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=====April Verse of the month for the Mandisa Word Warriors found @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020.===== TBD and MSG version
Ephesians 1:4 (TBT)
4 And he chose us to be his very own, joining
us to himself even before he laid the foundation of the universe![a]
Because of his great love, he ordained[b]
us, so that we would be seen as holy in his eyes with an unstained innocence
Ephesians 1:4 (MSG)
3-6 How blessed is God! And what a blessing he is! He’s the Father of our Master, Jesus Christ, and takes us to the high places of blessing in him. Long before he laid down earth’s foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love, to be made whole and holy by his
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Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
1 Peter 2:24 NIV
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/v24tLxsxGHM “Overcomer” @ Mandisa
https://youtu.be/QurQEiOAQjA “Everything” @ TobyMac
https://youtu.be/9ikp86p-OsM “Who You Say I Am” @ Among The Thirsty
https://youtu.be/s7jXASBWwwI “I Surrender” @ Hillsong Worship
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you Father for
the air in these lungs, movement in this body, freedom of choice, freedom of
will and all that goes with it in this world that you allowed me up once again
to journey through.
Fighting forward sometimes more often than not fighting or trying to fight the elements on my own. Oh, how I surrender to you each and every day. More importantly your mercy that fills the hunger that only you can fill with the peace and love from an inside out depth so indescribable only those who have you within can relate.
When I stopped seeing all that was wrong and all the wrong that was happening about me every day; I could not pinpoint especially being so long ago. Having the blessing alone to know and see you in everything, giving the spirit to get back up fighting forward. Some call it being an overcomer, I just say thank you and please never stop having your way in me Jesus.
I pray when the days come and this mind finally goes, I never stop forgetting who I am and who you say I am in you Jesus. Just as I pray for the blood of my blood, bones of my bones. No matter what they think they are doing that is right or wrong; I want to know you more and beyond anything else want my bloodline to know and feel and live within the blessings only you give Jesus!
No matter the circumstances of yesterday, today or any tomorrow may their feet be on the path and all roads that lead to you. Sometimes those roads are broken and as a parent I will never be allowed to step in and step up or want to. Even when I want to fix and change things. May you wash over, through and every molecule of every being I am connected; guiding, protecting and allowing me and all to know you more. Have your way in me and them.
Jesus hear all the prayers and have mercy on all our missionaries in harms way as this spiritual war is starting all over again. Some say it has never stopped; but we know the more call out to you, the more the darkness tries to consume what is good.
Please be with all of those hiding in the villages, all in the hands of darkness near or far. Protect and lead your children Father God. Be with the current situations India, Africa, America, and every other country you allow souls to be breathe and practice humanity.
You are our only hope. If death of this world is the miracle to allow life to those who do not know you. Comfort those in the final moments for you are the Way maker, Leader, Promise Keeper, Protector, Father, Keeper, Creator You never stop working; may we never stop seeing and knowing you are with us. Shine your light in all the darkness!
No matter what my situation is no matter how often I want to quit, getting frustrated as a parent. Bored as a child in time out unable to go run filling my days with what I think is good. And yes even when it helps others, even letting so many know who you are. Falling short daily, as I get caught up in the here and now and the human side.
You have come to live within this being for more than I can ever be. Just as every other soul on this planet you dwell and are alive for those who call on you. You never stop for all that is good. So, no matter what the news says, no matter what those who are family, friends or even souls who care for us. May we know who you are getting back up each time we trip up or even get knocked down. Saying thank you and Jesus, show us how to just keep going until we are nothing but dust in the wind.
If this means doing without, forgiveness, loving the unlovable; getting dirty when sometimes it even hurts. So be it!
It is not about me. For the temporary pains and sorrow of this world even sometimes overwhelming. Are just that; temporary! Washed away in any deep breath we exhale.
Serenity Prayer God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next.
Amen.
No matter what storms in my life; may I never forget to turn to you and get back up every single time until you take this soul home and this vessel is no more.
May no matter what annoyances, discomforts and even truths that hurt like hell towards or with those you believe and care for; reflect their own free will and choice that unfortunately at times does not see past their own meism’s. May we not give up or give in on all that is good in you Father God. May we never stop seeing all the good you are Jesus. For there are so many being persecuted for just saying your name. Here and now we have freedoms that we hide behind the wall of the world.
Worried or concerned what those who are supposed to be caring family and friends will think. May we open our hearts to collide with all you are in mercy, grace and hope.
Trusting you in this vast land of freedoms to choose, to live, to love, to breathe in everything you are https://youtu.be/vi8nTe3uofE “Land of Color” @ Collide
Perhaps we are dreamers Jesus, those of us that wish to reach past the stars for all that is good, that is pure, all that is shining a light in hope. While the world considered of realists or label makers see just what is in front of them. Been there done that; sometimes still do. Yet, where will I be if all I have is that of what is already come and gone or never will be. If all I do is compete for what or who should be better and then in an instance just like is all gone.
There is nothing wrong in dreaming, nothing wrong with stumbling, nothing wrong with feeling. But there is so much more to see and want all you are Jesus. In you the music never stops.
This may be my mind maze short circuiting; but knowing where I have been and the promise of where I am going everything else in-between has no meaning if you are not within. I will do all I can even when I fall short to live in faith over fear every second of ever day you give me breath. For this I am thankful to know where this life has been given.
As I am up to the plate swinging for my life and the life of all you allow me to connect. Fill us up with all the good and love you are Jesus! Guide and protect and bring us together in unity as you are not done with us yet; and it has begun. Survival of the fittest starts within the depths of our souls. Never may we forget who sustains us. No matter how bad it this may hurt in any given point or time; may we come together in all you call us for.
Thank you for this day and all the organized chaos of my own little spot to that of all out of control around us. Unable to get to and care for family and friends, but right where you want us all to be. https://youtu.be/Sa1UdfpcSuQ “Peace Be Still” @ The Belonging Co. Feat. Lauren Daigle
Blessed be all who call your name Jesus Christ, son of the living God and Holy Spirit; creator of all the heavens and earth.
It is not about what was lost, it is not about missing pieces, lost loves or loved ones, broken pieces that we put all we are in the here and now and someone let us down, or shattered us from the inside out. It is not about that five minutes or 24 hours of pure physical stimulus that is all temporary. It is not about what was; or what we cannot seem to reach.
If we are unable to appreciate and have gratitude daily in even the little things that are temporary; why would we ever find lasting peace or joy in the everything we seek.
We must die to ourselves and live for and with Christ our King. In and through Him all things will be!
https://youtu.be/TYSJj-EHAAk “It’s About The Cross” @ The Ball Brothers
Date: 04/10/2020 Friday (Good Friday) Good Friday is a Christian holiday commemorating the crucifixion of Jesus and his death at Calvary. It is observed during Holy Week as part of the Paschal Triduum on the Friday preceding Easter Sunday and may coincide with the Jewish observance of Passover.
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Romans 5:6-8 NIV You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/3hwEhXwJ86g “Born Again” @ Third Day
https://youtu.be/le-TG4sRRiQ “There Will Be A Day” @ Jeremy Camp
https://youtu.be/dsiDukXIeVY “Revelation Song” @ Phillips, Craig & Dean
https://youtu.be/a1fFkPtOojQ “See The Light” @ TobyMac
https://youtu.be/RSbJPZLNIuc “Living Hope” @ Phil Wickham
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you Abba, for
allowing me up another day filled with opportunity and blessings.
As I get up today, blessed to have a day off allowing my mind to be clear out of the so-called norm of day to day. Taking my time, diving in not near enough in His word and truth on this holy day.
Thinking that swallow of really disgusting coffee in which I am unsure how or why I would have ever selected that brand. I am aware just how blessed I have been in this life and am still here and now. Even if I am not sure how I was chosen. Just a speck in this vast universe, a vapor that will be blown away as the dust returns.
Diving into my motivational movers and scriptures reminded those who know and have that deep personal relationship and allowed to sing, speak, draw and live out all that His love is. Are chosen for something greater than to just sit back and feel the pains of a condemned world.
He (God) did not come down in the form of man for any of whom He created to sit in darkness or a self-pity party or what was, what is, what we do not know will be. It does not matter how bad it hurts as we try to breathe in or out. Just breathe in Him and remember He was Pierced for our transgressions. Tortured, left hanging on that cross until He said “It Is Finished” https://youtu.be/Lb_HbAMRbeE @ Matt Papa
There is never now, past or future ever going to be enough I or anyone of this world; that could ever say, do or try to be worthy of such a sacrifice. If only we all realized just how blessed we truly are no matter where we sit, stand or lay.
What if even for a brief moment in time we acknowledged even a slight portion of God’s blessings; and repaid the days we are given with truth, kindness, morality, loyalty and respect not only for those around us but starting right within our own beings given breath. (FAITH OVER fear ALWAYS) Shake it off, get back up; Cry out to Jesus first and sometimes only Always!
Yes, even those who do not have it all together at times will shake their head, raising their hands in agreement. While others just laugh it off while ignoring the truths of who really is in charge. Just because they can and will get away with things that should not be for a period of time allowing them to think they are in control, invincible, untouchable.
Even for those who have been put in harm’s way, left broken and beaten barely holding on. Wondering why the God who created them that is supposed to be so good; is not repaying the evil with justice or healing them even showing them how and where to change.
Others just wandering in ignorance, while others thinking they have all the answers as they show the analytics, facts and figures about all the science, intricacies and absolutes they believe to be so true.
We, I may no longer need to chase demons, that which is temporary or that which robs us of life, but are given life by taking my place on the cross so I can live again; as it is written in John 3:16 The Passion Translation (TPT) 16 For this is how much God loved the world—he gave his one and only, unique Son as a gift.[a] So now everyone who believes in him[b] will never perish but experience everlasting life.
Footnotes:
- John 3:16 Or “God proved he loved the world by giving his Son.”
- John 3:16 Or “believe into him.” Salvation and regeneration must be by faith. True faith (Gr. pistis) has a number of components: acceptance, embracing something (someone) as truth, union with God and his Word, and an inner confidence that God alone is enough.
Many may never get this, but I pray especially in our here and now; we all look up and give thanks for all that we have been given and all that has been sacrificed for us to live. Even in this pandemic that surrounds us, consuming so many that will never have peace.
I pray we seek and allow piece to come live within here and now. No matter what or who has done or not done. Jesus is the reason we are here today.
Although even I will never understand why we must go through and experience some things that leave us hopeless, helpless, beaten or battered. I know looking back from the other side there is nothing we will experience that Jesus suffering was.
So, no matter it being what we have or do not; what our self-image toys with us for as even myself toying with the hairs on this head to not pleased somedays for who I see in the mirror.
He alone is worthy, and He alone chose me to be called his child worth more than anything this world can give or take.
Feeding me, leading me, allowing me to stumble to get back up knowing it is only what He alone gives that I see through the tears, temporary fears or even as he allows me to get past those playing in Satan’s lair.
How did I recently describe me to someone asking; mother, daughter, grandparent, sister, aunt, friend, servant, pen-pal, self-efficient, Jesus Freak and the list could go on and on. To know who the real you seeing all that is good. Nothing more, nothing less. That goes through the pains and motions daily just trying to maintain what is positive and light growing forward for me and those I have been blessed to be part of their lives. While walking the same unknown paths this world sometimes pulls out from under us.
Thank you, Jesus, for the strength and courage you alone have allowed me to fight on all through the years; even when I did not know it was you.
Thank you for all who have fed my spirit over these years, and those who have humbled me, those who have allowed me to learn how to get back up.
Thank you for the air in these lungs even on the day you took your last physical breath!
Guide me in your will. Now and any tomorrows I may have.
Date: 04/09/2020 Thursday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Hebrews 1:3 NIV
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/ABZj-utZdUs “Calling All Angels” @ Train
https://youtu.be/yVj8DogtbVY “Scars” @ TobyMac
https://youtu.be/jQotFpuIK0o “Fools Gold” @ Cochren & Co
https://youtu.be/kxfP1ZaaaP0 “The Human Side” @ Ryan Stevenson
https://youtu.be/B_m9sqR7MT0 “Mercy In The Dirt” @ Ryan Stevenson
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Show me Father even
in this space I am given; what is pleasing to you alone this day. You have blessed me again and I am up. Up early spending time: then falling deep
into sleep a bit finding it hard to move when I need to.
You allow me up to remember it is our throwback Thursday. Looking back of time long ago, a young mom of a beautiful son, girl just out of college for the first time, and going through some of my favorites when my son and daughter were little. Time with my niece and just days when I can get with family or friends.
Even knowing the day, you stop looking back we know the new tomorrow allowed will always be different. Remembering so long ago I did not know how I was ever going to survive. Always thinking I could not. Now I can look back and truly see what God gave me.
Try to explain that to those going through it; battling temptations from giving in, giving up to even that when there are those who allowed themselves to be convinced, they needed a little of this or a little of that to get through. Even that we need to stay in those abusive situations at times because we think we cannot do it alone.
I can assure you the only thing you ever really need is a deep relationship with and in Jesus Christ.
To do that no matter how perfect or messed up your world is right here and now.
Just accept Jesus Christ is real inviting him in your life right where you are. Building that relationship with him every moment you can of every single day. Digging into all the opportunities of reading the bible.
Yes, there are so many variations right on the network. I like Biblegateway.com and no I am not marketing them. But I like them online when writing; because as I am doing my devotionals I can go and pull up the same verse or story in all the different styles and really understand what it means, says or even what I see as I let my mind take me there.
We all no matter if we are walking with God or walking in the world thinking about nothing much or sucked into the cycle of life really sucking. The only peace that will ever matter does not come from anything materially, or that person you thought would rescue you. It comes from deep within when the living God feeds your spirit and the depths of your soul is well.
No matter if you are a punk rocker, hard rock, metal head, country, rap or modern day pop or even all of them wrapped up with your favorite Christian music artist painting the pictures and telling the stories of what was and is hope for tomorrows.
We are all here and we all get to choose what to believe and how we will handle the layers that come in a life of the world.
Sometimes it will be sneaking out in the night and doing whatever; sometimes its filling up on all the things we think are working until we need to keep repeating or filling the veins with something or someone that hurts us. Even working around the clock nonstop; getting educated and becoming what the world says we should be. Even those who spend their days and nights on their knees.
We are all going to be filled with the layers of unknown uncertainty in that roller coaster of highs and lows. In the end what are your memories coming from; what kind of peace do you have deep within.
I can assure you that you will never be the same again when you give your life over to Him! Jesus Our King.
Nope it doesn’t mean you won’t break for and from those closest to you; or just wishing you had that one. Even the world as we know it today; everyone is at risk, surrounded by sirens and all the unseen dangers.
Like that old Train song Calling All Angels. Where children have to play inside just to survive. Even then in some of their homes they are worse there than out on the streets where sickness, and darkness waits to consume them or us for that matter.
I won’t give up no matter how angry, or weary I get. Not on the one that matters who fills me with hope and the promises that will never be broken.
I know I have shared some of this in the past, but all through the bible you can read the truth. You can dig in yourself and find many more, but I can assure you His truth will set you free. Even in the darkness there will be no shadows.
1. He has promised to supply every need we have.
2. He has promised His grace is sufficient for us.
3. He has promised His children will not be overtaken by temptation.
4. He has promised victory over death.
5. He has promised all things work together for good to those who love and serve him faithfully(Romans 8:28)
I can assure I know what it means to be emotionally and physically broken. From sickness, injury at the hands of others. To self-destruction because of my own lack of self-worth. I can also tell you it is never to late to give it all to God; until it is too late because your vessel here and now has been shut down. And the abilities to think, speak and act willingly is taken away. Don’t wait; please. No matter what you have done, you cannot turn God’s love away. https://youtu.be/CPeY_RK7akk “No Matter What” @ Ryan Stevenson
What is the worst that can happen if you change your thoughts and start putting all your hope into Jesus?
For me it has kept me away of those that will cause or do harm; it has keep me at peace and filled with a love from the inside out and no longer broken thinking or chasing the wrong things.It gives me great purpose to see the beauty in blessings in every day He allows me up. From crazy music to beautiful harmonies or his nature singing in the distance.
Yes, I believe in family, that we are all made for someone. I believe there is God, your husband, your children and you. I believe and reaching out and helping where one can. I believe Heaven lets its light shine down and if we are not chasing the world; we are seeing the blessings that are yet to come.
I know we all do not have the perfect anything here and now. And that without a doubt I still get ticked and fight to not go back to that fighter being mad at the world or telling everyone to go somewhere.
Our human abilities are far beyond what we can see. Where we put our faith matters. Love, and peace matter! Showing others grace is hard but Jesus does so for us each and every day he allows us up.
No science although it can heal you, If God says not this time. Science did not create you or will it allow you to truly have a life.
As I pray for my own and all who do what they do that feeds my soul. I pray for all I am connected and all yet to come. During this time of unknowns to when we get to whatever is next.
Please take this time we are in a timeout during this holy week if you know Jesus already; and give him all the glory for all you have been blessed. Yelling it as loud as you can. If you do not know Him. Now is the time. It does not matter who or what you are. Redeem yourself to Jesus, change your ways believe in all that is good; make amends, seek forgiveness and forgive all others who have made you angry, hurt and lost. The only road to found is lost! It is never too late, knowing if there hadn’t been a darkness, I would have never seen the light! https://youtu.be/fw8Ovv_UjUs “Grave” @ Cochren & Co
Know this, we are worth far more than what this world will ever give or take. God created us from the dust and dust we will return. Yet he took the dirt and created and treated us for something greater than what we spin out of control chasing in this world. Walk with Him; he is waiting! We belong to Him regardless; fall apart if you need to and take His hand getting back up. Knowing that the process through Jesus is far better than anything leaving us empty.
If not do your best to be a good human and look out for those who cannot look out for themselves. Be kind, be wise and know now while you are breathing is the time none of us are promised tomorrow!
Jesus, for all those who have left I pray for the souls that were lost; I pray for all I am connected as I come before you in prayer with hope seeking forgiveness for my moments. May your will be done through this vessel Jesus; may all I try and do be pleasing to you alone first. May whatever my lessons reflect a blessing someone else can grow in you from.
Thank you for all my yesterday’s and this new day of opportunity no matter what comes of it.
Thank you, Jesus, for all the opportunities and souls used that feed my soul daily. Thank you in clarity that I am not marketing anyone person, place or thing. But sharing the possibilities sharing the light and the doorway that help me sustain and grow forward in hope. Be it Youtube.com, Bible.com, BibleGateway or the souls that have been blessed to share life through music that happen to feed my soul. Grateful for the Mandisa, Kirks, Toby’s, Ryan’s, Train and artist of yesterday and all the artists of today that feed my spirit towards you. Thank you for the peace you allow me. I pray the day the music stops here and now; I am on the other side dancing on your streets of gold. Thank you for all that I am in you; thank you for meeting me where I was the day I surrendered.
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Romans 8:38-39 (NIV) 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Exodus 33:14 (NIV) 14 The Lord replied, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
https://youtu.be/whRgkiOtTFQ “Resurrecting” @ Elevation Worship
https://youtu.be/PJbtWOSYjBM “God With Us” @ Terrian
https://youtu.be/ViBNqNukgzE “Open The Eyes Of My Heart” @ Paul Baloche
https://youtu.be/P3CVlv2dz3w “He Is With You” @ Mandisa
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you Jesus, for
your morning motivations and allowing me to know you are always with me. With us!
Waking, jumping up in the wee hours to hear all the loud commotion and noise on the other side of the house. To find a stray cat was outside the window and starting an argument with the boy of the house. No big deal just annoying that lately lots of strays showing up and around. But wat made me frantic for a few moments and very angry many more after.
That even during times when we should be abundantly cautious, some selfishly live for themselves not caring or communicating even for their own children. Leaving the house without a word in the middle of the night.
There is a time and place to be angry and I give it all to you Jesus. If not, I could truly hurt those, I love more than needs to occur in the here and now.
Concerned oh yes, but no more than the past 36 years.
It is not about me; I still have to make the most of each day I am given and still get up and do what I do to pay the bills and support the children that live in this house. So, whatever the dark heaviness that weighs on this being today. I know that God is with me and He alone will direct my steps, my words and my actions now and in the coming days.
So, as I get up and listen for the birds singing and the spirit within holding me together. I am still thankful even when things abruptly are not what they should be or chaotic unnecessary noise in the wee hours disrupts peaceful resting.
It is here I crawl in closer knowing your arms are what comforts and protects all that I am. My spirit, strength and will is blessed by you Jesus. So, no matter what I will search for you in my every view, thought and all that feeds this spirit. Be it motivational, music or just absorbing the spirit of others who are with you.
But yes, prayers are always a necessity especially when I get so angry. Those days when you want to punch and hug the one’s you love all at the same time.
I know times are hard for everyone with all this unknown; but God is with us! How or what the new normal will be for anyone of us is yet to be seen.
We all need to do our best in just keep growing forward towards the light and positivity knowing whatever is in the dark always comes to light.
God is with us; did I say that already? Jesus the son of man will rise again. Until he does allow him to live within you. If you cannot find the light, dig in and learn how to be one. Even if it is just a glimmer. Plant the seeds by knowing who Jesus is and what you mean to Him.
Tap in to all the available online resources for music, podcasts and reading materials.
Anyway, this day will be long, but I am blessed. I pray all that I am connected is guided and blessed in and with the will of God. Filled with peace, hope and all His love, mercy and grace.
As I soldier up and fight forward; give all I am to the one who allows me to be here. If I have air in these lungs, movement in this body, abilities to speak, listen and even type. I am Blessed! Nothing can change that!
We all want what we want, and so does the God who allows us to be here. Trouble is, not everyone get’s who is really in charge. Instead we suffer from selfish meism’s and remain always wanting and unhappy not acknowledging the blessings even right in front of us. We want more sometimes we want it all.
The fall out, we tend to not care or think about the wave of misfortunes that wash over and around those we are connected or come in contact with until it is too late, and we cannot go back.
I pray Lord every soul I am connected looks past themselves to you before it is too late. That they stop lying to themselves and those they circle up with. That they find more with you and less of the world. And when they do not; the aftermath for all left behind will be healed and given new life in you!
We need to stop chasing in and with the darkness….
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Romans 8:31 (NIV) More Than Conquerors
Hebrews 13:8 (CJB) 8 Yeshua the Messiah is the same yesterday, today and forever.
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Galatians 2:20 NIV
https://youtu.be/G0QZDdPxzyA “Red Letters” @ Crowder
https://youtu.be/8-ye3LYfoHQ “In The Hands Of The Potter” @ Casting Crowns
https://youtu.be/9OmYhgvwQa8 “I Am Loved” @ Mack Brock
https://youtu.be/TleYjvNqKGo “The Potter’s Hand” @ Hillsong Worship
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord, for this day and all you have allowed me up through this moment. Thank you for allowing me to know who you are Jesus. Although, this life of so much unknowns like that roller coaster ride where instead of having our hands high in the air we are holding on white knuckled for dear life with the bitter sweetness of what is about to come.
Sometimes it hurts really bad and we do not and will never understand, when others we are able to look back from the other side and realize how blessed we have been.
I gave my life into the Potters Hands so long ago; and many may not get what it is like to just want to be truly loved, needed and held. Sometimes even after we find you Jesus. We forget it is you that has us. Until something happens to us our those we love. Sometimes we miss it completely.
I Jesus, do not want to miss one moment of you in my life. Good, bad or indifferent. The here and now seeking your sounds, your visions and all the beauty or when the day comes, we get to go home in heaven and dancing in the streets of gold.
I am blessed no matter what overwhelming feeling consumes me. You know all those of almost, those of what was lost, what was hard, what left scars. What was so beautiful the visions never leave. What is so inspiring knowing if they can do that with just that; so can I in the place where I stand or sit.
Father God, I can talk about the here and now; the overwhelming emotions that somedays more than not lately well up inside. I can look back in history and see no matter what in the end; this will pass, and we will be alright.
No matter what our stubborn will we all have chooses to move towards. We are all blessed by you Jesus. We just need to acknowledge and allow you to walk with us for that inner peace that is needed in the darkest wars we think we are fighting our way through each day.
Peace unexplainable as you call me deeper still, calling me to love. That is who you are, and I am loved by you Father God. For this I am blessed beyond all measure. https://youtu.be/-ak0OoFBw3c “Good Good Father ” @ Chris Tomlin
Yes, to have that forever after, that lifetime companion. Comfort during the storms, someone to lay next to with my head on their shoulder or listening to the heartbeat. Just to talk, just to breathe in the essence of what we are all made for. True unison and love for that one soul. Not lust, not 15 minutes of anything less.
However, I am who you say I am Father God; and how I handle that from the day I was consumed by you to the end of my days is directed by your will and all you allow.
I have had temporary all my life; I refuse anything less than forever. I am who you allow me to be and who you say I am. For this I am blessed. Wanting nothing less for those I love and care for or about. Respect, loyalty walking with that moral compass in hand. Knowing it is okay if we lose our way, but we always know who has us and get back up when we fall in the ravines of life.
Our choices belong to us, yet we forget many times the results that come after are not always what we think they should be. We pick and choose what we want to stay true to the end for and to. People, places, things, cleaning up after the waves or leaving the messes for others.
Even as the choices of the current world situation. Some still selfishly traveling just out and about circulating the virus that if we just be still. But instead we think we are invincible, and not only do we end up sickly needing help; but we put the death sentence on everyone we come in contact with. Be it consuming the same six feet of air or whatever we touch and come in contact with.
Many undeservingly serving openly to be the hands and feet of God’s heart and hope; while more than not while others out there pretending, selfishly stealing whatever they can including life that was not theirs to take. Sometimes the games people play may seem successful in the moment but in the end the burn will be far greater than the temporary pleasures of a thief in the night, those pretenders, imposters, in the face to face or virtual realms. It is what is what it is until it is not. For sure!
This bittersweet life, here to say that Jesus, you are my God, and nothing will ever change that. Nothing will ever give me the peace and abundant love from the inside out than the blessing of you alone. For this any day I am given I am blessed.
Mind you when this pandemic finally passes, I so pray that I work smarter not harder; that I step up in faith only for what you allow and not what this heart calls me out of the desert for.
More importantly that whatever I serve or do; I do it with the purpose and everlasting love of you Father god. For the here and now blessed another day of opportunity I lift all am and all I am connected to you Jesus. Your will be done!
https://youtu.be/6CKCThJB5w0 “Here I Am to Worship/The Call ” @ Hillsong Worship
Thank you for the messes that turned into messages, the memories and unfiltered laughter, the tears that washed away so much. The hope of what is to come. Thank you for loving me for me Jesus.
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
we are all the work of your hand.
Philippians 4:13 (MSG) Content Whatever the Circumstances
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
1 John 3:16 NIV
https://youtu.be/6oZuNkT7_UM “Who I Am” @ Blanca
https://youtu.be/NTdFEZhjiko “The Gospel” @ Ryan Stevenson
https://youtu.be/fPvsavY7lnc “Until Grace” @ Tauren Wells | Rascal Flatts
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you Lord for
the birds singing upon rising this day again.
Even if the sirens are more often then I would like to know about.
Close to a highway, in the path towards our hospitals. Not the inner city of what once was, but still more than enough.
How the truth of this world spins and hurts. Trying to clear my mind and not dwell on all that is around me. Not watching the news, trying more and more to stay off social media and when I do go it is to grasp the possibilities of hope others are sharing this very day.
You Lord have always been faithful; even if I never could see it until grace found me as well.
Far from perfect nor ever do I want to be. Jesus you have given me life, healing and a greater peace than anything I could ever deserve or have imagined.
I pray the days when I can circle up with my brothers and sisters in Christ again. Feeding my spirit that hungers for the love and interactions.
As I go through these days under the worldly gaze. Now we must prove our worthiness from a far just to make sure we are doing everything according to the standards making sure we do not suffer losses at the hands of those who may not know who you are.
It is what it is until it is not! Be thankful for the here and now, be thankful for everything you are blessed and what you have got. Be thankful you are not being held accountable for all those things you did; or all those you made promises yet left behind and forgot.
Redemption comes with a price. Honesty, purity, obedience in Jesus Christ. For he alone paid with His life.
For what, to hear the on-going cries, watching the destruction of humanity in its materialistic ways and lies.
What are we really doing during this time? Where is our compass, our daily Guide? What is that noise you allow out of that mouth. Cursing intensely, seeking attention or just creating your own demise.
Sometimes it hurts deeply when we are made to say goodbye. But walking with God, holding us up, will always be what is right.
Judge not, from it; not me trust me on that. I know who I am, who I belong. But that will never stop the struggles with how cold and lonely this world can really be.
I never planned any of this for me. You never really know what you have until it is gone. You never really know what you do not know. Until you walk in truth with God.
Whatever tomorrow may be, like everyone else I have to just wait and see. Seeking the light only He can shine. Brighter than diamonds or the stars in the sky.
Thankful for all I am, abilities to care and love from the inside. Arms wide open, seeking truth and purpose as I wait to get to the other side.
Come soon, show us what next; for if I am unable to connect, feeding this spirit. I have already died.
Be with all your people father. Your will be done in my life and all that I am. All I am connected, all I can do, all that I can’t.
Thank you, Jesus!
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
And will call upon the name of the Lord.
April Verse of the month for the Mandisa Word Warriors found @ @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020) Below are two versions of what that says.
Ephesians 1:4 (MSG)
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
2 Corinthians 5:14-15 NIV
For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.
https://youtu.be/rC74OwzH0iU “Yesterday is Gone” @ KDrew
https://youtu.be/No-fUfWbvIw “Just Give Me A Reason” @ Pink ft. Nate Ruess
https://youtu.be/rC74OwzH0iU “Piece Of My Heart” @ Janis Joplin
https://youtu.be/WXV_QjenbDw “Me and Bobby McGee” @ Janis Joplin
https://youtu.be/9_y6nFjoVp4 “Baby Love” @ The Supremes
https://youtu.be/nyLrl0SWe7s “Even If” @ MercyMe
https://youtu.be/64Nfj85Z6v4 “Different” @ Micah Tyler
https://youtu.be/oSw7bmqFwP8 “Empty Grave” @ Zach Williams
https://youtu.be/pF3CESXW6LQ “Face to Face” @ Zach Williams
https://youtu.be/uZk0AnTBcTA
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
https://youtu.be/J31gvTI8exc “A Burning Prayer for Protection (10
Powerful Minutes)” @
Grace for Purpose
I pray whatever comes next you keep protecting the meek, the innocent, the givers, of this planet, all those Jesus that are called your children including those that are suffering from the historical sins of their heritage.
As yesterday is clearly gone and tomorrow is fully unknown.
Lord may I, may we; seek you face down in our mind, body and spirit now and the rest of all our days here on this earth.
We all need to see your glory, the creator of for all the sunrises, sunsets, vast oceans, green mountains and rolling fields. All of us no matter where we are. Be it in the beautiful homes lavished with every luxury, that shanty shack looking back. Just that rental of that tiny camper where memories of a young mom a kid, working her way through life for and with the blessings you allow; including a beautiful son who in a dream you said to name Joshua.
No, the riddles mean nothing to those who do not understand. But I have lived and seen much of this blessed land.
We truly did not appreciate and reflect gratitude and for this evil has opened the door and darkness is raging wild leaving us unsettled. That dream: now I know why it shook me to the core.
Please show me what next Father God, what should I be doing, remaining still or doing more.
It is so very hard watching this family of mine come and go. But I believe in you, the God of miracles no matter what that looks like for me going forward; to or in this vast world.
https://youtu.be/5vUvi-A75BU “Miracles” @ Jesus Culture
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
But you were not willing,
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