12.06-2023 December_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

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Wednesday, December 6, 2023

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 John 10:14-15  MSG

^14-18 “I am the Good Shepherd. I know my own sheep and my own sheep know me. In the same way, the Father knows me and I know the Father. I put the sheep before myself, sacrificing myself if necessary. You need to know that I have other sheep in addition to those in this pen. I need to gather and bring them, too. They’ll also recognize my voice. Then it will be one flock, one Shepherd. This is why the Father loves me: because I freely lay down my life. And so I am free to take it up again. No one takes it from me. I lay it down of my own free will. I have the right to lay it down; I also have the right to take it up again. I received this authority personally from my Father.”

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 John 10:14-15 ICB

¹⁴ “I am the good shepherd. I know my sheep, and my sheep know me, ¹⁵ just as the Father knows me, and I know the Father. I give my life for the sheep. 

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Oh sweet November where did you go?   Time is fleeting so quickly and to think one day or many how we will sit and complain about boredom and that the day is not moving fast enough.     By the way that was an awesome love story movie if you have not seen it.    Older but absolutely heartwarming.

I can assure you getting up at 2 am and thinking about writing has been on the top of the list lately as I pander why the heck am I awake at that time.    Knowing I start work at 630 I put my devotions back on or music and fall back to sleep and then get up cramming to get things done for end of year.

I am not sure when I had a week long solid comfortable 8 hours a night.    I know I could lock my animals out lock the doors and not let anyone in the house wake me.    But even then God always has something to say and hopefully I retain at least the better portion of what that is on any given time of solitude and rest.

Thank you Jesus for allowing me to know when to rest in you and the ability to know freedom of choice is that of our own based on the gifts you have given every living being.

As I come back to you each and every moment given; even when it hurts; or even when I am feeling overwhelmed, out of sorts and just not making my plans and exhuasted when I hear one more plan being made for me.

Yes beyond blessed to have family that is in need; and know how much more it would be if I could see them genuinely rise with you and not need so much of what does not matter.    Balance; well not everyone knows when to hold on and when to let go and some are really good at playing it out.   Beyond it all I love you Lord more than I know what to do with.   Without physical eye seeing tangible physical reason.    But from the depths of this soul that I can never fully explain how, or truly why in the terms of this world.

As I remind myself on the days I feel sometimes alignated. And Wonder why I cannot have it all, as I then remember my all is like a yoyo changing daily of what I would tolerate or  what I really want from another.   And the facts remain I want nothing and well I love everyone but I have an issue with expectations giving or taking.    Thus what a perfect time to work on a study about trust.   Anyway I just got another call so for now I need to step away again

Well then, yes I did start this mind dump Tuesday evening as I was cooking a nice chicken roast in the oven.   Before I had to stop everything and run out briefly to resolve some minor issues.

Made it back home safely and well the roast is done I will be having it today for lunch/early dinner.

Why did I stop, drop and run.    Because time is fleeting and when those you love need something and never knowing when the last time God will allow us to just be there.   I choose to love them where they are when I can.     Sure it can be overwhelming at times when we desire to do more for others yet responsibility keeps the clear lines laid around us.    But I guess that is just part of the process and the blessing is to know the difference of and blessing of freedom of choice.

And let’s face it; we never really know until we try.    No matter what be it right or wrong or the greatest venture ever or the worse thing ever experienced.   When God allows us to look behind us for that brief glimpse it is never to wallow in any sorrows or boost in any triumphs.    But to acknowledge Jesus thank you for allowing me to see and more importantly thank you for being with me and even carrying me to the otherside.

The best thing I could have every learned in this life is it is not about me.  And despite any attempt I try to  make it about you.   The picture is far bigger than I will ever be worthy to have words to describe.

Sure in this life the more you have the more doors open it seems.   But we cannot take any of it but what is in our souls if we still have one at the time we find the exit door.

Those exits have proven to cripple even the goliath’s of modern day.   Who would of ever thought in the twentyith century we would be watching the massacre and hate in a holy war that started centuries before any of our legacy or life lines were ever walking this earth.

Jesus then, Jesus now!  The beginning and the end.  Do you have a relationship with Him personally and not just what you read or have others tell you.

God help us!

Help me for all the inadaqucies I have come to life may it always be enough for you and lead me through your will.

For all I have ever connected

For all yet to come

Good, bad or so misunderstood and indifferent.    Come wake us up Jesus, guiding and protecting your children, your people.      Though you know the reasons of ever season good or bad.    Help us find life through you.   Spirit lead us not on feelings,  not on reaction.  But through pure ambition of all that is good, all that is true, all that reflects your love and your light.

Thank you for all the moments you allow us to just exhale and reminders its okay to just breathe in all the unknowns.    Father Perfection takes time and only you are the author of all that was and is to come.

Though I may never know if tomorrow will come.  Trusting in you Jesus is the most incrediable blessing I have ever been given.   May all I know find your peace and love.

 

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Sweet November ENYA- ONLY TIME

Somebody That I Used To Know - Pentatonix (Gotye cover)

 Jordan Kauflin & Matt Merker - Come to Jesus (Rest in Him)

Goodness of God-Cece Winans Lyrics

Kutless - "Carry Me To The Cross" (Official Lyric Slide)

Unspoken - God Help Me (Official Music Video)

Terrian - Give It Time (Lyrics)

Spirit Lead Me (Official Video) - Influence Music & Michael Ketterer

 

11-24-2023 November_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

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Friday, November 24, 2023

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 Colossians 2:6-7  MSG

From the Shadows to the Substance

^6-7 My counsel for you is simple and straightforward: Just go ahead with what you’ve been given. You received Christ Jesus, the Master; now live him. You’re deeply rooted in him. You’re well constructed upon him. You know your way around the faith. Now do what you’ve been taught. School’s out; quit studying the subject and start living it! And let your living spill over into thanksgiving.

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 Colossians 2:6-7  ICB

Continue to Live in Christ

⁶ As you received Christ Jesus the Lord, so continue to live in him. ⁷ Keep your roots deep in him and have your lives built on him. Be strong in the faith, just as you were taught. And always be thankful.

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Weary Traveler in this universe spinning around us, within us.  As we hold tight yet free fall so often into the abyss of what is, what was and oh the so many what ifs.     You were given a new day.  If he has allowed you back up and you are even just opening your eyes no matter where, or when.    You are not alone.

 

So many of us this ride and sometimes forgetting to keep our hands, feet and hearts inside the vehicle.     Due to our own choices and sometimes collateral damage for loving too many distractions or even just believing and others being who they are.

Jesus loved too much; if you look around this world, I am absolutely sure He did not die so we could live to die.   He did not teach hate, hurt or deception.   He did everything He could including going to that cross knowing how broken and imperfect our intentions will be in a fallen world.

He died to allow his strength, courage, wisdom and beyond all truth of the Father could live in us and through us if we choose.

Boundaries is a must.   Take it from the girl who graduated with honors from the school of hard knocks.    Trust, funny I am doing a study on this new release right now by Dr. Henry Cloud with my current CA team.    Me, well I trust too fast, too much until I am proven I forgot my boundaries.   And that is even without expectations.   Hmmm, thinking of this now maybe its not a trust issue, but forgetting boundaries.

What can say is yes, we are all creatures of our and the circumstances we are surrounded by.      Trust, well it makes life or takes life.  In either case life is what we make it.   And with this the trigger for so many when they lean in forward or withdraw.    Or even just spin their own game on how they will get what they think what they want or need until the next thought crosses their mind.

 

Sometimes we need release the personal me! In all the situations we get entangled with so that we can release the  hurts we feel, or even cause and dig deep.    Speak up, speak out.  Calling on the name of all Jesus was, is and forever will be.     Sometimes we need a mediator to help us through.   All the time we need the love and blessing of God to be the light and reason of change.    Finding those boundaries will never be easy and never just come it is something we have to purpose for every breath of every day given.

Love people for who they are and not what they do.  Gosh, you may hate what they do but pray for them in a way you would want the best for yourself.

Yesterday was another gift of the Thanksgiving Holiday when we should be thankful every day we are allowed back up.    This year is so different.  As noted, we have our mother back local with us again, but gone are some valuable pieces that had to leave before we were ready.  

It hurts yet it has taught me how thankful I am for all who have come and gone with me, through me, for me or against me on this journey I am given.   Alongside me or hiding in the shadows.    Not everyone is meant to stay till our end.    Each one of us have our own ticket for the ride we are on in life with destinations unknown or meant only for us.

I am thankful for every connection I have ever been given.   The good, the bad, the almost ending me, or the hope in such beautiful beginnings I am allowed. 

So very blessed for all the parts we share along this ride.

Trust, Boundaries may be a part of we need to really hold on or survive.   But I have been beyond blessed with the laughter, the tears and everything in-between along this ride of small and grand opportunities each new day Jesus has given me, that I am allowed back up to do it again.

Blessed with laughter, tears and everything along the way and beyond, grateful for the big and small opportunities I am allowed back up to do it again.

 

We may not have any happiness on any given day we are allowed back up, but we do have the choice to be grateful for anything we are given to grow, learn and plan forward.  Planting seeds of hope, light and using the journey we are given to share the messes that turned into messages on how to get to the other side.  Or share the beauty in the ashes with the truth and reminder we are made from the very same dust that Jesus blood poured down that cross and fed the earth into life we were born.     Born for so much more then what the me’ism do in us, to us or against us.

 

I joke at times trying to make work, life, and unbalance work for me.  And thankfully I can laugh at myself.   When I do it makes it so much more than we will ever truly grasp even in the piles of rubble we see crashing all around.

 

I can assure you that even though we all may be invisible or feel such at times and some more than others.    Or the choices we make because we are so caught up, we forget who we were created by or what it truly means.   (it’s not about me) when we finally get that.   Like an epiphany and the lights shine bright.   And although it is very hard not to take things personal or get caught up in this crazy world.   Knowing when to hold on or when to let go.    Never an easy task.  Even the best of the best never get it right.  Although they will seldom publicly admit it.    As they would rather try to hide the demons that eventually consume them.

 

You may never see how beautiful you really are from the depths of the soul that will live eternally somewhere based on your choices.   I pray you do see how brilliantly and brightly you shine for all who you connect with.   Be it fifty years or fifty  seconds.      May you truly know how blessed each day is given for our own, or that which we share with others we really are.

Through the tears when I am overwhelmed in deep pain, gratitude, or spirit.  I can see clearly still the one who fights for me to just breathe.  Knowing scars run deep but the pain is where courage is born when we give it time to seep into the pours of our very being; in and for recognizing the truth in everything.

Broken pieces of me are scattered throughout this planet that I have been allowed to travel.     Though my time to date may have covered and been filled with more or less than any other soul.    It all matters no matter if me or you.

Everything happens for a reason, but it is not our task, job or purpose designated by any higher authority to chase the why of a reason.

If it feels too good to be true.   Pray hard, pray long.  Because in most cases it is.  And if you pray and things still do not result in what vision your mind’s eye had.   Look for the lesson or blessing it was meant to be.   

I will never be a theologian; I will never be a scholar.  Although I have been given much knowledge of many things and each new day, I learn something I either forgot during a lesson or never knew.

Nothing is a waste!   I am and always will be His and use what I am allowed to help others plant seeds to turn all the ashes into a garden where we will one date meet.

Happiness is always fleeting no matter what is happening, no matter what we have.    Some of the world’s best pretenders sit alone in desolation and sadness.  Yet, when they walk into the public eye they laugh, carry on and pretend their choices of career or to get to the top of what they think is.   Despite all they have material that will never be taken to the other side when they leave.    They sit broken and so very alone.   Chasing all that eventually destroys all they are or can be when the voids overflow with the world and not what grace and mercy bless us with.   No matter what I believe in, this is my life and you need to live your beliefs out and own the results of the choices you were freely given to make.

Do I believe life is what you make of it.  Yes, and it takes hard work.  Hard work in every relationship we are allowed, and it will never be fully balanced without daily choices to hold all of it as a blessing, or in contempt for what you thought someone, or something has taken from you.

The cool thing is we get to choose!   Even if someone is holding a gun to our head.  We get to choose what we will do next.    Faith over Fear.   We all have it, just sometimes our faith is in the wrong things and the things we don’t fear we should.   

In love, for love with love may you always find your way home to the maker, creator, and blessed redeemer whose blood also breathed life into you from the dust we are created.    To which we return in ashes and spirit.

Thank you, Jesus, even if, even when I am not enough, I am invisible, I am in all the pain before or after.   Thank you for carrying me in love, mercy and the abundant grace given to get me back up.

Healing all what we do not see or understand.   Please have mercy on this world and lead us back to you.   Please release the suffering from the demons and bring the innocent back to you.

Thank you for then, thank you for now!

 

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Weary Traveler (Lyric Video) - Jordan St. Cyr

 Lights Shine Bright - [Lyric Video] TobyMac (feat. Hollyn)

Riley Clemmons - Fighting For Me (Lyric Video)

Terrian - Give It Time (Official Music Video)

Aaron Cole - Yours to Use (feat. Jonathan McReynolds) [Official Lyric Video]

 

Horizon (A New Day) - [Lyric Video] TobyMac

Ryan Stevenson - ABLE (Official Lyric Video)

Jon Reddick - I Believe It (The Life Of Jesus) [Official Lyric Video]

Spirit Lead Me - Hillsong United (Lyrics)

11-16-2023 November_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

  

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Thursday, November 16, 2023

Motivational Reads / Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com - Daily Verse

 Psalm 119:18 MSG

Be generous with me and I’ll live a full life;
    not for a minute will I take my eyes off your road.
Open my eyes so I can see
    what you show me of your miracle-wonders.
I’m a stranger in these parts;
    give me clear directions.
My soul is starved and hungry, ravenous!—
    insatiable for your nourishing commands.
And those who think they know so much,
    ignoring everything you tell them—let them have it!
Don’t let them mock and humiliate me;
    I’ve been careful to do just what you said.
While bad neighbors maliciously gossip about me,
    I’m absorbed in pondering your wise counsel.
Yes, your sayings on life are what give me delight;
    I listen to them as to good neighbors!!

 Psalm 119:18 ICB

¹⁸Open my eyes to see the wonderful things

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Those days that turn into what seem to be weeks or on-going hours where you’re like a rocket that just cannot stop yet due to the balance of life and all that seems to need to be. 

Time flies and we will never get it back.  Savor those moments good, bad, or indifferent.

Love the people well that God has allowed to travel with you at any given moment in this journey.   If it is not for love in return, it is for growth of yours or maybe theirs.

None of us are getting out of here alive.    Many will have gone to what we see as too soon.  While others are left to try to get back up with all the broken missing pieces and make it through another day.    Some will just lay paralyzed or quit and hope and wait to be taken as well or at least wander for endless days like in a desert never really knowing if and when things would ever come back to what we call normal.

Love yourself well, through it all.   There is nothing wrong with  pausing!  There is nothing wrong with resting!    There is nothing wrong with diving into the very one who created you, to be your best-self in all that is good, truth, purity, morality, kindness, and more than anything love.

 

I know sometimes I get things really wrong with the love part.   I love everyone and sometimes see too much good in what was never there to begin with.  Thus, in the past allowing my own pieces to be shattered, shook up and even at time put back in the most kaleidoscope patterns.

But for whatever God’s sense of humor is or his purpose of using me to keep that flicker going.   He has always been there, always healed me, always pulled me back up to keep moving forward.

I will never have or do enough to be able to repay Him in gratitude or servitude.  But it will never stop me from trying.   Nor until my very last breath finding the will to try and keep growing forward.  Getting back up and doing each day he allows again.  

 Interpretation is everything in this journey and what you allow your heart to believe and your eyes and ears to consume.  Well, you are the caretaker the steward of what to do with all of it.   

Just as I so often select multiple versions of the daily verse which is available and free for all that has a computer.    It is just like us choosing how or what something is or means.

Just like today’s verse isn’t it just like us to hear something and grow the story as it gets down the line.   The Message gives so much more than the KJV or International Childrens Bible or even NIV etc.….

 

The point is only you and Jesus know who you are.   There is nothing on this planet or unfortunately any other soul that can really own the choices and the gives of lessons  or blessings.  But our very own being. 

If you choose to get stuck in that grey abyss or sit on that proverbial fence that is a choice you deal with.  Yes, your choices will always impact others.   Anyone in your journey within arm’s reach and then some.   Glass half empty, Glass half full.  Just pick your poison with boundaries and drink the dang thing for each day you are given.

So many never get the chance.  More importantly, so many never really come to know who they really are and how much they really matter to the creator and those who have been blessed within their blood lines and journeys.    Sometimes we lose ourselves too soon and then become too critical of every finding the truth.    As I recently read “If Christ loves me, does it matter who hates me?  If He smiles on me, does it matter who frowns on me?  If he says I’m His, does it matter who rejects me? ~Leonard Ravenhill”

 

Thank you Jesus for never giving up on me; thank you for all you have put in my path shining the light into my world and allowing me to hear and see you in so many ways over this journey.

All the shattered pieces of what is alwaysme.   All the mercy and grace even when I have not been able to pay it forward.   You have never given up on me even when I did.

Thank you for loving your children through all the dirt and broken building blocks that are left for others to climb over just to get a glimpse.   You Jesus are beyond anything anyone can ever deserve.   Yet through the dreams, through the journey of each temple moving in this atmosphere.   You father God Love so deep no one will ever get to understand.    But I am beyond blessed to try.

Father-Son-Holy Spirt THANK YOU

 

For every battle I have created in this field of my life and mind; it all belongs to you Jesus and for this blessing of knowledge and learned anticipation and actions right or wrong.   Your will Jesus, be done!    Your blessing Jesus, and guidance in the darkest moments shine bright.  For all as you have done for so many.

Do for the many more who are now just awakening.

Lifting the darkness and scales from their hearts and eyes.    May they be filled with all you are in love, for love, to love.   Pouring into your chosen to pour out into all starving and fighting through the weeds for all you were and forever will be.

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City on the Hill -Casting Crowns (With Lyrics)

 Colton Dixon - My Light [Official Lyric Video]

Anne Wilson - Strong (Official Performance Lyric Video)

Hold On - Katy Nichole - Lyric Video

CAIN -Any More (Official Music Video)

Caleb & John - Missing Jesus (with lyrics)(2023)

TobyMac - Zach Williams Cornerstone (Lyrics)

Ryan Stevenson - Mosaic (Official Lyric Video)

11-4-2023 November_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

 

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Saturday, November 4, 2023

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 2 Corinthians 3:6  MSG

^4-6 We couldn’t be more sure of ourselves in this—that you, written by Christ himself for God, are our letter of recommendation. We wouldn’t think of writing this kind of letter about ourselves. Only God can write such a letter. His letter authorizes us to help carry out this new plan of action. The plan wasn’t written out with ink on paper, with pages and pages of legal footnotes, killing your spirit. It’s written with Spirit on spirit, his life on our lives!

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 2 Corinthians 3:6  ICB

⁶ God made us able to be servants of a new agreement from himself to his people. This new agreement is not a written law. It is of the Spirit. The written law brings death, but the Spirit gives life.

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Sweet November where did you come from so fast?   Just like the movie such a bitter-sweet story of time going by too quickly; in love, in loss.      We get so caught up and forget to really check does it really matter, or should it really matter with what we spend our precious moments on.

What is the purpose in the pain, and does it include Christ Jesus?    Are we serving others to grow forward or are we just putting band aids on things and enabling derailment down a path of no turning back?

I certainly do not have any of the answers.   I do so love this time of year when the bold colors of life prevail even for the briefest of moments in time.   Then the cold winter chill sets in with at times darkness that paralyzes to the very core.

When the sun stops shining and we lose our hope because darkness seeks to lengthen the days and the world says we must work ourselves to the bone to live, to be to everything that does not truly matter.

I get it; better than some as a single parent divorcee I learned early on to step up and do what it takes managing my responsibilities I chose.

Thinking back when I worked two jobs and went to college raising two beautiful gifts.    Praying daily for me to just stay alive long enough to see them grown.   Then later blessed with grands and still praying the blessing for life to see them grown but if not know they are in the hands of God.

 

What a rush, a ride and still saying life is where you keep your hands and feet in the ride at all times until you are face down talking to Jesus and taking that time to hear him answer.

And so many days like the world jumping out and back on trying to win that spiritual tug of war and handle it.

 

Beyond so grateful for the opportunities so many did not get; not to mention beyond thankful for the lessons and blessings in all the messes  I have been allowed to live, love, and laugh into the next unpromised tomorrow.

How did Paul make it through as he was beaten and broken so many times right up to the end and never forgot who and where Jesus was.       I wish I had the answers to his story and to mine.     I don’t know what makes me get back up.  I don’t know what makes me pause and not just isolate and hide.  At least I don’t know anything outside of Jesus Christ.          Woo wee,  the stories growing up as a kid and thing danger and reckless abandonment me and my friends had.

Nine, ten years old wandering the streets, days before my 15^th birthday being thrown from a van that rolled, Guns to my head knives in my hand.    Love buried so deep in the depths of the walls of all the broken promises and chasing rainbows when they truly were looking for the pot of gold and God’s promises and not some upside-down world and whatever the world had to steal it and ruin the innocence even more.

Far from being that angle, wanting and looking for love in all the wrong places and trying to figure out what it meant.   All the while living by the theme song of Greg Alman No angel.     Dedicated and there until you make it so I cannot.    Nothing different at this stage when it comes to never leaving you cold.    Which has cost me far too much time I will never get back in this universe.   But taught me so much about what real love is in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

I am as authentic as it gets AlwaysMeKelly!    The only thing I have to prove is the commitments I sign-up for and the responsibilities of what I choose to want.

I don’t need anything that the good Lord does not give and allows the air in these lungs and the functioning of any given day.

 

Maybe that is why I don’t waste my time looking up into people to find life.    I don’t know.     Not into drama get enough of that raising up girls and not for nothing Been there, done that and wrote a book.    Two actually just have not had the second published which I really need to get out there and do it before I too run out of time.    But hopefully if my number is called before so.  Those that know me well will finish it for me.    The Lord knows time and generations need to know about life and really understand it matters to know and own your choices.

 

Nope not ill, growing in ways and body changes of things I used to be able to do or have that no longer work.     But blessed beyond measure even when I am tired and weary because my choice is to give it away to others who don’t always understand gifts but yet live with entitlements.

I Pray Jesus keeps knocking on their door and they wake up before its too late.   I get it though it took me a long time coming from nothing and realizing I will be leaving with nothing.

We all do and will.

And the crumbs of what is left behind will be left for the vultures and insects to pick apart and fight over just to toss in a corner as long as no one else gets it.

 

Anyway, in the meantime what does it mean to live our best life.   What is it that feeds your soul and burns deep within?  Prayerfully it is not something that will destroy you.

Waiting on those second chances and forgetting to stop waiting and finding these distractions that suck the life out of us before twilight ever dims our hearts or soul light.

I recently had this conversation, and I won’t deny I prayed hard for several young ladies giving themselves away over time.   Where they never had enough of themselves that they would take jobs where mankind treated them as a piece of meat to be used, abused, and tossed out once they were done.

 

I am beyond blessed to have perhaps working three or four jobs at a time and maybe never getting it right but to always know my worth would never be in the hands of another human being.   And even after all this time I have to watch myself when I see men or women treating others like a piece of meat for their own gain.      Cause yes, in a heartbeat I could easily forget the fruits of the spirit that grow within to make sure they know their worth.

Heartbreaking watching them chase the wind and give themselves away and never once remember the same God they went in that water to be anew is there still waiting.

Thus, teaching me so many lessons daily and how to know even with all the boundaries and group studies I have down with and for others it them.   I still have to be reeled in to not get caught up in working my life away or trying to….

Some of us found our life and meaning and strength to not be consumed by the demons while others could not; or others were the demons themselves.

Balance and knowing when to hold on and when to let go and all that in-between of staying because we don’t want to ruin our reputation, or we pretend so long we are someone else we lose ourselves in the truth and who we really are.

In the end we all will have to answer at the feet of Jesus.

As talking about it today prayerfully not anytime soon because so many I have loved dearly and deeply have gone far too soon in my time, even if God’s timing was perfect.

No matter what any of us go through we will never understand and feel the  pain and sorrow that Jesus Christ took up to and on that cross.   So, I can only hold on to hope and know I am going to do my best to keep praising in all I am to praise in silence or publicly.   I just know without Him I am nothing and I am not ready to leave this place yet.    There is so much left to do to shine the light for all to know who Jesus is.

With hopes and prayers to just keep planting hope, seeds, love, light and peace and that when I start to wither, I too am fed for the eternal life awaiting.    Bride of Christ, Jesus Freak, in love with the lover of my soul. Thankful and purely lost in the abyss of finding that stairway to heaven and the beautiful streets of gold.

Even if I am wrong, well to die to myself and live for all that is pure and so deep in hope is beyond anything I ever want to lose.

We can be hurt and angry all we want but we cannot be angry at God for things he never promised.     He gave us all freedom of choice and will and the knowledge to always do our best for and to what is right.    We choose not to.

 

He choose me, he chooses you if only you would stop and let your heart and soul hear.

People places and things will give you allot of pleasure or pain but none of it is everlasting as Christ Jesus is, does, will!

So, no matter how I dress up in inflatable baby costume, or clowns or unicorns or even just a fake smile during the times that hurt so bad.   I am beyond anything to know he is my strength, will and courage for any new day.   All which I will never deserve.

 

Hope, love, and prayers you will feel the arms of all that is good wrapped tightly around you and all your days bring. Believe in Jesus, meet him personally.  You have nothing to lose.

Give all your fear, doubts and pain back to the foot of the cross.

 

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