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NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion
Translation)
Date: Thursday, March4,
2021
Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)
Made In The Image Of God @We Are Messengers ft. Vince Gill
When We Fall Apart @Ryan Stevenson
Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day
Joshua 1:9 (NIV)
9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and
courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions
with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
Luke 12:25-26 “Who of you by worrying can add a single hour
to his life? Since you cannot do this
very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all
circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
Psalm 36:9 For with you is the fountain of life; in your
light we see light.
Jesus Freaks @dc Talk and The Voice of
the Martyrs Revised and updated addition True (Stories of Those who Stood for Jesus, the
Ultimate Jesus Freaks)
“But we continue to preach because we have the same kind
of faith the psalmist had when he said, “I believed in God, so I spoke.” We know that God, who raised the Lord Jesus
, will also raise us with Jesus and present us to himself together with
you. All of this is for your
benefit. And as God’s grace reaches more
and more people, there will be great thanksgiving, and God will receive more
and more glory.” @Paul
The Apostle Martyred in Rome, A.D. 65 (2 Corinthians 4:13-15)
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)
Martyrs then and now! Yes,
still today people are dying just because they believe and confess love, truth
and what life is like for a God of the universe unseen, but we know He exists. For an ultimate sacrifice of death and
rebirth through his son Jesus.
You really do not get it; whatever it may be until it is real,
attached to a real person, place or thing.
There are so many out there that pretend and so many more that are the
real deal. Ready to lay down their lives
for what they believe in.
Life is relative for those walking it. My realities are not yours; they could be but
not necessarily all the time.
Those who suffer from depressions and anxieties their stress, fear
and worthlessness is real. There is
nothing you or I can do to make it stick that they are created in the image of
God and filled with so much beauty and purpose. They have to find that themselves.
Although there will be many along the way with endless promises
and even mindless manipulation that those who need that affirmation by flattery
or just being held even if its by the wrong one and not forever. That will be broken.
As a parent and a survivor of chasing love and fighting my way out
of the dark from an incredibly young age far into my adult life. Watching young adults and children suffer
because life just isn’t working for them.
It is hard.
Sometimes beyond hard.
Watching your own children give up so very young because they believed
and put all their worth into someone and it was taken away and they just never
got over it. Man, it sucks.
All we can do all we are
given is to be our best self each day we are allowed up and learn to breathe
through it.
Along the way sometimes we are beyond blessed and sometimes we are
picking up the pieces of whatever is left from the storms that come to pass.
All the time we are still Gods creation and chosen and no one should
ever be able to take that away from us.
Yet even when we walk in Gods promise like the so many Martyrs throughout
time to even those who simple are beaten and broken by the elements of day to
day. It still happens.
I remember I heard once for every death a new baby is born. I don’t know how true that is. But what if there was a way to meet them in
the vortex before they head in to the world?
Just fill them up with all that is good and joyful. Those things that shine bright, those things
that are colorful and loving and kind.
The world would be so much different.
If only!
So many if only moments.
I have no regrets I am still living and that in itself is a blessing. My life was one which the same man that ran
over my foot while backing out of the driveway when I was a kid, was the same fool
who my mother sent me with less than a year later to take me somewhere and I never
made it. The same one as a kid being
lied to when someone was supposed to be driving you from Jacksonville to Tampa
tells you the ride is too long, and we have to stay in a motel over night; to
be awakened fighting for your life from a sound sleep in so much pain you will
never forget. Even when you lost so
much time after that and do not even know how you ever made it back your own
family.
If I could change anything, I would stop all the harm to children
and elderly.
If I could change anything,
I would have loved to really get to know who Jesus was before my
30s and being I had my children at 18 and 22 absolutely would have gotten them
to know him as I do now and not just that authoritative figure or confess your
sins and keeping living life mentality.
However, one thing I have learned is my son and daughter and
grands all know who God is, who Jesus is, and I am blown away at times how
Jesus shows up right when He is meant to even though I was not born into that
protected so called Christian family.
Problem is sometimes just like me, maybe just like you we forget
who is really in control or neglect to lean in on him. And let the stress of day to day consume,
poison and destroy any gifts we are given.
No matter how much of ourselves we give away even our lives all we
can do is plant the seeds and we all get there in our own time.
Yes, pieces of me overtime come out. I can be a hot mess myself.
I can forget my place in this world and to whom I belong while just
wanting to feel that which God gives me from the inside out; to feel in human
form.
I can forget and quickly snap and oh by far. the pieces are just that. With so very many opportunities where I
should have been taken out of this world.
That time where I said was lost and I do not remember like a time zone
lapse. Where just being in a fog, being
taken and used for some one’s payment to get high, or a stranger taking you to
the woods and telling you to never tell anyone.
From those adults that teach you how to get high yourself with magic
mushrooms or huffing paint. All before
the age of being a teenager.
Trust me when I say there is always someone out there that knows where
you have been or what you are going through.
There will always be close calls, violations that you were not even in
the world long enough to earn and certainly not deserve.
And you will survive through it and somehow along the way God will
send angels to get you back up. Then one
day you will just learn to constantly get back up over and over.
It will be the days that you want to get back up and you have
enough. When you realize the same power
that rose from the grave, the same power
that breathed us into existence is the same power that wants to live within and
show what life really is like even when its hard. That power will fill you with a peace, a
love and hope that you will never understand, fully describe, or even deserve.
If there is anything, I could change it would be for everyone I know everyone I
connect to have that love from the inside out and then choose if they want to
give it away or do everything to live for, with and in it.
My journey through the school of hard knocks and the stress that
has even today played out. Even with
all I know I still allow what can’t control hurt and keep me up.
Walking with faith deep inside does not stop any hurts, habits, or
hang-ups for any Christ followers. It
just allows us that deep unprecedented peace that flows without anyway to
really understand when the world is falling around us and we are either hit
with the layers, purposely catch the layers or are even making them ourselves.
We all are meant for each other, and we all want something better.
Be it peace, be it material items,
places to go, collections of what toys we think make us feel better.
Sometimes some collect people. Sometimes there is no reason, we just cannot
seem to get past all the negative.
Sometimes no matter how blessed we are, no matter how many have stepped
in to help lift us. We still just cannot
seem to not fall apart.
Many professionals tie it back to manic or chemical imbalances or
even disorders that cause things to be in a constant cycle. Most times without reaching deep into your spirituality
or even dig in where you can change things to make a difference. They just overlook it and throw prescriptions
your way.
Many times, they are right, but I still believe if you were to
take it all the way back to the beginning and who and how we came to be. Long before the birds and the bees or being
the product of any outcome. God would
set us straight and Jesus would be more than just the story of the ultimate Martyr
on a cross giving his blood and life to flow in and with us.
As I watch those, I care about fall apart. As I want so badly to believe in those who
say its real and okay to fall into. As I
watch the world rip everything to fit their own little square peg world. Changing things that really make no sense,
some cases doing more harm than good.
As I look out past everyone because sometimes you just do not want
anyone to see through your own scars, desires, or misguided beliefs.
Still no matter what is spinning you know the love and peace you
choose to want is what allows you up each day and despite anything or everything. It becomes the only thing that matters.
The only true no agenda fulfilling being of love, laughter and
even redemption when you should have went left but you seen that squirrel and went
right to just be and feel the freedom in the release of such freedom reflecting
beauty.
Diving into His word, His song calling us together to the foot of
the cross while Jesus stands with us North, East, West or South. Good bad or indifferent. God with us always. Is the
not only eternal peace, eternal life but that protection, that guidance, that
which fills us up when we lose all of what never transpires or leaves taking pieces
along the way.
It is okay to cry. Cry out
to Jesus~
It is okay to hurt. None of us will hurt or suffer as Christ Jesus
did up to the cross or on it~
It is okay to need comfort~
John 14:16
And I will ask the Father, and he will
give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— He is strength, courage, healing the Provider of all things.
Anyway, these are my thoughts and perspectives this day. We all get to choose what and who we want to
believe in. We all make mistakes and
sometimes we believe too much in some and put them on those platforms that we
hurt when they fall from grace and we realize they are just human too. Others we neglect to see things as they
really are.
It is what it is. No matter if real tragedy or just the world
falling down around us. Or that angst of
that almost, that one.
All I can say is give it all back to God and ask him to comfort
and hold you so tight that you may not see him but feel him every moment you
are allowed back up.
Cannot explain it, at some point you just know.
Lord may none who have died believing in you and planting seeds be
in vain. Lift all of your children up
Jesus and just pressure wash all the mud and muck away and allow your light to boldly
shine on. Heal us Lord. Teach us how to love, how to be, how to
live and how to forgive as you do.
Heal this land; mentally, physically, and beyond spiritually.
Thank you for allowing me the pieces to be better each day for and with you.
No matter the diagnosis, the storm, the lost loves or almost to be
just something in an imagination. Lord
you are still in control. You are the
one that holds us and lets us know it is okay to fall apart and get back up
with you. Many may never get it,
others will relate, some will shake their head others find humor and some
pity. But you alone Jesus know every single
step, every soul take. It is you that will
utterly understand the meaning of life and allow us to learn when we cling to
you.
Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for allowing me life.
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