08.Wk1_2020_August(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

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Date: 08/07/2020 Friday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/zfLcdBuB7NY      “Here Again” @Veritical Worship

https://youtu.be/It1XzDf-pFo “Scars” @I Am They

https://youtu.be/So94m-Lp6Pw   “One Day” @Cochren and Co

Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)

Isaiah 33:22 (NIV)  For the Lord is our judge, the Lord is our lawgiver, the Lord is our king; it is he who will save us.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord thank you for this day

It did not have to start this way, so I pray there is a lesson that everyone involved is supposed to learn.

Waking up feeling blessed another day

Then to communicate with someone reaching out to me at 5:14am and within three lines them going off like I never even knew them about life and the  things I have no control.

It is so beyond me that when documentation and legitimate business collaterals are legally available why someone would at the last minute have a melt down and cancel everything out and then take their choices out on those who cared enough be supportive.  Despite any of my personal feelings!

Please be with their souls Father in all that will ever come next; as I am not one to be mean and hateful to anyone, nor will I get woke up to a new day that you blessed me with to be cursed and swore at.     May everything in their life always work out I have set the scissors down that they handed me.    

I cannot go back to the beginning with anything or anyone Father God.   You know where you have allowed me to grow from.    I will never be enough for those pretenders of the world.     Nothing this world has is lasting.   Please keep this heart from being bitter and tainted by the anger, hate and lack of truth this world and those in it release to, against or around me.   Please Father God meet me here and stay this day.   As I am not surprised how I mess up or how others go through things that I will never understand.  

Lord I know the time is drawing near; 2020 is like no other.  In so many ways, I can only pray that the vial nastiness is washed away from this universe.  Which I may not see in my time, but I pray with all I am anyone I am connected and care for is not lost from you.

I am not even sure what direction my words should be shared this day.   How I wish there were such things as do over’s in life.

So many beautiful souls being lost.   

Lord thank you for this day and thank you for all the scars.  I truly would never know anyone or their hearts if you had not allowed me to see through mine~

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

1 Peter 3:13-14 (NIV) ¹³ Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good?

 ¹⁴ But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. “Do not fear their threats^[a]; do not be frightened.”^[b]

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Date: 08/06/2020 Thursday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/wGI1Zkr-5Q4     “Over and Over (In The Round)” @Veritical Worship

https://youtu.be/Zp6aygmvzM4   “The Blessing” @Kari Jobe and Cody Carnes

 

Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)

Psalm 119:160 (NIV)  ¹⁶⁰ All your words are true; all your righteous laws are eternal.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

There is nothing in life that can prepare us for the moments that take our breath away.

There is no stopping when God himself says this is it, no more chances.

As I read yesterday dear old-time friend “Kimmers” from elementary school suddenly died at only 58 I am reminded once again just how short and unpredictable life will really be.  

We are all given a timestamp in and one out; that is the one that our Lord and Savior does not disclose.

As I think back on the days when we were all kids just hanging out doing things at a very young age we should not have been.

As I think back how some of us chased all that we could collect to find our worth, while others just chased the ability to live, love and ultimately survive.

I am reminded out all that is left are the memories of the laughter and shenanigans a bunch of unsupervised kids shared.       I pray you are flying high with the angles my crazy sweet friend.    Your beauty will shine bright through your family and memories a long time here and now. 

As I learned that unfortunate news of another soul lost,  I also am filled with the nothing good lasts forever, or if something is feeling like it is too good to be true.  It absolutely is.

There is a cost with everything we do in this life, back to the cause and effect continuum.

However, when it comes to people and love,  God has already paid the ultimate price tag that no one will ever be able to buy out.

You cannot buy someone’s love, nor judge them or force them to buy yours! 

If the real in reality is really true; things always work out, even if they take time.

However, the thing to consider is why is it so important for it to work out to be with someone?

Are you evenly yoked?   I am not just talking about both productive members of society or one makes allot more money in a career than you do or vice versa.

I am talking about the moral values and will they truly stand with you, not by you looking the other way trying to figure out their next move; but will they truly stand by you while you work through whatever needs to be worked out.

In some cases yes that partner should be helping you figure out whatever is happening that will impact both of you; in other times we all need to own our own cause and effect stream of events and get through whatever it is and learn and share and together do what it takes to help balance life so whatever that was does not happen again.

Do I believe in jumping in and helping someone fix whatever the need is?  Without a doubt; I have done that all my life.  From standing between a man ready to beat down a woman to giving away my life savings more than I can remember.

Or just stepping in and holding down the fort or even back in those days when the group of us punk kids were learning life doing other people’s homework so they would not fail totally out immediately.

Am I some kind of special or a saint?  Well back then nope!   According to God I am now but because I am an immersed believer living and breathing even when I get it wrong; Jesus Christ and all he has allowed.   Does that make me better than anyone or less than anyone? 

NO!

Just makes me feel and see things a whole lot different and understand more and more the beauty that is in this world and all that is  lost.

Makes me aware of how short time really is and the unnecessary suffering that happens too often.  Makes me know that if it is too good to be true, it most likely is and that God will never bless his children with the very same things that are outlined in the bible not to do because they are sinful.

Does that mean I have my act together;  NO!   I still fall short a million times daily.

However, one thing I learned even long before I finally called out to God and walking the walk years ago.

Nothing that is meant to last is ever one sided.    No matter what, no matter who.

Selfishly we can do things all day long for our own personal needs that are ultimately something we will gain.   But in order for anything to last with another soul; we must all become selfless.

We cannot expect anyone to give their all if you yourself cannot, will not period!

You can say things all day long, but no amount of money, or words will prove anything except maybe the underlying motives that have you where you are falsely in the first place.

My loyalty, my respect, my commitments; foolishly or logistically is what it is.

My wanting that pure unconditional love from the outside in as Christ alone has given me from the inside out.   Well that the ability to have my forever I will dream about I am sure for the rest of my existence.

Life is what it is until it not.

My perspectives, my observations, my feelings.

You can get laid or give yourself away all day long to all the wrong people in life and still wake up alone and empty.   Even if you are chasing your dreams and trying to convince yourself that it is love.   It is not!    It is a choice you may be making to fill a void that never fills up.

You can find the one and neither of you be on the same page much less yoked when it comes to your spiritual beliefs.   While one of you sits drinking and drugging all day long and the other is off working a career and going to church as often as you can.

That is not love.   That is simply crazy, no matter how many good moments come through the in-betweens when things make it seem so.

Do I believe in love; YES!

Do I believe in fairy tales; Absolutely!

However, I also have faith in the unseen when it comes to the one who allows me up each day.   I believe that He will never allow things that cannot be seen clearly even if the hope is more than sometimes you can bare.

Maybe that is why I work so hard at everything I do; or take on crazy projects of painting a 1500 square foot house on the outside by hand.

Maybe that is why I myself have no issues in looking past the truths of other actions and loving them for who they are and not what they do.

Or even at times allow me in too close to be broken because the truth always hurts when you know from the start, even though you hoped, you prayed but you always seen the true colors of something that just should not be.  Yet you love them anyway and work you way past the pains of them not proving you wrong.

Yes, allot of years in my time and through many lessons learned at the hands of others as I was coming up the hills or out of the valleys.        Maybe it makes me crazy, maybe it just makes me aware of just how life is in this vast world.

One thing is for sure.  Just as was blessed with life another new day and many and even some I grew up with did not get that blessing.

I am thankful and know exactly who is in control.      Even on those days where I think I could drink a good bottle of wine and just numb what I don’t want to think about.   But instead just give it all back to the one who saved me from my self and this crazy spin we call life.

If you love something, yes set it free.   Like the butterfly that has to go through so much lonely darkness before it becomes beautiful and brilliantly bold in colors to share for the world.

If you have to do the same for someone you love; if it is meant to be it will.  If it is not hold tight to the dreams you are allowed.

Father God thank you for this new day.  Please bring comfort to all the families and friends of those who have left this planet.  

Please guard and protect your children and lead them in your will not their own; not my own.

Hear the unspoken, heal and guide those who genuinely want your help and those who do not know how to ask for it yet.

Thank you for allowing me even the craziest of thoughts or words to tap out.  Thank you for all that I am not, no matter where that leaves me.

May the Peace of God that fills within find its way into the hearts and souls of all I am connected.   Guiding and protecting them through the will and truth here and now.

No matter who we love, or why may your will and love always prevail Jesus!

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Philippians 4:7 (NIV) ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Luke 12:28-29 (NIV) ²⁸ If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! ²⁹ And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it.

Luke 6:28 (MSG) ^27-30 “To you who are ready for the truth, I say this: Love your enemies. Let them bring out the best in you, not the worst. When someone gives you a hard time, respond with the energies of prayer for that person. If someone slaps you in the face, stand there and take it. If someone grabs your shirt, giftwrap your best coat and make a present of it. If someone takes unfair advantage of you, use the occasion to practice the servant life. No more tit-for-tat stuff. Live generously.

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Date: 08/05/2020 Wednesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/2d-teY8aiJo    “The Gods of the Oasis” @Rare Earth

https://youtu.be/W_Ssl2MCy6I  “Love Broke Thru” @TobyMac

https://youtu.be/bcZGtAOCftI    “Love Changes Everything” @Red Rocks Worship

https://youtu.be/E00j5xGeDm8   “We Believe” @Newsboys

 https://youtu.be/Jgv3r7LqklQ    “No Matter What” @Kerrie Roberts

Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)

Psalm 119:130 (NIV)  ¹³⁰ The unfolding of your words gives light; it gives understanding to the simple.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you for this day given and all that have come to pass.

As we travel in our own paths the journey, we find can be full of hills and valleys or we find at some point yourself seeking shelter in the Lord in our own deserts.

Where we are in the world, no longer spinning in all it says all it does and tries convincing us to be.

Where we find even as we are learning who we are, why we are and where we are in any point and time.  It just feels good to be sheltered in Christ.

Even as the storms and waves of all that will forever be as we are allowed up to journey pound and pour out on any one of us.

It is in our deepest unknown, when we open our hearts, open our minds to more than what is just in front of us that love breaks through.

Where we wander and do great things all the while so much goes wrong; sometimes leaving us to feel broken or hopeless or even filled with guilt and doubt because of the way others leave you to feel; or worse yet say you make them feel.

It is there when we dive into who is Jesus, and how or who am I in his vision and purpose.

I myself am thankful for all things, all mistakes, all paths on this journey that led me to the oasis in Christ that I have been gifted to find over the years.

The hills are no more than painting your entire exterior of your home by hand with a brush.

Slow and steady, yet as you push forward paying attention and remaining focused, where we find ourselves now looking back at how refreshed in blessings and beautiful colors the path really once was.  Even if we left pieces along the way.

Over the years I have spoken and still speak openly and even have written some riddles about loyalty, faithfulness, holding tight to that moral compass and if you once set it down its not too late to pick it back up.  

And Love; oh yes that pure and true Agape love such as what God has allowed me to understand and feel from the inside out; and the desires or craving to know what true love feels like from the outside in.

  Not to mention respect.  How great the need of respect for oneself much less all we connect.

What does that all mean to you and your world.

Loyalty - In some cases, if we look at military; we respect the weapons we are trained with and we are loyal to our cause, as we always step in and cover our brothers and sisters back from the enemy.

Loyal to the cause no matter what we signed up for; the choices are ours to either step up or step off.   Be it family, gangs, friends.   We all must really know why we are loyal to anything besides the God who created us, or even our own being.  

Yes, an extreme example but no different than if we will respect and remain loyal to those we stay connected with.  Be it our family, our friends, our lovers, our husbands, our wives.   Or even that which we take on like that project of painting the exterior to the dwelling you own by hand with a brush.

When we are young many will never even give it a second thought as you get older you realize that you have no care to waste time on things that do not matter.   Be it remaining loyal and respectful to the relationships you become connected or taking on such a large effort.   

Deep thoughts, time, and that of how you manage each brush stroke or relationship to prevent making messes that would have had you wish you never started.

In some cases when we speak of relationships; you know exactly just how it started in other cases you cannot but are beyond blessed that you have been allowed.  

  Or even those that you could never understand why and have had to cut ties because maybe not you, but the connection said or did something that you had to let them go.   Or maybe you did or did not do something, and they just let you go.

Sometimes you did not do anything and what you grew attached to and genuinely cared about, was just gone.    Later to find out and learn that we do not necessarily know anyone and their true intentions.     

That even with that moral compass and doing your best with all you get to work with; just is not enough nor should it be.  When it comes to anyone besides yourself.

What happens when the world and those in it violate the loyalty and respect that you not only give them in abundance.   But they do so by taking little pieces of you and just throw it to the wind.

Sometimes we learn how we react when we find yourself not grounded with pure intentions and clean hands.  

Sometimes when we do not ground ourselves in what shines bright with the promise of hope and love in faith beyond all things such as the God who created the heavens, earth and men and women.  

We find ourselves adding to the reactions of the world with anger, animosity, brokenness, jealousy, revenge, pure hate at times and even that which eventually damages not only those in our path intentionally but leaves scars so deep within our own beings we become more and more like the demons that God cast out in the first place.

Maybe that looks like we start looking to someone else for fulfillment of whatever.  Or we start taking those drugs because it numbs us for a little while  until even that consumes us.

At which point we then are no longer who God created us to be, yet we are lost and no longer respecting ourselves or anyone around us; we are too busy chasing those demons.    

No expert by far, however I have seen and lost so many beautiful souls I have genuinely cared for overtime as they were lost before they realized their own worth in and with Jesus.

I have also had to cut loose folks as well as been over time attached to those, I thought I knew only to find out they were really not the souls I believed in.

Lessons, and blessings in every good or bad moments.  

Teaching me how I never want to be, or who I never want to be like.

Love, even those thoughts leading me to the foot of the cross to dive in and really learn what true love is and always will be.      Allowing me to find my way to that desert and finding my oasis in Christ.

Oh, it has not been an easy task on any given day.    In fact, walking with Christ has made my journey a bit more matter of fact, and even more lonely at times.

Not just settling, being too caring as my nature is anyway.   Exposing myself to care and give to those that play the worldly games well.     Which is fine, wrong but I cannot take anything with me when it is my time to go.

It is those that play with peoples lives that drive me crazy.   Those that for no reason at all that play with feelings, emotions and even sometimes get in beyond the head but into the heart.

Being where I am at today verses 30 years ago.   Oh man I can tell you when someone would violate my respect, my loyalty.  I would cut them off but not until I went through that long list of reactions.

Now I do try not to connect anywhere without praying though it first.  And no, it does not always keep me out of harms way; but I am not adding negativity to this world.   No matter what happens to my own circle of influence.

I love everyone, and I know I am loved for more than anything this world will give or take.

In love, I have to smile!    There is no doubt that one day to feel the external love from the outside in that is true, pure, and everlasting for whatever days I have left on this earth.   Is a beautiful dream.  And if that means I am only allowed to know what that is like in my dreams.    At least I have that and am forever beyond grateful.

We do not just go and pick who our soulmates will be!  It is when we are not looking, we must remain faithful with God if we wish to keep his provision and protection.   But it is also there that He alone allows connections that you never would have imagined.

What that means in the physical world is different for every being.   Just always know; no matter how good something is in our humanity.  It will never be God Blessed if that soul is already in union with someone else.

God will never bless or allow anyone the blessing to be with a married man or woman.

It just is what it is.  Adultery is just that and never accepted.    

Yes, I know what it feels like to give my all to my spouse and find out all that was given to me was just superficial and a game to them.   As they were dedicated to everyone else that were caught in their gaze.

To each their own.   Me I prefer to remain clean and value the vessel and my health that the good Lord has given me.       I certainly do not want any of the diseases physically or emotionally that this world can pass around.  

I mean look at where we are here in 2020 alone.   The world is shut down as we know it just by an unseen virus that is killing life in vast numbers.  

Covid19 different but same as  the same the  HIV/Aids pandemic.   Both men made; yet Covid we do not have to engage with one another to be exposed.    What about all the other STD type diseases that are in the world.   Just because someone has to wet appetites not caring about the value of the life, they were given yet giving into the flesh.

Dying to self is the point I am spinning to here.   It is hard but there is a great strength in meeting Jesus Christ and learn who God really is and the strength and courage that He alone gives each and every one of us.

You have to believe to see it and we all get to believe in something.

My perspectives and like any time here is another unscripted release of all that spins in this mind maze on any given day.

Respect, Loyalty, and care starts right with your own being.   Otherwise you will pay the price of the choices you make or think you do not have to.

Be it in day to day, in love, in laughter, in lust in everything.

No matter if you willfully make a choice and take the steps; or you just sit back and go for the ride.  You will be a part of the result no matter if good or bad; don’t ever think you have no role in anything you are connected to even if you are not purposing to make something go a certain way.

Sometimes even in your best of everything having all the information, knowledge, money etc.    Still the result comes back as you would have never imagined.

What we do with anything and everything matters.

Learning, Striving, Growing FORWARD as you shine even the slightest glimmer of hope all the way.     If you have had your light stolen; find what it takes to shine on  or be a new light for someone else until yours comes back.

Just stop feeding into adversity and negativity the best you can.    Grab your moral compass and learn what morality really is.   Not just the textbook definition of

Morality: principles concerning the distinction between right and wrong or good or bad behaviors.

Adversity is something none of us can avoid anymore.  Especially in 2020.    How we deal with it or avoid it to just survive is up to each one of us.   No matter what you chose the choices belong to you.   

Sometimes you have to take the blessings all the way to the release and ready for what the outcome will be.   Other times we do whatever it takes to avoid what may or may not be.   

All the time learn who Jesus Christ is and the Holy Spirit is and who God is.  More importantly learn who you are to them!

We all get to choose if we will give or take or just ride the waves accepting whatever.

We all believe in something.

I believe in God the Father and His son Jesus Christ.

I believe the blessings I am given, in just my health alone to do what do is the gift from the maker alone each day He allows me up.   

I pray you have something that is eternal to believe in and not just giving yourself away for what is temporal and damaging at times.

Most importantly I pray you really believe in yourself, and those you have been blessed to bring in this world.   And you too do your best no matter what direction your choices are taken.

In love, in life and in laughter with all that is good and blessed by the maker to shine on.

I say to know the real you is nothing less than anything you could possibly give, be or whatever it is you do.      Living in truth is beyond something we are limited to see and done by the many we find we never really knew.

As I will always be how I was, how I am always just be me.  I pray if we connect you will always just be the real you~

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Exodus 2:24-25 (NIV) ²⁴ God heard their groaning and he remembered his covenant with Abraham, with Isaac and with Jacob. ²⁵ So God looked on the Israelites and was concerned about them.

Romans 15:13 (NIV) ¹³ May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

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Date: 08/04/2020 Tuesday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/lunFIc-8r8o   “You Say” @Lauren Daigle

https://youtu.be/-hDJNGK0MiQ  “The Elements” @TobyMac, Ledger

https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4  “Surrounded (Fight My Battles)” @Michael W Smith

 

Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)

Jeremiah 33:2-3 (NIV) ² “This is what the Lord says, he who made the earth, the Lord who formed it and established it—the Lord is his name: ³ ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for allowing me all you do.

For the strength and abilities to keep doing what I am doing.  The well-being to get back up and each new day as this one today as I am allowed back up to seek if not just one more day of opportunities.

No matter what is going in my timing; what is real or just some funny.

It is what it is until it is not, and I am blessed to get up and go once again.    Many do not get the blessing.

I can sit and pick apart those feelings that overwhelm me at any given time.

Especially when we are doing what we can with what we have to work with for those unknown, ungrateful, or just pure undeserving.

Be it we know them or why or not.   The fact remains when you are out there trying to wrap up what has been started so you can just move past to the next phase no matter what that may be.   Yet the spin just has you lingers.      Knowing what you know, feeling what you feel. 

How do we get there?  How do we get away from there?

What next?   Do I care, yes of course I do; why else would you allow your thought process even get to this point if there was not something of true meaning and that feeds your soul.

Yet here we are, even when we know who is truly in control.

So why do we fight against what we cannot touch or see?

Why do we beat ourselves up for being entangled into what we just do not understand?

We can allow our uncertainty of life make us angry and wear us down.   We can allow ourselves to spin, or fight the battles clinging to the one who really is in full control.

No matter what anyone says, does or even feels.  

Doing our best in all things will always be a given or at least from my perspective we should be.  

So where is this maze that comes to life in so many directions each day I am allowed up.

Wishing it could just relax in the beauty of His presence for a while and rest.

Truly rest, allowing this mind to regroup, allowing this body to rest and replenish.   Just feel the love from the inside out, and outside in.

To just let my heart, absorb all that oxygen from the ability to just rest and smile for more than five minutes on any given day.

Seems crazy that as a parent, my mind, concerns and even actions never turn off for my children and the wellbeing of how and where they are in life.

 

As a grandparent you want the best for the kids so that the grandchildren also can grow forward.   Yet in today’s world they all are exposed to so much that no matter how you raised them or what you do for them.   What I would do or be; is never what they do or become or allow the grands to be exposed to.

I have said many times, I just do not want to feel allot of times.   If I could be that mean person where I can just block everything and anything out that triggers my heart strings.

Man had I been that person, I certainly could have saved so much money, time, and heartbreak.

Instead here and now I find myself always wanting, yet not believing in somethings are just too good to be true.

 

I am sure I am not the only soul that goes through the roller coaster ride with highs and lows in life.    Probably one of the only or very few that openly shares pieces of me over time.

It is all good.   My sanity tapping it out releases those layers making room for what else is trying to find its way to the surface on any given day.

 

No matter what is or can be; no matter what was or would never be.   God is still the one true King and Jesus gave His life so that you or I could live freely.     So, if we are not we just need to dive in and find that life line and seek His wisdom.    Not our own.  Cause I know for sure mine no matter how much good is within; will always fall short making a hot mess out of much if not everything.

 

Thank you, Lord, for this new day; and even the abilities and almost or what is to come.

Please guide me guarding my actions, my mouth, my words.

Guide me and all I am connected through all the unknowns and teach us how to praise even in the unknown storms or scary unknowns.  Heal us here in this land we have been given.

Please protect all I am connected; guiding and blessing them where they are.

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Malachi 3:2-5 (NIV) ² But who can endure the day of his coming? Who can stand when he appears? For he will be like a refiner’s fire or a launderer’s soap. ³ He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver; he will purify the Levites and refine them like gold and silver. Then the Lord will have men who will bring offerings in righteousness, ⁴ and the offerings of Judah and Jerusalem will be acceptable to the Lord, as in days gone by, as in former years.

⁵ “So I will come to put you on trial. I will be quick to testify against sorcerers, adulterers and perjurers, against those who defraud laborers of their wages, who oppress the widows and the fatherless, and deprive the foreigners among you of justice, but do not fear me,” says the Lord Almighty.

@Jesus Calling @Sarah Young

“HOLD MY HAND and walk joyously with Me through this day.  Together we will savor the pleasures and endure the difficulties it brings.  Be on the look-out for everything I have prepared for you:  stunning scenery, bracing winds of adventure, cozy nooks for resting when you are weary, and much more.  

 I am your Guide, as well as your constant  Companion.  I  know every step of the journey ahead of you, all the way to heaven. 

 You don’t have to choose between staying close to Me and staying on course. Sins I am the Way, staying close to Me is staying on course.  As you focus your thoughts on Me, I will guide you carefully along today’s journey.  Don’t’ worry about what is around the next bend.  Just concentrate on enjoying My Presence and staying in step with Me.

John 14:6 (NIV) ⁶ Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

Colossians 4:2  (NIV) ² Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.

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Date: 08/03/2020 Monday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/ykeTeIf3DTg      “I Wasn’t Enough” @Hollyn

https://youtu.be/OOyTwG6rF_g  “If You Suddenly Start Thinking About Someone” @ApplyGodsWord/Mark Ballenger

https://youtu.be/JxL9R-1VGmk “God Whispered Your Name” @Keith Urban

https://youtu.be/QAtR7aai_nA  “Thinking Of You” @Dierks Bentley

https://youtu.be/ViBNqNukgzE  “Open The Eyes Of My Heart” @Paul Baloche

 

Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)

1 Samuel 16:7 (NIV) ⁷ But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you for this new day Jesus!  May we all gain control of what our heart and move forward in healing and love for all that is good all that is pure.

As we move through the day we are given; may way always give the God who allows us breath to exist our time, our thanks and praise, our problems or worries.

Our love first above all else seeking His blessing for anything we think we need here and now in our journey we are allowed to walk.

Interesting how everyone will always have reasons or answers why or why not.

But one truth remains the same; Jesus was, is and always will be.   What we do in our own relationships be it what we think or absolutely know.    Without the blessing from God which will only come when we walk with Jesus.

Well it is just those random thoughts that leave us in the middle of that which will never last as it was never meant to be.

My perspective so early this Monday morning.   I am far from being an expert.  However, I do know; nothing ever happens in life without reason.  No one ever comes into your life without a lesson or blessing to follow.

Guarding your heart, mind, body and spirit is an absolute must.  Nope logic does not always work when trying to do so.

Sometimes it is just what it is and others, it is what we make it.    All the time no matter what.  We all must own our next steps and choices.  

I am reminded, not everyone is really your best friend, collecting all those moments and personal conversations because they really care.

Sometimes the secrets you share are collectibles for those collecting to later use when they think they have an upper hand if you will, for their own personal gain.

Others sometimes people just need your company and friendship as much as you will not admit you need theirs.

So, my thoughts of course, always be aware your choices of what you want to believe, what you act upon, what you say and what you do.    Make sure you are ready to deal with whatever the outcome is.

Some of my best friends are those I grew up with and even though I do not see them but once every many years.   Whenever we get together its like yesterday; and no matter what our flaws, choices or blessings have become.   The strength in loyalty and loving a person for who they are will always be.

No one is ever a stranger, but many in my journey should have stayed more than arms distance away.  LOL~

So, this Monday morning mind maze journey and suggestions says to just always mediate always first before jumping up and taking off running for your day.

When things are confusing, harder, not moving as you would like them.  Just pray harder and have faith things will work out.

When you are getting the signs that something is not right; believe it.

When you are needing to hear and see.   Stop and spend time in quiet mediation.  Be it just off and alone or looking out at the beauty this world has been blessed with.

Never put all you are to be in the responsibility or hands of any soul here and now.

We see it over and over again, even tiny babies absolutely deserving love and care by those that are given the new life.   Are let down and sometimes never given a chance because of the brokenness of humanity.

Be ready to stand tall for whatever it is you believe in.   Without hating those who do not think and believe in what you do.   Love people for who they are NOT what they do!  Not what they can do for you!  

If you are able to be blessed with love and admiration never take it for granted.

And no matter what, even though we must stay safe no matter what that looks like.  Learn daily to leave the judgement to the one who created life in the first place.

What is that old saying; Hate the sin, not the sinner. 

There are so many directions any soul can and will take in life; we/ I am no different. 

Just as each and every soul has thoughts that flow through their mind.  Many keep quiet and to themselves; others like me maybe.  Tap them out sharing them for public consumption; or even put out self-help  guides with meaning and perspectives.  Such as applying God’s word or even in music, movies or just our life being caught by someone who things it is important enough to listen and/or capture.

No matter what your thought process, no matter what you are doing or not doing.   Though I am far from perfect. 

 I can say the blessings even in my own storms I have received by holding true and to faith in the one true God and the sacrifice of His son Jesus Christ, and the love he has given us but breathing life into a world who always forgets to breathe.

I hope that if you are reading anything I ever write; that you choose for yourself and find your way to allow the spirit of the living God to live within you.     But if not; just know you are worth more than anything or anyone of this world can ever give or take.

Thinking out loud, or just thinking is something I have not mastered when to hold on and when to let go of yet.   But if I did not think so much, I would not have the abilities I do.

My thought process may be crazy at times, off the wall, or straight on.  It may be childlike, or the experience and scars I have earned in this journey are the wisdom someone needs to hear.    Right or wrong, that wonderful blessing that God allows all of us in freedom of will, freedom of choice.   With the knowledge we are accountable for our own actions and whatever we act upon in our thoughts.

If you choose to let go and walk away, Own the loneliness you now have and find yourself at the foot of the cross for direction.

If you choose to get into that relationship, and it is not how you planned it.  Perhaps we have to consider the person we are in the relationship with, has their own mindset and you just need to work together to balance and make it or let it go.

Knowing you really need to be evenly yoked!  Yes, I went there.    What are your beliefs, do they align?        From one extreme to another.    Are you in parallel with your dreams, beliefs, and goals?    Not just that hot sexual tension or relationship you share.

You need not make life harder than it has to be.   

Nor do you want to be one that is doing the best you can in purity and good intentions thinking someday that other soul will change and come around and stop stepping out and doing whoever they can get away with it; or that soul whose heart was broken so badly at some point and now hard as stone will soften if you just tolerate their disrespect or meanness long enough.

People change because they want to; they do things because they can and what they cared about yesterday may be put on a shelf to be forgotten about today.

Are you sure this is where you want to be?

We can never really know anyone, no matter how long we know them.

We can never wish, want or force anyone to love and care about us as much as we care for them.

We can never change anyone or save them from others or themselves.

However, we can have faith and pray to the one that has all the power and control.  Giving whatever the good, the bad, the beautiful and so confusingly abstract to the one who gives us air in our lungs every day.

So, as I find myself in love, at the feet of Jesus and at the foot of the cross often.

Praying for those I love; I care and admire. Praying for my forever love on the outside as He has given alone from the inside.    No matter what is or could ever be.   God alone will allow what is best.

Blessed and yes maybe crazy, but far from perfect.  Still full of life and sometimes too much desires of living the life I am given.  But always aware of where every blessing I am allowed and where it comes from.

With that, my prayers of healing and love for all that is, all that almost was, all that should never be and all that is on its way!    May the son of Jacob wash through this land and help us stop the hate, and darkness.

No matter if we are ever enough for that one, we think we need and desire or not.    God always was and always will be.

Father may we open the eyes of our hearts, no matter what is got us twisted and turning. No matter who we want to pour we are into.

No matter what that was which has left us cold and without feeling; no matter what we feel too much for.  May we always open the eyes of our hearts for and with you first.   Please guide and protect all I am, all I am connected.     May you become and always be our first and pure love that will allow us to love deeply for who anyone is not what they do.  

https://youtu.be/F_cXBD1LkrI   “There Was Jesus” @Zach Williams and Dolly Parton

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Psalms 21:6 (NIV) 6 Surely you have granted him unending blessings and made him glad with the joy of your presence.

John 7:38  (NIV) ³⁸ Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.”^[a]

Psalms 103:11  (NIV) ¹¹ For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him;

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Date: 08/02/2020 Sunday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/iPonpOrVy2M    “I Love You” @Sarah Reeves ft. Kirk Franklin

https://youtu.be/0mo8OxWgk8k  “Wanna Be Happy” @Kirk Franklin

https://youtu.be/OwrE0YjfNGg    “Won’t He Do It” @Koryn Hawthorne

 

Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)

James 1:22 (NIV) ²² Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Ecclesiastes 3:1-2  (NIV) A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:

²     a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,

 

Mark 10:14  (NIV) ¹⁴ When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

As I ready for today’s weekend worship on the lawn Father may whoever needs to hear the message from NLCC enjoy and get something from online.

https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=627186261239762  Weekend Services 8/1-8/2 @newlifeccspringHill

Thank you for this day Lord.  Just need to be taken to church Father God through the blessed tunes you allow to come to life.  May all who listen to music not only allow it to move them to the rhythms and beats.  But the story and messages within.

Lord having a relationship with you is not about a building, though being surrounded by believers and just trying our best shining the light in all the darkness.   All the glory for you Father God.

May we all dig deep finding what it is that drives us.  When we find we cannot fill the voids that we keep attaching ourselves on the wheel of life. 

Nothing is wasted in life when you Jesus are a part of it.  May we find ourselves filling up with you at the beginning and ending of each day we are allowed.

No matter what comes in the middle.   Knowing you have already gone ahead. If we Father do not want to walk with you, believe in you, then may we never stop the future of this world from knowing of you and choosing to know who you are and allow them to choose to walk with you.

May we never speak evil of anything that God allows as He is fully aware of all the darkness and pains of this world.   He is the beginning and end and everything in-between.

What does that look like in this fallen world even after it was destroyed already and recreated?

If only every soul walked in love, kindness doing their best even when it will never be enough.

If only we were ready to lift our brothers or sisters up and never have to worry about the danger that comes from anything, we may do for them.

If only there was never selfishness, but everyone lived without doubt holding that moral compass selflessly doing what they must to give back to this land and not just keep taking.

Perhaps the deep dreamer which many consider foolish or crazy is coming out this day.    But truly why have we made working so hard for things that we cannot take with us so important.  As we can read in, Maybe I am wrong thinking its true, as we all are including myself just  working our lives away for others to take it is crazy, yet we do it.     We destroy ourselves and each other over what is temporary.     

Ecclesiastes 2:22, 21,  (NIV) ²² What do people get for all the toil and anxious striving with which they labor under the sun?

²¹ For a person may labor with wisdom, knowledge, and skill, and then they must leave all they own to another who has not toiled for it. This too is meaningless and a great misfortune.

I wish I had answers or even reasons why my mind has gone here today.  Someone out there that reads what is tapped out of this mind maze needs to know it will be okay if they let go.

Someone out there that is fighting to hold onto all they worked years for that someone else is undeservingly fighting to take.   No matter how it ends up it will be better than okay.   

As I say that from experience, I can say I do not want to start from nothing all over again.  But I have so many times.  And though I may not be poverty stricken I am also not amongst the worldly monetary affluent.

I am richer than most will ever see or understand.  I am filled even in my greatest turmoil to just get anyone I connect with to be their real selves.    A greater peace than I can ever describe.   Even when it hurts because not everyone will.

That is okay as I know who I am and someday they will as well.   Knowing who they really are meant to be in the eyes and making of Jesus Christ.

So, as I feel myself wandering off into a rabbit hole, I will close this out for now.   Knowing I truly just want all that I am and all that I am connected to  just have the same peace, truth and love that can never be washed away in the storms of life.  That will always go with us no matter where we are.  With and through the same creator and one God of this Universe.  The same God that has made all the heavens and earth. Breathing the stars and light into existence.    Is the one who gives us life.

What we do with it next each day we are allowed up is choices we have to make.

In love

In Prayer

In Christ

God please hear all the unspoken calls to you, all those that are tapped out, spoke out or even acted out.

Come wash this land and all who have the power to make or break this world.  Heal us all.  Mind, body and spirit.  

Thank you for allowing me up another day.

Thank you for the love I am allowed

Thank you for allowing me to learn and move forward, even if; even when!

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Date: 08/01/2020 Saturday

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/524Tf0dNRNw  “Higher Love” @Steve Winwood

https://youtu.be/mBcqria2wmg   “East To The West” @Casting Crowns

https://youtu.be/KwcrBEwc-Gw    “Resurrecting” @Elevation Worship

https://youtu.be/NgF4SjdRP3s     “Magnify” @We Are Messengers

 

Biblegateway.com (DAILY VERSE)

Psalm 119:114 (TLB) ¹¹⁴ You are my refuge and my shield, and your promises are my only source of hope.

Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

John 7:38  (TLB) ³⁸ For the Scriptures declare that rivers of living water shall flow from the inmost being of anyone who believes in me.”  .

Romans 8:38 (TLB) ³⁸ For I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from his love. Death can’t, and life can’t. The angels won’t, and all the powers of hell itself cannot keep God’s love away. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow,

Joshua 1:5 (TLB) ⁵ No one will be able to oppose you as long as you live, for I will be with you just as I was with Moses; I will not abandon you or fail to help you.

Isaiah 49:15-16 (TLB) ¹⁵ “Never! Can a mother forget her little child and not have love for her own son? Yet even if that should be, I will not forget you. ¹⁶ See, I have tattooed your name upon my palm, and ever before me is a picture of Jerusalem’s walls in ruins.

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you for this day Lord

Thank you for the energy as I am sipping this coffee, putting on old rags and readying to try and knock the main painting out before the rains come.

Thank you for the reminders as I put on these old paint clothes.  Just where I have been and how far I have come.

As I once let myself go, quitting and just going with whatever flowed at me or on me.   As I for a time was taking the pounding of the waves from physical elements and emotional.

As I quit living for empty promises and shut myself away from the world allowing myself to become undesirable.

Thank you for the devotional reminding me of the story Shadrach, Meshack and Abednego.    Reminding me of all the fires I have been in even before I committed to you and how you were always right there with me.

No matter how much it burned when the heat of life was scorching everything in sight.

Thank you for reminding me on my journey that leaves us alone with you how many have found themselves with you along the way.

From a soul getting baptized 12 days before they went home and your beautiful rainbow showing up over the building they had done so; to that same rainbow showing up over their home when they took their last breath.

People can believe what they want in this world and the life journey they are given.

But they will be fools if they do not believe in that higher power, your higher power.

Thank you for allowing me up this day as I drink this first cup and ready to climb and paint. 

No matter what happens in this life; we are to be or true selves and colors you created us to be.

No matter what is, would of, should of, could of.  No matter what we dump all our hopes into of this his world.    To believe in in the one that created us for so much more.   No matter if I act on it or silently cry out because it just is what it is.

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me air in these lungs, dreams in my sleep, movement at all times and the precious knowledge without you I am nothing.

No matter how hot, beautiful, broken or blessed this journey will be or has been.

Thank you, Father, for allowing me moments when I truly wake and remember just how blessed I am in you.

No matter how long I must wait for what I wanted yesterday to show up.

No matter the day I am able to breathe in and know those I care, and love deeply also have accepted who you really are and truly are blessed standing next to me.

No matter how badly that statement cuts here and now to think I may never see them.

Lord you give and take away; and for this day I am blessed to know you are not done with or for those who genuinely love and want you.

We are all here today and no one is promised which tomorrow we will be gone.

Please be with all I love; all I am connected in all things no matter what their journey may be.

Please be with those I have not yet met yet, those I am helping, those that will come and help me.

Let us all never forget to listen and seek to shine forward as even the slightest blessing if only a second in any moments we are given.    All the gratitude and acknowledgement belong to you first always.

As we press on Father here in this new month; may we magnify you.

May we let go of those who only reach out and want us for what we do or give to them.

May we raise up those who cannot stand for themselves.

May we stand true in our faith in the storms no matter how unexpected they come and pound on us.

May we never stop loving with all we have no matter how it turns out.

Thank you for the hope and promise in you and even if I really cannot understand or see what is up ahead.

Thank you for giving me and bringing me back to life Lord.   Through your will, through your blessings of those you allow. 

May those who believe be allowed to shine on for you, be allowed love fulfilled, be allowed to lead in truth and purity.   As I listen to Resurrecting this morning and remember no matter if on the stage with all though who bring your worship through music or just out in the world in life. 

  You Lord have allowed me to come alive.  With and through others or just wherever I stand.    For this I am grateful, may all that we do shine forward for all we cross paths or connect.

It is not for me to judge or dwell for those almost.   Those we entangle our hopes and dreams and we put all that should flow through you first, into people, places, and things.   Only to be let down as things do not move or work out according to our plans.

Jesus, Thank you for the lessons and the blessings and whatever worldly love you allow us through you.    Thank you for what will be that we just cannot touch yet.

Though none of what I am deserves anything Lord; Thank you!

Please be with in healing, in protection, in hope, in your light for every step we are allowed to take next.

Jesus, no matter if we see it or not; I know you are working.  

Thank you!

If there is anything, we are allowed to take forward into our eternity we choose.  May it be the truth and love that shall forever and beyond space and time be embedded with us for the one true Prince of Peace.

May we magnify you Jesus as you take it all away and bless us each day given.