Sunday, May 30, 2010

2010-Then and Now (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Though I may not know where I may end up before my time ends in this world; I shall never forget where I have been. Clearly knowing all the good things I have accomplished; yet always working to never repeat the mishaps I have been in or contributed to. Though I will never be perfect; but I will always do my best to hold fast to what is good and pure. Moving one step forward at a time. Thanking God for the love; the mercy and all my friends and family that give me strength to continue moving forward. Yet even this day the struggles some days to just give up and give in. I have always been like everyone else; yet so different. And again giving thanks for freedom of choice and the will to serve, and try doing what brings light around me. Instead of being consumed by the darkness of what is all so easy. The truth hurts at times and I personally have lived with many pains in this life. Pains I caused myself; pains that were just part of my childhood. Pains of those who I left behind when I came to Christ. But these pains allow me to grow daily, in Him and with my family and friends. Living; Learning; Loving.
Knowing this is all temporary. And I dare to work towards what is positive and good; and will struggle until my days end.

For I was blessed to come to this place called earth;
I was blessed to be what we call Human!

Though I may not know where I may end up before my time ends in this world; I shall never forget where I have been.

But I give all glory and thanks to the son Jesus Christ. Because I would be nothing if it were never for his sacrafice, Nothing if it were not for Him!


5-30-2010 kelly fairfield

Sunday, May 16, 2010

2010 - Doing Time written by By Joe Murphy doing Time

DOING TIME

CLOSE YOUR EYES AND IMAGINE THIS.........

IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE TIME DOESN'T EXIST.........

IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOUR HEART AND SOUL ARE CONFINED.....

AND THE ONLY THING YOU DO.. IS TIME!

IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOU HAD TO LEAVE YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS BEHIND, AND YOU FEEL THE
REAL MEANING OF OUT OF SIGHT AND OUT OF MIND.....

IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN ONLY BE MISSED, AND ONLY IN YOUR DREAMS CAN YOU GIVE THE ONE YOU LOVE A KISS.....

IMAGINE A PLACE WHRE YOU HOPE FOR A VISIT, AND PRAY FOR SOME MAIL; AND MONTHS PASS BY WITH NO AVAIL......


IMAGINE LOOING FOWARD TO THE END OF ANOTHER DAY; AND NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY; NOTHING EVER GOES YOUR WAY....

IMAGINE A PLACE FULL OF SO MUCH VIOLANCE AND HATE, AND GOD ONLY KNOWS YOUR ONE TRUE FATE......


IMAGINE A PLACE SO DARK AND SO COLD, AND YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE HAS BEEN PUT ON HOLD.....

NOW IF YOU U CAN PICTURE ALL THIS IN YOUR MIND? THEN YOU MIGHT BE ABLE TO IMAGINE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE....

TO DO TIME.......4-13-2010 BY JOE MURPHY DOING TIME

Joseph Murphy U27740 B2
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3222 Doc Witfield Road
Wewachitchka Fl. 32465

Friday, May 7, 2010

2010-Never enough time! (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

There is never enough time for people you love and care about.
And as long as these lungs of mine, suck air to sustain my life.

It will never get easy to see family and friends for brief periods of time to then have to say good bye and not know if or when you will ever see them again.


I thank God daily for every opportunity I have, just as I know that people do not come into my life for no reason.

No matter if they are good, bad or just different.


There is always something to learn and use to build memories.


I guess this is why I relate to music so often. Every song has it’s own story.
While for the most part any good song touches those parts of the story that are the living experiences you have went through or are going through.

Taking them and putting good sound and instruments to them is passion to one’s soul.

Those that keep you moving;
Those that bring tears to your eyes;
Those that make you yearn to hold on to your loved one ever so tight.


Yet the ultimate are those that trigger the love of Jesus and all that he has carried you through, when you lost sight.


These past couple weeks have been indescribable.

My grandfather died 2 weeks before my 48th birthday. In which I flew back to NY for the funeral.

This opportunity allowed me to see aunts, uncles and cousins that I have not seen some in 20 plus years.

Allowed me time with my beloved son and meeting in person the love of his life.
What a beautiful young lady she is. The Lord has placed my heart at rest knowing he is not alone through any of the trials he is to walk through. That he has a delightful caring friend at his side.

Yet at the same time, feeling the heart break seeing the pain my mother was going through, losing her father. Triggering wonderment as to what will happen with my mother. As she has filled her life with stuff to not be alone, and her entire home is packed full of just stuff, that really has no meaning.

Triggering thoughts in my own life, of how long I filled my own life with just stuff, people and actions that really just were there to fill a void and had no meaning.

Until I gave my life over to God and was reborn did I ever gain peace of mind.

But that is an entire different story line.

These past two weeks, had they occurred 10 – 15 years ago. I would not have handled any of this well or in a supportive manner. I would have been stressed and masked everything with excuses and drinking or something.


Yet so melancholy life is what it is.

I must have truly lost my mind; where else does life just happen and gets little reaction from me these days.

Instead of being sucked in, I choose to continue to look for where I can hopefully assist and bless others. I am no saint.. Just never wanting to give up my peace of mind again.

So I came back from a week in NY with little sleep, went back to work and took two more days off.

One for dental work to finish up the crowns that were way over due.

The day after to go see my once best friend, lover and what became my project to help him through. Would get me through all of the failures I was enduring at that stage of my life. We had not see each other for 12 years because of life happening.

But when it happened back then it ripped me to pieces. I was torn, hurt, angry, worried and knew I would never see him again.

Yet 12 years later we crossed paths, for us both to find we are not who we once were.

He lost everything in his self – destructive mission. Although it didn’t start out that way.

He got caught up with that whole grass is greener on the other side, and once I realized I pushed him away as far as I possibly could.

In this process the struggles with addictions and habits turned full blown and he almost lost his life. He did loss contact with everyone and lived on the streets for 2 years. Yet somehow God spared him!

During the twelve years I went through my own life happens.
Drugs, alcohol, really bad relationships. The cycle went on for some time until one day I just had enough.

Remembering a few years prior I had given my life to the Lord but just never fully acted on it and it was time.

Once I made that admission my life changed forever and I have been living for all that is good and serving for Christ where I can.

And now 13 years later not only am I blessed to see people I love dearly. But something is happening.

I do not know how to explain it, but so many people I care about are hurting, sick, dying.

Yet they are being put in my path, to share all I have. Just a few moments of my day.

Be it for coffee, a ride, just a chat, a walk, or even a few words out online.

There never really seems to be enough time in my day to do all I want to do.

And most days I feel what little I do, or say doesn’t add up to much.

But like on my birthday this year. So many people I care for made sure to send me a message, a note, a call or even little surprises of just wishing me well and blessings.

Which to me meant more then anything I could ever fill my life with that will not go with me when it is my turn to go home.


I don’t know how I feel about these past couple of weeks? Happy, sad most importantly blessed and know I need to make every moment count. Even when there will never be enough time in any day.

And that I am very thankful for these moments that I have been given. Even if there are no words to say. I am thankful

With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me  Kelly
   

Thursday, May 6, 2010

2010-Alcohol and Drug Abuse Hurts Everyone (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Dependence on alcohol and drugs is our most
serious national public health problem. It is
prevalent among rich and poor, in all regions of
the country, and all ethnic and social groups.
Millions of Americans misuse or are dependent
on alcohol or drugs. Most of them have families
who suffer the consequences, often serious, of
living with this illness. If there is alcohol or drug
dependence in your family, remember you are
not alone.
Most individuals who abuse alcohol or drugs
have jobs and are productive members of society
creating a false hope in the family that “it’s not
that bad.”
The problem is that addiction tends to worsen
over time, hurting both the addicted person and
all the family members. It is especially damaging
to young children and adolescents.
People with this illness really may believe that
they drink normally or that “everyone” takes
drugs. These false beliefs are called denial; this
denial is a part of the illness.


It Doesn’t Have to be That Way
Drug or alcohol dependence disorders are
medical conditions that can be effectively
treated. Millions of Americans and their families
are in healthy recovery from this disease.
If someone close to you misuses alcohol or
drugs, the first step is to be honest about the
problem and to seek help for yourself, your
family, and your loved one.
Treatment can occur in a variety of settings, in
many different forms, and for different lengths
of time. Stopping the alcohol or drug use is the
first step to recovery, and most people need help
to stop. Often a person with alcohol or drug
dependence will need treatment provided by
professionals just as with other diseases. Your
doctor may be able to guide you.
“What is Substance Abuse
Treatment? A Booklet for
Families” - was written especially
for family members and is available
through SAMHSA’s National
Helpline 1-800-662-HELP.




Family Intervention Can Start the Healing
Getting a loved one to agree to accept help, and
finding support services for all family members
are the first steps toward healing for the addicted
person and the entire family.
When an addicted person is reluctant to seek
help, sometimes family members, friends, and
associates come together out of concern and
love, to confront the problem drinker. They
strongly urge the person to enter treatment and
list the serious consequences of not doing so,
such as family breakup or job loss.
This is called “intervention.” When carefully
prepared and done with the guidance of a
competent, trained specialist, the family, friends
and associates are usually able to convince their
loved one – in a firm and loving manner – that
the only choice is to accept help and begin the
road to recovery.
People with alcohol or drug dependence
problems can and do recover. Intervention is
often the first step.

2010-Children Need Help Too!(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Children in families experiencing alcohol
or drug abuse need attention, guidance and
support. They may be growing up in homes in
which the problems are either denied or
covered up.
These children need to have their experiences
validated. They also need safe, reliable adults
in whom to confide and who will support
them, reassure them, and provide them with
appropriate help for their age. They need to
have fun and just be kids.

Families with alcohol and drug problems usually
have high levels of stress and confusion. High
stress family environments are a risk factor for
early and dangerous substance use, as well as
mental and physical health problems.


It is important to talk honestly with children
about what is happening in the family and to
help them express their concerns and feelings.
Children need to trust the adults in their lives
and to believe that they will support them.

Children living with alcohol or drug abuse in
the family can benefit from participating in
educational support groups in their school
student assistance programs. Those age 11
and older can join Alateen groups, which meet
in community settings and provide healthy
connections with others coping with similar
issues. Being associated with the activities of a
faith community can also help.


Resources for Information and Help
There is help available in your local community.
Look in the Yellow Pages under Alcoholism
for treatment programs and self-help groups.
Call your county health department and ask
for licensed treatment programs in your
community. Keep trying until you find the
right help for your loved one, yourself and your
family. Ask a family therapist for a referral to a
trained interventionist or, call the Intervention


Resource Center at 1-888-421-4321.
Self-Help Groups
Al-Anon Family Groups
www.al-anon.org
Alateen
www.alateen.org
Alcoholics Anonymous
www.aa.org
Adult Children of Alcoholics
www.adultchildren.org
For a pastoral counseling center in your
community, visit www.aapc.org
For More Information
SAMHSA’s National Helpline
1-800-662-HELP
www.findtreatment.samhsa.gov
National Association for Children
of Alcoholics
www.nacoa.org
National Council on Alcoholism and
Drug Dependence
www.ncadd.org
Alcohol and
Drug Addiction
Happens in the
Best of Families
…and It Hurts
It doesn’t have to be that way

2010-We All Need a Savior (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

Everyone who know's me, knows I have a huge heart when it comes to service or those in need.

First of all I Thank Jesus every day and especially yesterday for the outpouring of birthday wishes from the many family and friends, as I wish I could have been with each and everyone of them. I am blessed beyond more then words can ever describe. And for this I can never give enough priase or service in His our precious Fathers name.

On the same token; God allows me to know, see and be touched by people from all walks of life. I had no originating big plans to do a road trip on Wednesday to Cocoa beach. Yet about a week out, it just started turning out that way.

I was blessed with seeing people I knew for years and cared deeply about after almost 13 years of losing touch.

But I was also blessed by seeing first hand how many people truly need prayer and peace in their lives. Cocoa Beach is absolutely beautiful, yet surrounded by many that are homeless and living in, on and around the beach.

The way of life in and around the beach are these people trying to find a $1.00 not for food, but to go to one of the many local bars, because this is all they have.

I talked to many of these people yesterday. As when you know people who live in the middle of such environments. They become part of a family looking out for each other. Kind of like Christians are supposed to look out for each other.

I can tell you, "They are people too, they started out one day or evening just as we do!" They have hearts, pains, joys love.

I don't know what happened along their travels. I just know my prayer and I ask prayer partners that you too lift up all who are down on their luck, all that are lost and needy.

I do have an issue when we fill our lives with drugs and/or alcohol. I have a problem we have so many lost and don't see that the drugs and alcohol is only what makes issues or makes them worse. I have an issue we have so many lost and needy people out in the world. And it is only going to continue to grow.

I ask for Prayer for that the will of God touches this community; and all others that are hit so hard in these economic times. Praying people see just how blessed they truly are and instead of giving their brother or sister a buck for a beer they somehow make a postive impact to help change this bleak situation.

I pray my brothers and sisters that have made it up and out. Know how loved and blessed they are and all they have to offer. They are worth more then anything material this world can bring.

I feel the joy I am blessed to know that we all fall down, yet with faith we hold tight and climb back out of the ruts this world throws us in.


Lord we all in this human race need a savior; and you know we need your mercy and grace to ever survive.


So as I placed this note out on the prayer list for fellow partners to pray.
And a friend noted this sounds more like a blog then a request.

I give it to you Father God; for all who read this know, we are all in need of a savior and forever continued prayers of your mercy and grace.

Thank you 
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me  Kelly

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