12.24.2021 December (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date:

Friday December 24^th

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

So This Is Christmas @ John Lennon

The Spirit of Christmas (Full Song) - Kurt Russell, Darlene Love | The Christmas Chronicles 2

This Is Christmas - Kutless

Pentatonix - Mary, Did You Know?

Jeremy Camp - You See Me

"Crowder" Christmas Special live from Mary Todd Hairdressing Co. Atlanta GA

Fresh Wind (Official Lyric Video) - Hillsong Worship

Bethel Music GATHERING | Franklin, TN

TobyMac - Everything

Mandisa - It's Christmas

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Thank you, God, for allowing it all!    The want of humanity, the gift of life, the beautiful souls.  Every single one of them that share their gifts, time and talents breathing your word, your life into others.  

Thank you for allowing me this new day to get back up and choose to live whatever way I take off running.

  Thank you for all the blessings that one single moment can be.  Thank you for the Sarah Youngs, and all those who have your great wisdom and peace deep inside and share it out to those who want so much more in life. 

Thank you for choosing me and my family the passage of knowing the difference and giving us courage and strength to get back up.

Thank you for the humility that I would have never ever known choices without the tests of time or the testimony and gift of will in choosing to go right or left.

We all get to choose Father; yet it is so difficult for us to let go of the crutches and excuses in life that make it easier to just roll with that the world considers normal at any time.    So easy to just be mad, hate or even seek others to feel what we at times feel ourselves.   Or even justify what we chase to fill the gaping void that only you fill up.

If there were one wish to really come true; it would be for every living soul to feel you and want to be still and absorb the blessings as they breathe you in and look around and then take off running to shine bright for whatever future is left on this planet.

Be it the plague of centuries ago; or the pandemic of Covid19 or even Spanish flu.  Jesus remove the scales from the eyes of your creation and pour your spirit and deep desire into all your creation.

May it not just be me or this one or that one.  But the world needs to see you and needs to drink your cup now.     Commercialized Christmas, commercialized Christians is not what we need.  We need no more stuff or empty promises that allow selfishness to rob the many from life itself.  

Pour your great cup of hope into all who have lost everything, including themselves.   Fill us; overflowing with all that shines brightness.

It is no secret this world is a mess and humanity is far from humane in so many places.   Every second someone is losing the battle to darkness and evil.   Innocence has been violated in so many ways at so many levels.   Jesus, I love you and all that is written and said of your goodness.  Come shine bright bigger than any vast star that is the many you have placed.  

I can tell every story to every scar or brick layered up but Jesus it is you that have never stopped breathing life into this being.

Breathe on all I have and will forever be thankful to connect.     In the times of sorrow and loss, may we always give thanks for the seconds of living we were given up until then.

May the truth always show forth.

Everything is so different, yet so much the same.    With the one truth that we all still get to choose every moment we are allowed back up.

Forgiveness Jesus!

Thank you for believing in your creation and thank you for forgiveness and healing.   Please be with all who have not found the words to speak yet.   Hear their hearts and purify their souls.  Reveal your abundant love, mercy, and grace within them.

As we find ourselves face down be it by face planting over our own decisions or lack of slowing down and just tripping up.   Or just knowing we are not worthy to breathe you in.  Yet we bow down in spirit.    Thank you for allowing us to get back up in and with you.

I need you now more than ever before.   This year and couple for that matter has been so hard for me, for everyone.    So many losses in the past, right up to just the other day.   So many tears washing through this earth of brokenness and lack of understanding as to why.    Jesus, reveal your love and comfort even in the darkness. 

I cannot speak for anyone but myself.  Although I do often in my day-to-day career, family or just gift of being connected.   Yet, no matter what it is that I speak.  May it always be pleasing and lead back to you.   But when it is not; Father forgive me.  Reveal in all that I am, all that I will be and all that I am given the depths of your love from the outside in and guard all that is within for your purpose and not my own.

On this day and any others, you grant this universe. May we always know you are with us even when we cannot see any signs of goodness.   May we be the light when the darkness consumes everything we are.   May we always acknowledge the gift of life even if or when it is not what we planned.  

Heal us Father.

Never stop your work in me.

Thank you for then, thank you for now and thank you for any possible tomorrows.  

Though I am nothing to this world.  I am everything you allow me to be.

May the world see your light and find themselves in and with you.  For all that is good may the beauty in everything reveal the beauty of every soul breathing.

 

Meditation Opportunities coming from Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young) 

“I speak to you from the depths of eternity.  Before the world was formed.  I Am!  You hear Me in the depths of your being, where I have taken up residence.  I Am Christ in You, the hope of Glory.  I, your Lord and Savior, am alive within you.  Learn to tune in to My living Prescence by seeking Me in silence. 

As you celebrate the wonder of My birth in Bethlehem, celebrate also your rebirth into eternal life.  This everlasting gift was the sole purpose of My entering your sin-stained world.  Receive My gift with awe and humility.  Take time to explore the vast dimensions of My Love.  Allow thankfulness to flow freely from your heart in response to MY glorious gift.  Let My Peace rule in your heart, and be thankful.”

Psalm 90:2 AMP

Before the mountains were brought forth or ever You had formed and given birth to the earth and the world, even from everlasting to everlasting You are God.

 Colossians 1:27

To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of  this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.

 John 3:3

In reply Jesus declared, “I tell the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again.”

Colossians 3:15

Let the peace of Christ rule your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace.  And be thankful.

  

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

Luke 2:16-20 (NIV) New International Version

¹⁶ So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. ¹⁷ When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, ¹⁸ and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. ¹⁹ But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. ²⁰ The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.

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12.22.2021 December (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date:

Tuesday December 22^nd

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

Luke 2:8-11 (NIV) New International Version

⁸ And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. ⁹ An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. ¹⁰ But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. ¹¹ Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord.

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Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

MercyMe - Even If - (with lyrics) (2017)

Micah Tyler - Even Then

Set A Fire - Jesus Culture

CityAlight - Yet Not I But Through Christ In Me

for King & Country - Priceless

Spirit Lead Me (Official Video) - Influence Music & Michael Ketterer

God Turn It Around (feat. Jon Reddick) | Church of the City

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Busy week keeping up with everyone going on holiday break and cramming to learn what are all the dots and where do they need to be connected or just closed out.    Blessed beyond measure to have so much to allow me new things to learn, no productivity paths and just in general being well and employed.

Tomorrow is never promised.   Ever!

Not knowing what happened on Thanksgiving when I had that first time ever episode and just knowing everything has changed for everyone including me.    Staying focused on being the best good human I possibly can while learning and growing.  And staying healthy!

I am and always have been blessed even in my worst times.  

Reminded how many variations of boundaries there are or should be in life.   Including when it comes to matters of the heart and how to keep it well clear of choices you make in life.     You can care, you can live, you can love, you can be and do anything.   Just do not make significant choices with your heart.   It always leaves you high and dry.

Weigh out the options and know exactly what it will feel like if it turns out totally unexpected and wrong or if you really are ready if you’re leaning to everything being right.   Especially life choices.

 

I do not know about anyone else, but this has been a valuable lesson I have been learning my entire existence and even though I have been pretty smart over the years I still have learned much when it comes to making choices based on feelings and not actual facts.

The one this I know absolutely is God will never leave me high and dry even if some of my results turned out that way.    If it has been a choice that has been well thought out and prayed upon and it still keeps coming back.   There is purpose for why it was or will be.

 

I try to never have regrets about my choices in life.  Always trying to grow from them no matter if they take me North, South, East, or West.  Good, bad, or indifferent.   Everything happens for a reason.  Even If, Even When, Even Then, Even Now!

Life is what it is until it is not and so many too young not even really knowing what life offers are taken out so early.    

If we allow regret or choices of the heart to rule us, we might as well crawl up in some hole and just quit.    I want more.  More of what God through His son Jesus gives, more of life, more of everything until it’s time to go.

Now this may make me look like an easy target to be played out as I often do believe everything everyone tells me until I am rudely awaken and proven differently.  However, I owe no one a thing nor does anyone owe me.

 

If I have given anything in some sort of help that was once going to be paid back or it would have some meaning for me to see the end result truly prospered them in life.   Well, it is what it is and if there is any regret it is not on my part.    I have learned many a valuable lesson in this life.   I am who I am and always will be just me.  All the while those are who they are and will need to address their own in the end.

 

Life is priceless and we are all created in the image of God.   Our cells glued together by Lamin and shaped with the heart of Jesus glued together by the cross of the father.  Getting hung up on mistakes only robs us from opportunities to grow forward.

Even if you never tell the souls that hurt, harmed, or done anything to or against you.  Forgive them yourself and leave it all behind and just keep growing while life is breathed daily into the lungs you have to exhale with.   Not everyone gets that opportunity to get it, figure it out or even a glimpse of what its life could be.  As they are so strangled by the day-to-day hardships and just keep digging deeper trying to make things better without Jesus to lead them.  Them, me its all the same when it comes to eternal peace and love that really matter.   That which is allowed deep in your soul never forgotten.  Used over and over again to get back up and look past the walls or least of these that so many are chastised for being.

I am forever grateful for the ability to have almost or loved and lost whereas so many will never know what love is at all.

I am forever aware the spirit of Jesus will lead me as long as I forever call upon him every moment I am allowed back up.

Purpose in the pain, as growth comes after the storms and rains.   Thank you, Jesus!   I am far from perfect, but I know you are.  

As this year is wrapping out fast and the layers are thick and heavy.   I know you are carrying me and all of it!

Thank you for loving me enough to have been worthy enough to be chosen to come in this universe.  Worthy enough to be chosen by some that felt the need to have any piece of me.   Worthy enough to be given life each new day you allow me back up.

 

Thank you for allowing me to love them!    From the depths of our souls that shine those illuminating lights that give us reason to want or desire.   That light that feeds the soul even when it is so impossible to ever explain.    Thank you for it all.    Love those who are not so lovable.  Love those who are lost.  Love those who need you now.    Turn lives and this world around Jesus.  For me, for all I am connected.   Come shine bright and show your beauty!

 

12.21.2021 December (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date:

Tuesday December 21st

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

Luke 2:6-7 (NIV) New International Version

⁶ While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, ⁷ and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Well as I sip on this very satisfying hot cocoa and think how time keeps marching on.  Even when we have another soul leave this planet this morning.   Realizing just how sensitive this season of you Jesus really is.   I don’t know where Sheila’s soul will end up.  But I do pray she finally found peace after a two-year battle with pancreatic cancer.

  I pray for my son and daughter-in-law as she has lost a piece of her own never to be replaced or forgotten.  Thinking back yesterday on Cathy leaving this place 9 years now or is it ten?  I don’t know anymore.  It seems so many are just out of here due to so much misfortunate sufferings or just unexpected tribulations that come to be for the world we live.

If I could have one wish, I would wish that families really stayed and worked through issues and families stayed together.  That we all know it is okay to agree to disagree and even get upset briefly to make our point when others are so hardheaded and do not want to see or hear anything past their own beliefs.  

That parents never left, and that parent did everything in their power to protect the babies they are blessed with.    That if you don’t want children take precautions before you are procreating and if you are in a situation, you have a huge, loving valuable support system in place to help you keep growing forward.   Because situations come and go; life is what it is.  Until it is no longer.

But coming from a family on my mother’s side with a whole clan then another clan on who I thought my father was.   And growing up so alone, if one thing has ever been given to me.   I learned how to keep picking up the pieces and taking the steps even in the wrong direction for myself when the naysayers or those who only wanted what sufficed them for the moment they were thinking.     No pity here at all.   I became a strong independent woman that yes could have done better with some things and did outstanding with others.   Most importantly, I landed right where I was supposed to be; no matter what I felt on any given day.   Any scars along this journey be it physical, emotional or to that heart are warrior strips that Jesus helps me relate through.  Knowing nothing will ever cut as deep as what he suffered, and he still took that deep breath in and made the world know who he was and why he was.    So, we; you, me and every other living being in this planet could choose to fight forward the best way they know how or let go and let the world consume them.

Miss Sheila fought hard to deny the passage out to the other side.   The last year was hard but the last two weeks was hardest of all that she had to give up her spirit and except what was coming.   It was hard for her kids that had to make her understand and get things in order for when today came.

I wish no one the new normal that comes with those we love leaving slowly or suddenly.    I pray hard that everyone let’s go of the little things that keep thorns twisting and keeps families apart.   And reconciliation just to rest our very own spirits that end up in turmoil for what is or is not said or done.

Jesus

May this year that is going out with such impact to so many, start fresh and new for all I am connected.  With every soul finding your peace, your gift of life and their very own purpose and why in you…

I cannot say I wish it would all just stop as there is purpose through the pain.  But I so wish whatever we have left we make the most in love and kindness for all we are blessed to connect.  Be it for a blessing or lesson.

I pray those vulnerable to the inequities of moral humanity are protected and that every single thing is used for the benefit of growth forward.

That the corrupt governments fall, the corruption and gangs and mass torment evaporate within their very own furnace of evil that transcribes so much pain and anguish.  I pray that entitlement vanquishes, and every living soul learns to work for what they need, share what they got and even when it is not enough in the nothingness.  They find you Jesus and have everything.    Maybe those who once told me I was a fool and dreamer are right.  Maybe this fairytale of prayers and wishes for the world to practice more kindness, and lean in and help those in need and others lean in and help and love us when it is our turn.   Without demands, without expectations.    Maybe just wanting the season of Jesus to be every day and not just during so called holidays where people are supposed to take time off and rest and appreciate.  While they are more frazzled then ever chasing what they can buy and give to those who only appreciate for the five minutes its in front of them. 

No matter what happens I so wish peace and comfort and real everlasting love.   For my own bloodline and bone of my bone.   But also, every connection I have been given.   Good, bad or indifferent.

No fake impersonators thinking they are getting something for free by telling a lie here and there and playing out on people’s kindness.   We all pay up.  We pay now or we pay later for the journey steps we choose to take.  Be it we are leading, or we are following.    We all get the truth in the end. And that is no one leaves here alive and suffering well who you have holding you during the process in the end really matters.   Our choices to redeem our souls and know where we will end up is between each individual and Jesus Christ himself and Father God.   We cannot get to God without going through Jesus.  And just calling him up when you need or want something doesn’t work.   You may be flying high right now and thinking things won’t change.   But it does, it will and it's just a matter of when.    The question is will you make peace with your maker before it's too late.  Will you meet Jesus daily right where you are while you are still given the freedom of will and choice?   Or will you allow time to make it for you in the end.    You cannot plead your case at the gates.   We will all bow down when we get there.  But if you have denied the truth up through your exit.   You will not have a choice and your soul will not have the love and harmony Jesus died so you could live.    Doing it now gives us a firsthand glimpse into so much we cannot explain or deserve.  But allows us to know it's all going to be alright even in the suffering.

 

Father we all just need to breathe in you and find the shelter you alone give.   No matter how well we know you or not.   I can only imagine, fighting forward every day what, why or how and give thanks daily as you allow me back up.   Knowing someday I too will meet you face to face.  No matter how farfetched or true it is when that day comes for each of us.  It will be far to late to do what is right here and now for those we are given.

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

Be Alright (LIVE) - Evan Craft, Redimi2, Danny Gokey

NEEDTOBREATHE: Go Tell It On The Mountain

Brother (feat. Gavin DeGraw) - NEEDTOBREATHE

Third Day - Make Your Move

Third Day-Lift up your face

MercyMe - I Can Only Imagine (The Movie Session - Official Music Video)

12.20.2021 December (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

***Music, and/or daily scripture, verses, motivational shares pulled from public domains, and made available for public consumption from public domains such as YouTube and/or BibleGateway, unless otherwise called out work of other Copywrites, Creators, Influences, Artists or Authors. ***     Per Google.com online findings:    BibleGateway.com  is a searchable online Bible in more than 200 versions and 70 languages that you can freely read, research, and reference anywhere. And YouTube.com is a video sharing service that allows users to watch videos posted by other users and upload videos of their own.

Date:

Monday December 20^th

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

Luke 2:1, 4-5 (NIV) New International Version

The Birth of Jesus

2 In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world.

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

TobyMac, Ledger - The Elements (Neon Feather Remix/Audio)

Lauren Daigle ~ Look Up Child

I will trust in you by Lauren Daigle

Good Grace (Live) - Hillsong UNITED

Ryan Stevenson - Take Me Back

Ever Be (Official Lyric Video) - kalley | We Will Not Be Shaken

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Reminded it is not the amount of people you have in your so-called corner that changes often in life.  It is the ones who are there and the reason they are there.   Those that will always tell you when they need to and not direct any messages through anyone else.  Those that will love you for you, you, no matter what your choices.   Yes, even those that at times carry you more than you can carry yourself and only want to see your wellbeing in the end.  So, while you are out here doing life in this hard cold world.  Remember everyone is going through something and there is much misery that just wants anyone’s company that they can get attention from.   Good, bad, or indifferent.

 

Your choices are your own.  Just remember who you are! Do not lose yourself chasing things to take you places that won’t last.   That does not mean do not have a life or relationships.  But it absolutely means you had better be aligning what God has blessed deep within you for the future and best opportunities for you because it is what you want and your ready to fight forward by hard work, learning and most of all giving back.

It does not matter what success you have or do not have.    Find the selfless in you and share knowledge, share time, share encouragement, share love just by caring even from a distance.

Nothing on this planet is really yours or mine anyway.   Everything we have is on loan.  And if we cannot do good things with the little things; we darn sure do not deserve the big things.

 

That goes for people and relationships as well.

We cannot ignore and show up when it is convenient for ourselves and expect things to be in our favor when we final realize we are doing that or in real need and not just because we can.

It is hard when we grow up in the fire.   Not everyone is that silver spoon or mommy and daddy at home that actually live and love on the blessings they were given as well as anyone they connect.

Most people have dysfunction in their family lines.     Most times especially now days what was once normal has become dysfunction and all that holds no respect, loyalty, or moral values is playing out to be what the new norm is supposed to be.

Now I am not perfect.   And absolutely not judging.   However, I want the best for all my family and friends, and I pray they are guided and protected using a really bright light shining that moral compass as they walk, run, skip, dance or even troll in life.

What I do get upset about is when I watch relationships crumble or families constantly struggle because they do not know how to get through it and love each other for who they are and not what they do or didn’t do.  Even more so when people go off on another member be it friend, family or any connection and they throw my name in the mix like they know what I am thinking, saying or really why I do what I do.

Wanting the best for all the young adults in this pandemic never to be normal again, I think.  Wishing hope and good vibes for them all do great things.  Yet watching them fight through their own choices and others just speaking up a little too late.  So, they pull me into the mix because I have always been there. 

 

I can assure you if I want to say something I will.   Unless you are a child and within my day-to-day reach and I can make a difference.

I know my faults and that I enabled my own children trying to make up for what I never had.    I know I have been beyond blessed with children and grandchildren, and so many that call me mom just because.

Because I love people for who they are and just because I continue to work diving in deep and challenging a career and constantly giving, doing and being.    I do not expect anyone to be me.  But I do demand respect, and an occasional check in to let me know you are still doing okay.

Again, in this messed up, mixed up, jacked up world!   That seems to be harder and harder as the darkness overshadows so many and they are fighting to just survive.

My heart hurts right now for some of my family going through it.   For a world that is fighting more and more and taking other lives for all that is temporal all the while anything we know or physically touch can be swept away in split seconds.   Including our lovers, friends, spouses, babies, sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles, friends, pets.    

Just like we, they never existed in the first place.

While the single parent starving while working two jobs trying to be the best parent, they can be fight all the elements.   The other parents passed out on the side of the road with a needle in their arms and babies in the car seat behind them are forever destroyed.

As that grandmother or grandfather works three and four jobs just to make sure they have enough while they give to those they will never come to know, and evil takes all the goodness they shined because of greed, gangs and things they will never really know why but just do.     

 

Where are you now Jesus?!?

As I have been just consumed taking on this new job myself and doing what I do and trying to make sense.  Perhaps these things come to the top of the mind maze Siv this evening know today was 9 years ago where my best friend and sister left this earth.     When we could raise hell and make fools of ourselves or just do family and make amends and find our way forward and always know we could talk about everything and  anything.   Thinking about my brother that big 6.plus dude that just crumbled when she took her last breath and how he cursed and said how he hated you God.   And the years after that almost killed him as well and now, he finally is coming back although the damage has been done.

But we all know who you are!   Not just because I have always been the wandering frontiers women that chase all that is good and filled with promise, hope, and shines bright for anyone who needs to see how to just put one foot in front of the other.    But because we all come to terms with the truth before we leave this place.   Prayerfully far in advance of the time we go.  And prayerfully willing to give whatever is left back to you Jesus!

Yet we know by the demons that haunt this land the numbers are fleeting that call upon you Father.

Even I although I believe deeply you are the very air in the lungs I have been given.    Still get caught up in what is here and now and not the eternal aspect.

Running weary for years and these hands, this mind.  You know all things Christ.   The blank pages out here are filled with so much of what is, and even more what will be.   Coming up on this season where we are so commercialized and now even that has lost its meaning with so many broken, broke, out of work, on the streets and God only knows what.

I thought watching dear friends losing their children to drug overdose and addictions or hearing about babies being taken and harmed was horrible.   Yet knowing its 100 times worse in this vast land that is crumbling within its infrastructure spiritually and humanely.

Jesus, shine bright for us please?  Shine within us and lead us to the father.

Purify me Lord to let go of what is not meant to be; direct me through the flames and allow me to never once miss what you call to be.  Most importantly show me how to know the difference.   Show me how to shine for others and shake off this discouragement of loneliness, brokenness, humility, hurting and broken loved one’s and even my own fight to not go under some days.

I need you more now today than ever before.   Nothing will ever change that; just sometimes I can’t breathe so I cannot release it.   No different than anyone else clinging to those threads of who you are.

Take us/me back Lord to where you had me at the sound of your name.   Blocking out all that was surrounding with so much noise and maybe even dangerous situations.  Yet you were there, and I knew you are and were the way and nothing could feed what only you consumed this soul with.

Restore me in you Jesus and if gifts of life are to be connected along the way make it so.   If not show me where I need to be.    All that I have all that I am is because of you.  I can ask for healing for all I know, I can ask for protection, I can ask for great things that make others want, chatter, or even do bad things trying to get it.

Lord I just want all the love that you are to give and to be given back.

These pieces of me that poured out for years and years came back to life with ambitions to finally get that manuscript out there and I know it will, as I waited so long trying to figure out what the ending will be.    Until that one day it was the pieces of me that direct everything back to you that has no beginning and will never have an end.    You always were and eternally will be.

So as these up-and-coming moments called life are given keep me accountable Lord.    As nothing will ever break and hurt as hard and long as you did for someone like me to know who you are.

Because of this no matter what could be, the truth is we cannot change what you have blessed to ever be. 

Through all the memories of any love or loved one lost.  Through any pain that we just do not understand the purpose.  Everything will always be alright as you hold this universe and what will be will.

Please Lord protect the children and all those young adults so vulnerable to what this world has spinning.

Hear the silent cries Jesus of those who are trying and just do not know where to turn.   Protect and heal our choices.   Call those you have chosen to shine brighter now than ever before.  Including myself.

But if you don’t; thank you for then, thank you for now. Thank you for what will be~