12.Wk2_2019_December(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

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Date: 12/14/2019 Saturday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):

Never can I begin to understand the things I wake with on this mind maze.

https://youtu.be/AfsS3pIDBfw  “Hands” @Jewel


https://youtu.be/GIQn8pab8Vc “I Believe I Can Fly” @R Kelly

https://youtu.be/DGbQ90kYZrI “Prize Worth Fighting For” @Jimmy Kimmett

https://youtu.be/xID_t--BrqE  “StoryTeller” @Morgan Harper Nichols


Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):


==== Luke 1:26-28 (NIV) ====

[ The Birth of Jesus Foretold] In the sixth month of Elizabeth’s pregnancy, God sent the angel Gabriel to Nazareth, a town in Galilee, to a virgin pledged to be married to a man named Joseph, a descendant of David. The virgin’s name was Mary. The angel went to her and said, “Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you.”


Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com

====Luke 2:16 ==== (NIV)  ¹⁶ So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger.

==== Hebrews 13:8==== (NIV) ⁸ Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

==== Ecclesiastes 1:2==== (NIV) ² “Meaningless! Meaningless!”   says the Teacher.
“Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless.”

==== Proverbs 3:6==== (NIV) ⁶ in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.^[a]

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord You are always there; no matter if we just cannot sleep or are awakened from storms of life that consume us; or storms of the elements crashing up against the shelters we find ourselves in; or just those that are deep within.



You are what sustains us; for all we will ever or never be; It is you Jesus and all that you allow to shine brightly.

Guide and protect me Father God; for never do I want to just become numb and not care at all; Nor do I want to be that one who manages to always step up without thoughts or cares. Continually digging myself out; because I believe too much in what should not have been for me to care.     



Teach me the difference; the lessons are so great.  Show me Father God.

This weary mind; knowing the only sure thing in this life is that I have been blessed to come meet you and someday I will see you face to face.



This mind maze traveling through the vapors of this world; craving so much of what you have, yet so lost at the same time.



Shine bright Lord for all I cross paths with; may they see you in the promise I find myself holding to for dear life.     Even those of us who walk with you daily; love you deeply and want all that you are.   Sometimes get lost in the noise of this world; the static hum consuming us one by one.



  What or where we came from is never who we are.   We are so much more to you Jesus!

More than the riches and trinkets collected along the way; the depths of love within our soul that is yearning for you bigger than life itself.



You alone Father God hold your broken orphans of this world; giving us a love from the inside out.  



You break all addictions healing every bit of brokenness; illness and fill the days from darkness with the lights of mercy, grace and abundant love and hope.

Jesus there is no other



May we adore no other as we do you?

May we live for you no matter what this flesh goes through?



This mind maze constantly running from the soul to the needful; to the depths of every valley to the mountain of every blessing.    



 Wishing, wanting; sometimes more often than ever should be. 



  To just completely disappear in you; yet knowing it is your will and you are not done yet.

I will never be enough Jesus; but you alone are.   May all I connect along this journey; meet you here and now.



Thank you for the nonsensical organized chaos of this life.

Life is nothing without you Jesus.



Prayers that I may never lose hope or stop trying to lead by example helping others find their way to you.

In your precious name and the blood that washed me clean as I came out of that water.  God of Abraham and all his decedents.    Your will be!   

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Date: 12/13/2019 Friday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):

https://youtu.be/7ESO6SHEwGk “Highs & Lows” @Hillsong Young & Free



Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):


==== Matthew 2:4-6 (NIV) ====

When he had called together all the people’s chief priests and teachers of the law, he asked them where the Messiah was to be born. “In Bethlehem in Judea,” they replied, “for this is what the prophet has written: “‘But you, Bethlehem, in the land of Judah, are by no means least among the rulers of Judah; for out of you will come a ruler who will shepherd my people Israel.’”


Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com

====John 3:16 ==== (NIV)

¹⁶ For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

==== 2 Thessalonians 1:10==== (NIV) ¹⁰ on the day he comes to be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have believed. This includes you, because you believed our testimony to you.

==== Psalm 27:4==== (NIV)

⁴ One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek:  that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
    all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.

==== 1 Corinthians 6:19==== (NIV) ¹⁹ Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;

==== Ephesians 3:20 ==== (NIV) ²⁰ Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,

==== 1 Peter 5:6==== (NIV) ⁶ Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.

==== 1 Peter 5:7==== (NIV) ⁷ Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Father God as I jumped up and ran this morning to get things taken care of.   Forgive me as this out of the normal needs rushed me through and although spending time with you; not taking the time to feel you until now.



You are with me in all my Highs and Lows; for this I am beyond blessed.  For those moments I let the world overwhelm me not listening to my own advice knowing you are here always.    We get to choose!



That much needed daily holy time with you is a bigger necessity than the air I breathe itself.

Knowing just because one spends time with you; it will never be enough; nor will it also ever make us good enough!



Goody-Goody we are not as I laugh to myself.    Thinking how so many judges; because we hold relations with you Jesus and if some see us going to church, they have the labels and classifications of righteous or good.



If the world spent as much time getting to know you and walk with you and less time creating labels and judgement; perhaps we could all be kinder to ourselves when we shine the faults, we all carry.



We/ I rush around at times like it all matters; despite the fact I know “I Am Loved” @Matt Brock

I truly believe you are changing everything!   You always have and always will.  For it is your blessing and control over this universe that allows the life itself during the brightest or darkest moments of the worldly abys we are swimming in.



There is no bond that that of what you allow Jesus; in and with you there is no space and time of what you will reveal in those who choose you.



Visions that cross all time and space; running in the depths of the unknown, higher than the clouds above.



Lord, it took me a long time to find myself in you; You have never failed me yet even when I did not know who I was.   



   From those moments over time waking fighting for air to haunting memories of what it is like to be nothing surrounded in a vast world full of souls that we know now are all struggling to understand their own purpose.



Even when they run, hide and bury deep anything to do with your likeness.      And what about those who are out there reflecting all you are Jesus; however, falling short and well leaving so much unnecessary layers of hurt and misinformation along the way. 

   

What about all those who knew you for so long and walked away; and all those struggling to hold on with all they have.

Jesus

I so wish I understood even a half of my journey through this life.  Why I am connected and feel so much at times; yet am so far away and my trust and doubt triggers cause me to withdraw.

Lord, Let me walk upon the waters with you where you will call me.   For it is not about me; for I am nothing without you.



The here and now is nothing if I do not have you Jesus 365 days a year 24/7!

There is no joke or laughter to that.  No matter what; I know there are somethings that only come from you; and I accept all you allow.  



  Jesus please be with all those barely holding on; be with all those who are making mistakes or in haste forgetting their place with you.



Guide and protect all my brothers and sisters who call upon your name Father God.    May we shine bright even for a moment in the darkness; to reveal the path to you for all who are seeking truth.



Please be with the blood of my blood you have blessed me with and all I am connected.  May your angels of mercy, grace, accountability guide us all for what is good and what is love.

Be with those who live deep within this soul, guide me and show me Jesus as the blood flows through these veins.  I am who I am; messy, open, yet hidden desperately seeking all you are.

As I find myself burying thoughts that haunt me of mistakes and working towards correcting the go forward.   



Your Promise and Your Faithfulness is my confidence Jesus.   https://youtu.be/nHP99EvAG0w  “Do It Again” @Elevation Worship

I may not know Jesus the answers to the here and now; but I have seen you move, and I know you will again.    



For it is not new to be considered insignificant; broken and tattered.  

For the world and its harsh reality is no matter who we are in this world; no matter what we represent.    Or think we are representing for all the good we do; all it takes is one misguided failure of the world’s standards and we allow the world to dictate and crush us.

Does that mean we should hide and never love or care for anyone; I wish at times it were so easy to do so.   



 Good at the ability to keep moving and avoid feeling or getting tied up in caring.   It has kept me in the desert safely protected.   Working my way through finding myself in you.     

How does it all change; staying at arm’s length keeping that which blesses you deep within; like a robot serving and doing all that is good for those who need.



Somehow, you find yourself one day and you are out of the desert.   That which is in the deepest parts of your soul; filled with love and admiration takes you through the journey allowing you to see even as we walk through the valley with Jesus; the world that has a way of rubbing off on even His best soldiers of the angel army he aligns.

Bittersweet Love!    There will never be a greater love than that of God sending his only son to the cross to die so we can live.   



Perhaps when Jesus lives within our souls; he allows us that small taste of love and promise; and all the pains that make it so beautiful.



In darkness, in light through it all.    We get to choose, what and who to believe and love.

Thank you, Jesus, for this even when many will never understand.  



 Thank you for all that goes with this life I have am given; thanks for allowing me to be Alwaysme.   Good, bad, happy, sad, at times filled with tears of what I cannot explain or when your beauty allows me to laugh hysterically at the simplest moments.



Thank you for “Resurrecting” me  https://youtu.be/AmAoIYcMBDA “Do It Again” @Elevation Worship

Please be with my heartstrings Lord.   You know all that flows through every single prayer; every wish and through me.



Thank you for this day given and all that have come to pass; thank you in advance for any I am allowed.



Please hear all the whispers from every soul I am connected; light their path with healing, protection.  May your will be done, in and with all of us.



For I may not know what is ahead; I pray daily that it is only you Lord.  That is the one that shows me the lessons and the blessings, for that was and all that will be.



https://youtu.be/c1txho7Mv8c   “Here As In Heaven” @Elevation Worship

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Date:12/12/2019 Thursday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):

https://youtu.be/yWcR84DOr5c   “City On Our Knees” @TobyMac (TheNewRevivalProject)

https://youtu.be/Y9CjYvQDDIo    “Need You Now” @Plumb

Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):

==== Galatians 4:4-5 (NIV) ====

 But when the set time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those under the law, that we might receive adoption to sonship.



Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com

====Luke 2:15-16 ==== (NIV)

¹⁵ When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”

¹⁶ So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger.

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==== John 15:26-27==== (NKJV) The Coming Rejection

²⁶ “But when the ^[a]Helper comes, whom I shall send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who proceeds from the Father, He will testify of Me.   ²⁷ And you also will bear witness, because you have been with Me from the beginning.

==== John 15:26-27==== (NIV) The Work of the Holy Spirit

²⁶ “When the Advocate comes, whom I will send to you from the Father—the Spirit of truth who goes out from the Father—he will testify about me. ²⁷ And you also must testify, for you have been with me from the beginning.

==== John 15:26-27==== (MSG) ^26-27 “When the Friend I plan to send you from the Father comes—the Spirit of Truth issuing from the Father—he will confirm everything about me. You, too, from your side must give your confirming evidence, since you are in this with me from the start.”

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==== Romans 8:28 ==== (AMP) ²⁸ And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose.


==== Job 42:1-3==== (NIV) 42 Then Job replied to the Lord:

² “I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted.
³ You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my plans without knowledge?’
    Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know.


==== 1 Peter 5:7==== (NIV) ⁷ Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

==== 2 Corinthians 5:7 ==== (NIV) ⁷ For we live by faith, not by sight.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you Jesus for another new day of opportunities~

The world throws much at us every given day;  God willing when we purpose to allow Him into our lives instead of just letting him watch from the outside in.     He lifts us up in spirit and in truth.



Perception and Interpretation is different for every single soul on this planet.   Just as we are given choices to believe in what is unseen and walk by faith or live in the world thinking and contributing to all that goes wrong every day.  



We all have a choice.  A choice to choose what battles we will pick to fight for or in; a choice to believe in something greater than ourselves;  a choice to purpose growing forward in all that is pure, all that is true and all that shines even the slightest glimmer of hope.



I myself purpose to be thankful daily and put all I am into the God of all the Heavens and Earth.  I purpose to put all my needs, hurts and desires through Jesus Christ; knowing; if it is what it is then so be it; but I know there are greater things despite anything anyone can ever take from me here and now waiting for His timing to allow me to see them come to life.

You have a choice.  



You can wallow in self-pity or in the muck of the world and think, this is it; or you can fight each day He allows you up for all that is pure, all that is brighter; all that is love and compassion.   Even when there is nothing left, He will always be so much more.

Though I may feel like I am dying a slow death in a world haunted at times by all that has happened in this lifetime; haunted by repeated mistakes in caring and sharing.   I know there is something far greater.   Just because I walk filled with the abundant love, mercy and grace from Jesus Christ.  



Does not make anyone else or me for that matter exempt from desires, or becoming entangled in those we believe we can love that ultimately gives a brighter shine to our light.    Somehow fulfilled to know we help those who truly need it and who are truly grateful for any little thing we can do for or with them.



Later only to learn the masquerade they play out to give a persona only later to find out we are wrong.    Not only does the deception of whom they really are reveal itself, but also who they portray day to day; lying to themselves that life here and now has meaning by doing what they do.   Only later to suffer great loss for believing worldly and not caring for themselves enough to do everything they can to keep it real.



  How we can find ourselves caring and believing for so many who can never believe in themselves even when they put on that good forefront.   

Inevitably, whatever is in the darkness will come to light, in life, illness, choices, or even death before we have a chance to make it right with God.



Everyone messes us; we are all a mess when it comes down to it.   We also are or will be broken and let down because at some point we care for others who cannot seem to care enough for themselves to keep fighting forward and really purposing to do all that is good.      Sometimes our own being is what ultimately breaks us.



   Break my heart absolutely when I care too much with no expectations, but that of people to just be and keep it real.



However, I will never regret the blessings I am or have been given to feel such depth of God’s love and the ability to love others.



Knowing how imperfect I am yet perfect enough for God to allow me;  to somehow be a light in their darkness.  Alternatively, to see and feel love within the souls we will never come to know.

Being that of what the world defines as a Christian is not picture perfect.   In fact, it has so many hills and valleys and even more brokenness.  



You crave at times just to feel the abundance of peace and euphoria that the love given from the inside out; and that it could consume you from the outside inward.

Blessed to know we all have choices.



Listening to the radio yesterday and they wanted callers to leave a message of what was the one thing your family or your Mom did right that you will always remember during the holidays.

Surreal to think; we never had such memories to be made.   Much less did I ever remember a time when my family really celebrated as a family around a Christmas tree.



It was not even the fact of what we were given if anything it would have been a pair of socks or a belt if needed.    Nevertheless, we just did not have a family.   



  So am I thankful that somewhere along the line; the things I craved most and prayed for long before every knowing Jesus.   My God allowed; He gave me purpose by allowing me my children something to live for.    He allowed me without thought or planning to make sure I made meals; made sure I made memories.  



Even today as I watch my children not over the top but reveal in their lives those moments that I have been and am blessed.   They too filled with kind hearts, spirits and an abundance of love that only God could have allowed.  



Far from perfect; but beyond grateful to know we all have choices; despite where we come from or what we stockpile to build up our self-worth!



Knowing what is eternal is truly, what matters in the end; for everything of this world is temporary.    The pain; the material things; the temporary setbacks or misguided ways of others.   We all have a choice to change the outcome of what direction we want us; the me and you to go in.



Never give up; never give in unless you are giving it all for the one who died on that cross for us.  Jesus Christ~ Thank you!

  

It does not matter how many times you fall down, get knocked down or face plant.  GET BACK UP and keep moving forward in Christ.    THE PAST, DOES NOT DICTATE THE FUTURE!   No matter one minute, one year, twenty years ago.   The past is the past; live for today!



The choices and freedom to choose is a gift from God; USE IT!



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How true it is “SOMETIMES GOD BREAKS YOUR HEART TO SAVE YOUR SOUL” @TobyMac #SpeakLife “      What does not destroy you if you allow makes you stronger.

If you allow and reach with all you have back to God; you find the love from the inside out that teaches us truth and meaning what love really is.   



That of which will never go away; no matter how much hurt and pain the world gets us tangled up in.   Be it we are the giver or taker.



I have to again say we all have a choice no matter how happy we are or how destroyed we feel for such great losses of those that will never be replaced and forever missed.    Or even that which he prevents us from being caught up with or by. 



True love hurts and although we learn to walk through this world numbing the pain; love such as Jesus Christ helps us grow forward if we choose.



No it will never be easy; nor will you ever forget.  However, beyond thousands of years the God of the universe and beyond; showed us what real love truly is and what truth, pain and love really can be.



Never discount your circumstances; nor anything he the Lord, brings you through.  All the pain, all the heartache all that he allows us to go through matters!

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Date:12/11/2019 Wednesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):

https://youtu.be/NM14VZVu0og  “You Never Let Go” @Matt Redman




Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):


==== Isaiah 7:14 (NIV) ==== Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel.



Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com

==== Philippians 2:14-15 ==== (NIV) ¹⁴ Do everything without grumbling or arguing, ¹⁵ so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.”^[a] Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky

==== Psalm 36:9==== (NIV) ⁹ For with you is the fountain of life; in your light we see light. 

==== Genesis 21:1-7 ==== (NIV) The Birth of Isaac

21 Now the Lord was gracious to Sarah as he had said, and the Lord did for Sarah what he had promised. ² Sarah became pregnant and bore a son to Abraham in his old age, at the very time God had promised him. ³ Abraham gave the name Isaac^[a] to the son Sarah bore him. ⁴ When his son Isaac was eight days old, Abraham circumcised him, as God commanded him. ⁵ Abraham was a hundred years old when his son Isaac was born to him.

⁶ Sarah said, “God has brought me laughter, and everyone who hears about this will laugh with me.” ⁷ And she added, “Who would have said to Abraham that Sarah would nurse children? Yet I have borne him a son in his old age.” 

 ==== Hebrews 11:1 ==== (AMP) The Triumphs of Faith

11 Now faith is the assurance (title deed, confirmation) of things hoped for (divinely guaranteed), and the evidence of things not seen [the conviction of their reality—faith comprehends as fact what cannot be experienced by the physical senses].

 ==== Hebrews 13:20-21 ==== (NIV) Benediction and Final Greetings

²⁰ Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, ²¹ equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

 You never let go Father God!    Even though we toil and struggle to breathe sometimes, you are unchanging with, for us always; then, now, and throughout eternity.



I am forever indebted to you Jesus to you Father God for everything that you give me daily.   The hills, valleys bumps and bruises.  The tears of misfortune or tears of joy.    I can only pray and hold onto hope that you too have hold of all I lay awake at night praying and hoping they too will find you.



Prayers my children will not give themselves a way to anything or anyone but you and their children; all will be and remain protected under the blood and sacrifices you made for this world.

Love holds no boundaries Father God you have proven that time-and-time again.



Why this life; this world really is how it is; will always be beyond me.  However, you allow peace and hope through all of what makes no sense at all.   For this I know even when the day comes I must leave; or you take those you have blessed me with they too belong to you; be it they choose to believe and walk with you or not.



Be with the aging Lord; not just my elderly relations; but also all and their children that are watching them fade away into the abyss.



For all my relations who do not know you; those now in their final days and those who have depended on those leaving soon.     Guide us all Lord in your will alone; and not our own worldly understanding.



Time as we know it will forever change; for those and us we love and care about.  Even those who walk in darkness will have the new normal to adjust.    



Lord as this New Year comes upon us all; may we find the truth and the way in you.

As I take a sabbatical and try to make sense of these past several years writing and finally get my pieces together if you will allows.



Guard all who find comfort through you in this life.   However, my writing will never stop; for a time it will need to be removed; to find your will and what next.



From then, till now; and now until any of the then ever blessed to be.   May your will always lead the way, heart and minds of all I am and am connected.



The greatest love story ever written is You Jesus!    If this is what I have; this will have to do.   Thank you for all you allow deep within this soul.   May your will be done and guard all who are your children and may they all shine brightly for all trying to find you.

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Date: 12/10/2019 Tuesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):

https://youtu.be/V5UXgs6nvGM “He Shall Reign Forevermore” @Chris Tomlin




Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):

==== Deuteronomy 18:15  (NIV) ==== The Lord your God will raise up for you a prophet like me from among you, from your fellow Israelites. You must listen to him.



Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com

==== Luke 2:9-11 ==== (NIV) ⁹ An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. ¹⁰ But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. ¹¹ Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. 

==== 1 Peter 1:13 ==== (NIV) Be Holy

¹³  Therefore, with minds that are alert and fully sober, set your hope on the grace to be brought to you when Jesus Christ is revealed at his coming.

 
==== James 1:2 ==== (NIV) Trials and Temptations

² Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, ^[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds,
 

 ==== Isaiah 41:10 ==== (NIV) ¹⁰  So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

 ==== Psalm 139:10 ==== (NIV) ¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

Cruising with Kelly: (12/10/2019)

https://www.facebook.com/100002475163076/posts/2622081707884309?d=n&sfns=mo

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

 Thank you for another new day and the blessing of love you allow me to know Father God!

I know things change always; and though we make our plans; and try to have goals and layout how to reach them.  



Life does not always flow like that calming beautiful stream I use to walk a mile up to every day just to spend time and find peace for thirty minutes out of my day.  

Sometimes life flows like a raging river ready to burst at the seams at any given moment and turn. 

Every single soul of this universe is going through something; either experiencing it right here right now; or just trying recover from the changes that they were not expecting.   That new normal we all get to face.



Be it a significant loss; illness; tragedy; injury; relationships; finances; addictions or all the fallout from someone else and the choices they make.   Suffering at the hands of others; suffering within our own minds.



Struggling with failures or let downs.  Struggling with self-image or watching the struggles of those we love.

No matter if it just how we see our own selves, or when we cannot get past what everyone else of this world as managed to continually whisper or even shout that has gotten into our head and started robbing our spirit.



We all fight the battles within.  Those trying to escape and those trying to get somewhere.    It all matters when we find ourselves losing peace and that inner tranquility or even worse yet; find ourselves masking our inner pain with things that help us feel better.   Only later to know we really have played into the whispers of the world that now consume us.



Sadly, we fight and struggle to find our way back; in which some successfully do; others well; in the here and now; we all suffer far too much loss as we grasp on all that is temporal or things that should not matter and lose who we are really meant to be in the eyes of our creator Jesus Christ.

We have all created for so much more than we will ever be able to grasp.  This world has never been promised as a free ride; painless of troubles or suffering.  



 However, Jesus Christ took all misdeeds; brokenness; mistakes to the cross and sacrificed all he is; died and rose again so we could have life and peace in and with Him.



We all have a choice!   Never doubt that; we have a choice of what direction we want to go; of how we will react to others results from the choices they make; or even how we react when our choices do not turn out as we think they should have.



Know this; if something is bothering you; and it will not go away.  You have the choice to decide just how important that really is in your life.   If you have not made the choice to change it; it cannot be that important to be in or out of your life.      



 God has given us all freedom of will and choice.   That includes walking and building a relationship directly with God through Jesus Christ.

 You get to choose!   If you do not know the story of Jesus; please start right where you are meet him in conversation and start building a true relationship with just you and Him.



Dig in and learn through Podcasts, picking up a Bible; Motivational books, Music or even surrounding yourself up with God loving, God fearing no agenda friends who are willing to love you right where you are at; and dig in and learn along with you.    Find a good Bible based church; it is necessary!



Not one that is built up and reaches out with legalistic ways, views and programs that have no biblical foundation.    Find one that when you need to question and gain understanding the Pastor and Elders will willingly sit down with you and walk through end to end to help you grow.

I am far from being a theologian; I can tell you the blessings and the journey my life has been on since as early as I can remember.   Before making it my purpose daily to acknowledge Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior and I am nothing without all He has done for the world or for me daily.



As I said, it does not take away when issues; incidents problems or painful moments take place.  Nevertheless, it does give me the strength and courage to get up daily and keep fighting forward trying to be a better human.  No matter what!   Knowing and seeing His story proven in action and in truth.



With that said, I know the end of 2019 is upon us.   I pray you are feeling the blessings in just knowing how much you mean to our God and that Jesus is waiting for you; right where you are.

If you are going through those raging waters for life; let Jesus become your life saver; floating device and anything else He needs to be to help you regain your strength, courage, healing and life in general.



You are loved and worth more than anything, this world can give or take from any of us.   We can never change yesterday; we can learn and grow forward.  However, we need to do it now, tomorrow is never promised.       



My prayers that you are filled, with abundance peace mercy and grace; and learn to shine the light forward to help others find the same.      Not letting negativity get up in any part of your spiritual space.  In addition, knowing to turn to God through His son Jesus; if it does occur.

Love yourself; love others.  Look past the faults of those who do break us.   Love them for them; and pray for their healing and growth for better things in this world.



Thank you have a great day or evening!

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Date: 12/09/2019 Monday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):

https://youtu.be/xpHiAmL8-b0   “Winter Snow” @Audrey Assad with Chris Tomlin

https://youtu.be/mpEyyl0DCdA    “Let Us Adore” @Elevation Worship

Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):


==== John 15:5-8 (NIV) ==== “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com ==== Psalm 98:4-6 ==== (NIV) ⁴ Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth, burst into jubilant song with music; make music to the Lord with the harp, with the harp and the sound of singing, ⁶ with trumpets and the blast of the ram’s horn—  shout for joy before the Lord, the King.

==== Psalm 23:4 ==== (NIV) ⁴ Even though I walk through the darkest valley,^[a]

I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

==== Psalm 9:10==== (NIV) ¹⁰ Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.

==== John 12:26 ==== (NIV) ²⁶ Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

My Father, my guide, my protector; creator of all things in heaven and on earth.   The one who has picked me up more times than I can count; the one who has wiped my tears and pulled me from the worldly throws from an infant to here and now.



Jesus; the one non-other can relate unless they believe in what they cannot see; or lived through lives journey knowing there is no other reason but only God who could have been the rescuer and protector even during some scary, dangerous and really painful moments in this worldly life.

Understanding is not a concept humanity can really grasp.  



We know there are triggers and if we are not guarded and in relationship with Jesus daily.  All that awaits in the dark to consume us even when we try to lead for good.   We must call out to the one who died so we can live.  Jesus Christ! 



We say and do nothing without triggers; be it something we see; something we hear or something we do.   Even those we love dearly when they decide they think they deserve something of the world and forget whom and what they are as a parent; as a person.   Made for so much more; yet many will never come to know; because they cannot look past what they are trying to be in the mirrored reflection, they see.



Blessed beyond all deserving; yet nothing is important but what we think we need right here right now.



I use to pray long before walking and knowing anything about Jesus Christ; the Lord keep me alive long enough to see my children grow up.    Now I pray He keep me alive to see my grandchildren grow up and live well with moral values for themselves and knowing who died for all of us so we could have life.



Praying life treats them kind with good souls to come into their life and prosper through the blessings of Jesus.



We all believe in something; I choose to believe in what can grow positive and productively.   Instead of wasting a life away sleeping all day; running all night and living with the thought, we should be entitled or that we cannot.



I have no sympathy for self-infliction; that of my own or anyone else’s.

Life is too short and although I may not step out and excel or try even at times to do more for what I know I can to.   Allowing myself to hold back for selfish reasons to be stability for the bloodline God has allowed me to spawn.



It does not change the fact I want all that is pure; all that is good; all that is productive and gives back light to this world for those I am connected; love and care for.

What if; can lead to many avenues of growth or failure.   



 One thing is for sure.  No matter what; we cannot make anyone do or feel what he or she chooses not to.

So on this weary journey where at times I feel ripped off; or weary because I know there are greater things and I give more of what I am made of away than ever received.



Even if I never see Jesus on this side of a vast world full of unknowns; ups, downs and bittersweet opportunities to grow from.   I know He alone is the one that holds me up every single day.



Someday; one-day I will see Him face to face and bow down in thanks and gratitude; however, for now I will keep trying to make sense of these abundantly mixed up mind dumps with all that I am.   Holding on for dear life with hope and love that someday I can to breathe and feel the love He alone gives from the inside out; from the outside in; knowing those I care most for will be all right.



As one spec and glimmer of lighted hope; in a world of darkness and perversion that continual does all it can to rob, and kill all that is good with its consumption of all who are lost in the abys of no return.



Lead me Jesus!  For all that, I am and all that I am connected belongs to you!



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Date: 12/08/2019 Sunday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):

https://youtu.be/UEzCQBwQkdA  “Bleed The Same” @Mandisa ft TobyMac, Kirk Franklin

https://youtu.be/CrDrcffL_DY   “Wanna Be Happy” @Kirk Franklin



Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):


==== John 14:6 (NIV) ==== Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com

==== Isaiah 1:18-19==== (NIV) ¹⁸ “Come now, let us settle the matter,”
    says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.  ¹⁹ If you are willing and obedient,
    you will eat the good things of the land;

==== Philippians 4:19 ==== (NIV) ¹⁹ And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.

==== Colossians 2:2-3 (NIV) ² My goal is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, ³ in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.

==== John 15:4-5 ==== (NKJV) ⁴ Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.  ⁵ “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.

 Weekend Services:  @New Life Christian Church (12/08/2019)  

Welcome to new life Christian Church Spring Hill we will be getting started with our 9:45 AM service shortly

our messages out of the book of James week 11 let God judge we do not own rights to the content we are covering without Worship but we hope you are blessed by much love in Christ

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 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Jesus!



Lord there is not much else I need to say; not when it comes to giving thanks to you; outside of never being able to thank you enough for the life you give me.   Despite any situation or circumstances.



There will never be enough! Love or gratitude that I can give back to you.    

Blessed beyond all reasoning or understanding.  Loved from the inside out; where only those who truly have a relationship with you Jesus understand this feeling.



No matter how many times I let others down; or others let me down.  No matter what; you fill us with your spirit of love, peace and fill our lives with mercy and grace we would never deserve without you.



This year has flown by like a roller coaster that we can barely acknowledge or hold onto. 

So many ups and downs; twists and turns.  Yet, in the end, we choose to let those jarring moments to knock us off our feet or hold on to you with all we have and keep forging forward.

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me to fight and forge forward into the great unknown.

I know not where I am going; but I will forever know where I have been. 



 Thank you for it all.

May it be your will, which lights my path and guiding and directing my steps?

  Show me where and what you want me to be.   This and all remaining days I may have.  You your precious blood.  Amen





LATE NIGHT AWAKENING THOUGHTS (@AlwaysMeKelly)



If only!  



Regardless you get to choose your path.  You get to choose and accept life and all the little things as blessings or you get to choose the misery you wish to carry.



If only!  Everyone was thankful and reflective of the positive in the little things.

Instead playing out the poor me or playing out others in general.



If only the truth were reality and the world was really free of darkness. 

Instead, like a song with vultures and thieves at your back. 



You hold on with all you have knowing even if it is not good enough it never would have been anyway.  

If only we all chose to see purity and love in every sunrise and sunset. 

Instead out playing in the sandbox trying to impress those who chew you up spit you out and will never come close to a life or care much less about yours. 



At what point has your bridges been burned. Have you not learned anything about family yet. 

Oh wait this random mind dump Makes no sense to those who have not been there yet.     If only you were, What if you never forget.



If only, we all took time to really lead by example.  What if we forgot what it is to be selfish and gave the future all we have selflessly.  



Our children may get to grow up and not be broken before their time.  The entitlement would be something once written like an old nursery rhyme.     The world would be a brighter place.  Where no one really cared if it was yours or mine.