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incorrect most any day these words flow as a release of this mind maze which
gives me my sanity not to impress the critics or English majors (said with much
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Date: 01/11/2020 Saturday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 118:5-6 (NIV) When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord; he brought me into a
spacious place. The Lord
is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ====And you did not receive
the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being
good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding
you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises
up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection,
“Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====Romans 8:18==== (NIV) Present Suffering and Future Glory 18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.
====Proverbs 29:4==== (NIV) 4 By justice a king gives a country stability,
but those who are greedy for[a] bribes tear it down.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank
you, Lord, for this new day~
Each
opportunity we come to see, hear and put into action is a blessing from you
alone Father, God! There is nothing that
passes to us that has not come through your awareness your hands.
Guard
my heart, my actions, my tongue and even what I type out so that it be pleasing
to you alone.
One of my
meditation devotionals today was “Be on Guard-bible.com reading plan” summarizing
“Going bankrupt suddenly or slowly can happen just like that; without warning;
like a slow drip that canons are formed by; one drop at a time. “What must we do to remain alert for wickedness”
We can go
bankrupt emotionally, physically and/or financially.
Before we know
it all of what we thought we were living for is changed and the proverbial
carpet is pulled right out from under us.
Leaving us in bad
health, broken non repairable relationships and even in financial devastation.
So why am I paraphrasing
this morning or pointing these facts out.
That at some point each and every soul will feel and live through at least
one of these.
Ask God is all
I can tell you; when words come just as prayers I am not rehearsed.
Making me a little
off the wall somedays; probably. Just as waking in the middle of night and
sharing dreams that woke me shaking me to the core; or just tapping out the
words that come to life.
It is what it
is until it is not!
So, first of
all I pray no one lives with grudges, anger and hate within their spirit. That I know is a tall order.
Do not set
yourself up to have any misdeeds repeated against you; or if you have been the
doer of such. Ask for forgiveness and
find your way back to loving the soul not the action. Even if you will not, should not ever be in
communication with the doer. Release
all to God for your own wellbeing.
Last night awakened;
just like in a movie script. I found
myself with the following.
The ultimate
price when a band of brothers, family of such; work together taking bits and
pieces of truth to make a new story in fun and for their own personal
gain. Playing out and misleading
kindness and hope.
Using those that
are considered to be chosen from the good Lord above. Covering up, ignoring or trying to fix problems
their own way. Yet in the end they too
suffer a loss so great for one of their own too very soon. That of which that slow drip as I heard about
this morning slowly carved the canon of no return.
None, ever
realizing or just not paying attention thinking it cannot happen to them
because they have control; But that the love in truth of God will forgive,
forever protecting what is His will alone.
Sometimes that
means unfortunate losses in humanity as we know it; sometimes that means taking
His beloved home.
Race, size,
space or what or who we thought we were or were trying to be int his
world. Matters not!
Just as the misconstrued
venom of this world slowly poisons one’s mind.
In tenfold Gods
angels release us from the burdens, though whatever the journey back will allow
us never to forget.
When we seek
for the greater good of all that God wants us to be; we are forgiven. Sternly warned and made crystal clear they
are aware. For those who have been
released of misdeeds will pay a greater price than that of the loss that God
has gained to protect his own.
Never are they
to mistreat causing brokenness and mistrust or ever play on life’s chessboard
without pure intention when you call yourself a child of the most high!
For the
material things matter not. Comfort in
our own skin and what we portray now or then; matter not.
True connection
for purpose of all that is good, pure and loyalty in everything, is everything
in the eye of our spiritual warfare and the eternal father.
The depths of
the cut will never bleed away. Even if
the shattered collateral damage along the way was or was not the intention.
Find your
peace; only through Jesus alone. Bare
your strength, your courage in the mercy and grace Jesus blesses us with every
day we are given.
Find a way past
your fears to be face to face with love and eternal life.
Knowing that if
those you have wronged loved you enough then with no agenda for who you
were. Be that spirit that shines on and
love yourself to forever know we are one.
We all make
mistakes; and the penalty and release if not for the faint of heart when we
call Jesus or friend, lover of our souls, brother the Prince of Peace as Abba
the Lord of all Lords, King of all Kings.
Bow before Him
alone; as we are truly known but our will must seek repentance calling upon His
direction. As for I have already
forgiven; seeking peace, harmony to shine any little light allowed.
Seeking the
ability to hold it together in the storms that will always come. Seeking that one love from the inside out; God
breathed, souls connected with never ending prayers and adoration of Gods
ability within those who believe.
Broken,
beautiful, rich or poor. What is real,
what is truth. May the rivers of peace
and love guide and protect all God’s angels and soldiers.
May the young
girl Melissa having surgery to have her sixth child be blessed this day and all
the days forward protecting her and guiding her and the clan she bore through
Christ alone.
May the chronic
illness that weighs down my bloodline; be washed clean. Each step closer is a bigger battle that
spawns from those lips some days too much to bear but all given you Lord.
May the gifted teach
and share; the broken heal; the lost find you.
Allowing release through you Jesus.
Be it with words, thoughts, music, talents, love. Just as long as you alone are reflected.
Lift the pain
father God; though we never will forget; please take away the pain for you to
shine forward.
Quieting the
storms, though they are always there. Pressing
on growing in you; not better, not more, not less. But that of pure love knowing forever they
are connected and beyond love time and space.
No known illness,
tragedy misguided, misfortune worldly actions matter. Only that of what we do through the power of
the blood. In Jesus Name!
Forgiveness is
more powerful that any debt itself; never lose sight of who or what you have
experienced in this world. For the Love
and Forgiveness Jesus gave on that day nailed to the cross. Forever blesses those who walk with Him.
Do not fear;
keep it real. Amend the truths and
shine forward for better days are yet to come.
Know this about
me; There are some I care deeply for and would burn for. Having great appreciate for all they are,
they do and their opinions that help balance me.
No expectations
but truth and realism; for nothing they have can change that. If I have allowed you in, you know this. My choice, my journey.
But in no intended
offense; as I remember for some reading or I engage with daily. You may not be one of them. In case you forget as I sometimes do. God is the only authority of the much higher
power that I report up to.
Therefore, what
you think and release in bitterness, or with contempt only is a reflection of
the pain you are seeking to feed. I shall remove you from my day today; although
I will pray for your heart, and your final outcome.
RIP Uncle Bean. You can now find Aunt Pricilla. Your broken heart and pain is forever gone.
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Date: 01/10/2020 Friday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1 Peter 1:15-16 (NIV) But just as he who called you is holy, so
be holy in all you do; for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.”
Verse of the Month @Mandisa
Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):
==== Romans 8:15 (TBT) And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
==== Romans 8:15 (TBT) And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====3 John 4==== (NIV) 4 I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth.
====3 John 4==== (NIV) 4 I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth.
====Romans 8:18==== (NIV) Present Suffering and Future Glory 18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
“Death is just a doorway into resurrection
life, if I join you in your suffering then I’ll join you when you rise. And when you return in glory with all your
angels and the saints my heart will be singing and my song will be the same: O
Christ be magnified!”
How hard it is
to trust, obey, lament and praise when those we love; those that are pieces of
us leave so soon in this world.
Trying to make
sense in just the normal day to day where in one moment we are riding high with
laughter and gratitude and the next on our knees broken into pieces for what
has transpired or been lost.
I before ever
walking with God always lived by “everything happens for a reason” I may never
know what that is, nor can I spend my time chasing and trying to figure it out;
I just know that the maker of all this has a plan bigger than anything I would
understand”
Thinking now
how blessed I am to be loved by the Father that he allowed his own son to die
so young. Somewhere it is written at age
33; I can’t be sure I am not a theologian and certainly was not there.
I just know
what is in the good book that has been for thousands of years that never
changes. Or as the rainbows welcome our
loved one’s home. Giving us up in the
truth of all unseen.
That is what I
must be fervent towards.
When you just
know you have and/or are a bigger part of something we will never be able to
fully understand; just that your life has far more meaning than any of the
worldly struggles it entangles us with.
The heartbreak is
real for those you may our may never be able to give any peace; but your
prayers will touch far greater places than anything of this world.
Writing has
always been my gateway and my way of holding onto even just a little bit of
sanity in this crazy world; so full of scary hard elements and choices that
make and break us daily.
Even when not
everything is as clear in black in white; there is a sense of relief and
release making room to figure out how to spin on. It was not until my friend Jesus came to
live within me in 1995 that I stopped spinning and started growing forward.
Even today
sometimes it seems the spin is still occurring as I fight the inner battles of
choices I make or the unknowns slam me out of the blue; leaving me in situations
I must choose what next and do not have a clue what direction to go. Choose to face the giants of all sorts; be it
automobile issues; letting go issues and blocking out what is painful or holding
on to life and love with everything I have.
Knowing no
matter what happens on this side my eternal life has already connected me to greater
things that nothing in this world can ever take away. For that alone allows me to stop spinning even
when needing help of fellow believers to pray; and I am able to step up and forward
in growth with and towards the Father once more.
Even when life
still happens; finding somedays you still can barely breathe. With hope and faith, you do not need to know
why. He, Jesus will breathe for us.
The tricky or hard part is in truth. We have to fight the elements and not allow
the world to consume us.
Holding on
tight and reaching out and not letting go of those we love when they think they
can manage it on their own. Oh, that is
so hard when they alone are adults and we cannot force anything on anyone.
Leaving us to
feel no one is in our corner. Because of
the things we just do not talk about; or the pain that is ripping us apart.
Some who have
everything just want normalcy as they feel they were placed in a luxury furnace
to cook; so, they try to escape believing the lies they have it all
together. Others just trying to find a
way out and make a life falling short to the devils lies and when they final
figure it out; they have already been consumed.
We all must
know and speak the life God purposed for us in love and light. When we are knocked down or see others
knocked down; we must get back up and know we are not alone. God will sustain us when we cannot as he is
right here with us; sitting next to us; going through all that we are
experiencing.
The question is
do we get back upholding on to Jesus and all He has given on the cross or do we
allow him to just watch in pain in suffering and disregard His presence.
In the end only
love, kindness and all that Jesus is truly matters.
As a parent we
want what is best for our children; we want to see them grow forward in all
that is good and positive and get back up knowing who our God really is for
them.
Yet our children
make their own choices with the same freedom of will and purpose we have all
been blessed with. Sometimes they make
it back out; others they must go through lessons that are priceless for their
lives alone; and others especially children of God are protected and taken home
away from what consumes here and now.
Prayerfully for
all those who have been taken; I from the bottom of my heart hope they really
knew who Jesus was. But my nieces, nephews,
best friends who have lost their lives I will never know. The heartbreak for those left behind;
parents, children friends is unbearable at times and others haunting. “Only God Knows Why” @Kidd Rock https://youtu.be/pl5N48kt56k
====Romans 8:28==== (NIV) 28 And we know that in all things God works for the
good of those who love him, who[a]
have been called according to his purpose.
So, as I like
every other soul on this planet is up and trying to get up and fight forward in
some way or fashion that we all think is the right or only way.
I pray we never
lose sight of Jesus is real and everything He gave on that cross is for
us. We are worth more and He has great
things for all who believe and fight forward with Him alone.
Circle up and
love without an agenda; never stop caring no matter how much it hurts. Never stop believing in the power of prayer
and the fact if He the good Lord has gotten you up one more day. He has purpose for you and there are things
to do.
Tell your
story; keep it real; know you are priceless and make your souls right with God
alone.
None of us are
perfect, far from it. We are broken
pieces of the grandest mosaic landscape of all.
And King Jesus is awaiting us to cling to Him and guide us through with
the help of all our fellow brothers and sister believers in the one true God.
We cannot do
this on our own; we may release in penning words, songs or working ourselves to
the bone. But only God will see us
through.
The storms will
keep coming, sometimes consuming the bigger pieces of us than we can afford to
let go. Get back up when that happens;
reach out for those who believe to help call out for what you are going
through.
Kindness
matters always; no matter how badly we are hurting. We are never alone there; there is always
someone who truly loves and prays for all that you need through Christ. Even When; Even If!
Please pray for
all that is unspoken for all your connections and all who you love enough to
trust in the one who created us all.
My journey so
many hills and valley’s with even more broken pieces put back together
again. Trying my best to give it all to
God and not allow the world that fills us with stress and anxiety to destroy
us. Destroy me.
No matter what;
Forever My Sweet Soul King Beyond all Space and Time. It is you that the Lord fills me with great
promise and hope and even more courage and strength to believe and know
eternity is real.
My life far
from perfect as I am still picking up the broken pieces of hope and love to
forge forward. Knowing what it is like
to be chosen to survive growing forward past the scars of what should have
never been; into what messes have become great lessons for life. Watching my own and others stumble as I am
wanting so badly to just save them from themselves and the hands of darkness
that awaits us all. Being filled with
revelations each new day given of a life I am allowed. We as parents blame ourselves and in some cases
the ones that do not even acknowledge they have allowed the darkness in. As others carry a guilt and pain for the choices,
we are all allowed to make. Not of the
choices; but of the great loss we are left to bare.
Forever we are
blessed; forever we are changed. With
whom we choose to walk will be the deciding factor of how we get through the
world and the grief and pain.
I know no
matter what; Jesus is the reason for all things for our greater good. All that has and will transpire will never
be without going through all He is first.
No matter what the end result.
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Date: 01/09/2020 Thursday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Matthew 6:19-21 (NIV) [Treasures in Heaven ] “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on
earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.
But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not
destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure
is, there your heart will be also.
Verse of the Month @Mandisa
Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ====And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ====And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====Romans 8:18==== (NIV) Present Suffering and Future Glory 18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.
====Romans
8:18==== (NKJV) 18 For I consider that the
sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the
glory which shall be revealed in us.
====Romans
8:18==== (MSG) 18-21 That’s why I
don’t think there’s any comparison between the present hard times and the
coming good times. The created world itself can hardly wait for what’s coming
next. Everything in creation is being more or less held back. God reins it in
until both creation and all the creatures are ready and can be released at the
same moment into the glorious times ahead. Meanwhile, the joyful anticipation
deepens.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank
you Lord for this new day you have allowed me up again.
Thank
you for lifting the spirit of heaviness each hour I move forward in this
journey and all that is going on these past couple of days.
I
cannot do this life without You Lord; I try then fail so miserably grasping on
and stuck in the middle of what to do, when to do it and who to allow, helping
me through if anyone. Much less how do I
connect with who should help me through the layers and journey?
Prayer
for me is the only way and I am so very thankful for those you have allow me to
connect.
I
cannot say it enough; no matter how ticked off I may make anyone. Those who think you have to choose when to
pray for someone; truly as this past week when they became so rude and
nasty. It does not matter how long I
have someone Lord. I will continue to
pray for all they are for and with you.
However, they will be and are removed them from opportunities to follow
me or communicate with, to or about my spiritual relationship or anything else
of me.
Never
will anyone’s request for prayer become less important than the next.
We
all know; we are all going through something that has extra burdens and
distraction, hurts causing habits and pain that seems to keep a piece of each
of us.
Robbing
you Lord from all you intended us to be and enjoy. Be it loss of loved ones; health and
physical changes or elements, mind, body and spirit wellness is your blessing
for all of us.
Unexpected
derailments of broken transportation, accidents, financial burdens; even the
many we hold the pain for that we want to help but cannot. Or the chronic illness of loved one’s that
just as you think we think we are clear more episodes transpire.
Those
we pray will come to you but will not listen and are out there doing the world
on their own and with some less desirable intentions.
Those
who suffer in great loneliness; those suffering and reflecting great bitterness
and anger.
Life
is what it is until it is not.
Prayerfully
we are trying to grow forward in Christ We all lead the way in love and
kindness. For we know someone is always
watching and looking up. Admiring and
loving everything about the being they see in front of them.
Right,
wrong or indifferent.
We
are all trying to survive in this world the best way we can. Prayerfully we do not allow this world to
taint and react in any other way but kindness even if we must work at it daily.
Never
letting the world or anything that happens or is does not remove the love you
Father God have been given deep within us.
I
do so many different things to stay filled up with God’s love and spirit. Yet as I found this week so very hard.
As
I worship you, spend more and more time reading with you, listening for
positive motivational Godly music and podcasts or visuals.
I
am just not there fully this week; with all the layers in my life felt like I
could explode or just needed to walk away from life; just quit trying, caring
or even being available for anything or anyone. Sadly true no matter if we love and walk
with you Jesus or not; the struggles still come.
Even
when you have all the brothers and sisters, home church or worship center. Still life happens and gets heavy.
I
never want to be that mean bitter person and how it scares me knowing in my
youth how quickly I would snap jump up and not care if I lived or died but just
made it known no one would walk over me ever again. Oh how I hate politics or bureaucracy
especially the great hustles of enterprises to the common people.
Did
this all start when someone was nit picking over something I do for volunteer
work that I was unware of changes? Was
this just the final straw to all the fall out of so many I have helped and got
dumped on for their own personal gain.
Is it just I am growing weary and tired of trying as it seems the more I
go forward the more is taken away and here I still stand with none truly in
this corner but you Jesus.
Thankful
for family and the bitter sweet when I have to reach out and let them know I
just can’t do anymore. Embarrassed as I
thought I had come so far forward to be taken so far back.
Mainly
as things that are happening, I have no control; yet the impacts have huge
implications on what next if I do not have a plan or work out what to be done.
Elderly
parents, dying family members; triggers of the loved one’s lost. Wanting so much more believing in the promise
fighting back the tears the battle is within no one else really cares.
Reality
sometimes really bites hard, and even if it chews us up and spits us out; We
have the ability to choose what is next.
Never do I want to quit because of things out
of my control. I am forever a child of
Jesus and made for so much more.
All
that I am is His and all that I can has been blessed far before any worldly
troubles.
Give
me strength and courage Jesus to keep going.
Let me reflect always your abundant overflowing promise, hope full of
mercy and grace.
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Date: 01/08/2020
Wednesday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4 “Surrounded (Fight My Battles)” @Michael W. Smith
https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4 “Surrounded (Fight My Battles)” @Michael W. Smith
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Amos 5:14-15 (NIV) ===== Seek good, not evil, that you may live. Then the Lord God Almighty will be with you, just as you say he is. Hate evil, love good; maintain justice in the courts. Perhaps the Lord God Almighty will have mercy on the remnant of Joseph.
Verse of the Month @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====Romans 8:18==== (NIV) Present Suffering and Future Glory 18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.
“He is good; his
love endures forever.”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====Philippians 4:19 ==== (NIV) 19 And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
====Philippians 4:19 ==== (NIV) 19 And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
====Matthew 6:19-21 (NIV) Treasures in Heaven
19 “Do not
store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and
where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in
heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break
in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart
will be also.
====Luke 2:17 ==== (NIV) 17 When they
had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about
this child,
====Matthew 2:10-11 ==== (NIV) 10 When
they saw the star, they were overjoyed. 11 On coming to
the house, they saw the child with his mother Mary, and they bowed down and
worshiped him. Then they opened their treasures and presented him with gifts of
gold, frankincense and myrrh.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Oh Lord, I have been so distracted once up and hitting
the floors these past couple days.
Totally consumed trying to resolve whatever happened to my vehicle leaving
me stranded. Then dealing with how I
will fix this. I need wheels to work,
work to pay my bills and keep a house of my head and those that live under my
roof. And so, on and so on.
Thank you for allowing me mistakes of the past to keep me from just jumping
in and saying okay do it I will pay you.
However, the vision of me is clearly insight and what can and will happen
if I do not pull it together and the boundaries back directly and directed by
your will and not that of what I think someone needs.
So, this transmission thing Lord; I am not sure how anyone can determine a
vehicle needs a brand-new transmission without having the car fully apart. But as I go in in and face the giants this
morning and have these wheels moved.
May the technicians that have already quoted me far less than seven
thousand dollars; may they find there is only a minor issue and not this heavy
thorn that has me bleeding out.
Be with me Jesus keep me from absorbing and taking anything personal; or
becoming worldly in all that I must do today.
Forgive me for not being able to just relax and trust in you Father
God. Thank you for those who stepped
up and helped me late last night get a car rental so I would have something to
keep me moving. Thank you for those
praying for me, my sanity and my stress level.
Thank you for my family; Thank you for my employment that I am allowed days
off to deal with life situations when they come up.
In the depths of darkness comes the greatest light. No worldly issues will ever go with us when
our time is up. May we all continue to
just hold tightly to you Jesus fighting forward in the here and now. May I do my best where I can and always feel
what I know Lord; that you have all this that layers up; no matter who I am or
what I have to work with.
May all that is internal trying to consume what I know is true; be washed
away in all you are Father God. No
matter what the outcome in the battles with this giant or any that will come.
Thank you for this day.
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Date: 01/07/2020 Tuesday
Verse of the Month @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====1 John 4:1 ==== (NIV) [ Treasures in Heaven ] “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on
earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.
But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not
destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure
is, there your heart will be also.
====Luke 1:39 - 55==== (NIV) Mary Visits Elizabeth
39 At that time Mary got ready and hurried to a town in the
hill country of Judea, 40 where she
entered Zechariah’s home and greeted Elizabeth. 41 When Elizabeth heard Mary’s greeting, the
baby leaped in her womb, and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit.
42 In a loud
voice she exclaimed: “Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the child you
will bear! 43 But
why am I so favored, that the mother of my Lord should come to me?
44 As soon as the
sound of your greeting reached my ears, the baby in my womb leaped for joy.
45 Blessed is she
who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!”
Mary’s Song
46 And Mary said:
“My
soul glorifies the Lord
47 and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior,
48 for he has been mindful
of the humble state of his servant.
From now on all generations will call me blessed,
49 for the Mighty One has done great things for me—
holy is his name.
50 His mercy extends to those who fear him,
from generation to generation.
51 He has performed mighty deeds with his arm;
he has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts.
52 He has brought down rulers from their thrones
but has lifted up the humble.
53 He has filled the hungry with good things
but has sent the rich away empty.
54 He has helped his servant Israel,
remembering to be merciful
55 to Abraham and his descendants forever,
just as he promised our ancestors.”
47 and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior,
48 for he has been mindful
of the humble state of his servant.
From now on all generations will call me blessed,
49 for the Mighty One has done great things for me—
holy is his name.
50 His mercy extends to those who fear him,
from generation to generation.
51 He has performed mighty deeds with his arm;
he has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts.
52 He has brought down rulers from their thrones
but has lifted up the humble.
53 He has filled the hungry with good things
but has sent the rich away empty.
54 He has helped his servant Israel,
remembering to be merciful
55 to Abraham and his descendants forever,
just as he promised our ancestors.”
====Micah 5:2==== (NIV) 2 “But you, Bethlehem Ephrathah,
though you are small among the clans[a] of Judah, out
of you will come for me one who will be ruler over Israel,
whose origins are from of old, from ancient times.”
whose origins are from of old, from ancient times.”
====Isaiah 7:14==== (NIV) 14 Therefore the Lord himself will give you[a] a
sign: The virgin[b] will
conceive and give birth to a son, and[c] will
call him Immanuel.[d]
====Isaiah 9:6==== (NIV) 6 For to us a child is born, to
us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord, for giving me another day forgive me for not being so vocal about the praise You deserve in all things.
Stormy waters no one is ever exempt.
I have been so caught up making sure everything or everyone else is good. When things impacted me directly, I just never had a plan. Which makes this mind maze overwhelmingly messy.
Trying to follow the best direction yet not wanting to cause drama. Even if I should.
Thank you for my motivation opportunities even if I am consumed trying to find an answer.
I will double check my spelling in the morning typing on this tiny screen ready to pass out from lack of sleep.
But here is the kicker knowing I have a 16 thousand dollar balance and the transmission blows and will take 6200 to fix it. My only means of transportation.
With a job an hour away. Just takes allot out of this soul. However, you have me and all I am.
Thank you anyway for everything. Until I can stay awake guide my dreams.
Date: 01/06/2020 Monday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1 Peter 1:13 (NIV) ===== [ Be Holy ] Therefore, with minds that are alert and fully sober, set your hope on the grace to be brought to you when Jesus Christ is revealed at his coming.
Verse of the Month @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====2 Chronicles 5:13-14==== (NIV) 13 The
trumpeters and musicians joined in unison to give praise and thanks to the Lord. Accompanied by trumpets, cymbals
and other instruments, the singers raised their voices in praise to the Lord and sang:
“He is good;
his love endures forever.”
his love endures forever.”
Then the temple of the Lord was filled with the cloud, 14 and
the priests could not perform their service because of the cloud, for the glory
of the Lord filled the temple of
God.
====Jude 10 (NIV) 10 Yet these people slander whatever they do not understand,
and the very things they do understand by instinct—as irrational animals
do—will destroy them.
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for this day
and that which has passed. Lord no matter if it is good, bad or
indifferent; even when I have to fight to hold my will in response to life.
I will praise you; no matter how
many sleepless nights for any reasons. I pray your will and your
promise to guide me through these temporary troubles while I too still pray for
the bitter nasty personalities I sometimes connect with or transpire for those
who do not know you or understand your will.
How easy could I become that
angry fighter I grew up from; demanding my way or no way selfishly bull dozing
my way through this world while I am allowed in it. I never want to
be that soul that just says anything to make myself feel better
Jesus. Nor do I want to be connected to those who are that
way. No matter how we are connected.
With that please lift up those who
do not walk with you or truly know who you are Jesus. We do
not categorize or pick and choose whose prayers are more important. Lord
those who pray; openly pray for all.
I wish I had read up on Jude
before my day yesterday Jesus. This is nothing new and yes I find
myself a bit more sensitive these past few days for some reason. As
I give all I am to you; I know not all will walk with you; as more and more
that we once thought were good people will reveal their true colors when it comes
to your will.
Guide and protect all that I am
for your will alone. Be with all those standing for our nation; Be
with all those fighting fires from California to
Australia. Be with all the souls lost because of what
is out of control.
Grant us wisdom Jesus as we find
our way through any given day. You know all things going on in this
world of mine. I thank you again for your safety during yesterday’s
misfortune with my grandchild in the car. Guide me in what next to
have lasting resolutions to maintain what you have blessed me with.
Thank you for the safety and
traveling mercies for family and friends.
Lord may every second I have left
in this world count with you; guarding this Irish temper and reactions.
It is not about me! Far from imperfect and perhaps alone or with
others. I will Follow you Jesus. This is not about a
performance on a stage or 15 minutes of fame to seek attention from any soul of
this earth.
Will there always be desires; oh,
deeper than I will always be able to hold behind the minds eye.
However; when it comes down
to it; everything I am and can be is because of the life you bless me
Lord. I have always been what you allow me and the more I grow
learning the love you have. Back before my walk with you Jesus; I
entertained none because they demanded, or their ways were what were a must.
My actions foolishly at times
from the heart and trying to be loved. So now that we have a love
from the inside out; until you place my sweet soul king with me. I am
yours and I will follow you here and now or wherever that brings
me. It will take a whole lot more than broken hearts,
broken promises or any vial angry souls I once held respect for that have to be
let go.
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Date: 01/05/2020 Sunday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Isaiah1:16-17 (NIV) ===== Wash and make yourselves clean. Take your evil deeds out of my sight; stop doing wrong. Learn to do right; seek justice. Defend the oppressed. Take up the cause of the fatherless; plead the case of the widow.
Verse of the Month @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020):
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
==== Romans 8:15 (TPT) ==== And you did not receive the “spirit of religious duty,” leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the “Spirit of full acceptance,” enfolding you into the family of God. And you will never feel orphaned, for as he rises up within us, our spirits join him in saying the words of tender affection, “Beloved Father!”
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
====Matthew 5:14-16==== (NIV) 14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill
cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl.
Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that
they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
====James 1:19-20 (NIV) 19 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this:
Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20 because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God
desires.
====Proverbs 27:17 (NIV) 17 As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives
and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for
another new day of promise and hope filled dreams that be steppingstones to
anything we believe.
Nowhere is it written that
any of our days will be easy or pain free.
But that if through you all things are possible. ====Matthew 19:26 (NIV) Jesus looked
at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
So, on those moments when overwhelmed with
frustration and humiliation is setting in.
Where we feel and forget. May our
humiliation be honoring to you Lord.
The fun effect of being a committed volunteer is
that which fills you up when you see things come together and good being done
for others. However, when you show up
to serve week after week at the same venue and never know what has changed or
what the expectations are until moments before you start.
Well it can be frustrating and humiliating when
you have so many critics and not enough teachers or those to care to have
things laid out in advance so the volunteer can step in with ease and allow the
end goal to transpire with ease.
Thankfully even on times when you realize you do
not have to do what you do; find someplace else that truly is there for Jesus
and not about the bureaucracy and politics that are starting to reveal
themselves.
Oh yes life can become very disheartening under
so many critics; thankfully I learned long ago it is not about me. I serve for Jesus alone. When He says move I do so.
Not to mention that when you have scars from life
you tend to at times without even trying to be a little more sensitive than
others. For this I never just quit or
give up when it comes to serving others without clearly giving all I have in
me.
If I quit, if we quit where does it leave us?
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me last
evening to come home feeling it; but thank you for each new day you allow me up
granting me opportunities to serve you and knowing there is a time and place
for all things. You alone will shift me
once ready. Besides as in Proverbs 27:17 (NIV) 17 As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.
I know you have great plans and have been shaping me for
your will and purpose. Teach me to not
be the one who represents you openly in love and need; yet at the same time
call out those who I disagree or have wronged me just to reflect the thought it
makes me look better in your eyes.
May every situation I am growing through teach me what you
Jesus truly would have done and the person I should be.
In the moments of whatever we feel the humiliation even
when serving others and sometimes the strain seeing clearly the imperfections
where ever we are; may we remember who we are in you Jesus; as it is written in
Proverbs 18:21 The tongue has the power of life and death, and
those who love it will eat its fruit.
May
all that rub me, or I rub up against; be what sharpens us in growth for and
towards you Jesus!
May
I lead through the muck of my path given shining forward no matter what. As the loads at time are heavy and I just
want to quit; I also know through you, with you God all things are possible and
for a greater good. No matter how
often you find selfish forgetful ambitions; as others dare not step out past
what they can do or get for themselves but demand so much more of others. I pray strength and courage for all serving
you Lord. Know to whom they belong to.
Never
letting the world to change them from who they are meant to really be. For sometimes the blessings you give consume
who they are really to be and what comes out of their being; reflects what they
never intended. And even if the vanity
and abilities of talent and knowledge have consumed them. May you be the one that brings them back
down to earth as you often do.
Please
on this day Jesus, be with my Uncle in hospice and my cousins caring for
him. Be with all my family in traveling
mercies, health and wellbeing. Guide and
direct our steps; my steps granting me wisdom and the ability to keep growing forward
for and with you.
Please
heal all who are broken in spirit, in truth in You; In Jesus Name thank you for
this day and all the lessons and blessings that come with it.
Beautiful morning of praise and worship serving that I
will not allow to be ruined by misfortune or bad attitudes. So not today
darkness!
As
driving home from serving this morning and my lovely 2015 vehicle had the
transmission go out. Life can be so
very frustrating sometimes it hurts.
But not today Satan. It is what
it is until it’s not. Thankfully
blessed no one got hurt and this vehicle too will get fixed or replaced.
Little
things trying to set me off; I said it with meaning and confidence and pure
heart and clarity. Jesus! Jesus!
Jesus!
As
2018 may have been elated and 2019 deflating 2020 will be my year of clarity,
purpose and digging in and fighting where I absolutely must. I do not scare easily; been down long before
nonsense and things out of my control have taken place or even when taken down
at the hands of others. Not much that
can really happen that makes a difference in this life.
Ticked
off without saying as I am so tired of the layers; I have to be in Tampa in a
couple hours and now needing to catch a ride myself. Life is what it is until it’s not.
Everything here is
temporary but all things with you Father God are eternal.
Thank you for the moments of peace I am allowed.
What a way to do unexpected much needed housekeeping. When those you have known for years get mean and bitter or let what is eating away at them and try to start a fight over something regarding prayer on my own space. My spiritually or prayer life is never up for debate. No prayer requests big or small is any less important than the next. You don’t like what I believe don’t follow me. You need help to be erased from co-mingling in my day to day no problem I’ll erase you in a heartbeat. I may never stop praying for your mean self, but I will not debate anything of who or what I believe. You see we all believe in something. I believe in Jesus Christ and the love, peace and harmony he died for. And all that he was and is. You want to believe you have to pick and choose true blessings and get nasty and degrading about it. Ba bye.
I am far from perfect, but I am blessed far beyond what this world and all the mean bitter people in it can give or take. Whatever! Sorry not sorry. My God no matter what has got this and me and all that is going on in my world.
