Sunday, September 13, 2020

09.Wk3_2020_September(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)


Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

  


Date: 09/19/2020 Saturday

 
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Speak Life

Ephesians 4:29 (TLB) 29 Don’t use bad language. Say only what is good and helpful to those you are talking to, and what will give them a blessing.

Ephesians 4:29 (MSG) 29 Watch the way you talk. Let nothing foul or dirty come out of your mouth. Say only what helps, each word a gift.

 

 

 Turn To Face God

Acts 3:16 (TLB) 16 “Jesus’ name has healed this man—and you know how lame he was before. Faith in Jesus’ name—faith given us from God—has caused this perfect healing.

Acts 3:16 (MSG) 12-16 When Peter saw he had a congregation, he addressed the people:

“Oh, Israelites, why does this take you by such complete surprise, and why stare at us as if our power or piety made him walk? The God of Abraham and Isaac and Jacob, the God of our ancestors, has glorified his Son Jesus. The very One that Pilate called innocent, you repudiated. You repudiated the Holy One, the Just One, and asked for a murderer in his place. You no sooner killed the Author of Life than God raised him from the dead—and we’re the witnesses. Faith in Jesus’ name put this man, whose condition you know so well, on his feet—yes, faith and nothing but faith put this man healed and whole right before your eyes.

Read full chapter

Acts 3:16 in all English translations

 


Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/v24tLxsxGHM  “Overcomer” @Mandisa

https://youtu.be/Ejycllx5iwA      “Unfinished” @Mandisa

https://youtu.be/4Q9itF7tx0o    “You Keep Hope Alive” @Mandisa, Jon Reddick

https://youtu.be/NTdFEZhjiko    “The Gospel” @Ryan Stevenson

https://youtu.be/_m0bI82Rz_k  “Shine” @Collective Soul

 

 

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

It should not matter what we are going through, we should always do our best to speak life through all situations, storms, or events.    We should never allow Satan to win by our reacting when it hurts really bad or we are stuck so low.    Even if others helped put us there or we just did it ourselves.     Sometimes things just happen.

No one around us deserves to feel the wrath of our misfortune; in fact, we need to do our absolute best to push through and just keep going no matter how it turns out.

Nothing is forever, even the bad, even the good.

Yes, I am particularly good at giving logical true advice from experience living and reacting on both sides of that pendulum.     I can assure you when I hurt myself, stubbing a toe or something I have done dumb and ended up injured; I get really mad at the pain I am feeling and sometimes I do not think before I just let it flow.    


 Within seconds especially if I am around others, I then hustle just to be alone to regroup and let things calm and the pain to subside before I move forward.   Even with tears flowing down.

 

Oh yes, I have had some pretty nasty injuries in my lifetime.    Those at the hands of others, those just doing or being where I should not have been and those just a kid running and playing ending up with a compound fracture of the elbow or passengers in auto accidents.   The list goes on and on.

But as I am reminded this morning in devotions and again just doing my daily verse reading off of Biblegateway.com   


   We should always purpose with our best efforts to speak life, to turn to Jesus for all things good, bad, and uncertain.

I find myself somehow in the depths of uncertainty with everyone else in 2020.  


Trying to stay grounded yet found myself instead of diving in and doing more positive writing, even working on the manuscript I have sitting.  Even when diving into Gods word.

Found myself out on TikTok, and other social media.   Wasting time and connecting with many other souls laughing, smiling, feeling some of what they are going through.

Found myself out there being caught up even while I was painting that 1500 square foot house exterior by hand by myself to stay grounded.

Working more, yet scrolling and sometimes commenting, sometimes chatting.

Lost in the messes like others sometimes I do not even realize that I have allowed to be made.

I/we sometimes may get caught in a crossfire in life that we do not get to choose.  But on those other days, when I get caught up trying to run from the spin such as 2020 has blowing like the biggest tornado ever.   


   I get distracted and forgot what I mean and what my purpose of being blessed with life and just dive deeper into the gospel.  Yet instead get entangled and caught up doing things win humanity thinking what I do really matters.

Now please do not misunderstand.  Everything we did or do with the heart of good intentions; believing in those that will play on our kindness our emotions.  

We may struggle to clean up the messes because we tried to believe the good of others.  Well just because our intentions were real but those that do know how to manipulate, lie, cheat, and use Gods soldiers for anything other than the good of humanity.    


 Well they too will reap what they sow.

 

Which leads me to all the organized chaos we can live in any given day.   


 It does not matter how often we pray, how many signs or wonders.   What faithful bible study or friend group we are tied to.   In fact, sometimes some of the biggest let downs come from a corporate church setting.

It is no big surprise when we see  famous TV evangelist or churches in the news for corruptions the world looks past.    It is unfortunate that we no longer are surprised by the loss of life or fallen celebrities which has been for decades.

Even those we adore and are fed spiritually later let us down because we forget to stay face to face with Jesus. We forget and put others up on these platforms and they are just like you or me  

I am guilty of holding people, places and things as idols putting my time and thoughts more into it, or them than into Jesus and His teachings or what I should be doing for His kingdom.

Yet He never lets me go to just burn.     Oh, the let downs when we see someone or something, we thought was flawless and feeds our spirit, and they are human with imperfections and brokenness just as every soul on this planet.     Yet the world takes their lives takes the beauty and turns it into something it should have never been.

 

What I know for sure is I am thankful for every new day Jesus allows me back up with air in my lungs.  

Thankful I am able to unload all that fires in this mind maze as I know If I had no release my head would surely explode off my shoulders.

I am far from perfect and constantly seeking to be my better self each new day given and taking whatever messes I make or get into and learn from them.

It is hard I cannot deny that for one second.  

   It is hard when your nature even before you learned of Jesus Christ;  when you just have a good heart and you thrive when you do for others. 

  When you learn how to grow forward by serving others even when you are not seeking anything in return.

Especially when it comes the day that you have been there for so long for everyone else, and you find when you need someone there for you.    

Yet; You come up beyond empty.

So, it may seem weird or to some foolish to say turn to Jesus or go to him through and for all things.    

 But one thing is for sure.   You will know when you have that relationship.  No matter how hard, good bad or unexpected.   His peace fills your very being.  Even in the darkest times.

 

My prayer today because we are in very dark times.   Everyone is in survival mode.  

Trying to get back to making their movies, making their music, feeding their demons of being fed by being surrounded by 20 thousand fans.   Or just trying to be for that one true love.   Or whatever they are allowing to be within their beings.     Just to matter, just to feel.

 

I often say I do not want to live based on feelings because I know clearly, I lose every time.     

When I open up and live based on feelings believing in others which will tell you and show you what they want you to think you know until they get what they get and then they are done.   

  Well I want what is eternal, the peace, mercy, grace  and love of God to flow through these veins to give out and to feed all that I am on any given day.

 

I pray no matter what you want; that you too come to know Jesus and bring all your gifts, your thanks, your praise.   Your troubles to Him daily, 24/7!     

Find his will and how it can make a difference to pay it forward with and for others.

Seek redemption through God always first.   

  No one owes any us of anything even if you died giving them everything you are or have.

 

Find your authentic self and fight forward being humble and learn in humility no matter how dirty it makes you feel, or how bad it hurts.

I pray for healing, for all I am connected and for me.  Mind, Body and always in Spirit!

 

Have a blessed Saturday and remember it is a blessing you have been given one more day to find opportunities to meet Jesus right where you are.

Father God be with my sweet friends’ family as Grace left us the heart break of 2020 just keeps coming. 

  I will not deny I am at the end of how much I can take, and I cannot do anything more on my own.

It is not about money, or material items that come and go.   All of that is temporary yet we give all we are away chasing what in the end is gone is a split second.

Lord guide me and guard all that I am allowed in any coming days.   Heal, guide, and protect all my connections and please come turn this world around.

 

Bring your peace, unrest, your wellness back and shine the light so bright no one can ever hide again no matter what they look like from the inside out.

 

 

 

 

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Date: 09/18/2020 Friday

 
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

He Took on the Status of a Slave

Philippians 2:3-4 (TLB)

Don’t be selfish; don’t live to make a good impression on others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourself. Don’t just think about your own affairs, but be interested in others, too, and in what they are doing.

 Philippians 2:3-4 (MSG)

1-4 If you’ve gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don’t push your way to the front; don’t sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don’t be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.


Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/fl1UGN2x_48    “Call Upon The Lord” @Elevation Worship

https://youtu.be/ekD9utUjZqQ    “Out The Cage” @Keith Urban

https://youtu.be/hl5GcRrJLyw     “Maybe It’s Okay” @We Are Messengers

https://youtu.be/Yzejd6r9DwE   “Healer” @Keri Jobe

https://youtu.be/WwdPFLSWiyY    “Mercy In The Dirt” @Ryan Stevenson

 

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Jesus, for being my healer and sustainer and absolutely leading those who choose to go to know maybe it is okay to not be okay.

I have spent my life putting back the pieces of whatever fell apart in relationships, in life, in family, with family, friends and even me.

When I found you that anxiety that gave me the courage to move on and find you as enough was enough was the best thing that could have ever been.

Then for years keeping my head down and falling deeper in love with you but not even looking up for myself.

Wanting to just see, be and do as I thought you would have.  

Time and time again, I found myself believing or seeing things that were not there.   Time and time again, I found myself putting everything into the needs that were presented to me.

Before you even believing that was what love was supposed to be and putting myself out.

Years later looking up and for a moment in time again believing in souls only to learn some valuable lessons.

Always knowing it does not matter where we come from, or where we think we are going.  Our actions speak louder than words.   It is amazingly easy to want to believe the good in every soul and that every souls intention are exactly what they say.

However, actions speak louder than words and everyone knows the devil can be anything or anyone our desires imagine.

With that even our best intentions for the good souls we truly are, really are no different than the good intentions of those that get caught up and play out the script they have imagined.

What is that the devil wears Prada;  Wolves in sheep’s clothing with sweet talking words no matter if they are playing out how desperate they are and just using you to feed the demons they do not want to deal with head on.  Be it finding legitimate ways to support themselves and family or true demons they have been consumed with.   There are so many actors and actresses out there in the world playing out the scripts we allow them to.

Oh, I am far from perfect, but I am real.    Too Transparent for my own good most days that even kids know that I am a push over for the most part.

 

I often wonder what happened to the girl that was mad at the world and took no nonsense from anyone and would think nothing of punching someone in the mouth for even a look of disrespect to believing nothing anyone really had to say; to never getting involved.

I met Jesus.   Oh, how my heart softened and truly do not want to be that snappy freaked out soul adding more anger and hate to the world.

But it has taken me awhile to get to the truth and know that just because I want to see the good in everything, just because I so want the world to be healed, just because I want to stop the suffering and just be a speck of light.    Does not mean I need to be the one to respond to the requests of others.

I do not judge and believe in whatever someone tells me; until the truth slams down like that sledgehammer that once hit my knee in a demo project years ago.   And yes, it hurts like hell.

Anyway this mind maze dump this morning just has me dealing with that feeling of like the butterfly and dealing with the darkness that metamorphosis where was just going through life and all the time I was thinking out loud the crows and vultures were circling through life.

   I have been allowed to get here in my cocoon and with prayer and faith during a year that everyone is going through something.  

And hope with all I have, I come out with a beautiful ending.    

Just wanting to be accountable for all I have gotten into, without suffering any losses.  The truth of love forever; yes, that has always been something I dreamed of; but today is no different than 50 years ago.   Wanting to be loved as a child or have that forever.

 

Life just is what it is and sometimes we just need to let go and deal with the real in reality that is in front of us.    

 You see we can say and do anything.  However, who is it that sustains us?  What is it deep inside that drives us?

Say what you mean, understand, and truly mean what you say; Always!

Charity starts right in your own home.   Sometimes that charity is teaching and just reflecting being a good steward and doing our absolute best with what we have to work with and not what we think we need.

Someone is always watching.    That is the real in reality.  Be it watching for curiosity or their own plans.

When it comes down to it, especially seeing how 2020 has the true reflection of what humanity is like if we do not pull it together.

Lock and Load; ready to protect your souls, your hearts and those that mean the most to you.

To do that you better get it right with the creator of all the universe.   You know that one that blows the breeze through the trees that you do not see.  The one that formed you in your mother’s womb long before you came to this earth.     Even if where you landed could be the best, or the most horrific.      He is still in control.

 

To know God is to truly know in day to day relationship with His son Christ Jesus.    Are you?     Like me in all the stuff that comes out.  

 

 Just because I do does not mean I will not get caught up, make a mess, fall in love, be broken, get sick, suffer losses, or anything else that can go wrong in this world.

However, truly meeting Jesus right where I was in 1995 and growing through the process and falling in love with all that Christ wanted, believed, suffered, died, and came back for.    Even if!    

 

  Has given me the greatest peace and love than I ever had in my life no matter what the storms.

I will not deny; I lose sleep over things when I am handing it to God from the left and pulling it back from the right and saying wait a minute maybe I can do it this way.

 

That spiritual tug of war that I am sure will go on all my days, even when I am not trying.    Its just part of me that I am learning, its okay to not always be okay.  It is okay to look away and let the same God who saved me and showed me my worth.   Will be the same God that will be there for everyone else when they call upon

 

I am learning the hard way most days because of my stubbornness and thinking I got it.  But faith will never stop keeping me from hoping and waiting upon the Lord.   Knowing yesterday is gone, tomorrow is never promised, and we must live for today.

So, if there is anything I can possibly recommend in this deep pool of thoughts.  Stop giving any pieces of yourself away as soon as you get that feeling something is just not right.   Do  not change who you are to be something for someone else.   If something is really meant to be it will.   

When it comes to people; if they really mean what they say and say what they mean.  They will show up without excuses.      

If they are giving you excuses because their life is more important than yours and they cannot do something  but really want to be with you.   RUN.       

Because when it comes to relationships it takes balance and all parties involved to work together.  Not a continual taking from one or the other.  If something is too good to be true, it is!    

We all believe in something.  What is it that you believe in?    Who is it that you believe in and suddenly you realize none of it adds up any longer and its okay to let it go, let it hurt and let it heal!

Most importantly dive into Jesus, ask him to come into your heart, into your very being and show you the way.    

  Dive into learning from those who truly are out there with out question, needs, or demands doing their best to be the hands and feet of Jesus.    

And if you are already there and just feeling the weight of the world because you have not been circled up.    Tap into your brothers and sisters.    No Agenda friends, bible study’s and just that one on one time to feed your spirit.

Remember we can not keep going if we are running on empty.  And it is okay to acknowledge the fact we truly and deeply need our spirit to be full, with all that is good, all that is meaningful, all that gives purpose to keep trying each day the good Lord allows us up.

 

These are just my thoughts pouring out today, I am far from an expert but have journeyed many roads in this time I have been allowed.

The one thing after all these years that I am still learning is to love and accept me for who Jesus created me to be.   Sometimes that hurts, others leaves me flying high.

Within that acceptance is the realization of all those things I count as failures, or all that I have come so close but was never even within a mile.   Much love, peace and Gods blessings for anyone and everyone that I am connected.

Lord forgive me for wrong thoughts, wrong choices, wrong actions, and any indiscretions against others.  Teach this heart to forgive others who have somehow done the same to me.

Heal all that I am even now and fill me with your will and all that is good, all that is pure all that is truth.

Show me and all I am connected favor even though I or no one will ever deserve anything. 

No matter what we end up with Lord in this life may we use it for your will and not our own.   May the world learn to be selfless and start giving back and working towards all that is good even in the middle of all the unknowns and destruction. 

Protect your children and light the paths you want us to journey for any remaining days we  are given.

Thank you for this day, and this life time of lessons and blessings found through that mercy in the dirt.

 

 

 

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Date: 09/17/2020 Thursday

 
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Wake Up from Your Sleep

 

Ephesians 5:1 (TLB)

Follow God’s example in everything you do just as a much-loved child imitates his father.

 Ephesians 5:1 (MSG)
1-2 Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn’t love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that.

Read full chapter

 

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/QASREBVDsLk  “Slow Fade” @Casting Crowns

https://youtu.be/JtjxCx-7Hps  “Bring The Rain” @MercyMe

https://youtu.be/OnJFGtAXxGs   “Loving My Jesus” @Casting Crowns

https://youtu.be/xOgAmQvOUM0   “Thank You Lord” @ft.Thomas Rhett & Florida Georgia Line

https://youtu.be/wGvfagBOHJE    “Start Right Here” @Casting Crowns

 

 

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Waking each day and taking that deep breath is a blessing and privilege that not everyone is allowed.   But what about those that are blessed yet are caught up and slowly fading away into the world.  

Looking the other way or not even realizing what they spend their time doing or what it is doing to the very being that God allows us up to grow forward being our best selves that we give ourselves away and one day realize there is just nothing left to give even for the very self being.

Even during the selfish acts, we either partake in or just turn our heads and pretend does not matter until they do.

One day we wake up and truly have to choose what will matter for whatever time is left we will be given.

I found myself lately thinking on how much I need to clean out and simplify and put as much energy into me as I do purpose and hope for in others.

To acknowledge that if it does not add balance, if it is not available for me as I am for it or them; to let it go.     If it does not add to my spiritual growth in some way positive I cannot allow it to be part of any spirit I have left at all.

 

Let us face life, day to day is hard enough and 2020 has brought every negative possibility to the forefront.  Oh, I am sure there can be more that we just have not seen, and things can always get worse so never even speak that.      But here we are today right smack dab in the middle of the here and now.

We truly need to wake up and own our personal space and be accountable that no matter if we are trying to or not.  We all are leading by example.   

Whatever you do, whatever you say, whatever you dress like.  Whatever bad or good habits we allow to come out of us there is always someone looking up and watching.

It does not matter if you are totally alone and have no family.   What you do out and about, how you act.  Someone is taking notice.

Even if others do not treat you well, how you react, matters.    Being a light and glimmer of hope is just that easy.  

Yet how often we look past getting lost and turning our back on our authentic selves or worse, yet we give up and just stop trying.

How and where we end up is not permanent.   Everything in this world is temporary.  Life, Fame, Fortune, Sorrow, Pain,  or all that uncertainty that keeps us spinning.

For me yes over the years I tried many paths of finding my happiness and love.  Lived through some pretty intense moments that even from an incredibly young age should have never been blessed to get through.  

Yet God had purpose for me and just kept getting me back up and allowing me to find myself, even when I remained so lost.

He is my everything, the air in these lungs, the blood in these veins and the one true God Almighty.

Even when I too sleep with my eyes wide open and just flow through this world thinking and doing until the one day I woke up and realized I have found a new part of me that I have neglected for so much of my life.

My Father, Abba, my keeper, and lover of my soul.  That allows me those moments to dream about the forever sweet soul to be treated as a king in flesh as I am their queen.

No regrets to dream or dream out loud.  Not even for those moments that are so very close yet so unattainable as royalty lives only in the heavens and I belong to Gods kingdom no matter what is or is not here and now.   Or even that which hurts when the rain just keeps pouring down, I will forever keep loving my Jesus and He will forever remind me how much I am enough and loved.

 

So in those moments of one too many, https://youtu.be/LmxtnkfUlB4   “One Too Many” @Keith Urban @Pink

when we should but we did not, and we do but we cannot.     I will never forget that which truly blessed what seems so ridiculous to so many others in this world. 

There is something to be said with the ability to love my Jesus and know how much he loves me and each and every soul in this world he allowed to come to be.

So, no matter how much we want in life, no matter how much we want to do life with someone.  Always know we are worth more than what we allow to spin and take from us trying to chase those forever empty promises that in some cases will never allow the real in reality.

For me I will never deny the unknown scares the hell out of me; but that is just how it is supposed to be and what allows me to cling to wanting better, wanting more, wanting to never stop smiling even if it just because I know to whom I belong and even if I am not allowed any desires or dreams to be fully balanced, fully available, fully real flesh working together.    Then I forever know it is something I want not need.  That with Christ I am more and have everything.

In all things the here and now and this will pass; no matter what it feels like.

We cannot grow forward when we allow everything to take all we are and are so unbalanced we can barely get up much less breathe.

So if it does not add to your spirit and help you shine the real you from the inside out and truly know Christ Jesus and all that he created you to be.   No matter how hard it is to hold, even harder to let go.   Just let it go until it shows up and helps you grow.

 

Never give up, never give in to the world but Give all you are to God and allow Jesus to come fill and guide you through whatever is next in eternal peace no matter what the storm.

 

Thank you, Lord, for waking me over and over again.  Thank you for the courage and strength to just keep getting back up no matter if I have been knocked down or just crumble because I get so tired.

Be with all those in need Jesus; all those who need you now, yesterday or any tomorrows.   You know all things.     Thank you for allowing us to know we not prove anything to anyone.   We choose because you blessed us with freedom of will and freedom of choice.

Wake me up Lord, wake us up before its beyond that one too many too late!

 

 

 

 

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Date: 09/16/2020 Wednesday

 
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Live Well, Live Wisely

 

James 3:13 (TLB) 13 If you are wise, live a life of steady goodness so that only good deeds will pour forth. And if you don’t brag about them, then you will be truly wise!

 

 

 James 3:13 (MSG)

13-16 Do you want to be counted wise, to build a reputation for wisdom? Here’s what you do: Live well, live wisely, live humbly. It’s the way you live, not the way you talk, that counts. Mean-spirited ambition isn’t wisdom. Boasting that you are wise isn’t wisdom. Twisting the truth to make yourselves sound wise isn’t wisdom. It’s the furthest thing from wisdom—it’s animal cunning, devilish conniving. Whenever you’re trying to look better than others or get the better of others, things fall apart and everyone ends up at the others’ throats.

Read full chapter

 

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/drcWeaSIrzs “Children” @Justin Bieber
https://youtu.be/3Uk9mPHi900 “Be One” @Natalie Grant
https://youtu.be/Xdn4Jq8jHhk  “Shine The Light” @Sugarland
https://youtu.be/hMMLfV93ckM   “Banners- Shine A Light” @Lyric King 18

 

 

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord I am thankful I have been given a new day.  As I am reminded of the poem published in Heart and Soul back in 2000 that was written in 1996.   “What About The Children”

Listening here we are in 2020, and the local sheriff department is talking about the misguided teenagers that are just driving around shooting up houses killing 3 innocent people.

What has happened to this world Lord?  In 1996 it was  a news clipping where a five-year-old was left unattended and the news got wind of him playing in the garage alone and pouring paint all over everything in the garage of a neighbors house.  Destruction and this child had no clue the impact.

 

Here so many years later, a 17-year-old boy who has been arrested 20 times previously now in prison for murder and the loss of life, right in our own back yards.

 Why is it we adults in this world have become so selfish and not done all they can to get the children in some sort of programs or just spend time.

 

Yes, it is not always the adult’s fault, we know that I know that.   Sometimes you do all you can, but we are all given that freedom of choice and sometimes the children just choose to do things that are dark and devastating.  Or that will take them down paths they can never return from without you Jesus.

Lord where is their vision, who can take the light and help direct their steps to the future you call them to?

Even if we are not the parents can we as adults that are somewhat together just step up, step out in faith, and reflect good, reflect light, reflect promise for the children of the future.

It is more than teaching them to fight and never back down.   It is far more than to teach them to chase all the material things of this world.  Someone needs to reflect the purpose of humanity and God’s love.

I know here on the West Coast and most likely much of Florida many are suffering and lost.    Many come to Florida as a transient state because of the weather.  Many are caught up in drugs and things because they found themselves lost and at least for the most part they can survive and not freeze to death in the winter months.

But truly Geographic's may matter when it comes to keeping warm; but problems will never be solved no matter where we travel.    We must address and remain accountable for whatever our troubles are head on.

Even if we are cleaning up messes that we did not choose and just found ourselves in it because of blind choices.   You know those things we think we can handle and just dive in.

Oh Lord this world needs you more than ever.

 

 It is only getting worse and now openly sucking the life from our babies.   Seventeen years old and never given a chance.    It reminds me of Tommy, a young mand that my daughter was friends with for a period of time.

 

I knew that Tommy had just gotten out of prison several months before meeting him.   He was a young man now and truly I do not ask questions to dive into anyone; I just make it known I will not tolerate trouble or misdeeds anywhere near me or on my property.

I became Mamma Dukes to Tommy and truly even still the kid had a huge misguided heart.

Tommy ended up back in prison, not for anything that he did around me.    However, he did get in trouble and was sent back.

 

What I did learn was heart breaking over the time I got to know him.   Tommy’s parents were drug addicts, and they would have him and his brother breaking into house and steal stuff to sell to get money for the additions and demons they fed.

Tommy had been in and out of detentions and prison the majority of his life and it started at the age of 12 years old.

He thought this time would be different when he got out.   He cut ties with his family, that was the main ring that he always felt obligated to step into.   He was working and getting on track.      But he did not have the backing, or the strength to stay away of what was around him.     His family kept calling and finally within the same year out he went back and has been ever since.

 

What was sad is his first letter to the family was to apologize to Mamma Dukes for letting me down.   How heartbreaking the fact, it was not me He let down, but he did not have enough in him to know his worth in Christ and he only let himself down but could be redeemed.   I have faith he will get it right with God.   However, so much life lost before it gets there.

What about this latest news clip?   Why are there so many children in harms misguided dark way?

What about the mother who is in the abusive relationship and is beat so bad they rush her to the hospital and deliver her child while she is unconscious?    The same lady that stays with the husband having several other children and raising them up in violence until one day when the kids have already been scarred, and they are grown; she finally leaves.

Those children grow up unstable and broken and pass that brokenness on generation after generation.

What about the one that has the glimpse of such goodness deep within, has so many scars cannot find the way forward.    The one that was born into and from violence murdered himself at 33 years old.   Beaten and burned alive.     True story, that man was my granddaughter’s father.  One of many along the way.

 

What about those who try to see the good in others and look past those indiscretions and hope and do much to help be the footing to change?    Those that are not anchored in Christ first and foremost.

They too get caught in the spin and until they know their worth and where their help truly comes from their everything truly comes from will gravitate to the that which is lost.

What about those who are grounded and just want to see the good and help bring the light to this world.  Smart enough to know but still at times do not follow their own advice.

Oh, as you can see this mornings mind maze filled with so many questions, so tired of seeing the future completely wiped out or just slowly burning leaving nothing of God’s promises.

How can I walk outside seeing that beautiful sunrise and sky holding all the hopes and opportunities of each new day, yet be surrounded in this world with so much loss and darkness?

God I cannot imagine the pains you feel looking down at this world; Jesus I cannot know where your strength to continue to just keep going doing what you did for a world that needs so much guidance and hope.

But thank you both!  Thank you, God, for allowing the vision of humanity to become real.  Thank you, Jesus, for giving us a way to know how to live right, and faithfully put one foot in front of the other no matter how painful to stay obedient and do what is right the best we can.

 

Lord, you know how hard things are for all of us.  I can pour out my own needs of grace and forgiveness.  You know me and every soul in this vast earth.   Please come and guide us and show us how to help the future, how to be a light for all that is good and merciful for the children of this world.

May the hate, the violence, the darkness be washed away and this world shine so bright for all that is good, all that is your love.

And if Lord we are not allowed to see it or be it.   May we just continue to cling to you and dive in to know who you really are and protect us from our own selves of foolish choices or the lack of.

 

Love, passion as noted @speaklife  never counts the cost.    May we do our best to be the reasons why someone believes in the goodness of humanity.

Be with all suffering the losses, all needing healing and all just needing to feel you each day they too are allowed up with air in their lungs.

Thank you, Jesus, for all the lessons and blessings that come with even if they do not feel so good.  

Have mercy on this soul and all I am connected. 

Teach us Lord how to shine for you and lead the way for those needing just that one kind word, that listening ear, that simple meal, that small opportunity to pay it forward giving hope this world is worth saving and that we are all created for more than we have in the here and now.

 Evening thoughts

 Dear Lord, what a year 2020 has been and continuing to be for so many.    We know you are not done with us yet.    Despite the layers of so much many like myself just do not want to have to deal with anymore.      Material items in this world get us by but truly have no meaning but to use for barter for your kingdom work.    

Yet when the appliances all go, or the vehicle that takes you to and from the only income supporting a family of 4.  Losing every dime, or losing a life, or having to maintain what sometimes seems meaningless.

Each day with you can be stressful Jesus; Please be with those who want to know you but have not met you just yet.

Be with those who have been taken back up ahead.     Friends, family members losing children to the world, to accidents, to themselves.    Or family with a first-born living 3 weeks then taken away,    All that are allowed to come to this world has a birthdate and all will have their time stamp out.   Even if none of us will truly know or want to experience when that comes.

Be with all those shut in and alone,  all those suffering and dying alone in the hospitals from this virus.  All those in nursing hopes or just stuck at home and unable have that normalcy they once knew.

The battles are raging we know this Jesus.  

 Even though the war already being won by you Christ Jesus!   Nothing will change that.   The battle of good and evil and just life and death is raging on.

 

We all get to choose no matter what the situation and we may never have control of what will be; but we get to choose how to go forward with whatever becomes that is.

You taught us in sacrifice what true love, mercy and grace really is.     Please come wash this world clean, come lead us all to be more like you.  Want more of you even in the storms.

Lord, I pray for family members and what comes next for Cody and Carissa with the loss of baby Lucas.  I pray for Pops refusing treatment and his cancer is back.   I pray for the young ladies or men who are getting their first Chemo treatment and they do not know you Father.     

 

I pray for those who walk with you without missing a step and they are suffering so much loss or pain in their minds, body, or spirit.  I ask Lord you hold them just a little tighter this day Lord. 

 

I pray for my elderly mother that  we cannot get to, because of all the rules and things this Pandemic has caused.    Prayers for safety and for their health and healing for their broken hearts.

 

I wish Jesus that we could flip the Bible open and just dive in and see things are going to get easier.  But Father nowhere is it written to be so.  Kick that field goal and 2020 is gone and the new day with all new promises are as prominent as all the negative that consumes this world today.

Our hearts may be at peace while the broken pieces are laid out on the floor as we are trying to recover from the shock of the unexpected and great losses, challenges, hardships.

Give us, give me continued strength, courage, and Godly wisdom how to keep taking one step at a time.   To keep seeking your light and learning just how to be even a glimmer of hope for all of us that are given each new day to breathe in and breathe out.    Reflect what pure joy truly means through you even when.

Protect and guide our steps in unity with and for you Father no matter what.    As it is written in James 3:13

Show us how to remain counted as wise with wisdom and more than just going through the motions or worse giving up.   

Thank you for the blessing of salvation, thank you for the lessons and any blessing we get when we learn something from them.

In the dark times we will go through; may we always cling to you to light the path ahead and be one for others.

Be with all my brothers and sisters in you Father God.   Heal and guide our every beings.

 

 

 

 

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Date: 09/15/2020 Tuesday

 
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Understanding His Love

 1 John 4:16 (TLB) 16 We know how much God loves us because we have felt his love and because we believe him when he tells us that he loves us dearly. God is love, and anyone who lives in love is living with God and God is living in him. Read full chapter

 

1 John 4:16 (MSG) 13-16 This is how we know we’re living steadily and deeply in him, and he in us: He’s given us life from his life, from his very own Spirit. Also, we’ve seen for ourselves and continue to state openly that the Father sent his Son as Savior of the world. Everyone who confesses that Jesus is God’s Son participates continuously in an intimate relationship with God. We know it so well, we’ve embraced it heart and soul, this love that comes from God.

Read full chapter

 

 

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/YT9Gz6JaCPo   “Lean Back” @Capital City Music ft. Dion Davis

https://youtu.be/_jaGPxHMX1I   “Love Is All -Truth Is Forever” @Yanni

https://youtu.be/15CGKy3R4Es   “Dear God” @Cory Asbury | To Love A Fool

https://youtu.be/6nW7lyO6jHA  “Whatever May Come” @Jeremy Camp, Adrienne Camp

 

 

 

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord thank you through it all your reminders of the truth and love in life you allow me.  Be it a child’s laughter, a rambunctious puppy always wanting to be held or play, or even the tears that flow with so much heartbreak spinning around this vessel.

The waters of turbulence are no match for your perfect peace no matter what is or is not!

We all get to choose what direction in our actions, our beliefs, our words.   I try to believe in this world and those that I connect.   Not for anything but just for who they say they are or show they are. 

 

Yes, in many cases as time goes on, we find we become what was not expected for those we connect; just as they become something or someone different.

We can know someone all our lives and love them just for them. Until that day that something crosses in their genetic wiring and they show a side doing things, saying things, or being things, we never would have ever thought possible.

In life we believe what we want to believe and even when things are right in front of us that we know should not be.  

 

We blindly look past to see only what we want to see.   Filling that gap, we think we have; that one we think someone else or something else can fill.

Things cruise along and we tolerate what should not be just because.  At least until the day comes that we are made to deal with the repercussions of keeping our eyes closed until we cannot any longer.

This goes truly with not just relationships but anything we find ourself distracted and / or chasing.

There are no get rich opportunities.   Anyone who has been out there and are now very well off.    They did it by plotting, planning and sometimes even scheming and it work.  But it was not quick, they still had to plan and go through the ups and downs of putting effort into things to get where they are.  No matter if they did so legitimately or pulled a hustle.

Love is blind; this I honestly believe.   Not only for the love that I am filled with since meeting Jesus Christ the one I will hopefully see in Eternity.      But even for those that you fall in love with their souls.

Those that when you look at the shell and break things down in the worldly comparison or what you think per the worldly standards should or should not be.

You just cannot understand why.   Yet when you connect, and your souls genuinely just feel love and want so much for them.    You know it has nothing to do with what this world has to give or take.

 

Love is Jesus Christ and the sacrifice God made and Jesus went through with.   That unexplainable harmony during all the trials, tribulations, jokes, or schemes.   Love that even though we are blessed with pieces of our own bloodline and allowed to love the souls forever.   God reminds us we are only here on loan.  The vessels we have been given in the early biblical times and I cannot imagine myself but were allowed to journey this earth for sometimes 600 plus years.

Even today it is hard to believe that longevity can occur, and people live well into their 100s.

But none of us will ever really know when it is our time until it happens and that day our souls are swept away, and our vessels are left behind to be disposed of.

I am sorry for the to the point image of these thoughts.   But truth is, when we know this, when we know we are only on loan here and those we love and wish to be connected are only on loan without the knowledge of when we all must leave.  Or even how.

Why do we spend so much time spinning in what should not be?

Why do we spend time spinning trying to get those we are connected to keep the real in the reality we have in front of us?

Why do we chase love or do crazy things thinking it will make that one connection want to share life with us?

Or worse yet.

Why do we settle and just put ourselves out there for whatever comes along?

Yet, not once digging deep and seeking the creator and what it really means to know love through His son Christ Jesus.

 

Why do some play on love in this world?   You know the typical real-life movie line.  If you love me, you will do it?  If you love me, you will get it?  

Or those famous last words you hear before you slam the door.   You never loved me, if you did you would find a way.  

 

Truth is real love, needs no words.   The action verb will never be fulfilled again by anyone in this universe as it was by Jesus Christ.

And no matter what we give or take.  No one will ever truly know what it is like to be love but God himself.

Oh, I will give it my best shot, loving on all I am allowed to connect along the way.  Even stepping out without question and stepping up when needed.   I always did work harder that what many thinks is not smarter.

Loving a soul, not the actions the vessel the souls are taking.

Trying to love all of what is in front of me at any given time.  With deep need its true to be loved.

A battle or spin that will never have an ending.   Even though I know I am enough, and I am loved more than anything this world can give or take.

Just think back remember those places or times in your life when you truly should have been in trouble, or you were rescued from trouble.   Or even the blessings we are given even if we are not deserving at times.

 

We all know that no where is it written every soul created in the hear in now deserves anything!  

Love costs,  it cost God His one and only son Christ Jesus.    It costs many so much all the time, but nothing compares to the ultimate sacrifice.   No matter how bad it hurts or how good it feels.

 

Everything even our actions on this earth we are given are temporary.    But it is the choices to be made that lead us where we will end up eternally.

What are your choices you will make?

How will you approach Love in this world we live that is lacking so much?

How will you react when you know the truth, but you continue to keep your eyes wide shut, until you cannot any longer?

Me, I will continue to learn, pray I am allowed more tomorrows and try and tone back my need to people please.

Getting back to basics and daily reminders what our worth in humanity truly is; and not matter what try my best to shine even through the truth, hurts, habits, and hang-ups.  Of my own and those I connect.

Whatever may come; keep running back to the foot of the cross for my Daddy to lead and protect me.

Knowing He alone is fully aware of everything happening in this world.    Whatever may come good, bad, or misguided intentions that lead me up to the mountain top through the roughest terrain or smooth sailing in his vast ocean of harmony, mercy and grace that He gives.

Life is what it is until it is not.     Loving the best, I can along the way, and knowing it will never be enough for this world or many in it.  

 

Lord thank you for this day and all that has come to pass and all that may for any tomorrows given.  May I always do my best to reflect love? Even if, even when!

 

The storms in this world are real, the brokenness and sorrow is pouring out; Lord please heal this land and all your creations.

Lead us away from temptations of all that is quick and temporary but has lasting destructive effects.

Comfort the parents who lost their children, may they realize you too lost your one and only Son for them.

May your will be done, no matter what that looks like with mercy, grace, and your abundant love for all I am and all I am connected.

Thank you, Christ Jesus, for your sacrifice and never giving up on me, on us.  Even when we are not doing things or being worthy to love.

 

https://youtu.be/Ak5WTb-mgeA   “Worthy” @Elevation Worship -Live

 

 

 

 

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Date: 09/14/2020 Monday

 
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

Selfish or Selfless
 Philippians 2:1-2 (TLB) Is there any such thing as Christians cheering each other up? Do you love me enough to want to help me? Does it mean anything to you that we are brothers in the Lord, sharing the same Spirit? Are your hearts tender and sympathetic at all? Then make me truly happy by loving each other and agreeing wholeheartedly with each other, working together with one heart and mind and purpose.

Philippians 2:1-2 (MSG) He Took on the Status of a Slave-4 If you’ve gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don’t push your way to the front; don’t sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don’t be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.


Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  

https://youtu.be/ozKsQnRHb-c  “Angel” @Sarah McLachlan
https://youtu.be/UM81j0ki-d8   “Tears of God” @Josh Turner, Done Request
https://youtu.be/D7ab595h0AU  “Battle Symphony” @Linkin Park
https://youtu.be/7_6T1WiPmRA   “Evidence” @Josh Baldwin
 https://youtu.be/7_6T1WiPmRA   “I Have To Believe” @Rita Springer


Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for this day and even though a quick study at times to really believe in what should and should not be.   You finally make me aware.   The Lord helps those who help themselves.

Sometimes those helping themselves have more than they will ever do anything with, yet they just keep taking from the ones who keep giving.   

Trying to find the words this morning as 2020 just keeps hitting closer to home.  Prayers for a dear family well known who lost their son yesterday.  An uncle, a brother, a father, and a child of God.   May you rest in peace Brian.   

Please open their eyes now Lord before it becomes too late.  We know as we look around time is running out. 

The storms are here, and the waves are pounding.
None of us deserve anything Jesus.   

Father God how can we change, show us the way.  It is more than words or just going through the motions of whatever. 

We all have stuff, the pains of loss; the ability or lack of for wellness in the fashion Jesus that you intended.   Emotional or Physical distractions. 

Easy targets, for those who play with the heart strings of what the world could truly be.   
The same just business that has their targets in hand playing out the chess game of life for personal gains and not the greater good of humanity.

Life is what it is until it is not.    Are we truly selfish, or selflessly just trying to be our best selves?

Always one to jump in the fire before locking in the facts I have been blessed to live and tell so many stories of redemption, and survival.

It is a different time in this world, be it on your own or side by side we never know when everything changes.

Dreaming out-loud going for those dreams; is that not what we tell our children. 

 Yet, the demons lurk around every corner.

The world says having everything, including those letters at the end of your name for some degree you will spend thousands of hours and dollars for.   Is what will bring you life.

All the while those with a PHD can barely find work to pay the debt incurred.    

As many sell their souls and give away pieces of them that will never be replaced; eventually in the end only things that are remembered are the negative and vile stories the media make up.


All the while at the top of whatever pyramid we balance on; the vultures, thieves and wannabe’s surround the ground below just waiting for you to fall; just wanting to consume any little piece of you God, are they  so lost they think it will gain them something in the world we live?

Where is my heart this day as I look out the window of this darkened sky, ready to pour at any moment today?    Thinking of the tears and brokenness so many are feeling as they must plan to deal with life ever changed.

Thinking no matter what I have done, or will do; good, bad, or indifferent.  Does it really matter?    Not to this world; No, it does not.    

Blessed beyond all deserving allowed up another day; never the same as the day before but always as I am just me.

Fully aware the only thing that matters is for those who keep coming back wanting more but giving nothing.    Those pretenders violating trust, violating the very souls they promised to love, honor, and protect.

Caught up in their own spin and worldly chess games.   As the world crumbles around all of us.   What is next is so uncertain for sure.  What once was is no more.

Not those pretenders who think by just saying His word, or saying they are believers in God.   For to acknowledge your very blessing of life you must allow the living Christ deep within your soul. 

Yes this mind and soul out there like a game of candy land to many.   

But it is not until you acknowledge who you truly are and your worth in Christ Jesus and that died so you can live and came back, so He can live deep within your spirit.  

That the beauty and destruction of this world even remotely makes sense.  And that is only by knowing everything we have here and now is on loan.  If we cannot be good stewards with little, with even our own being; how can we ever be trusted with much.

If we think by the more, we have the more relevant we are.  We are truly meaningless in the grand scheme of things.    

How can one appreciate such when their soul is burning; when their heart is empty or filled with only what is temporary?

I have no answers and when I truly ask for them; it is through the God who sustains me.   
As I know every flaw I carry.  

Where are you now in your own journey, where is Christ Jesus in your life.  Where is your moral compass?

Have you given everything there is to give and if so for what reason?   Love, worldly possessions, just to play games with others even though we seem to be winning; we have already lost.
Life has never been promised or written that it will be easy; It has never been declared free.   For everything we do has a cost.  

For every choice there is a result.   For everything worth fighting for, even if just to maintain the spirit that dwells within.   

We all will walk through the fire.
Who is it that you have in you, with you,  by you in that walk to make it to the other side without burning up?

Father thank you for this day although so much uncertainty and despair around my own being.  As I seek health, well-being mind, body, and spirt for myself and all I am connected.    I pray for the future of this world Lord.  

I pray for my own personal well-being as you know all things going on physically, emotionally, financially.

I pray for my brothers and sisters in Christ and the tremendous loss we feel for all the recent and current losses.

Prayers for boundaries in every choice we make weighing out all options before taking that first step.  As we know it is never easy for the givers to stop giving or the takers of the world to stop playing and preying on those who freely give.


Lord be with the broken hearts that will never be the same each soul that leaves this planet.

  The nation is burning down around us; those gifts of life given are being taken at a vast rate of speed not allowing anyone to stop and think and to set those boundaries.

Unless they are one of the chosen to lay in a hospital bed and suffer alone as this unseen virus takes them away.

Yet you still allow souls up each day to choose and work towards being good stewards in appreciation and love with all you allow them.  

Be it much or just the air in their lungs,

   Where are our hearts truly entangled that distracts us from growing forward in and with your promise Christ Jesus?

The world says its not who you really are but what you do, what you look like.  Forget about everything else.  Do everything you can to remain on top.

   In a world darkened and crying out for the same creator who said their will be light.


  Letting go of everything you know; and trusting no matter if a new day is given or not.  

 You Lord,  will be together with us, in the eternal promise land.


  Money and power yes and travels to places more beautiful than ever seen with the human eye.


 From scars to just those misguided choices leaving gaps to allow the mosquitoes of this world to come try to suck the life and blood as we know it.



The future of those you have blessed me with in the blood of my blood and bones of my bones.


I thank you for another day, moment or even second you allow this soul to get up and keep fighting forward.

You alone God are what is everlasting.   Forgive me for missing the mark and at times not even trying or others trying too much.

May this soul find your perfect peace and balance that shines for, towards and with you.
Lord give peace to all who needed those distractions and as they found their way back to you, lost themselves to this world.  

Be with the families of all the lost and broken wildfires of this vast devastation in the world as we know it this day.    May we find comfort in the unspeakable peace only you can give.

Be with all I am connected Jesus, be it their direction good, bad, or just spinning in the abyss trying to find their way.    Flood the path we all walk this day and any future days given. 

Our battle here and now will forever be as we do not understand what we cannot see.  But God your tears and blood shed was us clean.  Direct us Father: in your will until you lay our vessels down.  Then may we know how to sour with the everything you are.



2 Samuel 22:29 (MSG)  29-31 Suddenly, God, your light floods my path,
    God drives out the darkness.  I smash the bands of marauders,
I vault the high fences.  What a God! His road stretches straight and smooth.  Every God-direction is road- tested.    Everyone who runs toward him Makes it.


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Date: 09/13/2020 Sunday

 
Bible Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)
Suffering for Doing Good
 1 Peter 3:8 (TLB)  And now this word to all of you: You should be like one big happy family, full of sympathy toward each other, loving one another with tender hearts and humble minds.
1 Peter 3:8(MSG)  8-12 Summing up: Be agreeable, be sympathetic, be loving, be compassionate, be humble. That goes for all of you, no exceptions. No retaliation. No sharp-tongued sarcasm. Instead, bless—that’s your job, to bless. You’ll be a blessing and also get a blessing.    
Whoever wants to embrace life and see the day fill up with good, Here’s what you do:
    Say nothing evil or hurtful;  Snub evil and cultivate good; run after peace for all you’re worth.   God looks on all this with approval, listening and responding well to what he’s asked; But he turns his back on those who do evil things.



Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)Lord the songs that pop in this head  or the vibes that keep me moving.  Thank you!  


https://youtu.be/B6fA35Ved-Y     “Even If” @MercyMe

https://youtu.be/B6fA35Ved-Y    “Lean On Me” @Music Travel Love (Iligan city, Philippines Bill Withers Cover)

https://youtu.be/SgQ6vWEhH5E    “Your Love Never Fails” @Newsboys



Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
As I wake this morning still darkness at 7:30 looking to the weather to know the rains will come.  
Thankful God allows another day and the ability to feed this dry earth as he does these dry bones.
Looking past what sucks the life out of us heading for that really strong cup of coffee.   Thankful the one who created me still believes in me that there is something more to do.
Smiling sleepy how it has taken some really hard lessons to come to know the truth each new day promises.    And looking at that puppy that now she his up and out wants you to just carry her as she thinks she is human.
Clearly as those who picked her from the litter did not pay attention to how big she will be, or how much work and especially mercy and grace it will take to train and tolerate her chewing or getting into things as having pets means.    Like having a toddler under foot 24/7.

Thank you, Jesus, for the mercy and grace and tolerance you show me in all the lessons that sometime take far to long to understand and get.
If it is meant to be for anything you allowed to come to life; you will allow it to show up in full bloom.     It will not be one sided or grow like weeds; what you bless Lord in all your beauty you will allow to bloom in full beauty and like all other things we will either acknowledge the gifts and work together or we will continue wandering in the desert as so many have for so many years.
Watching out for the snakes, scorpions that come in the desert even when we are doing what we are called.   Or in today’s modern-day world where even good intentions take so many for a ride to destruction.
Hear all the hearts who truly belong to you Jesus and the guidance and redemption they silently cry out.
Keep them from falling asleep waiting for the coyotes that lurk in the darkness to devour all that they are.
May we all be one step ahead like that road runner, although may we shine brightly the torch that shines you brightly each escape and botched plan the wilderness can allow to morph into life.

Years of cartoons, years of real-life wolves in sheep’s clothing and the imagination you allow to pour out of this mind maze.
If only our world was a cartoon where we truly could laugh our way through in every given day.
If only this world was filled with children’s laughter with no more worries of even allowing them to walk out the door; due to fears that if they are not guarded and watched something bad will occur.

And now not even to play we must watch even the silent invisible killer 2020 has usured in.
As we wait and watch those, we care about one by one feel the damage of all that has swept the nations.   Being made fully aware of that what we can or can no longer do.   As we watch our loved ones so close yet so far away.

All the while we are to remain hopeful.

Lord I know all things happen for a reason.  Noting 2020 I will never understand the reasons why humanity that created this mess even had knowledge to do so.
However not to dwell on all that has been taken from us; I pray we understand what we need to do to bring life back.
I pray every soul does their part, big or small. 
What is will pass and what will be is yet to come.

Jesus thank you for all you suffered, died, and rose again for.  Even if humanity has let you down to experience those stripes over and over again.

Unable to let go, yet nothing but empty words and desolate visions up ahead; why is it we cannot let go and just do what is needed?

Unsure what this draining is, unsure why so much bleeding out and destruction must occur before beauty grows out of the ashes.    Lord only you can open those doors that seem stuck.
May the bleeding and loss stop; may the storms that are coming awaken every soul and they acknowledge you.
May the addict have clarity and stop numbing what never goes away until they deal with it.
May the angry hearts consumed by darkness and eventually evil step into the light with redemption and praise they now feel again
May the takers give back
May the sick suffer no more and be healed
May this world acknowledge your glory in unity and do everything in its power for all that is good, all that reflects mercy and grace that you give each one of us
May evil be crushed under your heel

So much to ask for in this mind that has great imagination for love and forever.
Yet the war that has been in battle for centuries is just heating up.  We know the truth in the end will hurt.   We know the many empty promises and all the great pretenders will cause so much more hurt, pain and destruction along the way.
Jesus I cannot do this whatever is left on my own.  I pray you come soon Father.   I pray in flesh in life whatever the days are left.   You shower this undeserving speck in the wind with direction, strength, more courage than ever before and abundant love and how to remain in you while losing the battle of hope in humanity.
Show me Lord what next.   In you, with you, for you. Together or alone.    Your will and justice be done for all I am connected.

Lord we know you are the one and only truth and way and proof if someone really wants to do something, wants to reflect truth, and love they do it.    No matter what the consequences!
May we all have the courage of so many greats that served you have as we purpose one foot in front of the other no matter what ground we stand on.  May we have you holding our hands, deep within our hearts and forever driving our soul.

Thank you for this day~
Lord Guide us Even If; may we look past any of the singleness, shame, loneliness, pains, or sorrow.  May we always cling to you and the promise faithfully shining brighter than ever seen before in this globe.    Show us the way to get around those mountains in love, leading in your love!

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