about or
see families cutting family members off from ever being around them.
Does not mean they do not love them. It means the one or the other went in some
sort of self-preservation mode and just no longer want to feel pain from the
hurt they feel as the watch their loved one’s jumping directly in harm’s way.
However, I try to have a loving positive perspective
on most things even when it has nothing to do with me.
But in all reality the lessons from it, is one we
cannot force anyone to be a good, kind, productive human being and never harm
or do anything wrong. We cannot make
people getup and keep fighting forward to do for themselves and not take the
easy way out but sometimes just doing what is wrong but comes easy.
We cannot make anyone love themselves enough to
see their own worth, and we certainly cannot fix anyone.
When we find ourselves feeling hurt, we truly
should remember who died for us, what love truly means, and seek forgiveness
for the situation and prevent ourselves if we have the chance to stop the
bleeding.
If the wind is knocked out of us, or we are face
planting. Before we get up remember the
same God that created the universe, created us. Sent His only Son to die for us in love,
for love and with love and He is waiting to meet you.
As His son Christ Jesus sits at the right
side of His throne waiting to meet you and introduce you. Knowing the only way to God is through
Jesus.
With them, with Him all things are possible. Even to forgive the sinner or offender but
remembering the sin.
Let go, giving it
to God. Let it hurt, while you are
healing and pulling it back together.
With
Christ who hung, suffered, died, and came back to life so we could live. In Him, with Him Let it Heal! No storms will last forever and there will
always be a positive message in every mess and purpose even if we never
understand it.
For those that hurt you or you allowed in and
they turned out to not do or be what you
were expecting. Love them for who
they are. Even from the distance. You do not need to communicate; you
absolutely do not need to believe you can change them. You do not need to try and fix anything.
Own the choices you made, do not hold anyone else
in contempt. Our choices well meaning;
Good, bad, or indifferent it is only ourselves that can choose what we will do
next.
Sure, others and circumstances may influence
which direction we go. But always know
the real in the reality you have around you.
No matter how great or horrible it feels or even
the spin of uncertainty that turns out to be.
Find your peace in and with the Prince of
Peace. Christ Jesus.
Thank you, Lord, for all that you allow me each
day. For all I never will, for all I
have.
Your will be done in my life, in love and
protection with all my blood, my friends, my family, my connections. Be it in the vast ocean where at any moment
I could go under, may I always know you sustain all of us.
May I always know the blessings in just the
simple things or those so grand. Yet
without you, all of it is meaningless.
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A Message In The Mess
Just like that her favorite mug. A gift from her child and
daily reminders we all need to choose our own happiness.
Here it lay broken in pieces on the tile floor.
As she is covered in hot tea with the mess everywhere.
The perfect ending to a Monday. In the
world and days of so many layers.
The Monday that those you try to get through to just can’t seem to understand.
The Monday that kept you busy and now tired.
The Monday the weeds you try so hard to stay out of, just keep getting in
nearly tripping or choking the very breath out of you.
The Monday that you just do not have enough, no matter
what you do.
The Monday that the truth showed up that you always knew.
Simplicity not so simple in the world of organized chaos
Loving yourself so hard to find time,
Trying to love everyone else too much, the only way you
ever knew how.
Thankful for the same God who allows you up, allowed you through.
Even when your mood was not reflecting the Joy he
pronounced; but you allowed the weight of the world to hold you back, hold you
down.
It could be worse,
and you are just thankful despite the disruption to just go sit and sip
that tea.
Even if as you look down at your feet, that mug lies
shattered on the floor and the mess is the only thing you can see.
Twenty years back you would not be handling this so quiet or with peacefully.
So very thankful I was able to choose to respond to Jesus when
he kept calling.
Thankfully knowing not anything, anyone or even any place
can bring you that deep joy that filled those once gaps that would have made
nothing out of something.
Knowing we all get to choose, how and what to do with whatever
we got. To shine a light portraying
happiness or just misery and fight.
Thankful to know We get to choose every moment we are allowed up.
No matter who swears in love or promises anything from
below or above.
Knowing as Christ went freely to that cross. All our actions will always speak louder
than words. Because even
when people are listening, they are really not being heard.
As the mess was cleaned.
Remembering Monday, a day many never were blessed to
see.
Tomorrow will be whatever the Lord designates we get to
try again.
What we do with it is up to you or me.
Remember AlwaysMe who you are to, and for most
importantly with Christ our King!
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In fact most of us that are driven will continue to repeat the process in different ways to try to achieve the ultimate goal and many times come up short and end up in messes because things just do not work out the way we would plan.
You can not thrive in toxic relationships. You can choose to be in one sided relationship and always be the one stepping in, stepping up. However eventually you get burnt out.
We all get to choose; but we must really weigh out the end result we are looking for.
We can change what we do, what we look like.
Does not mean they do not love them. It means the one or the other went in some sort of self-preservation mode and just no longer want to feel pain from the hurt they feel as the watch their loved one’s jumping directly in harm’s way.
As His son Christ Jesus sits at the right side of His throne waiting to meet you and introduce you. Knowing the only way to God is through Jesus.
Let go, giving it to God. Let it hurt, while you are healing and pulling it back together.
With Christ who hung, suffered, died, and came back to life so we could live. In Him, with Him Let it Heal! No storms will last forever and there will always be a positive message in every mess and purpose even if we never understand it.
May I always know the blessings in just the simple things or those so grand. Yet without you, all of it is meaningless.
A Message In The Mess
Just like that her favorite mug. A gift from her child and
daily reminders we all need to choose our own happiness.
Here it lay broken in pieces on the tile floor.
As she is covered in hot tea with the mess everywhere.
The perfect ending to a Monday. In the
world and days of so many layers.
The Monday that those you try to get through to just can’t seem to understand.
The Monday that kept you busy and now tired.
The Monday the weeds you try so hard to stay out of, just keep getting in
nearly tripping or choking the very breath out of you.
The Monday that you just do not have enough, no matter
what you do.
The Monday that the truth showed up that you always knew.
Simplicity not so simple in the world of organized chaos
Loving yourself so hard to find time,
Trying to love everyone else too much, the only way you
ever knew how.
Thankful for the same God who allows you up, allowed you through.
Even when your mood was not reflecting the Joy he
pronounced; but you allowed the weight of the world to hold you back, hold you
down.
It could be worse,
and you are just thankful despite the disruption to just go sit and sip
that tea.
Even if as you look down at your feet, that mug lies
shattered on the floor and the mess is the only thing you can see.
Twenty years back you would not be handling this so quiet or with peacefully.
So very thankful I was able to choose to respond to Jesus when
he kept calling.
Thankfully knowing not anything, anyone or even any place
can bring you that deep joy that filled those once gaps that would have made
nothing out of something.
Knowing we all get to choose, how and what to do with whatever
we got. To shine a light portraying
happiness or just misery and fight.
Thankful to know We get to choose every moment we are allowed up.
No matter who swears in love or promises anything from
below or above.
Knowing as Christ went freely to that cross. All our actions will always speak louder
than words. Because even
when people are listening, they are really not being heard.
As the mess was cleaned.
Remembering Monday, a day many never were blessed to
see.
Tomorrow will be whatever the Lord designates we get to
try again.
What we do with it is up to you or me.
Remember AlwaysMe who you are to, and for most
importantly with Christ our King!
===========================
Date: 09/20/2020 Sunday
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Joel 2:23 (MSG)
The Trees Are Bearing Fruit Again
God has done great things. Fear not, wild animals! The fields and meadows are greening up. The trees are bearing fruit again: a bumper crop of fig trees and vines!
Children of Zion, celebrate! Be glad in your God. He’s giving you a teacher to train you how to live right— Teaching, like rain out of heaven, showers of words to refresh and nourish your soul, just as he used to do. And plenty of food for your body—silos full of grain, casks of wine and barrels of olive oil. Read full chapter
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