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Date: Monday, March 8,
2021
Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com) Bible
Verse of the Day
Praise to the God of All Comfort
3 Praise be to the God and Father of
our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all
comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so
that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive
from God.
(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions
with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
1 chronicle 16:11 Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his
face always.
Proverbs 19:21 NKJV There are many plans in a man’s heart, nevertheless
the Lord’s counsel-that will stand.
Matthew 6:33 “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,
and all these things will be given to you as well.”
Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)
Fighting For Me
@Riley Clemmons
No Matter What @Ryan Stevenson
Jesus Lover Of My Soul @Awakening Music
What A Beautiful Name @Hillsong Worship
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me up another
day. As this past week has been somewhat
nostalgic and remembering and missing those who went before. As I have been blessed to travel roads where
family once was. As even I have been
able to hug on those dear and flow the same blood as my own. Knowing we just do not know when we will see
them again or if we will.
Thinking how two families came together for one
sweet little girl and just knowing all the hurt in the room because one key
member was not there and was taken from this world far too soon at the hands of
evil.
Thinking how that 911 call that my phone made me
aware of was dialed and all that flowed through knowing the layers of anxieties
and inabilities to shake off all the negative tied to a family member.
Thinking a parent’s job is never done; but not
everyone is built to withstand all the trails and trauma’s a parent may walk through. Knowing that even when we think we do;
even when we want to. None of us really
have even half the answers to make things better for our babies we are blessed
in life with.
We can hold on to guilt and think if only! However even a toddler chooses even when
they do not understand the cycle of what happens when they do things that someone
is saying No to.
There will be so many out there let down and angry
because they do not know you Lord. Blaming
the hurt, the pain, the losses on you.
Sometimes from their hearts and minds rightfully so. They just do not know what they do not
know. And yes, everyone single soul created
by you God and allowed to live Jesus; created for more beautiful and harmonic
lives. Will be crushed by the weights
of the world and never really get to feel the freedom when they allow you in.
Line em up right~
Say it all the time and think it even more. If only we cold line up every single adult
that has harmed a child and taken their innocence and scarred them for
life. Every single soul that has taken
advantage and harmed our elders who maybe or maybe not contributed good things
to society and now are in the hands of care takers.
But what would or could I really do if I were
given that blessing and freedom to do so?
I used to think I could easily like the old war
movies line up for execution. But that
would never make me feel any better.
Knowing I would do whatever it takes to physically protect my here and
now. I really get nothing out of the
inability to change those who have been so tormented they destroy others or at
least steal pieces of them.
Believe in you; absolutely I do! But no way do I understand even half of what
I cannot see. I only know where I have
been, only know what you have kept me from and what you have pulled me out
of. I have only seen those rainbows when
the angels celebrated or even the healing and protection that has taken place
in my mixed up messed up world.
I only know that we are to love others for who
they are. Not what they are trying to
be, not what they do or have done. But
even if we have to love them from a distance.
That is what we are called to do.
Offense I am sure there is not a day that goes by
that darkness is not offended and yeah; boy do the demons celebrate when they
can make us doubt ourselves or question why we feel and hurt for what we cannot
heal.
It is you Lord
no matter what you look like; it is you and your son Jesus will never
stop fighting for me. And no there is no
way I can do the fighting for myself.
You are what exceeds uncertainty, allows me to embrace possibilities and
earn every bit of independence I have deep in these veins.
Yeah, it is a fact no matter how I want, I try, I
do none of it will be enough to convince this world or even make it to the
destination I think I need to be with or at.
It is you alone that helps me get past the battle of reasoning and convincing
the world of or for anything. We all just
have to choose what we believe and how we put one foot in front of the other
each time.
Just because I or anyone wants to believe in
something more peaceful, more beautiful, more everything does not mean we are
any less or like what we once did any less.
Just because our taste changes or expands in music does not mean we cannot
listen to it all. Heck yeah, I listen
to songs of hope beats of life and still rock out with Santana or J Geils and
anything in between. Each time I
play some CCR it takes me back to days when family was still in and out of my
Grandmothers apartment and yeah, all the fun, we called fun back then. Those beats that had me up dancing them
just now expanded into depths of my soul.
I read this morning something about soul
mates. “Soulmates don’t come to heal
you. They come to teach you how to heal
yourself.” @Ryan Elliott
How true that can be. Yes, I believe others get deep into our
spirit and sometimes we never even see or have them next to us. We fall deeply in love with them for how they
feed the light that was once dim. Allowing
us to want more, and sometime desperately doing whatever it is to try and make
them real and never let them go.
Trying so hard to believe in what we cannot see
and just knowing they feed a special kind of hope and light to who we are and
wanting that to never go away. Then
that one-day reality sets in and although they are no more, there is some sort
of painful strength and difference in us that we must be thankful for.
Sometimes we have the physical being right here
and now next to us and man when they go it takes so long to stop hurting and
missing if ever.
But if we find our way and remain true to
ourselves and the authenticity we are allowed to be. Some how we get to the other side and know
how blessed the lessons really were.
I am grateful I am whatever anyone wishes to
classify me as. Crazy, a Jesus freak or
anything in between. My spiritualty is
fed through my service, through my brothers and sisters who believe and are
called to a building to do the best they can serving a greater sprit and truth
that has been alive and will be alive longer than any human in the world.
Wanting peace, wanting people to love and shine bright
and laugh. Wanting others to find their
strength in who they are not what they are trying to be. Finding courage to know and get back up
that it is okay to be not okay. To
know we are more than anything this world will give or take from or to us.
Yeah, I wish I could say that divine intervention
was not flawed in how I react or what I do.
I wish there were an absolute.
But the truth is relative and there will always be that what we just do
not know what we do not know. And that
which we believe in that we cannot see or physically prove to reason with those
who will always find a way not to believe.
I like the use the analogy TMac sings about. The wind moves the leaves, but we cannot see
it. Well for those who truly fight forward
and really believe and meet Jesus where they are every single day they are allowed
up. They do it for themselves not for some
kind of a club, or some kind of expectation things would be perfect or super
blessed.
It has to be something we each want and purpose for. We all have to want to live, and we all
choose what we do while we are trying to do so.
As a child and survivor of trying to check out
many times because I was clearly made to know what it meant to be insignificant
in such a big world. Life is
hard. We have to choose to move past
the mistakes, the scars and any of the layers we created. Sometimes we never find our way past
that. Sometimes we find our strength in
so many things we should not and yeah, we end up in places that do more harm
than good.
It does not matter what others think. We are all broken people with crazy sometimes
messed up lives and others we are cruising along because the storms just have
not capsized us yet.
We are all human. No matter what was yesterday; when you get
back up today it is the blessing to know you are alive and start again. Each time you feel pain, we a are allowed
to know God the maker of all the heavens and earth is not given up on us yet in
fact he is allowing us to feel so that we can be the beautiful spirits we are
created to be.
Unfortunately, not everyone will believe that, and
we always hold on to that one negative bad thing out of a billion good. Our human nature just is that way.
I know my insignificance in this huge world and
that I will always have a big heart and want to love and believe in many who
will twisted that up for their own personal gain. I am sure I will always yearn and want that
pure deep compassion, passion, and love of that one. My soulmate lives deep within these veins
and I am blessed and grateful for the lessons I have been allowed.
I never planned or picked I would be right here right
now and fighting forward each day I am allowed up to understand or let go of
what just is. That I would have over
the years had to battle for my own sanity and through the pains of not
understanding when things hurt so freaking bad you cannot breathe.
I never planned that I would be so deeply in love
with the ultimate Martyr Jesus Christ and want to hold on to a hope so bright that
some days all I can do is cry and pray; for all that surrounds me.
I will never regret screaming and fighting with a
God that I pray one day on the other side he will forgive me for doing so.
I will never force what I believe or even how I
got to find my way here on anyone. Life
is what it is until it is not. And I
want love and if I cannot find it I will do my very best to be it. The only way I know how to do that is learn
and grow with the one who was the ultimate sacrifice and allows me up each day.
Never doubt, I am who I am. As each and every soul who ever walks this
planet is for themselves. We all get
to choose and sometimes our choices hurt or ripple out and hurt others. But we are meant to not hold on to what
was but grow forward in what can be.
We just need to get back up and never stop believing
in finding the greater good in every moment we are given. Knowing if we cannot find it; then be our best
self to be it.
Sometimes we have to shake things up, move and find
that flicker and shine brighter from where we once were to where we need to be.
Thank you, Father God, for allowing whatever the
blessings are each day I am allowed back up.
Please be with all I am connected. May each and every soul and their own lines
know how beautiful and strong they are.
May the learn to focus on you and stay true working hard for the dreams they
are given. May they know they can do
anything with you God. May they know
that it is alright to realize we are each just a speck in this huge vast world;
yet all created in your image and worth more in you than the world will ever
acknowledge. May they come to know
they are loved more than any of us will ever understand. May they find the peace in abundance and
shine bright for others to see beauty, healing, and all that we can be, each
day we are given to get back up.
Protect and guide our children, our elders,
ourselves from our own iniquities. May
we never look down on others no matter who we are or what we have. Unless we are helping someone up.
May we always learn to breathe you in Jesus and
just exhale each step we are allowed.
Thank you for this day.
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