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Date: 10/10/2020 Saturday

 Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/RwYuKlbk6BQ   “So Will I (100 Billion X)” @Amanda Lindsey Cook | Bethel Music

https://youtu.be/8-O0nyTAHJU  “Letting Go” @Steffany Gretzinger

 

 

 

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Act Justly, Love with Mercy, Walk Humbly

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Micah 6:8 (NIV) New International Version ⁸ He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.
    And what does the Lord require of you?   To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly^[a] with your God.

 

Micah 6:8  (MSG) The Message Bible ⁸ But he’s already made it plain how to live, what to do,
    what God is looking for in men and women.   It’s quite simple: Do what is fair and just to your neighbor, be compassionate and loyal in your love, And don’t take yourself too seriously—
    take God seriously.

Listen To and Walk with Wise Council

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Proverbs 19:20-21 (NIV) New International Version ²⁰ Listen to advice and accept discipline,  and at the end you will be counted among the wise.   ¹ Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.

 

Proverbs 19:20-21 (MSG) The Message Bible ²⁰ Take good counsel and accept correction—        that’s the way to live wisely and well.   ²¹ We humans keep brainstorming options and plans, but God’s purpose prevails.

 

Inspirational Thoughts:

Consider that maybe God closed that door because he knew you were worth so much more.  @TobyMac#SpeakLife 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

 

Lord thank you for the sweet moments and ability always feel those moments that make our hearts  smile those sweet things in life be it memories or day to day. May they always bring us back to  that what makes  smile and feel deep inside, that which carries us through each day.  https://youtu.be/bgCdd0Db_fM    “Sweet Thing” @Keith Urban

 

Thank you, Lord, for this new day;  thank you for all those sweet things!  People, connections, lessons, and all that help me grow through any messes.  Thank you allowing me to love even when the light does not shine bright.

 

Jesus, helping with this estate of a friend, if only everyone realized things only matter when they are in our hands in that very moment.  

 

All that we collect all that we find important.  None of it can go with us.   And though many will pick through and nickel dime whatever is left.  All that was once so important to drive us will end  up at  a dump somewhere.

Please come and show us the way Lord.

May we learn to treat humanity known and unknown connections with great compassion and love.   https://youtu.be/1sQNp7ojMb8    “Mighty To Save” @Kari Jobe

 

No matter if we find ourselves in those wide-open spaces or very personal moments with the ones we care much about.

 Lord may we always know and reflect truth, compassion and real desire of what humanity was meant to procreate prosper together in unity and while we are on our own.   No matter what we may always have compassion. https://youtu.be/yuDjuCY7aYo   “Everyone Needs Compassion” @Michael Cochren & Co.

If only we all had the love and compassion that lasts deep inside and not just for that 15 minutes of a fix, a touchy feel, a temporary thing that is all so often taken from us or found to have lost the excitement or spark that it once gave.

If only we could always speak the truth with integrity and not make up or pretend what we know should not be, or at times not.

Pure heart, clean hands, sleeping well at night because it is well with our souls.   https://youtu.be/YNqo4Un2uZI   “It Is Well | You Make Me Brave” @Kirstene DiMarco Not that we just do not care or have no soul.   

Never will we ever come close to what you truly created us for Jesus. If only we can start just turning to you and clinging to all the unseen hope, faith in all you present us.  Hope and direction from and with you first and always.

 

Hope and faith with forgiveness for all who will never get what you intended; taking advantage or thinking they right then and there and anything going on is more important than anyone around them.

Lord we are all created uniquely, beautifully by your design to bleed the same, love greatly and be more than we ever give ourselves credit for as we are so caught up in the world and stuff, the reputations the collectibles to be tossed out later.

 

Jesus may we stop being disposable, just tossing people out when we do not get our own way, when we are done, and we think something better has come along.

Jesus build our lives Lord https://youtu.be/NLhdzuCSmIw  “Build My Life” @Peyton Allen, show us how to love like this; the only way you understand; pure agape, unconditional release.  https://youtu.be/gLH2mNb2K6A   “Love Like This/No One Like You (Spontaneous) Break Every Chain” @The Belonging Co.

Jesus may we stop being disposable, just tossing people out when we do not get our own way, when we are done, and we think something better has come along.

We can speak words all day long; we can get up and move and for the moments at hand reflect what seems so real.     But Jesus I want you and all you allow until the day I die. https://youtu.be/DaxRpleDHL8   “Till The Day I Die” @TobyMac ft. NF   I want to be all in with all I am connected, with all you allow with every step good, bad, or indifferent.

 

I need no flattery, sweet words or even being purchased.    I want what is real as if it is not it will never happen.   Yes, that reality is all in the perspectives and beliefs of every soul and what they choose to believe.      Perhaps boundaries or those lacking are why we dive in later to be drowning in pain or sorrow.

 

So many blessed across the world and have no understanding to give back, to genuinely care about what they look down on and consider least of these.      

While so many others scraping and scrapping to get by with many losing the fight just to be alive.  https://youtu.be/DgV5-gnnZG0    “The Least Of These” @Matt Maher

At some point turning to all that numbs what they do not understand.   Jesus wash over all I am connected like that.  Release the bondage and ties that are slowly strangling life as it should be.

Every lasting shining with such bold glitter and purity washing over as the warmth of a newborn baby on your chest, and hearts racing to the sound of abundance that no explanation is ever needed.

 

Eternity is truly closer than any worldly forever can be.   Who and when is up to inviting Christ Jesus every day given!    That is truth and that is between you and the one true King.

Let your faith arise, https://youtu.be/c24En0r-lXg   “I Lift My Hands” @Chris Tomlin find your prayer closet, your moments know the spiritual battles are real.   With you and all connections allowed.     Be a light and let your faith arise in all that is good.     Not what you think is good for you at that moment later to be discarded or used up.

 

May we hunger for the depths that only knowing you Christ Jesus gives meaning.   Not that quick fix, quick romance, quick meal, quick Band-Aid approach.    All that will go with us through our time here and now and onto eternity.   https://youtu.be/rxnmZHyMteg    “Hunger” @David & Nicole Binion

Lord whatever it takes, https://youtu.be/M66U_DuMCS8  “Whatever It Takes” @Imagine Dragons fill my every desire, lifelong lessons and balance only you allow.  

Heal all that is broken, show me how to lead by the example you want and not that of which I think I am doing great things, yet it is all about here and now.

Yes, perspective matters, what we do with every second of everyday matters.    The world will always have critics, darkness and people taking what does belong to them never given anything back.    Lord wash it all away, heal who we are meant to be for your creation not that we learn from the world.    Can anyone hear him, hear her, even me silently crying out?  https://youtu.be/OEhRucEVzH8    “Does Anybody Hear Her” @Casting Crowns   Just trying to make it in this world sometimes so cold, alone even with the love of those that feel.     It will never be enough to fill the emptiness only God knows. 

Guide, protect and lead us through all your will!   Show me the way https://youtu.be/LsYvuxmzxX4   “Show Me The Way” @Stixx

Jesus

Thank you for this day, these words, those special deep breaths when we inhale all that can never be replaced.    Thank you for allowing the freedoms to be our best selves in all we do.  May every talent, every mission, everything we chase make a difference for the good and growth of any future we are tied to.

May we stand our ground, hold the truth, and know you paid the ultimate prices no matter how confusing or lost we are.   Nothing in this world matters more than knowing our life is because of who you are.

 

Thank you for this mind maze and all you allow to dump freely at any given time.   No matter who thinks.   May my intent although be crazy never be in vein.

Selfless abundant love I pray for every soul I ever connect.  May we grow forward as we are all broken together bleeding the same in all the pieces that get swept away. 

 

No matter what, may we be broken together with and in you Father God?

https://youtu.be/RhxELo-uD3c    “Broken Together” @Casting Crowns

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Date: 10/09/2020 Friday

 Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/iv_Pf7bDZj4  “Why God” @Austin French

https://youtu.be/8-O0nyTAHJU  “Letting Go” @Steffany Gretzinger

 

 

 

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Whom Shall, I Fear?

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Deuteronomy 13:4 (NIV) New International Version ⁴ It is the Lord your God you must follow, and him you must revere. Keep his commands and obey him; serve him and hold fast to him.

 

Deuteronomy 13:4 (MSG) The Message Bible 13 ^1-4 When a prophet or visionary gets up in your community and gives out a miracle-sign or wonder, and the miracle-sign or wonder that he gave out happens and he says, “Let’s follow other gods” (these are gods you know nothing about), “let’s worship them,” don’t pay any attention to what that prophet or visionary says. God, your God, is testing you to find out if you totally love him with everything you have in you. You are to follow only God, your God, hold him in deep reverence, keep his commandments, listen obediently to what he says, serve him—hold on to him for dear life!

Inspirational Thoughts:

Seek to be worth knowing, rather  than be well known.  @TobyMac#SpeakLife 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

 

Thank you, Jesus, for the days, the nights and the time that just seems to stand still all of which you allow us to just breathe.  Thank you, even when that becomes the only thing we have left.  Thank you!

 

You allow us freedoms of choosing, of working towards, and working with.  Fearing no one but you Lord, if there had not been your sacrifice, I would not be here.  https://youtu.be/azcaS6c8muE   “Grave” @Michael Cochren & Co.

 

 

More importantly if I did not have your blessing, I would not have made it this far in life.  Through all the storms, all the darkness I found your light.  You are the one who has held and protected me through all my journey.   You are the one that holds me Lord.  https://youtu.be/yNyepC-HTQE     “Psalm Ninety-One” @Kendrian & Lauren Alexandria Dueck

One day we will see things so much clearer, however I pray all I am connected do not wait until its too late.  https://youtu.be/LIWAoT9aX78  “One Day” @Michael Cochren & Co.

 

 I pray the demons and inequities we all walk around with deep inside that no one ever talks about are given back to the cross and washed clean by the blood you Christ  Jesus gave for all to have life.  https://youtu.be/ez0cJ446ABY   “We Pray” @Dre Island ft. Popcaan

 Finding peace in you, is through the understanding and grace of you alone on these streets called mercy.  https://youtu.be/MWccziybIw0    “Street Called Mercy” @Hillsong UNITIED

 

  There is no other to fear, but that of you who hold the universe in your hands.  Breathing the world and life into existence.   https://youtu.be/R0gu0nOaFsI    “Whom Shall I Fear (The God of Angel Armies)” @Chris Tomlin

 

 Even when those of this world try to convince us what else we should fear.    The pain only lasts a short time; as you, Jesus have taken so we could freely choose and be more than we will ever realize  https://youtu.be/d_24IdbJ0Tw  “Lead Me To The Cross” @Hillsong

It is when we give all we are back to you Jesus, that we become and know all we are meant to be.   https://youtu.be/kSmMOsJmkfs  “Meant To Be” @Arc North ft. Krista Marina

 

As we let go of selfish ambitions and stop looking down at others unless we are to help them up.

 As we stop collecting all that just sits and will never be worth the value that we paid, or we think it is. 

As we realize everything in this universe is temporary, but you Christ Jesus, and all your chosen that believe and hope in your promise of ever after is eternal and beyond infinity.  

Where no more suffering, no more pain.    No more hate, no more worrying about what others will come to kill and take.

Just letting go and trust in you Father God, is a big step for many who do not understand.

  But is it not more frightful to know what torment the world and not knowing you has awaiting, than just trusting in you?  https://youtu.be/qv-SXz_exKE   “Trust In You” @Lauren Daigle

The Wars have already been won with you and by you Lord.    When will we see we need to fight our battles face down when we are surrounded? https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4   “Surrounded (Fight My Battles)” @Michael W. Smith

Lord as I find myself letting go  https://youtu.be/D_7XIKVgRGY  “Letting Go” @Steffany Gretzinger  of what hurts to hold and takes my breath away to let go.

You breathe new life into me, with unexplainable peace and warmth flowing through the veins you alone created.

Broken because I do not understand, broken because I tried and you Jesus are the only one that has and always will be truth, balance and that which fills every heart’s desire.

For all the cravings sometimes seeping out into my forever dreams, filling this soul reminding me humanity is made for so much more.   

Never wrong to want, or desire, yet the choices we make on how or what we will do to get there and make it happen.  Who we will step on and hurt along the way? 

Who we use up or who we allow to use us up?

All that this world convinces the flesh minds and body must be true; later wondering what happened or what did we do; or even what are we going to do as we finish cleaning up the mess. 

Our own undoing Lord: may the lights  shine bright on those dark journeys; may all  that I am let go into you.   

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Date: 10/08/2020 Thursday

 Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/rGC7xtUfTrY   “Closer Than You Know” @Hillsong United

https://youtu.be/aiGKePjdhCs  “Quiet (Stripped)” @live from Ballantyne – Elevation Worship

 

 

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No Other God

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Isaiah 43:11-12 (NLV) New Life Version

 ¹¹ I, even I, am the Lord. There is no one who saves except Me. ¹² I have spoken and saved and have made things known, and there was no strange god among you. You can speak for Me,” says the Lord, “and I am God.

Isaiah 43:11-12 (AMP) Amplified Bible

¹¹ “I, [only] I, am the Lord, And there is no Savior besides Me.
¹² “I have declared [the future] and saved [the nation] and proclaimed [that I am God],
And there was no strange (alien) god among you;  Therefore you are My witnesses [among the pagans],” declares the Lord,   “That I am God.

Isaiah 43:11-12 (MSG) The Message Bible

^8-13 Get the blind and deaf out here and ready—
    the blind (though there’s nothing wrong with their eyes)
    and the deaf (though there’s nothing wrong with their ears).
Then get the other nations out here and ready.

    Let’s see what they have to say about this, how they account for what’s happened.
Let them present their expert witnesses and make their case;  let them try to convince us what they say is true.   “But you are my witnesses.” God’s Decree. 

 

  “You’re my handpicked servant So that you’ll come to know and trust me,
    understand both that I am and who I am.

Previous to me there was no such thing as a god, nor will there be after me.

I, yes I, am God.   I’m the only Savior there is.    I spoke, I saved, I told you what existed
    long before these upstart gods appeared on the scene.   And you know it, you’re my witnesses, you’re the evidence.” God’s Decree.

“Yes, I am God.
    I’ve always been God and I always will be God.
No one can take anything from me.     I make; who can unmake it?”

 

Inspirational Thoughts:  @A.W. Tozer @TobyMac#SpeakLife

God never uses anyone greatly until he tests them deeply.

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Lord, for this new day and all the lessons, scars, or anything else we see our self-brushing off or pushing out of the way to pick up the pieces laying on the floor.

No matter how tired, weary, insecure, or fully blessed we feel.   Lord you are the only one that can love me this way.  https://youtu.be/7NV0pnDtwHM  “Only You Can Love Me This Way” @Keith Urban

 You are the only one that helps me let go and get back up. https://youtu.be/FkFcIwp5zl8       “I’m Letting Go” @Clayton Jennings #TellTheWorld

 

Even when the overwhelming need, desire or even courage to step out and it takes me somewhere that leaves me still as empty as the moment I went out there.  Still alone, wishing and wanting that one to fill all the real life needs and desires as much as you Jesus fill me up from the inside out.

Yet we know how easy it is to get it twisted as there is no one that can love me like you.

Nor in this mixed up sometimes misaligned puzzle of a being am I easy to be what these crazies want.

You see I want and mean forever, no in-between.  Yet many in the world just want any little pieces they can chip away and take.

I am better than I deserve, even when I am still not there yet.  Forever a work in progress.    A dreamer waiting for that true sweet soul king to show up on that white horse like all the movies.  Yet we are still in the spiritual mid evil times and all it is filled with words, games until someone quits or runs out of internet time.

 

Thankful I can dream, thankful even in the nightmares I have shook awake and I try to let those know who were within to avoid the pain.   Even if many just think you are, or I am.

Crazy or going insane, that's right including me, on any given day.

Thankful to be always me, even in the real pain; for those who pretend and play games.  Someday show up and God knows your life will be forever changed.

Sometimes it all feels so right, others even if never awakened in the night, I just do not know in the end if it was worth the fight.   You know all that one sided, no matter how dark or bright.

I have to keep hope as the anthem for all that is unseen, no matter what the results of this lives plight.  https://youtu.be/BLHiU-g8sFg        “Hope Is The Anthem” @Switchfoot

 

As I heal from days gone by, and still each day gets easier to stop wondering why.  It does not mean the tears do not flow even when I am not doing that ugly cry.

Forever means truth, with no rooms for lies.

So beyond grateful you Jesus are better than all these things.   As the wounds are bandaged and some desires shared out, it is you Lord that picks me each time back up.  https://youtu.be/cgpvCVkrV6M     “Better” @Pat Barrett

 

Love beyond all time and space, never alone will I be.    No matter how lonely my days can sometimes be.   As I look through the empty words of so-called thanks given for me just being me.  https://youtu.be/U4yRsT_fPic        “Never Alone” @Lady Antebellum

 

Jesus, You are the captain of this vessel, guide me with the lessons in every breath you allow to be.  https://youtu.be/HEM3FLkTPrI     “Captain” @Hillsong United

 

No matter what worldly love seems to be.  You are the connection through out all my days, beyond eternity.  

Thank you for loving me for me.     May the men of God forever see, forever be.  May you send one for my accountibility, love like that and guidance just for me.     https://youtu.be/pTCEHsjDW5A    “Forever Mine” @The O’Jays

 

Nothing more, nothing less.   You know all the shards of glass that have splintered in every direction.   With Pure heart transparency.   May they never ever stop wanting your best or forget to think of me.  https://youtu.be/l9eCTeeuyms   “You’ll Think Of Me” @Keith Urban

  

As even in my silence those dreams, those desires are all I can see.

In the real of reality, I am just always me.  https://youtu.be/6P_7d2JRV80 “Reality” @live from Ballantyne – Elevation Worship

Allowed to just keep getting up and move, trying to do day to day with all the laughter, the tears all the needs all wall the wants; just all from you God first and foremost always.  Not that what they say I should have of this world. https://youtu.be/MqYdzCenWMg   “Tears In Heaven” @Eric Clapton

 

Dream on, no matter what spins out of control; get up and hope to dance and turn the spin into your own personal rhythms and twirl.    Just always feel the harmony of love not just in words but actions no matter if right next to me or if traveling the world.    I am forever blessed to be called out as a Jesus girl and for this the intensity of all things are beyond imagination or anything that can be touched like that.    Shine bright like that deep ocean giant pearl.

Rise up not everything that glitters is gold https://youtu.be/JKOhlMF84o4  “All That Glitters” @Earl

 but God surely will remove every demon and strong holds.  https://youtu.be/VMhrBSW2rDo   “Stronghold” @Redemption Church

 

  

 

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Date: 10/07/2020 Wednesday

 Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

https://youtu.be/y9gHXJCV5Dc     “Say What You Mean” @Em

 

https://youtu.be/15CGKy3R4Es    “Dear God” @Cory Asbury

https://youtu.be/BpyP4HR8FBQ    “I Will Rise” @Bethel Music & Kristene DiMarco

https://youtu.be/c--TCjHR01M   “Do It Again & Yes and Amen” @Kristene DiMarco

https://youtu.be/zUaS1Y-jyMk    “Faithful God” @I Am They

 

 

 

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The Thirsting Soul Satisfied in God

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Psalm 63:1 (AMP) The Amplified Bible

A Psalm of David; when he was in the wilderness of Judah.

63 O God, You are my God; with deepest longing I will seek You;
My ^[a]soul [my life, my very self] thirsts for You, my flesh longs and sighs for You,
In a dry and weary land where there is no wat

 

Psalm 63:1 (NIV) The Amplified Bible

A psalm of David. When he was in the Desert of Judah.

¹ You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water.

 

 

Inspirational Thoughts:  @Chuck Swindoll @TobyMac#SpeakLife

Yes, You may feel unqualified, uneducated, untrained, under-gifted or even unworthy.  Yet… Those are excellent qualifications for God to do a mighty work. 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

As I start this day very sleepy but reminded if I am striving for anything; let it be unshakable hope in you Lord.

“As we pursue the self-absorbed, indulgent life which is all about me—the effect on others or consequences for self be damned.” @6 Words that will Change Your Life @DareToShareMinistries

 

You Jesus, no matter what it is, want relationship with us not that cordial nice friendship we treat transactional day to day connections with.

You want each and every soul you allowed to create and walk with love, obedience and the integrity of what your blood poured out so humanity could live truly means.

Yet so easily this world has fallen short of who you are Christ Jesus, or what even valuing humanity even means at times.

 

Thank you, Lord, for this new day; although somehow, I knew it would be just sort of numb from being so tired today. 

When going to bed and being woke from a sound sleep where others in the house are slamming doors for unacceptable reasons in the middle of the night.  Suddenly you are wide awake.

They say go back to sleep  as you are wide awake thinking if  they did not let their anger, because they were sparked in that unhealthy way by the one, they want around as a friend and boyfriend even though all they seem to do is annoy each other, get the best of them then the mama would not be awake and now frustrated asking what the heck is going on and what is wrong with them.

Bad enough child you let your frustrations get the best of you feeding the anxieties and making you sick.  Bad enough you are upset more than not because this so called special person constantly goes through your things, and  constantly tries to force change on you that you are not wanting to make yourself.  

Then you get annoyed because and angry and forget in that moment your place in this world and you are consumed by angry thoughts, actions and even sometimes deeds.

Isn’t that just how it is Father God?

 

We react, slamming doors, saying things that we should not and sometimes finding ourselves in places that we should not be in the first place.

 

When we are fully aware of what we know, and fully aware of what we do not know.   Yet we proceed even in caution, in prayer and we know from day one the ending is just not how we hear the other voices trying to convince us.

Be it friends, family, strangers and for whatever that moment in time is we just want to believe and go with it; yet all the while we know the result of the choices we alone make can go really good, or really bad.

Darkness has a way of keeping us blind as we stumble just enough for the warning signs, yet never trip up until we are so far in; we have to explode or crash and burn before the light shines again to make us see.

Oh, this mind maze when it does not get enough sleep.  When you are up at 2 am wide awake eating cinnamon toast crunch reading, getting angry at yourself for the situation at hand.

Even if you did not flip the switch to make it happen.   You contributed to allowing it.

That let down is not the end of the world, although like pouring that much needed really good cup of coffee and opening a brand-new thing of half and half sitting down to take that first big drink.    And the creamer used was spoiled before it ever left the store.

You just don’t know what you do not know until it shows up.

It is all fixable, sure not the way you planned or would have wanted.   Now you have to hope you can drink it with something else or a different way than you are used to.   Yet you still have choices, and you can take that bad container right back to the store.

Lord, thank you for this day of mine, still you allow me up and still I have opportunity to make a difference in how I will handle spilt milk, spoiled milk, lack of sleep and moments that will trigger frustration.

Still I get to know I want something better, something more of you with you for my home, for my children, for my family, for my friends.

Still I want more for all those who want so much that they step out of bounds and do things for their own personal gains and not once just show up in front of you face down.   Or those who are face down every day with you and still cannot see their way to stop doing the things they do not want to do, but do all that is with pure hearts, clean hands with and for you and all who they connect.

That includes me Jesus.   That includes me.    Take me back to those moments when you were present in every moment of my every day.    When forging through and getting through the unknowns and cleaning up the messes was never easy but done with grace and abundant lessons that reflected your light to help those watching know and learn.

Though life hurts sometimes, and we get all twisted up and not respecting who we are meant to be in you.  Though we forget to honor and respect those who give us a helping hand.   Allowing things to happen that should not be.

When you bring us through to the other side Jesus, may the scales fall off our eyes and we see everything at that point and time for exactly what it is.    May we not be angered by it, or allow it to continually cause us stress, drama, anxiety.  May we never forget how to be kind to our own, to ourselves.     But may we grow forward with you.

Lord, some of what is coming out this morning is riddles to those who may read or hear this day.

You alone know what each and every one of us feel and need.   You alone know how much sleep we have had, what we have done or not done and why.

 

You Christ Jesus are with The Father, and Holy Spirit are the beginning and the end.

Humanity given the opportunity to live abundantly through you as you went to the cross for all those that will never acknowledge your name with anything but darkness.

Yet you love us anyway.

No matter how much it hurt you, no matter how sleep was lost.

No matter how every second of everyday humanity even in its finest hour, makes something out of nothing or misses everything because of our own selfish desires.

How those who do their absolute best to be; that also misses the mark of what you Lord intended.

We are in a world where our best will never be good enough.   There will always be those who say allot, but never walk the walk of what they are speaking.   There will always be those that can quickly pass the blame, tag the faults, and hold on to all that is wrong.   Yet never once step up to try and create a solution.

There will always be those that try to much, just as those that who will care less of the greater good of any others as long as they can do what they do, and gain whatever it is they are gaining.

Those that talk out of both sides of their mouths, with dark hearts.   Those who just make mistakes and do not know how to fix them.    Those that you know to stay far away from as the darkness to the pits of their missing soul is all you see through their eyes.

Lord, may we find your light when we are so lost that we cannot think or see of anything around us but the anger of any  trigger from this world.

May we know through all the spiritual elements, all the molecules and elements our human vessels made up of oxygen, carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, calcium, and phosphorus.

May the laminin that holds us together https://youtu.be/zocnmbd07a4   “How Great Is Our God Laminin” @Louie Giglio

 bind us to find our way through and with you with pure hearts, good intentions, clean hands and love abundantly even when things are dark, hateful, hurtful slamming doors or wide-open spaces.

Lord hold me together no matter what circumstances come my way.  Leading me to places only you know.    Show  me how to fix what I should, let go of what I should not and please just bless in peace, in forgiveness, in the same mercy and grace you allow all of us.  

That which you were never allowed.

Lord you know all things.  You know why I do the things I do even those I do not want to do, even those that which should not be done.

Lead me Lord to what it is this vessel needs to reflect, to be to step into, or stay far away from.

Bless all that is, all that was and all that needs that healing.

Everything I am, rested or weary, everything I was, everything I am allowed to experience for any tomorrows.    Jesus be with me; Be with me and all I will ever know, connect, and yearn for.

Thank you for sleepless nights, for new connections, old connections, broken hearts and all you delight in as we cling to you.

May you shine bright and we fear not as we travel this road of unknown as even the most highly educated are unaware of what and who you truly are Jesus

Lead me in with your courage and strength and show me how to lead by the example you say I should be.

If that means shutting down and removing myself.  So be it.  If that means staying in the fire, So Be It. 

Just let me shine for you no matter what I am trying or achieving.

Forgive me, for making it anything more or less.

 

Your will be done in me and all I am connected.  No matter what that looks like.

 

  When all we have is the here and now; and all that sound is just people who talk allot.

But deep inside you know your mind does not stop reminding you of what you wish you had forgot.

Sometimes there is no gain until you fight all the way through the pain, as we know there will be many moments when everything is different but still ends up the same.

I know Jesus Christ took it all no matter what here and now drives me insane.      That every so clear repeating the belief in souls; that could care less to even know your name.    

They may pretend to be what you want them to be.  But Lord when it all comes down to reality.  You are the only one that never changes or leaves any night or any day.

Thank you

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Date: 10/06/2020 Tuesday

 

https://youtu.be/LxqHo2Pvfm0   “Listen To Our Hearts” @Casting Crowns

https://youtu.be/ycWDFd0yCHA  “O Come To The Alter” @Elevation Worship

 

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Stretch the Borders of Life

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Isaiah 26:4 (NIV) The New International Version ⁴ Trust in the Lord forever,
    for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal.

 

Isaiah 26:4 (MSG) The Message  

Stretch the Borders of Life

26 ^1-6 At that time, this song will be sung in the country of Judah:
We have a strong city, Salvation City, built and fortified with salvation.
Throw wide the gates so good and true people can enter.
People with their minds set on you, you keep completely whole,
Steady on their feet, because they keep at it and don’t quit.
Depend on God and keep at it because in the Lord God you have a sure thing.
Those who lived high and mighty he knocked off their high horse.
He used the city built on the hill as fill for the marshes.
All the exploited and outcast peoples build their lives on the reclaimed land

 

Isaiah 26:4 (ICB) International Children’s Bible ⁴ So, trust the Lord always.  Trust the Lord because he is our Rock forever.

 

Isaiah 26:4 (AMP) The Amplified Bible ⁴ “Trust [confidently] in the Lord forever [He is your fortress, your shield, your banner], For the Lord God is an everlasting Rock [the Rock of Ages].

 

Inspirational Thoughts:  @Maryam Hasnaa @happybrainlife.com

Confidence isn’t thinking you’re better than anyone else, it’s realizing you have no reason to compare yourself to anyone else.

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you, Father God, for allowing me up another day.  Thank you for the discernment of the doctors where family members are concerned and the ability for traveling mercies allowing the kids come up from college for appointments and quick visits.

Lord be with all our young adults pushing through and seeking something better for themselves and the future ahead.

Prayers for all our peacekeepers out here in the world Lord.  Oh, how we need so many more.

Our Nation needs your guidance Father God. They did not listen during Sodom and Gomorrah days.  They will not now.    What is it your children should do?

Please rain down on us with your love and direction having mercy on those who are doing their best to make a difference for your will.

Blessed beyond all deserving yet we forget just to be allowed air in our lungs, and movement in our bodies.

We all want so much more, we all work for so much more, we all go through those moments when we react to what is not going our way.    So often forgetting to give thanks just for what was never promised.   We are all on loan, all given just moments as the vapors in the wind, to be, to do, to choose.

We push our limits, we push our boundaries, we push those who really care away.  Burning bridges and crying on the other side, becoming self-righteous selfish and even reacting in bitter anger hurting our own beings and everyone around us. 

 

Lord where did we lose our way, where did we stop caring about others and where did we misunderstand the needs were really meant for others?

 

Thank you, Lord, for always having me thinking.  Thinking many times too much and others not enough.  But each day you allow me up to do my best even when in the world and others it will not be good enough; or only good enough for what seekers are seek to take as they move on when you have nothing left to give.

May your Agape love that fills us with peace and eternal promise wash over all we are connected as fellow believers in you for those seeking your light, your hope and your will.

May it protect us in the crossfires of which will come in this world.   May it teach us how to live, how to dream, how to be in your will and not our own stubborn misguided foolishness.

May it heal and shine bright for everyone to choose to see you as the lighthouse and anchor through all days not just the storms.

 

Not sure what it will take to synergize and just reflect you Jesus as I walk this walk on any days I am given.    I honestly do not know what is up ahead.    I know what was, I know where I am.   I know what I pray for, and hope for.   I know all my hope for myself, loved ones and all I am connected flows through you.

If you choose to give more I am blessed.  If you choose to take, I am blessed.    I choose your Father and you Jesus; and no matter how joyous or lonely and heartbreaking any day given becomes.   That will never change.

 

Though I may walk through this journey and at time feel let down; we know you Lord are a jealous God and want all of me, and that I can be.   https://youtu.be/GzfPHnoT0-0      “How He Loves Me” @David Crowder Band

 

 

When I get distracted and miss the mark or what should be.  When I cannot see or hear those, I really should be paying attention.  Because I have allowed the me’ism to switch back on and get caught up feeding what I think is missing.

Though I will never stop wanting, I pray you fill whatever days you allow me to be in truth, in purity, in you for all that is lasting and not just at the hands of that which is temporary or filling the ands and desires of those that are really good hiding truth in the shadows.

Every piece of me along the way is blessed with new days you allow me up.  May I never forget that no matter how good or bad I feel.   May I always call out to you in my heart, in my words and in my action as all my blessings come from you Jesus.   https://youtu.be/du0il6d-DAk “Blessed Be Your Name” @Chris Tomlin

 

I will never stop being the real me, even if I on somedays it or I do not make sense.  I will never stop loving those I let in, I will never stop being me and just trying to be my best self no matter what that looks like from the world’s point of view.   https://youtu.be/cYkLVB5LQQI  “The Real Me ” @Natalie Grant

 

No one but you Lord sustain me.  Then, now, and always.    If that is to change it will still be you that has blessed me to breathe in and enjoy whatever you allow me or me of others given.

 

I do not know what tomorrow will bring.  I know my choices of yesterday and where I am today. 

For this and the love you allow me right here, in the ability to love others, be the weary soul that I am no matter what.  If this is it until the wave lifts and we see clearly; so be it as long as you are with me Father God.    https://youtu.be/ZcCp7488puc  “Clearly” @Grace VanderWaal

 

 Consume me and all I am connected.  Through blood, through day to day, through social media or any of the many ways I have come to be blessed with so many lessons and connections in life.     Consume all of us for your will, love, mercy, and abundant grace for all we are allowed.  https://youtu.be/uVlod4SdLD8   “Consume Me” @DC Talk

 

 

No matter if I stumble and fall Lord, may I never lose grip of the unseen faith and hope in you, or love you allow me to feel and reflect. https://youtu.be/kg6HedZ4xGs  “What If I Stumble Name” @DC Talk  with you and all the courage and strength I will always get back up again! https://youtu.be/UyLnhn-IATk “Get Back Up” @TobyMac

 

 

 

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Date: 10/05/2020 Monday

 

https://youtu.be/jdDa1wv22o0   “Something Like This” @The  Chainsmokers, Coldplay

https://youtu.be/8HznXBBCdBE     “Into The Sea (It’s Gonna Be Okay)” @Tasha Layton

https://youtu.be/Jv8IqJm6q7w      “I’ll Find You” @Lecrea ft. Tori Kelly

https://youtu.be/Yc8x33lAnAk       “Tell The World” @Lecrea ft. Mali Music

https://youtu.be/Ms1uqdX6wXY      “Start Over” @ Flame ft. NF

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Seek God

(BibleApp.com)

 

1 Chronicles 16:11 (NIV) The New International Version ¹¹ Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always. 

Chronicles 16:11 (MSG) The Message  ^8-19 Thank God! Call out his Name!     Tell the whole world who he is and what he’s done!  Sing to him! Play songs for him!  Broadcast all his wonders!
Revel in his holy Name, God-seekers, be jubilant!  Study God and his strength. 

Seek his presence day and night; Remember all the wonders he performed, the miracles and judgments that came out of his mouth.  Seed of Israel his servant!  Children of Jacob, his first choice!

 

1 Chronicles 16:11 (ICB) International Children’s Bible ¹¹ Depend on the Lord and his strength.  Always go to him for help.

1 Chronicles 16:11(AMP) The Amplified Bible ¹¹ Depend on the Lord and his strength.  Always go to him for help.

 

 

 

Inspirational Thoughts:  @TobyMac#SPEAKLIFE

“Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute.  Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and need.  ROVERBS 31:8-9

“WAKE US UP

WAKE US UP

WAKE US UP LORD”

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Lord, thank you for allowing me up.

However, I think I should have gotten up at 2am this morning when I was wide away from 2-4 but instead, I fell back to sleep until 5 and then and now can barely function.

Working towards that second cup with all kinds of things spinning through this mind of mine this morning.

Thinking most of the morning on why even when people mess up or we are trying to get things up and going, why those in leadership roles do not do better at not pointing fingers.

I ask we pray for all our small churches trying to open back up that have hearts after God.  I pray for and ask we all pray for our nation that is in dire need of change and unity.  Even more so great healing of all that has been for so long that so needs to change.

Here or abroad; we are the change now.  We are the leaders to the young adults and littles.   Have we really taken the time to lead by example?

I in my youth would always jump up to fight and make a statement.   

When I finally grew up even now, I learned to avoid confrontations and avoid as much unnecessary or as many situations as possible.

I had to fight my way through life as a kid and young adult raising up my children.  Looking back now, the only thing I wish is that there would have been more light in all situations that we had to grow through.

I wish that the generations before me had been led by love and ethics.

So much slander, hate and malice in this world so utterly hurtful and at times horrifyingly disgusting.

May those out there using their talents in the wrong way start repairing the damage they have done and seek healing for this nation that will someday just be one of those doomsday movies watched on bootlegged television and power.

May we all stand on the feet God has given us.  

I would never expect anyone to lay down their rights to protect themselves or stand their ground for what they have worked to lead their family into the future with hopes and dreams of making the American dream come true.

However there is more to life than taking advantage of the freedom of choice and will we are given and just sitting around all day getting high, or hanging out with our friends, our possie or gang and doing things because we can force our way through.

There is more to life than working ourselves into the ground to just keep chasing paper and become collectors of anything we want to have just because we can; while our family, friends and neighbors need that helping hand to guide and feed and help them get on track.

That does not mean spoon feeding anyone. We all have to work for what we want and stop being so negative and complaining about what currently is not.

Everything is temporary in this world.  Why we do not pull it together to work towards making things more positive and stop the madness and let go of all the pain that we have learned from.  And do what we must to grow forward.

Yet even our leaders of our nation, of our churches, of our businesses or even of our own choices are still out here instead of seeking resolution spending time in condemnation.  Pointing fingers, slandering, and teaching our children how to hate and learn how to not be able to be strong members of society.

 

Our ego’s all need to be shook loose and put back together.   I have seen, learned, experienced, and raised up my own blessings given to me for this life.

It does not matter where we come from, what we have or do not have, or who or where we live with.

 

Our choices belong to each one of us, as do the results of those choices.  If we are grown enough to choose, then absolutely be ready to own and support the outcome and any necessary change.

Do not expect anyone to do it for you.  Yes we all need support and yes we all need to learn along the way; and prayerfully we all will have positive, supporting souls in our corner when we need that extra help of a listening ear, direction to try or just support as we take off running.

I know in the world we live we can come from the biggest families ever and have no one all our lives; or we can come from nothing and find we have everything that matters.

 

How or why things trigger this mind maze, Lord only you know.

I just know things have to change for the better or we will as a nation, as the here and now be living the real-life movies we watch on television.

The struggles are real.   The rich get richer and the poor get poor, and the loss of great souls in the middle trying to find their way to the top as they learn to use people’s lives as steppingstones.

They allow their dislike, anger or whatever to flow out freely in actions, and always in words.

Even if Lord I or they made the biggest mistake of the universe as we do, as we are living.

What right does it give us to not be part of a solution, but only keep throwing fuel on the fire to watch the universe burn?

 

Those who created and released this virus of COVID-19 that has taken the lives of millions.  Has set our world back in time, reminding us we here and now are not so different even with all the technology and leaps and bounds that we came with knowledge and materialism.

 

Where are you know God when darkness has consumed us?   The same place you were when there were brighter days.   If we cannot see you, feel you or hear you; why and what are we doing that we have blocked you off.

Yes, you have and always will be with all of us who call upon your name.   Through the grand and blessed times or even through the times when we are drowning in the icy waters entangled in the messy nets of life that we find ourselves in as we do it our way.

We need to be healed Father God and what that looks like I do not know.  But as we see so much waste, so much destruction and disregard for living, breathing life opportunities.  Be it humanity or all the living creatures you allowed to be.   Be it by wasted and carelessness, or evil actions.

We have to wake up Lord.   I wish 2020 was that which woke every soul up to want something better with you.

But we all know by the violence, by the continued death, destruction, and disregard of life.   We are not there yet.

Lord please show me the path I shall walk any remaining days with this vessel.

As I trip my own self up Lord trying to be there for those in family, friends, and those just in need.   As I watch those in need just in a panic and slowly killing themselves  trying to make in the world without you, Jesus!

My heart aches, my head spins and I just have so many more moments that I do not understand and am weary.

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!

You alone, please come and stop the madness.  Wake up your children.  Aware we are all human.  Yet how broken we all are!

Lord please be with your church, small or big.    May the truth set all that should not be free.    May we clean our hearts, clear our minds, and know you are in control.

This world needs you

I need you

All I am connected needs you

 

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Date: 10/04/2020 Sunday

 

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

https://youtu.be/gw4tcCbf2TE  “Changes” @David Bowie

https://youtu.be/NzLS5hUMdQo    “Time In a Bottle” @Jim Croce

https://youtu.be/uSM96OA39ic   “Forever God Is Faithful” @Michael W. Smith

https://youtu.be/1CBNE25rtnE   “God Of Wonders” @Third Day

https://youtu.be/YBl84oZxnJ4   “Surrounded-Fight My Battles” @Michael W. Smith

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Warnings and Instructions, You Don’t Know Tomorrow

 (Biblegateway.com)

 

Proverbs 27:1 (TLB) The Living Bible  27 Don’t brag about your plans for tomorrow—wait and see what happens.

 

Proverbs 27:1 (MSG) The Message  You Don’t Know Tomorrow  27 Don’t brashly announce what you’re going to do tomorrow;  you don’t know the first thing about tomorrow.

 

 

Proverbs 27:1 (ICB) International Children’s Bible 27 Don’t brag about what will happen tomorrow.     You don’t really know what will happen then.

Proverbs 13:20 (AMP) The Amplified Bible

Warnings and Instructions 27 Do not boast about tomorrow, For you do not know what a day may bring.

 

 

Inspirational Thoughts: 

“We repeat what we don’t repair @Christian Langley Obaugh” @TobyMac#SPEAKLIFE

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Bring on the rain Lord, wash us, wash me clean moment by moment or day by day you allow me up.   Today is one more I will be thankful for, come what may.

Strength in numbers only if everyone is working towards the same end goal.

We cannot be strong when we are in the pit and everyone around us is the world and you are trying to remain clean.

Change only happens when we make it happen.  We cannot fix or change anything until we stop repeating or playing in the sandbox.

It is all well and good when I step out and faith and try to do something kind, or helpful for those in need.  But when the time comes where we just have no more and you realize there was no more long before the scales come off our eyes.

There it is and you realize what really it was not all that it was made out to be.

So how can one boast and brag or convince another of what tomorrow will be, when they put nothing into even today.

How can one promise what is not theirs to give?   Where is the real in reality when we go beyond just planning for that vacation with hopes nothing goes wrong and we get some rest and relaxation.

But when we speak in absolutes or make empty promises.    Who is at fault for putting everything they have into it and believing when they know themselves; tomorrow is never promised?

God will never set anyone those he has created; everyone!  Ever set them up for failure.

Our own freedom of will and choice does that.  Our strong will which leads us directly into strongholds, when we do not list to all that is truth.

Changes happen no matter if we choose or not.  If we could hold time in a bottle or even turn back time to make the difference for what we needed to know then, but we know now.

Fret not, do not get upset or hold on to what was.   Yesterday is gone.  Hold on to the love that you have deep within and never let what was stop you from what could be each day Jesus allows you back up.    Our God is the only one in charge of Forever, we get to choose the destination ticket where our final ride lets us off.

The Lord of all heaven and earth, stars, sky, moon, and son.  God who breathed life of all things into existence including His one and only son Christ Jesus.   The same God that can have one single tree of life in the middle of a small island surrounded by a vast ocean.

Lord may I never stop fighting my battles in prayer with you holding me covered in your blood, surround by the shield of all promise of everything good in life.

 

Though this mare human with lots pouring out, many twists and turns and so full of thanks for much but never enough and far from deserving; is allowed up each day.

Fully aware we all get to choose.    Fully aware the best is yet to come, even as I pull myself back up out of the dirt each time, I try to much for what I fully do not need to be trying to fix.

Each time you glue me back together, each time I fall apart for the loss and heartbreak of those I care much about.  Each time I wake shaken in the night or just shaking off what does not make any sense.

Jesus, Thank You!

 

There have been and will be many days that are beyond not making sense, many connections that make huge impacts to this soul.    The good, the bad, the still spinning trying to get a grip.  

Thank you for allowing me to keep trying.    For so long before you I had no purpose in this life, and even years after walking with you I would find myself listening to the world filled up with doubt, self-worth or even trying to figure out what love and life should really be.

Though the flesh will always be who I am, my soul and my heart is yours Father God.  The one who allows me to be.

I have always had loyalty, respect for life and integrity.   That has only magnified with you and what it really means.    Perseverance which was once just survival.     All given from hope in you Jesus.

Thank you for this day come what may.  

May all I am connected feel and lean in on your presence first and always any day they are given.

Please rain down on this world with healing, and bright light of hope and unseen faith for all that is good.  Reflecting your beauty and promise and washing away all that robs the harmony in our spirits with you.

As I work with the littles today Lord, may only your will and lesson be seen. Not any part of me.

 

 

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 Date: 10/03/2020 Saturday

 

Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)

 

 

https://youtu.be/-Gv8VDqc-os   “God Turn It Around” @Jon Reddick

 

 

 

Bible Verse(s) of the Day (Biblegateway.com)  Meditation Opportunities (Biblegateway.com): (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TBT-The Passion Translation)

 

Walk With The Wise

 (BibleApp.com)

 

Proverbs 13:20 (TLB) The Living Bible  ²⁰ Be with wise men and become wise. Be with evil men and become evil.

 

Proverbs 13:20 (MSG) The Message  ²⁰ Become wise by walking with the wise;
    hang out with fools and watch your life fall to pieces.

 

Proverbs 13:20(ICB) International Children’s Bible ²⁰ Whoever spends time with wise people will become wise.       But whoever makes friends with fools will suffer.

 

Proverbs 13:20 (AMP) The Amplified Bible ²⁰ He who walks [as a companion] with wise men will be wise, But the companions of [conceited, dull-witted] fools [are fools themselves and] will experience harm.

 

A Living Hope

 (Biblegateway.com)

 

1 Peter 1:3 (ICB) International Children’s Bible³ Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God has great mercy, and because of his mercy he gave us a new life. He gave us a living hope because Jesus Christ rose from death.

 

Inspirational Thoughts: 

“God uses broken people like you and me to rescue broken people like you and me” @TobyMac#SPEAKLIFE

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

 

Thank you, Lord, for this day that all the windows are opened, and the peace is flowing through.  As the vibes are brushing all the way through the airwaves.

Happy birthday beastie puppy now seven and still cute as the day your mamma brought you into my house.

Kudos for the one Clay Huete, https://youtu.be/Ba5Q-4z_lXo “We Are Strong” @Clay Huete (disclosure (Street/Potential Profanity) out there in the streets and trying to make a difference.

 I pray Lord as he uses your name, that he plants the seed and makes  changes for what real walking in the dark or day.   Lord He knows of you; may he start that big heart he has and start shining bright in and with you.  

Kudos for all his hard work trying to make it in  this world  and the music business.  Though not my selections of go to at this stage,  kudos  the recognition he is getting and that his desires and growth light up the world for all that is good for all that are out there knowing what it is  really like to have to  make choices living  in the this world and those out in the streets.   

Use him Lord!  He knows of you, lead Him to be the man of God in the way you see fit.

Direct his steps and whatever comes next with being connected to my family.

 

As the vibes flow every day, good, bad or just unknown, we get to choose what feeds our spirit, mind, and body. 

When things go wrong, we can allow ourselves to get lost https://youtu.be/5usQ44zs__4  “Lost Boy” @Ruth B.   in that spin and holding on what is not working or what offends us.  

Stuck dwelling and spinning on all that is not happening all the while we rob ourselves of so many new opportunities that can be made, found and happen.   

 

Not to mention all that anger, sadness, and stuff that we feel but do not pay attention and as we allow it to slowly destroy the being we were created to be.

Not everyday is a happy-happy moments, sometimes all we get to do is cry our way through.  But we get to choose.

Why do we get caught up on what we cannot; why do we not try our best and if circumstances of person, places and things change what we plan;  why do we not have the spirit to absorb and find the lesson taking the blessing to know this is opportunity to do things differently.

 Not asking just this mind maze running.

 

No plans today, slept in a bit and got up running through the check list in this head and day to day needs.

Right at the moments before I started this mind maze pouring out, I was working on creating a budget.

 

Yes, that can be depressing when I truly see what I have done with Gods money this year and never even went anywhere.  Thanks 2020 for making me get my own perspectives in check.   Everything I am allowed belongs to God!  As does everything you hold tight to, remember its only on loan.  All temporary!

Even though I am absolutely one that works harder more times than smarter; or even when everything consumes me seeming so right and later just falling apart as it seeps off the edges.   It was all God's before I started and will be His after.

 

Jesus, you have loved us before we even were created.  

A thousand years and a thousand more.       May we in humanity find ourselves one step closer to you every second, every breath we are allowed.   https://youtu.be/NfTS7gM7zQ0    “A Thousand Years” @Christina Peri

 

May we never use your name, or any blessings given in vain. 

May we know our worth and treat all we connect or just pass by in person or on the virtual highways we find ourselves spending so much time; treat them all with the same respect we demand for ourselves. 

May all that have not yet learned what respect and integrity means for their own personal being.   Lord protect all they do not understand, protect all are caught in the crossfire of the brokenness that pours so freely in this world we were given.

May you use every soul I am connected and will be connected.

I am not out here for a quick fix of anything; though I dream and think out loud sometimes too much.

Though few get my attention; bless those souls that have and shine bright in the depths of this soul.

May all wake up to know the beauty and talent they have to share and pay forward for the places they journey, and with all you allow them.

Take them, take me under your loving arms Jesus!   

  As you my Father hold me close kissing me on my forehead before you let me run free making those choices that you allow all.    That freedom of will, freedom of choice.

If only every soul knew just how much power or worthy, they have to make positive change just by following through, even when the choices they make do not turn out the way they thought they would.

I am blessed to know just how much I am worth, which has not always been.

Loving can hurt, as we find our way through this life.  https://youtu.be/f1QODR9wUno   “Photograph” @Ed Sheeran    

Yet it is so different the very day we realize just how much you absolutely love us. 

 

The pain, the suffering, the on-going losses of humanity that never find you before they leave this planet.

There is no greater love or lessons for the world to know than that of you God.

 

All what you gave freely, what your son Christ Jesus willing took so we could know Him, and come to walk with You and all that reflects peace, love and so much beauty.

We will never be alone even when we get lonely when we walk with you Lord!

Peace even when the storms are pouring down, and devastation and wreckage is everywhere we turn.

I am sorry Lord  https://youtu.be/KUYClC6vqKk “I’m Sorry (a lament)” @TobyMac

For the things I have made it, even when I cling to you.   

For the things I fight with that spiritual give and take.  

For giving it over and taking it back because it has not shown up in my time.   It should never be about what is not in my circle of influence and although some people and places and things are in that circle.  

Lord I am a work in progress no matter how far I come.

I am humbled to be reminded I am just a speck in this world as every other soul you give life.

None of us know when our time is up, and not all of us choose to seek the light and good, doing our best to grow forward.   

So often, even I get caught up in thinking what I am doing really matters for the end goal that only matters for those in this world.

Though I am planting seeds the best way I know, loving the best way I know, and feeling far to often then thinking out loud.

There is so much more with you, for you, in you and all you allow awaiting on that new horizon.  https://youtu.be/_h_XGHb4p1s  “Horizon-A New Day” @TobyMac

 

So many playing in the here and now.

As we find ourselves in the valley’s generally, I find the overwhelming truths of what it really is or was.    Fighting to climb back up.

There is always going to be another mountain and I am sure as I make it to the top or the other side, all I will see is you.  https://youtu.be/qolUC13bwMc    “The Climb” @Miley Cyrus

 

Lord, we need you to find our way; we need your chosen to lead the way and light the path.    https://youtu.be/XFvMb5hgJlE     “Finding Our Way” @Ben Harper & The Innocent Criminals

 

Dear No one, if you are out there somewhere, I stopped looking for anyone to fill what I thought I needed to survive and to get by, the day I found Christ Jesus.   https://youtu.be/njmCUJ94lUM  “Dear No One” @Tori Kelly

 That was so long ago.

Although often I think sometimes, I would just love to have someone to just be, share and do with me.   

I know when the time is right, and it is God breathed.    Even on those moments when my flesh desires sometimes get the best of me and I look up and hear a whisper then see your name.

Only God knows truly what will be. https://youtu.be/0DQup4hd1_o   “Only God Knows” @Kid Rock

       None of us are made to settle, although in the world of give and take when you have that special someone that you committed to in unity with God.

There is a need for breathing, compromise and give and take to make the balance work and find that which you committed until the your physical end times.

You will never get any greener grass on that other side; in fact, in the end those who just quit and give up because of any reason that its not what I signed up for.  Well who does sign up for what is not perfect according to our own minds eye and what the world says it should be.

All relationships take work every second of every day.   My thoughts from life experience and what I have lived through.   Unless you are being verbally, and physically abused.   

Do not quit.  If you are in a domestic situation get out as fast as you can.   If not take a deep breath and get creative.    No we cannot force anyone who fell out of love with us to fall back again.   But do your best to try. 

You owe it to yourself and everyone you are connected.  Especially if there are littles involved.

No, I am not subject matter expert on not letting go; I just know from experience.   Until you truly find why you give up, and deal with it, you will never break repeating the cycle.

 

 Both committed parties have to work and grow together.

In this superficial world one generally is just chasing what they can get or take for the release of a temporal feeling.   

Sometimes our anger because of mistakes turn us into what was never planned.

Sometimes we blame our choices on mistakes that we continually repeat because we really just want to have it our way.

Sometimes we throw our blessings away because what we have, we just cannot see is ever enough.   

There I can say is that void you keep try on to fill will never be filled until you fill it with Christ Jesus and know who God really is.

 

Sometimes we just quit, sometimes we have just done for so long and we finally have enough of what we let those in the world chip away at us by the push and pull or take with limited giving.

We all need to show up; we all need to start the process and make the difference for the here and now.   For each soul standing next to us or should be,  in right then and there moments of life.

I put the pictures away long ago for all the images and dreams I was chasing while I thought I was making my best life.   Those in my mind and all those in my treasure box for someday that will just be tossed out as what a shame.

 

I personally drift away seeking all God’s light has been and the only light house that has set me free.  https://youtu.be/A69BertdSt4   “Drift Away” @Uncle Cracker

 

I will never take from any soul I have been blessed with.

I will never take from any of the beauty that has come from the ashes.

Nothing in my walk has been a waste; and without a shadow of any doubts will I ever say different.

 

When I have been beyond blessed to see mountains move for many, with the healing that has taken place and just souls being change and so much growth and love showing up when there was none.  https://youtu.be/b3xsn6db2iI   “Do It Again” @Elevation Worship

I would have thought that I would have been out of here long ago.

Just as the very first time I acknowledged Jesus Christ and oh how I would laugh and say the church building was going to fall when I walked in.

The changes of who I am today are so much different as how I seen myself back in the day.   

 

In fact, I sometimes try to remember exactly when was it that I was never the person I use to see but became the person that reflects Gods love and promises filled with deep hope and faith without expectations.   

That person that allows me to be fine not needing anything to know I am alive and worth more than anything this world gives and takes.  

 

That person that still hopes, desires, and sometimes burns for what the flesh is made of; all the while knowing if this is it.  I have been given more blessings than many will ever come to know.

The same soul that God allows me up and tells me each time I face plant because of that strong will;  like every soul has been given gets it twisted and then beats myself down.

I too forget that I am a chosen daughter of the most high King.

 

It does not mean I am not human, and I that I do not want that never-ending story, or the fact sometimes in life I just cannot breathe from doing it my way.

Or even that which I avoid dealing with of my own needs to deal with by thriving while thinking I am doing something good or Godly for others.

Beyond Grateful that the God that holds the universe in His hands, is the same God that breathed life into the nostrils of man and allowed woman to be created.   No matter how I got here, it includes me as well.

The God that has never turned His back on me even when I am lost in the world that so easily consumes us all.     

 

We all bleed the same no matter who is looking up, or who is looking down on any one while the giving, taking is absolute. 

Though our spirits and choices are directed or misdirected and different.

 Get the facts and truth that we all bleed red, we all bleed the same! https://youtu.be/JBVW86FDymI   “Bleed The Same” @Mandisa, ft. TobyMac, Kirk Franklin  

  We are all worth more than anything we label or think or speak.     

    Divided absolutely, letting our own personal feelings lead us when we should be seeking Gods divine intervention and light to walk with, for and in every second, we have breath.

 

Yeah! I get it; we all get to choose what we believe in. Even the atheist believes in God enough to know they choose to not believe in Him.

 

Lord, thank you that I have been given life, even when I feel done; overwhelmed, tired, and weary.    

 

 Thank you for the beautiful souls that you have allowed me to connect even if I should not have.   

 

Thank you for all the lessons and the ability to still get back up and acknowledge even when I do not know what is, what is not.

Even when sometimes I do not know what truth is and what I feel.

Even when I know it can just be the games in this life game of chess that I lose at so many times.

Thank you for all that is, will be.   Lord God Turn It around for this world.  

  For all I am connected, all yet to come.    

 

Thank you for always as I was, always as I have been and Always just the ability to be me.

Fill and heal this world Lord, but if you choose not to because we all must seek you to be healed.    Still show us the way through all your angel army soldiers and messengers.

Father be with all my family and brothers and sisters in you.  Be with me and lead me please.