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=====April Verse of the month for the Mandisa Word Warriors found @Mandisa Word Warriors (http://bit.ly/wordwarriors2020.===== TBD and MSG version
Ephesians 1:4 (TBT)
4 And he chose us to be his very own, joining
us to himself even before he laid the foundation of the universe![a]
Because of his great love, he ordained[b]
us, so that we would be seen as holy in his eyes with an unstained innocence
Ephesians 1:4 (MSG)
3-6 How blessed is God! And what a blessing he is! He’s the Father of our Master, Jesus Christ, and takes us to the high places of blessing in him. Long before he laid down earth’s foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love, to be made whole and holy by his
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Date: 04/25/2020 Saturday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Colossians 1:27-28 (NIV) To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the
glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory. He
is the one we proclaim, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so
that we may present everyone fully mature in Christ.
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version,
NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Hebrews 12:2 (NIV) 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.
For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat
down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/j25JqWgjDF4 “I Know” @Big Daddy Weave
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Will you make your day count today?
He who gives you the air in your lungs and life in a vessel used to travel this earth while here awaits you. How will you make this day count?
He who gives you the air in your lungs and life in a vessel used to travel this earth while here awaits you. How will you make this day count?
Thankful Jesus for another day of opportunities, that I turn to you seeking
your direction and all what and how! Over
the years I have gotten good about keeping my distance from the day to day
nonsense that sometimes we find ourselves in.
You know pointing out everyone else’s faults or talking smack or gossip
about what is or should be according to my own perspectives.
Working daily trying to keep my house clean from the drama that so quickly
can set in. Lord you know we have our
own at any given time. One immersed
believer surrounded by one that chases what the world thinks and the battle how
or what the children should or should not be.
How easily I could say enough hit the road and go live in my little corner
and boy there are many days I would love to do that.
However, I have been blessed Lord through and by you, to have survived the
hands of the world and the school of hard knocks. Layered up with the moments of displeasure
looking in the mirror; yet knowing what you have given me deep within is worth
more than anything this world casts out as the label for what they see.
All my life alone until you came in my life; Lord you are who stays. For this there is no greater blessings. https://youtu.be/QPwd_TQpsHY “The God Who Stays” @Matthew West
Even if we do not like what we see in any living soul; perhaps this is the
point that not judge or fight trying to make them like anything of this world
including our vision. But we take that
soul directly back to you!
As we find ourselves purging and cleaning all those things we no longer
need; locked up the dwellings we are
given. May we also take time to purge
all that clutters our minds our hearts. All
that take up room making us feel crowded, uncomfortable. Unable to move much
less move forward. Just by giving it all to our awesome God who never changes. Who was, who is and who is coming~
Dear Jesus, as we are speaking to you from our hearts, with our eyes even
with our words. Please forgive us for
not having faith that You, who never change would exist or be willing to come
and live within us.
May we come to know the air we breathe is yours? https://youtu.be/tTI8HpyDbeE “Breathe” @Rebecca St James
Jesus, I want to know you more, I want to know God the Father and to do
that I have been blessed to meet you right here, right now. Please show me, show us how to meet you
right where we are!
Guide our actions, steps, words and all deeds. May we become more in you and less of what
the world says we should be. May all
who I am connected see and want the abundant love that you give.
May the strength in action that I am allowed each day you have given me air
in these lungs and the abilities to get up where we sleep; always purpose to
your will Jesus?
Our lives are far beyond see no evil, speak no evil and say no evil. Our lives were created in love, for love. May we be calmed in this unforeseen storm and
protected through all those we are living through right here right now.
May we rise up and dance for you alone when you release those shackles from our hearts releasing the spirit of you within us. https://youtu.be/V7eZD3TKn_M “Shackles” @Mary Mary
God thank you for allowing me to know even a glimpse of who you are. May we all tap into your son Jesus for that uncommon
courage that we walk right by daily falling into the traps doubt, discouragement,
sadness and even hate.
I know there is no way I personally will see the world giving every praise
to our God; but Jesus I so believe in the beauty that could be if we all stop,
and think giving praise and lifting up and not condemnation.
From the children to our ancestry, every word of worship Lord release the
love shining away all darkness. In the
world, and in me. May we let love win
Father God! https://youtu.be/SKWm0bGZlDU “Let Love Win” @Carrolton Band
Purposing to be the light when we cannot see the light https://youtu.be/a1fFkPtOojQ “See The Light” @TobyMac
Lord may we come together in you as
we fight the good fight and maintain what is necessary to protect and care for
our families and all the blessings you have given us to date.
May we stay the course, digging deep into you Jesus, not our own selfish
ambitions. Jesus light the sign for the
crossroads we stand. What was will
never be again, what is will soon go behind us and what can be depends on the
choices and where we purpose to make.
If we are not taken out, it is not too late for us to give all we are to
you Father God, for you and seeking all you want us to be for all in this world
no matter what they say or see.
May your Praise pour out across your Nations Jesus?
As for me Lord, may I have the ability to keep getting back up and fighting
forward; shaking off what does not matter, and pushing through all that will
make a difference. Forgiving and
letting go of what never was and grasping tightly to you as a child who never
wants her father to leave.
You Father God are the only Father I have ever known. For this I am blessed even in the moments this
world of loneliness tries consuming me.
Keep me and all I connect real Jesus.
Everything happens for a reason.
It is not my place to chase down why, but to avoid what should not be.
Thank you for this day, for what I am, what I am not. Thank you for the inspiration, lessons and all
the in between every day given.
Come Jesus; show me; show all I am connected what next.
Thank you for all my yesterdays; thank you for today.
Father for all that washes over me, trying to consume me; take it and make
it free. For all that should be, all
that should not; make me whole guiding all that I am for you not caring what
the world will be. Every day given, making
it count until the day or night comes you finally allow this train to stop, and call me up; call me out. Perhaps the bigger things for some are
exactly what the world says is none.
With everything or nothing; without you Jesus Christ in this life. Without you there is no such thing; there is
none! Please have mercy on our daughters
and our sons.
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Date: 04/24/2020 Friday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
For you know that it
was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed
from the empty way of life handed down to you from your ancestors, but with the
precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/h3g0ZEKUxgE “Spending Time With God” @Joyce Meyer
https://youtu.be/9tivseVZbnY “Need You Now” @Plumb
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Wow where did the night go or for that matter the week already. It seems the weeks stuck in this house are flying
by quicker then getting up and driving in the hustle and bustle every day.
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me up even in the wee hours with all that
noise from storms that are blowing through.
If he allows you up, with air in your lungs, vision to see, ears to hear;
you are blessed with purpose and abundant opportunities even when we cannot
see.
Many do not get this option!
We tend to focus on all the stagnant, static and negative. Someone told me long ago; we can have a
hundred good things happen on any given day and we will forget almost all of
them. When one bad or negative thing
happens. We get stuck on what went
wrong instead of locking in all that goes right.
I can assure you, sometimes those negative things that rob our spirit can
rock our world. Pulling our feet right out from under us and
taking our breath away.
Sometimes depending where and who we are surrounded. It happens more often leaving us in that rut
we seem to never get out. Listening to
those around us and soon starting to look for the things the world gives us to
make things better.
However, we find nothing is working.
Been there, done that, and yes wrote the book. I can tell you what it is like to be beaten,
broken, lied to, cheated on, unemployed with two small children, never knowing
what or how I will get things next. I
know what it is like to trust in those from a young age that we all should run
as fast and far away as we can.
God has given me the ability to not be just another statistic and consumed
by all the things this world has.
I do not know why he chose me; but he did, and I am so blessed to know I
finally got it.
There is nothing you can do or say that will fill you with life and peace.
That only purposefully seeking Jesus and asking forgiveness
while ask Him to walk with you daily.
Well that anything of this world can fill you up with more peace and
blessings than that which He gives.
I can only tell you to dive in and see for yourself. It does not mean the storms will not come
and the moments of hurt, and pain won’t show up. That people will suddenly be these fully
transparent honest, selfless. No, we will
still be let down, hurt, and injured but we learn how not to hold onto it. We are filled with a peace that is
unexplainable.
Yes, we need to surround ourselves with positive, brothers and sisters
willing to dive in and grow forward in Christ.
But if we do not have those to connect.
Do not hold back; dive in and ask Jesus to direct yours steps and show you
what next. The who, the what and the
when to move.
Seek the blessings and messages you are supposed to take away from every
situation. Good, bad or
indifferent. Even If! Even When!
Yes, even during a Pandemic and the world is put in this ultimate time out
and no one really knows. Even with the
tears and your praying for those prodigal children to come back. Even for all those things put in front of you
that hurt like hell and you want to fix; but just have no means to make a
difference.
The greatest of kings will fall, the one who was least expected, had the
least education, considered dirty filthy rags, the least of anything much less
these. Will reflect the richest in all
this world.
How do I know; I just do. It does
not matter that your body is breaking down; that you wake up and wonder what is
going on when things are not right. Or
if your setting sail with your favorite people, to your favorite island with
your favorite performers all around.
If I could make time last forever the first thing, I would like to do is
save all that has ever been good. But the
dreamer I always have been knows words cannot make wishes come true. The only
thing I would bottle up is every moment to play back for all to see every
second and moment that you Jesus heard my prayers and saved me and gave me
strength getting me past what I could not do on my own. Unlike the worldly day to day chasing love,
chasing all that will make life better.
https://youtu.be/Of4i1aaBXm8 “If You
Could Read My Mind” @Gordon
Lightfoot
Jesus has released the chains upon this soul. Even on the days stress from the phone calls
of those loved ones I cannot get to, behaviors from those you know were not raised
up that way, all the negative news and reflections that feed our minds from
news, social media, radio and sometimes even our neighbors. All those things we want so badly, and God
says not yet or no and we do not understand why something that seems so simple
is so far out of reach.
I am so very thankful I am able to
know and experience the fact I am “Perfectly
Loved” https://youtu.be/BzQtnKNAk88
@Courtnie Ramirez Even more so that I can lift my eyes, my hands and my
heart to you Jesus. I am giving you all I am!
“With
Lifted Hands” https://youtu.be/hBEyUsB7olI
@Ryan Stevenson
God has a way to just show up and show clarity even when things do not make
sense. It is almost like being lost in a
dark tunnel yet God’s like shining the light allowing you to emerge refreshed
as your coming up out of the water looking at all the storms left behind you with
the path reflecting everything going forward will be okay even if it is not
okay.
You have to live it to understand it. For this I am blessed to have that instant replay
knowing where I have been and the promise of where I am going. Thank You Jesus for choosing me; Lord find me faithful “Find Me Faithful” https://youtu.be/VhCb094cGO4 @Ryan Stevenson
ft. Amy Grant
Thank you for all the unseen and the direction you lead me Lord. Thank you for the blessing of freedom of will
and choice and never giving up on me.
More so that day I finally got it and met you right where you were. All those times when I thought I couldn’t
because of the fear of failing or being dominated by something worse than I had
already made it through. For that
transition period and all that I still find myself to work through on any given
day. So, what if I stumble. “What
If I Stumble” https://youtu.be/kg6HedZ4xGs
@DC Talk I am so thankful for all the times I have face planted,
and you have allowed me up healing the wounds from the inside out.
I am sure I have made fools of others as I made fools of myself along this
journey. But I am blessed to know it,
talk about it and move on. For that I give
all the thanks back to God as many are not strong enough to accept His
invitation and throw their lives away to this vast world. Strung out, tied up, locked up or down and
out on skid row not ever caring to be their best self that Jesus intended. Who knows maybe that is it right where they
are.
Thank you for this day Lord; may all I say, all I view, all I hear, all I
am consumed be pleasing to your will and not that of my own. Guard and protect all I am connected; please
come down and wash this world clean of the impurities, healing all suffering
with this virus; open our eyes Lord to you.
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New
King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
Psalm 46:10 (NIV) 10 He says,
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will
be exalted in the earth.”
Romans 8:1 (NIV) Life Through the Spirit
8 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in
Christ Jesus,
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Date: 04/23/2020 Thursday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
It is written: “‘As
surely as I live,’ says the Lord, ‘every knee will bow before me; every tongue
will acknowledge God.’”
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/CKRF8UihM5s “I Will Rise” @Chris Tomlin
https://youtu.be/c24En0r-lXg “I Lift My Hands” @Chris Tomlin
https://youtu.be/in1uxSpvsw0 “Fighting For Me” @Riley Clemmons
https://youtu.be/6KH2ZzzEZFg “Wanted” @Danny Gokey
https://youtu.be/7KLQ2AXQmtA “Holy Water” @We The Kingdom
https://youtu.be/mQepLntxjMc “Heart Of God” @Capital City Music
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Father God, for allowing me up, with movement in this body,
visions to see, and a clear mind; even when I have no clue how this day will
go.
Thank you for allowing me to be me. Loving, responsible, loyal, respected, and respectable.
With all the strength and courage, you
give every day that comes from only you.
Though I may not
always reflect the salt and light you created us all to be. I have always kept
the fight going forward for the worth is more than any sacrifice.
There is nothing
that will ever be done on this vast land; that is worth more than what you have
already put up as collateral for us, Christ our King.
Thank you,
Jesus, for never giving up on me even when I cannot see what is front of me. Or that sometimes holding on to long what should
be behind me.
Thank you for
being with me through it all even when it so hard to hear you are calling.
Lord though you
allowed it to rain 40 days and 40 nights flooding all that you created, and
this time of pandemic feels somewhat the same.
Where we are
all helpless only this time at the hands of mankind.
Come Jesus,
wash this world clean wiping away every tear and every viral opportunity
waiting to happen. Wash away all that is physically and spiritually unclean!
You are the way maker, the Alpha and
Omega.
Jesus: we do not want things to be as they
were.
We want the world to light up being and doing
your good works, in all that you are and free.
The rich
serving the poor everywhere, not just what is easy or convenient for them.
You lord walked through and with the least of
these always. May we lay down our materialistic
security and put our faith and action with you.
For all who
beat themselves up due to trying and what seems to be failing; to those who
just feel so alone and invisible; to those continually giving it all they got
and not getting anywhere.
You know us all
Lord; fill us with your love and light spawning hope in the new day dawning.
It is okay to just
say no, and stop being burnt out; perhaps this time is making us aware. Where has all we so freely give away, gotten
us?
We cannot get
to heaven by good works. We are not Godly by anything we do and absolutely not
really following God or true followers of
Jesus while we are out chasing our own version of fame being 15 minutes
or 15 years.
After all God
is God and we are never going to be!
Yes, we all
have perspectives and dreams.
What flow from
this mind maze of my own on any given day is a roller coaster beyond anything known? From holding back what I cannot reveal to a
glimpse of truth of this life or even those moments I am playing a part trying
to make a fairy tale.
Awareness yours
or mine what does it matter? When the truth is far more than being that world
traveler in leisure, works or deed.
Far more than
throwing cash at this or that. Just as
it takes more than just sitting their crying pity out of what goes wrong. It is takes far more than just words,
actions even a song.
It is the
choice we must all make towards the depths of hell or the ever-lasting life in
Jesus. Surrendering all that we have
been and all that we are. It is a pure
heart thing!
Making the best
of any situation not trying to do whatever we must at the expense of others
just to fulfill what you want or do not want others to see.
Thank you for
this day Lord, no matter where it takes me.
Guard, protect and lead me! Lead
all I am connected. Keeping it eternal
not only what I can see. Filling all I
am with truth and clarity. My word for
2020, wow it was clarity! So aware
right now of all that I cannot see. Knowing
You alone Jesus hold the winning hand.
Ultimately!
Thank you for
this day with prayers for many more.
Protection and guidance for all my connections. Trust is what we need because none of us
have the answers Jesus. Only You, my
King only you. Fill us with all that
is your will. Allowing us to pick up
the moral compass and shout your praise out loud.
Over and
over! It will always be you even when
the worldly music stops. The orchestra
of the heavens are playing loudly Your love is our redeemer.
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version,
NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Who am I, my Master God,
and what is my family, that you have brought me to this place in life? But
that’s nothing compared to what’s coming, for you’ve also spoken of my family
far into the future, given me a glimpse into tomorrow and looked on me, Master God, as a Somebody. What’s left for
David to say to this—to your honoring your servant, even though you know me,
just as I am? O God, out of the
goodness of your heart, you’ve taken your servant to do this great thing and
put your great work on display. There’s none like you, God, no God but you, nothing to compare with what we’ve
heard with our own ears. And who is like your people, like Israel, a nation
unique on earth, whom God set out to redeem as his own people (and became most
famous for it), performing great and fearsome acts, throwing out nations and
their gods left and right as you saved your people from Egypt? You established
for yourself a people—your very own Israel!—your people forever. And you, God, became their God.
So now, great God,
this word that you have spoken to me and my family, guarantee it forever! Do
exactly what you’ve promised! Then your reputation will be confirmed and
flourish always as people exclaim, “The God-of-the-Angel-Armies,
the God over Israel, is Israel’s God!” And the house of your servant David will
remain rock solid under your watchful presence. You, my God, have told me plainly,
“I will build you a house.” That’s how I was able to find the courage to pray
this prayer to you. God, being the
God you are, you have spoken all these wonderful words to me. As if that
weren’t enough, you’ve blessed my family so that it will continue in your
presence always. Because you have blessed it, God,
it’s really blessed—blessed for good!
Salt and Light
13 “Let me tell you why you are here. You’re here to be
salt-seasoning that brings out the God-flavors of this earth. If you lose your
saltiness, how will people taste godliness? You’ve lost your usefulness and
will end up in the garbage.
14-16 “Here’s another way to put it: You’re here to be light, bringing
out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going
public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers,
you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you
on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light
stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to
others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in
heaven.
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Date: 04/22/2020 Wednesday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/AE_NyEOcmIo “Why Do You Worry” @Pastor Steven Furtick
https://youtu.be/L3HQMbQAWRc “Don’t Worry Be Happy” @Bob Marley
Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
Genesis 1:26-27 (NIV) 26 Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,[a] and over all the creatures that move along the ground.” 27 So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
Romans 8:6 (NIV) 6 The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.
Proverbs 19:21 (NIV) 21 Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you for rising me up again this new day Father God.
It is amazing how when I start this journey of what I am tapping into, it ties together. This morning I was diving into the cycle of worry and all those things we have on our minds.
The first thing I did of course was go out and find my music motivators and Bob Marley was my pick; only to seek a little while later and deeper and the linked message from Pastor Steve selected came in to play; and how you tie together Jesus; when never hearing his message until now he is referring to the same Bob Marley tune.
So where is this message taking me today.
The fact yesterday I was just in a funk trying to shut down and shut everything off; so much so I never completed my day in appreciation.
The layers of anxiety coming across for all that what I cannot do for those in need; the layers of frustration of those who are not me and managing their lives in ways I would not; and the mom coming out big time.
Honestly even Tuesday kids in Motion and we were on week two of Prayer bootcamp and teaching our kids about worry and what God says. Matthew 6:25-34 (TPT)
Would I be telling lies if I said I was not overwhelmed with worry. (Yes) Listen if I spent more than five minutes trying to sort things out and come up with an answer or just feeling helpless and concerned for those that are truly layered up.
As you read some of the communication going out amongst family, and just the day to day I deal with a selfish child. This mamma gets fired up; when if it is time and they decide they have it under control no matter how good or bad I envision the direction they are going. I know my God in the end has my grandchildren. So, when this child of mine either crashes and burns or moves out and fully has it together. My God has all of me and those littles belong to Him as well.
Trust me when I say I do not walk on eggshells; but I do struggle to hold my tongue especially during this time where our government says stay put. Being more discouraged knowing this adult child of mine does not listen to authority and puts herself at risk as well as those around her just being out and about all hours. I do not dare go off on her at this time as I do not want my sidekick taken and put directly into Satan’s firepit. Which is just where he would love to see me upset over.
The devil has so many ways to set bad things in motion. He targets everyone, at any time. If he cannot get directly to you; he will go through all those you care most about.
This world journey has always been hard; and yes, I stepped up long back and took control where I just could not watch what happen to me; happen to my grandchildren.
I raised my children up in truth; and yes, God was part of their early lives then they walked away; my daughter came back in forth and now foolishly thinks she has a choice or time. We are all one step in or out of the devil’s sandbox. We must give all we are, and anything connected to our Lord, Jesus Christ.
So very thankful to all those who walk with Christ and how they share their talents of music, messages and hope and truth. Some I will never know, some very close and some just connections. I am blessed beyond it all.
https://youtu.be/bdLQ1tv6F5k “Morning Meditation” @Pastor Al Squitieri New Life Christian Church
Beyond anything I feel as I have lost control or see will be going out of control and things, I do not want to see anyone I care for go through. God’s truth is far louder, more powerful, and full of more truth than anything the devil can ever try to convince any of us.
Truth is I cannot save anyone. Never could never be able to; if I do or have done anything in the past that has been a blessing to help someone in their lives. That was Jesus; not me.
If I hit the floor and he helped me back up, it is exactly that.
I do not want to see anything happen to anyone; especially those I am connected. The thought of anyone hurting or suffering; especially when it is your elderly parent or a child.
Fact is no one knows what tomorrow will bring. We plan all day long; but ultimately God is in control. Good, bad, or indifferent.
Yes, we should be taking care of the vessels that we are given.
Yes, we should be purposing to stay out of harms way, and not being out all hours of the day or night.
Yes, we should all be doing our part working and walking with a purpose.
However, we all get to choose, and if we choose to do things and not care about ourselves enough or those that we are blessed with. No one can ever do it for you!
If we think we can pick and choose when to take care of ourselves and wait till the last minute when we are beat down, broken and falling apart. Sad is it may be, but we will suffer the pains that our bodies and all that we have become give us until they just stop working all together.
Far from perfect, I have had it all together and been blessed and given up for stupid reasons over and over. It is what it is; I will never claim perfection, but I will always keep trying until I cannot any longer.
Anyway, lying awake wondering when the kid would come in and realizing it is not just this pandemic that is going to have lasting changes once everything passes. I do not know how any of us including me will end up in the end.
But as long as he gives me the blessing of breath to get up each day. I will do my best not to be consumed by all these things I have no control over.
One thing I will say that I can change is getting back to boundaries. Loving people for who they really are and leave it at that.
No connection necessary; pray and appreciate, breathing in all the good their aurora shines. Consuming all that is good and praying for all that just cannot come near me. Selfish boundaries.
I will never stop loving those I love; or caring and I am not fooling anyone including myself. I will not stop hurting for them either. But my time here and now is far more important than it ever was. For any I am left into tomorrows. Well I would rather spend it purposing the will of God and all that is good. Then caught up in worldly games that are not only temporal, but we all lose in the end.
God knows all things, hears all prayers, and allows each of us to choose.
Choose wisely for eternity like yesterday!
No matter how much good, how much bad, pain, sorrow or laughter and excitement. Cause just like that we are just a vapor gone or left with nothing.
That is about it for this one tired and weary soul.
As I fight not to disappear but remove myself into Him. With prayers and hopes of healing and well-being for all that is good. For myself and all I am connected. Much love and Peace in Christ now an always.
https://youtu.be/qqP9YpfVscU “Lay It All Down” Tell All My Friends @Will Reagan & United Pursuit
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Date: 04/22/2020 Wednesday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
For since the creation
of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have
been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are
without excuse.
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/AE_NyEOcmIo “Why Do You Worry” @Pastor Steven Furtick
https://youtu.be/L3HQMbQAWRc “Don’t Worry Be Happy” @Bob Marley
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version,
NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Genesis 1:26-27 (NIV) 26 Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in
our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in
the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,[a] and over all the creatures that move along
the ground.” 27 So
God created mankind in his own image, in
the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
Romans 8:6 (NIV) 6 The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind
governed by the Spirit is life and peace.
Proverbs 19:21 (NIV) 21 Many are
the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s
purpose that prevails.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you for rising me up again this new day Father God.
It is amazing how when I start this
journey of what I am tapping into, it ties together. This morning I was diving into the cycle of
worry and all those things we have on our minds.
The first thing I did of course was go
out and find my music motivators and Bob Marley was my pick; only to seek a
little while later and deeper and the linked message from Pastor Steve selected
came in to play; and how you tie together Jesus; when never hearing his message
until now he is referring to the same Bob Marley tune.
So where is this message taking me
today.
The fact yesterday I was just in a funk
trying to shut down and shut everything off; so much so I never completed my
day in appreciation.
The layers of anxiety coming across for
all that what I cannot do for those in need; the layers of frustration of those
who are not me and managing their lives in ways I would not; and the mom coming
out big time.
Honestly even Tuesday kids in Motion and
we were on week two of Prayer bootcamp and teaching our kids about worry and
what God says. Matthew 6:25-34 (TPT)
Would I be telling lies if I said I was
not overwhelmed with worry. (Yes) Listen if I spent more than five minutes trying to sort things out and
come up with an answer or just feeling helpless and concerned for those that
are truly layered up.
As you read some of the communication going
out amongst family, and just the day to day I deal with a selfish child. This mamma gets fired up; when if it is time
and they decide they have it under control no matter how good or bad I envision
the direction they are going. I know
my God in the end has my grandchildren.
So, when this child of mine either crashes and burns or moves out and
fully has it together. My God has all of
me and those littles belong to Him as well.
Trust me when I say I do not walk on eggshells;
but I do struggle to hold my tongue especially during this time where our government
says stay put. Being more discouraged knowing this adult
child of mine does not listen to authority and puts herself at risk as well as those
around her just being out and about all hours.
I do not dare go off on her at this time as I do not want my sidekick
taken and put directly into Satan’s firepit.
Which is just where he would love to see me upset over.
The devil has so many ways to set bad
things in motion. He targets everyone,
at any time. If he cannot get directly
to you; he will go through all those you care most about.
This world journey has always been hard;
and yes, I stepped up long back and took control where I just could not watch
what happen to me; happen to my grandchildren.
I raised my children up in truth; and yes,
God was part of their early lives then they walked away; my daughter came back
in forth and now foolishly thinks she has a choice or time. We are all one step in or out of the devil’s
sandbox. We must give all we are, and anything connected
to our Lord, Jesus Christ.
So very thankful to all those who walk
with Christ and how they share their talents of music, messages and hope and
truth. Some I will never know, some
very close and some just connections.
I am blessed beyond it all.
https://youtu.be/bdLQ1tv6F5k “Morning Meditation” @Pastor Al Squitieri New Life Christian Church
Beyond anything I feel as I have lost control or see will be going out of control and things, I do not want to see anyone I care for go through. God’s truth is far louder, more powerful, and full of more truth than anything the devil can ever try to convince any of us.
Truth is I cannot save anyone. Never could never be able to; if I do or have done anything in the past that has been a blessing to help someone in their lives. That was Jesus; not me.
If I hit the floor and he helped me back up, it is exactly that.
I do not want to see anything happen to anyone; especially those I am connected. The thought of anyone hurting or suffering; especially when it is your elderly parent or a child.
Fact is no one knows what tomorrow will bring. We plan all day long; but ultimately God is in control. Good, bad, or indifferent.
Yes, we should be taking care of the vessels that we are given.
Yes, we should be purposing to stay out of harms way, and not being out all hours of the day or night.
Yes, we should all be doing our part working and walking with a purpose.
However, we all get to choose, and if we choose to do things and not care about ourselves enough or those that we are blessed with. No one can ever do it for you!
If we think we can pick and choose when to take care of ourselves and wait till the last minute when we are beat down, broken and falling apart. Sad is it may be, but we will suffer the pains that our bodies and all that we have become give us until they just stop working all together.
Far from perfect, I have had it all together and been blessed and given up for stupid reasons over and over. It is what it is; I will never claim perfection, but I will always keep trying until I cannot any longer.
Anyway, lying awake wondering when the kid would come in and realizing it is not just this pandemic that is going to have lasting changes once everything passes. I do not know how any of us including me will end up in the end.
But as long as he gives me the blessing of breath to get up each day. I will do my best not to be consumed by all these things I have no control over.
One thing I will say that I can change is getting back to boundaries. Loving people for who they really are and leave it at that.
No connection necessary; pray and appreciate, breathing in all the good their aurora shines. Consuming all that is good and praying for all that just cannot come near me. Selfish boundaries.
I will never stop loving those I love; or caring and I am not fooling anyone including myself. I will not stop hurting for them either. But my time here and now is far more important than it ever was. For any I am left into tomorrows. Well I would rather spend it purposing the will of God and all that is good. Then caught up in worldly games that are not only temporal, but we all lose in the end.
God knows all things, hears all prayers, and allows each of us to choose.
Choose wisely for eternity like yesterday!
No matter how much good, how much bad, pain, sorrow or laughter and excitement. Cause just like that we are just a vapor gone or left with nothing.
That is about it for this one tired and weary soul.
As I fight not to disappear but remove myself into Him. With prayers and hopes of healing and well-being for all that is good. For myself and all I am connected. Much love and Peace in Christ now an always.
https://youtu.be/qqP9YpfVscU “Lay It All Down” Tell All My Friends @Will Reagan & United Pursuit
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Date: 04/21/2020 Tuesday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
I give them eternal
life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. My
Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them
out of my Father’s hand. I and the Father are one.”
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/lKM-8CZRplI “Jesus I Need You” @Hillsong Worship
https://youtu.be/t61BbxU3flA “Over and Over” @Foothills Collective
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Yes Lord, thank you for another new day given here. Please Father send your angels to be with family in need. As today the call came they are taking my mother to the hospital for a hip injury, in this time where we are locked in a bubble and cannot just go be with her, bring her back with us if we wanted to; well it is all far beyond the unknown of this virus and lock down everyone is on.
Grateful for the blessings you give; but my family so needs you as every other in this world today. I know mine is not more special or different than any of the others Lord. Give peace and comfort to your child my mother as whatever will happens next transpires.
Thinking before this call just came in how we put all our hopes and dreams into all that is right in front of us. Sometimes good sometimes bad. But we take that microwave version of the here and now is what really matters. Only to find it never really did in the end at all.
What is real is Jesus and the blood shed so we could live; the blood he allows us to be connected by with the air in lungs trying to live our best life now through him and taking care of the vessels he has given us.
Not just settling become of promises or obedience to commitments we make to each other. What do I mean by that? We are worth more than anything this world can give or take. Get up know who you are in Christ; know you are worth more than just finding someone to take care of you or sustain you. Because no matter what the good intentions are. If you do not know how to care for yourself and know who your maker is. The road in the end is nothing without the God who created us.
We humans twist things up for what we think is great until it is not.
My heart breaks for all who are alone; for my mother on her way there is nothing I can do. Except ask for prayers of whatever they find with her hip; she makes it back out of the hospital virus free and we get her down to live with one of her kids.
Prayers for Pops the stubborn old coot. In desperate need of health care and refuses to let anyone in to assist. Refuses to come get setup down here with his step kids but knows its getting time.
Oh, what a mess.
Dear Lord, please be with all who are suffering from things they don’t talk about and all that is right out in the open.
I have no words but prayers today; for my family and all the brokenness and suffering they have physically and mentally. For all that once was, and never came to be. For all that will be as my God is real and I know he has far bigger plans than tears and sadness of us children.
Although feeling trapped, wanting to fix, help, comfort and unable to step out of the bubble this vast world is now consumed by, knowing even if I did. Would it really matter.
I left where I was so I could live; yet family and friends still in their own ways left behind. Too stubborn, to whatever for their own good. There is nothing I could say I wish; I know God had different plans for me. But it does not make it feel any better for those you pray should.
No matter what I have to believe in all that you have revealed and blessed me with; that all I am connected also is truly covered in your mercy.
Please Father keep this fire burning, directing my steps where I lead in and to you by example. Far from perfect but I give it all to you. Please hold me together on this. I cannot jump and run and fix or rescue anything or anyone. You have to. https://youtu.be/cFrd-Tmwajc “Give It All To You” @Fox and Foul
For all who believe in prayer. Pray loud, pray hard, pray with truth and expectation for all your loved ones and the future of this world.
Tomorrows have never been promised; love while you have the opportunity, set all your differences aside.
As I got this morning, I was going to write about all those things we never talk about and how much prayer and lifting up we all should be doing for the better of humanity. My day quickly took a turn as I received a call from my sister which never happens early in the morning. She summed up the panic, loss and helplessness we all wanting to care for those in need and can’t
How my family’s day started off.
Mom called in tears. Her
hip hurts so badly she needs a Dr. I’m telling her breathe and calm herself.
Pops calls ems and calls me to say her hip
went out she is going to Samaritan hospital in troy. and she needs surgery and
rehab and then probably should come down here.
(mind you he was EMS for what seems his entire working career)
Then Pops calls back and says ems is advising only life or death
is being taken to the Emergency Room.
So, they (EMS)are not taking her. But our cousin is there now,
and they are going to buy her a new chair .?. Our cousin calls and says 10:30 Telemed
appointment is set up for her and they will try for an Xray after they get some
pain meds in her.
Our cousin says she isn’t a Dr, but I don’t think she would walk
to the chair even with help if it was dislocated. (I Agree)
She said mom should have seen a Dr when she first fell. So right now, I (my
sister) am just waiting to hear what is happening.
Omg my mom is crying, Surgery , then the hospital is scary right
now. Omg they won’t take her now what
to do. Then they are going to buy her a
chair?!? WTH. I (my sister) need more
coffee.
My sister processes to keep us in touch as I am working, and she
is closest.
Coming back to the day (names removed for protection) Pops has
Severe cellulitis in both legs.
They have to be medicated and wrapped every three days. Mom has
been doing this and telling him I can’t keep doing it . Mom’s back won’t let happen
as she suffers from severe Osteoarthritis.
According to mom she said maybe we should get a traveling nurse
or something and he said yeah maybe.
Pops really wasn’t listening to her because, Well she called and
got the help scheduled and when they wanted to talk to him, he melted down.
He wouldn’t speak to the
nurse” yelling he didn’t need anything, and she better not mention his name
again about health to anyone.”
So, He tried to wrap his
own legs and we all know he hasn’t seen his feet in years.
I don’t know how to help either one of them from here or he won’t
accept help for himself.
This
is so frustrating to everyone. But even
more scary even if any of us could be there in person what could we do in this
situation. Very thankful
my cousin is there. Other family is up
there as well; but this is our mother.
My son cannot go and do anything as he works in the medical facilities
and would put them at risk for the virus; my daughter in-law cannot do anything
as she is taking her mom to and from chemo treatments. Yes, she just was recently diagnosed with
cancer.
I
can sit and dwell on the first home I purchased was to get my mom and pops
setup and they could move down out of the brutal cold weather of the great North
East. But Pops was not having it.
Both
are too stubborn and now aging to get out of their own way. Mom a believer, pops well a man with tolerance
and a huge heart. He served the community
for over 30 years as a paramedic firefighter and now is angry at the world for
the inabilities age has given him. Not
to mention he refuses to go to any doctors or allow people in to help him.
To
all those things we talk around or do not talk about at all. God, my family needs you more than
ever. Just for keeping the sanity, I
need you. Living with my own immediate
family in which some are highly stressed and suffer from chronic anxiety that
gets so bad they end up hospitalized. Well life in this house itself has been intense.
Did
I mention everyone that knows me absolutely knows I am a devoted Jesus freak?
My
household is not. Honestly my family is
here out of the kindness and right thing to do giving my grandchildren a chance
in this life with stability. So, I tolerate
allot for those I love.
But
some of the disrespect and constant battle to just try and communicate without
someone always being in defense or upset; brings me to the borderline.
I
gave all the I am to Jesus years ago; and no matter what happens; it is what it
is. Every know in again I forget I am a
follower and okay leaning in on Him totally and my human self-steps out of the
comfort zone and allows connection. Wanting
to feel the love from the outside in as I know Christ has filled me up from the
inside out.
I
openly and willingly help those where I can and all I have ever asked is for
people to be real. Over the past
couple years though; especially with this internet. You have your social media stalkers,
impersonators and just downright low lives that are out there playing.
Life
is what it is until its not. I am fully
aware we are all going through something and although I never imagined my life
as it is; or what is going on with my family.
Well
the only way I find solace is through prayers, mediation, releasing this mind
maze. That of what is my own personal
needs or demons to all of everyone else’s that I am like a sponge and suck up.
I
cannot fix myself much less anyone else.
So, the best way to get through is dive deeper into you Jesus. Staying connected where I can and becoming invisible
where I need to.
The
truth sets us all free even when it hurts.
I am blessed beyond all the messes I am feeling or tied to.
No
matter what happens in this life; without Jesus I am nothing and would not even
be able to function. No one ever said
life would be easy. No one ever said
for a kid that grew up with a single parent no parent home; that my big sister
had to step up until she was 16. Would
I now be feeling so much hurt and helplessness for everyone?
Lord
I lift up all those who cannot speak about what is happening to them in the here
and now. I know you have this. Calm this storm and show me what to do!
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Date: 04/20/2020 Monday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
1 Corinthians 15:55-57 NIV
“Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?” The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/6xx0d3R2LoU “Reckless Love (Live with Story)” @Cory Asbury
https://youtu.be/4kcz5MCEAyo “The Cure. April 19.2020-Sermon” @Tony Evans
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord, for this new day of opportunity, life and breath that fills this vessel. May anything, I do be pleasing to you and especially with your will in mind. Out of the great love and respect that you have allowed me consumed by and with. Thank you!
We may not be able to see the hearts of those souls we connect fully, but we can see much revealed about people by the choices or lack of that they make. Many will proceed from all the yesterday’s thinking about only yesterday, what happened, what did not. That new special someone that we now cannot live without, or that one who we thought was special only to feel so crushed we can hardly understand how to get back up and go.
Some only some immediately call out to Jesus, not thinking of the yesterdays; this includes me as well on any given day I may be distracted. Jumping up and running and stopping in my tracks asking forgiveness and getting right to where I needed to be.
Others will not have God a second thought until they need him. Then in anger demand the need for Him to wash away the pain and fix us to what we think we should be.
Oh yes, there have been times when I screamed out why me, then what do you want from me. And now for a long time; I openly and honestly let him know when I just cannot do this on my own. Whatever this is at the time. That He, Jesus has to come show me the way. I truly cannot do this life on my own. I am nothing without Jesus. And knowing the insignificance I was before allowing love to set me free. I never want to go back there.
However, in general, who and what we put first, drives our choices thus telling much about the character of who we are or are trying to be.
Mind you these thoughts are my own perspective, and everyone knows if you read long enough; on any given day I could be anywhere with this mind maze triggering.
How can it be that our choices reflect our hearts I wonder?
For those who are so lost, mixed up and just not able to clearly think much less for themselves. I mean how do those that become stalkers, obsessed, so caught up in not letting go of yesterday they are paralyzed unable to move.
Of course, there will be someone who went to college and has all the answers, defining it under mental illness or some other label. Totally different than those who have strong minds, will and purposely use what they have trampling on others for their own personal gains.
But knowing there will always be someone out there trained up or blessed to take on the challenge that keeps those in need going.
Those who and when we just need someone to talk us through or down off that ledge I am beyond grateful for, even if it does not impact me. But to know someone cares enough to be the hands and feet of Jesus to help others in the mind and spirit.
As a young mother without any skills I can assure you; during some of the tough moments in my child rearing days.
Having someone there to help the minds through the storms of life that I had no understanding. Was a blessing. Healing me as well as my own family needs. Coming from a broken single parent no parent home I can assure you.
It was a very determined and lonely time. But we made it onto the other side meeting Jesus somewhere in between and finding truth and life.
There is no shame in seeking help, reaching out and reaching up. Especially in the world today. So, the first thing I must say is if you are at a place in your life and you are stuck, depressed and feel you cannot go on know this that Suicide is never the answer.
“Get Help” National Suicide Prevention Hotline
1-800-273-8255 or even 911 your local emergency response line.
Everyone deals with whatever is happening in life differently.
There is no shame in tears, feeling down and out or struggling for what next. Just know if you feel lost and no direction; you are not alone.
Feeling so broken over loss, or things in life that we could not fix or control is painful but I ask you if you are there to just confide in Jesus Christ; asking for Him to come down and direct your path, washing you clean and free of the heaviness that you can no longer carry.
Feeling lost in this vast world at any given second is overwhelming and there is not just one trigger that sends us.
Especially when the world seems as if it is going mad and we have unseen enemies waiting to take us out. Never give up, never give in and get back up each time you are knocked down.
Which has now triggered this great reminder when we lose our way get back up again. https://youtu.be/MX5OqyBYKh4 “Get Back Up” @TobyMac
It is a fact that we will be bumped, bruised and left with some scars that will never go away. But get back up; do not let the world define you; It is God who created you to be so much more.
Our God is real, and He loves us beyond anything we will ever really comprehend. https://youtu.be/TCunuL58odQ “How He Loves” @Crowder We are never alone even when no one is with us.
Life and love come in many forms and for me I have been on that roller coaster of uncertainty crying out and never understanding to finally getting it in Him. However, I would rather have loved and lost than had never experienced love at all.
Love comes in relationships and relations come in all different connections. Sometimes it is beautiful and the souls last and light you up forever. Others you cannot get clean enough or far enough away from.
The best part is that we are never alone in this world even if no one is right next to us. Yes, it is far greater than me or you. God is with us always; it is up to us to open that dialogue with Him inviting His son Jesus into our lives and walking with Him daily that we come to know who god really is and who we are to Him.
So how does all this mind dump tie in together?
I don’t know straight up. It just flows. I know in the here and now people are stressing with just cause.
Everything we knew that was once normal is now changed. Many are losing the battle and their vessels shutting down. Many losing everything they worked all their human lives for. Be it health, this pandemic, storms in the night.
Remember God is with us; and we are not alone. Yes, we are not made to do this life on our own. If you have no family, friends, neighbors reach out to those waiting to help. Let love break through. https://youtu.be/W_Ssl2MCy6I “Love Broke Thru” @TobyMac
Sorry words trigger music in this mind and in all seriousness. Though I pray anything I write allows even the slightest glimmer of light, hope and even that smile to full blown laughter at times. In some of my most serious moments where I never thought I could make it. Music has given me life and allowed this being to keep moving.
I listen to all genre’s and have those that fill me up with the spirit that are go to and others that fill me up with energy, light and hope. Others take me back, and all fill me with love and harmony. Some do all of it at one time. The day the music stops for me I pray the harps of Gold are playing loudly as I reach my final destination.
Our stories are no different than any song written. I personally pray your happiness and love and truly hope you dance no matter what is happening. https://youtu.be/RV-Z1YwaOiw “I Hope You Dance” @Lee Ann Womack
Who am I or how do I think most days?
My life is full of ups and downs and dreams for my children and grandchildren, seeing the good in and for all I am connected. Prayers of peace while getting through the healing from all the bumps, bruises and true unknowns for those who live with choices that are not with Jesus in any part of them. And fear at times for those who need us most.
Yes, without a doubt. But some things I have come to know over the years.
“Attitudes are Contagious, Is yours worth catching?”@ original author unknown
“Fear achieves nothing of value”; “Trust in God diminishes fear.” @Charles F. Stanley
“ Say no to anything that is not a high-value use of your time and life.” @Brian Tracy
“ I wish you enough of everything to get through, but never too much to forget how to humble ourselves!” @AlwaysMeKelly
Even with nothing I am blessed to have known such great love from God our Father and fall in love with everything Jesus Christ is, was and will be.
I pray that you tap into your friends who are believers if you yourself do not have a relationship in Christ.
I pray you dig into the scripts and let them direct you, speak to you and help you out of the darkness that awaits around any corner.
I pray you allow forgiveness for yourself and all others who may have wronged you as you seek forgiveness from those you wronged. Even if you never see them again; allow God to wash you clean daily.
This world, this life is no easy task; and tomorrow is never promised so invite Jesus today right where you are to fill your heart, your spirit and guide your direction for any remaining tomorrows.
Father God I give you all I am heal what is broken in me and all I am connected. Mind, body and spirit. Love and reflect love in all who just do not feel loveable right now. Heal and stop those who are giving themselves away just to fill the gaps. Before it is too late.
May they find the peace and harmony as they exhale seeing you face to face, knowing it is not what we make it here and now.
Thank you for all I will never be for all I am allowed and AlwaysJustmeKelly
Thank you for carrying me when I no longer could walk. Thank you, Abba, Holy Spirit for the release you gave when you rescued me from myself.
https://youtu.be/7SSJicZO6_g “Blessed Assurance” @Jeremy Riddle | Worship Circle Hymns
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version,
NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Mark
4:39 (NKJV) 39 Then He arose and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Peace,[a] be still!” And the wind ceased and
there was a great calm.
Deuteronomy
31:6 (NKJV) 6 Be strong and of good courage, do
not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He
is the
One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”
Psalm
46:2 (NKJV) Therefore
we will not fear, Even
though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the [a]midst of the sea;
And though the mountains be carried into the [a]midst of the sea;
Psalms
73:23-24 (NKJV) 23 Nevertheless I am continually with You; You hold me by my right hand. 24 You will guide me
with Your counsel, And afterward receive me to glory.
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Date: 04/19/2020 Sunday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
1 Corinthians 15:20-22 NIV
But Christ has
indeed been raised from the dead, the firstfruits of those who have fallen
asleep. For since death came through a man, the resurrection of the dead comes
also through a man. For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made
alive.
Meditation
Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
(NIV -New International Version,
NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion
Translation)
Jeremiah 31:3 (NIV) 3 The Lord appeared to us in the past,[a] saying:
“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with
unfailing kindness.
Isaiah 61:10 (NIV) 10 I delight greatly in the Lord; my
soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
Psalm 107:8 (NIV) 8 Let them
give thanks to the Lord for his
unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind,
Soul
Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
https://youtu.be/UEzCQBwQkdA “Bleed The Same” @Mandisa ft. TobyMac, Kirk Franklin
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my
perspectives and/or feelings):
In my limited human understanding, even when I wonder, am I doing enough to be worthy and called righteous and loved by the creator of all things. Got it on the ReThink Life in the next 40 days and victories over anxieties. Reading, listening, looking. Wondering is it really enough; what is it I should do next.
Is it, has it ever been, will it be? Enough!
Knowing the peace within did not come from this world as for years I
wanted so badly to leave not understanding always knowing everything happens
for reason and somewhere in my 20s knowing its not my place to chase and find
out what they are. Not until my 30s
knowing it is what it is until it is not and every blessing on this journey has
come from Jesus Christ!
Just knowing unable to explain that the love I am chasing
the void of just needing to be wanted.
Not used up, not for my hard work, efforts or huge giving heart. Not for sympathy, to truly just be held and
know no physical parent, no partner, husband, friend or foe, was ever the answer.
It was when I fell in love with Jesus Christ and all that
he was and is, all he walked, crawled,
suffered, hung and came back to be that I understood; I was never alone even in
the moments when death from this place seemed to be the only reprieve.
No brokenness, words or actions against all that he created
me to be could ever stop what He alone has set into motion.
As I open Jesus Calling today and the first sentence
starts with “I LOVE YOU regardless of how well you are performing. Going on to say, “Sometimes you feel
uneasy, wondering if you are doing enough to be worthy of My Love. No matter how exemplary your behavior, the
answer to that question will always be no. Your performance and My Love are totally
different issues, which you need to sort out.
I love you with an everlasting Love that flows out from eternity without
limits or conditions. I have clothed you
in my robe of righteousness , and this is an eternal transaction: Nothing and
no one can ever reverse it. Therefore,
your accomplishments as a Christian has no bearing on My Love for you. Even your ability to assess how well you are
doing on a given day is flawed.”
As the waves of warmth and emotion flood through these
veins, knowing He is and always has been the strength, the fight, the courage
even when I shy away. The breath in these
lungs that allowed and allow me life even here in now.
The ripples of valleys and mountains through this journey
called life. Like a giant sticky bun
sometimes full of sweetness yet so messy; to the bittersweet of what we allow
to seep in and block thoughts and time with the one who breathed life into this
universe.
The warmth of a child playing, running laughing; to the
beautiful rolling waves or wildflowers in any vast land untouched by humans.
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