Dear Jesus;
I am writing to you today, because I feel more and more I never really can get out what I need to say, when I pray. Needing confirmation for over the past couple years have been so eventful.
My prayers of goals and dreams have been filled if not run over and plentiful.
But lately I am not sure what to do or how to feel.
From illness that has attacked so many friends and family, to even if my relationship is truly lasting or for real. There have been so many changes in my life. I often do life in strife.
And although I pray daily to you. I still really don't know what it is I am suppose to do.
So often I have allowed myself to live in conflict or meaningless challenge.
Constantly strugling to just hold on. Feeling what is next? Sometimes what more to go on?
I ask with understanding I know I have control. I know I should act upon what is deep within my soul.
There is no doubt of who I am. There is no doubt of my love for my children, my family, that special somone you will someday bless me with. But what is it oh Father above. When your children have went away, and there is so many disruptions, and discouragement and always questions of uncertainty.
What is the answer Father, to all the what ifs, and do they really need answers.
What about the craziness and doubt that is created from this whirlwind of life?
Especially watching all those around you become ill, dying always leaving you.
I ask you dear Jesus to please end the struggles, please help me find that peace of mind.
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