Tuesday, August 31, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)


Date: Tuesday - August 31, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse / Meditation Moments

Psalm 95:6-7 (NLV)   

Come, let us bow down in worship. Let us get down on our knees before the Lord Who made us. For He is our God. And we are the people of His field, and the sheep of His hand. If you hear His voice today,

Psalm 95:6-7  (MSG)   

6-7 So come, let us worship: bow before him,
    on your knees before God, who made us!
Oh yes, he’s our God,
    and we’re the people he pastures, the flock he feeds.

7-11 Drop everything and listen, listen as he speaks:
    “Don’t turn a deaf ear as in the Bitter Uprising,
As on the day of the Wilderness Test,
    when your ancestors turned and put me to the test.
For forty years they watched me at work among them,
    as over and over they tried my patience.
And I was provoked—oh, was I provoked!
    ‘Can’t they keep their minds on God for five minutes?
    Do they simply refuse to walk down my road?’
Exasperated, I exploded,
    ‘They’ll never get where they’re headed,
    never be able to sit down and rest.’

Psalm 95:6-7 (AMP)   

O come, let us worship and bow down,
Let us kneel before the Lord our Maker [in reverent praise and prayer].
For He is our God

And we are the people of His pasture and the sheep of His hand.
Today, if you will hear His voice,

 

 

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Do You Trust God Is Enough? | Steven Furtick

Jeremy Camp - Steady Me

Jireh (You Are Enough) - Justin Bieber & Chandler Moore

Paul Baloche - Offering

Tasha Layton // Look What You've Done

Ryan Stevenson - Speak Life

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Integral steadfast abundance knowing to whom we belong.    Not what we can do, not what we can acquire, not what we look like, dress like, talk that great game like.      Forever enough to be, to achieve, to overcome, to get back up, to shine, to lift others, to be.

From zero to ninety seconds in a flash looking back wondering what happened or what was that.    To never forgetting the journey, you traveled to here today and not worry about what is gone tomorrow.

Control is the illusion of good intentions gone bad when we lock on and think all there is; will be all we will ever have.

Wondering this morning what offering I have to give back for all I have been allowed to come to know in Christ Jesus.   Realizing how often we point out what we or others have done.

Robbing from healing or any potential for your heart to beat in perfect harmony with the blessing of enduring integral morality knowing we are okay even when everything around us is not okay.     Offering me is all I have to give.  Freedoms of choice, freedoms of will forever blessed to all.   So often we choose, and things do not turn out as our expectations planned out and we take a fall.  Falling into what we think was, should of, would of if only I could of.   All the while we mend from the consequential output and hopefully learn to grow up and be strong.

Yet so caught up in the world chasing paper, chasing wind, chasing blindly we miss the opportunity to give thanks or admit if we are ever wrong.

My problems, my issues, my remedies are mine and Gods alone; yet my prayers is when he sees fit, I no longer have to journey on my own.

My judgement my own worse critic yet too tired at points and turns to care.    Looking around knowing I am blessed beyond compare.     There is everything in nothingness, besides when balance is tilted it does not matter what you have to share, if the truth, the way, and Jesus is not in everyone you surround with your still left empty at times or filled with dismay.

 

Look what you have done

By your actions or lack of

By your acceptance or lack of

By your words or lack of

Are you speaking life even if just to you?

What feeds into or off of your mind, body, soul?

 

Where does you hope bubble up from?   Do you demand, expect, get angry when things don’t go as you plan and take it out all around you.   Do you dive in face down and give it all back to God and seek understanding and how or what next?

I wish I could say I myself turned to Jesus ever single time something works out or doesn’t.  In fact, I get on that hamster wheel most days either running for what can be next or running from as fast as I can trying to shake off all that I don’t understand or what hurts like crazy.  All those deep choices that realizing I was blindsided seeing what I wanted to see.   Not even that it gets too hard, the good Lord knows I fight to the end.    But when reality slaps us in the face it slaps hard.   Even then I try to not run to God for wants, needs, when I sometimes cannot even put him in my day even though I try I miss the mark even for thankfulness of allowing me one more moment to just breathe.

Crazy this white river rapid canoe ride of life.   Never will I deny truth when it shows up; praying I can be a whole lot more like the grace like Jesus.     And perhaps I am in ways; I always get accused of allowing my heart to be too big.     Wishing and wanting to just only see the best parts of all I am blessed to connect.   Yet, free falling when the dark rough edges sometimes cut so deep to everything they are and are doing; I find myself bleeding out.

God is, God was, God will forever be.      Thankfully so.   Maybe we are in the beginning of the end.  Maybe we ended and just have not see our beginning.    We are never alone.   One of the most profound abilities I learned was knowing that God is!    He is looking over my shoulder as I am typing, he is looking directly at me, he is watching me as I sleep, he is holding me tight because I would, I am in a billion pieces without Jesus.    He knows this about me, and you.

Even in these dark times that may be the beginning to an end of what was and perhaps our tomorrows end now; or go on a million more minutes plus.    

In all the mud, muck, ashes, and broken pieces prove the world who you are in Christ alone.   If you are blessed to rebuild in the freedom, he gives do it in his glory. Do it for him lighting the way with even basics.   What that looks like for anyone; I can only think being your best self in Christ diving into the Bible and all that allows us to grow in his will and not our own.   How to get there, everyone is different.     Find that song that triggers your heart in love, that speaker with a message so real for you it’s absolutely from above, those teachings and teachers, movies that leave you craving wanting more of all that is beautiful, all that fills you up, all that leaves you aware and loved from the inside out.    Not faultless, blameless or anything above.   But that pure peace soul depth harmony and love.     Where you want that to never end and want to share it with each day to begin straight through to the end.

I will never be enough for the world; although there will be many that find it easy to play out the game trying to take what I have got and not once work for themselves or understand what happens to people who play in Satan’s sandbox and what will happen if they do not stop.  Unfortunately, our choices are a domino effect.    Cursing the generations to come until someone takes a stand to change the path of what was to what is truth and in the end best.

I don’t expect anyone to understand even half anything I write as this maze overflows at times.   I just know I am blessed another day by the great divine and with this wondering about integrity, steadfast what next for me.   Wondering what I can truly do or be that would quantify the gratitude for all the Lord himself has done for me.  

The closest thing that will ever be is never stop believing in Jesus for all the things he has been, has done and even those I will never see.

For this alone knowing where I come from, knowing where I have been, knowing how blessed even in the brokenness to be allowed to continue life and get up over and over again.    

Lord thank you for this day, for this need of you no matter what else ever comes.    Fill all I am connected with your peace, undeserving mercy, and grace.   Heal us Lord showing us where to put all the pieces that are so out of place.


I will never understand but that is not part of your plan for me to do so.   Hear my heart, as you have my soul.     I am right here waiting anticipating your lead for what next and where to go.


Monday, August 30, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)


Date: Monday - August 30, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Ephesians 2:19 (NLV)   

19 From now on you are not strangers and people who are not citizens. You are citizens together with those who belong to God. You belong in God’s family.

Ephesians 2:19 (MSG)   

19-22 That’s plain enough, isn’t it? You’re no longer wandering exiles. This kingdom of faith is now your home country. You’re no longer strangers or outsiders. You belong here, with as much right to the name Christian as anyone. God is building a home. He’s using us all—irrespective of how we got here—in what he is building. He used the apostles and prophets for the foundation. Now he’s using you, fitting you in brick by brick, stone by stone, with Christ Jesus as the cornerstone that holds all the parts together. We see it taking shape day after day—a holy temple built by God, all of us built into it, a temple in which God is quite at home.

Ephesians 2:19 (AMP)   

19 So then you are no longer strangers and aliens [outsiders without rights of citizenship], but you are fellow citizens with the saints (God’s people), and are [members] of God’s household,

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Lecrae ft. Taylor Hill - Cry For You

Kenny G - Alone

Mandy Moore, Zachary Levi - I See the Light (From "Tangled"/Sing-Along)

Willie Nelson - Just Breathe

Steven Curtis Chapman - Dive (feat. Ricky Skaggs)

Matt Redman - Gracefully Broken (Lyric Video) ft. Tasha Cobbs Leonard

Natalie Grant - Held

Rolling in the Deep ~ ADELE

Lecrae - I'll Find You  ft. Tori Kelly

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Great message this weekend from our guest speaker from Jericho Road Ministries https://youtu.be/XB4e8FXgKv0 Andrew Chamberlin @New Life Christian Church Spring Hill

 

There is no secrets when it comes to being engaged, I thrive and one of the best things that feed my spirit is the ability to learn new things and assist and help others get tapped in.    Blessed each day I am allowed back up far from perfect today like no other day I ask God and all the powers that be to guard my mouth and let nothing negative come out.

 

 I am sometimes quick to speak and sometimes because I run nonstop my weariness response with words is not always contributing positive.   I am very transparent and say what I mean and mean what I say but still each day I am allowed to get back up I am learning.  Sometimes it just best to speak to God directly from the heart and not let anything come out loud.

Seeking God to guard this heart, as I see so much good in so many beings that even reflect nothing but ugly bad behaviors.    And frustration that washes through when you are torn to kick them as far out of sight out of mind or just stay at arm’s length because maybe they are in need even if you will not be the one to fix them.    You just keep pounding the seeds in hoping one day the drought will stop and they will grow into all they were created to be.

What is that see  no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil.   Those three monkey’s cutest things ever.   But in life so true. 

Everything we see, everything we hear, everything we speak.    Gives and takes away and sometime that one syllable is the answer to life or death.

 

When children speak and sometimes cry before even becoming teens and saying they do not want to be in this world.  Or even be a kid any longer it is just too hard.   Well, my first reaction is smiling knowing just how brutal this world is and knowing they have not seen anything yet.   However, then my heart hurts for them to think we have robbed the future from all the generations to come.     It does not matter what you have materially, it does not matter where you think you come from or where you are going.   It is the life you carry in the depths of your soul and all that you want and need and do to keep growing forward.

Yet we are surrounded by so much devastation and hear so much corrupt foul day to day.   Our children have no hope.    We are more worried about making sure the are dressed neat and tidy and not allowing them to be kids.  We are so worried about what we need to have, or do we forget to engage with them for more than five minutes when or if it is convenient.

 

I know I worked my tale off raising my kids.  They lacked for nothing but parents and one on one more than a few times a month.  And I get it that in order to make in this world someone has to sacrifice and take on and be the worker, giver, and adult.   That was me, playing mom and dad and working 2-3 jobs putting myself through college.     Trying the marriage thing and it is working for a little while.    And having great family trips and memories to last a lifetime.   But when we stop working with each other or everything is one sided.   Or you step out and say I need some help here I would like to… or I need… and your partner quits you because they were along for the ride and not part of the drive.      Well, it is what it is.

 

Never stop trying to grow forward and never stop looking up even if through the tears and pains of what did not work.      When that little even if they are 30 opens up and releases what they are feeling.    Just be there, just hug them, just encourage them.    It is the only string that might hold them through the day and allow them to have a better tomorrow.

 

So how do I keep trying to grow.   Help where I can; be it helping others outside with yard work that I am too damn old to keep doing or filling in pushing buttons or even facilitate small groups and just collaboratively deal with life and do our best with what we are given.

Thankful on days like today where you can barely move because you lifted way too much too heavy in the exhausting heat.  

But fully aware the alternative is you are not  allowed to get back up at all.

Prayerfully with every being particle I am knitted together with we are going to see the eternal light of heaven.    Knowing even the smallest glimpse and peace here on earth that allows us to just breathe makes so much of a difference.    To be granted the blessing of going to the big house where no more sorrow, no more pain, all the music and dancing and love and laughter for eternity.     Meeting Jesus face to face and him really saying well done daughter of mine.   Is worth every bit of what others may think I give up by staying obedient and never stop wanting to believe.

 

Even in-between all of the fails, all of the good and purposed day to day or the hidden tears for everything that is so wrong in today’s world.      Never stop fighting forward for life of your own and when given the chance to plant seeds and help others or just hug on those who really need it.    Never stop.

Yeah, so hard right now with this pandemic and all the brokenness and reality of wars and death and darkness swallowing up more and more.     But if you are still with legs to stand, a voice to speak, ears to listen, a brain to learn, talent to share.  Love to give.    Just do it!!!

You in control of what drives you.    Everything is temporal, make it count. Do not grasp on to what will be washed away in the blink of a windstorm or flood coming.   And those floods they do not have to be of rivers, lakes, or oceans.     We are flooded every day by our actions and the tsunami waves of out come every day we get up and do something.

 

So, what if you get a little dirty along the way.    Do not think you are exempt from impacts of whatever happens around you.  Today you may be able to boast and brag about not sure what car you will drive or what flashy item you will put out there.    Prayerfully you will take all that blessing and share it with those in need.  And the world is overflowing with need right now.

We/I can search the world for answers, protection, love, guidance; but truly the only peace and truth that allows me to just breathe is diving into Jesus.  

Gracefully broken, well I have never been really graceful in fact its like if I don’t just get it I won’t have a chance so I fly through day to day sometimes like a steam roller and most days it works well and I reap the productive blessings.  Others I am just left with all those broken pieces be it mine or yours all over the place and just wishing I could really feel being held tightly like nothing in the world matters and never will I ever worry about anything again.

Then I remember maybe this is what it means to be held.   Gracefully broken with still a flicker and spark to want something better no matter how bad it leaves you empty and in hurting.

All that I am belongs to you Jesus and no matter who I want to yell out or what I want to just take over and get it done, or what pieces I need mended to still be strong enough for those needing me to stay strong.     Jesus here I am!   

All that is covered under the umbrella of being your child Lord protect and guide all we are.   Heal this land, teach every soul how to know you are here.     I need you in all that I will ever be.    All I will ever connect.

When we run may we run with and to you Father God.   Stop the madness, stop the evil, stop the inhumane.    Heal us Lord.    Show us how to love the unlovable and shine so bright that we plant seeds of change for the better.    Light us up Lord.

Prayers Lord for those living in the streets doing street life and not wanting to change and bring new lives into the world.

Prayers for the uneasy new relationships into family bless them through the angst.

Prayers for the lives trying to hold in flood waters.

Prayers for the innocence and babies not wanting to keep going

Prayers for those impacted by illness or life and they never did anything to deserve it.

Prayers for reconciliations and unity

Prayers for all those who are burying the mothers, the fathers, the brothers, sisters, sons and daughters’ aunts or uncles.   All those who put their lives on the line for what we will never understand.

May we fight with you Lord just a little longer for the greater good and shine bright.

Prayers for all those things we cannot openly talk about.

Prayers for all the unrest in this damaged political spin and world with all our leaders forgetting what truth and real power for the greater good would look like.

Prayers ever soul finds your word and dives in and just never stops until they find you Lord.

 

No matter what it sounds like, looks like, wants to be like.  May everything, we are reflect you Jesus.   Love without boundaries, unconditional, God fearing, growing forward in everything we do Agape love inside out and outside in.  

 

 

Saturday, August 28, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Saturday - August 28, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

John 6:29 (NLV)  

29 Jesus said to them, “This is the work of God, that you put your trust in the One He has sent.”

John 6:29 (MSG) 

29 Jesus said, “Sign on with the One that God has sent. That kind of a commitment gets you in on God’s works.”

John 6:29 (AMP) 

29 Jesus answered, “This is the work of God: that you believe [adhere to, trust in, rely on, and have faith] in the One whom He has sent.”

 

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

The Chainsmokers - Hope (Lyrics) ft. Winona Oak

The Chainsmokers & Coldplay - Something Just Like This

John Mayer - Wild Blue

TobyMac - Heart Of My Beat

Mallary Hope - Now

Elevation Worship, Tauren Wells - Echo

TobyMac - Til The Day I Die (Live From Hits Deep 2020, Denver, CO)

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

My Saturday waking up with the Tyson beast took over the entire bed, climbing out the other side to get a bottle of water and stepping in the darkness and a loud squeak echo throughout the house. Half asleep I jump back on the bed trying to be quiet, so the animals don’t come in to acknowledge I am up which then wakes the kids.

I make it to the garage refrigerator grab a bottle of ice-cold water, feeling so dehydrated from the little sleep I caught while fighting a 120plus lap dog that if my door is not latched sneaks in the night and takes the bed.    Funny not funny, knowing 2 weeks ago I had to get up and take the sofa being two dogs, two cats and a kid took over.

Finding my way back in trying to lay back down as it still dark and looking at the clock just barely  5am on a Saturday.      Way to early and no lights being outside leaves me time before I go out and start cleaning my side of the neighbor’s white vinyl fencing.   Long overdue but I am not planting anything up on that fence line and it is in desperate need of getting the barnacle looking things off it.  Spending the past several weekends running doing life with others that hold my heart strings and helping them either relocate or ready to move away.   It’s time I deal with my own.     Its slowly coming together, I need to start figuring out something for this back yard on a slight slope that this wonderful southern ground filled with sand and lime rock where I am located with all the rain earlier this year that came washed away what grass was there.   Now just patches in-between bare spots once the winter dry months come will drive me crazy.

Not enough time in the day just to work on turning my domain into a beautiful garden and don’t know any gardeners that wouldn’t want money for their time.

Not everyone gives themselves away in friendship. 

Anyway

This place has come a long way since I first come in seven years ago.   Starting to look good little pieces at a time just trying to protect the blessing of shelter I have been given.    In a month or so I will start painting the inside again.   For now, just keeping it clean and not falling apart with the one’s that live here are like a bunch of bulls in a China closet constantly leaving something to be fixed.

Reminded in the morning ODB.Com

The devotional makes it seem like all this is trivial me and my yard stuff; but taking care of or being the best stewards, we can with what we are given to work with matters.  In the end does it really matter.    Yes, how we manage ourselves and what we are given, and how we treat others matters.    Yes, would I like for Jesus to come back now and make it right, beautiful and stop all the suffering and wars, and hate, and darkness from all the lies and abuse we here and now take part in some way shape or form.    Righting every wrong, healing ever need and dancing in the streets for all who believe in him.      Knowing God is the beginning, and the end and Jesus is waiting to meet every one of us until we too go to that big house.  

Revelation 22: 12 (AMP)  Amplified Bible   Footnotes

a.     Revelation 22:12 I.e. the final judgment for the believer will occur when he stands before Christ to have his fidelity and service judged, and the appropriate reward determined.

b.     Revelation 22:12 Lit as his work is.

But yes, there goes that mind maze again.   As I am sipping on coffee made wide awake stepping on that noisy toy that if you look around my house the little girl now a little over a year who rules the house of late with the other fur kids has toys everywhere.    I generally find myself walking around just like when my kids were little, and at night picking up all the toys and putting them back in the toybox.     Last night was a lazy night.   Just tired from the week found me watching a very suspenseful miniseries Click-bait.    And then some kid movies snuggling with my sidekick for a little bit.

Feeling a little down as everything is changing again around me and where I use to serve, the smallest blessings that use to feed my spirit same but so different with things that weigh on me from time to time.

Looking around and seeing so many good souls stepping up and trying to do the jobs that were put on their hearts.   Fighting fires, search, and rescue, first responders, serving and protecting and laying down their lives for the so many more in humanity out there not caring, and some downright evil or stuck in that grey area and just stirring the pot causing so much drama and sorrow that is pulling this world apart.

Thirty years ago, I would find myself just going away for a weekend and spending at least a day burning up brain cells not thinking sitting on a beach or  somewhere drinking frozen drinks until I didn’t feel.    Even ten years ago getting on a cruise ship and just being absorbed by Gods great wide open.   Here these days everything is changed, where I just don’t find myself in the middle of a packed house feeling the music of any of my favorite creative artists.

So, as I listened to The Great Ending about Revelation 22:12 and the need for Jesus to come.   I have said this so often these past couple years where life and the roller coasters we ride that we get on and have control even if control is an illusion.   Well, is so much different when the unknown is closing in.

Danger has always been unseen until its too late.   Be it talking to those strangers, going where you should not, consumption of too much, or just the wrong things will leave you in places many cannot get out of.

 

I just need hope to surround this universe, to see more light than darkness, to hear more harmony than abrasive loud squelching or that static that leaves us living in delusional states of mind.

Go big or go home but know what the end result of what you think is big because sometimes it just robs you from ever finding home again.

 

Never looking for that fairy tale bliss caught up so often looking back realizing how true so much was a lie.  All I have is hope now, and those endless days where the tunes allow the beat of my heart in Christ Jesus to play out and feel that rush of almost and so real you can taste it but know what will be is what you see and what God says it is what it is and you are my forever so let it be.   Foolish games, endless dreams, live out those fantasy or dreams and know when it is real, it will show up and eternity will be.

Never knowing what tomorrow will be, just knowing life is what we allow it to be.   My peace, my harmony is all but lost.  For Jesus is my savior and Christ my King.     I did walk forward years ago; although this is not the visions my eyes once focused to see.    I am right where I am supposed to be.    

Sometimes burdened by what surrounds me, as I find my way in trying to maintain and manage the beauty within the real me.

Do I wish, do I want, do I dream?  Absolutely  I always have always will.   When its time we will all see.   Until then prayers, blessings, and any energy he allows me to get back up and keep growing forward wherever I can in every second I am given till the day I die.  Forever my Sweet Soul King; Love beyond all time and space.    Hands lifted high or face down.   You called me through the fire and here I am broken pieces superglued back together in your salvation, mercy, and grace.    Found in the depths of this soul. No matter what I allow given way forever is nothing compared to your eternal abundance consuming like walking through bombs just set off full of pain from the pepper sprayed realities stinging like mace.

 

Thank you for this day, but as this coffee is now empty, let me get it and enjoy some outside humidity, sun, and space.    

Lord never let the music stop playing the beats and life rhythms that make this spirit dance.   Every tune, rip, or chord with a message of life to dance to.    

Be with all who need the music Father, lead the way, and shine bright for me, for all I am connected.   You know all things all needs!

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